Tales of a Gambling Addict - My Relapse Story

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  • čas přidán 6. 03. 2024
  • This week was dark friends. I know you're going to be disappointed in me, I'm disappointed in me.
    Unfortunately - I've relapsed and I lost my clean time.
    My name is Allison and I'm a compulsive gambler. This channel isn't solely dedicated to this, but I'm not afraid to talk about my recovery, abstinence and the challenges of quitting gambling.
    If you found this video interesting then check out the channel and consider subscribing (it would mean a lot). My blog can also be found in my linktree linktr.ee/dopa_mom
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    Gambling Resources
    www.ccsa.ca/
    www.gamblersanonymous.org/ga/
    www.gam-anon.org
    gamban.com

Komentáře • 44

  • @shaunaklimchuk
    @shaunaklimchuk Před 3 měsíci +12

    I’m so glad I found you on here, this addiction is horrendous and so frickin hard to quit. I hope us both the best in our futures..💕

  • @lemmyraisehell.8669
    @lemmyraisehell.8669 Před měsícem +7

    I've now gone 29 days gambling free, I've lost everything, marriage, children, home and my job.
    I struggle every day, it's slowly getting easier, I'm determined to get my life back. I, like yourself might relapse, but I'm giving it a go. 40 years of my life was nothing but a lie, hiding my problem until it ripped my family apart. One day turns into a week then a month, stay strong and reach out

    • @helenmundy2120
      @helenmundy2120 Před měsícem

      Oh geez hope you ok , it’s horrible a demon that takes everything I understand truly, I’m sick inside ,like I’m living a liar 🤥

  • @user-du9fc5co8t
    @user-du9fc5co8t Před 2 měsíci +5

    I love the fact that you're opening up I know you can break free from this gambling addiction it has been only 20 days for me but I have faith and belief I don't ever want to go back play some bet at any casino keep your head up keep the faith Stan prayer it helps a lot if I other things to do in life let you enjoy forget about it put it in the past I wish you all the best

  • @Skylinedude2023
    @Skylinedude2023 Před 3 měsíci +6

    Your emotions are real and raw. I love your genuine emotions. Keep up the good work with your channel.

  • @rubypage1503
    @rubypage1503 Před 3 měsíci +4

    Nobody is perfect; we may stumble, but getting back up is the first step. Find your support person/people and give yourself alittle grace. Sending good vibes and a virtual hug.

  • @rachaelkonway1438
    @rachaelkonway1438 Před 3 měsíci +4

    Oh Allison. Sending you all the love and grace in the world. ❤️❤️

  • @Stryke2wice
    @Stryke2wice Před 3 měsíci +7

    Your willingness to be vulnerable in sharing your struggles is beyond admirable-- it takes a lot of bravery to do so. Continue to give yourself the grace and patience that I'm sure you would give a loved one if they found themselves in your position. I am officially subscribed to follow your journey and cheer for you along the way, you got this!

    • @allisonzed
      @allisonzed  Před 3 měsíci +4

      I really appreciate this. It’s scary telling the whole world about it.

  • @kennyryan9967
    @kennyryan9967 Před 3 měsíci +4

    I’ve gone 3 weeks since deleting the apps after losing more money than I can say. It is very hard and temptation is there. I’m afraid how I will get past March madness. I had stopped for a few months but then the super bowl came up and I relapsed too. The companies keep sending me offers and free bets so it is very hard. Please be well. I was so hard on myself but trying to forgive myself. I believe this is somewhat caused by abuse I have had when younger and I use the gambling as an escape when I am stressed. You are not alone and thank you for sharing your story.

    • @allisonzed
      @allisonzed  Před 3 měsíci +3

      I appreciate this Kenny. We have to stay strong over this. ❤️

  • @LisaMac84
    @LisaMac84 Před 3 měsíci +3

    You've got this, Allison. ❤

  • @amandathomas3247
    @amandathomas3247 Před měsícem +1

    Thank you so much for sharing this!! I have battled this addiction for so many years! Some people just don't understand how something you don't physically put in your body can become so addictive and consume your life. Some days and months are better than others but just like they say in any other recovery " One Day at A Time" And today I will not gamble.

    • @allisonzed
      @allisonzed  Před měsícem +2

      Totally. You’ve got this Amanda!

  • @helenmundy2120
    @helenmundy2120 Před 2 měsíci +2

    Hi don’t be hard on yourself, I am too 😢it’s a struggle every day , I’m lonely and gambling is my only social contact besides working, I wish we could take a pill and stop doing it , sending love you sound so sad like me 😢

    • @allisonzed
      @allisonzed  Před 2 měsíci +2

      I totally get you. Sending love!

    • @jogoldcoaster2847
      @jogoldcoaster2847 Před 20 dny

      Go and buy yourself nice things...look into different hobbies..treat yourself in little ways....they can bring joy...gambling never brings joy....week by week invest in yr future happiness....

  • @TeachGambling
    @TeachGambling Před měsícem +1

    I just hope you fixed this and you’re better now.

  • @user-cg4th4wn2m
    @user-cg4th4wn2m Před měsícem +1

    Stay tough, you'll be okay.❤

  • @pascal30
    @pascal30 Před měsícem +1

    wish you strength and you will reach your goal

  • @Marie-tc9to
    @Marie-tc9to Před měsícem +1

    Gambling is an extreme sport and needs to be treated as such. Just like you strap on a parachute before jumping out of a plane you need to take the same precautions when going into a gambling environment. Cash and ID only works wonders. Every single person who gambles will tilt if careful barriers are not put in place.

