i hope you all enjoy this mix, i really like how it turned out. perfect for those late night vibes 💜 I made a playlist of all these tracks on Spotify - spoti.fi/3xxIWrb
yes.. everyday... I miss his smile I miss his eyes I miss his laugh I miss his voice I miss his hugs I miss holding his hand and him telling me he loved me I miss his kisses I miss the way he changed for me.. I miss everything about him.. everything.. and the fact that everyone use to think we were the cutest couple ever... but he doesn't miss me.. he likes someone else now.. he told me he'd never leave..💔 Update, got over that retard lol. I'm with someone else now so
Same never having it,bc I feel like ima never have her,on her being married but she wasn’t happy and she was happy talking to me and she got attached as did I,and we talked about being together,living I was legit fax wanted to and would move to her state,she asked if I would! I was happiest when I “had” her lol,but yea the feeling of never having her is fucked,sleepin is hard bc I would look forward to talking to her and texting face timing,but if she doin thing wit her husband,can only say I wish nothing but the best for them,I hope she’s happy FAX! And I wish them the best, I wanted to be with her fo life!! She stopped responding to me after her Xmas break 😥 I called txt,she answered a couple times but I think she hung up😭 but I doubt she will ever see, I know you won’t 🤣😭😒.....your my best friend I’ll always be thinking about you and miss you and WUV YOU,I hope we see each other in the after life and can reunite and be freinds again!!!!! I need my BOO 👻😒🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞🔥🔥🔥🔥
I absolutely HATE it when 2 people who love each other so much, share the same mutual strong feelings for one another, but simply just can’t make it work for some unknown reason. It’s literally the worst thing to experience emotionally (in my opinion). It’s almost as if the universe doesn’t want you two to be together, no matter how much you love each other. And what’s worse is that you put your ALL in that person, your everything into them, you fight and wait for them, but they just don’t do the same. Even though they have strong emotions for you. Love is weird. People are weird. But that’s life and it’s heartbreaking.
I heard someone say once that a lot of us that have suicidal thoughts or severe depression really don't want to die, but just want to be alive. Basically be happy instead of suffering all the time, we actually do want to live, just not the way we currently are.
I find sleep to be the best remedy for your case. The silence is calming and the dreams are a place you'd rather be, I can't think of anything better than that. If you can't sleep well...im sorry
No matter what you'll go through while I'm not there by your side. know this, I will accept you still as long as I'm with you. As long as I know I am with you, nothing else matters.
I look trough the comments.. it makes me feel a bit better somehow.. knowing that I'm not the only person that is going trough stuff.. I feel awful for thinking that tho.. I feel egoistic. I'm sorry everyone that reads this. It's just.. hard waiting for someone that will never comeback. It feels like your whole life is meaningless forever.. I don't need anyone else.. I just needed you and you had to leave without saying a word. You're the person that made me the most happiest but also the saddest. And I just love and hate you at the same time.
I know how you feel... the love of my life disappeared in one day right in front of my eyes. I still can't comprehend it and it's been 3 months... I felt lost my whole life and when I found him... it felt like you life has a reason. To love him. I wonder if I could've made him stay... I would do anything and I tried my best but he still just...left. I miss him so much , I feel like I'm being selfish...
@@monikastrakosova4828 relatable.. the fact that I just don't know what happened to her kills me everyday.. my mind keeps on imaginating the worst scenarios.. this is a a living nightmare I am in and no one can understand or help me
Same hell....its been 1 1/2 yr...i dont miss him..but i miss thatt someone by my side always...ill nvr find him i know this but my heart still awaits..my life feels hell...
it's the failures and the bad memories you had in the past and will track you down and make you feel worthless whenever you try to stand up. the fake friends that will talk bad behind your back, you parents who're always rude and always say stuff that hurt you the most, you'll feel lonely and depressed and you'll start to think that no one will ever understand what you feel and what you're going through but i'm here to say that i do and i love you
Got a love the feeling of sitting on a roof just when the sun starts to go down and enjoy the sounds around you, letting all the stress go for an hour not having to think about anything or anyone.
It's very hard to move on but it's the only option when someone you thought would be in your life till the very end wants nothing to do with you anymore
Idk man she really meant something else to me like I’ve liked her for 6 years now and I’ve always fantisized about us having the best relationship and going on adventures all the time. One of our favorites was running away and leaving everything behind just the two of us with money and a car and see where the road will take us and forget everything but us and start a new life together forever. She was the only one that saw past my weird awkard and friendship like personality Bc I’m too ugly and too nice to be in a relationship but she saw past all of that and when I was able to finally make a dream come true one that I have been waiting for my whole life she left me a year later of dating and now I listen to lofi music thinking of just ending it all. I still dream and fantasize us together all the time. I’m back at square one with her again but this time it’s permanent. I’ll always still love her and I shouldn’t. I don’t wanna feel anything Bc all I do feel is pain and sadness Bc I thought and I really poured everything I had into this one person. Now everything is a huge drag and I can’t let go of her no matter what. She will always have a spot in me no matter how much she tore me apart I’m still going to cry for hours on end every night making stuff up in my head that I still have a chance you gotta wait and wait when Ik I will never be with her again. Lofi music just makes me feel numb and that’s what I want. I done want her stabbing into my heart and head every second but I can’t help it.
The sky went from blue to pink... I had high hopes but now I'm on the brink... It happened so fast... There was no time to think... How I long for the days we were happy... The sleepless nights and the never-ending stories... The useless fights and the cute apologies... The rainy days when you would tell me all your worries... Now I'm up here... Your name is still up there... I can't believe you're gone... I can't help but hang on... "I'll wait for you until the very end pt.2"
She not comin back right now homie. Can't keep hurting yourself and telling yourself that. You gotta find your distraction and get YOUR life right, gotta find you a beautiful hunny and set goals, change your life. She was the last chapter you gotta make this the next Well your comment is a year old so maybe you did do that, if not lessgo
It's sad time once again boys . . . I'm sorry life is like this. I'm sorry it does this to you . . . the loss, the heartbreak, the sleepless nights. I understand your pain, but . . that doesn't make it any easier I suppose, eh? Hearing, knowing is one thing, but actually experiencing it is another. I just want you to know: life isn't always so terrible, despite what you see, what you hear, what you know, and the like. Your heart won't get broken forever, people won't leave you forever, and one day, you'll find the one - trust me, please. You won't have to wait for them until the very end someday; instead, they'll be right by your side, until the very end. Believe on this - you'll find the one, and your heart won't be broken ever again. I don't just have faith in you - I trust you. Until that beautiful end comes, with your lover beside you, listen to some music. Enjoy.
I can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. As I thought about myself, it made me just more depressed an sad because I see people being happy or successful and I’m laying at 3 am in my bed and start crying because I know that i didn’t do anything right in my life and I don’t think there will be a happy end for me... Everything is going so bad lately and I’m just so exhausted from everything
i feel the exact same way. everything you just said. hit on point 100%. I hope it works out for all of us in the end. I think we'll be okay eventually. just give it some time buddy.
Hi you don't know me , but I understand you perfectly . I'm a 15 year old teenager who has done a lot of shit in my life and I don't know what to do I have friends , a lot of buddies and still I can't atone for my sins I want to find the person with whom I will discuss this , what I wanted to say by this everything will be fine just now I don't know it's been 2 years maybe it's already been a black streak and I'm already saying not relevant , but still good luck)
I'm not even depressed. I always experience lots of happy moments everyday, but afterwards I feel so much sad. I just think about all the bad stuff going on in my life, and I forget about all the good things. I write down my emotions on my phone's notepad. It's so fucking mind freeing to release your emotions. Today I'm making a comment, not writing on my notepad anymore. Even when knowing nobody will read what you write, just seeing why you're sad, what is going on, why you want to cry and scream, why you feel empty, it just explains why you're sad. Most times, even if you know why, you just can't stop. Even if you already know, what you feels just takes over. I'm writing this comment for myself and for others, maybe it'll be lost, maybe you found it (if you're reading this comment), hope it will help you as well as it helped me. Sometimes, you can't trust anyone you know -or you thought you know-, because everytime you give your trust, everytime you're disappointed. Everytime you confess, everytime you're rejected. So you can't do it anymore. You just don't want to be hurt. You hide your feelings. You pretend like you're alright. But in reality, the wheight of carrying your emotions alone, of keeping your feelings to yourself crushes you. You've been asking for help countless times, too many times, but at this point you've just stop trying, you already know their answer. But here, it's different, we're maybe some strangers on internet, but we all understand each other, we've all been through the same things, we're a *family*. Don't be shy.
Dear internet stranger, I read this and felt this on the most deep level. Thankyou. I hope these words which may have rung and or rang true for you are something that shows you you are woth something, and make you feel beautiful. Trust is not easy, and someday I hope u find a bond with someone who u can trust that will never break heart. So u internet stranger I hope u find peace, and if I were there I would ask unto u a dance just like a fairy tale, a night unto a roof,where we laugh and giggle all night And a hope, one u can put in your pocket and never lose, have a good world internet stranger a good world indeed.
