you finally realise that true love does exist [ dark academia playlist ]
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What's the song at 11:14 -13:42? 🙏🏼
I recently realised, If you aren't happy from within then nothing from outside can make you happy. And to be happy from within, self improvement, working on yourself and being thankful for everything is the key.
Hey man, Great words. That is true. Thank you for this.
That’s beautiful
Thank you guys. I hope these words provoke a lot of positive thoughts and help people on their journey towards a better life.
Doing good for others in your community is also vital. When you reach out to neighbors and see how you can help, it males you feel part of the world again.
Love and appreciate your words..
Comment section under dark academia playlists (or any playlist actually) is the most wholesome place
Thank you so much for the kind words, I'm glad my comment sections can be such a safe place to people to share their stories
❤
When I was 21 I was heartbroken and felt betrayed. I realised in all of my sorrow, that more than anything I had to work on myself. I had to work on how I perceived the world, how I saw myself, how I loved, loved life, loved the people around me, loved myself.
So. I started working. I started going out in nature, I started going to the cinema, I started going to the forest, I started going to the library, all of it by myself. When I started exploring I suddenly found what I had longed for all my life. I found what I had searched for, but I didn't find it where I had searched. I didn't find it in other people. I'd thought that someone loving me, all of me, required me to love them with everything I got. I thought it required for me to soothe my own wishes and preference. I thought it required for me to suppress my inner voice. To make them feel loved, I suppressed my inner voice, my own wishes and needs, as an act of love. For them to feel loved. The only way I thought all of me could be loved. If another person loved me. But as I was there, in the park, listening to calming music, looking at the lake behind the tress, I heard it very quietly. There it was. What I had searched for. My companion. My inner voice. I knew I had to keep working to keep it by my side. I knew I had to show it all the love and kindness and tenderness I had waited my whole life to show another's soul.
As time passed and my visits to the park, to the forest, to the cinema, became more, and I heard it, my inner voice, louder and clearer.
I decided that till the day I turned 23 I would give myself the privileged of feeling incomplete. I needed time to get to know this new companion of mine. I had to give myself time to learn. Every moment I felt incomplete, I would tell myself I had yet to turn 23. That way there was no reason to worry about my incompleteness. All I had to care about, was making my companion feel loved and welcome by my side.
As the month passed the voice grew and it stayed. It became the norm to have it by my side, just like the love and tenderness I showed it.
The summer I was to turn 23 I felt it so presently, that I stopped thinking about it. My companion had become a part of me. A part of me I'd lost in my wish to show others love. To be loved. But here I was. Complete. Completely loving my companion, the way I had been longing to be loved. For the first time in my life I didn't long for love. Love was now rooted in me.
That summer I met a boy. A boy that made me feel safe and calm. A boy that made me feel like I had never felt before. He made me be present. He made me not worry about the future. He made me feel. He made me feel that to be myself, was the most normal thing in the world. As if I hadnt spent my whole life worrying about letting myself show. Letting myself feel. Feel the world, and feel who I was. Instead I had felt for everyone else. He made feeling be a good thing. But without my companion I would not have been able to meet him there. I would not have been able to show him the love that my companion had brought me. And I would not have been able to feel myself.
I only realised that true love does exist, when I found it in myself and another person. Now everyday I'm thanking the universe for my love's existence.
Life is love,life is sadness,life is everithyng that we have in our side...❤
You figured it all out early on ❤
Thats an absolutely beautiful story... Wow... Im so very happy for you! Your story is really inspiring!
When you're about to cross beyond the void veil... Reflect carefully.
"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge, hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." --Diamond Dragons (Armageddon's Ballad)
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Your story is beyond inspiring, and encouraging, as someone who has recently begun a similar journey. I'm twenty-five, and my first love told me she didn't love me anymore at age twenty-one. I thought it was all my fault. That I just wasn't good enough for her. I've spent the past several years going from relationship to relationship, shitty date to shitty date, thinking that the problem was outside of me. It was a few months ago now that I realized what you did--that in order to find love, I need to find it in me. I need to become my own greatest champion, my own best friend, my own most passionate lover--to love myself so completely and wholeheartedly that I can then extend that same pure love to others. After a life of trying to be "good enough," I did not know that the peace I now feel was even possible. I'm filled with gratitude every day. I spend lots of time alone and rather than feeling some kind of draining FOMO, I'm energized by it. I take myself out on dates. I'm poured into my passions. Your story has given me encouragement to remain on this beautiful path. I would very much like to fall in love again--but I'm in no rush. All I can do is love myself, embrace life, and from there, whatever's meant for me will come. Sending well wishes to you and your love :)
Love exist, but to capture love and keep it alive for the rest of your life is the hard part. You have to water it everyday, put constant effort to keep it alive. I hope to achieve it again someday , with someone that values my love as much as I value theirs.
