Late Night ASMR 2 - Suicidal Thoughts & Depression
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- čas přidán 12. 02. 2016
- I hope you are doing well. Welcome to another, somewhat impromptu, Late Night ASMR video dedicated to those who are dealing with suicidal thoughts and depression. I ramble about a few things both related and unrelated to these video topics, while sharing some of my own personal experiences and advice on how I survived coping with these issues.
Always seek the help of a professional if you feel the thoughts or urges are too strong.
Remember: You're not alone. Keep battling. It can get better. And in time, you can heal and reach a better place on your own path in life.
All my best,
Paul
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What is ASMR?
ASMR stands for Autonomous Sensory Meridian Response and is the current (non-scientific) name given to the feeling characterized as a pleasurable tingling sensation felt in the head, scalp, back and other regions of the body in response to visual, auditory, tactile, olfactory, and/or cognitive stimuli, such as crinkling bags, hand movements, whispering and personal attention.
ASMR videos are not only meant to help induce ASMR or "tingles", but also help provide a relaxing, calming and soothing experience for the viewer while helping to relieve their anxiety, stress, insomnia, help those suffering with PTSD or depression, to serve as a study aid and more.
I remember hearing in another video a quote that has stuck with me for a while: "The very fact that you are watching this video means that some part of you, no matter how small, wants you to live. That part wants you to feel better, figure out what's wrong with you, and to live. Listen to that part."
Billy Russom thank you
This made me cry
My best friend told me something very similar when I told her how much I was tired of life
Think that's from mamamax
this comment. like just this. has helped me.
“you want one? no? okay”
me, literally sobbing: “i do, i do want a peanut butter banana sandwich”
omfg i’m dying from this 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣
Do you have insta, Taylor?
You too ?
I.. il take it.. no? O..ok then
@@milan5491 why would you wanna know that? Lmao
@@kidbasic2330 12 minutes ago. Shit, we are both in a state of limbo right now
i haven’t eaten in 4 days. i’ve fought my parents about eating. for some reason i felt like i don’t deserve food. i have been disgusted by the thought of all food. during this video i had a sudden craving and got up and made myself a peanut butter and banana sandwich. thank you. i didn’t realize i was so hungry❤
Why you not eating bruv
@@ICEBLUNTS the person literally said why
Same I haven’t eaten in days
@@someoneunknown9717 i know how hard it can be. i promise you’re not guilty for eating. you body works so hard for you. i know i’m not one to talk but i promise from experience, it’s so much better to feed ur body. let’s hang out and we can eat peanut butter and banana sandwiches together ♥️
@@woopeoopepoopydoopyshoopy8537 thank you so much i just don’t even feel like eating and yes peanut butter banana sandwiches for the win.
"you seem kinda...kinda down"
Me sobbing into my blanket: oh no dude I'm good
literally
Relatable. And I thought phones made me more depressed. Not with people in them
this comment made me laugh i hope you’re doing better these days
@@StudMacher96people in them
@@growing.flowers pause
POV sneaking into your therapists house at 2am for the 3rd time in a row
POV: you are a depressive sleep paralysis demon getting a snack after a mental breakdown
seems reasonable
Like 1333
I love the plausibility of your POV
PLZ WHAT
Man resists eating last half of kitkat 1 hour
Sleight of Hand check (rolls nat 20) Sticks kitKat in sandwich
I have a secret. He gave it to me, sorry to burst your BuBbLe
Minute 30: every object starts vibrating and levitating around him as the kit Kat becomes more tempting and starts floating tword him
MaskedMan24 I see what you were going for
But it was poorly executed
@@Silkie_Dragon lies. Because he gave it to ME.
even after 7 years this video still hits hard
love you @Ephmereal Rift
@@BloodyNose-Bleedr I’m sure he loves you too
Lol thanks man
ik this is unrelated, but whos the character in your pfp? i recognise them
@comfortfroggo6225 it's an old pfp but it's Izumi miyamura from hori-San to miyamura-kun
I remember watching this when it first came out and I was 17 years old. At the time I was contemplating suicide everyday. I can't tell you how much this video made me feel like I wasn't alone. Thank you for everything you do.
hope u are feeling better :)
I am you. 17 and contemplating an escape from this life
@@L4v4molly 19 and im still here after 6 years of suicidal thoughts. comes and goes, after some times i learned to understand when they were coming and how to get along with them. I'm not gonna say its gonna be alright but even tho u feel horrible rn and just want to end it all, time passes and those moments passes too. they'll come back but you're eventually gonna accept them and go on. Im slowly learning to live with myself and im not ready to cut my time yet, i know i will one day but thats me
@@elenapastorino5939 yeah. I guess it's just the ups and downs that I feel due to something.
