Still dealing with it - you and me both - damn. I get to the suicidal place almost daily. Helps a great deal to have these videos to relate to. Best to ya bro!
Thanks for the update! You sound you're getting better little by little. I'm 15 months off and started feeling bad head pressure in the front part of my head. Still got the fear thing too, and get easily startled. Also, feel down a lot like theres some force pulling me down. Just gotta try and stay positive and busy. Take care
Keep up the good job staying clean and thinking about your daughter. I been taking ibuprofen for the muscle aches but guess that's part of the struggle. What don't break you make you.
Ang Peacock thank you. It's definitely a lot of ups and downs, I'm glad I made it this far even if I still have some rough roads ahead. Super happy I had you and everyone else to support me.
Keep going my man. It’s tough to hear about your suicidality becuase as the drug epidemic around the world grows, people like you who put themselves and their ideas out in the open are needed more than ever
Just did three years off benzo . Was at a doctors office and heard some bad new and had a panic attack right there and then . Doctor offered something to Calm me down . . So went with it . It helped for the moment but it didn’t change anything . Exercise and just trying to keep your kool . Seems better . Benzo is whatever also alcohol is too . Stay strong Bruh . Fight the fight . 🤙🏽✌🏽
Hey man still right behind you with this .. I go through the same things too.. about the gym thing .. don’t do too much high intensity exercise ( CrossFit ) it releases cortisol and cortisol make symptoms worse and it’s hard on the central nervous system .. go for old school gym style exercises light to medium weight with medium reps .. lift weights and do one muscle group at a time and if you have to do cardio walk at a pace for no more than 20 minutes ( treadmill) 3 x a week .. I’m a bodybuilder and I’ve been back in for 8 months .. that’s how I know what happens to the body when we do exercise ... when I push too hard in the gym I start experiencing more cns issues ... which has me toning it down every once in a while .. all the best and take care man .. we will eventually get through this hell
@@Jack-mw3rp same here 2 years, try l arginine at doses ranging from 1000 to 3000mg per day, many brain problems have to do with nitric oxide production
I'm not sure how long ago you posted this. I'm 38 months out from benzos. I can relate to everything you say. I have some of the same symptoms as you and other ones like extreme fatigue etc. In in a big wave now caused by extreme stress again for the last 10 days. Hoping to lift soon. Anyway I've had the head pressure. I still get it. It feels like my head is suddenly getting pressure and is going to explode or I'm gonna have an anurysum. Maybe I described mine a little different than you described yours, but I think it's the same cause. I dealt with it for some time off and on. Still get it at times. I think I might have an answer for you for this. It fixed mine for the most part at least. I believe it is the muscles in your neck and the base of your skull are getting really tense and squeezing. This is what is causing this head pressure and pain sensations. It is for me anyway. I've never had this prior to benzo withdrawal. Here's what works. Go to a chiropractor that specializes in/works with muscle stretching. They use thier fingers to push on your muscles at certain points to shorten them and then have you do a certain stretch at the same time. There is a name for this type of muscle work but I can't remember what it is called. Don't let them adjust you though, only have them stretch your neck muscles and the muscles at the base of skull. Not that an adjustment would hurt you but it will not help anything at all and might give you a stiff neck for a couple days. The strecting is very effective though and very quick and simple. It fixed mine after 2 visits. It will come back again periodically when under extra stress, but usually 1 session with chiropractor again to stretch the neck muscles and it's gone again. I never thought my neck muscles where tight. They never felt like it, but it was in fact the problem. Makes sense though. We hold stress there, plus benzos withdrawal plays hell on our muscles. It's worth a shot! Thanks for the videos. It helps knowing im not alone in this.
I Appreciate your videos. You are very honest and articulate. Be very careful about foods that have MSG and high glutamate. They are excitatory to your nervous system. This may be why we get windows and waves partly. It’s a crazy road and nobody would believe it unless they have experienced it. 🙏👍 My wife was a pharmacist and she says to stay away from B6. It can rev up symptoms. 💪🏼
DrLivelovelaugh do you know anything that might help us? I noticed the b6 makes me worse. And yea msg is very bad I've accidently eaten it a few times.
sixslow be very careful because MSG goes by many many other names such as autolyzed yeast extract and even natural flavors and spices. I’m not a believer in taking supplements or going through this process because we are so sensitive and The food and supplement industry often hides inactive ingredients which may spark waves.
Organic green tea helps me with the brain stuff , eating the right things and eliminating all the bad has made a huge difference. Stay strong I've just completed a four year taper 3 months ago and withdrawals are no better, you're doing ok for ct.
Keep making videoes mate. You will recover believe me. But its a tough one, im in antipsychotic withdrawal and they are 90% similar to benzoes. Its hell, but keep going and the best wishes to you.
I have suffered from chronic headaches, which eventually crawled down my neck and back and became chronic. Then I started having migraines. A doctor told me to press on the back of my head in the dip as hard as I can. It helps a lot. It has turned migraines down to headaches, and headaches have disappeared. Give it a try, and give yourself several minutes doing it, and do it while you are laying down as relaxed as possible.
just saw your day 36 video and immediately had flashbacks to when i came off a 3 yeard xanax addiction that built up to 30mg a day by the end (and 30mg was only enough to normalize me and not cause any inebriation due to such a high tolerance at the time in 2003) the only reason i believe i did not have any seizures was due to the fact that i was taking gabapentin while i came off of the xanax. the acute detox took about 2 weeks and it felt like how you looked in that original video since then i have never gone back and have somehow changed in my physiology as since then i can take benzo's of any kind without any fear of relapse as they no longer effect me in any sort of positive manner and i only utilize them in very spread out small doses perhaps 20mg of valium over the past years time.. no temptation even because of how shitty they make me feel so thats an added bonus im glad to see you toughed it out brother keep at it! :-) also check out iboga some time, very interesting form of addiction therapy tho doesn't work well for benzos but works wonders for opioids amongst other substance issues.
You should take some omega 3, some magnesium, and some vitamin C. Some D too I think. And definitely a probiotic. Megasporebiotic worked for me... a lot of our Nuerotransmitters that our brains need are made in our gut so you want to make sure your gut’s microbiome is healthy. Sounds weird but it’s the answer. For real
Yes I've taken those mentioned, plus numerous other supplements, still take C and D. You might want to read studies or hear cases, first hand such as mine that show no improvement regarding Benzo withdrawals. You would do well to be there with empathy rather than listing supplements, to someone whose health status you know nothing of or even care about.
I believe you 100%. This stuff is crazy!!! Stay Strong!!!! How is your sleep? Do you have nightmares? How do you manage to drive with the head stuff? What do use for the head pain? I have head stuff BAD and I can’t find relief.....