When you're about to cross beyond the void veil... Reflect carefully.
"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge, hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." --Diamond Dragons (Armageddon's Ballad)
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+1💘💗
You will❤
From my point of view, I find that love will not be complete between two people unless there is respect, affection, and morality. They are more important than love and make the relationship complete without any restrictions
I truly feel you with all your words. I hope that for me as well, is hard to keep alive the flame, but it is also hard to let yourself go with all of you to another soul.
"To love is nothing. To be loved is something. But to love and be loved, that's everything." - T.Tolis
【Timeline】
00:00-02:00 Il volo - Zeppi
02:03-04:32 Love Poem - Imaginary Poet
04:33-06:45 She’s Love Personified - Helder Boutens
06:46-08:46 All The Little Things You Say - Jef Martens
08:50-11:11 Waterbird - Johannes Bornlöf
11:14-13:42 Intellectual Development Aid -Relaxing Music
13:43-15:03 I want you to com back - FenixRios
15:09-18:06 Reverie - Alexander Motovilov
18:08-21:31 Quiet resource(claen2) - Evelyn Stein
21:33-25:35 Light in the Mist - Anna Landström
25:36-28:36 Je t'ai vu - Projet Calmant
28:37-31:12 Reflection No.1(Piano Solo)-Sebastian Morawietz
31:25-36:15 Arabesque No.1 - Rousseau
36:17-36:36 Clair De Lune - Rousseau
36:37-39:34 Camille's Waltz - Helder Boutens
39:35-42:18 In Memories - Franz Gordon
42:20-44:48 I want you to come back - FenixRios
44:49-48:00 Color Me Blue - Akane
48:01-Beneath the Surface - Beautiful Life
Thank you!
thank you so muchhhh
YOURE AN ANGEL
I accidentally clicked on this video and it made me cry.
When I was 20, the person who I trust the most left me. We were friends for 9 years. We were dating for 3 years and planning to move out together. However, as I noticed later, I was the one who tried to made it all work. I believed that this heartbreak was my fault. But you should understand that every single relationship could fade away if one side don't work for this bond. You can't make bond for two on your own. After that rough experience I tried to start another relationship but another partner went crazy in our first conflict. I decided that I can't take another aggressive treatment so we broke up. I decided that no one can give me enough love if I can't love myself, can't stand for myself.
Now I'm doing my best. I go to psychotherapist every weak, I keep working, I try to make myself loved and happier. I met someone, who cares about me, someone I can trust again, someone I can argue with knowing this person won't hurt me anyway, won't be mad at me. I choose to be loved and realised that I'm falling in love again. And now I believe it is not just amorousness. It's something stronger. This is a bond for two.
Absolutely touched…..I hope the best for both of u♥️
I am 23 right now, will be turning 24 in May. I am still in the process of loving myself and learning to spend time with myself. I know I'll meet someone when I am ready. Staying hopeful!
I like you allready
I wish u can find the right person
omg I´m 23 and I´m turning 24 in may too 😊
@@pusat4656 Thank you!
@@chocokola omg that's so cool! my bday is next week
I am 22, I have the love of my life with me. But everyone is against us because of an inter-caste & inter-faith relationship. They are punishing me for not seeing caste before love. I am now struggling for us to get married. He truly loves me, supports me and my dreams and treats me with respect. It's sad to see that this is the world we live in. It's been pushing me to the brink where I am now so emotionally and mentally drained. But I know he is a guy worth fighting for. He's saved me from the deepest darkest thoughts I've had for myself- twice. Else I wouldn't be here to write this out. He is so compassionate, and truly makes me glimmer in my own light. If there were someone I love after myself, would be him- truly, madly, deeply. Please pray for the both of us to get together.
