An honest conversation (no making) - maybe you can help / the republic of me
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- čas přidán 9. 09. 2023
- Welcome to the republic of me.
My name is Ivana and this is a channel about slow living and making things... with focus on fiber arts like knitting and spinning, as well as painting, growing a garden and living on an island in the Mediterranean.
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Dear Ivana, thank you for sharing your thougts with us. I could not knit while listening. And I had to cry, because I am so sorry when people talk about Serbs in such a derogatory way. Feel a big hug for you. I am German and 70 years old. I experienced massive rejection in my younger years, especially in France, and it was not easy. Fortunately, we have overcome it by now. It takes a lot of time. As you rightly say, people are people. We can only live by our own values and pass them to our children.
Ivana, I am so glad to have found your inspiring podcast and I am happy every time you share your life and skills with us. Thanks to you I dared for the first time to knit a sweater, which I knitted according to your recipe. It was finished yesterday and I am overjoyed and proud. Your recipe is just brillant. You are so generous that you just gave us this as a gift. And yes, I feel you are a very strong personality with a very big heart.
My question is, what made you decide to emigrate to Cyprus?
Ivana, it was so nice to see you smile at the end of this Video, how liberated. We in Hamburg say " after low tide comes high tide". In this sense I wish you all the love and that the good times stay now for a very long time. With love, Nina❤
Thank you for your kindness, honesty and friendship. Strange those people leaving, we all know that war is the result of bad politics and the people living their lives are caught in the middle and are the ones who suffer, no matter which side they happen to be on. I only feel compassion for anyone who has had to live through wartime. I’m German and my generation has had to work through the trauma that our parents lived through as children and were not able to deal with. So I understand how strong you have to be and I admire it immensely! I hope your father also was able to move on and live a fulfilling life! My question for you is how did you meet Mario ❤😊 and was it love at first sight?
As I grow older and experience more in life, I have found that kindness is extremely multifaceted and takes many forms. It is not just the person with the smiling and sweet voice asking how your day is or the person who holds the door for you. It can be the person who never smiles but many months down the road gives you something very meaningful because they have always listened to what you have told them and truly heard you. It can be the person who gruffly assists you with changing a flat tire on the side of the road because you are overwhelmed at the time. Ivana, you are an extremely kind and sweet soul and despite what society dictates is a "good person", the reason I started following you was because from the very beginning I could feel that kindness. I am sorry you have had so many burdens and losses in the recent years. I can empathize myself having experienced something very similar too, it took me time and therapy to get through it and I will be honest, it never really goes away completely, but you do get find joy again in many things again. You change, whether it is big or small, and there are waves of down time, but overall you end up being okay. I will be thinking of you and hope that you can find your center again.
Oh, dear! I can understand you as a mom! But, first of all, let me tell you. My english is very very rusty, I'm a brasilian woman... but i'll try... with 61 years old I'm seeing my country into a comunism way and I'm so so affraid, deeply sad with. My only son has 38 and I'm grandma of 2 babies... The life put we at prove, yeah! Ours hearts can be very strongs, day after day... The Life, The Family, Ours Sons... But in the eye of storm we can find our Faith. YOU ARE A GREAT WOMAN. Today I'm feelling The reason that I always wait so hardly your episodes. So far, só near me. ❤
Comunism? Really? WHERE?
@@fernandabernardes6870i was reading and thinking the same! For those who read this, please! We are not in a comunism government in Brazil! In fact, we got rid of a man who destroyed us as a nation, who aimed to do a cup and turn the country a dictatorial government and he is going to various trials including at the ONU. In fact he is going to jail in Brazil very soon for many, MANY, crimes against Brazil's population. So, Ivana, I can understand exactly what you said as being brazilian we are going through the most dangerous period here because fascists, negacionists and misoginous people which were raised up by the government that was elected in 2018. Thanks god, now we are recuperating democracy but it will take time to be a whole country again. Sorry for that but people must know the true as we are being overwhelmed by fake news which led people to not understand the complex context of politics and have the wrong perception of semantics and society.
Dear Ivana, to sit and bare your soul to us as you have does indeed show your huge strength of character, but you also shared with us your vulnerability as a mother and as a human being, and I admire that so much. Knowing yourself and acknowledging where you are mentally/emotionally is invaluable, and it seems you are well on your way to working through that. In my experience life is a series of challenges, and if we're lucky it is interspersed with periods of at least contentment and at best pure happiness and joy, and I hope the latter returns to your life soon with a return of your peace of mind ❤
As to a question, where did your love of all things yarny come from? Apologies if you have talked of this previously, but my menopause brain doesn't recall 😆
Thank you for being real. I sit here and work on my knits and think what do I feel like watching, and then you came on and I jumped at the chance to watch you. Even with no making, I know the content is going to be real. It moved me to hear your catharsis. And, well I still think you are an amazing person and artist. Your podcast are intense and interesting and relaxing and enjoyable. You are brave to put yourself out there - I wish I could. 🥰
Oh heck Ivana , I've just got in from a nightshift and thought I'd wind down with you, one of my faves and couple of rows of a baby blanket, and now you've got me thinking and its not a bad thing.xxxx
Its simple really, I didn't see it before, I come to you for relaxation, escape, entertainment, education and company etc and in my silence give nothing in return. I'm sorry, I realise that I need to peak over the top of that wool wall and give something back. I would love to hear snippets about your heritage, and any traditions you have carried through life with you especially around your knitting and weaving. Now I can go to bed but I will be back , night night xxxx
Dear Ivana, From one deep thinker to another, you inspire me. I recognize so much of what you are expressing. Our lives are full of transitional points. When I left my first child at his new university, I wept for nearly the 400 kilometre drive back home knowing that my most treasured life as a mother would never be the same, my family was evolving. And as one tough person to another, I appreciate vulnerability. Your intimate chat and honesty today confirms why I love you...and I am sure that you have more than just my support.
