if youre depressed, PLEASE SEEK HELP!!!! Dial numbers for help like googling it or talk to a family member, ANYONE! I hope youre okay and we are all here for u, we love u
김제니 im very sorry, please read some of my advice. Please View these helpful Videos/Channels/Websites Channels I recommend: Physc2Go, Prince EA Websites: Myjournaldepression.com etc, Videos: Suicidal? This is for you. Applications: Ada Help, Texting Therapy, Online therapy. Im really sorry. I hope you recover. I feel you, Please dont think its the end of you. Ive felt that. And in the future, i realized that i could do it. Dont believe the thoughts in your head, dont know how to solve it? Try to ignore it or find help. Its your only choices
Yes, please do. Life is so beautiful. Try to appreciate the little things in life, be grateful for even the tiniest good thing you have, just admire all those things and see how much you're missing out on. I'm speaking from experience. I'm so glad I stayed because things have gotten a LOT better!
Same... I don't want to die but i really see no point. My life is filled with pleasing others and always putting myself 2nd. I try to do or find what my purpose could be but i feel so useless and worthless all the time. And i hate that i feel this way, for not appreciating my life. Others had it worst and i don't deserve to complain. Because of this i feel like i live in a limbo where its not my life not my control. Just waiting ...
@@ungzheenedd2273 same tbh, I'm under so much pressure... My parents are so strict, my teachers expect a lot from me since I'm the best student in college, my friends expect me to be the happiest person in the world because I've always been like that, but in reality It's all just fake. I feel useless, my grades, my personality, the way I act, everything is NOT me. And I really hate the fact that I can't be myself because I don't want to disappoint anyone... I want to live freely, I just want to be normal, but it'll never happen. And that makes me cry every time. I hate it.
It is brave to live and face what ever happens to you.. you dont have the right to take a way the a life your God gave you.. you dont own it only all mighty Allah own it and only him can take it when ever it is the time ment
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Hey. I know it's been 2 months since u wrote this comment but I found it only now. Are you ok? I know how it is to hurt. I know how it is to not like yourself. I am here for you if u need me. Lots of love💜I purple you
@@jams_1013 I'm very happy to hear you're doing better💜but still if you wish we can keep in touch so if you ever need someone to talk to I can be there for you💜
I hope you are in a slight better place right now. Don't hesitate to seek out for help if needed. Therapy helped me in my depression and suicidal tendencies a lot as well. I'm still healing, and I hope someday, we all get there.
@@mahaswetamadhukalya8313 oh I’m in therapy and on medication. I even did a several week long intensive outpatient program. I think that’s part of why I’m tired. It’s just a trudge to keep trying and trying when like every part of you wants to stop
Just imagine, you are an adult. You just got a boyfriend/girlfriend. Three days later, your boyfriend/girlfriend tells you they want to break up with you because your feet are too smol.
Or miserable things. Life doesn't always get better. The problem isn't the suicide, but the absence of the easy way out. Some people get to much of suffering and the irony is, you have to cause yourself even more pain to stop it. None of those who haven't gone through it, can truly understand it. That is why euthanasia is illegal in most countries. Most people are too self-centered and arrogant to realize that by forcing a person to live they only prolong his/her suffering.
@@BeautifuIBoi that is life, but there are many things that can help you feel happy, may you find it soon🙏💞 I still stuck with this thinking, but thankfully I manage to change my way of viewing things, and some things change🙌
Imagine being able to believe that's true, I don't have hope as it only gets me hurt, I'm not special or important to anyone, the one person in the world who I truly love alot doesn't feel the same way. I don't want to try anymore. I want to not wake up
I think about this all the time but then the next misfortune always happens to me, then one day I sit in silence for a long time with so many thoughts running around. There are none, every scenarios I think always end the same way.
I dont speak the language but i know what its like to have your own mother disgusted disappointed and giving up on you. Shes waiting for you to be who she wants you to be and you know you never will. Its ok. Just always try to be the best version of yourself. You are good enough
I’m 12 years old. I used to feel the same way. I got over it. It was like this a few months ago. Talk to someone. It will help. Do things that make you happy. It will help.
"The only thing guaranteed when we're born are death and change. As I was trying to drown the thought came to me. Why not wait for the next wave of change?" that always helps
@@DaHaMMeRz OR, it may not. Life doesn't always get better. The problem isn't the suicide, but the absence of the easy way out. Some people get to much of suffering and the irony is, you have to cause yourself even more pain to stop it. None of those who haven't gone through it, can truly understand it. That is why euthanasia is illegal in most countries. Most people are too self-centered and arrogant to realize that by forcing a person to live they only prolong his/her suffering.
I watched this with an electrical cord around my neck I just want to say thankyou for saving my life your projects are really inspiring and you're doing some real good
@@dianar6600 me to when kids are bieng asshole and I'm to scared to say something it slowly kills me. I just keep rewinding it in my head the whole day thinking of how horrible my life and the day was, I don't know how to make it go away. and my parents dont know . I make myself put a happy face on whith my family
Btw, the teacher is teaching portuguese. I could only thought to myself "why is that?", but for those of you that don't speak portuguese she kept saying "And now we are going to learn how to say 'how are you?' How are you is a great way to great other people. How are you?'. Every detail in this film is important.
Jonina Cuevas there are many similarities between Portuguese and Spanish. Cómo estás, in both languages, means “How are you?” But they are not the same.
Lowkey out of all the short flim's I've watched I just really love this one. It lets off a completely different feel then most and I just love the colors and everything
The part with the little girl in the coffin at the end made me cry because I’ve thought of things younger than that and what would my family do? Ahgg Jesus
Its weird seing Karan as the cool kid. I'm used to see him as a nerd. He is such a great actor Wow!!! Seriously guys thanks for thanks for the likes!!! Never gotten so many!!!
@@LoveIXTC I'm sorry life is that way for you. That makes me sad, and I don't even know you. I hope you can find a reason to smile... There will always be pain, it's how you push though it & find the beauty that creates unbreakable strength. I sincerely hope you find it!
I can relate to this so much. It breaks my heart to see people that I admire having passed through such similar hard and desperate moments. My respect for you Anna went way, way up.
