PTSD Survivor interview-Scott
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- čas přidán 22. 08. 2024
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Scott, a PTSD survivor in Los Angeles.
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This is just proof that generational trauma is so real and I’m proud of him for trying to break that cycle. Surviving such a horrific childhood and watching your cousin do that to his family and children is unimaginable. The fact that he’s doing so well is a miracle. I wish him continued healing 💛🙏🏽
There’s no cure for PTSD dummy
Inter Generational trauma has no science behind it whatsoever
@@Hartley_Hare yeah you dont call that generational trauma.
@@Hartley_Hare 😂
@@Hartley_Hare 🤣😂😅
Hands down, this Man is amazing. He is truly an inspiration who has found his purpose in life. Thank you Scott for sharing your story.
The more he heals, the more he'll have to give.😉👍❤️
Thanks Scott
thank you EVERYONE! Scott Bellar
I can relate to his story. Currently fighting depression. Please pray for me, I don't care what religion. Just lend me your strength.
Jeb, I'm praying for you. I know depression and trauma. Please remember that its always darkest before the dawn. And it's pretty dark right now and you are the Light. Much Love
I will pray for you Jeb. I wish you better days. ❤️
I wish you peace and strength
God bless Jeb
I have struggled with depression my whole life. If you can try to get outside and get some sunlight it really helps.
This I by far the best description of how my childhood went and how it affects me as an adult. The abuse details differentiate but the results are one in the same. Reclusive, fogged thoughts, short term relationships and jobs. Scott is much further in eloquently describing his experiences and his attempts to curb their affect in his life and I’m able to right now. I’ll be coming back to this interview like it’s a new album from a favorite artist I’m tuned Into or something. I damn near want to play this to everyone I’ve ever tried to explain myself and the affects of my experiences to and say this is it. Thanks Scott. Thanks bro. Thank you.
Bless you!
Same.
@@SharonBenson2674 Healing balm to the souls of many. Your two (2) words were heartfelt and powerful.
here as well
God bless and keep you. You deserve to be happy and healthy. Never, never stop striving until you reach that place, of healing.
Sweet Jesus...😢 So eloquently spoken about sonething so horrific. This man is a credit. To himself. Thank you so much for sharing your story. 🙏🙏
Sweet Jesus indeed. He is the one that saved me from my traumas.
@Mark-xh6qc don't thank me, ALL glory goes to God! The Holy Spirit was speaking through me! Your comment is very appreciated! God Bless you!
@jrbird7571
AMEN!
@@ScottBellar that's beautiful Scott! Keep close to Jesus and the Holy Spirit
Thank you for doing this. He hit every point in being a trauma survivor. I’ve been struggling a lot with my PTSD and it’s what I needed to hear, especially not being war related.
People always relate PTSD to combat vets. And it’s very prevalent in the military. But I was diagnosed with PTSD years after I lost a parent in a traumatic way when I was 8 years old. I never thought or knew what I was doing and experiencing was PTSD from that incident until a doctor told me. Still working through it everyday. The worst is the bursts of anger. I never physically lose it. Just get very angry, even when I’m alone around no one.
Yup I got PTSD anxiety and depression from watching my dad die in front of me, I knew right away something was wrong with me, I was afraid to go to sleep and had my boys come sleep in my room, they were little they thought it was a sleepover in moms room, the meds helped wonders and therapy also, but it never leaves you just learn to cope with it and feel your feeling and know that they will pass…💜
Yup I got PTSD anxiety and depression from watching my dad die in front of me, I knew right away something was wrong with me, I was afraid to go to sleep and had my boys come sleep in my room, they were little they thought it was a sleepover in moms room, the meds helped wonders and therapy also, but it never leaves you just learn to cope with it and feel your feeling and know that they will pass…💜
I was just diagnosed with PTSD about a month ago that I was in denial about for years. I'm not sure what to do about it. I just started seeing a psychiatrist a month ago and went full panic attack on the floor as a result of my conversation with him at the time I was diagnosed and now have canceled my second visit because I can't handle another episode like that and I didn't like the meds he gave me so I stopped taking them. I was hoping this video would help and I think it did. Idk. Good luck to you all. I wouldn't wish this hell on anyone and hope you all the best.
As a child abuse survivor, thank you for this. It means so much hearing what this man has to say.
V, I’m so sorry you’ve suffered so much.