I recently read Phantastes by George MacDonald and he said it is nobler to love than to be loved. Even if the person you love never understands or reciprocates, the important thing is that you loved them. True love never asks for anything in return.
will make sure and read it thank u!!
Dear Human ,
I don't know how are you feeling today , but if incase no one is there for you then consider me your friend I am sending you virtual hugs and love 🧡
look at the sky somewhere , someone is also looking at those stars and moon , you are never lonely ! I wish you live every moment of your life in happiest way possible Leave every burden in your head to the universe , it's going to be alright !!
Love your life and yourself 💛
29 year old here, multiple heartbroken incidents, sometimes lovers , sometimes friends, sometimes family members.
Neglected, rejected, cornered until one day I realised that the love I am searching is within me.
I took great care of mine since then,yes it still hurts and may be it will always hurt but it's okay.
We all are looking for love and nothing else.
I wish healing for everyone and I wish love for everyone.
May the holy lord be very kind to us and grant us lots of love and abundance.
Till then everyone Take care.
❤❤❤
As much as i do not believe in "true love" existing, I now know that love is real. I love my friends, I love my cats, I love my family, and that's enough for me. That's all the proof I need to know that love truly does exist, even if I've had some bad experiences in the past.
When you're about to cross beyond the void veil... Reflect carefully.
"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge, hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." --Diamond Dragons (Armageddon's Ballad)
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There was nothing between us:
No pouring our hearts out, no confessions,
Nothing was connecting us together,
Except the treacherous spring dreams;
Except those scents, color and shines
Floating in space,
Except the forests soughing with song
And that fresh green of the meadows;
Except those cascades and torrents
Spraying every gorge,
Except the garland of rainbows, clouds,
Except the nature's sweet spells;
Except those common bright springs,
From which my heart was drinking delight,
Except the primroses and bindweeds,
There was nothing between us
It truly feels like a spiritual experience reading comments under dark academia playlist videos. Everyone has so much to say and so many experiences to share. Reading people talk about what they know about love from their own experiences really makes me happy. I feel we don't talk enough about love on a deep level these days so, I guess I really appreciate the input given here by others.
Could not agree more
I was quite literally about to write an identical comment!
I am beyond grateful to read such wonderfully inspiring words. such beautiful souls, Thank you for taking the time to share ❤
HAVE A NICE DAAAAAAAAAAAAYY!!!!! BUT ESPECIALLY, LOVE YOURSELF AND STAY HYDRATED!
Thanks for the positivity!
@@helderboutens
Anyone right now feeling lonely?
Yes girl.. hope you're doing ok
I have this someone... We both have bipolar. We've been thru ups and downs situation. Now we going to our 9th years together. I wanna say tah, maybe your life full of dark. But someday, u will find your half. :)
Here’s the thing, I believe in true love but I don’t believe it’ll ever happen to someone like me. I wish I could but I don’t believe it. I see people truly happy and in love but can’t picture that for me because I’m broken goods. Maybe I had a value once but now? I don’t know maybe it’ll happen for me but until then I’ll keep dreaming.
Cried reading this comment because I relate to it sm. I hope you find someone ❤.
I loved her, I want her in despair.
I loved her, I believed in her, I want her down.
All that's left of noble feelings is ugliness.
Totally soft, I remember the first times my fingers touched the silk of her skin. I remember her smell, her scarves. The way she dressed.
I remember my pupils dilating, our first glances that brought tears to my eyes. I remember longing for her body, because above all it was her. I didn't want to capture her soul; I wanted to bind them.
I wanted to marry her, to protect her if anything happened to me. Something happened to me; I lost her.
I'd like the world to be on fire. Let blood cover the surface.
I'd like tears and cries to be permanent.
I am the rage, I am the shame, I am the regret, I am the past, I am the irremediable sadness.
I still love my beautiful soul, this sweetheart. She's worthy of the most beautiful creation, of all humans, she's the only one who can claim to be conscious.
She's sensitive, funny, intelligent, charming, beautiful. I like her.
I lost her.
I want her to die.
I want her on my sides.
I wanted to carve both our names on the grave.
I wouldn't have a grave, only ashes.
I'm not worthy of ashes.
I did my best, I didn't spoil anything. She's just gone, I'm gone too.