Hi Ivana, thank you so much for making this video and keeping it real. Sorry to hear what a difficult time you have had over the last couple of years. I have been here since episode one and have no plans to go anywhere. As for those that may choose to leave, all I can say is it’s their loss. Out of the podcasts I watch yours is the one I most look forward to and treasure, it’s calming, grounding and a wonderfully inclusive place. This is down to you just being yourself, a breath of fresh air in a world of social media that would have us believe everything should be perfect. You are very much loved in this little community. ❤
After your heartfelt and honest video this may seem a rather trite question but I would love to hear a little more about your candle making process, I would love to try my hand at candle making in order to avoid the chemicals and artificial scents many include. Thinking of you, take care 😊❤️
My dearest Ivana! All I want to say is that I will never stop watching your videos knitting or no knitting! Just know that you are deeply respected for your truth and exquisite talent by me! I’m praying for you & love you! 🙏🏾❤️
Your honesty and bluntness make your channel stand out from the others. Keep being you. I love your ‘Wall of Wool’ and your gardening and your travels, but I also love to hear your thoughts and feelings, especially in this world which has such a dearth of honesty. We all live in this world; we all need to be honest with each other. If you had to pick one memory from your life that made you really happy, what would it be?
❤ I respect your strength and vulnerability.
You have been an inspiration to me, expand my knowledge of wools and yarn. Giving me the confidence to start a sweater without a pattern( if she can do it so can I). Which again opened up a whole new world. My mother used to say if you throw everybody’s troubles into a bucket you would pick your own out, meaning as woman with family’s we will always have worries and problems. Good times and bad, we just get up put one foot in front of the other and get on with it. That said thank you for sharing, you are doing a great job,I hope you now have a period of joy love and happiness.
So many voices of kind friends here it's hard to think of something new and encouraging to say.
I'm just an old 72-year-old woman who is no longer mobile enough to get out of our home. So, you and your channel have become a friend to me. I enjoy hearing how you're doing, what you're feeling, and anything and everything you're going through. I know I can't be of much help but I do understand, In my life, I have felt that feeling of being guarded, scared of not being able to do anything about it, and yet getting through it to the other side. Just know there are so many of us subscribers, aka friends that care about you.
Sending prayers of comfort ~ Lacy
Hello Ivana! I just turned 69 and recently went through an experience where the deep wounds of my childhood surfaced unexpectedly. I have been ruminating a lot about it and the timing of your video came at just the right time. As someone else said in the comments, difficult times are teachers too. I respect you as someone who thinks and feels deeply and wanted to thank you for opening your heart to us. Wishing you peace.
Dear Ivana, Thank you for sharing your true self behind the “wall of wool”. 💕
I offer here this blessing by a beloved poet:
BEANNACHT
On the day when
The weight deadens
On your shoulders
And you stumble,
May the clay dance
To balance you.
And when your eyes
Freeze behind
The gray window
And the ghost of loss
Gets into you,
May a flock of colors,
Indigo, red, green
And azure blue,
Come to awaken in you
A meadow of delight.
When the canvas frays
In the curragh of thought
And a stain of ocean
Blackens beneath you,
May there come across the waters
A path of yellow moonlight
To bring you safely home.
May the nourishment of the earth be yours,
May the clarity of light be yours,
May the fluency of the ocean be yours,
May the protection of the ancestors be yours.
And so may a slow
Wind work these words
Of love around you,
An invisible cloak
To mind your life.
JOHN O'DONOHUE
From his books, To Bless the Space Between Us (US) / Benedictus (Europe)
This is beautiful ❤
I don’t often comment on videos, but yours is so honest, touching, rough, strong at the same time. Whoever leaves after a video like this, it’s their fault. I just want to let you know, that I am touched by your openness. Sending you love ❤️
Hi Ivana, It's Bea here. Thank you for this vlog, I very much appreciate your genuinity. I could fill up a book about my experience of xenophobia. Not only against me as living in a foreign country but against others by my fellow citizens in my country of origin. It is always originate in narrow mindedness and fear from the unknown and the prospect of changes. A very dangerous weapon in the wrong hands aiming for power. Not surprised about your fear for your boy in the army. Friends can became enemy overnight; you experienced it first hand.
However, I re-watched the ep.11 and with lots of respect, I'm not sure it was the reason why 10% of subscribers left. I'm telling you this as I was chatting to a friend. Sometimes we are guilty of assumptions ourselves and tend to think people target our weak point. I assume you have subscribers all over the world, and can't imagine that 10% of the population knows about the hell of the Balkan War, let alone feel so strongly about it that they unsubscribe from an innocent vlog, meanwhile you were talking about your family leaving the country because the war.
