EMOTIONAL Reaction to Sick Boi - Ren (Lyme Disease & MCAS Fighter; ED Recovery Edition)
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- Äas pĆidĂĄn 14. 03. 2023
- WOW! We're back with ANOTHER Ren Reaction, this time to the requested 'Sick Boi,' and MY GOSH, I'm just saying...not many artists can make masterpieces like this.
Thank you so much for your kindness and encouragement as I keep going down the Ren rabbit hole, the support you've shown on my little channel means so much more than I can put into words.
As a fellow Lyme warrior who also has MCAS/MCAD and multiple other chronic physical and mental illnesses, including a 20+ year battle with Anorexia, his words and delivery, and raw emotion...they just hit SO close to home. Hope you're able to enjoy.
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don't let ANYONE tell you not to share your reactions and pause as you need to. That's what makes your insights and contributions valuable - frankly, whomever says that can eff right off, because they don't understand. Keep it up, and keep strong - you're an amazing inspiration of determination.
Thank you so much, that means so much to my heart and soul, I canât really put into words right now. Iâve always felt the same way when I watch other reactors, I actually really enjoy it when people pause and share whatever comes up for them, because thatâs how we get the massive array of different perspectives and that we see in this community just around Ren as an artist, and itâs amazing. I did try to at least make sure I rewound it a little bit in some places here when I had to pause it pretty quickly, just to make sure we didnât miss the transitions, but thank you for letting me know you really appreciate how the policy makes insights and contributions valuable. Youâre such an encouragement, I really appreciate you stopping by!đ
Pausing is basically what a reaction is all about. If I wanna watch the whole thing in one go then I watch the original, period.
I second this strongly. There is no sustenance in watching someone looking like a dead fish with open mouth just saying "wow that was something" and ending the video. All who do not want a pause should see the original that they should watch anyway to support the artist.
I third this as well. That's the whole point of reactions, for crying out loud.
Could not agree more. Well said!â
The WHOLE POINT of reaction channels is the reactions that happen in the pauses. Your analysis is incredible. The people that don't like you pausing can f' off.
Thank you so much, Tyson, this really gave me a smile when I read it. I probably shouldnât have even tried to give that explanation about pausing, but I was just trying to avoid having to deal with comments that complained about the pausing.đ I seriously appreciate the number of people in this comment section alone who have told me that they donât mind, and even appreciate the pauses, because thatâs how Iâve always felt about othersâ reaction videos, so Iâm glad to know there are plenty of people who feel the same way. I really appreciate your kind words about my analysis, too. With Ren, Iâm finding that his music tends to appeal to multiple aspects of my personality and lifelong interests, and life in general. I love being able to relate to the chronic illness and mental health side of things, and all that goes along with that, but I also really love things like rhyme scheme analysis and rap flow patterns, and I love literature and metaphors and analogies because I spent four years dedicating my life to get a degree in English literature, after a lifelong love of reading. So he really delivers on everything, and I know I miss references at times, but I really just geek out over this stuff.đ
Don't ever stop reacting in exactly the way you do..its absolutely perfect.
ANYBODY THAT CRITICIZE BECCA CAN KISS MY*#___-*
The point of reaction videos is REACTION of what's on the screen, not the analysis lol. The analysis is a detailed examination of the elements or structure of something, so that people can understand it's meaning.
I've watched a LOT of reactions to Sick Boi-more than is probably healthy, tbh-and this is the best lyrical breakdown of the song that I've seen. Really, really well done. Thank you.
Jacob, thank you from the bottom of my heart. I really love diving into lyrics, rhyme schemes, metaphors, all of that stuff, and when I stopped being able to read and write like I once could (have a college degree in English from spending 4 years doing just that, but Lyme et al. have really messed with my ability to do both), music is the one area where I was still able to connect with my love of words, which worked out well, because Iâve also used music to process things my whole life. Thereâs not a day that goes by that I donât reference lyrics from AT LEAST 1-2 songs in mid-conversation with my husband, and Iâm so thankful my brain somehow has managed to continue connecting with words via music.
Finding someone like Ren, who is putting words to music and perfectly describing so many things I havenât been able to quite tap into, myselfâŠit makes the experience all that much more enjoyable. Thanks for coming along for the ride!đ
100% . I appreciate this. thank you!
Agreed. Iâve seen over a hundred.
Wonderful reaction. Amazing Becca.I think Ren is also commenting on how young, successful male singer role-models of his age have allowed themselves to be bled in the name of fame and profit and have ended up taking their lives. The past 5 years have been a risky time for Ren. The 'success' of some musicians has been about Christian prophet/martyr models. (i.e. Christ, Hendrix, Cobain, dying at 33). I'm longing for the time when these cultural iconic figures are no longer shadowing Ren's longevity. Hope I'm still here to hear the wonderful songs and films he produces in his 40's! (Ren's 66 year old dad).
You know, thatâs a level I hadnât yet considered, and it makes perfect sense to me. Thanks for taking time to type it out! And I really appreciate your support in letting me know you enjoyed the reaction, Iâve really been loving getting into his music and canât wait to do more!đ
Your excitement at finding Ren is infectious, and your reactions to his songs, although hard to see you upset, anyone can see they are cathartic to you, to see someone express the same experiences you've had in a powerful way is obviously a good thing for you, keep watching and reacting and don't worry about pausing and letting your feelings out, any Fans of Ren will have seen these videos many times and i think just enjoy watching new people discover him
Iâm so glad youâre able to connect with the emotions even through a screen; there have been some times in life (not in these videos, just life in general) where Iâve been asked if Iâm exaggerating or overemphasizing emotion, and I can honestly say Iâm not. And honestly, I cant fake emotion even if I try, Iâm really bad at it, so everything I share here is my raw, genuine reaction Iâd be having even if watching it without a camera filming. Iâm so thankful others have been able to feel it. Iâm so glad to be part of this community, and canât wait to keep going down this rabbit hole! Really appreciate you!đ
one of the most beautiful things about Ren is he spreads empathy, both directly and via his fans. The reaction community is really a special group of people imo. All kinds of folks, and they were all touched by the transparency and powerful emotionality. So to watch someone see his stuff anew, is to welcome someone else into the fold. You were before but hereâs your proof: we see you.
itâs ALWAYS all love in the comments for his stuff. Itâs uncanny.
This means so much more than I can put into words right now. The overwhelming love and encouragement from this larger fan base and community has been absolutely overwhelming, and unlike any other community Iâve ever connected with online. And that speaks volumes to how excellent a job heâs doing at getting his message across through musical masterpieces that resonate with so many on such a deep level. Iâm so thankful to have you here, and am really looking forward to continuing this journey!đ
You are the first person reacting to this song and felt every word exactly as me. I know there are many people who felt it too, but I haven't seen it in reactions. And it made me cry even after I thought I was done with emotions when it comes to this song.
It hits really hard and makes me desperate hearing someone describing exactly how I feel, but also it feels kind of comforting knowing that I am not the only one going through hell of being chronically ill and being treated like crazy/lazy/hypochondriac by doctors and people.
So, just wanna thank you for everything you said in this video. Often I really need a proof that I am not crazy and you just gave me that.
Thanks and hugs from Serbia. đ€
First and foremost: I see you, I hear you, you are absolutely NOT crazy, and you deserve better than being treated like that by a system thatâs supposedly a profession designed to help us.
Thank you for taking time to watch, but even more so, for sharing some of your own story. Sometimes just being able to share it with someone can at least make the load lighter, even if just for a moment. Iâm so thankful you happened to stop by. Take care of yourself as best you can, and remember, when things feel impossible only have to focus on taking things one day, hour, minute at a time.đ
@@BeccaDoss That's exactly what I'm doing and I'm sure most of us do. Otherwise we would not survive.
