How to HEAL after a BREAKUP! Stephanie Lyn Coaching
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When the relationship is toxic just let it go because we will never be happy for one sided love
Iâve found that physically speaking out every single emotion, feeling, and thought has been extremely helpful in my healing process (even just talking to yourself). Being able to fully wrap your mind around your feelings and emotions will work wonders when it comes to the acceptance process. I agree with the video, fully merging yourself into that pain and sorrow will help you to heal the quickest. Feel inch of every emotion, cry it out, let yourself have that. I know it hurts like hell but I PROMISE you WILL be okay. You WILL heal and you WILL find an even greater love. Donât doubt gods plan. Focus on yourself queen go shower get ur nails done, switch up your hair style. Stretching, meditation, and exercise is super stimulating to the mind. You are what you eat, the healthier you eat the more energized and motivated you will feel! Rely on your loved ones! Reach out to old friends, make new friends. Loving and caring for yourself is a process but you CAN and WILL do it! This is the event god planned to push you into new opportunities and blessings! This is the moment you realize your worth and potential! You are an incredibly beautiful soul that is so limitlessly giving to others, and now god is forcing you to give it to yourself!! Sending all my love and prayers to everyone hurting right now.đđŒđ€
Thanks for the advice.. Am currently going through a very hard time.. Since I broke up with by boyfriend whom we have been dating for more than a year now.. and it ain't easy moving on.. But through your advice i think I will get better soon đ
Thank you so much for this! Iâm just getting out of a toxic relationship with a narcissist. I recently filed for a divorce and itâs so painful.Every day Iâve been walking for 3 miles straight,eating right and keeping positive people around & itâs been helping a lot. So,Thank You again & I wish you the best of luck in your healing.
Thank you†I'm going through it
Thank you so much for this advice. God bless you.
Thank you for thisâ€â€â€â€
I think reading these comments broke my heart again it hurts to know others have the same pain Iâm in. Iâm sorry to anyone who goes through heartbreak. I really hope all of you are doing better.
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I feel the same. I cannot believe so many people are dealing with this it helps to know this is general in life.
Has it gotten any easier? Do you have any advice? Itâs been 9 months and Iâm still having a very hard time. Best wishes to you
Excellent, time does not heal. âYou will repeat what you donât repair!â
Powerful
Kind of a scary thought
1. Grieve.
2. Allow yourself to feel. Observe and don't suppress.
3. Learning how to love yourself. Validate your feelings.
4. Don't jump into relationship. Concentrate on yourselves and be good.
5. Forgive for yourself. Don't take others behaviour personally.
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Im a man...im not ashamed to say im heartbroken and i cry everyday
Men have hearts too. Hearts break â€. Take care of yourself
4 months in crying everyday still X
It will get better with time, just don't get stuck. You deserve to thrive in this life.
I couldnât help but cry while watching this. My wife of 13 years and two children together left and ran off with another woman sheâs been seeing for six months. I found out three months ago. Itâs hard putting into words the pain you feel when the love of your life breaks your heart and moves on so easily. Iâm trying to sit with and feel everything Iâm feeling but at times it seems so overwhelming. Iâm thankful I have my children. They have been my anchors.
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@@karenkopittke1555 Why do you have to cast spells on people?? If they can't love you and treat you right, why the hell do you want them?? Let them Go! You're worth more than that. If I have to do voodoo and see a witch doctor to get somebody to love me then I don't want it. Ain't beggin' nobody to love me.
I believe what she means by âsitting in your feelingsâ is to just acknowledge your pain, and allow yourself to feel that pain. To cry and to feel anxious and to not put yourself down or push it away. Because it will never go away if you do not acknowledge it.
Ayup. I agree.
Totally agree.
Know ur circle, too. Donât hold it inside. But, youâll also be able 2 tell who is there for you, REALLY there for u, to help u thru it/NOT rush u over it. Thereâs no getting over it. If u donât allow urself to FEEL thru it. U know?
