It does end!! I'm 17 years off SSRIs and am still standing. Whoever is going through this hell, don't give up. You will come out stronger than ever. 💪❤️
Thanks for this! I’m going through antipsychotic hell…emotional numbness and cognitive impairment really looking forward to weaning off and getting through everything
This gives me hope because I'm just starting my Lexapro protracted withdrawal journal 😢 and I'm a MESS: loud buzzing/ringing in my head/ears, increased muscle spasms/tension in my shoulder and neck area, increased pain, increased anxiety, diarrhea and weight loss. Will these things ever end❓❓❓
Oh wow I'm so glad I found this. I took myself off of 7 psyche meds including Klonopin and it's been a year and a half. Here's my problem... Breaking out into a sweat and getting nauseous and feel like my heart is exploding. I heard you mention that. Ty so much for this
The medication is out of your body long time ago. Your receptors came back to normal What you experience called panic attacks. You should learn how to deal with them without meds if you don't wanna jump on them again
@@laniakeas92Have you tried meditation and/or breathwork? It can be reassuring to remind yourself that you’ve experienced this type of reaction before and have survived.
@@reginaharding9855 vibration and shaking while I'm laying down like an earthquake is going deep inside my body... On the outside i couldn't see those but I felt it inside ... I'm 8 months out too ...i was on Snri antipsychotic and Clonazepam
@@lifeburnsbutturns mostly waves but I do have an occasional window. I try to keep myself as busy as possible. When I ruminate, my situation seems much worse.
I’m really loving your forthright truth telling. I quickly breezed thru the extreme woo woo I knew bumping two rocks together was not going to solve shit.
Thanks for the inspiration, Matt! 7 months off benzos, still tapering the SSRIs and I have faith this will get better too for all of us .. somehow I have been working again as well, despite the akathisia, and I think it's so true that once you are out of acute distraction and pretending to be normal are really the key players. So grateful you are doing a bit better!!
Just the view from your window looks soothing. Don’t know how you managed Hawaii but wow that’s amazing. You even look like you are doing better. Keep pushing through it!
Bravo for your move to Hawaii, that’s really inspiring, courageous of you and bold to do it in the misdt of paws. I live in a major city and like you say, it is so detrimental to the nervous system. I’m 100% sure it’s making my recovery way longer than if I were in the countryside. Being able to hang in nature so much is going to do wonders for your healing, I’m sure of that. I’m still struggling personally (2.5 years off); just wanted to thank you for sharing your journey with us. ❤
Hey Matt, thank you so much for this much needed update. I'm in a setback from diabetes medication which makes my symptoms from the withdrawal worse, so I'm just focusing on zero sugar and low carb diet and really needed to hear your message about just do what you can to get through your day, hour by hour, day by day. You also look a little like Jared Leto right now! 🌷✨😊
Hey Matt. Thank you so much for this update. I found you when I first started my taper. I was on Klonopin and Lexapro for 6 years. I already tapered Lexapro. I didn't have a lot of problems with that one. I am halfway through my klonopin taper and it's a different animal. While my symptoms are nowhere near as severe as yours I have a lot them. Mostly a lot of anxiety and bad insomnia. I also have muscle twitches and nausea. You are an inspiration to me. Thanks for caring and sharing. You are a lovely guy. Love to you. Glenn
You talking about how you can eat better now gives me hope. I'm 10 months off and even all these months later I still can't eat anything enjoyable without horrible stomach pains and issues. I've lost like 50 pounds and even with how light I eat I'm still bloated 24/7 it's crazy.
@@foxylibrarian1That’s part of the Gerson Therapy for treating cancer. Make sure it’s organic coffee with caffeine. If I remember correctly, the theory is that the caffeine dilates the portal vein to encourage elimination of toxins.
I respect your stick to it ness I am busted. It’s been a psycho thriller. Keep going. ❤loving vibes, you have been the truth in the fog. Having a serene stomach is such a relief.
After a life of dealing with intense hypersensitivity and years of anxiety and ocd, earlier this year I decided (even though I was not really feeling it intuitively) that maybe it's time to try medication and oh, boy, I was wrong. Exactly like you said on your journey videos, the unreal / uncanny feeling and not feeling anything was too much for me + worsening of symptoms. I did not have any problem going off the SSRI as I only took it for a short amount of time but the benzo was pretty addictive already even though I only took it for a month and a half. I also love rural areas because nature (+ lots of sunlight) has proven time and time again to effectively calm my nervous system. I also had some so so experiences with therapists and psychiatrists and while it's pretty disappointing to say the least, I realised that we truly only have ourselves to advocate for our needs and healing.
The gi improvement is so encouraging I’m at the housebound stage because of my gut and it’s so discouraging. The fear of dying from not eating is so real. I also think long covid contributed so much to mine worsening. Such a pain in the ass. Can’t wait to heal from both
Looking so good man 🥳 You just look so healthy 🙏🏻 I’m doing well and continue to improve 5.5 years on. My Partner, kids and family are so proud of me. Thanks again for everything you are doing for so many people. ❤️🙏🏻🇦🇺🥳
Hi Brendan.. Do you ever get any random big waves that pop up out of nowhere and just throw you off. I’m 5yrs off and have improved a lot but occasionally get what I’d call throwbacks that make me doubt my progress and just want to know if this is normal this far out? I’ve had a bad week after a sustained period of being better.