🤕🤕🤕🤕 OMG ... I have the same exact pain in my head “Occipital Neuralgia”... CNS is all out of wack. Same exact spot! Your videos are very good for me to know what I’m dealing with is withdrawal. Pshshs... everyone I know in withdrawal all have the 2 year story before they are better. Some people have the DNA to heal quick... I’m only 3.5 months off... I worry how long I have to deal with the pain. Working out does the same to me. Adrenal glands are all messed up. Dr can’t do anything.. CNS is compromised with no natural GABA flow and Adrenals are in overdrive. You said it all.. hate you had to suffer but your videos are very important to me! You got me out of a bad spot one day... I got many other symptoms... Wish I had a Daughter.... heck maybe even a wife ... but glad I don’t cuz I feel nothing but rage and misery. (Revelation 21:3, 4) - Hope
Princess T hi... sorry there is nothing quick and easy other than another medication that will only create another problem. Meds like Gabapentin... Some do medication marijuana, even the topical. I never tried. Can’t get it anyway. The only thing that helps is mindfulness meditation guided practice mp3 I have. The other thing is John Sarno’s book to help with the psychological part to know the pain is from the nervous system. The other book “The Worry Trick” by David Carbonell... I get audio books ... better affect than my voice 😉
Robert Long I didn’t know Benzo could cause such nerve damage. I didn’t know. I’m suffering from malabsorption too. My brain doesn’t know how to process food anymore. The minute I eat anything it overstimulates my brain and causes me to almost pass out. That’s ANYTHING I try to eat.
I know this sounds ridiculous but I wish I could hug you and tell you, "it will all be ok in the end" and "this will eventually be nothing more than a memory" but I am still Tapering myself. Your videos help a lot. I realize that giving advice (mostly on Reddit) is a very sensitive thing to approach. Everyone says (including me) to exercise and watch their diet. You've made me more aware of the fact that what helps one person could hurt another. This shit is so horrible and I wish there was something that helped overall since the cause is the same: Benzodiazepines. As for people who tell you this is in your head, let them think what they want, and hopefully they never find out what this shit can do. I know this is a long winded comment so I'll stop with a request. Would you be willing to consider making a video during a "window" because those days are what keep us going. It might help you as well as your viewers to make and see one of those videos. Thank you for continuing to make updates through this battle. You are stronger than you think (:
sixslow withdraw is the healing of the brain after substance abuse, it might feel like brain damage but anytime the brain is healing from drug abuse it's called withdrawal
props to you man. I watched the 36 day cold turkey video, and while I did not cold turkey or have issues relatively close to that, I can relate. This drug has medicinal use, but using it daily becomes a huge problem, fast. Super super dangerous drug in my opinion. Glad you're better now though. Stay up man :)
You are a warrior my friend and you know you are going to make it .I was two years on benjos per day and now last 16 month withdrawals you are giving hope to many through your Mindfulness. psycetric medicine may helpful in short term treatment when a person is violent or sucidical but in long term they will make you surly Mad there is only treatment for these depressions and Mental illness type problems counsiling ,meditation, love ,Care,, etc Doctors and psycetric with Fharma companies make you ill for life time so they can feed their hunger for money I bet on this there are no Mental illness and no Mental treatment in this world Mental problems happens bcz of human personality disorders we can improve these problems by practicing correct practice of behaviour etc I am from India asia
I am also from india and have been addicted of escitalopram and clonazepam. Will you please give me your contact number so that i can talk to you regarding this problem
Your defiantly still in WD, ignore what they say...am sorry to hear of you struggling still :( Am 26 month out of a Paxil CT 20 month out Z drug CT & nearly 50% through my benzo taper Totally struggling like so bad it’s criminal Just wondering how am going to make it,am non functional & house bound So frightened 24/7
Sixslow I need some advice. I want to stop cold turkey after taking Klonopin which I take for insomnia .5mgs . I've only been taking them for 3 weeks as prn. Should I expect a long withdrawal or a short term withdrawal in your option. My GP thinks 2-4 weeks would be about right. I expect rebound anxiety and insomnia soon. Just wonder if I'll normalize faster from short term usage. I don't abuse it but did once a few days ago with alcohol. I hope the withdraws won't be as bad as yours. Any advice will be helpful on insomnia issuses or withdrawal effects?!
Say bro how long did it take to feel physically up to par?? I been quit xanax for 3 mos and a half day before new years and my body still aches. Let me know how you did bro thanks
Did you ever try the gaps diet and heal the leaky gut? I totally feel how you feel on the protein shakes I’ve tried them recently they’re good but they do not like my body I will have one every now and then early in the morning so far I have done the best on the gaps diet with lots of eggs I really think if we heal gut that speeds up the process
hey!, I know what your going through!!, I was just wondering if there's anyway we could get a private chat I live in the UK and I'm really at the stage now where I'm more than sure I'm gonna have to end this for good!!, this is not in any way a cry for help its a fact!, yesterday I had to take some diazepam just to end the suffering for a short while, I'm getting severe hallucinations and depersonalisation derealisation and I can't sleep my body feels like I'm being electrocuted I went 10 days with no food and very little fluids my stomach pain was so severe I can't even tell you how painful this has been and the doctors don't even seem to understand what I'm going through I really am at the end of the line here buddy!, any help would be appreciated thanks!
Also, don't knock it until you've tried it. Search out deliverance ministries/healing ministries. I have seen many people miraclously delivered of all this. You deserve it, you put in so much efforts. Omegaman radio has a lot of them to choose from.
Swelling in lymph nodes could be lymphoma. I was diagnosed with non Hodgins lymphoma after cold turkeying 60 mgs of oxycontin and 40 mgs of Xanax for 14 years. Please get your doctor to refer you for a sonogram.
Thanks man. Ive tried to document my detox from valium and found it very fucking challenging; especially for the first 3 months. I was prescribed Valium for 3 years, 1 yr. 2012/13 and the past 2 years. I stopped the week of xmas. My highest dose was 30-40 mg per day/ one 10mg tab 3 to 4 times a day. I ran out early almost every month so for the last week(during the last 6 months of my dependency) i had a xanax connection who id buy a good 10-20 2 mg bars to last me thru the last few days til i could get my script.... But yea man, THANKS alot and f'n congrats on losing the "zapping/electric shock feeling" i still get it(in month 3).. I heard u say u feel that weird like weight near where ur neck meets ur head? I have that daily; right now actually and i have to have my head/neck slightly tilted forward to be a bit comfortable. But yea bro. Thx alot
I have “friends” that I know roll their eyes at what I’m going through. It’s terribly upsetting. I mostly choose to isolate so I am not that person who is complaining. But when asked how I’m doing, I feel they wouldn’t ask if they didn’t want to hear. Why would I seclude myself for a year, if I was faking or overdramatizing. Fuck those people. This feels like a terminal illness. Sometimes I wish it was, because an end would be eminent.
Is overstimulation is symtoms of benzo withdrwal i become so hyperactive without sleeping i dont feeel tired .. i dont know what is happing with me i am 16 month off ... eveni have dp/dr
Im 14 months of now still with horrible stomach pain spssms cramps u say im your videos u play games like xbox i cant play xbox or losten to music my body just cramps up as soon as i want to do somthing its like the excitment is making my pain more intense did u feel this atall makes me stop doing anything hope your well mate
Tell me please haw dangerous is to make an survey? If a am on withdrawal? I need to do urgent? Becouse i have vervy sever pain? Is dangerous the anesthesia? Pls answers me? I could die?
