When T Isn't Enough (FTM) | Harrison Browne
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- čas přidán 16. 07. 2019
- Today I will be talking about my experience not feeling "manly" enough even after over a year on testosterone
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I find it helpful to remember that (most) 14 year old boys don’t have a full beard.... technically hormonally you are only like 14/15 at one year on hormones “one year of puberty” so try not to put too much focus on it! You look 100% male and having facial hair doesn’t make you a man. Plenty of cis men can’t grow beards either. Keep your head up!
@Paul Mallory Haters are going to hate eh?
agree you need more time and take a hormone test maybe the dose is low
oh and about the beard i got one and i zero shave it and i wish i look like you
enjoy your time dont waste it on useless observation
Omg his voice changed so much sence i last watched him omg
I discovered your channel with you video about a day in the life of ferrets and I thought you were a cis man, no question asked
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Same here. If he didn’t mention being trans I wouldn’t have known.
if it makes you feel any better, I found you through a ferret video and had absolutely no inclinations that you were transgender. I just assumed you were a young man, because you look and sound young man. I was surprised when I clicked on your channel and saw your other videos. you're a very introspective and vivid individual, you are definitely enough.
You were probably very blond as a kid, my brother is cis and he couldn't grow facial hair until he was well into his 30's, even now it's pretty blond even though his head hair has darkened considerably.
have always had black hair and can't grow a beard so there's no correlation whatsoever
Dude... Let me just tell you, I found you via your ferret videos. The first one I found was a more recent one and it didn't even flirt my mind for a second that you were Trans... Then I clicked on one of your older one and I was perplexed... At first I didn't even know if it was the same person who made the video, I thought it might have been like your sister or something... Then I just looked at your whole range of videos and I could barely believe it, like how much you've changed and how completely masculin you look and sound... I didn't know someone could change that much, it almost feel like sorcery or something.
In short, you're totally manly my dude!
i used to feel the same way and i found that working on being more positive and stopping my negative thinking helped a lot. one day i just sat myself down and said "this is it, nothing much else is going to change from here on out so if i'm still not happy then i need to do something about it". from there i made a conscious effort stop myself from thinking about things that made me dysphoric cause i found that when i let my mind wander it would often go there and i had to stop it. then if i was feeling dysphoric about something like my height i would find examples of cis men who are the same height as me like kevin hart to show myself that it doesn't make me less of a man.
i also found that i'd often think about how shit being trans is and i viewed being trans in a very negative light so whenever i found myself doing that i'd stop and start thinking about the positive things being trans has done for me like the friends i've made cause of it and the way it's shaped me as a person.
it really is important to do what you can to improve your mental health as a trans person because unfortunately hormones and surgery doesn't fix it all but i promise it does get better
Dude you're what I'm going to grow up to be. I'm a female hockey player who has just become a freshman and is now playing high school's hockey. I had two ferrets Havoc and Theo they died two days after last Christmas. I really want to play in the men's hockey league because honestly the WNHL kinda sucks ass and I'm determined to use my depression and SH to move my energy into something productive where I will still get hurt :)
Brother, I don’t know if you will see this but it’s been a hot minute since I’ve seen one of your videos...damn dude! I can’t make you feel better but the change that has happened is so noticeable and awesome! Congrats dude :)
Minoxidil is a great way to jump start your facial hair!!
Javen thanks for the suggestion! But I’ve had trouble with acne on T and don’t want to put anything foreign on my face.
