Hi Ren - REACTION (Lyme Disease & MCAS Fighter; Anorexia Recovery Edition)
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- Äas pĆidĂĄn 7. 03. 2023
- By popular demand, here's my reaction to "Hi Ren," the video that's taking the internet by storm lately! And I'm doing so from a place of shared lived experience with Lyme Disease, Mast Cell Activation Disorder/Syndrome, and more, and well as tying in the mental health aspects and how they apply to eating disorder recovery.
WOW! This is an absolute MASTERPIECE! This is one of the most emotional videos I've watched in a long time, and I'm so grateful he's sharing so vulnerably with the world. The world needs to hear his message.
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Hi Becca. Just discovered Ren today and I'm still reeling from this song. Through him, I've discovered you. So that makes two gifts he's given me today that I can't repay. I can barely see the screen through my tears but I'm going to try to turn thoughts into words regardless. I might bumble and fail, since I don't *have* the words to express what this reaction made me think and feel and be. I think it made me feel known.
I haven't left my bedroom in ~15 years except to go see doctors and take out my trash. Day by day my hope, identity, and membership within humanity have felt ever more distant and dreamlike. I can hardly believe it's been a decade and a half since I had a hug. Since I've had a friend, driven a car, fallen in love, laughed with somebody, or appreciated that I was alive.
I've not felt so immediately attached to or protective of a stranger since before my illness ripped my very self out from under my feet. It will take some time, but I plan on going through as much of your upload catalogue as I can. I absolutely adore who you are, and at the risk of sounding odd or inappropriate, I hope it's okay to say that I love you. That I'm rooting for you. That I am on team Becca, and I believe in you.
I have to thank you for the awe-inspiring confidence to share your inner self with the world so that I could watch this video and feel again, and even dare to be human again, if only for half an hour, and even if I don't quite know what I'm feeling or who I am. A little bit of everything and everyone, all at once, and overwhelmingly so.
I am grateful that you exist. That God made you and wanted you to be. You matter. To me subjectively but also inherently and objectively. You are valuable and the world would be so much better off with more people like you gracing its surface. I wish for you all the goodness a life can hold inside of it, and that so many good things fall upon you that you can't contain your wholeness or your peace. That you may be bursting at the seams with calm. That our risen Lord walks with you all of your days. You deserve all the fullness of life, and every measure of joy. You are a precious and beautiful soul, fearfully and wonderfully made by the hands of Him who makes, and who today reminded me what life is about. Thank you, Becca.
(I'm cringing at the very real possibility that this super over-the-top comment will make you uncomfortable, so if that's the case I'd ask that you let me know so I can delete it and then I'll refrain from commenting here in the future. I want you to be comfy in your space that you've carved out. I respect you more than you can possibly realize.)
-Vincent
I "m pretty sure Becca will like your looong comment. As for me I think it's absolutely beautiful I have some health problems of my own but I'm not bedridden. Mostly I'm just old and lonely; I haven't had a hug in TWENTY YEARS so I know how you feel. So even if your comment DOESN'T go over big with Becca I want you to know it's certainly warming my heart
Let me take this opportunity to pass along my favorite video: Brooks and Dunn "Believe".(which also has a ton of reactions). There is an [official video] version and a live performance video of it. Both are great but the [official video] has the reactions and should be watched first. The Lord is certainly with you my friend.
@@user-px4sc8qi2m I appreciate that so much and I will definitely check out the official video for that song. & I will pray for you. I wish you all the best in the world, and I'm giving you a big virtual hug! We have to stay strong. Don't give up no matter how lonely or isolated you feel. People, even complete strangers, care about you. I care about you. Hoping you have a fantastic day today.
There is nothing over the top about sharing your story and connecting on a real, human level with someone else, and I feel honored you felt comfortable sharing here.
Iâm so sorry to hear of your own journey with such painful things, and itâs one I know well, so when I say your words hit deeply, I mean it-in the best way.
It took me a few days to get to this because I wanted to give you the reply you deserve, and Iâm so behind on comments right now I still feel like my words are inadequate, but I wanted to let you know just HOW much your words positively affected my own mindset/day, and to thank you for being such a kind, compassionate, caring soul.
This world is a better place with you in it. And please always feel free to comment things as long to as short as you want (or not at all, if you donât feel like it), you never need to worry about it being âover the topâ or anything like that as far as Iâm concerned.
Iâm so glad you were able to feel connected to this one, and to me, because thatâs my number one goal. To help people feel less alone, more understood, or to at least share something of value. I resonate with so many of your own words, and just wanted you to know that, too. Thank you for being such an awesome human despite the struggles youâve endured/are enduring.đ
@richard dancer Iâm so glad when I see people supporting each other in the comments, especially since Iâm late getting to some of these recently. Thank you for adding this comment here-this is the single most supportive fan base, not just for Ren, not just on this channel in comments to ME, but in the interactions between yâall in the comment section-it makes my heart smile. Sending virtual hugs your way, friend.đ«
Thursday, May 11, 2023. Hi Vincent . I thought I'd let you know that I've read your comment to Becca several times in the past few days. You know how you want to listen to your favorite song again and again? Well your comment is like that to me. I think it's great you said such kind words --and to a stranger no less! Take care buddy.
đđUPDATE: I have been absolutely FLOORED by the response to this video-from the bottom of my heart, thank you all so very much! Your kindness and words of support and encouragement, and you taking time to share parts of your own stories, has filled my heart far more than I ever imagined possible when I decided to record this and press upload.
Iâm trying to get through replying to comments as quickly as I can, but if I havenât gotten to yours yet, please give me some grace on that, I tend to have limited focus and ability to communicate online all at one time. I will do my best to get to you as soon as I can, I promise!đ
I also want to say thank you to all of you for helping me finally break through the resistance Iâve had to making this a primarily reaction channel, because itâs always been a format I enjoy, and have done on other channels for fun in the past, but your comments have made it very obvious that itâs just helpful to know that weâre not in this alone, and my number one goal is to always help people feel a little less alone with anything that I post.
The outpouring of love I have seen in this comment section, and that I have seen several of you go on to give on my other content as well, it just makes me smile with true joy in a way that I havenât been able to for a long time.
And seeing you support each other in the comments has been metaphorical icing in the cake. Thank you for making this such a special experience, I canât wait to share more with you as we take this journey together!đđ
(Next up Iâm hoping to do Sick Boi, and then Chalk Outlines-Live, so stay tuned!)
I've watched dozens of reactions to this video now and yours was definitely one of my favorites. Everything about the performance is just so impactful. I have chronic pain from my time in the military, a mobile aid user, I have PTSD, ADHD, and I'm autistic. I just keep watching it over and over again and each time it hits me the same.
Also, my wife is also autistic and she has bouts of being nonspeaking. She has aphasia from head trauma and goes through those same periods of not being able to remember names or even what to call a TV. She's hyperlexic and has the most expansive vocabulary of anyone I know, but some days I have to tell her the word for a vacuum and hope it makes sense.
Much love to you and everything you've gone through. You are not alone.
Hey..
I took down a previous comment i made that, in retrospect, came off as off rude, unkind, and presumptuous.
I apologize sincerely.
Im not too big to say im sorry. No excuse.
I realize you understand struggle. M i do as well which is why i should have been more humble (sincerely)and just given you a like and sub and admired your authenticity..
Instead i was unnecessarily abrasive and again, i sounded like a dick.
I really hope you disregard my dumb criticism.
Like i said, no excuses, but id had a bad day.
Im finally getting old and hopefully wiser and at this point, i know its better to try to clean up damage if possible instead of putting bad into the world.
You have a beautiful, light. Ive only watched a couple of your videos but its evident that you're an authentic intelligent, nice person and, for what its worth, we both have our frenetic nature pointed out to us.
I should have known better but thank you for the opportunity to introspect ..in an effort to keep doing better
I wish you happiness, health, peace and meaning.
Keep being you.
@@watchin_kc Hey, I mean it when I say no worries; I didnât take your previous comment as abrasive at all, and Iâm pretty sure you even said you enjoyed the video before writing the part Iâm guessing you feel came off the way you described. I just wanted to say, if Iâm remembering correctly, you also even explained in that comment that you were just trying to share constructive advice and not pick things apart, and I can totally handle that. I appreciate you taking time to come back and write this, but I want you to know there was nothing wrong with the first comment you left. I tried to add a little joke in the e beginning of my reply, but I can also see how my reply may have seemed like I felt the way you described above, but I promise, no ill will here, whatsoever. Thanks for being a cool human.đ
(Also, there are times Iâve been a MASSIVE jerk to someone without ever realizing it because I was having a bad day, myself. Iâm NOT saying you were a jerk here, because again, I donât think you were in the wrong. Iâm just saying I realize how our bad days can affect literally everything in life. Hang in there, I hope you have more days of sunshine than rain up ahead.đ
You deserve it! Your honesty in reacting matches this amazingly honest and true artistic masterpiece. You really help spread this amazing message so more people can learn from you both. Thank you.
I've watched literally every reaction to Hi Ren, Sick Boy I can find and your reactions to those and Chalk Outlines are the ones I watch over and over again. Your analysis, explanation as well as the openness and honesty in your reaction make them as important to watch as the originals. I hope that many people find them and like them as much as I do. You deserve way more than 1200 subscribers. @renmakesmusic watches reactions to his videos. I hope he finds these.
I think I've seen more than 50 reaction videos to Hi Ren but yours was the most moving. I know Ren watches some of these reactions, I hope he sees yours.
