Daily Rating my Depression is Saving My Life | Could It Help Someone You Love?
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- Trigger warning, this video touches on intimate topics about suicide. On a scale of one to ten how are you feeling today? Let me know down below.
I'm super nervous putting this video out there but I've spoken to so many people who are or have recently been a seven or more on this scale, many of them close friends. I'm constantly and overwhelmingly shocked so many people I know and love are dealing with this too, and I know many of my viewers are as well. This video is for anyone who's been there to know you're not alone and maybe a tool like this will give you some power and self-awareness to your own struggles. I like doing this because it gives me an action to go along with how I've been feeling so I can take better care of my mental health.
Take care out there fam, you're not alone in your healing and you're not alone in your suffering.
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I can't believe I forgot to film this but I want to add that when I do this ranking and I know I started a day at maybe a 3 and the at the end of the day if I'm like a 6 I ask myself if something happened that caused the shift and reflect on it: Do I want this event to really define my happiness that much? In the grand scheme of life is it worth the day(s) happiness I let it take away from me? That's also helping me take a lot of control over the day to day triggers and feel more relaxed about things outside fo my control and really roll with the punches. I personally know I have it within my control to bring myself up or down one point, on a good day maybe two. I can turn a 5 into a 4 if I want or let a 8 turn into a 9 if I let it. Anyways thanks for all the positive feedback I love you guys so much!
Janell Kristina this addition is great and super useful. I have a tendency to brood.. I forget what the clinical term was, intrusive thoughts but also like very repetitive..it used to be as a kid if something bugged me I’d think about it over and over and over until I stopped caring about it or I literally got sick of it because I became bored or desensitized by the issue. I wish I never started that because now my tolerance level for replaying events is very high level.
I love your scale. I'm bipolar type 2 so I used to be a member of the Bipolar organisation in the UK. We have a scale to measure where we are from extremely depressed with suicidal thoughts to mania. I find it a useful tool and I used to note the number down in a journal every day. I had already decided the other day to go back to writing in a journal. I also suffer anxiety. My mood swings were first noticed when I was a toddler. My childhood was good but I seemed to always be in trouble with my parents. In retrospect my Mum in particular was just trying to teach me to control my moods as best I can and to not take them out on other people. So as an adult I have an awareness of my moods that psychiatrists tell me is unusual. I’m in bed a lot at the moment. I have had a very very difficult year because of my ex husband's disappearing act (we split 7 years ago and our divorce went through in 2015 - divorce laws in the UK are ridiculous). I couldn't afford to live in the marital home by myself but I couldn't sell it without his signatures. When the judge told him at a divorce hearing that he would have to pay his share of the debts he upped and moved to the US to be with a woman he met online to avoid paying anything. I have no issue with him being re-married etc my issue was I trusted him so I let him attach £30,000 of his debts to our property to turn them into a long term loan that was more manageable for him to pay back. Stupid me because marital debts are joint and several so if one party disappears they chase the other. I've had loads of court hearings and the property was repossessed I think you call it foreclosure in the US, and so I was homeless for the first 7 months of this year. My cat and I stayed in my parents spare room with my belongings in storage. To get emergency social housing in the UK would have meant giving up my elderly cat and my parents just knew that would be one loss too far and I would be suicidal. So I've been given a cute 1 bedroom social housing bungalow (social housing means much cheaper rent than the private sector and long term rental agreements plus you are allowed to decorate, have pets etc..). I qualified because of my bipolar and physical disabilities. So I should be really happy but we all know it doesn't work like that. I can't have mood stabilisers as they clash with other medications I take. So they can only give me maximum dose anti-depressant and clonazepam. This doesn't stop the mood swings but I suppose it helps with the depression side of things.
This is important because it gives your power back when you feel so powerless. NOT to say- like some-it’s a choice! that if you just “think positive” it will go away! However, the self will to change a 5 to a 4, I imagine, is everything. You are awesome❤️
@@shendisackett wow it's crazy how some people really can't deal with their share of the load,they impose it on others to not have to and make others live awful situations . I had similar happen to me (on way smaller scale ) But basically screwed up by different boyfriends Multiple times When I was younger... It really can bring you down. So glad you could keep your cat, pets can definitely help when we are down I think. Anyway Im just a stranger on internet but yeah I needed to say something and send some virtual courage/love ❤️❤️❤️ Things like that are really though .
I just wanted to say thank you for sharing your story made me tear up. And remember how strong you are for making it this far
Name him “Blue” because he was in your depression video.