minoxidil can be really unsafe for certain people
Thanks so much for this video Harrison. I started T the same day you did and have had a very similar experience in terms of the past few months being challenging with worrying about how I'm seen. Thanks for reminding me that I'm not alone
i am 2 and 1/2 years on T and I am still struggling to grow facial hair. It's just now starting to be noticeable and honestly it is discouraging. I noticed mine picking up around 1 year and a half. hang in there and you will get there and it can take 3 years sometimes 4 or 5. and sometimes maybe never unfortunately but I think you just might have a color problem with your hair (in my opinion)
I can completely understand where you’re coming from! Have you thought about trying to be more present in the moment? I’m not sure if you’re into mindfulness-type stuff, but I think it may possibly help. Maybe try focusing on what you love about yourself, how you look, feel, and interact with the world.. without adding in the “but I’d be happier if...”. Try focusing on the present moment only. I know it’s tough when so much of transitioning has to do with focusing on the future - waiting for T, surgery, waiting for changes to happen, waiting to change your name, etc etc. I think it’s hard to break that focus when a big part of the transition process is waiting. Being able to be present in the moment, whether it be meditating daily, writing down what you’re grateful for in that moment, things like that, it may help to direct your thinking pattern into a different direction and relieve some stress. I feel that our thinking can turn into a pattern very easily, so once you break that pattern, you can make the positive changes mentally, emotionally and spiritually. Hope this helps! :)
I support you brother! I can't imagine the challenges ahead of you, but I know it won't be easy. Whatever lies ahead, you have friends and viewers that like you, love you, and will support you.
your uploads are perfect please come back
This really hit home for me and I'm honestly really glad I found this video, I don't have a lot of trans friends so its really healthy and comforting to hear you're having a very similar experience and are working through it, I totally agree that it should come from YOU, and not from something else, like facial hair or your voice, what you said about being a person and not you're idea of an ideal or whatever is really powerful and I'm grateful to have been reminded of that, I'm MTF and have been going through a really similar point in my transition, I've been feeling progressively better about myself and the changes I've made throughout my transition over the past 3-4 years, the first year was a bit rough, and lately its been a bit rough but for the longest time I was really happy about most things, I still have a little top dysphoria, I still want laser hair removal I think, but those things don't really bother me that much anymore, I'm happier with myself than I think I've ever been, but the one thing that's resurfaced and has been eating away at me the same way you described, is my voice, wondering how people are going to refer to me pronoun wise waiting on the edge of my seat is SO relatable for me, especially considering MOST of the time people get my pronouns wrong when they don't see my in person and just hear my voice, like talking to a dentist on the phone for example or something, (just did that yesterday and had to deal with being misgendered for the duration of the phone call cuz I cant always bring myself to correct people lol, shit gets draining when you have todo it like 5 times every day) I've also had ppl refer to me as ma'am or something in person before I say anything and then after saying something they correct them selves and call me sir and I have to go "no you were right the first time.." but aside from these types of scenarios I am just SO comfortable with my appearance and everything else that I feel like how they refer to me is almost always entirely due to my voice, I feel like I tend to "pass" in every other way nowwadays, which just impacts the issue and makes my voice being the biggest thing left that much more obvious, I've made little progress on my voice in my transition and I sound basically the same way I did before my transition, voice training is very awkward and hard for me, especially considering I live with 4 other people and our walls are paper thin, didn't mean for this to turn into a book lmao and at this point I'm kinda just typing this all out cuz I think its helpful for me to, but either way thanks a ton for the upload, this video was really good for me to watch and I hope you're doing well Harrison!! (:
I really hear what you're saying man and feel the same way-thank you for vocalizing. Keep being awesome!
Can relate to this a lot. Comparing myself unconsciously to other guys then consciously doing it all the time to the point it was stuck in my subconscious then I caught myself. I was drowning in self doubts then I just let them go day by day and just try to focus on what I want to look like. Anything in my power I act on it. How I wanna behave. Me just being me. Still in progress. I’m getting to love my flaws and rethink the whole exposure to being new on t as me 17 again physically.
I’m 1.5 years on T and I only just started getting some facial hair, but it is still very unnoticeable. It’s still very much like peach fuzz or light colored. It’s frustrating and I feel similar to you.
I think when the changes stopped coming quickly, I started feeling exactly as you describe in your video. I also don’t pass 100% of the time still and hoping facial hair will help with that!