@vjc25 Heart wrenching to hear that anybody gets abused, especially children. triggers me big time. I hope you have or are currently working on healing. It's a daily struggle for me, even with God. I know 2 things for certain, 1) without me knowing God, I'd be in prison or dead. 2) I know God can heal the worst of wounds that stem from very unspeakable horrific abuse. I will pray you experience this, if you already haven't. Thank you for your comment, it is very appreciated. God Bless You..
It’s amazing to recognize how many parallels and commonalities you have with someone just by listening to their story. You’ve never seen this person yet you know there’s a connection.
I love this. So true ❤️
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Part of me feels that not (thankfully!) having the abuse / torture he had to endure changes everything about how I can properly empathise.
The same energy the birthed you birthed him birthed me and will birth many more of us. We all come from the same thing, fuck a last name. Fuck separation. Fuck divisiveness. None of that stuff is the truth. Truth is, we all are born of the same cloth, built for the same purpose. Love. Without love life isn't there, meer existence isn't life. Life starts when we start with our own piece, our own love and we work our way outwards from there. Build on it and add to it and let it change and grow. I don't see ethnicities or family names etc . The higher power asked of it's servant, it said "what are you?" , To which the servant replied, "when I DONT know who I am, I serve you. When I KNOW who I am, I AM you." I only see myself looking at this man and anyone else no matter their story. If we were to each hold a mirror facing one another, we will see nothing but ourselves when looking at one another.
Wondering what is edited out..... from Mark an unbeliever
Scott -a modern hero who pits himself against his inner demons. Scott gives an in-depth look at PTSD, the causes, the symptoms, and the struggle with it. Luckily, Scott not only had the strength to run, but to seek help. Scott touches my heart for he is a wanderer on the path to healing and forgiveness. I wish Scott a loved one who will bivouack with him in his loneliness and fill his heart with love.
He’s so in tune with hisself i can see him completely healed sooner then later and I find it funny in a good way that he wants to be a pastor. His testimony is amazing he’s relatable and clear most of all he’s extremely optimistic
Scott is a good friend of many years, as was his cousin who killed his family and himself. I will say this about Scott. He has a kindness and caring nature that not one in ten people embodies. When we were young and finding our way in life, Scott always asked deep questions about what we, his friends, thought and felt about relationships. We would tease him because we were in nihilist mode and took the "don't give a fuck" pose. Well, Scott did care, still does care, about what other people think. His is a soul of warmth and even if he finds himself alone for a time or I haven't heard from him in ages, I know that one day I will answer the phone and find that warmth and care still intact. This interview really captures the genuine Scott bearing his soul. He is a seeker and student of life and we can all learn from him. Stay strong, brother! 252 forever.
I found your friend very inspirational. What an amazing testimony he has to really reach people who are going through a similar life. Does Scott do Facebook or Instagram? Just thought I'd reach out and have a deeper conversation with him.
Nc?
@cryogyro6330 I live in 910 near camp Lejeune it's right below that one
That is beautiful! Please tell him often how genuine and awesome he is.
What a lovely man❤❤❤❤
What a beautiful person he is! To be through soooo much and still sees the Love inside.
Thank you! Scott Bellar
His appearance didn't match his voice. I expected a total different story, but I am pleasantly surprised & inspired by this video. I needed to see & hear this as a reminder not to judge a book by it's cover.
What an inspiration ❤️❤️
Totally! I don't get the long beard in ties. If he shaved that all off he'd look so much better. It's funny what people find attractive. Different strokes.
I will pray for you!
@@OGMama75 Your not doing it right....
May this video be the beginning of realizing that you’re being lied to by the media and all the racial and physical stereotypes.
Most human beings aren’t evil or racist… many are stupid enough to fall for it, but most people aren’t initially evil, violent or racist.
Same, even trough Im not the one to judge people by haircut/style and such, for some reason I didnt expect such a beautiful, kind energy. Now I feel ashamed I formed any prejudice by looking at exterior cause I dont do that usually but I guess its human nature
I’m a silent watcher. But I’m in awe about this video. He is very well spoken and I can tell he means well and speaks with honesty. These videos bless me everyday with compassion for others and allow me to live my life judge free. Mark your videos are truly remarkable. This video enlightened me a little more- Thank you Mark and Scott ❤️
The Power of the Holy Spirit !
Lol a year later he's been stalking some woman.
People who have been through shit are the ones with the most wisdom. This guy is a shining testimony to that. I hope he achieves what he wants to, and I have every faith he will. Likeable character. Someone you could talk to for hours and be interested all the way through.