Hey that’s me now lol. im so proud of you. stay strong we love you.
I actually got up, went to a nearby store to get a kitkat, broke it in half and rewinded the video So i could be immersed in the kitkat sharing.
Yes I am a pretty sad person.
Omg 😂
That a whole feel
i walked to the kitchen to grab one, you’re not alone lmaooo
Thanks for the inspiration! It’s actually a good idea😂
I just pretended to eat a KitKat, same here bro...
he was fully prepared to murder someone 74 different ways what
He had no Tarp.
True
Of course, he has up to 300 confirmed kills
graduated top of his class in the navy seals too
He had Margaret to help bury the body
In an hour and 15 minutes I felt like this man cared for me more than my dad has in all 16 years he’s known me.from the bottom of my heart,thank you
Edit:man,you guys are all so nice.made tear up
L😮L
From a stranger that You don't know a thing. I can hope for You to meet someone great that helps You through all that Bad things your dad has done :)
Same. And I'm 25
I hope you're doing well my friend.
Wish you all the best with your life. ❤
Shut yo ass femboy
i can’t believe I’ve only just found this video. this is truly beautiful. thank you for caring about us man. this video will be my new comfort video.
thank you, love you man.
Just chilling with uncle rifty at 3am being a couple of depressed boi's in the kitchen
yep just chillin with the pills behind my back
Ur at 666 likes and i don't wanna ruin it lmao
Maridian Comer Ur aT 666 LiKeE
Stfu
@@michaelkoppie8151 WTF man calm down
Michael Koppie fr bro just relax man letting shit get to your head like a jerk
Almost 3 years later and my go-to video when I’m depressed. You’re the best with your dry humor and sounds. Very soothing and comforting
Big W for you bro 💪🏻🙏
P0ppppp
Teilo Turner wait really..?
Teilo Turner dont joke about that
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When he gave me the chocolate I burst out into tears. No one has cared for me lately and this really hit me in the feels.
Me too
@@user-nz9oy8to4rhope ur doing better after 9 months
Hug to all my Rift friends, you are loved
Today my biology teacher gave us an out-of-nowhere speech in the middle of a lesson about suicide. He told us how serious he was that if we had any thoughts or actions pertaining to self harm or suicide, we need to tell him. He said it urgently, like he could feel someone in the room was drowning. That person would've been me, but I don't think he picked up on that. Two years ago, a young man in the 11th grade committed suicide. It really impacted him. He really cared. I knew I'd never actually do it, I already have so many friends and family members who love me and depend on me. But you know... it's nice to know that someone who doesn't know me the best would care if I died, not because he would have lost a benefit or memories, but he just would've cared that a person he knew in the world would be gone.
Thanks, TLo.
(He's actually so cool he lets us call him that. His title is Mr. Lorenzen, but it feels so weird to call him that. He's too human for me to not call him the only thing I've called him for three years.)
Sounds like a great man
I know I'm three years late commenting but this video pulled me out of a mental breakdown tonight. Thank you so much for doing this for all of us who struggle, it means so much.
This did the same for me I was close to the edge tonight thank you ER
Same
already had mine my mom do be abusive doe
@@CT-1255 same bro, same
No one cares people
When you hear a noise in the night.
"Who's there?! I have a belt, and I'm not afraid to hang myself!"
I miss frank so much
A dude has a gun on the night table if a person breaks in, not to protecc but to kill himself so he cant meet new people.
Please do, for the sake of humanity.
@oof organization i fucking know right.
