When will someone notice I'm not fine, I'm not okay, I'm not good, I'm a mess. I'm hurting, and I want to hurt myself. I want to kill myself. Hell, when will _I_ notice I'm not fine?
*Intro plays* = Like button. *Chorus plays* = Cries. *Second verse plays* = Rethinking life for the umpteenth time today. *Climax of song* = Everything is messed up . . . Too relatable, it's scary.
Words have power. The damage words can cause could be compared to someone throwing a brick right at another person's face. You do not know me nor do I know you. So I will be praying for you.
I work in a nursing home and one of my residents asked me to sing about my past so I chose this song, afterwards she told me she could relate, and started to sing it with me as i walked her back to her room, i sat next to her all night just talking, sharing laughs, and singing many more songs all through the night before she passed. Forever thinking about her with this song now.
i didn't eat anything for 3 days straight and I lost quite a bit of weight and it scared me so much I ate double the amount I usually do for the next three days
hunter gee. That's not what she is saying at all. She is saying that most of the comments are saying how they can relate and that makes someone realize how many sad people there are out their.
Tracy Zidon Yes. Because the majority of us 'brag' about our so called, made up depression/anxiety on the internet. To what? Seek attention? I don't think so.
I’ve had depression for five years but you’d never know because I always put your feelings and happiness above mine. Always. But it’s alright, even if I’m not♥️
I hope you know somebody cares about you. And if nobody you obviously know, then me. Because for some reason, I have to make it known to those who need it most that I care. Because I am the same way you are. I may not be okay, but my situation should not reflect on others. So, I care :)
Teacher: are you okay? Me: yeah I'm fine Teacher: no you're not. You know I'm always here for you, right? Me: *cries* I'm glad I got to keep him as my teacher he is also like a best friend to me. Sadly he moved away but he told me to find him when I graduate. :)💙
Wish I could find my music teacher from 1993 cockshut Hill bham. I'd like to thank you Mark 4 all the afternoons spent singing you don't know it but you saved my life back then...
It's song about depression. Pay attention to people around you guys. When someone look okay, they maybe not inside. Be kind to everybody because we dont know their story.
Beebee art Its really ironic... People are so indifferent to how others feel nowadays, and yet so many people are hypersensitive about the most benign things that don't actually matter or make sense. It's a bad time to be broken.
Bie Bie Zhou my best friend can’t even look at me since we started high school but i know to just keep smiling at her and trying to pluck up the courage to ask her how her week has been or something because there might be family issues or something but do you have any other advice
Those 7 who disliked this obviously haven't gone through something. Never went through anxiety, depression, anorexia, or any other mental or even physical health problem. I pray that they don't.
I have had mental illnesses for years, and am still going through. I don't like this song, because frankly, it's BS. Melodramatic parts, like how the doctor said that the pills will make her remember how to smile (probably/definitely never happened, especially with teenagers, since antidepressants with teens makes the suicide risk higher) with the cliche piano music and basically everything about it. Sorry, not a fan.
J. S. I have been through everything you just described. I just really do not like the song. It sucks ass. You. Can have mental illness and bot like a specific song about mental illness..
I am someone with clinical depression, severe aniexty, paranoia and C-PTSD and have been dealing with all of these since I was 10. This song described EXACTLY how I felt growing up. Now to the people who hate or dislike this song and say they have mental illnesses, glad you got the support you needed but others like myself, we didn't get that. I didn't get it from my parents, so called friends, etc. I've been on many meds. Over 20 types in fact that didn't work. I relate to this song in more ways than one and still do to this day.
You are *NOT* worthless You *MATTER* Your problems *MATTER* You *ARE* beautiful You *ARE* amazing You *WILL* get through this You *ARE* stronger then you think Let the tears fall now.. but once you wipe them away think to yourself "I *CAN* do this" because you can. Everything *WILL* get better someday Don't let others put thoughts in your head. Don't scare yourself with that blade. Don't listen to the voices. Don't listen to the people trying to kill your light. You will win this. Just give it time. In time it'll all be better. You are worth everything. People do care about you. Don't give up. Don't let it win. Don't let it into your head. Don't worry. Don't rip yourself apart. I promise, if you keep trying, one day everything will be okay.. ~Sincerely Someone Who Cares -no one will see this but if you do, I only write the truth-
LostWolf M.J. This is so nice and helpful. I have struggled with depression for a few years because of family drama bullying etc. But people like you make me want to stay alive and wait for my help in real life. Thank you I hope you have a wonderful day or night.
Same. Also I really like your profile picture. But besides that I was wondering if you want to vent..... I dont know you but your the only one that I feel needs if. Plz talk to me if you need to
Totally relatable. I seem like this girl that is always happy. Doesn't have a care in the world, but that is fake. Inside I am completely torn apart. So yep totally relatable.
So my friend said once: "I don't get why ppl cut and starve themselves just coz of other people's opinions. And I'm just sitting there like: "That's not always the case. One day you could just fall apart just coz you've been holding it all in for way too long... and one day you just cave in. And that's when it starts. You notice more and more flaws in the mirrow. And then you cut.... or u become anoerexic... or bullemic (sorry can't spell). And you just get worse and worse. You don't just go: "hey, that perosn said I'm fat. Oh, I know what I'll do, I'll just go throw up all the food. I won't be fat then, will I?" Seriously, some people just don't get it. Do u think if we had a choice, we'd cut? Or we'd lose to our demons? No! I wish ppl would talking shit about ppl who are in dark places! 😡
It's not that they don't understand, it's that they look at every thing at a positive perspective. Like they probably do understand but just don't see it in others prospective. Like I used to self harm and now I look at thing in a positive perspective.
Magical Pixie my mom thinks your selfish if you attempt or commit suicide because they don’t care what pain it brings to others, how stupid was I to agree then? Now I know, now I know that they do it because they think it’ll improve lives around them
@@bearsneezer1929 my Mom today maked fun about this "dump Teenagers Who Cut themselves because she thinks they are doin it because they want to be cool or Something... I hate that she don't can See what I See so I can't speek to her and that Hurts real Bad
Talking is hard I get you but whats worst believe me is keeping it in.. it will break you. Let your tears go and let those words fall from your mouth let it out and if theres none to talk to turn your pain into art, draw it out, write it out or sing it out whether your good or not you grow and you find what makes you happy
Do you wanna know something?... I'm fine. I haven't ate for almost a week, I'm fine. I haven't slept propertly for 3 days. School starts in 3 weeks but don't worry I'm fine. My friend is being homeschooled and my other friend is going to attend a different school... But don't worry I'm fine. I'm always bullied at school but don't worry I'm fine. My parents are on the verge of divorcing but don't worry I'm fine. My parents are hard on me and want me to be perfect. I have to have perfect grades and everything but that's okay. Nobody actually cares about me but it's alright. I'm tired of living but that's fine, right? I'm fine... C: F-Fragile I-Insecure N-Neurotic E-Empty
Kayla Shade I can see that you aren’t fine. I don’t know your story but you don’t deserve to feel like this. No one does. It’s okay to feel broken and not know where you are.
@@mercurymayo8426 do you have discord? I'm deleting this small part that I used to add ebcauyse oh my god Edit - it's been two years and holy shit this comment is painful to look at.
@K. M. C. You are so sweet. You sound like a therapist parent (meant to be a compliment BTW) and all I want to say is that Im here if you need me even though I might not do much, I can try.
Everyone reading this... Your are loved You may thinks no one cares about you but they do You may think you don’t get noticed and you are invisible but people love your smile You may think your just a spare, a step in, but you have an important role, That role is... To make all your dreams true and show other people like you that you tried and it led you to live an amazing life!!! You are so important and you need to keep striving! There is so much out there waiting for you! And always remember, you are NEVER going through ANYTHING alone ❤️❤️❤️😁😁☺️☺️☺️
To everyone listening to this song... I know it's hard, I get it But everything will get better, it just takes time. Keep on living and trying and you will feel happy again, it's possible. Whoever is reading this, you are loved. People care about you. Good luck in your lives and journey to get better. I hope you all feel happier soon :)
They say I'm fine. They say I'm lying. They say I'm just crying for attention. They can't see what I do. They don't know how close they've come. They don't know how many times I've hidden it behind my back. The blades are so sharp, I can't feel a thing. The pills on my desk can be so tempting. I hide it. I fight it. I wonder what its like for everything to go dark. But I'm fine. I'm just lying for attention. Am I?
This song reminds me of when I was 10. My favorite sister was my older one, but a few months after I turned 10, she joined the army. I was pretty depressed and had trouble moving on. And it got to the point where someone would ask me if I'm alright and I say I'm fine, even though I know I'm depressed and people could now see it. I'm still waiting for her to come back. I love u Alyssa!
Mi friend has the same but she laughs once in a wull she is sometimes sad and sge hate me for 'talking her boy' she says that she is worth anything but if she was worth nothing i would not care and love her so much es e are all loving even you delt with hard things you can overcome them theres people outhere that care and want to help you might not want it but i can be there for you even thougj i dont knlw you Love you , From friend
this reflects my life so much, like all the doctors say just take this medicine but they never work. I never go to school and im on the verge of being sent away. my dog is my only comfort and i'm on the verge of giving up.
