Anorexia Recovery: Inpatient Treatment, Painful Unexpected Changes
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- čas přidán 7. 09. 2024
- I never in my life thought I’d be making this video. In between reactions, I wanted to share an update on my anorexia recovery journey, including having to go to an inpatient treatment program, and dealing with some unexpected changes and major losses when it comes to treatment access/recovery support.
The video gives more context/detail, but for now, please know I refuse to stop fighting. Even when I think I want to, I won’t. I’m so sick of this disorder running and ruining life for me, for Roger, for our life together.
This is my only option at this point, and it’s hard not to feel like I’ve failed, when in reality, I’ve been failed by the treatment system/establishment.
I have fought so hard, and despite unexpectedly losing my outpatient team, and feeling very lost and shaken as a result, I will keep fighting, even when I struggle to see the light.
I’m so grateful for you. Please, be gentle with yourselves and your souls. This world needs you.💕
I’ll you when I see you. I may not have a timeline, but rest assured, I’ll be back. And I so look forward to that day. God bless.
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I may not make this premiere in time, but I thought to still take a moment to extend my well wishes to you and offer support from one human being to another. I want you to know that you are brave to face this terror, as it has consumed so many. Yet, I have no doubts you will overcome all of these hurdles and tribulations. With not only your ever growing support structure of subscribers, and RENegades, but too from all whom you inspire with your strength, resilience, and authenticity that truly does make this world turn. We all are not only here for you, but will forever believe in you, the legendary Becca Doss. You got this.
You are such a beautiful, kind and wise person. Know that, absorb that.
You must be the bravest person I've ever seen. When you open your mouth, you open your heart. Love you and thank you for the hope you bring others. ❤❤❤
I wish you all the best and give you a warm hug from Germany.
Nice ..if you know anyone who would like to join Beccas community in 🇩🇪, if we had a therapist, Dietitian, nurse ? Any support we could help Becca with ..Advice 🙏💫🙏
I have someone very significant in my life, who is dealing with severe mental illness. And unfortunately she is unwilling, or maybe just not able, due to the nature of her ailment, to seek out professional help. I know it makes nothing you talked about in this video better or easier. But I'm glad that you are a) clearly seeing your problems and b) are determined to do something about it. It may seem like such a minor thing... seeing that you need outside help and taking steps to get it.... but, being in this other situation, all this seems friggin' HUGE to me and like a MAJOR success on your part. I'm rather a bystander to this channel. Looking at your videos, following your journey... not engaging as much as many others, as I'm not the type of social media person... but I'm sincerely rooting for you from the sidelines, because from the first video I saw of you, I felt that you were so deserving of a break from all this and some peace of mind. All the best for your journey back to yourself. I'm fairly positive, seeing all the fight and the willpower that is within you, that it will be a success in a big way.
I gotta work so I won't be here for the stream, but wanted to drop a few words of love and encouragement. The last two months have been the hardest of my entire life, the struggle is real, but finding people like Becca, and communities to help us heal is invaluable to me. No one suffers in silence, we are all here with you, feeling you, hurting with you. Becca, your ongoing fight inspires us, your "never quit" attitude legitimately drives me forward. Sometimes it takes just one person to relate to that helps you find strength and meaning. I feel like many of us are here because we hurt, and we deal with life day by day, hoping something will be better tomorrow, there is always hope. Stay strong friends, especially you Becca, we are here for you long-term, and here for each other. My inbox is always open for anyone that just wants to reach out, talk, find support, or vent.
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Hey friend, I’m so late getting to this, but I wanted to tell you I’m so sorry to hear about how rough these two months have been. I think you’ve mentioned it in some form in another comment, but I want to thank you for being so open and sharing it here, too. This community helps keep me energized, and the biggest blessing of all is knowing people can feel safe, seen, heard, or just not alone when they stop by. Sending you so much love, and I’m hoping and praying things turn around for you sooner rather than later. Your kind words have left me speechless multiple times, which is one reason it took so long to get back to you.💕
Good luck Becca. Be strong and have hope that things wiil get better. Believe me they can get better.❤
I can’t speak to autoimmune diseases because I have never had any, however I struggled with anorexia for 30 years. I’ve been in recovery since 2019 and life just keeps getting better. Please try not to beat yourself up for relapsing after a long period of time. It is so insidious like you said, so so so difficult to fight once you get to a certain point and your brain is taken over by it. You seem like a fighter and I know recovery is possible. Weight restoration when you get to a certain low point is just about impossible at home in my opinion and experience. Treatment is so hard as you know but I’m glad that you will hopefully get the support you need and that they are willing to try to be accommodating to your other health issues. I am praying for you. I hope you take all of the time you need to heal and we will be here when you are ready to be back.🙏💕😊🥊 remember you are not a failure!
Thank you so much for sharing this. And rock on for being in recovery since 2019! That’s amazing, and I hope you realize just how much strength and determination is within you to get there.💜💕 Sending you love.
Never forget just how bright that it is that you gleam!
