Hello 20 year old me

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  • čas přidán 11. 04. 2020
  • original vid • Dear 25 year old me
    ooooof. btw please comment about my life respectfully! I read every comment so plz remember that :)
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  • @doddleoddle
    @doddleoddle Před 4 lety +10598

    for those wondering which channel hit a million it would be this one! this vid is on my second channel :P

    • @edanasue2589
      @edanasue2589 Před 4 lety +40

      you are so beautiful dodie you glow from the inside out 💛

    • @Julia-hv7qh
      @Julia-hv7qh Před 4 lety +14

      Can I just say, you're so beautiful, literally so jealous! 🥺❤️

    • @madebymissy_
      @madebymissy_ Před 4 lety +21

      Looks like this channel is nearly at a million as well! 😌👍

    • @isuzuke
      @isuzuke Před 4 lety

      #8 on trending

    • @raymondhughes7972
      @raymondhughes7972 Před 4 lety +2

      Have you heard of the '7 up documentary' series?:)

  • @brooklyn__________
    @brooklyn__________ Před 4 lety +7383

    “So 25 year old dodie how are you”
    Dodie: *is crying*

    • @finnn9940
      @finnn9940 Před 4 lety +13

      I saw this comment when it had 420 likes

    • @MO-gw7yp
      @MO-gw7yp Před 4 lety +12

      @@finnn9940 my drilla wanna go smoke a zoot

  • @emily-qe3yu
    @emily-qe3yu Před 4 lety +5289

    I was sat here thinking ‘wow 20 year old Dodie looks like a child’. Then I realised I’m 20. I’m a child

    • @claireh57
      @claireh57 Před 4 lety +18

      exactly my thought

    • @Thtkoi
      @Thtkoi Před 4 lety +6

      Wow

    • @marcellisnam
      @marcellisnam Před 4 lety +4

      Mooooood

    • @kurootsuki3326
      @kurootsuki3326 Před 4 lety

      mood

    • @tylerday7616
      @tylerday7616 Před 4 lety +89

      @@kurootsuki3326 Every few years for a while you'll look back and realize you were a child the whole time. Puts things into perspective. Be patient with yourself, you're still growing.

  • @Exotixa
    @Exotixa Před 4 lety +5071

    I love how she's kinder to her younger self. I'd be cringing at how stupid I was. lolol

    • @sofiabravo1994
      @sofiabravo1994 Před 4 lety +48

      Nicole Morel I am so critical of my 20-year-old self I am 25 now and I finally was able to retrieve all of my memories from when I was in my 20th year and the videos were just so hard to watch I thought I was actually being cute and quirky but it’s just annoying...I was still a teenager🤣🤣🤣

    • @Exotixa
      @Exotixa Před 4 lety +6

      @@sofiabravo1994 🤣🤣🤣 see that's what im afraid of

    • @temporaryphase
      @temporaryphase Před 3 lety +18

      I think you might be surprised at how youd feel about your young self. I saw a video of myself from 2014 and I thought I was a cringy ugly kid at the time but when I saw that recently I just looked like a nice kid..because u was a nice polite kid and I'm so sad i was so pointlessly insecure .

    • @hettyborinstein6516
      @hettyborinstein6516 Před 3 lety +14

      Working on gentleness and care for your past self is really important! They were working really hard and helped you get to where you are now!

  • @femaleserialkiller
    @femaleserialkiller Před 4 lety +3437

    “I lived in Bath and I worked in Lush”
    I know Bath is a place in England but this sentence is so mf FUNNY like she lived in Bath and worked at a soap store

    • @GreenCarrot6
      @GreenCarrot6 Před 4 lety +46

      i read it like 'lived in bath & body works and also worked at lush '(bc i didnt hear her say that bit)

    • @aprilwoods92
      @aprilwoods92 Před 4 lety +13

      hahaha i didn't realize this until you pointed it out xD

    • @emilyspriggs1601
      @emilyspriggs1601 Před 3 lety +7

      I could have seen her in there but I wouldn't have known it was her. Oof.

    • @rosieburvill9296
      @rosieburvill9296 Před 3 lety +1

      @@emilyspriggs1601 ik samee x

    • @thelemonpolice
      @thelemonpolice Před 3 lety

      Ew why

  • @orlagartland
    @orlagartland Před 4 lety +3273

    well this destroyed me

  • @brooklyn__________
    @brooklyn__________ Před 4 lety +1669

    “Ladies and gentlemen we’re gonna take a quick break”
    Me at school when I have an anxiety attack

    • @emmynoether9540
      @emmynoether9540 Před 4 lety +18

      relatable

    • @beth7132
      @beth7132 Před 4 lety +26

      just hide in the bathroom and listen to dodie. that used to help a lot but then my anxiety got too bad so now i’m homeschooled 😍😍

    • @titimplants3520
      @titimplants3520 Před 4 lety +4

      it’s a big boy boog mood

  • @kathryngray2546
    @kathryngray2546 Před 4 lety +3609

    this really made me realise that I'm literally still a teenager. like I have so much room to grow, even if it feels like I don't

    • @lemoncucumber9832
      @lemoncucumber9832 Před 4 lety +55

      Kathryn Gray same! Seeing how different she is, I can’t imagine who I’ll be.

    • @Evar0se
      @Evar0se Před 4 lety +15

      ok you didn't have to hit me so hard with this

    • @LieutenantSheep
      @LieutenantSheep Před 4 lety +12

      Yes yes the world is full of options at 20. Seize the day

    • @madebymissy_
      @madebymissy_ Před 4 lety +30

      I feel the same way. I’m a teenager and yet I continue to forget that my life is still at the beginning

    • @Cookie_Comment
      @Cookie_Comment Před 4 lety +3

      Yeah... I’m not even a teen yet and i feel the same

  • @lupevinado3087
    @lupevinado3087 Před 4 lety +912

    “God, I wish I could play them for her” I’m sobbing?