It started snowing again... I'm still In love with you... These days surviving without you is my new normal but I still hold onto that ember of hope that you'll come back.
I like to think that I’ve made up this statement for what life means and it goes, “we don’t always get what we want, but we always get what we deserve”- Luis España. It’s an illogical statement, you don’t deserve any sickness you were born with ect. It’s open to interpretation but for me it means that everything I have is because I made it happen. I haven’t found another person that I can say I love but that’s because I never put any real effort into finding her. I get what i deserve. There are some things we have to work for, wish you all the luck.
Being with my thoughts every night makes me feel calm and so lonely at the same time, 3 years i’ve been like this, still waiting for something to change and be a little bit happy
*nothing lasts forever, not people nor life but love lasts forever and that’s the worse thing that can happen to someone who waits at the peak of morning to the last light of the sunset.*
Sometimes I wonder if there is a timeline out there where im with the right person. In this one nothing ever goes my way and when it starts to feel like something good might happen it ends up blowing up in my face and i end up sadder than before.
I understand, sometimes it's like this,life is like this,honestly i don't know how or why but people asked me why i'm single or they Say "why You are lonely? I'm shure some girls wanted someone like You" and i tried but everything it's a mess. I dream one day to have the right woman at my side,i have good Friends ngl and they are awesome but You know...coming Home and having a cute hug or a Kiss...cute things. I'm not sad at all,it's just i don't understand why almost all the people become selfish...or less empatic.
It's weird. Seeing how this trilogy was, in a sense, connected to me. Part 1 was the foreshadowing; the prelude, if you will, of the heartbreak that was yet to come. Part 2 was just after it, the immense angst and pain. Part 3 was in hindsight, a reflection and it was all in the span of 2018, too. Maybe now that I'm here, things could get better? I don't think so. I don't know. I'm tired of hurting. I'm just glad this is here.
Hunny, It's okay. IM giving u a big bear hug rn. Everything gets better. U cant let someone u love hurt u instead of help u. That's all I gotta say. Live by that.
No- CreAtor he didn’t in fact I am isolated from everyone because I can’t hang out with my friends cuz he tells them he doesn’t want me there he’s moved on so idk what’s the problem because we didn’t end in bad terms and like he’s moved on to a new girl
Holly Oconnor it hurts i know that, but if he loved you and was happy with you he will come back, but speak with you friends dont be alone on everything its much worse :(
I love the comments.... its a small reminder that everybody goes through bad times.... WE DO GET OVER THEM.... WE DO MOVE ON... I did this really weird thing I filmed a small video on my phone... it was just me walking, I just felt really good and happy, everything seemed so far away... when im sad and feel numb... I watch it
She was my everything She made every day worth it just to see her I think of her all the time 4 years and every year that goes by I just miss her more If I saw her i don't know what id do or say I messed everything up so badly but I was young we both were I really wish I could take it all back everything I said some of the choices I made I just hope she is happy thats all I want and could wish for
she was a depressed 16 year old beautiful girl. i wanted to make her happy again. after 1 year of beautiful friendship, her ig was deleted; she didn't answer me. after one month of questioning her existence, her friend told me that she killed herself. it really broke me and i cant describe my feelings. i miss her.
Life keeps you going ..the love your famliy gives, the life you have & live.. You're special kid. you just don't know it yet. Keep living your life to the fullest until the end of your days with that one true love.. & try find soles in knowing that she would have wanted better for you & she would have gave you the world if she had the chance..
this is a fact that is happening to me on this christmas eve, i'm alone in the room with my computer and with a shitty void, no friends, without her. funny to think that i can't forget this person so easily. I treated her very cruelly, to be honest I was an asshole and now she's gone. I understand what you went through, I may not be able to answer your comment, if I ever have one! I'm just going to be going through various music and leaving messages around, take care that you are reading this comment ...
The sun is rising, beautiful rays of gold. I wait and wait. Stuck in a hazy dream of fantasy with you by my side. I'll wait and wait like the princess in her tower. Waiting for you to come back until the sun sets, then rises again. Uh hi there. Ackkk I'm late and didn't check the time! If anyone still sees this then I hope you're doing well, I don't really have any advice other than. Stay happy, it doesn't have to be all the time round the clock but your happiness is important and you don't need to change who you are to be happy. You are you, and if no one else is happy with that, then find someone who is. Well I guess that's it from me, enjoy the music and my words, with that I wish you a good morning, afternoon, evening or night wherever you may be, till next time.❤
I really thougnt thoes were ltics i rapped thst one like dead ass yo thank u that hit me i lost my girl and yeah i dont need to change thsnk u amazing human being just knlw it affected me in a good way thamk u and its 4:22 am so idk goodmoing oor nignt haha anywaysbthamks
The sad. The lonely. The Forgotten. The betrayed. The broken hearts... We all thought we were alone. Then we came to bootlegs channel and realized there is many, many more going through the same shit. It doesn't cure our problems or fix our lives but in some way, its comforting. Not only knowing but seeing with our own eyes that we aren't the only ones hurting. And not only that we actually have a place to go where it feels like the bootleg boy took one look into our eyes, saw our pain. And made music from the tears. Thank you Bootleg, keep making music. Sometimes its the only comforting thing in someone's day.
I want you to notice me, clearly feeling the same as you do. Trying to hopelessly find emotion in things like you do. Watching the day fade waiting to be consumed by darkness like you do. Experiencing my own tragedy, just like you are. The only difference is, you’re not experiencing it alone.
Man the first time I cried in years All the emotions I kept in just started flowing out and reminded me of all the anger,sadness,and hate I've built up.I hate being alone I have no one to talk to,no one to rely on,no one to love.
I can never be whole again A part of me still resides in you As the sun sets Your memories start appearing As moving pictures In my head. My soul drowned in the tears Of regret.
I see beautiful people here, some with broken hearts, some with passion and positivity, some lost souls who don't even belong here.. and many other joyful buddies 🍀 ... I just one say you're freaking amazing! I hope to meet you all some day.. Peace
Beautiful music in the background and reading all the comments make me feel relaxed truly. it still feels there are so many beautiful souls out there in this cruel world. I wish whoever reading this gonna have an amazing life. move on from the past and explore the world
so...hum...I know no one asked me to do this, and probably most of you will just ignore this comment. But if you're reading this well, I need to tell you something. My boyfriend is Brazilian and I'm Portuguese, sooo... we're so so far from each other, but we don't regret. He's trying hard to come visit me and I'm trying hard to make this realtionship happen... if you still reading this... thank you for "listening". And could you please leave me a sugestion??? Thank you again, Have a nice day ✨☺️
So i met this girl at the end of my summer vacation in France, we had a great time but it was just to short (five days) I have her number and we still have contact and i really want to see her again but i feel like its something thats never going to happen even if we make plans. Its weird because i still think about her everyday, i just wish that life wasn't so unfair. These mixes are like a way out for me to imagine if she was mine. 👌
I waited, waited like a fool. I was there when no one else was, but you never noticed me. You never waited for me when I needed you the most, always leaving me behind only to look back making sure I was still the faded shadow lingering around your heart. You were getting better as fast as I was deteriorating. As you pushed your last step from my shoulders to rise out of this hole, you broke me down one last time. You ran and ran only to find out you wouldn't make it far without me. You don't need me anymore. But little do you know, I will wait for you until the very end... Even if I reach my last breath and perish.
Sitting in a chair in a dimly lit room, Listening, Yearning, Watching, out the window to the sleepless city nightlife I once loved. Taking a long drag of a hastily rolled blunt, only to let it burn between my fingers for what seems like hours after only a few hits. As the lights of cars dance across the wall, and the ashes fall from the armrest to the hardwood floor, I begin to see it. The dream I have had so many times before, each time feeling more real than the last. As a familiar haze fills my head, from what feels like an eternity ago, I try really hard to remember, even now, 10 years later, I can still remember that face, and the very moment life for us changed forever. Not a single cell in my body knows your touch, but I still remember. Maybe nothing was ever here for us to begin with, but now I am left wondering, hoping, that someday I'll have the answers for the questions I still seek... Why? Why am I still here and your not? Why couldn't it have been me instead? Why didn't I spend more time with you while I could... What? What could I have done differently to stop this from happening? What could have been our lives? How? How many lives have been ruined because of my choices? How many times will I torture myself with the same questions every night? Where? Where did you go? Where did I go? When? When will I see you again? When will this all be over... As a single tear rolls down my cheek, my lifeless eyes stare off into the distance. I say those same words I have always said. "Maybe in another life." As I look down to the burning sensation between my fingers only to realize I have been gone far too long. Pulling myself out of the fog, one thing is certain, like an old dog outside a pizza shop, as promised, I will wait for you until the very end.
Life loves to dip us in black holes and watch us struggle to get out..knowing our hearts hurt easily..I bet life must enjoy it. It sucks when you’re weak hearted from the start too..sucks. It’s hard to get out..too hard that you just accept it as your life..that your life will forever suck..that you’ll forever be stuck exactly where you are right now..