😂😂😂
I'm 23, I was 17 when this video came out. I see alot of other people my age saying the exact same thing but i gotta say ephemeral rift is the best for this one
It's been six years and he's still liking and responding to comments. That's dedication
i’m 4 years late, but you’re more of a dad to me than my actual dad.
i hope you’re doing well
I relate, never met my dad 😂😭
Well i mean, he is also actually a dad so it makes sense
i dont even have a dad
@@xiseyuu are you a n- never mind, i don't want to be mean.
I thought it was gonna be a whole 1 hour and 15 minute video of Rift saying "or this..."
I would pay money for that
That would have been great
I got diagnosed with autism last year and I’m still finding it difficult to accept my reality. Struggling with really dark thoughts most days, thank you for your comforting words.
I’m in the same boat as you. Last year I was also diagnosed with autism. I am also still struggling. And here we both are watching this video. You’re not alone, friend. I hope we will both find solace and confidence in the future. I take comfort in knowing that the diagnosis helps me better understand my own thoughts and processing. And I want to remind you that autism doesn’t “rule” every part of our lives. We have so much more in common with the people around us than we have differences. And life with autism can be so hard sometimes. So know that I understand and sit with you in that place. Sending lots of warmth.
Same life's also been really difficult. I'm turning 17 next year and I'm still having trouble growing up. I've never done well in school and if I did it was because I was cheating and it's really got me worried for my future. I have no idea what I'm doing and the only thing I like to do is play video games. I keep telling myself I need to force myself to study and do well in school but I never get around to doing anything. I feel terrible for my family because they expect so much from me and think I'm doing great but really I'm doing nothing at all. I will most likely be homeless and alone.
I too am in the sad autistics gang
@@Gamedox20 Hi friend. I just want to say you’re seen and understood. Please do not worry about school. Some people are academic and will go on to academic jobs, and society will make you believe that they’re more important. They’re not more important. You can find fulfilment in life with a job that is just as important but not academic. I know it’s so tough because these jobs often don’t pay well, but life can be lived so wonderfully in this way. I encourage you to treasure the free things in life, as well as playing video games. Work hard and be kind to others in your own quiet way. Spend time outdoors without distraction. It can be really quite beautiful. Don’t worry friend.
@@Gamedox20 What kind of games do you play? I play “Roblox" a game developing platform that has it’s own software people can use to create 3D worlds, models, environments, animations and etc.. I mostly play it because of the quick and easy access to the multitude of communication and experiences it has!
Currently late. Midnight, should be resting but I can't. I'm depressed and today has been an exceptionally hard day. This made me genuinely laugh and smile for the first time in a while. I feel more relaxed and kind of want to make myself a peanut butter and banana sammich now, heheh. I needed this video and am grateful I clicked on it. Thank you, ER. I love your videos.
Or these, or this, this, this that, this, some of these, those. Goddamn, that was a brilliant bit.
+Flynn McTaggart I love how he incorporates humor into his videos. He needs to do it more.
+chrisguy135 XD
:D
Amother one. Another one. Another one.
Man that comment was smart, and loyal.
I love how he stands out from the rest of the YouTubing world. He’s unapologetically himself and he’s genuine. A lot of the topics he discusses really hits home and more than often fits my own situation. It’s a comforting feeling knowing that someone can relate to the same things that I too have felt.
I have severe depression and a lot of the time it’s hard to feel anything aside from just like, *emptiness* , but Uncle E never fails me make me crack a smile.
Stick in there bud
Stick it out mane. You got this
God has a plan for you
it’s been a year,i hope your doing great..your such a brave and strong person,keep going! i believe in you :)
This actually really helped my grandma literally died like 2 hours ago so I needed this
I'm sorry to hear that. I wish you the best.
I'm sorry for your loss 💜 she is watching over you always. Think and keep hold of those good memories you had with her. Time will make it easier to cope 💜 hugs
Hope u feel better
Sorry mans. I hope you're ok.
hope you're feeling better now
What if the whole video was Rift saying "or this" and just pulling out random crap
I'd watch it Obama
I wish it was
That's what I thought it was gonna be
Best vid ever p
I would watch that lol
So THIS is what it feels like to have someone care about you... *mind blown*
Really no1 cares about you? Find that hard 2 believe
@Sad Kloud fuk ursef
@@robertparrinello1687 In this cruel world, it’s not hard to believe.
