Ren - Dominoes REACTION: Anorexia Recovery Perspective💔(This One Was HARD)
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- čas přidán 24. 03. 2023
- Well...I did it. Here's my reaction video to 'Dominoes' by Ren, the song that was probably most requested in the comments of the Chalk Outlines video, because you all knew the subject matter would hit close to home, since it deals with eating disorders, body dysmorphia, diet culture, and society's pressure to have the "perfect" body and focus on the 'thin ideal,' and OH MY WORD, you were RIGHT.
This is an EXTREMELY emotional video...lots of tears, but also lots of raging against the machine of diet culture and the weight loss industry, so there are breaks between the breakdowns. I also share several parts of my own 20-year history with anorexia throughout, as they relate to the song and came to mind, so I hope you're able to take something from this, even if it's just knowing you are NOT alone in your battle, no matter how much it may feel like it.
This world needs YOU, not some fake version they try to sell you. YOU, as you are, RIGHT NOW.
Take care of yourselves, friends. 💕
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💕UPDATE💕 Thank you ALL, once again, for the outpouring on love on then video. It was obviously a topic that really hit closer to home than most, and I’m very glad I did this one as an exercise in therapeutic catharsis, but I am absolutely drained emotionally right now.
This comment is probably unnecessary, because I know many of you have told me it’s not necessary to reply to every comment, but I really love connecting with you all, so I hate not being able to keep up with it. Please know that I read EVERY. SINGLE. WORD. you take time to type, and appreciate EVERY. SINGLE. ONE. of you who has felt safe enough to share and entrust me with just a piece of your own story. That’s the reason I do any of this, to help someone feel less alone, more understood, or just give any sense of connection I possibly can.
That said, this entire video in particular is making it hard to have the mental capacity to keep up with replies, despite my best attempts. If I’m not able to type back to you, but I still “heart” your comment, please know I’m sending you all the love and compassion I can, and took time to read every word you wrote.
As always, this community amazes me in the best way. I’m convinced Ren has managed to create a community of some of the kindest, most empathetic and compassionate humans on this planet, and it’s an honor to be here with you.
Take care of yourselves. You deserve that and so much more.💕
I loved the song, and I think this song should be listened to more.
I do wish you would do something a bit more … well…
If you would, give a listen to Patience, Power, …
Or maybe The Big Push Bongo Bong or I Shot The Sheriff/Road to Zion/Hip Hop.
A bit of a breather from the heavy heavy for you.
❤
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Ren's lyrics are in full technicolour in a monochrome musical world .
Yes -That is a great description.
You said that so perfectly, I literally can’t add anything-you summed it all up.💕
that was said brilliantly.
Facts
Stealing this! Lol
As a father with teenage daughters who struggle, Dominoes is a rough one for me too. Ren produces the most human music. It's far too real for mainstream music but the reason he has developed such a following. Enjoy the rest of Ren. There are many more emotional ones that are phenomenal. I suggest doing a couple fun ones though. Loosing it and What you want are just plain fun.
Richard, thank you for taking time to share just a very small part of your journey with your daughters. From someone who’s been dealing with this for 2 decades, I want to say thank you for being there for your daughters-even if/when they say they don’t need/want it, they do.
I definitely plan on doing some fun ones next (after Illest of our Time drops on 3/29), my heart definitely needs a break for a bit after this one.
Love Music 1,2,&3 are very fun and have insane word play
I think a lot of fathers of daughters would benefit from watching this. As men, it's hard to understand our daughters, especially during those years. I love how the 2nd half of this song comes at you fast and hard, with unescapable truths.
Do you want to know what does work Becca ? ; a beautifully compassionate, unselfish human being who, although they have suffered themselves with a disorder, uses a social media platform, positively, to speak, with unparalleled passion and conviction, of their struggles, in the hope of sounding alarm bells to others who may be putting their first foot forward on a journey of guaranteed pain, anxiety and depression. I am sure you are resonating with Ren and the message he is conveying in this song. God bless you Becca for your courage and your beauty. This reaction video will be helping more people than you know. You need to understand just how beautiful you are. I wish you love, strength and healing. 🙏
I do not have words nearly adequate enough to explain how much this touched my heart. This brought tears to my eyes, thank you. Thank you so much for leaving such kind, encouraging, compassionate words. Very much appreciate you.💕
I have a hard time realizing that a man wrote this. I know men experience many of the same things, but to be this deep into the beauty culture and anorexia is just amazing. Ren is absolutely my favorite songwriter now.
Ren is amazing - full stop. Please know that men see the struggles of their girlfriends, wives, daughters. Real men do. Wishing you all the best.
True empathy crosses all boundaries. As a man I have not personally experienced the social pressure that women do in this regard. Nevertheless, I can empathise with their experience, and I can recognise how they must feel. It hurts, deeply.
I am 67 and have struggled with weight my entire life. When I was 7, we moved to another town and I gained a lot of weight. My parents took me to the doctor, thinking that
I had thyroid problems (like my mom). I had to drink barium for the x-rays. Afterward, the doctor told my parents, "She's not sick. She's just fat." Thus started my dieting "career." My parents put me on a diet as soon as we got home from the doctor. I was 7! From then on, if I asked for seconds of anything, my father would tell me, "You're going to be fat as a butterball." So many meals ended in me running from the table in tears. On his death bed, the last thing he ever said to me was, "Stop smoking and lose weight." This song specifically, really all of Ren's music, resonates loud and clear. Such an insightful young man! And you are a very insightful and beautiful young woman. Thank you!
Oh friend, I wish I couple give you (and 7-year old you) a hug right now. No one should have to go through that, ESPECIALLY at such a young, formative age when the goal is LITERALLY to be GROWING as you get older. There is excuse for any of that. I am so glad Ren’s music has been a healing force for you-it definitely has been for me, too. I really appreciate you, and thank you deeply for sharing some of your story.💕
The fact that you had to be careful of how much you said about certain topics (a discussion of which can be healthy and helpful) while this platform happily throws adverts at us that reinforces what the problems are, just shows how messed up society is.
Commerce and media pumps out images that not only harm directly but encourages a lack of empathy. That lack of empathy hurts people on both sides of the equation and feeds into the growing problem of depression as it cuts us off from something vital to us.
That's why I love Ren, why I love the community that follows him and why I love channels like this. It reminds us that despite the image that media and commerce might throw out that people can still have that empathy, still feel the need to connect with others.
Almost perverse that the advert at the start of this video was some sort of bodyform, suck in the fat, clothing item for women. Shameful from CZcams (unsurprisingly)
You have so much to say and I love tbe way you say it. Your challenges may have robbed you of many things, but rest assured your radiant personality isn't one of them. I'm very happy to have found your channel through Ren's music and have the opportunity to be in the audience to hear your insights. Take care Becca and keep doing what you are doing :-)
Wow, thank you, sincerely. I feel so blessed by the number of people who have been connecting with these videos; it blows me away. I’m really glad you were able to enjoy this one. I appreciate your support!💕
@@BeccaDoss Absolutely what he said. People who struggle with mental illness often seem to have the nicest personalities.
