I had a unitive mystical experience where I existed outside of time and space. I was one with everything and everyone. Was like looking through the “eye of god”. Knew everything. Came back to ego and spent years integrating the experience. Woot.
Thank you so so so infinity much. I love that you spend time explaining that the experiences can't exactly be put into words, because I realize that this is why I doubt my own experience in my mind, all while I discuss the reality of my experience with my guides. I simply can't explain to any other humans or even myself an experience that is a full spectrum feeling. I was lucky enough to be work-free in a sunny mountain town and for about three months , time meant nothing. I was awake all night asleep ..at 5 am ..I did not care and rarely talked to people.. I felt weird around my friends..was BLISSED out learning tarot, listening to these messages in absolute awe, and speaking to this 5 guide posse that's still here. Your language skills are so graceful and intelligent. What a gift! Thank you! I love this!
Thank you for sharing this wonderful moment with us! 🙏✨ When you said something along the lines that you became space itself, it made me think that you transitioned into 4th density fully, realizing that you are the dimension itself that you exist in. And nothing can be external to that, which makes all the sense, it has all been you all along! Thank you for all of your videos! Much love and light 🌀🤍🌐
All I can say is that the same happened in this life two years ago and has changed it forever. Here's one of the poems I (the ego) wrote to try and comprehend it to others: I sit here and stare, My eyes lost to the boundless depths of my mind. As I stare, I begin to wonder, “What am I?” A question worthy of mine; A question worthy of time. What am I? Nay, What are you? You who begets me, You whom I have known the unknowing of, You, who like the sun across the horizon on a winter’s eve, I had thought forsaken. For who am I to ask of myself, Without first asking of you? You who was before me, You who lay within the thought of we. Yes I may be more wise of worldly affairs and the materials I see, Yet none are so wise as yourself, In the knowing of me. I sit here and stare a little longer, The eyes of us catching a glint of light in the trees, Or strands of hair passing in the breeze. I see you in them. I see you in them because you can see yourself. You see yourself, And deliver your joy to mine in the making. My understanding of this world glistening in your splendour; Your wonder. Your unknowing of the known that begets this knowledge of mine. Your understanding of the whole, And your passage into my waking eyes. Oh what wonder you hold, Oh what wonder you behold! It is not for me to wish for you, But for you to wish for me; A wish gladly granted, As much as you would grant it to ‘we’. The passing whisper of a dream, Held in perfect bliss; The ever-shining star. I sit here and stare, My mind electric with you, My mind swimming with you. As I stare, I notice our smile and state, “I am what I am, And I am my own fate.”
I was very sick with disease and tried visualizations affirmations and meditation. I healed my body but then I began having mystical experiences. I literally had no idea what was happening. I gained all of this knowledge before “knowing about it”. It’s so fun to find others.
THAT was totally amazing. And I “get it” “I get you” you feel like as soon as a word flow out to attempt to describe it that its already minimized… I had my own break down aka breakthrough and my entire existance is different… all of it…. And here I’m only beginning…”so to speak” Yes… its “out of this world” literally.. ok lets just leave it there. Much love, Brenda PS: you are soooo ahead of your time “ “ you are brilliant, and you are literally an earth angel doing such a great service. You are changing the world. Keep the ripples going…. Im only just beginning that step now. ❤
I too have had this experience, several times. IYKYK. I've also been a student of Vedanta for three years and came into tarot through Robert Ryan's Tarot Tantra Esoterica deck and book. Thank you for all of this wonderful content you share.
The book, "Perfect, Brilliant, Stillness," by David Carse, does a great job at putting words to it. It's such a beautiful read, like a piece of music...
So much Love for you Joe….. I had some intense flash backs of my experience as well while watching this incredibly well done video… My mind was out of this world for some time. I sometimes miss that version of myself. Thank you so much for sharing.
I have peak experiences very often. It usually involve a lot of uncontrollable tears of joy. The only way I can describe it is an intense sense of gratitude. They usually only last for a few seconds, but once it lasted for about an hour and it changed my life. I live each day like it was the first day after a near death experience. I now have this weird insatiable need to help people. People don't deserve to be this happy. It's like going insane in the most wonderous way.
Baba Ram Dass said "When I was born I donned a space suit for living on this plane." The problem is that we identify so much with the suit that we forget who we really are. Congrats on getting out of the suit! उप एक All One
I totally think you tasted enlightenment, the full realization that we are one. We are source. In Buddhism, as you enter the jhanas you get this bliss and the realization of “no self” The ego dies and pure thought remains. Take away your body, your feelings, perceptions, mental formations. What do you have left? Bliss. We don’t suffer anymore because we have no attachments ❤ I’m so happy for you!
Oh Honey! Outstanding! Sharing this took enormous courage. I honor that above all else. Sweetheart YOU had a "living Near death Experience." You have reached the level of Mastery in your frequency that you induced a waking death interaction. F***ing AMAZING! Thank you for sharing this, it is SO intimate & private. To be vulnerable with this subject matter is heroic to say the least. In 91' I was 20, I was ejected from my car & had an NDE. Sweet thing, I went to that place they call the "void." Void is a great description to get the visual of this "realm" but its the opposite of a void. Its filled with Substance, exactly as the Kybalion describes, The One. The core Consciousness of Source exists within its own dimension. The substance is like being in an invisible thick cloud. I can only describe it as, Ready Potential. its HIGHLY interactive!!!!! I love the message you came back with!!! Thats sort of a trademark of having been there. mine were, "All that matters is LOVE & To Serve is to be Served." Im ALL IN with this topic matter dear brother! A hard thumbs up on this one! 🐸
Thank you so much for the kind words and the information. That's very helpful and super interesting. It definitely felt like a sort of death. I love that you quoted the Kybalion. Such a great book. "Ready Potential" is such a cool couple words. Well said. Glad we are connected. It's so cool reminiscing on the "ready potential". It can be easy to lose site of such beautiful experiences as time goes by.
@@JoeMonteleone You’re an exceptional Human Being Joe ⭐️ it gives me great comfort seeing your post & knowing your “out there!” Your one of the very few I’ve shared my NDE with. Ppl don’t respond well to folks who claim to have “been there and back.” Source is so awesome. It’s such a blessing to be thick as thieves w Master Consciousness, as you know. 😉 All is One, and it ROCKS! 🍀🐸🍀 Big hugs 🤗 beautiful brother ⭐️
After my experience i became enamoured and highly open to spiritual, religious, and metaphoric ways of thinking. The day before i was a militant athiest who resented religious people and enjoyed attacking them for their beleifs. Fyi, for ME to become open to such ways of thought and beleif isnt trivial, its literally changed my entire perspective of the the world. Think of living your entire life both blind and deaf and not knowing that you cant. then all of sudden in an instant you can see and hear everything. It was the most jarring and profound moment in my life. Ive been looking into mysticism, religion, philosophy, and consciousness ever since. I havent come close to understanding that experience but ive developed an intuition about "the experience" that works for now. Ultimate reality can kind of be imagined like this.... For anything to exist, i mean literally anything, it necessarily must exist in relationship to an observer. The big bang, only has an existence within the subjective experience of the one picturing it. Love, exists only because a subject can feel it. Without a subject to perceive, existence is impossible. Time and space are literally defined in terms of experience. Without a subject experiencing time and its duration, it doesnt exist. Think of "if a tree falls and no one hears it, did it make a sound?" The answer is no. Sound is the experience. Time is the experience, space is the experience. Thats just the starting place, now think of this. If nothing can have a real existence unless its in relationship to a subject, then it is the existence of the subject which is the foundation of reality. Not matter or energy, because those can only exist within the perception of the subject. If the subject is the ground of being, then you, as an ego/individual also exist within the perception of a subject, and because we are mortal beings innbodies made of matter and subject to the laws of physics, that means our egoic/individual bodies, memories, experience, etc are not related to who we truly are. Our individual existences are simply experiences of a subject who isnt "us". That subject, that being, is necessarily eternal, singular, and infinite. Who is currently experiencing Jax Whitten commenting on a youtube video. That being, the "I" in "I am" is the singular, all encompassing foundation of all being. It has not physical form, qualities, or "thingness". Its whats left over when you strip away all subjective experience and you're left with the subject as such. Its what the blindman sees when you describe a rainbow to him. Its the nothingness that all things exist in. Its 0 and infinity as one. Its the photon travelling at the speed of light that travels eternally through space yet experiences no time.
