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I am missing you so much right Now.. I went to the table.. I saw the Empty Chair.. still wondering if YOU are coming Home.. but as YOU can see I don't know why YOU are Not still here.. Looking at the Plate.. the Food I made for YOU.. which you did Not come home yet.. and staring at the Chair.. the Chair you would sit.. I would watch YOU across the table when we eat.. many times I would watch YOU smile and then YOU would laugh.. I do really miss those days.. even when YOU came home.. Long day of work.. sometimes when It rain Out side.. and I would hear the DOOR open.. I would walk Out of the kitchen.. preparing and making the Food.. putting the Plate on the table.. just waiting for YOU to come Home.. the smile.. and I would watch YOU sit.. sit on that chair.. as I would just watch YOU eat while I am sitting on my side of the chair.. How come this had to happen.. why are you NOT coming home yet.. I received a message.. also YOU send me a Picture.. a recent picture of YOU.. I would see you sitting On a chair.. Holding a Giant Teddy Bear.. and with a Bow on the top of your Head.. I am Not sure where the location or the Place you were at.. but YOU send me a Message with a Picture telling me How you are doing.. and of course.. I would smile looking at this recent picture of YOU and I would ask YOU.. where are YOU.. Please tell me.. if YOU are close by in the area.. can I go to YOU.. and I would be waiting for the Message but a Long pause.. YOU would text message me saying.. YOU are Not in the area and that YOU are far off.. at Least YOU are starting to share and telling me how YOU are doing.. but.. I am still waiting for YOU.. all I can think of is YOU coming Home.. when I would pass by the diner room.. I would look at the table.. and I would LOOK at your chair.. the empty chair that has been sitting there waiting for YOU for a long time Now.. and It is asking Me.. when Are you coming HOME.. when are YOU going to sit on this EMPTY CHAIR.. I would tell the chair.. I am Not sure when because YOU never tell me when YOU are coming Home.. all I can think of is YOU.. just missing YOU every Night.. every Night feels like I am going to die here alone.. without YOU.. I feel like this Chair.. Like this Empty chair.. just sitting here and just waiting for YOU.. and ALL I do is look at the New recent picture YOU gave me.. I would look on the Phone.. and in the front of the phone your Picture.. the recent picture.. the ONE you are sitting on the Chair.. with the Big bow on top of your Head.. arms wrap around the Giant Teddy Bear.. and I want to cry.. because NOW.. I wish that I could be that Giant Teddy Bear.. WHY does that GIANT TEDDY BEAR seems so Happy.. of course it is because YOUR Arms.. How about my arms.. how about ME.. I want to be held by YOU.. feel the JOY and LOVE that Only can comes from YOU.. Only YOU can bring that Big smile ON my face.. NO One else can make me more happier than YOU can.. as I am standing.. I am in the kitchen.. just thinking about.. as I am looking at the Plate.. I made this Food last night for YOU.. I would take a Picture of the Plate with the FOOD that was made and I would send it to YOU.. telling YOU.. it is waiting for YOU.. and I would look at your Chair.. who is also waiting for YOU TO sit on.. and I would sent the Picture of Your Chair and the Plate.. NOW.. I am in the kitchen.. I know that YOU did not come home because I see the FOOD still on the Plate.. as I am putting the FOOD on the trash.. and I would start to wash the dishes with water.. knife and fork.. cups.. and Now my tears.. I can't stop the tears falling from my eyes because it can get this hard on me some times.. I am asking YOU.. but YOU never response.. YOU never tell me that why YOU are not coming Home.. after washing the Plates and the cups.. the knives and forks.. I would use the towel to wipe it dry and Put on the Counter where I would put all these things there.. of course.. I feel so sad.. and many times broken hearted when I would walk Out of the room.. and I stand to see.. going to the diner room.. hoping that YOU came.. hoping that I would see you sit on your Chair.. hoping to see YOU eating and finishing the Food on the plate.. to see YOU turn Your Head to look at me and smile and telling me HOW finally YOU came HOME to me.. when I would walk out of the room and I stand still.. as I look toward the Diner room and I see it be empty.. looking at your Chair.. the empty chair.. and LOOKING at the Plate.. I would see the FOOD still here.. I turn to look towards the door.. I find NO shoes of yours.. my Heart.. it feels like YOU have thrown a hard ball.. a rock and Hit me on the stomach.. I can feel something sharp because my expectation of YOU.. if YOU came HOME.. it hurts to watch.. it hurts to stand here looking at the table.. LOOKING at your Chair.. and I would just want to fall down.. but I just look.. knowing that YOU did not come.. and I would wonder.. I send you the picture.. I took the picture of the plate.. and the FOOD in the plate for YOU to see what I have cooked and made you for this very night.. I can't believe that YOU still do Not want to show UP at all.. How much do I must miss YOU.. what am I suppose to do for YOU to know how much I love YOU and how I am still sorry of what I have done.. I know that I have made just too many bad mistakes.. and yes.. it is all my fault.. but just give me this One more chance.. I think that My Heart is burning.. and it is going to be burned because My Heart just can't stop loving YOU.. every Night.. after I would prepare.. looking through what I should cook or make for YOU.. it takes time for me to Know.. looking through many chef videos.. trying to do something different so that YOU would come Home.. I think I watched over 100 videos of cooking chef.. trying to cook something for YOU.. but.. I feel like how much more can I do.. I look at your chair.. I look at this empty Chair.. should I put your chair in my room instead.. because it drives me crazy when It sits here all alone.. this Empty chair is missing YOU because I know that IN my Heart.. I am the One who misses YOU.. I know that I can think like this empty chair because when I would watch YOU sit.. I was the Most happiest person in the world.. because I was able to express and show YOU something that I loved the Most.. to share and to tell YOU.. to make and create and to cater something that comes beneath my Heart.. I wanted to show YOU that I love YOU.. so I do remember going into the Kitchen classes.. I wanted to be the Best Chef.. just for YOU.. that is what counts.. that is what should counts.. NO ONE should care because as long as I be able to give you something that CAN Only comes from the depth of my Heart.. I wanted to impress you by showing YOU.. I am the Most happiest when I can give you this FOOD.. would you please take a taste.. would you please come and sit at this table and let the Plate I give YOU.. to fill your stomach because each time YOU eat.. it makes me full.. it makes me smile inside because I put all my energy and efforts into so that when it gets to YOU.. MY words would not be enough but the action of giving you this Plate.. this food on the Plate.. I put everything on the table so that when YOU COME to eat.. I can turn the other way and cry with a joy.. NOT sadness anymore.. I started to take classes.. getting new ideas to put food on the Plate and I would start to make it at Home.. I would look at your Empty Chair.. my Heart keeps breaking when I would pass by.. Looking at your chair.. which is an empty chair.. I would stand there.. WHY can't you be here.. why must YOU had to go.. why leave me here with this Chair.. why couldn't you take this chair with YOU.. or at least you could of helped me by removing two eyes.. if I be blinded.. I know with my eyes be missing.. I won't see this Chair.. this empty chair.. I would walk by.. I can feel something sharp in my chest.. just longing for YOU.. but being very busy taking lessons with the top chef.. what I learned and what I cooked in the class.. I would tell the TOP CHEF about YOU.. how much I missed YOU and wanted to create and make.. cook something for YOU every night and He started to show ME these Menus of and I started to learn how to cook as the TOP CHEF helped me to cook.. giving me the Notes and directions with the ingredients to make for that Night.. I would thank because.. I know that One day.. I believe One Night.. Some day YOU are going to be hungry to eat.. and I wanted to prepare for YOU just in case you wanted to stop by.. just for One bite is all it takes and I got so busy at home.. in the kitchen spending hours cooking and making the Dish for YOU.. as I would put One Plate for that One Night with the FOOD I learned from the TOP CHEF.. I put on Your Side of the Table with Your EMPTY chair.. I would go to my side sitting on the chair.. I would eat first.. I would look at across.. LOOKING at your Side.. I am wiping my tears of sorrow.. I wanted to share this with YOU tonight but YOU did Not show Up yet.. I wish that YOU come Home this very night.. It is going to be waiting for YOU all through the Night.. after I am finished eating.. I would get UP.. I would walk to your side of the table.. Looking at your chair.. the Empty chair.. I would lower to take the picture with the Phone.. the Plate with the Food I made for YOU and I would turn to LOOK at your Chair.. the Empty Chair and send it to YOU.. and I would write.. YOUR Chair misses YOU tonight.. I miss YOU tonight.. here is what I made while learning from the TOP CHEF at the kitchen class and I would stand UP.. Looking at your Chair.. LOOKING at the empty chair and I would turn to LOOK at my room and I would walk in closing the DOOR behind me.. As I am in the Kitchen.. just thinking about the many weeks gone by

Making all these dishes I made on the Plate for YOU.. ONLY is YOU.. for YOU to come Home.. and for YOU to sit on this Empty Chair.. this Chair misses you so Much.. I feel like this Chair.. when I pass by Your Chair.. and I stop too look at Your Chair.. I can feel and relate the Pain of missing YOU.. this Pain of ache and longing that It just don't go away because of missing YOU.. and WHEN My hand touches your Chair.. I feel something.. a sharp pain because I feel like this chair.. LIKE an Empty chair.. without YOU.. I feel like I can't go on.. I need you here.. I need to see YOU.. I want to see YOU.. just to tell YOU.. Please sit on this Chair so that IT does not feel so empty like HOW MY HEART feels without YOU.. I need you because I love YOU.. will you please come Home.. Please come back to Me.. I am missing YOU like crazy.. I am just missing you.. and as I turn to LOOK toward the window.. I am starting to see the rain falling.. it just keeps on getting worse as days go by.. without YOU it feels like I can't go ON.. that is why I need YOU.. that is why I needs to tell you that I love YOU.. Please Come HOME and help me to Love YOU again.. I need YOU.. I need to love YOU again and only way is if YOU come home.. where this Chair.. empty chair is waiting.. just like ME.. waiting for YOU To come home.. I am looking at the Chair.. the Empty Chair.. and I just can't take my eyes off.. just wondering when are YOU coming Home.. I been calling you on the Phone.. Do you not here the Phone ringing.. I know that the number is correct because I can hear YOUR voice.. I can here you saying to leave the voice on the message.. I been wondering.. why aren't you picking up the Phone.. you know that this is killing me when YOU do this.. I been thinking a lot lately.. and I even left you a voice message.. telling YOU that I am so sorry.. how many times Must I tell YOU that what I did was wrong.. and I told you that I am so sorry.. will you please give me another chance.. I know that I can do better this time.. of course YOU heard me telling YOU this before.. so what do you want me to do.. So do you want me to stop calling YOU.. I know that I am the one who did fault.. and I even plead and even begged YOU.. I left you a Message on the Phone.. I am still calling you.. because we needs to talk.. YOU needs