What is Pure OCD?
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- Pure OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) is an unfortunate state of mind, which a surprising number of us may suffer from, where certain deeply distressing, intrusive and shocking thoughts refuse to leave us alone. The suggested solution doesn't target the thoughts themselves, but rather their underlying cause: shame and self-contempt.
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“Few mental afflictions are as humbling or as terrifying as what is known as ‘Pure’ OCD or, more colloquially, Intrusive Thoughts. In standard Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, a person is haunted by a worry that compels them to repeat an often counterproductive or fruitless action with manic intensity: handwashing, turning off gas pipes, checking their pulse and so on. But in ‘pure’ OCD, there is no outward, physical action; the problem unfolds - hence the name - purely in the mind, yet it is, if anything, an even more distressing condition.”
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It's like a voice in your head that never shut's up. It's pure suffering. I never feel good
I would like to help you. Please watch this video, my email is in the description - czcams.com/video/DNOsS8tmPWQ/video.html - there is a part 2 and 3 with insights and techniques
how’s it going now?
@@emilyc4724 better
44 maroc well that gives me some hope. hope you’re doing well and thanks for replying :)
Guys do not discount adhd. The overlaps are massive and the treatment is effective
Having pure OCD makes it so hard to distinguish reality from intrusive thoughts. Editing: Reality is the perception that I have of my personality in relation to other personalities. Thoughts are the mental framework that emanate from the personality. And how I chose to respond to certain thoughts in action determines the outcome of the goal that I achieve. So thoughts are not reality they are just the framework that we as humans use to understand what we are in relation to other personalities.
CBT & meditating might help. Best wishes from a fellow pure ocd stranger
ikr!
yeah I didn't know half of the way I saw things wasn't real ( not schizophrenia but believing that i had to do allll these mental things before i could go outside etc
yes
YES!!! I struggle to distinguish which thoughts about myself and family members are intrusive and not.
"pure OCD thoughts are not wishes. They are symptoms of radical self-distrust". I alredy knew that I have OCD, but this statement was a very helpful and somehow comforting thought.
I wanna give you the biggest hug❤️I needed to hear that, or read it…😅
Please support me I have coined a term so that people don't feel guilty for not feeling guilty and they don't consider themselves a psychopath
Nicesopaths are individuals who, despite initially experiencing guilt, have successfully overcome it. They have learned to embrace self-acceptance and no longer feel guilty for minor mistakes or intrusive thoughts. This term is used to celebrate their journey towards a happier and more fulfilled life.
To all those suffering from this horrendous affliction, I just want to let you know that Pure OCD literally destroyed me in my early 20s to a point where I was properly suicidal. It was constantly there at either a mild or moderate level but occasionally reared it’s ugly head in the most extreme ways imaginable. This went on for years and years in cycles. I genuinely believed I’d lose everything including my career, my relationship and all my friends and never achieve anything because of this nightmarish condition.
Fast forward 12 years and I’m now married with children, have the job I always wanted and I’ve been essentially free from this shite for nearly 2 years now (although I feel it’s probably there subconsciously at an extremely low level, it doesn’t seem to bother me anymore). Basically I’m in control of it now, not the other way around, and life is good.
I could massively relate with everything in this video, and if you can too, trust me when I say you’ll eventually overcome this and enjoy your life again.
My only advice to you is to force yourself to stop doubting yourself and TRUST yourself that these thoughts mean nothing. There is a huge difference between THOUGHTS and DESIRES. The only reason you keep having them is because you believe they MUST mean something and that you are the worst person in the world. The reality couldn’t be further from the truth though. And actually, the only reason you’re having these thoughts is because they horrify you so much that you’re subconsciously constantly scanning your brain to “check” if you’re having them. The constant checking is what’s giving them power. Learn to accept the thoughts as just thoughts and nothing more and with a bit time and being kind to yourself, you’ll eventually let them go.
If this helps even one person I’ll be happy :) Trust yourself, be kind to yourself, you’re a good person and you’ll recover from this hopefully sooner rather later!
Thank you so much for sharing :)
I really needed that, these thoughts have drove me sucidal in the past couple months it really does feel like a cycle getting one thought out of your head and then another popping back in. I really wish this condition was talked about more so more people can understand it and realise they have it instead of hating themselves our feeling disgusted
This is such an important comment, being informative and straightforward. Thank you!
Thank you.
Thank you so much for this post😭😭😭 This is such a hell this Pure Ocd and more worrying not even all therapists know it exists. We just need to learn how to love ourselves. Warm new year greetings Xxx
Dear OCD sufferers, all of you are highly intelligent people with very powerful minds. We are in such a corrupted world, we worry about being a certain person while the rest of the world goes on committing crimes without remorse. Our level of empathy is high, now it is time to reflect that empathy onto us, our own selves. OCD is a devil in disguise but with a shift of perspective, it is a blessing in disguise. We have complex brains, we cannot control our thoughts or urges, and sensations, not ever will we be able too. Let's change our reactions instead.
Your words made me cry as I thought the same thing. Many people hurt and commit heinous crimes acting as if those things are inconsequential, while at the same time, I’m trying hard to have good thoughts and work at being kind as to not go crazy.
yeah dude people are doing evil that piss me off
Doing charity has improved my mental state
This is so sweet, thank you so much
Thank you for this
I relate.
1) Thinking obsessively about if I’m a pedophile and that I’m disgusting.
2) Thinking obsessively about being self centered and rude.
3) Thinking obsessively about how fat I am, wanting to check myself every second of every day.
4) Thinking obsessively about how it doesn’t matter if I like helping people if I think about hurting others.
I relate to all the things you listed. You are not alone and please don't ever feel weak. We are survivors!
i totally relate!! please know these are just the ocd, theyre not you💖
I feel exactly the same way you do. I was too horrified to ask for help. I thought if I told anyone what I was feeling I would've been sent to jail or cancelled forever. I honestly contemplated suicide because I didn't want to live with the horrible thoughts in my head anymore. Crying everyday and not being able to turn off the thoughts was so hard for me.
@@starrynight669 i hope you are doing better now!!
@@kriya412 Hey man, we got this. Life is hard, and we are still here! You should really see a therapist and see about getting diagnosed and treated. I'm a lesbian as well, and if you're questioning just know you aren't digusting or outcast! You're a unique human being who nobody else can match.
Before I knew about pure OCD, I was certain that I was truly evil. I was afraid to leave my house, to interact with anyone, even my closest friends and family. I feared that I would become a disgusting monster. A rapist, a murderer, or a p*do. I honestly thought that suicide was the best option, that it would save my family the shame of being associated with me while also stopping the horrible thoughts that plagued me.
When I finally told my therapist about these thoughts, she seemed disgusted. She asked me if I had ever hurt someone, if I wanted to. Her words legitimized my fears. I never went back because I thought she could never look at me the same again, and maybe she couldn't.
I considered killing myself every day. I didn't know what was wrong with me, and I thought that maybe I was just crazy.
When I found this video a few years ago, the relief I felt was enormous. I cried for hours. Knowing that I wasn't alone, that I wasn't some horrid monster that deserved to die. I can honestly say that this video saved my life. I finally had a name for what I was experiencing.
This video too saved my sanity. As someone who lives with Pure OCD myself and wants to devote my life to understanding and healing the mind I would love to share these discoveries with you in the dearest hopes that they will help in your healing:
1. You are not your thoughts
2. Unhealed trauma often manifests as unwanted thoughts
3. Lack of a strong sense of self can foster an environment where intrusive thoughts thrive
4. Intrusive thoughts feed off of lack of self-love and lack of confidence
5. Finding yourself through fulfilling your life’s passions is the remedy
You are not alone. Numerous loving people suffer from this condition. Pure OCD is like a possession. The more we empower ourselves the less power these monsters in our heads will have to the point where they have no more power over us. I feel it is not unlike the corrupt people in power in the world and their relationship with the masses. The more we own our own power the less power they have over us, they only feed off the power we give away and then manipulate us to make us think we are misusing power when it is they.
You are strong, inspiring, loving and lovable. Nourish your spirit through doing what you love so toxic thoughts and people can not feed off of you. Boundaries will protect your energy. Take care dear friend.
@coolgabe and @MiddleEarthMadi thank you so much for your honesty and helpful words 😭🙏💔❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Fuck bro fcukk same, same broeht, were in this together
So happy to hear, same experience for me. I almost laughed with relief watching the video a year or two ago. Had tried a psychologist and explored the notion of intrusive thoughts with them but was nowhere near being able to verbalise any of the thoughts to him. This video is amazing and has done wonders for me.
You’re not alone. Just wanted to chime in and say your therapist was bogus for judging you, but it seems like you now know that and that your compulsive thoughts don’t bear meaning to your worth
I come back to this video when I’m struggling to remind myself I’m not the only person going through this and its just my disorder
One of the worst parts of this specific disorder is that it’s talked about so little that there’s no community for those suffering. There’s a sense of loneliness that isn’t there with many other mental health issues because we’re all terrified to open up about it. I know how it feels and I am so sorry that some of you do, too.
I agree. Iv had it since I was a kid and I'm only getting a handle on it now. Until this video I didn't now it's name. We are strong. I feel meditating, CBT & EFT can help.
I had it since i was 9 years old But I didn't suffer from it that much when I was a child. But as I grew older. People around me started noticing. Wich really lead to me be being a little socially akward.(I mean I still have friends) And it affected my daily life. Like making me go to school late. I'm 15 years old and still suffer from it.
@@lu8201 does CBT help
I've found so much healing in my life from this. Words cannot express how horrible it is. I'm going to do everything I can to bring awareness and love to people. I have my Mental Health First Aid Certification and I'm going to get my CPSS. I need to get my website back up, but I recently started tweeting about it. I don't care what anyone thinks of me. When I hear the song czcams.com/video/Wizc2UC9s0A/video.html I think of all of you, all the people who are suffering alone, how I suffered alone. The journey will be different for each person, but there truly is healing from OCD Harm/Pure OCD.
@@lu8201 Exposure Response Prevention Therapy (ERP) Heard about this one as well. I recommend Rose Bretecher Guardian Article as well as this site: www.madeofmillions.com/ Really goes into the different branches of pure and treatment. It breaks my heart to hear that some people have been suffering since a young age. I had spikes I remember throughout childhood, but the first episode happened senior year of college. Stay strong friends :)
I’m in tears, thank you for showing me I’m not a monster.
How can u be a monster whenu are a patient nd thats not ur mistake plz dont think like that
@PK Pena, I was feeling the same way two years ago, and I also felt just like you. But, if
you search for medical help, and do these steps, by the time, you will get better. I tell you that from my own experience. I went through the breakdown and felt like there's no hope for me, but you have to CONSTANTLY TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF, LIKE EXPLAINED IN THIS VIDEO, AND WITH THE MEDICAL TREATMENT, AND TIME PASSING BY, IT GETS BETTER. GOOD LUCK 🤞
@@feelsokayman3959 absolutely.
I'm so sorry you have to feel this way, I hope good things come for you.
@@feelsokayman3959 Thank you so much man from my bottom of my heart.
I was diagnosed with OCD since my teenage, spent my whole life fighting OCD. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until a friend recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 6 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
Congrats on your recovery. Most persons never realizes psilocybin can be used as a miracle medication to save lives. Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death bud, lets be honest here.
Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Germany. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them.
YES very sure of Dr.benfungi. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
Mushrooms are very medicinal. This is why anybody familiar with psilocybin and any other kind of fungi will tell you, "They are alive." They have a very ancient wisdom. To my experience, all mushrooms have always said, "Pay attention to your life. How you think, how you feel, and what will you do with the information that you always knew, but now are seeing in this point of view." This is why mushrooms are so respected in tribal cultures. This mental health treatment works for me too. Half micro doses do the trick for me. At least a few days at a time with lengthy time in between. Thank you for sharing this point!
How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta
Former pure O sufferer here. I just want to let you know that you can beat this, it does get better and the real you is still in there. A big thing to help me was realising that it was the 'guilt' of having intrusive thoughts that made them cycle even worse. Then when your mood is down because you feel like a crazy piece of shit, the thoughts are more likely to happen because your mood is down / you are stressed.
Right now, I feel completely 100% normal. I know that if I was to have a flare up of pure O it would cause me do doubt that. And that right there is the devil in this horrible affliction. The doubt. DON"T LISTEN TO THE DOUBT, IT IS NOT REAL. YOU ARE NOT A MONSTER. YOU ARE NOT CRAZY. YOU ARE A HUMAN BEING
Don't try to to look for reassurance, just trust that you are not crazy and let the thoughts come, they will pass (Trust me I know how hard that is, but that is the way out of it) THEY WILL PASS. If you can let the thoughts happen without feeling guilty or bad for thinking them, they will go away. I cannot stress how much help mindfulness was in helping me beat this. I think of mindful meditation as like practice and then when the thoughts flare up, it's "game time". Mindfulness is a tool to help quieten the mind. If you get good at it (everyone can) it's almost like telling your thoughts "I'll be over here when you guys are done, just don't leave a mess and lock the door on your way out".