I just want to achieve my dream and finally feel genuinely happy, but sometimes you ask for too much, according to the voices inside your head and the ones around you. My dream is more than hard to achieve, mentally and physically, but that makes me want to push myself even further. But knowing that everyone around me wouldn’t support me, as a fact. Money, talent, appearance, and so many more things that I would need to have to achieve that dream. Things that I don’t have. I always feel so down because I can only dream so much, until I give up and walk away. It’s been 2 years and I’ve never said anything, and I won’t. There are too many obstacles. I feel overwhelmed and completely and utterly helpless. I just wanted to share this because I’m not bringing this matter to life anytime soon.
you can imagine that , it's 4 am now, alone at my room , and playing this on my computer with full screen, all the lights are off , so those magical colors from my computer screen are decorating my walls ,I'm laying in bed in front of this amazing view while relaxing my ears with this masterpiece my soul is slowly dancing , i can lay here until i fall asleep like child .. and wake up in the morning with a heart full of love , and full charged soul .
We became friends so quickly. She called me a Lake and I called her a Wildfire. We were always there for each other. It was intense. Oh so intense. Painful sometimes too, but it still got us high like an addiction. We ended up figuring out we were inlove. But I didn't physically like girls and she didn't want to have an online relationship, so we agreed to stay friends, even though we told each other 'I love you' several times a day. It was such a beautiful friendship. I wrote things for her. She drew us, laying in the grass and looking up at the sky. Happy. Together. Smiling. Laughing. Joking together. All the things we craved to do when we would finally meet. We met, on January 2nd, 2018. In Paris. We spent a day there, and we hugged, even though she is on the autism spectrum and therefore doesn't usually like hugs, she actually wanted and accepted mine. I still have a few pictures of us together, and they have more value to me than most of the things I own. I will remember this cold and rainy day as one of the happiest of my life. At the end of that day, in the metro, seconds before we had to leave each other, she gave me half of a Star Trek friendship necklace. On it, the famous quote : "You have been, and always shall be, my friend." she let me choose which half of the quote to keep. I chose the one without the always. I wanted her to have it. I wanted her to remember that I would always be her friend. Always. The metro stopped. We hugged. I left. I never saw her again. Only one picture, when she got home and sent me a pic of her wearing the necklace. I sent one back of me wearing mine. A month later, I felt suicidal during my school day. I had a panic attack later that afternoon and held onto the necklace so hard it broke, the small part holding it together disappearing on the ground. I was never able to find it again, but kept the broken necklace with me anyway. That day I thought I had lost all my friends from high school, and all I had left was her, my wild fire, the one I loved in the purest way I had ever loved anyone. So I told her. I told her I had had suicidal thoughts. I wanted her to comfort me, just a "I don't want you to be gone" would have been enough. I just needed to be honest with her, and to know she was there for me, as she always had been. Worst mistake of my entire life. She couldn't handle it. She got upset. She told me she was leaving for diner but instead went to her mom so her mom would text me in her place, and her mom broke our friendship. Told me to go away. to stop upsetting her daughter. that i was toxic for her. I protested, I thought her mom had stole her phone and was doing this without my wild fire's agreement. I stopped texting back to her mom and waited for my wild fire to text me, join me in any way possible. I waited twelve days, before seeing her connected on messenger and deciding this was too much. I sent her a text, asking if she was alright, if her mom had gave her phone back. If she was mad at me or something. it was her mom who answered. I was furious. I wanted to talk to my friend. I wanted to cry and punch a wall but all I did was get mad at her mom, who finally let my friend talk to me. And my wild fire... she was... she was so angry with me. but also, like... empty. hurt. She didn't want me near her again. or not before a very long time. I begged her to let me have a second chance. I begged her again and again, i was crying behind my screen, desperate to find the right words to make her stay, to not let all we had built get destroyed. it didnt work. she blocked me. that night I agonised as if someone was stabbing me slowly in the chest, constantly. I didn't sleep. Months later, I tried to connect with her again through a common friend we had. This friend told me she didn't want to talk to me, but she still loved me, and wanted me to know she is not angry, and that she will come back one day. It felt great, and I couldn't wait. Suddenly I was addicted again and needed to know more about what she had become, and when would she come back ? I was like an excited puppy. That got me metaphorically kicked and thrown outside. Too clingy. I always was, I guess. I tried again four months later. This time our common friend answered "Yeah, he's fine." I was confused. "He ?" "Yeah, he's a boy now. Don't call him by this name anymore, it's this name now." "Oh, cool name, I like it. Is he alright ? Can I talk to him ?" "I guess you can ? Just join him on fb, but don't tell him I gave you his username." "I swear. Thank you so much for helping me" Before I could ever send more than "hi" our common friend was texting me again. but it wasn't him. it was wild fire. saying me He didn't want to talk to me, that I couldn't have changed so much in a year, that I was lying and toxic, that he and I should not be missing what we had, because it was toxic. That thinking of me still hurts him, and if I respect him, I should stop trying to talk to him. He told me that if we crossed paths again in a few years, and we were in a right place in our minds at that moment, then we could maybe be friends again, and that if it never happens, I should not be sad about it, but happy it happened. then our common friend blocked me, leaving me with no means of communicating with Wildfire ever again, unless i start stalking him or something, which I won't do, I respect him. I still love him. Even though it feels like my wild fire died with his female identity. And I will wait for him. I will wait for him until the very end, if he needs me to wait that long. I don't want to date him, even though he is a boy. But I will never stop considering him my friend. I still have this broken half a friendship necklace. I still have those memories. The meaning behind our nicknames, so deep and beautiful. And I still crave to be there for him through his hard times. It makes me want to cry everytime I think about the conversations we had, the laughs, and the intense and deep understanding we had of each others. I'm in a new school now, a film school, in paris. Sometimes, I find myself somewhere where wildfire and I once were, and I can see her ghost, smiling to me, holding out her hand, and her deep grey eyes, so accepting, understanding. I think soulmates exist. I think there is not just one of them for each persons. I think my wild fire is one of my soulmates. And I will not give up on him. No matter his sexual identity, no matter what he did to me, no matter how long I have to wait. I still love him. -Lake
@@rintintin65 thank you so much... We had made plans you know. Since I write so much, and she, well he, draws so well, we wanted to create illustrated stories together. I haven't given up on him. I don't consider him as lost, just, temporarily gone from my life. It hurts less when i remember that he would probably agree to talk to me in a few years ^^
whats the point in life we all die at some point in 100 years no one will remember you unless you're some pop star celebrity in the end, nothing matters life ends we end everything comes to an end whether its happy or not do you remember? childhood everything was so simple and easy yet you always hated it at the time when you couldn't wait to be an adult and have no more math homework do you remember? trying to impress other people if you arent good enough, whats the point? what if people dont like you? what if you are different? what if theres no point at one point we all have to say goodbye to happiness to joy to friends to family to beloved pets or animals or anything say goodbye to all hope when sadness takes over everything is numb why cant i feel anything why dont you love me whats wrong with me why do you like me why am i different why am i the same to everyone else why dont i have friends why do people wish death on me why is life so cruel why doesnt anyone have any love in them why are you asking so many questions? does it matter in the end? does anyone matter does life matter im not okay you arent either are you alright? when was the last time someone asked if you were alright take a long think done? does anyone love you do they? no? why? why doesnt anyone like you? am i a fool? are you a fool? are we all fools? life is a fool we are all destroyed mentally physically are you ok? do you need help? i love you.
To live... not just survive. Living is different from not dying. Living is different from breathing. Do things your passionate about. Find things you like. Find people you like. Find someone you love. Happiness wouldn't be the same without death, and love needs heartbreak. Same with life; without death, there is no challenge. Do shit. Go.
mallard. Pretty much a perfect comment in terms of the development of the mind... but I’m still caught in the ever repeating limbo, nothing changes anymore and nothing makes me happy. Hope is lost.
Don't wait. You are the happiness, you have it inside of you. Don't look or expect to get it from other. Look back when you was a child, YOU are full of LOVE, and you give it to other. Now you are empty, and becoming a love begger. We growing up, being taught to live for others, to love others. But actually, you need to love yourself and then love other. If you love someone... Let them go.
there's too many people that left that are happier without me. too many times i tried to be better for someone only for them to hate me more. the ones that moved on when i didn't. it's hard to get better sometimes, when you can't forget.
This upload reminded me of the comment I posted under the first part (I think). Back then, I was deeply lovesick over a girl that changed too much. Today, I can say that I have never felt happier before in terms of love. I found the most amazing young man I could have dreamed of. He is the sweetest, funniest, loveable guy I've ever met. Thank you to all of you who told me that it gets better. Thank you to bootleg boy, I still find comfort and peace in your mixes!
They are. They’re waiting. And when you find them, you’ll know it. And when the thought of “they’re the one” clicks, you’ll forever be happy. With them. Whoever they may be. Best of luck my friend.
It hurts so much if you realize you’re sitting here feeling so much pain because you are so in love and this person is always in your head, even in your dreams. You care so much about them and they probably don’t even think about you.
It’s so hard to believe that there aren’t more recent comments than there are. This is such an amazing piece, and I always find myself coming back to it.