Thank you.
My gf just broke up w me for good and I have been feeling extremely terrible because I really love her. Still struggling everyday but hearing something like this helps a little bit. Wishing everyone going through the same thing nothing but the best. Take care. We got this :)
Donât ever let a woman get that far into your heart again!!! They quit marriage 7 times out of 10 and 9 times out of 10 if college educated. Is it worth the pain? Again? Have some fun and date.. get it out of your system and then run for your life. Because you are. I didnât say play with their heart and hurt them. Itâs not retaliation. Itâs self preservation. Youâre not going to find a good woman because theyâre already taken. youâre only hope is to fully commit yourself to Christ and hope he blesses you with one if youâre good enough. I pray for my wife every night since I was 13 and stayed a virgin until I was 27 when I met my wife believing that she was my soulmate. Now, after 18 years of marriage and an upcoming divorce, the fact that I will live alone until I die without love and companionship is something Iâm hating but trying to accept.
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Iâm actually waaayy better!
Feeling really good rn.. to everyone who is feeling hopeless, lost, etc.. just focus on bettering yourself and good things will come.
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Just ended things with my GF of over 5 years. This empty feeling is crazy
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My fiance and I broke up in November. I absolutely understand what she means now by sitting in the feelings. The quiet moments hurt the worst
Such an empty feeling. And, yes. So crazy.
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The roller coaster of emotions is so real- but Iâm buckled up and not getting off until I see through the healing.
The ups are so beautiful and hopeful and thatâs what I hang onto everyday with God but my side. â€ïž
The downs bring me back to my purpose through this healing- to be a better me and move forward and find love, one day.
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Thank you for this comment! There are good days where I feel like "yes! I'm finally over this breakup!!" Then the next day I feel sad all over again. Uggh. But like you, I am walking through it with God and I know there is so much beauty on the other side of this.
When you are doing the daily things you do, time does pass and healing from heartbreak does gradually seep in. Before you know it the hurt no longer plagues you. What a relief.
Canât wait until Iâm at this stage đ©đ©
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I just cried my eyes out from the beginning of this video till the end . I am too broken. I ended a 8years relationship
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Iâm going through a break up. Itâs only been a few days but the past few days were so painful. The sadness, loneliness and negative feelings are driving me insane. I want to go over this and forgive him -I can do it. And we all can go through hard times in life.
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Time does not heal when you are stuck in feelings such as anger, sadness, resentment and bitterness. Daily practices that help you move through these feelings, are needed to move forward in life and heal. Feeling is healing. Meeting your feelings and allowing them to pass with healthy practices of parenting yourself is the way through them. Donât jump into another relationship until you have learnât how to be single in a healthy way. This is vital to attract healthy love đ so you donât meet somebody who just wants you to conform. Instead they add to your life. Accept (radically) and forgive for yourself, because you want to move on. Forgive yourself too! (guilt and shame)
Saving this to watch over and over to help with my healing process
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Take time to heal from a breakup! Rushing into a relationship will only lead to more pain and heartache because you may not be ready yet. Healing is a process! Processing those emotions, doing your shadow work and falling in love with yourself again, will take you one step closer to attracting a healthy relationship that you deserve.
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Time itself does not heal. I agree. When I went through a breakup, it wasn't easy. Especially, when you put a lot of hope, love and effort into it. I put the focus on bettering myself and doing things that I enjoy.
Usually, (at least according to my experience) an ex will try to reach out to me through social media or call. I just block them from all of my social media and I changed my phone number. I leave my past in the past to allow someone else to be apart of my(our) future.
Very articulate in your presentation.
Robert Lee James Welch Thank you Robert for your comment! It is what you do in that time that allows you to either heal quickly or not at all.
Focusing on yourself and loving yourself through that process is the only way to truly heal and come out the other side as a better and wiser person.
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Great advice Robert
I wish i could just walk away & shut down, forget & move on like some men & women!