Bob, I canât explain to you how big the smile in my heart was when I read your commentđ I really appreciate you taking time to watch and share such encouraging words; itâs a blessing to be able to fill these videos and share them with others, and I love anytime anyone is able to connect to anything that I share, in any way. I didnât realize that he watches some of the videos, thatâs really cool! Not a whole lot of artist would take time to do that, and it shows you where his heart is, and making music that helps him AND OTHERS heal.đ
@Becca Doss you're an absolute treasure, and I loved your reaction, but tbh I'm very sorry the struggles Ren presents is so relatable for you. Nobody should go through this pain.
I love your emotional reaction. Ren has quite a few songs that touch on this topic. âChalk outlines (live)â is a good one, but his song âCrutchâ is very deep and emotional; and often overlooked. I would love to see your reaction.
By the way, Ren will be 33 this month.
@@system0fadowner251 Hey, weâve all got our own battles, and some of mine just happen to be the same as his. Iâm just glad weâre both finding ways to use our own pain to help others feel less alone or more understood. Of course I would never put myself on the same level as Ren, as far as far-reaching impact, but I get the vibe his intention is the same, to make music he wants to make, that hits home for so many people. đ
@@IronRaspberry Iâve got both of those on the list! Thank you so much for the support AND for the recs! Really looking forward to diving into more of his stuff! And Iâm so glad you enjoyed the reaction, I try to keep it as real and raw as possible, thatâs always kind of been my drive to share any of my own story in any way, and to let other hopefully feel a little less alone.đ
I'm a (near) 70-year-old Anglican minister, and since discovering 'Hi Ren' earlier this week, I've watched a ridiculous number of 'reaction' videos. This is the first I commented on, because it's by far the most moving. Thank you for doing this.
Ok. I've probably seen about 100 reaction videos to Hi Ren over the last 2 days (that's not an exaggeration) and, Becca Doss, yours is the most powerful human experience I've had watching these. And that's really saying a lot. God Bless you, Angel.
Matt, your comment brought tears to my eyes (oneâs of gratitude, never worry). Your words really touched my soul, and I am so glad you were able to enjoy this reaction-I just try to keep it as raw, real, and vulnerable as possible, because my number one goal is to hopefully help others feel a little less alone and a little more understood. Iâve got more coming, so stay tuned if your interested in checking them out (currently editing reactions to Sick Boi and Chalk Outlines, as far as Ren goes). Take care of yourself.đđŒđ
@@BeccaDoss I'm with you guys Becca is the best
I have watched many dozens of reactions to "Hi Ren" and yours was especially touching, with your intimate knowing of Ren's struggle and sharing yours so openly. Wish you all the best on your path and hoping you dance your way to the point of writing again.
Wow, Iâm blown away by the support in this comment section; thank you deeply for your encouragement and support. Iâm really glad you were able to connect with this reaction in any way. I really appreciate your encouraging for continued healing, especially when it comes to writing.đ
I think youâll wanna watch Chalk outlines next. Just a hunch
Thanks SO MUCH for the rec! Like I mentioned in this video about this song, Iâm usually pretty on top of music that has similar messages/emotion/heaviness behind it, but my own struggles have been so overwhelming lately that Iâve been slacking, so Iâm very appreciative for any suggestions anyone shares!
Yes!
Absolutely Chalk Outlines next!
If you do watch chalk outlines I recommend the live version not the studio because just like this video you see his emotion and his feeling.
Ma nooooo
I was very moved by your reaction. My heart goes out to you. I myself have been struggling with physical illness for over ten years now but every day I get up and force my body to do what it needs it to do, it's so hard and lonely at times but watching Ren's video and how other people are talking about their struggles helps a lot. I am happy you found Ren and hope you continue to listen to him and to stay on your healthy path.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart for taking time to share a little bit about your own story, Iâm a firm believer that connecting with others who understand in any capacity helps us heal. Iâm so sorry to hear about your own suffering, itâs definitely something I understand very much firsthand, and it shows tremendous strength and determination to get up every day and force your body to do what needs to do, even though it can be extremely difficult, and at times isolating. Iâm glad I finally was turned on to his music, too, because like I said, itâs rare that I donât keep my finger on the pulse of artist to do music like this, so Iâm really excited to be along for the ride now. Take care of yourself, and remember, one day at a time is all we have to focus on.đ
Please feel the hugs that I wanted to give you from England... Both you & Ren... From someone who's been in the rope a few times.
My deepest respect to your reaction. I was nearly crying when your voice sometomes almost broke and you had teary eyes but I also smiled when you were laughing. I wish you all the best and a happy life. Keep on fighting and don't forget that none of us is always strong. We're all human and you have to be weak sometimes to know what strong means. Much love from Germany. Check out more Ren, it's a phantastic journey.
I'm so glad you were able to join me on the emotional roller coaster that is this song/this reaction video! I try to keep it as raw and real and honest as I can, and I love any time anyone can relate. And you're so right, no one can always be strong, but it's picking ourselves up and refusing to stop fighting that gives us the strength to keep going one day at a time. And music that helps us connect to others definitely helps. Can't wait to check out more!
As one with 6 autoimmune diseases/disorders, his work hits close to home. I'm glad to see you've discovered Ren. Thank you for sharing
Iâm so glad I finally got word about him, too. I hate that I somehow missed him for years, because thatâs unusual for me, but on the flip side, I now get to react to his entire back catalogue, so Iâm excited for that.
This is different than my experiences reacting to NF, who I also love, because I can only react to brand new stuff if his since Iâve listened to his entire catalogue since 2014, and those wouldnât be legit first reaction vids. Part of me loves that I somehow missed this creative genius till now, because not only is he putting out new stuff, but I have an entire back-catalogue to enjoy as first-listen reactions.
Also, I feel you on it hitting so close to home. Wishing you all the best as you manage your own health challenges; remember, one day at a time is all we have to focus on. Sometimes one hour/minute at a time is also enough.
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@@ericdotd69 Thanks for rec! Iâm with you, I donât know how Iâd make it through life without having music to process it.
Thank you for your incredibly moving reaction. I have watched probably 50 or so reaction videos to Hi Ren. Each one looks at it from a slightly different angle. Some look at the theatrical aspects, some the musical elements and others the complex word schemes. Your reaction was beautiful because you related so much to the message of struggle and hope. Ren has such an extensive back catalogue but I would highly recommend Sick Boi or Chalk Outlines as the next track to listen to. They are very different to each other in style but the themes are similar. I feel so happy that you have found this artist. Ren has made so many of us feel that we are not alone. He stands with us today.
I am SO glad I finally came across him, too, because while Iâm surprised I hadnât heard his stuff before, Iâm even more excited to go down the rabbit hole of his music myself! Iâve got those songs added to the list, so thanks for the additional rec! Take care!
@@BeccaDoss Chalk outlines is an amazingly haunting song, grab some tissues.
I thought I was being obsessive watching Ren reactions every day. I may have watched more than 50. I've been listening to Ren and his band The Big Push for a couple years, and with all the other people he sings with. I love seeing Ren get the appreciation he deserves.
Yours was one of the most powerful and moving reactions to this amazing song that I have seen. You really captured and personalized the message of the song and that's inspiring to others on their own healing journey.
Yours is one of the most powerful and soul-filling comments Iâve received, thank you deeply, David. Iâm so glad you were able to enjoy the video. What a masterpiece of a song/music video heâs given us! Any my own motto has always been: if sharing any part of my own journey can help even one person feel less alone, thatâs all that matters.đ
Thank you. The more people with your level of bravery (and Ren's) that share your story, the better. My warmest hopes and wishes for your recovery. You are not alone. â€
Thank you, Greg. My number one goal in sharing these things is to help someone feel a little less alone, or a little more understood/understanding. Itâs an honor to be able to share this ride with so many awesome people in this fan base. Appreciate you, friend.đ
Ren often watches reactions. I so hope he sees this one.
you just made a grown ass man cry and one that is a psychiatric nurse that works hard to maintain composure. Ren, for me, embodies the message I try to instil in someone that has lost hope for change, he amazes me every time
This comment deeply touched my heart, Alan, thank you. I hope the tears were at least therapeutic. Thank you for the literal lifesaving work you do.đ
The empathy you show for another's struggles truly shows your inner strength. You may not see it, but we do.
You are an amazing person Becca!â€
Thank you so much, friend, I canât tell you how much this meant to me to read. Bless you.đ
Couldnât agree more..I find her to be inspirational.
You just destroyed me, I'm a 53 yr old retired (early due to ptsd) firefighter, and I'm adjusting to new antidepressant, and been a little weepy lately. I've probably seen 50+ reactions to this song, but watching you react, knowing your struggles were similar to Rens, you had me tearing up 2min in, and by the end, your pure joy and the way the song moved you, I was balling like girl stood up on prom night..lol. It was a good healthy cry though, I don't like to admit it, but I think sometimes a lot of guys out there, especially the ones that think they have to be the tough guy all the time, could benefit from a good cry once in a while. It really cleans out the emotional pipes for me, ya know. I hope you're journey and your eternal dance gets easier, never forget how strong you are and how many people you inspire just by creating content about what you go through, you never know who you may touch with your story.
I can't wait for you to hear his other music, you name it, he can play it, blues, rock, pop, rap, reggae, hip-hop fusion, kid is amazing!! Here's a little clip for you, I think you, more than anyone, would enjoy it. Only 8min, no need to react, just for you, it's Ren live streaming on Twitch right after "Hi Ren" dropped, he talks a little bit why he wrote it and talks about his condition a little bit. Get you tissues ready, it gets a little deep for a minute or two. Cheers!! czcams.com/video/M1Na3nQV_8Q/video.html
Prayers lifted.
I have been trying to reply for the past 24 hours, but couldn't find the right words. Your comment likewise destroyed me, because my number one goal is to be able to put out content that can connect to, or resonate with, even one other person, even if our specific circumstances are different. I really appreciate you taking time to share part of what I'm sure is a MUCH larger story of your own, and thank you for the job you did before you couldn't do it any longer. PTSD is so hard, and it's always tough to make a decision to leave a career, but I hope you find moments of peace and hope in your days, amidst all the chaos and tumult in this world. (And yes, I'm a big believer in the healing power of a good cry!)