What I see is, this was the first vlog you didn't talk about a specific crafting subject. It was still one of your early videos and those who expected something else just simply left. The number of viewings didn't decline though. So, you shouldn't feel bad about it!
My questions: Do you speak Greek? Is Mario a Cypriot? Have you thought about creating a arts and crafts retreat business?
x
Ivana,
I had to put down my knitting and truly listen to you. What a brave thing you have done, sharing your real feelings and struggles with us. That, right there is proof of how tough you are! I think this video will help many other people struggling at this time in their lives. Sending our children off to the military or university or church missions or what have you can be devastating. We are supposed to carry our children in our bodies and raise them for 18 years and then bid them a fond farewell and then just carry on with a smile. No one seems to talk about the deep sadness and despair that we actually feel. The fear of what might happen to them when we are not there with them is so stressful. It's even difficult to sleep at night when they are far away and "growing up". Honestly, it is a type of loss and there is grief involved. Even though we know it is our job to set them up for their own lives and we know it is coming, how can we ever really be prepared? At the same time we are often going through menopause and body changes and nothing feels familiar anymore. Who are we? Thank goodness for my making. I find it to be a companion I can rely upon when I am feeling lost, lonely, scared, redundant, old and all manner of emotions. Perhaps you have some of these feelings too. All this to say that I empathise with you very deeply. It is so good that you have the self awareness to realise what you are going through and what you need. I'm so glad to see all of the comments here of the people who are here in solidarity with you. Thank you for being you, for being real and genuine. Sharing our secrets is how we help others and in turn help ourselves, it is real connection. So, to lend some help to you I will ask you a question: What is it like living in Cypress? I would love to know what the countryside looks like. What is the skyline of the nearest town? What kind of birds and animals live there? I love seeing your garden. Also, what's your favourite instant pot recipe? Sending you much love and strength as you navigate through this phase of life.
Sincerely,
Jennie ❤
You fill up a half empty cup to one which is overflowing. That said, it is interesting to have you ask for a question from me. There is one demographic that has absolutely no possibility for a “them and us”. That is aging. If we are blessed enough to get there, it is a common bond of how quickly we got here, what we leave behind, and did we make a difference. Soooo coming from an 80+ generation, I would want to ask you to take with you on this glorious vacation the opportunities to embrace the multiple textures of that which you see, hear, even smell that are inspiring to you as an artist. And, how can we use these insights to inspire then next generation to embrace a creative mind set. Because in that frame work there is a place for all.
My dear, we enjoy your channel for you...all aspects, your knitting, designing, family, garden, location, travels. I ask you to be strong, believe in yourself, disregard negative comments( or put them all in a bucket that you cast aside) and know you have a value to so many people. We admire you for being human and sharing the highs and lows of life. Carry on!
Ivana, no questions at this time. Thank you for being real. Here’s a story of my knitting journey… when I was a child my mothers best friend was from Yugoslavia and her name was Ann. She was more than a second mother to me. She was the one that helped my mother teach me crochet and knitting. My mother was ambidextrous and mostly used her leFt hand. Ann was right handed. So together they attempted to teach me. Needless to say…I’m all messed since I’m right handed so I have a little of my moms style and Ann’s style. I have spent most of my knitting journey trying to un learn or relearn everything I once knew. Sometimes I catch myself knitting lefty and it turns into a major mess. Well, what I’m want to get at it that you remind me a whole lot of Ann. Before I heard you speak your looks took me back to her. Our family’s were best of friends for all their lives. Her daughter is still my friend today into our own Grandma years. My girlfriend Ann’s daughter resembles both of you and Ann. I have fond memories whenever I hear you speak. Keep us posted whenever..I’ll stay subbed. Enjoy - can’t wait to hear about Spain😊
I am relatively new to your channel and didn't know that you were Serbian, and it was nice to learn. My family is Montenegrin; my grandmother emigrated to the US in the 60's and her time before she emigrated was incredibly hard, impoverished, and violent. The trauma that lives in the bodies of people from the former Yugoslavia is real, and while my heart aches for what you have endured, you seem to be working through it with dignity.
For what it's worth I do think that bluntness can be part of kindness. Telling people things directly means that you treat them like an equal, like an adult, like a person who can handle the truth.
Some questions for your future videos:
How does making/being creative help you feel like you're taking care of yourself? For others?
What's a new recipe you tried with your garden produce that you loved?
What are your favorite parts of visiting Barcelona? (I visited last September and had an incredibly magical time!)
Thank you for sharing with all of us. Being vulnerable and honest on online can be a really difficult thing; you are a very brave person. I do genuinely hope that you can find your way out of your "tilted" state in a healthy and fulfilling way.
Do you have a favorite dish you like to make with the plants you grow in your garden? Or does it depend on the season? As a knitter who lives in a city, it is so refreshing to see your other outlets.