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I did absolutely nothing to him
He just started becoming cold n emotionally unavailable towards me after 7 yrs of long distance relationship
He was my everything n my life literally evolved around him.. didnât believe one day Iâll have to move on
The hardest part is waking up in the morning thinkingall is well then reality hits
I can relateI absolutely did nothing to herall I ever do is spoil the ravisher with gifts and give her tons of money and all I wanted in return was love back and she lied to me the whole time she never loved meand I'm so extremely devastated right nowI have no one she was my best friendshe was my everythingthe eyes behind my backI gave her my heart and she's fucking ate for breakfast lunch and dinnerit's only been 2 days for meI seriously feel like dying.she was my childhood girlfriend She is 44 and Im 46 now.she told me she just don't love me no morebut I had to move out now I'm in my SUVwith no destination wanting to dieWhat a Wonderful World ain't it
My ex broke up with me a month ago and Iâm still crying, Iâm angry, just a lot of things and i need to heal..
"The person you meet needs to enhance your life even more because you're perfectly fine by yourself." Thank you, Stephanie, for putting into words what I have been feeling! Yes, I want an amazing partner, but he has to NOT take anything away from me and what I've worked so hard to realize and accept and love about myself. He either enhances it and brings something positive to the table or he's out. I'm NOT afraid to dine alone!
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I just stumbled on this video just the time I needed it. I just had a breakup, 8years relationship. I am so broken and in tears. Itâs already a month and it looks like hell, still yet to concerntrate, God help me
Heal by Loving yourself. Do things you love daily. Allow yourself to feel, sit in the feelings. Parent yourself through it, affirm yourself. Look at the bigger picture. Have standards. acceptance and forgiveness. Be ready to not relive the experience.
Watching this video actually help me cus I just recently just broke up w/ my bf we was together for 6 long stressful months and honestly he destroyed me đŻ Iâm just so hurt broken
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Heartbroken after 8 year relationship. The thought of dating or being with someone else is a gut wrenching thought. I think i am going to remain single until i die. i can't do this anymore
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Im sitting in my feelings now...instead of brushing them under the carpet....helps a lotđđđthank u
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I just lost my father, And am ending a 17 year marriageâŠ. I am broken into a million little pieces.. đđđđđđ
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100% agree! I love what you are saying! Let yourself feeeel!!!
Love this so much. Thank you! So so true about needing to sit with how you feel and not push the feeling aside. Also sooooo true about not jumping into something new too soon! After my last 2.5 year relationship ended, I took a full year by myself before something new. Now that my 6 year relationship just ended, I plan to do the same. Thatâs what the heart needs. đ
That was really good. Thank you very much. Points that resonated were, âI deserve someone who will love me and respect me.â And that if they couldnât offer that it had nothing to do with you but them with themselves. Acceptance and forgiveness. And doing what you can to heal by facing and processing your emotions so you donât repress them, and stay bitter or resentful or any other emotion you can release yourself from to be free, and healthy. Namaste. âđœđđœđđđŒđđ
This is an excellent video that takes all the mainstream advice but breaks it down to practice ways to incorporate into one's daily life towards healing. 10/10
Thank you so much! You raised all the points so well
Thank you Stephanie for finding your incredible courage to dig deep down to change your life as your insights are really helping me . xx
I am immersing myself in your channel. I am transitioning to a life of coaching and speaking, and at the point of needing to let a (2nd similar) long term relationship go
Facts so many feels and emotions lots of ups and downs definitely needs lots of patience
I am so so grateful for your videos. Thank you for pulling me through. Grtz from Belgium! X
So glad I found this video, gonna watch it like 10 more times
Thank you Stephanie. just subscribed yesterday. I am living in France partly to be away from triggers from my 18 month relationship with my BPD/Narcissist and probably Histrionic Fiance. She was very high functioning and only I got the abuse of seeing the real her as I got closer and closer. I lasted that long because ten years ago I was married to a Borderline and it almost killed me and afterwards I spent a fair amount of time each day learning about what happened. So I thought I could see when she was talking about herself instead of me. So I took a lot of bullets according to my therapist and Guru.