I can't remember what it's like to be happy, but I'm working on it. I've had multiple traumas since I was 5 and I despised my existence since then. I tried to kill myself 4 times before I was 10, 12 times before I was 18. I'm 22 now, and the thing that made me stop trying to die was the permanence of it. If I changed my mind, there was no going back. For some reason, people seemed to think that if they guilted me enough, I wouldn't be suicidal, but that only added fuel to the fire. So, to anyone out there who reads this: some of us do make it out of the spiraling hellhole of suicidal thoughts and behaviors, while others are on their journeys. It is OK to be wherever you are in your journey, and it's OK to wonder if life's even worth it. What isn't OK is to believe with all your heart that you aren't worth anything. You are a human being, no matter how broken or battered, and you deserve to believe that you are precious and worthy of respect-- even respect from yourself. It might take months, years, or decades to come to terms with that reality, but, even if you're unwilling to accept it, it will still be fact. If you're going through anything, I love you and here are some hugs!
You guys are so depressing, always saying how your life is bad and things blablabla, go ahead, life gets better, stop murmuring and being such a dramatic person, go and battle against the world and even yourself, in a good way of course.
@@warrior7038 I very much agree with you. I now realize that my comment is very much dramatic. I will now stop commenting about how I relate to things on a personal level. Thank you kind stranger for opening my eyes.
@@kurimus8299 That's okay to have feelings and express your emotions, but being depressed and dramatic won't help you to make your life better, I'm not criticizing anyone, just saying that to not confuse others and clarify my point here.
Just how difficult must it have been for you to film those scenes about your sister, especially that scene in the wardrobe.. Thank you, Anna. You're changing the world
This is really a masterpiece. I laughed, I cried, I felt hope, I felt empathy, I felt my own experiences represented... This is a true work of the heart and soul. Incredible. Yes, there were some rough parts and whatnot. But I loved the filmmaking techniques and the message was so powerful. What an amazing short, special, beautiful film.
seeing someone open up about their experience and struggles makes me feel all the less alone-and seeing someone who is now thriving and working on herself to be better despite her difficulties makes me all the more hopeful for my future and career. You’re videos have really helped-even for ppl who may not struggle particularly with depression but other or similar issues. You’ve given me a new positive outlook and hope and I thank you for that
It's nice to see that there's something on CZcams for all these people to relate to. When you find solidarity, you become even just a little bit better at fighting the hard fight. We are not alone.
(If you are) if youre depressed, PLEASE SEEK HELP!!!! Dial numbers for help like googling it or talk to a family member, ANYONE! I hope youre okay and we are all here for u, we love u
I've been suicidal for nearly my whole life, and I only have one rule about it. I only do it when I feel like it. Even if I've been planning, if I'm not feeling it, if I don't want to anymore, if I have any doubts in my mind, I save it for another day. Because, as was said, what's the rush? This mentality has saved my life. I'm still waiting for good days again, but it's good enough right now that I don't think about suicide as a viable option, and I'm grateful for that. Keep on living, don't rush death, because it will come one day, one way or another. You always have the option to try again if you stay. You can't come back to life if you're not 100% in.
This was so beautiful. I cried my eyes out. I've struggled with mental illness since I was a teenager and we're the same age. Th last four years I have worked so hard om myself and my mental health. I found your channel a few weeks ago and I love your content. I appreciate how open and vulnerable you are in your channel and is beautiful. Thank you.
She's just trying to sell you BetterHelp bullshit. Who paid for the production of this? Why are there no credits? You are being hustled. Just wait. My comment will be deleted or I will be blocked for trying to tell the truth.
This was a great representation of life and depression and how it can feel like your drowning in the ocean I love the animation edits everything I once felt this way a lot so having someone reach out to showing what I’m actually going through and NOT just me was really touching thank you 🙏
Its amazing how Anna can have the strength to act out the fight she had with her sister before her suicide, I love you Anna and I think you are a wonderful voice for change
Gummy_bears1262 I wish I could hug you and make everything better! 💜 You are strong and amazing, and things will get better. I don't know what you're going through, but change is one guarantee in life, you can get through this. For what it's worth, I'm here if you ever want to talk or rant or anything. I'm rooting for you!
i kind of like how she used the death of her pet as the beginning of the downward spiral...thats something that truly, deeply affects people and can hurt as much as losing a loved one, but it is usually not taken serious enough. people are expected to just move on and get over it, kind of like mental health problems. it seems like a metaphor
@@desteny1393 they both happened really close together, within months of each other. I read her book, "so much I want to tell you" and she talks about how both of them happening so close together played a large part in her downward spiral.
Thanks, Anna. There are few artists who can convey such a hard-to-understand and complex state so clearly and beautifully and, somehow, manage to uplift the distraught simultaneously.
@@vay5540 No, it doesn't satisfy me at all. But without these suicidal thoughts, I have the feeling not to be me. It feels wrong and alien to not have to think about suicide. It feels like my thoughts have been exchanged with someone else's. Could be a dependency of this feeling, I don't know.
Sometimes mental illness can take up so much space in our minds and souls that we feel it is a part of us and it can feel weirdly empty once its not there anymore. You are not alone in feeling that way. I suggest trying different things and hobbies to try to figure out who you are and redefine yourself so that feeling of emptiness can be less present.
It’s because you feel comfortable with the options. There are multiple options in life we have to choose and it’s for some reason comforting to know that we can make it all stop at anytime but we still choose to fight it out of curiosity of the world. Without those options we would feel empty.
“You know you can die at anytime... but what’s the rush?” That hit hard. Sometimes you just need here something so simple, yet so honest for things to click and make sense. I can’t say that it would keep me from feeling/thinking the way I do sometimes, but it’s something I think I’ll be reminded of when I am in those moments. Thank you Anna, I love when you talk about this cause it’s real, you completely understand the feelings. They make me feel but they also encourage me to push through.
This is so beautiful. The work you present has so much meaning to me and I am grateful that you choose to share this with us for free. You are amazing.