One of my best friends has paranoid schizophrenia. He is the friendliest, warmest person I know. He will try to give you 50€ if you give him a 5min lift somewhere. It's cruel that he was cursed with such a disease.
Oh becca I cannot express how great this reaction was to me but I also felt sad because of the things you told. All I have to say is: You are enough, more than that even. I as someone who sits in a wheelchair because of "spina bifida" since birth can certainly also relate to the themes of this song. Much love to you. ❤
You definitely have plenty of experience with the heaviness of the message in this song, I can tell, and I’m so sorry you’ve had to endure that. As a part time wheelchair user, I know I can still only barely grasp what it’s like to be full-time, and I hold so much compassion and love for you. Sending virtual hugs your way (with consent). And I’m so glad you were able to resonate with this one; it’s definitely a super personal one, but I’m hoping the people who may need to know they’re not alone will find it.💕
@@BeccaDoss I am dealing with it much better nowadays I have to say. Always try to think about what I have and not what I don't. Also not comparing myself with others. It was a process that took a while but I am much healthier for it mentally which I am so grateful for. Thank you for the reply and for your compassion. Totally love those reactions every single time.
I just heard this on Spotify about an hour ago. It's on Ren's 1st album from 2016. He’s had all this amazing, deep music out there for years & I'm so glad we’re finally discovering it. Thanks again for your openness & intelligence. I feel that impatience to react to everything too, but savour this time when we can experience it for the first time together, going through a Ren-volution in our minds. 😂
Ren-volution…I LOVE IT! He really has had so many amazing works of art out there for years, and I’m SO GLAD to 1. Have finally found him, myself, and 2. To see him explode and finally get the recognition he deserves.
(Have you been posting Re(n)actions, too? I wasn’t sure if that’s what you were referencing with the so tie me being hard. If you have, I definitely wan to check it out! Saw on your channel you have a handful of other videos, so wanted to make sure I didn’t miss your reactions somewhere if that’s what you were saying.)
That was another great reaction. It is so true, we live in a materialistic, narcissistic society. Keep
spreading the message with Ten.
I meant Ren, of course.
Thank you so much, as always, I appreciate your support so very much.
as a parent its my job to make sure my kids learn self belief
Thank you for being aware of this, your kids are already ahead of many whose parents don’t even try.💕
Becca you are beautiful, very smart, very sensitive..
A personal reaction..please don't get sucked in to what your fed..be yourself..turn negatives into positives..be strong.
Love Ren...love all his work..makes you feel human..in touch with yourself.
Freakled Angel..got me..true song when you put 2 & 2 together..keep smiling..❤
This was the one I was worried about you hearing but also really wanted you to, to see your reaction to further educate me. I relate to it in a different way than eating disorders but I am double thin genetically and was bullied for it for all of the time I mixed with anyone whether my mates or general public. Now I just don’t leave the house or mix with anyone and haven’t for 22yrs.
I also have genetic epilepsy and had a seizure in the centre of town. When I came around about 30 people were stood around me laughing or at least I only noticed the ones that were laughing adding to the reason I don’t leave the house anymore coz that was the worst day of my life and I will never forget it.
A number of his other songs are deep but you are over the worst now so hopefully you can enjoy them more like I do. 💜
Oh friend, I want to give you such a big hug right now. I definitely was reacting to this from the perspective of my own story and the pursuit of thinness that is shoved at us from the moment we’re born, but if I had taken a broader view, I would’ve acknowledge that people who are naturally very thin have also often endured a lot of comments and treatment-and it is NOT okay. That day sounds absolutely like a nightmare, I am so sorry you have to carry such a painful memory. I hope you’re able to find some peace amidst the chaos that is life.💕
@@BeccaDoss 💜
This is an amazing song by Ren that I wasn't sure about right at the start but then in a few seconds I was hooked and enthralled by the lyrics. Then I said to myself, holy crap, this really means something!
Oh my goodness, yeah, it has a MESSAGE for sure!
Such an insightful and moving reaction Becca. Your strength, honesty and hard won wisdom shine through your words. Never, never doubt that you are enough, you are that and more, you are an inspiration!
Thank you so much, your words of kindness me so much to my heart. Glad you were able to enjoy this one.💕
Thank you so much for reacting to this and really digging into the lies of diet culture! It’s so insidious in our culture that we don’t even see it. Diet culture disguised as “health”. As if we owe being healthy to our society when so little of it is even in our control. Thank you for your passion and honesty about your illness and struggles. ❤
Becca thank you for a sharing your journey. Im 58 yrs old and i still struggle with my insurcurities and i think thats why so many people relate to Ren because he lets us all young and old feel were not alone in this craziness we call life..Thank you
To have fun check out " I shot the sheriff" cover by The Big Push (Ren's band) He's the best ! I'm sure Bob Marley would approve .
Definitely looking forward to that one! Thanks for the rec, I’m trying to keep a running tally, and switch up the styles between reactions as much as I can.
I’m nearly out of 6 years of deep depression after a MTBI, I’ve hardly left my house this past week! Listenin REN 😂
You need to go light again after this. Try ‘What you want’ you’ll be 😂😂😂 xxxx
I do plan on going light again after this, FOR SURE, but the drop of “Illest of Our Time” on 3/29 is too good to pass up, so after that (which looks like it’s gonna be another fun bar dissection and breakdown from the short clips he’s shared), I plan on getting to one of the legitimately lighter, more fun, happier songs. A lot of people have mento me ‘what you want’ so it’s near the top of the list! EDIT: Also, CONGRATS on the success in knocking down that depression; I’m so sorry to hear of your pain, but thankful to know you’ve found healing through his art. Hang in there!💕
I love what you want, its him having fun, massive beastie boys tribute, you'll love it, itll make you smile
@@BeccaDoss same too you. X
@@BeccaDoss p.s. your facial expressions in the Hunger review were brilliant. X ❤️ from Manchester, England.
@@rickb.4168 I’m so glad you found them entertaining, I sometimes worry it comes across like I’m purposely “overdoing” it, but I couldn’t fake emotions like that if I tried. I’m notoriously bad at it.😬
Becca, you are just right, always enough and never too much. So strong in sharing your vulnerability. I know this has to be good for you to talk this stuff out. I know this helps a lot of people and I am one of them. thank you. I have also fallen down the Ren hole. If you are looking for an emotional break. Try Ren Money Game part 2. It's a great take on politics in America and Britain and the reality of the capitalistic Money Game we live in. Peace Becca.
Thanks Richard, I appreciate your continued encouragement so much. It definitely is a healing and therapeutic experience for me, AS IS reading comments like this, and just knowing there are people out there who can either relate, learn something, enjoy these, or even just feel a little less alone in our shared humanity. I’m definitely looking forward to Money Game when I can get to it! 💕
Follow-up: your first two sentences made me heart smile and meant the world to me, as someone who has always felt like I’m either too much, not enough, or like I said in the video, too much OF not enough. Thank you for your kindness, deeply.
