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- čas přidán 28. 09. 2019
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Praying for you Clayton. Don’t give up
always praying for you, thankyou for everything you do but take care of yourself x
You inspire me to tell my story and that's actually what I'm working on rn. I'm making a video of my story for my channel. If you would check it out when I upload it, it would mean allot. Thank you.
Keep it up brother
Keep going Clayton. I fight paranoia and depression lately myself. I fight back with prayer and praise. You’ve got a lot left to offer God and you use it so well. Love, prayers, and respect. Keep fighting....
“Been so close to death I got a wiff of its smell”. That really hit me .. 😕💔
same here i have been a the breaking point to where that happened to where it's like he read what i wanted to say
My brother hung his self from depression and anxiety and heart break everyday I cry I loved him so much and my mom just died from cancer. In all alone and my life is hell and then my dad got shot by a drive by I was with him I dissent get shot but when he fell I putt his head in my hands and he died right there ples help I already ran from two fosters homes I'm only 13 . I can't live this life no more ples help😭
damn man i feel so sorry for you , i thiught my life was hard but yours seems just as bad
Mandy Harrelson damn bro u had it hard 💔
They say suicide isn't the way to go but when there is no other way what do you do
I hope you doing oke, but if you want to talk about anything anything at all let me know.
I'm here if you need someone that really listens.
You need to go back I hate to say it but things are going to be ruff. You need to talk to someone let us know. But you need a hobby to pass the time and to try and get along with others. Foster homes in general brings a lot of people together from a wide range of like between loss, surrendered, and the likes it's not easy. In your foster home just talk to others in general they likely come from the same shit that your going through to. Best for luck
"Like I'm doing CPR on myself". Honestly, no absolute words, like wow...
2:28 "I'm loud in my poetry, but live alone in a shell." Favorite line of that entire piece. So powerful
Clayton, this is beautiful. I know a lot of people that can relate to this and I know I needed this, so thank you
Bella Barriga yes I relate to thos
This
I can relate to this 110%
I needed this found the song and you Clayton tonight…..I’m mentally drained …..I’m definitely not loving myself anymore and that’s bad
@@k4nd136 I hope you're doing better and still listening to Clayton... head high and peace to you.
"I'm tired of working for something that I can't earn" that's when the journey of endurance begins,when you push still regardless
Mabel Ndlovu what if that thing you can’t earn is someone’s love.
Hi, God loves even though we can't earn it. And that's grace and love not meant to condemn; God wants us to have his love, that's why he gave his life. If it's Some one else, then try surrendering it. Because it feels hopeless working for something you can't receive even if you did or didn't earn it. :) ❤️
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You have just said everything I've never been able to. 😭😭. This is my life!😭😭
We love you Clayton stay strong 😔❤
Amen
Amen ❤️
“ What’s the point of living, when life is a living hell? “ I keep asking myself the same. But I keep reminding myself that “ His Grace is sufficient “ like it was for Paul. And I would suggest you the same.
True 😔
Yep!
Clayton you have helped me with all of my demons through your music thank you
Korbster World it’s not music it’s poetry big difference
@@alyssah.3161 Clayton himself uses the word music to describe his music. He puts poetry into music. So no need there to correct someone.
DON'T ACT LIKE YOU KNOW ME IF YOU'VE NEVER WALKED IN MY SHOES/
- Clayton Jennings
This song is chilling....
And even more so, cause I know. I’ve lived it.
Thank you
When you are going through something and then realize that all the pain and the sorrows the hurt come to life and you don't know anymore of who you are
Thank you Clayton.
"Dear anxiety" helped me and "Please don't kill yourself saved me😭😭Facts!!❣
You have helped me with all my demons, your spoken words have hit so deep in my heart. I love you Clayton and thank you for your help.
I'm not a christian. i'm a Norse pagan and a vet of the us army. i know there are people on here that will probable say things about me and i honestly don't care. i just want to say your songs helped me iv seen and done so many things and id like to talk to you more. iv seen horrible things when i was over seas. but the most horrible things iv seen done was when i was home and to all the people reading this thank you
This is exactly how I’m feeling right now.
:/
ur not alone. i'm there too.
