Depersonalisation and derealisation during protracted Antidepressant withdrawal : My experience.
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- čas přidán 7. 06. 2022
- I just talk about my experience with withdrawal induced depersonalisation, derealisation, and how I hope to feel the raw emotions of living life again one day upon cessation of the drug and healing through the aftermath.
Ultimately, giving hope to others fighting through the hell of post acute protracted withdrawal, and all the symptoms we contend with on a daily basis.
Don’t give up, live day by day and keep showing courage . We’ll heal in time with patience and resilience. 💪🙏
So PROUD of you sir! You are stronger than you know. Thank you so much for making this video and sharing your story with the world. Your vulnerability and raw emotions are so empowering. DP/DR and detachment are extremely uncomfortable and so scary. It’s completely normal to be afraid, but you will relearn how to love again and be the “Real Cole”. Your brain will heal with time.
Thanks 🙏 very much Ryan 👌😎
I gonna tell you a secret you may not fully understand yet: You will heal! It will get better!
I speak from experience. (15years off)
Hey how long did it take you to heal? My brain feels destroyed. I have bad insomnia, body aches, gerd, ringing ears, head pressure, a lot of shit. My anxiety and depression are big and I dunno I’m struggling big time.
@@mum4550How are you now bro
@@mum4550 are things better? I get so mean with my boys verbally, sad n feel hopeless for them a lot even tho they still have hope, and it's hard to sleep n sleep good
Keep fighting brother. You will heal ! Glory to God.
Thank you for this authentic deep personal vid bro! Im near on giving up but for the most part it's companions like you I choose life
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Hi Cole,
Thank you so much for sharing your story with us. I really admire your courage in speaking about this. So many people across the world have been let down by the medical profession. I'm confident that you'll beat this. Happy to talk if you ever need. All the best to you, Ralph
Thanks 🙏 😊 very much
Bro, I’m going through this shit as well at the moment. I was on citalopram for 5 years and was essentially cold turkeyed by a doctor over about a month. Worst thing that’s ever happened to me and after 1.5 years, I’m still struggling with depersonalisation, derealisation, memory and cognitive functioning problems (I would say that’s the worst bit for me), also sexual problems and I worry that I’m developing pssd. Also my face shows my inner pain so badly, like my eyes are sunken into my face and my brow is sunken, and eyes glazed over. I’m down to 1mg at the moment and will be on that for a while. I wish you healing and recovery from this horrible situation man, I really do. All the best
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You're amazing and I can 100% relate to you completely. Thank you for sharing your videos 🙏🙏🙏God bless you and heal you
Just a few short years ago, you would have been diagnosed as ‘mental’ and told to take MORE medication. It’s because of brave patients like you, there is a community of THOUSANDS that know this is real and in time can be healed. Even the data shows medication has a horrible long term outcome. Thank you for sharing your story. ❤️
You’re more than welcome 🙏 😊
Word ! It's surreal, deeply disturbing. If not for all the vids and the latest developments by brave scientists and more I would have been lost and ended up like the majority with more meds. But to be honest, I don't think I can go on like this for longer and might switch or add another AD. I need a more decent state. Because it seems I never reach a level where the windows outweigh the waves and therefore continue with the tapering
@@livingunderachemicalinflue5849did you feel leg pains my friend please answer
@@rameshlumb4003 no, Just sore joints and constant muscle cramps, pain in nerves, fingers, toes, ears.
@@livingunderachemicalinflue5849 I'm getting g the cortisol rushes and when I try to sleep I wake up frantic. Never had these til after zoloft. Thought I was getting better
Just found your channel, currently 2 weeks after my 3rd taper off Effexor XR after being on around 20 years, from age 18. Did 2 tapers over a year ago, 6 weeks apart, and couldn't do anymore till 2 weeks ago. I've done so much in thr past year for my mental/emotional health and brain support, so was hoping this one would be easier. But it's still absolutely NO JOKE! It's brutal! The exhaustion, fatigue, akathisia.... thankfully emotions have been more stable this time. But coming off 225 mg looks like a long crazy intense process! I agree, I'm so ready to feel life again! It has come back some after narcotic withdrawal after 12 years of usage for severe pain. Thanks for the hope you offer!