Try forcing a more positive outlook. We are what we think we are..and its hard to think happy but its needed...oi I have my crap updates on my other channel (errorfairy)& I found to help with racing thoughts I sing a dumb song in my head forcing my thoughts to go in circles instead of running a marathon and I laugh while I do it to avoid anxiety thoughts also watching asmr helps the MOST. I've taken supplements and don't find any issues yet but maybe later who knows...who knowwwssss I have so much ahead of me...sorry for the 1000 comments
You got that right about the alcohol!Holy hell can it get much worse lol.I'm so glad to hear you're doing better!!Boy have you come a long way and should be so proud of yourself!This will help explain to anyone watching why we have to avoid it during withdrawal
Damn Erich, that sucks! How are you today, 8 months later? And what was your benzo consumption like? What benzo, dose, how long did you take it, taper/cold turkey, etc.?
May I ask why you stopped taking benzos? My clinic will no longer prescribe benzos, so I went off this past January. I’m trying so hard to be positive, but sometimes it’s just too much for me with the dreadful rebound anxiety and other symptoms.
Music Maker& Loving Vapor because it was just making me sick, i felt like a shell of myself . Always clouded and numb. I hated it. Hopefully you tapered off , if not just hang In there it will ease up
Where is your 19 month video? When you say you are afraid of reality, what specifically do you mean? How is it working thru out this? I've been working as a caregiver and it's been hard, lost my office job, been working as a caregiver since 2 months off to survive. I was offe re d hospital receptionist job but not sure I can do it..I feel so trapped in this world...only 10 months out from being cold turkeyed.. thank you for your time and input
smoked marijuana for years . quite bit of experimentation with hallucinogens. as far as psych drugs go , just a weeks worth of celexa but this subject really interests me.
My boy, it's so crazy how similiar we are in our progress. I'm at seventeen months myself. Just started back to working out, I hate it so bad, but feel like it's a neccesity. I could've warned you about the l theanine, it acts on gaba receptors. Hang in there bro!
Dude, your story inspired me to create my on videos, if you have a minute, could you be so kind and watch them and give me your opinion, at this point I trust more ppl whom had gone through the same withdrawal as me than doctors. Peace
25 yrs my doc threw vals at me saying if i have to come off i will just have trouble sleeping and a little nervous.they made me even more nervous.docs do not tell you avertything and if iknew how i would feel i would.have gotten the doc addicted.see how he likes it.pure hell.
I'm scared of reality all the time do you think this is going to make me a better person? I've been on valium for 11 years I stopped taking it February 1st I met someone on a benzo support forum we're literally about ready to get married I could definitely use some good advice and some good support right now I feel like a f****** scarecrow I force myself to eat but my bowel movements are horrible and that's on Gross but literally when I was going through week one I watched your videos and I laughed not laughed at you laugh thinking oh my god this is my life now give me some hope here brother I need it I'm about ready to fly a girl out and marry her
I am all about playlists and green shakes I'm at 1 mg more than I am at 2I bounce back-and-forth cause I'm scared to jump and I got done do a really good doze I just have to stay at 1 for a month it's so hard
Sounds like sinus dude. Benzo withdrawal and sinus issues are common. Don't you think doing weights is making you worse? It's hard on your CNS. If I do weights my cog fog gets so much worse. My symptoms are really similar to yours now and I'm almost at 13 months.
You probably need a holiday andhave a vitamin b deficiency. Are you really sure you haven't got an ear or nasal infection? This pain in your neck, stretch and stop slouching, good work keep it up
I didn't, youtube app is messed up and it got deleted. CZcams won't respond and I don't have another copy of the video. I'm going to make another video this weekend though! =)
sixslow yay that makes me so happy, I’m 14 months and out and struggling with fear and looping thoughts and fatigue, like I can’t think like a rational person if that makes sense, I got to watch that video before it was taken down and you seemed so much better it gave me a lot of hope, just your overall vibe was so positive and alive
Your videos are encouraging for me, I am about 2 months out off my taper. Periodic spikes in b/p and the heart palpitations freak me out the most. The tinnitus is consistent and focus and memory is tough. I feel the frustration you go through. Started taking taurine and it helps after reading this post. survivingantidepressants.org/topic/5759-taurine-for-heart-arrhythmia/ Also I want to try magnesium theonate. Hang in there!
nazlı fiziksel semptomlar için birşey diyemem ama kötü düşünceler için "khechari mudra" isimli bi uygulama keşfettim. basit bir dil hareketinden ibaret google görsellerden bakabilirsin. panik atağın ortasında bile yapsan 2-3 saniye sürmüyor geçmesi. kesinlikle işe yarıyor. bunu en kötü düşünceler başladığında yap diğer semptomlara pek faydası olmuyor ama ataklara kesin çözüm. lütfen bu söylediğimi ciddiye al ve dene
Alper Sener panik atak geçti çoktan ama pisktri ilaclari hayat bitirdi iyi olunca herkezi utabdurcam avrupa zaten uyandı avruoada daha mahkeme pisktri ilaclari kaldırılsın diye başladı dünya ayakta artık türkiyede tik yok
iyi atakların geçtiğine sevindim diğer semptomlar da kısa zamanda geçer inşallah. aynen henüz etkileri bilinmeyen ülkelerde satışa devam ediliyor. halkın bilinçlendirilmesi lazım. para için cehennemi yaşatıyorlar insanlara
Mike L it will get better at 4months off but my 5month started yesterday and still mental symptoms are lingerin... Not feeling perfect still. I hope it will get better after 2months more
You remind me of how I sound when withdrawaling. You're never faking it. I can see it in your face. The one comment hit me...Maybe...Its not withdrawals. It is brain damage. And that's why it's so drawn out. I think those spasm almost looking like seizure things did you in honestly. That cold turkey made this all last longer imo. Caused more immediate severe damages than if you slow taper and your body gets to slowly readjust you had to abruptly start readjusting I'd assume... Have u ever read about the medication in the UK that they give to reverse benzo overdose....It seemed like the subutex of benzos. But maybe it's not I'm not sure. Also You need to use Metamucil! I'm never going to shit again after my last dose. I'm so worried cause I've had constipation from opiates for the same amount of time but got off those thank god...opiates I've now realized as not a very bad drug compared to clonazepam. I'm hoping I can taper down to miniscual amounts before dropping. I also wonder if diazepam is worth switching to. Because I am. Lol sorry very scatter brained. I am just as mad about this as you are. I think we all shoukd ban together on benzo buddies. And take down the benzo doctors lol yeah right....ugh it's just maddening they've done this to us. With no care. No worry of repercussions. #asmr & 5 htp really helps me with withdrawals. 5 htp would help you if you're not already taking it. That and eat alot of hemp seeds and get some CBD or cannabis oil if not for anything than muscle pains. A slave would work wonders. Try marysmedicinals.com
Anton McLaughlin not so much anymore but yes I used to have it bad and it scared me. I used to say it felt like I was on a boat and my head kept getting hit with waves and I'd get dizzy.