I would definitely go to church to hear this man speak words of truth.
I don’t attend church services but I would attend his meetings any day. Pure and honest. 😇
Yes I'm like whens his next sermon?!
Me too!
*If he'd relate his experiences and lessons learned without any references to magical thinking about mythical beings, I'd attend his meetings too.*
Hilight my reply yo!
This man has such a beautiful, calm, humble soul. This is probably one of my favorite interviews.
thank you! Scott Bellar
add me on facebook and instgram! You can find them in the about section of this CZcams channel! love your comment so much! thank you!
Mark thank you for having Scott on. I am a 59 year old disabled grandmother and I have severe PTSD and this man grew up very similar to myself. My father was sexually, physically, and emotionally abusive to me even into adulthood. I have been in therapy for many years but my struggle is so severe and I also have physical illnesses that keep me trapped in my apartment day after day. I live alone with no family support. I do have a home health aid who comes 3 days a week. Mark I wish I could talk to you and share my story as well. Scott seems like a good guy just wanting to help people like him and that’s a beautiful thing.
We could be neighbors
I’d love to hear your story. Please hang in there. ❤️
@@marialiyubman I'm not sure if your comment was directed at me or not but thank you just the same for the hope! In the even it was, it's as I said very similiar to Robins and details would be best saves for an email, or a book I've been told.
Scott's story resonates so much, being a recluse and self-isolating. I also had a major break from society between 31 and 32 (which is me now, I've only just began to try overcoming the trauma. My 20s were a mess, my childhood was chaotic and dramatic, im lucky to be alive. Thank you for sharing your story, it's been helpful to listen to and connect with. Wishing the best for you!
Hope you are continuing to heal and enjoy life. Peace and blessings.
About halfway through, what an incredible story, I'm really touched by this. He is going to help other people, plant a seed in their hearts, truly, what else is there!
I have found the only way, for me, too heal is "being of maximum service to others".
I live about 30 miles from Scott ( if he's back down South).
I Love to meet him and volunteer with/for him in his Ministry!
@@KimbradleyMasterGardener he definitely has a calling 💗🙏
thank you! Scott Bellar
this is probably one of the most uplifting (yet sad) interviews I've seen. I'm rooting for this man. I'll say a prayer for you.
He has it so together… eloquent, intelligent man with a huge heart and because he turned away from their dysfunction his family calls him, “crazy”.
God Bless him, 🙏 Amen !
Anyone else here have a father that fought in Vietnam. Crazy how much I could relate to him and his childhood experiences. Sending you lots of love Scott.
Me too, my dad is a Vietnam Veteran and has been very abusive to me and my mom...
thank you! Scott Bellar
older brother 4 terms he came back non functioning
Omg I have ptsd and I totally understand the job thing. Like it effects your whole life. The way people talk to you, treat you, tone of voice, it was hard to hold a job for a long time. School was difficult. Anything to do with people was difficult and still is. I just stay home now. No family, no friends. It's the worst but helpful at the same time.
I’m so tired of adults telling me stop talking about this. It affects us for a lifetime even after years of recovery process. God bless him. Men especially find this hard to talk about. So glad men can see this and hopefully others will follow and address their childhood trauma. God bless all of you.
@laraoneal7284 that is the worst when ppl say shut up about it. Google Troy Bellar. That's what happens when you keep it in, and trust me when I tell you this, nobody wants to even hear that story, much less how you process it. My life is too heavy for most ppl, that's why God came to Earth and died, so we could have somebody to help us and love us, when nobody else can, even if they wanted too. God Bless you for your comment. Very moving.
Scott,
"The Body Keeps the Score." By Bessel Van Der Kolk, M.D.
I'm currently reading it and it's something everyone that (has gone through/is going through) any type of trauma NEEDS to read it
Love, Light and Peace
Magdalena
I have this book but have yet to read it because I'm somewhat afraid of what sort of feelings it might stir up. (I have C-PTSD)
I've heard it's amazing, though. Reading this comment brought me one step closer to picking it up again.
It’s an incredible book! I’m just about done with it. It’s relatable, clear and healing.
I have that book, had to put it down. I have to have a therapist help me through it. Triggered all over the place, shook.😔
Just bought this book because I’ve finally realized I’ve been suffering with ptsd for over half my life. It was mind boggling that I never knew the symptoms until I started researching. hoping when I finish reading it I will be able to push myself to talk to my doctor…
@@bbsmama1861 Which symptoms shocked you the most and why?