  • @isaacroot5459
    @isaacroot5459 Před 4 lety +1548

    i feel like i now understand that it isn’t this way forever

    • @doddlevloggle
      @doddlevloggle  Před 4 lety +421

      It really isn’t
      If one thing on this earth is true it’s that things change!

    • @ellw7830
      @ellw7830 Před 4 lety +34

      The thing that brought that home the most for me was some of the more visceral stuff that has changed in 5 years-there’s a different house, different hair, and a whole album and tour that 20yo dodie hadn’t even dreamed of! Those are some big shifts, it’s cool to see how far you can go in just a short five years.

    • @isaacroot5459
      @isaacroot5459 Před 4 lety +17

      doddlevloggle I- NAHDIDWOOSJDBDBWJOOSND OH MY GOD
      *deep breath* thank you for the hope you’ve given me

  • @mayae9864
    @mayae9864 Před 4 lety +5093

    The elevator music during the sobbing intermission was a whole mood

    • @precioustime6635
      @precioustime6635 Před 4 lety +6

      czcams.com/video/VjJRP-T0dSk/video.html

    • @olaa4313
      @olaa4313 Před 3 lety

      @@precioustime6635 Thank god I wasn't rick rolled lol

    • @danhhoang5947
      @danhhoang5947 Před 3 lety +1

      Is it bad that I chuckled a little?

  • @HiraLalani
    @HiraLalani Před 4 lety +410

    when she said depression was more of a friend now .. my heART

  • @gcan_t6814
    @gcan_t6814 Před 4 lety +1348

    This is comforting for 20 year old me.

    • @angelinaarmy3761
      @angelinaarmy3761 Před 4 lety +46

      Same I just turned 20 yesterday and I feel so old and sad and all I think of is my teen self and wishing to be young again...by watching this I felt inspired to live my next years to the fullest and do whatever I want instead of wishing to be younger every time and making myself sick😰😥

    • @nooraqueen2716
      @nooraqueen2716 Před 4 lety +2

      @@angelinaarmy3761 same

    • @rat-in-the-void
      @rat-in-the-void Před 4 lety +3

      @@angelinaarmy3761 honestly same

    • @isabellerangel2308
      @isabellerangel2308 Před 3 lety +1

      same

    • @thebtwc6499
      @thebtwc6499 Před 3 lety +1

      Same

  • @grainneocruhuir6383
    @grainneocruhuir6383 Před 4 lety +1237

    ‘I did take a pregnancy test the other day but I’m just really bloated’ is such a mood

  • @ThomasSanders
    @ThomasSanders Před 4 lety +5444

    You telling yourself to "chill out"... that was amazing and such a mood. Ugh I love this

    • @doddleoddle
      @doddleoddle Před 4 lety +421

      Thomas Sanders Hahahah lOL we are our own biggest critics

    • @kylieyaussi9489
      @kylieyaussi9489 Před 4 lety +29

      oh shoot it’s Thomas. Howdy!

    • @andpeggy1406
      @andpeggy1406 Před 4 lety +11

      HI THOMAS I LOVE YOUUUU 😁❤️❤️

    • @notsotypical6202
      @notsotypical6202 Před 4 lety +17

      I felt so attacked, I have the same fears as younger dodie and wow I really needed to hear both 1. It gets better and 2. "Chill out" LOL

    • @cocoleetos3295
      @cocoleetos3295 Před 4 lety +11

      Some how I read this with your voice.. 😐😐🤷🏽‍♀️😂

  • @emiliew5553
    @emiliew5553 Před 4 lety +1103

    the most genuine and real “reacting to my old videos” ever posted

  • @thelittleprince7072
    @thelittleprince7072 Před 4 lety +287

    dear 25 year old me
    did you make it to being a 25 year old?

    • @oriel7386
      @oriel7386 Před 4 lety +42

      you will! this video is PROOF that life does get better but it can take a year or two until you recognise that you're in a totally different place, keep fighting and life will soon be okay xxxx

    • @sollll3767
      @sollll3767 Před 4 lety +4

      @@oriel7386 youre so cute

    • @notroe2237
      @notroe2237 Před 3 lety

      💙

  • @brooklyn__________
    @brooklyn__________ Před 4 lety +1332

    “I did take a pregnancy test the other day, I was just bloated” ME OMG

  • @zainasoliman8711
    @zainasoliman8711 Před 4 lety +843

    me, in the midst of bawling my eyes out: *types “ask doctor about spironolactone” in my notes app*

  • @KessyMar
    @KessyMar Před 4 lety +1525

    I remember watching "dear 25 year old me" when I was 15. Now I'm 20 and i realise how fast time flies. I feel like 20y/o dodie in a lot of ways, mostly because i'm so afraid of the future and i feel like i'm getting older faster than i can realize, i just want to stop every moment to really live it, really experience it and capture the feelings. of course i can't do that and i feel like life is passing me by and i'm just standing there, barely realizing what's happening and just like that, time's gone by. anyway, this video inspired me to write a letter to myself to read in 5 years :)
    (no one will see this and that's okay lol, this is mostly for me. had to get it off my chest)

    • @musicsummer129
      @musicsummer129 Před 4 lety +20

      I'm 22 and I so identify with the way you're feeling. Thank you so much for sharing this, and I hope we both find ways to stay present and just try to treasure the little moments, no matter how fast everything speeds along.

    • @KessyMar
      @KessyMar Před 4 lety +8

      @@musicsummer129 thank you so much for taking the time to read my comment! and thank you for being so kind, i hope we can both learn to enjoy the moment as it happens and I wish you all the best 💙💙

    • @beetlejubs
      @beetlejubs Před 4 lety +12

      gosh, i'm almost 20 now and i feel absolutely the same. it's kinda great to watch it now 'cause it's like she's talking to me about those non-specific topics and the things that go on my mind at my 20s. like a big sister, y'know?