Anna, I'm glad you're sticking it out. I know I'm just kinda a faceless guy on the internet, but I'm still rooting for you. You won't be alone. And whoever reads this, I'm rooting for you, too. No matter how hard it feels, you have someone on your side. Live.
“When it comes to death, why rush. We all get there sooner or later. The only thing guarantee when we’re born are death and change. Why not wait for the next wave of change? What if I stayed? What beautiful things could be waiting for me? I can die anytime. What’s the rush” I just want the pain to be over.
This helped me so much when I saw it a few years ago. I'm getting my mom to write this (I'm 35+, she's 70+) and I'm getting a tattoo on my left arm: What if you stayed? Waited for the next wave? You know, baby You can die anytime What's the rush? Your grandmother is support in a way many of us don't realize is real. Thank you for bringing her to us.
omgggt i cant believe i found this after 2 years. I just wanna say that this has totally changed my perspective on wanting to die. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR DOING THIS. ur so brave and strong for moving forward and pushing through when all u wanted to do was give up. I hope my wave of change ( for the better i hope lol) comes sooner. P.S. I love ur videos and they help me understand so many things better. ur doing great. And you're inspiring so many thru what you do. Love you❤️
I remember quietly sneaking past my mom's room to the hallway, quietly tip-toeing down the basement stairs to get the smallest screwdriver I could find. Then quietly marching my way back up the stairs towards my room and locking the door. To unscrew my only pencil sharpener and removing the blade, slitting my wrists and waist and arms and thighs and repeating those steps over and over until I was satisfied that I had punished myself enough. Punished myself for being me. For being who I am. For being alive. I've wanted to die. I still want to die. But now instead of carefully taking apart that pencil sharpener, I think. I think long and hard. I think about the waves and the sound they make when they hit the sand beneath my toes. I think about the colors that strawberries are on the hot july days when all you can wear are tank tops and shorts. I think about the people who love me. I think about the concerts I havent been to. People I've never met. Places Ive never visited. And I put myself into the position of someone else, for however long it takes. Maybe my mom. Maybe my dad. Boyfriend. Uncle. Best friend. Teacher. What would it be like if I didnt live another day? What would happen if I didnt get to see that movie on Sunday? They didnt get to give me my christmas present they spent so much time and money on? Those are the things that matter. You matter. You'll be ok. I'm ok. I wasnt, but I am now. We all die, why rush it? Theres so much to experience in life. I love you. Dont forget that.
So proud of you ! Stay strong. You never know when life's going to get better, but it does eventually :) I personally wanted to kill myself when I was 11, and those thoughts kept coming back through the years sometimes. But life DID get better, in a way I would've never imagined. I'm so freaking happy now, for the first time in my life, and it's beautiful. It will do the same with you.
5:17 Can really relate. When you have depression, every holiday season you tend to feel so painfully alone and that everyone around you is (seemingly) reveling in happiness. You couldn't really care less about Christmas or birthdays, because they just don't feel the same anymore like they did when you were a kid and when things were easier.
Lisa Holly I can relate so much,When I go to events and my friends are in those skinny tight dresses showing their nice long legs and hourglass figure,While your just there With your broad shoulders,Fat arms ,legs,pregnat belly even though your NOT PREGNAT,sigh I relate lisa hollu
Anna you don't know how much you've helped me with your videos. I don't know of another person in my life who gets me as well as you do, and your videos have helped me understand myself and navigate my life better. I'm very grateful to you.
Rasmatallia Solomon if youre depressed, PLEASE SEEK HELP!!!! Dial numbers for help like googling it or talk to a family member, ANYONE! I hope youre okay and we are all here for u, we love u
i used to watch your videos all the time when my brother passed from taking his own life… i’ve come a long way in my own journey with growing to love myself and keep going on since then but you helped immeasurably and i just want you to know that. you have no idea how much you helped me not feel so alone when i didn’t know how to even begin to process my emotions and i’m forever grateful anna akana
My mother hates me and yells at me for every little thing I do and says that she’ll give me away. My older sister hates me and doesn’t talk to me. My best friend left me because someone talk me up to her. I only trust my dog at this point - he has never hurt me
Well dogs are incredible friends.. they are better than humans but we all love you... and even your mother will realise that she loves you but some things takes time. We all love you💕
i don’t think she hates u she probably have been going thro bad things when she was little and she’s probably being hard on u my mom has been thro some things in her childhood that made her be who she is
Thank you for making this. Things have been rough lately and I'm all alone dealing with a huge change. While watching, I felt like my future was flashing in front of my eyes and I can't tell you how glad I am she doesn't kill herself. Thank you for this.
Some of us don’t wanna die , some of us just wanna stop feeling the way we are feeling
You are a beautiful person. I know life is hard but never forget that you are never alone :) ❤
if youre depressed, PLEASE SEEK HELP!!!! Dial numbers for help like googling it or talk to a family member, ANYONE! I hope youre okay and we are all here for u, we love u
Raindrop Mya sometimes getting help doesn’t help everyone
김제니 im very sorry, please read some of my advice.
Please View these helpful Videos/Channels/Websites
Channels I recommend: Physc2Go, Prince EA
Websites: Myjournaldepression.com etc,
Videos: Suicidal? This is for you.
Applications: Ada Help, Texting Therapy, Online therapy.
Im really sorry. I hope you recover. I feel you, Please dont think its the end of you. Ive felt that. And in the future, i realized that i could do it.
Dont believe the thoughts in your head, dont know how to solve it? Try to ignore it or find help. Its your only choices
Bingo
"you know baby, you can die anytime. but what's the rush?" that got to me. this helped for reason.
Swapna K those words gave me a reason not be scared of how I felt or what was about to happen
Ikr
yeah
Damn this is a good one..
I think you're wrong, why experience years of hard life?
“I don’t want to die but I sometimes wish I’ve never been born at all” - Freddie Mercury
Me too
@@jessicascott4505 why don’t you want to be born? You are beautiful!! 😇
Same
Yeah why don't pro-life people ever realize not everyone is grateful to be born.
I feel you. I certainly regret being born with this illness, schizophrenia.
i don’t want to die, i just want to enjoy living.