I was adopted, so I have no clue how the biological men in my family are with beard growth etc. So it’s just a waiting game to see what happens. Just know you’re not alone in this. ❤️👍🏼
Your voice drop is intense. Take that as a win. Some of us can grow facial hair but don't have the drop you did.
I totally know what you mean, I've had this recently (just over a year on T), feeling like people are looking at me and not seeing how I am now, and when I speak I sometimes feel like my voice never changed, but I do know it's all in my head. Trying to fight these thoughts as much as I can! Good to feel like I'm not the only one feeling like this, even after all this time on t.
Hey Harrison, I just found your channel and I'm really enjoying hearing your perspective on things. Your emotional strength is admirable and your personality warm. You're easy to listen to and you're a hell of a good hockey player, too!
I want to echo what many other people have said in the comments, that I would never have suspected you of being trans if I didn't already know. I hope your confidence has picked up since this video from almost a year ago.
It shows your emotional intelligence that you recognize how our human nature is to never be satisfied. I'm a very muscley, very masculine, relatively handsome cis gendered man and yet I still can't stand the fact that I'm 5' 9" tall. Ugh! It bugs the shit out of me! I'll always feel deep down like I'd feel more happy and be much more attractive to straight women if I was tall, or at least not on the shorter side. That said, I'm content with my identity overall and I think you can get there, too, if you haven't already.
So, it seems like you're looking for honest feedback as to how you could appear more cis gendered and I do notice one thing - your speech patterns are still pretty effeminate. As I said earlier, I wouldn't have suspected you of being trans, but I probably would've thought that you might be gay. You string words together faster than most straight guys (though not all). Masculine guys speak a bit slower, they are in command of the conversation and assume that people want to listen to what they have to say and don't feel the need to rush. You also talk with a bit of "upspeak", also known as a "high rising terminal". Not a ridiculous amount like the Kardashians or something, just the normal amount that young women speak with.
I sincerely hope my feedback doesn't bring you anymore pain or doubt in yourself. I don't think that you should doubt yourself at all! And I might be totally wrong, I don't know! This is just my honest opinion. I only wanted to give my feedback in case it helps you achieve more of what you're looking to accomplish. I am definitely a new fan of your channel and I wish you all the best on your journey! And, of course, if you're ever in Minnesota please feel free to stop by and shoot some pucks with me at my dryland facility. It would be really cool to meet you!
Hey Harrison, I'm late to this vid so not sure you'll see this but i hope you have more confidence now. Like many others here i was introduced to your channel by the ferret vid, and i honestly thought you were born a man. It was only later i found out you've been creating contents to help others who are going through similar situations as you. I hope things are better than before and you're staying safe from covid-19. Love from Van BC
I know this feeling and I fear I might have it on T too tbh... always being unhappy or it not being good enough or safe enough
If you want to try it, using minoxidil on your face may help with beard growth. I tried it for like a week and stopped bc it dried out my skin a lot, but it may work for you.
It dries it out at the beginning but after a few weeks it stops
Thanks for the suggestion! Unfortunately I’ve had skin problems after T (acne) so I don’t want to jeopardize my complexion putting something else on my face.
@@HarrisonBrowne24 i've always had the worst acne but it cleared up around 7 months on t using minox didn't bring it back at all, but i get your concern since it is an oil!
Totally get where you're coming from - I'm about 3 1/2 years on T now and I had a pretty quick voice drop in the first few months and then not a lot changed after that. For the first maybe two years I was worried about whether I was being read as male by other people and it was on my mind a lot, but I've learnt to let go of that - it doesn't matter if people don't see me as male, because I know who I am and I'm confident in the way that I present myself. Besides, you're probably worrying more than you need to, I would say most people don't even think twice about whether you're a man or not. It just takes time, and some self-reflection, but it's still early days, you'll get there. Minoxidil is a good way of helping beard growth and I did try it out for a while because I can't grow much facial hair at all, but these days I only use it occasionally, even though I can grow a small patch on my chin and that's about it. Again, I'm more comfortable now about not having a beard and I've accepted that it won't happen, and for plenty of cis guys it doesn't - genetics is a game of chance tbh.