ALSO Curcumin / Turmeric has made the thoughts stop happening in the first place. There is an undeniable, but not yet fully understood link between gut health and the mind. I had inflammation in my gut so I started taking one Turmeric capsule ever day, I can't tell you how much of a difference it makes.
I realised I had inflammation from having "Post-Cold Euphoria", a sensation of feeling really really good for a day or so after getting over a head cold. The theory is that a lot of inflammation cells are released at the end of a head cold there by lowering inflammation in the gut (Lots of people have noticed this phenomenon). This led me to start taking something natural with an inflammatory property and boy have I not looked back!
Do I still get the occasional weird thought, ABSOLUTELY, but I'm almost able to laugh at it and think "there's good old crazy brain' and then that's it. Not responding to the thought with guilt is key. Try to almost laugh at the absurdity of the thought. In the way you would when a comedian says something really really inappropriate. "did he just say that?" and you laugh your ass off.
Thank you so much! I'm trying this today! ❤
ive been suffering wince i was 10 and now im 16 ,i laught at thoughts that used to make me feel horrible when i was younger but my brain now finds worst ones ,at least now i know it has a name ,and that im not alone ,thank you!
Thank you!
Thank you
Ty so much man, i rlly needed to see this comment. bc on top of that its our words & actions that make us up as humans & not sum dumb ass thoughts/compulsions.
OCD makes you think of killing others, cheating on your loved one, make you think fortune cookies are trying to send you a spiritual message, etc. it’s a sickness. I’m suffering deeply
I don't want to feel like this anymore
I feel you in the fortune cookies. I have thought of the other two but quickly dismiss them because they’re that bad. Idk. They do linger around though. So it does suck. Hang in there.
Just try to recognize such thoughts as part of a mental illness. Those thoughts don’t define who you are. Try meditation as wel :)
@@keithm7004 meditate good energy bro
deeply means that makes lots to me.........i am not only the person who suffer in this world......now i realiz there is different flavours of ocds
@Queen Bee Same, it makes me wonder what other things I do that are because of my mental health issues lol.
Oh my god, this is it. All throughout middle school and early high school, I was tortured by intrusive thoughts that I was going to kill myself and that I wanted to commit suicide. Of course I didn't actually want to, but for some reason my brain was constantly thinking about it, and seeing a knife and imagining stabbing myself or something would trigger a huge panic attack. I thought something was deeply wrong with me, and it got to the point where I was so miserable, I started to lose all hope. I don't know if this is possible, but after about 3 years of this my brain suddenly kind of snapped out of it. I still get stuck with intrusive thoughts but it's not 24/7, for some reason it's gotten a lot better. I don't know if anyone is reading this, but I am in college and am pretty happy now, and I thought I never would be. Getting better is possible. It may not 100% go away, but you can be happy and live a great life.
Edit: To the people just saying I’m an edgy teenager or making assumptions about me, shut the fuck up. I have gone through hell and back surviving domestic violence and sexual abuse and grappling with the aftermath of that. Many of my mental struggles connect to the horrors I’ve survived. You don’t know my entire life story, and I feel sad that you feel the need to minimize strangers on the internet. But thank you to everyone else who is supportive and I’m glad many of us are finding comfort in this video and learning we are not alone.
immm soo happy your good now, its good to hear it can just go away like that.
This is so similar to my experience with Pure OCD. As a child from about 9 tI was so miserable worrying I wanted to commit suicide or have sex with a family member. It was exacerbated by my family moving to a new country and going to a new school etc, all I did was obsess over my intrusive thoughts. It started off as a really young child I couldn't go to sleep if everyone else in the house was already asleep. I was so scared I would sit on the top of the stairs until my parents came and found me and took me to bed and stayed until I was asleep. As I grew into myself as a teenager and gained self-confidence it just seemed to disappear. I still occasionally have bouts of intrusive thoughts that I'm sexually attracted to my young nephew or my boyfriend is cheating on me but I can control the thoughts much better now and it's very rare they come about.
@@hendy1731 yeah, it may just start to loose power over you, I don't know how
@@user-ku9xx1gw3v even after watching this video a couple days ago, i feel like its losing its power. because now i'm self conscious of being self conscious, since i now know the reason why im truly like this; being because i had unconsciously hated myself all this time.
I had the same experience, and the older I am the better it gets, slowly but surely.
This.
This is such a good point. It's like you're being mentally tormented but you know that no one else can see it. You look normal to everyone else but you feel so abnormal and the fact that no one can see what's happening in your head makes it feel even worse.
YES ocd feels like you have all the morals and qualities of a good person and feel all the shame of a bad person just because of having intrusive thoughts like a horrific movie that goes through your mind and then the constant invalidation I REMEBER I felt so bad I lost my identity and I went outside with my best friend at night to just sprint because we were crazy and what felt like was supposed to be a fun time I looked at the night sky and didn’t feel the freedom she felt I felt like I was screaming but I felt trapped that’s the most painful emotion k had ever felt from OCD the pain is horrible
Oh my god.. you just said the words that I was feeling/experiencing/thinking...
100%agree with your each words
My competitive exam preparation ruined due to my pure OCD
But now I am recovered and happy
@@unknownunknown-hr2rj how did you recover?
I just turned 21 today and all this time I thought I was a horrible person. Being miserable half of my life, distancing myself away from everyone and now I finally learned that there are other people suffering the same way as me. Thank you for making this. It means the world to me.
Yeah I just found out too and I gotta fix this dawg can’t life like this forever.
Please support me I have coined a term so that people don't feel guilty for not feeling guilty and they don't consider themselves a psychopath
Nicesopaths are individuals who, despite initially experiencing guilt, have successfully overcome it. They have learned to embrace self-acceptance and no longer feel guilty for minor mistakes or intrusive thoughts. This term is used to celebrate their journey towards a happier and more fulfilled life.
It’s totally treatable for like 90% of people with exposure therapy. Refuse drugs from those cynical greedy psychiatrists, they just want money and don’t care about your well being. Fuk them.
wow shit, i'm actually crying. this is real? i'm not a terrible person? what is life? thank you sm for making this.
Same :(
my goodness you're not a terrible person! It's a horrible disease but you are def not alone!!
I’ve had some mental health issues. I grew up in the 90’s. You’re lucky to be able to see videos like this and communicate with others on this kind of platform. You realize at least you’re not alone. Would have helped me a lot, but glad it helped you. Peace
I have this and also i have a speech disorder, it's hard for me to think, actually i never been so sad or felt so down thinking that I'm the worst person in this earth, It's just i keep on bothered with intrustive thoughts, but i *Do not do any physical contact* , but i do kept on repeating or kept on saying the same sentences that i just wrote over and over again until I'm sastified, OCD and speech disorder, a perfect disorder partners.
That’s exactally the feeling!
The best way to overcome pure OCD, is to stop fighting the thoughts. Make yourself realise, that they are not a part of you, but purely symptoms of a mental illness. I did this, and as soon as I came to peace with the thoughts being there, they faded away with time.
Something to look forward to
I recently found out about pure ocd and been having anxiety attacks but im ready for the recovery journey!! :)
@@issad8396 You got this. As I said, don't fight them, don't do any compulsions. It will be tough, but I promise, once your brain realizes how absurd it is, it will go away.
the problem is i just cant acknowledge the fact that theyre part of a mental illness. it feels so real, and it just keeps getting worse
But it’s harder than you think it is
"Somewhere in their past, normally from traumatic and degrading childhood relationships, they will have derived the impression that they did not deserve to exist" That moment for me was probably my dad saying "your not the kid I wanted".
I needed this. Just the acknowledgement that I'm not completely broken and hopelessly flawed does so much. I've never seen someone describe what occurs in my head so well before. I never knew there were so many others experiencing the same thing. I'm glad I'm not alone.
Never alone. We must face these demons in our heads telling us lies together
You're not alone man.
Agreed. I think this is the first resource I’ve ever seen that goes over this.
Same here 💯
Please support me I have coined a term so that people don't feel guilty for not feeling guilty and they don't consider themselves a psychopath
Nicesopaths are individuals who, despite initially experiencing guilt, have successfully overcome it. They have learned to embrace self-acceptance and no longer feel guilty for minor mistakes or intrusive thoughts. This term is used to celebrate their journey towards a happier and more fulfilled life.
Im discovering i might have OCD. As a kid I always felt the need to check my if my parents were sleeping (i was too young to remember why but I ABSOLUTELY needed to check, never sleeping until they were asleep) and then I developed intrusive thoughts that as a christian, I started praying for forgiveness constantly. I get sexually intrusive thought about family members or hurting my dog and I just lock myself in my room with intense guilt. I always over check my social medias in case I posted something on accident. I cant even trust myself driving a car cause my intrusive thoughts tell me to crash into something or someone. Its all painful, its a living hell. I wouldn’t wish this mental illness on anyone, cause your brain never stops thinking of awful things or worrying, it never stops to relax.
I cannot imagine your struggle but I feel your pain , I am standing with you as you battle your demons on your journey to find peace :) I relate to this
100
I've neve thought someone would ever had the same experience as me
@@AllAtOnc3 Isn't OCD an actual mental illness?
I used to do the same when they used to sleep
I want to legit cry, because I thought I was insane. But it's just OCD. I felt so disgusted just being in my own body. It made me want to throw up.
SAME.
Also, I’m very sorry you felt that way. 🌸
Seeing people say "I thought I was insane," hits so close to home because I had my first panic attack because that morning all that went through my head was "I'm going crazy. Am I crazy? There's no way I'm not crazy."
Same oh my god, I honestly feel like my brain had turned on me and I just want to disappear.
So people experienced this only.
My nervous system is always so high but i never became ashame of my body because i learnt on how to respect everyone. The thing I'm experienced are so much worse, Nervous thoughts about something that's going to happend in the future, this Nervous system, once it got activated i couldn't do anything properly, combined by my OCD, created a big impact on me which made me to lose the ability to do anything for a temporal moments.
same
As someone wuth pure O, the worst thing you can say to one is “I have intrusive thoughts as well”. They are not the same thing and they aren’t as frequent. Pure O thoughts will often lead with panic attack and social anxiety and it needs to be understood instead of compared.
People tend to use “intrusive thoughts” interchangeably with “impulsive thoughts” which are within itself very different things.
I've been sobbing and crying for half an hour now, because the frase "they're not wishes, they are symptoms" hit me so deeply and so hard. The feeling that now I understand myself a little better is one of the greatest reliefs I've ever experienced. Thank you. Deeply from my heart, thank you.
Please support me I have coined a term so that people don't feel guilty for not feeling guilty and they don't consider themselves a psychopath
Nicesopaths are individuals who, despite initially experiencing guilt, have successfully overcome it. They have learned to embrace self-acceptance and no longer feel guilty for minor mistakes or intrusive thoughts. This term is used to celebrate their journey towards a happier and more fulfilled life.
Am I the only one who feels like I’m in a dream state at some points because it’s hard to tell what thoughts are reality and which aren’t?
Could be depersonalization
Depersonalization is described as feeling disconnected or detached from one's self. Individuals may report feeling as if they are an outside observer of their own thoughts or body, and often report feeling a loss of control over their thoughts or actions.
Is that what you feel?
If you have OCD (compulsions and/or intrusive thoughts) do these two things consequently and your compulsions and intrusive thoughts WILL 100% get better or maybe even completely vanish if you do it long enough: Meditate daily (ideally 30-60+ minutes, I recommend Vipassana, which is simply putting your Awareness on your breath) and constantly practice Awareness throughout the entire day. Practicing Awareness means simply observing your thoughts and compulsions in a distanced and detached way. You have to realize that you ARE the observer/the Awareness and not the observed thoughts and compulsions. Do not identify with your thoughts and compulsions and simply observe them from a distance. Intrusive thoughts and compulsions are randomly generated and you have absolutely 0 control over them, but you have the power of being able to ignore them and not worry about them. Fully accept and welcome all thoughts and compulsions, no matter how strange or disturbing they may be. Never feel ashamed, disgusted or shocked, this fuels intrusive thoughts and compulsions immensely. Compulsions and intrusive thoughts thrive on the attention and meaning you give to them. Meditating is gonna be extremely hard at first, but don't be discouraged, it will become easier and easier the more you meditate and practice Awareness. The goal would be to remain in Awareness 24/7, which would make you completely invulnerable to all compulsions and intrusive thoughts.