@@glynhayes5930 yes I do mate. I know I’m not completely done with this crap but yes I do have a day wave or less now. The whole “waves and windows “ thing is the worst part about all this. For the first 4 years I felt so unreliable to my kids, family and friends. Back then I didn’t know when I was going to have a wave and be bedridden for a week. Each year gets better and better but I still have some time to go I feel. 5.5 years and I’m still trying to fathom that this shit goes on around the world . Good luck to you and your family. We keep going on the journey 👍🏻😎🇦🇺
@@brendansmyth5053 Thanks for replying so quick dude. Ah man they’re the worst. It’s so abnormal to be unable rely on yourself or arrange activities in advance. It makes living amongst the normal almost impossible. I find now as long as I manage my environment and keep my workload and stress to a minimum I can retain stability to an extent but any sudden exposure to heightened stimulus or conflict as such can send me spiralling backward and into a wave for a couple days.. although this one in particular has extended beyond a week and quite uncomfortable. Thanks for your support my man and the same goes to you.
Wow Matt. I was thinking about you. Thanks for sharing your thoughts. Can relate in sooo many ways. I know how soothing Kauai can be. I’m very proud of you for being so encouraging to us. Hope your p/t job is going well. Much 💕 Paula in San Diego. Aloha my friend
Matt, thank you for this. I’m so proud of you for your big move to Hawaii. I’ve been going through this withdrawal journey for far too long. You inspire and give hope.
Hi Matt! I'm new here. I have so much stuff I want to say that I don't know even where to start. But right now I want to say that I watched the interview with the doctor twice, it was truly therapeutic 💙. I even shared it with my dad who doesn't have the slightest idea what I'm going through. My mother is in pain 24/7 and I'm starting to think it's due to nerve damage caused by pain meds, so the situation is rough and I'm getting old to be living with parents. What works for me right now is watching reiki asmr videos (I'm woo-woo spiritual too). They calm the hell out of me. I hope you are doing well. Saludos desde Argentina
I can feel from you the maze-like nature of the healing process (what I can relate from the tapering I do for years now and have more years to keep tapering) and the very high difficulty you face, but I also can see a very good sign of healing and improving and I want to strenghten you and to say that I am sure that you know exactly what to do and you do it just right, perfectly. Don't let anybody make you doubt your actions in the process. They can't and they don't understand. YOU are. Just keep going and spread your insights. Many people need it and get helped from that I am sure. I glad you come back to do videos I was concerned you would quit lol but you have, I believe, in a sense an aim to awake others to evolve in how they relate to mental health. Wish you all the success.
So happy for your update and glad you're still here on yt! I am moving to another city with my boyfriend as well and I wanna be very optimistic about it. It's a more quite city and it's just what I need. It can feel equally as refreshing as scary. It has been so hard for me to loose food and other stuff I enjoyed back when my body could take basically anything. It's been 3 years tapering now, and I can finally drink coffee (decaf but were getting there!) and it's always been one of the best ways to start my mornings and just having that back, gives me so much hope. I'm so happy to hear how you're tolerating carbs again, it really does get better. Much love and healing from me
3.3 here. 😮 Youre right. Its anything but a normal journey. Yep, 20 minutes sleep at best in the beginning. I just dont know what this was for. Anyway thanks for talking about your nightmare.
thank you very much for the video. i am in protracted ssri withdrawal since nearly 50 months and i am very glad to get here some kind of support . a change of location is sometimes the right thing to start something new. i also often felt the need to go into nature and silence during withdrawal, because it is healing. i wish you the best for the next time !
I have just been watching your videos. I haven’t even started tapering yet. Everything you talk about speaks to me. Have you checked out Irene Lyon’s work on healing the nervous system. There was a reason you went on these in the first place and we have all been through traumas big and small starting in mums uterus. I highly recommend her. I have been on ssri’s for 30 years and diazepam for 13 years. Have recently dropped from 15mg to 10mg of diazepam and am feeling very flat and then terrified! I went carnivore in June last year and it’s been a tough transition. Thank you for all your videos and keep them coming ❤
This old book 📕 of mine is about a lady that suddenly left her corporate job,went to live in Hawaii & taught the healing power of Dolphins 🐬 think you would so love this book 📖 ☺️
My mom and grandma and aunt all told us not to take psych meds, birth control or antidepressants. We laughed at them thinking they were old fashioned. Well.. turns out taking an antidepressant for years because you “need” it - with “it” being something questionable nobody really defines what to actually is- or one that can kill your sex drive- isn’t maybe a great idea.
So glad to hear from you ! And that your in the best place to live, Hawaii been there many many times. You will thrive there I just know it. My journey too has been very long and relentless. Sending you love through the breezes ❤
Found your video. Loved it & subscribed 😊 I'm a MESS coming off of Lexapro 😢 and hope I can learn some important help from your journey! I'm suffering from: intense buzzing/ringing in my head/ears, increased pain from muscle spasms in my neck & shoulders, weight loss, diarrhea, increased anxiety. When will these "protracted withdrawals" END❓❓❓ I'm a MESS & feel horrible 😢
Thanks! Tapered zoloft too fast, 13 years use. Horrible WD. Tried reinstate, adverse reaction. Trying to get through the days which are hell. 5 months off. Scared if it takes years.