Aw honey. Give me a hug 😘
I've been where you are. I went through depression. If you want to talk, im here sweetie😊
Madison Claire me too.
U are always there for us
I listen to these spoken word poems every day just hoping that I'll stop thinking about killing myself, you've helped me a lot even though you don't know me you still have helped me, and I thank you for that, you're the reason I'm still here
I listened to all your songs even when I cannot sleep I listen to them into I fall asleep 😪👼🏼🚶🏼♂️
I've done the same thing. Nights I was withdrawing from pain meds and wanting to kill myself I would listen to almost every video I could find of his. Clayton has an ability to somehow comfort us just by knowing we are not alone.
@@michelle.shackelford4520 That's the power of Jesus Christ, who is flowing through Clayton even though it seems like he doesn't realize it.
@@pubdasniper Amen amen amen amen!!!!
The point of living is the lives you keep on changing everyday. Clayton you are a blessing to this generation. You are a blessing to me.
You have always been a mentor to me i share your stories in my local church and i know well its God work.. Thank you keep preaching jesus
I just discovered you. I don't know who you are. But brother. I feel you 100. You ARE incredible. YOUR poetry touches every ounce of HUMANE human heart. Not all are humane anymore unfortunately. I don't know but this is on replay... Over and over and over and over... And thank you for speaking for me when I am not able to speak these things to relieve. God bless you brother. God bless you and your loved ones. And your life. The pain is deep and its real and you created something out of it. God's gotchu. I feel the same way... God bless you. Love you broski. I don't who you are, but thank you
I love all of what you do, I’m in a shit place rn and this makes things better. Thank you
Clayton I relate to this so much everyday is a fight for me and listening to you makes me feel better thank you
Jodie's Journey 🙏 we in this together u not alone bro
Jodie's Journey were in this together
I’m glad I stayed by your side for the last year. I found you September last year and goddd am I thankful... you’re gods greatest messenger. I don’t think I can ever really comprehend just how many lives you’ve saved. Thank you Clayton🖤 I know you see these messages everyday but THANK you. God bless you.
Can we just give the man the peace he seeks? Like c'mon guys, he says himself that our praise makes him insecure, and i know from experience that praise sometimes makes it worse. I'm not claiming to understand you Clayton and I'm not gonna sit here and talk about how I relate. Like "wow that's so me" or "that verse hit me deep"
But you asked for peace so I'm gonna give it to you, i'm not gonna judge you as a good man or bad, I'm just gonna listen to what you have to say. Cause nobody needs validation from a CZcams comments section, your value is independent of who's lives you impact. You're valuable because you're here, and you have something to say. So since you're here and you have something to say, I'm just gonna listen without telling you that you have to be okay.
I think we all owe it to Clayton to be listeners and not "fans" who grapple for his attention. Just listen to what he has to say, you don't have to say anything to him, you just have to listen.
Clayton is a beautiful poet. His lyrics hit me in a different way. Every word he's spoken feels like he's talking to me.
God is using you to minister to all of us! Your life has a ton of meaning! I listen to your content all the time! The devil your right wants you to not feel important to the world!! GOD uses the broken to minister to the masses!! Keep looking up because that's where it all is!!
I love you !!!
That one disliker couldn't see what he/she did bexause of tears in their eyes...
Early tho...
Love you stay strong; I'll pray for you! ♡♡♡
I relate to this so much. I listen to you're stuff and it helps me fight my demons.
I’ve been close to taking my own life because of depression listing to this and your don’t kill your self really hits home you tell the truth and don’t sugar coat it. And when you said “ you don’t know me if you not walked in my shoes” there is so much truth in that I’m a U.S. Army Vet and have seen and did stuff that lost people haven’t but they sit and judge, but I was taught that there is only one judge in life and that’s God. Thank you for what you say it’s the truth
I can relate when he said "please don't kill yourself saved me" because it did! i may have never met you but you have already helped so much in my life. I'm praying for you brother, I can only begin to imagine the pain and walking in your shoes. There's a lot of us in your corner keep fighting were here like you were there for us! Much love and Many Prayers!
Like you said, I can’t understand exactly what you feel. But I’m also fighting anxiety and depression every day. Confused with what God wants from me. Fighting the darkest thoughts.