You’re more than welcome 🙏. All the best on your healing journey 😊
There IS hope. The journey to recovery is long and difficult. Our brains have been damaged. Going on 2 years of tapering.... getting flashes/minutes of reality now. It's worth it. A day at a time , a minute at a time , sometimes seconds at a time. Be blessed.
Hi brother just want to say that God knows your heart and how strong you are I pray you are moving closer towards complete recovery and that the path is there for you. You will heal. I'll keep you in my prayers.
Thanks 🙏 my friend
You asked how we cope... deep acceptance and surrender; for me before this all started, acceptance was a concept, now it's becoming an embodied knowledge. How did that happen? Like you said... yoga, meditation, affirmations, prayer (didn't have any experience with that before), safe intimate friends who do not judge me, removing self-judgement, knowing it will not be this way forever. One second at a time... Thank you for sharing your experience. Your videos help me cope.
I feel detached from so much. I don’t feel complete or balanced at all. I’m either feeling good or feeling like I’m nothing at all. I’ve been taking venlafaxine for 2 years now. When I’ve tried weaning myself off of it.. I become so enraged or just so suicidal. People truly don’t understand how it is unless they go through this. 😢 It’s really terrifying because I feel the changes. I feel I’m so lost inside myself that I wonder will I ever be able to break free of what feels like a prison in my mind.
I really hope you are feeling better. And know that I enjoy watching your videos. It helps me to know that someone else understands. I can’t wait to feel myself again. ❤
Thanks very much 🙏😊
Take things day by day, deep breaths, healing ❤️🩹 will happen in good time.
@@yashwanthd1998 I have no idea how I do to be honest. A lot of strength and resilience. 💪😊
Things will improve in time.
Jess , taper off really slow. It took me 2 years.
It truly can be done. It can / will get better, but it's a slow process.
God bless you on your journey .
@@yashwanthd1998 , sometimes its a second at a time. Slowly seconds turn into a minute...so forth. Withdrawal is an excruciatingly long journey. It IS possible.
God bless you on your journey.
Go on I'm rooting for you , bit late how are you doing and you cried in this video Ryan that's an emotion (sadness) u know that so emotions are there the other ones your looking for you might have to dig for them but there there pal the human body is amazing
Hi Cole, I’m also a fellow Aussie sufferer of psychotropic med damage. Long story short I was cold turkeyed off a benzo 8years ago then placed on 2 other meds. I went through a fast taper off the SSRI 4 years ago which was also horrific. Now tapering off the last med and 97% off. While I’m still suffering symptoms Im better in many ways. I just wanted to let you know that you will feel love again and feel the beauty of nature again its an amazing feeling when it comes back. You are so courageous to do this channel I wish I had the courage to do it because the dangers of pysch meds must be discussed as much as possible especially here in Australia because drs are so blinded and negligent. Feel free to message me if you need to reach out for support.
Thanks so much 😊❤️
It’s something that really needs to be addressed in the medical community, so I’m prepared to make these videos to raise awareness, and connect to others for support.
That would be great, what’s the best platform to message you ? Take care and continue healing ❤️🩹
@@livingunderachemicalinflue5849 you can reach me through messenger under my name. My profile is myself (dark brown hair) wearing sunnies hugging my daughter with trees and water in the background. I don’t mind offering support because I know too well how isolating this experience is. Tbh it helps me too.
Truth.
I have been on this drug for migraines, it's been awful and going off this medication is one of the most horrible experiences in my life. My mental health is awful now, brain zaps 24/7, insomnia and I sweat like a fucking pig. I feel like this drug has ruined my life in an age of 24, and some days I feel like I will never be okay again. I am so grateful I found your videos. Watching your videoes makes me feel less lonely, I have learned so much from you. Thank you for being vulnerable, raw and so honest. Thank you for showing your journey. I am sending lots of strenght hugs and love. You are so fucking strong! ❤️
You’re more than welcome 🙏
You’ll heal in good time, day by day 💪😊
Your story is similar to mine! Got put on for headaches as well. Are you still currently taking the medication?
@@juliannewman8720 No I'm not on it anymore. It's been a journey. My neurologist gave me a "two week quitting plan". Scary to think about doctors having so little information about this med, and how difficult and painful it is going off the med. Two weeks are 2 fast 2 soon. I found all these support groups recently. I am 2 1/5 months clean from the medication. What about you?