As a trans man who has a lot of facial hair since 4 months on T and it’s been growing more and more my thought process is: i wish I didn’t grow a beard at all on T because I am so DEPENDENT on my facial hair in order for me to pass. I wish I could pass without the facial bc being so dependent on my beard to pass, to me, is awful. It makes me feel that if I shaved it all off I’d look pre-T again and get misgendered but if I had 0 facial hair and was passing I know that I can pass with and without a beard and that’d be something less to stress about. I hope this advice helps you feel a bit better about not being able to grow facial hair yet ! Love you and keep doing you. You are a huge inspiration ❤️
I was told full transition takes about 5 years give it take. Also minoxidil helps most of us grow facial hair pretty quick. You could try that. I’ve seen even some pre-T guys grow facial hair that way.
Harrison, I watched your Ferret video. I did not know you were trans until you mentioned it. Well done man!
Dude you gotta remind yourself that what makes you a man isn't hair. Honestly I'm coming from your ferret video and I hadn't questioned your gender at ALL. You look manlier than a lot of guys I know, including me😂. Very proud of you!
You could try using beard dye on the hairs you have?
I'm 2 years on T and have yet to see significant stubble. Only have some sideburn action so far which isn't really noticeable and doesn't stave off the constant comments about looking so young. Hanging in there with you :)
Thank you so much for this video.
I feel like the main thing is self acceptance. Most people have problems with it, some more than others. Masculinity as a whole is scary for all men because of the culture around it.
I love hockey, I am ftm but my mom wanted me to play on a girls team or quit. I had to quit I miss it soooo much
I highly highly resonate with this!
Like many others here i saw u through the ferret video and was very confused when you mentioned the trans thing, i would never assume that you have ever been anything other than a man. I think youre doing great, and like you said everyone compares themselves to others when they shouldnt. I think you should continue to just focus on you and keep up trying to stay positive. Hope you feel more confidant soon dude :)
I just found your channel because of your ferret vids, and I just want to tell you, I would never guess you were trans, and with facial hair, I have male friends who can only grow 3 beard hairs, and I have a massive bald patch under my chin, it’s all just genetics, just stay positive and what your body does, it does. ( my father won’t grow facial hair because he is a special kind of patchy, I’m glad I mostly missed that gene)
When I saw your ferret video, I definitely thought you are a man! Nice job Harrison ❤️
I wonder if my voice is deep enough too. I’m almost a year on t so the main voice drop I’m gonna experience has already happened and I’m scared it’s not deep enough
Harrison I completely get you - almost a year on T and I know there is a lot more time and a lot more changes to come, I think for me it's now the problem of feeling like I look like a boy when all my peers and guys the same age look like fully fledged man and it therefore makes me feel 'less of a man' by being so skinny and having very little body hair, whereas before it was all about passing as male, even if that meant being perceived as a boy - now I'm teaching students 7 or 8 years younger than me who look the same age as me, or students who look older than me
Just been through your comments pal and theres loads of people saying the same as I have you really could never tell you was a woman at this point you take it steady I've just subscribed as I really like your story bye
It might sound like kind of a weird suggestion, but maybe looking at some of those "how to have confident male body language" videos might help you get in the mindset of focusing on presenting yourself as more "manly" to people. I don't really think those kinds of videos are super important to actually being more like a certain sex, but it could potentially ease your own mind if you can look inward and think "yes, I know how to make myself appear a certain way. No more worrying about how other people are viewing me." If that makes sense.