Yes, please do. Life is so beautiful. Try to appreciate the little things in life, be grateful for even the tiniest good thing you have, just admire all those things and see how much you're missing out on. I'm speaking from experience. I'm so glad I stayed because things have gotten a LOT better!
You can!
Same... I don't want to die but i really see no point. My life is filled with pleasing others and always putting myself 2nd. I try to do or find what my purpose could be but i feel so useless and worthless all the time. And i hate that i feel this way, for not appreciating my life. Others had it worst and i don't deserve to complain. Because of this i feel like i live in a limbo where its not my life not my control. Just waiting ...
@@ungzheenedd2273 same tbh, I'm under so much pressure... My parents are so strict, my teachers expect a lot from me since I'm the best student in college, my friends expect me to be the happiest person in the world because I've always been like that, but in reality It's all just fake. I feel useless, my grades, my personality, the way I act, everything is NOT me. And I really hate the fact that I can't be myself because I don't want to disappoint anyone... I want to live freely, I just want to be normal, but it'll never happen. And that makes me cry every time. I hate it.
@@nicoleb.496 hey..so sorry you have to go through that. you want to connect? My insta nedd_ung . Maybe we can chat more
“Sometimes being alive is an act of courage”
...or cowardice... just depends
"have the courage to exist" :)
Agreed
@@nicolealexandra1392 exciting is not living
It is brave to live and face what ever happens to you.. you dont have the right to take a way the a life your God gave you.. you dont own it only all mighty Allah own it and only him can take it when ever it is the time ment
her content is WAY too high quality for youtube oml
But everyone deserve therapy so 😁
Well she is a professional writer and has a whole Crew to help her achieve and make everything look professional and further her creativity and quality
Ikr
yeppppp
Im doing it now.
"when it comes to death, why rush?"
because i'm impatient.
But that’s the hellish beauty of death, you never know when it’ll happen so you won’t have to prepare for any pain
@@anonperson3197 ...im not christian but that made ME feel better :)
To that comment my dark humor can relate 🤷♀️
SAME
I don’t want to die, I just don’t want to be me anymore 😣
Same. I don't want to be this person who nobody wants, not even myself.
Hey. I know it's been 2 months since u wrote this comment but I found it only now. Are you ok? I know how it is to hurt. I know how it is to not like yourself. I am here for you if u need me. Lots of love💜I purple you
Violet Snake I’m doing better now, thank you for asking 💜💜💜
@@jams_1013 I'm very happy to hear you're doing better💜but still if you wish we can keep in touch so if you ever need someone to talk to I can be there for you💜
bruh
“You don’t have to light yourself on fire to keep others warm”
But I do for the ones I care about.
Poody hood I do that a lot and I can’t stop... 😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞
@@pekopekoyama4945 That's not being a friend to yourself.
Did that a lot.
Good saying 😊
"you have small feet"
Her "what?"
Me what?
Janina Ve I think that it was meant to mean her body isn’t “perfect” or an excuse to just break up
What
@@abinothayyilsanoj4182 Her feet were hecka smallin man
@@brysonwashington7227 I know .
I just typed "what "
Right, I was like,
Wtf bro?! What's wrong with small feet, ugh!
But maybe sometimes you’re just really, really tired. Just so miserably tired
Hey sister LIFE is about WISDOM
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I am really tired of this life 😣😣😣😭😭😭😭. I just want to die
I hope you are in a slight better place right now. Don't hesitate to seek out for help if needed. Therapy helped me in my depression and suicidal tendencies a lot as well. I'm still healing, and I hope someday, we all get there.
@@mahaswetamadhukalya8313 oh I’m in therapy and on medication. I even did a several week long intensive outpatient program. I think that’s part of why I’m tired. It’s just a trudge to keep trying and trying when like every part of you wants to stop
yes!
Sometimes u don’t realize, a simple “hello” can change a person’s life.. a simple “have u eat yet?”.. Can save someone’s life
The scene with her mom being angry... That hit me so hard.
Me too.
Me too, a similar thing happened last week
“Why are you depressed?! Stop being depressed!!”
As if getting mad at me will help.
because it’s so close to home
That was my mom less than a hour before she stormed off somewhere.
Just imagine, you are an adult. You just got a boyfriend/girlfriend. Three days later, your boyfriend/girlfriend tells you they want to break up with you because your feet are too smol.
So sAdz.
ur feet are HECKA smol
@@jaedajolee7216 I just imagined that and wow
I WISH LOL im so insecure about my feet and I want to
Correction: Small not smol
IK THIS IS SAD BUT NO ONE IS TALKING ABOUT THE L CALENDER?????
Ikr
PLS I WAS THINKING OF THAT
fr tho that made me happy lmao
Omg yes, I was like where is you get that I need one right now :D
I'm sorry , what do you mean by L calendar?
"You know, baby. You can die anytime. What's the rush?" I love that
Do u ever lay down in ur bed at night and thinking how not okay u are?
I have spent so many nights doing that
Every night..
Yeah
yes, e v e r y night
@BubbleTea same. I always think they would just scream at me or say thats all just fake and say things which I dont need/cant help
“What if I stayed what beautiful things could be waiting for me”
God I never realized how much my heart needed that
Or miserable things. Life doesn't always get better. The problem isn't the suicide, but the absence of the easy way out. Some people get to much of suffering and the irony is, you have to cause yourself even more pain to stop it. None of those who haven't gone through it, can truly understand it. That is why euthanasia is illegal in most countries. Most people are too self-centered and arrogant to realize that by forcing a person to live they only prolong his/her suffering.
me too
Lucky you, I couldn't pass through it, I wish I was more patient and now I am dead :(
@@BeautifuIBoi that is life, but there are many things that can help you feel happy, may you find it soon🙏💞 I still stuck with this thinking, but thankfully I manage to change my way of viewing things, and some things change🙌
Jesus Loves you, don't give up.
"But what if I stayed?"
"What beautiful things could be waiting for me?"
This two lines are enough to make me cry and make me at least try to live.
Please keep living. You have so many beautiful things waiting for you!