Wishing you all the best my friend 😊❤
YES OMG
@@aaaxdxd OMG this is exactly what I'm feeling thank you
@@luciacatinelli692 is this an uncomfortable state for you?
Started bawling at "they believe they don't deserve to exist"
spot on. I wouldn't wish pure o on anyone. it has absolutely ruined my life.
Jordan King ... same here. I joined the ocd group on Facebook. It’s pretty cool.
BIGGEST HUGS, I did as well
Me too
Ocd made me paranoid of everything sometimes I am paranoid from my mother which is the only person that helps me.
Me too
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I’ve had OCD my whole life since I was a little kid. Overtime you either submit to the compulsions and obsessions or go insane trying to block them. I remember having to pray 20 times to not go to hell or.check my alarm every 5 seconds to make sure it’s on. Whoever struggles with OCD, you know the pain and I have deep sympathies for you. Overtime I’ve just accepted it and tried to live peacefully.
Please support me I have coined a term so that people don't feel guilty for not feeling guilty and they don't consider themselves a psychopath
Nicesopaths are individuals who, despite initially experiencing guilt, have successfully overcome it. They have learned to embrace self-acceptance and no longer feel guilty for minor mistakes or intrusive thoughts. This term is used to celebrate their journey towards a happier and more fulfilled life.
It's worse, when it comes to a point where you think your the worst person to exist and enter into a stage of depression where one thinks that only death can bring then peace.
Been there too
There right now.
If you have OCD (compulsions and/or intrusive thoughts) do these two things consequently and your compulsions and intrusive thoughts WILL 100% get better or maybe even completely vanish if you do it long enough: Meditate daily (ideally 30-60+ minutes, I recommend Vipassana, which is simply putting your Awareness on your breath) and constantly practice Awareness throughout the entire day. Practicing Awareness means simply observing your thoughts and compulsions in a distanced and detached way. You have to realize that you ARE the observer/the Awareness and not the observed thoughts and compulsions. Do not identify with your thoughts and compulsions and simply observe them from a distance. Intrusive thoughts and compulsions are randomly generated and you have absolutely 0 control over them, but you have the power of being able to ignore them and not worry about them. Fully accept and welcome all thoughts and compulsions, no matter how strange or disturbing they may be. Never feel ashamed, disgusted or shocked, this fuels intrusive thoughts and compulsions immensely. Compulsions and intrusive thoughts thrive on the attention and meaning you give to them. Meditating is gonna be extremely hard at first, but don't be discouraged, it will become easier and easier the more you meditate and practice Awareness. The goal would be to remain in Awareness 24/7, which would make you completely invulnerable to all compulsions and intrusive thoughts.
Wishing you all the best and much love my friend. You will get through this if you follow my advice 😊❤
@@lochmarnegoat9812 If you have OCD (compulsions and/or intrusive thoughts) do these two things consequently and your compulsions and intrusive thoughts WILL 100% get better or maybe even completely vanish if you do it long enough: Meditate daily (ideally 30-60+ minutes, I recommend Vipassana, which is simply putting your Awareness on your breath) and constantly practice Awareness throughout the entire day. Practicing Awareness means simply observing your thoughts and compulsions in a distanced and detached way. You have to realize that you ARE the observer/the Awareness and not the observed thoughts and compulsions. Do not identify with your thoughts and compulsions and simply observe them from a distance. Intrusive thoughts and compulsions are randomly generated and you have absolutely 0 control over them, but you have the power of being able to ignore them and not worry about them. Fully accept and welcome all thoughts and compulsions, no matter how strange or disturbing they may be. Never feel ashamed, disgusted or shocked, this fuels intrusive thoughts and compulsions immensely. Compulsions and intrusive thoughts thrive on the attention and meaning you give to them. Meditating is gonna be extremely hard at first, but don't be discouraged, it will become easier and easier the more you meditate and practice Awareness. The goal would be to remain in Awareness 24/7, which would make you completely invulnerable to all compulsions and intrusive thoughts.
Wishing you all the best and much love my friend. You will get through this if you follow my advice 😊❤
@@hailseitan3876 If you have OCD (compulsions and/or intrusive thoughts) do these two things consequently and your compulsions and intrusive thoughts WILL 100% get better or maybe even completely vanish if you do it long enough: Meditate daily (ideally 30-60+ minutes, I recommend Vipassana, which is simply putting your Awareness on your breath) and constantly practice Awareness throughout the entire day. Practicing Awareness means simply observing your thoughts and compulsions in a distanced and detached way. You have to realize that you ARE the observer/the Awareness and not the observed thoughts and compulsions. Do not identify with your thoughts and compulsions and simply observe them from a distance. Intrusive thoughts and compulsions are randomly generated and you have absolutely 0 control over them, but you have the power of being able to ignore them and not worry about them. Fully accept and welcome all thoughts and compulsions, no matter how strange or disturbing they may be. Never feel ashamed, disgusted or shocked, this fuels intrusive thoughts and compulsions immensely. Compulsions and intrusive thoughts thrive on the attention and meaning you give to them. Meditating is gonna be extremely hard at first, but don't be discouraged, it will become easier and easier the more you meditate and practice Awareness. The goal would be to remain in Awareness 24/7, which would make you completely invulnerable to all compulsions and intrusive thoughts.
Wishing you all the best and much love my friend. You will get through this if you follow my advice 😊❤
OCD is like having two brains: a “normal” brain and an OCD brain. Think of OCD as a separate entity; you are not your thoughts. People with OCD have the same thoughts as people with “normal” brains, but our brains get stuck in an uncontrollable loop we can’t stop. It is uncontrollable because no amount of reassurance from someone else or self-rationalizing will help.But don’t let this illness control every aspect of your life. With intrusive thoughts,(what I have) Know that everyone has these thoughts, and you’re not going to act on them. I found exercising, video game’s, and a change of diet, plus medication to work wonders. You’re not a horrible person, Don’t allow this illness to take control of your life.
You will get through it, and it will get better I promise!
Mental illness are really complicated; you end up making mistakes in your thought chain that lead you into the weirdest solutions. OCD is one of the most complicated since you get in a loop incable of doing anything else. It erases your soul little by little until you get the control back. Nevertheless for me it still feels like some feeling you're trying to get away from using whatever, sometimes you don't have anything and end up doing stupid tasks, sometimes it hurts enough that only a stronger thought can erase the feeling, since there is nothing stronger than an intrusive thought, it takes over. This is the only self-rationalization that helps me; to understand that the thoughts are not evil and they are not the thing that needs my attention; quite the oposite, the things I'm not thinking about while they are on my mind are way more relevant. Like the feeling of getting distant from someone, for me it's one of the worst. Seems a fair trade to get a terrible thought and lose a bad feeling (flawed thought chain).
I have it too and I feel meditating, CBT & EFT therapy can help.
There is meditation that absolutely helps mind to believe that those thoughts are just ocd thoughts not reality.
@@Lets_Lovee Which one bro I am suffering from it
Randeep Singh what kind of ocd are you suffering from?
having ocd is the worst thing i've ever had to experience, ive had so many surgeries and operations, ive been ruthlessly bullied, none of it compares to the hell it is having ocd. thank you shedding light on this to neurotypicals/people without ocd.
Yeah nothing compares. At times it literally feels like hell on earth
Please support me I have coined a term so that people don't feel guilty for not feeling guilty and they don't consider themselves a psychopath
Nicesopaths are individuals who, despite initially experiencing guilt, have successfully overcome it. They have learned to embrace self-acceptance and no longer feel guilty for minor mistakes or intrusive thoughts. This term is used to celebrate their journey towards a happier and more fulfilled life.
I was diagnosed with this in high school and later diagnosed with autism as well. I spent a lot of time being misdiagnosed with disorders like bipolar disorder and borderline personality disorder because I had those thoughts, but never acted on them. I believe now that my pure-o probably was triggered by the bullying and feeling of isolation I experienced as a child with autistic traits. Incredible video, thank you so much!
Fellow autistic girl who thinks she has OCD, it’s nice to not feel alone
im going threw that currently i dont think i will gwt the right help in time
same here. really struggling right now.
@@DIZZY-xl9hx you doing okay?
My exact situation. Every last bit. I absolutely broke down finding this video. I feel like I found my people and I don’t feel like a loathsome, disgusting monster as much as I just was an hour ago :,)..
i’ve been bawling for the last half hour. i’ve never felt so seen, understood, and validated.
thank you for sharing.
💜 you are not alone
Ocd, obsessive behaviour, not accepted by society, how the mind operates, intrusive thoughts, self-esteem issues, traumatic childhood, the individual will suffer in daily life, haunted by feelings of self-loathing, distrust of others, afflicted by ocd🆘🚩✅
hug
You are alone
Edit: oh I'm sorry I was probably really mad or sad when I made this. But I still hold by the fact that lots of people deal with stuff all all the time alone, and they have to traverse and learn to become a normal functioning human all by themselves, alone. Happens a lot more often thanyou think. "You are not alone" oh yeah? Well then why don't you do something about it instead of pouring out useless sappy quotes
@@moshelevin603 i hope you get the love, support, and attention you so desperately need, kiddo. 🖤
i actually have pure ocd and its hell... the worst part is the anxiety
nathan felton are you doing better now?
sadcyber gen absolutely terrifying.
ikr. in my case its silly intrusive thoughts, but the anxiety that comes with them is unbearable.
Yes, yes! The unrelenting, exhausting anxiety. The heart rate, the rumination, the inevitable depression. Just know you're not alone.
I’m a big hypochondriac and that’s the nature of my intrusive thoughts. It sucks, and I agree, it’s terrifying.
I've been in psychological and emotional agony for years due to the symptoms of this. I can't believe I'm just learning that not only is this a legitimate diognosis but, other people also share these horrors too! I'm still in pain but there is a tiny glimmer of light now.
Please support me I have coined a term so that people don't feel guilty for not feeling guilty and they don't consider themselves a psychopath
Nicesopaths are individuals who, despite initially experiencing guilt, have successfully overcome it. They have learned to embrace self-acceptance and no longer feel guilty for minor mistakes or intrusive thoughts. This term is used to celebrate their journey towards a happier and more fulfilled life.
I don’t have diagnosed OCD but I had so many of these intrusive thoughts, so much so that I always felt extremely disgusting and uncomfortable around so many people, I may not have had it or maybe I did, idk but I don’t get them anymore simply because of amazing people around me, They made me feel confident and loved me no matter what, they still show up from time to time but I don’t think about them, my heart goes out to anybody suffering from ocd, I hope you find peace through all the madness and feel better ❤️
This video made me cry because it felt like someone finally understood. Thank you so much for making this wonderful video!
Next time, try not to get stabbed.
the same exact feeling occurred as the video approached the end, like a blunt description of what my mind unveils daily
same here...
exactly the same!
Same
"These thoughts are not wishes but rather a radical distrust of the self." I can't believe it, I've been lying to myself this whole time. And when I actually think about it, it's true, my thoughts all started because I was triggered by a fear of myself turning into something I utterly despise. And from that moment on, I stopped trusting myself and thinking I was some sort of appalling monster and started hating myself. Thank you for this, something I can actually work towards.
This line stood out to me too, and your comment perfectly captured how I felt about my own experience. Thank you for writing that. :)
Thank you
I have transformation OCD too. When I was more religious I was afraid of becoming possessed, and then after my views on spirituality started to change I found myself, most embarrassingly, obsessing about fictional illnesses, like phyrxianism like from MTG or nurgleflu from Warhammer 40k, fully understanding and the whole time that they weren't real and couldn't really hurt me, but not being able to stop the thoughts of me being infected and corrupted into some form of abomination that would then go on to destroy everything and everyone i loved.
I know people with OCD can obsess about their sexual and gender identities so I want stress that this is just my experience with transformation OCD, and probably won't be the same for other people who have transformation OCD.
With that disclaimer out of the way, I recently figured out that I have gender dysphoria, and I when I look back on it, my fears around transformation all started around the same time I started to go through puberty, so it makes sense that I would be horrified by the idea of unwanted bodily change, my body was actively changing in a way I found horrifying and disgusting, even if I wasn't allowing myself to be fully aware of those feelings at the time.
Figuring this out has been life changing, it has taken one of my darkest most embarrassing and most confusing and irrational seeming fears and made it just, completely obvious in hindsight.
Wait wtf this happened to me. I’m so mind blown right now. I drove myself crazy.