@@AnimeLuffyable how are you doing now? I'm 2 years off. I went off and back on because of the withdrawls. I regret reinstating. Do you have any sexual issues?
@@juliannewman8720 why?
Hey man, you’re doing really well. Hang in there. You might want to join this group that I’m in online called Antidepressant SSRI withdrawal support. It’s super helpful. I’ve been in withdrawal now for 1.5 years since I stopped medication and I’m slowly coming out of it. It just takes time. I have DP/DR as well but I know it will get better- and you will too man! Hang in there, praying for you
Thanks 🙏 man. I’m 5.5 years in withdrawal and still not off the drugs yet. I’m happy to hear you’re getting better. Thanks 😊 for the lovely message.
Hope you’re better bro. ❤
Well done dude you dont know me but im with you, im simular spot. Ive learned that its important to get lots of little 1%s i call them. Anything that gives you even 1% improvement find them. If you can feel 10% better it really helps, little things like excercise games hobby puzzles anything
Im on this journey too! From 18-31 ive been medicated in some way. It will be good to be free even if im depressed. I will just have to learn to cope
Depression is nothing compared to what these drugs do to us. All the best on your journey 😊
I rebuke any evil spirit binding this man in the name of Jesus Christ. I ask you God to lead this man towards complete recovery Father God heal this man in Jesus name. You will heal. Thank you God for healing this man. Praise God
THE SPIRIT OF CHRIST COMPELS YOU, THE SPIRIT OF CHRIST COMPELS YOU!
Poor holy spirit feels left out
Amen!
I've been praying sooo much, going to Adoration, drliverance prayers as well, novenas for healing, healing Masses. It's helping.
Amen 🙏🏻
I come into agreement with this 💯
God bless you brother
Psychiatric medicine is the worst to withdrawal. I came off klonopin and it was a ride. Came off Seroquel and it was terrible as well. Stay off these drugs and cope with stress naturally.
If I can do it, you can do it.
How naturally? When u anxious all the time and alone.
Hey bro I feel you I had antibiotic induced neurotoxicity, my whole life had been taken away from me
I now have no energy, I don’t know who I am anymore and bad nerve pain ear ringing joint issues.
My sleep has gotten better but bad vivid dreams every night.
Miss running :(
Wish you well
I have only just found your videos and honestly mate I cried when you did. I am 7 months off ADs after being on citalopram for 10 and last year my GP switched me 3 times which caused so many physical symptoms. I am still really struggling like you and when you cried I really felt it and started crying as I fully understood the hurt and pain at that moment. I will keep you in my prayers bro and I really hope you can heal soon. ❤
Thanks mate, all the best on your healing ❤️🩹 journey
I woke up at 2in the morn again and its awful dont know how ill keep this up, I FEEL SO ISOLATED HERE , IN CALIF.
I also been on antidepressants for 18 years. I doubt I would cope from day to day if I didn't take up running as an essential life change. Now its hard to get through the days if I don't go exercise hard. Tried to quit Efexor 3 times. Not sure if I can ever get off it completely. My most recent journey was over 1 year and still this wasn't enough time to withdraw comfortably. I definitely identity with the numb feeling. I think its a mixture of actual head tension caused by the drug and also chemical change in the body that are happening from day to day events. Rest assured all those "normal" emotions are not lost and will come back with time.
❤
Same situation but I stopped when I turned 19, in pain everyday, dpdr is off the roof at times, and still feel horrible symptoms like I’m high or having an attack and feeling scary physical sensations too
Taper off s l o w l y. I actually used a razor blade to shave off tiny bits. It took me 2 years , but am now off. I'm still feeling withdrawal , but getting better each day.
God bless you in this difficult journey.
Fellow Aussie, suffering through hell. I don't know who I am and the Dp/dr is so scary. How are you? I hope this symptom is long gone
Hang in there mate, all we can bloody do. I’m just getting through the days the best I can, healing from the psych drug damage, toxicity. It’s surreal isn’t it. Unfortunately still have it, hopefully one day it lifts. Stay strong. 💪🙏❤️
YES! "How do you cope with these feelings of detachment , away from society , away from being real..."? I cope a minute at a time , a day at a time . . . Yes , our brains have been altered.