Harper Pink I feel ya my dog is well was my coushin and my dad left me and I lost 39 pounds because I did not eat and my bf came in my life and showed me what happy is but listen to me when I say this u make your own life go for your dreams you have to fall to fly ok need any help find someone u trust and vent
Behind my smile it's quiet Behind my happy eyes tears Behind my laugh is sadness Behind my happiness is just me Behind my happy family is the life i live But hey we all have are ups and are downs heh yeah i love my life no joke i have plans that i wanna keep even if my life sucks now i still have my whole life left
Brianna Falvey stay strong the world is rough and we go through a lot I know I do every day but you just gotta stay strong and just keep pushing on it gets easier I promise my instagram is ariannaxshaylee if you ever need someone to talk to im here 💞
Brianna Falvey You have my name :3 but i am the same way never am happy never was happy I did smile and i did laugh a lot but it was all fake and now 6th grade well lets just say its not going to be a great year for me i can already feel it you know when you have a feeling something bad will happen and no one can help you because they think your fine Because they believe me, you, her, him! they don't see the truth that lays right behind our eyes
I do. Really. And I'm sure you've been told this by others, but there are others who do as well. I don't know how to describe what I'm feeling. We're strangers, yet I care so much, so deeply. You matter. Your life is a spark among a void of nothingness. Sure, objects and space and even animals... but you are human. You live. You have experiences, powerful ones. You can have a voice, your experiences can influence others. It's okay if you don't respond, or feel like I'm lying to spare your feelings or something simmilar. I care, and there are others who do as well.
My classmates: “Are you okay?” Me: “I’m fine. I’m just becoming more and more suicidal and alone every day and the only time anyone notices is when I do something wrong. And nobody seems to care that all these people who ask if I’m okay are the same people who put me into this spiral. So yeah. I’m fine.”
I'm singing this in my talent show next month, I hope I can make it through without crying. Wish me luck...no wait, isn't that bad luck? What's the saying again? Break a leg?
I found this song on Facebook and as soon as I found it again I looked for it here. This song has really helped me. I feel like I can help everyone around me but can't really help myself. I feel like I can hide how I am truly feeling pretty well but at times it's too much to handle. I feel like music has helped me through all the tough times I have been through.
I remember listening to this at my worst. I wish I could go back in time and give myself a hug. I never deserved to go through what i did. Crazy how different things are for me now, yet somehow nothing's changed at all.
Brian Hood I was too. But like she's saying, doctors don't always help. I got on some medicine and had an appointment with a psychiatrist, but at the end of the day, telling him what was on my mind just made me feel even crazier for saying it out loud. It didn't help me but to some it may help. By all means, if you are depressed or suicidal, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE seek help. I am finding ways to cope myself because in my situation, the doctor didn't help. Sometimes you need to dig in deep within yourself and find the route of the problem and try to start building yourself up. I hope any of this helps. I know it's kind of all over the place. ❤️ best wishes
It's taken me four years to properly open up to my providers. I always lie and make things seem better than they really were and because of that I was misdiagnosed and given the wrong medications. You have to open up to your provider, that's what they're there for, they do you have your best interest in mind. If you're unhappy with the provider that you're seeing then you can always go see another one because it's important that you're comfortable with your provider. Once you find someone who you are comfortable with and you were able to open up with, treatment become so much better and you can start the path to recovery. I know it can be really scary but don't give up. I hope you start to feel better and I hope you find people who can back you and support you!
I told my mom I was depressed one time. We went to the doctor and wanna know what he said? Ya he said I wasn't because my grades weren't bad. But now I'm here crying myself to sleep every night and scarring my own body to show that I still feel. Ya I'm totally fine.
Please dont do that. I know the world is not perfect and people arent perfect...but please stay strong. Im sorry I cant help more but pleaseee hold on. There are going to be wonderful moments in your life that you need to live. Pease stay srong...
That's what they told me also they made me take a survey for a check up. I haven't told my family how depressed I am because I don't want them to be even more disappointed in me than they already are, they've even seen scars on my arm but didn't think anything of it. The survey said I was fine. I dont think my scars, cuts and the fact that I cry myself to sleep every night says the same thing. So I know how you feel. You aren't alone.
Hey guys I graduated 3.8 at my college that's no joke, but in the middle of it I dragged myself out of my room to a therapist an hour walk away and she told me nothing was wrong. Cut to years later I saw someone when I went back home, a different doctor. She told me something completely different and helped me. I also had a doctor send me home after a car crash, missing the fact I had a broken arm and I made it a million time worse because I didn't know to take care of it. The next time I thought I broke my arm (fell down the stairs) the doctor didn't believe me. I pushed for her to do an x-ray. Very broken. When I went to a doctor about an eating disorder, I was prepared to drop them if they didn't believe anything was wrong. There was something wrong, and I knew I needed help. It's hard when you live at home, but you are the only one who knows if there is something wrong. If you come up against a wall, see a different doctor.
Beautiful song! As someone who also writes songs about their struggles, I really appreciate how she must have ripped her heart apart to write this song. Music is such a release X
Doctors often don't know the real story. In my opinion, looking at anyone and having the courage to say, "I'm not okay" is one of the hardest and one of the bravest things you will ever do. Trust me, it gets better. My Pops who was the one I thought of as dad died 11 years ago from a heart attack. My Gram, meaning well, told me I shouldn't cry in front of my mom for fear of making her pain worse. For a while. I swallowed my tears and pretended I was fine. Soon enough, though, I started to feel I was falling down a horrendous black hole. I was so depressed I could hardly move. and I lost my appetite, thus making me lose a ton of weight. I finally looked at my family and told them I needed to take a break from college because I was losing my grip and needed help getting myself better. I spoke to my college counselor who had also lost his father, and slowly he helped me get back on track. Don't give up, even if the first person you tell doesn't hear you. You're all worth helping.
Oh, I'm so glad, Jocelyn. Listen, take it from me, it does get better. I promise you it does, even if you feel like you don't have a way out. Talk to someone you trust. It doesn't even have to make sense at first. Just keep trying. That's all that matters.
weepingwillows21 I’m trying out therapy but I haven’t had any sessions yet but I’m hoping they can help. I don’t know if they will because everytime I talk about what happened to get me this way I start crying
I cried a lot when I first talked to my counselor friend. They're trained to listen to what you say as well as what you don't say. The longer I talked with him, the less I cried, and I only have emotional days now rather than weeks. It will get easier. Just be patient with yourself.
This whole quarantine thing has left me to my own thoughts more than usual and my deppressive thinking has gotten worse I'm trying to force myself out of bed everyday and then I have to deal with my mom who guilt trips me into doing things but then tells at me so I just stay in my room and do nothing all day now. I have non assigned school work that I can do and I normally do that stuff but I just dont have the energy or will power and I'm scared to tell my parents how I feel.. Anyway that's my rant for the night if anyone sees this I dont know maybe an emoji would help me. You dont have to tho
Hey ik it‘s been a while since you wrote that comment but I hope ur better now. You literally just described what I feel all the time. I‘ve been feeling depressed since September last year, I began to hurt myself, stopped doing things I like and stayed in my room all day long. Last week I felt horrible and finally decided to get help. I‘ve wrote a email to my teacher and that was probably one of the best decisions in my whole life. We‘ve talked a few times and I just feel so much better. Maybe you could try that too. I rly hope ur feeling better now :)
@@autocorect7074 Oh! Thank you so much! I have days where I feel a lot better and I've reached out to a friend so I'm feeling okay most of the time! I'm still working on doing things that used to make me happy but I'm doing much better! I'll take your emailing a teacher into consideration! Thank you so much for caring and I wish you the best of luck!
Now I've lost so many years My pillow's a tissue for my tears But you, never see I feel this is so true in my life. How many years of depression, counseling, and medication does it take to recover? I've given up all hope. I've stopped talking and asking for help. Nothing helps. No one can help. I've suicidal for years. Years and years. I tell myself to make it through one more day not knowing if I will and not really caring if I do or not. I just want to sleep and never wake up again.
let me tell you all a secret, the reason pretty much everyone with depression or anxiety (wich both comes in a package most of the time) can relate to this is because thats how depression and anxiety just is. and you want to end it right? just want to be happy? then please take this comment seriously. I might be able to help, in ways that not many can. dont give up before you have done everything in your power to fix things, and im reaching out a helping hand to anyone who needs it.
hey, if you ever feel you need someone, don't forget about me :) i have the gift of undersatnding, or whatever you want to call it XD. that's also why i think I can help
baby ariel the thing is what's on the inside is a depressed 13 year old girl I'm so scared of what will happen to me if I'm not careful because I have scars everywhere x
This is all so true except the dad part. I've suffered from depression, general and social anxiety, and chronic insomnia for 4 years now. I just started to become anorexic 2 months ago. my mom thinks that I'm just losing weight from the pills and that the pills are helping with my depression and insomnia but it's not. Beside that I have millions of doctors and chronic illnesses. I also have PTSD from past abuse. None of my friends understand and my family all think that I'm completely fine but in reality I'm screaming inside. The only comfort I have is music, my cats, my books, and writing.