Thanks for the link to that video, I definitely will check it out just for my own enjoyment, means a lot that you took time to share it! Take care of yourself. đ
Thank you Becca for a truly strong reaction, taking me deeply. You will love Ren even more than I do because of your history. He have a lot of deep songs. I will follow you. Take caređ
Iâm so excited to dig into his catalogue-itâs rare that I find an artist that makes this kind of music that I donât already know, so I feel fortunate I somehow missed him until now, because NOW I get to go back and listen to (and probably react to) all of his older stuff, along with new things he releases. Really appreciate the encouragement and support! Take care of yourself.đđ
Becca, Iâm so glad you found Ren and this video specifically and that it let you know that youâre not alone in your battles. You are a beautiful soul and I pray you have the strength everyday to keep fighting.
YOU are the blessing. I'm just saying thank you with my comments and passing along informationâ€
The best way I can personify this song and the other two being recommended ( chalk outlines and sick boi) is hi ren puts the pain in perspective, chalk out lines is just raw emotion ( its a heavy one cant lie) and sick boi shows why a lot of people go through mental health or rather who has a big part to play in the over all problem.
Thank you for taking time to type out that explanation, I have no doubt that I will react just as emotionally, if not more so, to those two videos. Itâs driving me crazy tonight just go listen to the songs now, but I refuse to post a reaction video thatâs not a very first listen, so guess that means I need to get on it!
Ren has that rare combination of technical skills on guitar, unencumbered songwriting skills, and performance abilities that cannot be taught. Every single reactor I've seen has taken this song like a sledgehammer to the chest and that's not something that happens very often.
Sorry itâs taken me several days to get to this, I just havenât had the brain power to think through an adequate reply, but I first just want to say that I completely agree, the combination of skills that he has, and the sheer variety of things that he can do Cannot be taught, and is very rarely, if ever, scene. He is truly one of a kind, and itâs so special to be able to witness him as he is absolutely exploding right now, which is well deserved. Iâve never quite seen an artist like him.
Hi there, i came here because Discodoc (a friend of Ren's) sent me but I'm staying because of you. Watching you react to Hi Ren was like watching myself the first time i saw it.
I've seen lots of reactions to that song in the last few months but some people just "get" it. And that's because they "know" it. They've lived or are living through it.
When i watched it for the first time i cried for 24 hours afterwards. Never had i felt so seen. Never had someone taken the words and thoughts and feelings i have had and presented them so elegantly before me.
I'm off to watch more of your films. I look forward to learning more about you and more about me through them.
By the way, the fact that Discodoc recommended you almost certainly means that Ren has seen your reaction. â€
Hey! Thank you so much for stopping by and leaving such kind words and his comment, it means so much to me. Iâm sorry I am a week late getting to it, Iâve just been overwhelmed by the support Iâve had since that shout out last week, and itâs been hard to think through individual replies.
I am extremely grateful to know that you were able to connect and resonate with my reaction to Hi Ren on such a deep, personal level, and Iâm also sorry that you understand it so well firsthand. I would do anything in my power to prevent other humans from having to feel that type of pain.
But, since I canât do that, I try to do whatever I can to share my own emotions and journey, in hopes that I can hold space for others who want to share some of their own, or who just need to feel a little more understood, less alone, or want to learn or laugh about something (the goal varies with the reaction/song, or course).
You said it perfectly, and I had the same experience: watching that video for the first time helped me feel SEEN, which is something I know you understand is a huge deal, since you had the same response.
I am so thankful to have you along for the ride, and I really hope youâre able to enjoy more of the content as I am able to get it posted. Take care of yourself, friend.đ«đ
i was diagnosed with fibro 10th March and then 6 days later with diabetes, i have been fighting fatigue for years with misdiagnosis of many things.
I have been through hundreds of medications and treatments, none have been effective.
I have been fighting mental for 10yrs because they can never find out what is wrong with me
Recently i have been in a metal state to end it all
My son came to me a week ago and said Dad please listen to this song, it has reached me on so many levels. I can relate to everything both in the song and what you have said in your video.
I cried for days after hearing it, i have watched maybe 50 reactions and yours i the best by far
thank you, know we are not alone
God Bless
I have literally lost count of the number of times I have either listened to âHi Renâ or to reactions of it, and literally every time I listen to it, I am brought to tears. Iâm brought to tears, not just by the monumental impact Renâs words have had on me, but also the impact his words have had on others. But what really set your reaction apart from those other reactions was your making yourself so vulnerable by so openly sharing your own struggles and how you perceived Renâs message in this song. This was the first time that I had to actually pause the video just so that I could regain my composure before continuing to listen. Thank you for sharing. My thoughts and prayers are with you as you continue to fight your inner demons. Continue to dance in the light!
Wow, friend, thank you so much for your kindness and compassion. Your words mean the world to me-Iâm thankful anytime someone is able to appreciate the vulnerability and emotion, because those are things I canât fake at all, Iâm notoriously bad at faking any other emotion than what Iâm actually feeling, and itâs nice to know itâs able to come through the screen. Appreciate you greatly, AND your thoughts and prayers. thanks for being an awesome human. Sending you love, compassion, and prayers across the airwaves.đ
wow.. i've lost count of how many reactors I've shared their first experience with Ren. But like unique artists, reactors are unique too and I found myself surprisingly teary-eyed while watching your reaction. Your authentication thoughts and emotions flooded through your video just like Ren's did to you. Thanks so much for your bravery and sharing. I wish you and your loved ones success!
Your words are bringing tears to my eyes, James, thank you for your kindness and encouragement, and willingness to take a chance at watching; my number one goal is to help people feel connected in any way, so I appreciate any time someone lets me know it resonates.đ
I've only recently started watching reaction videos. It's a good thing I'm retired because I'd lose my job due to the lack of sleep I'm experiencing now binging on them. But the reactions I've seen and the comments I've read are exploding my heart with joy :)
Thank you for this. When I was at my lowest it was people like you on CZcams showing me I wasn't actually alone that helped me get through it. That part where he says "I've spent half my life ill" gets me every time too.
I, too, have Lyme that went undiagnosed for 25 years... Also Endometriosis, bi polar, anxiety, CFS, Fibrimyalgia, and heart failure (because of the Lyme)... I'm 59. By the Grace of God I am alive. Ren is bringing us all together. It's a pleasure to meet you, Beautuful! â€
I've never wanted to give a hug to a person I haven't met more than right now. This is more than your typical reaction video. This is something I will share with others. I needed it. They need it. Frankly, we all need it. Thank you so much for opening up and sharing this with us. Ren will change lives with this.... but your video will too. Thank you. * virtual hug *
Brian, I am a big fan of sending virtual hugs across the airwaves, so know that I really appreciate your words and send them right back to you. As far as the rest of your comment goes, itâs taking me a little while to reply because I was honestly speechless. Your words touched my heart in a way that I canât really give an adequate description to, and I am so grateful and glad to know that you were able to resonate with my little reaction video, and it was able to help you in anyway. My number one goal with anything that I share is to always help people feel a little less alone, and a little more understood, so your comment really does mean the world to me. I canât wait to keep going on this journey, specifically into Renâs music, because I had a feeling itâs gonna be quite an awesome ride. I really appreciate you joining me for it! Take care of yourself. đ
your comment is really warming my heart
"Hi Ren" is reaching so many people, and that is a beautiful thought. He has definitely done something special with this song. Rock on Ren, Rock on.
I think this is only the 2nd comment I've ever left on a video in 10+ years. Great reaction video. I'm grateful you got something from HI REN. Just want to let you know I wish you the best in your recovery. Your husband's a lucky man and you're a beautiful lady.
Take care
Oh my gosh, your reaction moved me so much. What a beautiful spirit you have.
You are so kind, thank you so much. Iâm grateful to hear it resonated with you. Bless you.đ
Thanks for sharing your own experience. Having a bit of insight into these diseases makes it all the more incredible that Ren not only wrote that song, but he performed it and recorded it in a single take. Amazing.
Personally, I think Sick Boi would give you more insight into Ren than some of his other songs, but there are many good ones out there.
Yeah, itâs absolutely AMAZING, indeed, that he did it all in one take. I hadnât heard that (thanks for confirming!) but I thought that might be the case as I was watching the video. It just shows you how skilled and talented he really is, because one-takes are hard, especially when itâs a longer song with so many different pieces and transitions, etc.
Sick Boi is definitely near the top of my list; Iâm really eager to start digging into more of his music, but Iâm also impatient-when I find an artist I like, whose music Iâve somehow missed before, my instinct is to go listen to their entire discography in order ASAP. I donât do so well with the delayed gratification thing.đ€·đŒââïž
When I saw people were asking for a reaction to this song/video, I had a feeling his whole catalogue was going to hit home HARD, and Iâm actively resisting my instinctual urge to listen to his songs ahead of time, so my reactions can be legit first reactions.
I think most everyone who has multiple chronic illnesses understands this video to the core of our beings. It's everything that we all live with on a daily basis. I am in my 60s now, having lived my whole life with multiple rare disorders. This video is the struggle we all deal with every day of our lives. The struggle that society gives us expecting us to live the way they do. But we can't because we are us, not them. We learn to do things our own way. deb
I so appreciate you stopping by, and youâre right-this cuts straight to the core of our being. Ren is such a special artist and a force to be reckoned with, and I love how well he encapsulates the struggle with his lyrics. I really appreciate you taking time to watch, and I hope you find continued healing.đ
This reaction is absolutely the best one Iâve seen of for this song. I felt every word of his song and all of his music. He has become a huge part of my playlists and daily music intake. Heâs phenomenal. Thank you for your honesty, your ability to be vulnerable and show how this has impacted you as well.