I wasn't expecting you to respond to my comment on your video reacting to Hi Ren, but i wanted to pop in again and say another big THANK YOU for recommending more of Ren's music. You gave me some great direction on where to go, got me out of my one song pigeon hole, and got me on a full Ren rabbit hole. Thank you for your insights, openness, and vulnerability. Your story is important. Thank you for sharing your journey through recovery and healing. Stay strong, you lovely human
I’m SO glad to hear you’ve been able to go down the entire Ren rabbit hole, it’s a very fun one. Honestly, I need to film more ASAP so I can listen to all his music. I’m currently only listening to them as I react, but the ones I suggested are ones that were personally impactful for me, and I suspected you may feel the same. Thanks for taking time to leave such a thoughtful, encouraging comment. So glad you’re here.💜💕
Watching your own personal reaction to Ren's Domimoes shows me how much his music can hit so deeply. And, how much we all need to STOP pushing our selves and our children to strive for these PERFECT looks. I wish you peace and many future smiles and hopefully loving yourself as you are...WE DO NOT NEED TO BE PERFECT!!! Best of luck to you!
Either set us up to knock us back down, or play us like the game that is Dominos
Yes, great point!
@@BeccaDoss Much love love much what you're doing Becca💜
Wow! That was another incredible reaction. I was tearing up for sure. Your incredibly strong for sharing your story. I think many can relate not just to this song, but to your reaction as well, and it is helpful knowing we are not alone. You mentioned story telling, I’m sure many have recommended the tale of Jenny and Screech, which are amazing at showcasing his talent, but I have to warn you, they are very dark. I recommend getting to know some more of his rap songs (Power, Genesis, his many retakes) or even his more rock songs with his band The Big Push (It’s Alright is particularly uplifting to me) before diving into the tales.
Thank you so much, as ALWAYS. I always feel the need to apologize for making anyone else tear up, but it’s also very powerful for me to hear how many people can connect to the emotional side of things. It means so much to me, I can’t even think of an adjective deep enough to describe how it touches my heart.
After Illest of Our Time drops on 3/29, I definitely plan on getting back to his rap and other lighter, more upbeat songs for a bit, I’m so glad I did this one, and am looking forward to the Tales trilogy, but I’ve heard exactly what you said-it’s HEAVY-so I’m gonna try to give myself and everyone else a breather for a little while, at least.
Great reaction ren is a breathe of fresh air! Stay strong 💪
Thanks Ryan, really appreciate that (and you!).💕
Yeah, Ren is outstanding. I’m certain he’s an Empath.
Thanks for your like. I know Empaths because I am one. I feel, and understand the suffering of others. It isn’t much fun. Nor is seeing through the constant lies
@@jeffstumpf9129 Really. Sometimes I think, it is a curse... And if people realize, they sometimes get scared. And it often goes ahead with lacking self empathy...
I meant Ren. But, then again, he is a ten plus, in all ways.
(this follow up comment made me smile, because he totally is!)
I must say, I don't get emotional often and even then, I keep it down. However today, this piece hit me like nothing I remember. I've heard Dominoes like 10-times before, but today when I was driving home and playing this, when I heard one specific line "She started cutting her wrists wrists and hiding the scars with gloves", it left me frozen. Just the essence on this specific line. The fact that, in addition to all of that she felt the shame and had to hide her scars with GLOVES. It wasn't enough that she was ashamed of herself for her body as it was, she even had to be ashamed of what she inflicted upon herself.
It hit me so hard that I was left in a different state of mind, feeling my head filling up with emotion, and on the second play, it had overflown and tears came in. Almost had to pull over.
Now, at home, I still haven't really got out of it. I searched on CZcams for reactions and stuff, when I found yours, and cried again when you began. What a ride...I had my own issues with a speech disorder, also experiencing a lot of shame at even basic human interactions for bigger part of my life, so this brought a lot of relatable pain.
By the way, great reaction!...like and sub
First thing first thank you for being so strong to say what you said . Second women please please don't feel like you need makeup or work done . Let your personality shine
As you wiped your eyes... I wiped mine 😢
Ren will help heal us all... Sending you 💖
Liked this reaction. I don't have a 4th of what you are going through but I am learning a lot, thank you. Peace. Be well.
So glad you were able to enjoy it without necessarily sharing the exact struggle. This one is definitely more of a personal one than something like my bar breakdown of “The Hunger,” but I just keep hoping the right people who need to see any of these will find them. 💕
Thank you for your reactions Becca, I have been looking forward to all your reactions ever since finding your Hi Ren reaction/analysis. I think there is more to your "reactions" than just a reaction to be honest, you go deep into the meanings, and the subcontext that many miss, and for me (and many others I am sure) the most important part you share your emotional impact from them. For these songs with hard hitting lyrics what many of us want to see is the emotional reaction that reverberates within ourselves, so never ever say sorry that you are stopping and crying, many of us are crying with you, seeing someone feel the lyrics on the same level as one does oneself is healing for the heart, and with different people come different viewpoints on the lyrics making ones appreciation of them grow even stronger. So for us empathic people these videos are very powerful and relatable, in the same way as the original songs are, they connect on a deep level to something within us.
I think many of us are lacking people in our friendship circles that listen to music in the same way as we do, so it is hard to share the importance of what they mean to you with them as they just "don't get/feel it" in the same way you do and sharing emotions is what being a human is for me, and what music is about. So having someone openly share their own emotions to a song, and giving context to that is very important, many of us have in silence fought these demons within us and thought we were alone, music has for sure saved my life, as a young teenager in the late 80's early 90's when it was still taboo to talk about mental health having some artists but into words the things I was feeling made me realize I was not alone genuinely saved my life.
Having struggled with chronic depression since I was around 10 years old and never having had a healthy relation with food, either comfort eating to temporarily keep the demons away or starving myself to lose weight it has always been a complicated story even if not as severe as an anorexia journey. Now many decades later at 45 I have mostly learned to dance with my demons and have a decent life but as with other chronic diseases one knows it will be with you to the end and need to reconcile with that.
So keep sharing as long as you feel it is healthy for you Becca, you are doing it amazingly well, and your personality does really shine through! I am looking forward to each upload and wish you all the best! ❤
Well said!
Amazing! So strongly moved and feeling this. Thank you Becca. So the question that remains for me is, if not goingg through the motions, buying and spending, trying, etc, how do we find sense of purpose in life? How do we keep momentum? I am existential and a thinker... sigh....
I was really worried about this one, I won’t lie, because I know a lot of people were initially hesitant to click on a 30-minute breakdown of ‘The Hunger’ (thankfully the people that said that also said they were surprised in a good way, so it worked out), and I figured this one, being more niche and more emotional (and and handful of minutes longer) would have people leery of clicking to watch. I decided to release it anyway, because it was cathartic for me, and I wanted to follow through for everyone who requested it. And as always, my number one goal is to help one person feel less alone or more understood, so the performance of a video is much less important to me than the people who do manage to take time to watch and get even something small from it. You’re a blessing to me.💕
@@BeccaDoss aww likewise Becca! I watched it minutes after it went up- I get SO excited for your videos because there arent so many recovery accounts that really resonate with my heart as yours does.