I would sit and listen to this song as I fought my depression. And lost many times. Anyone who is still struggling with it know days will get better one day. Dont give up. Some days really do still suck but its how we handle it. If you are struggling please dont give up. You are beautiful. You are handsome. You are loved. You are perfect in your own perfect way. I believe in you if no one else does. It wont be an eazy journey but it can be done.
I have been ill going to the royal children's hospital in Glasgow I have been ill for almost 2 years now nothing has changed the medicine makes it worst I get depressed I cry in my room every day and night it hurts world please just make it better I miss being me
Zoe Hamoud You will get through it I can tell you have lost hope but catch the hope again and you will feel better I promise you, you just need love and support I know what it feels like you will get out the hospital soon, there is no need to cry ,I am here for you and I will be happy when you get out I will be happy when your getting better and I will be in the comments when you need to talk.
How are you? Out loud: I'm fine.. Inside my head.. I'm lying why can't you see.. I'm so broken So lost So alone But ill never tell you that.. I would rather suffer with my pain then cause someone else pain.. I wish someone would stop me from drowning.. Im suffocating But no one cares.. So I put my mask back on.. And pretend to be alright..
I’m so glad I’m not the only person that has to take Prozac for my issues. But I’m so happy you understand the hard times this song makes me cry every time but it makes me feel good
Mom: "Are you depressed?" Me: "I don't have time to be depressed. I have people to look after. I can't let them down." Mom: "Thanks." Inner Me: "*sigh*"
I am 12 year old. Fighting from depression and anxiety for almost 2 years. Atleast i am still here for my brother and cousin brother whom I promised that I won't do suicide. It hurts but I know that all of you who are there outside still fighting. I am proud of you. When you feel like giving up, remember that atleast there are people like me who still hope you don't die. We are stangers but when it comes to love, I wanna scream this to you whoever sees this that I love you so pls don't give up!♥
trust me if im caught listening to a sad song or look sad i would get a slap on the arm by my mother telling me to smile and stop listening to these and despite hitting me and my brother she wouldn't dare hit my sister the little "angel" who calls me her maid and well my family has a reputation of the perfect family from the outside but on the inside well my family is broken the only 1 who seems to understand me is my puppy who i count as my youngest sibling she listens to me talk,sing and just cry but she helps she is like an emotional support dog and she is only 6 and a half months.
I feel like some families just want to seem that way. They never are, I don't think that there is such thing as a perfect family. Everyone has their problems and they should really consider your feelings.
I suffer from PTSD, Clinical and Chronic Depression, along with Anxiety. My little sister and I would fight all the time about it. She is too young to understand why I act that way I do. She just sent me the link to this song, then she said: "Listening to this song make me realize how hard it could be to put up with suicidal thoughts, and just know I love you and I will always love you no matter what fights we get into and we say different bc in the end we still love each other💗."
Woah calm down. That's why people are depressed because people like you always saying something. Why cant you let his/her comment make sense in their mind?
recovery isn't easy. what works for someone doesn't work for someone else but often times doctors don't see this. if it isn't helping, SAY SOMETHING or no one will know how to help you. please keep trying.
„Now I've lost so many years my pillow's a tissue for my tears but you never see.." This is so relatable in school everybody is calling me to be "lost" 'cause I am always tired and often overwhelmed with social situations and sometimes I can't hide it... I am laughing with them but deep inside I know it's not an image of mine..I struggle with an anxiety disorder especially social anxiety and depression I can't get out of my house without getting panic attacks I can't get in the city buying clothes or trink something in a cafe and I can't meet anybody outside. Sometimes I feel all at once than I feel nothing at all school feels like hell but I keep fighting every day even when nobody is see this I know there will be better days...be thankful for the little things in life even when it's hard life will not always be a fight🙏
same 😭 ever since my childhood, I was bullied, and till this day, I’m broken.. I act like I’m happy at times, I act like I’m sad, I act like.. I care sometimes, but the only thing I feel is either upset, sad, mad, and.. happy at stuff others don’t feel happy about.. I’m scared at myself. I don’t even know myself anymore. I don’t even know what’s wrong with me, but I know something is..
Couldn't relate more, nothing ever gets better, that's all life is, a continuous mental test to see how far it can push you till you break but there's never an escape from it. Its Asif the only real freedom anymore is death :/
Michael Jackson fan, I’ve been scrolling through the comments and I see how you are supporting everyone, I just want to say, you are an amazing person with a caring heart. Keep being you
This song hits so close to home......except i dont ever talk to anyone about the depression im going through because im so afraid everyone will leave...
I don’t think you understand how true this is for me everyone around me is getting over their ‘depression’ but I’m developing anxiety and starting to have suicidal thoughts 🙃
Suicidal thoughts, anxiety, major depression. I want to do everything right but I do everything wrong. You're not alone in getting worse. I can't even see my therapist because if the stupid weather.
the song definitely is relatable people with like anxiety or depression or whatever, you want to call it. They don't really get the help they need. they go to a doctor for them to get better, and the doctor says they're fine they're just depressed and need to take pills because apparently pills are whats going to make you happy. no, because what's going to make you happier is the people around you or the ones that try to understand and help. so I try to place myself and happy environments with friends, and to be honest my mental illness I don't consider it inside I don't consider it depression or anxiety. I consider it me that's just how I am it's just how it is, and I hate that they try to put this label on your feelings and then when somebody comes in feeling sad or feeling alone they just give them pills like that's going to help anything, I don't want artificial happiness, I want real happiness and. that's what pills, are artificial happiness. that's what the doctors don't get they just diagnosed them by throwing anxiety or depression around like it's just a thing that is normal for people that are sad or alone. and it's not it's them and I feel like what somebody needs is friends and people to be there for them, and talk to them so when your parents say you're alright because the doctor says you're fine, it's not true because if you know you're not fine then you need to speak up ,because that's what I did and I'm trying to get better as of today. And when that gave me pills I refused.
mya loves Hi ☺️ I know going to see a provider can be incredibly frustrating, especially when it comes to medication. It took me four years to find the right provider and to finally open up to them the way that I needed to in order to find the perfect therapy and the proper medication. You're right, you should always speak up when you're not feeling well because you can't get better by saying quiet! I hope that you have found people who understands you and genuinely listens to you and I just wanted to say I wish you the best in life and to always keep your head up.
mya loves When I got these pills I couldn't help but hate my mum and my doctor.Because like the song said,they were saying I'm fine.So I refused them.And didn't talk to my mother for a while,because I thought at least she would understand,because she also suffered from depression a while ago but she didn't.
You see it's different for everyone. Everyone has their own experiences, for me it feels as though I'm stuck in a hole and no matter how much I scream or yell nobody is coming around. Yes, I have friends I can talk to they make me feel BETTER but inside I don't think I'll ever be OK again. All we can do is wait and see. While it may feel like days repeat themselves they do bring suprises. I've been feeling slightly better lately as I just got a lil parakeet, Ray, and he really makes me feel loved. So; Pro Tip 😉: get an animal or pet or chat to friends and family you can trust if you have an older sister, if you're a girl, or brother if you're a boy. So, don't stop believing even though it may seem like 'Life is meaningless, we're all gonna die anyways' stay positive even if its just saying 'Hey I'm not too bad' Give yo self a hug it's from me. :) Peace Xx
I'm fine, I really am, my definition of fine just changed over the years. I can fake a smile, I can tell jokes, I can hide my scars, I only thought of killing myself a few times today, I'm terrified of everything, I'm choking back tears, I'm still just breathing. So I'm fine. If I'm alive physically then yes I'm fine, and I believe it. Because I have no one else to help me. I don't have a doctor, because I'm just a salty teen, I'm not broken or sick. I'm just a terrible person. And I'm fine.
When you have depression or anxiety, it's not something that most people take seriously until you actually start to lose it and hurt yourself. Which, I find is stupid. The only way that things like this get serious is when you ignore them. That's how it got serious for me and for my best friend. I didn't eat for a week and ran my nails across my skin, she cut herself. Please, take these issues SERIOUSLY.
Hey, I know I’m like, really really late here.. but if you ever want to/need someone to talk to, I’m here, and I’m more than willing to listen We can chat here or hmu @ Pbreexp@gmail.com
"and oh, i miss when we were younger...the days were so much funner, werent they?" when we were younger, we didnt know what 'depression', 'suicide', 'anxiety' ,'anorexia' was....we were carefree and reckless...now we all have these things and theyre slowly breaking us into a thousand pieces and we cant stop it.....if anyone ever needs someone to talk to, message me on snapchat @ "savagebxtch04" and maybe i can help you.
Heather Reynolds When we where little, we had little minds and didn’t know how dark life could sometimes be. When we where little, we didn’t know what terrible people where. When we where little we thought everyone in the world would be nice and kinda. But what I wish I would have known when I was younger was that not everyone is kind, and that people like that would be the reason I’m broken. I just wish my younger self would have known that 😭
wait your user name for what because I really do need a friend to talk to but I'm not so sure how... so whats your user name for??????=,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,(
Just randomly found this song while drinking and in my feels, and wow. Incredible. We've all felt that deep loneliness of people brushing off our pain, and this puts it so powerfully.