If possible , have at least one person who believes what you are going through. Have human contact as much as possible. Find one motivator to get out of bed in the morning. ( For me , its coffee and to feed my dog) Force yourself through the racing thoughts , lethargy , mental fatigue , to do one small thing.... Maybe brush your teeth. Go outside as much as you can stand , perhaps just set on the stoop even for 5 minutes.
These forced rituals have helped me take steps back into reality. I am gaining snippets of sanity . Know it takes a long time , but each day brings a tiny bit of healing.
One other experience you may have is an uncontrolled consuming rage - mine came several months after tapering off Paroxitine. It was unexpected , and hideous. For me , that rage passed slowly, lasting about 2-3 months, but lessening daily.
I did my best to eat clean , drink water...and move my body as much as possible.
@@susanmorgan4151 absolutely, little steps day by day. Sometimes we have to push ourselves a little, but it’s all part of the healing journey, process.
@@susanmorgan4151how are you now
Susanmorgan4151, how are you doing now? Did the feeling of detachment fade away for you?
I am now almost 6 months off xanax, but the dpdr, feeling of unreality is the scary symptoms for me. If I look in the mirror, I can't relate my image to my inner self. I feel like floating in , and not actually alive. This is very frightening.
Will it ever go away?
Hi! I just found your channel and it is scaring the cr@p out of me. I have been on Effexor for about 15 years. I’m on the minimum dose of the extended release capsules. If I forget to take it 1 day I am melting down and getting brain zaps the next. I just finished reading that I am now in danger of getting dementia from this drug! (I started it @ 54 and am now 69)
I also just read that the usual treatment to stop this medication is to completely switch to Prozac and then taper down from that drug which is easier to get off of. Was that option not available to you? I have found some micro dosing spoons and am planning to open the capsules and remove a few beads each week and see how it goes. I am not the bravest person in the world and have to psych myself up first! (I did reduce from 75 mg to 37.5 mg quite a while ago because I hated how it made me feel)
It has been 4 months since you have posted so I will pray that you are still standing strong Cole and that you are able to answer my comment. With all best wishes.
Hey there, sorry for the late response. I’ve gotten completely off Effexor now. It’s the toughest battle I’ve ever had to do, but it’s well worth it when we heal and reach the other side. I’ve got along way to go, but getting clean off the drugs was the first chapter.
Yes, I did try the Prozac bridge but it didn’t work for me, I became very suicidal and aggressive on it. Ultimately, we are introducing another neurotoxic chemical into our brains and bodies, even though the half life is longer, it doesn’t mean we won’t necessarily have severe problems. Everyone is unique and reacts differently.
My advice would be to come off very slowly, 2-5 % reductions of current dose every 4-6 weeks, especially as you’ve had long term exposure to the drug like me. Take care and feel free to message anytime. I’ll try my best to respond 🙏😊
@@livingunderachemicalinflue5849 Thank you for the advice and your concerns. You are kind❣️Hope you are feeling a lot better than you were! Best wishes.
@@catherinewilson1079 you’re welcome ☺️
These drugs need to be banned.. how they're approved by modern FDA standards is ridiculous
Criminals
I’ve been experiencing this for 16 yrs 24/7 it’s gotten worse since I’ve had a kid it’s like I can’t deal with it anymore how I use to. Now I think about it all day it makes me super depressed and suicidal pray I get better
I feel your pain mam I’m 19 and got drugged up when I was 14 with serequel for insomnia. My childhood was extremely distressing. It turned me into a zombie and I wanted to kill myself every day. I went off of it cold turkey not knowing how powerful the drug was. I thought it was like Benadryl or something. I felt human and was enjoying life and then I went into withdrawal psychosis for 3 weeks in a psych ward. The only way for them to bring me back was to give me the same drug basically but stronger. I lived on those meds for 2 years and was very happy and then my doctor neglected my meds and didn’t monitor them closely and I developed seratonin syndrome, and severe akathisa. I was never mentally ill, but now I am basically brain damaged. I know it doesn’t help much but you’re not alone at all. Keep fighting mam, until one day you won’t have to❤️
@@julianthorsted9250 I’m praying you get better very soon. It feels like I can’t take it no more. I don’t know what I’m going through I’m very depressed because of how bizarre I’m feeling. You think it could be psychosis I’m always afraid and on ease. I feel like on ease all day long. I feel like my brain has altered I can physically and mentally feel it. I don’t feel the same at all
@@ThatgirlLondon. Thank you so much, likewise 🙏. No it’s not psychosis, you wouldn’t be aware of yourself or your actions if that were the case. Ik it’s not my place to ask, but since you had a child did you suffer post partum depression or anything? Totally okay to refuse the question, but any type of medication a doctor gives you can alter your brain chemistry a bit.