Hey just wanted to let you know that I’ve done two 18 hour dry fasts in the past month. They sent me into terrible waves that opened up into amazing windows . I’ve been able to take naps again, I’m sleeping 9 hours a night, the muscle jerking is gone. Planning on working my way up to a 24hr dry fast once a week
I'm so scared too.i have to get off 2mg xan 2xday.i tried to quit yrs ago I went into acoma paralyzed even blind. I had to get back on them ...I regret it now I'm so so scared I dont wsnt to go into seizures and all that .I keep praying for a miracle ❤❤❤ you will be in my prayers too !!!! ❤
So happy for you you moved to Hawaii & thank you for the videos makes me feel less alone 😊 Question, did you/do take beta blockers like Propanalol for your akathisia ??
@@Heymattmarin Thank you. how do you deal with the panic attacks & racing heart symptoms?? It’s so scary. I used a bucket of ice to calm me down. But I would like to know more options as the mental askathesia causes me panic attacks
@Heymattmarin did you experience inner vibrations inside? I'm getting concerned I've been off Ativan 3 months and it's been going on for weeks, also I get jolted up before falling asleep and it causes inner restlessness.
Good hear from you Matt! Seems like you are doing better but are things actually improving for you or are they just cycling in and out? Some of us are still stuck with many symptoms and still struggling at 3 years off and it seems like it will never end! Thanks for your support!
They’re definitely cycling right now. But it’s not really that uncommon for people to still have intense symptoms at 3 years out. I’m in that boat. We just keep going and it’ll end for all of us ❤️
Can someone please tell me if you experienced inner vibrations? I feel like a bunch of cell phones are vibrating inside and it happens same time around 2am for hours until daylight hits. Has me believing i have Parkinsons.
Thank you for your videos.i dont have no family at all .I'm so alone with this except for my twin sister were both struggling trying to taper off 2mg xan 2times aday.iv had seizures .went into acoma paralyzed. I think I told u before but sorry my brain .😢I wanted to know did you have seizures and hear voices? This is a living hell. All the people going through this is crazy! We need a medication for xanax benzodiazepines withdrawls. ❤❤❤
Hey man I was poly drugged as well, only for about 2 years and my doctor prescribed Prozac and it pushed everything over the edge. My nervous system is extremely shot. I’m still on 1 mg of klonopin a day, and I have been for about 4 months. Do you have any advice?
I’m so sorry you’re experiencing that. If your intention is to come off of the klonopin, my advice would be to do it extremely slowly. Get on inner compass exchange and read everything there is to read about tapering. If you can, work with a withdrawal coach- I always recommend Angie. Join the tapering support groups she hosts. If you’re having too intense of symptoms, slow down and pause for a while. Slow and steady is the name of the game, even with “low doses”. That’s a total misnomer when it comes to drugs like these. Sending you so much love.
hello, greetings, I have withdrawal symptoms on a remaining dose of 5 mg of cymbalta, which I have been on for about 5 months. I have developed a small fiber in neuropathy. I no longer sweat, feel numb, cramps even at night, motor disorders, tremors and it keeps increasing Doctors try a lot and can hardly help me, I'm almost in need of care, I'm breaking down because my body can't calm down anymore, tingling, cramping, a horror i came from Germany need Help god Bless you i want my life Back
I’m so sorry. I’d highly suggest working with a withdrawal coach like Angie Peacock or Dan Landauer. They can help you figure out a path through this. Please keep going, sending lots of love your way.
@@HeymattmarinI've been on the same dose for five months. Listen to the dosage, it no longer makes any difference. According to the neurologists, the drug is neurotoxic for my metabolism. I get infusions, all kinds of things. It's like Professor Healy and others have described I'm thinking of putting myself under permanent anesthesia otherwise it's getting worse every day I need a miracle of course the small fibers can regenerate I'm basically dying alive and now I'm thinking about stories like gofund me I'm from Germany I could just scream I want mine watching my little daughter grow up
Hey Matt, good to see you again. Your poker face is amazing, lol. You mentioned sleeping in your video, when do think the sleep started coming back for you. Sleeping is my biggest issue, I feel like if I could sleep 8 to 10 hours like you do I would be pretty close to healed. I still only get 4 to 6 hours a night. No sleep at all during the day. My body for some reason will not allow daytime sleeping. Keep up the good work bro
@@LanceJones-mh7tz yeah man I still struggle with it on and off. The long long nights of sleep are once in a while. You’re gonna heal whether you sleep a lot or a little, don’t worry. Your body is working around the clock on this. I still can’t daytime sleep either. I had a little window where I was able to nap a few times but it closed and I have yet to see it open back up. But I do believe we will all be able to nap and sleep through the night at the end of this bullshit. Keep going my friend. Much love to you.
@@Heymattmarin you’re such a strong person. I envy your strength. I wish I had it. Keep fighting so that you can see the other side and give more people hope
Hey Matt, it's so good to see you doing better. Being in nature is definitely calming for the nervous system congrats on your move 16:12 I've actually been wanting to get some hypnotherapy too as I wonder what's the purpose of this hell that I've been enduring all this time and I see no end in sight... I also wanna know if I'm gonna be okay... i've been told that I might not be able to enter trance because of my dysregulated nervous system. At what month were you able to do the hypnosis? How were you able to relax while you still had your symptoms? I'm almost 8 months out from cold turkey ssri and very rapid taper of klonopin. Had daily pacing akathisia for months which went away just 2 months ago still debilitated with many many symptoms no windows so far... if any of this information helps Thanks, Lena
Hey Lena. I’m sorry you’re going through it too. I still struggle to go into trance this far out bc my nervous system is so hyperexcited most of the time. I am very real with people who are in protracted and want me to do hypno with them- I don’t recommend it until symptoms have calmed down a lot. It requires the ability to deeply relax. When that becomes doable, it could be worth a shot. I’m sending you so much love on your journey. Keep going. It will get lighter.