I'm just a shadow. Nothing, just a fool.
Don't let me down, please came back. I loved you, I love you, I will.
I will do anything for you.
Blink.
Part.
No cohesion.
Distress.
Disorder, loss.
I'm just a fool, illness.
Don't cross me, you'll only see a brown stain. A scum, a filthy spawn, a zombie.
I'm less than that, I'm just a rat, human-sized. Hideous, despite my angelic face, there's nothing inside me but a devil.
Less than a devil, otherwise I'd have value, a little demon. An inferno, one of those that don't count.
what a comment... sends shivers down my spine. does this come from you or are you quoting some famous literature?
thats me
Trust that she wants you to be who she saw in you - you are light. You always have been, own it, work on yourself. To say you are less than human is a disservice to her time that she spent with you. You have seen what is possible, how a human is supposed to love - learn to love yourself the way she showed you. And I pray for a time when you can speak with her again if you allow yourself to be healed, friend. Good luck
Where this is from?
Oh, please, STOP! ❤️
Whoever creates a playlist like this, can only be a wonderful soul.
Thank you, dear Helder!
A passing thought: True love is neither a gift from god nor a birthright. It is an honor and a privilege bestowed upon two people to one another, allowing each other to witness the humanity they both have and experience existence as a team. A unit. The supposed seriousness of this might be weighing on the soul, but love, while it takes maintenance, is the lightest thing in our known universe. It will uplift you like the wind and challenge you like a storm, but all within the beauty and sway of your natures, and nothing more.
When I was a kid, my mom told me that love is a luxury good, and it can't be possessed by everybody.
The time we live in now confirms what your mother said... everyone is selfish, an inhumane society, everyone is looking to gain people’s approval, and even if the price is high, I think that corruption will reach the ground or disappear at all until it returns, isn’t it?
Love exists in everyone
It just means different things to them
الرياح تهب فتضرب على صفحات ااوراق الشجر تتراقص على الحان الطبيعه بأنسجام
عيناي لميعهما ساطع
بهما نظره الحُبِِ
هادئتان ك صفحه وجه البحر
قد اخذَ من الالم نصيب
حتى لو اشتعلت بالسديم
عيناي للفناء يشتعلو بالحنين.
You know it's love when she's there even when the money's gone
Cab you stop simplyfying women
She was as beautiful as a ray of sunshine in the morning, she radiated happiness wherever she went, she was kind to everyone, she loved me in conditionally and I did and do too. My first love and the first time I felt the pain of a broken heart.
My Dear ❤️
*Listening to dark academia tunes feels like wandering through the corridors of an old library at midnight, surrounded by the whispers of forgotten tales and the echoes of lost loves*
Your words made me cry... ❤
These comments are so lovely. I myself have had a similar experience of rebirth.
My entire childhood I had let people walk all over me. It was a painful experience. It took me till 9th grade to find friends. And many of those friends were bad choices. Closer to a drug addiction than medication. I only realized I was not healing when I stopped seeing those people. When I graduated from Highschool I noticed that no matter how much I gave a crap about those people, it meant nothing to them. They did not care or love themselves and I, in turn, picked up the bad habit just by being around them. I had attachment issues. I clung to people like it was my last hope. I had only had one friend I confided in for a long stretch of time. And I stared repeating that habit. I didn't realize it then, but it then but was a really unhealthy attachment style. My parents have a lot of unaddressed trauma that has passed down generationally as well.
And for a long time I was lost in my head. Not eating. Barely sleeping. Scared that I will be judged for my every action my the people that were supposed to love me the most. It was a terrifying time. And I didn't even know it till I looked back.
A shift started happening over the course of a few years. I threw myself into the bowls of growth when I read the book A New Earth by Eckart Tolle. I stared staring my past in the face. Wondering how I got here. How I could make myself better for the future me.
There is something far deeper in us that we could not possibly grasp. That we are not the labels we give ourselves. We are God and so is everything around is. The fact that anything like this is here at all is amazing. Shocking even. It was a once in a trillion chance I would take on this form. And it happened. Isn't that fantastic? So I started setting up boundaries. Protecting myself from people that merely wanted to use me for my energy. Dumped off everyone that was no longer serving me or themselves in any loving capacity. And put myself to the grind stone. It's been two years now... I've still got a long away to go. But seeing how far I've come makes me all sappy and giddy. I'm so fortunate. So overwhelmingly lucky. Despite my rough start the tree of adoration I've been fostering in me is growing tall and strong.