sixslow thank you very much for replying, I really appreciate it! How long did you have that symptom for? Did it slowly fade or did you just wake up and it was gone? What made it worse or what made it better? I’m worse in restaurants and sitting at tables in general. I stopped an antidepressant and I at 5 months out, I was hit with a huge list of symptoms, some of which I can relate to you on. I also get that bright white dot that zooms across your vision. Almost like a sprite/orb/meteorite. I think you mentioned it in one of your first videos. It comes very rarely though. My main symptoms are the rocking/swaying boat which seems to go away in a car, and gets worse after I get out - but only on longer journeys. Short journeys I’m fine. I also have floaters, tinnitus, adverse reactions/hypersensitivity (coffee was a huge thing in my life, now I can barely take decaf) to all supplements and medications (even over the count meds) which I’ve had no issue with in my entire life. I’ve felt suicidal, have existential crises sometimes. Feel like I’ll never heal etc. Then I go into a downward spiral. I also get pressure in my ears sometimes. My limbs go numb very easily and I can get pins and needles very easily. I’m weak and get very spaced out vision wise when I’m exercising. It feels like I’m drunk when I exercise. I’m afraid to push myself in the gym - whereas prior to this I use to go 5 days a week and was doing 20 mins at the top speed on the threadmill. Now I can’t even do a light jog for 2 minutes without getting dizzy/off balance. My vision also seems to pulsating sometimes in time with my heart beat.
I had it for like 8 months I think, but it would come in waves, some days I would have it badly and then some days I wouldn't. it didn't just dissapear. Just everytime it came back it was less severe. The important thing to remember is to tell yourself it's all the drugs doing it to you, nothing is wrong with you. and it will always get better!
That’s good bro right behind you I’m at 14 months. Struggling did you ever deal with intrusive thoughts violent sexual obsessive thoughts this is my worst symptoms??
Mo Shark I did too, especially in my dream I will dream about sexual things. This was when I was 9 months out , I was getting this and also during a day, I will get sexual thoughts with images also. But is less now
Nyclette Toby ye I been getting them a lot sexual thoughts and images to everything fckn disgusting get violent thoughts and dreams . Started at 7 8 months . How much months you in now
Insomnia and panic have always been my worst symptoms, but I found that kimchi and ksmbucha really helped my stomach I was able to get off of ppi meds. Of course I have to be careful what I eat, fuck the people who don't believe you. They may never understand. I'll never drink again either. I was off 8 months and got back on due to extreme acid trip level anxiety
sadie girl yup, it comes in waves though . It's not nearly as bad as it was. It's kinda strange, once it start a to go away you completely forget how you felt and that you could ever feel that way. That is until it comes back and scares the crap out of you.
I've watched you for a long while now and I'm so envious of your strength! I'm almost a year off and can't even drive because of DP, and feeling so whacked out of my mind. You may not feel strong, but believe me, you are! Keep on keeping on and this will soon be a thing of the past! Much love to you.
Also I tried to tell you about Ginkgo Biloba, I'm telling you that it is the only supplement that actually targets the right part of the brain and forces the Gaba system to reregulate, if you finally listen to me then take very little (about 2mg) twice a day and work your way up and keep it steady for 3 weeks and then stop for a couple weeks. I promise you that you will see drastic changes and will wish you had listened earlier. Look it up, it's used for Tinnitus but pharmaceutical companies will not research it because that's admitting the problem. You will be able to tell that it's targeting the right area of the brain within 24 hours. You have to be very careful, if you have any questions feel free to reach out..
Still dealing with it - you and me both - damn. I get to the suicidal place almost daily. Helps a great deal to have these videos to relate to. Best to ya bro!
EF how r u now my friend
Thanks for the update! You sound you're getting better little by little. I'm 15 months off and started feeling bad head pressure in the front part of my head. Still got the fear thing too, and get easily startled. Also, feel down a lot like theres some force pulling me down. Just gotta try and stay positive and busy. Take care
Any improvement after 4 years
Sorry I thought you’d be almost healed by now. Keep going and you’ll get there
Keep up the good job staying clean and thinking about your daughter. I been taking ibuprofen for the muscle aches but guess that's part of the struggle. What don't break you make you.
I remember your first week off. You are doing a lot better! YAY!
Ang Peacock thank you. It's definitely a lot of ups and downs, I'm glad I made it this far even if I still have some rough roads ahead. Super happy I had you and everyone else to support me.
Keep going my man. It’s tough to hear about your suicidality becuase as the drug epidemic around the world grows, people like you who put themselves and their ideas out in the open are needed more than ever
Just did three years off benzo . Was at a doctors office and heard some bad new and had a panic attack right there and then . Doctor offered something to
Calm me down . . So went with it . It helped for the moment but it didn’t change anything . Exercise and just trying to keep your kool . Seems better .
Benzo is whatever also alcohol is too . Stay strong Bruh . Fight the fight . 🤙🏽✌🏽
Hey man still right behind you with this .. I go through the same things too.. about the gym thing .. don’t do too much high intensity exercise ( CrossFit ) it releases cortisol and cortisol make symptoms worse and it’s hard on the central nervous system .. go for old school gym style exercises light to medium weight with medium reps .. lift weights and do one muscle group at a time and if you have to do cardio walk at a pace for no more than 20 minutes ( treadmill) 3 x a week .. I’m a bodybuilder and I’ve been back in for 8 months .. that’s how I know what happens to the body when we do exercise ... when I push too hard in the gym I start experiencing more cns issues ... which has me toning it down every once in a while .. all the best and take care man .. we will eventually get through this hell
Benzo healing can take 2-3 years in severe cases, most however heal within 2 years.......12-18 months is the norm for most
How long does it take for someone who's on benzos for 40+ years? Will the Gaba receptors ever turn back to normal?
1st and 15th even if you have a lot of symptoms can you heal in 12-19 months
I’m 21 months clean still ruined
@@Jack-mw3rp same here 2 years, try l arginine at doses ranging from 1000 to 3000mg per day, many brain problems have to do with nitric oxide production
I'm not sure how long ago you posted this. I'm 38 months out from benzos. I can relate to everything you say. I have some of the same symptoms as you and other ones like extreme fatigue etc. In in a big wave now caused by extreme stress again for the last 10 days. Hoping to lift soon. Anyway I've had the head pressure. I still get it. It feels like my head is suddenly getting pressure and is going to explode or I'm gonna have an anurysum. Maybe I described mine a little different than you described yours, but I think it's the same cause. I dealt with it for some time off and on. Still get it at times. I think I might have an answer for you for this. It fixed mine for the most part at least. I believe it is the muscles in your neck and the base of your skull are getting really tense and squeezing. This is what is causing this head pressure and pain sensations. It is for me anyway. I've never had this prior to benzo withdrawal. Here's what works. Go to a chiropractor that specializes in/works with muscle stretching. They use thier fingers to push on your muscles at certain points to shorten them and then have you do a certain stretch at the same time. There is a name for this type of muscle work but I can't remember what it is called. Don't let them adjust you though, only have them stretch your neck muscles and the muscles at the base of skull. Not that an adjustment would hurt you but it will not help anything at all and might give you a stiff neck for a couple days. The strecting is very effective though and very quick and simple. It fixed mine after 2 visits. It will come back again periodically when under extra stress, but usually 1 session with chiropractor again to stretch the neck muscles and it's gone again. I never thought my neck muscles where tight. They never felt like it, but it was in fact the problem. Makes sense though. We hold stress there, plus benzos withdrawal plays hell on our muscles. It's worth a shot! Thanks for the videos. It helps knowing im not alone in this.