    • @KessyMar
      @KessyMar Před 4 lety +7

      @@beetlejubs yes exactly! didn't realize it before but now that you've said it, she really is like a big sister in these videos

    • @chloeelimam3899
      @chloeelimam3899 Před 4 lety +6

      I know exactly what you mean, sometimes I feel like a train is coming at me and I'm just putting out my arms to stop it and I can't do anything

  • @aleenamirza910
    @aleenamirza910 Před 3 lety +286

    "You're gonna fall in love,
    You're gonna fall apart,
    You gonna get back together,"
    . . . welp that hit me hard.

  • @allergictoalliteration6033
    @allergictoalliteration6033 Před 4 lety +738

    "We got...animojis?"
    **long sigh**
    "Alright."
    I felt that.

    • @alvareo92
      @alvareo92 Před 4 lety +5

      Ruhi Soni lol I laughed when younger Dodie asked what phones were like now. Just the same, young Dodie, except bigger and faster. Cameras are better. That’s it

  • @sammy.miller.music1
    @sammy.miller.music1 Před 4 lety +3702

    I just realised she didn't answer the 'are you happy' question, she just sighed. My heart broke :(

    • @cephi
      @cephi Před 4 lety +84

      i noticed that too :(

    • @PeachPlastic
      @PeachPlastic Před 4 lety +306

      Eh, I mean, it's hard to set a momentary feeling as a universal life goal.

    • @joshk.
      @joshk. Před 4 lety +55

      @@PeachPlastic damn. haven't even thought about it like that. damn

    • @empiricus2211
      @empiricus2211 Před 4 lety +18

      @@PeachPlastic I guess it's more about overall fulfillment then, I suppose

    • @josefineschueler
      @josefineschueler Před 4 lety +21

      We'll never be totally happy... all our emotions are holy and as worthy as 'happiness'

  • @ellieo5451
    @ellieo5451 Před 4 lety +324

    When she went “aw babe” I cried

  • @danidisco284
    @danidisco284 Před 3 lety +271

    "it'll be different, but it'll be okay"
    that's so powerful and I cried with you

  • @scarlettlexi7484
    @scarlettlexi7484 Před 4 lety +1715

    ‘ladies and gentlemen we’re going to take a quick short break’
    dodie: hyperventilating
    me: crying

  • @callieperkins
    @callieperkins Před 4 lety +1582

    Its so weird that I watched "dear 25 year old me" when i was 15, and now im 20 watching "hello 20 year old me". I cant believe its been 5 years.. thats scary

    • @brunella_pucci
      @brunella_pucci Před 4 lety +6

      Same! I can't believe it's been 5 years, it doesn't seem that long! Xx

    • @Xplreli
      @Xplreli Před 4 lety +3

      Me too. Emotional.

    • @thosegreeneyes
      @thosegreeneyes Před 4 lety +5

      Omg same I’ve been waiting for 5 years

    • @Hyumifu
      @Hyumifu Před 4 lety +3

      Same... I can't stop crying

    • @helenayasmin
      @helenayasmin Před 4 lety +11

      same sis! I remember watching the original at 15 like woah when she replies I'll be 20 MAD

  • @Lucy.Valentine
    @Lucy.Valentine Před 4 lety +275

    "you learned to look forward for happiness."
    I feel like that's such a powerful statement.

  • @pigeonsoccs5210
    @pigeonsoccs5210 Před 4 lety +749

    dodie is so proud, but overwhelmed with emotions. her face when she looks at her at 20, it just says, “dodie, you did it. you didn’t think you could do it. we did it and we don’t have to worry so much. it was a ride, but thank you for powering through. i’m proud of you.” but..you can see, in her eyes, that question. dodie is wondering, about her younger self. “are you proud of me?”

  • @peaarrllldiver
    @peaarrllldiver Před 4 lety +642

    it feels like yesterday that dodie had short hair and a fringe😔

    • @naia8191
      @naia8191 Před 4 lety +14

      vending machine oreos honestly i remember i cut my hair short and immediately watched her video on short hairstyles for some inspiration. i was so excited

    • @agcitrusstudios1075
      @agcitrusstudios1075 Před 4 lety +2

      sanaia ok lmao so did I except I got it cut like 2 months ago

    • @peaarrllldiver
      @peaarrllldiver Před 4 lety +6

      sanaia omg same dodie inspired me to cut my hair bcos her short hairstyles were all so cute🥺

    • @estherthebester
      @estherthebester Před 4 lety +2

      it really does

    • @naia8191
      @naia8191 Před 4 lety +2

      vending machine oreos righttt i think the one that i immediately did was like the one with the two space buns up top

  • @mollsack
    @mollsack Před 4 lety +515

    as a 16 year old watching this i cried very hard. my future has always been a scary thing to think about and i dont have many visions of myself past 20, so putting myself in your shoes here i felt all of the emotions you did.

    • @plestrange511
      @plestrange511 Před 4 lety +27

      I'm 17, and i feel the exact same- its hard to picture being 20 or 25 and what things will have happened or not happened & where life will be. Its scary as hell. I think writing a letter will terrify me but also hopefully something to look back on and go yeah i did that.

    • @sickeninglysweetlikehoney9917
      @sickeninglysweetlikehoney9917 Před 4 lety +10

      @@plestrange511 Oof, I heavily relate to the both of u. I'm turning 17 in two months and this video brought me to tears. The future is really scary, the past is cringy lol and a bit fascinating too. A lot of people here keep mentioning writing a letter so I might just do that aswell, it'll be an interesting experience to open it in a couple of years. Thank you, and I wish u both good luck in life, it's going to be alright.