I'm 4 years on T and I feel the same way but I can grow some facial hair but for me I need facial masculinization surgeries my lips are bigger than my whole families lips and I want a lip reduction my nose is small and I always wanted a prominent nose and I want brow bone implants. I hate my feminine features so much even though I pass I still see my Pre T face,
you pass well
I've been on t a little over a year and I dont have a beard or even a goatee yet. But I've noticed hairs getting darker and more baby hairs popping up everywhere. 1 yr is not a lot of time to have all this stuff come in mature so keep your head up you look great
I’m 17 and 3+ years on T... I’ll tell you by a year I really had about the same amount of face fuzz. I still don’t have a beard, but significantly more on my neck chin and sideburns. The stache is still talking it’s time. It will get better though! But I’ve been feeling the same thing man and it’s only just hit now at 3 years. Interestingly enough it seemed to hit harder after my Top Surgery a few months ago. But I’m in the same boat. “Not manly enough”...I seem to pick excessively at my flaws more and more lately... I get anxiety about feeling like there is no progression. It’s as if after surgery I got the feeling “This is it. My transition is complete for me, this is what I’ve got to work with for the rest of my life from here on out.” That freaked me out a little. Before I’d seem to place dissatisfaction on “Give the T more time it will change.” Or once I got surgery all of my body issues would dissapear with the one. Seeing that’s not the case, I’ve been met with the truth and it’s distressing. So, thankyou for this video helping me not feel like I’m the only one. You aren’t either, and I think your thoughts about it are headed in the right direction of self awareness and progression. Hang in there man, we’ll all get to the other side some day. In the meantime this side can’t be so bad either. You’re manly as hell! Good Luck!
Can we have a ferret update I want to see how she’s doing plz...
Hey buddy, been there, still there sometimes... I remember counting 15 beard hairs about a year ago, I have a lot more now but it's still not where I want it. Transitioning is HARD!
Sometimes the mental journey is exhausting because it's the physiological and emotional changes of puberty all over again, combined with the concern of how we present in the world. I've been on T close to 3 years (although I started on an extremely low dose, my choice), and I still get misgendered from time to time because I'm chubby and that makes my body shape less masculine.
While I have found encouragement watching videos of others guys' transitions on CZcams sometimes it backfires because a lot of those guys had exciting, rapid physical transformations in a way that I haven't. I still stress over body hair, facial hair, bottom growth, etc. I started my transition at a much later age, so you do have youth and time on your side.. You look great, like a guy in his late teens /early 20s, not feminine at all. Hang in there, the changes are still happening.
Sorry to ramble. Stay strong!
Love your hair it look so goooooooooooood!!
I found your channel through the feret video and I was thinking: '' oh what a cute guy''. I think that we are not enough for ourselfs, not for others. I wrote ''we''because I am feeling the same way for myself, for different things. When something is accomplished I am not feeling the way I thought I would and that's not enough for me. Maybe if we focus to the perpuse, to the target that motivates us and think why this makes us happy, maybe then we will feel enough and happy.
Wish you the best😍
You could try one of those male beard color toners
I’m the opposite I grow a beard and mustache but I stopped growing anymore I’ve been 5”4 since I was 13 and now I’m 18
I have very light hair on my face so i use just for men to dye my facial hair and man it can do wonders
My dad, a cis man, never grew chest hair. He had 5 long chest hairs as an adult. But, even at age 60, he was smooth. Idk if it helps to know that. He also had an insane metabolism and was mostly muscle, even though he didn't have a workout routine.
As a trans man myself, I'm often scared I'll be chasing the next thing and never be satisfied, but also I'm scared I'll never pursue the next thing to feel comfortable bc of pressure or feeling like a burden. Rn, I want hormones and top surgery. But will that be enough? I try to join take it a step at a time and try to dig up some peace where I'm at.
For what it's worth, I, a gay guy, had a mini crush on you when I first found this channel. 😂
Trust me. Your endeavours have been a success and you present very well as a charming, handsome man.
You totally pass as a guy! In regards to facial hair, you can do hair transplants, tijuana Mexico has decent prices for it. But honestly you just look like a clean shaven dude who stays on top of shaving 👍🏽
Yeah, I'm going to echo what a lot of other people have said here, I found your channel first from one of your ferret videos, the one where you are shirtless at the start, and I had no idea you were trans. I missed you saying that you normally make trans related content, and when I saw a comment down below mentioning it I was astonished. This probably won't make you feel secure in yourself, cos it's obviously a very deep seated psychological issue, but you have nothing to worry about man. You should talk to your doctor about maybe supplementing your T with some DHT, that will promote body hair growth.