Thank you so much for this video. I have heard you mention your origin several times, it never occurred to me that people wouldn’t like that. I find that bizarre, but it’s absolutely their loss. I see you as lovely Ivana who produces lovely videos wherever you come from. I too, can be very direct, and for years thought that maybe I wasn’t a ‘nice’ person. it has taken me some time to understand that I am uncomplicated, very honest and don’t shy away from confrontation when it’s needed and justified - many people are scared of that, but it doesn’t mean it’s wrong, it just shows that you are confident and a survivor. My strength came from being bullied severely as a child, not comparable with war of course but it made me tough. It was interesting what you said about negative situations can sometimes put you on the right path - they absolutely can. I’m glad you are continuing with your videos, they are wonderful and I enjoy them very much.
Dear Ivana, which country you come from doesn’t define your personality. Your creativity does, and showing your vulnerability with us shows me that you are a very strong person. Most people doesn’t dare to do that, and certainly not “in public”.
I absolutely LOVE your podcast, so please don’t stop podcasting 🙏
It’s really freeing for me (and most certainly most of your viewers) to watch your episodes and follow your creative journey. It’s kind of a relief for me, a creative soul, to see I’m not alone in this strange world, keeping it all up even though it’s really hard from time to time.
So please don’t leave 🙏🌻
Kindest regards and all the best 💕
Hi Ivana, thank you for opening up you heart with all of us. It made me feel like we were chatting with a cup of tea in your sitting room. This is what we need sometimes, somebody to talk to. If making videos does not bring you joy in this moment, you could try with a different thing. We will be here waiting :). I am sending you all my love.
I attended to Barcelona knit festival last year and it was awesome and what to say about Paris... my favourite city ever. Mario does know how to cheer one up!
Here comes my question: Do you enjoy working from home?
Dearest Ivana, I do appreciate your honesty and candor and “bluntness” as you call it. Your ability to be authentic is why I love your channel, sharing your art is merely a plus! You have a very unique and rare quality to connect deeply and these worries about war & family & whims of others I totally understand. I am American and we are going through some terrible growing pains as a nation, no one seems to get along and so many angry angry people with guns! But that is another story and I just want to thank you for telling your story, so eloquently shared. Thank you so much for being you, your energy and your beautiful soul. I do hope you will always feel comfortable sharing how you are feeling even tho as an introvert myself, it’s often important to process a lot of it before sharing…that’s just how it is! Lol
I hope you will continue to make the videos! I always look forward to them so much ❤ 🙏🏻
The love and pride you have for your son showed so much in your face it brought tears to my eyes! I can’t think of a question right now but I wanted to send love to you and will think of something later xxx
I've got your back!! Hang in there. I have found that when I am struggling with something, I need to go through it and face it head on, in order to come to some sort of peace and healing. You are strong! Love to you Carol
You are refreshingly blunt Ivana. I love your quiet honesty, style and grace in this world of hard-sell and fakery. Just spending time catching up with a friend on the other side of the world - making or chatting - I don’t mind. I’d love to see even more of where you live and I wonder how you learned to spin and weave, and did it take long to learn? I want to learn so interested to hear your spinning and weaving story.
I learned of you from Leslie Friends podcast. I think you are absolutely beautiful and real. I am a self taught knitter, learned in 2020. I live in Minnesota and really love your channel!! Keep shining!!
Ivana. Thank you for your channel. I really love your CZcams channel. I love your accent. I think that if people are going to judge you for where you were born and where your homeland is then they are the ones who need to look in the mirror.
I think that what you are going through is completely to be expected given your traumatic past. Of course you are going to have separation anxiety from your family considering what you went through.
You are far more than entertaining. Your honesty and rawness helps others be brave enough to look at themselves and where their fear and vulnerability lies.
Here in U.S. my brother went to war ,my father went to war ,my husband retired military ,they went to protect us as your son does too,thank god for heroes who step up ,your son is truly a loving son and a protector of you and your country ,we love to watch your channel and I can relate to your thoughts .
The culture about war and army is quite different around the world. It sounds strange to me the idea that anyone has to "step up" and go to war. It hardly serves as a solution for conflicts. Based on what I see in politics, it seems the more a country believes and invests in war, the more it becomes part of their culture. It creates this circle of ending one war and soon coming across another. I wonder how people think it's ok to be sent somewhere to fight against people they know nothing about... so strange. I understand that some people have to serve, its not an option. But I can'd see how society finds a way of being proud of starting a war.
Dear Ivana, I'm never gonna leave your channel! I think you are a beautiful person, both on the inside and the outside. I appreciate your honesty. Big hug, Hilde
Ivana, you are a beautiful person inside and out. Thank you for sharing about your life today. I am grateful. Your struggles are real and like you, we all have them. Our growth actually comes going through those times. So essentially, right now you are growing! Your videos allow me to take time out from life, take time for myself, and care for myself too. When I watch them, I relax and am able to get through some of my own tough times. You are incredibly inspiring and so beautiful. Your paintings, weavings, knitting, food, and gardening give so much to all of us. Taking a break from some of this for you might help with what you are going through. My question for you, is what, right now is your most recent dream? I often realize that sometimes in life, I forget to keep dreaming. What are dreams? What is something you want to do but haven't done? One of my dreams is to get to Paris on a vacation just for me! Another one is to relocate back to the United States from South Korea. What are you dreaming of doing Ivana? Much love to you.