@@Heymattmarin thank you matt i will wait until it's doable I just need to survive until then... Your videos are very helpful they make me feel less alone Please keep making these videos❤️
@@EasyOo I would highly suggest avoiding it while healing. I haven’t drunk any in 3.5 years myself. I’d avoid anything neurological until you’re long healed. But that’s just me. I’m not a doctor I’m just a guy who’s been through withdrawal.
Did you swim with the Dolphins 🐬 there in Hawaii 😃My Daughter does free diving & swims with all the turtles 🐢, Whales 🐳 etc Like you she craves to be near or in the ocean 🌊 🐬🐬🐬🐬
I’m so glad to hear that you’re improving! I haven’t swum with dolphins yet but I dream of swimming with them and whales too! I love to freedive as well.
Hey Matt, I know you tried a lot of different supplements. I'm just wondering, did you ever try NAD+? There's been some talk about it in the community, and I thought of you. I thought, let me ask Matt, he may have some good advice or info on it. TIA.
@@Heymattmarin Native Formulas , Restore 3 . I’ve been on this repairing path for many many months & its working! As you say it takes a while & dedication. It’s a commitment I believe in! Have started to experience more sense of normalcy.I became so allergic due to a migraine medication I could barely leave the house & was even triggered by fumes from other people’s food& products they were wearing, deodorants etc etc 😬Will never take a prescription again! OMG🤦♀️
What do u recommend I can eat?..I'm currently going thru severe withdrawals from benzos I was prescribed 20 plus yrs ago now..anything I eat hurts literally and I'm loosing alot of weight I'm currently in aphasia dizzy severly dizzy ughhhh nd i will not go to the hospital bcuz of what happened once b4 ☆ Thank you for ur videos ☆
I’m sorry you’re going through this. The gut healing portion of this recovery process was, for me, largely about time. I think alot of it is nerve damage that has to heal on its own. I also had to treat SIBO through a pretty intense protocol eventually but I was not physically ready for it until a few years out. I made a whole video about that you should check out. In the mean time, I would recommend sticking with as many organic, whole food meals as you can. I think that’s ultimately the best way to support our bodies overall. Sending love.
It does end!! I'm 17 years off SSRIs and am still standing. Whoever is going through this hell, don't give up. You will come out stronger than ever. 💪❤️
@Laina thank you
Thanks for this! I’m going through antipsychotic hell…emotional numbness and cognitive impairment really looking forward to weaning off and getting through everything
This makes me happy to read gives me hope.
How long did it take to recover?
This gives me hope because I'm just starting my Lexapro protracted withdrawal journal 😢 and I'm a MESS: loud buzzing/ringing in my head/ears, increased muscle spasms/tension in my shoulder and neck area, increased pain, increased anxiety, diarrhea and weight loss. Will these things ever end❓❓❓
Oh wow I'm so glad I found this. I took myself off of 7 psyche meds including Klonopin and it's been a year and a half. Here's my problem... Breaking out into a sweat and getting nauseous and feel like my heart is exploding. I heard you mention that. Ty so much for this
By any chance did you experience inner vibrations in your bidy coming off benzos?. I'm 3 months off Ativan and these vibrations are ruining my sleep..
The medication is out of your body long time ago. Your receptors came back to normal
What you experience called panic attacks. You should learn how to deal with them without meds if you don't wanna jump on them again
Drink Lots of water with electrolytes !!!!! You can make Sole Water! It’s water with Himalayan Salt & and dash of lime
@@laniakeas92Have you tried meditation and/or breathwork? It can be reassuring to remind yourself that you’ve experienced this type of reaction before and have survived.
@@reginaharding9855 vibration and shaking while I'm laying down like an earthquake is going deep inside my body... On the outside i couldn't see those but I felt it inside ... I'm 8 months out too ...i was on Snri antipsychotic and Clonazepam
I appreciate you sharing your story. 14 months off after 22 years of SSRI use.
You're 18 months off now how are you doing?
@@lifeburnsbutturns mostly waves but I do have an occasional window. I try to keep myself as busy as possible. When I ruminate, my situation seems much worse.
I’m really loving your forthright truth telling. I quickly breezed thru the extreme woo woo I knew bumping two rocks together was not going to solve shit.
Thanks for the inspiration, Matt! 7 months off benzos, still tapering the SSRIs and I have faith this will get better too for all of us .. somehow I have been working again as well, despite the akathisia, and I think it's so true that once you are out of acute distraction and pretending to be normal are really the key players. So grateful you are doing a bit better!!
Just the view from your window looks soothing. Don’t know how you managed Hawaii but wow that’s amazing. You even look like you are doing better. Keep pushing through it!