@@robertparrinello1687 K to the I to the L-L urself
@@robertparrinello1687 You really don’t know what depression is like some people don’t care about others and most depressed people feel alone. You will understand one day.
this video just invoked a deep memory of my dad making me hot chocolate and toast in the small hours of the morning after i’d had a nightmare. thank u for this.
What a sweet memory.. ❤
My cousin committed suicide a while ago, and I just miss him so much. Thank you for being there to say all the things he couldn’t hear, so that other people don’t go through the pain of suicidal thoughts, or the grief and guilt of suicide deaths.
I'm really sorry to hear that loss. How have you been doing these days?
💛
Rift has those skyrim pockets...
Most guys do
Hold up, gotta scroll through my hot bar for my shovel.
Riften
He have a whole Minecraft inventory
Why is it that whenever you're sad, someone asking if everything is okay causes a break down. Even when rift asks across the internet
It's because you've bottled up your emotions so much and when you finally get a release it all comes out, especially with someone that cares.
It's because normally, people are scared to show their emotions and share their struggles with people, so everyone assumes everything is ok. When someone finally has a breakdown, people suddenly become concerned because they haven't seen you this way before. They don't know any better. It's hard for someone without depression to understand. That's why finding someone who you can trust and confide in is extremely important.
300th like
@what me!? Same
*me bawling*
Rift:you seem...down..
My word sir you do a very good job of putting a smile on someone’s face
I try my best! :D
@@EphemeralRift 6 years on and he is still going! I love this man
@@Daniel2687XB same tho
funny how I keep coming back here. I can’t thank you enough for making this video, it’s kept me grounded one too many times.
Life is beautiful. I hope you can get the help you might need and see it like that
@@SalemPhiladelphia thank you. I hope so too.
I stopped being sad when he said the 3rd “or this”
“Oh.... K I T K A T”
And then there's Margaret
*Pulls up a shovel*
Oh...
*pulls up rope*
um...
*pulls up a gasoline bucket*
_wAiT_
Your comment is brilliant, made me chuckle 👌 thank you for your lolz
@@ulfricironborn601 hey... psst... i know your secret and who you are... i hate them Imperial Milk Drinkers too ;)
Ah yes, things are starting to add up..
*gasoline* *bucket* sir that's what we call a "gas CAN"
Am I getting burned or buried be more consistent with your body disposal
i'm 29 and been struggling with suicidal thoughts and depression for a couple of years now. the last 2 days have been especially hard. this video was really helpful and inspirational. at least i feel a little better now. thank you ER
I'm here too, so can't help much. But i like experiencing life, and I'll never have enough time to experience all that i want.
So why would i cut my life even shorter?
I’m sorry you’ve been having an extremely rough time with life…you deserve to truly be happy & feel safe! Do you mind if I can ask, what’s been bringing you down? I understand if it’s too personal, I won’t cross boundaries.
However I hope you’re having a great day!
How do you keep on?
I personally just keep looking at the positives and doing what I love no matter what others think of it. No matter how weird or impossible it may seem, it’s still all I want to do for the rest of my life. And I always know whenever I want to, there’s an escape button to talk to family and friends
rifty: "cuttin' down a little bit?"
me: *nervous laugher*
i feel like i know paul so well after all these years that if i saw him in public i'd totally forget he'd have no clue who i was and probably go in for a hug lmao
Shandra Haggerty he's probably Kesha you if you tried to hug him
He’d probably tingle you with his tingle blaster
@Autumn Stark Fast forward
Семён Тиссен loop
Becky I think you mean Jerry Seinfeld
*after the video*
Other half of kitkat: *chuckles* I'm in danger
yeah but
PRAISE THE SUN ☀️ \()/
The classic Simpson meme.
Aaah, it’s over, my sun is setting
I’m only 16 and I’m forgetting basic details about my life constantly. My therapist says it’s because I don’t care enough about the real world. She may be right. All I do is try to escape it. I can’t even have convos anymore because I’m forgetting how to speak. I feel like I’ll never be able to connect. I have panic attacks every time I even contemplate bringing down my walls. I’ll pretend that I didn’t even need to try here and you actually care, regardless. Thank you.