Hey there, I have alot of your same symptoms… I hope you’re finding some relief. How long have you been off the medication? And any improvement?
Still fighting to get off the drug completely. Will take time once off to heal properly and feel properly alive again 💪👍
I only took antidepressants for about a week and everything felt dream like for about a month after I stopped
Is it already ok now?
Please tell me your experience
Im also off after three weeks
Because numb in emotion
Feel nausea after withdrawl
Hi
I'm really confused cause I don't really know if I have DPDR or something else... sinds almost 3 months after a shock event in my life I'm started feeling like my house.my work place my street my family, friends and every single place I visited before strange and first time I went there and also my memories and everything in my life like doesn't happened and also music i loved and every detail in my life...myself my personality like not myself anymore... and also that i feel that everything around me is weird and like im not living in life and environment around me like trees and everything so strange! It's like I forget what normal is and who I was as a person before..
And also related my sensation of weather and environment and seasons?
And when I talk it's not seem like me
And my head like it's not mine
Feeling like I'm not here...
this is DPDR for sure. it also makes your vision kinda weird,like some kind of mini dizziness and unreality in your mind that you just cant explain.you feel uneasy and like your mind isnt calm the way youre used to.it can definetly have effects on seasonal changes.for instance,when its winter,i feel more energetic and my vision is clearer,cause the cold kinda shocks my brain a bit,but when its warmer,my vision gets a bit weirder and i feel less energy,but in my mind im a bit happier,but worse in general
I’m suffering from Psychiatric drug withdrawal induced depersonalisation so completely different. I do know that anything that causes intense stress or trauma on one’s body can induce this effect, feeling. Grounding yourself in nature, plenty of rest, reducing caffeine and alcohol can help. The more I heal, the less this sensation, effect will hindrance my mind and body. It’s a very long windy road for me though.
I understand how you feel x
Hope my words did not get lost. I pinned them 5 minutes ago
just a question bro,sry for bothering so much :D in one video,you mentioned ototoxicity,as it means you had problems with hearing? my question is,did it resolve,or atleast heal a bit?was it in just 1 ear?
Hey man, no problem, I’ve just dropped a dosage so been in survival mode. Ototoxicity means damage, poisoning to the inner ear canal from neurotoxic medications, drugs. I’ve been experiencing pain in my ears and hearing insensitivities for about 4 years now, I’ve been dealing with tinnitus for about 5 years. I hope when I complete my taper my brain can heal, and everything will follow suit. It will be a long journey upon cessation I’m sure.
I hope you’re hanging in there brother. Will always try my best to reply when I can 🙏😊
@@livingunderachemicalinflue5849 ty a lot bro :) just 1 more question.did you experience a temporary hearing loss in one of your ears? or like you hear less from one ear? hope youre feeling better soon
@@stevengerrard7610 no worries man. Yes I continually experience hearing less in one ear than the other, and very nasty tinnitus, constant ringing and high pitched as well. Cheers, it will be years of healing but with a lot of strength I’ll get there 💪😊
Will update on my progress.
@@livingunderachemicalinflue5849 ty for the response bro :) update us for sure!
How is your dpdr now? Has it improved? What type of feeling you are having or manifestation of dpdr?
I am now 8 months off xanax, but still having this, I don't feel my inner self connected to me or environment. I am always in confusion about myself and my life around me , that is it really me or my life. I have mental symptoms also that is more disturbing. Do you have these?
Unfortunately still experiencing these issues. All of what you said i experience currently. Disconnected from reality, disconnected from myself and who I’m meant to be. It’s scary but I try to tell myself it’s part of the recovery cycle, process of neuroplasticity and renewal, regeneration. There are subtle improvements im experiencing, so I hold onto those and celebrate those little wins. It’s a slow process unfortunately for us. Hang in there man. 💪🙏
@@livingunderachemicalinflue5849 yes... it's a very slow process, and scary also. I also keep reminding myself that it's temporary and part of my healing journey.