I am Turkish Cypriot and left Cyprus in 1962.. I enjoy your videos.. Take care...❤ from England
I stayed. Your vulnerabilty allows us all space to be vulnerable too. I send you a warmth that comforts you and allows your soul to know it will all be ok. You are important to me
Dear Ivana, thank you for this video. I'm not leaving.
I'm touched by your story. I enjoy what you share about knitting and your live.
You touch me with your stories. I sympathize with you as a mother. Love from Holland. ❤ Sylvia
Dear Ivana, I’ve only recently discovered your channel but you have given me so much quiet enjoyment and inspiration already. I thank you. I believe the best kind of bravery and strength grows from true kindness. You were blessed with, or have developed both. I guess that would be a question for you: what came naturally to you- your bravery or your kindness, or both? Also, where did you learn your delightful English and where have you lived besides Serbia and Cyprus? I’ve moved around a lot myself so I find this interesting. I am very happy for you indeed that your husband is as thoughtful as he is! Your plans for Barcelona and Paris sound wonderful! Thank you for your honesty and sharing your vulnerability. I look to CZcams for entertainment, yes, but more for feeling connected to like-minded souls. I don’t expect anyone to share their heart, but it is a gift when they do and I find it akin to an act of friendship. I wish you strength, joy and happy making!
Hallo Ivana,
that's exactly what I appreciate so much about you, you are authentic and don't smile 24/7
It is not the nationality that makes a person, but how he acts.
In Austria, we say: These people cannot think outside the box!
A big hug from me and stay as you are!
Martina
Dear Ivana, dear friend. I have watched you for a while now, but I never comment. Maybe that is wrong, maybe it is only taking, not reciprocating. I apologise for that. You have made me think. I too have had many slaps lately, and I am not so tough, or strong. So, I admire your honesty and your courage and bluntness. I wish I could admit that I am strong. I shall continue to watch as long as you make videos, from my little life in England. Bless youxx
I've been to long without saying hi to my favorite maker. I'm 55, I 've crossed the "desert" and yes we get stronger, a lot stronger. But, we need to hold it, and let our hearts shine again. Only those who do such inner work, can survive and not darken their souls. I had to burn many bridges along the way because no one wants you to feel good about yourself, because it takes a gigantic inner work to get there. There is a saying; "In order to shine like the sun, you have to burn like the sun." We have to learn to let go and to forgive, love always comes next. Your loved ones just pass to where we come from, they never leave us, we are all one we will always be connected. You never lost them. Let your heart shine again, my dear Ivana, they will shine alongside you. You are not your history, nor your pain, you are the conscience. I have many tools, Michael Singer gets us there, and Sounds True. (All free) I'm here, if you ever need a true friend, if not, I'm here anyway I follow you since the beginning ;)
I have never experienced what you have. In looking toward the future and your son going to England, well he is going to need some knitted garments. Knitting your love into these will be something he will cherish his whole life. You will always be giving him a hug.
Dear friend, I have found that when it comes to our children all barriers come down for a mother. My kids are now 31 and 25 and I have had my share of on my knees praying for guidance. Take one day at a time, don’t think about tomorrow only today, enjoy the day and let your faith take over. I hope these words send some peace your way.
This is only the second or third video of yours I've seen, so I don't have any questions, but I just wanted to send a virtual hug, I guess. My son's 17 now and I can only imagine how it must feel to have a child go into the army, and then go off abroad, even in such positive circumstances. Wishing you and your family well, and happy travels to you all
Dear ivana … personally I start by accident watching CZcams video when I lost my second child .. I also start knitting at that moment , it helps me a lot to look forward to a friend in the afternoon with my knitting … on top of it , my youngest daughter started to go to school and later on to work , in a country very far from home ! I was impressed by your videos en felt connect … now I know why … so thank you for all your work .. ❤ regards Marie- Paule sorry I’m not English speaking…😊
Thank you. We are all human. I am an American,with that baggage I don't know what to say. I love to interact with people all over the world. I will stay and I just send love. I really enjoy you showing us your life on Cypress. also, I envy your knitting skills.
Dear Ivana
I just found you a couple of weeks and I have gone back 2 years to get to know you all the way from Canada. I love your channel and not only for the making.
Like you, life has been tough at times and making is my refuge.
I have been knitting since I was 7 years old (I am now 65) and now I am a quilter also.
My mother was a weaver until just at few years ago and I have been showing her your beautiful pieces.
I love this video and your honesty, your vulnerability. It makes you very beautiful in my eyes. An internal beauty. How we react to trauma is a choice. Wisdom or bitterness. You chose well.
My question if no one has asked and while I catch up with the remaining videos is this… how did you learn to knit, how old were you, your making journey in fact.