I have recently spent two super helpful weeks at inpatient retreats for childhood trauma and Love addiction because of my pain and wanting to know how this could happen again. So I work on self love and codependency issues.
Your channel is bringing everything full circle. And somehow you do it in a way that doesn't trigger me, as I have ptsd from her. It was crazy and she had a lot of disregulated rages that were seemingly unprovoked.
My question is, do I have to wait a year to date again? This is the advice I have been given. I took a wrong road, a really nice looking detour and got temporarily destroyed for it. I have met someone while not trying and am going slow and being aware. She might be the same level of excitement in someone healthy. How long do you have to wait to date again? To be in a relationship?
Thank you again for what you do.
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The last 15 seconds of this video was hard hitting, valuable insight. Going to keep that in mind and use it to get through this constant pain.
The last 15 got me!
So hard to get out of bed knowing that things will get worse for months before they get better. Itâs so hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
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This is a very good channel, thank u for taking the time to use your talents to help us... 2nd video I watched and I already love u for that.. ur a very good speaker!!! Sending good vibes and blessings to you today and always
Thank you so muchđđŒ These videos are extremely comforting and helpful in not feeling so alone in the midst of heartbreak.
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My 6 year relationship ended today and lm so heartbroken.. Hurt đ and l want to envision the time when it stops hurting
it's been a year now does it still hurt?it's only been todayI just want to die
My girlfriend decided to break up with me. LDR sucks. I hope she is happy and I hope she finds someone better for her. I love you Melda â€ïž
I so needed to hear this today...â€ïž
Stephanie thank you from the bottom of my heart. I'm going to school to become an independent therapist and this is something that I've always struggled with personally as well as being able to help others who go through this. My now Ex I found out cheated on me 4 different times throughout 3 years and this video was incredibly helpful so thank you.
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Wow thank you this is really helping me
I am learning now to embrace my emotions but my feelings are still raw and still give myself time. Thank you miss Stephanie Sincerely yours Mrs Amber McCutchen
Wow, This is Powerful, perfect answers thank you
My chest has been crawling for 3 days, and I canât stop crying my eyes out. Heâs out being happy and moving on and Iâm stuck wanting to hide from the world. We were together 7 years, heâs the love of my life đ
How are you now?
I love you. Thank uou so much. I am going through this right new. I listen to you almost every day. God is great. For giving us people llike yourself.â€. Please keep up the good work.
Need this RN!!! THANKđ€ YOU.
You are brilliant...a lifesaver!!! U explain things so well...ur my lifecoach now for real!! In england...not much counselling out there...long waiting lists...ur advice is great...we all need to love ourselves..the narcs have the problem!!đđđheal move on and start ur life over...and do things for urself
Iâm feeling so heartbroken right now that I donât know what to do with myselfâčïžitâs comforting to know that so many others go through this as well
Thank you for this wisdom! Choosing to parent myself and feel the feelings that come up when they come up are my biggest takeaways. âš mid-breakup, working on learning to truly love myself instead of going from relationship to relationship seeking something only I can give myself and leaving a wake of hurt in the process. This video helps. Thank you. â€
I just cut ties for good with someone I really loved because of my own mistakes and I'm so glad I found this video ... I hope someday I'll be happy
I am currently grieving a failed relationship. Thank you!
Thank you so much for this! This video has really helped me want to hit the gym and get a good night rest again. I just got out of a toxic relationship of 2 years and then my dad died. Iâm not doing okay lmao, but this video has helped rejuvenate some hope in my heart that I can learn who I am again and love myself because I deserve to be treated well. I loved all your points so much!
Thank you so much for talking me through this. I am struggling with this right now.
I am going through a breakup. Its been 3 weeks and its driving my thoughts insane. The what ifs come about. I want to forget him. I thought he was the love of my life. He was always leaving me and coming back. He started talking to another girl so i broke things off and he didn't care! Eats me inside. I've been trying to do everything possible to move on. Why am i not getting over it?