to tell me something so that I know what Not to do.. so please Pick up the Phone.. as I am dialing Your number.. I am putting my Phone on the ear.. I hear the ringing going through.. as I am standing on the living room.. I walk to the diner room.. standing there.. I see Your Empty chair.. I just can't believe YOU are doing this to Me.. why are YOU hurting me.. I know that it is me who shouted at YOU.. and I was angry.. but.. does it means YOU have to hate me like this.. DO you really Hate Me.. YOU told me that you will Never hate me.. then why are YOU not answering the Phone.. it is getting late.. few days.. Now weeks went by.. I am still here waiting for YOU.. just wondering How you are doing.. Please.. Baby.. Please answer the Phone.. tell me something so that I know.. I can let go.. I can let go of this frustration that is in me.. I know.. I told you already.. I am so sorry.. as I am looking at the empty Chair.. I have set another Plate.. it is by Your Chair.. I would place a cup of water.. with utensils.. with napkin on the side.. I made YOU a steak.. green beans and mash potatoes.. next to the cup of water is another cup of wine.. I have set it.. maybe YOU will come tonight.. Maybe you will stop by later tonight.. but.. just in case you are hungry.. I have placed Your Plate.. Your food on the table by the Chair.. Your Empty Chair.. as I would walk to the front door and I open.. looking outside.. I would walk out with a jacket.. it is pretty cold and I can see the Moon.. as I am walking.. and I stop.. I see the light rain falling from the sky.. I am wondering are you close by.. Can you see the rain.. I know that I am getting hit by the rain.. it does not matter now because I am sick.. My Heart is sick because I am missing YOU.. its been weeks.. and each night.. I would be waiting by the empty Chair.. I would be in the kitchen cooking a meal.. each time I would eat dinner.. I am always looking for YOU.. I would be thinking of YOU.. as I would be sitting down on my side.. I would get back UP.. going back into the kitchen.. I know that I have to bring out another Plate.. I know that you may not come tonight.. maybe Not.. but still.. I am thinking what if YOU would show UP.. what if YOU come.. I would always make a meal for two.. Just in case YOU may show UP later deep in the night.. when I am asleep.. who knows when and I would put Your Plate.. Your dinner on the top of the table.. if I sleep and I don't see you for that day.. at least YOU can come into the night.. late if you want too.. the Meal is ready for YOU.. come and eat if You are hungry.. it has been all prepared and done.. what you love the most.. your favorites I would ask.. and I would watch YOU taking the picture of each plates YOU love and would remind me this is what you like and dislike.. and I would put the picture of the plates YOU love.. in my room.. and from time to time I would take a look at it.. and I would make those meals just for you.. as I am outside in the cold.. with my jacket on.. I am getting wet.. light rain hitting me.. and I would stop.. My Heart hurts Now.. I would go into my room.. and day to day.. I would pull out the picture of the Plate.. each Night I would be in the kitchen.. cooking each of the Meals YOU love.. every night comes.. One Plate.. the Next Night Another Plate YOU love.. your favorite dishes.. and I would sit on my Chair.. waiting for YOU to come Home.. as I would wait.. it becomes late.. and yes.. I would feel so sleepy.. getting UP out of the Chair.. I am looking at the Plate.. and Looking at the Empty Chair.. I can feel my Heart crying inside.. as I would wait for YOU and YOU do not show UP.. I would turn the Other way and walk into the room.. closing the Door behind.. and I lay on the bed.. and I start to cry.. crying a lot because I would miss YOU.. calling YOU on the Phone.. I would sit still just to hear Your Voice.. I would hear the Phone be ringing.. asking myself.. why is it this Hard to love YOU.. why are you making it so Hard for me to get closer.. am I that evil person.. why Hurt me.. I feel only tears in my eyes.. I told YOU that I am so sorry.. I told YOU that I missed YOU and that I love YOU.. but why don't you pick up the Phone.. why don't you even show UP to the House.. YOU don't miss me at all.. YOU know that I miss YOU.. I call you every day.. I only want to listen to Your Voice.. I want to hear YOU.. but only at the end to leave the Message YOU tell me too.. it breaks my Heart when YOU do this to Me.. it breaks my heart when YOU stop caring about me.. it breaks my Heart when YOU don't answer.. I even would leave in the Night.. I have prepared YOU a Meal.. a Dinner I made to eat.. I have already eaten.. If you don't want to see me.. I am Not going to force YOU to come to see me.. But Please.. if YOU get hungry and YOU are near by.. Please stop by.. I am ready to sleep for the night.. so Please come tonight.. by the time you get this message.. when YOU come.. I am sure I am already at bed by then.. if YOU ever feel you want to eat Your Favorite FOOD.. and I would take a picture of the Plate I made for YOU and I would send the picture to YOU so that YOU can see what I have made and prepared for that night.. and I be sitting on my side of the chair.. and I would get UP and I would leave.. going into the room so that If you want to show UP.. YOU can without seeing Me being there.. as I am standing Out side.. feeling the Light rain falling down on me.. I begin to feel My Heart be hurting.. I can feel my Heart be breaking.. I just can't take it any more.. why can't I see YOU any more.. YOU telling me YOU love me.. was all those words nothing but a Lie.. My Words.. when I tell YOU that I love YOU.. it is NO lies.. I am telling YOU because I am saying it from my Heart.. why do you tell me YOU love me.. and when I call YOU on the Phone.. YOU never pick UP to answer.. YOU tell me that YOU love me so much.. LOOK at what YOU are doing to me.. it is because I love YOU.. I been loving YOU for so Long.. I am standing Out here.. it is cold Out here.. I see the rain falling down on me.. and I am waiting for YOU.. but I know that In my heart.. even tonight YOU will Not show UP.. I know that YOU will not show UP but just in case YOU do.. I have faith in love.. I have faith in us because I know that I love YOU.. YOU know how much I love YOU.. I wrote YOU songs.. I would sing YOU songs even though I may not have the voice to sing.. but.. In my heart I can still sing telling YOU that I love YOU.. and How much I love YOU.. showing YOU and sharing to YOU how much I do.. as I am walking back.. I been walking for a while.. just thinking about YOU late in the Night.. as I am can feel the rain hitting me.. and I know that I am going to get sick.. I guess I did it on Purpose so if I do get sick.. and I am laying in the Hospital Bed.. will you come and visit me.. or am I going to be sick alone.. I been walking.. stopping and Looking UP to the Moon.. shouting out to the Moon.. Looking at the stars.. as I am getting Hit by the light rain.. it is so dark and cold Out here.. I want to get sick.. because my Heart is already dying and I am falling apart.. I can feel my Heart just be breaking.. pieces by pieces.. missing YOU.. and pains crashing in and I am hitting the Floor.. How much pain can I endure of this Love.. I am Not sure any more.. but I feel like I am dying inside.. How much I love YOU.. But I know I am crashing and burning because I love YOU.. as I am walking back to the House.. there was NO lights in the House.. and I stop.. there is a Light in the Diner Room.. am I suppose to be shocked

Leaving YOU a message.. taking a picture of the plate with your Favorite meal and I would send it too YOU.. standing and looking at Your side.. I would still see.. YOU did not come.. You did Not show UP even after I would tell YOU I be sleeping.. it breaks my Heart that YOU just don't care.. I would realize.. If I did not shouted at YOU.. then all this would not come.. if I was more patient with YOU and more understanding,, caring and kind to YOU.. I would been seeing YOU sitting ON that Empty Chair.. I would watch YOU holding the Giant Teddy bear.. and YOU be smiling at me.. and YOU be asking me.. what am I cooking tonight.. what Meal.. and I would pull out a picture of the Plate YOU love and show you how about this Meal.. this Plate.. would you like this One for tonight.. and YOU be smiling Big.. and I be smiling back with tears in my eyes.. the joy of being able to give back.. giving you how much I love YOU.. the little things I would miss about YOU.. even just Your smile.. I would tell YOU.. YOU have the most beautiful smile in the world.. the Most prettiest.. Most beautiful smile.. and I would Hold a camera.. looking through the lens.. LOOKING at you and the smile and press the Click the picture of YOU.. why are you so beautiful.. why are YOU so Beautiful to me.. Please tell me why and I would cry looking at YOU because YOU are.. I would be standing by the front door.. thinking about YOU.. your smile.. and as the door opens I walk into the House.. I Just can't believe it.. I am looking at the Empty Chair.. I am looking at the Picture of YOU sitting on the Chair.. I want YOU home.. I want you here next to Me.. sitting on this chair which right Now I don't see you here.. as I am looking at the table.. I want to sit but I can't.. because I know that I am going to miss YOU if I don't see you across the table.. with YOUR beautiful smile.. I just keeps on missing YOU.. Please come Home.. Please come Home to me because I am missing YOU so bad.. will you please come back.. and I walk over.. I am standing by the Chair.. Your Chair.. the empty chair.. I am asking myself.. when will I see you again.. My hand.. holding your picture.. I lift up my hand.. holding Your picture in my hand.. YOU are holding the Giant Teddy Bear.. YOU are sitting on this chair.. the empty chair which right Now I am standing by.. on your lap is the Giant Teddy Bear sitting.. I can't believe YOU are not here.. I still can't believe YOU are Not here.. I been waiting for YOU more than a Month.. where are YOU now.. I been asking for YOU.. even begging YOU to come home.. I am taking pictures on the Phone.. sending you Plates.. your most favorite dishes I would make for dinner.. and Yes.. YOU are receiving the pictures.. because it goes direct to Your Number and yes.. I see that YOU are able to see the Pictures I would take.. looking at the Plates.. the dishes every Night so that I want YOU to come Home.. there are Nights I be waiting.. sitting on my side of the chair.. I am eating alone.. looking across is the empty Chair.. I feel so hurt.. I feel so Bad.. I feel like I have messed UP so bad this time.. I am not sure what am I suppose to do next.. But I need YOU here because I have called you several times.. I would tell YOU with the Voice Message How much I have messed UP and that I am so sorry.. so tell me this.. are you with some one new.. are you with another guy because I truly want to know.. if YOU are leaving me Now for another guy.. please tell me so that I can let YOU go.. I would even write text messages asking you about this many times.. But YOU would Not answer me.. it breaks my Heart because I would call.. Phone number dials.. my ear listening to the ringing on the Phone.. and I am asking Please.. pick UP the phone.. Pretty Please answer so that I can at least hear YOU say that YOU are alright.. But I would call. I would not hear any answers.. and I am speaking to YOU through the Phone asking YOU Please come back to me because it does not matter if YOU are with another guy.. as long as I am still in your Heart.. just please come home.. as I am standing by next to Your Chair.. which is an Empty Chair.. I just want YOU HOME.. I want YOU close to me and I am missing YOU.. why can't you tell me that YOU miss me too.. tell me what is in your Heart so that I know how you are doing.. I am looking at the Chair.. the Empty Chair.. I just want to cry.. I want to just pour out my eyes out.. just pour out my tears because I want to see YOU.. it is so hard not seeing YOU for Month.. I need to see YOU.. at least say that YOU do