    • @crowtalker
      @crowtalker Před rokem +1

      hey, you’re probably 18-ish now - hopefully you’re still around and you have a better vision of the future. if not, i just wanted to say that i was just like you all once; i’m now in my early 20s and i can say with certainty that i’m glad i’m here. the world moves on, day by day. the future is not some huge destructive force that will come in and crash down all at once. the future is tomorrow, and then the day after that, and the day after that. the issues you’re dealing with might still remain, but as you grow older you develop new ways of seeing the world and those issues as well - at the very least, you need only worry about tomorrow. it’s like when you’re in kindergarten, you look at the high schoolers and feel a sense of intimidation b/c they seem so big and smart; like omnipotent adults. but time goes on, over the years you grow and naturally you gain experience, and eventually you’re a high schooler and it all seems much more reasonable and manageable. i hope you’re well. keep pushing on. i was once a 17 year old who thought they wouldnt live past 20. i’m glad i did. im still scared of the future but i feel ready to take on tomorrow, and that’s all you need. take care

  • @miji9013
    @miji9013 Před 4 lety +133

    “It’s got cool new features tho.. it’s got like animojis!......”
    *thinks*
    “Alright.”

  • @isabelleb-l2699
    @isabelleb-l2699 Před 4 lety +1925

    I think it's sweet that she talks to herself as if she is a younger sister

  • @katherine4916
    @katherine4916 Před 4 lety +466

    little did 20 year old dodie know that 25 year old dodie would reply while in lockdown in the midst of a global pandemic

  • @strawwberryyy
    @strawwberryyy Před 4 lety +334

    I'm 20 now and I can't believe it's been 5 years since dodie looked like that. It's just so scary to me how quickly time passes and I feel like I missed out on a lot of my teenage years because of my depression :/ hope it won't be like this forever

    • @edenjensen6708
      @edenjensen6708 Před 4 lety +9

      the earth is grateful to have you here, the tides will change for you at some point, and you deserve to be there when they do ♥️

    • @strawwberryyy
      @strawwberryyy Před 4 lety +1

      @@edenjensen6708 thank you ❤

    • @colourfulsouls
      @colourfulsouls Před rokem +3

      Hope things are better now
      imo life is a lot of ups and downs.
      Enjoy the better times and when things aren’t good, try to remember that it will get better and to be kind to yourself.
      It can help to try and focus on the positive things in our lives, rather than more on the negative side (a balance of both)
      Setting small goals can help, write them down to look back on later

    • @rodrigoferreiramaciel4815
      @rodrigoferreiramaciel4815 Před rokem

      Hey, life happens but things come and go and change with the time... I hope everything gets better someday and even tho the future is scary, it doesnt all happen at once, so take your time life the present :) really hope u are fine and with you a good week 💙

  • @calipeacegirl1010
    @calipeacegirl1010 Před 4 lety +150

    As a 20 year old who keeps looking back at 16, I needed this

  • @renxiahh9462
    @renxiahh9462 Před 4 lety +395

    dodie calling her 20 y/o self “babe” is evERYTHING

  • @hvjcghi
    @hvjcghi Před 4 lety +408

    20 yo dodie: "no offense, sorry"
    25 yo dodie: "it's okay!"
    It really is :')

  • @oliviaplayer8039
    @oliviaplayer8039 Před 4 lety +659

    That was a LOT of tears for everyone still being alive

  • @nathanalbrightmusic
    @nathanalbrightmusic Před 4 lety +133

    "I took a pregnancy test yesterday, turns out I'm just very bloated"
    LMAOOOOOO

  • @frecklefreckles
    @frecklefreckles Před 4 lety +1768

    "It's not as scary as you think, when it happens. It's just the way it is."

    • @lucyclark851
      @lucyclark851 Před 4 lety +22

      I lost my childhood pet recently and I really wish I had heard those words before. It really isn’t as scary as it seems. It’s awfully tragic and horrible and sad but it’s also very serene and peaceful in a way that only death can be. Idk. Very weird and surreal, but yeah, not scary.

    • @KawaiiContinuum
      @KawaiiContinuum Před 4 lety +4

      I needed that quote. My cats are old and I have small flares of anxiety a few times as week as I think about losing them and always hoping I have more time with them. I know it will be heart breaking, but those words help ease my current worries

    • @nicb.7991
      @nicb.7991 Před 4 lety

      I saw this as she said it.

  • @caraliiina8453
    @caraliiina8453 Před 4 lety +416

    25 year old dodie saying “god I wish I could play my songs to her, she would love them” to 20 year old dodie really GOT ME

  • @madjidbeddar9995
    @madjidbeddar9995 Před 4 lety +92

    I hope she react to this video when she's 30

  • @lonely1951
    @lonely1951 Před 4 lety +214

    I watched this while taking off my makeup for the night. 7 years ago I remember looking at my reflection in a mirror and being physically afraid for my life by how much hatred I saw in my own eyes. Not like “wow this depression thing has gotten bad and that’s scary” kind of afraid- it was more like I looked at the expression on my face and my body reacted like I’d seen a hungry animal about to pounce, staring me down. It was such primal fear and such primal hatred of myself. I so deeply and venomously hated myself for no reason- just bad brain chemistry. It’s been a long time and a lot of healing and work and it’s not every day, but most days I genuinely love myself now. I looked up from this video while washing and then drying my face and I saw my reflection and just touched my cheek and just started weeping and I still haven’t stopped. It’s just been me and that girl in the mirror tearing each other apart my whole life- and now I’m standing here holding her face and shes looking at me like “I forgive you”