When I was a kid, I occasionally got those awful intrusive thoughts, and for awhile it wasn't as bad, but as of recently, it's been a lot worse. Quick flashes of awful thoughts would go through my head, but I try not to dwell on them or acknowledge them as much. My most common ones tend to be stuff like hurting a family member or hurting a pet. I feel like an awful person for having these thoughts that I can't control. But good god, I'm so happy I'm not a monster. This helps so much. This practically nailed it on the head for me, thank you so much for making this. Thank you for telling me I'm not a monster
Please support me I have coined a term so that people don't feel guilty for not feeling guilty and they don't consider themselves a psychopath
Nicesopaths are individuals who, despite initially experiencing guilt, have successfully overcome it. They have learned to embrace self-acceptance and no longer feel guilty for minor mistakes or intrusive thoughts. This term is used to celebrate their journey towards a happier and more fulfilled life.
@@lazysnorlax3909 Bro what
The first part of this video genuinely makes me cry. It is exactly how I feel.
I do suffer from this, but I had no idea that there was a name for this condition. I thought that there was something severely wrong with me for sometimes having intrusive thoughts. I've always kept it to myself because I was afraid that my family and health practitioners would say that I needed to be kept in a padded cell, even though I would never ever in a million years act on those thoughts. It has been the biggest burden on me, aside from my battle with depression and anxiety.
Edit: Wow, I had no idea my comment would get this much support. Thank you so much. I'm actually majoring in psychology, so maybe one day I can help others who are afflicted with these abnormalities.
Faith Roth you need to be open with your dr about it. It's crucial
I've had had OCD most of my life and I obsessively took pregnancy tests cause I was convinced I would be. This happened for five years and it wouldn't matter if I test said negative cause the next day I could get pregnant anuway
I used to lie to get the morning after pill even after using condoms. That went away and have a nightmare I have pure O that gives me intrusive thoughts hours and hours each day. You're not alone.
Right here with you
It feels good that someone knows how I felt exactly. Thank you
I suffered for 4 years without knowing it's a kind of OCD . Someone knows how it feels like. I am glad I am not alone in this.
"Behind pure OCD is a person's need to find a reason to feel awful"
This is SOOO true and close
Jokes on me I got 300000000 reasons
EXACTLY MAN EVERY THEME I HAD WAS THE 100% OPPOSITE OF THE TRUE ME IN FACT WHAT I HATE THAT WILL OCD ATTACK..
I found this video two years ago, during the absolute worst year of my life. I honestly really appreciated it, as it helped to contextualize everything i was struggling with.
I was dead certain I was the worst person alive, that absolute no one else could be thinking such horrible things, then I learned about what my condition really was.
I've learned how to handle these thoughts, I've learned the difference between a thought and a want, and my life has been all the better for it. Sure I get the occasional flare up or a thought that really shakes me, but I simply repeat a little mantra, and go on with my day.
So it does get better, no matter what, I trust that anyone reading this will come out the otherside and be a better person for it.
(Also its kinda depressing that the replies to my original comment are filled with scams lol)
Please support me I have coined a term so that people don't feel guilty for not feeling guilty and they don't consider themselves a psychopath
Nicesopaths are individuals who, despite initially experiencing guilt, have successfully overcome it. They have learned to embrace self-acceptance and no longer feel guilty for minor mistakes or intrusive thoughts. This term is used to celebrate their journey towards a happier and more fulfilled life.
This is particularly hard when you're someone who has a big ass dream.
Exactly ...
felt this. it's really hard to fantasize about my dreams for the future because i feel i don't deserve to achieve or have them. much love man we'll get through this.
@@joeyh2185 yess I’m defeating it and I can understand beautifully how it can kill you :(
@@joeyh2185 you’ve just described how I feel. I’m so young and other teens are probably dreaming big about their futures whereas I feel like I’m not allowed to be happy and successful because of these thoughts. It’s not fair 🐌
True..
God I love that the psychotherapist is a cat in a suit with a witch's hat
me too
Amen🐁
Maybe the cat is just a normal witch that did something wrong while “brewing a potion”.
yeah it was cute lol
Yeah so I been going through this since i was 11 years old. I am now 15. At 12 i had to go to a mental hospital and was no longer functional in society. After going through therapy and medication for the past 4 years I can tell you the cure to this illness and OCD in general is letting go. You must come to terms with ur growing up and know that you are not what you fear. In knowing this you have to let your thoughts pass. That is the only way to get better
It is very clever that you can let go at this age 🫶🏻
The simple line of “you are not what you fear” makes me cry. They just started but they are so scary. It’s a good reminder. I am not what I fear.
Everything will be ok
I have spent most of my life suffering with Pure OCD, I now realize, so many years of therapy and medication and none of it ever seemed to help or actually address the problem I had no name for. I'm so grateful that this information is out there now, and it both saddens me and fills me with hope to know there are so many others like me. Thank you to everyone who ever gave support to this condition and allowed us to understand our own minds better
Please support me I have coined a term so that people don't feel guilty for not feeling guilty and they don't consider themselves a psychopath
Nicesopaths are individuals who, despite initially experiencing guilt, have successfully overcome it. They have learned to embrace self-acceptance and no longer feel guilty for minor mistakes or intrusive thoughts. This term is used to celebrate their journey towards a happier and more fulfilled life.
jesus, finally we're talking about this. It's plagues my existence since I was a teenager. My mind is a battleground.
Stay strong , you are more amazing than you could ever imagine
I try just not to think. Taking medication for my Adhd has helped that nulling practice but if i get a single thought in my head i cant fight it for the rest of the day.
It was so scary when I was a child. It took a year to tell my therapist because I thought I would be reported. I didn’t know it was a recognised condition.
💯
Aww I'm really sorry because I know how you feel. My therapist thought I had adhd (which I didn't have) it took 9 years to be properly diagnosed😔
I am 14 years old and I am afraid to talk to my psychologist about my intrusive thoughts 😔
@@tblmoon i did it today....it was fine...she didnt freak in the early days when i started getting the violent,sexual,weird,off the wall thoughts i was sick with worry .it only upsets me when my depression is v bad...
@@tblmoon It's gonna be really hard but you should try to. I know it isn't quite the same, but I told my mom and had a panic attack but once I got it out there it helped a bit to have a support system
I too have never heard anyone describe my experience with OCD this precisely, and it feels good. Illnesses such as this one can make you feel so hopeless, but for me an many others it has gotten a lot better. Today I probably suffer less from intrusive than most, which feels surreal to say, and I definetely wouldn't have hoped for this kind of life when I was at my worst.
I have to add though, that I personally couldn't relate to the cause of my (prior) illness being a lack of love. I know that my parents always have loved me, so I think the cause, at least for me, was more an amalgomation of things, that cannot be attributed to a single cause.
Yes during its worst…the effects of this illness can be devastating..I couldn’t sleep for more than a month,had completely shut down and couldn’t function as a person glad i got help and feel tremendously better now really lucky I was able to kinda bounce back in a healthy way keep strong mate
@@giannispsillias7964 Any advice on bouncing back?
I suffered for the past 2 years with sexual OCD. It comes from Pure OCD. It was so bizarre. I have never been attracted to someone of the same sex, and all of a sudden, my brain obsessively would not stop thinking that I am now 38 and single because I was never supposed to be with a woman. I was tortured by scenarios and experienced what they call "groinal" you would think you had a movement down there, but you didn't, but the mind wanted to convince you that you did so you couldn't even talk to your mates. Anyways, when I realised all of this was from anxiety, and my anxiety stemmed from a horrible childhood, I just started laughing at where my mind would take me until it had no power. I told my mates, and they told me they would accept me even if I was, which made me realise I wasn't gay even more. I then found psylocibin (magice mushrooms) and started micro-dosing and it all went away almost immediately. Mushrooms stop remuneration immediately. Anyways, you will get through this sh*t, it's only a fear response.
Please support me I have coined a term so that people don't feel guilty for not feeling guilty and they don't consider themselves a psychopath
Nicesopaths are individuals who, despite initially experiencing guilt, have successfully overcome it. They have learned to embrace self-acceptance and no longer feel guilty for minor mistakes or intrusive thoughts. This term is used to celebrate their journey towards a happier and more fulfilled life.
Dude I was literally having such a growing panicky feeling about this and I looked up Groinal and you made me feel so much better! Thanks!
Every day when I wake up the thoughts take no less than 20 minutes to start torturing me for the rest of the day, all I can do is excessively distract myself with screens and I also excessively stress eat, which is like a downward spiral for my physical appearance. I'm very grateful for this video, and as a professionally diagnosed obsessive-compulsive disorder sufferer I think I speak for us all when I say I appreciate this video. Awareness really helps, so thank you :)
I have pure O ocd and it's really hard for me as a young artist
@@coldorak8230 me too. When it gets the best of me I don't draw or hang out with friends because I'm just worrying
Yup. Right when I wake up I find no peace. It’s horrible.
If you have OCD (compulsions and/or intrusive thoughts) do these two things consequently and your compulsions and intrusive thoughts WILL 100% get better or maybe even completely vanish if you do it long enough: Meditate daily (ideally 30-60+ minutes, I recommend Vipassana, which is simply putting your Awareness on your breath) and constantly practice Awareness throughout the entire day. Practicing Awareness means simply observing your thoughts and compulsions in a distanced and detached way. You have to realize that you ARE the observer/the Awareness and not the observed thoughts and compulsions. Thoughts are random bullshit generated by the brain, don't worry about them. Do not identify with your thoughts and compulsions and simply observe them from a distance. Intrusive thoughts and compulsions are randomly generated and you have absolutely 0 control over them, but you have the power of being able to ignore them and not worry about them. Fully accept and welcome all thoughts and compulsions, no matter how strange or disturbing they may be. Never feel ashamed, disgusted or shocked, this fuels intrusive thoughts and compulsions immensely. Compulsions and intrusive thoughts thrive on the attention and meaning you give to them. Meditating is gonna be extremely hard at first, but don't be discouraged, it will become easier and easier the more you meditate and practice Awareness. The goal would be to remain in Awareness 24/7, which would make you completely invulnerable to all compulsions and intrusive thoughts.
Wishing you all the best and much love my friend. You will get through this if you follow my advice 😊❤
@@coldorak8230 If you have OCD (compulsions and/or intrusive thoughts) do these two things consequently and your compulsions and intrusive thoughts WILL 100% get better or maybe even completely vanish if you do it long enough: Meditate daily (ideally 30-60+ minutes, I recommend Vipassana, which is simply putting your Awareness on your breath) and constantly practice Awareness throughout the entire day. Practicing Awareness means simply observing your thoughts and compulsions in a distanced and detached way. You have to realize that you ARE the observer/the Awareness and not the observed thoughts and compulsions. Thoughts are random bullshit generated by the brain, don't worry about them. Do not identify with your thoughts and compulsions and simply observe them from a distance. Intrusive thoughts and compulsions are randomly generated and you have absolutely 0 control over them, but you have the power of being able to ignore them and not worry about them. Fully accept and welcome all thoughts and compulsions, no matter how strange or disturbing they may be. Never feel ashamed, disgusted or shocked, this fuels intrusive thoughts and compulsions immensely. Compulsions and intrusive thoughts thrive on the attention and meaning you give to them. Meditating is gonna be extremely hard at first, but don't be discouraged, it will become easier and easier the more you meditate and practice Awareness. The goal would be to remain in Awareness 24/7, which would make you completely invulnerable to all compulsions and intrusive thoughts.
Wishing you all the best and much love my friend. You will get through this if you follow my advice 😊❤
If someone reads this, i overcame PURE OCD and heres how. This is my “instructions book” to achieving it, i learned it, did it myself and it worked.
Here we go.
My recommendations:
- very important to understand why it started, why you feel what you feel and thing what you think and if possible what started it. If you cam recall that and understand how your self steem and perception of the world is so distorted by the trauma or event that detonated the ocd you are one big step ahead of overcoming it.
- never let ocd thought fool you into getting back to obsessing, uncertainty is the biggest ally of ocd, as an ocd sufferer you always feel the need to be sure that everything is and will be ok, believe me you dont need that reassurance, embrace the uncertainty because its tour best ally and liberator mark this words “embrace the uncertainty as a treasure as its your best ally”
-anxiety peaks maje you more vulnerable to obsessions so be aware when the thoughts and fears start to pop up and dont react, NEVER REACT to a thought of ocd in any way just embrace the uncertainty sensation.
- never give up because its truly doable and its truly worth it
- dont let the ocd trick you into giving up or falling again while you are in the process, thing of it as a deug addiction, if you go back to trying drugs after being sobber for some time you will end up as bad as you were, perseverance is key
- never let ocd distort your perception of the world because thats what it does sadly and is its wat of tricking you into fearing what your thoughts and obsessions tell you
- work on your selfsteem and happiness its the key and the origin of ocd thoughts and its the key to overcoming it.