Also, I thought he looked incredibly young but heâs our age, 30s đ
My god, woman. This is the best reaction I've seen to this video, and I've watched almost every one. Thank you. Your genuine vulnerability is astounding, and though I don't like humans in general, I would welcome you to live next door. Again, thank you. And bless you.
Bless you, friend, this was so kind and encouraging to read, and put a genuine smile on my face, which can be hard to find at times. And your part about welcoming me next door means a LOT to me, because Iâm not a huge fan of in-person human interaction, either (but Iâd take you up on it!). Thanks so much for the smile.
You didn't flinch or shake either - the fact that you are here now, so full of compassion and love, is a testament to your courage and strength, keep up the good work
Iâm definitely guilty of downplaying how big of a victory it is that Iâm even still alive, thank you for that reminder, sincerely. I really appreciate your encouragement.đ
Amen
In less than a day I discovered Ren and found one of my new favorite reaction channels! đ love your reaction and the way you broke down the lyrics and the real emotion you showed, it was amazing. Keep up the amazing work you do đđ
Bless you, friend, Iâm so thankful you took time to leave such a kind comment-it gave me such a huge heart-smile and warmed my soul. I really appreciate you taking time to watch, and Iâm glad you enjoyed this one! đ
I try to be as real as possible, especially when the subject matter hits close to home. Any emotions you see me share in any video (and I run the gamut of emotions, for sure) are my 100% raw, honest, and real - Iâm actually notoriously bad at faking or forcing emotions, definitely a heart-on-my-sleeve person.đ
Iâm so thankful you not only found Ren (because heâs AMAZING), but that you also happened to check out my content-it means the world to me!
@@BeccaDoss you are a blessing, I have been watching your reactions and they are brilliant. You actually listen and take time to construct your thoughts and opinions and you do it in such an eloquent way. I can tell when a reactor isnât serious or is faking a reaction, but I knew instantly you were genuine by how you presented yourself. This rant has been too long, but itâs refreshing to see someone like yourself who is real, authentic, and a beautiful and soul break down, in my opinion, one of the best art works of recent times.
I donât know what to even say. Iâve watched over 100 reactions, for the soul fact that I yearn to see other reactions to this that are identical to mine and yours was as close as it comes. Thank you so much. I canât stop listening to this song!
Thank you for sharing your struggles. It is beautiful to see and hear. You are amazing! Everything about you
Thank you for sharing details in your life. We can only dream of having the strength you have
I have had MS since 16, and Iâm 41 now. This song, it hits so hard. Over and over
Keep doing what you do. The world needs it!!
I went undiagnosed for 5 years and it was the worst 5 years of my life. Iâm sorry for what all you have suffered with. No one can imagine. But some of us can. Hang in there. Youâve got this dear!
I donât have the words I wish I had to reply adequately, but I wanted you to know I read this, every word, and it moved my soul, deeply. Iâm so sorry to hear about your own pain and suffering, and Iâm also glad youâre here, if only to realize you are NOT alone. Thank you for feeling safe enough to let me hold space for part of your story.đ
Amazing heartfelt reaction from you to this masterpiece by Ren. Iâve watched so many reactions to this and yours, like many others brought a different perspective on the song so I thank you for that. Iâve suffered with chronic depression for many years now and Iâm 59yo and so many lines in this song resonate with me and I think that most of the 6m + people who have watched his video will find at least one aspect they relate to. I wish you well in your own battle and I hope Ren watches this reaction as he has others and Iâm sure he will comment. He lives in Brighton UK another far from me and often does impromptu gigs and busks on the streets. He is currently in Canada getting more treatment but I hope he returns soon and we hear more. Andy UK
Wow, Andy, thanks so much for taking time to share a piece of your own story, it sounds like youâve definitely been through the ringer. Iâm so glad youâve been able to resonate with this song and hiss music, and youâre right, Iâd say everyone who watches it could at least relate to one of more lyrics. I also really appreciate your encouragement - and Ren just sounds like a really awesome dude. How cool that he does impromptu concerts like that!
I believe he has a new track dropping at the end of March, so get hypeddd.
this reaction made me remind myself, once again, that I shouldnât just ruminate on Renâs struggle. rather, anyone else who is struggling under similar circumstances and deserves the recognition. thank you.
Thanks for taking time to watch and leave an insightful comment-itâs definitely easy to focus on one personâs struggle (whether an artist, or even our own struggles) at times, and thatâs one reason I try to make some of the raw, real content I make, to help others realize weâre not actually all that different, even if we have different demons or inner critics weâre facing. And Iâm so glad this was able to spark that train of thought for you-I really appreciate you sharing it.đ
none should gauge their own struggles against anyone elseâs, rather we should be mindful of each otherâs hardships⊠we all must learn and encourage ourselves to respect the progress weâve built and created on our own! thank you for the reply and thank you for being vulnerable here
@@artandcapitaI Couldnât have said it better myself, friend.đ
This was a beautiful reaction and pleasure to watch but I just wanted to say that everyone flinches and shakes even Ren, but hope can still stand strong and I know that yours does, because you stand here before me today. Much love and all the best. :D
Thank you SO MUCH for this comment and pointing out that reminder I know I need often: that everyone has moments where they feel shaken or like theyâre literally or metaphorically flinching. Itâs always good to remember itâs kind of a universal experience of being human, no matter what our specific individual struggles may be. Really appreciate your kindness and encouragement.đđ
Hey Becca, I searched a few comments but didn't see anyone share it yet but if u look closely this is performed in one take with a mic on collar and his guitar plugged into a transmitter, only thing done in post is the different camera angles. Really brilliant work and wholehearted. And I loved your response, so genuine and heartfelt!
Honestly this is the best reaction to this song i've seen so far and i've seen SO MANY... Especially how the line " the voice that you heard when you loosen the noose on the rope " hit you.. Most people just glance over that but it's one of the most powerful lines in this song.
I think i finally figured out why i cant stop watching reaction videos of REN's "Hi Ren"
The medication i take for chronic back pain and a chemically damaged brain leaves me feeling like im walking in a "chalk outline." watching the reaction videos makes me realize others feel the way i do and it makes my disability self pity voice go away. And im able to feel again for a short time while eatching.
Thank you for your reaction video, i feel therefore im alive!
That makes so much sense to me. Often weâre drawn to things because our souls just need them on some level. And music videos and songs like this, that strike chord and hit painfully close to home for many, can really help us feel less alone in our battle.
You are definitely not alone, and I am SO glad youâre able to at least tap into emotion when watching. I love your statement at the end: I feel, therefore Iâm alive.â That is SUCH powerful truth, and I hope youâre able to keep finding more moments where you FEEL-both emotions, AND the truth of that statement.đđ«
Thanks for your perspective, very moving, love yourself, you're wonderful
Thank you so much for the kind words and support, and for taking time to watch and leave a comment. This is such a cathartic song, so Iâm just glad so many people have been able to connect to it, and itâs an honor to be able to share my perspective. Take care of yourself.đ
âShe sells seashells by the seashoreâ is actually a callback to his song âMoney Game part 2â. Both part 1 and 2 are social commentary. He describes part 2 as âBusiness economics in a nursery rhymeâ.
I love it even more! I figured there was a deeper layer or Easter egg there that I hadnât caught since Iâm new to him yet. Looking forward to catching up on the rest of his songs, but MAN itâs an exercise in patience to not just go listen NOW and get up to date on his entire discography. Iâm honestly FLOORED I havenât heard him before now, that surprised me more than anything, so Iâm excited for this ride and thrilled to have ton come along!đđ
â@@BeccaDoss It's also a reference to an Eminem song, just like the guitar riffs at the start borrow from yet another Eminem song. As his dark side is keen to remind him, Ren is heavily influenced by Eminem. Of course, he does things here that Eminem never did.
@@stevensudit oh it 100% is. I can def see Emâs influence in his music (Iâve been a huge Em Stan since 1999, that man can do things with words no one else has yet to figure out, he blows my mind, and 8 hope he drops something new soon so I can react to it, too. Sorry, got off track, but yeah, youâre absolutely right, when the guitar at the beginning first started, my first thought was âEm!â B7 j was already pausing it enough, I didnât want to make it even worse.đ€Ł
I just now ran into this very old video of Ren. His singing isn't at his current level, but the song is very much in the same spirit as Hi Ren. czcams.com/video/284ugnS_ruQ/video.html&ab_channel=AyeshaJones
@@stevensudit Yes! This was in the documentary âUnrestâ about ME/CFS.. I saw it in 2017 but didnât know who Ren was back then.. so didnât think anything of it when he was in the doco. I rewatched it as soon as I realised. He does an interview as well as playing this song. â€ïž
God bless you, Becca. Thank you. I've been living for 9 years with a traumatic brain injury at the end of my life (now 68 years old.) I know the struggle and isolation, the physical and psychological pain. Thank you for using this platform to share that chronic Chronic CHRONIC health issues are challenging but there is still life to be lived.
God bless you, Becca. Thank you. I've been living for 9 years with a traumatic brain injury at the end of my life (now 68 years old.) I know the struggle and isolation, the physical and psychological pain. Thank you for using this platform to share that chronic Chronic CHRONIC health issues are challenging but there is still life to be lived.
Thank you so much for stopping by and sharing some of your own story. Iâm sorry to hear about your pain, but Iâm so glad you were able to enjoy this reaction. Always trying to find ways to enjoy life despite the pain. Sending you all my love and compassion. I appreciate you.đ
I haven't had Ren's, or your battles, but I have spent most of my 37 years battling misdiagnosis after misdiagnosis, brain damage from drowning as a child, further issues from multiple head injuries as an athlete, then surviving a series of strokes in my late 20's, then as recently as last summer being diagnosed with essentially ADHD turned up to 11.