I'm surrounded by friends but I couldn't be more alone, each day the intense isolation creeps further into my head, I don't know how much longer I can stand it
It’s a Sunday night and I’m listening to this while crying my eyes out and drinking a big bottle of soda I had a bad day and I guess I’m just tired. I’m tired of trying to make everyone happy and still ending up with this horrible feeling that won’t leave me.Everything is starting to hurt again and I don’t know what to do....but the difference between this time and before is that now I don’t care I just give up.Im tired and i don’t want to fight anymore.I don’t really care about what I want to do or be or who I might fall in love with or if I might not past a test I have.I don’t care if I end up losing all my friends or family because even when I was surrounded by them I still felt so alone.I felt like they were so far from my grasp and the more and more I tried to catch up the more I got hurt and I guess I decided to stop running and to stop holding onto the string that leads me to “happiness” because I just want to be alone and listen to music all day not having to worry about a single thing..but I know no matter what that can never come true sometimes you don’t get what you truly desire and instead end up with the leftover broken feelings someone throws on you and leaves.But who cares right? I don’t anymore so if anyone is reading this probably no one but if somebody is then I just want to say who cares just live your weird life and have fun because life is too short to care about the bad things that might happen.ughh why am I making this sooo emotional okay than I’m leaving now bye 👋 geez don’t worry I’m not going to die or anything I’m just going to sleep it’s like 1:47am here and in tired my stomach hurts from the soda and my eyes are numb so goodnight love you strangers 💞
i know this life won't allow us to be together, but every single lifetime after that, i'll look for you. i'll look for you until i know i can wrap my arms around you and love you in all the ways i cant right now. i will look for you, and i will wait for you, but above all, i will find you and love you endlessly.
its crazy how life is , how one day we can be here and the next be gone. their is no reset button , that's it , no more you , for eternity , make life worth it , dont waste it, its so precious
there's a boy who makes me feel beautiful... for once, someone looked at me as if i were the most precious thing they'd ever seen. for once, someone waited for me.
When your in so much pain but you don't want it to show. And when it becomes to much you fall into despair. But sadly no ones there to pull you out because they don't know what your going through. All you want to do is shout out all your pain and fears and hope someones there to to hear your calls. But your mouth stays stitched closed because your afraid of others seeing the broken half of you. Anxiety's a bitch. Pain caused by others makes it hard to trust anyone. Hate and disgust at yourself leads you to self destruct. 17 with social anxiety and low self-esteem. Never in a million years did I think I would end up on this road still trying to get of with out crashing. To you in the near or far of future who chooses to stay by my side regardless of how low I go. Thank you in advance. For those who are hear now the day will come where we will part ways. And I'll never forget. I promise. I just ask you remember me. I'll wait for you until the very end.
This song reminds me of the pain of loving someone who doesn't love you the same back; you will never have them in the way you want; never receive the love back that you deserve; never share the life you dream to have with them.
As i walk home from work, my mind still somewhere in the abyss of something that could have happened but now never will. When i arrive home its late at night. I sit on the roof top and listen to this track while my mind slowly starts to wander again as i stare into the star filled night sky. Why didnt i stop her when she left? Why didnt i pull her close and told her how much she means to me? Tears run down my face but the stars make me smile again, its just me and lost hope.....
Thank you for this, this is the stuff that I do homework and write essays and get lost in the feels in. This is *my* late-night vibes. Count me in, always.
For all the sad people here, I just wanted to say that one day you will grow up, and being different will be a wanted trait. Don't lose your uniqueness, develop it. Embrace it. Not everyone understands you but it's okay. Find that one person and you'll be all set. I love you all very much.
funny thing is, i was in love with a guy named romeo. i was the one who got attached.. he was my whole world. and one day, i fell asleep and woke up to nothing. he left me.. and i felt everything slip away from me.. it's been a little over a month, and i still miss him so much. i talk to his friend every day, just to see how theyre both doing, thought he doesnt talk about romeo much anymore... it hurts like hell, and i just wish that i could stop loving him.
@@ayaj.8531 Its okay,It will be okay,Im sorry that had happened.He just couldn't understand how much of a precious sweetheart u were.💙 Hes missing out on an amazing person.💙
i hope you all enjoy this mix, i really like how it turned out. perfect for those late night vibes 💜
I made a playlist of all these tracks on Spotify - spoti.fi/3xxIWrb
thank you so much! was so happy when I saw a third one ive been bumping part 2 every day
YASSS perfect and for my drawing! TYSSSMMM I rlly love this it gets me in a mood where I can actually draw something because it’s INSPIRATIONAL.
You roll lat3 night turned out bee
I think i would not make it without your channel
Feels like this mix needs a Part 4, and I will wait for it until the very end
Anyone else missing the good old days?
Raey L no cause I make sure every day is like that
every day....
i miss the days when life didnt enjoy shitting on me so much
Twenty one pilots lol
yes.. everyday...
I miss his smile
I miss his eyes
I miss his laugh
I miss his voice
I miss his hugs
I miss holding his hand and him telling me he loved me
I miss his kisses
I miss the way he changed for me..
I miss everything about him.. everything.. and the fact that everyone use to think we were the cutest couple ever...
but he doesn't miss me.. he likes someone else now.. he told me he'd never leave..💔
Update, got over that retard lol. I'm with someone else now so
I don't know what's worst. To never have it, or to have it and lose it all.
Never having it.
Never have it.
Never have it
Never have it.
Same never having it,bc I feel like ima never have her,on her being married but she wasn’t happy and she was happy talking to me and she got attached as did I,and we talked about being together,living I was legit fax wanted to and would move to her state,she asked if I would! I was happiest when I “had” her lol,but yea the feeling of never having her is fucked,sleepin is hard bc I would look forward to talking to her and texting face timing,but if she doin thing wit her husband,can only say I wish nothing but the best for them,I hope she’s happy FAX! And I wish them the best, I wanted to be with her fo life!! She stopped responding to me after her Xmas break 😥 I called txt,she answered a couple times but I think she hung up😭 but I doubt she will ever see, I know you won’t 🤣😭😒.....your my best friend I’ll always be thinking about you and miss you and WUV YOU,I hope we see each other in the after life and can reunite and be freinds again!!!!! I need my BOO 👻😒🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞🔥🔥🔥🔥
time heals nothing, it only teaches you how to live with the pain
So true
so true my dude and i hate it
So damn true
110%
Not everything is a lesson. Sometimes you just fail.
I absolutely HATE it when 2 people who love each other so much, share the same mutual strong feelings for one another, but simply just can’t make it work for some unknown reason. It’s literally the worst thing to experience emotionally (in my opinion). It’s almost as if the universe doesn’t want you two to be together, no matter how much you love each other. And what’s worse is that you put your ALL in that person, your everything into them, you fight and wait for them, but they just don’t do the same. Even though they have strong emotions for you. Love is weird. People are weird. But that’s life and it’s heartbreaking.
If it doesn't work, it's not love, stop lying to yourself.
Sometimes you're made for each other; just not meant for each other. I relate to this because I'm not with her, and she's not with me.
If they aren't putting all into the relationship they already broke up with you in your head. Leave before you make it worse for yourself
Nicole Gonzalez you’re wrong ng
thank
I don't want to die, but I don't want to be here either.
then go somewhere else :C§!
I heard someone say once that a lot of us that have suicidal thoughts or severe depression really don't want to die, but just want to be alive. Basically be happy instead of suffering all the time, we actually do want to live, just not the way we currently are.
We need to get out of places and feelings we are trapped in. Need to releaaaaaaaase dat stress 🧘
come and live forever with me
I find sleep to be the best remedy for your case.
The silence is calming and the dreams are a place you'd rather be, I can't think of anything better than that.
If you can't sleep well...im sorry
i wonder if my heart will ever accept that you’re not coming back
No
Still to be seen even after all this time.
:(
@@dr.boinkersbookkeeping9028 sorry to hear about that buddy. I hope you find peace and the real women 🙏❤️😊
No matter what you'll go through while I'm not there by your side.
know this, I will accept you still as long as I'm with you. As long as I know I am with you, nothing else matters.
Peaceful 🌆
NEOTIC it is indeed
Your Profile reminds me of my playful days
Your profile pic reminds me of Kindred
We hoy es el día del plátano \:v/
Hello I sub to u love ur vids btw
I look trough the comments.. it makes me feel a bit better somehow.. knowing that I'm not the only person that is going trough stuff.. I feel awful for thinking that tho.. I feel egoistic. I'm sorry everyone that reads this. It's just.. hard waiting for someone that will never comeback. It feels like your whole life is meaningless forever.. I don't need anyone else.. I just needed you and you had to leave without saying a word. You're the person that made me the most happiest but also the saddest. And I just love and hate you at the same time.
SO FUCKING RELATABLE....
I know how you feel... the love of my life disappeared in one day right in front of my eyes. I still can't comprehend it and it's been 3 months... I felt lost my whole life and when I found him... it felt like you life has a reason. To love him. I wonder if I could've made him stay... I would do anything and I tried my best but he still just...left. I miss him so much , I feel like I'm being selfish...