It's awful that so many people are broken inside but can't say anything. For everyone who reads this, I really hope you manage to find balance and happiness in your life, because you deserve it. You are great, you are beautiful and you are loved! Keep fighting! You can't be strong all the time, just let the world see the real you
random : are you o.k. me : yeah I'm fine random : are you sure me : yeah I'm fine I'm sure thoughts: no I'm not but I can't tell you that I try I do but you just give drugs to shut me up
Middle school....it destroyed me.....i feel broken...my mum tells me im fine and my life could be worse.....MOM NEWS FLASH I FEEL LIKE I KILLED MY REAL DAD ME AND U GET INTO ARGUES ALL THE TIME And i cry ever night because you tell me im selfish and when my hair is greasy i look like messy little girl sure i have a roof over my head food on my table and a loving fam but what i want os for us to stop fighting! I know she will never read this but, It gives me comfort knowing maybe someone will read this and say they know how i feel or something i just hate my life, theres nothing special about me, I love my mom and she loves me no she doesn't hit me and stuff but her words hurt me deep inside :(
I drink bleach Don't ask why my mom does the same to me but I just get quiet and try to get away from the conversation and that works, some times. After I feel like s**t and I want to hurt myself but I don't because of my younger siblings. They are the only reason I am still here.
Same but i dont have doctor. My friends and my family dont even have a single idea on what im going through. I cry in my room then wear my smile when they're looking
Just because a doctor or “professional” said you are fine. Doesn’t mean you really are. Hope any of the people who can relate to this song will feel better.
"They all say it's anxiety but I just think it's me."
200 like
but he didn't say anything
DayDream Palace I felt that
I think its me to
i felt that
"I miss when we were younger"
Oh my... I can't tell you much that relates
it's so relatable.
I dont sometimes I do
Ya..
It pains me
Same here and i'm only15, I miss it when it was easy heh...
When looking in the mirror is more painful then starving yourself
I know what that's like.
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It is though....
Oh damn that hits hard
Hi. I’m here if you need a friend to talk about anything. I’m here for you 🦋
"Headphones blasting"
"No one hears the thoughts"
When will someone notice I'm hurting
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When will someone notice I'm not fine, I'm not okay, I'm not good, I'm a mess. I'm hurting, and I want to hurt myself. I want to kill myself. Hell, when will _I_ notice I'm not fine?
Maybe if you spoke about it to a therapist or someone you trust MAYBE just MAYBE people will notice
That’s all great but.. I’ll probably be like 99.9 % deaf
same
*Intro plays* = Like button.
*Chorus plays* = Cries.
*Second verse plays* = Rethinking life for the umpteenth time today.
*Climax of song* = Everything is messed up . . .
Too relatable, it's scary.
Dreamer of Fire you have the same profile pic as pretty much 50% of the dumbass dweeb community
Words have power. The damage words can cause could be compared to someone throwing a brick right at another person's face. You do not know me nor do I know you. So I will be praying for you.
Dreamer of Fire 👏❤
Yes I get that
=_=
Hotel = Trivago
I work in a nursing home and one of my residents asked me to sing about my past so I chose this song, afterwards she told me she could relate, and started to sing it with me as i walked her back to her room, i sat next to her all night just talking, sharing laughs, and singing many more songs all through the night before she passed. Forever thinking about her with this song now.
I'm sorry...sorry to hear that...I'm not religious but I would like to think she's in a better place, and she well forever live on in your memories
That is the cutest/sad thing i ever read
At least she died in peace knowing she had a good time with you
@@sabrinaidk1694and the fakest one, too
Teacher: Are you listening to music??
Me: Noooo I'm listening to you
Teacher: Okay?
Thats how I feel 99.9% of the time
I feel that like that 100% of the time
They may not believe you, but don't want to push for an answer.
Your not alone trust me i feel the same
FINE.
F ucked
I nternally
N ot
E xternally
Some of us have depression but we're good at hiding it...
I hide mine everyday
I'm tired of living 😭😩
me too me too
same
I feel you
same
Kay Kay same
The *now i wont even eat my dinner, mom says iam gettin thinner, am i?* part is so relatable
Same
i didn't eat anything for 3 days straight and I lost quite a bit of weight and it scared me so much I ate double the amount I usually do for the next three days
Sameeee
She thought maybe I was gaining muscle 8lbs lost in 2 days.... But I'm fine... I'm definitely fine....
i loose weight but don't gain no matter how much i eat and i am just in healthy weight
75% of these comments are about how this song relates to them
makes you realize how sad everyone is.
Evie Everlasting true
hunter gee. That's not what she is saying at all. She is saying that most of the comments are saying how they can relate and that makes someone realize how many sad people there are out their.
or how attention hungry either way pretty sad humans
if you have depression just because you aren't rich you don't deserve to go bragging on the internet about your made up depression
Tracy Zidon Yes. Because the majority of us 'brag' about our so called, made up depression/anxiety on the internet. To what? Seek attention? I don't think so.
"mum says I'm getting thinner" HA I WISH
gAHAHAHSAGAGGAHA SAME WTF
ikr
It could work if it was true cause I'm still fat ksjdjdjs
I'm getting fatter
Grandma judges me for one bowl of icecream when my siblings and cousins eats more than 3
I’ve had depression for five years but you’d never know because I always put your feelings and happiness above mine. Always. But it’s alright, even if I’m not♥️
Yes I agree
I do the exact same thing. I prioritize everyone else above me to distract myself from my depression.
Helping people hides your depression like a mask.
It is good to do...
But it is just a distraction
I hope you know somebody cares about you. And if nobody you obviously know, then me. Because for some reason, I have to make it known to those who need it most that I care. Because I am the same way you are. I may not be okay, but my situation should not reflect on others. So, I care :)
I'm only 12, and that is all that can give happiness... other peoples happy!
*In the end the only person you can count on, is yourself.*
yeah...
eep, guess I got nobody to count on lol
But what if you can't even count on yourself...?
I cant even count on me...
Nah i can’t count on anyone then🤷♀️
I miss my real smile and the old days
my faceu same
my faceu most of us do
Me too...
my faceu same.....
I never Smile a real smile anymore...
Teacher: are you okay?
Me: yeah I'm fine
Teacher: no you're not. You know I'm always here for you, right?
Me: *cries*
I'm glad I got to keep him as my teacher he is also like a best friend to me. Sadly he moved away but he told me to find him when I graduate. :)💙
That's sweet and creepy at the same time
@@weeee6029 be nice
@@cottoncandycane6580 I said sweet but still kinda creepy, I was being truthful not mean
@@weeee6029 I Know, sorry I was trying to bring up the mood
Wish I could find my music teacher from 1993 cockshut Hill bham. I'd like to thank you Mark 4 all the afternoons spent singing you don't know it but you saved my life back then...
It's song about depression. Pay attention to people around you guys. When someone look okay, they maybe not inside. Be kind to everybody because we dont know their story.
Beebee art This is so true, i have been breaking apart for a while now but all my friends think I'm fine, i kinda am but not fully
Beebee art
Its really ironic... People are so indifferent to how others feel nowadays, and yet so many people are hypersensitive about the most benign things that don't actually matter or make sense.
It's a bad time to be broken.
Awww so underrated
Beebee art I just say I’m fine to get them of my back even everyday I’m not
Bie Bie Zhou my best friend can’t even look at me since we started high school but i know to just keep smiling at her and trying to pluck up the courage to ask her how her week has been or something because there might be family issues or something but do you have any other advice
I was singing along to this song.. but then all of a sudden it made me cry, because it was so relatable to me.
Emma Legault same
I've been singing about every night to try and stop my self from crying and cutting.
Right😭
So relatable
Emma Legault Same...
Those 7 who disliked this obviously haven't gone through something. Never went through anxiety, depression, anorexia, or any other mental or even physical health problem. I pray that they don't.
J. S. I know right I have all of what you said i will never be my old self
Or maybe they just don't like the song? Lmao.
I have had mental illnesses for years, and am still going through. I don't like this song, because frankly, it's BS. Melodramatic parts, like how the doctor said that the pills will make her remember how to smile (probably/definitely never happened, especially with teenagers, since antidepressants with teens makes the suicide risk higher) with the cliche piano music and basically everything about it. Sorry, not a fan.
J. S. I have been through everything you just described. I just really do not like the song. It sucks ass. You. Can have mental illness and bot like a specific song about mental illness..
I am someone with clinical depression, severe aniexty, paranoia and C-PTSD and have been dealing with all of these since I was 10. This song described EXACTLY how I felt growing up. Now to the people who hate or dislike this song and say they have mental illnesses, glad you got the support you needed but others like myself, we didn't get that. I didn't get it from my parents, so called friends, etc. I've been on many meds. Over 20 types in fact that didn't work. I relate to this song in more ways than one and still do to this day.
1:46
And now, I can't even eat my dinner..
Mum says I'm getting "thinner",
Am I?