Blue the Little Dragon Fly Guy. This is my favorite so far!
Also I just want to add that suicidality is not a part of depression for everyone. Some people's 7-10 level may be more about a loss of functioning (can't sleep, eat, work, do academic tasks) rather than suicide planning and daydreaming about a way out. In case that is anyone's experience.
Madison Perry thanks for adding this! This scale is heavily based off my personal experience and anyone is welcome to change it to fit them. I just like the idea of it a lot and wanted to share
@@JanellKristina Definitely. I do not want to discount your experience either and I think it's incredible that you shared. It is brave and helpful to such a large community.
My 7-10 level "escape" in lieu of suicide is running away. I'm 27, but I think it remains from my heavy depression when it began in middle school during many family issues. (I do have times I very seriously want to "not be alive" but not suicidal) Sometimes I think I'll just break all ties, sell all my things, and move across the country and live in my car, and that is so much less stressful to me than life as it is. That's my "end game" thought process when I'm ready to tap out and really struggling at those high levels. As weird as that sounds to some, and may be very relatable to others. * Not disagreeing with the video, just agreeing with the comment, btw. I really love the idea of thoroughly breaking down your own scale to be able to gauge yourself and kind of keep track of your mood, though.
I agree so much to this. For me my worst days were when I couldn’t bring myself out of bed because I was so devastated about the fact that I could no longer read, drive properly or maintain composure in social environments. I couldn’t do anything and that terrified immensely, it made me almost completely hopeless and I couldn’t bear that, so luckily I started to get help. Although, I recommend people going to something similar to get help sooner when it’s easier to get the help. It saves so much time for yourself, and it increases your quality of life and that is SO much worth it and definitely not selfish. I wish compassion, success and good luck to everyone going through this.
Yeah my 10 or even 11 was definitely when I was still in college. I’d show up to every class, go to tutoring, and still fail. I was physically there but never mentally there. I could never remember what happened the day before because I was so stressed. Got to the point I couldn’t drive myself back home. My husband had to pick me up from class. Walking around got so physically and mentally exhausting which makes it harder to lose weight I’ve gained.
Born sad... I know what you mean. That's me. And I'm fighting! Thank you! Love you!
Ahh, it's really nice to hear from people who get it. Sad, but a little less lonely
I know how that is. I'm going to try this, thanks.
Jasenka Vukelić sending love your way ❤️
Suddenly it all makes sense... I can remember myself being like this from a very young age. I have this memory of myself waking up in a hospital crib at night and feeling this overwhelming, heart wrenching sadness and wanting to cry. I was 2 or 3 then... I know, because I remember the accident that put me in that specific hospital. Few more memories like this from later in life too. I never thought about them that way, even though they were strange memories to have of ones childhood. When she said that line it all clicked. I believe depression runs in my family on my fathers side, and I was simply born like this. Born sad.
J. J. That's so sweet, and it means a lot! Sending my love to you, all the way from Croatia!:-*
Something that helped me was the end of the movie “A Beautiful Mind” with Russell Crowe. He could finally rationalize that his companions were not real because he aged over the years and they never did. In one of the final scenes they appeared to him and he told them he could see them but he couldn’t talk to them anymore because they weren’t real. I started to look at my depression (9/10) as a psychosis induced companion and many times throughout the day I would refuse to speak to it. I began to look at it as something that wasn’t real but created by my brain. Other times I thought of it as a troubled friend who was always trying to kill me. I would NEVER be friends with someone who was always trying to kill me, so I ditched that friend. I’m 70 years old and have dealt with this for 35 years. Using this tactic I have kept myself on an even keel.
I think the thing that scared me the most about this video is that most days I'm a 7 by these definitions, but if I made my own scale I probably would have called it a 3. Yikes.
This hit hard. Sad-boy forever. The fact that people closest to us don’t realize our depression or any mental disorder says a lot. I had an incident which occurred on May 11th, 2018... using drugs(coke) and my family never stood up or even realized it. The songs I’d listen to, the nonchalant tone in my voice and I still got nothing... I almost lost my life that night and in a way I feel like I did. It’s transformed me to the point where I won’t harm myself anymore... but I’ll never forget that feeling. I have been diagnosed with severe anxiety, and PTSD... and to say the least it took a toll on me. The crazy thing is, most of the youth are depressed and our parents, friends and/or family members never even realize it until it’s too late... I have a brother who still uses till this day even after witnessing the whole incident with myself. And no one is trying to help. My lips turned blue... my toes were crossed around one another and I couldn’t move them...I could see the liveliness leaving my body. I... am now sober and relieved of this addiction and I still get depressed sometimes but I’m helping myself everyday. Yes, being an addict... I still think about it... but I switched to swimming everyday, writing, reading self-help books and listening to people like Allan watts, and Abraham Hicks. I trust in God and he shows me mercy on a daily basis. He could have let me die that night... That being said, I continuously tell my mom to pay attention over and over and over again until it finally clicks. This world is painful and evil...The fact that her and the members of my family show no sympathy or empathy at that sickens me to the core. Depression is no joke you all. If you need help please call hotlines for depression and negative thoughts. People are here to help. Love yourself even if that means changing everything you once knew. Yes! It will take time... but this is your human experience! Love and live it to the fullest. I love you!