know my Heart.. as I am looking at the Phone.. I have made another Dinner dish.. a steam fish with veggies and I would look at the camera and I would be looking as I would click and I am looking at the picture of Dish I made for YOU this very night and I would look for YOUR Number and I would send it to YOU.. I would be look at my chair.. I would walk and sit on the chair.. and I would start to eat late into the night.. I would be looking across.. looking at Your chair.. the Empty Chair.. I can feel the Heavy in my Heart.. I would look across looking at the Empty Chair.. the Chair YOU sat when we would eat dinner together.. I would open my mouth and say.. I really miss YOU.. why do you have to be the one to Break my Heart.. shattering my Brains and my thought into pieces.. YOU know how much I love YOU.. you know that by NOW.. I am truly sorry and yes I can feel the suffering and pain in my Heart.. I am in so much ache because I need YOU here.. I am missing YOU so much.. why do you have to do this to me when YOU know that I love YOU.. Please come home.. I am looking at your Picture.. YOU are sitting on the Chair.. smiling with the Giant Teddy Bear sitting on your Lap with the Plate.. as I have the Bottle on the top of the Table.. I also placed the Shot Glass.. I just hate feeling this Pain.. Out side I can hear the wind blowing.. and it is lightly raining out side.. I just came from the Out side waiting for YOU.. wondering if I would stand out there.. I would see YOU coming Home.. still having that ray of Hope that YOU would come Home.. knowing at least YOU are receiving all of the Pictures of the dishes I made each night I send.. asking YOU I made this and that.. if YOU come home.. I would be in my room sleeping.. but YOUR Plate.. dinner is set by the Chair.. on top of the table waiting for YOU.. I would wake up each morning.. Hoping that YOU came late last night and had that dinner.. each Night and every morning I walk out of the room.. I would look at the top of the table.. LOOK at the plate and looking at Your Chair.. the empty Chair.. I be heart broken because Nothing has been touched.. the food still be on that Plate.. never been touched.. and I would grab the Plate.. the Food goes into the trash and my Heart be broken because I am hoping that YOU came because I made it just for YOU.. but each night.. I would make it.. and after I am done eating.. I go into the room to sleep.. expecting you to finish the Plate when I wake UP the new next day.. its been a month now.. and I am still wondering.. are you going to come.. because I am waiting for YOU.. but I know that I have to still make the Favorite dinner dish.. the Plate just in case YOU come home and I don't want to see YOU hungry.. I want to see YOU.. I been missing YOU and My Heart is crying inside me.. I just came from Out side.. that is How my Heart feels inside this Home.. like it wants to rain down.. I am looking across.. sitting on my chair.. but my eyes keeps on looking across.. asking for YOU.. I want YOU close.. I want you in my arms so that I can love YOU.. but all my eyes can see right now is Your Chair.. the Chair is empty.. and I feel empty inside like that chair which is empty because YOU are not here.. But I need you here so that I can say it to you how much I am so sorry.. I want to say it to you so that YOU know my real Heart.. that I am missing YOU.. I want you here.. but Now.. I see that I can't see YOU.. as I open the top of the Bottle.. and I would pour into the shot glass.. and I put the bottle Down.. I raise UP the shot glass.. with liquor inside.. I open my mouth and take a Shot.. I hear something ringing.. and I am not sure if it is the Liquor getting to me.. and I would turn too look at my phone.. I see that someone is calling me.. I raise up the Phone to look. I just can't believe it.. and I am wondering.. it must be the Shot glass playing tricks on me.. it must be my eyes seeing things.. and I would pick UP the Phone.. and I hear YOUR voice.. it has been about a Month.. and I have not heard anything from YOU.. and I hear you saying something and only thing I can say is that I am so sorry and that I miss YOU.. YOU know how much I miss YOU and how much I love YOU because Now I know what YOU really means to me.. YOU means everything to me.. You always been everything but I just couldn't express it how.. but now I am able to tell YOU.. How much I missed YOU because I am looking across.. I have seen that the Chair has been empty.. its been missing.. missing YOU.. and I would hear YOU.. that YOU wanted to come Home.. and I am telling YOU to come home.. because in this house I am waiting for YOU Only.. I am looking at the Phone.. able to look at the screen.. I see your Beautiful Face.. I just can't believe YOU have finally answered.. but why did it take this long for YOU to tell me How you are doing.. why can't you tell me sooner.. I have brought the Giant Teddy Bear.. I wanted to show YOU something.. and Placed the Giant Teddy Bear on your Chair.. able to switch it where YOU are able to see it as I am showing you How much this Giant Teddy Bear been missing YOU.. I am sure more than Me.. usually YOU would sleep with this Giant Teddy Bear and I know without Your Presence.. it does Not feel the same

Looking at the Empty Chair.. I am always looking at the past memories.. YOU be laughing.. telling me too salty.. or too dry.. some times a meat ball flies and hits my face and YOU smile.. just these little things.. I would be laughing too because I am at the most happiest when YOU are smiling.. able to smile back.. grab a meat ball and throw back at YOU.. of course I would of missed YOU.. I just can't help it any more.. I was really thinking maybe it should be the last Dinner plate I should make because may be YOU are Not going to ever come Home and just forget me for good.. as I am looking at YOU through my Phone Screen.. I have missed YOU so much.. I would grab the Shot Glass.. filled with the whiskey and Open my mouth to take another Shot.. I know that My Head is about to fall off.. I can see everything circling around Me.. I know that I can't stand UP straight.. and I know that when I wake UP the next morning.. My Head is going to kill me.. rather this is a dream or Not.. I am smiling looking at YOU through the screen of my Phone.. My Heart been aching for a Long time.. just missing YOU.. why I keep on missing YOU.. I now know how much I love YOU.. because of looking across is the Empty Chair.. the Chair YOU sat.. I am looking across.. the Giant Teddy Bear is sitting there who is waiting for YOU to come back to Her.. all I can say is that I am so Sorry.. and that I love YOU.. as the Phone shuts off.. I would put my head on top of the table and I would sleep.. My Heart hurts.. Now that MOON has become My friend and times like this.. this pain and aching in my Heart.. when I feel like I want to die from the Inside.. and How much I missed YOU.. I just had to tell that MOON like a friend.. How much I missed YOU.. Yes.. I made Dinner for few days straight.. and for those past few days.. YOU have not shown UP.. I only saw the Chair.. Your Chair which has been empty.. I would sat the Plate with the Food on the side Of Your table.. but ALL I can see is Your Chair is empty.. I would just look across.. I wanted to reach Out my hand.. I wanted to touch YOU.. but How can I when I see the Chair.. I don't see YOU but only the Empty Chair.. I wanted to call Out your name.. But what can that do.. YOU would not hear me anyways because the Chair YOU sat when we ate together.. It was empty.. I would to say Your name.. call Out and reach to touch YOU.. my arms wanted to hold YOU still.. wrap around YOU but all I see is the Empty Chair.. I see the Food and Your Plate but I don't see YOU.. do you know how it feels to be sitting on the other side of the Chair.. I have my Plate and food.. and try to sit there alone.. eating by myself and all I could do is look across.. I see the Empty Chair.. I would have your Picture.. Put it on the TOP of the table and I would LOOK at it.. I would LOOK at YOU through this Picture.. it is not the same as I am looking at YOU right Now Face to face.. it does not feel right.. I would be asking Your Picture.. DO you even Love me.. if YOU love me why Hurt me like this.. if YOU Know how much I love YOU.. why keep on hurting me like this.. YOU know that I love YOU.. if YOU know that I love you a lot.. it is Not fair to hurt me in a way I should feel like this.. WHY hurt me knowing I love YOU.. that is why I am asking YOU right Now.. do YOU love Me.. if YOU love me.. Please don't hurt me because I am not here to be hurt BY you.. I also need to be loved as much as YOU do.. as I am looking at YOU.. YOU know that my Heart felt like burning.. and it would shattered into pieces.. because I love YOU.. as I look at YOU.. YOU still looks so beautiful.. is.. I even took a picture of YOU sitting with that Huge Bear.. I am over here just missing YOU.. WHY did you have to do this to me when YOU don't love me.. I told you that I love YOU.. I told you my heart and my soul.. that I wanted you to be the one who join in forever with me.. As I sat there on the Chair.. looking at the Watch.. Looking at the clock on the wall.. as it was getting late into the Night.. I get Up from the Chair.. my tears just flowing down.. I would walk out of the front door.. as I stand late into the Night.. I am looking at the Moon.. I am wondering.. WHAT DO I must do to earn YOUR LOVE.. Help me to understand.. If I love YOU.. and I am asking you to stay with Me.. why is it so hard for YOU to know that My Heart and what I say is true.. I am Not lying to YOU at all.. I am only expressing of How Much I love YOU.. why don't you trust My Heart.. WHY don't you know that It is me who Loves YOU the most.. I know that I can love you more.. I can love you where you know I can.. as I am looking at that Moon.. I want YOU to be close.. I want to tell YOU that it is Me who YOU need.. it is me who loves YOU the best.. all you got is to trust me in this.. YOU do not know how long of a flight I had to fly.. the years of coming.. Now.. I am here.. please.. just give me Your Hand.. and I will show YOU HOW MUCH I love YOU.. as long as YOU can trust me and understand.. when YOU give me Your Hand.. once I hold the grip of your Hand.. I will never let Your Hand to go because I love YOU.. and as I turn to walk into the House and I come over to sit on the Chair.. I looked UP.. wiping my Tears.. I see YOU.. I see you sitting there on the Chair.. Holding the Huge Bear.. with red ribbon.. smiling.. WHY are you doing this to Me.. One minute YOU are gone.. Next minute I see YOU.. then YOU are gone.. I cry and Now.. I see you again.. as I sat there.. Putting down the Camera.. I see YOU.. I smile.. even though YOU are NOT THERE.. YOU Live in My Heart.. even though YOU may be so Far.. I see the Chair empty.. but also.. I can close my both eyes.. when I open and LOOK.. I see you sitting on that Chair.. it is because I love YOU.. NO matter How far YOU are.. IN MY HEART.. I know YOU live in.. all I do is say.. I see YOU.. I love YOU.. I am looking at the Empty Chair.. it is Your Chair.. the chair YOU sat down when we would eat together.. I did not know why YOU left.. I am so sorry for letting YOU down.. but I saw YOU angry at Me.. I know that I am Not perfect.. I make a lot of Mistakes.. of course I do because I am also imperfect Human Being.. But there are times I know I just can't say the right Words to YOU.. making YOU angry and frustrated with situations I am not use to with.. When YOU get mad.. or Angry.. I see the Great storms coming.. it hits my Heart like a Hurricane.. and it blows me to the Floor.. But.. I want the best for Us.. I want us to win in this Life.. YOU know How hard and tough Life can be.. it is Not easy for Me.. But YOU know that NO matter the wrong words I would say to YOU.. I know I should Not say.. which It makes YOU to storm Off the room.. it is because I know that I am Not perfect.. But.. YOU know that I love YOU.. I have Never stopped Loving YOU.. it only grows with Time because I know YOU are the One for Me.. and YOU are wondering.. WHY do