I see God using you to help so many. I hope you can see that too. Thank you for your raw honesty. ❤️🙏
Brother you hit it again. I feel you right now this is so true you couldn’t of said it any better. Life seems to be getting harder day by day. You have helped me through a lot and pray that god will touch you with his peace. Love ya brother keep your head up.
Thank you for your words. I pray that you stay strong and never give up. Don't let the devil win. I pray God wraps you up and holds you close.
I point people to Heaven but you condemn them to Hell, wow! That line got me brother Clayton. Keep leading People to Christ, keep reaching out to the lost and the depressed, broken and hopeless with your message of Hope. God bless you for every little thing you've done for the Kingdom. Remember the glory which lies ahead is much greater and better than what is here. Keep running the race of life and it can never be over as long as God is in control. Hang on there. You are loved.
Omg! I was waiting for this new vid! All lot will ask you for help but I'm just going to tell you that I'm praying for you and I hope you have some relief soon.
Already loving it and I know this is going to bring me to tears again because I feel it deep down to my soul
Edit: 😞Yep the tears are here, this hits me so hard 😰 So many words that hit me to the core because this is how I feel. This is what I think, I feel this so deeply 😭
You are never alone. Prayers for you. For wherever you may be now, Jesus is there with you.
I have always dealt with low self esteem, anxiety, PTSD and depression...for as far back as I can remember. I was a foster child, placed in homes that were nightmares. I thought I won the battle of it all, until recently. My life has been a constant struggle this last year and I'm overwhelmed and not sure where I belong or do I belong. I just told my friend today, does God even know I'm here? Maybe I'm not worthy enough for him to listen to me. I sat down tonight and this came across my CZcams feed. EVERY word you spoke, spoke to me. I so enjoy your words. I don't feel so alone. Thank you!!!!!
Clayton you are saying everything that I have wanted to and just so afraid to. I live this for so long that I'm tired of this hell that I have been living.
Mr. Clayton Jennings. Sir I just wanted to say that I hope that the Lord continues to bless you with the gift that he has given you in reaching out to others with the knowledge and wisdom you speak. That's man honestly. From the bottom of my heart. Thank you.
I saw "We all struggle" in rehab. I've never heard you before, (understand I'm 64.) I got out today and checked you out & I'm blown away. It's like you who I am. Thank you for your powerful words about Jesus.....
The only youtube chanell i click as soon as it gets uploaded is clayton
He is amazing he does real for everyone
love you clayton keep jesus known
Clayton, I feel your pain through every word, I have lived in chronic pain for over twenty-five years and often find myself crying out to God, "Where are you?" I know He is still right beside me and will never leave me to bear this alone, so, I fight on. The race isn't easy but I refuse to stop running, understanding, this fight is mine but the battle belongs to God. I FIGHT ON!
I love clayton Jennings when I am sad I listen to you and sometime you make me happy thank you so muck I am a big fan.
Even off you don't feel strong, your words are. Don't give up... someone needs to hear these words. Thank you.
Clayton you’re not alone. Know God smiles on you honey. You do so much good. You have no idea how many you have saved. Praise God for you and your words, and for not being afraid to speak the most important words ever written. Love you. God bless you.
Man, you are going to come out of this so strong, an immovable force with God inside you and an insanely moving testimony. Hang in there, I’m praying for you.
This was my reality 9 months ago. I couldn't think straight, all I could hear and see was static. One night I was just tired, so exhausted of wanting to die everyday and my wishes not being fulfilled, that I screamed out GOD I CANT TAKE THIS PAIN ANYMORE TAKE IT AWAY OR I WILL. the first time I mentioned the name of Jesus in months, that night changed my life. I'm a worship leader now, I work in children's ministry, and I'm aspiring to become a pastor. Every time I listen to one of your messages I think, I wish I had this 9 months ago, this would've saved me from so much physical and emotional pain. Thank you, for being an inspiration to me, and for being the voice to others who are me 9 months ago, the person who wanted nothing more than for someone to "step inside my brain for 5 seconds and tell me what to do, tell me what to feel, tell me how to react. I can't do it anymore, my brain won't let me".
I have depression like anxiety that makes me feel like I'm useless, helpless, hopeless and paranoid.