    • @not-a-ghost2206
      @not-a-ghost2206 Před 4 lety +7

      I am so proud of you! You Deserve to live, always remember that 💖🌠

    • @edenjensen6708
      @edenjensen6708 Před 4 lety +5

      I’m so proud of you ♥️ i wish you many more days of healing and happiness

    • @xiaooo00
      @xiaooo00 Před 4 lety +8

      This comment almost made me cry, proud of you internet stranger 💛

    • @mars_ffs
      @mars_ffs Před 3 lety +4

      Man that made me think. From around the ages of ehh 11 to 15 I just... learned to despise everything about myself. I was so insecure about my body, personality, sense of humor, hell- even the things that made me happy. I dont know where it came from or why it persisted so long, but like you said, it was this primal, connatural hatred. I would nonstop compare myself to my friends, all the while noticing the beauty in them- internally and externally- and never fathoming that anyone would do the same for me. I hated myself with every fiber of my being. I genuinely believed no one could ever love me. And so it was odd and really quite lucky that over the course of a year or so, I managed to unlearn all that hatred without putting too much effort into doing so. Looking back, it was like as easily as it had come on, it was gone. I'm saddened by the time I lost hating myself, but I'm so so grateful that I've learned to laugh at my own jokes, rant about the things that make me happy, dance in the mirror in a crop top and smudged day- old makeup. To this day, I dont know what prompted this change. I still have slip ups, sometimes I still shy away from the mirror or cringe at a joke that fell flat, but now those moments dont define me. I've fallen in love with myself. Who'dve thought :,)

    • @lilyfw611
      @lilyfw611 Před 2 lety

      Beautiful ❤️

  • @kissingthimbles552
    @kissingthimbles552 Před 4 lety +674

    when i saw this i immediately said "uh oh, the feels are comin"

  • @michellemah2758
    @michellemah2758 Před 4 lety +1211

    Did anyone else just absolutely burst into tears when 20 year old Dodie asked about Hedy and her parents, and 25 year old Dodie had to take a cry break?

    • @precioustime6635
      @precioustime6635 Před 4 lety +5

      czcams.com/video/VjJRP-T0dSk/video.html

    • @lucy-vo2lr
      @lucy-vo2lr Před 4 lety +1

      yes omg

    • @gimpystimpy5304
      @gimpystimpy5304 Před 4 lety +39

      Michelle Mah i don’t know anything about her so what happened to her parents?

    • @goldnoodlelala
      @goldnoodlelala Před 4 lety +11

      i did man, even if i dont know what happened i could still sense the emotions through the screen and idek why i started crying too :(

    • @TheComment2011
      @TheComment2011 Před 4 lety +1

      @@gimpystimpy5304 maybe they split or one or both passed away?

  • @coramarie619
    @coramarie619 Před 4 lety +82

    when dodie started crying, i literally started sobbing

  • @breadderrick1836
    @breadderrick1836 Před 4 lety +39

    "all of the mess and the memories are gone"
    That hit hard...

  • @outdated-username
    @outdated-username Před 4 lety +569

    The human-ness is so cutting I don't even know the words to describe it

  • @kendallwert7640
    @kendallwert7640 Před 4 lety +800

    Dodie’s reaction to being able to tell her 20yo self that she’s a musician with a band and hit songs is the wholesome content we need. 💜

  • @claireshelnutt8230
    @claireshelnutt8230 Před 3 lety +37

    Dodie, pink-and-white in 2015, you were so important to my messy adolescence. I made pink floral bunting for my walls and asked for a uke for christmas in high school- you were like a dear older sister to me, I wanted to be just like you. and woo girl i was right with you on the eyeliner lol (throwback to Paint with Hedi)
    but Dodie, green-and-gold in 2020, I have so much respect for you. I'm not quite as tied to youtube as I used to be, but you and your art hold such an important place in my heart. Watching you grow gracefully and untidily and beautifully into a buoyant adult gives me hope. You are familiar to me. Thank you, darling, for letting us grow with you.
    Thank you for looking at your precious 20-year-old self kindly. I loved her. I'm learning to love my 17-year-old self that well (and my 22-year-old self for that matter). You lead the charge.

  • @mollygarcia8638
    @mollygarcia8638 Před 3 lety +100

    I think I was around 14 when I watched your initial video, now I am 19. When I was 14, I watched you and listened to your youtube songs every week! Because of that, I associated you and your music with that hard point in my life. This is the first video I’ve watched from you in a very long time, I listen to your songs still, but whenever I see your face I can’t help but reminisce and picture my 14 year old self behind a laptop clinging to the internet for an escape. You were my safe space for a really hard time in my life, thank you 20 year old Dodie.

  • @kale6623
    @kale6623 Před 4 lety +1876

    I remember watching “Dear 25 Year Old Me” when I was 12, I’m now 17 and sobbing at how time flies

  • @hannaha7084
    @hannaha7084 Před 4 lety +445

    The fact that she’s not looking at the camera, it makes it seem like she’s doing an interview and talking to an actual person

    • @aniwaniwa427
      @aniwaniwa427 Před 4 lety +4

      hehe true that, I viewed it as her addressing her 20yr old self :)

  • @zachabraham3004
    @zachabraham3004 Před 3 lety +56

    i've never wanted to hug a person through a screen more than right now

    • @zachabraham3004
      @zachabraham3004 Před 3 lety

      oh i forgot you wrote this comment already i was about to write it again, guess i don't need to lol

    • @zachabraham3004
      @zachabraham3004 Před 3 lety

      i remembered i wrote a comment this time, but i forgot what i wrote, and also that i replied to myself. can't wait until 3 months from now, when i reply to this comment again

  • @jaaaaaaa
    @jaaaaaaa Před 4 lety +254

    wowww dodieeeee!!!!