My wife was exposed to many religions as a kid, including eastern cyclical religions and I believe, somewhat inadvertently, she guided me on a few shamanistic revelations. And I REALLY needed that. Yes mind-altering substances were used but I think A) It changed me permanently for the better and B) Wasn't even the traditional psychedelics. Just MJ edibles. All I think I really needed was a way to tell my overactive (ADHD) mind to calm down so I could deeply think. She had her own transcendent experience of meeting Gaia, as I call it, and with her example, I pushed my own boundaries a few times. I've had two, mainly. 1 is the time I believe I constructed an 'artist's representation' of 4dimension space and realized that, to me, one dimension is human (or otherwise) perception itself. We all bring our own dimension to reality. And 2, I wonder if I had something similar to a temp ego death. Watching Psych integration content afterwards, I believe it was similar but more like evading my ego for a short time. Basically I felt what it would be like to not exist myself, and also what everyone else on the planet's existence is like. I saw a huge web or tapistry of life from a bird's eye view, and could see all the many connections between each other and everything else. I saw the value of TRUE diversity, like biological and perspective diversity, I realized my way is never THE way, it's just A way, and I realized that we are all one, and my attachment to my own individual existence was fine in some ways, but not the end-all-be-all and over attaching to that leads me to tons of stress and control freakouts over something I can never control. It's all so fascinating to me b/c I was a STAUNCH atheist in my teens and 20's, and now in my 30's I have gained what I've heard described as "faith in a higher power" which I never would have expected. And my existential crises' no longer cause a panic attack and lasting damage. Now they're an interesting thought pattern to have and observe and I feel so much less like I'm jumping into the void and more like I'm exploring reality. Anyway, great video! Great way to describe your experience. In many ways, I feel like we had a similar lesson here.
Oh cool! I have a super ADHD mind as well. It has definitely come in handy though. That's beautiful. That reminds me of Indra's net. This is so relatable, and so beautiful! Ain't that the truth. Having the awareness of the "higher power" without a dogma is such a gift and so comforting. just being :)
Thank you so much for your vulnerability and for sharing this. I did a shamanic journeying (non-psychotropic) this past weekend and part of the meditation was lying down on a crystal table and imagining our energy bodies fractalizing into everything that is love and evaporating into nothingness and then coming back into our earthly bodies. After listening to your story, it was as if the shaman was trying to get the practitioners to experience the same mystical experience you encountered in a sequential, linear delivered way, as if...this is the way to get that enlightenedness. However it goes and however we get there-it's pretty darn cool.
I had a Darshan in the Shiva temple on Kauai. Utter and complete total bliss along with an infinite fractal vision of Totality. Years ago and I am still processing it. Beautiful.
Me too..... i was sure i was either dead or insane and hoping for the former. These "visions" or other realities i was thrown into happened randomly over a couple years. Maybe 10-20 times. Some i could pull myself out of and some i couldn't. I ended up in jail twice and the psyche ward i checked myself into, discharged me. The psychiatrist said i was having a "spiritual awakening". I said, what's that? He said, go home n look it up. Lmao. I also felt that oh so profound feeling that's so much more than what we call love. I think that's what I've been chasing ever since. ❤
Great video, thank you for sharing your story. I just found your channel recently and am loving it. You probably have heard this before, but you radiate a powerful energy, and your eyes simply glow. To me, the eyes are truly the window to the soul. I also have had a living near death experience, and many other mystical experiences. Your channel resonates with me very much. I really like your approach to Tarot. Looking forward to watching more..
this video was everything i was hoping it would be and so much more. my feelers felt your feelers at about 15 seconds in! i did the same journaling (prob the best idea ever had!!) and it also took me a couple years before l was (pretty) sure i wasn't crazy. but the best part of this video is how happy you look when you're (attempting to) re-live it!
Just found you today and I love your style. When you were talking about being able to detect others “who have been out of here”. I can relate. I’ve also noticed a reaction of apprehension from those who don’t know towards my being. I’ve stopped being hurt by that so much, but in the beginning it hurt realizing how most humans are actively enforcing negative and harmful self belief in anyone who comes near their sphere of influence.now when someone is unkind to me for being what I am, It reminds me to not be guilty of doing the same thing back to them. They are going through different lessons and I used to be like them. I just pray for them to be guided out of illusion.
That was such a great testimonial. I relate to it. Experienced this satori moment a few times in ayahuasca journeys. Wanted to write it down, but it lost its intensity as soon as I tried to "cage" it into words. And it became pretty obvious, the nothingness is the last level, when we successfuly unlearned and deconditioned ourselves. That's when we're given a blank canva to write our story the way we REALLY want it to be. Much love to all
I have had a couple of glimpses through meditation and years ago, psychedelics. In the meditation experience everything just opened up and I had no center and it just felt like everything and infinity. It didn’t last long but Just enough to know it’s there. Beautiful video. You deserve way more subscribers
Thank you so much for sharing this with us Joe! This got me thinking about a lot of experiences that I had when I was a child. I distinctly remember feeling like I was out of my body and feeling like everything around me wasn't real. For the life of me I can't explain it in any way that will make sense, aside from the thought... "WTF IS ALL THIS AROUND ME". The older I got, the less it occurred and I wonder if that has to do with the amount of distractions and diversions that have grown around me.
Ooh very cool and very interesting. I have had that experience to where the "matrix" or the "phantom show of time and space and culture" becomes familiar again, certain things anchor me back into "normalcy". It's interesting.
Yes 👍 this was great! Thanks for sharing! I had a similar experience but it lasted for 120 days. It was total bliss. But not to my friends and family. I am still sorting out everything from the experience. This happened in 2013.