  • @RainCanadian
    @RainCanadian Před 3 měsíci +3

    Big ups for being brave and speaking out about the issue. Have you seen any therapists? I found them very helpful for a similar issue

    • @allisonzed
      @allisonzed  Před 3 měsíci +2

      I need to go. But I’d have to seek out private. Public support is almost non existent

  • @robertstrutt5468
    @robertstrutt5468 Před 15 dny

    gambling is caused by the absolute boring life of society now, I am a addict, but I am also a winner, TILL, you are not on your own and you have to support others, I have never been totally down, BUT, I could see as I aged were my addiction was going, and it was not good, so I sold up and moved to thailand ,invested in a farm that gives me a lot of options to keep me busy. I AM SO HAPPY NOW WITH MY LIFE AT 77 ON MY FARM, BUT i AM STILL A BLOODY ADDICT

  • @enkadude
    @enkadude Před měsícem +1

    I have a minor gambling addiction that I have kept hidden from my mom so far. She would be disappointed in me if she found out so I hope she never finds out as she is in her golden age years.
    I don't have any advice for you as I can't go couple days without gambling. I will subscribe to your channel as I will cheer for you to get back to one year gambling free. If you could do it before, you can do it again!

    • @allisonzed
      @allisonzed  Před měsícem +1

      Thanks friend. Also - I believe in you!

  • @annarosemont494
    @annarosemont494 Před 3 měsíci +3

    🙏

  • @brianhenson7877
    @brianhenson7877 Před 8 dny

    i love to gamble. i play some blackjack and video poker but i mainly bet on sports and i love it. i just need to try and bet a little smaller

  • @Piratemkalee
    @Piratemkalee Před měsícem +1

    Am in the same position as you....i just hope someone could bless me with a camera ...i do vlogging instead something to keep me busy and also talk about my gambling problem to others as we struggle together

  • @cryptickarma_
    @cryptickarma_ Před měsícem +1

    put all your extra money in a account that only your husband is aloud to access. even if you do relapse at least you wont be able to binge all your savings.

  • @Ooops1984
    @Ooops1984 Před 3 měsíci +4

    Gambling can be a filler for boredom. Find other hobbies to distract and occupy your time. Chasing losses is the onset for the degenerate. Remember its the casinos sole purpose to part you from your cash... any other form would be criminal, but its advertised as fun and stop when the fun ends. Last resort for an addict is to move away from the easy access to any casino and delete all apps.

    • @jogoldcoaster2847
      @jogoldcoaster2847 Před 20 dny +3

      Cut up all bank cards that allow you to withdraw cash....structure all accounts so u cant withdraw cash...no cash no play...just get help to organise yr finances to.pay weekly bills...no cash no play...

  • @user-kd1kz1wd6s
    @user-kd1kz1wd6s Před 3 měsíci +2

    Please get a sponsor.

    • @allisonzed
      @allisonzed  Před 3 měsíci +4

      That’s the plan

    • @lacysheetz8876
      @lacysheetz8876 Před 3 měsíci +1

      You are not alone and you will get through this! I wish you all the best in your journey of healing.

  • @tycobb2580
    @tycobb2580 Před 11 dny

    02:30 ?tips? All the videos I've watched says you don't have any control over it . . . maybe see an addiction specialist

  • @Jolly-Green-Steve
    @Jolly-Green-Steve Před 3 měsíci +1

    I'm currently losing money "gambling" in the stock market by loosing money in a stock then selling to get a stock that is performing well and it immediately becomes a loser as soon as I buy it over and over again. my trader is making a small fortune on commissions though so good for him.

    • @azman210
      @azman210 Před 8 dny

      The stock exchange is the largest casino in the world

    • @Jolly-Green-Steve
      @Jolly-Green-Steve Před 8 dny

      @@azman210 I've lost 50k in the stock market in the last 3 years. I only lost 23k in 12 years of playing poker.

  • @Sid-mu8jt
    @Sid-mu8jt Před 2 měsíci +1

    😻 Promo-SM

  • @utubeyelper
    @utubeyelper Před měsícem +1

    Best of luck to you❤️🙏🙏🙏.. this addiction changes your neural connections to see more.. no matter how motivated or disciplined u are..
    Damm casinos will even fly u to their casinos.. been there done that..
    Relapse is very real..one jackpot could trigger everything again🥲🥲

  • @angelapalsrok1102
    @angelapalsrok1102 Před 2 měsíci +2

    Today is my first day of gambling sobriety and I can relate to your struggles with shame and embarrassment: I am so angry with myself for not having the willpower to just stop. I have been terrified to face this issue directly, and I honestly don’t know how my life is going to be upended by my decisions. I am exhausted: physically, emotionally and psychologically. I am so numb that I can’t even cry about this anymore. I wish you peace of mind and the strength to care for yourself as you revisit your recovery. ❤️‍🩹 One minute, one hour, one day at a time, my friend.

    • @allisonzed
      @allisonzed  Před 2 měsíci +2

      I'm proud of you Angela - and I absolutely understand these feelings.