@@monikastrakosova4828 relatable.. the fact that I just don't know what happened to her kills me everyday.. my mind keeps on imaginating the worst scenarios.. this is a a living nightmare I am in and no one can understand or help me
Same hell....its been 1 1/2 yr...i dont miss him..but i miss thatt someone by my side always...ill nvr find him i know this but my heart still awaits..my life feels hell...
@@serialchiller7997 I'm sorry to hear that :(
it's the failures and the bad memories you had in the past and will track you down and make you feel worthless whenever you try to stand up. the fake friends that will talk bad behind your back, you parents who're always rude and always say stuff that hurt you the most, you'll feel lonely and depressed and you'll start to think that no one will ever understand what you feel and what you're going through but i'm here to say that i do and i love you
I still remember the day we first met
Now i am just counting nights
With tears, my eyes can never rest
Got a love the feeling of sitting on a roof just when the sun starts to go down and enjoy the sounds around you, letting all the stress go for an hour not having to think about anything or anyone.
kiity - mist wow couldn’t relate more ❤️
I hate that I miss you, I hate that I am struggling to move on, but mostly, I hate that I still love you...
I know how you feel, I miss him too but we gotta let go. U can't let someone who is supposed to make u happy hurt u.
I can relate so much 💔 i hate him but I still love him 😢
It's very hard to move on but it's the only option when someone you thought would be in your life till the very end wants nothing to do with you anymore
I'm sorry this may sound kind rude but is that the veil nebula? It looks beautiful.
Idk man she really meant something else to me like I’ve liked her for 6 years now and I’ve always fantisized about us having the best relationship and going on adventures all the time. One of our favorites was running away and leaving everything behind just the two of us with money and a car and see where the road will take us and forget everything but us and start a new life together forever. She was the only one that saw past my weird awkard and friendship like personality Bc I’m too ugly and too nice to be in a relationship but she saw past all of that and when I was able to finally make a dream come true one that I have been waiting for my whole life she left me a year later of dating and now I listen to lofi music thinking of just ending it all. I still dream and fantasize us together all the time. I’m back at square one with her again but this time it’s permanent. I’ll always still love her and I shouldn’t. I don’t wanna feel anything Bc all I do feel is pain and sadness Bc I thought and I really poured everything I had into this one person. Now everything is a huge drag and I can’t let go of her no matter what. She will always have a spot in me no matter how much she tore me apart I’m still going to cry for hours on end every night making stuff up in my head that I still have a chance you gotta wait and wait when Ik I will never be with her again. Lofi music just makes me feel numb and that’s what I want. I done want her stabbing into my heart and head every second but I can’t help it.
The sky went from blue to pink...
I had high hopes but now I'm on the brink...
It happened so fast...
There was no time to think...
How I long for the days we were happy...
The sleepless nights and the never-ending stories...
The useless fights and the cute apologies...
The rainy days when you would tell me all your worries...
Now I'm up here...
Your name is still up there...
I can't believe you're gone...
I can't help but hang on...
"I'll wait for you until the very end pt.2"
Alone we must face our demons.
Nicely said
Osman haji mohamed
I’m sorry about this but when u said never-ending story I started singing the never-ending story ._. I couldn’t help it
5 years still missing her the saddest part she doesnt even remember my name
You can do it😙everything good from Austria
Youre not alone in that feeling. Its fucked but be strong. Hope is a beautiful thing. Hope for better.
same
I don't think she's coming back.. but i'll keep waiting.
She not comin back right now homie. Can't keep hurting yourself and telling yourself that. You gotta find your distraction and get YOUR life right, gotta find you a beautiful hunny and set goals, change your life. She was the last chapter you gotta make this the next
Well your comment is a year old so maybe you did do that, if not lessgo
Move on dude. Hope is fucking poison, it will rot you from the inside
I dont think its wrong to keep waiting. For some it’s impossible to move on, and if you are like me, you dont want to forget.
@Spookles if you wanna wait, I’ll wait with you... and if you wanna move on, I’ll try pushing you...
did she come back, have you moved on?
It's sad time once again boys . . .
I'm sorry life is like this. I'm sorry it does this to you . . . the loss, the heartbreak, the sleepless nights. I understand your pain, but . . that doesn't make it any easier I suppose, eh? Hearing, knowing is one thing, but actually experiencing it is another. I just want you to know: life isn't always so terrible, despite what you see, what you hear, what you know, and the like. Your heart won't get broken forever, people won't leave you forever, and one day, you'll find the one - trust me, please. You won't have to wait for them until the very end someday; instead, they'll be right by your side, until the very end. Believe on this - you'll find the one, and your heart won't be broken ever again. I don't just have faith in you - I trust you. Until that beautiful end comes, with your lover beside you, listen to some music.
Enjoy.
You dont need to feel sorryyyyyyy
I always look forward to your comments..
the first thing I do is check the comments for you
What’s ur ig??
Thank you
*i will wait until the end, knowing no one will come...*
Someone will, I swear
*Ik for a fact that you're just going to leave but for now I'll just enjoy what we have.*
wow
That hit me hard
cold ِ Everything eventually comes to an end, that’s life, and you gotta accept it.
Follow openeeyes on Instagram please
💯🖤🖤
I can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel.
As I thought about myself, it made me just more depressed an sad because I see people being happy or successful and I’m laying at 3 am in my bed and start crying because I know that i didn’t do anything right in my life and I don’t think there will be a happy end for me...
Everything is going so bad lately and I’m just so exhausted from everything
i feel the exact same way. everything you just said. hit on point 100%. I hope it works out for all of us in the end. I think we'll be okay eventually. just give it some time buddy.
Hi you don't know me , but I understand you perfectly . I'm a 15 year old teenager who has done a lot of shit in my life and I don't know what to do I have friends , a lot of buddies and still I can't atone for my sins I want to find the person with whom I will discuss this , what I wanted to say by this everything will be fine just now I don't know it's been 2 years maybe it's already been a black streak and I'm already saying not relevant , but still good luck)
I'm not even depressed. I always experience lots of happy moments everyday, but afterwards I feel so much sad. I just think about all the bad stuff going on in my life, and I forget about all the good things. I write down my emotions on my phone's notepad. It's so fucking mind freeing to release your emotions. Today I'm making a comment, not writing on my notepad anymore.
Even when knowing nobody will read what you write, just seeing why you're sad, what is going on, why you want to cry and scream, why you feel empty, it just explains why you're sad. Most times, even if you know why, you just can't stop.
Even if you already know, what you feels just takes over.
I'm writing this comment for myself and for others, maybe it'll be lost, maybe you found it (if you're reading this comment), hope it will help you as well as it helped me.
Sometimes, you can't trust anyone you know -or you thought you know-, because everytime you give your trust, everytime you're disappointed. Everytime you confess, everytime you're rejected. So you can't do it anymore. You just don't want to be hurt. You hide your feelings. You pretend like you're alright. But in reality, the wheight of carrying your emotions alone, of keeping your feelings to yourself crushes you. You've been asking for help countless times, too many times, but at this point you've just stop trying, you already know their answer.
But here, it's different, we're maybe some strangers on internet, but we all understand each other, we've all been through the same things, we're a *family*. Don't be shy.
Dear internet stranger, I read this and felt this on the most deep level. Thankyou. I hope these words which may have rung and or rang true for you are something that shows you you are woth something, and make you feel beautiful. Trust is not easy, and someday I hope u find a bond with someone who u can trust that will never break heart. So u internet stranger I hope u find peace, and if I were
there I would ask unto u a dance just like a fairy tale, a night unto a roof,where we laugh and giggle all night
And a hope, one u can put in your pocket and never lose, have a good world internet stranger a good world indeed.
I can't find any words for this
*Sometimes the dark can be your best friend and your worst enemy...*
00:00 - if you guys want to know where that quote is from it’s from a movie called “good will hunting”
Quote is the best part of this whole thing. Fits perfectly.
ur an angel thank u
It started snowing again... I'm still In love with you... These days surviving without you is my new normal but I still hold onto that ember of hope that you'll come back.
7.6 Billion people in the world . . .
And i have yet to find a single one to love . . .
Why does life do this to me . . .
You’ve only come in contact with maybe 1000 of them so go outside and meet more people fam
fam you not gonna date a fucking african chick who speaks another language and you dont understand her will you
Cuz the best often takes a little bit of time:-) Don't in rush. You and your life will be awesome.
Eunice Li stop giving false hope, life and everything in it is derived from some kind of misery
I like to think that I’ve made up this statement for what life means and it goes, “we don’t always get what we want, but we always get what we deserve”- Luis España. It’s an illogical statement, you don’t deserve any sickness you were born with ect. It’s open to interpretation but for me it means that everything I have is because I made it happen. I haven’t found another person that I can say I love but that’s because I never put any real effort into finding her. I get what i deserve. There are some things we have to work for, wish you all the luck.
Being with my thoughts every night makes me feel calm and so lonely at the same time, 3 years i’ve been like this, still waiting for something to change and be a little bit happy
Despite how toxic the relationship got in the end I wish I could just spend one more day with her with things being like how they used to be...