- do meditation to clear your mind, it will help you to get rid of the distorted reality that ocd creates
- do physical activity or activities that help you get rid of stress and liberate endorphins as its the hormone of hapiness and ocd feeds of lack of hapiness to increase the obsessions
- know your worth in the world, never believe that you depend on someone or something to do anything, you can do and be who you want on your own, thats key to knowing how strong you are and capable of living without fear.
- never, and i mean never iverthing about anything or react with fear to a thought, it will not help you in anyway, it only distorts the reality, embrace uncertainty as its your best ally and trust in yourself, you would be amazed if you knew how powerful the mind is when you want to achieve something, its mindblowing once you realize it.
YOU CAN AND WILL ACHIEVE IT
Mark this words because I thought it was impossible but it’s actually a lot easier than I thought, you just need to understand ocd in all aspects, once you do that is a lot easier.
Thank you so much. I have experienced immeasurable trauma and am unable to afford therapy here in the US. Anything helps. I will get through this and so will anyone who reads this.
Still over it?
@@My_Garmonbozia I'm in the same situation - my OCD has continually (for the last five years or more) destroyed my life. I want to go to do well in college, but it feels impossible to focus on anything other than my intrusive thoughts. We need to fight it! Good luck, I really hope you get the help you need.
Thank you so much. 🙏
Here we are , screen shotting your comment haha , much love man ❤️
For so many years I thought I was alone with this... I thought something was wrong with me. I wanted to take my life so many times because of the fear of no one being able to understand what's in my head, and being alone forever. But watching this, and seeing all of your comments has honestly been one of the greatest things that's happened to me. I finally know I'm not alone. I can't even begin to describe what that means to me.
Thank you for this video, and thank you everyone for opening up yourselves so that others like me can relate. ❤
Hey I don't know if you have already looked into it or not but there are treatment options. OCD is genetic, you're born with it. Your brain physically has a different chemistry then someone else's. Think of it like someone with a broken leg, it is not their fault they can't walk. Everyone needs a doctor sometimes. Before treatment I thought I wouldn't ever get over it and no one would understand but I was wrong and treatment works. This video never lies but keep in mind I posted a comment crisiting them as they dangerously generalize a lot of OCD and it's treatment. The comment got auto deleted 3 times, and they plug a book at the end for psychotherapy, which isn't a bad treatment, it works for some. But it is often used in tandem with other treatments so you deal with the whole of OCD, not just by itself like the video implies.
IDK where you live but I'll let you know the best ways to start finding treatment. (Note: you do not have to do this alone, ask people to help you write emails, make calls, research institutions, etc. Finding treatment is stressful and often near impossible to do on our own when we are at our worst).
FIRST: If you are feeling like you are at the end, if you are going to hurt yourself please just go to the emergency room at the nearest hospital, they will help you. I have had many friends and family go to the hospital/ER for mental health, it is normal and nothing to be ashamed of. It is also the quickest way to get treatment, you can often sit down with a psychologist/psychiatrist that same night/day.
Otherwise: you have a family doctor connected with them. If you are in middle/high school see if there is a teacher you trust or if your school has a nurse/phycologist. If you are in uni/collage they often have actual full fledged mental health services for students, just go to your school's website and try to find a "mental health/wellbeing/support/resources" tab. If none of these work I put some more resources below:
Check out this link for lots of information on OCD, how to deal with it and how to find treatment: iocdf.org/
If you are in the US check out this link: adaa.org/finding-help/treatment/low-cost-treatment to look for low cost and free treatment options in your area (you can plug in your city on the website)
Also for US, here is a tool to find programs for low cost meds: medicineassistancetool.org/
If you are in Canada check out this: www.camh.ca/en/your-care/programs-and-services?facets=filter_tags:23A6E99D71494958B55D231CFA444C38,C2D68974F03A41F4AACF1068A34D4326
I wish we learned about this stuff in school. I had an extremely intelligent friend in highschool who had severe ocd, and in the middle of a test or lunch hed repeat to himself things like “dont do it, dont do it” and people assumed he was schitzophrenic, because its one of the only mental disorders people knew about. Kids didnt want associate or be around him because they were afraid hed hurt them, when in reality he was extremely kind and caring. If only they knew.
The psychotherapist is a cat. I wish there is such a psychotherapist.
I found that oddly soothing to contemplate....I too wish that.
I didn't even consciously realize that, I just fell in love with it. That's so wonderful
Well had many thoughts of cutting my kitten open or burning even tho i love animals.
You'd never get any therapy from a cat. Unless you paid in cucumbers.
Lucifer Alpha same!
I've suffered from Severe OCD since I was 10. I'm 25 now now and I've been taking medication and going to therapy for 15 years. I'm still going through stages where I'd rather be dead than put up with the day to day torture it inflicts, it's a deadly parasite in my opinion that I wouldn't wish upon my worst enemy. I am however extremely fortunate I met my wife when I was 14 and she's helped me along the way, that and doing youtube to make me feel productive since I literally can't work because of my OCD. Thank you for making this video, helps everytime someone talks about it and spreads awareness. I really do hate the stereotypes people immediately jump to when you tell them you have OCD as well, quite irritating.
Your a warrior man. I’ve been struggling with intrusive thoughts and thought it was living hell. But you’ve put up with this for 20 years?! That’s insane, I can’t imagine how strong you would have to be in order to put up with OCD. It’s truly awful. Keep it up! I wish you the best of luck with dealing with OCD.
I understand you
You are a king
CBD weed helps
@@111horror can i help u
Well, that was a huge revelation. Thank you for helping me understand what I felt like... all throughout my life I was so confused as to whether I'm truly a horrible person or just paranoid. Now I discover that it was neither, but instead pure OCD.
Please support me I have coined a term so that people don't feel guilty for not feeling guilty and they don't consider themselves a psychopath
Nicesopaths are individuals who, despite initially experiencing guilt, have successfully overcome it. They have learned to embrace self-acceptance and no longer feel guilty for minor mistakes or intrusive thoughts. This term is used to celebrate their journey towards a happier and more fulfilled life.
Wow, it's astounding the reaction this video has gotten. I'm not a sufferer, but to see the impact this video has had on people who do suffer, even when they weren't aware of it until now, is really unbelievable. While this is an educational video meant to explain what "Pure OCD" is, the way it was presented and the empathy it showed were beautiful.
Whether you intended to or not, the reach and effect that this video has is undeniably incredible. You've done a great service to everyone that has watched.
I've liked, commented, and subscribed to make sure that the algorithm keeps spreading this wonderful message.
something i do that helps: i imagine my intrusive thoughts as another person whispering into my ear. imagining ur intrusive thoughts as something seperate from you is very helpful !
Omg tru story: I imagined it was a person saying these awful things to me, repeating those words - then I interrupted them mid sentence, shoving something like a big loaf of bread in their mouth. Can you imagine the scene? Like, you're talking, and someone stuffs your mouth full. Or the sound of someone stopping mid sentence with a muffled sound.
It worked for me because it was very verbal, like someone -saying- something. I interrupted their words with the image of something funny.
@@key37raminus omg i actually do that except i inagine hitting that 'person' in the head
I think that may be a mental compulsion
Not a recommendable coping mechanism, especially if you suffer as a schizoaffective cause then the two merge,and,create paranoia that it ACTUALLY is another person or outside source.
@@cripplingdepression8355 not necessarily true. My therapist who vastly improved my OCD told me to imagine that it's something on your should that's telling you to do these things and not you itself. That way, you can detach yourself from the action and rationally argue against it. Granted, if you're schizophrenic then it might not be a good mechanism, but as someone without those traits it was instrumental in my recover
People in the comments: thank you for not making me feel alone
@@akhitolife8953 thank you for this
People can see your thoughts and they express it in an indirect way I'm not saying this to traumatize people it's how the world works and we people with OCD don't have that ability and I'm saying this because I lived for 20 years not knowing this thinking I'm a normal person until I went public not knowing and someone told me directly my thoughts about what I'm thinking of the pictures the words and the fact I tried thinking of that person naked and that person swearing at me and that's a normal person, for the fact I only knew this it traumatized me to that point I cannot think of anything I almost went crazy for months but it came to that point that I just don't care about anything anymore, I know I'm different and no matter how hard you try telling someone this or try to fit in expressing your thoughts indirectly they will deny it or make a fool out you but still they continue expressing your thoughts indirectly
If you knew this now don't be afraid your thoughts is taken as a concept not a real thing until you express it in words/action then emotions will start coming out. All I'm saying about this get used to it and know that you're not alone in this and the fact I'm saying this I'm 20 years old so I only knew this months ago and when going backwards with my life I started to understand that I was that same person who I am today the thing is I didn't know I had OCD 😅 try looking at it that way to recover don't feel bad with your thoughts
😅😅 maybe I'm over reacting but for the fact that I know this I'll never see the world as I usually saw it EVER, I'm not saying you'll never get in a relationship or something it's life and you're a human it's a matter of finding someone who's gonna understand the way you are intentionally or unintentionally
@@akhitolife8953 thankyou
I’m always in awe about how accurate this video is describing the experiencie. But most importantly, after going through a harsh therapy, you were right about the origin of the condition and psycotherapy has the most creative solution.
This is insanely eye-opening. I genuinely would not have thought that after 12 years of therapy I would still be able to be handed a realisation about myself like this.
I just broke down crying so hard. Finally, the key to why this is happening has been revealed. I do have a lot of scars indeed, which explains it all. Thank you.
Same mate. I don't even have normal memories, most of them are altered and they're all in third person.
@@floweryunicorn8888
I get that memory thing some, I'm pretty sure for me at least it is from disassociation, and as I have been opening up to and processing my trauma my memory has been getting a lot better.
Same. This was really opening. I’ve never felt more seen. I’m going to be bringing this up with a therapist I have asap. I feel like a weight was lifted off my shoulders
Fuck bro fcuk, I'm so fucking glad I'm not alone, fuck bro like I knew I wasn't alone but I was too busy strugglind and dealing to care, and idk now everything just clicked, I'm not alone, ghere others with the same bullshit life ruining shit
Lets keep on strpggling my frends
Fellow pure OCD sufferers, let us unite in the comments and show one another that we are not monsters.
This condition used to feel like literal hell
but through exercise and self reflection
now it only feels like a waste land.
this is so true.
It is an absolute hell
@@zainamjad7505 Just a quick update, my dudes.
Christ found me, brought me to the bible
and now my "OCD" is virtually almost gone!
All the things i've wanted the entire time i struggled alone with these demons running around in my head have been given to me.
All i have to do is pray, read the bible and tell people about Jesus.
Seems like a pretty fair trade.
Yeah they are only just thoughts. CBT meditation helps, so does exposure to the very thing you are afraid of. For example leaving a small knife out on the table when you have someone you trust over. You know you won't hurt that person so why be afraid of the thought?
Hello! Just wanted to ask, can Pure OCD occur in the context of relationships as well?
I have pure ocd. This is hell, I don’t wish this on anyone I’m literally in tears watching this. I don’t even wanna open up to anyone about this but I just say I have OCD and I’m struggling very badly, we can all get through this. I’ve been using hypnosis and it’s helped me a lot, thank u for spreading awareness
I did not know this had a name. It makes me feel so much better. I've struggled with OCD for years and have overcome the taboo thoughts, but everyday is a struggle.
Pure O is like Hell I’m suffering from Pure O it’s like they’re are intruders and they’re is a war of good and evil battling inside your head.
Robert Jazz OMG please be my friend im litteraly crying. Im so happy this is exactly what is happening to me
Doggoman1919 I’ll be your friend bro I feel the same way ur not alone
Jesus is the real way that helps anything is possible with god
Catherine Mitchell yea bcuz God gets through it even if it means by going to Therapy
Exacly!
"Their problem began with a deficit of love and needs to be healed by a loving act of witnessing."
This made me cry ngl. I don't have ocd but I do suffer from self-loathing and thinking that I don't deserve anything and this line just broke me but also made me feel seen.
OCD has also been considered hereditary as well as genetic.
For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but that the world through Him might be saved.
John 3:16-17
For as the Father raises the dead and gives life to them, even so the Son gives life to whom He will. For the Father judges no one, but has committed all judgment to the Son,
John 5:21-22
Jesus received the full punishment for our sins. The blood of Jesus Christ makes us blameless and complete. When our Father sees us He sees his sons and daughters, because the blood of His Son Jesus covers us and is in us. God's DNA now runs through our veins. We are not only forgiven, but we have full access to the Father through His very own Spirit that He puts in us. And nothing can separate us from His love.
My son has this and I’ve always given him an abundance of love. It’s not always lack of love.