True love does exists. And I'm living proof.
This is truly beautiful.
frankly I hesitated between that and hard metal, realizing that true love doesn't exist makes me feel so alone.
Thanks for this playlist
'I know true love exists, it just doesn't for him and I, which was the only way I wanted it.'
-me
15:19 - 18:17 If you want to listen to the music that plays between the minutes I've written: "Alexender Motolov - Reverie"
I was listening to the first piece and suddenly I pictured my boyfriend in my head. I was thinking how much I love him and appreciate him THEN I read the title and I was like "ohhh that's why I was thinking of him, he is indeed the love of my life
That is soo beautifull! I wish you guys the best
8:52 When I came here, I fell into a big void and what I experienced came to my mind. My disappointments, my waiting, my efforts to find hope, my efforts to hold on to my love... I felt very different while this piano was being played.
20 y. o., still single, still haven't found my lover...
I wish one day I would listen to this playlist and think about him/her...
I hope everyone will find their "second half"💜
Stay safe~♡
20 is still super young. That’s coming from an 18 year old though. 😅 but we’re both still young, practically children in the eyes of some. It’s okay.
Trust me you have so much time to find and love someone else. Your 20s is definitely the time to love yourself and develop yourself, your career and enjoy other relationships like family and friends around you. And eventually you'll be equipped to understand what you what in another and find that person.
You're not looking for another half, you're already whole, you want to find another whole who will compliment you, you are already complete
Perhaps it is too early to call it love, but that's what it is. Maybe it's not the love an elderly couple who wrinkled together feel, or the love a husband feels for his highschool sweetheart, but its own little kind of love. A love I reserve and feel for only you.
I think I am falling in love again for the first time in some years. It can feel a bit scary, but I am ready to open my heart again, and let this blossom.
Only recently my eyes have open to realizing its time to grow up and I am not a child anymore and everthing I done and do has a conaqence. I am 20 now and it took me awhile to learn this. More so the fact that I not happy with myself and the only way i will be is by self improvment. The thought and idea of if I not happy within what makes me think that something from the outside would make me happy maybe just temp but otherwise its not true happyness. But rn I am trying to do better I have to for my own self
To anyone relaxing, may you have a good period of rest. Hopefully you can enjoy your time of reflection or decompression.
I hope the same for you as well!
i’m 24 now and untill this moment idk how to love myself or appreciate myself about everything i do , i study hard and work at same time and still can’t find the true happiness and cant love myself in a proper way
I absolutely love this playlist. I keep it on my TV while I study.
I do wish instead of the changing photos you just left it the painted swans the whole time because it looks like a beautiful painting on my tv with the beautiful music playing. Any chance you would make the same playlist with only the swan image on the video instead of it changing?
Thank you for making these, they make my studying so much better.
Não dá pra viver esperando alguém aparecer, esperando uma companhia, porque as pessoas vêm e vão.
A única pessoa que eu sei que sempre vai estar lá quando eu precisar, é Jesus Cristo.
Real , healthy love , exists .
We will be okay.
If you were the night sky and your flaws were the clouds, stars, and the moon would you hate yourself because of your flaws? It is indeed the unique flaws that we all posses that makes us, us. Each day the sky gets a new pattern, each day we change. Each change is as beautiful as the previous one, the new clouds might always not be a flaw, it might become a beautiful trait of yours. Love exists in you, in me, and in the sights we see.
Thank you so much for another wonderful playlist
Thank you so much for these lovely words!! I'll always continue to try and create the best playlists I possibly can :)
First i read "does not exists" and i was like yeah it really feels like it but then i realised and now i think maybe i'm who doesnt feel it
love love love... so infinite that we simply don't understand it...
I despaired when I beheld my love. And it was not true. All loves are selfish in some way. And in my bitterness I said foolishly, there is no love. They all walk in a vain show, and do not cease from lying. All the words of our mouths are falsehoods. "I love you." Is a lie.
And at this I resigned myself to hatred, for I hated my self. There is no love! I bowed low in my spirit, pressed sore with the weight of such darkness. And if there is no love, the grievous wound struck my soul, there is no God. For God is love. Or so he says.