Same 💔
Same...
Guys, lofi songs helped me a lot. To... stay against depressions. Idk how, but. It have feelings.Thank you for this part.
*nothing lasts forever, not people nor life but love lasts forever and that’s the worse thing that can happen to someone who waits at the peak of morning to the last light of the sunset.*
Sometimes I wonder if there is a timeline out there where im with the right person. In this one nothing ever goes my way and when it starts to feel like something good might happen it ends up blowing up in my face and i end up sadder than before.
I’m sorry..
I understand, sometimes it's like this,life is like this,honestly i don't know how or why but people asked me why i'm single or they Say "why You are lonely? I'm shure some girls wanted someone like You" and i tried but everything it's a mess.
I dream one day to have the right woman at my side,i have good Friends ngl and they are awesome but You know...coming Home and having a cute hug or a Kiss...cute things.
I'm not sad at all,it's just i don't understand why almost all the people become selfish...or less empatic.
It's weird. Seeing how this trilogy was, in a sense, connected to me. Part 1 was the foreshadowing; the prelude, if you will, of the heartbreak that was yet to come. Part 2 was just after it, the immense angst and pain. Part 3 was in hindsight, a reflection and it was all in the span of 2018, too. Maybe now that I'm here, things could get better?
I don't think so. I don't know. I'm tired of hurting.
I'm just glad this is here.
I don't miss her..... but i miss having someone by my side.
Internally Dead So true
I know that feelings.
Facts right there man
Fuck. Why did you just speak my mind 💔
You gon b alright
*I still love you* *-I know you're not coming back-*
Hunny, It's okay. IM giving u a big bear hug rn. Everything gets better. U cant let someone u love hurt u instead of help u. That's all I gotta say. Live by that.
That one human Being :( same
That person will come back, cant stop believing in this
No- CreAtor he didn’t in fact I am isolated from everyone because I can’t hang out with my friends cuz he tells them he doesn’t want me there he’s moved on so idk what’s the problem because we didn’t end in bad terms and like he’s moved on to a new girl
Holly Oconnor it hurts i know that, but if he loved you and was happy with you he will come back, but speak with you friends dont be alone on everything its much worse :(
I love the comments.... its a small reminder that everybody goes through bad times....
WE DO GET OVER THEM.... WE DO MOVE ON...
I did this really weird thing I filmed a small video on my phone... it was just me walking, I just felt really good and happy, everything seemed so far away...
when im sad and feel numb... I watch it
i'll never give up, i will be here waiting for the moment i can see you with my own eyes and finally be happy
She was my everything
She made every day worth it just to see her
I think of her all the time
4 years and every year that goes by I just miss her more
If I saw her i don't know what id do or say
I messed everything up so badly but I was young we both were
I really wish I could take it all back everything I said
some of the choices I made
I just hope she is happy thats all I want and could wish for
she was a depressed 16 year old beautiful girl. i wanted to make her happy again. after 1 year of beautiful friendship, her ig was deleted; she didn't answer me. after one month of questioning her existence, her friend told me that she killed herself. it really broke me and i cant describe my feelings. i miss her.
loinly boi. this was v kind. thank you.
i'm so sorry
Life keeps you going ..the love your famliy gives, the life you have & live.. You're special kid. you just don't know it yet. Keep living your life to the fullest until the end of your days with that one true love.. & try find soles in knowing that she would have wanted better for you & she would have gave you the world if she had the chance..
This is literally the worst shit ever. Fuck.
this is a fact that is happening to me on this christmas eve, i'm alone in the room with my computer and with a shitty void, no friends, without her. funny to think that i can't forget this person so easily. I treated her very cruelly, to be honest I was an asshole and now she's gone. I understand what you went through, I may not be able to answer your comment, if I ever have one! I'm just going to be going through various music and leaving messages around, take care that you are reading this comment ...
The sun is rising, beautiful rays of gold. I wait and wait.
Stuck in a hazy dream of fantasy with you by my side.
I'll wait and wait like the princess in her tower.
Waiting for you to come back until the sun sets, then rises again.
Uh hi there. Ackkk I'm late and didn't check the time! If anyone still sees this then I hope you're doing well, I don't really have any advice other than. Stay happy, it doesn't have to be all the time round the clock but your happiness is important and you don't need to change who you are to be happy. You are you, and if no one else is happy with that, then find someone who is. Well I guess that's it from me, enjoy the music and my words, with that I wish you a good morning, afternoon, evening or night wherever you may be, till next time.❤
Alexa Play Depressito
I really thougnt thoes were ltics i rapped thst one like dead ass yo thank u that hit me i lost my girl and yeah i dont need to change thsnk u amazing human being just knlw it affected me in a good way thamk u and its 4:22 am so idk goodmoing oor nignt haha anywaysbthamks
The sad. The lonely. The Forgotten. The betrayed. The broken hearts...
We all thought we were alone. Then we came to bootlegs channel and realized there is many, many more going through the same shit. It doesn't cure our problems or fix our lives but in some way, its comforting. Not only knowing but seeing with our own eyes that we aren't the only ones hurting. And not only that we actually have a place to go where it feels like the bootleg boy took one look into our eyes, saw our pain. And made music from the tears.
Thank you Bootleg, keep making music. Sometimes its the only comforting thing in someone's day.
I want you to notice me, clearly feeling the same as you do. Trying to hopelessly find emotion in things like you do. Watching the day fade waiting to be consumed by darkness like you do.
Experiencing my own tragedy, just like you are.
The only difference is, you’re not experiencing it alone.
Damn bruh I feel u on that one. Riding this wave out alone does truly suck.
In the evenings, I'm sitting on my roof in Wroclaw, listening to this music. Magic
Sometimes you have to live in the darkness so you can be somebody else’s light
Man the first time I cried in years
All the emotions I kept in just started flowing out and reminded me of all the anger,sadness,and hate I've built up.I hate being alone I have no one to talk to,no one to rely on,no one to love.
U are not alone. I feel the same way. Let's be friends...
@@Shiva-mh6td yeah let's be friends
@@jbbk8369 Nice! So where do u come from :3 Do u use Steam or something like that?
I can never be whole again
A part of me still resides in you
As the sun sets
Your memories start appearing
As moving pictures
In my head.
My soul drowned in the tears
Of regret.
I see beautiful people here, some with broken hearts, some with passion and positivity, some lost souls who don't even belong here.. and many other joyful buddies 🍀 ... I just one say you're freaking amazing! I hope to meet you all some day..
Peace
I hope too !
I know that this all has to end at some point, but I’m still wishing that you’ll stay forever.
Don't ever stop bootleg boy! You give us dreamers hope. Thank you. 💜
I love this part of CZcams, is the only pure thing that is left, nothing is wrong, and the community is awesome.
Dam. She broke my heart.
Beautiful music in the background and reading all the comments make me feel relaxed truly. it still feels there are so many beautiful souls out there in this cruel world. I wish whoever reading this gonna have an amazing life. move on from the past and explore the world
so...hum...I know no one asked me to do this, and probably most of you will just ignore this comment. But if you're reading this well, I need to tell you something. My boyfriend is Brazilian and I'm Portuguese, sooo... we're so so far from each other, but we don't regret. He's trying hard to come visit me and I'm trying hard to make this realtionship happen... if you still reading this... thank you for "listening". And could you please leave me a sugestion??? Thank you again, Have a nice day ✨☺️
So i met this girl at the end of my summer vacation in France, we had a great time but it was just to short (five days) I have her number and we still have contact and i really want to see her again but i feel like its something thats never going to happen even if we make plans. Its weird because i still think about her everyday, i just wish that life wasn't so unfair. These mixes are like a way out for me to imagine if she was mine. 👌
I waited, waited like a fool.
I was there when no one else was, but you never noticed me.
You never waited for me when I needed you the most, always leaving me behind only to look back making sure I was still the faded shadow lingering around your heart.
You were getting better as fast as I was deteriorating.
As you pushed your last step from my shoulders to rise out of this hole, you broke me down one last time.
You ran and ran only to find out you wouldn't make it far without me.
You don't need me anymore.
But little do you know, I will wait for you until the very end...
Even if I reach my last breath and perish.
Nashi -chan 🙏🏻
@@MasterPodi It's been a while lol, the live stream needs to come back because it's killing me T-T
@peachy keene That's neat, I hope as well to you thanks
Nashi -chan 💗
Who hurted your feelers?
The hardest lesson life can teach you is that your biggest love isn't going to be your last and only love . Sometimes love isn't enough.
Sitting in a chair in a dimly lit room, Listening, Yearning, Watching, out the window to the sleepless city nightlife I once loved. Taking a long drag of a hastily rolled blunt, only to let it burn between my fingers for what seems like hours after only a few hits. As the lights of cars dance across the wall, and the ashes fall from the armrest to the hardwood floor, I begin to see it. The dream I have had so many times before, each time feeling more real than the last. As a familiar haze fills my head, from what feels like an eternity ago, I try really hard to remember, even now, 10 years later, I can still remember that face, and the very moment life for us changed forever. Not a single cell in my body knows your touch, but I still remember. Maybe nothing was ever here for us to begin with, but now I am left wondering, hoping, that someday I'll have the answers for the questions I still seek...