Felt this in my core. I too have suffered with depression/anxiety, and wish you the best.
Thank you for sharing your story. I wish you love and light and healing.
Thank you for sharing your story. I have seen how hard it is to become sober, you are amazing and we are out here rooting for you . I’m so very sorry your family , especially your mom can’t be there
Oops didn’t finish...
Can’t be a positive light in your life, it is hurtful to the core. Keep the faith❤️❤️❤️
About 75-80% of AA /black americans have experienced some type of abuse during childhood..sexual physical mental an neglect many all 4...have you thought about getting therapy counting on family to see your depression or to even care in most cases is a waste of time since many are actually part of the problem..they themselves have also experienced abuse..an have no clue as how to connect or help..many AA grow up thinking ptsd..an anxiety are normal..its not..truma abuse in childhood causes all kinds of mental an behavioral problems in life..find a professional an group whom you can talk openly about your depression an work on a plan to heal..
I've never considered myself to be more than just moderately sad, but your 7/10 perfectly describes this past semester & my other all time low. Maybe it's time I do get help. Thank you so much for deciding to share this video. Huge fan of your content
Kassar Sauls same 7/10 is so relatable for me
I understand being "born sad" because I was not, but I was born extremely anxious and always am. I would say on this scale I'm between 2-4 about 95% of the time, with dramatic spikes to 7-8 occasionally - the reasons ranging from empathy and caregiver stress to more general existential angst.
Thanks for talking about this. The worst is when everything goes bland. Everything tastes bland, colors are dull, people in the streets become unreal, youre absoluely removed from youreself. You blink less stare into void more and care about nothing.
Its like learning you live in a play and you dared to look behind the scenes. You know have to put yourself back into the play or remain off tilt till you, you know..
Themis Vespucci where on a scale would you rate this? Because I've never been suicidal but I've felt like this before. I couldn't really relate to her scale in the video since she talked so much about considering suicide
@@FleurDeCersier *I hope you have the help, but if you need someone to talk with, let me know*
I personally took her scale and made it in to sub parts. Easy, average, hard. So for me this wold register on a hard 7/light 8. The worst of going into an average 9. I added the subset because althlugh im doing better I would say im a easy or fragile 4 not a hard 4 or a strong 4, like a calm wind before a major storm.
@@FleurDeCersier I totally invite you to tweak this scale and build one tailored for you, many people don't feel suicidal and you can totally take that out
Please make more videos like this though I am guessing it is hard to do, being so vulnerable but know this you are helping others . The worst part of mental health is the stigma against mental illness, depression anxiety , ect. Thank you for openly talking about it in a real way.
I want and will! thanks for the support and encouragement, it's good to hear!
I am so happy that you are better. I have lived sad for many years. Thank you for sharing!
You should name it Chutney. I don't know why, but I think it fits.
haha, I like it
So... This is actually the first Video about depression, what could actually help me... thanks for sharing
I'm really glad it can help
Born sad. Apply here too, good definition. A big hug to the little dragonfly dude
Ever since my car accident in July I have been at an 8-10. A good day is an 8. Unfortunately these good days aren't lasting long because bad, terrible things keep happening. I can't pay my bills because I can't work. I can't work because I have a pilon fracture in my LLE. (Basically my tibia and fibula is broken mid way and that travels down to my ankle. And my ankle is broken really badly.) A R clavical fx that is mostly healed and a R scapula fracture that I've mostly forgotten about because my other injuries take priority. I was also robbed by a neighbor in October. I can't get any assistance because I don't have kids. I can't get support from friends or family because I just moved to a new city a year ago (and have been rehabilitating for the last 4 months) I don't have much family anyway. And I do have one friend here that is here for me. However she can't do a lot because she travels. So my life seems quite hopeless atm. I am extremely defeated. I could go on listing stuff for paragraphs long. But I think you get it.. I am sure lots of people out there have way more going on than me. I have a lot of guilt when I say I'm depressed. I have a lot of embarrassment also. I would certainly never tell someone face to face that I wish I would have died in that car wreck. It could offend people. I have lost people in car accidents myself ... so I see why someone could get annoyed by that. However I should add everyone's pain and causes of suffering are unique. It's not a competition. The best thing we can do is try to be kind.