@@kiki-oh7hi This is one of the kindest things anyone could say. And I’m SO glad you’re able to resonate with the things I share/the way I share them. You’re definitely not alone, but I know it can feel that way when it’s hard to find someone who “gets it.”
Thanks for doing this song, Becca!
Thanks so much, Jessica. Sending all my love and compassion your way.💕
You're still here- still shining. Your reactions shines quite brightly as well. You've not been swallowed up. It's good to see that.
Dominos..hits hard. I reacted that way too when thinking of the continuous set-up. It all comes back to greed- profit. Yep. Chronic diseases and disorders - *raises hand* I'm right there with ya!
Thank you so much for all the encouragement you’ve left in these comments. While I always hate to know someone else can understand, there’s also solace to be found in knowing we’re not alone even when this can feel very isolating.💕
This track, specifically, and all REN songs are friggen incredible but your reaction, and the honesty of this lyrical symphony about the problems of society, and you just explain the pure honesty of the lyrics... i love you.
Sorry it’s taken me so long to get back to you, but I wanted to let you know your comment meant the world to me and gave me a huge smile. I’m really glad you were able to enjoy and/or connect with this one, and your words mean more than I can say. You are so appreciated, take care of yourself.💕
Thank you! A dear friend of mine lost her daughter to an eating disorder in 2013. Her heart just couldn’t do it anymore, as she waited for a place in a treatment center. At the beginning of the pandemic, that friend of mine, who also suffered from Lyme’s and had other chronic physical and mental health issues, took her own life. So the way this song hits you let me cry too, and feel the righteous anger at the industries that keep setting us up and knocking us back down. Bless you, and keep fighting the good fight! ❤️
It’s taking me a little while to get back to your comment, Rebecca, because I didn’t feel like I have adequate words to reply in the way that I want to. I’m still not sure I have the right words, but I want to say thank you for taking time to share so much of your personal pain, and that of your friend who succumbed to the pressure that all of these illnesses can cause. There are so many people who feel like there’s no option but to do that, and I have so much compassion for anyone who is at the end of the rope like that, as well as anyone and everyone who loved them and knows that the world is worse off without them. I really hope you were able to find this a cathartic crying experience, along with that righteous anger at all of the establishment setting us up just to knock us back down. I really appreciate you taking time to share this. It breaks my heart that her daughter lost her fight with her disorder while on a waiting list for treatment, that should never be the reality for anyone and I will never stop fighting to try to advocate for people getting the care that they need and very much deserve. Take care of yourself, I’m very thankful for you.
The first two songs that come to mind when of fun/light/poppy Ren is "what you want" and "losing it". However, the more I think about it, the more I get excited about you doing a first time reaction to his song "Humble" featuring Eden Nash. It's catchy, upbeat, brimming with positivity and of "Dominos" is a rightful condemnation of beauty culture, then he at least offers a possible better mindset or way of thinking in "Humble". PLEASE check it out at some point. Love you Ren reactions
wow...This was really moving. I cried buckets!
I apologize for the tears (unless they were cathartic/therapeutic, in which case I’m a big fan of a healing cry, I just hate to be the cause of tears for anyone). Thank you so much for letting me know you enjoyed this one-it definitely hit hard on a very personal level.
Yeah, me too.
I've watched nearly 20 reaction videos of this song to find someone who had the same reaction to Ariah's story. Nobody reacted with the same emotion as I did besides you. I'm not even a woman but I pictured her as actually becoming a beauty queen with a crowd applauding as the announcer called her name and as she went to grab the crown she collapsed on stage crying and coughing up blood. I saw it in the shoes of the announcer just standing there holding the crown freaking out in my head.
Hey friend, thank you so much for taking time, not just to watch this, but to take time to leave such a kind comment, and also take time to explain the way your brain painted that very vivid picture (which I can honestly see being an intended visual of those lines). I’m glad to be able to show you you’re not the only one who felt that way when watching. And I’m also sorry you felt it so deeply-I don’t apologize for the deep-feeling, because I feel everything deeply, myself, and while it can feel like a curse at times, I wouldn’t change it for anything, but I apologize for the pain I know it can bring up, and for anything you or loved ones have endured in life that makes this particular subject matter hit so hard. And even if it wasn’t a personal thing, and was just a vivid image that evoked that response in you, that speaks to the power of the narrative Ren is painting with his words, here. I’m right there with you. Please be gentle with yourself, friend.💕
Well done Becca I thought hard before recommending this song on a previous Ren video as I thought it would hurt you, but your humanity and bravery shone through. I know this will help others going through this terrible affliction as it comes from someone who has been through the mill. Keep smiling girl your video's are a pleasure to watch. My latest favourite from Ren is How to be Me live with Chinchilla a musical masterpiece but like all Ren Gills songs it has a strong message on Suicide awareness
Beautiful reaction by a beautiful person to a beautiful song.
Thank you so much, friend, this one really hit home, and I’m so thankful to Ren for creating it, AND to everyone to mentioned it as a recommendation to react to, as well as every soul who’s taken time to watch it.💕
I don’t have an eating disorder but I do have a very strong hate reaction to chewing, even my own some times. I also have a severe reaction to super fast talking, and the cuts in your video would have made me nuts just a few months ago. I couldn’t have watched even one of your videos before Ren told me to “relax “ in hi ren. I have turned myself around, I’ve reduced my vices and increased my feelings and how give my feeling to others. Your videos help me, your perspective of REN’s videos are unique, and harmonize with some of my own.
Oh man, I’m so sorry to hear that (for what it’s worth, I deal with misophonia and some other auditory sensory stuff, so while it’s not the same thing you describe, I know how debilitating that can be).
I’m thrilled to hear that watching Hi Ren was such a transformative experience for you, as it was for so many of us. It also makes me glad to know you’re able to handle my videos (I know they’re very cut-heavy sometimes, just for the sake of trimming out anything that’s repetitive or unnecessary, and as much as I try to slow down my speech, I traverse into speed-talking without realizing it) now, when it wouldn’t have previously been the case.
Way to go on finding ways to turn yourself around, reduce those vices, and increased your emotional capacity (for yourself and to others). That is HARD work, and so worthwhile. Thank you so much for taking time to type this out, I hope you’re able to find continued healing and peace.💕
I had tears in anticipation when I saw this in my CZcams feed, they became uncontrollable watching how this hit you. I'm so thankful there's people like Ren able to make art like this that can help tell your story. Thank you for sharing this. All the best ✌️❤️
It means a lot to know you were emotionally anticipatory to watch this one just when you saw it come up-seriously, that made my heart smile. But I do apologize for the tears, I know they were plentiful on my end, and I always feel a little bad for eliciting the same response from others, but I hope they were at least cathartic tears.💕🫂 I really appreciate you taking time to leave such an encouraging and kind comment, thank you.