I cannot fucking get enough of Ren...
I haven't been able to stop thinking about Hi Ren since I was first suggested to me by a friend.
Every. Single. Time I watch it, I find myself completely full of feelings.
I feel completely dejected, then hugely elated, simultaneously filled with dread that my creative brain might have atrophied since the stroke, but also there's a huge, emotional rush of motivation and creativity.
Hi Ren, Ren's story, and all the stories I'm watching of people like yourself relating hard to everything he says it's so... Hopeful. The solitude of the last couple of decades seems to feel lesser than it ever has.
Thank you Ren, and everyone moved by him for making me feel simply less alone! đ
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Benjamin, itâs taken me a little while to respond to your comment because I wanted to give it the time and attention it deserved. I first want to thank you for sharing just part of what is an absolutely painful journey, because Iâm sure even recounting the things that youâve endured can bring up any number of difficult emotions and memories. Iâm so glad youâve been able to find solace in his music, and it really means a lot to me that you took time to watch this, to comment, and to share your own story and let me know you resonated with my video. My whole goal in all of this is just to help at least one other person feel a little less alone, and if thatâs something Iâm able to do in anyway, all of my own suffering is worth it. I hope youâre able to take care of yourself and find moments of peace and joy amidst the chaos and turbulence that we can find in this world.
Thank you so much for your perspective. I really hope Ren sees this !
Thank you so much, Erica! It was a blessing to be able to record and share this. I had no idea he actually watches some of these, so that would be icing on top of the metaphorical cake, but Iâm mostly just thankful others are able to relate, thatâs my number one goal with everything I share.đ
@@BeccaDoss He often watches and comments even! I think you will really love Sick Boi and Chalk Outlines as well.
@@emhutch25 Iâve got them on the list, thanks!
This right here is why I love Ren.
He's saying the quiet part out loud, for so many of us.
It's so very healthy for all of us to know, we don't struggle alone.
Okay, now I've finished watching your reaction, some final thoughts..
Firstly, 34? Actually? I honestly would've guessed maybe 22 at the most.
and finally, I couldn't help but admire your authenticity and vulnerability.
You easily earned a sub from me.
Thank you for your reaction.
YES! He absolutely is doing just that! Community and connection is so healing, and knowing weâre not alone is one of the most powerful forces to drive that healing. Couldnât have said it better, myself.đ
Just now saw the second part of your comment, and I just want to say thanks again for the support! Itâs been a long time since someone has said I look younger than I am, so Iâll take it! (I used to get it a lot, but comments mostly stopped around age 30), I try to embrace any aging I have as a gift of more time to figure out how to truly thrive in this life thing and connect with others. And with music like this, people can relate and connect with each other more than they may ever otherwise do.đ
@@BeccaDoss you are truly welcome, thank you for being you.
4 years learning English?! You are super smart, Iâm still learning after 40-odd years.
I donât I was as clear as I meant to be when I said that part. I grew up here in the USA, so Iâve been speaking English my whole life. But I spent 4 years in college/university getting a degree in English Language and Literature, so thatâs what my 4-year remark was about. And even though I have that degree, and have spoken English my entire life, Iâm STILL learning more, myself. I honestly donât think Iâll ever NOT be a student of language, especially since some of it changes in flux with the times. Really appreciate you!đ
I've never heard a song that perfectly described my inner struggle like this before. Since I watched the video I've been binging reaction videos of the song. I'M not sure why. Somehow its helping me to process my emotions by watching others react. Your reaction will be the last one I watch of Hi Ren, cause you are the first one that had all the same emotions I had and somehow it helps. I don't need to watch other reactions now, i found what I was looking for. Thank you.
Wow, this is a comment that has taken me a couple days to formulate a reply to, because it touched my heart in such a deep way. I totally understand how falling down the rabbit hold of binge watching reactions to songs that resonate- my own experience and hypothesis, is that, when weâre able to experience something powerful like this âwithâ other people, even if thatâs via the Internet, it helps us all tap into a sense of connection and shared, common humanity. Which inevitably helps us feel less alone, even if our specific struggles can vary. It absolutely means so much to my heart to know that you were able to connect to all of the emotions I shared here, and it was able to help in anyway. I really donât have the words to tell you how grateful I am that you had that experience, and took time to let me know. I really appreciate you, sending you all the love and compassion in the world as you continue your own journey.đ
â@@BeccaDoss Thank you so much to take the time to craft such a thoughtful and beautiful reply. Most people won't. It is not lost on me that you are going through so much yourself, yet you made time to respond to a stranger. Your compassion blows me away. You just made my day so much better. Thank you
What a absolute gem of a reaction becca. I was totally moved by your emotions here and felt it in every second. It is so wonderful that ren is able to give others hope and strength with his music and message. He is truly something special.
He was born in 1990 by the way. More information is on his wikipedia page named "Ren (British musician)" where you can read more about him. He has so much more music in his repertoire and this is just one tiny facette of his talent.
I wish you all the strength and love in the world to overcome your own demons.
Thank you so much, I really appreciate all of your kind and encouraging words, they mean a lot to me. He really is a special person and artist, and I canât wait to get into more of his music!
Thanks for the info on the birthday; I admittedly shouldâve done more research if I was even going to throw any guesses about age in there in my video, so that was for totally my bad. It actually helps me relate even more, because heâs just under 2 years younger than me (born in 1988).
Iâll definitely be reacting to more of his in the future, thatâs for sure! Thanks again for your support, just taking it one day at a time.đ
I loved your open take on this so much! Although I do struggle with auto immune issues, I also have battled my eating disordered demons for over 15 years, and even though I am "recovered" in other peoples eyes... it's all I could think about when I first heard this excellent song. The never ending battle between darkness and light and the fight to keep on the right track despite what the other voice incessantly whispers in my ear... man... it really resounded with me as well.
Iâm sorry to hear of your own struggles, and I hope this song/video, and maybe even my reaction (or others) can help you feel a little less alone. That ED voice is so loud long after others think weâve ârecovered,â because they think physical recovery is all it takes if they havenât had to deal with it. Hoping you get more moments of peace and hope amidst the chaos of that voice. This internet stranger is proud of you for doing the work youâve done-itâs not easy, ESPECIALLY alongside chronic illness.đ
I've watched many reactions to Hi Ren, but yours is the only one that made me cry. I don't understand your pain with the eating disorder, it's something I've never experienced (though I empathize with it and wish you the best in regards to your recovery from it) but I absolutely relate to your chronic illness and mental illness struggles. I have autoimmune disease, fibro, and a neurological motor disorder which disables me. I have also had depression since childhood. I've even had Lyme disease but it was caught fairly early and successfully treated, though it caused some nerve damage that's exacerbated by my pre-existing autoimmune disease. You of course must know how "lovely" comorbid conditions are that way! And like Ren, my autoimmune disease was misdiagnosed as psychosomatic mental illness for 15 years, and the medication they gave me just made everything worse. Seeing how deeply his performance affected you touched me, and I appreciate you sharing your own experiences. I subscribed, because I want to see how you progress in your recovery. Best of luck to you, and take care of yourself.
Best reaction yet. Thank you for going on the journey with us to watch with you
Thank you so much, Adam. This means the world to me, especially since I didnât realize until editing that I did not plan my camera placement well, and it was shaking so much. Thankfully Iâve found a way to remedy that since, but it always makes my heart smile knowing someone is able to relate to and/or enjoy this reaction despite my brain fog-induced camera decision. I couldnât be more grateful to be on this journey, which started with Hi Ren, here, but has thankfully continued since then. This community has been a very bright spot when other things can get pretty dark, and I may be rambling a bit due to insomnia, but I really appreciate you taking time to both watch and to let me know you enjoyed it.đ
Suffering myself from double depression, depersonalization, anxiety disorder and a chronical pain disorder (e.g. 20+ days with headaches / month) for decades by now I feel so connected to Ren and this masterful piece of art he created and gave us. I wish I could hear the hope side stronger or at all. But he gives hope to hear hope some day.
My best wishes or you!
I feel your pain very literally (the cold pack on my head is there 24/7, only occasionally removed for pictures or a shorter video) because of a headache that started on January 20, 2013, and hasn't left since, not for a single day. I'm sending you all my empathy and compassion across the airwaves, and I'm also with you on having trouble hearing that voice of hope, but clinging to things like this song as proof that it can exist and even grow stronger. Take care of yourself!đ
Young lady as a 60 year old man who has lived with voices in my head all of my life I just want to say your doing greatđfor 40 years I suppressed all of my feelings and voices in fear of ridicule and yes I suffered but acceptance of mental illness has fortunately come a long way đseeking help 15 years ago saved my life and talking was key to my survival x it never goes away but with time we can be master of our demons
Rob, your words mean more to me than I can say in this comment. Thank you so much for taking the time to write something so thoughtful and encouraging, and for sharing a little of your own story. I hate that the stigma in society and general lack of understanding about mental health causes you to go so long without being able to speak up and seek/find help. Iâm SO glad you were finally able to do that 15 years ago, and that you discovered the power of talking and not holding onto everything by yourself. Your last sentence sums it up perfectly.đ
Hi, I came over from the comment section in Justin Hawkins to give you a sub.
I like your honesty. Fellow chronic health and pain since mid 2000's, mid 50's now.
Thanks so much for stopping by; Iâm sorry you know the pain so well, but I wish you the best as you continue to manage it and live life. Really appreciate you taking time to leave the comment and to sub.đ
This was my fave review/reaction to Hi Ren! Hope and pray for your continued journey along the path Becca...