When it rain it pours, I hope you get some sunny days soon, you deserve it
Keep doing your best and reaching out to others
I want to say you don’t have to feel guilty about saying you’re depressed; the way I look at it is whatever you’re going through at the moment that’s awful is the worst for you. It’s your perception of it. Yes someone else may have something objectively worse going on, but their threshold for tolerating it might be higher. If a child scrapes their knee for the first time and cries like their world is ending, we don’t chastise them, we comfort them. Because to them, it’s awful. They haven’t experienced worse, so to them, it’s the worst thing that’s ever happened and they’re having a hard time dealing with it. That’s how I think it is for whatever hard situation each person goes through. It doesn’t matter if someone else has a heavier load, this is the heaviest one you’ve ever carried so far. So it’s okay to feel exhausted and depressed by it. But just like the child, you will eventually learn to deal with it and get stronger (even though it hurts like hell right now) but it’s going to be okay eventually. As long as you’re still around to see the part of the story where it does become okay. And I love you, even though I don’t know you personally, and hope that you mend quickly and are able to get a wider support network. 💕
Thank you for sharing. I'm a 4.5 now... Was at 5, but seeing this video made me feel better :)
I usually end up realizing I can actually control my thoughts and sort of recreate myself everyday, even if no one notices, which keeps me in a decent mood. The ability to help someone else and creating a sense of community is huge, so thanks for that.
I want to incorporate this so I wrote down what you said so I can have a key in case I can't figure out what number I am. Obviously, I'll personalise it, but I thought if someone else wants the information written down, maybe I'd save some time.
0. Life is great and you're pretty happy.
1. What’s depression?
2. Life is pretty great except for a couple of moments here and there that cause you to catch your breath and you just feel a little bit of a pit and a little bit of heaviness in your chest but otherwise, it goes away pretty quickly and you go back to your day relatively happy or at least at peace.
3. Those moments of sadness and heaviness come a little bit more and last a little longer.
4. Those moments are happening even longer. They’re weighing you down a little bit more and are a lot more noticeable. At 4 I start to feel a little bit drained, I start eating a bit more and I just start to feel a bit more tired than usual.
5. Half of your day is in a pretty dark place. Your thoughts are pretty negative and spiralling and you can’t really control them as much as you’d like. Your mood is pretty heavy and sunken, you probably start to feel a little irritable. I definitely notice weight gain at this point in myself and as innocent as it can be, maybe you start daydreaming of death.
6. Life sucks more than not. Life is shit is a pretty good way to put things. For me personally, I feel bad being around people because I know I’m not in high spirits and I don’t want to bring them down with me. I start to spend a lot more time in bed, in front of the TV just trying to stay distracted from my mood. My personal hygiene habits start to change. I’m not good at keeping up with laundry. I put a lot less effort into my appearance. “I don’t give a fuck” is more than just #mood, it is #life. I stop caring about the things I usually care about - one of the main ones is making videos here on youtube. I’m having worsening self-esteem, lots of self-hate, and the negative thoughts can’t seem to stop spiralling. At 6, you definitely need to tell a friend or someone you care about how you’re feeling and ask them to keep an eye out on you and just ask you for updates to see how you’re doing and if things are getting better or worse.
7. The words that describe my feelings the most are ‘dispair’, ‘hopelessness’, ‘worthlessness’, and just overall gloom and doom. I’m someone who has lots of crying spells and I will sob sometimes for hours without any particular reason at all. I no longer am a highly functioning depressed person and my day-to-day activities start to become a big chore. I start to lose weight - food doesn’t feel good in my belly so I don’t eat very much. I start engaging in a lot of risky behaviours, including reckless driving, which is mostly speeding for me. I start seeking out comfort in a lot of unhealthy ways, which is usually risky dating behaviours. I’ve isolated myself quite a good bit at this point. I’m very irritable and I even the people that I love, I kind of hate. I’m not someone who self-harms, but if you’re someone who self-harms, you’re probably doing it by this point. At 7, I tell myself to make an appointment, to take some medications, or at least at minimum have them available so that I can take them immediately if that 7 is lasting for an extended period of time. If 7 is lasting for a little while, I’m not functional at all, I’m not doing any of the things I need to or like to do. I’m spending more than half of my days in bed and that’s not including sleeping. You’re in a very deep, dark, sunken place and you can’t see a way out of it. You’re definitely daydreaming about your death and how it would just be really nice if you didn’t have to feel this way any more. I start letting myself buy plastic cutlery, lots of canned soup and frozen burritos, because I can’t muster up the energy to cook for myself and at least if I’m eating, I don’t care if it’s high in sodium.