Thank you so much for your words. The same goes to you. It is important for all of us to know that we are not alone in this.
Take a good care of yourself. đ€
Hello beautiful, never apologize for pausing when you hear or see something that you understand or have been through yourself, that is what makes reaction videos more personal, not only for you but also your viewers. Remember, vulnerability isn't a weakness, it's a strength. It's all in how you use it. Never give up, never give in. Love ya my beautiful friend â€đč
Thanks, Brad. Iâm really glad you were able to enjoy the reaction. As always, really appreciate your support. And youâre right, vulnerability is a strength, for sure.đ
Fantastic reaction. Ren is a terrific actor, in addition to every other massive talent he possesses. I've been lucky and haven't suffered the way both you and Ren have, but even so, your take on this piece is EXACTLY how I hear it. The frustration and rage of not being heard when you're so desperate for help, and the despair of being stuck in that meat-grinder of a system. I got Lyme in TN. It's everywhere.
IMO Ren sees the system that failed him is the same system that, writ large, is failing the planet. And he's highly self-aware, so he knows that while he's a victim of the system, he's also de facto a part of the system, being a human and a member of society. It's a total existential quandary, unanswered. He also explores this in Money Game P1 and Pt 2.
Marty, thank you so much for taking time to watch and let me know he resonated with his reaction I really try not to ever get into the anger was comparing suffering, because we all have our own crap that weâre dealing with, and like you said, we can all relate to this message in a similar way even if some of the specifics are different. Iâm so sorry to hear that you got Lyme, I hope youâve been able to access treatment for it at some point and were able to find moments of peace and itâs the chaos of life. My Lyme doctor is actually in Tennessee, so Iâm right next-door.đ
THIS IS A REALLY IMPRESSIVE COMMENT. None of the comments I've read on Becca's or any reactor's channel on any video has made a statement about the bigger picture ( failing the planet --well said !!)đđ„
I was first diagnosed with depression at the age of 6, I am now hitting 60, and life has been pretty tough. Having spent my first 16 years in children's homes, beaten, bullied, neglected etc, I guess depression was bound to be a major part of my life. Ren is actually helping me right now, I have watched well over 300 reactions and loved the support he is getting from around the world, and I've enjoyed your reviews . I look forward to your reaction to Chalk Outlines, which is a beautiful song. I highly recommend Dear God is added to your list (a wonderful song with hard-hitting questions). I really hope that Ren is helping you on your journey as well.
Ian, thanks so much for taking time to watch and share some of your story. Iâm sorry for the pain and suffering youâve endured, and Iâm thankful to hear that Renâs music has been a helpful force for you. Heâs definitely doing the same for me. And thanks for the song rec, Iâll definitely check that one out, too!
Your Troubles are devastatng. It tears me up to hear stories like yours. Note my name and go read the long comment I left for Becca about Father Kelly a couple of days ago and follow the advice I gave her. You have a lot of "likes" to your comment ----like Father Kelly says "You're not alone"
Thank you so much for your kind words Richard. Much appreciated đ
The thing abut RENagades, everybody has powerful stories and the sharing is helping others. đâ€
I KNEW this one would resonate with you! Itâs crazy how spot on this all is, heâs been THROUGH it and speaks to my soul â€
Iâm right there with you, he does it in a way no one else quite has! Thank you so much for the continued encouragement and support, it really means the world to me.đ
You're going to love his rap stuff if you enjoyed his rhyme schemes here - Genesis, The Hunger, Losing It are all great examples. It's worth checking his many other songs to also appreciate his diversity and talent.
Iâm SO excited to dig into it! Thereâs not a whole lot in life that can get me as emotionally and mentally engaged as good lyrics and awesome delivery, so I canât wait to dive into the songs, for sure!
THIS đ
@@BeccaDoss Power is also amazing.
Another great reaction. If youâre looking for something different and not so heavy then Ren has some outstanding street performances with his band The Big Push and also with Sam Tompkins. Thereâs so much energy and love on the streets of Brighton.
Thanks for the recs, Iâll definitely add it to the list and check them out! Really appreciate your support.đ
Another great reaction, I really appreciate hearing your perspective, donât worry about pausing. Looking forward to other Ren reactions. He has a big range of music, not all is so serious, some are deeper in different ways. Keep up the great work!
Really appreciate your continued encourage and support! Definite looking forward to filming reactions to the very wide range of stuff heâs got out there, so weâll be on this journey for a WHILE, and I wouldnât have it any other way.đđ
This is a astounding masterpiece in to many levels,beautiful song and reaction!!
I really hope Ren sees this one.
Thanks Jeff! It would be totally awesome if he saw it, but the support and encouragement that Iâm getting from everyone in the comment section makes all of this more than worth it. I really appreciate you!đ
Thank you Becca for sharing your reaction to this with us. Your excitement and connection to the song was palpable.
Its amazing the way people have linked through Rens magic in such a short time.
So happy you enjoyed it, Richard! And Iâm glad to know my emotions can be felt, even through a screen. I agree, just for the VERY short time Iâve been in this community, Iâve been AMAZED at how many people heâs been able to connect to, who have them connected to each other in super supportive ways. Itâs a really special experience, thatâs for sure, and it says a lot that heâs been able to build such a wonderful fan base.đ
I GOT LYME IN KENTUCKY!! I went to Murray State and got it in 1991 when I was working in my Master's... In English đ I have never wanted to sit down with a pot of coffee and talk for days with anyone more than I do you right now!! I relate exactly to what you're saying. I was allergic to beef for almost a decade! I even had the bullseye bite on my leg... No, Dana, it's all in your head. I told one doctor that, the way they're treating me, the only way I'll get a diagnosis is on an autopsy table. One year later my heart stopped beating. Twice. I was shocked back to life and given a pacemaker/defibrillator. That was 2009. I STILL wasn't diagnosed with Lyme because my doctors REFUSED. I paid to go to a specialist in 2015 and was finally officially diagnosed. I'm still here for a reason. I would LOVE to talk to you. Please let me know if you ever do. đ Much love, Beautiful! â€
Number that is relevant now, is REN SICK BOI ALBUM WAS NUMBER ONE
Great reaction, Becca. đ I knew you'd love it!
I've been waiting for this to drop, and - like Ren - you do not disappoint.
You look really happy and excited here, talking ninety to the dozen. It's great to see. â€
All aboard for the Ren Express, next stop "Chalk Outlines"! đđ
PS: If you want to see Ren rapping in complete Monster Mode, "The Hunger" is the one.
It was AMAZING! Thank you so much, as always, for being so encouraging and supportive! The community around Renâs music has absolutely blown me away in the best way possible. I am laughing a little bit, because I definitely did some rapidfire talking in this one, which is some thing I canât always control when I get emotional, much like pausing the video. The Hunger is definitely the first rap song I was planning on doing, so thanks for confirming that! And just wanted to let you know, I recorded a chalk outlineâs reaction, I just need to get it edited and uploaded, but thatâs coming up next as soon as health allows! Take care!đđ
@@BeccaDoss Yup, I knew you had Chalk Outlines on the way, looking forward to that.
By the way, full disclosure - I'm a Johnny-Come-Lately as far as Ren is concerned, having only come across him a month ago when the YT algorithm got it right for a change.
So my dive into his back catalogue is pretty shallow so far. By which I mean you should take anything I say with a big pinch of salt.
But for me, so far The Hunger is the rap that makes me go wow every time.