That makes my heart so happy to hear, thank you!đđ
*I have seen over 40 reactions to this masterpiece and if someone paused it more than 5 times I cut it off. You get a pass all* *day and everyday from me. I think this song helped you more than most and thatâs why he wrote it. God Bless you and all that* *you have and are going through. If this song gets just one person that might be struggling to loosen the noose on the rope itâs* *all worth it. REN needs to see this. âWhen I am gone I will rise in the music that I left behindâ P.S. The reactor with the lowest* *number of subs Iâve subscribed to is a little over 20,000 now itâs 538 BECCA DOSS*
Wow, DW, your comment literally has me at a loss for words, your kindness and compassion is very evident in your words and it touched my soul in a way Iâm struggling to describe.
This song definitely helped me a LOT, because I could literally feel his pain and desperation firsthand-Iâve been there, and itâs a really hard place to be. And the fact that he brings it back around to hope and strength at the end really gave me chills (AND hope).
Iâm right there with you: if this song can help even one person loosen that rope, itâs all worth it, and I have a feeling itâs probably helped more than one person, just based on the sheer amount of traction and momentum itâs getting online. Iâve always loved by that principle, too. When I first started struggling with mental and physical health issues 20+ years ago, I told myself from the beginning that if sharing my own journey could help one person feel less alone in any way, itâs all worth it. And I LOVE that line you quoted there. Absolutely great stuff.đ
I know I tend to pause a little âtoo oftenâ (more than a lot of other reactors, at least) with some songs/videos, just because itâs REALLY hard for me to stay quiet if something strikes a chord with me or catches my attention, and if I donâf say it when I first think it, I will 100% forget.đ But I AM trying it get better at making sure I rewind the videos a little in the moments I pause it so the transitions are a little smoother.
I resisted leaning into going the direction of a reaction channel for a while, but seeing how many people are able to resonate with this, and let me know they enjoyed it and would like to see more-I donât even care about the analytics, I just love the human connection and shared experience this type of music can give. So Iâm done resisting snd Iâm leaning into it full-force, because letâs be real, I really enjoy making them, too!đ The fact that you took time to sub also means the world to me-your support is so appreciated!
Hi @@BeccaDoss, as you can tell from the other comments there are a lot of people bingeing tens of reaction videos to this song. This is *my* "I've watched [X] reactions" comment, your video has connected with me so much that it's the first time I've felt moved to reply.
Whatever effect your illnesses have had on your ability to write, they definitely haven't stopped you being able to communicate. I feel incredibly fortunate not to have had to deal with the issues that people are resonating with in this song, and of all the reactions to Hi Ren, yours in particular has helped me⊠not so much "_understand_" because I don't know that I can truly understand something I haven't experienced⊠but certainly _appreciate_ those experiences in a new way. Framing the similarities between your own experiences and Ren's opens my eyes more to the difficulties people with chronic disorders and mental health issues suffer continually, and to be honest make the lyrics in the song even deeper.
Like DW I also tend to worry when reactors keep pausing so much: it's such a dense song and I don't like people to miss ANY of it. But also like DW I was _completely_ here for your responses. It was clear how engaged you were with the song and that if you felt you were missing anything - even if it was a transition you were cutting into - that you were going back to make sure you got the full effect. If you're anything like me you've re-listened to this a lot since recording this.
Thank you for associating with this in such an eloquent way!
@@garethadams5580 â Gareth, I thought I replied to this several days ago, Iâm only now seeing I didnât, and my apologies for that. I couldnât reply when I first read it, because it touched my heart so much that I didnât have the words to type. If you only knew how much it means to hear that I am able to still communicate effectively despite the loss of some of the more traditional ways I used to be able to write, it means more than I can really explain. I appreciate you so greatly for not only taking time to watch, but taking time to comment when you donât typically comment a lot, and even more so, taking time to leave such an encouraging comment to let me know that you enjoyed the video. I never in my life expected this kind of response to sharing these reactions, but Iâm so thankful to be a part of this community now, itâs truly unlike any other Iâve ever been a part of online or off-line. Take care of yourself, and thanks for being a cool human.đ
Hope you continue to react to his music. You display a great amount of tact, intelligence, and strength of character. His song "Sick boi" has been called a companion piece to "Hi Ren" as is, I think, his song "Chalk outlines". His "Tale of Jenny and Screech (Full version) really shows off his storytelling skills. The reference in "Hi Ren" to selling sea shells is a callback to his song "Money game Part 2". "Money game part 1" and "How to be me" are also fantastic. To see his truly awesome rapping skills check out "The Hunger" and "Losing it"
I really appreciate you taking time to type all of that out, thank you! Iâve added them all to the list! Itâs killing me to wait to listen, but I refuse to post reactions that arenât true first listens, so that just means I need to get on it as soon as Iâm physically able!đđ
âââ@@BeccaDoss I fully support this comment. Sick boi I believe would be a direct follow up to understand more of his stance on the "psychological warfare", what he feels being in the Healthcare system like that and the state of the world. His rapping skills are also really good especially in The Hunger, Knox Hill did a break down of it if you need help understanding the rhyme schemes and the double/triple meanings behind his words.
Edit: just checked out your channel and subscribed and I see a few more reactions. I'll definitely be watching
@@kylewatson7639 Thank you, Kyle! Appreciate you!
Awesome reaction video. I've watched about 10-15 of the big name reactors and yours was the most intriguing, helpful and honest. I think you and Ren would be a great team together and maybe you can visit him or him you. I think he's in Canada going thru treatment right now, but I just picture you 2 together in both your struggles. God Bless you both and everyone going thru their own difficulties.
Craig, your words made me smile and mean so much to me, thank you. I try to keep things as honest and real as I can, and this just really resonated with me since I know firsthand some of the battles heâs faced. Iâd love to meet up with him someday, but Iâm more than happy to keep connecting to people here who find my content resonates with them-thatâs always my number one goal, to help just one person feel a little less alone or a little more understood.đ
No matter how many reaction videos I watch of Hi Ren, I weep. This is powerful art
Absolutely, it really is one of a kind!
Depression, Insomnia, Chalk Outlines, Crutch, Diazepam, and Sick Boi, honestly all great songs. All very heavy
The Tales Trilogy- Jennyâs Tale, Screechâs Tale, Violetâs Tale (Full) will hit your literary itch.
One of my favorites is How to Be Me about him coping after a friendâs suicide. Heavy.
Fun songs like Love Music parts 1-3, What You Want, Bittersweet Symphony, and Power.
Busking stuff w/ The Big Push like Bongo Bong, I Shot the Sherrif.
He is a Swiss Army knife of an artist and he has so much to get into. Different every time.
Listen to none, some, or all⊠but.. no matter what you do.. Iâm sure we all hope you find inspiration to help you to live each day and try to really live it in any way you can. Ren made Hi Ren for himself and to help anyone else he possibly could.
He has some vlogs about his struggles. I do suggest them. Even above his music. They may really help.
THANK YOU for this super comprehensive list and comment! Iâm definitely saving the recommendations, itâs really helpful that you typed it all out. And I definitely will check out those vlogs; Iâm a big fan of vlogs in general, and Iâm sure his are a vulnerable and enlightening window into his lived experience. đ
It's very rare and very hard to me to cry (basically only at funerals or when I was very depressed it happened), and by now I must have seen way over 50 reactions of "Hi Ren" and yours made me cry for the time in a about 1.5 years. Especially your reaction to the "Loosen the nose on the rope". Exactly as you said it, being in bed laying on just hoping you would die, because taking your own life would be too hard, is something that happened to me so many times during my severe depression. That hit me really really hard. Thank you very much for your very moving reaction and your story. Much love!
Iâm so glad to know you were able to emotionally connect with this one; I know it can be difficult to cry, whether it feels physically impossible or whether we just get stuck in the cycle of not letting ourselves feel those overwhelmingly sad emotions, so it means the world to me that you took time to share how this one emotionally impacted you. I donât take that lightly at all, and itâs honestly an honor to have you share here in this comment section. Iâm so sorry for the pain that you know all too well, and please know you are not alone.đ
Reading your comment is filling my heart with love and soooo want to hug you :( !!
Great reaction and I wish you all the very best in your ongoing recovery.
Thanks so much, thatâs such a kind thing to say. Iâm glad you enjoyed the reaction!đ
Great reaction! I myself am dealing with the side effects and leftover damage from my battle with stage 4 cancer. And I've come to see that whatever it is that is the root of our journey most of us suffering can relate in many ways without walking the same track. I think this was a really good reaction, I think when the reactor has a similar struggle or mindset it will obviously have a bigger impact. The only criticism I would have is that you personally would benefit doing a slight rewind after each pause.
Thank you so much for taking time to leave such a thoughtful, kind comment, and I agree with a lot of what you said. Sometimes the personal connection is just obvious and makes for a major impact when it comes to vulnerable tracks like this. Iâm sorry to hear of your own health struggles, as well. Thatâs such a hard road to be on, and while it seems like it helped give you some of that perspective, I still wish you werenât having to deal with any of that leftover damage and side effects.
As far as your last note goes, if you decide to watch any more of my reactions, I promise you I get much better about rewinding it to not miss lines as time goes on. Iâd say my first few Re(n)actions, while some of my most emotional, were the ones where I was trying to get my rhythm down with filming, and while I rewound parts, Iâve made sure to keep being more intentional about it to make sure the song gets time to play as well as be dissected/analyzed. Thanks for adding this part, though, Iâm always up for suggestions people have on how I can make the content more enjoyable for viewers.đđ
A great reaction, and thank you for sharing with us your battles. It added to the messages and impact of that song. Ren is actually a Welsh (or British) singer, not English.