I choose the wrong Words to say and tell YOU.. because also I go through a lot myself.. I deal with such Hardship.. sometimes It is Not easy to say when I feel unappreciated.. I get hurt Too.. I feel Hurt inside as much as YOU do.. and Yes.. I do regret when YOU walk off the room.. Leaving me just standing here.. I can't explain it sometimes but.. I know that deep inside my Heart.. I do truly love YOU.. I am so sorry for Hurting YOU.. I am so sorry that YOU got Up and left because I could Not say the right words but has chosen to say the wrong words to Hurt YOU.. Now.. I am here all alone.. I been looking at the Clock.. only thing I see is the Clock ticking.. and I am just waiting for YOU to come back Home.. Now I feel so Lost.. I feel so Hurt.. I feel like I know I have wronged YOU but it is because I wanted to say I love YOU.. YOU are wondering.. If I love YOU.. why choose words to say what Hurts YOU the most right.. WHY choose those makes YOU angry and bring frustrations right.. It is because I know I can't make it right.. because I know it is my fault.. I am the One who made the mistake.. so sometimes I would try to say something so that YOU would not respond in a defense.. I know that when YOU fire back.. it hurts Me.. It makes me want to cry but In front of YOU.. I don't want to show YOU any more tears.. I have already shown YOU enough tears but wants to show YOU smile.. bring a smile to your face.. that is why.. I am waiting for YOU.. I even left a message.. I am not sure if YOU got the Message because I am thinking.. right Now is Not the time.. YOU are truly angry at me.. but.. why did YOU leave without saying a Word to me.. when are YOU coming back.. How far are YOU going.. Are you going to be leaving Me behind.. Am I suppose to wait for YOU.. did YOU go out for some fresh of air.. I am over here.. only wondering where YOU are.. wondering if YOU went Out for a walk.. so Am I suppose to wait for YOU.. I am sitting on the chair on the Other side.. the Chair I been sitting when we would eat together.. But.. it seems like it has been awhile.. I would turn a side to look at the Clock.. the Time has been dragging.. sitting here and just waiting.. the Time seems like it is going by so Slow.. and looking across.. I see the Chair.. Your Chair which YOU sat down

Across.. only thing I see is the Chair.. the Chair is empty.. I don't see YOU across this table.. I am thinking.. is this a Dream.. or is this really happening to me.. WHY is it has to end this way.. why tell me that YOU love me and Now.. YOU are Gone with the Wind.. I can't help myself but my eyes are looking at this Chair.. Your chair YOU sat.. I would watch YOU smile as you would eat.. we would talk about the day.. the day YOU would spend time at work.. about Your co workers.. But Now.. I only see the Empty Chair.. and it feels so different because of YOU are Not sitting in it.. I cannot go to that kitchen.. because ALL I see is You.. How you love to make food.. brings such a true joy and blessings in my stomach.. every food YOU make.. it tastes so good and really touches my soul.. and I just cannot forget when YOU tell me.. How do I like it or Not.. I would say.. I love it because.. I know that I am eating from Your hands.. your hands which would be busy making.. Your Heart which YOU put in so much.. of how tasty you wanted to make.. my hand would touch my chest knowing that YOU have touched my Heart.. and I would be smiling as I watch YOU sit on that Chair.. I would look at Your eyes and would say.. YOU are so Beautiful.. delicate flower.. The Most beautiful delicate flower I ever saw.. So beautiful.. Not because of the food.. because It is only being YOU.. Now.. all I see is YOU.. but I don't see YOU anywhere Now.. I have been sitting on this Chair.. on this same spot for few hours.. but I here nothing from YOU.. I would send a Message.. There is No word Back.. I would also call YOU on the Phone.. YOU would not pick Up on the Other side.. just leaving me wondering.. is it that Bad what I have said to YOU.. is it because YOU never loved me from the first Place.. I know you left few times.. But.. YOU would tell me YOU are going out for a walk and needed some fresh of air.. YOU needed your Own time and space and wanted to spend alone.. of course I would agree with YOU and let you have Your Time and space.. to think about what I have done.. but this Time.. it feels so different.. YOU would send Word and would reply back.. and also you would answer the call and Let me speak and YOU would speak back.. I would say I am so Sorry.. I would lead out my apology.. Now.. I feel like this has to be something I really done something bad.. because NO words.. No replies.. I am looking at Your Picture.. Not sure why I keep on looking at It.. of course.. Now Matter how much I would take a Look at your Picture.. I just wish that I am able to speak to YOU.. if the Picture can speak back and tell me what is in your Heart.. what is IN your thoughts.. for a long time.. I wanted to hear what YOU have to say.. as I would look at your Picture.. But what good is it when YOU just had to hold back but only showing tears in the eyes.. it is hard when you just can't say a word and just hold back.. Kills you from the inside.. SO I had to close my eyes.. counting the stars for the chance to come.. asking the Moon.. How long does it take.. How long must I had back the years showing tears to YOU.. so.. if you look at my shoes.. it is not easy of waiting and waiting for the TIME to come.. it is hard but.. I am looking at Your Heart.. I just could not believe.. I see Your Picture too.. looking at YOU and looking at Your Big Heart is like a Dreams come true.. but in reality.. I know that I am not dreaming any more.. Now.. I know that I want to say some much to This Heart of Yours.. what is holding YOUR HEART back of receiving.. I want to give.. I just want to pour out and give YOU all of my Heart and my Love to YOU.. and to tell Your Heart.. I have been waiting for this very day.. that is why I am Not going to hold anything back.. I want to tell Your Heart.. How much I love YOU.. I never stopped loving YOU.. then I loved YOU.. Now.. I love YOU.. still I love YOU.. and More I love you every day.. it is Not going to stop me to keep on loving YOU more every day.. because I have been waiting for YOU.. for Your Big Heart.. for this Heart.. I miss YOU and I love YOU still.. because YOU are my everything.. my forever and ever love in my Heart.. I waited.. Now.. I know I can love you more because I love you.. I am standing Outside.. I just could Not stay Inside because I started to Miss YOU.. sitting on the Chair.. I am looking across and I still see the Empty Chair.. I am waiting for YOU.. looking at the two Plates.. after making Dinner for us.. I just could not stay inside any longer.. I want you Close.. I want YOU near.. I walked Out the Door.. and I am staring out.. Looking at the Moon.. I am asking myself.. Where are YOU.. WHY don't you want to Come home.. is it because what I said to YOU.. but YOU know that sometimes I would say things I should not say.. but also YOU would tell me things that WOULD hurt me as well.. I am waiting for YOU.. Please Come HOME.. I think the Food on the Plate is getting cold.. I have waited and waited.. Looking at the watch.. Looking at the clock.. I see that YOU are Not here yet.. It is pretty cold Outside.. pretty Chilly this very day and I am still waiting for YOU.. WHY don't you want to come Home.. YOU know How much I love YOU.. Please Come Home.. as I am standing there.. I have your picture in my hand.. and I take a LOOK at your Picture.. What have I done.. WHAT did I say those words to YOU.. I am so sorry.. Please forgive me.. because I am Now sorry for the Words I say to YOU.. DID NOT mean to say it in a way to cause YOU to cry.. I know that the damage is already Done but.. I am hurt too.. YOU know that I am not feeling right.. so Please.. Pretty Please come Home to me.. and tell me.. tell me that YOU are coming Home.. as I stand here IN the Night.. it is getting colder outside.. can feel the blowing of the Wind.. as I stand there.. I look UP to the Moon.. and I just can't take this Pain any more.. I can't take this ache in my Heart.. because I am missing YOU.. YOU know that I have not seen you all day.. did not even see YOU last Night or before that Night.. it has been few days that it went By.. and Yes.. I called YOU on the Phone.. but I see that YOU just don't want to talk to me.. I can hear the ringing on the other side.. but.. I only can leave a Voice message.. I am wondering now.. DID YOU get my Message.. I told YOU on the Phone.. left YOU a Message that I am so Sorry.. that I am not going to do that again.. and Now.. days passes by.. still No answer.. YOU have Not left me any messages.. I am wondering about YOU.. I am missing YOU.. and it drives me crazy because I am not sure what is going through Your Mind and heart.. Please tell me.. so that I don't have to worry about YOU.. I am Looking UP at the Moon.. Can you Hear me.. even though I called Your Phone.. even today this Morning I left a message on Your Phone.. did YOU get the message.. did YOU hear my Voice on the other side.. and yes.. every Night.. for the past few days.. I would clean UP the food ON your Plate and make a New Dinner.. Just in case YOU show up this Very day.. Do you know what Hurts me the Most.. that I would have to get UP from the Chair.. and I have to look across and I see Your Chair.. that chair has been empty for few days Now.. I would sit by myself.. I ache in my Heart as I am eating alone.. just for one meal.. I wanted to take my time to share with YOU.. and I would be looking across.. as Your Picture is laying next to the Plate.. I would take a Look at the Picture of YOU and I would touch my Chest.. telling Your Picture.. while looking.. I would stop eating and say TO your Picture.. How sorry I am and that I love YOU.. you would Not answer me and it hurts because I am missing YOU not wondering what YOU are doing.. I be eating.. Looking across.. Looking at Your Chair.. the empty Chair.. how YOU sat down and we would look at each other.. smile and eat.. just for that One night.. for that Dinner.. I would cook so that YOU know this is what I can give YOU to tell YOU.. I may not be able to give YOU much.. but.. I want to give YOU something from my Heart.. it is a meal for two of us.. But Now.. I sit there alone.. and I hear nothing.. so quiet.. and just silence in that ROOM.. I would get UP after I finish eating alone.. my Plate would be done.. as I walk across.. I would grab Your Plate.. still has Food on the table.. and I would go into the kitchen.. and it goes into the trash.. I would stand and I would wash the Plates and put back into the cabinet.. as I turn around.. I would look at Your Chair.. the empty Chair where YOU sat once.. and Now I am just missing Your presence.. and I would ask looking at Your Empty Chair.. where are YOU.. DO you know that I am missing YOU.. I just can't believe YOU are gone and has not come home yet.. what If YOU never come Home.. what is going to happen to this Chair.. I don't want this Chair to sit here because of Knowing the memories of YOU.. I just can't take it any more.. I just can't see this Chair.. I can't because I am hurting too.. aching and wishing that YOU can come back.. WHY do you have to leave and Not tell me where YOU are going to go