Bravo for your move to Hawaii, that’s really inspiring, courageous of you and bold to do it in the misdt of paws. I live in a major city and like you say, it is so detrimental to the nervous system. I’m 100% sure it’s making my recovery way longer than if I were in the countryside. Being able to hang in nature so much is going to do wonders for your healing, I’m sure of that. I’m still struggling personally (2.5 years off); just wanted to thank you for sharing your journey with us. ❤
Hey Matt, thank you so much for this much needed update. I'm in a setback from diabetes medication which makes my symptoms from the withdrawal worse, so I'm just focusing on zero sugar and low carb diet and really needed to hear your message about just do what you can to get through your day, hour by hour, day by day.
You also look a little like Jared Leto right now! 🌷✨😊
Hey Matt. Thank you so much for this update. I found you when I first started my taper. I was on Klonopin and Lexapro for 6 years. I already tapered Lexapro. I didn't have a lot of problems with that one. I am halfway through my klonopin taper and it's a different animal. While my symptoms are nowhere near as severe as yours I have a lot them. Mostly a lot of anxiety and bad insomnia. I also have muscle twitches and nausea. You are an inspiration to me. Thanks for caring and sharing. You are a lovely guy. Love to you. Glenn
You talking about how you can eat better now gives me hope. I'm 10 months off and even all these months later I still can't eat anything enjoyable without horrible stomach pains and issues. I've lost like 50 pounds and even with how light I eat I'm still bloated 24/7 it's crazy.
Coffee enemas - they’re the bomb and help you detox.
@@foxylibrarian1That’s part of the Gerson Therapy for treating cancer. Make sure it’s organic coffee with caffeine. If I remember correctly, the theory is that the caffeine dilates the portal vein to encourage elimination of toxins.
I respect your stick to it ness
I am busted. It’s been a psycho thriller. Keep going. ❤loving vibes, you have been the truth in the fog.
Having a serene stomach is such a relief.
Thank you for honesty about your current symptoms. It's all helpful to us. Please make another video soon ❤
You look like Jack Sparrow now. So Glad to see you doing better
I’m three years off opiates and things are just getting back to normal. I had been in them for 20 years due to chronic pain.
Congratulations on such a big move, well-deserved
Good to see you & you look amazing 💯😊Your first vidio I stumbled across has helped me so much & I’m really improving ! 😅👼🕊️🇦🇺
After a life of dealing with intense hypersensitivity and years of anxiety and ocd, earlier this year I decided (even though I was not really feeling it intuitively) that maybe it's time to try medication and oh, boy, I was wrong. Exactly like you said on your journey videos, the unreal / uncanny feeling and not feeling anything was too much for me + worsening of symptoms. I did not have any problem going off the SSRI as I only took it for a short amount of time but the benzo was pretty addictive already even though I only took it for a month and a half. I also love rural areas because nature (+ lots of sunlight) has proven time and time again to effectively calm my nervous system. I also had some so so experiences with therapists and psychiatrists and while it's pretty disappointing to say the least, I realised that we truly only have ourselves to advocate for our needs and healing.
You’re a beautiful soul. Grateful for this video.
The gi improvement is so encouraging I’m at the housebound stage because of my gut and it’s so discouraging. The fear of dying from not eating is so real. I also think long covid contributed so much to mine worsening. Such a pain in the ass. Can’t wait to heal from both
Looking so good man 🥳 You just look so healthy 🙏🏻 I’m doing well and continue to improve 5.5 years on. My Partner, kids and family are so proud of me. Thanks again for everything you are doing for so many people. ❤️🙏🏻🇦🇺🥳
Hi Brendan.. Do you ever get any random big waves that pop up out of nowhere and just throw you off. I’m 5yrs off and have improved a lot but occasionally get what I’d call throwbacks that make me doubt my progress and just want to know if this is normal this far out? I’ve had a bad week after a sustained period of being better.
@@glynhayes5930 yes I do mate. I know I’m not completely done with this crap but yes I do have a day wave or less now. The whole “waves and windows “ thing is the worst part about all this. For the first 4 years I felt so unreliable to my kids, family and friends. Back then I didn’t know when I was going to have a wave and be bedridden for a week. Each year gets better and better but I still have some time to go I feel. 5.5 years and I’m still trying to fathom that this shit goes on around the world . Good luck to you and your family. We keep going on the journey 👍🏻😎🇦🇺
@@brendansmyth5053 Thanks for replying so quick dude. Ah man they’re the worst. It’s so abnormal to be unable rely on yourself or arrange activities in advance. It makes living amongst the normal almost impossible. I find now as long as I manage my environment and keep my workload and stress to a minimum I can retain stability to an extent but any sudden exposure to heightened stimulus or conflict as such can send me spiralling backward and into a wave for a couple days.. although this one in particular has extended beyond a week and quite uncomfortable. Thanks for your support my man and the same goes to you.
Hi Matt! 9 months and I keep on going. Thank you for sharing this update. Helps us keep going.
Hey! So glad you're alive and making positive changes! 😊
Edie what up! How have you been? Didn't think I would see you on this channel! Are you doing all right
I haven't seen you since you've been over my house or I've been over yours, just hope you're doing well
Dude. God bless you. I can’t believe you’re still going through this process. You are a godamn warrior
Really helpful things you said, you are a true warrior. Thank you for the encouragement and motivation to all of us fellow sufferers. Keep it up.
😭😭😭 I am sleeping more but I wake up with severe anguish. So much stuff.