And then, as if at the very time the jaw of hatred should clamp down on my heart forever and harden it against my Lord and my friend, lover of my soul, Whom I had thought to have lost forever to the terrible truth. The Comforter in still small voice, not with physical voice, but the echo of eternal truth finding its way into a broken heart which mourned the death of God brought to remembrance miraculously the words of my Lord.
"God is not a man, that he should lie; neither the son of man, that he should repent: hath he said, and shall he not do it? or hath he spoken, and shall he not make it good?"
God is not a man that he should lie, what profit are lies to him who has all things?
When he says "God so loved the world" he means it.
God is love. His only is true.
I recently found that the best person to love is yourself.
After I had been dumped by my best friend and boyfriend of two years, without even an explanation, I was despondent. Nothing could cheer me up. I spent about a month in solitude before my best friends managed to pull me out of my shell and get me back on my feet. I am forever grateful for them. Three months went by, and I went through some of the stages of grief, denial, anger, and bargaining. Then I became depressed. I was wondering why I was still in love with him even after everyone told me that heartbreak only lasted a few months at best, while I was about to complete month four.
I realized that I was spending so much time trying to live my life on other people's timelines, not my own. Though I still love and care for him immensely, and I know my love for him will always be unconditional, it still hurt like I had been stabbed in the gut.
But despite this, no one changed me. I changed the way I saw myself. I changed the way I saw my world, and myself, and learned to love the world around me. And I can fix what was wrong in it. In a way, you also help yourself.
I won't deny it still hurts, but it's up to you to let it hurt for longer. You make the decision to change for the better.
"So she really is the one, isn't she?"
She might be she might not... Still show your love, that is all you got that is all we have. Won't do any better to overthink about it... Just love as you wished to be loved
Facts
I didn’t realize how much I can picture in my head from just a playlist like this I can literally picture me and my crush in a ball dancing from enemies to lovers … and I’m just 12
ewww bye
Dont listening to the comment above. Dreaming is free, so is having an imagination. So keep dreaming! ❤
@@MissPaps11 don't encourage these people
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Simply wondrous! Your precious place you can access any time in peace.
Love comes in many forms and though I may never have romantic love, I will always have my family by my side and that’s a form of true love to me.
My mother always told me true love was never real. But... I don't believe that. When I look into their eyes, there's more there than a rush of chemicals in my brain. I feel it in my soul. My being. She... she was meant to be mine, we were meant to be sitting here, together.
This is what it's like, isn't it? To be in love? To... be loved? She's my other half, everything I ever wanted to be and more. She's who I want to spend my life with, even if she wasn't my lover, even if she were just a friend, even if she was still that barista who gave me coffee every morning. I want her to be part of my life.
And I think she wants to as well.
this playlist makes me feel like i ended up a relationship that hunts me for a while. it gives an after storm peace
I'm 26 and have been single for almost 10 years. I'm feeling done waiting for the love of my life and trying to give up on believing in love but... here I am.
im in eleventh grade now, and i've had bad experiences with guys i tried talking to, so i've never really gotten my hope for love back, even though i know im young and have my life ahead of me.. i still feel like it could've worked out somehow, or at least it could've been better than what it was, or maybe just maybe, i was enough for them to actually like me back. but then again, as hard as it was and as hard as it is now, i'm forcing myself to just, not talk to them, to not get attached again, to not get hurt again. but anyways love the playlist its such a vibe, the comment section as well
I donnow whenever i open ds kind of vdos. These hv beautiful cmmnts... feels like u r cmpltly in a dffrnt world.. evry1 has dffrnt prspctv, dffrnt opinions nd nobody actually qstns dat. They accpt nd value each other. Dats d best part of these vdos.
Obvsly big thanks 2 d music... it shows how music impacts our brains..
I long to remain here eternally. All of this is healing me from within. I've finally started to see where I'm going wrong in life. I'm not loving myself enough; I'm punishing myself for all the pain inflicted upon me. I'm longing to be loved deeply, yet I strangle myself every night in frustration. I'm in awe of the beauty outside me, but why do I fail to see the sparkle in my own eyes? Why do I deny myself the comfort of a tender touch? Why am I the faint whisper of hope in others' ears, the shoulder to their aching body, the praise to their ugliness, the cold comfortable pillow to their restless nights, but a bed of thorns, the rough beatings to my gentle body, the poison in my food, the anxiety in my heart, the cruel master to myself-to this scarred little kid?