I know you hear this often, as I am one who suffers from it too. IT WILL GET BETTER! Please remain hopeful 💙
@@AA-xh3yi I'll try
Zyanya Gonzalez you will get through it. I promise you! Whatever situation you might be going through is only temporary
It does get worse before it gets better just keep your head up and fight them demons and push on because there is a better side and it will come to you.
I have felt that before. But I pray everyday .
Love all you do! Can relate so much!! ❤️❤️
This is the truth that I live everyday. It's a life long struggle. Thank you for sharing the message for all of us that don't belong.
Keep your head up and stay strong.
Wow!! This is awesome! God bless you!
It's the depression talking when I feel crazy and it's more often then that lately
this is so incredible. super sad to think others feel the exact same pain i do- i would never wish this level of pain on anyone. God bless all of you. for real.
Wow you just explained my entire life from 9yrs old till now 36years old,fighting demons everyday ❤️I feel you brother & I don’t feel a lot ,numb from the pills 💊 stay strong 💪 you’re purpose is to save people and to have that power WOW you can get through this....”and this too shall pass”🥰lots of love ❤️
This is my life every day
This put me to tears.
1:39 that was deep that speaks my whole life in a few words man if I could explain it
This deep poetry hits home, sometimes I would of already gave up if it wasn't for God. Since he loves us so much, the devil knows that it's spiritual and wants you to give up to burn with him. That's the only reason I still walk today. God bless all God's children fighting this unseen war!
Clayton please don't ever leave us.. I know its hard I totally understand what your going through every night for hours I cry until I fall asleep I've taken my life so many times yet I'm still here I feel as if im being forced to live a life that I don't even want and I can tell you feel the same... Your music reaches so many of us... And its truly great... You don't know me but if you ever need someone to just listen not say anything at all to just listen I will be here for you
Love you so much Clayton 💝
I long to see the day that God will deliver you. I really don’t understand why he keeps
you in that hell.
10:5 Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ;
This verse really helped me understand the expectation of God in regards to my thought life. I need to take EVERY thought into captivity to make sure it is obedient to Christ. Hopefully that will help you.
Clayton, I was just released from the hospital yesterday. I live with an autoimmune in my brain - Cerebral Lupus. I have been fighting for my life. I look healthy, so everyone questions me, am I really sick, I can read their minds? Family members don't invite me away, friends stay clear all because it's too much for them to handle. It has broken me! I have yearned for Heaven more than anything else, suicide has never been an option, until now! My best friend admitted me and they found a chemical imbalance. However, your words, your life, your truth and your wild and raw self have helped me more times than you will ever know. ROCK ON brother! You inspire the world to 'WAKE UP' and you inspire those of us who don't know what to do with these feelings. THANK you! You are one of HIS ANGELS, BIG wings! Grateful always.... keep going, keep strong, keep being real and keep telling us what you are feeling....
Thanks for this... Got some stuff that I’m going through and I’m glad I’m not alone man.
Cold chills from my toes to my receading hair line!
So many of us can relate!! It helps us realize we are not alone and I hope you know that your not alone. We get it!! 💜
Thank you Clayton, this is your purpose to help others through their struggles. Those who cannot appreciate that you have your own fight while trying to encourage others - are blind to the strength that is inside of you. I hope there is a faithful someone you can turn to during times of need to pray with you.
Dear Clayton I can relate to every word u say I wanna tell u that if it wasnt for u I really don't think I would be here your words touch my soul deep down in my spirit i also relate to poetry n most of your songs put tears in my eyes I've never experienced anything quite like it I truly mean it when I say thanks n I have the utmost respect for the courage n strength u show I admire u brother n u are a hero to so many of us that are lost n don't know where to go from here thanks again brother in Christ luv ya
I'm a simple man, I see a Clayton Jennings video I press play.
Stay strong bro. You're touching lives and giving that strength to others. That alone makes you a star. You rock.
clayton thank you god has given you the ability to be real and speak your truth and threw your truth you save people man i watch alot of your videos and relate so much and feel like you have walked 100 miles in my shoes when im in my bad places you really help me remeber that god has a an for allnof us no matter how our minds work
Found out about Clayton today and I gotta say his lyrics are soothing then anything I’ve heared from anyone else
I came to the US in bright hopes but when I got here, i got sick and everything is downhill from there, now i am having anxieties from uncertainties whether i might be sent back to my country or not, being couped up and isolated in my apartment for long time, poetry has helped me so much. Thank you for this video! Its message hits deep.