Thanks for sharing your story 😊
"That's all that really matters in this temporary world that we live in."
THAT is an absolute, eternal truth.
You're on your way my brother. God bless you and your future.
The fire fighter always sees through the smoke and flames and tries to escape.
That's you my friend. You're the fire fighter. Stay strong. 🔥
"Family dysfunction rolls down from generation to generation like a fire in the woods, taking down everything in its path until one person in one generation has the courage to turn and face the flames. That person brings peace to their ancestors and spares the children that follow."- T Real
Like a moth to a flame burned by the fire my love is blind can't you see my desire. - JJ
Dammmm....u wrote iron and steel in those passages. So true....so accurate
@@tankisaconquistadorthewayh8791 gave me chill bumps!
Going to listen to it now.
Thx
That’s exactly what my sister and I have tried to do.
@@KimbradleyMasterGardener Can I come over?
I grew up with a childhood with a dad just like he’s, when you get older you realize why sometimes you behave a certain way, realizing you’re human and there’s people with fewer or more problems wakes up to the core.
Watched this on my lunch and I just couldn't stop it... I was late to work, but it's OK. I learned a lot from a man who's got a lot to teach to us.
@endcensorship874 I am just a man with a sinfiul heathen nature that was born spiritually dead, we all are, until The Holy Spirit saves us from ourselves. What you heard was the Holy Spirit talking through me, ALL glory goes to God and The Holy Spirit! Tune into it, never tune into any human being, often times it is the enemy's spirit and it wants nothing but your death and to kill all human beings! God Bless You!
@@ScottBellar yes. 🙌 I gave my life to Christ on may 18, 1984. 40 years ago! Not been a straight line, more of the tourist route. But I’m with you. I’m nothing with out Christ.
@@endcensorship874 AMEN!
I totally get where he's coming from. Through different stages in life from child birth to divorce, I'm realizing triggers of shit I didn't even think affected me anymore. I'm at that point where I now realize I need to talk to someone about it. I don't want it ruining my potential relationships in the future.
Yea. I’m 38 and have ran away and ignored issues since I was very young. I always said I can deal, I’m good. Nope. At 38 I about hit the wall from holding it all in for decades. Talk to someone. Get some help. Do you.
Wishing you the best from Nashville Tennessee USA 🇺🇸 ❤
Good for you for realising these things. Many people don't.
Or they don't go the extra distance to get help.
Myself included.
Also, if your nick is indicating anyhing about your personality you need that talk 😜
I wish you the best, love from Norway.
@2CCrew
Many people do the same, they keep pushing things down.
It works for some time.
Until it explodes like a mf in your face.
And it can take years before you can live like a normal person again.
It's some scary shit.
I hope you get back on your feet soon.
Love from Norway.
You can tell he's going to therapy and truly making an effort to better his life. It's so nice to listen to someone really trying to work through his past. People who have been through these horrific pasts are always going to battle that, but he knows it's up to him to make a change. I love how he turns to his faith to get him through life. God is always there for us, we need to reach out to him. God bless him, I pray he reaches his goals.
Yup it’s all in his speech. This man is a jewel 💎 and he knows it
I left because the exact same reason never went back I heard my father died in 07 and i don't know where my mother is, and won't look for no one and don't want anyone looking for me...
Your family are the people who are supposed to be there for you, not harm you. It’s extremely difficult to cope throughout the rest of your life. Mine is psychological but I can certainly relate. People no longer just automatically deserve to have space in your life- those who don’t know loyalty, who will turn on you at the drop of a dime, can go. This man sounds like he’s learned a lot through life, he sounds very wise. Forgiveness to me doesn’t mean you still allow them near you.
I’ve found that typically people you end up forgiving, are the type of people you don’t want around you again. You’re right.
@@Jay-hp6pu Forgiving doesn't mean you ever have to have contact with them again...unless you're directed by the Holy Spirit, as Scott has been.
Preach. I've developed severe trust issues from being abused by the family.I feel a little weird talking about it, but this is my burner account, so yeah. I've burned bridges with really good friends because I felt they were gonna do something to me. No reason on their behalf, I just thought it was an inevitability that I'd be treated wrong. I can't be in a healthy relationship because I'm always paranoid about them eventually hurting me.N I'm currently stuck with the family due to my own stupid decisions.