And take your time, we're here for the long haul. We'll cut you some slack. (See what I did there?đ€Ł)
@@GneasYTC Got a nice laugh out of that wordplay/joke at the end, thanks fam! Really appreciate it!
@@BeccaDoss Grrrrr! I missed the perfect opportunity for a second pun. Shoulda said "we're here for the long hall". Chalk Outlines? The location? No? Ok, I'll get me coat... đââ
@@GneasYTC My brain is so fried at this point of the night I even missed that opportunity myself, but Iâm ALWAYS up for a good (bad? Which is actually good?) pun!
This ended up a longer comment than I expected, I apologise:
I had a lot I wanted to express and say, but I've become so overwhelmed. He said, embodied everything I've been feeling and thinking. Then, the courageous soul that you are articulated my near exact thoughts and emotional/physiological experience. Like the saying goes; âin an insane world, a sane man must appear insane.â
It's fvcking horrible when everyone around you either doesn't know the depths of your torment (sake of taboo, "trauma dumping", treating you differently/pity etc), and others as above still with their head in the sand call you the one with a mouth full of it... it's incredibly painful and lonely.
We were never meant to live like this. Pawns in a greedy tw4ts game.
I'm becoming so dejected with life tbh, what's the point when their thumb is forever on our backs.
I also struggled with an aggressive autoimmune response for almost 9 months, breaking out in hives feeling my skin crawling, needing to to itch but itching too long burned even worse. Nothing helped. Just got bounced around... felt so claustrophobic in my own skin.
There is a powerful perspective I wanted to write too but it's escapsed my mind... it's exhausting. The world is moving so fast and time does not wait for anyone, on top of that my mind is doing the same and I can't help but feel some sort of hollow.
I just to also say thank you so much for sharing yourself and your thoughts with us. You've no idea how heard I felt, by artists that speak my thoughts and articulate my feelings so impeccably when I can't, and by you; taking them out of my brain and conveying it in such a way I never could sharing it with the world.
Always here if you need a fellow to speak with. All the love Becca. You're doing great things, don't be discouraged to speak for past you and those who feel they can't.
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Edit: another thing, when he says "I always seem to drown." As his voice calms in volume and aggression... this to me mimics the "crash" or "come down" from some of the meds. In and of itself can become a whole nother problem. I struggle with ADHD and I feel hopeful and alive when on the meds but when they drop off I just want to bawl, and then I got so angry (internal, I could never hurt a soul) at the fact that I am only ever afforded to function at a normal level for a select few hours, I have to be on drvg5 to get to the standard normalcy that for everyone else is just another day. Chronic burnout, chronic overwhelm, chronic nauseating loneliness in a blind society.
The 2nd thing I wanted to mention was if you noticed how the therapist was monotonously ignoring the signs and cries for help but doing their part to get this sick boi back out and functioning like a good little cog in the machine. Sounds a lot like gaslighting doesn't it?! Hmm...
OH I REMEMBERED THE POWERFUL POINT:
Are we truly sick or is all the mental illness a normal and chronic response for some to a profoundly sick society functioning far beyond our intended way of living, our instincts...
Goodness man... this is so heartbreaking. Times like these I understand why ignorance is bliss.
I don't know if you've heard I MISS THE DAYS, NATE, and LET ME GO by NF but that man speaks to my inner child, as does Ren now too and it's painfil but at the same time the most heard I've ever felt in my life. I recommend these if you haven't.
And I'm sobbing again. What's new... again thank you so much. If you read this far, I'm not sure what to say but your time and consideration is immensely appreciated.
Genesis, crutch, penitence, chalk outlines, how to be me are all powerful and beautifully written songs. Losing it, hunger, what you want are more fun type songs if you feel like that vibe. Plus many others, those were just off the top of my head.
Thank you so much for the list! I have several of those on my own list, but definitely didnât have every one. And I love that you gave context for which ones are the more fun, upbeat type of vibe. I definitely plan on reacting to all the emotional stuff, but for my sake, and the sake of everyone watching, Iâm trying to at least go back and forth every so often so things donât seem to get too similar.
Wow your reaction really got this song even better and more meaningful to me! I really admire your quick respons at every part and how you lift it up and pinpoint different perspectives! Thank you for a stunning work! You'r so genuine! đ And I love your other ren-reactions too. Can't wait for more. đâ€
Thank you so much, this gave me a huge smile. Really appreciate you stopping by!
I really appreciate your reaction because it really seems to me like you and Ren have a very similar history of contracting this disease but having it diagnosed as a psychological condition when it wasn't and the struggles of trying to find a way to get to the truth and find a way to make your situation better.
Seeing you look at something like this and seeing exactly what you are going through expressed like this is powerful. You aren't alone in your struggle.
I really appreciate your reactions. I'm a nurse, and I'm always looking for deeper insight into the ways my patients experience their conditions and the healthcare system.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart, that means so daggone much to me. And thank you for the work you do, Iâm a BIG fan of nurses, and itâs NOT an easy job at all! I can tell youâre passionate about your work just from taking time to keep looking for deeper insight-not everyone would go that extra mile.đ
I've watched a few of ur reactions. I'm so happy you found our boy ren
Just saw your Hi Ren and immediately came here!! đ Much love, Beautiful! â€
Love love your reaction and explanation. Please do "crutch" by Ren. It's pure emotion. Hey we love you. Keep your head up. You are important and you matter. Keep going!!
Barbara, thank you so much! Crutch is definitely on the list, but it may be a little while before I can get to it. I just recorded Chalk Outlines (LIVE) I need to edit and upload that one next, but I think Iâm gonna give myself and everyone else a little bit of a break from the hard-core emotional stuff and dig into some more of the upbeat rap stuff, but I will 100% to be making my way through everything, so thanks for mentioning that one again, Iâve definitely got it on the list of things to react to as soon as health allows. Really appreciate you stopping by!đ
Wow a great reaction vid!!! How Ren portrays his story is epic and emotional for everyone!! He is a true artist. I hope you get through your own struggles, and we really need Ren to get through his as well
Thanks so much, Iâm SO glad you enjoyed the reaction! Iâm really looking forward to diving into more of his stuff as health allows!
I've watched so many reactions to this song and yours is by far the best and most insightful. I've been ill with M.E/cfs for decades and bedridden/horizontal with it for the last 6 years and the psychologisation of my illness has been as destructive as the illness itself. (We'd have a cure/treatment for it by now for a start). I love how you really understood the environmental references in the song too. Oddly, most reactors just don't pick up on that, for some reason. I didn't realise how much I needed someone like you to do a reaction like this. Thank you so so much! đâ€
Thank you so much for taking time to watch and let me know you resonated with it, though I hate to hear you understand it on such a personal level, too. Iâm sorry youâve had to go through all of that-no one deserves it. Iâm glad you were able to connect here and I hope to connect with you on this journey. Really appreciate you.đ
Truly great analysis because you really get it! Please continue your Ren journey - each song is unique and meaningful!
Thanks Elena! Definitely canât wait to keep going down this rabbit hole!đ
As a fellow lyme fighter this song and ur reaction and breakdown for me was spot on and powerful. Thank u
This is the most passionate reaction I've seen, and I can tell it's so heart- and body-felt! Ren also has a series of vlogs where he shares about his illness. At that time, he still thought it was M.E. and that channel is called me vs me.
Thank you so much for taking time to watch and let me know you enjoyed it-my whole purpose is to help people feel less alone, or more understood, or just help someone feel connected to another person or to art-and Iâm glad my emotion comes through the screen pretty well. Itâs all 100% real-Iâm terrible at faking emotions, so what you see is what Iâd be doing if I were watching it alone, without the camera. Iâll definitely have to check out those vlogs for my own edification sometime, thanks for the heads up.