    • @thebeanmaster2854
      @thebeanmaster2854 Před 3 lety

      first, comment here verified person, after 9 months. I'm waiting for my prize

  • @skssdeuvsdishartmann.3439
    @skssdeuvsdishartmann.3439 Před 4 lety +1679

    OMG I CAN’T BELIEVE I HAVE WAITED FOR THIS FOR FIVE YEARS WHAT DO YOU MEAN FIVE YEARS?????!!!!!! HOW OLD AM I EVEN NOW WTF LMAO HOW TIME FLIES

  • @pinksuiteheart6974
    @pinksuiteheart6974 Před 4 lety +277

    "How's teenage Hedy?" *has a whole breakdown*

  • @siriuslyseggsy
    @siriuslyseggsy Před 3 lety +122

    I'm literally sobbing right now because I realized that I'm so afraid of the future I just don't see myself in like 4 years and I don't know what to do and how to get happy and motivated for life again

    • @mandybig2395
      @mandybig2395 Před 3 lety +6

      I tell you i feel exactly the Same way, but we will get trough it and we will be happy. I just know it !

  • @MicahCate
    @MicahCate Před 3 lety +119

    I REMEMBER WATCHING THIS WHEN IT FIRST CAME OUT WOW
    I've been such a fan of you for so many years; I can't believe how far you've come and I'm so proud to say I've been there for most of your CZcams years! I love you, Dodie! (Also I love your hair long, you looked so pretty in your I Kissed Someone music video) also omg I take spironolactone too

  • @evan
    @evan Před 4 lety +3107

    5 years sounds like nothing on paper but damn it's a long ass time
    crazy how far y've come!

    • @doddlevloggle
      @doddlevloggle  Před 4 lety +308

    • @Mega365247
      @Mega365247 Před 3 lety +6

      Absolutely, you can change and grow a lot in 5 years! Especially when you are young!! 😁

    • @Mike-jq9jo
      @Mike-jq9jo Před 3 lety +2

      Five years is spit in the ocean. It is very little. The human cortex isn’t fully formed until about age 25. You guys have a long time coming.

  • @noahchurch4434
    @noahchurch4434 Před 4 lety +36

    Honestly when 20 year old Dodie Clark said “are you happy?....... I hope you’re happy!” That! That set me off crying. 🥺

  • @Puffleman24
    @Puffleman24 Před 3 lety +50

    Honestly the most reassuring part of this (as someone who is the same age as our dear dodie) is that she was _offended_ when her younger self was afraid to be her.
    Like, bitch, I SURVIVED you! But also I love you and I understand exactly what you mean

  • @brooklyn__________
    @brooklyn__________ Před 4 lety +355

    Be honest your down here to distract yourself from crying, cause that’s me rn

  • @bluuebye1991
    @bluuebye1991 Před 4 lety +2358

    this feels like the end to “secret for the mad”, in a better place than it started, still with some sad things to face, but hopeful and okay :)

    • @DisabledwithDiamonds
      @DisabledwithDiamonds Před 4 lety +7

      ellieleat okay YES SAME 1000%

    • @TS-um4jx
      @TS-um4jx Před 4 lety +7

      My heart

    • @jessicaharding1876
      @jessicaharding1876 Před 4 lety +7

      This is ridiculously true, going to put it on repeat again for the next 3 days

    • @Alyssa__2115
      @Alyssa__2115 Před 4 lety +2

      Ok was ok until i read this then i broke down

    • @triforceofevil
      @triforceofevil Před 4 lety +4

      ellieleat when she told 20 y/o dodie that it eventually got better i immediately though of secret for the mad and it felt like such a fitting song that 25 y/o dodie would dedicate to her past self i started crying it’s nice to know i wasn’t the only one that felt that way

  • @dannidalion1349
    @dannidalion1349 Před 4 lety +50

    I never thought I'd hear dodie say the words "I took a pregnancy test"
    Even I was scared

  • @jocelynbejar2311
    @jocelynbejar2311 Před 4 lety +232

    Who’s here from Kristen’s video?

    • @codedog02
      @codedog02 Před 4 lety +1

      I only liked your comment because yes I did come from Kristen's vid, but you're pfp is Joji and I respect that.

    • @jocelynbejar2311
      @jocelynbejar2311 Před 4 lety

      codedog j i love his music

  • @alicepalmeira4887
    @alicepalmeira4887 Před 4 lety +342

    dodie crying trying to talk about her family is me in every therapy session tbh

    • @doddleoddle
      @doddleoddle Před 4 lety +54

      LMAO CORRECT same

    • @ersaida
      @ersaida Před 4 lety +2

      I'm glad I'm not the only one lmao

  • @abbyh.4777
    @abbyh.4777 Před 4 lety +1996

    I love seeing her love herself here. The joy she has when she talks to “herself”.

  • @absharvey123
    @absharvey123 Před 3 lety +26

    anyone else rewatching this after dodie posted her "dear 30 year old dodie" video? So proud of how far she's come and I hope 30 year old dodie is happy and healthy. (Also its so scary that I was around for that video 5 years ago and i thought I was so mature at the time lol no.)

  • @gemmuffin57
    @gemmuffin57 Před 4 lety +45

    this made me cry way more than i expected

  • @jaemiing
    @jaemiing Před 4 lety +1226

    I love how Dodie talks to her 20yr old self like a person in front of herself and gets excited for her

    • @GreekGirl102
      @GreekGirl102 Před 4 lety

      I heard or read somewhere that there was a study where when people look at images of themselves from the past, the same part of their brain lights up as when they see other people, i.e. their brain identifies their past selves as a different person.

    • @jaemiing
      @jaemiing Před 4 lety +1

      GreekGirl102 ahh thanks for telling me that’s actually quite interesting

  • @Cathedralsinmyheart7
    @Cathedralsinmyheart7 Před 4 lety +579

    "I did take a pregnancy test the other day, um, but I'm just very bloated" MOOD

  • @HakanBacon
    @HakanBacon Před 4 lety +16

    For the past 2 years I've been in this "I wanna go back" mood. It really is wuite difficult to look forward instead of backwards to find happiness

  • @jessica23claire
    @jessica23claire Před 4 lety +495

    "I did take a pregnancy test the other day, but I'm just very bloated." if that's not your mid 20's in a nutshell, I don't know what is!
    God, if I could talk to my 20 year old self I would say: you don't realise it yet, but you're in a toxic relationship with someone who's emotionally abusing you. Basically everything he tells you is a lie. You're going to turn into a clone of him and put him before anyone else in your life. You're going to lose connections with people for a while. You're going to be horribly depressed, fat, and anxious. Then once you break up with him those friends and family will pick you up, dust you off, and tell you how much better your life will be without him. You're going to realise you deserve so much better. You'll adopt a beautiful cat, get lots of tattoos and change your mind about a lot of things you want to achieve. But overall you're striving to live the life you want to live, and doing things that make you a better and happier person.You're still getting there, but you're going to be okay.