A powerful song and a honest heartfelt reaction that hit hard 😢
Much ❤
Thanks so much for taking time to stop by and watch/comments. Definitely a really powerful song.💕
From the little I have learned about you in recent times let me first say, YOU ARE ENOUGH. We have walked wildly different paths but our journeys and experiences are equally valid. I cannot imagine your path yet would not divert you to walk mine either. I guess I got lucky in not seeking acceptance by others or societal constructs. It produced an outcast, a Lone Wolf that lives only on the values of oneself. I, by my own admission, am not great looking, lack the body of Adonis etc. But within me is a strong beautiful heart, that would do no harm and lacks judgement of others without knowledge. The shell is for the shallow, the heart and soul is for those with true vision. You wear your heart on your sleeve for all to see and your Soul glows brighter than any sun. Please remain beautiful in your honesty, it will help more people than you will ever see. 🐺❤️
Oh friend, your words touched my soul in a way I can adequately articulate. Thank you, deeply. We definitely all have our own struggles, and I’m sorry to hear you’ve endured so much pain, yourself. Thank you for taking time to share these words here, and thanks for being such a kind human.💕
@Becca Doss Thank you for seeing me and taking the time to respond. 🐺❤️
Thank You! You put words to things that I didn't realize I was feeling. I can't combat a thought I didn't know I was having. This reaction has had an impact on my life. Time will see how much. You will not see that. But, still. Thank You.
This meant more to my heart than my words can dream of saying right now. From the bottom of my heart, thank you. I’m so glad it was able to be a source of healing for you. 💕
You are a beautiful soul. I understand you don't believe it right now. I too have a eating disorder and 22 yrs of chronic pain. I sadly lost my marriage and many friends because they just didn't want to "deal" with me. This song hit me hard too! Blessings
Sending you so much love and compassion, Suzanne. I’m so sorry to hear of your own struggle and pain, and I appreciate your words more than my own can say right now. I’ve lost a lot of people, myself, so I feel you. I’m grateful my husband has stuck around, but he’s one of the only ones, and there have been plenty of times I’d understand him leaving.
Since you shared something with me that you know is true even if I struggle to believe it, I want to return the favor:
You deserve so much love and kindness and compassion from others in life, and it’s only taken me reading one of your comments to be able to say that confidently. You are SO much more than just someone to “deal” with. 💕🙏🏼
I'm going through anorexia recovery right now, and both this song and this video you've made has helped me, thank you so much :') ❤
Hey friend, I’m so sorry to hear about your struggle and pain. I’m currently in an IP program fighting alongside you across the miles, and sending you so much love and compassion. You deserve so much more than this disorder gives.💜💕
As someone not close to this, I appreciate you sharing life from your perspective. We are all one family, somehow we have been divided, blinded by phantoms, ghosts we all chase to make us whole.
Thanks you.
I’m so glad you appreciate my perspective, thank you for watching even thought it’s not your particular struggle. It means the world. And I couldn’t have said that second part of your comment any better. Very well stated.💕🙌🏼
@@BeccaDoss Maby people have allways felt like this, but for most of my life I felt like we are sleepwalking, going through the motions. We listen to others and allow their voice to replace ours.
I feel a breaking point coming soon. It will be painful, but needed, those who have money and power does not want that.
Think for ourselves. Choose for ourselves. Be ourselves.
It would take me an hr or more to explain how and why I feel connected to this song. Or even Ren's music in general. Masterful. A wordsmith extraordinaire. ❤
He absolutely is. No pressure to type anything that would be such an undertaking, but just wanted you to know I saw this and I’m sending you so much love for all you’ve gone through, and/or are facing. 💕
I took a few days to think about your reaction and how I wanted to respond….
Hugs to you. I felt incredibly close to you as I watched your reaction but not like I was a voyeur. Thank you for being so open and honest in your reaction.
I found your page through Ren but I’m staying because you are an amazing human and I want to see more!
Now it’s my turn to say I took a few days to respond to your comment, because I wanted to give it the consideration and time it deserves. I still don’t feel like I have adequate words, but thank you so much for showing immense kindness and encouragement, it means so much more than I can ever truly explain. I’m really glad you were able to connect with this reaction, and I’m so thankful you were able to find my channel as a result of being a fan of Ren, and it means the world to me that you’re sticking around and want to see more. I literally never thought anyone would care about any of this, so it’s all extremely humbling and overwhelmingly amazing to see so many kinds souls show up in these comments. Connection really is healing, and I think Ren is helping us all learn that lesson firsthand.💕
@@BeccaDoss Ren has connected me with people and experiences I would have never had without going down his rabbit hole! And he has shown us all that no matter what walk of life we are from we ALL have similar experiences. It’s fascinating reading comments and watching these reaction videos and seeing a little bit of myself in all of them. And humbling too, you’re right
Thank you, this is one of my favorite Ren's songs. But it is so rough, it makes me cry, I've always felt not enough and too much. Thank you for opening up, great reaction. You are great at this!!
It’s definitely a tearjerker. I’m glad it’s been able to be a source of catharsis for you, too, but my goodness, it’s rough. Thanks for your kind words, I really appreciate you taking time to let me know you enjoyed it.💕🫶🏼
wow. i really don't have words. this was such an emotional song (i actually teared up). i loved hearing more of your story and seeing you stand up to our culture, keep going friend ❤
Becca! I'm so glad I found your channel tonight - You are a fabulous, wonderful person and I'm so glad to now be subscribed. Ren is a true talent, he's a fellow Welshie who I feel an odd sense of pride towards. Thank you for a beautiful reaction x
As a 14 year-old, I’m on the front lines of all this, it’s even talked about in the school program its so bad! And Ren just resumed 12 hours of school lessons and more into a great 4-minute song. (luckily ?) I’m a very unusual person and my problems are elsewhere ( but I won’t go into that...), for example, I don’t use any social media. But I see everyone around me being affected by this, even lightly, it’s kinda scary. And that’s why my only two friends are like me and don’t care about how we look.
anyway, I’m very happy I got to find you through Ren and I love what you’re doing !
It took me way too long to reply to this, and I’m sorry, I just wanted to make sure I could give you the time and attention that your comment deserves. I want to say thank you so much for sharing some of your own story, and I think it’s awesome that you don’t use social media, and that you have a couple friends who are the same and you all haven’t succumb to this pressure. I hope that continues to be the case, you clearly have a lot more awareness then many people do at your age, and I say that with all the respect in the world. and for what it’s worth, I was always the unusual person among my peers, as well, and while I definitely fell pray to my eating disorder and pressures related to that, it was way before social media was a big deal, so I can’t imagine how much harder it is for students in school today who have that added access and pressure.
Thank you so much for stopping by, again, I really appreciate you sharing and I wish you nothing but the best .😊💕
You broke my heart. You are fantastic. Remember that. You got my follow…
I am so thankful to have you aboard, friend. I apologize for the tears, but I hope they were at least healing/cathartic. I tend to wear my emotions pretty openly on my sleeve, or I guess, in this case, in my reactions. I just can’t contain myself, music touches parts of my soul nothing else can, especially when it’s music with a message.💕
Becca hope the day comes soon when you can dance. Love from the UK.
i have no words to describe how hard this hit me i was always bullied for my weight growing up but the worst bulling came from....myself.