Hey, I read this and immediately flashed back to when I was your age 5 years ago. I went through the exact same thing, and to this day it comes and goes but one thing is for sure- it gets better. The fact you have a therapist in the first place is great, that’s the first step. There is a place for you and it may take time but you will get there, and there are always people who care. I do! Please know you are not alone, focus on self growth and improvement as much as you can to help distract yourself. I really do wish you the best and just know that your older self is looking on you now telling you it’s all going to be okay. That’s what I do with my 16 year old self.
I'm right there with you man, hang tight, we'll get through it together
Are you on an antidepressant? Lexapro gave me horrible short term memory. Or it could be depression brain fog. Hope things improve for you.
“I guess I won’t be needing this”, pulls an entire shovel out of thin air
Why is this so funny 😭
"i'm not gonna kill myself,i'm not gonna let this world win" made me cry.
Jesus Christ, Rift must have GTA pockets.
LOL
Or like the pockets that Link has in The Legend of Zelda
That part killed me, I couldn't stop laughing
With some games it's like "I CAN STICK 17 REFRIGERATORS IN MY POCKET BUT GOD FORBID I PUT A FISH IN A LETTER!"
Or Fallout 4 pockets, carrying around 300 pounds of junk
Couldnt imagine the number of people youve saved with this video. There is a special place in heaven for you, man.
Reading comments like yours i kinds feel a little more saved
This is the video that introduced me to ASMR. What, like 6-7 years ago? I was suffering, alone, fighting demons. Your content has been more beneficial to me than any doctor, any pill, any therapy I’ve tried. Thank you endlessly. I’m still depressed, still suicidal years later, but I would have never stopped myself from spiraling that day if it wasn’t for this video. Learning about ASMR and how it could help me has saved me over and over again for the past 6 years. Thank you so much for being the only person I had in these times. A perfectly random stranger. The internet is an amazing thing.
THIS! Literally the same as you, hope you feel better this year.
@@Kei-ni7lzI hope you and LLLLyrics are doing okay.❤
two bros
talking suicide thoughts
in the kitchen
cause they’re depressed
And it is god damn beautiful
five feet apart cause they're not gay
@@forskinshredr now it’s five feet apart because they’re not gay AND SOCIAL DISTANCING
Two bro siting in a hot tub 5 feet apart cause there not gay
@@PunkyDPookie I thought it was six feet apart?
You've saved lives with this video, thank you.
Yeah. My life is one of those he saved
@@eljaejaewalters5232 Honestly really glad for you, whatever you are doing keep it up man!
fr
Mine too,The pressure of trying to please everyone simply because I'm a Mum is crippling me.
@@mutoidliz2320momma strength never loses
Dear EP, thank you for video. You have saved many lives from just this singular one.
I struggle now and again to control my mind especially in terrible situations or stress inducing times.
Life is not simple to take away, you do not just erase yourself from this world. When you leave you rip yourself out of the life of everyone who knows you, you steal your opportunities and goals away from yourself, you steal the chance of it ever getting better.
But sometimes you can lose sight of those things, sometimes it seems so much simpler to simply “disappear”
Your videos help me so much to calm down and regain control of myself. Even if they may make me sleep, its still better to be able to wake up the next day and start some what fresh again.
All this to say. A life is important, and they significant. You are doing a big job successfully and I thank you for being there in a bad time for me, as well as everyone else.
Thanking you is the very little I can do but at this very moment its all I can do.
Thank you
Perfectly said.
You've helped so many people man, please listen to your own video and don't do it. Don't know what's coming on the 22nd but this just seems like career suicide so you don't have a reason to come back or to change your mind. It probably won't go away at all Paul but coming back is better than throwing everything away, you're an influence and a help to so many people around the world.
What is happening seems like a mental breakdown or something. In his newest vid where he plays a girl character he says something about sleeping with Ephermal Rifts wife.
So what I think is happening is that his wife possibly cheated on him and he’s been going on a mental decline even before it happened so now he is on his last pegs and he might be ending his life on the 22nd (hopefully not)
Why the 22nd I don't get it
You know what I love with my peanut butter and banana sandwiches? A side of suicide talk.
Tasty.
Tathym McBride scrumptious!
"Peter Pan bein naughty!"