@@Julia-sp2kt Thanks 💜
Imagine being able to believe that's true, I don't have hope as it only gets me hurt, I'm not special or important to anyone, the one person in the world who I truly love alot doesn't feel the same way. I don't want to try anymore. I want to not wake up
@@brassy9425 same if the simple sentence can make you happy then news flash your problem wasn't that deep to begin with
I think about this all the time but then the next misfortune always happens to me, then one day I sit in silence for a long time with so many thoughts running around. There are none, every scenarios I think always end the same way.
Coming back to this a few months later, I'm glad I didn't kill myself
im so happy your alive
How are you now? And you know you are the strongest person I know cuz staying alive is the strongest and hardest decision anyone can make.
Thankyou both ♡ ❤🧡💛💚💙💜 I'm doing much better ☆ hope you're well
@@miafine2584 yess thanks
pls continue holding on
*I always try to make everyone happy... except myself*
Same pain😊
*except
yeah same...
Kostas Kostakis exactly me
same
I got suddenly emotional cause I remember it being this way
Hobii Army 💜
Hobii same
I know, hon. Hang in there. Please stick around. All my best wishes to you always.
Eh, i was just being dramatic like honestly im so fragile...
@@shivalimohindru6668 heyyy 💜
um when the mom was yelling, it hit me so hard. The mom was speaking japanese and i could understand every single word
i'm half korean so in a way i can't relate but her voice still completely resonated with me and felt so real
I dont speak the language but i know what its like to have your own mother disgusted disappointed and giving up on you. Shes waiting for you to be who she wants you to be and you know you never will. Its ok. Just always try to be the best version of yourself. You are good enough
I don’t wanna die anymore. But I want...
-a happy and peaceful family
-happiness
-peace
-a hug
-friends that don’t bully me
-privacy
@Minna Okubo *hugs back* tysm ッ
I don't want to live my life anymore...
But I'm scared to die
Vyloe Rears please don’t do anything
Vyloe Rears * THIS IS NOT A JOKE*:Get help
I’m 12 years old. I used to feel the same way. I got over it. It was like this a few months ago. Talk to someone. It will help. Do things that make you happy. It will help.
This is exactly what I feel.
I feel exactly the same way
"you know baby you can die anytime, but what's the rush"
That sentence is so beautiful
@@user-eu8vv6ko7y ikr
Cool. I'll kill myself next week. 👍
@@burntmother. tf
If you can even find comfort while you live
"The only thing guaranteed when we're born are death and change. As I was trying to drown the thought came to me. Why not wait for the next wave of change?" that always helps
Sometimes it really does feel like you're just jumping from one "I want to die" to the next.
Humans are the living definition of a paradox. So fragile yet so strong.
KOMODO GREY ain’t that the truth!
Greward of Rivivia
Diamonds are fragile..?
You guys are real edgy
Almighty Egglord Like a Diamond?
I cried almost all the way through this. This is a masterpiece and I'm so glad it exists now.
Tessa Violet 🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻
Same!
♥️
Same.. It's too good
Deserves more views
I love this because it shows how seemingly little things can build up to something huge
Her cutting the strawberries and hesitating is my favourite part.
’’When it comes to death, why rush? We all get there sooner or later’’
I will have this on my grave, when i do die.
Exactly
Why not rush it? If a person is in constant psychological pain, is it wrong for them to wish for a swift death?
@@zu-zu5940 yes it's bad because you could miss lots of special moments
@@zu-zu5940 One's luck can change in any given day and especially with the right people
@@DaHaMMeRz OR, it may not. Life doesn't always get better. The problem isn't the suicide, but the absence of the easy way out. Some people get to much of suffering and the irony is, you have to cause yourself even more pain to stop it. None of those who haven't gone through it, can truly understand it. That is why euthanasia is illegal in most countries. Most people are too self-centered and arrogant to realize that by forcing a person to live they only prolong his/her suffering.
Lets just be happy Ravi FINNALY got a girlfriend
True it's kinda surprising lol
LMAO WKRJRJSKJSHDHD
He's 19.. and hot, so I don't see why not XD
willowing El._ Lol this is amazing
I thought the exact same thing
I watched this with an electrical cord around my neck I just want to say thankyou for saving my life your projects are really inspiring and you're doing some real good
Huh
*Not suicidal, I just really need a place alone for me to breath, away from things that suffocate me*
i’m not crying, you’re crying
this was beautiful
Mitchell Davis I’m not crying, I’m hyperventilating
I don’t know what you look like, but I can easily tell that you are too.
Yup...I am crying...lmao
You're right i am cryinggg
My eyes are just sweaty today...
This conveys everything that a depressed person feels perfectly. Little things just make you feel awful.
kiki 1907 Wow. I’ve been depressed this week and I’ve been asking myself why. Now I see that it IS little things.
@@dianar6600 me to when kids are bieng asshole and I'm to scared to say something it slowly kills me. I just keep rewinding it in my head the whole day thinking of how horrible my life and the day was, I don't know how to make it go away. and my parents dont know . I make myself put a happy face on whith my family
I try to remember to rewatch this once a year. It's such a good one.
I’ve been really struggling lately. Thank you Anna
I send you courage ! ♡
Wow youtube knows about my depression recomending me this
Magda N CZcams knows all
But you k?
fr💀
Sameee
I get you
SAME OML
Btw, the teacher is teaching portuguese. I could only thought to myself "why is that?", but for those of you that don't speak portuguese she kept saying "And now we are going to learn how to say 'how are you?' How are you is a great way to great other people. How are you?'.
Every detail in this film is important.
Blonda I thought it was Spanish
Jonina Cuevas there are many similarities between Portuguese and Spanish. Cómo estás, in both languages, means “How are you?” But they are not the same.
Lowkey out of all the short flim's I've watched I just really love this one. It lets off a completely different feel then most and I just love the colors and everything
The part with the little girl in the coffin at the end made me cry because I’ve thought of things younger than that and what would my family do? Ahgg Jesus
Same
Its weird seing Karan as the cool kid. I'm used to see him as a nerd.
He is such a great actor
Wow!!! Seriously guys thanks for thanks for the likes!!! Never gotten so many!!!
Lol his voice cracked
Sofia G debatable
Me too...