Wow Matt. I was thinking about you. Thanks for sharing your thoughts. Can relate in sooo many ways. I know how soothing Kauai can be. I’m very proud of you for being so encouraging to us. Hope your p/t job is going well. Much 💕 Paula in San Diego. Aloha my friend
Matt, thank you for this. I’m so proud of you for your big move to Hawaii. I’ve been going through this withdrawal journey for far too long. You inspire and give hope.
Hi Matt! I'm new here. I have so much stuff I want to say that I don't know even where to start. But right now I want to say that I watched the interview with the doctor twice, it was truly therapeutic 💙. I even shared it with my dad who doesn't have the slightest idea what I'm going through. My mother is in pain 24/7 and I'm starting to think it's due to nerve damage caused by pain meds, so the situation is rough and I'm getting old to be living with parents. What works for me right now is watching reiki asmr videos (I'm woo-woo spiritual too). They calm the hell out of me. I hope you are doing well. Saludos desde Argentina
I can feel from you the maze-like nature of the healing process (what I can relate from the tapering I do for years now and have more years to keep tapering) and the very high difficulty you face, but I also can see a very good sign of healing and improving and I want to strenghten you and to say that I am sure that you know exactly what to do and you do it just right, perfectly. Don't let anybody make you doubt your actions in the process. They can't and they don't understand. YOU are. Just keep going and spread your insights. Many people need it and get helped from that I am sure. I glad you come back to do videos I was concerned you would quit lol but you have, I believe, in a sense an aim to awake others to evolve in how they relate to mental health. Wish you all the success.
So happy for your update and glad you're still here on yt! I am moving to another city with my boyfriend as well and I wanna be very optimistic about it. It's a more quite city and it's just what I need. It can feel equally as refreshing as scary. It has been so hard for me to loose food and other stuff I enjoyed back when my body could take basically anything. It's been 3 years tapering now, and I can finally drink coffee (decaf but were getting there!) and it's always been one of the best ways to start my mornings and just having that back, gives me so much hope. I'm so happy to hear how you're tolerating carbs again, it really does get better.
Much love and healing from me
3.3 here. 😮 Youre right. Its anything but a normal journey. Yep, 20 minutes sleep at best in the beginning. I just dont know what this was for. Anyway thanks for talking about your nightmare.
You are a reall warrior.
Matt, so god damn good to see you 🙏 So proud of you and feel so much love for you. So grateful for your posts. Hang in there.
I can relate so much to this, we learn to suffer. And we move on and heal.
Despite our mistakes, accidents and mishaps!
Lots of love;
thank you very much for the video. i am in protracted ssri withdrawal since nearly 50 months and i am very glad to get here some kind of support . a change of location is sometimes the right thing to start something new. i also often felt the need to go into nature and silence during withdrawal, because it is healing. i wish you the best for the next time !
Thank you keep doing these videos !!! God bless you!!❤
I've been wondering about you Matt! You look amazing kiddo💞
So happy to hear about your digestion! I literally fantasize about going out to restaurants and ice cream parlors again lol one day hopefully, one day
I have just been watching your videos. I haven’t even started tapering yet.
Everything you talk about speaks to me.
Have you checked out Irene Lyon’s work on healing the nervous system. There was a reason you went on these in the first place and we have all been through traumas big and small starting in mums uterus.
I highly recommend her.
I have been on ssri’s for 30 years and diazepam for 13 years. Have recently dropped from 15mg to 10mg of diazepam and am feeling very flat and then terrified!
I went carnivore in June last year and it’s been a tough transition.
Thank you for all your videos and keep them coming ❤
This old book 📕 of mine is about a lady that suddenly left her corporate job,went to live in Hawaii & taught the healing power of Dolphins 🐬 think you would so love this book 📖 ☺️
My mom and grandma and aunt all told us not to take psych meds, birth control or antidepressants. We laughed at them thinking they were old fashioned. Well.. turns out taking an antidepressant for years because you “need” it - with “it” being something questionable nobody really defines what to actually is- or one that can kill your sex drive- isn’t maybe a great idea.
It's good hearing from you.
Your smile is so beautiful
So glad to hear from you ! And that your in the best place to live, Hawaii been there many many times. You will thrive there I just know it. My journey too has been very long and relentless. Sending you love through the breezes ❤
Matt! it's so good to see you! i follow you on instagram and i actually sent u a message there a few days ago and u replied to me!
Found your video. Loved it & subscribed 😊 I'm a MESS coming off of Lexapro 😢 and hope I can learn some important help from your journey!
I'm suffering from: intense buzzing/ringing in my head/ears, increased pain from muscle spasms in my neck & shoulders, weight loss, diarrhea, increased anxiety. When will these "protracted withdrawals" END❓❓❓ I'm a MESS & feel horrible 😢
@@RebekkaRN1962 I’m so sorry, sending you a lot of love.
Coming home to myself. Perfect statement. You are so loveable❤❤❤🎉😢😊
Thank you for all of your videos🙏🏻. Also, you should do VoiceOver/voice acting! 👌🏻
Thanks! Tapered zoloft too fast, 13 years use. Horrible WD. Tried reinstate, adverse reaction. Trying to get through the days which are hell. 5 months off. Scared if it takes years.
Everyone’s journey is different. I am definitely one of the longer cases so don’t let it scare you.
I had that it did feel like it would last forever but ended in a month or less it was so weird
Thank you for the update and for your kind words. Wish you all the best!
Thank you
Way to go Matt !