8. You really feel nothing besides maybe some sadness. You can’t see the point in really doing anything. Maybe you have an idea of an exit route and you tell yourself that if it’s not better by this date, then you’ll do something about it. Or you tell yourself if one more bad thing happens, that will be the thing that takes me over the edge. The thoughts about hurting yourself to a fatal extent are pretty constant.
9. You have a plan, or at least a couple of ideas, of how to end all of this. Nothing’s helping, you’ve given up hope, you can’t seem to escape the dark place. Everything’s unbearable and you’ve come to the conclusion that there’s only one way out, whether or not you’re ready to act on it. You have a plan, or idea, of how you’re going to take your exit, you just don’t necessarily have the date. Maybe you start collecting pills; maybe you know which knife you would use; maybe you’ve googled which artery bleeds out the fastest; maybe you know that combination to your friend’s gun safe. If you have anything of value you might start giving it away to friends and family because you want someone to be able to use it when you’re not here anymore. Maybe you’re thinking about who’s going to find your body and how it’s going to interfere with their life. You wonder if you want to write a note or not. You wish a car would just hit you while you’re crossing the street and you wonder if you jumped in front of a train, would it have enough time to stop before it hit you. You wish you could will your heart to stop beating because that would be the easiest way. At 9 you need someone to hold the pills for you, to take away your knives and all the sharp things and all the scary things. You really need to call and get help.
10. You’re ready to give up. You have a plan and you’re ready to act on it or you’ve already acted on it. You need someone to be with you 24/7. At this point, it’s literally life or death and I really hope you’re doing something, whether that’s medications or talking to someone or telling someone who cares about you or calling 911 to get an ambulance and anyone who blames you for trying to stay alive obviously hasn’t been here.
Also, I’d like to say you have a beautiful way of talking :o) I hope all of us many 0s to come. And apologies for any grammar mistakes.
Bless you for this!
Thank you for being so vulnerable! Your number system is so so helpful! I am definitely going to use it to help gage where I am each day. Confession: I was laying in bed when I stumbled upon your video (it was noon), and I hadn't taken my meds yet. Your words inspired me to get up, take my meds, and do something productive. Thank you!! *great big hug*
It's beautiful how you open up about it like this. There's kindness and compassion radiating from you, I'd definitely consider using this scale, hopefully it'll keep it in check. Thank you Janell
if you use it I'd love to know if it helps you at all, feel free to send me a message :)
Hi Janell. I had to take a break before I was able to write this comment. Thank you a lot for your video. It means a lot to me. Since I remember I struggle with the anxiety. I use the water level in a close environment as a point of reference. Sometimes it's just a puddle and you can jump over it. Sometimes it's above your waist and walking requires extra effort but sometimes you need to fight for your life when the level of the water rise above your head. I admire every single person who struggles with mental issues and yet is able to overcome it and to work, to create, to step out of the comfort zone. Currently, I fight every day to live my life instead of crawling under the blanket and wait until the sleep comes. I have so many ideas and such an appetite for life but I lost so many days because of my anxieties. So thank you not only for this video and sharing your way of keeping depression under control but also for your strength and your will for being vulnerable. I wish you good luck, lots of "0" days and inner peace.
Alicja Masiukiewicz thank you for sharing
I like your water analogy
Praying for you and people like you! It honestly can get better!
I agreed I stay away from people not to bring them down as well.
My depression only comes when I am at my most vulnerable state and the very first one lasted about 2-3 months. Then I recovered but now I can tell I am no longer the happy self I was before.. However, hearing the daily rating you wrote, I think my daily rating would be around 1-3 and several times it came back especially when I have relationship problem with someone / decide to close an important chapter of my life. My very first one was at 9 in your scale and the subsequent ones are usually around 7-8..