    • @derekg5563
      @derekg5563 Před 4 lety +6

      Kind of unfortunate that there doesn't seem to be a large amount of videos directed towards 20 year old girls about how to spot toxic people. I don't know if it's because then it would force them to critically look at their standards and how they can be blinded by attraction. Because presumably it's not like 40% of men are emotionally abusive and lie 100% of the time. (I guess men as a group are extremely bad if that's the case, and I would be surprised how society wouldn't immediately collapse with so many immoral people in the world.) So it seems like a fair amount of the time, women are picking a man who turns out to be abusive rather than the many men who are not abusive. Certain traits women are picking out from the group of men to find a partner seem to be correlated with abusive tendencies, because if you just take a random guy, chances are he's not abusive -- abusiveness is not nearly as ubiquitous as that, so something else seems to be going on. And to think how many years a woman has to suffer because she couldn't see the red flags. And so it could help a lot to have more media that tackles this topic. Instead, the trend seems to be more about, "just pick whoever you want, and don't question your desire, just follow it hedonistically, don't be sexist and question a woman's choices." But that can lead you down a pretty bad path if you're not careful.

  • @greenhairedhannah6089
    @greenhairedhannah6089 Před 4 lety +459

    Dodie: is crying and trying to hold herself together.
    Also Dodie: OOP
    I love her

  • @eleanormaddock9603
    @eleanormaddock9603 Před 4 lety +369

    “I got nose fillers though” ok here is my formal request for dodie asmr

    • @morgansymonds9080
      @morgansymonds9080 Před 4 lety +9

      Dodie has a few asmr videos already! 😊

    • @wybersss
      @wybersss Před 4 lety +5

      ur in luck friend !! just search that shit and you’ll get some gold content from a year or two ago

    • @eleanormaddock9603
      @eleanormaddock9603 Před 4 lety +3

      Morgan Symonds this is the happiest moment of my life

    • @eleanormaddock9603
      @eleanormaddock9603 Před 4 lety +1

      Chloe 🥺 thank you!

    • @skylarsa
      @skylarsa Před 4 lety

      THANK YOU. I GOT ASMR THERE TOO!

  • @sadclownschool9358
    @sadclownschool9358 Před 4 lety +51

    That bit in the middle scared me, I legit thought to myself "oh God, has Hedi died?"

    • @blacksheep9144
      @blacksheep9144 Před 4 lety

      so is she??? omg i hope she's ok

    • @hsmacaraig
      @hsmacaraig Před 4 lety +5

      black sheep She’s okay hahah. She replied to a comment here so that’s how I know. :D

    • @blacksheep9144
      @blacksheep9144 Před 4 lety +2

      @@hsmacaraig Oh yay for no death! lol

  • @vnzndt887
    @vnzndt887 Před 4 lety +53

    man i’m listening to some of your old music that i used to jam to in 6-7th grade, i’m in 10th now and just came across this video. i remember the first one coming out and watching it, resonating with you so much, and being happy i had a role model like you in such a tough time. i was struggling with my identity, my undiagnosed mental illness, and finding a way to cope. “dear happy” was the song that pushed me to get a ukulele, which i still play, but it was my first real instrument and got me into guitar, keyboard, and bass. listening to your music and learning it on my uke was my escape. now, 4-5ish years later, i am out as a transgender gay man starting hormones in 18 days, i’m still going through some mental health issues but i am much better than i was. if i did not have your music, i would not be here today. sure, i went though that cliche dan and phil, dodie, twenty one pilots phase but if i didn’t i wouldn’t have made it past 13. seeing you grow now makes me realize how much i have too. thank you dodie for being such a big part of my life and my growth. :”)

    • @marshm3llow467
      @marshm3llow467 Před 3 lety +4

      I'm so glad you're alright man, that's awesome! There will always be a special place in my heart for the people and things that helped me stay alive, and dodie is one of those. I still sob every time I hear secret for the mad. Mental illness is one hell of a thing to have to deal with and I'm so proud of us all for making it through. Hope you're doing well and the weather is nice!

  • @fraserwhite2477
    @fraserwhite2477 Před 4 lety +237

    Seeing this makes me realise how much stronger Dodie has become over the past 5 years.

    • @clemrose9720
      @clemrose9720 Před 4 lety +1

      Fraser White she’s got a better back bone 🦴

  • @samihahamzayeva9113
    @samihahamzayeva9113 Před 4 lety +2202

    “youre probably gonna feel like that for a while but then- then it actually does get better. genuinely. youll go through the worst of it ... and then youll actually come out feeling a lot better”
    “it is the BEST time! i cant believe you have that to look forward to. it will change your life”
    “some shit goes down, and everything changes but then everyones fine”
    “all of the mess and memories are gone. and everyones okay”
    “i think i was pinning a lot of happiness on sort of going back to the past and i think at some point, i dont know when, you learned to look forward for happiness”
    “its really not as bad as you think”
    “it will be so different and it will be okay”
    !!!!!!! this stuff made me tear up oh my god oh my god dodie is so wise and beautiful and amazing im literally so amazed to see how much shes grown its insane. this is so freaking amazing

    • @Emily-qk8ov
      @Emily-qk8ov Před 4 lety +18

      Same. Even reading this comment made me tear up again

    • @aydencourage
      @aydencourage Před 4 lety +6

      it’s incredible how much she’s grown and how positively and calmly she handled something this heavy.