You're an inspiration.
Thanks for the inspiration. Sending you good vibes.
thanks for sharing
I'd love to leave NJ but I'm not as brave as you.
Hey just wanted to let you know that I’ve done two 18 hour dry fasts in the past month. They sent me into terrible waves that opened up into amazing windows . I’ve been able to take naps again, I’m sleeping 9 hours a night, the muscle jerking is gone. Planning on working my way up to a 24hr dry fast once a week
You look great Matt ❤❤
I've been on ativan for 20 years. I'm scared at what's coming for me.
Could be nothing at all. Try not to attach to other peoples’ stories if you can.
I'm so scared too.i have to get off 2mg xan 2xday.i tried to quit yrs ago I went into acoma paralyzed even blind. I had to get back on them ...I regret it now I'm so so scared I dont wsnt to go into seizures and all that .I keep praying for a miracle ❤❤❤ you will be in my prayers too !!!! ❤
Wonderful to see and hear you again. Sound is really not nice. Especially for people with sensitive nervus system 😊. Is it the wind? Take care!❤
So happy for you you moved to Hawaii & thank you for the videos makes me feel less alone 😊 Question, did you/do take beta blockers like Propanalol for your akathisia ??
I did not. I’m glad you enjoy the videos, and wishing you the quickest recovery possible ❤️
@@Heymattmarin Thank you. how do you deal with the panic attacks & racing heart symptoms?? It’s so scary. I used a bucket of ice to calm me down. But I would like to know more options as the mental askathesia causes me panic attacks
@@0827tt5xc I’m so sorry. Take a look on my video about surviving akathisia. 💕
@@Heymattmarin ok cool thank you ❤️❤️
@Heymattmarin did you experience inner vibrations inside? I'm getting concerned I've been off Ativan 3 months and it's been going on for weeks, also I get jolted up before falling asleep and it causes inner restlessness.
Good hear from you Matt! Seems like you are doing better but are things actually improving for you or are they just cycling in and out? Some of us are still stuck with many symptoms and still struggling at 3 years off and it seems like it will never end! Thanks for your support!
They’re definitely cycling right now. But it’s not really that uncommon for people to still have intense symptoms at 3 years out. I’m in that boat. We just keep going and it’ll end for all of us ❤️
Can someone please tell me if you experienced inner vibrations? I feel like a bunch of cell phones are vibrating inside and it happens same time around 2am for hours until daylight hits. Has me believing i have Parkinsons.
Super common symptom. I’m sorry you’re going through this. Highly recommend getting on inner compass exchange and looking at the symptom lists.
Thank you for your videos.i dont have no family at all .I'm so alone with this except for my twin sister were both struggling trying to taper off 2mg xan 2times aday.iv had seizures .went into acoma paralyzed. I think I told u before but sorry my brain .😢I wanted to know did you have seizures and hear voices? This is a living hell. All the people going through this is crazy! We need a medication for xanax benzodiazepines withdrawls. ❤❤❤
6 months off Klonopin. I started taking it for anxiety over 3 years ago and my doctor decided I was done with it 6 months ago.
Ps my akathisia is winding down off and on. So I hope I kick its ass out of here. 😮
Hey man I was poly drugged as well, only for about 2 years and my doctor prescribed Prozac and it pushed everything over the edge. My nervous system is extremely shot. I’m still on 1 mg of klonopin a day, and I have been for about 4 months. Do you have any advice?
I’m so sorry you’re experiencing that. If your intention is to come off of the klonopin, my advice would be to do it extremely slowly. Get on inner compass exchange and read everything there is to read about tapering. If you can, work with a withdrawal coach- I always recommend Angie. Join the tapering support groups she hosts. If you’re having too intense of symptoms, slow down and pause for a while. Slow and steady is the name of the game, even with “low doses”. That’s a total misnomer when it comes to drugs like these. Sending you so much love.
I’m less than half way through withdrawing from clonozepam 😔
hello, greetings, I have withdrawal symptoms on a remaining dose of 5 mg of cymbalta, which I have been on for about 5 months. I have developed a small fiber in neuropathy. I no longer sweat, feel numb, cramps even at night, motor disorders, tremors and it keeps increasing Doctors try a lot and can hardly help me, I'm almost in need of care, I'm breaking down because my body can't calm down anymore, tingling, cramping, a horror i came from Germany need Help god Bless you i want my life Back
I’m so sorry. I’d highly suggest working with a withdrawal coach like Angie Peacock or Dan Landauer. They can help you figure out a path through this. Please keep going, sending lots of love your way.
@@HeymattmarinI've been on the same dose for five months. Listen to the dosage, it no longer makes any difference. According to the neurologists, the drug is neurotoxic for my metabolism. I get infusions, all kinds of things. It's like Professor Healy and others have described I'm thinking of putting myself under permanent anesthesia otherwise it's getting worse every day I need a miracle of course the small fibers can regenerate I'm basically dying alive and now I'm thinking about stories like gofund me I'm from Germany I could just scream I want mine watching my little daughter grow up
Hey Matt, good to see you again. Your poker face is amazing, lol. You mentioned sleeping in your video, when do think the sleep started coming back for you. Sleeping is my biggest issue, I feel like if I could sleep 8 to 10 hours like you do I would be pretty close to healed. I still only get 4 to 6 hours a night. No sleep at all during the day. My body for some reason will not allow daytime sleeping. Keep up the good work bro
@@LanceJones-mh7tz yeah man I still struggle with it on and off. The long long nights of sleep are once in a while. You’re gonna heal whether you sleep a lot or a little, don’t worry. Your body is working around the clock on this. I still can’t daytime sleep either. I had a little window where I was able to nap a few times but it closed and I have yet to see it open back up. But I do believe we will all be able to nap and sleep through the night at the end of this bullshit. Keep going my friend. Much love to you.