Oh Becca what a lovely reaction, you can talk faster than I can think and I was enthralled throughout by you. Ren is such a groundbreaking diverse artist and I love his performances. I'd love you to react to the Jenny and screech trilogy (full version), although the subject matter is harrowing. Or something a bit more upbeat to lighten the mood is "Losing It" Fisher retake, which is fantastic also.
I must say that I watched your "Hi Ren" reaction and was blown away by your passion/insight/honesty.
Ever since I saw "Hi Ren" for the first time I have watched reactors watch it for the first time just so that I can share in that immense experience again.
However !
Of maybe 50-60 reactions that I have watched in the last 2-3 weeks, there have been only 2 that have really resonated due to pure, honest 100% connection and yours in one.
I know a lot of people wont like the constant stopping and talking, but THAT IS WHAT MAKES A REACTION !!!!
And your explanations give even more insight into the meaning of the song from a very personal angle.
Your personal insight and pain are plain to see, and please do carry on with your honesty.
New subscriber here, all the best in your continued journey from "RenLand" (UK).
Take care, be safe and continue the good fight !
Thank you so much for taking time to not only watch the video and let me know you resonated with it (and the Hi Ren reaction)! I got several comments on the higher end video where people definitely were not to find out how often I stop it, but Iâve always had the same philosophy as you: if itâs a reaction video, and Iâm watching a reactor, I want to see what the reaction is. I did try to make sure I rewound sometimes in the sick boi video just so we didnât miss any of the powerful transitions, but I really appreciate your support overall! Happy to be here in RenLand, and have no intentions of leaving!đ
Would love to see you react to some of his "not emotional" stuff.....Perhaps "I Shot The Sheriff" from his busking band "The Big Push"
Of emotional but in a different way - The Tale of Jenny and Screech (Full)
@@rickseymour1972 Iâve got them on the list, thanks for the recs! Canât wait to dig into a variety of his different work!đ
The break line breaks me too. Every fix, meds or whatever, give you hope and feels like it breaks you every more each time you trust. It's so sad. And it sucks, and I understand.
Iâm sorry you understand so well, but Iâm thankful you took time to let me know you resonated with it, as well. Connection heals in more ways than I think we often realize.
Heya. No spoons for a real response. But Iâm here. â€
This is as real a response as any. Take care and let yourself rest up. Appreciate you, always.đ
I love your reactions so much. They are so real and I can relate. While I donât have the same health issues as you or Ren, I do have a multitude of conditions such as Crohnâs Disease, M.E., Fibromyalgia, Vertigo, ADHD, Chronic Anxiety, OCD, Depression; and a host of extraintestinal issues caused by my crohnâs - such as Inflammatory Polyarthropathy, Erythema Nodosum, Uveitis, Anemia, Gastritis, and Malabsorption Syndrome. It took years to be properly diagnosed, and at times I was made to feel that the debilitating pain that I was experiencing was as all in my head. Iâm still struggling to find treatments that actually help.
I am SO glad you enjoy them, my number one goal is always to share content that people can relate to, and hopefully feel a little less alone or a little more understood. Iâve got a long list of other conditions, myself, including a lot of the ones that you mentioned, either on their own or as a result of some of my other underlying chronic and genetic issues. Iâm so sorry that you know the pain of not being able to get a diagnosis in a timely manner, and I really hope that youâre able to continue fighting treatments that can give you more Hope and healing, and that while youâre waiting, youâre able to find moments of peace in the journey, and itâs all of the chaos. I really appreciate your encouragement, and I thank you so much for sharing even part of your story, and just remember weâre only responsible for taking things one day at a time.đ
@@BeccaDoss Your words are very encouraging. Thank you!
You are fantastic at your breakdowns. Thank you!
I'm so glad I discovered your channel, a lot of his Lyme disease and auto immunity illnesses I don't really understand and you put it into context just how much pain this man feels. Thank you for sharing your story and being here.
Iâm so glad itâs been able to help you understand those things a little better, thatâs one of the main reasons that I share any of these.
Get ready for Chalk Outlines. Itâs gonna hit hard.đą
Actually recorded it yesterday, so Iâm looking forward to editing and uploading it as soon as health a while, and oh my gosh, yes, it hit SO HARD.đ
Really enjoy the articulation you bring to these reactions/breakdowns.
Thank you for being vulnerable, it helps more than you likely realise.
I hope this channel and the community it will inevitably create, is cathartic and brings you joy like it does those of us that appreciate you.
Thank you so much Becca đ
Iâm so glad you enjoy and can resonate with them, Sean, thatâs the reason I share anything. To just help people feel connected to something, whatever it is they need in the moment. This is definitely a cathartic experience for me, and one Iâve been extremely humbled by, because I NEVER have experienced such a supportive online fan base/community. He really has built something so special around his art, and itâs awesome to see. Your continued encouragement means a lot.đ
I'm really overwhelmed by this one so I'll collect my thoughts and spend some time thinking about what I want to say and then I'll drop another comment at a later time. For now, what I can say is; Par for the course, another masterfully articulated analysis. I agreed with every last thing you said. Shout out to your husband for believing you, fighting for you, and supporting you. That's a real man! đ€đȘ You mentioned his name in the last video I saw, I think it was Roger but if not can you remind me? So I can lift both of you, by name, up to God's throne in my prayers each night.
Hi Vincent. I wrote "A LETTER" to Becca over on her Jenny and Screech reaction You should go look for it
May 16 -- Hi buddy. I'm leaving "comments" all over the place since there's no other way to get in contact you and Becca. So I don't even know if you'll see this one or if you do---when.
Anyway this note has nothing to do with this reaction video but I was looking at some thing else on youtube and thought you'd get a [sort of] kick out of it. In your search box type: [a homeless man walks into a church what happens next shocked everyone]
Hey friend, sorry itâs taken me a week to get back to this one. Been kind of hectic here. Roger and I really appreciate the encouragement and support (and yep! You got his name right!). I know used to be from a place of first-hand experience, so I want to tell you that your prayers mean more than words can say, and please know that Iâm also looking up you all in prayer, as well. You are an absolute blessing.đđđŒ
What a very thoughtful, considerate and intelligent reaction. Thank you and I don't care about the pausing because your comments are so insightful. Wishing you well in your fight to be well.
Iâm so grateful to know you really enjoyed this one. It definitely hit so close to home, and itâs always nice to know my insights can add value. Iâve gotten better at rewinding more when I pause in my more recent videos, but it makes my heart smile to know others enjoy what I have to share/add. Thank you.đ
I love your pauses and interjections! And I also love your shirt. Please keep pausing as often as you want to, I think people are watching you because they resonate with what you have to say. Wishing you lots of spoons! đ„
Thank you so much! Iâm so glad most people say theyâd appreciate the pausing when I have some thing to break down or add, and those are always the reactions Iâve loved to watch, so Iâm glad to be able to give back to this part of the world in some way.
@@BeccaDoss You definitely are, and I canât imagine how much these videos must take out of you to do! My husband and I have a rule now when we watch tv or movies; if one of us has something to say about it or is reminded by something we saw, we ALWAYS pause what weâre watching and just discuss it then. I donât have Lyme, but I have MECFS brain fog often, and there have been far too many times where Iâve tried to remember something until a commercial break and then itâs just gone forever. So now we just always pause and it helps a lot :) So this feels very familiar to me!
Phenomenal reaction like always! Please take all the time and pauses you need. There's so much emotion in Ren's performances, and we all need some pauses to take it in.