Just passing the days... hoping to get better with time.
At 1.5 mg of paxil, I can't go any lower. My symptoms are so severe, akathesia, very high anxiety, intrusive thoughts, fobias, etc. I am in a dark place
Maybe I need up my dose for a while and later try much slower. Do you have any experience up your dose? Or it's better maintain my dose 1.5 mg for many months and stabilizing?
Hola amigo. I understand 100 % how u feel, I’m currently at 0.38 mg of Effexor and feel like I’m fighting for my life every day with all the symptoms you describe.
I do, I’ve had to up my dosage a few times to stabilise, then lower again. Ultimately my friend it’s up to you. Are the symptoms so severe you can’t go on another day, or do you feel you can fight it out. The longer you remain on 1.5 mg you’ll stabilise to a point, things will be more comfortable for you.
If you go back up you may stabilise more quickly, but just remember you have to come down again. Coming off these drugs, especially Paxil, Effexor with their short half lives and at these low doses is extremely difficult to do. Listen to your body, your heart and follow that with your gut instinct.
You’re extremely close to complete cessation, hang in there. Here to support, help when I’m able too. 💪
@@livingunderachemicalinflue5849 congratulations my friend! You are very very close... I currently have all the withdrawal symptoms I mentioned and other physical symptoms such as internal vibration, cortisol spikes, digestive problems, total loss of libido and some others. However the mental and emotional symptoms are the worst. I have decided not to increase my dose and stabilize at 1.5 mg.
one question, how do you get to such small doses of effexor?. I am doing dry cut and the smallest thing I can reduce is 0.25mg which is a lot in these low doses
@@pablobcl124 hola amigo, lo siento por el respondio tarde. I can talk a bit of Spanish. Been an incredibly rough week.
Same here, internal tremors, digestive issues, but the psychological, emotional symptoms are extremely distressing at this minute for me.
I think staying on 1.5 mg for now and riding out these withdrawal symptoms is probably the best option for you. Give yourself time and take each day as it comes, and be very gentle on yourself. We are very fragile at this point of time.
Regarding tapering of the drug, I’m using a liquid suspension, while using a syringe to measure reductions. I’m going to struggle to get any lower than 0.35-38 mg, and due to suffering for so long now my next cut will be to 0 mg.
I know you can use a jewellery scale, drug scale to measure, but when the dosage gets so small it’s extremely hard. I hope this helps. All the best on your journey 😊
@@pablobcl124
Found a very good link here for you on surviving antidepressants.
www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/27066-brassmonkeys-tips-and-tricks-for-tapering/
Hope your stabilising ok on 1.5 mg 😊
@@livingunderachemicalinflue5849 Agree!
My brother is going thru an extreme case of protracted withdrawals and Very serious and fatal Akathisia 😥. Can you tell me ,In your experience when did the Akathisia start to go away or at least let up enough to be able to sit with your family or children or friends , because he think he is going to die after 14 yrs on it and trying to get back on his antidepressants made it💯 worst??
He's living with a wife andc4?3'__²
I experienced moderate levels of Akathisia for over 5 years, im now off the drug and the akathisia has subtly improved, decreased for now. I don’t want to speak to early though.
It’s a tough one, because I’m presuming your brother came off the drug rapidly, any change of dosages can increase or bring on this condition.
I’m not a trained medical professional so I can’t technically offer advice, but from lived experience you can either go back on the drug and slowly taper till your off it, or wait it out and hang on to body, brain mends itself.
Cold showers, healthy eating, CBD oil helped me during this horrible ordeal.
I hope he gets some respite 🙏❤️
I had aka I would use muscle relaxers n a piece of an edible. It was so scary. I get it mildly during my cycle now. I hope he's getting better n has found some relief. The mysclecrelaxers were left over from my back I jury
hello bro! hope youre atleast doing better than in your last video.are you working like this?what are your symptoms if you dont mind answering
Hey bro, haven’t been able to work for years. To be honest, too many to mention, the main ones are Akathisia, cognitive decline due to neurotoxicity, withdrawal induced depersonalization, severe fatigue, protracted withdrawal symptoms, CNS system damage.