Hey man, I'm watching you 3 years later so you're probably in a very different place right now, but anyway I'd like to say that you do look and sound like a cis-men to me.
I'm only 8 months on T and I'd die to be at the stage you are right now. Today was one of those days when I didn't feel manly enough
I 100% thought u were just a guy that' has a higher voice cause cis men do too lol when I saw ur what it's really like owning ferrets .. I had no clue so I wouldn't worry about it
Hugs ♡
I’m a trans guy but I legit look like a soft boy or an eboy. My voice has dropped and everything. It was hard for me to get into makeup and nail polish (I used to wear that when I thought I was a girl), but I realized that I just shouldn’t care what anybody thinks. It’s difficult, but if someone thinks I’m a girl they see I’m not when they hear my voice. People don’t think I’m a girl, though.
I want to grow a beard, oddly enough, just to shave it off, lol. You pass with or without a beard. Like dude lmaoooo, cute af.
How comes you don’t try minox bro?
Hi Harrison, Could have you email please? I'm a Transgender athlete and I just feel really scared right now.
We are about the same age. My facial and body hair really took off after year two on testosterone. It got thicker after I had a hysterectomy. Hang in there.
I completely know how you feel. I am always waiting for something. And I don't even know what I am waiting for. Actually I am pretty sure that this thing doesent even exist. An yet: I always feel incomplete.
So I dont know. Maybe one day we will get there?!
Im a trans ftm and I think I pass but I’m still in the meh zone but my parents aren’t really doing anything to help :/
Watched ferret vid and had no idea you were trans. I’m a 50 year old trans man ( never refer myself as trans so writing that was weird ) your beard will come don’t worry it’ll take a few years. Your voice is deep enough. I had issues there too. Then I realised it was how I was using it hot how deep it was. I think we sound how a lot of gay men talk. And that’s not about how deep it’s the way they talk. Relax it will all come naturally
Honestly, I saw your old ferret video, and then your new one, and I had no idea it was the same person, it never once crossed my mind that you were a female, and then I was like "Oh that's the same channel" eheheh, all I see is manly ferret boy.
Dude, I watch your ferrets video by chance and I can tell you that you look like a man, 100%. Hope your confidence gets better day by day.
So, I found your channel through your farret vids. Ironically, I have a young co-worker that has come out as transgender. Just having watched a couple of you videos, if I met you on the street, I would definitely have addressed you as male. You're still young. Try not to dwell on it to much. You're doing fine.
Do you still play hockey pal?
Jack Jupiter nope!
So, as for your friends: yes, they're right in you being a man, you sound like one, you look like one, you dress like one, present like one.
As for you being enough.. it's not a trans specific thing, but you picked out the trans thing to perform up to a standard. You being out and very publicly so makes it more likely for people to know you're trans.. so it's a "logical" thing to assume.
I hope you have a therapist to talk to bc that can help.
Just a regular one who's not trans specific.
ummmmm why does this person need a non-trans-specific therapist....?
Fuck. I am 21 year old male of 21 years 🤣. I cannot grow a full bread. It kinda annoys me. I dislike shaving out of laziness and ingrown hairs, but it don't look good! Under my bottom lip and chin is bare legit. Rest is cool, but missing right there.
Just claim down mate. Your cool. It will take a while.
It will be about 3-5 years to my knowledge.
I have been going through your videos after a goalie coach/friend shared the Olympics based interview/doc that is up just today.
My interest has been peaked about the process and the thought process about it. Never thought avout it or self educated before as an somebody who is ASD, it is odd for me. Never had a reason too I guess.
But, meet a person online and he offered to mentor me as a new goalie.
Met him, play hockey and shot some rifles, and thought nothing of it. Left for a trip for 2 months.