At least someones parents notice theyre getting thinner, my parents dont dontice anything about me or dont care enough to say anything
@@emoartistkid9221 same
I switch it up for me. "I can't even eat my dinner mum says I am getting bigger" I bet a lot can relate to this too:(
“Why does no one see, I’m not the girl I wish that I could be” that hit hard
the doctors said im fine
i say im fine
they believe im fine
everyone around me is so blind
What does he know because I’m so alone
Patricia Valencia-Hernán
Exactly
EmoKitty XD it’s because you are making the illusion that you are
People need to learn how to see past fake smiles and forced laughs.
You are *NOT* worthless
You *MATTER*
Your problems *MATTER*
You *ARE* beautiful
You *ARE* amazing
You *WILL* get through this
You *ARE* stronger then you think
Let the tears fall now.. but once you wipe them away think to yourself "I *CAN* do this" because you can.
Everything *WILL* get better someday
Don't let others put thoughts in your head.
Don't scare yourself with that blade.
Don't listen to the voices.
Don't listen to the people trying to kill your light.
You will win this. Just give it time.
In time it'll all be better.
You are worth everything.
People do care about you.
Don't give up.
Don't let it win.
Don't let it into your head.
Don't worry.
Don't rip yourself apart.
I promise, if you keep trying, one day everything will be okay..
~Sincerely Someone Who Cares
-no one will see this but if you do, I only write the truth-
LostWolf M.J. This is so nice and helpful. I have struggled with depression for a few years because of family drama bullying etc. But people like you make me want to stay alive and wait for my help in real life. Thank you I hope you have a wonderful day or night.
Katy Breen You too, I'm glad I could give hope
LostWolf M.J.
You’re so sweet 😭 thank you 😊
I dont think that about myself...I believe that my problems dont matter...
Paranormal Seeker
They do though. They always will.
Your problems matter because you matter.
Behind my smile is a hurting heart.
Behind my laugh I'm falling apart.
Look closely and you will see....
The girl I am is not really me.
Same. Also I really like your profile picture. But besides that I was wondering if you want to vent..... I dont know you but your the only one that I feel needs if. Plz talk to me if you need to
well, now we know Todoroki.
its OK todoroki I feel the same all of us have a story we never tell
Same todoroki i just do fake smiles
Totally relatable. I seem like this girl that is always happy. Doesn't have a care in the world, but that is fake. Inside I am completely torn apart. So yep totally relatable.
So my friend said once:
"I don't get why ppl cut and starve themselves just coz of other people's opinions.
And I'm just sitting there like:
"That's not always the case. One day you could just fall apart just coz you've been holding it all in for way too long... and one day you just cave in. And that's when it starts. You notice more and more flaws in the mirrow. And then you cut.... or u become anoerexic... or bullemic (sorry can't spell). And you just get worse and worse. You don't just go: "hey, that perosn said I'm fat. Oh, I know what I'll do, I'll just go throw up all the food. I won't be fat then, will I?"
Seriously, some people just don't get it. Do u think if we had a choice, we'd cut? Or we'd lose to our demons? No! I wish ppl would talking shit about ppl who are in dark places! 😡
It's not that they don't understand, it's that they look at every thing at a positive perspective. Like they probably do understand but just don't see it in others prospective. Like I used to self harm and now I look at thing in a positive perspective.
Magical Pixie my mom thinks your selfish if you attempt or commit suicide because they don’t care what pain it brings to others, how stupid was I to agree then? Now I know, now I know that they do it because they think it’ll improve lives around them
@@bearsneezer1929 my Mom today maked fun about this "dump Teenagers Who Cut themselves because she thinks they are doin it because they want to be cool or Something... I hate that she don't can See what I See so I can't speek to her and that Hurts real Bad
gligay g. Ik, I feel the same. If u need someone to talk to I’m here for you
@@bearsneezer1929 thank you ❤️
Guy at my school: are you okay? You seem sad.
Me: yeah I’m fine.
😐
Talking is hard I get you but whats worst believe me is keeping it in.. it will break you. Let your tears go and let those words fall from your mouth let it out and if theres none to talk to turn your pain into art, draw it out, write it out or sing it out whether your good or not you grow and you find what makes you happy
skeet me to my boyfriend and my family.
Then you're fine. End of story
This is me
Nano tude
Do you wanna know something?...
I'm fine. I haven't ate for almost a week, I'm fine. I haven't slept propertly for 3 days. School starts in 3 weeks but don't worry I'm fine. My friend is being homeschooled and my other friend is going to attend a different school... But don't worry I'm fine. I'm always bullied at school but don't worry I'm fine. My parents are on the verge of divorcing but don't worry I'm fine. My parents are hard on me and want me to be perfect. I have to have perfect grades and everything but that's okay. Nobody actually cares about me but it's alright. I'm tired of living but that's fine, right? I'm fine... C:
F-Fragile
I-Insecure
N-Neurotic
E-Empty
Kayla Shade I can see that you aren’t fine. I don’t know your story but you don’t deserve to feel like this. No one does. It’s okay to feel broken and not know where you are.
Damn I needed to read this thank you dude😐
@Kajal Lucas
do you have an instagram acc? maybe i can listen to you if you need someone to listen to your story.
@@mercurymayo8426 do you have discord? I'm deleting this small part that I used to add ebcauyse oh my god
Edit - it's been two years and holy shit this comment is painful to look at.
@K. M. C. You are so sweet. You sound like a therapist parent (meant to be a compliment BTW) and all I want to say is that Im here if you need me even though I might not do much, I can try.
Everyone reading this...
Your are loved
You may thinks no one cares about you but they do
You may think you don’t get noticed and you are invisible but people love your smile
You may think your just a spare, a step in, but you have an important role,
That role is...
To make all your dreams true and show other people like you that you tried and it led you to live an amazing life!!!
You are so important and you need to keep striving!
There is so much out there waiting for you!
And always remember, you are NEVER going through ANYTHING alone
❤️❤️❤️😁😁☺️☺️☺️
“My pillow is a tissue for my tears”
I can relate to this line from the song the most
To everyone listening to this song...
I know it's hard, I get it
But everything will get better, it just takes time. Keep on living and trying and you will feel happy again, it's possible.
Whoever is reading this, you are loved.
People care about you.
Good luck in your lives and journey to get better.
I hope you all feel happier soon :)
I listen to this song bc it's the only time that I feel something other than broken and numb
Thank you
Thank you. I'll never be 100% again but this is still something I needed to hear.
Thank you so much I needed to here this….
When I was listening to this my dog wouldn't stop smiling at me. Who says animals don't know anything.
Your dog is more helpful than most people.
My cat actually always lays down next to me when I am sad. Which is crazy even my parents don't realise how I really feel
I would rather live my life with pets than humans. My precious pups make everything better. They don't talk, which makes me feel comforted as well. 💛
❤❤❤ my girl has done this for me as well.. At times her heart is all I've had to remind me I'm not so empty.. And "smile."
They say I'm fine.
They say I'm lying.
They say I'm just crying for attention.
They can't see what I do.
They don't know how close they've come.
They don't know how many times I've hidden it behind my back.
The blades are so sharp, I can't feel a thing.
The pills on my desk can be so tempting.
I hide it.
I fight it.
I wonder what its like for everything to go dark.
But I'm fine.
I'm just lying for attention.
Am I?
This song reminds me of when I was 10. My favorite sister was my older one, but a few months after I turned 10, she joined the army. I was pretty depressed and had trouble moving on. And it got to the point where someone would ask me if I'm alright and I say I'm fine, even though I know I'm depressed and people could now see it. I'm still waiting for her to come back. I love u Alyssa!
Did she come back?
d-did she come back...? please tell me she did..
All my smiles.. my laughs... their fake.... I miss the feeling of actually smiling or laughing...
Me too sameee
Mine stopped 5 years ago. I stopped laughing and smiling. At least the true laughs and smiles. I fake it everyday :)
ALANNA IRENE NICOLE COPE same.
@ALANNA IRENE NICOLE COPE same...
Mi friend has the same but she laughs once in a wull she is sometimes sad and sge hate me for 'talking her boy' she says that she is worth anything but if she was worth nothing i would not care and love her so much es e are all loving even you delt with hard things you can overcome them theres people outhere that care and want to help you might not want it but i can be there for you even thougj i dont knlw you
Love you ,
From friend
this reflects my life so much, like all the doctors say just take this medicine but they never work. I never go to school and im on the verge of being sent away. my dog is my only comfort and i'm on the verge of giving up.
Thank you.
Harper Pink no matter what you have to stay strong if you ever need a shoulder to cry on or someone to vent too or a hug im always here for you
Stay strong don't give up there's still hope
Harper Pink I feel ya my dog is well was my coushin and my dad left me and I lost 39 pounds because I did not eat and my bf came in my life and showed me what happy is but listen to me when I say this u make your own life go for your dreams you have to fall to fly ok need any help find someone u trust and vent
thank you so much i'm gonna try a bit harder.
Person: **Has broken arm**
Doctor: Your fine!
School nurse: who needs a ice pack
Person : I'm broken
Doctor : Dont be such a cry baby you're fine
Person: ...
You're* LOL
That was my mom, until she saw it.