Hi Joe- as your intention was (among others) to connect to others with similar experiences here is my two cents ;) I had a blissful experience of one-ness (and meeting gaia) this summer and in the many years before a lot of experiences that led up to that moment (some more, some less frightening). I get the feeling that the line between a mystical experience and simply "crazy" can be thin. Though I've never experiences full "psychosis" as you describe it I've had other experiences that were too big for my mind to process for that moment. And as I have mystical experiences daily/weekly it does feel like walking on a thin line sometimes. I try to take smaller now steps that my ego can handle. The way is the goal ;) And our spiritual paths are not a race anyways. It feels like an art to me to move between those different worlds/planes and I find it reassuring to hear similar stories. May we all be safe on our paths 🌻
I love this so much! Someone else recently told me about having a mystical experience related to Gaia as well (maybe it was a dream though). That is so cool. The more I reflect and explore, the more I realize how thin that line really is. Perhaps it is psychosis for the ego, and truth for the ground of being from which the ego arises. Hmmm
@@JoeMonteleone Thanks! It was a wonderful experience (actually three) that left me with a feeling of the earth as truly being my mother. I feel really safe and protected (in nature) now. Very very greatful for that 🙏 Well I guess from the standpoint of the ground of being there is only experience and thus no true or false anyways? Psychosis (or any other "mental health problems" for that matter) are only a more extreme form of common human experiences. The ego and human body tell us that they have no other way of handling the current situation than going into these states. Which might be helpful or unhelpful depending on the situation. And it totally makes sense for me with spirituatlity because we are experiencing things that our mind and body are (initially) not designed for. It's not impossible but really a complete reprogramming. Spiritual awakening needs thus an awareness of the workings of our ego and the workings of our higher self and re-learning of the two working together. I see this with monchs or shamans who can be very much spiritually advanced and at the same time very grounded. We need both! I hope this makes sense haha. Trying to keep my long thoughts short.
It sounds like you lost your ego. You were pure consciousness existing in the eternal present. Now I know that the ego has a function. It's when we're encapsulated in the body that we can create a mask and ego. I think it was a state of Shiva. That which is not. The divine masculine is consciousness without ego.
Yes! Exactly that. That is what I am coming to understand, how the divine masculine is pure consciousness and how the divine feminine is that consciousness moving forth into form and creativity. I've always been aware of that as Kabbalah presents it but I'm starting to branch out and see the same pattern everywhere. It's so fun! I had a wise person once tell me this that gave me chills "When you are alive, shiva is in you. When you die, you are in shiva."
I can honestly say I have not had anything happen to me like you describe here. YET 😊 I have heard it described by Paul Levy on Open Minds on Gaia. The episode was titled Quantum Spirituality. He wrote the book Quantum Revelation: A Radical Synthesis of Science and Spirituality. He even said some people get wrongly labeled as insane and locked up in the psychiatric ward for the effects an awakening so powerful can have on a person. He did, in fact, spend time in the hospital on several occasions due to his experience and when he found terra firm once again with a totally and radically different bead on things, he knew there had to be many more like himself. He said it was his inner knowing that saved him and that the psychiatrists just had no concept of his experience, which he knew to be very real indeed, because they couldn't see past their own narrow views of psychology. I'm so glad you found your footing after your amazing experience and managed to avoid those who would slap labels on you in the process of misunderstanding it. Joe, I can't thank you enough for sharing something so personal and vulnerable. You are such an amazing being and I am better for knowing you. I think you will be successful in normalizing such a wonderous and largely misunderstood awakening. Thank you for BEING. Much love and respect to you, Sir. Hugs from Montana Cheers!
Hi Julie! I'm going to check out Paul Levy thank you! It's such an interesting topic and I've some other people who also were labeled insane. I'm starting to consider how many labels are actually the same thing. What one person calls "energy work" for example, another might call "body-centered therapy" and another might call something else. It's hard to say. Thank you so much for the kind words Julie! It's always amazing having your support. Thank YOU for being, and all the magic and positivity you put into the world!
Great idea! There's different forms of meditation, but the basic idea is to observe. You can start by focusing on an external object, like a candle, or mandala, or just a point on the wall, and anytime your mind wanders just gently bring it back to the external object. Another form is to focus on an internal object, like the image of a triangle or something beautiful in your mind. The most advanced form is to focus on what is doing the focusing, pure awareness. What I try to do through out the day is, whenever I can remember, I ask "what is observing this? And what is observing this?" and then I take a comfortable inhale and become aware of the space itself that is my mind. My mind, to me, feels like "space" when I am at peace, and when I am distracted by thoughts, it feels like a maze, heavy.
Could you maybe very briefly elucidate on what meditation technique did you use? Because a lot of very different thigs could be called meditation. It would be interesting and possibly helpful to many to know what worked for you.
Yes absolutely. I was doing one of Joe Dispenz'as meditation. Sometimes it was just his "count down into alpha" (I forget the name). Sometimes it was the whole hour, and other times it was just watching the blackness of my eyes and all my thoughts. If you want, I can email you a recording of the guided meditation that I made for myself.
Similar but not Once upon a time, a few years ago. I told the universe I was ready to open my third eye. A series of crystals and books and documentaries that began to naturally make their way into my existence. Until one evening under great astrological events, I cannot remember which, I felt my mind open and double. I've gained the ability to see in my head As clear as i can see this phone I'm typing on Let me see if i can explain this Imagine anime cartoon , a man, profile view ( sideways ) Inside his head is a white glowing ball , that occupies the entire center mass (70%) Not translucent, but opaque white. Like a tv projector backdrop. What his world around him looks like he can see with his eyes and it is ALSO playing in that white glowing ball Also During a physical motion - He can shift the percecption from 1st player to 3rd player in the glowing ball When he shifts into 3rd player viewing its like a mirror. As if the camera man playing this show live is 3 feet in front of him I can see my face , inside my head I'm a female, and yes I've done my hair- in my head without a mirror Right this this is a cool spirtual trick... have not found a practical or ethereal use for it yet Onwards Where i think it began, 19 yrs ago I went through a great bit of trauma as a teen. I was physically trapped inside of a building I did not want to be in for many years. The adults that came in did great harm to the kids. So I was placed under a great deal of traumatic stress and had many head injuries I gained a abnormally deep fascination for the human mind. Like a new book you cancel your whole life plans for so you can read it all day and night. Can't get enough of I documented my mind's journey going through this traumatic event. Before before I gained the glowing ball ability, when I think about what the inside of my head looks like at looks like, the back of my mind is about 3 feet wide and is a Galaxy . When my mind was processing the trauma, or I was simply feeling emotions, I could pin point inside of my mind exactly where this process was taking place it was taking place. I can feel the mind move ( I've never asked anyone this before, but I've always wondered if other people had ability .... ) In the movie Get Out when the man was falling through space, that's almost exactly what I can feel when I'm trying to penpoint where things are happening inside of my mind. One day my mind came to me and told me ( clear audio inside the head but not inside the mind bc when the mind talks to you it doesn't talk inside the mind ... it talks inside the head ... bc it is the mind , kinda funny.... ) it said : that the amount of traumatic stress I was under the mind would have to split in order to save itself. I grew a physcology hard on. Yes, first row seats into a actual mind split. Grab the frikin poporn & pen and paper. Let's do this. I mean it's not like I had much else going on except for sitting in a bare room waiting 2.5 years to exit this place. I was given the option, by my mind, to either gain a gift or to go crazy. Naturally I chose a gift. & I asked to understand the mind deeper. ( i mean why not throw in a Christmas wish early) I felt a physical pop inside of my head, after that I gained the gift of claircognantz. Looking at a physical map of the brain& physical symptoms afterwards I think it was the amygdala or the chakra at the base of the neck ( not the crown c) Ever since, I've always just known things without knowing how I know things. X So there was my mind giving me the option which was 1st, the 2nd time I time I truly felt a new ability in my mind is when the monk dandapani was teaching in his video how to move awareness inside of your mind as if it is a ball moving from room to room. Great CZcams video. And then the 3rd thing that developed inside of my mind was the white glowing ball last year. So it is a development process, I'm very excited for stage 4 whatever that may be! Not to make this too long but I had a Kitty who was very tiny. We feared she would get stepped on so she lived inside of my room for 6 months. Then we opened the door and let her roam around the rest of the house. She kept pawing at the air and we did not understand why. 6 months later we opened up the front door and let her outside. She kept pawing at the air until it dawned on me that she was looking for the next door. I didn't know how to quite convey to her that there was not another door to walk through but she kept looking for it throughout her entire life. Haha That's kinda how i feel. In conclusion The mind is a fantastic place, a world I want to live in and explore until the moment I pass this world
This is so cool! Isn't it awesome how the right materials show up when we need them? That is a very cool ability. I wonder if it is related in anyway to astral projection. That is a very cool spiritual trick. Hmmm. The psychology hard on is real! This is so interesting. It's like a whole new and deeper level of self-awareness, or rather Self-awareness. I was listening to Yamsox the other day on tik tok or reminded us of how a lot of meditation is to realize the space BETWEEN the real you and the mind. That kitty metaphor is so cool. Thank you so much for sharing this. Fascinating.