I'm sorry you're going through this, Becca. I know that nothing I can say will make this better. Still, my grandparents' words echoed loudly in my head as you shared your story. No matter what obstacles they faced, no matter what hardships they endured, their response was the same: "God will find a way."
For better or worse, I never learned to have faith myself. From my grandparents, though, I learned what it is to have faith, and I recognize that faith in you.
Please know there are many people out here who care about you, whose lives you've touched by sharing your journey. Wishing you all the best in all things.
I honestly hope you can find a way out of this terrible life and into one filled with joy. You so deserve it! 💗
Speak to yourself as you would to your best friend. Be gentle. Change is hard, fighting is hard, life is hard. Big gentle zen hugs to you.
Completly relate.. I tried to healing from ED for 27 years. Ups and down... it's very very complex because it touches so many aspects. Do not be hard on yourself. It's very very hard ... most other dependancy can completely cut the stuff out which we can't and it is all connected to how we feel physically and on all levels. If you ever need to talk, im super open. Please know that. I do have some random more difficult days but nothing compare to what most my life was but ill listen understand and share if you ever need. Much much love
Thankyou! When you said "you blow me away" I felt blessed and my heart skipped a beat. Again, Thankyou.😊
Oh, sweet girl! Hold on, this will be a hard time, but you'll find your power. God bless you. 🌻❤️
Do not worry about replying or liking our comments. Use us only as a forward thrust to get you back and closer to your transformation. I believe you can my darling girl. ❤❤❤❤
My heart and thoughts are with you in this difficult time ❤️ You've got this
Good luck with your inpatient recovery. I’ll meditate on you getting to a place of stability, mental and some improved physical healing everyday whilst you are away. This is the best option for you. I think being in a community setting may help you focus, I know you may not see this at the moment. So proud of you taking this step to save the progress you have made over the last year. Take good care of yourself. Love to you and Roger. xx We in your community are here for you. Please reach out to us whenever you need support. ❤✨💛
Becca, Good Luck, remember AJ's Fire and Rain-God Bless our prayers are with you
You’re being incredibly brave, Becca. I hope it all goes a lot better than you’re worried it might (which I totally understand, being a worrier myself!). Sending you love and hugs! ❤
Dear Becca...thanks for keeping us updated! I think you have made the right decision at this time. Please know that you take all of us with you, and all of our love and care. Anything is possible in love and in hope and you have the strength and the passion to make it reality. You are one of the good ones, Becca, even more so since you see the good in others. In return, you deserve ALL that is good, all that is blessed and all that is joy. ❤❤❤
becca we all love you. you have the strength to do this you will heal, because you are an intelligent powerful force. you are not you're disorder you are so much more. my prayers are with you. sending much love and positive energy from Pa.
WOW. I can't imagine the amount of strength it took for you to make this video, and I absolutely LOVE you for doing it. Hearing your story is incredibly hard for anyone with a heart, and the feeling of helplessness is only a heartbeat away. The obvious knowledge and understanding that I can't instantly heal you just by being here and supporting you. To know that I at least can make things just a LITTLE better for you by supporting you is still a big comfort though. But like I said, the feeling of utter inadequacy is breathing its foul breath RIGHT behind me. I would like to say "us" but I can of course only speak for myself. I know that YOU know what I mean, and that also helps a lot ♥ At this point there is nothing much I CAN say other than the fact that I wish you the very best of "luck" with everything that lies ahead, and please know that I will think of you. As I am not a Christian per se, even though I try to live by the same set of rules, it would be hypocritical of me to say that I will pray for you, but I WILL, in my own way. Before I go though, there is ONE thing that I hope you will do, even though it may sound strange at first. You know that I am a BIG fan of Angelina Jordan, and as it happens, she has done one performance that I have a very strong feeling that will possibly help you, at least a little right there and then when you need it. That's at least the position it has for me, even though I am NOT struggling the way that you are. You see, on December 23rd 2021, as part of her live, digital Christmas concert, she performed Lauren Daigle's "You Say". She performed it as a thanks to her fans. The performance is ABSOLUTELY beautiful, and the words bring a lot of comfort. The song has a Christian message, but it works for anybody. I am obviously NOT asking you to react to it, but rather go to the channel Angelina Jordan Archives and listen to it. Maybe download it and have it on your device even; I do ♥♥♥
I am cheering for you, Becca! And also let your husband know that I am thinking a lot about him, he must be a wonderful man 🙂 Otherwise the two of you would not have been a thing.
Much love from Norway as always ♥♥♥♥♥
I’ve read this multiple times because it’s just so meaningful, thank you so much, friend. I really appreciate you.💕
Also, I LOVE ‘You Say’ so I’m super stoked to hear AJ did a cover!!