@@zinoneus3733 Here the nurse give us mint drops.🤣
Behind my smile it's quiet
Behind my happy eyes tears
Behind my laugh is sadness
Behind my happiness is just me
Behind my happy family is the life i live
But hey we all have are ups and are downs heh yeah i love my life no joke i have plans that i wanna keep even if my life sucks now i still have my whole life left
Wanna know a secret..?
i'm not okay.. i never was.. i only said i was to make you happy, and you... you believed me..
Brianna Falvey stay strong the world is rough and we go through a lot I know I do every day but you just gotta stay strong and just keep pushing on it gets easier I promise my instagram is ariannaxshaylee if you ever need someone to talk to im here 💞
Brianna Falvey this. 😭
Brianna Falvey I know just how you feel
Brianna Falvey You have my name :3 but i am the same way never am happy never was happy I did smile and i did laugh a lot but it was all fake and now 6th grade well lets just say its not going to be a great year for me i can already feel it you know when you have a feeling something bad will happen and no one can help you because they think your fine
Because they believe me, you, her, him! they don't see the truth that lays right behind our eyes
Me too. Nobody is there, because I pretend I'm fine, and happy.
Wanna know something?
No you don’t.
No one does.
There are people who care. You even with your flaws are worth it. Your feelings are just as important as anyone else’s.
You are not unlovable
Me :3
I do. Really. And I'm sure you've been told this by others, but there are others who do as well.
I don't know how to describe what I'm feeling. We're strangers, yet I care so much, so deeply. You matter. Your life is a spark among a void of nothingness. Sure, objects and space and even animals... but you are human. You live. You have experiences, powerful ones. You can have a voice, your experiences can influence others.
It's okay if you don't respond, or feel like I'm lying to spare your feelings or something simmilar.
I care, and there are others who do as well.
Tell me! I CARE!!!! T-T
Okay, I'm sorry but... Jimin~
My classmates: “Are you okay?”
Me: “I’m fine. I’m just becoming more and more suicidal and alone every day and the only time anyone notices is when I do something wrong. And nobody seems to care that all these people who ask if I’m okay are the same people who put me into this spiral. So yeah.
I’m fine.”
I'm on a mission i am going through all the sad songs and putting happy messages
People care people love you
I love everything and everyone❤
Thank you
I'm singing this in my talent show next month, I hope I can make it through without crying. Wish me luck...no wait, isn't that bad luck? What's the saying again? Break a leg?
Dalton Q thank you so much! 😃
How’d it go?
@@xaoscaracal5487 (sorry this is late) it went pretty well but I messed up the beginning
@@mckenzietallentire403 do you have the video, I would LOVE to here if you did or you could make another and post it on your channel
*GOOD LUCK!!!*
*"God Said"*
I found this song on Facebook and as soon as I found it again I looked for it here. This song has really helped me. I feel like I can help everyone around me but can't really help myself. I feel like I can hide how I am truly feeling pretty well but at times it's too much to handle. I feel like music has helped me through all the tough times I have been through.
Madi Jean same!
Going thru my old music taste, stay strong everyone. With some hard work everything will get better. Love y’all ❤️❤️❤️
I remember listening to this at my worst. I wish I could go back in time and give myself a hug. I never deserved to go through what i did. Crazy how different things are for me now, yet somehow nothing's changed at all.
I'm too scared to go to a doctor for this very reason.
Or even a therapist.
Brian Hood I was too. But like she's saying, doctors don't always help. I got on some medicine and had an appointment with a psychiatrist, but at the end of the day, telling him what was on my mind just made me feel even crazier for saying it out loud. It didn't help me but to some it may help. By all means, if you are depressed or suicidal, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE seek help. I am finding ways to cope myself because in my situation, the doctor didn't help. Sometimes you need to dig in deep within yourself and find the route of the problem and try to start building yourself up. I hope any of this helps. I know it's kind of all over the place. ❤️ best wishes
It's taken me four years to properly open up to my providers. I always lie and make things seem better than they really were and because of that I was misdiagnosed and given the wrong medications. You have to open up to your provider, that's what they're there for, they do you have your best interest in mind. If you're unhappy with the provider that you're seeing then you can always go see another one because it's important that you're comfortable with your provider. Once you find someone who you are comfortable with and you were able to open up with, treatment become so much better and you can start the path to recovery. I know it can be really scary but don't give up. I hope you start to feel better and I hope you find people who can back you and support you!
Brian Hood same here...
Brian Hood I have the same problem I can't go and talk to you ANYONE about it..cause I don't don't want pills or medication
Brian Hood same my mom told me if I don't stop cutting myself and she said I need to eat or she will put me in a phyco place
I told my mom I was depressed one time. We went to the doctor and wanna know what he said? Ya he said I wasn't because my grades weren't bad. But now I'm here crying myself to sleep every night and scarring my own body to show that I still feel. Ya I'm totally fine.
Please dont do that. I know the world is not perfect and people arent perfect...but please stay strong. Im sorry I cant help more but pleaseee hold on. There are going to be wonderful moments in your life that you need to live. Pease stay srong...
I'm here for ya
That's what they told me also they made me take a survey for a check up. I haven't told my family how depressed I am because I don't want them to be even more disappointed in me than they already are, they've even seen scars on my arm but didn't think anything of it. The survey said I was fine. I dont think my scars, cuts and the fact that I cry myself to sleep every night says the same thing.
So I know how you feel. You aren't alone.
Hey guys I graduated 3.8 at my college that's no joke, but in the middle of it I dragged myself out of my room to a therapist an hour walk away and she told me nothing was wrong. Cut to years later I saw someone when I went back home, a different doctor. She told me something completely different and helped me. I also had a doctor send me home after a car crash, missing the fact I had a broken arm and I made it a million time worse because I didn't know to take care of it. The next time I thought I broke my arm (fell down the stairs) the doctor didn't believe me. I pushed for her to do an x-ray. Very broken. When I went to a doctor about an eating disorder, I was prepared to drop them if they didn't believe anything was wrong. There was something wrong, and I knew I needed help.
It's hard when you live at home, but you are the only one who knows if there is something wrong. If you come up against a wall, see a different doctor.
"They all say its anxiety.... but i just think its me"
Beautiful song! As someone who also writes songs about their struggles, I really appreciate how she must have ripped her heart apart to write this song. Music is such a release X
For everyone who goes through depression: you are cared for. There are people that love you, whether you know it or not. ❤️
But they don’t
Doctors often don't know the real story. In my opinion, looking at anyone and having the courage to say, "I'm not okay" is one of the hardest and one of the bravest things you will ever do. Trust me, it gets better. My Pops who was the one I thought of as dad died 11 years ago from a heart attack. My Gram, meaning well, told me I shouldn't cry in front of my mom for fear of making her pain worse. For a while. I swallowed my tears and pretended I was fine. Soon enough, though, I started to feel I was falling down a horrendous black hole. I was so depressed I could hardly move. and I lost my appetite, thus making me lose a ton of weight. I finally looked at my family and told them I needed to take a break from college because I was losing my grip and needed help getting myself better. I spoke to my college counselor who had also lost his father, and slowly he helped me get back on track. Don't give up, even if the first person you tell doesn't hear you. You're all worth helping.
weepingwillows21 thank you. Even if I don’t feel like I’m someone worth helping, your story gives me strength to keep pushing
Oh, I'm so glad, Jocelyn. Listen, take it from me, it does get better. I promise you it does, even if you feel like you don't have a way out. Talk to someone you trust. It doesn't even have to make sense at first. Just keep trying. That's all that matters.
weepingwillows21 I’m trying out therapy but I haven’t had any sessions yet but I’m hoping they can help. I don’t know if they will because everytime I talk about what happened to get me this way I start crying
I cried a lot when I first talked to my counselor friend. They're trained to listen to what you say as well as what you don't say. The longer I talked with him, the less I cried, and I only have emotional days now rather than weeks. It will get easier. Just be patient with yourself.
weepingwillows21 I really hope so, but I haven’t had anything done yet. I’m still the same
This whole quarantine thing has left me to my own thoughts more than usual and my deppressive thinking has gotten worse I'm trying to force myself out of bed everyday and then I have to deal with my mom who guilt trips me into doing things but then tells at me so I just stay in my room and do nothing all day now. I have non assigned school work that I can do and I normally do that stuff but I just dont have the energy or will power and I'm scared to tell my parents how I feel..
Anyway that's my rant for the night if anyone sees this I dont know maybe an emoji would help me. You dont have to tho
Hey ik it‘s been a while since you wrote that comment but I hope ur better now. You literally just described what I feel all the time. I‘ve been feeling depressed since September last year, I began to hurt myself, stopped doing things I like and stayed in my room all day long. Last week I felt horrible and finally decided to get help. I‘ve wrote a email to my teacher and that was probably one of the best decisions in my whole life. We‘ve talked a few times and I just feel so much better. Maybe you could try that too. I rly hope ur feeling better now :)
@@autocorect7074 Oh! Thank you so much! I have days where I feel a lot better and I've reached out to a friend so I'm feeling okay most of the time! I'm still working on doing things that used to make me happy but I'm doing much better! I'll take your emailing a teacher into consideration! Thank you so much for caring and I wish you the best of luck!