Let go of everything through your mind, we can access other worlds and dwell in the heavens. We have this ability. We have been prisoners of our own minds. Wake up.
im so fucking glad this guy also lost himself!! it is by fAR the best experience ive ever had and im studying so hard bc mysticism changed my life and im so greatful ppl like him undestrnd the journey like we are part of a secret country cluba nd if u kno u kno!!!!! best peoplekno
yeah no i totally get that!!! that u are so blissful and relaxed and everything makes sense u want tpo stay in that bubble, for me is not abt the self really but abt simplicity and when i get to that bissfulness that everything IS i get obverwhelmed LMAO!!!
It’s kind of frustrating for me. I just hit my 50s and am still searching for that awareness that I’ve had glimpses of and it’s on the “tip of my tongue”. I mean it’s so close (literally) that I can feel it. But I feel I’m running out of time. I guess I just need to do the work, right?
I have had similar frustrations. In those moments, what I try to do is recognize my desire for that awareness/experience and ask "where does this desire exist . . . in?" I try to zoom out further and further into the background of my effort to realize that the effort itself and all experiences come out/arise withIN that awareness.
Thank you for sharing this! I wonder if you'd find this helpful or if you already know about it. I've been learning Tibetan Buddhist nonduality practices. Their path is to trigger an experience where the self becomes identified with the aware space rather than the head, and then to train to return to that space and see it as ever present in daily life. Certain teachers in the movement (Loch Kelly, Stephan Bodian, Sam Harris) have been critical-ish of the tendency of mindfulness schools to train awareness to such a degree that for some people it becomes automatic and part of the coping strategy of the "little self" we normally identify with. Instead they tend to use "pointing exercises", thought experiments and visualizations that you marinate on in your daily life.
(I had a non-dual experience after smoking DMT years ago, though I didn't recognize it at the time and only later came across Sam Harris's description of it. At the time I remember being confused because I thought I'd be talking to spirits but instead I just was overcome with this feeling of being inside and outside at the same time. I couldn't figure out what it was that I was inside, and then suddenly I realized I was inside my awareness and I was the awareness. After a few minutes I started thinking again, and once again I had this realization again, etc etc. I also found that my limbs and thoughts were both vibrations of this space, though I couldn't begin to tell you what that means now.)
((And I guess I wanted to know how this experience connects to your study of the Kabbalah and esotericism, because I spent the week memorizing my Hebrew letters and correspondences, and as much as I've tried this entire past year to appreciate all of this, it feels like I'm wasting my time. None of it has seemed directly relevant to my mystical journey. It feels like the basic lesson is there in the tarot that Thou Art That, and they provide somewhat of a tool for projecting the self outward, but then they veer off into splitting hairs and memorizing things to such a degree that I start to go all Zen Buddhist and think maybe what's important is just triggering this experience and not intellectualizing it so much. Thou Art That, but why does Saturn in Sagittarius in Malkut ruling the Ten of Wands change that? What if I don't believe in most of it, like astrology, or the four elements and their relationship, or even the Kabbalah itself? I want to, because I've come this far, but it's all just letters and numbers and lines.))
This sounds soooo fun. After my experiences, I've become very non dualist, and the idea of space definitely resonates. I will have to check them out :)
This is SUCH a good point and such a smart question. For me, it's a sort of fun thing to superimpose on reality to draw connections. It's like an intellectual Rubik's cube that reveals the play of the mind. I have a video coming out soon and I will definitely touch on this. For me, I have had a couple experiences where every symbol became every other symbol, and that was close to some of my more mystical experiences.
I had a unitive mystical experience where I existed outside of time and space. I was one with everything and everyone. Was like looking through the “eye of god”. Knew everything. Came back to ego and spent years integrating the experience. Woot.
Nice! Thank you for sharing.
Thank you so so so infinity much. I love that you spend time explaining that the experiences can't exactly be put into words, because I realize that this is why I doubt my own experience in my mind, all while I discuss the reality of my experience with my guides. I simply can't explain to any other humans or even myself an experience that is a full spectrum feeling. I was lucky enough to be work-free in a sunny mountain town and for about three months , time meant nothing. I was awake all night asleep ..at 5 am ..I did not care and rarely talked to people.. I felt weird around my friends..was BLISSED out learning tarot, listening to these messages in absolute awe, and speaking to this 5 guide posse that's still here. Your language skills are so graceful and intelligent. What a gift! Thank you! I love this!
Thank you for sharing this wonderful moment with us! 🙏✨ When you said something along the lines that you became space itself, it made me think that you transitioned into 4th density fully, realizing that you are the dimension itself that you exist in. And nothing can be external to that, which makes all the sense, it has all been you all along! Thank you for all of your videos! Much love and light 🌀🤍🌐
I LOVE those words, "you are the dimension you exist in". I've never head that and it definitely makes sense. Thanks! Much love and light to you too!
@@JoeMonteleone Thank you 😊💜 The credit goes to Bashar, I learnt the description of awakening and moving into 4th density from him :)
All I can say is that the same happened in this life two years ago and has changed it forever.
Here's one of the poems I (the ego) wrote to try and comprehend it to others:
I sit here and stare,
My eyes lost to the boundless depths of my mind.
As I stare,
I begin to wonder,
“What am I?”
A question worthy of mine;
A question worthy of time.
What am I?
Nay,
What are you?
You who begets me,
You whom I have known the unknowing of,
You, who like the sun across the horizon on a
winter’s eve,
I had thought forsaken.