We shared id about being native and whelp. Ahahha. Mind fuck.
Good skater, a good person, and a even better mentor for me, so I really dont care 😉.
Omg I’m a baby trans ftm and I just seen u from day in the life of ferrets u look 100 percent male
bruv, I watched a video around the time of this posting and I just thought you were a dude - had no doubts - great ferret vids :D
You have inspired me so much I have looked up to you as a trans athlete and I never found anyone that was trans that was a athlete and you always a real man even if you are not on T no matter you always a man to me and much love to you harry💙🧡❤️💚💛
you look a bit like tom holland
I’m sorry your facial hair isn’t coming in as fast as you hoped. Hang in there man!
not every man is ideal yep that is the problem you need to love yourself or maybe you know better then improve
If it helps, as a complete stranger who just found your channel in my YT recommendations, I had no idea you were trans until it was mentioned. I just thought you were a cis dude with some rad ferret care.
Haha, same. I just saw his ferret vid in my recommendations and it never occurred to me until he mentioned it. Browsed the channel after that and found him really insightful and chill.
dude you ARE hot . I 'M 60 just got this failled chest hair patch , and could not grow a mustache to save my life til I was 30 something ....the beard ,LOL ... I can pull off an evil spock but if I let it all grow out ...JEEZZ EVIL CAT WHISKERS lol ..just let your body do what it wants ....man or woman ? there is always some shit that will make you go W.T.F.!!! as for your voice you have nothing to worry about I still sound like charlie brown went to lucy's shack and couldn't pay the bill , then some times I could make Luke Skywalker go ...OK Heres my hand, see ya later pops....you will be fine.... just be WHO YOU WANT TO BE, It doesn't matter what anybody thinks , just be true to YOU...where EVER YOUR JOURNEY TAKES YOU , If they are not into Ferrets DUMPEM ( long live the furbabies)just have fun , be safe and find your own path.... :))
Dont know you. Found your video about ferrets (sorry for your loss btw) but I just felt I should let you know.. until I clicked on your channel for more furry friend videos, I was completely under the impression that you were biologically Male. Dont judge yourself so harshly .. we can be our worst critics. Stay golden !
Oh I diddnt even know you were FTM lol I thought you were just a ferret guy... I have ferrets and that’s how I found you
If it matters, I watched your ferret video, and had no idea you were trans, I thought you were a guy, no question.
as someone who's nonbinary and really wants to stop looking so feminine, this channel I found through a ferret video has helped me so much. you're an inspiration 💓
The way I tell someone is ftm trans is not due to lack of a beard, but due to their eyes, eyebrows, and voice, something I doubt can ever be changed. Even for really advanced trans guys, who've been years on t, after me talking to them for about 5 to 10 minutes, I begin to notice their voice is somehow "different", whenever someone tells me they're trans I'm like "yeah... I noticed". Unfortunate, but transition will never be "full" and will have imperfections, best you can do is just accept it. Non-trans people are also insecure about many things. So it's ok. ^^
Some have thick eyebrows. It is just the structure is always a little off.
@@alecrosewell6959 thickness of the eyebrows is not what I meant. Just to clarify.
I feel ya when you're talking to someone and a pronoun is about to come up-- it's all I can think about when I'm having a conversation with someone sometimes. Yikes. I have very dark hair so my facial and body hair has already started coming in at 5 months. My biggest insecurity is body fat redistribution though. My hips and thighs make me feel so invalid.
I totally thought you were a man when I looked at your ferret video. Remember that others dont scrutinise you as closely as you do - they won't notice little things like lack of facial hair - I just assumed you shaved regularly:) many guys do.
I'm so sorry I thought you was a lad changing to a lady now I see sorry its because I watched yours ferrets video and then I saw a swimming video and your voice was more feminine, so I thought you was a guy so you would never know my friend I thought you was a guy so good luck I hope everything goes well for you take care my friend bye
Just because you get the surgeries it does not mean you are a man.