Thanks, I pulled that quote from the an article I was reading (but skimming, to avoid spoilers), and I should done due diligence and verified it. Thanks for the clarification, and Iâm sorry I got that wrong!
Also, thanks so much for your support and encouragement-it really means more to me than my words can say when anyone is able to resonate or connect with something I share. Thanks for taking time to comment and let me know.đ
After I first heard this song I started watching a load of reactions videos for it. Every reaction video I watched I could see how much it touched people but I felt it touched you much deeper. I hope he has contacted you. â€â€
Thank you so much, Iâm so glad the emotion is able to be felt through the screen. He really created a unique masterpiece with this one. Absolutely amazing. And it did resonate with me on a deeper level than I can even put into words.đ
Fellow ED fighter, hypersensitivity PTSD neurodivergent here. I feel you and I see you đ«¶đ» I am amazed every single day at how Ren's art manages to grab you by your soul and makes you spill your guts. Throughout comment sections of reaction videos people are sharing, uplifting, comforting and encouraging each other in a way I have never seen. It's like the kind of group therapy you never knew existed. We are many and our love is neverending. We give to others what we ourselves have needed for so long and it's truly beautiful đ€đ€đ€
Iâm so thankful you took time to watch, and SO glad it resonated with you, though I hate to hear you have had so many of these same struggles, and deal with so much on a daily basis. I also totally agree, I have never found another and they support community that is so incredibly supportive, whether itâs people we need comments on Renâs videos, whether itâs all of the people who participate on the discord server, or like you said, just seeing everyone show up in all of the CZcams comments, or both absolutely unlike anything Iâve seen from any other community, online or off-line. Itâs definitely an awesome form of collective group therapy, I think. You nailed that.đđ
I'm with you all the way.....Love to you
Oh honey...I just want to hug you right now.
You are so real, so vulnerable, so articulate and my most favourite reactor, by a light year.
My journey is major depressive disorder 58 years, chronic pain 38 years, fibromyalgia 40 years, psoriatic arthritis 39 years, suicidal ideation 58 years.
This song *is me*, as it is you, as it is Ren.
Again, from this 64yo Aussie queer, disabled woman, to you, Becca, hugs. So many hugs.
These words mean more than I can say, thank you, friend. Sending love your way.đ
On the last comment I left on a Hi Ren reaction video I said that my critical voice had felt indistinguishable from me. It was my identity. So when you said something similar it really hit.
Hi Ren has given my healthy voice a voice I can actually believe in ( faking it till you make it would never work for me). It's been 40 plus years of work to get to hear that voice and even though I'm not naive enough to think it's a way out its a major step forward.
It's never too late to find what you need if you don't quit searching.
Hey Phil, I am SO with you on âfake it till you make itâ not being a strategy thatâs effective for me. I understand how it is for some, but itâs never been one to work with my brain. And Iâve tried for many years. I love reading that Hi Ren has helped you connect with your Healthy Self voice in a way where you actually believe in it-that is AMAZING, and Iâm sure Ren would be thrilled to know that. Itâs definitely hard when our identities are so intertwined with the battle weâre facing, whatever our inner critic or struggle is, and we can definitely lose sight of who we are (or it we are anything at all) outside of our struggle. Iâm glad you were able to resonate with that concept.
Being able to connect to your HS voice at all is a HUGE deal, and no small feat, whatsoever! Especially when youâve been working at it for 40+ years. Iâm so glad you have at least reached that point, because it makes further healing, and giving yourself grace and compassion, feel much more possible.
And I am absolutely in love with the last sentence you wrote. Itâs so true. The only real âfailureâ is if we quit trying to find our way. There is no âtoo lateâ if weâre actively searching and working on things. It just takes the time it takes, and thereâs nothing wrong with that.
@@BeccaDoss Thanks for the in depth reply Becca. Your video reaction was incredible open and honest. I liked that there was room for a few laughs too. We don't always attach enough importance to things that make us smile. Keep up that search. My best wishes go with you.
She sells sea shells on the sea shore - he really did do it before. Ren - Money Game Part 2. I think I've watched every reaction to Hi Ren over the past three days, your raw, emotional, true reaction was by and far the best.
A couple people have noted that, so itâs definitely on my list to get to eventually! Thank you for taking time to explain-Iâm always up for learning more! And I really appreciate your kind words, I just try to keep everything raw and real, and thatâs what youâre seeing here. Pure emotion I couldnât have faked if I tried. (Iâm actually really bad at faking emotion for the sake of effect)
@@BeccaDoss I never, ever write on CZcams comments but you brought out the better in me as I watched yours. May your good days be great and your bad days be tempered, look forward to seeing more content of yours :)
@@RedWill42 That makes me appreciate your words even more Will, thank you!đ
I hope Ren pops by to see this... he probably will do ... my favourite artist in years
I find it fantastic that the people who realy struggle like you are so mentaly strong compared to all the wannebees outthere . Who claim they have this or that and only take up space for people who realy need help . I can see you aswel as Ren struggled but it did made you stronger . This reaction alone is prove of this .
Hi Ren is resonating with so many people who can relate to at least some of the aspects in the lyrics ⊠in your case it is clear this hits home more than most though. I hope that you got some encouragement from his situation that shows even in the face of such difficulty for so long, there has at least been something lasting and worthwhile that has resulted. He is also reminding everyone that we all struggle and normalizing the discussion is OK. I hope your own battle gets easier. Best wishes from the UK
Thank you for such a thoughtful comment, it really touched my heart. I absolutely took hope and encouragement and determination from this video, along with all the difficult emotions, and itâs a blessing to see anyone turn their pain into such a wonderful masterpiece that touches literal millions. Appreciate your support and so happy you stopped by!đ
I've watched endless reactions to this song and your reaction truly moved me, I cried right along with ya. I hope Ren sees your reaction! Check out his song Chalk Outlines with Chinchilla (Live version) it's stunning!
Ashley, your words touched my soul deeply, thank you so much for your kind heart. And I've got that song on the list, so as soon as health allows, I can't wait to dive into more of his back catalogue of music. Really appreciate you!đ
All the news stories I see on TV make me think it's time for a new Noah's Ark .I'm fairly new to reaction videos but Ive lost count of how many of them I've watched lately. Reaction videos such as this one and all the kind comments I've read (such as yours) are making me think there's still hope for the human race
Congratulations on the 1y anniversary of this video today.
I know it was the start of many good things.
I also can't believe this is my first comment on this video since I watched it so many times since I found it.
See you soon for the Live version you announced !
Thank you so much, Peter! I am so appreciative of your continued support! It definitely started one heckuva journey, thatâs for sure. Had some technical issues on the back end, but the new one is up now!đ
Thank you for your sincere, honest response. I send you the warmest hug you can imagine. You may feel it thousands of miles across the ocean...
Peter, thank you so much. I really appreciate your encouragement and support, and Iâm a big fan of virtual hugs, so I send one right back to you. Live long and prosper.đđŒ
Iâve watched probably close to 100 people react to this song and cry every time. To me itâs a piece of art from a genius. There is not another Ren because he can do anything! The list is long. Sick Boi and Ren x Chinchilla Chalk Outlines are needed as well. He is a wonderful amazing rapper!
Let me say this⊠I am you but undiagnosed. Ren has made me realize how much I have been dismissed by doctors! Also my eating disorder is the other way. Iâve gone from 378 Dow to 245. I am 5â10 my shoes are 12-13. I have linebacker shoulders huge hands and definitely big boned lol I have about 55 more pounds until my goal but I am still so weak. Do you have a way to contact you? Iâm getting tested for Lyme in 2 weeks.
I have been Iâll for 23 years and itâs a mystery and I accepted that for so long! No more I had a tick on my neck for almost 2 months I thought it was a mole and I had long hair. I had my hair up and my mom saw it. So I had to go get it out it was big and I have been slowly getting sicker and sicker! I had one of my thigh as well it had bit me but I got it like within a day. So if I have had Lyme all of these years it will be so sad and a relief at the same time. I know you know what I mean. There is so much more I could say but Iâm so tired and weak. I normally donât make comments but I had to make one to you. Great reaction I cried with you!
Lizzy, first of all, thank you so much for taking time to type out all that and share even just some of your story with me (I say âsomeâ because I know we all have so much more going on than what we can summarize in a few paragraphs). I feel your pain, and can feel your desperation to get the answers youâve deserved to have for so long, and itâs my hope that youâre able to finally get those answers.
I know for me, and most other people in this position re: Lyme, it was a relief to have a diagnosis-not because we WANT Lyme, but because having a known diagnosis gives us clarity and direction so we can move forward with treatment options instead of continually searching and spinning our wheels, so I totally know what you mean.
I agree on everything you said about Ren-Iâm so glad to finally be in the process of listening to all his music, and canât wait to continue to share reactions here.
Iâm not always great at replying in a timely fashion, but if youâre in Instagram, youâre welcome to contact me there (username: my.joyful.reality, same profile pic as here).
If youâre not on IG, I can try to think of another option, so please let me know. If thereâs anything Iâm able to do or say at all that can help in any way, I will. Thatâs the whole reason I do/share anything online, in the hopes of helping just one person feel less alone. Take care of yourself, Iâm sending all my empathy and compassion across the airwaves.đ
You'll appreciate the related themes in his tracks 'Sick Boi' and 'Chalk Outlines (live)'
Iâve got âem on the list! Itâs driving me crazy to not go ahead and listen to all of his music, but I am determined to deliver legitimate first reaction videos, so the fact that everyone is requesting those songs means that I need to get on it ASAP! đ Thanks for the rec!
yessss!!!! Loved your reaction. So glad that music like this as vulnerable as it is presented, can be presented to us in this way. the way these artist have been illustrating what we face in our minds, and displaying it so hauntingly beautiful is just mesmerizing. Wishing you all the best and cheering you on in your journey in recovery through anything that you have been facing, will face and have faced. You are never alone, and always have more people cheering you on and here to support you than you know ! Believing in hope for you and all of us to heal and be the best versions of ourselves.