For who am I to ask of myself,
Without first asking of you?
You who was before me,
You who lay within the thought of we.
Yes I may be more wise of worldly affairs and the
materials I see,
Yet none are so wise as yourself,
In the knowing of me.
I sit here and stare a little longer,
The eyes of us catching a glint of light in
the trees,
Or strands of hair passing in the breeze.
I see you in them.
I see you in them because you can see yourself.
You see yourself,
And deliver your joy to mine in the making.
My understanding of this world glistening in your
splendour;
Your wonder.
Your unknowing of the known that begets this
knowledge of mine.
Your understanding of the whole,
And your passage into my waking eyes.
Oh what wonder you hold,
Oh what wonder you behold!
It is not for me to wish for you,
But for you to wish for me;
A wish gladly granted,
As much as you would grant it to ‘we’.
The passing whisper of a dream,
Held in perfect bliss;
The ever-shining star.
I sit here and stare,
My mind electric with you,
My mind swimming with you.
As I stare,
I notice our smile and state,
“I am what I am,
And I am my own fate.”
I had my first awakening at 33 now 41 and I’m obsessed 💕
I was very sick with disease and tried visualizations affirmations and meditation. I healed my body but then I began having mystical experiences. I literally had no idea what was happening. I gained all of this knowledge before “knowing about it”. It’s so fun to find others.
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" This might be distabilizing for some "
One sec , grabs drink , comfy blanket , snacks .... .... ok go on .....
This was so beautiful and well said. Thank you for sharing with us ❤
THAT was totally amazing. And I “get it” “I get you” you feel like as soon as a word flow out to attempt to describe it that its already minimized… I had my own break down aka breakthrough and my entire existance is different… all of it…. And here I’m only beginning…”so to speak”
Yes… its “out of this world” literally.. ok lets just leave it there.
Much love,
Brenda
PS: you are soooo ahead of your time “ “ you are brilliant, and you are literally an earth angel doing such a great service. You are changing the world.
Keep the ripples going….
Im only just beginning that step now. ❤
Aw thank you. I'm so glad we are connected!
I too have had this experience, several times. IYKYK.
I've also been a student of Vedanta for three years and came into tarot through Robert Ryan's Tarot Tantra Esoterica deck and book. Thank you for all of this wonderful content you share.
The book, "Perfect, Brilliant, Stillness," by David Carse, does a great job at putting words to it. It's such a beautiful read, like a piece of music...
Thanks for the recommendation!
So much Love for you Joe…..
I had some intense flash backs of my experience as well while watching this incredibly well done video…
My mind was out of this world for some time. I sometimes miss that version of myself.
Thank you so much for sharing.
Absolutely. It is so great to know you Sylas and love seeing your posts :) That's a gift of an experience.
I have peak experiences very often. It usually involve a lot of uncontrollable tears of joy. The only way I can describe it is an intense sense of gratitude. They usually only last for a few seconds, but once it lasted for about an hour and it changed my life. I live each day like it was the first day after a near death experience. I now have this weird insatiable need to help people. People don't deserve to be this happy. It's like going insane in the most wonderous way.
Baba Ram Dass said "When I was born I donned a space suit for living on this plane." The problem is that we identify so much with the suit that we forget who we really are. Congrats on getting out of the suit! उप एक All One
I love that! Yes very that. Now I'm asking, how do I want to wear this bad boy?
I totally think you tasted enlightenment, the full realization that we are one. We are source. In Buddhism, as you enter the jhanas you get this bliss and the realization of “no self” The ego dies and pure thought remains. Take away your body, your feelings, perceptions, mental formations. What do you have left? Bliss. We don’t suffer anymore because we have no attachments ❤
I’m so happy for you!
Yes! Exactly that! I have seen came back to the matrix, but now every day I'm thinking about that place (or rather, "non place") It's a fun one!
I have no words to express my feelings. I wish the universe graces me too.
Oh Honey! Outstanding! Sharing this took enormous courage. I honor that above all else.
Sweetheart YOU had a "living Near death Experience." You have reached the level of Mastery in your frequency that you induced a waking death interaction. F***ing AMAZING!
Thank you for sharing this, it is SO intimate & private. To be vulnerable with this subject matter is heroic to say the least.
In 91' I was 20, I was ejected from my car & had an NDE.
Sweet thing, I went to that place they call the "void."
Void is a great description to get the visual of this "realm" but its the opposite of a void.
Its filled with Substance, exactly as the Kybalion describes, The One.
The core Consciousness of Source exists within its own dimension.
The substance is like being in an invisible thick cloud.
I can only describe it as, Ready Potential.
its HIGHLY interactive!!!!!
I love the message you came back with!!!
Thats sort of a trademark of having been there.
mine were, "All that matters is LOVE & To Serve is to be Served."
Im ALL IN with this topic matter dear brother!
A hard thumbs up on this one!
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Thank you so much for the kind words and the information. That's very helpful and super interesting. It definitely felt like a sort of death. I love that you quoted the Kybalion. Such a great book. "Ready Potential" is such a cool couple words. Well said. Glad we are connected. It's so cool reminiscing on the "ready potential". It can be easy to lose site of such beautiful experiences as time goes by.
@@JoeMonteleone You’re an exceptional Human Being Joe ⭐️ it gives me great comfort seeing your post & knowing your “out there!” Your one of the very few I’ve shared my NDE with. Ppl don’t respond well to folks who claim to have “been there and back.”
Source is so awesome.
It’s such a blessing to be thick as thieves w Master Consciousness, as you know. 😉
All is One, and it ROCKS! 🍀🐸🍀
Big hugs 🤗 beautiful brother ⭐️
Yes! More please.
Thank you for sharing !!!
After my experience i became enamoured and highly open to spiritual, religious, and metaphoric ways of thinking. The day before i was a militant athiest who resented religious people and enjoyed attacking them for their beleifs. Fyi, for ME to become open to such ways of thought and beleif isnt trivial, its literally changed my entire perspective of the the world. Think of living your entire life both blind and deaf and not knowing that you cant. then all of sudden in an instant you can see and hear everything. It was the most jarring and profound moment in my life.
Ive been looking into mysticism, religion, philosophy, and consciousness ever since. I havent come close to understanding that experience but ive developed an intuition about "the experience" that works for now.
Ultimate reality can kind of be imagined like this....
For anything to exist, i mean literally anything, it necessarily must exist in relationship to an observer. The big bang, only has an existence within the subjective experience of the one picturing it.
Love, exists only because a subject can feel it.
Without a subject to perceive, existence is impossible. Time and space are literally defined in terms of experience. Without a subject experiencing time and its duration, it doesnt exist.
Think of "if a tree falls and no one hears it, did it make a sound?" The answer is no. Sound is the experience. Time is the experience, space is the experience.
Thats just the starting place, now think of this. If nothing can have a real existence unless its in relationship to a subject, then it is the existence of the subject which is the foundation of reality. Not matter or energy, because those can only exist within the perception of the subject.
If the subject is the ground of being, then you, as an ego/individual also exist within the perception of a subject, and because we are mortal beings innbodies made of matter and subject to the laws of physics, that means our egoic/individual bodies, memories, experience, etc are not related to who we truly are. Our individual existences are simply experiences of a subject who isnt "us".