Yeah me too
Right
Everyone says "itll get better", but I've heard those same words for 6 years now😖
It only gets better when you decide to walk a different path. ❤ Create a Life how you want it ❤
@@MarcellaJ07 thats easier said then done. Happieness in this sick world is a lie.
@@LoveIXTC I'm sorry life is that way for you. That makes me sad, and I don't even know you. I hope you can find a reason to smile... There will always be pain, it's how you push though it & find the beauty that creates unbreakable strength. I sincerely hope you find it!
Kay t I’ve heard it for 4 years I’m 11 at this moment
I know I need help
But I can’t reach it
Tony Morales Someone is always ready to listen. Whether it is someone you know, or a hotline, know that somebody will always be in your corner.
I can relate to this so much. It breaks my heart to see people that I admire having passed through such similar hard and desperate moments. My respect for you Anna went way, way up.
I can't remember what it's like to be happy, but I'm working on it. I've had multiple traumas since I was 5 and I despised my existence since then. I tried to kill myself 4 times before I was 10, 12 times before I was 18. I'm 22 now, and the thing that made me stop trying to die was the permanence of it. If I changed my mind, there was no going back. For some reason, people seemed to think that if they guilted me enough, I wouldn't be suicidal, but that only added fuel to the fire. So, to anyone out there who reads this: some of us do make it out of the spiraling hellhole of suicidal thoughts and behaviors, while others are on their journeys. It is OK to be wherever you are in your journey, and it's OK to wonder if life's even worth it. What isn't OK is to believe with all your heart that you aren't worth anything. You are a human being, no matter how broken or battered, and you deserve to believe that you are precious and worthy of respect-- even respect from yourself. It might take months, years, or decades to come to terms with that reality, but, even if you're unwilling to accept it, it will still be fact.
If you're going through anything, I love you and here are some hugs!
I really hope things get better for you I'm so so sorry you had to go through that..
It's sad people relate. It's sad I'm one of them.
No don't be nuuuu
You guys are so depressing, always saying how your life is bad and things blablabla, go ahead, life gets better, stop murmuring and being such a dramatic person, go and battle against the world and even yourself, in a good way of course.
@@warrior7038 I very much agree with you. I now realize that my comment is very much dramatic. I will now stop commenting about how I relate to things on a personal level. Thank you kind stranger for opening my eyes.
A Pet Named Steve their response was crap. You’re allowed to have feelings and to express them.
@@kurimus8299 That's okay to have feelings and express your emotions, but being depressed and dramatic won't help you to make your life better, I'm not criticizing anyone, just saying that to not confuse others and clarify my point here.
Just how difficult must it have been for you to film those scenes about your sister, especially that scene in the wardrobe..
Thank you, Anna. You're changing the world
@@snowcolors6597 you must not understand his/ her comment
@@snowcolors6597 her sister killed herself irl
nataly gonzalez oh god, I didn’t knew that
She had a sister? that's so sad and depressing. It would be really hard.Man...
When I read this comment I just say that part.
😰😘💛
“Suicide doesn't end the pain, it just passes it to someone else”
This is really a masterpiece. I laughed, I cried, I felt hope, I felt empathy, I felt my own experiences represented... This is a true work of the heart and soul. Incredible. Yes, there were some rough parts and whatnot. But I loved the filmmaking techniques and the message was so powerful. What an amazing short, special, beautiful film.
“But you’re my person” I felt that entire scene 🤧
that reminded me of cristina yang to meredith
WHY IS NO ONE TALKING ABOUT HOW THATS RAVI FROM JESSIE
I am! I was looking for a confirming comment lol
LMAOAO FR
i couldn’t even tell til the last breakup scene
"I don't want to die, I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all"
~ Freddie Mercury (Bohemian Rhapsody)
seeing someone open up about their experience and struggles makes me feel all the less alone-and seeing someone who is now thriving and working on herself to be better despite her difficulties makes me all the more hopeful for my future and career. You’re videos have really helped-even for ppl who may not struggle particularly with depression but other or similar issues. You’ve given me a new positive outlook and hope and I thank you for that
It’s sad to see how many people relate to the title 😭
*hugs*
Indeed
It's nice to see that there's something on CZcams for all these people to relate to. When you find solidarity, you become even just a little bit better at fighting the hard fight. We are not alone.
@The Gaming Giraffe 😂 true
I find it hard to believe there are people who *don't* relate to the title.
I have a sticky note on my dashboard that says, "It’s okay…It’s just another day…Just keep fighting…You’ll be free one day…"
Thank you for this, Anna.
(If you are) if youre depressed, PLEASE SEEK HELP!!!! Dial numbers for help like googling it or talk to a family member, ANYONE! I hope youre okay and we are all here for u, we love u
I've got a sticky note too! It says it's going to be alright, believe in yourself, breath and have faith.
@@mamienovacuisine I dont anymore im so done with those im so done with the smile i dont get to have
when will that day come? does that day really exist?
@@KeyAiko- I hope you are still doing well and if you are not i hope you like this....🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗
I've been suicidal for nearly my whole life, and I only have one rule about it. I only do it when I feel like it. Even if I've been planning, if I'm not feeling it, if I don't want to anymore, if I have any doubts in my mind, I save it for another day. Because, as was said, what's the rush? This mentality has saved my life. I'm still waiting for good days again, but it's good enough right now that I don't think about suicide as a viable option, and I'm grateful for that. Keep on living, don't rush death, because it will come one day, one way or another. You always have the option to try again if you stay. You can't come back to life if you're not 100% in.
7 months later, and good days have come again. The wait is worth it.
This was so beautiful. I cried my eyes out. I've struggled with mental illness since I was a teenager and we're the same age. Th last four years I have worked so hard om myself and my mental health. I found your channel a few weeks ago and I love your content. I appreciate how open and vulnerable you are in your channel and is beautiful. Thank you.
You've helped someone today.
She's just trying to sell you BetterHelp bullshit. Who paid for the production of this? Why are there no credits? You are being hustled. Just wait. My comment will be deleted or I will be blocked for trying to tell the truth.