I starved myself and started intense exercise and now that the weight is gone you would think i would be happy with myself but no i still hate what i look like and go through a cycle of binge, purge, repeat and having body dis-morphia really does not help
i knew the song was great but hearing what you have gone through and hearing you summarize some of the lyrics helped me understand the message even better and it pains me to hear that you had to go through something similar even if it is not the same it is still so painful to hear another person have to go through hell
Caleb, thank you so much for feeling comfortable enough to share this here-it’s an honor to be able to hold space for others and their stories/experiences. It’s also heartbreaking to know you’ve suffered so much for so long. EDs are so insidious, and I feel your words on a very deep level. I hope you’re able to find ways to be gentle with yourself and eventually break free from these chains in any way. I’m so glad you’re here.💜💕
I love you and your intensity - passion is important. Ren takes a scalpel to so many things we ignore. Check out Money Game Parts 1 & 2
I’m so glad you’re able to enjoy these reactions, everything I show here is my 100% unfiltered, raw, real reaction, because I’m notoriously bad at trying to fake emotion. I’m so glad it’s able to be felt through the screen. Your sentence re: scalpel sums it up perfectly, that’s exactly what he does. (Can’t wait to get to Money Game 1&2!)
This makes me bawl every time. I had friends with these problems in school and it broke my heart. Oh, and Becca, you're more than alright, you're fabulous. Interesting, clever and insightful. Much love and keep up the great work 😊❤
Jan, this comment touched my heart in a very, very deep way, thank you so much. Your words of kindness are more appreciated than I can adequately explain, but thank you for being such a kind, compassionate, awesome human. 💕
Proud of you going through this reaction. Stay strong. Beautiful
I loved the insectura - teeth line as well. I had 2 siblings and 2 step so between the 5 kids my parents didn't have enough $ for braces and my bottom teeth are all crooked. I've been insecure about them since my adult teeth grew in. Also I had a gf back in the day with an eating disorder which rotted her teeth by the age of 19, luckily her parents had good insurance and she got a whole set of new teeth
I feel you, friend. And I’m sure I’d love your smile. I thought that line seemed so simple on the surface, but really struck a chord with me.
I've just watched this, the first video of yours I've seen, clicked because I love Ren and I was interested in your perspective given your history
Honestly I don't think I've ever watched a reaction video as powerful as this. You have taken a massive negative in your life and have turned it into a positive in my view, because the passion evident here is the most authentic I've ever seen in reaction culture. Thank you for an excellent and thoughtful assessment of this excellent song. I hope you are coping with your issues better now, although I know things don't always work out that way. Your personality is so powerful.
It’s taken me nearly a full day to reply to this comment because it touched my heart and soul in ways I’m still having trouble putting into words of my own.
Your extremely kind and thoughtful words are so encouraging and uplifting, and I thank you for that.
I’ve always said my goal(s) with any of this content is to help people: 1. Feel less alone, 2. Feel more understood, 3. Learn or laugh about something.
Any time someone lets me know any of those things translate through the screen-my heart is filled with gratitude.
I’ve mentioned it a handful of times since I really started leaning into the reaction content in March, but any emotion I ever show is 100% raw and authentic.
I’m notoriously bad at faking emotions of any kind, so I appreciate knowing others are able to feel that, as well.🫶🏼
I’m still just taking things one day at a time. I thought I’d be in a better place than I am by now, but due to unforeseen complications, I’m not, so the only thing I can do is keep trying to take it one day, hour, sometimes minute at a time.
So glad you happened to click on this as a lover of Ren. He’s really a one of a kind artist and human, and I have connected with so many beautiful souls as a result of his influence and art (including you, of course).💕
Edit to add: your last sentence strikes a chord so deep I couldn’t put it into words if I tried. The one thing my ED has stolen that I miss the most is my personality, so bless you for those words.💜
Go on Becca ! Love it how Ren is acting on the free minds craving for truth !
Thanks! And I totally agree!
ive realized something from this song the world builds us up with great expectations that has no way to succeed so you fail till you feel worthless and buy into the "well if i dont eat for a week ill look better" mind set and you just fall deeper and deeper and once the beauty industry is done torturing you they throw you into the pharmaceutical industry to "fix" all the problems they caused.
You said it perfectly, I can’t even add anything to it. That’s exactly how it goes, and it’s tragic because we can all caught up in it even if we actively try not to be. It’s insidious.
Excellent reaction. You’re beautiful as I find myself beautiful in my age (49) and weight. I’m Puerto Rican and being slim isn’t one of our main characteristics. I do need to work out but because my health requires it (diabetic) and restrain myself from sugar. It also helps my mental health. But God created you beautiful. Never doubt that. You’re one of His greatest masterpieces ❤
This whole time listening to you call out the magazines, the media, fashion, modeling industry, even toy companies making dolls.... (i added a couple) made me feel not alone. I was like, "tell it girl"! Lol I was b*limic as a teen and my mother brought me to a Dr. he pinched my arm and said," you dont have to worry, she's got more than enough fat". I know you know, it got worse from there. I use to have a neighbor pinch my upper thighs and say things about my weight but in a backhanded way. I fluctuated up and down in weight. I'm going to be 50 and Im still struggling with that mindset. The sad thing is we've all been conditioned from such a young age to need to do whatever it takes to become and surpass that "perfectly" unattainable ideal, whatever that it. Oh trust me, girl, I get it. I just wanted to say I have really enjoyed listening to you breakdown Ren's lyrics and share your story. I feel like Im a part of this healing journey with you. Thanks again for another thoughtful and insightful reaction. ❤
Money Game 2 explains all this in a beautifully lyrical way. Look after yourself @Becca Doss. Rens music rips us with the honesty. Its confronting, it's therapy, but the emotions it brings up can also encourage anxiety and depression too.
Take care of your special self.
Thanks for the heads up and the reminders, definitely needed them, and they’re so appreciated.
Wow what a great in depth reaction. First time hearing this song myself hit hard . Loved your intake , tho sad to hear your story . Stay strong you are amazing individual and a inspiration
Before I forget I loved your reference to Silverchair. As I'm sure you know Daniel Johns suffered with an eating disorder, depression and substance abuse disorder. He is doing better but still it breaks my heart to see such a talented, intelligent and beautiful soul destroyed by "the beauty standards".
Can't imagine how challenging this reaction was for you to do. As a person in active recovery from Heroin and suffering PTSD and MDD, I myself struggle as equally as I find healing and comradery in Rens songs.
I salute your courage, in presenting yourself so openly and continue to pray that God will protect, comfort and heal you. Many blessings from Melbourne Australia. 🙏🌏💙
I’m so glad you loved the Chair reference. Dan is one of my all-time favorite artists, with Silverchair or solo. Have you listened to his album that came out last year (FutureNever)? It’s a special work of art, and best listened front to back. The last track also seamlessly transition back into the first, which I LOVE! I definitely hate how much he’s had to continually deal with, himself, but he seems to have really turned around when he was in rehab for a while last year, so I only hope he’s able to find continued healing and peace. Not many smiles I like more than Dan’s when it’s real.