"You need to be happy to live, I don't" Keanu Reeves
I'd name it Moon
You said you cry for hours without reason...have you ever considered that you might be an empath, and that some of this heaviness is not yours? Working as an ER nurse and seeing patients and their families in emergency situations with high emotions could very well be energy that you are absorbing and manifesting as depression. xoxo
I think this is true ...in Christian community we call the intercessors people who stand in the place of others and even though you are not a Christian any more your gift or talent may be to fill and take on the pain of others the hard part is channeling this pain into prayer or meditation....so you don't hold it to long.
I wish I could like this video twice
As a working mom of a 3-year old I can relate to this. Using this scale (rate) is a great idea. I struggled with depression until I was 30 (I am now 44) and it is trying to make its come back now that I am always tired. As you say in your note, rating is helping me realize where I am daily, so as to do my best to not let myself slip into a deeper hole (if this makes sense). I also appreciate what you say about being born a sad person, as I always believed that about myself too, but was constantly told that no such inclination can be written in a person's DNA. Thank you for your honesty about reckless driving, eating-habits, plastic spoons, sexual behavior. I am still trying to forgive myself for mistakes of the past. It is always helpful to realize that I/we am not alone in this. You are a blessing. An amazing spirit. Love to you
I did this exact same thing in high school (but just opposite, with 10 being great and 1 being shitty terrible horrible). After my first 3 month stretch of depression/suicidal thinking/disordered eating/coming to terms with my queerness, where I was mostly in the 2-4 range (7-9 on your scale), I went back in my school planner/calendar thing and physically wrote down numbers for every day from the past few months (my memory was hyper-functional then, usually it's no where near that good). It was fascinating to do that after the fact, and then I had this tool going forward where I could compare what I was currently experiencing to what I had experienced before and it allowed me to self-determine what things I needed to do for myself to survive.
For anyone out there who's experienced mental illness/disabilities similar to this, don't feel like you need to stop at numbers. Try to use words to describe what you're feeling. If that's too much and numbers feel too clinical, maybe use the colors of the rainbow. Do what feels right to you. You've got options.
thanks for sharing this.
Guys the are even apps that remind you every evening to rate your day. I'm currently using one called Year in Pixels, it has a five color scale and allows to write notes and pick certain emotions and feelings from the list.
This is what I call amazing content. I’m sure you’re helping a lot of people with this. Let’s keep fighting!
Blueberry . . . round, blue and is good for you (surprisingly for me, depression is too; it helps me appreciate what I have :)
my depression has been diagnosed as behavioral and like you I've been depressed my entire life. I'm now in my mid 60's and I have finally found a way to look at myself differently and react to my depression in a more effective manner. Know it will come to you, too, and you will recognise it and begin to shift. For me the healing comes with being and interacting with Nature . . . it's my particular 'key'. Be alert to your reaction to different stimuli and you may find your key too.
I SEND MUCH POSITIVE ENERGY YOUR WAY AND MUCH LOVE TOO!
Take Care,
Donna
You have worked hard on this one & you have nailed it. Hope this video gets most views and helps people in need. Cheers!
(I hope so too haha) and thank you!!
I didn't realize how bad it could get, but I will keep an eye out for myself, my friends, and my family now that I know this. Thanks for making this.
Mindfulness helped me get off my meds . Mindfulness has actually been proven to improve depression and this technique is a form of that . Good luck on your journey . ❤❤❤
This video will definitely help almost everyone. You put it straight without hesitation. I hope you feel better and get stronger with each day. You're too legit to quit! Much love and peace to you always.
This is powerful. I think this video could definitely help explain to someone that has never struggled with depression a little insight into the world of someone who is struggling. Thank you for putting this into the world to help someone ❤️ vulnerability = powerfully brave
Thank you, Janell. This was a really interesting insight. My boyfriend has depression and it’s hard for me to understand what he’s going through but I feel like this helped explain a lot. I’ll share it with him.
Thank you for being willing to open up about what is sometimes considered a really taboo topic. Glad to hear you’re having an upswing. 😊♥️
I think this scale is really helpful. For those affected since childhood, it really helps clarify that what a 4 feels like is not "good", medication is working, but not fully better. Just the sheer lack of 8 is such a relief. It's not character flaws, it is the disease crippling function. I think this elucidated scale is more helpful than just broad questions alone of how are you in Dr's appointments.
I'm honestly so happy too just be anything less than 8
Hi Janell. I too was ‘born sad’. Thank you for putting aside your nervousness to publish this video on your depression and how you monitor it. You have helped me and I’m positive it will help many people to gather some strength and control over their mental health. Since I discovered your channel your intelligence and sensitivity never cease to amaze me... especially given your age. You have a bright future Janell. Never let those 5+ days keep you from remembering it!❤️
When I started watching this I thought that I would just observe but I relate to this so much and it just hurts , even-so it opened my eyes, Thank you.