We love you!
@@ThePathOfLeastResistanc I don't think it's external love. It's a deficit of internal love. Not loving our self, hence self-loathing
"Pure OCD thoughts are not wishes. They are symptoms of radical self-distrust. And these will start to lift once the afflicted learn that most vital of arts: being a friend to oneself."
Best wishes to you and your son
I dont think this is something ive ever opened up about to a coherent degree, but as somebody that has very similar experiences to what is described in this video, i feel relieved just to hear that somebody understands that these kinds of people exist. I've spent a long time worrying that im not fit to be a part of society, or even fit to live a normal life, or that it would even be possible. Whats worse, it makes me so anxious to actually open up about the way i feel that id rather hurt myself, physically or emotionally, than to even let someone see a glimpse of my internal struggle by actually telling them what i fell. I've wanted for a long time just to explain my thought processes and the pain it causes me, but ive shut myself off so much that it feels physically impossible at times. Ive tried writing music about my internal struggle, or creating narratives that recreate it, but i never feel satisfied, nor do i feel comfortable with sharing them, and it brings me no relief to do it. I think watching this video is the first thing that has brought me any relief, just knowing that someone out there understands how i feel. idk if this comment makes any sense at all, because this video has made me really emotional, but i hope more research is done on this disorder and others like it, because it is true hell living like this.
Omgsh. This is life changing for me. I have never seen a video that explained my thoughts so well and clearly. I literally thought I was insane. Thank you for sharing this condition
I found about pure ocd about 2 years ago. I had no idea what I was struggling with was OCD. I was convinced I was a horrible person who wanted to hurt people. It was awful and drained me. But I’ve gotten so much better. I used to have these thoughts every single second of the day. Now after 2 years of therapy, I don’t have any and if I do it’s rare and not intense and I know how to deal with it. If you are struggling with this, it will get better I promise. You will go through so much discomfort but I promise you it will be worth it. I didn’t think I would get better but I did. I feel free. I hope one day you do too 💗
Thank you, I’m currently struggling with this. I need to find a therapist. I have an appointment on oct. 11th to see a doctor… I’m going to tell them about my anxiety and OCD. I have horrible thoughts everyday. And it makes me withdraw from conversations and from people and I look like an Asshole. I don’t know how go communicate or be confident in myself with these thoughts.
Comments like this make me so happy! I'm doing ERP and it makes me sad how many people are left to deal with this alone
this is so comforting, thank you so much for sharing!! im so glad youre doing better now, that makes me feel really happy for you:))💖💖
@@rissagotvideos09 im so glad youre reaching out and getting help!!! i hope things have been looking up since you met with the therapist:)
I can recall from when I was in High School many times when I was in overthinking hell, with countless moments of having some of the most bizarre and absurd thoughts that I don’t for sure know if I have somehow gotten better with it now and was just going through something most teens do or if I have this type of OCD. I have calmed down a bit, but I still sometimes question myself from time to time :/
This is such a weight off my chest, struggling with these fucking thoughts and emotions has wiped my life of all happiness, joy and calm. They have been replaced with stress, guilt and depression.
Knowing now that I’m not alone, that I’m not a freak and I’m not the abhorrent, sinful and psychotic person I’ve felt like has genuinely brightened my mood... I’m definitely bringing this up with my counsellor
If you have OCD (compulsions and/or intrusive thoughts), do the following practice and your compulsions and intrusive thoughts WILL 100% get better and most likely even completely vanish if you apply this advice for long enough, you have to do this if you want to get better, there is no way around it:
Meditate daily, ideally 30-60+ minutes, but you can start with 5+ minutes and work your way up. I recommend Vipassana meditation, which simply means putting your attention on the bodily sensations of breathing.
Meditation is essentially about one thing: Practicing Awareness. Sitting meditation is an intentional, focused practice of Awareness, but it's just the beginning. You also have to practice Awareness when you are not sitting down to meditate. You basically have to meditate/practice Awareness 24/7, no matter what you are doing, no matter how many thoughts come up and no matter how much you suffer mentally and physically.
Practicing Awareness means simply observing your thoughts and compulsions (and also emotions, sensory perceptions, bodily sensations, pain etc., basically everything you experience) in a distanced and detached way. You have to realize that you ARE the observer/the Awareness that is free from all experience. YOU ARE NOT YOUR THOUGHTS AND COMPULSIONS. You are free from your thoughts, your thoughts just fool you into believing that they are real. Thoughts are just randomly generated bullshit, don't ever worry about them and don't ever think they are more than that. Never believe ANY thoughts. YOU ARE NDo not identify with your thoughts and simply observe them from a distance. Your OCD will try to come up with all kinds of sneaky shit to draw you back into it, but NEVER give in to it, no matter what it says. Examples of sly tricks of OCD would be thoughts like "Meditation/Awareness doesn't work", "Your OCD will never go away" etc., but all these tricks only work because you let yourself get fooled by them, because you believe in them. You willingly give your power to these meaningless thoughts so that they can destroy you. See the absurdity in that. Also, never try to argue with thoughts, correct them, fight them, get rid of them etc., all of that is more tricks of OCD. You cannot solve OCD inside of the mind, only by stepping outside of it and observing it (Awareness). When you practice Meditation/Awareness, OCD will most likely try to draw you back into its grasp through anxiety and anxious reactions in the body: tension, racing heart, sweating, unease etc., also observe all of this in a detached way. Don't identify with the uncomfortable bodily sensations and believe it is you. It's all the OCD trying to trick you, trying to ruin your life. OCD is a sly fucker. OCD is threatened by Meditation and Awareness, that's why it will try to keep you from practicing them. This should be a clear signal to you that you are on the right path. Intrusive thoughts and compulsions are randomly generated and you have absolutely no control over them whatsoever, but you have the power of being able to observe them, to realize they are not you and to not worry about them, which will make them go away if you do it long enough. They only keep coming if they keep getting negative reactions from you. Fully accept and welcome all thoughts, no matter how strange or disturbing they may be. Never resist thoughts. Thoughts have no power over you as long as you don't give it to them. Never feel ashamed, disgusted or shocked by your thoughts, this fuels intrusive thoughts and compulsions immensely. Compulsions and intrusive thoughts thrive on your negative reactions to them. Simply observe them without being irritated by them.
Meditating and constantly practicing Awareness might be very hard at first, but don't be discouraged, it will become easier and easier with time, and your OCD and all its symptoms will gradually become better. Even if thoughts still come up, they will not bother you anymore, you will just see them for the random bullshit that they are. The end goal would be to remain in Awareness 24/7, which would make you completely invulnerable to all compulsions and intrusive thoughts.
Also, as corny as it may sound, what's even more important than Meditation and constant Awareness, and actually the most healing practice you can do, is fully and unconditionally loving yourself and everybody else and everything else in the world, even the most evil shit you can imagine, even your intrusive thoughts and compulsions. Your world and life have to become filled completely with Love. Negativity and suffering can only thrive where there is a lack of Love. Love repels negativity and suffering.
You WILL get through this if you follow my advice consequently for a long enough time, please trust me for your own sake.
Wishing you all the best and much love my friend. 😊❤
@@feelsokayman3959 thank you
How do i even know I’m not alone 😭 what if it’s all imaginative and everyone else is just apart of me, apart of whatever this “life” is. I don’t understand reality.
I want these thoughts to go away.(
@@rissagotvideos09 you're not alone.
Even everyone is apart from you.
“their current thoughts are not plans for the future, they are attempts by the mind to find a match between their basic sense of self and what would be needed by their society to concur with it.” holy shit you explained what i’ve been struggling to put into words for years, i really really appreciate this video man, it really made me feel seen.
We're so pleased! Thank you.
This, is exactly what I needed. I just realized today that I have been experiencing this at a subconscious and sometimes conscious level & it has been draining me! It has put stress on my relationships with the ones I love the most & now I feel like I have more power over it. Thank you, also to the people in the comments. 💪💗I’m also thankful for the love I’m receiving now. All of this is so helpful and I know I will overcome the compulsive behaviors & negative thoughts & be kind to myself. I know I can figure this out. Also, great illustration & sound design!
Please support me I have coined a term so that people don't feel guilty for not feeling guilty and they don't consider themselves a psychopath
Nicesopaths are individuals who, despite initially experiencing guilt, have successfully overcome it. They have learned to embrace self-acceptance and no longer feel guilty for minor mistakes or intrusive thoughts. This term is used to celebrate their journey towards a happier and more fulfilled life.
The “what if I am a “. “ thoughts disturb me so much. Most times I can find the humour in my brain being in a battle against me but on some days it gets me and I feel like I’m really messed in the head and distance myself from everyone. I also think it’s a seasonal thing as it gets a lot worse for me in winter and spring.
Do you ever get that feeling where your not “good enough” I mean it literally. I feel like I’m never a good person. I always feel like a F up somtimes? I’m not suicidal or anything but I feel like In my mind it’s always I see a negative outcome.
I think relationship, I think I’m gonna cheat
I think about being a father, I think I’m gonna neglect my children
I think friendship, I think I’m gonna betray my
friends for no reason cause I feel like it
I think religion, I think I’ll betray god even when he supports me
Like I never been in a relationship and I have this constant nagging thoughts in my head that I would cheat as soon as I’m in one. I even did date simulation in my head where I had “fantasy relationship” to see if I would have sexual feelings for other people to see if I would cheat and which I did and I felt I cheated even though it was a fantasy relationship but I still feel like garbage. Am I a cheater or is this my ocd? I feel like a piece of shit for this
@@user-oh6eg4ny3h BRO I DO THE EXACT SAME THING WHAT THE SHIT
@@pph8440 yea. It may sound odd but I feel comforted that I’m not the only one suffering this. Not that I want others to suffer or anything. It helps to know that I’m not crazy
Exactly
@@edn2674 I’m glad to have comforted you. Your not alone feeling this pain. As what I commented before. Those fears still linger inside me. My thoughts think opposite of what I want to be. You don’t have to apologize for anything. You can suffer with me and it’s no problem. We’re in it together
Before I got medicated and sought therapy I constantly had worries that I was a psychopath, a narcissist, or a violent and angry person. I had urges that sent me into panic attacks to like, crash my car. Or to strangle no one in particular, I always felt uncomfortable around children because I thought my very existence was bad for them, that I just hurt and ruined everything I came near for one reason or another. I never worried that I was attracted to children- and I wasn’t- but I was just constantly plagued by the idea that if a kid hung around me for too long I would push them into oncoming traffic, or pick them up to drop them and bash their head in. It’s terrifying all the time because you just are acutely aware of your ability as a person to do horrible things, and everyone is capable of doing horrible things. And that logic leads to you and the person who actually does those things are just as bad- if not that thought process directly. My therapist and I narrowed it down to the pressure my parents put on me to be better than my older brother, my brother’s resentment toward me, my father’s anger, and that I was too afraid to come out to my family as a lesbian in such an unhealthy environment. I’m doing much better now, my fiancé and I just got engaged and I’m in uni studying to be a theater analyst. The anxiety and negative thoughts still come, you’re never totally cured. You just learn to step back from it and manage it better.
You are not alone, I've been through kind of the same, kid from divorced parents, my brother resented me, grew up on a religiously heavy enviroment being gay thinking that I would go to hell, I wanted to kill my self when I was 8, or at least the thought came by... and I kinda suffered all of the pure OCD hell for a good while, it has calmed down, I no longer use meds, but I still remember the torment it was... is.
wow, my story is very similar. i’m glad to know you’re doing better now, it’s inspiring!
Thank you
what medications are you taking if you don't mind me asking??
Yes! Its hell living with this im only 15 and im trying my best
The worst is that a part of you knows these thoughts arent real, but another part is convinced that they are, or could be, or "We shuld take precuations, just in case.".
OCD is like sharing your mind with a crazy person.
My OCD started when I was 11~12 in a traditional Asian household. The rituals would take hours every single day. I learned about OCD and mental health when I was 14, managed to stop my rituals when I was 15~16. I never managed to get rid of the intrusive thoughts. Recently they have been getting purely awful.
To anyone with OCD, I want to say you are lovable and you are wonderful. I know you wouldn’t hurt people. Be tolerant and accepting to yourself because you deserve it just as much as anyone else.
Please support me I have coined a term so that people don't feel guilty for not feeling guilty and they don't consider themselves a psychopath
Nicesopaths are individuals who, despite initially experiencing guilt, have successfully overcome it. They have learned to embrace self-acceptance and no longer feel guilty for minor mistakes or intrusive thoughts. This term is used to celebrate their journey towards a happier and more fulfilled life.