That subject, that being, is necessarily eternal, singular, and infinite. Who is currently experiencing Jax Whitten commenting on a youtube video.
That being, the "I" in "I am" is the singular, all encompassing foundation of all being. It has not physical form, qualities, or "thingness". Its whats left over when you strip away all subjective experience and you're left with the subject as such. Its what the blindman sees when you describe a rainbow to him. Its the nothingness that all things exist in.
Its 0 and infinity as one. Its the photon travelling at the speed of light that travels eternally through space yet experiences no time.
My wife was exposed to many religions as a kid, including eastern cyclical religions and I believe, somewhat inadvertently, she guided me on a few shamanistic revelations. And I REALLY needed that. Yes mind-altering substances were used but I think A) It changed me permanently for the better and B) Wasn't even the traditional psychedelics. Just MJ edibles. All I think I really needed was a way to tell my overactive (ADHD) mind to calm down so I could deeply think.
She had her own transcendent experience of meeting Gaia, as I call it, and with her example, I pushed my own boundaries a few times. I've had two, mainly. 1 is the time I believe I constructed an 'artist's representation' of 4dimension space and realized that, to me, one dimension is human (or otherwise) perception itself. We all bring our own dimension to reality. And 2, I wonder if I had something similar to a temp ego death. Watching Psych integration content afterwards, I believe it was similar but more like evading my ego for a short time. Basically I felt what it would be like to not exist myself, and also what everyone else on the planet's existence is like. I saw a huge web or tapistry of life from a bird's eye view, and could see all the many connections between each other and everything else. I saw the value of TRUE diversity, like biological and perspective diversity, I realized my way is never THE way, it's just A way, and I realized that we are all one, and my attachment to my own individual existence was fine in some ways, but not the end-all-be-all and over attaching to that leads me to tons of stress and control freakouts over something I can never control. It's all so fascinating to me b/c I was a STAUNCH atheist in my teens and 20's, and now in my 30's I have gained what I've heard described as "faith in a higher power" which I never would have expected. And my existential crises' no longer cause a panic attack and lasting damage. Now they're an interesting thought pattern to have and observe and I feel so much less like I'm jumping into the void and more like I'm exploring reality.
Anyway, great video! Great way to describe your experience. In many ways, I feel like we had a similar lesson here.
Oh cool! I have a super ADHD mind as well. It has definitely come in handy though. That's beautiful. That reminds me of Indra's net. This is so relatable, and so beautiful! Ain't that the truth. Having the awareness of the "higher power" without a dogma is such a gift and so comforting. just being :)
Thanks for sharing this amazing experience.
🌷Janneke
Thank you Janneke! Absolutely. It was a fun one!
Thank you so much for your vulnerability and for sharing this. I did a shamanic journeying (non-psychotropic) this past weekend and part of the meditation was lying down on a crystal table and imagining our energy bodies fractalizing into everything that is love and evaporating into nothingness and then coming back into our earthly bodies. After listening to your story, it was as if the shaman was trying to get the practitioners to experience the same mystical experience you encountered in a sequential, linear delivered way, as if...this is the way to get that enlightenedness. However it goes and however we get there-it's pretty darn cool.
I had a Darshan in the Shiva temple on Kauai. Utter and complete total bliss along with an infinite fractal vision of Totality. Years ago and I am still processing it. Beautiful.
Me too..... i was sure i was either dead or insane and hoping for the former. These "visions" or other realities i was thrown into happened randomly over a couple years. Maybe 10-20 times. Some i could pull myself out of and some i couldn't. I ended up in jail twice and the psyche ward i checked myself into, discharged me. The psychiatrist said i was having a "spiritual awakening". I said, what's that? He said, go home n look it up. Lmao. I also felt that oh so profound feeling that's so much more than what we call love. I think that's what I've been chasing ever since. ❤
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I love ur video. Thanks for your sharing 🎉❤❤
Great video, thank you for sharing your story. I just found your channel recently and am loving it. You probably have heard this before, but you radiate a powerful energy, and your eyes simply glow. To me, the eyes are truly the window to the soul. I also have had a living near death experience, and many other mystical experiences. Your channel resonates with me very much. I really like your approach to Tarot. Looking forward to watching more..
Thanks so much! I am happy we are connected!
this video was everything i was hoping it would be and so much more. my feelers felt your feelers at about 15 seconds in! i did the same journaling (prob the best idea ever had!!) and it also took me a couple years before l was (pretty) sure i wasn't crazy. but the best part of this video is how happy you look when you're (attempting to) re-live it!
Aw thank you! I'm glad we connected! Always nice to find someone who knows :)
🙏 thank you
Just found you today and I love your style.
When you were talking about being able to detect others “who have been out of here”.
I can relate. I’ve also noticed a reaction of apprehension from those who don’t know towards my being.
I’ve stopped being hurt by that so much, but in the beginning it hurt realizing how most humans are actively enforcing negative and harmful self belief in anyone who comes near their sphere of influence.now when someone is unkind to me for being what I am,
It reminds me to not be guilty of doing the same thing back to them.
They are going through different lessons and I used to be like them.
I just pray for them to be guided out of illusion.
That is some wisdom right there! Congrats on getting to that point!
Thank you so much for sharing, always a pleasure to listen to you! Hugs & Sunshine🌻 N
Thanks so much for listening :) ❤️👽
That was such a great testimonial. I relate to it. Experienced this satori moment a few times in ayahuasca journeys. Wanted to write it down, but it lost its intensity as soon as I tried to "cage" it into words. And it became pretty obvious, the nothingness is the last level, when we successfuly unlearned and deconditioned ourselves. That's when we're given a blank canva to write our story the way we REALLY want it to be. Much love to all
The word "cage" is the perfect word for that! Beautifully said about the canvas.
Just watching a few of your videos has really opened my mind. Your channel is criminally undersubscribed. Notifications OOOONNNNN
Thank you so much!! That means a lot!!
I too have been there, Joe. 🥰
Yay! Isn't it fun? Or rather, "isn't it" 👽
On the way back I felt a tickle in my brain
Thank you brother. I love you ❤️
Love you too!! 👽❤️
I have had a couple of glimpses through meditation and years ago, psychedelics. In the meditation experience everything just opened up and I had no center and it just felt like everything and infinity. It didn’t last long but Just enough to know it’s there. Beautiful video. You deserve way more subscribers
Thanks for sharing that! That's it! I love hear it.
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I had my main experience aprox 25 years ago and it is still unpacking, no matter how many times i try to explain it i still never fully get there
I had one experience at 17 pure bliss and infinite light
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93. Sounds like you had a hard journey. I’m glad you figured it out. I’m glad I did too. 93/93 ♾
Hey buddy, I could see it in your eyes at the beginning of the video. High five, 😊
Thanks so much!
Thank you so much for sharing this with us Joe! This got me thinking about a lot of experiences that I had when I was a child. I distinctly remember feeling like I was out of my body and feeling like everything around me wasn't real. For the life of me I can't explain it in any way that will make sense, aside from the thought... "WTF IS ALL THIS AROUND ME". The older I got, the less it occurred and I wonder if that has to do with the amount of distractions and diversions that have grown around me.