God bless and thank you ❤
Now I know why I love your channel! We are kindred spirits, you and I. Strong; sometimes too strong for those who are threatened by strong women. This is you, and it is me. Our strength is sometimes mistaken for aloofness, superiority, cold heartedness, and worst of all it is off- putting to those we would love to know better, but don't have the skill to lower our barrier. I have been told by more than one woman that I am intimidating, and more than one man that I'm a bi*ch. What I am, though, is a thinking, passionate, opinionated, but loving person who feels injustices down to my bones. I'm honest to a fault and I hurt deeply. Enough about me; my point is I understand how being a strong person is difficult. I absolutely adore your segments, I love seeing you tend your garden, how you talk about your family, and lastly your making. My question for you is as a maker. Are your solitary endeavors (knitting, gardening) a way for you to process your thoughts and feelings, which then enables you to discuss them?
Please continue with the videos if you find them comfortable to do. You are one of the small handful of makers to whom I take a break to watch and listen. By the way, if you lose subscribers over this video, you are losing nothing. ❤
Exactly. Everything you said, I would say. In fact I thought hey, is she talking about me or her?😊
Thank you for sharing your heart. Nothing sets us into turmoil quicker than worrying over our children. I have a son that doesn’t take care of his diabetes like he should and it can be a very scary time. One friend reminded me that worry and faith cannot occupy your mind at the same time so you have to choose one. Letting go of the worry is not easy. It is evidence we are not in control of life. Please be good to yourself, take time to rebuild your strength. We’ll be here whenever you need to chat. My question for you is “Who is your favorite painter?” Susan- Portland, Oregon.
I, like you knit and quilt and find greatly nurtured when I work with my hands and create. I just joined your creative journey because of Leslie Friend. Positive thoughts and energy heading toward you. Take a deep breath and take care of you. Sometimes we need some internal work to be our best for ourselves later. Best wishes From Ohio USA.
Dear Ivana, I have been thinking about what I would like to say to you for the last few days since hearing your beautiful and honest conversation with us all. As a rule I don't like to butt into conversations but you asked us for help. I can honestly say (5 days down the track:) that I agree 100% with the comments thus far...You are the person we enjoy sharing time with. I am sad that you lost some people all at once, I hope it was just a weird coincidence but if not shame on them. I will use a knitting term as metaphor. Pilling, I hate that! I like to get rid of that. They are ugly pilling on a beautiful fabric. Ivana, just keep sharing your time with us:) We are here, we have not left.
Kindest regards,
Michelle
Bless your heart! I can’t imagine how you put yourself out there when you have so much turmoil inside. I, for one, will not be leaving.
Hello Ivana, I understand you very well.
A lot has happened in my life that made me think, I will not survive this.
But do not forget that we, women, are of the stronger sex.
It is especially difficult as a mother, always worrying about the children.
But I also noticed that I cared about the grandchildren.
Those few people who left because you came from Serbia are not worth mentioning! 😠
Someone's origin should never be a reason.
My hobby’s have always helped me through the difficult times in my life.
I wish you much strength.
Remember, all the love ones who are gone are still with us.🥰
Much love, Lily🌸
Dear Ivana thank you for your sincerity and brave heart expressing your feelings. The whole world is a big family, but many people is still sleeping. Big hug from Argentina :)
Hi ivana❤ so happy you want to keep moving forward and doing these videos. I love your work in the different genres. Quite inspiring. I am 75 years young. Still working part time. You’ve taught me to not to give up on any project whatever it is. Not to be stagnant. You are a ver cool person. Be well. Love you😊 love your conversation❤
Love you ❤
I so appreciate your honesty and vulnerability. It does show strength. Your comments really resonated with me as I have been going through some difficult times in the last few years too and I can sense that wall going up when I feel that I need to protect my emotions.
Good morning Ivana. I just watched this video, it moves me. I understand it when you say that the structure of making videos helps you. And you asked us to help you, by asking questions. I have two questions for you: the first one is: "what inspires you, what kind of sources do you use to design your knittings and weavings?" and the second question is :" do you still paint?" I loved (love) your paintings so much.
I am not good in writing long messages in English to fully express what I want to say, so giving you a big virtual hug instead.
Marie-Paule
Ivana, I found your chanel not long ago. Loved your energy, your calm, your real emotions, no constant smile. You seem so real to me. I connected to you, your chanel, your lifestyle. 😍
I'm really sprry for all the downs in your life. I hope that you can see at least a possibilities of a sunshine even in the darkest days. ❤🙏
Thank you for sharing your thoughts and what you’ve been going through - it can’t have been easy to do. I’m a bit stunned people leave because you tell them you’re Serbian. Maybe I’m naive, but that seems completely nuts. Much strength to you on your son leaving the nest. It’s a hard transition but it’s such a joy to see how wonderful a person they become.
I’ve watched a view of your videos but never subscribed. This episode has made me do so. 👍😁As a mum of a 22 year old son who has been ‘away’ at university for 4 years but is now home I can understand your anxiety. Sending you live and peace from UK. 😘
Thank you for this video Ivanna. How courageous to share your sorrows with us. I do understand your feelings about the military. I am originally from Eastern Germany, where the communist regime used the military against it's own people. Now I live in California, but o would be very upset if my son joined the US military. I just don't like any military. My family has lost a lot during the two World wars. The people always suffer. I love that you're Serbian. Yet another connection I feel with you. My mother was Bulgarian and I spent a lot of time in Bulgaria growing up. Mu family is scattered all over the world and I don't get to see them anymore, my parents Generation is almost entirely gone. But i am rambling on. I do love your videos, it is almost like visiting Bulgaria.... I hope you will be able to continue. You can take a break or make them less frequently. Lots of love, pozdravi ot mene....Daniela
Your are a true soul, generous, kind and giving. Together we will rise and shine. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
I'm catching this after seeing the follow up video. I'm sorry you have experienced these things. My nephew signed up for the airforce when we had a fascist president, and we were worried sick about him and his safety during his six deployments in war torn areas. He's out now, and we worry about his emotional well-being after all that he has seen and experienced. You are right; you don't want anyone in your house who has hate in their heart for who you are. This next phase of your son's life, studying and growing into adulthood, is both a bittersweet and exciting time. Wishing you and your family so much joy.