@@peighnesshonourchign9164 I can totally relate to what ur saying, it's so freakin hard. Sending positivity and hope ur way , hang in there
@@peighnesshonourchign9164 Aww, honey, I'm sorry.💔
This man is going to heal way more people then hisself. I can listen to him all day
There are few people who can reach this level of lived understanding. I cannot. I am happy that there are people like this in the world. A great person.
He’s such a breath of fresh air, healing looks good on you! 💜 I’ll always admire someone that knows they’re a mess and is actively trying to get better!! You have to WANT to get better
Thank you, Scott, for your story! My father is a Vietnam vet and my siblings and I still go through crap with him. He continues to traumatize our mother to this day. I have PTSD because of him. You know, “walking on eggshells” kinda shit. Even at this very moment I’m moving all the way across the USA and I haven’t told him yet because he’ll freak out and take it out on my Mom. I’m so thankful to you for letting me know I’m not the only one dealing with this. I’m 54 and I feel like it’s controlled my entire life. I have severe depression as well. I have sometimes spent days alone in bed just trying to escape. I have come back to the Lord in the past 2 years. It’s been saving me. Again, thank you so much for your story!!! Bless you, Scott.🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻♥️♥️♥️🥰
I want all these people tossing around the term PTSD to understand that THIS is what it looks like. You desensitize other people to it when you just adopt the term to describe your bad day or troubling event. You get PTSD from the real or perceived threat of death, usually ongoing or recurring threat. And when it happens to you before your whole personality is formed super early in childhood, you get C-PTSD, which is complex post traumatic stress disorder... which is so much harder to heal from because your personality was formed around traumatic events.
...and what say you of PLCPTSD?
Cptsd just isn't from early age trauma. The majority of grunts have what they call cptsd.
@@gburn9377 they get PTSD
@@Ponzotopia that's strange wonder why the VA diagnosed me with Cptsd from war? Considering I was 27 the day I stepped foot in Iraq. Hmm that's 2 years after the frontal lobe is fully developed. Lol since you want to pretend to know what ptsd is Hahaha, it was called nostalgia in the Roman times. It then was called shell shock in WWI/WWII. During the Vietnam War they called it PTSI, and now since Iraq they call it PTSD. In the next war they will call it something different as in the real world of trauma they already are dropping the D. It's ok superstar there is plenty of places you can seek remorse. What a loser.
THANK YOU! People self-diagnose way too much. I was diagnosed by a professional with C-PTSD at 33, after I had tried to hold the barrier back since age 6. It’s hard to have people going around saying they “got” PTSD from something random. Like they had caught a cold.
Omg my dad was a Vietnam veteran and alcoholic im so lucky my mom didn’t stay with him. I became a veteran myself.
Broke the cycle of distinction.
People can be so awful to one another especially those there supposed to take care of.
what an amazing resilient man with a gentle soul and so much love...with so much wisdom to share.
thank you! Scott Bellar
Moral of the story is LOVE YOUR BABIES
So many of these stories on here could be prevented by love...giving it,being itand so on. Children are a blessing and should be treated as such!
I’m sorry to say that neither love or babies are the cure for mental illness or for addiction, just like they aren’t for a physical illness. These stories are not that simplistic, not one size fits all, and it’s not effective to shame those caught in the cycle. It’s first and foremost an issue of psychology; mental illness doesn’t recognize morality. Having a child is a huge, life changing emotional and financial responsibility that not everyone is stable enough to handle.
Scott what a great guy, please do a follow up.. He's an inspiration to us all... I wish him all the best.. James.. England
Wow
I hardly ever post, however, this interview was GREAT! God bless this man.
What an incredible interview and thank you for moving me like this. I needed that. I've felt like a prisoner to my ptsd the last 10 years. Im 25 and have a 3 year old. My relationship with the man I loved shattered when our boy was still an infant. The loneliness and shock from that has exasperated my childhood trauma and the flashbacks are daily. I do therapy on and off, usually always lose my job, isolate more than any 25 year old should, sleep and sit around more than I'd like to admit. For years I've been feeling constant shame/paranoia/rage/angst. This video was necessary to me to better see myself in God's eyes. Thank you for bringing in a light when it's been dark for awhile.
I truly hope you find the will to get the help you need. It may be the toughest thing you do for yourself but your peace is worth it.
This is one of the best stories of a person's life and so, so glad to hear that he is not doing drugs. His recovery with knowing the spirit of God in him is wonderful and it is truly like a warm hug as he says. Makes sense and i learned from him. Thank you for his interview.