People find that song that just clicks?
I've found it. i've found my life song.
you know its bad when you come back to this song
Wow! I'm so happy I found this song. It really hits close for me. I'm lucky I have a great doctor, but still can relate so much.
Meriah Calvert me too
I'm at school with crowded people but...I want to really cry..Sh*t
MISS A777 cry
THIS IS THE THIRD COMMENT I'VE SEEN THIS PERSON (Hahaha Hahaha) FUCKIN HATING ON!! IM GETTING TIRED OF IT!
Same I feel you and it's like you black out and become nun so you don't cry that's how I am and feel
Hey I don't care how many people are around they'll never noticed if I'm crying I do it all the time
MISS A777 ye same
Now I've lost so many years
My pillow's a tissue for my tears
But you, never see
I feel this is so true in my life. How many years of depression, counseling, and medication does it take to recover? I've given up all hope. I've stopped talking and asking for help. Nothing helps. No one can help. I've suicidal for years. Years and years. I tell myself to make it through one more day not knowing if I will and not really caring if I do or not. I just want to sleep and never wake up again.
bro. i hope ur still here. 10 months down the line.
let me tell you all a secret, the reason pretty much everyone with depression or anxiety (wich both comes in a package most of the time) can relate to this is because thats how depression and anxiety just is. and you want to end it right? just want to be happy? then please take this comment seriously. I might be able to help, in ways that not many can. dont give up before you have done everything in your power to fix things, and im reaching out a helping hand to anyone who needs it.
elviscow
thanks that really will mean a lot to people like me
hey, if you ever feel you need someone, don't forget about me :) i have the gift of undersatnding, or whatever you want to call it XD. that's also why i think I can help
elviscow I need your help I starve myself and I try to kill myself I don't want to live no more
Lucy Leadbitter please don't ur beautiful just the way u are remember its about whats on the inside
baby ariel the thing is what's on the inside is a depressed 13 year old girl I'm so scared of what will happen to me if I'm not careful because I have scars everywhere x
This is all so true except the dad part. I've suffered from depression, general and social anxiety, and chronic insomnia for 4 years now. I just started to become anorexic 2 months ago. my mom thinks that I'm just losing weight from the pills and that the pills are helping with my depression and insomnia but it's not. Beside that I have millions of doctors and chronic illnesses. I also have PTSD from past abuse. None of my friends understand and my family all think that I'm completely fine but in reality I'm screaming inside. The only comfort I have is music, my cats, my books, and writing.
Kailani Shinault why tf are you here
Hahaha Hahaha what do you mean?
Kailani Shinault you can seee a crisis counsler
Hahaha Hahaha I have seen many trauma counselors and none of them have worked
Kailani Shinault what about Turning point? look it up. trust me. these are professionals.
I knew looking back on my tears would make me laugh but I never knew that looking back in my laughs would make me cry
Is it ironic that this made me cry?
😢
I have dark humor so somehow I found this funny
I would sit and listen to this song as I fought my depression. And lost many times. Anyone who is still struggling with it know days will get better one day. Dont give up. Some days really do still suck but its how we handle it. If you are struggling please dont give up. You are beautiful. You are handsome. You are loved. You are perfect in your own perfect way. I believe in you if no one else does. It wont be an eazy journey but it can be done.
“ I’m not the girl I wish that I could be “
This hit me hard:(
I have been ill going to the royal children's hospital in Glasgow I have been ill for almost 2 years now nothing has changed the medicine makes it worst I get depressed I cry in my room every day and night it hurts world please just make it better I miss being me
Zoe Hamoud You will get through it I can tell you have lost hope but catch the hope again and you will feel better I promise you, you just need love and support I know what it feels like you will get out the hospital soon, there is no need to cry ,I am here for you and I will be happy when you get out I will be happy when your getting better and I will be in the comments when you need to talk.
Zoe Fox awww thanx it actually means a lot to know that there will be someone who will care.
Zoe Hamoud Yep I care and I sure other people in the comments do to! Just keep hope and you will be fine. 😄
😊thank you
Zoe Fox thank you so much 😊
"And now I can't even eat my dinner, mom says I'm getting thinner... am I?" Relatable// bulimia nervosa
"Oh its normal to feel sad when you're a teen. Its all just part of growing up." Yeah right..
This song is way too relatable to myself.
Dayslikethis I'm crying rn this is too relatable
Dayslikethis same... all so relatable
Me too... like just cz someone says I'm fine doesn't mean I'm really fine.
i know
sameeeeee
Am i the only one who can't relate but listens to these to figure out what other peoples lives are like cuz I do that X
Grace :D grate way to try to understand, your a good person by caring enough to want to understand.
Grace :D i cant relate either but so many people can i saved someone from commiting suicide
Grace :D omg i love you, i wish i had someone like you as a friendd!! I would never know anyone who would do that
ayyy i do that
Grace X no I'm like that to
How are you?
Out loud: I'm fine..
Inside my head..
I'm lying why can't you see..
I'm so broken
So lost
So alone
But ill never tell you that..
I would rather suffer with my pain then cause someone else pain..
I wish someone would stop me from drowning..
Im suffocating
But no one cares..
So I put my mask back on..
And pretend to be alright..
I've never had a song I can relate to LYRIC to LYRIC, it's crazy how this is my life story.
I’m so glad I’m not the only person that has to take Prozac for my issues. But I’m so happy you understand the hard times this song makes me cry every time but it makes me feel good
Maddy Funny videos I take that too your not alone.
Mom: "Are you depressed?"
Me: "I don't have time to be depressed. I have people to look after. I can't let them down."
Mom: "Thanks."
Inner Me: "*sigh*"
Montana Norred mom are you depresses whats wrong
Me nothing im fine nothings wrong
Sitting on the foor struggling to get up cause whats the point
I am 12 year old. Fighting from depression and anxiety for almost 2 years. Atleast i am still here for my brother and cousin brother whom I promised that I won't do suicide. It hurts but I know that all of you who are there outside still fighting. I am proud of you. When you feel like giving up, remember that atleast there are people like me who still hope you don't die. We are stangers but when it comes to love, I wanna scream this to you whoever sees this that I love you so pls don't give up!♥
Wish I could relate to this but my parents don’t even want to take me to the doctor because it would ruin their reputation
Sorry to hear that. My parents never believed that i was depressed. No one believes me that im depressed so i keep everything to myself
trust me if im caught listening to a sad song or look sad i would get a slap on the arm by my mother telling me to smile and stop listening to these and despite hitting me and my brother she wouldn't dare hit my sister the little "angel" who calls me her maid and well my family has a reputation of the perfect family from the outside but on the inside well my family is broken the only 1 who seems to understand me is my puppy who i count as my youngest sibling she listens to me talk,sing and just cry but she helps she is like an emotional support dog and she is only 6 and a half months.
I feel like some families just want to seem that way. They never are, I don't think that there is such thing as a perfect family. Everyone has their problems and they should really consider your feelings.
OMG WHY IS SONG SO RELATABLE!
The_100_Fanatic don't down yourself it will get worse think positive people love you don't worry someone is always helping you☺
Right
I know. Alot of songs have helped me with anxasity and depression.
Agreed
Because the disorder she sings about is very common. Over 70% of people suffer from depression.
I suffer from PTSD, Clinical and Chronic Depression, along with Anxiety. My little sister and I would fight all the time about it. She is too young to understand why I act that way I do. She just sent me the link to this song, then she said: "Listening to this song make me realize how hard it could be to put up with suicidal thoughts, and just know I love you and I will always love you no matter what fights we get into and we say different bc in the end we still love each other💗."
i have anger issues so 1 one word and i can flip my lid but i conceal them
I JUST REALIZED THIS LYRIC VIDEO IS THE ONE MY BEST FRIEND MADE😂😂
i used to sing this all the time when i was 11-12 never really knowing what the lyrics meant now i’m 15 and i relate to this so much
everything in this song is me except the parts of the doctor
dahlia_ 101 yup
dahlia_ 101 but thats the whole point you dumbass
same!!!!
Woah calm down. That's why people are depressed because people like you always saying something. Why cant you let his/her comment make sense in their mind?
MyChemical21CryBabysInReverseAtTheDisco its the fucking internet darling
recovery isn't easy. what works for someone doesn't work for someone else but often times doctors don't see this. if it isn't helping, SAY SOMETHING or no one will know how to help you. please keep trying.
„Now I've lost so many years my pillow's a tissue for my tears but you never see.."
This is so relatable in school everybody is calling me to be "lost" 'cause I am always tired and often overwhelmed with social situations and sometimes I can't hide it... I am laughing with them but deep inside I know it's not an image of mine..I struggle with an anxiety disorder especially social anxiety and depression I can't get out of my house without getting panic attacks I can't get in the city buying clothes or trink something in a cafe and I can't meet anybody outside. Sometimes I feel all at once than I feel nothing at all school feels like hell but I keep fighting every day even when nobody is see this I know there will be better days...be thankful for the little things in life even when it's hard life will not always be a fight🙏
I never realized how much weight I’d lost until one morning I couldn’t stand up without wanting to pass out
The only thing that scares me is..
my own self.. my demons who just wakes the wildest storms inside me.. Sucide squad? Cmon join me on the comments..
same 😭 ever since my childhood, I was bullied, and till this day, I’m broken.. I act like I’m happy at times, I act like I’m sad, I act like.. I care sometimes, but the only thing I feel is either upset, sad, mad, and.. happy at stuff others don’t feel happy about.. I’m scared at myself. I don’t even know myself anymore. I don’t even know what’s wrong with me, but I know something is..