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MAH MAH.. I am standing.. holding a stick in my hand.. Looking at the Sun rising before my eyes.. I know that I must get ready.. the Other hand pulls Out the Art Sketch paper.. it is the drawing of YOU.. I can hear my Heart beating so Fast when I look at YOU.. MAH MAH.. I am getting ready and preparing these Men.. the MEN who came to YOU.. the New recruits.. I had NO idea that YOU would put me on the front Line.. to prepare these Men.. these YOUNG MEN.. the New Recruits.. WHY would you give me this Mission.. why would you give me the Permission to teach and to train these YOUNG MEN.. YOU know that I am Not that GOOD.. but Like HOW you gave me the Order and has commanded me to do so.. There are A lot of Other Generals.. the Superior before Me.. the Aged and well fought.. who are better Instructors and even YOU have the Chief Generals.. even the Great Commanders.. who has lead many victories over many wars they fought.. and I just don't understand why YOU put me in charge and gave me this KIND OF Order to do So.. I am Not even well trained.. did NOT fight many wars or has lead many soldiers to WIN many victories of Wars.. but WHY did YOU put me in Charge.. and I am looking at the Picture.. the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. as I am standing.. YOU also gave me few Men.. there are Seven of My Friends who are standing with me and with me they are standing Behind me.. I only came here.. just to be a Palace Guard.. just to guard the back door of the Palace.. Never imagined that I would come this very far.. so Close to YOU.. Only thing I ever wanted to ask of and say to YOU is how much I love YOU.. I only wanted to express deeply my Love for YOU.. never thought that I be here today.. as I am watching the Sun Rise.. before me are the tents.. and very SOON the New Recruits are going to come Out of the tents they are sleeping in and I have to begin the training for the New Big War.. as the Seven Men are behind Me.. I am looking forward.. I see the Men.. the New recruits walking Out their tents.. My tears.. two lines are falling down both eyes.. I just can't believe I have to do this.. But I am not even experienced veteran at war.. I am Not even the general.. Not even the TOP general or the Chief general.. Not even the Commander or the Great Commander.. those MEN has years of many experiences of striking and WINNING in wars.. but why did MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH choose me to do this.. there are great war veterans.. WHAT AM I suppose to teach.. what Words MUST I say.. how can I lead victories for the Next war.. and I would watch all the YOUNG MEN.. the New Recruits walking Out and they all stood in the Line just waiting.. I don't know what to DO.. and I am looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU and I would say.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. WHY did You give me this Kind of Order.. why did YOU commanded me to train and to teach.. to instruct these YOUNG RECRUT MEN.. what if I fail trying too.. and I would put the arm down holding the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. the Closest Friend takes the Art Sketch paper in my hand.. and I turn my Head aside.. and I would look.. by the Fence.. I see YOU there.. the CROWN PRINCESS.. sitting on the Horse.. I see YOU with the BIG CROWN on your Head.. standing around are the COMMANDERS.. the Chief Generals.. the Great Commanders of War.. I see the TOP Generals behind YOU and YOU are looking at me.. and I see YOU pulling Out the Sword.. telling me that the training has Begun.. But.. something stops Me.. something stops me to go further.. I don't know what it is because these are YOUR new recruits.. these are Men that came here for YOU.. to Fight for the Next war.. to Fight for the Next Battle Field.. these are the MEN who are going to Die if they are NOT trained right.. who came to protect and to defend YOU.. for the Nation and for YOU to be their QUEEN.. even though YOU are the Crown Princess right Now.. what am I doing right Now.. I would fall down on both Knees.. and I put my arm up forward and I would Lower my Head before YOU.. and I see you pointing the Sword to me.. telling me to speak.. and I lift UP my Head and I look at YOU.. MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. these are YOUNG NEW MEN.. New recruits.. they are Unexperienced and has Not trained for years.. do NOT know what it is Like to fight in the Battle fields of War.. How can YOU let me be the trainer or the Instructor.. I know that I might sound so weak.. but it is the Lives that YOU are putting Under.. they have Lives and the Lives are very special and precious.. because of my Wrong.. I don't want to see the YOUNG MEN.. the New recruits to fall by the swords because of the wrong teaching or instructing.. that is why I am begging YOU to let someone else.. like the experienced and the veterans of war.. who lead men to victories to take my Place.. and I would see YOU looking at me.. but The sword.. I see the sword YOU are holding.. YOU lifted it UP higher telling me to GO.. and my Heart.. My Heart starting to beat so fast when I see YOU believe and Your Faith.. the trust YOU have.. telling me to go On.. My Heart.. starting to beat faster when I truly understood that Because I love YOU.. One thing that makes me so different is that I love YOU.. the Love that I have for YOU will never let others to fall because I love YOU.. I love YOU more and more and never stopped Loving YOU.. and I would look at YOU.. the Seven Men behind me.. they all fall on their two knees.. Arms UP forward and Heads all Lower before YOU.. and I see YOU still holding the Sword UP High.. and I know.. it means that Is it.. so I turn my Head.. LOOKING at the YOUNG MEN.. the New Recruits.. and I know that these are YOUR MEN.. these are the defenders.. who are going to Protect YOU with Me.. and Yes.. NO ONE is going to stop us from trying Our Best.. I know that if I love YOU.. I will do whatever it takes to make YOUR MEN stronger.. make them more wiser and BE ready to walk into the War.. I Hear more voices and I turn the Other way.. where YOU are at.. I see More New Young Men.. More new recruits wants to join in the Military force.. and I have never seen such a Large Number of gathered.. the Guard at the gate by the Fence Opens and More YOUNG NEW RECRUITS.. who has passed the exam all runs Into the join the Camp.. the training ground.. and they stand in the back of the Line.. and I stand there looking at these Unprepared men.. I must.. wiping my tears from my eyes.. I must help them.. and I turn to LOOK at YOU.. ARM UP and Head lowers.. Your Sword Points to Me again and I would lift up my head and I would say to YOU.. Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I just wanted to say Thank YOU.. If you are asking why.. I remember I was by the Fence.. DO you not remember.. I was by the Fence waiting for the Chance.. there was a Guard telling me that I could Not come inside.. I had the Letter.. and the Older MAN who was the Instructor.. who was the One to teach me.. after I lost my Father.. I have fallen into great depression.. crying IN the Night.. and Just wanted to Give UP on life.. I remember the Only HOPE was go to YOU.. I walked for many days with out FOOD or Water.. did Not see the Winter and the great blizzard came and swept me away.. at that Moment I thought I was going to die.. I only thought of YOU.. and Kept on walking through the SNOW until I just could not walk any more and fell in the snow.. I wanted to cry.. as I was laying on the snow.. all I could think is YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. just to go and to see YOU.. before I die.. at least to tell YOU how much I love YOU and I closed two eyes.. I woke UP and I only called Out to YOU.. wanting to be with YOU.. wanting to get close to YOU.. I was meant to die and said.. I am going to die any ways.. better to just die in the SNOW but.. I did Not die.. after waking UP in a Home.. the Older MAN started to teach me.. gave me an instruction and started to teach me the Art of Swordsmanship.. and He final gave me a Letter.. and Placed a Stamp saying I can go to the Camp.. the Guard by the Table told me I can go inside.. Large LINE to wait.. and It took me many days waiting in the Line and when It came to Me.. I was standing by the Fence.. the Guard who was by the gates told me I can't come in.. That day was the last day and I remember I saw YOU.. YOU came.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU stood with the Generals.. the TOP.. the CHIEF and the COMMANDERS.. Looking at the New Recruits who were the YOUNG MEN at that TIME.. I remember YOU turn your Head.. and as I was turning away leaving.. I heard you which it stopped me.. MAH MAH.. YOU did Not recognize me who was at the Garden.. but.. YOU stopped me as YOU wanted to see the Letter.. My Heart.. it started to beat again.. this was the Only way.. this was the Only road and I turn around to face YOU.. and YOU stood there.. in the White Dress.. and I would give you the Letter which was written by the Older MAN who told me that I was ready.. and LOOKED at me.. and I pulled Out the Art Sketch paper which was behind Me.. and Unfolded.. Of course it is very different then because YOU were very young.. NOW.. such a beautiful Lady you have become.. and I showed YOU the Art sketch Paper.. the picture drawing of YOU and I asked you.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. DO you remember this and YOU looked at me.. and YOU knew who I was.. the Boy at the Garden.. who wanted to give you a Flower.. just to say.. YOU are so Beautiful.. that MAH MAH.. YOU are so lovely as this Flower.. and YOU told the guard to let me into the training Ground.. as the Gate opens and I would walk into

MAH MAH.. Never stopped Loving YOU because I know that STILL at this Moment.. I still Love YOU and Yes.. I will take orders.. your Commands seriously and help rebuild Your Forces.. make them into warriors who will Fight for YOU.. who will protect YOU and defend this Nation because.. the Day I was rejected was the Day I saw YOU and that DAY was when YOU let me In.. I just wanted to tell YOU.. Crown Princess.. thank YOU for giving me the Chance to be a soldier who can protect and defend YOU and this Nation.. as I grab the stick.. putting the Art sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU on the ground.. I get UP.. and the Seven Men who are behind me.. they are all get UP.. Arms stretch forward and the Heads all lower to YOU.. I would grab the stick.. the Seven MEN stays behind.. and I would walk down by myself.. and I would stand.. as One YOUNG MEN recruit walks Out.. He has the Stick in his Hand.. and I would shout.. to see How well does this YOUNG MAN can fight.. and I would turn to LOOK at HIM.. I would remember.. when I was at the Older Man's House.. In the ROOM.. I would be sitting Alone.. Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. I would be looking at YOU through that.. I would be asking.. I would be saying.. MAH MAH.. WHY do I keep on missing YOU.. I am trying to leave this Place.. I am trying so hard to leave.. so that I can be with YOU.. be close to YOU.. but I feel like I can't.. looking at this Picture.. this drawing picture of YOU.. I keep on missing YOU.. I needs to be with YOU.. and I can hear the DOOR.. it opens behind me.. and the Loud thunder and it is raining Hard out side.. the Older Man.. the teacher.. grabs my Back shirt.. my both hands opens to release the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU and I let it go.. I feel the Pull from the back and He yanks Me out of the room and I fall Out side.. I just can't believe I am out side sitting as I am getting hit by the rain.. it is pouring down On me because it is raining so Hard.. I stood and sitting.. crying because I am missing YOU.. I want to go where YOU are.. It is aching and Pain in me.. I want to be where YOU at.. MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. when can I see YOU and be close to YOU.. I needs to go to YOU.. and a stick falls to the ground next to Me.. I am Looking Up at the Moon.. the Seven Men are behind Me on Watch Guard.. the New Recruits are in the tents and they are all sleeping.. I would unroll the Paper.. the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. my hand runs over.. Looking at How Beautiful YOU are.. I have Never seen such a Great Beauty.