Toughness and strength goes perfectly with kindness and understanding. You are a perfect example of what it's like being a woman. I mean that sincerely.
Hello Ivana, just know that bunch of us that are always here waiting for you, love you deeply, you are amazing and beautiful 😍 hugs and lots of ❤️
I am left with a profound sense of respect for you. I don’t think people understand that “strong people” hurt. They expect the strong to take care of things, or them, but have no idea that the strong can be just as scared, sad and broken as anyone else. Just as we have seen with those who have been able to escape wars and revolutions in other places, refugees and survivors, no matter how young, can be victimized by the world for issues that have no control. I would love to hear more about your life in Serbia and life after the war. I hope that you are able to fit some knitting into your carryon bag and enjoy that cruise with your family. Thank you for sharing this with me.💗
Oh, Ivana. Feel our love and support surround you and hold you close as you make your way ‘through’ and on to lighter and more sure times. We are here. 🙏💜 Now, for a question: I would love to know about a Cypriot AND Serbian comfort food.
Thank you so much for the invitation to ask questions. I’ve had a question about spinning (you have really given me a desire to spin). Where do you purchase fiber your and how did you get started? I’m usually all about the knitting but for some reason your footage of you spinning has Wally peaked my interest. Could you tell us about your wheel and what to look for in getting a wheel and how did you learn how to spin. Does it take years and years of practice before being able to knit with your hand spun? When you go to Barcelona to the fiber festival……I would love to hear about your experience……both on getting ready to go and on your return, what it was like. I hope you and your husband have a wonderful time together on such a special trip!
Being blunt does not mean you are not kind. Going through traumatic things myself and with my kids, I have been strong to the point of blocking out my feelings, focusing on getting my kids through it and not being able to show vulnerability myself because of it, which is a problem. I admire you for your authenticity and your honesty. I am glad your son is safe and am excited for you to go on your trips! If you decide to not make videos, I understand completely. But if you continue, I am very much here for it! Sending much love and hugs to you. Thank you for sharing! ❤❤
Thank you for sharing such honest self reflection. We all need to do this for ourselves to heal and live a more joyful life.
Hi, Ivana
A huge, massive, resounding thank you for this brutally honest video!
I feel truly grateful and hounored to hear your story, in such a raw and straightfoward way. Thank you!
We call this empty nest . Thank you for expressing how vulnerable you feel , with admitting the loss your feeling . Maybe a knit nite zoom call would help ? I’m not leaving , I’m digging my feet in .
Thank you for sharing. I just found your channel while looking for knitting podcasts. I also enjoy learning about other people’s lives, getting to know them. Also, your pinball analogy was spot on. I’ve been going through similar situations lately, I tell my husband that I’m dealing with the human condition. I find solace in that.
Thank you for sharing with us
There are many of us struggling in different ways but I want to say that I look forward to your podcasts and the realness you bring to the table
So I am sending much love your way and I want you to know that I appreciate you so much and thank you for being you with us
Dear Ivana, I just want to Tell you that when I Heard you were Serbian I was happy ! My best Friend, Radmila, is from Belgrade. Her and her husband Emigrated here on Canada in 1996. I understand where you Comes from. People are hard on others sometimes because they do not take the Time to understand the other. My husband was Égyptian and muslim while I'm not. There was a lot of racism as well. I'm Glad you Said that you don't want those people on your channel. Thank you for opening Up to us. IT takes courage, and we it. We love you even more !
If you want to know what I am curious about is your art! I would love to see more of your paintings and drawings and the inspiration behind them. I love your gardening stuff as well. Finally, if you like to read, I would love hearing what you are reading or are interested in learning about. Really anything, it’s always wonderful to sit and chat. 😊
I admire your bravery in making these videos, and I was so shocked that people would unsubscribe because of your nationality. As a mother I can understand the pain that you must have felt when your son did his national service, and I haven’t had your experience of war. I am pleased that it has had a positive outcome for him. Please carry on with your podcasts, I would love to hear more about life in Cyprus and how you came to settle there. And of course I am always interested in the knitting.
I admire your courage to share very personal aspects of your life. I have experienced losses in my life that affected me over the course of my adult life. I was not aware of how much until I started therapy. I understand what you speak of. You will remain in my thoughts.
My question for you is would you share more about where you live? You have shared many parts of the life within the walls of your home but I would be interested in hearing more about your town. What is everyday life like there? What are your shops like? Are they small independent shop owners or chains? I live in the United States and one of the reasons I watch videos of world wide makers is to find what we have in common and what is different about our home life and craft. I find craft or making to be a very unifying aspect of humanity. I will continue to find joy in other cultures and other makers, not like me. Anything about your area would would like to share would be welcomed.