Why? Why am I still here and your not? Why couldn't it have been me instead? Why didn't I spend more time with you while I could...
What? What could I have done differently to stop this from happening? What could have been our lives?
How? How many lives have been ruined because of my choices? How many times will I torture myself with the same questions every night?
Where? Where did you go? Where did I go?
When? When will I see you again? When will this all be over...
As a single tear rolls down my cheek, my lifeless eyes stare off into the distance. I say those same words I have always said. "Maybe in another life." As I look down to the burning sensation between my fingers only to realize I have been gone far too long. Pulling myself out of the fog, one thing is certain, like an old dog outside a pizza shop, as promised, I will wait for you until the very end.
That Futurama episode broke my heart :'(
I hope I never forget or lose this mix cause these songs touch my soul
I love these mixes so much please keep doing them
Life loves to dip us in black holes and watch us struggle to get out..knowing our hearts hurt easily..I bet life must enjoy it. It sucks when you’re weak hearted from the start too..sucks. It’s hard to get out..too hard that you just accept it as your life..that your life will forever suck..that you’ll forever be stuck exactly where you are right now..
I just want to achieve my dream and finally feel genuinely happy, but sometimes you ask for too much, according to the voices inside your head and the ones around you. My dream is more than hard to achieve, mentally and physically, but that makes me want to push myself even further. But knowing that everyone around me wouldn’t support me, as a fact. Money, talent, appearance, and so many more things that I would need to have to achieve that dream. Things that I don’t have. I always feel so down because I can only dream so much, until I give up and walk away. It’s been 2 years and I’ve never said anything, and I won’t. There are too many obstacles. I feel overwhelmed and completely and utterly helpless. I just wanted to share this because I’m not bringing this matter to life anytime soon.
The visuals for some of these videos are breathtaking.
sometimes i wish i was a hero , just to have more hope in society not that anyone needs my help , I just wanna fit in with the common everyday people
you can imagine that , it's 4 am now, alone at my room , and playing this on my computer with full screen, all the lights are off , so those magical colors from my computer screen are decorating my walls ,I'm laying in bed in front of this amazing view while relaxing my ears with this masterpiece my soul is slowly dancing , i can lay here until i fall asleep like child .. and wake up in the morning with a heart full of love , and full charged soul .
This is my favorite comment
Extremely honored to be featured in this mix Buddy. Love to you all.
PoolzOfficial great work on the track; 1 of my 2 favs from this mix 🌊
@@doctorcameltoe Awesome! Thank you Doctor Cameltoe haha.
I loved it 👍
@@fiona.yiaski221 Thanks Death,
@@PoolzOfficial np 😘
*anyone wanna join me on the roof*
._.
really, dont say that.
Aye bruh if you mean chill on the roof, than im totally down lets do it.
@@marknugent283 im down bois. Anyone got a blunt?
Ready when you are......
any room left 😕?
We became friends so quickly. She called me a Lake and I called her a Wildfire. We were always there for each other. It was intense. Oh so intense. Painful sometimes too, but it still got us high like an addiction. We ended up figuring out we were inlove. But I didn't physically like girls and she didn't want to have an online relationship, so we agreed to stay friends, even though we told each other 'I love you' several times a day. It was such a beautiful friendship. I wrote things for her. She drew us, laying in the grass and looking up at the sky. Happy. Together. Smiling. Laughing. Joking together. All the things we craved to do when we would finally meet.
We met, on January 2nd, 2018. In Paris. We spent a day there, and we hugged, even though she is on the autism spectrum and therefore doesn't usually like hugs, she actually wanted and accepted mine. I still have a few pictures of us together, and they have more value to me than most of the things I own. I will remember this cold and rainy day as one of the happiest of my life.
At the end of that day, in the metro, seconds before we had to leave each other, she gave me half of a Star Trek friendship necklace. On it, the famous quote : "You have been, and always shall be, my friend." she let me choose which half of the quote to keep. I chose the one without the always. I wanted her to have it. I wanted her to remember that I would always be her friend. Always. The metro stopped. We hugged. I left.
I never saw her again. Only one picture, when she got home and sent me a pic of her wearing the necklace. I sent one back of me wearing mine.
A month later, I felt suicidal during my school day. I had a panic attack later that afternoon and held onto the necklace so hard it broke, the small part holding it together disappearing on the ground. I was never able to find it again, but kept the broken necklace with me anyway. That day I thought I had lost all my friends from high school, and all I had left was her, my wild fire, the one I loved in the purest way I had ever loved anyone. So I told her. I told her I had had suicidal thoughts. I wanted her to comfort me, just a "I don't want you to be gone" would have been enough. I just needed to be honest with her, and to know she was there for me, as she always had been.
Worst mistake of my entire life.
She couldn't handle it. She got upset. She told me she was leaving for diner but instead went to her mom so her mom would text me in her place, and her mom broke our friendship. Told me to go away. to stop upsetting her daughter. that i was toxic for her. I protested, I thought her mom had stole her phone and was doing this without my wild fire's agreement. I stopped texting back to her mom and waited for my wild fire to text me, join me in any way possible. I waited twelve days, before seeing her connected on messenger and deciding this was too much. I sent her a text, asking if she was alright, if her mom had gave her phone back. If she was mad at me or something.
it was her mom who answered. I was furious. I wanted to talk to my friend. I wanted to cry and punch a wall but all I did was get mad at her mom, who finally let my friend talk to me.
And my wild fire... she was... she was so angry with me. but also, like... empty. hurt. She didn't want me near her again. or not before a very long time. I begged her to let me have a second chance. I begged her again and again, i was crying behind my screen, desperate to find the right words to make her stay, to not let all we had built get destroyed.
it didnt work. she blocked me. that night I agonised as if someone was stabbing me slowly in the chest, constantly. I didn't sleep.
Months later, I tried to connect with her again through a common friend we had. This friend told me she didn't want to talk to me, but she still loved me, and wanted me to know she is not angry, and that she will come back one day.
It felt great, and I couldn't wait. Suddenly I was addicted again and needed to know more about what she had become, and when would she come back ? I was like an excited puppy.
That got me metaphorically kicked and thrown outside. Too clingy. I always was, I guess.
I tried again four months later. This time our common friend answered "Yeah, he's fine."
I was confused. "He ?"
"Yeah, he's a boy now. Don't call him by this name anymore, it's this name now."
"Oh, cool name, I like it. Is he alright ? Can I talk to him ?"
"I guess you can ? Just join him on fb, but don't tell him I gave you his username."
"I swear. Thank you so much for helping me"
Before I could ever send more than "hi" our common friend was texting me again. but it wasn't him. it was wild fire.
saying me He didn't want to talk to me, that I couldn't have changed so much in a year, that I was lying and toxic, that he and I should not be missing what we had, because it was toxic. That thinking of me still hurts him, and if I respect him, I should stop trying to talk to him. He told me that if we crossed paths again in a few years, and we were in a right place in our minds at that moment, then we could maybe be friends again, and that if it never happens, I should not be sad about it, but happy it happened.
then our common friend blocked me, leaving me with no means of communicating with Wildfire ever again, unless i start stalking him or something, which I won't do, I respect him.
I still love him. Even though it feels like my wild fire died with his female identity. And I will wait for him. I will wait for him until the very end, if he needs me to wait that long. I don't want to date him, even though he is a boy. But I will never stop considering him my friend. I still have this broken half a friendship necklace. I still have those memories. The meaning behind our nicknames, so deep and beautiful. And I still crave to be there for him through his hard times. It makes me want to cry everytime I think about the conversations we had, the laughs, and the intense and deep understanding we had of each others.
I'm in a new school now, a film school, in paris. Sometimes, I find myself somewhere where wildfire and I once were, and I can see her ghost, smiling to me, holding out her hand, and her deep grey eyes, so accepting, understanding.
I think soulmates exist. I think there is not just one of them for each persons. I think my wild fire is one of my soulmates. And I will not give up on him. No matter his sexual identity, no matter what he did to me, no matter how long I have to wait.
I still love him.
-Lake
i love this. youre a beautiful writer. im sorry you lost your wildfire.
@@rintintin65 thank you so much... We had made plans you know. Since I write so much, and she, well he, draws so well, we wanted to create illustrated stories together.
I haven't given up on him. I don't consider him as lost, just, temporarily gone from my life. It hurts less when i remember that he would probably agree to talk to me in a few years ^^
@@sarahlassaut9543 If you need a friend, im here. never lose hope.
@@rintintin65 I would love to have a new friend, and you seem nice :)
And I'm never gonna lose hope about my Wildfire, never.