I Appreciate your videos. You are very honest and articulate. Be very careful about foods that have MSG and high glutamate. They are excitatory to your nervous system. This may be why we get windows and waves partly. It’s a crazy road and nobody would believe it unless they have experienced it. 🙏👍 My wife was a pharmacist and she says to stay away from B6. It can rev up symptoms. 💪🏼
DrLivelovelaugh do you know anything that might help us? I noticed the b6 makes me worse. And yea msg is very bad I've accidently eaten it a few times.
sixslow be very careful because MSG goes by many many other names such as autolyzed yeast extract and even natural flavors and spices. I’m not a believer in taking supplements or going through this process because we are so sensitive and The food and supplement industry often hides inactive ingredients which may spark waves.
Organic green tea helps me with the brain stuff , eating the right things and eliminating all the bad has made a huge difference. Stay strong I've just completed a four year taper 3 months ago and withdrawals are no better, you're doing ok for ct.
Keep making videoes mate. You will recover believe me. But its a tough one, im in antipsychotic withdrawal and they are 90% similar to benzoes. Its hell, but keep going and the best wishes to you.
Me to see you and congratulations on being clean 18 months off so backson you Rock
Perseverance. The Establishment doesn't care!Im proud of U4 trying.Thank U! Stay Strong! Ignore neg. comments✊🏽💜😌💐🌞🌙⭐️💜💯👍🏾🦋🐚🦋💐💪🏾💞
Ur vids helped me a lot
I have suffered from chronic headaches, which eventually crawled down my neck and back and became chronic. Then I started having migraines. A doctor told me to press on the back of my head in the dip as hard as I can. It helps a lot. It has turned migraines down to headaches, and headaches have disappeared. Give it a try, and give yourself several minutes doing it, and do it while you are laying down as relaxed as possible.
just saw your day 36 video and immediately had flashbacks to when i came off a 3 yeard xanax addiction that built up to 30mg a day by the end (and 30mg was only enough to normalize me and not cause any inebriation due to such a high tolerance at the time in 2003) the only reason i believe i did not have any seizures was due to the fact that i was taking gabapentin while i came off of the xanax. the acute detox took about 2 weeks and it felt like how you looked in that original video since then i have never gone back and have somehow changed in my physiology as since then i can take benzo's of any kind without any fear of relapse as they no longer effect me in any sort of positive manner and i only utilize them in very spread out small doses perhaps 20mg of valium over the past years time.. no temptation even because of how shitty they make me feel so thats an added bonus im glad to see you toughed it out brother keep at it! :-) also check out iboga some time, very interesting form of addiction therapy tho doesn't work well for benzos but works wonders for opioids amongst other substance issues.
You should take some omega 3, some magnesium, and some vitamin C. Some D too I think.
And definitely a probiotic. Megasporebiotic worked for me... a lot of our Nuerotransmitters that our brains need are made in our gut so you want to make sure your gut’s microbiome is healthy. Sounds weird but it’s the answer. For real
Its true. I had severe anxiety after antibiotics. So i felt the reason were depletion in my gut Bacteria. It reduced considerably after probiotic use
Yes I've taken those mentioned, plus numerous other supplements, still take C and D. You might want to read studies or hear cases, first hand such as mine that show no improvement regarding Benzo withdrawals. You would do well to be there with empathy rather than listing supplements, to someone whose health status you know nothing of or even care about.
I believe you 100%. This stuff is crazy!!! Stay Strong!!!! How is your sleep? Do you have nightmares? How do you manage to drive with the head stuff? What do use for the head pain? I have head stuff BAD and I can’t find relief.....
Thanks for this, man..
🤕🤕🤕🤕 OMG ... I have the same exact pain in my head “Occipital Neuralgia”... CNS is all out of wack. Same exact spot!
Your videos are very good for me to know what I’m dealing with is withdrawal.
Pshshs... everyone I know in withdrawal all have the 2 year story before they are better. Some people have the DNA to heal quick...
I’m only 3.5 months off... I worry how long I have to deal with the pain.
Working out does the same to me. Adrenal glands are all messed up.
Dr can’t do anything.. CNS is compromised with no natural GABA flow and Adrenals are in overdrive.
You said it all.. hate you had to suffer but your videos are very important to me! You got me out of a bad spot one day...
I got many other symptoms...
Wish I had a Daughter.... heck maybe even a wife ... but glad I don’t cuz I feel nothing but rage and misery.
(Revelation 21:3, 4) - Hope
Robert Long I’ve got Occipital Neuralgia too!!!! It’s sooooo painful!!!!! Horrible! CNS is really out of wack. You take anything for it?
Princess T hi... sorry there is nothing quick and easy other than another medication that will only create another problem. Meds like Gabapentin...
Some do medication marijuana, even the topical. I never tried. Can’t get it anyway.
The only thing that helps is mindfulness meditation guided practice mp3 I have. The other thing is John Sarno’s book to help with the psychological part to know the pain is from the nervous system. The other book “The Worry Trick” by David Carbonell...
I get audio books ... better affect than my voice 😉
Robert Long
I didn’t know Benzo could cause such nerve damage. I didn’t know. I’m suffering from malabsorption too. My brain doesn’t know how to process food anymore. The minute I eat anything it overstimulates my brain and causes me to almost pass out. That’s ANYTHING I try to eat.
Princess T
😑 So sorry... I had to start doing Digestive Enzyme & Probiotic to help that...
Dude I'm having that crazy pain in the back of my head that's moving into forehead now. This friggen sucks! Hope you're doing ok and resting more.
How r u?
I know this sounds ridiculous but I wish I could hug you and tell you, "it will all be ok in the end" and "this will eventually be nothing more than a memory" but I am still Tapering myself. Your videos help a lot. I realize that giving advice (mostly on Reddit) is a very sensitive thing to approach. Everyone says (including me) to exercise and watch their diet. You've made me more aware of the fact that what helps one person could hurt another. This shit is so horrible and I wish there was something that helped overall since the cause is the same: Benzodiazepines. As for people who tell you this is in your head, let them think what they want, and hopefully they never find out what this shit can do. I know this is a long winded comment so I'll stop with a request. Would you be willing to consider making a video during a "window" because those days are what keep us going. It might help you as well as your viewers to make and see one of those videos. Thank you for continuing to make updates through this battle. You are stronger than you think (:
it,s not a withdrawal , it's a brain damage caused by the benzos , our brains are healing , great progress mate keep it up .
alTaher salah aldin it's withdrawal
You're right, i need to stop calling it withdrawal, its brain/nerve damage from benzos.
sixslow withdraw is the healing of the brain after substance abuse, it might feel like brain damage but anytime the brain is healing from drug abuse it's called withdrawal
Yep.....healing from receptor damage
Yea from going COLD TURKEY
props to you man. I watched the 36 day cold turkey video, and while I did not cold turkey or have issues relatively close to that, I can relate. This drug has medicinal use, but using it daily becomes a huge problem, fast. Super super dangerous drug in my opinion. Glad you're better now though. Stay up man :)
namechanger thanks man. That was a rough time I'm glad the worst is over. This drug is definitely not for daily use. Just trying to spread to message!