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I know that I am getting the New Recruits.. the New Young Men.. So many people are waiting.. the Fences are blocking More New Recruits.. and I am Not sure where all these YOUNG MEN came from.. but.. Many wants to Join this Military Arts.. wants to join the Circle.. But it is YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. these are YOUR YOUNG MEN.. the New Recruits who are.. and as I am Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. I only saw you this Morning.. watching More YOUNG MEN.. the New RECRUITS.. By the Fences.. trying to get in.. but the Fences would Not let them Pass through.. as I turn to LOOK UP at the MOON.. the training will start when the early Morning.. when the Sun comes UP.. I am going to prepare these YOUNG NEW RECRUITS.. they are going to come to this training Ground.. the Ones who passed the examinations and now.. ready to pick UP the WOODEN SWORD STICKS.. and I would be turning Back.. Looking at the Seven Men.. the friends of Mine.. and they all look at me with a SMILE.. and I turn to LOOK UP.. looking at the MOON.. Just thinking of YOU.. HOW far I came.. and How it is because I love YOU.. I never stopped Loving YOU and that is the Driving force behind of Never giving UP Hope.. it is because I love YOU.. I wish that WANGSEJABI MAH MAH knows this Heart of Mine.. that I would see.. A Messenger comes.. I hear the Horse running.. and the Horse stops.. the Messenger gets Down from the Horse and LOOKS at me and the Seven Men.. He shows me a Scroll.. and the Enemies are going to Come Back again.. and they want to fight again for this War.. it is Not Finished Yet.. and the Messenger tells me.. get the YOUNG MEN RECRUITS also ready for the war.. I watch the Messenger gets ON the Horse and He leaves out of sight.. as I am thinking about Another War.. I am Not sure if I will make this One alive.. But.. For YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. we Must Win for YOU.. so that YOU WILL BE our QUEEN.. and to make this Nation stronger and the People.. the New Recruits stronger to protect YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. DO YOU remember.. When I first came.. and I am looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture.. as I am speaking looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Picture.. drawing picture of YOU.. and I would say to your Drawing Picture.. DO YOU NOT remember when I first came to the Training Ground.. I wanted to come.. I wanted to be the part of the Military Arts.. but My Heart.. I always believed that I will meet YOU one day SOON.. that I get to show YOU my Face.. I get to draw Near.. to get closer to YOU.. I remember it was in a Night like this.. and as I turn to LOOK UP at the MOON.. I would go back to the Good Ole Days.. I am sitting in the ROOM.. with the Closet Friend.. I am looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU.. and I would smile.. I will see YOU soon.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please be Patient and wait.. I know that I be meeting you so SOON.. I lost my Father.. but there was a Older MAN who became Like a Father.. taught me the Arts of Swordsmanship.. and has told me.. it is TIME for me to enter the training Camp.. the Training Ground.. and Gave me a Letter.. with the Stamp.. I would be looking at the Letter.. and His Mark of stamp.. on the Other Hand is the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I can't believe this Teacher gave me this Stamp Letter.. which Allows me to go direct into the Training Ground.. and I know.. the Next day.. Many are going to enter the training Ground.. or the Camp which YOU MUST pass in the Camp to go into the Ground.. but This Letter.. with the Stamp.. for Many Years.. I have been waiting for this day to Come.. for Many Years.. I would be coming Out side.. and I would LOOK UP to the MOON.. and I would ask.. I will be there very SOON.. I know that the distance between YOU and I seems a LONG WAY.. but I believe.. I know.. why.. because I know my Heart.. My Heart which Loves YOU.. I have Never stopped thinking of YOU.. I have never stopped Loving YOU.. YOU may Not know It.. when YOU LOOK at the distance between YOU and the MOON.. it is very Far to touch that MOON.. but I know.. Because I love YOU.. it does Not seems so Far any more.. as Long as I believe and I know.. I will be seeing YOU SOON.. I will be meeting YOU so SOON.. and I would look at the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. the Closest friend would look at me.. but I never get tired of LOOKING at YOU.. even though the Drawing was when YOU were much more Younger Years.. I do remember that with out YOU.. I know that I can't dream of coming this Close.. dreaming of getting close to YOU but I never stopped dreaming of Us.. of We.. that One Day.. I will see you and meet YOU.. I be close to YOU that I am able to speak and tell YOU.. I love YOU.. as the Next Day Comes.. me and the Closest Friend are standing in the Line.. the Line is so Long.. too many Young Men.. waiting in the Line to either go into the Camp or to the Ground.. and My Heart is beating.. It is beating so fast because I know that I am getting Close to YOU.. I see about one Hundred Young men standing.. waiting for their Time to enter.. I am so excited.. but also.. My Heart keeps on beating just too Fast.. I would be holding the Art Sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. and I would be looking at YOU.. YOU do Not understand How Long I waited.. I had to count for many Days.. Many Weeks and Many Years.. and was Not sure at First.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. I am here on the Line.. I am right Close.. and I just can't believe that I had to wait this Long just to stand Even in this Line.. but also.. this Letter is the way I can see YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. few days Ago.. even just the few days ago.. I felt like I was very far.. that I wanted to say.. Maybe I am thinking just too Hard.. or Just the dream is Non Sense.. WHO is going to believe me that I can get close to YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I would be staying with the Older Man.. who was my teacher.. I was living with Him for awhile.. in the WOODS.. where there was nothing to DO.. NO dreams to think about.. Just be chopping down woods.. and getting the water in a bucket.. doing a lot of chores for this Older MAN.. who was a teacher.. Like a Father Figure to Me.. I would be walking Out side.. In the Night.. I would stand Out side.. LOOKING UP.. looking at the MOON and I would ask.. after looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. am I NOT allowed to dream.. Can a fellow Like me dreams TOO.. because maybe I am Not suppose to dream anything.. living as a Slave Boy.. But I do Have a Dreams.. and I would look at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU and I would say to YOU in the Picture.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. why can't some one like me dream.. will YOU laugh and Mock at me if I tell YOU these dreams I have.. and It is ALL About getting closer and to tell YOU that I love YOU.. why can't I even share this Dream to YOU.. WILL you allow me to share it what I have IN my Heart

MAH MAH.. Nation.. I just could Not believe It.. How was it that I was able to look at this Picture drawing of YOU.. if a Peasant.. or a SON of a SLAVE looks.. He can be arrested and be put to death.. I was told.. but I just did Not care at all.. I mean my Heart.. it must be broken to act this way.. I just knew when I saw the Art sketch Paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. I am a Dean person any ways.. and I only live Once.. but Loving YOU.. and just missing YOU.. How is it my fault.. WHY would you blame someone who Loves YOU just because I just do.. the other Boy let me have this Picture.. the drawing of YOU.. and ever since I had it in my hands.. I would never let this drawing picture go.. because I just Love YOU.. I would be waiting in the Line.. with the Closest friend.. but the Line would Not Move.. Just too many Young Men has all shown UP for this Once a Year event.. and I know If I don't make it this Year.. I know I have to wait Next year.. but this Letter is only for this Year usage.. so I would wait and wait.. even though the Line would Not Move.. few days ago living with the Old Teacher.. I would be cleaning.. and the Old Teacher asked me to come Closer.. and I just could Not believe what He wanted to show Me.. and Showed Me.. the Letter.. when the Old Teacher gave me His Letter to me.. I would sit in the ROOM and I would cry.. alone I kept ON crying because.. I always dreamed of Getting close to YOU.. it felt like I would never see YOU again.. ever since in the Garden.. so many Years has passed since the last time.. the Old memories of YOU.. but I would revisit the Old Memories because I missed YOU.. when the Old Teacher called me to come into His room.. and gave me the Letter.. I would be looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU and I would tell Your Picture.. what if the Old teacher never gave me the Letter.. I wonder what would happen.. I would be still living with HIM and be His Slave instead.. I would take a LOOK at the Art sketch Paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU and say.. I never stopped dreaming.. the Old teacher also knows that I have the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. I am always taking it with me.. wherever I go.. the Art sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU comes with me.. when there are Hard days.. when I be struggling.. Or just missing YOU.. I would pull and unroll the Paper.. and I would look at the Drawing Picture of YOU.. and I would say.. I want to see YOU SOON.. I want to be close to YOU SOON.. but I would say this and believe it.. but it seems like It is never going to happen to me.. but I want to get close.. My Heart wants to tell YOU that I love YOU.. when can I tell YOU these words of Mine to YOU.. but it seems like it is so Far.. Just like when I come Out side.. and LOOKING up to the MOON.. it is so far for my hands to touch that MOON.. the long distance.. which it is IMPOSSIBLE for me.. when will that day be when I can see YOU and be close to YOU.. when my arms can hold YOU near and I am able to say.. how much I love YOU.. but.. when the Letter came.. and the Old Teacher tells me.. when He stamps on the End.. That I am going direct to the Ground.. Not the camp site.. and I saw the Stamp He put.. I would cry in the ROOM.. just could Not believe It.. that HE is letting me get close to YOU.. without this Stamp and this Letter.. I would be still waiting.. and Only LOOKING at the MOON wishing every night.. but feeling that distance that IT is Never going to happen.. but when the Stamp was set.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I would run Out side.. and I turn to LOOK at the Moon.. holding the Stamp Letter in my Hand and I would be waving the Letter.. telling that MOON.