So self aware. I can relate to the fight to just survive with PTSD I’m a nurse 👩⚕️ also. I self meditate to ease the pain. This was very enlightening. Just remember some of the best light workers and healers have been through it mate!! I think you’re awesome. 🫂
I agree I miditate to deal with truama, I'm thankful I learned how at a young age. Otherwise I'd probably be dead from addition to something. Its not easy being strong...
Self aware?what?
@@gothboschincarnate3931 it’s self aware in knowing one’s shadow self. very powerful! How else can you heal? He’s gone deep down the rabbit hole of himself. In turn his higher self would be lit! He’s awesome
When he said he escapes into sleep that hit me hard. I'm terrified of sleep because in my dreams my trauma still lives. I lie awake most nights just hoping I won't dream.
What a sweet man. Thank God he survived his tortuous childhood. I wish him well.
His portrait really affected me. Usually I just think they're a great photo and great composition.
His photo is so moving, his eyes are filled with love and sadness. His outer appearance is rough but the aura he gives off, even from a photo, is angelic and loving.
I love his belief system. Would love to sit down and have a long talk about the universe and afterlife with him.
Wow. I’m floored. What a strong guy. His story should be heard by everyone.
Had ptsd after my Iraq deployment. Choked my wife on separate occasions, during a night terror, dreaming my platoon being overrun and went hand to hand. Harsh reality
Possibly the best interview of all time on your channel! This interview really helped me solidify that I’m not the one who may very well suffer from cradle to grave. My house two feels like a prison as I’m often both agoraphobic and additionally injured from an iatrogenic injury.
So amazing to see someone who has been through so much, love so unconditionally. Thank you, Mark!
I definitely admire how much this guy admits to everything so honestly. Even made me laugh only because he caught me off guard, not about his situation but simply never hear anyone that open . Awesome and inspiring
You're not only a survivor but you are a thriver! You have been through so much but your heart is still gold. Thank you for never giving up and for giving back the love everyone deserves. Keep up the good hard work!
thank you
This guy is (imho) talking straight up truth. My truth too. I’m not a fundy Christian. I study lots of religions. But it’s all the same in the center. I’m so glad he’s healing so young. He has so many years to pour out his compassion. So grateful you posted this.
I got C-PTSD and the way it effects you is on such a deep level, your brain is being wired during childhood and your training it to be hyper vigilant to danger and rejection, as an adult that fucks you up because your always having to calm yourself down and little things build up quick, then if you get pushed too far into stress you'll go heavily down an f type responce flight, freeze, fawn or fight, might feel agressive or just crazy anxious and want to escape some how through substances or prossess addictions or disassociate. Writing this now I'm 26 from uk and I feel like healing from this is one the hardest obstacles I'll ever overcome.
This is so very accurate….thank you👊🔥😍🤟💯
Thank you for sharing your life experience Scott, you are such a gentle, intelligent and kind person. My heart goes out to you. I wish you healing and finding your way to fulfilling your purpose.
you are welcome! your comment means a lot !
This mans dad and my father in law sound like the same person. I’m not sure how my wife and her sister turned out so wonderful. Also from eastern Kentucky. Must be a symptom of this part of the country. I have heard tons of stories just like this. My father in law was hooked to a plow and beaten and made to pull the plow like a mule as a child. Once he was old enough he joined the army and went to Vietnam. He came back a raging alcoholic and repeated the abuse onto his children and wife. TRAGIC
Sooo much respect for u
😞
Scott, thank you for sharing your story. I respect you deeply for breaking your family’s cycle of abuse. You have helped to transform our world into a better place.
This is another example of not Judging a Book by it's Cover.
Keep em Coming
Scott,
My Mom held a gun to me multiple times while intoxicated. I know how that feels and I'm so sorry that happened too you.
Nice to see someone from Tennessee representing 🙌
Keep your head up.
Sending you the best I got!
Nashville Tennessee
Good Morning Kim. Sry that happened to you.
I'm so sorry Kim I had a terrible mother also had told me on several occasions wished she'd never had me & physically abused me too . But only made me a BETTER mother to my children! GBY Kim 🙏🏼
@@myeyeswentdeaf6213 thanks Eyes!
Over 40yrs ago yet still hard to share. Believe or not she really loved me! And, honored me when sober. Worked hard and raised me with every opportunity as my older sister! She had a problem plus my Dad had passed. She had her own pain and didn't know how to handle it.
I chose not to have children.