    • @montannatilton9114
      @montannatilton9114 Před 4 lety +6

      thank u for writing these up!! I loved her wisdom here too. I cried with Dodie in there. And now while I'm writing this lol. My parents divorced a few years ago and last year we sold the house I grew up in and got rid of all the mess and the memories so that kind of hit me hard. I'm only 22 and I still worry a lot about whether I'll ever be, like, okay. this video honestly gave me a lot of hope. I'm graduating from university soon so it seems a good a time as ever to write a letter to future me.

    • @samihahamzayeva9113
      @samihahamzayeva9113 Před 3 lety

      happy slightly belated anniversary to the the day i got perceived by dodie

  • @lettucenjoyer
    @lettucenjoyer Před 4 lety +35

    honestly i couldn’t stop looking at dodie, shes so genuinely beautiful inside out

  • @nevelansdown8297
    @nevelansdown8297 Před rokem +5

    This inspired me to send a email to my future self. I got one from 16 year old me a few years ago and it was so nice. Having a younger you to talk to and put things into perspective is a lovely experience x

  • @jaybird1216
    @jaybird1216 Před 4 lety +320

    Please tell me I'm not the only one who started bawling when 20-year-old Dodie asked if 25-year-old Dodie is happy? because just watching Dodie talk about growing over time and learning to be happy just made me bawl my eyes out holy hell

  • @Tinytinytintiny
    @Tinytinytintiny Před 4 lety +532

    *having a mental breakdown while elevator music is playing in the background*

  • @paragonnina
    @paragonnina Před 3 lety +11

    *I was crying within minutes. The things you said 5 years ago are SO relevant to how I feel now, turning 22 next week. I know everyone is different, but knowing you’ve gotten better genuinely gives me hope. Thank you, Dodie.*

  • @brittanynicole3106
    @brittanynicole3106 Před 3 lety +4

    Honestly think we all went through the worst of it in 2016-2017. I felt that one.

  • @sienflower
    @sienflower Před 4 lety +575

    when you broke down about your parents no longer being together but being in better places than they were when together made me breakdown ahhhhhhhhh! my parents are also separated, and my mom is in a much happier and healthier
    place with her new partner :)

    • @doddleoddle
      @doddleoddle Před 4 lety +70

    • @sienflower
      @sienflower Před 4 lety +1

      doddleoddle love u and your music so much and happy birthday again💞💞

  • @mynameis_jendrik
    @mynameis_jendrik Před 4 lety +466

    „this is the face of someone who is not ready to continue“ was the cutest, direct and most honest added text in there

    • @NikitaSamourai
      @NikitaSamourai Před 4 lety +2

      And she still did. It's like life, even when you're not ready for it you still get through

    • @precioustime6635
      @precioustime6635 Před 4 lety

      czcams.com/video/VjJRP-T0dSk/video.html

  • @reann298
    @reann298 Před 4 lety +30

    I haven’t seen a dodie video in so long and seeing her now and then when I first found her when she was around 20 is absolutely crazy, I still love you dodie 🥺💕

  • @robynmaggs3455
    @robynmaggs3455 Před 4 lety +1

    i just sobbed with you for this whole video. i’m so happy for you xx

  • @SophiaWilson
    @SophiaWilson Před 4 lety +196

    *main takeaway: **_things will get better_*

  • @its.dragaton
    @its.dragaton Před 4 lety +245

    "It's gonna be okay, but you know this.
    You're gonna write a book, you're gonna write EP's, you're gonna write albums, you're gonna tour the world, you're gonna fall in love, you're gonna fall apart, you're gonna get back together, find new friends, you will fade away from other things;
    and it will be so different, but it will be okay."
    i think this was exactly what i needed to hear in my own situation. life is changing & there are days when i feel like nothing's going to work out. but things will work out, and it will be okay. and i think, perhaps, in five years i'll be farther along than i ever could have thought possible.

  • @spacevolcanoes
    @spacevolcanoes Před 4 lety +6

    i love this so much! 5 years doesn’t seem like that long but if i think about where i was five years ago and all i’ve been through it is WILD

  • @meirosesbloom
    @meirosesbloom Před 3 lety +1

    so much self-love, this was so nice and inspiring to watch. I've been following you since i was a teenager and this just gives me even more hope

  • @MadilynBailey
    @MadilynBailey Před 4 lety +972

    This is the sweetest video! Why are our twenties so confusing?? Is it the "I'm not a girl not yet a woman" thing??

    • @shroooti
      @shroooti Před 3 lety +2

      Maybe😅

    • @Icarusrider
      @Icarusrider Před 3 lety +11

      Hormones, it will save you a lot of heartache sweetheart, if you can manage it and not wreck yourself and others while going through your 20s. cheers.

  • @ijustshitmyself
    @ijustshitmyself Před 4 lety +1653

    "how's mom, how's dad,"
    ".... Ladies and gentlemen we're gonna take a short break"
    *Goes to sob in a corner*
    Most relatable and bittersweet thing I've ever seen
    Edit: hOLy sHiEt the likes wth

  • @prajvalj
    @prajvalj Před 4 lety +2

    Everyone has their fears and difficulties - and it's inspiring to see you face yours and be brave everyday. Thank you Dodie! You've brought joy, and given us words and tunes to echo and understand our sadness all these years

  • @HeyItsKylie101
    @HeyItsKylie101 Před 4 lety +1

    this actually gives me so much hope. its really inspiring. i've been going through hard times for the past like 7 years and this gives me hope.

  • @crickety6092
    @crickety6092 Před 4 lety +3340

    The affection in her voice when she talks about Heidi brought tears to my eyes