Thanks, Will! And I appreciate the reminder to take however long I need to react the way I tend to do it. Iâve always liked it when I watch reactors who pause to react, because like you said, Iâve always found it helps to take things in. Especially since most people watch reactions after at least hearing the song itself, first, so likely arenât hearing it for the very first time in a reaction video.
I am beyond grateful for this master artist! Quickly, my story, age 16 homeless... besides other illnesses from EDT (early developmental Trauma), I did happen to contract lyme disease and was undiagnosed for 2-3 years. Alone in the world and unwilling to go to conventional medical folks since I'm in the biz and know what BS lies there. Bled out to "holistic MD's" with no relief. Finally after YEARS of having to work with no support, yada yada , a client of mine, a baby, her parents bought a Hyperberic Oxygen Tank(50k) for HBO(Therapy). I got in with the child and after 2 times, my symptoms, ALL OF THEM--gone! Long story short, I did cycles of oxygen therapy for almost 2 years and I am healed. That was 15 years ago. Even with all the stress in my life lately , I am still physically Ok, mentally not so much. I really want people to know. If I had to pay for these sessions It would have been at the time almost $200 a session. It was virtually free for me. I am beyond upset with Conventional medicine that they don't seem to want to heal anyone. Oxygen and a radical diet change did it for me. More O2 than anything. Oxygen kills viruses and bacteria. All the best and again, I am grateful to the universe for sending me O2 and Ren
you may not be writing in the classical sense but your reactions are so well articulated that i believe you are still writing in a oral sense. good on you
This meant so much to my heart and soul, thank you deeply.đ
I agree
Becca, you explain his videos so well because of what you are going through, you do a wonderful job, but I am sorry that you are going through that stuff. Take care! Everyone is here for a reason. And you are so right about doctors and health care.
Iâm just glad Ren and others have made it possible for so many of us to connect and share our own similar experiences, both to provide camaraderie to other struggling, or to offer insight into what itâs like living with this stuff. Being able to impact even one life makes all the pain and struggling a little more worth it.đ©·
Becca you be you, perception is reality so your feelings and experiences (both good and bad) are more real than some fake ass comment that some idiot may post just to get a response. The people who watch you are interested in your opinion and experience, i just hope that this helps you as much as it helps others. Thank You
I still watch this video at least once a week BECCAuse of how good it is.
Its not just a reaction vid, its an experience.
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@@BeccaDoss and also this week.
@@pvandewyngaerde đ Thanks for making me smile again, Peter. Iâm so glad youâre able to keep going back to this one and getting something out of it.đ
And also in 2024.
You explain it so PERFECT for anybody to understand. 10/10
Iâm so glad itâs able to help you understand it on a deeper level, thanks for letting me know!đ
Love your reactions. Much luv from London
I really like that opening line. Quick witted. My doctor is frustrated that my meds for seizures arent working 100%. I hope you went and laughed at him. I have spina bifida and fibromyalgia. The doctors would say i dont have fibromyalgia because i dont have this or that symptom. Of the most common types of spina bifida, i have the least common. Luckily i can walk. I had a surgeon ask ME at 14 if i wanted to have a shunt(head) tube that was broken. I wasnt having symptoms and he should have made that call. But i thought, " what if i have problems years later?" I had the worse hangover you could imagine for months.
All of the stuff your talking about regarding your experience with the medical profession (which I'll speak on) so resonates with the stuff my wife and I have seen too over the last 25 years. From the "try this drug or that drug", to the "drug seeker" label, to SO MANY misdiagnosis cycles, "the pain is in your head", to surgeons shrugging and saying "sorry, can't help you". If there was a word one million times more powerful than, frustrating, it wouldn't be enough.
You know why they call it a Medical Practice? Because they're PRACTICING being a doctor. So many of them don't really have a clue. I mentioned to my wife once, you know a D is considered a passing grade. Even C student doctors wouldn't instill much confidence from me. So the real hunt is in finding a doctor who is actually smart, empathetic, and truly cares, which is DAMNED HARD TO FIND. She had A GREAT Rheumatologist... and then he retired. đą
Sending all my love and compassion. Iâm so sorry for your pain. Everyone deserves better.
Hi Becca, one of your best Ren reactions yet!
I took the last line a little differently, possibly because I've seen his other work and there's a lot of theme overlap.
I think the _"while I'm bleeding, I'm the reason, cus I'm doing the same"_ is referencing that, whilst he's just said the world is sick with greed and commoditisation, he's also commoditising himself. I think this makes more sense after viewing _"Money game"_ (Parts 1 and 2) in which he identifies that we are all complicit, we're all part of the same 'money game'
BTW, if you're a rap nerd you MUST check out : "losing it" _(So many amazing flows, a real showcase and lots of humour)_ , "The hunger" _(a personal statement piece)_ and "What you want" _(super-happy, feelgood retro hiphop)_
And... back in the MH vibe : "Genesis (live video version)" _(A very metaphor-rich piece about personal pain and his frustrated beginnings)_
... Ren can really "RAP" rap ... it'll surprise you ; )))))
Dammit, why can't I subscribe twice? You never cease to amaze me. Thanks, keep being you!
I totally agree thatâs another layer of meaning for that last line-thanks for taking time to share all of this here! Definitely looking forward to digging into Money Game 1&2 in the future. Thanks for the insight!
I saw you ended up finding my reaction to The Hunger, and Iâm so glad you enjoyed it-a lot of people have been recommend Losing It, Genesis, What You Want, and Power, so the next time Iâm recording any rap track, I may out another poll out on the community tab to help me decide the order. I canât wait to get to all of them, eventually, but itâs just gonna take some time.
I have a reaction to Dominoes filmed, and that was extremely emotional and cathartic, so I was thinking about doing another fun rap track after that, but depending on how Iâm able to edit, etc, my next one may have to be his new track dropping, which I have NO DOUBT is going for be straight FIRE.
Really appreciate you! Your last sentences made me smile.đ
Hey Becca! I've been watching your reactions to Ren's videos, and I think your perspective is really helpful as someone who has dealt with chronic illness, and who has seen the frustrating side of the healthcare system. I'm going to comment on the latter bit here, because I think it's important that there is discourse between people like yourself, and healthcare workers like me.
I really understand the framing that the medical industry is just a machine that churns patients through rather than actually listening to them. In a lot of ways that's true. No matter what part of the industry we work in, we are trained to follow sets of protocols that are based on the prevailing scientific consensus of the time. We aren't encouraged to experiment or think too far outside the box that our training provides for us. That is to your benefit and detriment, because it means that we don't have very much license to experiment in ways that would seriously harm you, but we likewise can't experiment in ways that would help you.
The human body is extremely complicated. We can fix broken bones and ruptured blood vessels fairly reliably, but when you get into neuropathology and psychopathology, you're dealing with a tangled web of illness, symptoms, treatments, and cures that can take decades to unravel for any given individual.
There is the problem that some workers are just there to get paid. Some people go through the motions, and don't actually care about you as a patient. But a lot of us do care, and we are still hamstrung by the complexities of your case, our lack of knowledge as an industry, and the restrictions of our training and scope of practice.
I want nothing more than to fix the problems of every patient that walks in my door. But sometimes it really is a question of pushing pills until one works, as people who have found eventual success with the right anti-depressant can attest.
I'm someone who has been a life long sufferer of a binge eating disorder, depression, and anxiety. I see you. Your suffering does not go unnoticed by me. I hope that my reaching out does at least a tiny bit to restore some faith in healthcare professionals. From one human being to another, I want us all to find health and happiness.