Ooh very cool and very interesting. I have had that experience to where the "matrix" or the "phantom show of time and space and culture" becomes familiar again, certain things anchor me back into "normalcy". It's interesting.
TransDuality ~
the "nonduality of duality and nonduality"
- David Loy
Yes 👍 this was great! Thanks for sharing! I had a similar experience but it lasted for 120 days. It was total bliss. But not to my friends and family. I am still sorting out everything from the experience. This happened in 2013.
Oh nice! That is so cool! Would love to hear about your process integrating/learning
NoThingNess 🙏
Hi Joe- as your intention was (among others) to connect to others with similar experiences here is my two cents ;) I had a blissful experience of one-ness (and meeting gaia) this summer and in the many years before a lot of experiences that led up to that moment (some more, some less frightening). I get the feeling that the line between a mystical experience and simply "crazy" can be thin. Though I've never experiences full "psychosis" as you describe it I've had other experiences that were too big for my mind to process for that moment. And as I have mystical experiences daily/weekly it does feel like walking on a thin line sometimes. I try to take smaller now steps that my ego can handle. The way is the goal ;) And our spiritual paths are not a race anyways.
It feels like an art to me to move between those different worlds/planes and I find it reassuring to hear similar stories. May we all be safe on our paths 🌻
I love this so much! Someone else recently told me about having a mystical experience related to Gaia as well (maybe it was a dream though). That is so cool. The more I reflect and explore, the more I realize how thin that line really is. Perhaps it is psychosis for the ego, and truth for the ground of being from which the ego arises. Hmmm
@@JoeMonteleone Thanks! It was a wonderful experience (actually three) that left me with a feeling of the earth as truly being my mother. I feel really safe and protected (in nature) now. Very very greatful for that 🙏
Well I guess from the standpoint of the ground of being there is only experience and thus no true or false anyways? Psychosis (or any other "mental health problems" for that matter) are only a more extreme form of common human experiences. The ego and human body tell us that they have no other way of handling the current situation than going into these states. Which might be helpful or unhelpful depending on the situation. And it totally makes sense for me with spirituatlity because we are experiencing things that our mind and body are (initially) not designed for. It's not impossible but really a complete reprogramming. Spiritual awakening needs thus an awareness of the workings of our ego and the workings of our higher self and re-learning of the two working together. I see this with monchs or shamans who can be very much spiritually advanced and at the same time very grounded. We need both! I hope this makes sense haha. Trying to keep my long thoughts short.
It sounds like you lost your ego. You were pure consciousness existing in the eternal present. Now I know that the ego has a function. It's when we're encapsulated in the body that we can create a mask and ego. I think it was a state of Shiva. That which is not. The divine masculine is consciousness without ego.
Yes! Exactly that. That is what I am coming to understand, how the divine masculine is pure consciousness and how the divine feminine is that consciousness moving forth into form and creativity. I've always been aware of that as Kabbalah presents it but I'm starting to branch out and see the same pattern everywhere. It's so fun! I had a wise person once tell me this that gave me chills "When you are alive, shiva is in you. When you die, you are in shiva."
Thank you for sharing this. I had an identical experience in 2018.
Oh nice!
I can honestly say I have not had anything happen to me like you describe here. YET 😊
I have heard it described by Paul Levy on Open Minds on Gaia. The episode was titled Quantum Spirituality. He wrote the book Quantum Revelation: A Radical Synthesis of Science and Spirituality. He even said some people get wrongly labeled as insane and locked up in the psychiatric ward for the effects an awakening so powerful can have on a person. He did, in fact, spend time in the hospital on several occasions due to his experience and when he found terra firm once again with a totally and radically different bead on things, he knew there had to be many more like himself. He said it was his inner knowing that saved him and that the psychiatrists just had no concept of his experience, which he knew to be very real indeed, because they couldn't see past their own narrow views of psychology.
I'm so glad you found your footing after your amazing experience and managed to avoid those who would slap labels on you in the process of misunderstanding it. Joe, I can't thank you enough for sharing something so personal and vulnerable. You are such an amazing being and I am better for knowing you. I think you will be successful in normalizing such a wonderous and largely misunderstood awakening. Thank you for BEING.
Much love and respect to you, Sir.
Hugs from Montana
Cheers!
Hi Julie! I'm going to check out Paul Levy thank you! It's such an interesting topic and I've some other people who also were labeled insane. I'm starting to consider how many labels are actually the same thing. What one person calls "energy work" for example, another might call "body-centered therapy" and another might call something else. It's hard to say.
Thank you so much for the kind words Julie! It's always amazing having your support. Thank YOU for being, and all the magic and positivity you put into the world!
Could you ole make a video on meditation? I wanna start that practice again but I’m feeling a little bit lost in that area
Great idea! There's different forms of meditation, but the basic idea is to observe. You can start by focusing on an external object, like a candle, or mandala, or just a point on the wall, and anytime your mind wanders just gently bring it back to the external object. Another form is to focus on an internal object, like the image of a triangle or something beautiful in your mind. The most advanced form is to focus on what is doing the focusing, pure awareness. What I try to do through out the day is, whenever I can remember, I ask "what is observing this? And what is observing this?" and then I take a comfortable inhale and become aware of the space itself that is my mind. My mind, to me, feels like "space" when I am at peace, and when I am distracted by thoughts, it feels like a maze, heavy.
It do be like that.
I had a very Dogma-like experience and met the Metatron when I woke up 😆💖
It's kind of like the game, you know the game that ...
Me in this exact moment: FUUUUUUUUCK 😂
Could you maybe very briefly elucidate on what meditation technique did you use? Because a lot of very different thigs could be called meditation. It would be interesting and possibly helpful to many to know what worked for you.
Yes absolutely. I was doing one of Joe Dispenz'as meditation. Sometimes it was just his "count down into alpha" (I forget the name). Sometimes it was the whole hour, and other times it was just watching the blackness of my eyes and all my thoughts. If you want, I can email you a recording of the guided meditation that I made for myself.
Similar but not
Once upon a time, a few years ago. I told the universe I was ready to open my third eye. A series of crystals and books and documentaries that began to naturally make their way into my existence. Until one evening under great astrological events, I cannot remember which, I felt my mind open and double.
I've gained the ability to see in my head
As clear as i can see this phone I'm typing on
Let me see if i can explain this
Imagine anime cartoon , a man, profile view ( sideways )
Inside his head is a white glowing ball , that occupies the entire center mass (70%)
Not translucent, but opaque white. Like a tv projector backdrop.
What his world around him looks like he can see with his eyes and it is ALSO playing in that white glowing ball
Also
During a physical motion -
He can shift the percecption from 1st player to 3rd player in the glowing ball
When he shifts into 3rd player viewing its like a mirror. As if the camera man playing this show live is 3 feet in front of him
I can see my face , inside my head
I'm a female, and yes I've done my hair- in my head without a mirror
Right this this is a cool spirtual trick... have not found a practical or ethereal use for it yet
Onwards
Where i think it began, 19 yrs ago
I went through a great bit of trauma as a teen. I was physically trapped inside of a building I did not want to be in for many years. The adults that came in did great harm to the kids. So I was placed under a great deal of traumatic stress and had many head injuries
I gained a abnormally deep fascination for the human mind. Like a new book you cancel your whole life plans for so you can read it all day and night. Can't get enough of
I documented my mind's journey going through this traumatic event. Before before I gained the glowing ball ability, when I think about what the inside of my head looks like at looks like, the back of my mind is about 3 feet wide and is a Galaxy . When my mind was processing the trauma, or I was simply feeling emotions, I could pin point inside of my mind exactly where this process was taking place it was taking place.