Ladies, I've been where you have and that's how I found this video. I must say this is what helped me, you have to dig deep and ask yourself why do you need someone else FOR YOU to be happy? You gave this person too much power over you. The hard truth is that YOUR HAPPINESS is depending on you! Okay, let me get back on topic. The real reason you feel the need to have this person is because there's a lack in your life. Find out what the lack is and realize that it is not that person's job to fulfill it for you. Be gently with yourself but be honest. We should not give someone the key to our happiness... it is not their job especially if they have no intentions on being with you or attempting on KEEPING you happy.
I've just gone through a brake up 3 days ago, would you like to have a conversation about it, I feel like we both can help each other
niga higa how are you doing after your breakup
I hope you are doing better. I am currently heartbroken and sad and hope it soon gets better
My relationship ended 2 days ago but its happened before over lots of stress in both our lives so he chose to walk away again but I understood its better for it to happen now than in the future I still have the rest of my 20s n 30s anyway lol but it did hurt its just a matter of seeing its not us its really the one that hurt us that is in the most need and they have to meet their own needs now.
The only one can help you in this situation is yourself
I donât need her back
Great tips and insight. Really helpful! Thank you
Heartbreak is so hard.
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Thank you Stephanie... Your videos help a lot â€ïž
I needed that today. Thank you!
Finally built the confidence to actually hire you for an individual session. Change is a cominâ! See you soon! ~Kiki đ
Very comforting
Really beautiful video thank you đ
Thank you so much! This was so insightful and just what I needed to hear today đ
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Our feelings are not who we are
Allow them to pass
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More i want more of that stuff please that was great
I am still a work in progress, so much work.
Thank you, the right message at the right time
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This is good to hear.
Love your knowledge keep making your videos
Don't give up on life and the universe I know of a great man who helped you me fix my broken hear beat relationship and everything was restored to pormal in days without delay
You are amazing. Thank you so much for helping people.
Including me. âĄ
You are what you think!
Thanks a lot... I love these
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Ur video has been very helpful I'm working through it everyday đȘ
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This helps me thank you. I wanted ro go to counseling but right now I can't afford it. These videos get me through.
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this was really helpful thank you so much. i will watch this anytime i start feelings real bad.
Thank you for the advice
can you explain more how to "sit" in what you feel? Meditate? Be present to the feelings? How do you do it really?
Thank you!
In my opinion Isabel it means acknowledging the feeling, exploring that feeling and what caused it, then accepting it as a part of the growing/learning process, learn from it and then moving on. Many people seem to want to deny their feelings and push them down or away rather than "sit" with them and use them to learn and grow because the feelings are not comfortable and can be difficult to face and deal with.
Even though I wanted the relationship to end, its his abandonment of the kids (older) and of our 30year friendship that is contributing greatly to my heartbreak.
I solidly agree
.time does not heal. Lived experience folks.
Needed this thank youâ€
Can you do a video on how past hurts can sabotage a healthy relationship?
Hi..i have been experiencing this pain..been like this for 5 months..still hurt..and i still love her :(
Thanks for this appreciate it
thank you for this
Stephanie, you are so beautiful wearing this white shirt, it's like you radiate light. I bet all clear strong colours suit you perfectly :-)
So much great advice!â€ïžđ
Woo good. MOving on!
Thank you for this
I've been so blessed by your videos. God bless you. Thank you dearly from my heart.
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@Masaudualiyu Fg Then why would I want to return to my abusive, narcissistic ex??
Just happened 2 hours ago. We're still gonna be friends but it still hurts. I can't help how they feel but at least we are still gonna be good
I had a relationship which ended 22 years ago. But I read my diaries, and suddenly I was back to the heartbreaks!
It was my fault, but it still hurts when reading.
It must be crazy. After 22 years. I am hurting so bad now because it is my fault. When you spoil something that gives you joy.