David, I took some time to reply to you because I wanted to make sure I had the brain power to say what I wanted to say, and to give you the response that you very clearly deserve. Iâm still not sure I have the right words, but Iâm gonna do my best. I first want to say thank you for the work that you do, and thank you for going into this profession with a very clear heart of wanting to help and heal people. I have no doubt in my mind that most people who enter the profession legitimately want to help, Iâve just had one too many experiences where Iâve seen those doctors push the side because the ones who are in it only for money, or only to make a name for themselves, or only to push medicationâs because of pharmaceutical companies, And that makes me really sad, actually.
I am very fortunate to currently have some very amazing doctors and medical professionals that Iâm working with, so I hope that my reactions and commentary here donât come across as me attacking the medical profession and doctors as a whole, because that is absolutely never my intention. I literally would not be alive if not for some of the great doctors that I have had, and itâs very clear to me that you truly care about your work and every patient that you see, just based on the words that you shared here.
So I wanted to thank you for sharing so much of your heart and mission as well, Because some people who have had negative experiences donât end up being as fortunate as I have been to find some really great practitioners over the years, and I hope that if anyone in that position sees your comment, theyâre able to have some of that faith restored a little bit, too.
Reading your comment almost brought tears to my eyes, because the last thing I want is for any medical professional who is truly compassionate, caring, and desperate to help (even if their medical schooling isnât designed for learning how to better help some of these more complex patients) to feel like Iâm making a blanket statement that all doctors etc. are bad. I 100% do not believe that at all.
When I say I appreciate you taking time to share everything that you typed, as well as taking time to watch some of my reactions to the songs of Renâs, I mean that from the bottom of my heart and soul. That end of itself shows me that you are a much more caring compassionate practitioner than the bad apples Iâve encountered, who often just tend to be louder than the people who are in it to truly helping try to heal. I can feel your message and your mission in your words.
I also know that even the best medical schools canât be on the cutting edge research of everything, so Iâm not even really complaining about the difficulties in working with complex patients. More than anything, the anger that I feel is directed at the doctors I have encountered, and that several of my friends have encountered, who have done nothing but laugh in their face and dismiss their very real concerns because it didnât fit a very narrow preconceived notion of what they thought was right, and therefore they just try to throw pills to put a Band-Aid on symptoms. Iâm also not anti-medication, whether for physical or mental health, I just donât like the way that a lot of those types of practitioners I mentioned to him to be happy with throwing a Band-Aid of a pill at someone, and then when it doesnât work, just continuing to stack more prescription medications on top of it.
Dealing with Lyme automatically makes it difficult to navigate the medical field, because the CDC literally tries to deny the lift reality of millions of people because they know that it would cost too much to have to pay for care and treatment for the people that are sick from Lyme disease and co-infections who often went undiagnosed for years if not decades.
But again, I want to thank you for the work that you do, and for your very apparent heart to help humans heal, even if you donât have the exact answers at a particular point in time. Thank you again for taking time to type all of this out, I really value your perspective and appreciate The detail with which you shared. đ
glad you did this one ..he's amazing â€
Great job, you and Ren have helped me immensely, won't go into details with my struggles, no one see my pain and hurt because I have learnt to disguise it, cause afraid of been ridiculed and labelled. Think I said too much, will stop
Hey Noel, I want to tell you that there is never any pressure to share any specific details when youâre commenting here, but if you ever decide you want to, I am more than willing to listen and I see and hear your pain, even without knowing the specifics, and I want you to know itâs very valid and I am so sorry that you had to deal with the pain of not being able to share it with others. Iâm so glad you found your way here, I really hope youâre able to find even moments of peace and hope admits to be chaos that can be this life. I really appreciate you, and this world needs you.đ
I will stick to you through the whole journey. Iâm 67 and experienced autoimmune disorder and horrendous side effects from prednisone in my teenager years.
Willa, thank you so much! I understand that more than I can say; I only mention Lyme and a couple other things in this video, but I also was on massive doses of prednisone for a long time in high school and it messed me up for yearsâŠhonestly still dealing with some side effects from it, as it sounds like you are. Thank you so much for your encouragement and support, Iâm so happy to have you here!đ
@@BeccaDoss By the way, my name is Paul. The name you see is Willa, who was my wife. She passed away in July 2020, after many years of tremendous physical and mental suffering, including dementia. Most of my experience with the medical system has been positive, but watching the love of my life decline was like living in a mansion and watching the rooms slowly being shut. For a while, I felt like I was living in a small closet, of my own making.
But, Iâm much better now and you will be, as well.
Paul, I am so sorry if my reply brought up and difficult emotions, thank you for letting me know for the future. Iâm so sorry to hear about your loss, thatâs a pain not matched by many/any. Dementia is a beast I wouldnât wish on anyone or their families, and I ca guarantee you even when things started to slip, she knew your heart and felt your support and care. Sending you so much love and compassion, friend. I really appreciate you sharing your story (well, what Iâm sure is a small part of it).đ
@@BeccaDoss I am well past the worst part of the grinding grief, deep depression and mental paralysis. I have read that there are new theories about autoimmune diseases- Does that have any relevance for you?
@Becca Doss the Pig Butcher that is in some of Ren's videos is Ren's view of the people that work in the Mental Health Field. Ren was misdiagnosed for over 5 years with Mental Health when in fact it was Lyme's disease! They loaded him up full of medications/treatments/and only he knows what else!
Your a reaction channel so Iâd expect pauses and your opinions on the song - never stop doing what your doing - your channel is fabulous and I love your videos - much love and support â€
Really appreciate you taking time to say that, Dan. I think I let a handful of comments get to me a little bit, which is why I added the explanation in this video, but Iâm glad to know there are people who feel the same way I do, because Iâve always appreciated reactors who pause when something strikes them. Your support means the world.đ
Great perspective. Especially the last section. Looking forward to more.
Really appreciate that, thank you, Adam!
Love your reation. True and pure. đ«
Thank you, thatâs always my goal, to keep it real and hopefully find a eat for others to connect with it.đ
Just came from Ren's latest update post, & your reaction channel was highly recommended & they weren't wrong it is another great insight
Wow, thank you so much for stopping by, and Iâm so glad to know you enjoyed it! Iâve really loved digging into his art and getting to connect with this awesome community!
Hi Becca, I just wanted to say I love your channel, your reactions are so insightful and heartfelt. Sending you a big hug xx
Thanks you, Gina! I appreciate your support and encouragement so very much! Sending hugs right back to you.đ
You should see his bts short he did about this video. Wonderful reaction. You're going to feel a plethora with Ren... but it's completely worth it. I promise.
I am HERE FOR THE RIDE, 100%!. Iâll def check that video out for my own knowledge, I purposely didnât want to watch it before I reacted, myself, so thanks for the reminder!
From watching your moving reaction to Hi Ren, I am very impressed by how you used your own experiences to not only draw parallels, but to offer insight I had previously not thought of. That's the beauty of collectively discovering new artists via reaction channels. It allows you to take a fresh look at music you have only a passing aquaintance with, often foiling spotify's algorithm, serving up a whole new genre.
As for Ren, there is nothing he can't do, from playing piano in a railway station, to acting his butt off as a modern travelling bard in the 'Jenny/Screech/Violet trilogy'.
I would definitely take a look at the live version of "How to be Me" if you liked his Chinchilla duet.
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well, i wish you all the best and health and luck and better doctors, but please donât stop so often. itâs really good having you picture us the reality of lyme-disease as you had it, but not after every 5 seconds, because after your first emotional explanations itâs clear and we are ready to follow ren because he explains the same issues through his music and own experience. see, we hear the same like you and we know that you can hear it as well so thereâs no need for you to repeat what can be heard after every few seconds.
You really deliver the most honest and open reactions. Thank you.