When you said that people with pure OCD try to find a reason to feel awfull
I felt so happy that someone described so accurate what I do with my OCD
NewMysteryGamer GR Took the words right out my mouth!!
Soo true
Occasionaly, i though of murdering a person , and i don't feel awful for it, but i think "Isn't that abnormal of not being awful?" And consider myself as a bad person , and act if i feel "Awful" manipulate your brain to feel that way, when it's just a mere obligation not a genuine feeling...
@@chips.3927 I had the same thoughts . I also had thoughts that I am a lesbian or that I have schizophrenia, and none of these are true , but I wanted to find a problem with me so that I can get anxious and get my brain satisfied....sometimes when I find my self happy or smiling I think ..wait ...your life goes well?? Isn’t this unfair for other people ?? Yes it is , and then I get anxious that bad things will happen to me
@@emmam5075 Exactly! I always consider myself as inferior and stupid, so this Ocd manifest, from an ordinary thought about murdering, now this thought "Manipulate" your brain to thinking you're inferior, it feels as if you are but it isn't true.
Hey guys I'm revisiting this video after discovering it 2 years ago.
I just want to say that if you are still going through this, it CAN get better. I am living comfortably now and I can not even recall the tremendous pain. Just keep pushing. Dont give up
How did you see a ocd specialist
@@nicolasarchambault1671 the time that I had discovered I had OCD, I was a child so my mother had set everything up for me.
Did you take meds
@@brice-9696 I did for a short period. Stay off the meds bro. It's rough but if you are still dealing with it, do it naturally. Please dont take meds
@@jeys4432 you don’t think I should even for the ocd?
I'm glad I'm not alone. I'm glad I'm not facing all these horrible intrusive thoughts by myself. I would never wish this on anyone. i hope things get better. No matter whats happens inside your head NEVER. NEVER. UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCE let those senseless thoughts define YOU. NEVER. You've never been them, You are not them, You will never be them, and i repeat myself because i need you to get this tattoed into your brain. You are not a bad person. You are not a monster. You are not crazy .Never doubt. Its NOT REAL, THOSE THOUGHTS ARE NOT REAL. Never give in. You are loved. Even if you feel like nobody could ever understand you, im here, I love you. Im rooting for you. i need you to never give up. we've been deeply scarred by this mental illness. we've cried. we've suffered. we've lost. But please dont let them take away your will to live. “you are not what you fear”. Things will get better. Stay.
Thank you 🤍
Thank you for this. I felt miserable and terrified as the thoughts kept messing me up. I hope that all of us will be able to overcome this.
I remember being 11 and having offensive thoughts towards god repeatedly in my head when trying to sleep, and panicking over being doomed for eternity for commiting blasphemy.
I don't think parents realize the psychological abuse in forcing religion down their kids throats.
This makes me really sad as someone who recently found Christ and find so much comfort in God. I wasn't raised religious at all so I don't have that trauma attached to it. It makes me really upset that someone and society at large could make something that can be so life giving and fulfilling into something that actually makes a person dread it and traumatizes them. For my pure O thoughts it is always related to a panic that I am going to hurt someone and I have been abused so I think that it is some sort of psychological defense mechanism that goes haywire where we take on the shame of others who hurt us. I'm not sure, but in any case it really does deeply screw you up especially as a child where you are just starting to understand things like shame and blame. I remember as a child staying up all night panicking about where I go after death. Wasn't raised religious but this existential dread came over me from other traumas.... obsessions starting even then.
I really appreciate all the words you typed in this comment I’m related in this experience and I really got tired of religion when I’m literally sick on the ground getting called a snowflake for not doing what they want
@@moby98745632178463 True. I never said religion was to blame for OCD though, that's your misreading of my point.
@@moby98745632178463 to my understanding it wasn’t the religion, it was the forceful representation that nothing is forgiven. This does not apply to all religions or practices.
I'm currently stuck with those unwanted repetitive blasphemous thoughts every day all day. How did you get rid of them?
This condition is so horrendous, I’m so sorry if you have been through this. YOU’RE NOT ALONE ❤️
If you have OCD (compulsions and/or intrusive thoughts), do the following practice and your compulsions and intrusive thoughts WILL 100% get better and most likely even completely vanish if you apply this advice for long enough, you have to do this if you want to get better, there is no way around it:
Meditate daily, ideally 30-60+ minutes, but you can start with 5+ minutes and work your way up. I recommend Vipassana meditation, which simply means putting your attention on the bodily sensations of breathing.
Meditation is essentially about one thing: Practicing Awareness. Sitting meditation is an intentional, focused practice of Awareness, but it's just the beginning. You also have to practice Awareness when you are not sitting down to meditate. You basically have to meditate/practice Awareness 24/7, no matter what you are doing, no matter how many thoughts come up and no matter how much you suffer mentally and physically.
Practicing Awareness means simply observing your thoughts and compulsions (and also emotions, sensory perceptions, bodily sensations, pain etc., basically everything you experience) in a distanced and detached way. You have to realize that you ARE the observer/the Awareness that is free from all experience. YOU ARE NOT YOUR THOUGHTS AND COMPULSIONS. You are free from your thoughts, your thoughts just fool you into believing that they are real. Thoughts are just randomly generated bullshit, don't ever worry about them and don't ever think they are more than that. Never believe ANY thoughts. YOU ARE NDo not identify with your thoughts and simply observe them from a distance. Your OCD will try to come up with all kinds of sneaky shit to draw you back into it, but NEVER give in to it, no matter what it says. Examples of sly tricks of OCD would be thoughts like "Meditation/Awareness doesn't work", "Your OCD will never go away" etc., but all these tricks only work because you let yourself get fooled by them, because you believe in them. You willingly give your power to these meaningless thoughts so that they can destroy you. See the absurdity in that. Also, never try to argue with thoughts, correct them, fight them, get rid of them etc., all of that is more tricks of OCD. You cannot solve OCD inside of the mind, only by stepping outside of it and observing it (Awareness). When you practice Meditation/Awareness, OCD will most likely try to draw you back into its grasp through anxiety and anxious reactions in the body: tension, racing heart, sweating, unease etc., also observe all of this in a detached way. Don't identify with the uncomfortable bodily sensations and believe it is you. It's all the OCD trying to trick you, trying to ruin your life. OCD is a sly fucker. OCD is threatened by Meditation and Awareness, that's why it will try to keep you from practicing them. This should be a clear signal to you that you are on the right path. Intrusive thoughts and compulsions are randomly generated and you have absolutely no control over them whatsoever, but you have the power of being able to observe them, to realize they are not you and to not worry about them, which will make them go away if you do it long enough. They only keep coming if they keep getting negative reactions from you. Fully accept and welcome all thoughts, no matter how strange or disturbing they may be. Never resist thoughts. Thoughts have no power over you as long as you don't give it to them. Never feel ashamed, disgusted or shocked by your thoughts, this fuels intrusive thoughts and compulsions immensely. Compulsions and intrusive thoughts thrive on your negative reactions to them. Simply observe them without being irritated by them.
Meditating and constantly practicing Awareness might be very hard at first, but don't be discouraged, it will become easier and easier with time, and your OCD and all its symptoms will gradually become better. Even if thoughts still come up, they will not bother you anymore, you will just see them for the random bullshit that they are. The end goal would be to remain in Awareness 24/7, which would make you completely invulnerable to all compulsions and intrusive thoughts.
Also, as corny as it may sound, what's even more important than Meditation and constant Awareness, and actually the most healing practice you can do, is fully and unconditionally loving yourself and everybody else and everything else in the world, even the most evil shit you can imagine, even your intrusive thoughts and compulsions. Your world and life have to become filled completely with Love. Negativity and suffering can only thrive where there is a lack of Love. Love repels negativity and suffering.
You WILL get through this if you follow my advice consequently for a long enough time, please trust me for your own sake.
Wishing you all the best and much love my friend. 😊❤
This was beautiful. I related to many symptoms and this helped me better understand myself. Thank you.
I remember first hearing a video about intrusive thoughts and completely balling my eyes out cause I finally found some rationalization about what was happening. I remember being so scared to talk to somebody fearing they would lock me away for my thoughts, even though they were just thoughts they felt incriminating. I felt like the worst person walking the earth.
I found the more I educated myself on intrusive thoughts the less scary the thoughts to be. It helped me get through the thoughts in fact because I realized thoughts are just thoughts, no they’re not crazy urges to do something terrible. But they can really hurt your mental health, I was really depressed during about the 2 1/2 years I went through it every single day 24/7 day in and out before I learned about what was up with me.
I was able to break free from the thoughts, but still have some triggers that can cause a flair up. I can’t watch murder mystery documentaries for example because my thoughts were about harm. And I was terrified to do anything.
And here’s the key word “terrified”. If you’re terrified of the thoughts and repelled in some way by the thoughts it shows you never want to do it in the first place.
For me, I learned after educating myself about intrusive thoughts, it allowed me to understand these thoughts were just thoughts, and thoughts alone are not incriminating or some odd urge to do something. They’re thoughts that are screaming at you constantly. It’s as if somebody tells you over alot over a period of time “you’re a talented artist”, “look this persons a talented artist”, “wow I love your art you’re really talented” over time with all of these people telling you you’re talented, you’re gonna start thinking you’re talented.
Same thing with the thoughts.
I found, it’s genetic in my family. I was afraid to open up to anybody. I opened up to my boyfriend one day and gave him a bunch of disclaimers and laid it all out for him and let him watch a few of these videos before I explained what I was going through. After I overcame the intrusive thoughts, I remember sharing it with my sister about just a year ago and she looked at me in awe and said “I went through the exact same thing!” And we were able to talk about it. She had the same idea of harm and she thought she was going crazy and it made her super depressed and afraid to talk to anybody about it. It was nice to know she understands and goes to show it’s probably a genetic thing as well.
Please support me I have coined a term so that people don't feel guilty for not feeling guilty and they don't consider themselves a psychopath
Nicesopaths are individuals who, despite initially experiencing guilt, have successfully overcome it. They have learned to embrace self-acceptance and no longer feel guilty for minor mistakes or intrusive thoughts. This term is used to celebrate their journey towards a happier and more fulfilled life.
Just want to say animation/sound here are fantastic.
Superb
yes! i'm wanting to make a minidoc on pure O and this video just told me whatever amatuerish stuff i do won't be good enough, lol. i wish i could animate.
This brought tears to my eyes because it put a name to something that was puzzling for most of my life. Thank you.
SAME
ME TOO! It feels comforting to know that people are going through the same things you are, that people acknowledge how hard it is, and that you’re not crazy
Me too, i always thought it was just me and was too ashamed to speak out about it.
Pauline, if you are still suffering with this, look into Exposure Response Therapy. It really helped me. Also remember the sufferer of Pure O is almost always kind and compassionate, that's why the thoughts bother them so badly. Best to you, always.
It's amazing to see how many people including myself can relate to this story, I've always struggled with mental health, been through so many in patient stays, psychiatrists, medications, and never really found help from any of it. I guess now that I can put a name to it, intrusive thoughts have been one of the things I've struggled with most. One of the worst ones that's always stuck with me is cutting my tongue. I've had so many different versions of that, and many other examples, although I hate pain and I'd never hurt myself or anyone else. My heart goes out to all of you dealing with any sort of unseen struggle. Stay strong.
The best way to prevent OCD from taking someone over, or to help someone gain the courage they need to go through ERP (best treatment for all types of OCD) as a bystander is to build their self confidence. This video hits it right on the nail with that part. It wasn't until I left an environment that made me feel awful about myself, and found people who truly made me feel respected and lifted me up that I had the confidence in myself to take on ERP. I will always be thankful for them.
Please support me I have coined a term so that people don't feel guilty for not feeling guilty and they don't consider themselves a psychopath
Nicesopaths are individuals who, despite initially experiencing guilt, have successfully overcome it. They have learned to embrace self-acceptance and no longer feel guilty for minor mistakes or intrusive thoughts. This term is used to celebrate their journey towards a happier and more fulfilled life.
I’ve been scared of myself and even thought of myself as a monster. I told my friends and they even told me that I was insane and to never talk to them again. I lost so many loved ones, but I’m receiving help from psychiatrist and many others. It sucks that some people don’t understand. I’ve cried so many times thinking I was the problem, and people only encouraged that thought by calling me a monster after I told them. I can’t control these thoughts. But I’m happy I found this video and many others who suffer from this as well. It shows that I’m not alone.
Every one of us has the potential to overcome this thing no matter how bad it feels atm, NEVER forget this!
This is incredible, thank you! I suffered with Pure OCD for years after some acute and prolonged trauma. This makes me feel so much less alone in the world.