You are a warrior my friend and you know you are going to make it .I was two years on benjos per day and now last 16 month withdrawals you are giving hope to many through your Mindfulness. psycetric medicine may helpful in short term treatment when a person is violent or sucidical but in long term they will make you surly Mad there is only treatment for these depressions and Mental illness type problems counsiling ,meditation, love ,Care,, etc Doctors and psycetric with Fharma companies make you ill for life time so they can feed their hunger for money I bet on this there are no Mental illness and no Mental treatment in this world Mental problems happens bcz of human personality disorders we can improve these problems by practicing correct practice of behaviour etc I am from India asia
Rituraj Sharma truth
I am also from india and have been addicted of escitalopram and clonazepam. Will you please give me your contact number so that i can talk to you regarding this problem
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Your defiantly still in WD, ignore what they say...am sorry to hear of you struggling still :(
Am 26 month out of a Paxil CT 20 month out Z drug CT & nearly 50% through my benzo taper Totally struggling like so bad it’s criminal
Just wondering how am going to make it,am non functional & house bound So frightened 24/7
Good job, been there.
Hey i hope you get well soon. May i ask, do you think if i take them for about 3 months only then stop will i have bad withdrawal?
Hey man how do you deal with the fear of reality stuff? Did you have depression before benzos? Keep strong bro
Sixslow I need some advice. I want to stop cold turkey after taking Klonopin which I take for insomnia .5mgs . I've only been taking them for 3 weeks as prn. Should I expect a long withdrawal or a short term withdrawal in your option. My GP thinks 2-4 weeks would be about right. I expect rebound anxiety and insomnia soon. Just wonder if I'll normalize faster from short term usage. I don't abuse it but did once a few days ago with alcohol. I hope the withdraws won't be as bad as yours. Any advice will be helpful on insomnia issuses or withdrawal effects?!
Say bro how long did it take to feel physically up to par?? I been quit xanax for 3 mos and a half day before new years and my body still aches. Let me know how you did bro thanks
Did you ever try the gaps diet and heal the leaky gut? I totally feel how you feel on the protein shakes I’ve tried them recently they’re good but they do not like my body I will have one every now and then early in the morning so far I have done the best on the gaps diet with lots of eggs I really think if we heal gut that speeds up the process
I m alcoholic. I m getting same headache which u explained
I feel the exhaustion in this.
Dude! That’s so true! When I eat unhealthy, I feel better. When I start to eat healthy within 2 weeks I started to feel shitty...
Appreciate this, suffering now 20 - 25 days free thought i was dying my symptoms closely mimick yours, thanks
Have you gotten saved yet? I've been praying for you.
hey!, I know what your going through!!, I was just wondering if there's anyway we could get a private chat I live in the UK and I'm really at the stage now where I'm more than sure I'm gonna have to end this for good!!, this is not in any way a cry for help its a fact!, yesterday I had to take some diazepam just to end the suffering for a short while, I'm getting severe hallucinations and depersonalisation derealisation and I can't sleep my body feels like I'm being electrocuted I went 10 days with no food and very little fluids my stomach pain was so severe I can't even tell you how painful this has been and the doctors don't even seem to understand what I'm going through I really am at the end of the line here buddy!, any help would be appreciated thanks!
im 4/5 months off and i need go hospital on and on. i fear something is wrong always in me and feels like i am again day 1!
It is fucking ruthless this withdrawal agonising and just so fucking intense and drawn out
Also, don't knock it until you've tried it. Search out deliverance ministries/healing ministries. I have seen many people miraclously delivered of all this. You deserve it, you put in so much efforts. Omegaman radio has a lot of them to choose from.
Swelling in lymph nodes could be lymphoma. I was diagnosed with non Hodgins lymphoma after cold turkeying 60 mgs of oxycontin and 40 mgs of Xanax for 14 years. Please get your doctor to refer you for a sonogram.
Thanks man. Ive tried to document my detox from valium and found it very fucking challenging; especially for the first 3 months. I was prescribed Valium for 3 years, 1 yr. 2012/13 and the past 2 years. I stopped the week of xmas. My highest dose was 30-40 mg per day/ one 10mg tab 3 to 4 times a day. I ran out early almost every month so for the last week(during the last 6 months of my dependency) i had a xanax connection who id buy a good 10-20 2 mg bars to last me thru the last few days til i could get my script.... But yea man, THANKS alot and f'n congrats on losing the "zapping/electric shock feeling" i still get it(in month 3).. I heard u say u feel that weird like weight near where ur neck meets ur head? I have that daily; right now actually and i have to have my head/neck slightly tilted forward to be a bit comfortable. But yea bro. Thx alot
We need an update! You're coming up to a year and a half mark! Your vids always help.
YUP! 1 MORE WEEK! I'll be making a video this weekend =)
Awesome! You doing any better? From your last video it looked like you just needed to take it a little easier on yourself.
Yes doing a lot better, I do just need to take it easy which sucks, but i'm learning!
Awesome! Where's the update?
I have “friends” that I know roll their eyes at what I’m going through. It’s terribly upsetting. I mostly choose to isolate so I am not that person who is complaining. But when asked how I’m doing, I feel they wouldn’t ask if they didn’t want to hear. Why would I seclude myself for a year, if I was faking or overdramatizing. Fuck those people. This feels like a terminal illness. Sometimes I wish it was, because an end would be eminent.
How long after you drank alcohol did you feel the bad effects?
Thanks for video I'll stay off alcohol too.
Is overstimulation is symtoms of benzo withdrwal i become so hyperactive without sleeping i dont feeel tired .. i dont know what is happing with me i am 16 month off ... eveni have dp/dr
also six, in your videos im sure you say you used xanax as needed for a year? but the description says you used benzos every day for 5 years?
I have been watching your videos and I am really glad you are feeling better. Were you working through the whole cold turkey?
I took 3 months off of work, then i've been working since without time off. thanks!
@@sixslow That is great to hear and very inspirational!
Im 14 months of now still with horrible stomach pain spssms cramps u say im your videos u play games like xbox i cant play xbox or losten to music my body just cramps up as soon as i want to do somthing its like the excitment is making my pain more intense did u feel this atall makes me stop doing anything hope your well mate
I know that brain feeling. Im feeling it during my taper in between doses. Does it go away?
Tell me please haw dangerous is to make an survey? If a am on withdrawal? I need to do urgent? Becouse i have vervy sever pain? Is dangerous the anesthesia? Pls answers me? I could die?
Try forcing a more positive outlook. We are what we think we are..and its hard to think happy but its needed...oi I have my crap updates on my other channel (errorfairy)& I found to help with racing thoughts I sing a dumb song in my head forcing my thoughts to go in circles instead of running a marathon and I laugh while I do it to avoid anxiety thoughts also watching asmr helps the MOST. I've taken supplements and don't find any issues yet but maybe later who knows...who knowwwssss I have so much ahead of me...sorry for the 1000 comments
I agree it's benzo withdrawal and possibly some co-occurring mental issues that the benzo's onset. Benzo's permanately fucked my brain.