Thank you, friend. Glad you enjoy them.
Becca, where can I get that wide headband? In slightly cooler weather a full knit cap is a bit too much. Love your reactions! Keep moving forward and know that we love you.
Regarding the video, I love how the music slightly drowns out the actual conversation, which really captures the thoughts in our heads drowning out real world interactions. We're focused on our pain and illness, whether mental or physical, and we can't be fully present. Genius.
In reverse order: Yes! The way that background vocals and instrumental drowns out a lot of the spoken conversation really drives fast imagery home HARD. The level and layers of detail he puts into these videos is amazing. Genius, indeed.
As far as the headband, I wish I could give you a helpful answer, but I donât think itâs what youâre looking for. Iâve had a headache literally every day, no exaggeration, since January 20, 2013, and for most of the past decade Iâve had to wear a cold pack on my head, usually 24/7, just to keep the pain at bay. So thatâs actually a cold pack with individual little reusable ice cubes in two different rows. Not sure it would help you out in cooler weather, and Iâm sorry I canât be of more help! I used to only have ones that looked like obvious medical products, but I found these black ones ~6 years ago and for the last couple years, theyâre basically all I wear. And theyâre not nearly as obvious as the ones that are white and blue, etc. (the brand is Headache Hat, and they actually have a few different designs; I have some with 3 rows, some with 2, and one with a single row. Iâm never without them. Canât afford to be.)
Really thankful for your continued encouragement and support, Iâm really loving this community and journey!đ
Thank you for your video. Beautifully insightful.
Thank YOU for taking time to watch!đ
Wonderful and insightful reaction. Iâm glad you enjoyed it so. Your upcoming videos are good choices. Take a look at âWhat You Wantâ or âLosing Itâ for a more fun change of pace.
Really enjoying the insight you are able to bring to Rens music. Looking forward to the Chalk Outlines Live reaction. Subbed.
Thanks so much, Lloyd, that really means a lot to me. Very thankful for your support!
Another awesome break down! Canât wait to hear chalk lines! That song hits deep make sure you do the live version! Money Game 1 and in particular Part 2 is great! Keep up the awesome work!
Thanks so much, Jeremy! Iâm so glad you enjoyed this one, too! Thanks to some comments on the Hi Ren video, I did see it recommended to do the live version of Chalk Outlines, which I actually recorded a few days ago! I havenât been able to edit and upload it yet, but as soon as health allows, itâll be the next one I share! Definitely gonna be getting into parts 1&2 of Money Game-I am so excited to finally be on this journey into RenLand (someone else used that term and it may not be a âthing,â but it really does feel like itâs own little world here. Heâs done something not many artists can do, by making us all feel connected no matter our specific struggles.
thanks for being strong
Thanks for taking time to watch and comment, I appreciate you!đ
That was a wonderful reaction, thank you! I related to a lot of it.
Thank you so much, I am so glad it resonated with you!đ
Thank you a ton for doing these reactions, I know it helps me understand it just a little more.
As far as his other stuff, I will take his soul music stuff done on the street corners with some other pretty incredible musicians. I Shot the Sherrif would be a great way to go down this part of the Ren rabbit hole.
I am so glad that my reactions have been able to help you understand it just a little more, my number one goal with any of these that I put out, and really anything I share online, is to help at least one other person feel less alone or more understood, or to help them connect with something in a way that may be they hadnât been able to before, so your words mean the world to me. I canât wait to check out some more of that street music and some of those other covers, Iâm really excited to see the wide variety of music that I know is going to amaze me.
Hello Becca, I just watched your reaction to "Hi Ren" and it makes me happy to see that the next Ren reaction is already up.
This will be the second time that I see one of your videos, but I subscribed right after the first one.
Really powerful reaction. I can tell that you are a wonderful person.
I bet the suggestions will be a ton, but I highly recommend "Ren X Chinchilla - Chalk Outlines (live)"
I'm obsessed with Ren since I discovered him like a week ago, ngl. :D He became my favorite artist in no time.
Greetings from Germany đ
Edit: Nvm, just finished this video, powerful reaction again, and I'm glad that you are planning to do Chalk Outlines next. đ
Iâm so glad youâve enjoyed the reactions so far, that means so much to me, thank you! And yes! Chalk Outlines has already been recorded, Iâm just waiting for health to cooperate so I can edit and upload it. Iâm so glad youâve fallen down the rabbit home of his music and that itâs been helpful for you-I canât wait to get into even more of it, including the wide variety of genres and style I know he covers. So thankful youâre here, and your support on this little channel means the world to me! Looking forward to connecting more!đ
Such a great video, again! đAlso, I'm so well versed in lupus, Lyme is new to me (was but, diagnosed last year). I had COVID and Lyme at the same time.. ugh. My left leg hasn't worked right since and oh wow... The cognitive issues. If you all have any advise? Is this something you also go through? I like your community you built here! Good job.
Thanks Jen, I really appreciate your continued encouragement! I hate to hear of what youâre dealing with after getting hit with Lyme and COVID at the same time. I wish I could say more right now, but just know that I relate to everything you mentioned: the cognitive issues, mobility/pain, neurological symptomsâŠthey can all be so scary and overwhelming. And there is hope that they can lessen and you can get relief. Rooting for you, take care of yourself. One day at a time is all we have to focus on, especially in the hard times.
Great reaction! You will LOVE Chalk Outlines (Live), it's hauntingly beautiful, another great one is How to Be Me, also with Chinchilla (live)! His trilogy is incredible The Tale of Jenny and Screech (Full). Hunger, Genesis, Losing It, any or his busking videos are great as well! â€ïž
Thank you so much! I actually just uploaded a Chalk Outlines reaction, so feel free to check it out! Definitely have those others on the list, so theyâll be coming as soon as health allows me to film. I think The Hunger may be next because Iâm also a bit of a rap nerd and geek out over lyricism and flows, etc. Appreciate your support!đ
Another great reaction Becca. I love your reactions but it makes me so sad that so many people have to suffer and go through these things, simply because they are not believed to know their own damn bodies. I have been through it too, since the age of 20 when I found out I have an old person's arthritis that started in my spine. (Osteoarthritis not rheumatoid). It has slowly taken over my body(37 now) in so many ways, but because of my age, was never taken seriously. It has caused so many other things going wrong in my body it's ridiculous. But you and Ren are a bright light to those of us that know that struggle so thank you. Can't wait until you watch his video Crutch, but bring tissues lol.
Sending love and compassion, friend. Take care of yourself.đ
Loved your reaction to this. Recognising the all too familiar and having it expressed in such a way is a powerful and emotional experience. I'm a diagnosed schizophrenic and psychosis and I were dating for ages but we brought out the worst in each other so we split. It is what it is and I am who I am so mote it be. Much love from the upside down dusty old brown Great Southern Land. đâđđđ
Once again your reaction amazes me. I know what being mis-diagnosed feels like. Took them 18 years to Diagnose my MS
Iâm so, so sorry you had to suffer for so many years before they actually found an answer. That is never okay. Iâm glad you have an answer now, though I know the relief of having an answer also comes with a lot of pain and uncertainty about that answer and life in general, so Iâm holding space for that duality of emotion.
I hope youâve been able to get to a place where itâs managed as best as can be. And I really appreciate you taking time to share this.đ©·
Bless you. I hope you succeed in all your endeavors.
đđŒThank you, friend!
on point: itâs definitely about the medical industry, the pig metaphor, but itâs also about the music industry in this one and its recurrence I think is a general nod to animal farm and the status of the pigs running the game on us. Butchers, but also the rulers and the ones believing themselves above it all. He also may be a fan of Pink Floydâs animals album lol.