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Just Wait.. I am coming.. I am going to get close to YOU.. I am going to be there very SOON.. I know that One day soon.. I will tell YOU how much I love YOU because I know that I do.. I never stopped believing that I will love YOU and I can say it to YOU SOON.. as I am standing in the Line.. with the Closest friend.. I begin to see the Men moving forward.. and yes.. Finally I get to enter the Ground.. I will see you soon Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I will see you soon.. because I love YOU..I am with the Seven Friends of Mine.. in the training Camp.. as I am looking at these New Recruits.. More young men are flocking.. filling up the training Camp.. as I watch more then One Hundred new young Men and More Men are waiting by the fences.. wanting to Join in the Military Arts.. I just can't Believe what is going On.. these are Your New men HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. these are new Recruits who wants to Fight For YOU.. and On your Behalf ready to Die for this Nation.. and They are Not afraid of the War.. I am holding the Wooden Sword Stick.. with the Seven Men behind Me.. and they are ready to Train these Young Men.. and I am looking at more than One Hundred Young Men of recruits.. and I can feel the tears in my eyes.. I remember I was One of those Men.. I am Looking over and around.. and My Hand touches the Chest.. I remember I was standing in the way Back.. I saw YOU at the training Camp.. with the Chief Generals and the Commanders.. with the Trainers of the Art of Swordsmanship.. I saw YOU sitting on the Chair.. and YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. who was looking saw me at the end.. and YOU stood UP and noticed Me.. I was way in the Back with the Number On the Back of the armor.. I just could not believe that YOU would let me come to the front.. and to see my Face.. I would walk up from being way behind.. More than One Hundred men because I was the 100th men.. the Number was written.. as I walked to the Front.. I saw YOU after a Long Time.. I wanted to say something to YOU WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. but CROWN PRINCESS.. what words would I say to YOU at that time.. I had to prove myself which I can be a Part of the Member to Fight.. as I saw YOU stand there.. YOU also holding a Wooden Sword stick.. and told me.. and I had to come before YOU.. and With the WOODEN SWORD.. YOU wanted to challenge Me.. But I just could Not fight YOU.. instead.. I let YOU Hurt Me.. I placed the WOODEN SWORD DOWN.. and Yes.. I just could Not hit.. as YOU would strike me with the WOODEN STICK SWORD.. and I fell to the ground after getting Hit several times.. I saw YOU stand there with NO WORDS.. and I saw YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. walk away.. and told.. One of the men.. the Chief General YOU knew to Challenge Me.. I would stand UP.. and YOU stood with the Other Chief Generals and the Commanders.. with the TOP GENRALS on the Side.. I held and grab the WOODEN STICK.. and the Chief General.. He grabbed and we were facing each Other.. I knew that If I could Not beat HIM.. I would Not be able to get It as the Palace Guard.. as I stood here with the Seven Men.. who is behind Me.. I am standing here in tears.. I just could Not believe that I am here today.. For your Kingdom.. and For your Nation.. and YOU gave me the Command to Teach and to train the New Young Men.. the New Recruits.. How is it that I can do this.. I just could Not.. as I watch the Faces of these New Young Men.. and they are all in the single line.. standing side to side.. and as I turn to look.. I see YOU sitting ON the Horse.. with the White Dress and the Big Crown on top of the Head.. as the Seven men with men.. we would all turn to Give YOU the attention.. and I would be on the two knees.. arm forward and head looking at the Ground.. the Seven men also gets down on two knees.. arms forward and heads looking on the ground.. and the New Recruits all turns too look.. the CROWN PRINCESS.. It is the WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. and all the new Recruits all gets down on two knees.. arms out forward Heads all look on the Ground.. and I shouted to YOU.. CHOONG CHOONG CHOONG and the Voices of more than one hundred men all shouts to YOU the Crown Princess.. CHOONG CHOONG CHOONG.. as the WOODEN STICK HITS the ground.. and I would close Both eyes.. and going to the Meeting of the council.. the Meeting Board.. YOU.. the crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. sitting on the King's Chair.. on the Right Side.. from the eldest to the youngest.. Six Princes were standing.. the Prime Minister.. and the 12 council of noble Men.. from the eldest down.. and on the Left side is the Chief Commander.. to Commanders.. Chief Generals to TOP General.. 2nd General to the 3rd General.. as I am on the two Knees.. my arms out forward.. my Head looking on the Ground.. with the Seven Men who are my Friends in the same Position.. as the Messenger of the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. He is reading from the Scroll of what YOU have written.. and Now.. YOU are telling me that I am Not the palace Guard any More.. that Now.. I am a Special Guard for the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. and also shared that I am now the trainer for the New Recruits with the Seven Men who are with me.. as I lifted UP my Head.. what is this MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. why are you promoting Me.. I rather be the Palace Guard but Now.. YOU are telling me that I can be the special Guard.. who is to protect YOU.. I always wanted to protect YOU but even as the palace guard I can.. YOU do not have to promote me for anything.. as Long as I can protect you with the Sword.. the Only One sword I can.. and Now.. YOU are also giving me a chance to teach.. to share.. even though I may not be that GOOD.. why are you being so good to Me.. I know I can't do much.. but also.. for this CHANCE of a Life time.. I just wanted to thank YOU from my Heart.. and I can hear.. the men behind me starts to cry

MAH MAH.. Came across and I saw YOU.. I only felt something in my Heart.. I only wanted you to KNOW.. can I show you something that I felt in my soul.. that I felt in my Heart.. How am I suppose to show YOU something that is Unseen.. YOU can't see love.. YOU can't even know what Love is unless YOU learn.. and start learning HOW TO LOVE.. I began with the Art Sketch Paper.. I started when I saw a Boy.. He was running.. and He fell on the Floor.. and out of his hand the Art sketch paper came off and I was walking with my Father.. he was telling me He had to go to the Meeting Board.. the COUNCIL OF BOARD MEETING.. I stopped and I looked on the Ground.. an art Sketch Paper was near at my feet.. I went on the ground and I saw a Face.. it was a drawing and my two hands grabbed unto and I looked at the Picture of YOU.. Crown Princess.. and My Father who was standing next to Me saw the same Picture.. he tells me it is the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I looked at it.. How did it come to my hands.. How did this Picture.. this ART SKETCH PAPER.. the Drawing of YOU.. and I looked at it.. the CROWN PRINCESS.. MAH MAH.. and the Boy gets UP and looks at me.. telling me He drew it.. and that I can have it just like that.. ever since I saw this Picture.. my eyes were glued to this Picture.. YOU took my Breathe away what I first saw this Picture.. I just could Not breathe.. I could Not inhale or exhale.. HOW COULD I.. and Now.. I am here.. I am here looking at YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I told myself.. I am going to Meet YOU.. I am going to Fight for YOU and WILL PROTECT YOU.. and I will be by your side and Just wanted to say that I love YOU.. as I am looking at YOU who is sitting on the Horse.. and YOU are looking at the center of the training camp.. and I see you looking at me and the Seven Men behind Me.. and I do remember at the Meeting Board.. YOU gave the Command to make these My Soldiers.. to Make them into fighting warriors who will fight and to protect the Nation.. and gave me the COMMAND that I am also the Special GUARD for the CROWN PRINCESS.. and as I am watching the SUN SETTING.. and I see YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. turning the Horse away from the Fence.. I would Raise UP my Voice and would SHOUT.. MANSAE to the CROWN PRINCESS.. I hear the voices of all of the Men in the training Camp.. MANSAE TO HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I would be loud and clear.. raising UP the WOODEN STICK SWORD.. MANSAE to CROWN PRINCESS.. all of the MEN in one Voice Shouts.. MANSAE TO WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. as I am looking at the Horse walking off while YOU are sitting on the Horse.. I go back to the War.. watching YOU on the Horse.. I see you pull the Sword Out of the Sheath.. and Your Arm moves Down.. blade striking down one enemy at a Time.. the battle is so fierce.. and I see More of the enemies.. LOOKING and Pointing the Swords at YOU.. Crown Princess.. and I turn to LOOK back.. as I am swinging the Sword.. and I look at the Seven men who is with me.. telling Them.. the ENEMIES are charging.. they are going after the CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGJABI MAH MAH.. GO and protect.. and I see the Seven Men.. running towards YOU on the Horse.. as YOU are sitting on the Horse striking down One enemy.. but the ENEMIES starts to gather.. More and they rush at YOU.. and I turn to LOOK back.. and I start to RUN TOWARDS you.. and Me and the Seven Men makes a Circle around YOU.. and with are Backs we would lean on the Horse to PUSH it back.. More of YOUR MEN comes out of the fortress to JOIN and they gather around YOU MAKING MORE bigger circles and Pushes with the backs on the Horse so that It can go into the FORTRESS.. and I see and I jump forward.. with the Sword I strike and I swing.. going forward as More ENEMIES are approaching.. Blades are hitting Other.. and YOU go in safely.. as I am on two Knees and arms out forward and Head looking on the ground.. I see YOU and the Horse disappear.. HWAANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU have done so well.. I just wanted to say Thank YOU.. the DAY I first entered the Training camp.. the DAY YOU saw me in the way of the back of the Line.. I was waiting for the number and the Name to be called.. I watched for days sitting on the way Back on the Line.. I would wait.. as the detour happens.. I had to leave without my Number and my Name being called.. wondering will I even enter this Camp.. for the few days I was sitting back of the Line.. I did Not see YOU sitting with the CHIEF GENERALS and the COMMANDERS.. it was like the 5th day.. when YOU came to sit on the Chair to Judge the new Recruits.. I was just waiting.. until YOU saw me.. and YOU recognized me at the way in the Back.. It was YOU HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. it was YOU who gave me this One Shot.. this One Chance.. I could of waited and just gone back HOME without ever entering.. but the day I saw YOU.. I saw Your eyes looking at ME and YOU recognized Me.. I just could Not believe that YOU would recognize me even though it has been so Long ago I met YOU.. when I was very YOUNG.. but Many years went down the Line.. and of course people changes.. But YOU recognized Me when YOU first took that glance looking at me sitting alone in the back.. but able to give me this One Shot.. I wanted to say thank YOU.. if YOU did Not recognized me.. I would of never made it to the camp.. and I would be shouting.. CROWN PRINCESS.. MANSAE.. HOORAY.. HOORAY TO the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. HOORAY.. and I would be crying as I am LOOKING at the MOON staring down at Me into the Night.. I am standing Out of the Gates of the Fortress.. the Seven Men.. the Friends are all behind Me.. and I see YOU.. the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. sitting On the Horse.. All the Chief Generals and the Commanders.. More Foot soldiers are walking Out of the Fortress gates.. the Six Princes are inside.. Soldiers pushing the Big Canons.. and Men sitting on the Horses.. with Bows and Arrows.. I turn to Look at YOU.. and I am on the foot.. I see YOU raise UP the Bow.. and Other side are the Enemies lined UP.. generals On the Horses.. I see YOU grabbing the Two Arrows.. Putting on the End of the strings of the BOW And pulling it back.. I turn.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please wait.. Please CONSIDER.. and I see you turn YOUR head and looks at me.. and YOU look forward.. and the aiming the Arrows and hand let goes and It shoots Out and fires.. I can't believe it.. I just can't and I see the two Arrows and It hits two enemy soldiers and they both Die.. MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. the Chief general ON top of the tower raises UP his Right hand with the Sword and Blows the Horn.. Arrows shoots fires and I can see it UP in the air.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please.. consider.. and I pull out the Sword.. looking at the Blade.. and the Seven Men behind Me all pulls Out their swords.. For HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Let us Fight and Protect.. and I see the enemies soldiers running.. and I would start to run with the Seven Men.. and the Two sides clashes.. I am swinging the Sword.. just thinking about YOU.. I can't let YOU down.. Let us fight and Protect the CROWN PRINCESS.. it is for YOU.. and I am swinging the sword.. the blades hits each Other.. and I see one enemy soldier.. He looks at me.. and I jump UP and swing the Sword and goes across his Neck.. My seven Friends are surrounding and they are all close to Me.. as I hear them shout OUT.. and I turn to look back.. I see Arrows flying Out.. More arrows flying across.. I see two Large Canon Balls with Fire falling from the Sky.. killing Many Enemies who are running across.. I see YOU on the Horse.. MAH MAH.. It is HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I look at three of the closest friends.. My sword points Back.. Protect the Crown Princess.. Please go and be close to you.. and the three friends looks at me.. and they turn to go back to YOU.. and I just can't.