@@BeccaDoss Oh, I'm SO happy to hear from you! Like I said, I have been thinking about you, and I REALLY hope that you are doing good, though I know that you're going through some really hard stuff right now. All the better to hear from you 😊😊 Like I said in the comment, I really think that her performance can help you, and I really hope that you have or will listen to it. I feel THAT strongly about the performance. Then react to it if you will when you come back♥
Of course I will take this opportunity to wish you the very best Easter that you can possibly have, given the circumstances 😊
Much love from Norway again ♥♥♥♥♥
You are not a failure, or a number. Take the time you need to take care of yourself.
Becca I feel so bad that you are in this but.....please believe that you are tougher and stronger than you realize ! You WILL make this work ! You have all of my emotional support and prayers and will continue to have them ! Love you, sweetheart! ❤😊
"Time Spent with the Magical Music of Ms. Angelina Jordan is Worth Every Second.!!!" - Ms. AJ Angel Fan's Family Worldwide... Must See Her - True Earth Angel - Thank U - DD. - Emotional Healer to - Must See.!!! - Take Care - God Bless U -
God is with you dear. Take care of yourself now. One day at a time. Each day has its own challenges, face them as they come. I will be praying for you Becca. You will get through this ❤
I can´t afford much, but i *will* join your gofundme at the beginning of April and then on a monthly basis i hope.
Have said this before, will say it again: I admire your resilience, your strength, your patience while going through all this torment
for such a long time. I know what suffering means, mentally and emotionally, but i feel that it has hit you much harder than i can even imagine.
And i constantly ask myself: WHY ?! Why do people have to go through all of this ? That old phrase "what doesn´t kill you makes you harder" is BS !
Most times, suffering is just that, there is nothing to learn or grow from it. Constant pain, mentally and physically, is EXHAUSTING ! It has NO purpose.
And to be open and honest: I can´t and i won´t believe in any god who "wants" such an experience for ANY human being. If so, "he" is cruel and evil.
Love, hope and a big HUG from me over here in Germany.
Dear Becca, blessings for you travels. Go safely and walk with God. Give what you can and take what you need. The campfire on the beach will stay aglow as a beacon for you when you return ashore.😊❤
Keeping you in my prayers. ❤
Best of luck to you. Focus on yourself and getting healthy. You are wonderful and we will be thinking of you 💜💜💜
Don't worry about taking with your hands. I have Irish heritage, so I talk with my hands all the time.
Be kind to yourself you are loved
Remember not to accuse yourself
Remind yourself that kindness and rest are your home
Much love Rebecca 💕
Are you going to share this to the Rabbit Hole🕳️🐰🖤
@@helenjarvis7755I hadn’t thought about it yet, just because it’s hard to think through multiple social media platforms right now, but if you want to share the link in there, you’re more than welcome.🫶🏻💕 Thank you for your reminders and encouragement.
@@BeccaDossokay will do
I think people will want to be with you in whatever way in this
@@helenjarvis7755That’s extremely thoughtful of you, thank you, Helen.💕
Hello dear sister,I hear & feel you!!!! I struggle with food addiction,auto- immune health challenges!!!! I feel deep respect,appreciation for you sister!!!! I'm sending you love,hugs!!!! You are in my heart.😌🙏🥰🫶💚🩷💙🩵🌹🕊🫂🫂🫂🫂☮️☮️☮️☮️
Becca ❤
All the best Becca in this next phase of your recovery and weight restoration. You are in my thoughts. Keep going, no matter what. Big Love 💕
I'm a 27yo woman and I'm having an AN relapse as well. I dont like that we have that in common. I hope we can make it through this. And be better for it
Sending you so much love, friend. This illness is insidious.
You are a remarkable person and a shining light. I am always impressed by your videos and your character. I really hope things align for you & you get what you need. Don't worry about us. I'd be happy with an occasional Community posts just saying, hello, still fighting. In the end I only hope that you will be well and you will be happy.
hi dear i can feel you and im sorry for yours problems i realy wish you to feel better soon, you deserve it♥...i also sffer thsi for more then 2 decades, so i know this feelign also didnt think when i was kid and teanger ill be still struglging with it after 30, togehther with depression im already tiried form ths life, lately having diiffuclties home and in family and its imapciitng me mentalyla lot...anyways, stay strong, never giv eup, iw wanna tell you and thank you for being hoenst and vulenralble♥
In this with you, friend! One day, hour, minute at a time if we have to. Sending you so much love and compassion.
Just know you are 😍 ❤😊
Becca... Greetings and much love to you. Funds seem to be the issue... If I was rich that way I would cover all your expenses without blinking. I am poor though but rich in other ways and whatever wealth I have is at your disposal. Much love. Jean-Jacques.
By the way, I had an amazing Dietician that I saw for years online and I am happy to give you her name if you are interested.❤
Dearest Becca, not being a professional, I can only offer you my love and remind you of God's love.
XXX
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Let go, free fall but never to impact. Forgive yourself and have strength to accept the liberty of forgiveness and peace within you. 🙏☯️✌️💗🫶
Since this video,a month ago,How are you feeling,sister?🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂☮️☮️☮️☮️☮️☮️☮️☮️
Wishing you the best with your recovery, Becca. 🫂