I found out too late. I will die loving him, come back and search for something that will always be missing if I don't have him.
These playlists are truly amazing. They really help me studying, read, process life or just help me calm down in general. Keep making these man!
Thank you so much!!
I don't believe that true love exists but if it really existed, this playlist would be the best thing to describe it.
Thank you so much!!
Helder!!! Thank you so much. I've been awaiting another masterpiece. I listen to these playlist and share them with many. Thank you again!! ❤
Thank you as well for the kind words!!
Thank you for the kind forensics, that I'm not queen over the established monarchy and wish we met and I for one wanna stay alone!
Im 19 and I thought I would always been alone forever bc I never had actual friends
Only ppl that took advantage of me
Same went for when I got into college and I just accidentally shut most social things out bc I was scared
But I have been working on my anxiety and depression recently and I started to feel again. Of course that made a lot of passed feelings I have shoved away come back up and lets just say I had a week of crying
But another thing kind of plagued my brain.
There was this person in one of my classes. Ive never felt so star struck by someone in my life. Ive never felt that way before. But then this beautiful person was there and I had 0 clue what it was or how to deal with it.
So one day I grew a pair and I went up to them and called them cute. They seemed to like that. I shook a lot afterwards tho bc of anxiety.
And then WHAT'YA KNOW! Instagram showed me they had a profile. I wanted to originally go up to them irl and ask them out (something I have n e v e r done before) but they weren't in class that day.
So... I went ahead and texted them, knowing id be more eloquent anyway.
And it surprisingly went very well! They agreed to go out and we clicked pretty well.
Few weeks later (just a couple days ago) we have officially become a couple.
And it makes me so happy.
Ive never had anyone listen to me. Like TRULY listen to me before. We have already gotten to know each other's flaws and we still are practically attached by the red string of fate.
Ive never met someone so beautiful and honest. And I think somehow I knew that. Like as if something in me was waiting to find someone, to sense someone so honest and pure. Like when I saw them and the more they talked in our glass the more I understood that there was something different about them.
Like they don't hide who they actually are.
Ive never had such a need to be around someone so much. I am so happy this person is in my life 🫶 they mean so much to me.
I'm 23 and I still can't find myself. If someone reads this, it will probably sound strange, but I want to describe how I feel. Empty. I think that's the right word. Yes, I have goals. I get up every morning, exercise, try to be strong, think positive, be happy, etc., but I just can't. There is a large part of me that I feel is my true self. My dark side.
But here lies perhaps my problem. Without my pain, I don't know who I am. It shields me, and without it, I'm lost. How can I live without it? Maybe everyone experiences dark periods in life that pass, but if my sadness or depression were to disappear, who would I truly be? I know it won't get any easier, and that in nature "the fittest survive". I don't want to be a victim, but I feel like one. It's so frustrating. Always an internal struggle with myself. I have always been the life of the party, always cheerful, caring, thinking of others, but I've often neglected myself. Now I'm focusing on me, but I can't find friends who truly understand my pain, so I write this here.
True love is loving yourself
A man wrapped up in himself makes a very small package indeed
its almost 3 am in the morning, ive been crying nonstop because of how evil my family was. im cryingtoo much that when i was taking a bath i didnt even realize there was a worm crawling up my legs. it hurts, i felt numb. i cut my beautiful long hair i always perish to everyone today. the only thing that makes me pretty, and i lost it to pieces. i felt like my soul died, and nothing can recover any soul that has been destroyed. yet somehow i always forgive everyone, why? why am i born to existance like this?
I’m so sorry your going through the worst of it right now. Please do keep your head up and stay hoping , it is not okay what you’re going through but know you are loved. Please look to God for guidance , please go to Church this Sunday if you can, please look for a councillor to speak to, please know that Jesus is your advocate and there for your hardest times & your best moments, and in the lulls he will be there just cry to him and ask for better🤍.
@@happywings15 i know god is in my side, even tho its painful it is the thing i have to go through to met my happiness. thankyou so much, this means really big to me and make me realized that my god will never leave me. i hope you have a good day for making people smile♥️.