Couldn't relate more, nothing ever gets better, that's all life is, a continuous mental test to see how far it can push you till you break but there's never an escape from it. Its Asif the only real freedom anymore is death :/
@@michaeljacksonfan3219 you sound just like me, I'm so sorry :(
Morgan Damari thank you ❤️ I read what you said I understand how you feel ❤️
Michael Jackson fan, I’ve been scrolling through the comments and I see how you are supporting everyone, I just want to say, you are an amazing person with a caring heart. Keep being you
I just went to the doctor over my depression and they did say I was fine but it's bot true I see things I have bad dreams and I don't speak
I really hope it gets better for you. Please hold on.
If you need to talk I'm here. I hope you are doing okay.
I don't think seeing things is,, healthy at all. You should see a psychiatrist for that
This song hits so close to home......except i dont ever talk to anyone about the depression im going through because im so afraid everyone will leave...
When this song makes you feel something for the first time in so long and now it's 5 am and your sat in the dark sobbing
Everyone seem to be getting better, I seem to be getting worse.
I'm getting worse
I'm getting worse
I don’t think you understand how true this is for me everyone around me is getting over their ‘depression’ but I’m developing anxiety and starting to have suicidal thoughts 🙃
Suicidal thoughts, anxiety, major depression. I want to do everything right but I do everything wrong. You're not alone in getting worse. I can't even see my therapist because if the stupid weather.
I'm getting worse
the song definitely is relatable people with like anxiety or depression or whatever, you want to call it. They don't really get the help they need. they go to a doctor for them to get better, and the doctor says they're fine they're just depressed and need to take pills because apparently pills are whats going to make you happy. no, because what's going to make you happier is the people around you or the ones that try to understand and help. so I try to place myself and happy environments with friends, and to be honest my mental illness I don't consider it inside I don't consider it depression or anxiety. I consider it me that's just how I am it's just how it is, and I hate that they try to put this label on your feelings and then when somebody comes in feeling sad or feeling alone they just give them pills like that's going to help anything, I don't want artificial happiness, I want real happiness and. that's what pills, are artificial happiness. that's what the doctors don't get they just diagnosed them by throwing anxiety or depression around like it's just a thing that is normal for people that are sad or alone. and it's not it's them and I feel like what somebody needs is friends and people to be there for them, and talk to them so when your parents say you're alright because the doctor says you're fine, it's not true because if you know you're not fine then you need to speak up ,because that's what I did and I'm trying to get better as of today. And when that gave me pills I refused.
mya loves Hi ☺️ I know going to see a provider can be incredibly frustrating, especially when it comes to medication. It took me four years to find the right provider and to finally open up to them the way that I needed to in order to find the perfect therapy and the proper medication. You're right, you should always speak up when you're not feeling well because you can't get better by saying quiet! I hope that you have found people who understands you and genuinely listens to you and I just wanted to say I wish you the best in life and to always keep your head up.
mya loves When I got these pills I couldn't help but hate my mum and my doctor.Because like the song said,they were saying I'm fine.So I refused them.And didn't talk to my mother for a while,because I thought at least she would understand,because she also suffered from depression a while ago but she didn't.
You see it's different for everyone. Everyone has their own experiences, for me it feels as though I'm stuck in a hole and no matter how much I scream or yell nobody is coming around. Yes, I have friends I can talk to they make me feel BETTER but inside I don't think I'll ever be OK again. All we can do is wait and see. While it may feel like days repeat themselves they do bring suprises. I've been feeling slightly better lately as I just got a lil parakeet, Ray, and he really makes me feel loved. So; Pro Tip 😉: get an animal or pet or chat to friends and family you can trust if you have an older sister, if you're a girl, or brother if you're a boy. So, don't stop believing even though it may seem like 'Life is meaningless, we're all gonna die anyways' stay positive even if its just saying 'Hey I'm not too bad' Give yo self a hug it's from me. :)
Peace Xx
CZcams has been recommending a lot of sad stuff..... It knows-
I'm fine, I really am, my definition of fine just changed over the years.
I can fake a smile, I can tell jokes, I can hide my scars, I only thought of killing myself a few times today, I'm terrified of everything, I'm choking back tears, I'm still just breathing. So I'm fine. If I'm alive physically then yes I'm fine, and I believe it. Because I have no one else to help me. I don't have a doctor, because I'm just a salty teen, I'm not broken or sick. I'm just a terrible person. And I'm fine.
Thank you so much for making this. Parents often don’t believe us because we have become so good at hiding this. I really needed this.
When you have depression or anxiety, it's not something that most people take seriously until you actually start to lose it and hurt yourself. Which, I find is stupid. The only way that things like this get serious is when you ignore them. That's how it got serious for me and for my best friend. I didn't eat for a week and ran my nails across my skin, she cut herself. Please, take these issues SERIOUSLY.
😭 i love this song so much it speaks to me so much!
The greatest disguise is a smile
I'm okay. 😊
I really am. ☺
I promise. 🙂
Am I...🙁
I don't know any more...☹
No...im NOT fine. I'm broken. 😭
Same
Hey, I know I’m like, really really late here.. but if you ever want to/need someone to talk to, I’m here, and I’m more than willing to listen
We can chat here or hmu @ Pbreexp@gmail.com
"and oh, i miss when we were younger...the days were so much funner, werent they?" when we were younger, we didnt know what 'depression', 'suicide', 'anxiety' ,'anorexia' was....we were carefree and reckless...now we all have these things and theyre slowly breaking us into a thousand pieces and we cant stop it.....if anyone ever needs someone to talk to, message me on snapchat @ "savagebxtch04" and maybe i can help you.
Heather Reynolds true
Hey can I talk to you on Snapchat 😭I need someone to talk too but I have no one here
Heather Reynolds
When we where little, we had little minds and didn’t know how dark life could sometimes be. When we where little, we didn’t know what terrible people where. When we where little we thought everyone in the world would be nice and kinda. But what I wish I would have known when I was younger was that not everyone is kind, and that people like that would be the reason I’m broken. I just wish my younger self would have known that 😭
Haylie Hedden you can also talk to me if you want! My username is btsislife9047
wait your user name for what because I really do need a friend to talk to but I'm not so sure how... so whats your user name for??????=,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,(
Just randomly found this song while drinking and in my feels, and wow. Incredible. We've all felt that deep loneliness of people brushing off our pain, and this puts it so powerfully.
It's awful that so many people are broken inside but can't say anything. For everyone who reads this, I really hope you manage to find balance and happiness in your life, because you deserve it. You are great, you are beautiful and you are loved! Keep fighting! You can't be strong all the time, just let the world see the real you
random : are you o.k.
me : yeah I'm fine
random : are you sure
me : yeah I'm fine I'm sure
thoughts: no I'm not but I can't tell you that I try I do but you just give drugs to shut me up
j sass master Martinez or just tell my perents which makes shit worse
Middle school....it destroyed me.....i feel broken...my mum tells me im fine and my life could be worse.....MOM NEWS FLASH I FEEL LIKE I KILLED MY REAL DAD ME AND U GET INTO ARGUES ALL THE TIME And i cry ever night because you tell me im selfish and when my hair is greasy i look like messy little girl sure i have a roof over my head food on my table and a loving fam but what i want os for us to stop fighting! I know she will never read this but, It gives me comfort knowing maybe someone will read this and say they know how i feel or something i just hate my life, theres nothing special about me, I love my mom and she loves me no she doesn't hit me and stuff but her words hurt me deep inside :(
j sass master Martinez. true
I drink bleach Don't ask why my mom does the same to me but I just get quiet and try to get away from the conversation and that works, some times. After I feel like s**t and I want to hurt myself but I don't because of my younger siblings. They are the only reason I am still here.
I drink bleach Don't ask why i know you how feel
This song is so relatable... except for the pills part.
Vianey Torres same
Same here.
The pills are antidepressants. It's actually kind of sad cuz it's basically fake happiness and most of the time they don't work
And also the doctor part for me. I have nothing, no medication, no therapy, no professional help, and no support from family. :D
Same but i dont have doctor. My friends and my family dont even have a single idea on what im going through. I cry in my room then wear my smile when they're looking
If u were born in the 80s and sad in the 90s i know ur still here listening. And im with u ❤
Just because a doctor or “professional” said you are fine. Doesn’t mean you really are.
Hope any of the people who can relate to this song will feel better.
Hope
Hold
On
Pain
Ends
my doesn't end...
does it really? it has been going on for almost a year and a half now...
i'm here for you. I'm sure it will
:)
Kate Love pain never ends for me at least I sill want to die and I’ve been like this since I was 7