@@rintintin65 zeyraao3@gmail.com
whats the point in life
we all die at some point
in 100 years no one will remember you
unless you're some pop star celebrity
in the end, nothing matters
life ends
we end
everything comes to an end whether its happy or not
do you remember?
childhood
everything was so simple
and easy
yet you always hated it at the time
when you couldn't wait to be an adult
and have no more math homework
do you remember?
trying to impress other people
if you arent good enough, whats the point?
what if people dont like you?
what if you are different?
what if theres no point
at one point
we all have to say goodbye
to happiness
to joy
to friends
to family
to beloved pets
or animals
or anything
say goodbye to all hope
when sadness takes over
everything is numb
why cant i feel anything
why dont you love me
whats wrong with me
why do you like me
why am i different
why am i the same to everyone else
why dont i have friends
why do people wish death on me
why is life so cruel
why doesnt anyone have any love in them
why are you asking so many questions?
does it matter in the end?
does anyone matter
does life matter
im not okay
you arent either
are you alright?
when was the last time someone asked if you were alright
take a long think
done?
does anyone love you
do they?
no?
why?
why doesnt anyone like you?
am i a fool?
are you a fool?
are we all fools?
life is a fool
we are all destroyed
mentally
physically
are you ok?
do you need help?
i love you.
To live... not just survive. Living is different from not dying. Living is different from breathing.
Do things your passionate about.
Find things you like.
Find people you like.
Find someone you love.
Happiness wouldn't be the same without death, and love needs heartbreak. Same with life; without death, there is no challenge.
Do shit. Go.
Mia Reynolds holy shit finally found someone here who I 100% agree with.
mallard. Pretty much a perfect comment in terms of the development of the mind... but I’m still caught in the ever repeating limbo, nothing changes anymore and nothing makes me happy. Hope is lost.
Have u seen christianity
pɹɐllɐɯ my point in life is to be just happy. If it as you doesn’t matter at all, why don’t enjoy it?
Will this loneliness ever end or I'll be this way my whole life
Feel like I’m gonna die alone without any impact just a waste
I totally relate
I love this series so much!!!
While Listening... I imagine a future where I'm not lonely anymore..... Because I found you.
I will wait for you.
I will definitely find you.
...
Don't wait. You are the happiness, you have it inside of you. Don't look or expect to get it from other. Look back when you was a child, YOU are full of LOVE, and you give it to other.
Now you are empty, and becoming a love begger. We growing up, being taught to live for others, to love others. But actually, you need to love yourself and then love other. If you love someone...
Let them go.
The universe is impermanent,always in a state of change. sending love to you all :)
I love all three mixes of this.I love especially when I feel like I just need something to lift me up. Thx you
there's too many people that left that are happier without me.
too many times i tried to be better for someone only for them to hate me more.
the ones that moved on when i didn't.
it's hard to get better sometimes, when you can't forget.
This upload reminded me of the comment I posted under the first part (I think). Back then, I was deeply lovesick over a girl that changed too much. Today, I can say that I have never felt happier before in terms of love. I found the most amazing young man I could have dreamed of. He is the sweetest, funniest, loveable guy I've ever met.
Thank you to all of you who told me that it gets better.
Thank you to bootleg boy, I still find comfort and peace in your mixes!
Let me get this straight , so you were straight guy and you turned to be gay ?
i dont think there will be someone ever whos waiting for me.
They are. They’re waiting. And when you find them, you’ll know it. And when the thought of “they’re the one” clicks, you’ll forever be happy. With them. Whoever they may be. Best of luck my friend.
Dude, that intro gave me so much goosebumps I started sweating. Digi it.
“Can’t get out now the pain has taken over me”
In his strong hand the man held a Rose, and his aura burned bright 🔥🥀
It hurts so much if you realize you’re sitting here feeling so much pain because you are so in love and this person is always in your head, even in your dreams. You care so much about them and they probably don’t even think about you.
It’s so hard to believe that there aren’t more recent comments than there are. This is such an amazing piece, and I always find myself coming back to it.
I'm surrounded by friends but I couldn't be more alone, each day the intense isolation creeps further into my head, I don't know how much longer I can stand it
every night i am awake, till i'm sure, that you're sleeping
nibba Tskn Not gonna lie I didn’t expect that but it made me lol
@@moistsquatch6159 spelled* ;)
Crimson Warrior spelt is a word my guy.
"I don't care about you anymore."
But i do...
It’s a Sunday night and I’m listening to this while crying my eyes out and drinking a big bottle of soda I had a bad day and I guess I’m just tired. I’m tired of trying to make everyone happy and still ending up with this horrible feeling that won’t leave me.Everything is starting to hurt again and I don’t know what to do....but the difference between this time and before is that now I don’t care I just give up.Im tired and i don’t want to fight anymore.I don’t really care about what I want to do or be or who I might fall in love with or if I might not past a test I have.I don’t care if I end up losing all my friends or family because even when I was surrounded by them I still felt so alone.I felt like they were so far from my grasp and the more and more I tried to catch up the more I got hurt and I guess I decided to stop running and to stop holding onto the string that leads me to “happiness” because I just want to be alone and listen to music all day not having to worry about a single thing..but I know no matter what that can never come true sometimes you don’t get what you truly desire and instead end up with the leftover broken feelings someone throws on you and leaves.But who cares right? I don’t anymore so if anyone is reading this probably no one but if somebody is then I just want to say who cares just live your weird life and have fun because life is too short to care about the bad things that might happen.ughh why am I making this sooo emotional okay than I’m leaving now bye 👋 geez don’t worry I’m not going to die or anything I’m just going to sleep it’s like 1:47am here and in tired my stomach hurts from the soda and my eyes are numb so goodnight love you strangers 💞
Take care 💕
You wanna talk? I'm a good set of
Ears.
@@starwarsxexocollab1393 thank you :)
@@calebcarl4708yeah that would be great thank you:).
@@GuadalupeHernandez-go8yv you're welcome ~
i know this life won't allow us to be together, but every single lifetime after that, i'll look for you. i'll look for you until i know i can wrap my arms around you and love you in all the ways i cant right now. i will look for you, and i will wait for you, but above all, i will find you and love you endlessly.
its crazy how life is , how one day we can be here and the next be gone. their is no reset button , that's it , no more you , for eternity , make life worth it , dont waste it, its so precious
I got no one to love at the moment but thats ok
Same here
Because the one that i love..... "continue"
Ethan Schumacher love yourself. u deserve ever bit of love i promise.
It’s alright. It’s alright… I guess…
But I hate myself...
there's a boy who makes me feel beautiful... for once, someone looked at me as if i were the most precious thing they'd ever seen. for once, someone waited for me.
When your in so much pain but you don't want it to show. And when it becomes to much you fall into despair. But sadly no ones there to pull you out because they don't know what your going through. All you want to do is shout out all your pain and fears and hope someones there to to hear your calls. But your mouth stays stitched closed because your afraid of others seeing the broken half of you. Anxiety's a bitch. Pain caused by others makes it hard to trust anyone. Hate and disgust at yourself leads you to self destruct. 17 with social anxiety and low self-esteem. Never in a million years did I think I would end up on this road still trying to get of with out crashing. To you in the near or far of future who chooses to stay by my side regardless of how low I go. Thank you in advance. For those who are hear now the day will come where we will part ways. And I'll never forget. I promise. I just ask you remember me. I'll wait for you until the very end.
i dont know if i will even meet her but with you guys
ALL this community chill with you makes me feel safe
tnx guys
tnx a lot
: ' D
Thank you for sharing this. I will wait for it (or call it my another) till the end. Keep being strong
This song reminds me of the pain of loving someone who doesn't love you the same back; you will never have them in the way you want; never receive the love back that you deserve; never share the life you dream to have with them.
As i walk home from work, my mind still somewhere in the abyss of something that could have happened but now never will. When i arrive home its late at night. I sit on the roof top and listen to this track while my mind slowly starts to wander again as i stare into the star filled night sky. Why didnt i stop her when she left? Why didnt i pull her close and told her how much she means to me? Tears run down my face but the stars make me smile again, its just me and lost hope.....
fuck dude im sorry
sometimes things just dont end up like we want it to
Thank you for this, this is the stuff that I do homework and write essays and get lost in the feels in. This is *my* late-night vibes. Count me in, always.
For all the sad people here, I just wanted to say that one day you will grow up, and being different will be a wanted trait. Don't lose your uniqueness, develop it. Embrace it. Not everyone understands you but it's okay. Find that one person and you'll be all set. I love you all very much.
happy new years, lets hope to a better year to come, a better decade to come.
dear romeo don't get too attached
it's like the story goes, we're both gonna end up dead...
funny thing is, i was in love with a guy named romeo. i was the one who got attached.. he was my whole world. and one day, i fell asleep and woke up to nothing. he left me.. and i felt everything slip away from me.. it's been a little over a month, and i still miss him so much. i talk to his friend every day, just to see how theyre both doing, thought he doesnt talk about romeo much anymore... it hurts like hell, and i just wish that i could stop loving him.
@@ayaj.8531 Its okay,It will be okay,Im sorry that had happened.He just couldn't understand how much of a precious sweetheart u were.💙
Hes missing out on an amazing person.💙
I feel as I’m a piece of broken glass, I can’t be broken anymore nor can I be fixed.
much freaking needed ⛈
Listening to this after my heart broken makes me feel better 💔😔