@@annabellamiller1594 FBI WHERES PETER PAN!
@@username172 HE'S IN THE KITCHEN GETTING SPREAD BY PAUL 😆
@@annabellamiller1594 as long as hes not kidnapping children thats fine
"HONEY WHERE ARE THE GARDENING TOOLS?" "shh it's for the Internet"
mack lol😂
somehow i find myself crawling back here every couple of months. kind of a weird tradition. i’m not complaining though, this video really helps.
same here lol, funniest asmr tho
"Oh, it's you again" it's funny now after continuously finding myself coming back to this video for the past 7ish years. I know this video is definitely one of your older ones but it's just exactly what so many of us need, even still. Thank you, ER.
Rift the fact that you've come back and liked this comment has shown me that you're truly someone that cares
Rift, Paul, Corvus, thank you. As a 28 year old single dad who struggles with suicidal depression this helped me get out of a very dark place. For those of you who want to hate, Hell is real in our own aspects of reality.
Ray Smalley keep fighting brother❤️
You are loved
yes I also have suicidal depression but keep fighting for your life at least your life actually means something unlike mine
@@chaptermastervoridus5427 dont say that. Someone loves u
It's been 2 years since you commented this and we don't know each other but I really genuinely hope you are doing good, and if not I hope you will soon cause you deserve that no matter how much you think you don't
Rift: "What brings ya here?"
Me: I was gonna rob ya of ya toasta
Dancing.Duggo_MP4, you are so funny...
I think that’s the most I’ve laughed at a CZcams comment
Aurelius Yeah thank you man this actually made me laugh when I’m actually kinda sad
I needed this comment, made my night. Thanks dude.
Gimme he dam toasta
This is like the only video I can put on before sleep to put me at ease. Talking about life and depression, without giving tips or '5 things to do' stuff. Just talking with uncle rifty. I wish there were more videos like this.
I have horrible thoughts about myself and mistakes I’ve made. I came across this video tonight- thank you. I want to get help for my severe depression and anxiety.
what the actual fuck was that intro? I'm not complaining, I liked it
the second this vid ended he had the other half of that kitkat
legends say he ate it at 6:49
And the other half of that sandwich
You don’t realize how much I would do to have a friend like this
Have some ramen!
@@x.vzoom_ :0
I once read a quote that said “depressed people aren’t faking being sick, they are faking being well.”
i lost it at the handcuffs
He is so creative and good at acting that I don’t know if this is a roleplay or he is talking about real shit
I think this started out as a video and turned into him just genuinely speaking as himself
Check in the description, he has experienced it in his real life.
I'm sorry if this is dramatic but you really are the dad/parental figure I want and need in my life. I'm really glad your here with us.
Not dramatic at all. I understand what you mean and completely relate.
I absolutely relate with what you’re talking about man, I’m honestly jealous of this mans son for the incredibly thoughtful and experienced dad they have. Still, I’m so glad they have this and other videos up for me and everyone else to listen to, it’s as close as a lot of us will get to the real thing
Hey ER,
I just want to let you know you helped save my life 2 years ago. This video helped me when I just wanted it to all stop. You were a companion that stopped and listened when it felt like no one else would... when I was at my loneliest, like a voice reaching out in a bottomless black void.
It may seem like a simple video, but thank you, really.
“What brings you here?” Fairly large amounts of sad
Based pfp
@@IdkIdk-nt6iq, based
Your sense of humor is amazing.
You're a great actor.
You're the most in-touch-with-modern-culture middle-aged person I've ever seen.
Also, the longer your hair is, the younger you look.
Whenever life gets hard for me I always come here and it always helps
Uncle E is such a blessing upon this world
i come back to this video at every low point in my life, it eases me. it also reminds me that ive been at a worse point than currently.
NO ONE HAS EVER SPLIT A KIT-KAT BAR WITH ME BEFORE I'M CRYING.
You deserve all of the other half of kitkats in the world
@colorful I know this is sounds mean at first and totally not trying to be and I know it’s kinda off topic but what your experiencing right now is called the Mandela effect. Kit Kat Dosent have a dash in the name unlike many people believe/“saw” it’s pretty cool look it up ❤️
(But most importantly hey go eat a god dang Kit Kat bar and I hope your doing better or at least I hope you have a wonderful day today, I wish you/anyone else the best)
@@Evathebrave you just made me go back in the video to check..