I really, really appreciate your support, and I want to say thanks for taking time to watch this reaction, too! Iâm right there with you, artists who are able to create and share musical and cinematographic content that reaches so many on such a vulnerable level is such a wonderful gift to this world, and I canât wait to dig into more of Renâs music. Thanks for the encouragement, Iâm so glad you enjoyed it!đ
Apparently "we" hunger for that first time..a book.. a film...that band I saw...your first watch was the most incitful & raw of those I,ve seen....Best of wishes in your personal struggles....
I keep coming back to how the first line he actually sings (instead of raps) is âCower at the man I become, when I sing at the top of my lungs.â Which heâs singing at the top of his lungs, because heâs fully embraced the power of his own self. So moving.
Absolutely moving and chilling in the best way!
Absolutely love your reaction to this and will definitely check out more of your videos!
I found Ren a week ago and I've been stuck in this rabbit hole ever since, his music just hits all the strings at every level.
Take care and stay awesome!
Thanks for the support and encouragement! I'm right there with you! I hate not discovering artists when they're actually NEW, but on the other hand, I now have an ENTIRE BACL CATALOGUE of his music to dive into and enjoy, along with anything new he releases. So glad you stopped by!
You can see why we wanted you to see this. It's message is so important for 90% of the population. Even more so for people such as yourself who suffer and have suffered through extended illness.
I've seen at least 100 reactions to this and yours is one of the most relatable compassionate reactions of them all. I truly hope @renmakesmusic sees this one.
Oh I ABSOLUTELY understand why everyone kept recommending it-itâs awesome! What a masterpiece, and yes, SO relatable to people who have dealt with chronic illness, AND just anyone living life as a human with the struggles that brings. Thanks so much for your encouragement, it means the world to me.đ
Big hugs to you! This reaction was beautiful! đ€ sending you so much love!! đ
Thank you so much! I worry about this one because I wasnât prepared AT ALL, and didnât even realize how shaky my camera was until I tried to fix it in post (and failed). Iâm so glad people are able to resonate with and enjoy it even with the flaws in my editing. Thankfully, with practice, Iâve also gotten better at rewinding parts of songs to make sure I donât miss transitions, but when someone is able to see past the earlier editing issues and STILL tell me they enjoyed the video-it means the world to me.đ
@@BeccaDoss personally, I appreciate the rawness of your reaction. I thought it was perfect!
Hi Becca, I love this song, it's like therapy for me, and a have seen nearly every reaction to it. Yours is one of the best and very touching. Thank you so much!
I absolutely agree, this song is totally a therapeutic and cathartic listening experience, I know Iâll continue returning to it for that reason, myself.
Thank you so much for your encouragement as kind words, Iâm really glad you were able to enjoy this reaction, my number one goal with anything I share has always been to be transparent, real, and vulnerable, because if sharing my reality can help one person feel less alone, all of my own suffering is worth it.đ
Darling Becca, I just met you today with this reaction video and from the understanding of your illness, I know you will ride it out and survive. You are strong and you are a fighter, never give up hope and never stop trying to regain your life, you will win. I have suffered for over 30 years with mental illness and I still have the odd bought with myself, but I have, my life back, I have my cameras and I have my woodworking hobby. God will look out for you as he did for me and faith is stronger than anything that gets thrown our way. Keep up the fight, god bless...Rob
The most touching reactions to this masterpiece I have seen yet, and I've watched many. Thank you for sharing with us.
Wow, thatâs so kind, thank you for taking time to watch and let me know you enjoyed it.đ
Best reaction I have ever seen on this video. I have seen many, but you understand it on a different level. I'm older, have enjoyed Rap that has something to say, but it's not my genre. Ren has something to say. I appreciate him and his soul baring look inside. Dear Becca, please take care of yourself and keep up the fight. you are winning.
Richard, thank you so much, this meant more to me than I can type right now. Iâm so glad you were able to enjoy it, and I love that you enjoy rap with a message even if itâs not your typical preferred genre-and when an artist can deliver music like that, it speaks to the power of music and human connection, for sure. Thank you so much for your encouragement, I really appreciate it.
What a lovely reaction - very raw and open. Thank you for being one of the voices helping people by sharing your struggles.
Thank you so much, it means the world to me that you took time to watch and comment. My number one goal is to release content that people can resonate with to any degree, and Iâve been blown away by the response to my little reaction video, and have been thoroughly impressed with the sheer number of people who are sharing their own reactions and experiences. Such a uniforming artist, and Iâm glad Iâm finally on board!
You are a terribly good and emotional analyst and a terribly good teacher!
I will be looking forward to your new videos.
Congratulations !
This made my heart smile so much, thank you for your encouragement and support! I really enjoy making these, and music and words/lyrics/literature have always been my preferred escapes from life, or to help me process life, so I love being able to combine them in a way that resonates with others. And Ren has made that VERY possible.đ
Amazing. And you posted on my 40th. Glad I found your channel!â€
How cool! So glad to know youâre happy to be here, I love connecting with more people in this way, and as I say fairly often, my goal with this channel is to either help someone feel less alone, feel more understood, or to give them something to laugh or learn about. If I can do any version of any of those things, itâs more than I could ask for. Really appreciate you taking time to leave these encouraging comments today. I hope youâre taking care of yourself as we head into this new year.đ
You're a beautiful person, and this is a beautiful reaction. Thank you.
I've watched several of your reactions tonight and, you got me, I'm subscribed now and I'm here for your journey and wish you all the best
Thank you so much, Scott! I really appreciate you not only taking the time to watch, but also letting me know youâve been enjoying them and subscribed to the channel. I really appreciate your encouragement and support. I am hoping to get back into the swing of things as far as posting new reactions goes in the next week or two, I had to put it on hold for a little bit due to health stuff, but Iâm really eager to get back to it!đ
I've been suffering with late-stage Lyme disease for about seven years now. I was misdiagnosed for almost six months I went to the best hospital in Madison Wisconsin UW hospital at that time I didn't know what was wrong with me I was losing weight pretty fast my lack of appetite was decreasing. They took blood work in my blood work was fine for a little bit. After the hospital couldn't find out what was wrong with me a family member went to a clinic that I went to in Madison Dean clinic. The assistant doctor Tested me for Lyme disease they finally got back to me so we have some good news and bad news and the good news I knew what it was and the bad news I found out what I had. I went to doctor to doctor to get different opinions some of them looked at me as a patient and not a human being. But also these doctors have protocols were they can't give long-term antibiotics and I do understand that because with late-stage lung disease antibiotics are not going to work most of the time because when someone is misdiagnosed like me Lyme disease can sit doormat in the person's body. I finally took matters into my own hands and called my insurance and told them that I wasn't getting the best treatment as possible. They found a doctor in Milwaukee Wisconsin of the CDC hospital. I talked with a doctor about everything that was going through and he said it was appropriate to give me IV antibiotics for 3 weeks. They had to stop the treatment about 1 week into the treatment because the medication was decreasing my white blood cells and platelets even more.at that time I was losing hope because even though one week into the IV antibiotic treatment I wasn't any sicker and I didn't feel any better. I only can do so much with the income that I'm on of disability SSI). For the past two-and-a-half years I had to get three bone marrow biopsies done through my blood doctor. They found out that I have 20% to 25% of cellular level and my bone marrow and it should be at 70% for my age. I don't have any infection in my bone marrow but they don't have a test or better treatment to check if Lyme disease can disrupt a person bone marrow but I believe that Lyme disease did because I was healthy my whole life. I never got the bull's-eye rash from the tick. My blood doctor tested me for syphilis, HIV, leukemia, lymphoma everything came back negative except I had high levels of the bar virus usually most people have in United States of America it's a different levels of the herpes virus like when someone gets a cold sore on their lips. Everyday I deal with achiness in my shoulders my neck my lower back my knees. I also deal with sensitivity to light because light hurts my eyes and if I have to look at my phone after turn my brightness almost all the way down. I deal with depression and anxiety related to Lyme disease but one of the most things that I struggle with right now is my chronic got issues. Your gut health deals with everything with your mood your energy your depression you're excited your immune system and much more. A person's got has more nerve cells than your spinal cord. I found a clinical trial through the NIH a while ago located somewhere in New York. This clinical trial that they're doing is a medication will they give alcoholics for their withdrawals that same medication supposedly is killing the doormat Lyme disease. But I don't have the funds to get there because they'll cost about probably about $3, 000 total that's includes plane ticket finding a hotel to stay down there for about 3 days plus having a taxicab and food and it's very expensive in New York. I did a lot of research about Lyme disease and some doctors don't believe in late-stage chronic lyme disease. Lyme disease is one of those diseases that don't get enough attention and it doesn't have any much support through clinical trials. I research on some herbal extract supplements but these supplements can burn your stomach but they found that these herbs supplements can kill the doormat kind of Lyme disease.also found out that for my understanding fat cats claw liquid extract can help with Lyme disease. So I'm going to buy some next time I get paid. There are other natural treatments out there that people can try and I hear stories of people getting better with late-stage Lyme disease but it's a slow process. If anyone that can help me out here what helped you to get your health better with Lyme disease. Thanks Nick...âïžâïžđ
Wow. Just wow. I had goosebumps listening to this and watching your reaction. I love your perspective here Becca, thanks for your vulnerability â„ïž
Iâm so glad you enjoyed it, Lindsey, thank you so much for taking time to watch and let me know it resonated. Had a feeling youâd be able to relate to this one, too.
That's 2 videos in a row you as much as Ren made me cry. Love you Bec â€