I live in hope that the brain heals and the symptoms will subside over time. 💪😊
@@livingunderachemicalinflue5849 if you are off the drugs,the healing started the first second you got off! you will heal for sure! you will lose some years of your life ofc sadly,but when you get better,you will smile so hard and nothing will be able to hurt you :) not even a breakeup.. cause in your mind,you will be in a state of "you think you've had problems in your life?! bro,i've beaten psychic drugs!" and the truth is that when you heall for even 60-70%,you will get used to it and you will be functional.talking from my own experience. just try to take cold showers each morning,take omega 3 supplements if you can tolerate them,eat low glutamate food and workout,run or do some activities,as i know you already do. we will beat this bro
@@stevengerrard7610 thanks bro, still fighting to get off the drugs, I’ve already lost 5 years so far, but I keep going. Cold showers and eating well have kept me alive for sure. The simple thought of beating psychiatric drugs and healing is one of the things that keeps me fighting in this battle. Hope you’re well man 💪😊
@@livingunderachemicalinflue5849 thanks a lot! how are you doing now?am here to check on you :D
@@stevengerrard7610 cheers man. Still living in survival mode, day by day 💪
How are you now my friend?
Staying strong man 💪
Hope you’re going well 😊
Are you still having dpdr? What type of this feels like for you? There can be different types of manifestations, for me it's like when I see myself in the mirror, I can't relate my inner sense of self to this. All the work I do is automatic and mechanical.
I am now almost 6 months off xanax.
It's very scary, all the time I feel like not living in real and can't feel my body.
Please stay connected, as we are not validated by anyone, and suffer so alone.
Yes, depersonalised to a point to where I don’t know who I truly am because I’ve been numbed and suppressed by these drugs for so long. Derealisation for me represents a detachment from reality and an inability to feel raw feelings and emotions the way an individual should be able to. It feels like living in a bubble, watching the world go by, almost like watching your life from a movie screen.
You are validated by myself and the ever growing community who’ve been harmed by these drugs. Stay strong and focus on small steps, one day at a time. All the best. 👍🙏
@@livingunderachemicalinflue5849 thanks for replying. I see myself totally getting worse day by day, so the hope that I will heal as time passes is fading for me.
Actually despite having severe dpdr and other symptoms, I have to act and work normally in the house. As no-one wants to listen or believe me, they think that I am not adjusting.
These thoughts that what is my truth and reality, what to believe, makes me confused and I doubt my own rational mind. I feel like living a fake life, like I am different when alone, and totally different in presence of other family members.
Do you live with other family members? Are they supportive?
@@angel_2022MI just read this message, sorry about the delay in responding. Sorry about your current living situation, hopefully things are picking up for you.
I’ve had very little family support over the past 3 years, currently me and my younger brother are living together. All the best.
@@livingunderachemicalinflue5849 now I am 9 months off xanax. Things improved a little bit for me, but it's really very slow process. Head pain, heavy head, stuffed type foggy brain is most brutal these days. I just keep going, in the hope, that one day I will see some light.
All the best to you 🙏
Hallo
Im withdrawing escilatopram
after using it for 3 weeks
Feel numb in emotion
Feel nausea and fatigue cant think
Can anyone tell me how long this sympthon will go away
You should be fine, only short term use. All the best 😊
Hope your recovering well! Im experiencing the same thing after taking it for two weeks.
Just found your video. I was on Effexor for 25 years. They stopped working so GP started to taper me off and put me on to Brintellix. The worst experience of my life. Still experiencing brain zaps 4 months on. Brintellix didn’t work so now I’m tapping off them. I’m close to tapering off altogether. I’m so so sorry and I hope 12 months on you are doing better 🙏
Thanks very much, all the best 😊
How are you doing today?❤
Healing ❤️🩹
A long journey ahead.
How is akathisia now, did that get better?
Hey there, still dealing with it unfortunately. The lower I go off the offending drug, it seems to be improving little by little.
@@livingunderachemicalinflue5849 what is your worst symptom?
@@azeminasuljic1558 probably the akathisia, but having a lot of cognitive problems, severe fatigue, head nerve pain and a heap of other debilitating symptoms. Just taking it day by day 😊
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I have only akathisia and it’s enough to drive me insane.
So for how long you have been experiencing akathisia?