My only issue is frequent urination. It freaks me a lot. I feel its dehydrating me to no end. Anyone else faced this issue?
sanax da iyilestinmi iyileşme varmi bırakırken ne kulandin.
You got that right about the alcohol!Holy hell can it get much worse lol.I'm so glad to hear you're doing better!!Boy have you come a long way and should be so proud of yourself!This will help explain to anyone watching why we have to avoid it during withdrawal
Today marks 19 mo. Stress, anxiety, depression, intrusive-guilt thoughts at an all time high. Really having a rough time of it. Damn
Erich B. How are you doing today
Damn Erich, that sucks! How are you today, 8 months later? And what was your benzo consumption like? What benzo, dose, how long did you take it, taper/cold turkey, etc.?
Hang in there man, I’m a yr out and finally seeing the light out of this hell tunnel.
@@719989 hey how are you feeling now? (:
May I ask why you stopped taking benzos? My clinic will no longer prescribe benzos, so I went off this past January. I’m trying so hard to be positive, but sometimes it’s just too much for me with the dreadful rebound anxiety and other symptoms.
Music Maker& Loving Vapor because it was just making me sick, i felt like a shell of myself . Always clouded and numb. I hated it. Hopefully you tapered off , if not just hang In there it will ease up
when did your waves and windows start six?
Where is your 19 month video?
When you say you are afraid of reality, what specifically do you mean?
How is it working thru out this?
I've been working as a caregiver and it's been hard, lost my office job, been working as a caregiver since 2 months off to survive. I was offe re d hospital receptionist job but not sure I can do it..I feel so trapped in this world...only 10 months out from being cold turkeyed..
thank you for your time and input
Veronica Williams did you recover
Hey man. Congrats! But how much did you use daily during these five years?
from 25mg to 1mg daily of valium. i tapered off. then 2-5mg daily.
hang in there man
smoked marijuana for years . quite bit of experimentation with hallucinogens.
as far as psych drugs go , just a weeks worth of celexa but this subject really interests me.
My boy, it's so crazy how similiar we are in our progress. I'm at seventeen months myself. Just started back to working out, I hate it so bad, but feel like it's a neccesity. I could've warned you about the l theanine, it acts on gaba receptors. Hang in there bro!
Antwon Smith hey how you doing today
So niacin keeps popping up in my searches through recovery lately. How does that work for you?
I like it, it seems to calm me down when I have anxiety or nerve pain. it does give you a "flush" tho which freaks some people out. I enjoy it
I keep getting this neck pain my left side. It's bad.
I’m 21months off valium I seem to have the odd few days here and there where I feel okay then I feel like shit again like it comes in waves
Dude, your story inspired me to create my on videos, if you have a minute, could you be so kind and watch them and give me your opinion, at this point I trust more ppl whom had gone through the same withdrawal as me than doctors.
Peace
Working out revs it up, I do it all the time.
Hey six what do you consider healed is like?
Ryan T I dunno, just not having symptoms I suppose. I don't even know what healed is going to be, it's been too long.
25 yrs my doc threw vals at me saying if i have to come off i will just have trouble sleeping and a little nervous.they made me even more nervous.docs do not tell you avertything and if iknew how i would feel i would.have gotten the doc addicted.see how he likes it.pure hell.
So you were clean for Two years off benzos how did it feel then is it worse this time
hiRaymond Duarte way worse this time
I'm scared of reality all the time do you think this is going to make me a better person? I've been on valium for 11 years I stopped taking it February 1st I met someone on a benzo support forum we're literally about ready to get married I could definitely use some good advice and some good support right now I feel like a f****** scarecrow I force myself to eat but my bowel movements are horrible and that's on Gross but literally when I was going through week one I watched your videos and I laughed not laughed at you laugh thinking oh my god this is my life now give me some hope here brother I need it I'm about ready to fly a girl out and marry her
I am all about playlists and green shakes I'm at 1 mg more than I am at 2I bounce back-and-forth cause I'm scared to jump and I got done do a really good doze I just have to stay at 1 for a month it's so hard
Sounds like sinus dude. Benzo withdrawal and sinus issues are common. Don't you think doing weights is making you worse? It's hard on your CNS. If I do weights my cog fog gets so much worse. My symptoms are really similar to yours now and I'm almost at 13 months.
Netipot didn't work for me. The sinus stuff cant really be allleviated except time.
I’m terrified of trying to withdraw.
You probably need a holiday andhave a vitamin b deficiency. Are you really sure you haven't got an ear or nasal infection? This pain in your neck, stretch and stop slouching, good work keep it up
Hey why did you take your most recent update down? You seemed like you were doing so awesome
I didn't, youtube app is messed up and it got deleted. CZcams won't respond and I don't have another copy of the video. I'm going to make another video this weekend though! =)
sixslow yay that makes me so happy, I’m 14 months and out and struggling with fear and looping thoughts and fatigue, like I can’t think like a rational person if that makes sense, I got to watch that video before it was taken down and you seemed so much better it gave me a lot of hope, just your overall vibe was so positive and alive
Your videos are encouraging for me, I am about 2 months out off my taper. Periodic spikes in b/p and the heart palpitations freak me out the most. The tinnitus is consistent and focus and memory is tough. I feel the frustration you go through. Started taking taurine and it helps after reading this post. survivingantidepressants.org/topic/5759-taurine-for-heart-arrhythmia/
Also I want to try magnesium theonate. Hang in there!
Sean Holder try cbd & 5htp
Iyilesmek için ne kulandin.antideprasan aldinmi su an ne kulaniyorsun ne kadar süredir iyisin
nazlı fiziksel semptomlar için birşey diyemem ama kötü düşünceler için "khechari mudra" isimli bi uygulama keşfettim. basit bir dil hareketinden ibaret google görsellerden bakabilirsin. panik atağın ortasında bile yapsan 2-3 saniye sürmüyor geçmesi. kesinlikle işe yarıyor. bunu en kötü düşünceler başladığında yap diğer semptomlara pek faydası olmuyor ama ataklara kesin çözüm. lütfen bu söylediğimi ciddiye al ve dene
Alper Sener panik atak geçti çoktan ama pisktri ilaclari hayat bitirdi iyi olunca herkezi utabdurcam avrupa zaten uyandı avruoada daha mahkeme pisktri ilaclari kaldırılsın diye başladı dünya ayakta artık türkiyede tik yok
iyi atakların geçtiğine sevindim diğer semptomlar da kısa zamanda geçer inşallah. aynen henüz etkileri bilinmeyen ülkelerde satışa devam ediliyor. halkın bilinçlendirilmesi lazım. para için cehennemi yaşatıyorlar insanlara
Do you take baby aspirin for head stuff? I think it works
Mike L Thank you will try this. So whats your story in brief? When you got relief from cns tension?