This absolutely was a challenging one, but I’m glad it was requested so I could experience listening to it, myself. You’ve also definitely been through the ringer, and I think one of the cool thing about Ren’s music (that I’ve heard thus far) is that they can be applicable to a wide variety of people who are struggling with their own crap, even if it’s not the exact same (especially the more emotional songs). I’m so glad you have his music to help on your journey. Also, congrats on being in active recovery-that takes a lot of courage and strength, and I pray that each day that passes brings you further healing, peace, or moments of joy and realizing life is worth it.💕
@@BeccaDoss Absolutely love Daniel and his last album. Agreed, he seems to be in a much more healthier space.
I've had almost 11yrs in active recovery, praise God, just the MH issues seem to bubble up every so often. I know it's all part of Gods plan though. I'm a dual diagnosis clinician now, so helping others, helps me.
Thanks for your encouraging and kind words, they mean so much.
Prayers for continued growth and success, both personally and professionally. I've been told I have a gift of discerning spirits, and yours is so uplifting to be around. Take care.💙
Thank you, I love your commentary, it really adds to an already great song.
So glad you enjoyed it, Richard. Really appreciate you.💕
I noticed in your playlists you haven't heard "Humble" yet by Ren with Eden Nash It's really beautiful, dealing with pain, I have physical pain - chronic pain and it's hard to be humble and happy all the time. I left something out with my previous comment. I did hear Dominoes awhile back and loved it, when I realized what it was about. Not sure I should say but as a much younger person I was naturally thin and would get picked on, because I ate all the time, other people picked on me wondering where I put everything. Turned out later in my 40's I found out it was a thyroid issue. When treated for that, basically had it "killed" with radio iodine, and now on meds for hypothyroid for the rest of my life, well, I did not stay thin anymore, wasn't terrible, but now at age 74 and other heath issues I can't do exercises and I still have trouble with food, this time, not eating as much to try and stay healthy. I just don't feel hungry, when I ate I felt bloated, also my medications aren't helping with that, I need them for my heart, so I'm stuck with not eating or eating too much of the wrong stuff. I was always so used to being able to eat anything, now I can't. I miss my favorite foods. Life is so strange, sometimes.
Thank you so much for sharing part of your story, it’s a honor that you feel comfortable sharing here, and I don’t take that lightly AT ALL. I’m sorry to hear of the various kinds of pain you’ve endured, and none of it should have had to happen, but the fact that you’re here commenting, and therefore alive on earth, shows you’re a fighter, and that takes immense strength. Take care of yourself.💕
(Thanks for the tip about that song, your the first to mention that one!)
I just want to reach through the screen and give you a big hug. You are a beautiful person and your reactions are so honest and passionate.
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Becca, you are the only reactor that I have commented under every reaction of his that you do. You clearly have such an affinity with his music and it almost validateds his messages, even though they don't need any validation. It just makes his message even more authentic and you just 'get' him so much more than any other reactor. Its both beautiful and painful to watch. But you have to be the most intelligent, authentic and eloquent reactors. You're clearly a deep thinker and your personality does shine through. It one of the reasons I look out for your reactions specifically. Once again, much love from the UK 🇬🇧 ❤️
Means so much more than my brain can communicate right now, Jane. Eternally grateful for you.💕
Stay you Becca, you are enough ❤ incredible reaction, cant wait for the next one
You look great Becca, no need to worry about your teeth or anything else. Thanks so much again for your reactions. Sending love x
Thank you, Peter, I appreciate your kindness so very much.💕
Decided to 1st time with you on this one. I try so hard to spread out Rens rabbit hole and it pays off sometimes getting to share a 1st listen. Ren has been the perfect compliment to my 6 weeks of Chemo and Radio and kept me strong. Plenty to go for me still...Whoop. Of course my next move is to play Ren's original to soak in that artistry. Pleasure to hear Ren's official analysist again ! Ya stronger and smarter than you even know, and I know you know much. Hugs from Renland x
Thank you for joining me for your first listen of this one! It’s def a powerful force, for sure!
Oh man, I hit “that” age in 1980 ( the decade that gave birth to the “supermodel “). I also grew up in a household devoid of “ junk food “, full of “ light” foods, and even had the cabinet with “snacks” ( saltines, wheat thins, triscuits and breadsticks) had a lock. I was absolutely perfect…until puberty hit and then I spent the next 4 years dieting myself fat ( actually not just perceptionlly) and then I spent 4 more years going in the opposite direction and I can’t even remember how many more years ‘ treading water’ , trying to stay there. I’m in my late 50’s and menopause has been rough and triggering. That being said, I’m a mom to fraternal twin boys who were both very athletic and similar in body type. When one of them was 16 (and showing zero signs of puberty) he asked me to put him on a diet. I ABSOLUTELY REFUSED. I told him flat out “ NO! I will not. Diets don’t work. I will help you change your diet. I’ll make containers of nutrient dense foods for you to eat and cut back on buying junk, but as someone who dieted themselves fat and very likely ruined their metabolism beginning at your age I beg of you to eat. You are a kid. “ As it turned out he had a growth on his pituitary and once he began seeing an endocrinologist puberty slowly kicked in and he went through his growth spurt/s. But I still saw him restricting himself and weighing himself often which was concerning ( I got rid of the scale). He is now tall , skinny and modeling and , although he eats regularly, including a fair amount of junk, I know he still struggles with just the IDEA of being “ overweight “ ( which he never really was). I still keep a fridge full of healthy foods but I also keep junk foods in the pantry.
And I am so grateful for growing up decades before social media. It’s difficult as an adult. I cannot imagine it as a child. I see people chasing down their 10,000 steps a day and all I can think of is how we are still sold a bill of goods and people don’t even see it or recognize it.
You are strong Becca. I cried along with you. ❤
Hey friend, thank you so much for taking time to share part of your/your son’s story. I’m not a mother, but I know seeing your child suffer is one of the hardest things you can experience, especially if it feels like you can’t just fix it.
I’m also sorry you grew up in the age of diet culture that I think was the absolutely most toxic (pre-social media, at least), and I think it’s awesome that you are trying to do whatever you can to protect your son from those things at home.
I feel you on social media, I worry for all the younger people in the world right now, and any who will grow up with it being the norm. It’s insidious.
It’s a little ironic that you mentioned the whole concept of getting steps in, because with this relapse that blindsided me in 2021 (that I’m still trying to climb out of) came a resurgence of exercise addiction/excessive movement.
Except, in the past I was able to do very obvious, classical exercising. My physical health makes that impossible, but I sure could pace around for hours.
Took me a while to realize it was actually a more dangerous level of exercise addiction than before, because my physical health is so much worse than it was way back then, and it took me a long time to break out of it (but I finally mostly did starting in October).
All that to say, I agree with you on every point you made. I’ll also be keeping you, your son, your family in my prayers. Sending you so much love and compassion. I appreciate you. Your sons are very fortunate to have a mom who cares so deeply.💕
Awesome reaction! Keep doing what you do!
You have the most beautiful personality! I feel like you're giving me a big hug every time I watch you! 💞💞💞
That’s one of the kindest things anyone could say to me, thank you so much. I’m so glad you’re enjoying these videos. I really appreciate you!🩷💕
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Another great reaction and analysis. You really have a talent for understanding the lyrics and then conveying that to us, your audience. Thank you for taking your time to do this.