Life moved forward and I moved to the USVI to escape. I believe her problems are the reason I, like Scott, had the courage to explore other parts of the country and beyond!
I WOULD change it if I could (the abuse) yet I can truly relate too younger people when they share and tell them how to heal!!!
I chose to volunteer with teenagers in trouble eventually teaching Childrens Gardening to troubled kids as well.
Today, young women (20-30s) seem to gravitate to me for no reason and I, like Scott, have an opportunity to "Be of service ". Btw, I am drug free since the 90s.
Eyes, you be cateful out in the Jungle today!
Xoxo 😘
@@gailgarcia8782 thx Gail! Life's lessons are tough, huh!
Sending you my Love from Nashville
As a woman growing up reading and listening to Rollins spoken words series in the 90s, I feel Scott's feeling for his words. Thankyou Scott for sharing. Thankyou Henry for helping a soul! Much love ❤️
Very similar experiences with years of of abuse by a sadistic, abusive father, he left me with a seriously messed head and CPTSD. Daydreaming is literally a survival mechanism when your being abused, I completely relate to that. The best thing is cognitive behavioural therapy, it's gruelling, but worth it. You also need to be clean and sober, you cannot live with PTSD and drink and drug, it makes the symptoms much worse.
Who’s watching this video after you watched his recent upload on the channel? What a complete a complete transformation he made for the worse after this interview? Wow. The comments are here for him. On the other video it’s completely different. Please go watch the recent interview with this guy! Holy crap
@laciethweatt1198 The turn for the worse started when I got evicted from my apartment I lived in for almost a decade. I was wronged on a major level. I never even had 1 lease violation in almost a decade of living there. It literally broke me mentally and still to this day really upsets me how that all went down and was handled so poorly.. This was 18 months ago. I was homeless for a year, in 3 different psych wards at different times, and went to jail for the first time in my life on a warrant that was put on me that will easily get me killed in jail and will 100% disgrace me for the rest of my life. It's says to people that I raped a woman and beat her multiple times even though I never once made a threat. Multiple lies were told in court claiming I threatened to rape and kill and no evidence could be provided. My attorney begged me not to take the 1st deal and fight the case, he was fully convinced the criminal charges would be dropped and the word stalking would be replaced with harassment. I would have been in jail for at least a year fighting the case because my bail was too high and I would have been killed way before that year was up. There was another inmate that had the exact same felony charge and bail a mine. He had multiple charges of domestic violence in his past, along with criminal threats. I have never broke the law in my life, No charges at all, now ask yourself how a 1st time offender got a warrant and charge that extreme.
I get it, but I think you need to get outta California, so many good paying jobs construction jobs in other states with cheaper rent, buy a Harley, go to the gym (YMCA is virtually free), get a service dog like I did, you can train one from a shelter yourself & no one can refuse to rent to you for the dog. Happy trails
@@BigAngelEyes My calling is to be a pastor without a shadow of a doubt and God placed me in Skid Row for a reason, broken people are my ministry.
Thank you, Scott, for sharing your story. Very inspirational and my soul was captured by your honesty and warmness. And, thank you, Mark, for doing all these amazing interviews with people who deserve to be heard.
@earthcharm. AMEN and thank you! Mark is a modern day saint and a very very hard worker building the awareness of what is needed for broken and unloved people which is this..agape love, compassion, patience, and understanding.
This is such an important video about how PTSD also comes from child abuse and not just one major horrific event.
WOW JUST…. WOW when he started talking about to trauma affects your schoolwork, man that broke my heart. Because that’s exactly what happened this semester for me. I went thru a whole lot..
I’m so Imprressed at your ability to be resilient and to fight for yourself and your happiness. You’re an awesome guy! I hope the best for you
This man right here made my heart sooo full (and sad at the same time due to his pain). As a survivor of abuse myself, I understand him. I really hope he is doing better each day. Thank you Mark for interviewing him! Much peace & love ❤️
PTSD is horrible. He is spot on what it can do to you.
I wish you nothing but the best Scott!💙
I just want to say before I start the video, Mark you’re awesome !!! And we love you
I love you too
@@wikk7222
Thanks for the love
@@eastwood111 np bb 😘
Poor dude, he seems like a great guy so smart, and positive attitude, and trying to be productive while dealing with his PSTD. Very strong guy. I like him.