*HOW COULD YOU REVEAL THIS CRUEL TRUTH*
Fart
ill split one with you
for some reason i dont get tingles from this but i still watch it because you seem like a really cool guy and just listening to what you say is relaxing enough
Hey, Potato Head !
this is the tHIRD TIME I'VE SEEN YOU
+Jordan Roberts well, Papers please is quite a popular game so you might have seen a different person by this name. Glory to arstotzka
When I read this, I realized it was hilarious if read in "Bob" from Bobs Burgers voice
+Jorji Costava Don't make me call the guards!
I gasped "OH MY GOD" When I saw this video in my recommended. He's a doppelganger of a friend I lost to suicide... This is such a great resource for people struggling. Thank you. There should be more resources for people struggling with suicidal thoughts all alone. We need to fix the system, nevertheless. Nobody should go alone trough this.
In what world do people actually exist to have empathy? Not to sound pessimistic but the one we’re living in doesn’t sound like a probable candidate.
Cried when I found this video again, you wouldn’t believe how many nights I would use this to go to sleep just because of how good a distraction it was. You saved my life many times with this one uncle E, I only wish I could go back to younger me watching this and tell her it’s all going to be okay.
“You need to talk. It’s good to talk.” That hit deep for me - not because I need to talk about what’s hurting me, but because I did need to talk about it (and I eventually learnt to). And it just...hit close to home.
Do you have instagram?
"Is everything alright?"
*Me, standing in his kitchen at 2 AM butt naked, crying out of every hole in my body:* "yep"
This comment is making me feel thing I don’t wanna feel.
I have several questions
Relatable
Aight, on my way to smack you
I still come back to this sometimes when things feel unbearable, and I’m so grateful for that. Thanks, ER :)
This feels like an intimate conversation and i love it.
The fact that over a year later I'm still coming here at night to watch this video either shows how amazing he is at his videos or how depressed I am. Idk.
Donovan Todd still?
@@manbug9368 don't know about this guy, but I do
Both? Because yeah me too
Or both
uncle rift,
thank you so much. i've dealt with severe mental illness for my whole life, and i began having suicidal ideations when i was ten. i've been recovering, and things are quite a bit better now. tomorrow i'll be one month clean of self harm. had a rough day today and almost relapsed, but instead i sat down, put in headphones, and made a peanut butter banana sammich. this video feels like a weight coming off my shoulders. thank you so much for all of your videos and your kindness.
hope ur doing well! ♡♡
Hey i know im late but i hope your doing better :)
i hope you’re still doing well :)
*S A M M I C H*
You’re a warm person
I wish you well my friend
six years have passed since you uploaded this video. I could have used this video for six years, but I didn't know it existed. but today - today you brightened my life a bit, saved me from doing something stupid.
keep fighting. we have to be strong
im counting on you ❤️
I’m glad you’re still here❤
I watched this about a year ago, truly at my mental low, and now having been a subscriber since then and coming back to this I feel very good. I have an amazing boyfriend, I’m on new meds that are truly helping, and soon I graduate from school which has always been a hellish experience for me. I won’t say this video is the entire reason I’m here today, but I will say I remember sitting down and watching this the full way through and feeling leagues better. Thanks ER, sometimes all someone needs is one reason to stay.
Man, his wife must get some REALLY good roleplay
Jesus
*raises eyebrow*
+Thomas B. Howard stop imagining that Tom for your own health.
Thomas B. Howard *Raises both eyebrows*
+Cultureghost (͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)
I know everyone takes the piss. But from one that actually suffers from depression, this is really nice to hear from a from a guy who actually cares and gives a shit. Cheers er.
I can relate. Most of the people like ER help better then a "professional"
@@jaytheartman610 Most professionals are only able to be called that because of a degree. It takes a whole different level to be able to actually help someone
This helped me when I needed it today on May 11, 2021. Thank you for this video. I’ve been watching your videos since 2012 so almost since the beginning and this video has been the one that has had the most impact on me in almost 10 years of watching your videos. Thank you for sharing your experiences as well as what you did to continue through this great journey called life. God bless you, your videos, and the many more to come!