Good to know I'm not the only one who was a depressed kid:)
I really like the scale! And it's super helpful. I've been using apps where I can rate my day or how depressed/anxious I've been feeling and it's interesting to look back at that data and see patterns in it. Using a scale like that can help you prevent getting lost in the dark in the future, at least if you learn to read the warning signs.
This was amazing and I’m going to introduce this rating system to my daughter who suffers with depression and has since she was younger. Thank you!! 💛
Awesome, I hope it helps!
I love how raw and honest this video was. Thank you for taking the time to make this video. I know it must have been difficult to share. The scale seems very helpful. Sending you a virtual hug. ❤
I have a mood tracker called iMood Journal that my therapist recommended. It’s an app and it reminds me 3 times a day to rate how I feel 1-10. It’s helpful to see if I’ve had several bad days in a row because sometimes I don’t even realize. My scale is opposite though - 1 is couldn’t be worse and 10 is amazing. Thank you for being vulnerable and open about this. I know how scary that can be.
I'm look into this app, it would be nice to have a real tracker
I am a occupational therapist and I think it's a great tool to use for people with depression. I like that you are so clear about what every number means. A great tool! Hugs to you :)
Wow 😯 this was heavy. “Born sad 😔 “. Deep.
This is great! Especially as someone who was recently (finally!) diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder (GAD) and clinical depression, it helps to have a name for what has plagued me for most of my life, as well as a scale to rate my day-to-day feelings. About three weeks ago I had a pretty close call with suicide, but thankfully I didn't enact my plan and instead went to the counseling center- I'd say I was at an 9.5 or 9.1 on the scale at that point. Since then I've been getting therapy, and with the direction of my psychiatrist I've increased my antidepressant dosage.
Things are still a struggle, like getting out of bed for morning lectures is pretty much a crap shoot on most mornings-gotta love those sleep interruptions at 3:30am on the dot, every night-and on some days I'll stay in bed until 11am, maybe 12pm- but at least I'm leaving my room, talking to my friends again, walking and enjoying the sunshine, and seeking help from my current advisor and other higher ups in the graduate program I'm in for guidance. In my next therapy session I'll bring this idea up to my therapist- maybe this can help her other clients! :)
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS THIS IS SO HELPFUL
I needed this. You’re an angel.
You get it.Thanks so much for making this. You made me feel a bit less alone. Much love
This is SO GOOD. Thank you for making this
This was amazing! Thank you so much for making and sharing ❤️
Thank you, I really appreciate this scale
Thank you so much for this. You are such a brave woman.
Thank you so much for making this video - it’s so important 💜
Awesome video and I love the scale, I’ve never thought of it that way. I think I’m at a 6.5 and acknowledging where I am really does give me that boost to want to change that because I’ve been stuck here for a few months. Thank you for this and I’m happy that you’re doing well. You’re never alone. ✨
❤️ Thank you, this was wonderful.
This video is so pure and sweet , I love it.
I love you! You are seriously amazing I just found your channel yesterday it popped up randomly and I’m watching all of them you’re So brave and definitely not alone!! I also love your style !
I related to this video a lot and it made me feel less alone. Thank you for posting! 😊
thank you so much for sharing this. I just found you on youtube, and I wanted to say you rock! I am going to start adopting this myself in my bullet journaling.
I love this, thank you for sharing!! I’m definitely going to use this as a check in for myself each night// write it out in my journal and then have some follow up questions to why I feel the way I do.
I'm so happy to hear you've been doing well lately! I hope and pray that you continue to find happiness. I don't have depression but I found this very helpful. I think it could help me understand my closest friends better, since I have a hard time picking up on their emotions sometimes. Thank you!!
Being a nurse is difficult. Patients can be rude as can their family members. this adds to a sense of low self esteem. I like your video. I can relate to just about everything you have gone over. There is a lot of pretending in front of family members. I feel that no one really cares.
I appreciated this video so much. Thank you!
I really like this rating system. thank you for this. much love to you ❤
Thanks janelle🖤 I’m glad you are happier now, we all needed this 😊
Wow, very strong video Janell. Brave. Thank you
I remember that I used to wish for my heart to stop beating, so it would all end.. Now, 2 years after those feelings are so long gone, and I am so much happier, even though there is a lot of struggle from time to time... but for example, today I am at 2 probably... used to be 7-10 for months though... back than... thank you for this scale, I think its very useful and I hope you will continue to come to smaller and smaller numbers to (almost?) permanent zero :)
This brings me a measure of comfort, hugs to you too dragonfly !