Stop the Philosophical Zombies wdym bro. Credits are at the end the vid is just about Suicide Prevention or Awareness
You know it's back when you start watching these again, and listening to sad music
I don't want it to come back
It comes back. It always comes back.
I thought I was the only one... kind of cruel, but somehow I am glad I'm not alone
Im falling back into that hole i tried to climb out of
Scarlett Knight : lets find our way out together.
Thank you Anna for making this. I rewatch this everytime I’m feeling down. 🙏🏼
This was a great representation of life and depression and how it can feel like your drowning in the ocean I love the animation edits everything I once felt this way a lot so having someone reach out to showing what I’m actually going through and NOT just me was really touching thank you 🙏
Its amazing how Anna can have the strength to act out the fight she had with her sister before her suicide, I love you Anna and I think you are a wonderful voice for change
CccYou I can only imagine how hard it was for her to make that scene. I had chills
Think about that
The last words your sister heard from you are
*I h a t e y o u*
@@lightdarkequivalent7143 😭
I just want a hug or someone to tell me “it’ll be ok”
Gummy_bears1262
I wish I could hug you and make everything better! 💜 You are strong and amazing, and things will get better. I don't know what you're going through, but change is one guarantee in life, you can get through this. For what it's worth, I'm here if you ever want to talk or rant or anything. I'm rooting for you!
Gummy_bears1262
I can't see that emoji, but I hope you're okay.
Jasmine you’re so nice
Gummy_bears1262
Aw, thanks. I'm just trying to help if I can.
Don’t we all
There is a different between not wanting to live and not wanting to live like this anymore
Anna you will probably never see this but , thank you, thank you for giving all of us a reason to keep going
i kind of like how she used the death of her pet as the beginning of the downward spiral...thats something that truly, deeply affects people and can hurt as much as losing a loved one, but it is usually not taken serious enough. people are expected to just move on and get over it, kind of like mental health problems. it seems like a metaphor
i think that was a metaphor of when her sister died, especially beacuse she was arguing withe her the scene before
@@desteny1393 they both happened really close together, within months of each other. I read her book, "so much I want to tell you" and she talks about how both of them happening so close together played a large part in her downward spiral.
feelingReckless13 oh i didn’t know that! Thanks for telling me now I really want to read her book❤️
@@desteny1393 you're welcome! it's an amazing book, I definitely cried a lot, but I laughed a lot too. She's an amazing writer, obviously, lol.
feelingReckless13 i didn’t know she had a book!! thank you! :)
The fact so many people have the same thoughts just shows how screwed this world is.
go to the jimin park its a really pretty park
The fact that your name is so long makes u tonight’s biggest loser
Because he doesn't have a editing software to make memes
armyyyy
This is a pretty screwed up,dark world
ARMY bts
i remember watching this a few years ago in such a dark place, i never thought id still be here but somehow i am
#lifesuckssuicide #mylifeisshit #Godkillmenow 😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢
Just binged like 10 of your videos in a row - never done that before. Every one is amazing, distinctly its own, and oozes production value!
At the beginning was anyone else screaming, RAVI!!!
yep
I died when i heared that voice crack hahahahha
Same
Ya
Um...who's Ravi?
I'm glad you are still here, Anna. Thank you for changing so many lives with your words and ideas.
Exactly. thank god.
Ok
Wow a really epic piece of art! So thankful that creators show us such vulnerable sides of them. So much courage! thanks for giving hope!
Thanks, Anna. There are few artists who can convey such a hard-to-understand and complex state so clearly and beautifully and, somehow, manage to uplift the distraught simultaneously.
Honestly, it feels really strange to me when I'm not thinking of suicide. Without this thought, I feel somehow empty.
Is that...good? Does that mean you felt fulfilled thinking of suicide? I-I'm really confused.
@@vay5540 No, it doesn't satisfy me at all. But without these suicidal thoughts, I have the feeling not to be me. It feels wrong and alien to not have to think about suicide. It feels like my thoughts have been exchanged with someone else's. Could be a dependency of this feeling, I don't know.
Sometimes mental illness can take up so much space in our minds and souls that we feel it is a part of us and it can feel weirdly empty once its not there anymore. You are not alone in feeling that way. I suggest trying different things and hobbies to try to figure out who you are and redefine yourself so that feeling of emptiness can be less present.
It’s because you feel comfortable with the options. There are multiple options in life we have to choose and it’s for some reason comforting to know that we can make it all stop at anytime but we still choose to fight it out of curiosity of the world. Without those options we would feel empty.
it does not have to be like that and it can not be like that!God bless you and your life🙏❤.
“You know you can die at anytime... but what’s the rush?” That hit hard. Sometimes you just need here something so simple, yet so honest for things to click and make sense. I can’t say that it would keep me from feeling/thinking the way I do sometimes, but it’s something I think I’ll be reminded of when I am in those moments. Thank you Anna, I love when you talk about this cause it’s real, you completely understand the feelings. They make me feel but they also encourage me to push through.
😥 I need to get this quote tattooed
this. this was so beautiful. I was downright sobbing for a couple minutes there. You are so talented.
This is so beautiful. The work you present has so much meaning to me and I am grateful that you choose to share this with us for free. You are amazing.
Anna, I'm glad you're sticking it out.
I know I'm just kinda a faceless guy on the internet, but I'm still rooting for you. You won't be alone.
And whoever reads this, I'm rooting for you, too. No matter how hard it feels, you have someone on your side.
Live.
... I made it through this whole video without crying and well then i read your comment-
Nicholas Feeley OMG YOUR SLENDERMAN!?! Sorry I just had to 😂😂
You are an amazing person. Thank God for people like you.
Thank you
The Faceless Ones are NEVER ALONE.
“When it comes to death, why rush. We all get there sooner or later. The only thing guarantee when we’re born are death and change. Why not wait for the next wave of change? What if I stayed? What beautiful things could be waiting for me? I can die anytime. What’s the rush”
I just want the pain to be over.
Why live if you die?
@@emmacarignan but what if nobody could ever love you because everyone who ever did left
GeT CrEaTiVe because it's the little things in life that make life worth living, even if we all die in the end.
Maybe the pain is worth it, if it means waiting for something fantastic and worth living for in the future. That’s what keeps me going.