Peace and joy!
Ivana, thank you for being real, for being so genuine and for opening up to us … I think there is healing in sharing our pain and our fears. I appreciate that you want to keep sharing and spending time here. I really would like to know more about when you learned to knit, who thought you and what makes you want to knit, and u related to knititng : where is you family now ? I’m sorry if you already answered some of these questions and I’m praying you feel the positive energy we are all sending to you. 🙏🏼💖
Wow - such honesty - you are amazing and I wish I could give you a big hug. To be so open and vulnerable - We all go through these tough times in life and when I have had those periods I wish I could have had a group of people to reach out to for help. I don’t understand the politics and I’m so sorry you have been treated so poorly in your life. Even if you end up with fewer viewers - they will be true friends to you. Again a big hug to you!
❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️sending love
My question is a request that you continue to show us video snippets of your travels, surroundings and experiences. I hope you will show bits of your time at the Barcelona fibre fest. It’s the only way It’s the only way I get to experience any of these things. I started watching you a short time ago and have been catching up on the older ones. You have something that appeals to me deeply. I will continue to connect with you and wish you well. From a new friend, Lynne. Northwestern Ontario, Canada.
Hi Ivana! It’s my first time to comment, but I always enjoy and appreciate your videos. The main reason why I like your channel is that you seem like a person who is honest and true to yourself, and I love love love your voice!!
I also have 2 sons. They’re still young, but I can relate to your struggles so much. I guess you’d never stop worrying about your children no matter how old they become….
My question to you is… what is/was your favorite way to spend time with your family in regular basis after you stopped working? Knowing that you were a busy mom and didn’t get to spend a lot of time when your kids were small, I’d like to know how you enjoy the well deserved time with your family.
Take care, Ivana!
I just happened to watch this video. I have watched others by you but not as a subscriber. I am now. 😊 I don’t really come just for entertainment and I’m happy to know some of the things you’ve said on here. To me, it makes you more real. Good for you for being so brave to tell some of your story.
Just because you’re tough doesn’t mean it’s easy. You are entitled to feel fear especially when it comes to your children and you need to come to terms with it. And given some time, you will. I say this because you have had so much to get through and it seems, you have.
At the moment, I am struggling with my children leaving the place where I live. It’s scary and a bit sad for me but it’s great for them. So, I “happily” let them go.
I hope your way goes easier now. That talking about it has helped. ❤
You are very brave and open hearted❤️. Thank you for your vulnerability and insight, it is rare and refreshing. I enjoy your channel for your making content but also because you allow us to really see you. As an elder woman, I am 68, I can really identify with some of your experiences although my country and culture is different from yours. Keep on your path as it seems through the tribulations and pleasures that you experience, you will continue to grow! My question for you would be what advice would you give to your younger say 15 year old self? Oh and of course what is your next project😁
Dear Ivana, thanks for being you💫❤
Dear Ivona, thank you for your honesty. Your authenticity is one of main reasons I love to watch your videos.
I learned, going through very tough time of my life, that I can be strong and relaxed at the same time, that I don't need to be tense. I hope you find similar state of mind by easy way, maybe with some help (religion, meditation, breathing techniques, psychotherapist - what suits you better). You said your son is going to the place what good for him. What else mother can wish for?
My question: did you study painting? Can you tell a little about this?
My sister left US recently and moved to Serbia. All her life, my sister (and also her husband) wanted to erase her family because we come from really messed up family. We had a really terrible childhood. The pain. But I always believe you can't choose family. But for her, apparently she can. Her current family is the hand-picked cult and after our mother died, she felt relieved, like there is no more obligation of belonging. When you mentioned your experiences, it immediately brounght me so much sorrow. My sister needed to move to Serbia to erase her personal history, that her earthly, biological family never existed. This episode means so much to me. Thank you.
I’m new to your channel and I’ll be on your jumbo jet :). I had a similar experience when my oldest son went to college. He had a difficult adjustment and my heart was broken for more than a year. It was irrational - he was safe - but my struggle was awful and seemed to never end. The sound of the phone ringing made me flinch. I feel your efforts to keep yourself level - it’s hard. Just know there are those who understand.
Thank yo for sharing. Sending blessings and positive energy to you.
Keep them coming, love you ’re videos! ❤
❤ How I enjoy seeing your lovely videos. I'll think of a question soon. For now, I'm sending love & prayers your way❤
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Thank you for sharing with us, it is a great privilege to share in the lives of others and it helps us to know we are not alone. I love your introductions when you are around all your plants. Since i come from a very different area of the world (high desert), I would love to hear more about what you are growing, are they there year round or stop over the winter, and how it is having container gardens that you eat from!
thank you for your honesty. I don't see you as hard. You do so much for family and friends. Your smile is wonderful but when you don't smile you seem very serene and calm. I totally enjoy your videos whether they are knitting or travel or gardening. My question is how did you all end up in Cyprus? my family migrated to Australia, and I always find the immigration stories of people fascinating.
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