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I can't focus when YOU are Out here.. I can't even fight right.. I asked YOU to consider.. It is so dangerous OUT here.. LOOK at this raging war.. and I turn to LOOK back.. I see One enemy running at me.. with the Sword I would jump and move back.. I swing the Sword and it hits the blades.. and I move forward and Bash into him.. and I jump swing the Sword and it strikes him down.. I turn to the Left.. to the right.. so many Men fighting.. I see many enemies are falling by the sword.. I just can't go ahead.. I turn to look back.. I see YOU still on the Horse.. with the Armor and Sword.. and YOU are swinging as riding on the Horse.. I see More men running towards you.. I grab the Sword and I run after.. I can't let Them go attack.. I need YOU to RULE.. I need YOU to be the Next On the Line.. I would RUN and RUN.. I can see the backs.. I would start to swing the sword.. and Hitting One Back to the Next.. to the three and four Men falls by the Sword.. and I would say.. Protect the Crown Princess.. I am yelling Out Loud.. and Screaming Out Loud.. Protect the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and More of the Men turns.. and LOOKS at YOU on the Horse.. as YOU are swinging your sword looking down.. as all of the Seven of my friends.. and I would surround making a circle.. as One Enemy approaches I would jump forward and swing the sword and He swings back.. blades hitting each Other.. the Chief Generals are raising the swords.. telling the Men to Protect YOU.. More men would surround YOU

MAH MAH.. With the Sword in my Hand.. and we have WON the battle Again.. and I can feel the tears.. I am in so much joy.. the soldiers.. we have WON.. and I raise UP the Sword.. MAN SAE to Crown Princess.. the Seven Men behind Me.. wiping the tears with me.. they raise the swords with right HANDS.. MANSAE to Crown Princess.. and I raise it up the sword and SHOUT.. MANSAE to HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and the Seven MEN raises the sword with right Hands.. MANSAE to WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MAH MAH.. we have WON.. and I turn around.. and the seven Men turns to look at the Gates of the Fortress.. I see YOU coming out of the Gates.. Your RIGHT HAND.. holding the Sword.. and I just can't believe my eyes.. as YOU are on the Horse.. I see More Horses.. the six Princes has joined the Battle to help YOU to WIN this War.. the Chief generals and Commanders.. they all line UP.. as YOU raise UP the Sword.. the MEN all shout.. MANSAE to CROWN PRINCESS.. MANSAE TO CROWN PRINCESS.. MANSAE TO WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE TO HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I would run UP.. and two Knee on the ground.. with the arm up and Head looking down.. the Seven men runs UP.. two knees down.. heads looking on the ground.. arms UP and all of the MEN.. COMMANDERS.. CHIEF GENERALS.. GENERALS.. Soldiers.. all fall on two Knees.. Heads all looking down and arms UP.. saluting the Crown Princess.. and I just can't believe.. we have won this Battle.. but we have WON for the Crown Princess.. these are ALL of YOUR MEN who has joined hands and Joined the forces.. uniting to Fight for this Nation so that YOU can stand Strong.. as I am looking on the ground.. I would close both eyes.. going back when I was young.. I would be crying.. I turn to LOOK at the Target.. I would walk to the Target.. looking at the Red DOT.. I am looking at the arrows.. It hit right on the DOT.. SO many tries and I have failed.. I even wanted to give UP.. because I kept on trying to shoot for the red DOT.. but the Arrows would fly in so many Odd directions.. I was going to shoot for the last time and maybe give UP.. the swordsmanship may not be for Me.. and I would stand alone.. LOOKING at the Art sketch Paper.. LOOKING at the Picture of YOU.. I would hold both hands and My lips touch Your Lip of the paper picture.. and I would Place the Art sketch Paper on the Ground.. and I would say MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. If this Arrow does NOT hit the red Dot.. right IN the Middle of the spot of this target.. I may end UP not going to become this warrior.. but to fold my dreams for Good.. I would grab the Bow.. pulling the strings of the Bow.. I may have to bury my dreams forever.. Always wanted to be by Your Side.. to Protect YOU.. to serve YOU and to be a part of Your Life.. but If I can't even hit the target right.. what good is it for trying.. I would hold the BOW in front of me.. grabbing the Arrow on the Ground.. LOOKING straight down at the target.. I would put the end of the ARROW and PULL it back with the strings of the BOW.. and I am aiming.. I feel the tears falling from my eyes.. I always wanted to be by your side.. even though YOU may Not love Me.. I am Not asking YOU to love Me.. because it does NOT matter for Me.. as Long as I KNOW that I love YOU.. just to stay and be close to YOU.. your presence means everything to me.. that is what Love does when YOU love.. and I would let my hand go.. the Arrow shoots and Flies across and it hits something.. I grab another Arrow.. putting at the end of the Strings of the BOW and pulls the strings back and I am aiming the arrow.. I can't let my Dreams go.. because I need YOU close.. I need YOU here with me.. YOU know that I love YOU that is why I can't ever give UP and My hand lets go and when my hand lets go of the strings of the Bow.. the arrow shoots Out the second time.. and I hear it hit something.. I am Not sure if it hit the target Or not.. I would drop the Bow on the Ground.. and I look on the ground.. LOOKING at the Art Sketch Paper.. the picture drawing of YOU.. and I would hold with both hands and I am walking looking at YOU through this Picture.. DO I have to let my Dreams Go.. dreams of letting YOU go.. and as I walk and stop by the Target.. I lifted UP my Head to look at the Target.. I just couldn't believe It.. I see two Arrows Hit right ON the red Dot.. and as I am looking at both arrows.. My tears.. I feel my tears running down both cheeks and I would cry Loud.. I can't believe it.. after trying so many Months.. Many nights.. broken nights.. thousands of arrows would fly.. Never heard it hit anything.. passing by this target many times.. But Now.. finally.. as I lift UP both hands.. LOOKING at the Art Sketch Paper.. the picture drawing of YOU.. I would say.. MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. I wish that YOU were here with Me.. what YOU could see.. I can't believe It.. ON this very night.. I was ready to fold My Dreams.. I was ready to give UP my Dreams on trying to be the swordsmanship for YOU.. so that I can go TO you.. to Protect YOU.. to fight the battles for YOU.. so that YOU do NOT have to enter any Battlefields.. to protect with this Sword.. with this Bow and Arrow.. to show you how much I love YOU and will Fight for YOUR NATION.. even if I die in the Battlefield.. YOU will know that I will Never stop Loving YOU.. as I am looking at the two arrows.. I did Not expect it to Hit the target.. I had a feeling that I would fail again and this time it is for good.. that maybe it is NOT right for me to ever see YOU.. live a life like a MONK instead.. But I gave this One Last try.. Knowing I will fail.. but I had to try one more time before I bury it in my heart and to never look back.. LOOKING at this Picture of YOU.. this Art Sketch Paper.. I knew.. this is it.. the last chance I can go.. the last chance I can try.. even told my father.. If He can make two last arrows for me.. if I can't hit the target that I am giving UP my Dreams of Swordsmanship.. He was behind me as I would shoot the last two arrows.. He started to cry.. when he walked to see me.. my both hand grabbing HOLD onto the end of the Arrows and it hit the target on the red DOT.. I have never seen such a MAN cry but He cried with me.. telling me.. MY DREAMS will come True.. that ONE DAY I will see the Crown Princess.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. that as LONG as I KEEP ON trying.. I can see YOU one day.. and HE cried Loud with me.. we both wept bitterly because I love YOU so Much and HE KNOWS HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.. as I am looking on the ground.. I am here.. Just can't believe this second war.. and once again WE have won.. and YOU are here.. CROWN PRINCESS IS here this TIME.. YOU have see US fight and WON this war together.. I have dreamed for this DAY TO HAPPEN..I see you Point the sword at ME.. telling me to speak.. SO I lift UP my head and I look UP.. and the Other hand goes Back and I pull out the Ark Sketch Paper.. and If may I.. and I see you point the sword again.. Both hands grabs the Art sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. and I would say.. I kept this For a Long Time.. I was ready to give UP my dreams of the Art of swordsmanship.. I remember the Night that was the last.. I saw the Art sketch paper it was on the ground.. I would lower to Pick it UP and I saw this Picture.. it is YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I wanted to be Close to YOU.. even though I was far Off.. that I was living so far and I knew that I just could not go IN like this.. to prove that I can be a soldier who can Protect.. to be a warrior who fights.. I knew I had to do something.. I was about to give UP on that dreams.. I saw this Art Sketch paper.. I took hold of it with Both Hands.. and I would KISS the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. before I let it go.. before I give UP my dreams.. to become a MONK instead.. I saw it.. I saw YOU.. and I would say.. the last two Arrows is all I need.. is all it is going to tell Me.. but when I saw the Art sketch Paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU.. in my Heart.. I wanted to be close to YOU.. I did not want to let It ever go.. and I cried that night because if I failed.. I will let it go and bury it forever in my heart.. and never look back.. the two Arrows is all I needed to see and I saw It hit something.. on the red DOT.. my father cried with Me.. and He told me this.. that I will see YOU.. that I will be close to YOU and will fight on the Battles for Your Behalf.. for the Nation and for Your People.. I am here right Now.. and we have WON together.. but all it took is looking at this Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I came here because I knew.. But I am here because I love YOU..I felt so Lonely at One Point.. at the Lowest of My Life and It was Only YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. It was Only YOU.. I cried when I saw YOU gone.. I remember watching YOU leave.. Sitting on the Horse.. I kept on calling Out to YOU.. But it was one of the Servants who took Me.. and Told me that I just could Not go.. I was reaching Out both arms.. shouting Out.. as the Horse was leaving.. in the Garden I felt so Alone.. crying in the dark.. I just could Not believe that YOU were gone.. I stood alone.. Looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU.. I just could Not stop.. But kept calling Out to YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I would watch the Moon come UP before Me.. and I would shout with the Loud Voice.. MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I am going to YOU.. very soon I will go to YOU.. when I heard the News.. and MY father died.. and came to the Garden.. I saw His body and with the servants.. We would bury my father.. I just could Not take this kind of Pain any More.. as I sat that night