All of those seem like they could be layers to me. I have a feeling he uses it to symbolize a lot of similar things, and wouldnât surprise me if animal farm was what sparked this particular imagery when he found the mask. (Got a laugh out of that last line, but hey, you never know!đđ)
Thank you, just thank you. This is an amazing reaction
Thank you for letting me know you enjoyed it, it means so much to me.đ
I like your energetic reactions and your effort to analyze what's happening in the music and lyrics. I feel that commentary like this is good for the music community, and I wish you success on this channel.
That means so much to me, thank you deeply for your support. Iâm just happy to be able to contribute anything to the mini others who are sharing awesome content as they react to these masterpieces.
Hi Becca, good job. Naturally. Thanks for your sharing xx
Thanks, as always, Phil! Love seeing your make pop up in my notifications! đ
Tho this is my least favourite of EVERYTHING that Ren has done.
Still awesome, to go Amerikkkan on your ass, sister
I'll qualify that. We don't use awesome so much over here (tho it's creeping in). And the spelling of America is cos you lot need to sort your race relations out. I lived in Chicago for a year, as a white boy south side in the projects, so I'm qualified to comment
In one of my lives, in the life that I've lived...
I loved this response and subbed. Canât wait to see your reaction to The Tale of Jenny and Screech (Full). Itâs a trilogy that hits you right in the feels basket by the end.
Iâm so glad you enjoyed it! Iâm definitely looking forward to that trilogy. I think Iâll have to alternate between the more emotional songs and the hardcore rap songs (or the feel-good songs of his or his bandâs) to keep some kind of balance, but Iâve heard that trilogy is AWESOME.
Hey fellow KY gal! I love that I found your reaction channel, and yes there absolutely is Lyme Disease here. I was told the same thing years ago when I took my Daughter to the dr after she had contracted Lyme. Thanks for sharing with us. Ren is bringing people together with his art, which is amazing â€
Hey! Thanks so much for stopping by this little corner of the Internet. Ren has DEFINITELY brought people together with his art in a way Iâve not quite seen any other artist do to this degree. Iâm so glad heâs finally getting the recognition heâs long since deserved. Iâm so sorry youâve also had firsthand experience with Lyme-denial as you searched for answers for your daughter, I really hope you were able to find her some help after dealing with that ignorance, and I hope sheâs back to living life now. Take care of yourself.đ
It is always good when reactors get into the songs and videos. It is something else when you see them, on a deep level, identifying with the content.
I canât imagine what it is like to be able to walk a mile in the shoes of someone going through these things.
My best wishes, thoughts, prayers, much love and support.
Thank you so much, this was an extremely kind comment and really touched my heart. I appreciate you.
Donât apologize for pausing to comment. Itâs what most of us are here for. For those bothered by it, it boggles my mind why they are even watching a reaction video. I love your Ren reactions!
These comments always make me smile, because Iâve always felt the same way. Thank you so much, it means the world to me.đ
You are quite...remarkable. Chalk Outlines will require a fistful of Kleenex, as its truth is so painful, while at the same time so beautiful.
Thank you so much for such a kind comments. Iâve actually already recorded chalk outlines, itâs just gonna take me a little while to get it edited and uploaded, as health allows. But it absolutely required a lot of drying of the tears throughout the entire thing, and was so painful beautiful, indeed.
In the same way we have these opposing voices in ourselves, we must understand that everyone else is having that same experience. The medical system, the mental health system, and all the other systems are full of individuals experiencing that same battle. That doesn't justify behaviors like those you described with a doctor dismissing your symptoms. But that idea has helped me in a lot of ways to be able to communicate better with those who actually do want to help, and to avoid the kind of resentment that becomes self defeating. And it should be noted that many aspects of systems and institutions have improved markedy and even remarkably in some cases. Still a long way to go, but I look at the systems as in a development/recovery process similarly to that of the individual, it just goes slower due the complexity of the structures.
And please let me offer some hope regarding the state of the planet, it is actually doing much better than people would have you believe, it is more green and with more tree than it has been for a very long time. Worked as a logger and planted 6 trees for every one cut. Most people fathering resources are more conscientious about conservation than anyone else, their livelihoods depend on it.
Those are great points, John, definitely a lot of important things to think about that we donât always consider. Really appreciate you taking time to watch and share your thoughts.đ
It's so good to see a reaction that actually gets it and understands all of the layers and double meanings. Usually I don't like so many pauses, because the pauses and the commentary is often just not 'getting it', but your analysis, genuine understanding and heartfelt reaction is such a breath of fresh air. Its awesome to watch. Although, as you said about parts than make you feel uneasy in your reaction, also gives a sense of unease because it is just such an emotional response and we are witnessing you bring up uncomfortable emotions too and it feels very intimate.
Can't wait for your next reaction. But also please make sure you hug yourself and know that many of us also wish you strength, happiness and peace. â€ïž
Jane, reading your words touched my heart in a way Iâm struggling to put into words. Thank you so much. Iâm really glad to know you were able to resonate with a lot of the emotions that were running high for me in this video; it was definitely an adventure and I canât wait to keep digging into more. I really appreciate the reminder to make sure Iâm taking care of myself, too, though. I can definitely fall victim to not giving myself the rest and recovery time I need, so trying to be more intentional about that. Very appreciative and thankful that youâre here!đ
I really enjoyed (if that's the right word!) the intensity and authenticity of your reaction, and your keenness to explore the literary and medical allusions whilst also being emotionally wrapped up in the song.
With regards to the choral sample we hear, it fundamentally stems from "Bre Petrunko", a traditional Hungarian song (which is an amazing thing to listen to in and of itself); the chunky production we hear I don't believe stems from Ren's computer genius mind either, as it can also be heard here: czcams.com/video/OFtAWVB9-SI/video.html
But by 'eck, he's still astonishing.
Thank you, Andrew! That really means a lot to me. Iâm so glad you were able to enjoy this video (I think thatâs the right word, so weâll go with itđ). Thanks for the info on that background sample, looking forward to checking it out! And YES, heâs absolutely astonishing!!
The wealth of information (your input here for example) available from the "community" is fantastic
This isnât my favourite Ren song but I was gripped by your reaction. Youâre really good at this and you should be really proud of yourself. I look forward to more of your reactions. Thank you
Thank you so much! Iâm so glad you were able to enjoy it even though itâs not typically your fave Ren track. Your words mean a lot to me, thanks for the encouragement!đ
All good and credit where itâs due. I really loved your Hi Ren reaction too. I canât imagine what you go through on a day to day basis but Iâm so glad you have found a small slice of solace in Ren. Iâm sure there are millions in the same boat.
If youâre looking for something a bit lighter form him, Bitter Sweet Symphony is a lovely change of pace. I think youâd like that one.
Other artists to delve in to at some point if you like hip hop are Mic Righteous and Lowkey from the uk. Theyâve both been through all sorts but are the kings of lyricism and have a huge back catalogue. Very much on the conscious rap vibe, predominantly.
Keep up the great work
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One thing I recently learned about NDs is that we have a more connected/sensitive connection with our bodies eg. we can read cues about something wrong with it a lot faster than NTs. That's why whenever we feel something being wrong we should persist on having it checked out
Thatâs a really interesting point; I think a lot of talk about problems with interoception leads people to assume we donât have ANY connection with out bodies and feelings, physically or mentally, but it makes so much meow sense to me that, on the sensitive side of things, we also tend to be able to tell when somethingâs âoff,â even if we canât pinpoint it exactly. Appreciate you!
Great reaction
Sending love âŁïž
Thanks so much, back at you!