Speak life Clayton... God created all things through His Word... Speak Life, Speak The Word, Speak Jesus! Love you man. Been there... I’m a lot better now.
I don’t know what I would do without your poetry thank you
Clayton, ur spoken words help me sooooo much, and I love u, why is it that those who are depressed are the most caring and loving ❤ one night I was about to end it then I found ur spoken word on suicide and it helped me alot, I listen to it very often, and worste part is, I'm only 13 and hating life, but u helping me alot ❤❤❤❤❤❤
I’m praying for you brother, you are awesome. And God has a plan for your life, he loves you and he has so much in store for you!
Clayton!!! I almost gave up.. God saved me through your words... God bless u. I'm only human.... So are u. Thanks...
Beautiful man. Continue being real with everyone.
This actually made me cry, I heard this and it got to me, how do u sing so deep, your amazing Clayton you keep all of your fans going me too I love you so much
You keep me going as well . Thank you .
What a talented young man. We are all in this together. You say what most of us are too afraid to say.. God bless you over and over again my brother. May our good and loving God keep you forever!
You genuinely give me hope so for that thank you
The depths of my heart felt this. We are stronger then we feel at times and this is our reality but we will keep pushing with Christ
i had to go home from school last Friday because i had an anxiety attack and my mom yelled at me when she had to pick me up and my dad told me to suck it up and deal with it and later that day my mom yelled at me that i ruined her day and now i dont know what to do anymore the next time i have one at school
Zander, I'm praying for you! Just call on the name of Jesus. The bible says whoever calls on the name of the Lord will be saved! Go boldly before God reminding him of his promise. He is faithful to his word, even when we are faithless, he remains faithful! He loves you so much; just call on his name. Meditate on God's word. Look at 2 Timothy 2:13 and remind yourself of that word. And if you can't get yourself to Pray anything, I know from experience, just say the name Jesus. The bible says the name of the lord is a fortified tower, the righteous run to it and are saved! Just call on his name!
U videos help me a lot. Thanks clayton
I got the notification for this video as my parents were fighting and I literally said that I couldn’t take anymore and my phone vibrated as I got the notification for this. Clayton I appreciate all that you’ve done for me thus far and I know I’m just someone on the side and you’ll probably never read this but I’m here for you like you are for all of us. You help us and sometimes you might need help as well so I as well as many others are here for you❤️
💖 so powerful. May God continue to use you and strengthen you. May Jehovah Rapha heal our minds and the Holy Spirit fill us up daily. In Jesus' name, amen.
Praying for peace and understanding for you Clayton. I can't even imagine what you are going through. All I know is God loves you and we do too! Take care of yourself and your family. They need you more than we do. People are just plain ignorant haters. You deserve to be happy and not feel like you are in hell. God will see you through this mess. Stay strong and have faith. I am praying diligently for you my friend. God bless.
❤🎯🙏 so true they don't know unless they walk in your shoes and they are nobody to judge only one person can do that and not a one has that higher power god is good keep preaching your awesome 🙌
I had an anxiety attack one day but I told myself don’t stop keep going bc God made you for a reason 🙏🌎❤️
I’LL BE PRAYING FOR YOU CLAYTON & REBUKING EVERY DEMON THAT TRIES TO COME UP AGAINST YOU 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽 THE DEVIL CAN’T HAVE YOU, YOU’RE KINGDOM !!!!😇😇
I struggled since I was a child with depression and anxiety. I sit here now, 32, and my father lost his battle with depression on 12/02/2021. I needed him. My health has taken a toll since losing him. I feel lost, like all I have done to keep me afloat up till his death was for nothing. I am back to square one. Lost. Empty. Searching. I needed him still, I wonder if he knew that. I hope he knew he was loved. I pray he knew we were on our way. I didn’t want him to die alone. He was never alone!!
Clayton thank you i feel like giving up but i love Jesus hang in there you have saved me several times thank you.
I am thankful for your brutal honesty!
I've lived that too!
God is amazing!
Blessings to you!