Hi Alex, Well, cool, you are not alone, but weren't you irritated by this overly simplistic treatment of it, and the especially the syrupy sweet Happy Ending ( oh, it turns out that Pure OCD isn't a problem after all because all we have to do is give ourselves a great big hug and say to ourselves "All the World Loves a Smile" or whatever that schmooze was at the end ).
Hi Elijah,
Yes, if you really are a good person and, for some dysfunctional reason (cognitive sense of reality is distorted or delusional) you do not see yourself as a good person, and you somehow chronically think of yourself as a 'bad' person, well, that is a problem. But if you ARE a bad person and think of yourself as a bad person, then one is simply being realistic, objective, and impartial. Honestly, if people think they are bad, well, who should know any better? If they are bad, let's not divert these feelings in any other way then to insist that they make themselves good. None of this "its okay be a social and economic predator, and to betray your friends, because in fact by just being 'yourself' you are far more worthy of self consideration then everyone else. Besides, everybody else is a scumb bag like yourself (are we all not born in Original Sin?), and so if there is nobody inherently much better than yourself, than why place these unrealistic moral standards upon yourself... blah blah blah. This is how the Devil whispers into Faust's ear. Well, screw the devil! If people's sense of their own moral turpitude places them in something of an emotional hell, well, good. That must be where they belong. what if they have higher moral standards than the rest of us suppose are actually required, that is, they assume for themselves a higher moral burden, well, then we can suppose such people are actually Morally Gifted. People should live up to their own personal moral standards, and not try to dodge them with casuistic excuses. Oh, and then there is this, Elijah, and that is that now that you feel so much better about yourself morally, it is okay to set that cat on fire which you have been dying to do, huh? But I don't think the cat would agree.
Hi Elijah, yeah, I understand your criticism. That is why I left myself some wiggle room by conditioning my statement towards people who did not have some actual cognitive dysfunction or neuro-chemical imbalance which could counterfeit shame and feelings of moral and even functional degradation. So basically I was aiming my comment at the people who would think that maybe they were a 'little bit ODC' and use that as an excuse to toss out all their cognitively accurate but uncomfortable appraisals of their selves. Oh, I have a bit of homework to do (I've gone back to school for a 2nd degree), and then I think I'll get "a little drunk" too. cheers!
And worse yet, pure OCD is a trauma in itself.
I remember when I was in seventh grade, I would spend recess wondering around in circles, wondering over and over again “I’m a murderer. I’m a monster. I’m a criminal.” Those three words were in my head nonstop-and I was sure I was those things, and I was sure that I would kill- although I would never and have never. I was so sad and ashamed of myself and I dreaded waking up. Thank God I am healed
thats very early. i started in my late teens early 20's. even as an adult it was a lot of stress.
Oh my god this is amazing to hear. I was just recently able to see that I had a deep shame over my actions. I was diagnosed with ocd years ago but hearing someone else say that it’s rooted in shame makes so much sense
I just want to write this in case anybody is struggling with this. This is gonna kinda be my story with pure ocd.
I was a freshman in high school when it got terrible, but looking back over me childhood, I can see the early warning signs. I was getting ready for school one morning and a dreaded terrible thought popped into my head. And from there it over took my life. It went 0-100 and I started thinking about suicide. I remember one day it was so bad in my history class I was shaking uncontrollably. Hell on earth. It wet on for months and I was too afraid to talk to anybody about it. One day. I talked to my dad. Told him what was going on, and my parents booked me an appointment with a psychiatrist. It was so hard to talk about it, but after a few months I began improving. Now about a couple years later I can’t say it’s gone, or that I don’t have bad days, but I can say for anybody out there it does get better. When it makes you cry, lean on those close to you. When you want to give up, think about why you are here. I don’t want to forcefully push my religion on anybody, but during that really hard time, I got closer to God. Nobody or nothing else has helped me more on the road to recovery. Instead of panic attacks every hour, now I lead a semi-normal life. I just want to say there is hope out there, even when you don’t see it.
Carson McCord This video applies to me too. My dad got me a therapist because I was cutting myself. I was too scared to talk to her because I knew she would just tell my dad everything. I want to be fixed, but now it feels like a personality trait.
I am glad to hear your story bro.I also went through the same thing and being close to God helped me a lot too..not fully but it did get a little bit better.Thank you for the last line.I will try to be hopeful
Hello Carson! Thanks a lot for taking the time to share your story and for your courage. You will help many people! I am so glad that your parents were supportive and the psychiatrist you have seen was a good one. Best wishes :- )
I'd love to know how God helped you, man. I'm an atheist, but I'm not being sarcastic.
I just think that it is more plausible that you helped yourself and that acknowledging that would make you even more stronger.
Vitor Bernardes I’m going to tell you this, and every Christian you talk to will agree. For us, God is the higher power. When you can let go of your worries and insecurities, it is a peaceful thing. God, is this for me. He is that infinitely strong power that us Christians can lean on. Why worry about anything harmful when you can lean on an infinitely powerful entity as your strength. I know this sounds like bullshit to you, but it’s my strong opinion that Jesus Christ was God and that he rose again. And that he continues to be there for his people as we await his return. All this being said, I very much respect your opinion as an atheist, but I must encourage you to try to find God as a Christian man. And if you do try to find god, you might as well attend a Pentecostal Church 😉
I’m at the point where I can’t enjoy anything anymore because of pure O
I feel so sorry for you... Hell exists and it's ocd. What helped me is psychodynamic therapy.. Please, try it
Please try to get help or at least join a support group. It'll be okay, friend
If you have OCD (compulsions and/or intrusive thoughts), do the following practice and your compulsions and intrusive thoughts WILL 100% get better and most likely even completely vanish if you apply this advice for long enough, you have to do this if you want to get better, there is no way around it:
Meditate daily, ideally 30-60+ minutes, but you can start with 5+ minutes and work your way up. I recommend Vipassana meditation, which simply means putting your attention on the bodily sensations of breathing.
Meditation is essentially about one thing: Practicing Awareness. Sitting meditation is an intentional, focused practice of Awareness, but it's just the beginning. You also have to practice Awareness when you are not sitting down to meditate. You basically have to meditate/practice Awareness 24/7, no matter what you are doing, no matter how many thoughts come up and no matter how much you suffer mentally and physically.
Practicing Awareness means simply observing your thoughts and compulsions (and also emotions, sensory perceptions, bodily sensations, pain etc., basically everything you experience) in a distanced and detached way. You have to realize that you ARE the observer/the Awareness that is free from all experience. YOU ARE NOT YOUR THOUGHTS AND COMPULSIONS. You are free from your thoughts, your thoughts just fool you into believing that they are real. Thoughts are just randomly generated bullshit, don't ever worry about them and don't ever think they are more than that. Never believe ANY thoughts. YOU ARE NDo not identify with your thoughts and simply observe them from a distance. Your OCD will try to come up with all kinds of sneaky shit to draw you back into it, but NEVER give in to it, no matter what it says. Examples of sly tricks of OCD would be thoughts like "Meditation/Awareness doesn't work", "Your OCD will never go away" etc., but all these tricks only work because you let yourself get fooled by them, because you believe in them. You willingly give your power to these meaningless thoughts so that they can destroy you. See the absurdity in that. Also, never try to argue with thoughts, correct them, fight them, get rid of them etc., all of that is more tricks of OCD. You cannot solve OCD inside of the mind, only by stepping outside of it and observing it (Awareness). When you practice Meditation/Awareness, OCD will most likely try to draw you back into its grasp through anxiety and anxious reactions in the body: tension, racing heart, sweating, unease etc., also observe all of this in a detached way. Don't identify with the uncomfortable bodily sensations and believe it is you. It's all the OCD trying to trick you, trying to ruin your life. OCD is a sly fucker. OCD is threatened by Meditation and Awareness, that's why it will try to keep you from practicing them. This should be a clear signal to you that you are on the right path. Intrusive thoughts and compulsions are randomly generated and you have absolutely no control over them whatsoever, but you have the power of being able to observe them, to realize they are not you and to not worry about them, which will make them go away if you do it long enough. They only keep coming if they keep getting negative reactions from you. Fully accept and welcome all thoughts, no matter how strange or disturbing they may be. Never resist thoughts. Thoughts have no power over you as long as you don't give it to them. Never feel ashamed, disgusted or shocked by your thoughts, this fuels intrusive thoughts and compulsions immensely. Compulsions and intrusive thoughts thrive on your negative reactions to them. Simply observe them without being irritated by them.
Meditating and constantly practicing Awareness might be very hard at first, but don't be discouraged, it will become easier and easier with time, and your OCD and all its symptoms will gradually become better. Even if thoughts still come up, they will not bother you anymore, you will just see them for the random bullshit that they are. The end goal would be to remain in Awareness 24/7, which would make you completely invulnerable to all compulsions and intrusive thoughts.
Also, as corny as it may sound, what's even more important than Meditation and constant Awareness, and actually the most healing practice you can do, is fully and unconditionally loving yourself and everybody else and everything else in the world, even the most evil shit you can imagine, even your intrusive thoughts and compulsions. Your world and life have to become filled completely with Love. Negativity and suffering can only thrive where there is a lack of Love. Love repels negativity and suffering.
You WILL get through this if you follow my advice consequently for a long enough time, please trust me for your own sake.
Wishing you all the best and much love my friend. 😊❤
Look up Nathan Peterson on CZcams. He specializes in all types of OCD… He’s the best!!!!
(CBT therapy can make any OCD worse. Look for a therapist that specializes in “exposure response therapy”. If they aren’t trained in this, don’t waste your time.
Stay strong brother , I wish all the best for you on your path
Story of my life. I have been coming here whenever I felt like shit for relief. Thanks for making this video
Wow thats crazy I had OCD very badly and therapy... the thoughts stopped the day I realised that I wasn't even scared of them anymore just really really disappointed by myself that I had them... I then accepted myself for having them... now they are gone, still working on my selfesteem though but I am sure that will get better soon, too. If I was able to do so, you can do it too! ❤
Sometimes i've wished i got the hand washing checking type of OCD. Having thoughts about becoming schizophrenic, being an psychopath or even being possesd ain't cool. And i gotta disagree with the self esteem part, people with Pure O feel bad but not in a way that you're starting to get depressed. If they understand the illines and what pure O is they will understand that they do not need to feel bad about theyr thoughts because it's not theyr fault in the first place. People become depressed from pure O if they don't know shit about what they suffer like me i was a full bag of full blown anxiety when i had those thoughts for the first time and i felt so bad i was even at the edge of crying everytime when i was seeing by loved ones because of the harm thoughts. But after i understand what i was suffering from and did my research my anxiety cutted like 60%. The compulsions are still there rumminating, questioning or doubting, and the "what if"" it's just hell. But i'm full rational like i've allways was and i know that like all the peoples who are suffering from this.
Dis Boi me too. I’ve also had an obsession where I thought I was going to go insane and that I was going to have schizophrenia. I also dealt with hypochondriac and I’m currently battling hocd/soocd (sexual orientation ocd) and it is absolute hell. I doubt you’ll see this but stay strong. I hope you’re so much better now. 💕
Same. The “checking ocd, washing hands,ect.” Is NOT as severe with these type of bad, intrusive thoughts. I try to tell myself that my thoughts are irrational. Thank you for explaining!
@@yuhgetintoitagario3351 I'm not sure if you can generalise if checking/washing ocd is not as bad. There are so many different levels of those OCD's that you can not compare.
As an example of mine: for me it started 3 years ago and would only come up at night. I had to check things 3 times perfectly, if I did a mistake I had to do it 9 times and if I did a mistake again I'd have to do it 27 times. But there wasn't only one thing but up to 70 things I had to check which would take me from 9pm to 4am sometimes. Standing up out of bed over and over doing literally a workout until you are about to pass out is not nice. Especially if it's 40°C and your ocd tells you not to open a window making this workout for 8 or 9 hours straight and only sleeping 2 hours a night etc etc. If it was one night in a week it would be acceptable but this amount of pressure every single night is like a never ending hell. You pray for it to stop but you never know when the last thought will come. This is my hell now for years and it gets you suicidal as well because like I said it seems like this hell that would never end but repeat forever.. I can not meet loved ones over night and I had extreme rules like going to sleep at 9pm at least because otherwise I'd have the worst nights of my life which takes a lot of time of your day since almost half of your day (or the entire night in my case) gets wasted by even harming your health.
Now I'm not saying those pure OCD's aren't as bad but I'm saying you can't compare 2 hells with each other.
mel this is EXACTLY me right now.. I get relief every few hours :/
@@vinalucia3712 yeah both are hell. We should not compare it to each other.
And please see Psychologist and Psychiatrist and take medicine too. Medicine really helps in ocd. I hope you will get better soon. Stay strong.