Keep shining, you crazy diamond. 🤟😉
The more I go through life I realize no one is “right” if we have hold or selves to standards, sold by the media. And that’s all right I just hope more people realize that and a lot quicker than it took me.
That should say hold not old
I'm not critising but maybe don't stop the video so much.
I love how you analyse all the lyrics it's amazing and you are amazing.
I've got a 12 year old daughter and I just started to get my feelings out then it stops, occasionally let it run a little, that's only my opinion, just do you.
Much love beautiful. Loved your video. I feel you ❤
I’m so glad you loved the video, Corine, but I’m sorry you feel it (I’m assuming on a personal level). It’s a hard place to be, but I think there’s at least a little something to be said for solace.🫂💕
So, SO good Becca!! 👏🙌🫶
Oof, this made me want to give you a hug. Thank you for this beautiful, knowledgeable, vulnerable reaction. And yes, I feel that so much of your personality shines through in your reactions, and I love it!
Thank you friend.💕
To me "My smile shows all my insecuri-teeth" means I hide my insecurity behind my big smile...
Hi Becca, thanks for your honesty and unfear to expose yourself. All the best for you and keep strong in your journey!
Thank you so much for taking time to watch and leave such a kind comment, you’re a cool human.💕
Beautiful. The song,the reaction, and you Becca
Bless you, friend. Thank you kindly.
Hi Becca, Ren really hits the nail on the head and does it eloquently,
The money game one and two for his views on how the world works 👍 he is inspiration to so many now and is getting the recognition he deserves 😁.
Please keep up the Ren journey ✌️❤️🏴
He really does! And never fear, I don’t plan on leaving this ride anytime soon! (Looking forward to getting into Money Game 1&2)
Great reaction video. Glad you did this one. Thanks for everything you share!
Thank you, I really appreciate the encouragement (and you!).💕
I know she's not really the music style you've been recently uncovering but have you ever heard the song "Smaller" by Hayley Gene Penner? The entire song is so poignant in recovery but there's a section in the 3rd verse that I feel I never hear on songs like it that revolutionized so much for me after - like you - 20 years at this mess. I think you'd really value every lyric like I do 💜💙
Also, I so appreciated your commentary about EDs making your judgmental, even if it's completely unlike yourself, and then make you hate yourself for BEING so awful when you DON'T feel that way. I carry so much shame, esp for my younger self, just for automatic thoughts I had. Ones that I could even immediately challenge. But you and I seem to share similar temperaments and I just felt so seen and understood💜💙
BECCAAAA! ❤
I'm so proud of you for continually opening up to the world with these reactions, your insights on this mean a lot and I hope they'll reach everyone who's going through the same situation.
When I woke up this morning to the notification that you uploaded this, I knew I had to sit down and watch this all and, unsurprisingly, it was 100% worth it!
I hope you'll have a wonderful day and I'm looking forward to your next reaction :)
*HUGS*
P.S.: If you just want some fun oldskool hiphop by Ren to add to your "cleared" list of songs, "What You Want" is a great callback to 90s hiphop and super fun and lighthearted 😉
P.P.S.: You're one of only a handful people where I actually did ring the sub notification bell that other 'tubers keep nagging me about. All your reactions so far have been so incredibly genuine and moving, I just need to know when a new one is up.
@@FengshenNL The sheer size of the smile on my face after reading your comments…thank you so much, as ALWAYS. SO appreciate you.
I appreciate the way you prefaced this video. Oh, and this is gonna rip ya a new one. Actually I think it is one of his best pieces. So much content and meaning. I really like the shifts between types of music, which adds to the meaning. Oh, and your smile is only one small part of what makes you shine. It is fine, and you radiate your emotions in such a way that it is moving. /salute to the honesty.
"A lying liar who lies and can not tell the truth" I believe I have that right. Did you know that when you get wrapped up in your passion you are spitting out flows that could be set to a beat. I mean why not? It could be fun....
First, I want to say thank you for taking time to leave these comments. I’ve literally had them come to mind multiple times the past 2 weeks, I just then get into communication-paralysis mode and can’t type.
Anyway, I agree, I think this song is a contender for one of this best, for sure, and I know I still have a LOT to listen to, but he did this so well!
As far as your comment reply, it actually made me smile pretty hugely to read it. I’ve actually been writing my own lyrics (mostly rap) and spoken word poetry for years, and I think sometimes it just slips into the wha I deliver some sentences. And it DEFINITELY tends to happen more when I’m feeling really passionate than when I’m not, so I mean it: the fact that you picked up on that says a lot about your own ability to observe and notice details. 💕😊
@@BeccaDoss Dear, w/o even knowing how you are a bright spot in my life. Not like a weird or anything, but your joy juxtaposed with your pain makes for very awesome reactions. And I can see your love for life. I do think you could study, mix it in with the talent au natural and freaking Rock!!!!!! You know Ren had to bust his ass while people thought he was crazy. No doubt the man has made my life better. /salute
Hello beautiful, how are you today? Always remember, God only puts on us what he knows we can handle. He builds us to test us and see how we respond to those tests. Sometimes like dominoes we fall, but unlike dominoes we are able to get back up. When we stumble and fall, as long as we keep getting up and fighting then God knows he chose a worthy warrior. Never give up, never give in, get up and get back in the fight. Love ya my beautiful friend ❤🌹
You said that so beautifully, brother. And I’d even go so far as to say, when we can’t get back to ourselves, the “getting back up” is us having faith that HE is helping pick us up, and even carry us when we don’t feel the strength. As always, your words mean to much to my heart.💕
By the way, don't be ashamed of your smile. I think you have a beautiful smile. Besides its not just the outward appearance of a person that makes them beautiful, its the inside. Even the most beautiful person in the world can be ugly if they have ugly attitude and personality. I clicked on your 1st ren video because I wanted to see your take on the song. I immediately subscribed because of your story and personality. More importantly than what I or anyone else thinks about you is what you think about you. Also there is 1 person I know thinks you are the most beautiful person they have ever met, Roger. Love ya my beautiful friend ❤🌹
I'm going to say this. Your personality is what brings me back I love the way you think. Your passion is addictive. And I know you have heard this a million times because it's fact FUCK YOUR BEAUTIFUL. And I'm an old boy I can say that 😂😂😂😂
I really appreciate you, AND your kind words, Bryan! Especially when, for most of my life, I felt like I had to not really show my full personality to others because I’d get deemed “too emotional” or “overly sensitive” etc. Having people in this community here say they come, at least in part, for the very thing I was told I needed to hid for so long…it will never cease to blow me away. 💕💕💕💕
But please remember to put yourself first. You don't need to do the heavy stuff for our benefit. Can't wait for humble and ocean. So uplifting. And bars. And chinchilla fingers live for hunger TV one of the most beautiful performance I've seen in a long time. And all uplifting.
@@bryandavies6930 I’m definitely going to take a break from the super heavy stuff for a while, and I’m looking forward to getting into some other stuff. (If all goes according to plan, the live version of Fingers is on the list of videos I’m hoping to record tomorrow!)