Nothing but respect for this man, as much darkness as he went through he didn't let it ruin him. More than that, he became a bigger man than his father ever was
@andreaspapakanellou3804 you might not think this way if you see my 2nd interview. The comments on there crucified me and shamed me very brutally. They got all my repressed wounds triggered to the surface and it's painful af. The last 18 months have been rough on me and your kind words are crucial medicine right now. Thank you kind soul.
U never cease to amaze me with these interviews. I try to watch every one at least 2 times. U r truly blessed sir.from the frozen praire of South Dakota
Love this guy Scott so much.. its strange how u can relate better with someone you have never met in life..I like him suffer from PTSD.. and also isolate myself.. keep going Scott 💪
I wish I could hug this man, and tell him how proud I am of him. He is an amazing human.
Scott, thank you for sharing your story. You have such a purpose over your life, and anointing to lead others to healing.
I have been a fan of Soft White Underbelly for some time but THIS particular interview spoke to such an uncannily deep part of me that it sincerely gave me a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach. It was like hearing a complete stranger reciting a forgotten journal entry I might have written or something.
Wow. Powerful. Thanks for this one.
My father was not a great father I'm 32 and it still is hurtful, not as much but there is still a sadness and pain. Being a good parent is a very important role
The Fact That He Isn’t an ADDICT is Also AMAZING !!! I Hope He Finds the Love and Respect that He DESERVES !!!!!
by far the best interview…sending love to you Scott
im so much like this guy, its so nice to hear someone else's similar wisdom preach to me. thank you for what u do mark. you're a saint and warrior brother. and scott too.
My dad is an exact copy of his. Born ‘47, grew up on a dairy farm, drafted and served in Nam, and has suffered from severe and never ending PTSD ever since. My parents adopted me when they were forty, so I’m younger than most folks with dads like this. None of my friends had veteran parents. None of them understood. It ruined my childhood, but it motivated me to move far from home and make my own way in life very quickly. I’m only now starting to talk to other people with similar situations and I am starting to heal. Many thanks to Scott for sharing his story.
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What a great interview! Complex trauma ( trauma after other traumas ) is rough…. I struggle with it. But he’s got the right idea on how to move through and past it: forgiveness, loving others, and much therapy. Blessings!
This man is a bright light in a dark world.
not...sadly....
Damn Mark, another inspiring story from a true SURVIVOR. Your channel brings me so much inspiration to make myself a better person and as a recovering addict, I need that. You and your channel, AND Scott are doing Gods work, for rillz. God bless you all.
This guys sounds like such a sweet man. God Bless you for getting out of that mess. Blessings to you.
thank you!
As a child survivor of sexual assault myself I don't think I would have the courage to share my story like this man has. Thank you brother for reminding me that we are not alone
THANX!
Scott I relate to you and your thoughts about forgiveness. I too recently began speaking to my abusive mother after years of not talking to her. And I relate to you about having the loving warm hug from god. I pray for your healing and am thankful there’s men out there like yourself, who are doing the self loving deep healing work. YOUR Angels are with you Props to ya homeboy! 💛
I'm speechless!! What a tremendously moving account of his life. I'm so glad I viewed this video because of his story of forgiveness and, of course, his mental healing. What an awesome lesson I'm taking away from this. God bless Scott forever. :-)
As someone who also fights CPTSD from childhood, Scott is really inspiring and his self awareness is on another level. Keep pushing brother and make your mark on the people
Sounds like Scott would make an excellent counselor! Best to you Sir!
He's rad he's gonna help alot of people. 💗
lies .... not lead one out of darkness.....
Good Morning from 6:00am Brooklyn NY to whatever it is wherever you are, my SWU fam
Good morning brother, 4:56am in Co. Have a great day my brother!
God day,brother!
@@Gram72534 What's happenin', my man,Gram #7
@@wesleyalan9179chillin, brother. Have a good Tuesday!
@Gram #7 What’s up brother Gram. How ya doin.
Amazing interview. Profound healing and very inspirational. Thank you for sharing your story. Keep pursuing your vision, Scott ❤️
Don't forget to forgive yourself, Scott. You are truly on your way to wellness. You have the perspective and God does the navigating some of the time. Taking care of self is not selfish. It's love. It does get better as time goes on. I learned the last time in an outpatient program that I was also important. We never think of ourselves other than our trauma, depression, anxiety- what have you. All we are about is survival. That's not happiness. You have expressed this all to me in this interview and I thank you, man. God Bless and take care.
I am so fortunate to have come across this today. 💙🙏🏽💙 Thank you Mark for the post, and thank you Scott for sharing 💙🙏🏽💙