@@azeminasuljic1558 since about mid 2016, so coming up nearly 6 years.
ive been on 225mg effexor 23 years, at one point i was on 375mg a day, i really want to feel again but im terrified 😔
I came upon this video after searching for "effexor withdrawal." The reason I'm looking up this drug is that my clean date for effexor is August 16, 2018, exactly four years ago today. Yes, it is possible to come off effexor completely.
That’s great man 😊
There are people who’ve taking this drug for a few weeks, a few years or decades at varying dosages like myself.
There’s so many factors playing into successful cessation of this narcotic poison. Without proper support or encouragement it can be incredibly hard to do.
Great that you got clean 👌
Hey! I’m getting off of Effexor and I was thinking about switching to Zoloft but now after all these withdrawals I’m thinking about cutting everything off. It’s been horrendous and the doctor isn’t listening. I hope all is well. Would appreciate an update now that’s its been a while
Hey there, still on my tapering journey so still in recovery stage. Down to 0.38 mg of Effexor.
I’ve been on these drugs for a very long time and was placed on them at 18 on a underdeveloped brain, hence the extremely long, painful taper.
If I was you, I’d come off the Effexor completely and learn to live life drug free. These drugs only mask your problems, never solve them.
A good consistent taper consist of 2.5 to 5 % reductions from the current dose every 4-6 weeks. Listen to your nervous system, body and go at your own pace. Best of luck 👍
Right before you came off the meds how were you feeling? Were you feeling like they were causing issues at all or did you just time to stop them? It kills me when you wonder if you'll feel connections to things again as I'm in the same boat. I'm so sorry you are experiencing this. It's the worst. Did you depersonalization this way at all before you stopped them or only after wd? I have so many other withdrawal symptoms and I'm starting to feel that I may just bite the bullet and try going back on them to make this stop. A lot of people heal up in a year or two but I'm 5 years into this and I'm cracking. I vowed to never touch this poison again but I'm 48 years old and am missing so much time with my family and just such a wreck I don't know what else to do. I don't even want to be here anymore. I'm terrified that if I try going on them again that it will make me worse and not better. I'm stuck in this cycle of should I or shouldn't I and its driving me crazy. Also, if you don't know about it there is a website survivingantidepressants.com that has a lot of resources and many people going through this to talk to. They reccomend taking magnesium and fish oil and many have had good results from this. I did not but you might want to try it. I hope it all comes together for you and feel better soon.
Hey man, unfortunately I’m still on them 😥
I’m down to a very low dose though, currently on 0.34 mg.
To be honest bro, probably the last 12 to 18 months I’ve really felt the the depersonalisation seep in pretty badly.
This is my third attempt coming off this poison, first one was a fast taper back in 2017 which nearly finished me. My brain has been messed around a lot.
May I ask how long you’ve been off the drugs for ? It’s a tough one I know, should I go back on them or continue off them and hope for healing and progression. I wish I had the answers man, everyone is built differently. We’ve both been battling for 5 years likewise.
I’ve tried all those support groups, surviving antidepressants is a good resource for a lot of people for sure, a good community. Yeah man, been on high strength fish oil and magnesium for years, I see it as more of a support mechanism in my healing journey. These poisons deplete a lot of vitamins and minerals, so better to top them up and give the brain, body a fighting chance i guess 😊
Let me know how u get on bro, you’re doing amazingly well to hang in there 💪🙏
Take care.
Hi bro. I can really resonate with you.. its like looking in a mirror.. the numbness and no motivation is the worst.. down to the last 25mg anafranil.. I was on a cocktail it's taken years so far to taper.. what's yer fb man? Talk to you in a bit man
Hey bro, it’s not pleasant at all. My FB is Cole Douglas Robertson, just sitting on a bench with the beach the background in the photo.
Hope you’re going ok 👌
Hey , I was on anafranil too for couple of years and have been off of it for 2.5 years now and still not feeling myself, my main symptoms are anhedonia, lack of motivation, depression and some others.
How do you feel now?
Feel free to text me so we can share experiences.
@@rrreeaz7722 I’ve got along journey ahead to heal, but I believe it’s possible. Take things day by day, prioritise your health. You’ll continue to see improvements 😎😊
@@livingunderachemicalinflue5849 Truth.