@@Heymattmarin you’re such a strong person. I envy your strength. I wish I had it. Keep fighting so that you can see the other side and give more people hope
Hey Matt, it's so good to see you doing better. Being in nature is definitely calming for the nervous system congrats on your move
16:12 I've actually been wanting to get some hypnotherapy too as I wonder what's the purpose of this hell that I've been enduring all this time and I see no end in sight... I also wanna know if I'm gonna be okay... i've been told that I might not be able to enter trance because of my dysregulated nervous system. At what month were you able to do the hypnosis? How were you able to relax while you still had your symptoms?
I'm almost 8 months out from cold turkey ssri and very rapid taper of klonopin. Had daily pacing akathisia for months which went away just 2 months ago still debilitated with many many symptoms no windows so far... if any of this information helps
Thanks,
Lena
Hey Lena. I’m sorry you’re going through it too. I still struggle to go into trance this far out bc my nervous system is so hyperexcited most of the time. I am very real with people who are in protracted and want me to do hypno with them- I don’t recommend it until symptoms have calmed down a lot. It requires the ability to deeply relax. When that becomes doable, it could be worth a shot. I’m sending you so much love on your journey. Keep going. It will get lighter.
@@Heymattmarin thank you matt i will wait until it's doable
I just need to survive until then...
Your videos are very helpful they make me feel less alone
Please keep making these videos❤️
How is your sleep?
Omg how’d you pull
This off ?? Are you working now ?
Youre one handsome man!
Did you move in with someone or are you renting a place? Did you have all that set up before you moved out?
@@Filthycoffin I’m renting a room in a house
Is alcohol a terrible idea in withdrawal? I want to be able to let loose and socialize once in a while but I'm terrified of it causing a setback
@@EasyOo I would highly suggest avoiding it while healing. I haven’t drunk any in 3.5 years myself. I’d avoid anything neurological until you’re long healed. But that’s just me. I’m not a doctor I’m just a guy who’s been through withdrawal.
Did you swim with the Dolphins 🐬 there in Hawaii 😃My Daughter does free diving & swims with all the turtles 🐢, Whales 🐳 etc Like you she craves to be near or in the ocean 🌊 🐬🐬🐬🐬
I’m so glad to hear that you’re improving! I haven’t swum with dolphins yet but I dream of swimming with them and whales too! I love to freedive as well.
I’m glad for you moving to Hawaii, but isn’t it expensive to live there. I’m a year sober, but iinsomnia is still here.
It is yeah but so was LA. If I have to hustle I’d rather hustle here ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Hey Matt, I know you tried a lot of different supplements. I'm just wondering, did you ever try NAD+? There's been some talk about it in the community, and I thought of you. I thought, let me ask Matt, he may have some good advice or info on it. TIA.
I tried it and sadly it skyrocketed my akathisia. I have heard of others being helped by it though.
Good video but the background noise is really driving me crazy
I’m sorry to hear that.. doing this to be helpful, not exactly making movies over here.
Dolphin Connection, by Joan Ocean . Inter dimensional Ways of living . Sorry was trying to send a photo of the book 😅but 🤷♀️
I am absolutely going to read this! Thank you!
@@Heymattmarin Good idea , & I’m so going to get those natural supplements you spoke of ☺️
@@MonAmour48 which ones?
@@Heymattmarin Native Formulas , Restore 3 . I’ve been on this repairing path for many many months & its working! As you say it takes a while & dedication. It’s a commitment I believe in! Have started to experience more sense of normalcy.I became so allergic due to a migraine medication I could barely leave the house & was even triggered by fumes from other people’s food& products they were wearing, deodorants etc etc 😬Will never take a prescription again! OMG🤦♀️
What do u recommend I can eat?..I'm currently going thru severe withdrawals from benzos I was prescribed 20 plus yrs ago now..anything I eat hurts literally and I'm loosing alot of weight I'm currently in aphasia dizzy severly dizzy ughhhh nd i will not go to the hospital bcuz of what happened once b4 ☆ Thank you for ur videos ☆
I’m sorry you’re going through this. The gut healing portion of this recovery process was, for me, largely about time. I think alot of it is nerve damage that has to heal on its own. I also had to treat SIBO through a pretty intense protocol eventually but I was not physically ready for it until a few years out. I made a whole video about that you should check out. In the mean time, I would recommend sticking with as many organic, whole food meals as you can. I think that’s ultimately the best way to support our bodies overall. Sending love.
Did you take the mrna vaccine?
MATT YOUR MISTAKE WAS THE BENZO NOT THE SSRI WOULD YOU AGREE ?
All caps is not necessary and both were definitely very damaging for me.
Can we talk
Happy to see you ❤ estoy en mi camino de recuperación ❤️🩹
What do you blame most of the long-term side effects? Benzos or prozac?
Have you had your thyroid checked?
Several times. Along with every other test you can imagine.
Thank you