@@jnm3523 what if you miss the greatest love you ever had because you left before you could find it?
This helped me so much when I saw it a few years ago. I'm getting my mom to write this (I'm 35+, she's 70+) and I'm getting a tattoo on my left arm:
What if you stayed?
Waited for the next wave?
You know, baby
You can die anytime
What's the rush?
Your grandmother is support in a way many of us don't realize is real. Thank you for bringing her to us.
omgggt i cant believe i found this after 2 years. I just wanna say that this has totally changed my perspective on wanting to die. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR DOING THIS. ur so brave and strong for moving forward and pushing through when all u wanted to do was give up. I hope my wave of change ( for the better i hope lol) comes sooner. P.S. I love ur videos and they help me understand so many things better. ur doing great. And you're inspiring so many thru what you do. Love you❤️
You don't die for the bad days, you live for the good ones.
I remember quietly sneaking past my mom's room to the hallway, quietly tip-toeing down the basement stairs to get the smallest screwdriver I could find. Then quietly marching my way back up the stairs towards my room and locking the door. To unscrew my only pencil sharpener and removing the blade, slitting my wrists and waist and arms and thighs and repeating those steps over and over until I was satisfied that I had punished myself enough. Punished myself for being me. For being who I am. For being alive. I've wanted to die. I still want to die. But now instead of carefully taking apart that pencil sharpener, I think. I think long and hard. I think about the waves and the sound they make when they hit the sand beneath my toes. I think about the colors that strawberries are on the hot july days when all you can wear are tank tops and shorts. I think about the people who love me. I think about the concerts I havent been to. People I've never met. Places Ive never visited. And I put myself into the position of someone else, for however long it takes. Maybe my mom. Maybe my dad. Boyfriend. Uncle. Best friend. Teacher. What would it be like if I didnt live another day? What would happen if I didnt get to see that movie on Sunday? They didnt get to give me my christmas present they spent so much time and money on? Those are the things that matter. You matter. You'll be ok. I'm ok. I wasnt, but I am now. We all die, why rush it? Theres so much to experience in life. I love you. Dont forget that.
Goddamn that was beautiful
Pls right a book
damn, that was amazing.
thank you. that brought tears to my eyes. thank you so much.
💙
This made me cry, it’s beautiful and I love it. Thank you.
I'm crying watching this, thank you for making such an inspiration
This changed my mind about committing suicide. Thank you. You’ve changed my way on seeing life.
Love you so much. I am so happy
I am so proud of you. Stay strong
same
is that jungkook on your profile picture? :)
i'm so proud of u, stay strong !
So proud of you ! Stay strong. You never know when life's going to get better, but it does eventually :)
I personally wanted to kill myself when I was 11, and those thoughts kept coming back through the years sometimes. But life DID get better, in a way I would've never imagined. I'm so freaking happy now, for the first time in my life, and it's beautiful. It will do the same with you.
5:17 Can really relate. When you have depression, every holiday season you tend to feel so painfully alone and that everyone around you is (seemingly) reveling in happiness. You couldn't really care less about Christmas or birthdays, because they just don't feel the same anymore like they did when you were a kid and when things were easier.
Lisa Holly I can relate so much,When I go to events and my friends are in those skinny tight dresses showing their nice long legs and hourglass figure,While your just there With your broad shoulders,Fat arms ,legs,pregnat belly even though your NOT PREGNAT,sigh I relate lisa hollu
Oof that hit hard
this hit home for me. perfectly describes what I've been experiencing
I understand. It happens so often sometimes it's what feels normal.
Anna you don't know how much you've helped me with your videos. I don't know of another person in my life who gets me as well as you do, and your videos have helped me understand myself and navigate my life better. I'm very grateful to you.
Right when I needed it. Thank you! It's beautiful.
My dad killed himself almost 4 years ago, I never understood... But now I do, I think that I also have mental issues😔
I’m so sorry for everything you’re going through but be strong for you’re mother and siblings
Mia Hoi your not alone 🇷🇺
the pain you feel right now, is the pain others will deal with if you die...you're not alone
Do you wanna talk?
Thnx guys❤️❤️❤️
I thought about suicide countless times but never did it cuz I knew I had people who loved me.
Please never give in to the thought of suicide.
I did too, that’s the reason I didn’t kill myself when I was 9. Suicide isn’t the good way out, it’s just the easiest
I never did it because I knew it would be painful physically.
Rasmatallia Solomon if youre depressed, PLEASE SEEK HELP!!!! Dial numbers for help like googling it or talk to a family member, ANYONE! I hope youre okay and we are all here for u, we love u
i felt that
I only just realised that the scene with the months passing must've meant she wanted to die throughout those months
i used to watch your videos all the time when my brother passed from taking his own life… i’ve come a long way in my own journey with growing to love myself and keep going on since then but you helped immeasurably and i just want you to know that. you have no idea how much you helped me not feel so alone when i didn’t know how to even begin to process my emotions and i’m forever grateful anna akana
DID THEY JUST HAND A DEAD ANIMAL CORPSE TO HER.
Best gift of the century
yeah its the owners responsibility to get the animal buried or cremated
yeah thats what happens in vets lol, my dad had to bury our cat himself when he died
Merry Christmas
Almighty Egglord NaNi tF?
My mother hates me and yells at me for every little thing I do and says that she’ll give me away. My older sister hates me and doesn’t talk to me. My best friend left me because someone talk me up to her.
I only trust my dog at this point - he has never hurt me
You are not alone💕
crybaby _24 thanks to my dog
Well dogs are incredible friends.. they are better than humans but we all love you... and even your mother will realise that she loves you but some things takes time. We all love you💕
Grilled Cheese 💙
i don’t think she hates u she probably have been going thro bad things when she was little and she’s probably being hard on u my mom has been thro some things in her childhood that made her be who she is
Thank you for making this. Things have been rough lately and I'm all alone dealing with a huge change. While watching, I felt like my future was flashing in front of my eyes and I can't tell you how glad I am she doesn't kill herself. Thank you for this.
Thank you for taking the time to make this. A lot of these moments hit home.