There are several things in my life that I haven't yet resolved and sometimes there are moments when they worry me with a strange intensity (in those moments I sincerely ask myself: Who is going to help me get through this?)
It happened last night too. I got up at 3 AM and couldn't sleep anymore. Lying like that in my bed, I had a restless mind. Thoughts about the meaning of life also came to mind and the realization that I longed for someone's advice, help in these matters.
Then I realized that listening to some ASMR video about anxiety and depression would help.
Your video appeared at the very top of the search list and I started watching it.
Your presence helped me calm down a lot. The way you expressed yourself was very moving. After the video, I immediately fell asleep. I had an unusual, pleasant dream in which you were also present. You were my old friend or relative. You and I were building a beautiful house in the countryside and throughout the dream there was a very calming and encouraging atmosphere - a sense of belonging and having my own family one day and that everything will be fine in my life in the future. When I got up in the morning, I had a lot to think about. Thank you for this wonderful and comforting video!
I was crying throughout the whole video. Idk why but the thought of someone talking to me so gently and just accepting that I'm sad made me cry my eyes off. Thankyou
im crying now, realizing that nobody understands how i feel... i cant take lifr anymore
@@ShelloJelloASMR really? Get a grip
@@robertparrinello1687 shut up
Nah
Did hE JUST PUT THAT WHOLE KIT KAT SECTION IN HIS MOUTH AT ONCE 😂
Savannah Howard what that mouth do
Mr. Chunky Peanut butter dgrrge
Savannah Howard do you have a small mouth or something? Only those with large mouths who can take a full half of a kit Kat bar in their mouths will survive the reckoning
Savannah Howard is there any other way to eat kit kats?
I didn’t know one could ‘eat a KitKat in portions’
My wife saw me have a mental breakdown in our garage a few days ago. I was going to go to the hospital and have myself admitted but she closed the garage and asked why I was acting the way I was. Managed to get out “I don’t like the way I feel” and collapsed on the floor weeping. I’ve carried untreated wounds in my soul for 23 years, everything from childhood trauma to friends dying to combat and addiction and suicides and domestic violence in prior relationships, and I’m just now seeking help. Actual help. Not a facade to keep my job or to keep this fucking venom in me anymore. The life I want is on the other side of the work I’ve been avoiding.
Please keep going man. You’re as tough as nails and the world would be a lesser place without you in it
Childhood trauma is too much to deal with because it affects the rest of your life and your daily choices
two years ago today. the last time I visited this video and coincidentally found it again in my screenshot folder. Ill give it another listen.. I remember the unease i felt before, and the calm listening brought. now i hope it can fill an empty space of mine. goodnight everyone, and stay strong.
I really actually fucking love you rift. you've gotten me through the day. thank. you.
lonely valentine's?
+Fat scout no just an extensional crisis really 😕
Elham Ali kk
+Elham Ali Extensional crisis? Your peepee is flaccid? Oh, existential. Same thing.
I know its weird for an ASMR artist but I think you need to take the funny moments from your videos and make a compilation.
Woah same name :0
+Preston Bugg Omg please do
+PrestonPotter Well this is cute
I still remember several years ago subbing to ER when he only had 30k subs. Look how far our favorite uncle has come. 🤘
I find myself seeking this video out whenever I get bad and tonight is one of those nights 😔
Back again… a year later
Barbra Streisand on vinyl... the ultimate weapon.
I know right? 5 minutes of her would kill me dead.
+AbbeyRoad52 I would also be killed dead until I died from death
I know what to use if someone breaks into my house.
+Fiona Hardie I have a gun, 2 combat knives, and a throwing knife ._.
+TheMrCoolness _ and no bad vinyls? You're hardly safe
I started laughing hysterically when he said "sammich" please help me
I clicked in this video since i felt like i didn't know what to do i just relapse not long ago and honestly i felt My mind completely blank and in panic for like an hour or so i'm exhausted but just Your intro Made me feel a little more relaxed this video honestly helps me a lot right now thank you for doing this even though i know is been years since this got posted......thank you so much.
8 years late but I’m really glad I found this video because lately I feel like my whole life has been downhill