I can feel the mind move
( I've never asked anyone this before, but I've always wondered if other people had ability .... )
In the movie Get Out when the man was falling through space, that's almost exactly what I can feel when I'm trying to penpoint where things are happening inside of my mind.
One day my mind came to me and told me ( clear audio inside the head but not inside the mind bc when the mind talks to you it doesn't talk inside the mind ... it talks inside the head ... bc it is the mind , kinda funny.... ) it said : that the amount of traumatic stress I was under the mind would have to split in order to save itself.
I grew a physcology hard on. Yes, first row seats into a actual mind split. Grab the frikin poporn & pen and paper. Let's do this.
I mean it's not like I had much else going on except for sitting in a bare room waiting 2.5 years to exit this place.
I was given the option, by my mind, to either gain a gift or to go crazy. Naturally I chose a gift. & I asked to understand the mind deeper. ( i mean why not throw in a Christmas wish early)
I felt a physical pop inside of my head, after that I gained the gift of claircognantz.
Looking at a physical map of the brain& physical symptoms afterwards I think it was the amygdala or the chakra at the base of the neck ( not the crown c)
Ever since, I've always just known things without knowing how I know things.
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So there was my mind giving me the option which was 1st, the 2nd time I time I truly felt a new ability in my mind is when the monk dandapani was teaching in his video how to move awareness inside of your mind as if it is a ball moving from room to room. Great CZcams video. And then the 3rd thing that developed inside of my mind was the white glowing ball last year.
So it is a development process, I'm very excited for stage 4 whatever that may be!
Not to make this too long but I had a Kitty who was very tiny. We feared she would get stepped on so she lived inside of my room for 6 months. Then we opened the door and let her roam around the rest of the house. She kept pawing at the air and we did not understand why. 6 months later we opened up the front door and let her outside. She kept pawing at the air until it dawned on me that she was looking for the next door. I didn't know how to quite convey to her that there was not another door to walk through but she kept looking for it throughout her entire life. Haha
That's kinda how i feel.
In conclusion
The mind is a fantastic place, a world I want to live in and explore until the moment I pass this world
This is so cool! Isn't it awesome how the right materials show up when we need them? That is a very cool ability. I wonder if it is related in anyway to astral projection. That is a very cool spiritual trick. Hmmm. The psychology hard on is real! This is so interesting. It's like a whole new and deeper level of self-awareness, or rather Self-awareness. I was listening to Yamsox the other day on tik tok or reminded us of how a lot of meditation is to realize the space BETWEEN the real you and the mind.
That kitty metaphor is so cool. Thank you so much for sharing this. Fascinating.
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Let go of everything through your mind, we can access other worlds and dwell in the heavens. We have this ability. We have been prisoners of our own minds. Wake up.
As long this experience can be captured by smartphone nowdays and before by 📸, whoever had experience surely snapshot pictures ok
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ty!!!! for sharing this much appreciated !!!!!
im so fucking glad this guy also lost himself!! it is by fAR the best experience ive ever had and im studying so hard bc mysticism changed my life and im so greatful ppl like him undestrnd the journey like we are part of a secret country cluba nd if u kno u kno!!!!! best peoplekno
yeah no i totally get that!!! that u are so blissful and relaxed and everything makes sense u want tpo stay in that bubble, for me is not abt the self really but abt simplicity and when i get to that bissfulness that everything IS i get obverwhelmed LMAO!!!
mysticism is so cool; im so happy i found out abt it like the
PURE RAWNESS OF IT
its so extreme in a tranquil way
I feel the same!!
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I have had a similar experience ❤️🙏
Astral projection ❤️ or as I see it the temporary freedom of the spirit from the vessel. (As opposed to a permanent death.)
It’s kind of frustrating for me. I just hit my 50s and am still searching for that awareness that I’ve had glimpses of and it’s on the “tip of my tongue”. I mean it’s so close (literally) that I can feel it. But I feel I’m running out of time. I guess I just need to do the work, right?
I have had similar frustrations. In those moments, what I try to do is recognize my desire for that awareness/experience and ask "where does this desire exist . . . in?" I try to zoom out further and further into the background of my effort to realize that the effort itself and all experiences come out/arise withIN that awareness.
Thank you for sharing this! I wonder if you'd find this helpful or if you already know about it. I've been learning Tibetan Buddhist nonduality practices. Their path is to trigger an experience where the self becomes identified with the aware space rather than the head, and then to train to return to that space and see it as ever present in daily life. Certain teachers in the movement (Loch Kelly, Stephan Bodian, Sam Harris) have been critical-ish of the tendency of mindfulness schools to train awareness to such a degree that for some people it becomes automatic and part of the coping strategy of the "little self" we normally identify with. Instead they tend to use "pointing exercises", thought experiments and visualizations that you marinate on in your daily life.
(I had a non-dual experience after smoking DMT years ago, though I didn't recognize it at the time and only later came across Sam Harris's description of it. At the time I remember being confused because I thought I'd be talking to spirits but instead I just was overcome with this feeling of being inside and outside at the same time. I couldn't figure out what it was that I was inside, and then suddenly I realized I was inside my awareness and I was the awareness. After a few minutes I started thinking again, and once again I had this realization again, etc etc. I also found that my limbs and thoughts were both vibrations of this space, though I couldn't begin to tell you what that means now.)
((And I guess I wanted to know how this experience connects to your study of the Kabbalah and esotericism, because I spent the week memorizing my Hebrew letters and correspondences, and as much as I've tried this entire past year to appreciate all of this, it feels like I'm wasting my time. None of it has seemed directly relevant to my mystical journey. It feels like the basic lesson is there in the tarot that Thou Art That, and they provide somewhat of a tool for projecting the self outward, but then they veer off into splitting hairs and memorizing things to such a degree that I start to go all Zen Buddhist and think maybe what's important is just triggering this experience and not intellectualizing it so much. Thou Art That, but why does Saturn in Sagittarius in Malkut ruling the Ten of Wands change that? What if I don't believe in most of it, like astrology, or the four elements and their relationship, or even the Kabbalah itself? I want to, because I've come this far, but it's all just letters and numbers and lines.))
This sounds soooo fun. After my experiences, I've become very non dualist, and the idea of space definitely resonates. I will have to check them out :)
This is SUCH a good point and such a smart question. For me, it's a sort of fun thing to superimpose on reality to draw connections. It's like an intellectual Rubik's cube that reveals the play of the mind. I have a video coming out soon and I will definitely touch on this. For me, I have had a couple experiences where every symbol became every other symbol, and that was close to some of my more mystical experiences.
Yep . . .
InEffiable . . .
TransRational . . .
TransClusion
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en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Perennial_philosophy
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