I found this really helpful, especially today. Thank you 💜
Wow!!!! This is a pretty accurate and amazing scale!!! Thank you so much for sharing!!!
I love this!! Thank you so much for sharing!
Thank you so much for sharing something so personal Janell, this is really helpful!
Thank you Janelle.i can relate to your statement regarding not remembering when you were not depressed
This is a super helpful video, thank you for sharing! My depression fluctuates a lot and at times is even nonexistent so it will be good to use this with some notes about what happened during the day. I'm glad that you're doing better, and I hope you continue to be well!
Thank you for this video! I think I needed it today! What you shared, opens a window into dealing with depression, on a daily basis.
You are amazing for making this video. Thank you so much. You are beautiful. Using this scale is going to help me a lot because usually I don't even realize that I was depressed until I'm better, and at this point it's hard to relate to my own feeling of being depressed.
Thanks for that share. Its a great scale and the idea should be spread. I had been severly depressed for many years, now its almost 2 years I feel way better. For me even though I didnt realize it at that time quitting alcohol was a huge step to heal. cos even after one glass of wine, i would feel down for at least 2 days... In 3.5 year I didnt have even a drop of alcohol and I havent been happier. Sending all the love and wishing you to stay on 1-3 points of scale
thank you so much for making this. I cried a little towards the end 😭 I rated my depression in my head the other day, and then today you post this and it's really helpful to hear the feelings/thoughts attached to a scale so I have a better picture of what it is I'm feeling. Ugh such a good vid, thank you!
i've had a similar understanding of myself, that i was sad for my first 18 years and beyond that. it's comforting to know that there are others who have a similar struggle. thank you for making this video and being so vulnerable with us :)
This was an excellent video! Hopefully you continue to do well with your mental health and don’t be afraid to reach out to people!
Thank you for this! I will try your scale as it's sometimes hard for me to put into words for myself, let alone my loved ones.
This is so helpful for me right now. Thank you!
Thank you for being so open. You're making a difference and I enjoy your videos. Hugs.
This is so interesting and I’m glad you shared this. It’s so refreshing seeing people be open and talking about mental health ❤️
Thank you! I love how descriptive this scale is. I love your channel and what you have to share, from the minimalism to the travel content. Thank you for being vulnerable and open and sharing. Please keep it up as long as it feels good for you.
I absolutely relate to this so much! Being born sad, I thought that was just me! After 20 years I recently seek medical help for my depression and thank you so much for speaking about the personal topics of your life! Including with the parent hoarder, I was the same. I feel that made my depression worse also! Once again thank you for sharing your story, although I live in Australia and i'm studying to be a nurse too it feels great to know someone has had the same struggles as myself and appears to be so strong xxx Very inspiring girl !
I'm really glad you're doing better lately. I personally haven't been greater than a 5 in my opinion but I hope this does help someone.
Damn. That was a real honesty bomb. You are a role model and I'm sending you love through space. Keep sticking with the truth! You're totally awesome.
Thank you for this, it helped me to think about own depression and where it rates as you described each stage according to the number. I think I’ll use this too.
Thank you so much for being brave enough to share this, I genuinely believe it will save lives. Stay safe, much love xx
I rarely comment on videos, but I had to say thank you for posting this. I’ve never had someone explain depression in a way I related to this much before. I shared it in hopes that my loved ones will educate themselves.
My depression has been in the low digits lately, but I think this scale will help a lot in the likely event it gets worse again. Thank you thank you!
Thank you for this. I needed it
thank you for this, this scale seems like it could be useful, both as a way of checking myself, and communicating my situation with people around me. sending you love !
Thank you so much for this. I'm someone who needs data to take a problem seriously. I think if I have a way to record how I'm feeling, it will sort of hold me accountable to taking care of my own mental health. I was born sad too, but I don't think it has to be that way always, and I can mitigate the effects when it get bad.
Thank you for this, and for sharing your story
Rating my symptoms has helped me a lot too. Thank you for sharing this and thank you for existing. I admire your strength and determination so much 💙
I’m really grateful to have found your channel. I have suffered greatly from depression and it has stolen much of my young life. I battle to fight it and I really love that you made this ranking system for yourself.
Thank you so much for sharing. I really benefit from watching your videos.
You are an inspiration. Wise beyond your years. I just discovered you 3 videos ago, but this brave one yanked my heart out of my chest.
Thank you. I needed this.💕