Mike L it will get better at 4months off but my 5month started yesterday and still mental symptoms are lingerin... Not feeling perfect still. I hope it will get better after 2months more
Hi
Im 26 months off paxil cold turkey and I still have the symptoms especially when I work out i get insomnia and I become sucidal
Mike L , no way man, i don’t take any thing at all still afraid to go into a deep wave
S Ms how are you today any better
You remind me of how I sound when withdrawaling. You're never faking it. I can see it in your face. The one comment hit me...Maybe...Its not withdrawals. It is brain damage. And that's why it's so drawn out. I think those spasm almost looking like seizure things did you in honestly. That cold turkey made this all last longer imo. Caused more immediate severe damages than if you slow taper and your body gets to slowly readjust you had to abruptly start readjusting I'd assume...
Have u ever read about the medication in the UK that they give to reverse benzo overdose....It seemed like the subutex of benzos. But maybe it's not I'm not sure. Also You need to use Metamucil! I'm never going to shit again after my last dose. I'm so worried cause I've had constipation from opiates for the same amount of time but got off those thank god...opiates I've now realized as not a very bad drug compared to clonazepam. I'm hoping I can taper down to miniscual amounts before dropping. I also wonder if diazepam is worth switching to. Because I am. Lol sorry very scatter brained. I am just as mad about this as you are. I think we all shoukd ban together on benzo buddies. And take down the benzo doctors lol yeah right....ugh it's just maddening they've done this to us. With no care. No worry of repercussions.
#asmr & 5 htp really helps me with withdrawals. 5 htp would help you if you're not already taking it. That and eat alot of hemp seeds and get some CBD or cannabis oil if not for anything than muscle pains. A slave would work wonders. Try marysmedicinals.com
Do you ever have dizziness or balance issues? Even a sensation like you’re on a boat?
Anton McLaughlin not so much anymore but yes I used to have it bad and it scared me. I used to say it felt like I was on a boat and my head kept getting hit with waves and I'd get dizzy.
sixslow thank you very much for replying, I really appreciate it! How long did you have that symptom for? Did it slowly fade or did you just wake up and it was gone? What made it worse or what made it better? I’m worse in restaurants and sitting at tables in general. I stopped an antidepressant and I at 5 months out, I was hit with a huge list of symptoms, some of which I can relate to you on. I also get that bright white dot that zooms across your vision. Almost like a sprite/orb/meteorite. I think you mentioned it in one of your first videos. It comes very rarely though.
My main symptoms are the rocking/swaying boat which seems to go away in a car, and gets worse after I get out - but only on longer journeys. Short journeys I’m fine.
I also have floaters, tinnitus, adverse reactions/hypersensitivity (coffee was a huge thing in my life, now I can barely take decaf) to all supplements and medications (even over the count meds) which I’ve had no issue with in my entire life. I’ve felt suicidal, have existential crises sometimes. Feel like I’ll never heal etc. Then I go into a downward spiral. I also get pressure in my ears sometimes. My limbs go numb very easily and I can get pins and needles very easily. I’m weak and get very spaced out vision wise when I’m exercising. It feels like I’m drunk when I exercise. I’m afraid to push myself in the gym - whereas prior to this I use to go 5 days a week and was doing 20 mins at the top speed on the threadmill. Now I can’t even do a light jog for 2 minutes without getting dizzy/off balance.
My vision also seems to pulsating sometimes in time with my heart beat.
I had it for like 8 months I think, but it would come in waves, some days I would have it badly and then some days I wouldn't. it didn't just dissapear. Just everytime it came back it was less severe. The important thing to remember is to tell yourself it's all the drugs doing it to you, nothing is wrong with you. and it will always get better!
sixslow thank you! It truly is very debilitating. My worst symptom. I can’t wait till it goes. 2 years is too long with it.
Mike L is it the same as mine? Rocking/swaying on a boat?
I didn’t have any problem coming off 4 mg of Xanax. I quit taking an antipsychotic medication and was in hell for a couple weeks. I feel for you.
I'm Not going to tell you how many I take prescribed I mean to say
Hi I'gave up xanax a few days..about 3 weeks I can not breathe properly this happens all day someone suffred like me for so long?
Is it air hunger? Because I had that for 8 months and it went away
I can't get off! No weed, no liquor... And i only take about 1mg a day... Maybe less. This is down from about 8mgs a day.
Fuck suicide bro, I been there it's hard as hell, but our kids need us man. Gotta keep pushing.
Antwon Smith yup I feel you, i hate the thought of it . I always feel so bad for the kids when it happens. So sad
CrossFit is fun but very intense
That’s good bro right behind you I’m at 14 months. Struggling did you ever deal with intrusive thoughts violent sexual obsessive thoughts this is my worst symptoms??
Mo Shark I did too, especially in my dream I will dream about sexual things. This was when I was 9 months out , I was getting this and also during a day, I will get sexual thoughts with images also. But is less now
Nyclette Toby ye I been getting them a lot sexual thoughts and images to everything fckn disgusting get violent thoughts and dreams . Started at 7 8 months . How much months you in now
Mo Shark I’m 17 months out now .... I’m withdrawaling from ssri. I only toke this evil drugs for 3 three weeks....i still have waves and windows.
I dealt with this really bad. Like very frightening and intrusive things I would never think about. It gets better with time though.
Siamese Dream ye its crazy everything i see watch becomes intrusive. What was urs ??
Take 800mg of ibuprofen and 2000mg of acetaminophen. I read it has the same effects as an opioid painkiller.
Insomnia and panic have always been my worst symptoms, but I found that kimchi and ksmbucha really helped my stomach I was able to get off of ppi meds. Of course I have to be careful what I eat, fuck the people who don't believe you. They may never understand. I'll never drink again either. I was off 8 months and got back on due to extreme acid trip level anxiety
DP/DR anymore?
sadie girl yup, it comes in waves though . It's not nearly as bad as it was. It's kinda strange, once it start a to go away you completely forget how you felt and that you could ever feel that way. That is until it comes back and scares the crap out of you.
Do you remember when it started to lighten up for you? It's so god awful!
sadie girl my dp and dr started to ease up around a year I think. But I still have it don't get me wrong. It's just not as bad
I've watched you for a long while now and I'm so envious of your strength! I'm almost a year off and can't even drive because of DP, and feeling so whacked out of my mind. You may not feel strong, but believe me, you are! Keep on keeping on and this will soon be a thing of the past! Much love to you.
What's dp/dr?
It's your neck muscles in which are locked up do to the shock of withdrawal...
Also I tried to tell you about Ginkgo Biloba, I'm telling you that it is the only supplement that actually targets the right part of the brain and forces the Gaba system to reregulate, if you finally listen to me then take very little (about 2mg) twice a day and work your way up and keep it steady for 3 weeks and then stop for a couple weeks. I promise you that you will see drastic changes and will wish you had listened earlier. Look it up, it's used for Tinnitus but pharmaceutical companies will not research it because that's admitting the problem.
You will be able to tell that it's targeting the right area of the brain within 24 hours. You have to be very careful, if you have any questions feel free to reach out..
Hey.. you deleted your last video.. I hope that doesn’t mean you fell back into it. If you did, don’t worry. I believe you will get out again.
The depression from the cognitive shit and physical pain is enough to kill the most optimistic person
That's more like it a better attitude do you go to church if you don't you should The works miracles in if you pray hard enough you just make out one