It’s OK to be sad sometimes without sadness we won’t be alive. life won’t be beautiful. Find your way to happiness. Everyone been through something that made them really sad but it’s OK It will go away eventually live for yourself always stay strong and search for things that makes you happy be like the trees, even though of the snow and the strong wind and the rain they stay beautiful and standing still love yourself, and just now that you are loved
Using this playlist to write a checklist for the camping trip with my sweet
Thank you for listening! I hope you have a wonderful time on the camping trip!
📝 Whether you're working, studying, or chilling, this playlist makes every moment better. Thumbs up if you're here for it! 👍
Thank you so much!
Your channel is the best thing for my ADHD. Thank you so much!
Thank you so much!
This is beautiful! You have no idea how much this has helped me. Its very inspiring. Thank you so much!
Thank you so much!
Profoundly lovely and moving ❤
I just wish I could've seen through his intentions. The way he made me believe I was the one he loved and then pretended I didn't exist... It just broke my heart in so many pieces that I'll fine real trouble trying to gather them together again. Love hurts so bad, sometimes.
:/
i feel you.. trust me you’re going to be okay. i know ill be okay too.
The most beautiful playlist I have ever encountered so far. Thank you!
Thank you so much!
No puedo creer la paz y la serenidad que esto trae a mí. Gracias
Love u dude 🖤
I had a heartbreak last year, I was with a guy and I really liked him but all he wanted was just some fun and then he could go. I was devastated, I gave him what he wanted and I felt so disgusted with myself, but you know, I had to move on, I had to get over it, and for that to happen, I had to understand who I was, who I wanted to be, I had to change the way I put people above myself, because it caused me so much pain... anyway, now I feel 100% healed, and now I'm liking this girl, it's such a refreshing feeling, not just because I'm allowing myself to discover new feelings, but because I know that I'll be fine even if I don't end up with her, I like her and I want her to like me, but my happiness doesn't depend on that, and that's what true love means to me, I I love myself, and now I want someone to be part of my life, not to complete it, as if I weren't complete on my own, you know? I like her for the type of person she is, not because I think she will fit into the places that are vacant in me.
Helder! I was looking for a playlist of yours and coincidentally found you in my feed. This is the best part of today. Thank you so much for this.
Thank you so much as well!
We met at the wrong time. we were both hurt and needed to work on ourselves. We reconnected 6 years later, but i needed a bit longer. 5 months ago, I began to feel ready enough to date again. I explored my interests, found out who I want to be. However, the reservation were still there until about a month ago. it took me realizing that I am loved in order to rapidly undo the reservations I had. He's been waiting for me to be ready for about a year. In the span of that one month I've undergone a complete metamorphosis as a person. I'm still me, but I'm much healthier as a person.
I found out what love feels like physically and it made me realise that I'm Demi-Aromantic, and that even after all this time I still love him.
I tell him tomorrow. Wish me luck
Wishing you all the luck in the world tomorrow! Feel free to come back and comment about how it went :)
@@helderboutens Also intrigued now :D
All the best wishes & love !
Oh do tell that it went well?
ha. no.@@sparklepugtea but it's still a catylist to a better life regardless so lettting myself feel rejection wihle feeling grateful he's not the lying type.
He's an amorous person so it could have been muchg worse if he led me on. still grateful to have him in my life.
@@helderboutens it didnt work out but its better than being led on xD he's an amorous person so I misread his actions as reciprocation. I'm honestly relieved but i'm still letting myself feel the rejection and he's giving me space.
thank you sm for this amazing playlist helder, you always made my day ♡
Thank you so much for the kind words!!
I can't stop crying listening to this playlist. I clicked thinking it will be background music while I do something else, but I am just starting at the pictures of the video and listening intently, crying, closing my eyes, and feeling so many things. Thank you for this.
Thank you so much for the kind words
Hello Helder! Thank you so much for creating these beautiful playlists. It really helps me with calming down, sleeping, writing, and drawing. I really love your playlists 🤍
Thank you so much, I'm really glad my playlists can be of help to you!
been waiting for another amazing playlist❤
Glad you enjoyed it!
My comfort space. This beautiful instrumental melody has brought many beautiful, peaceful, and happy moments.❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Thank you so much!
Thank you so much Helder for making such a magical playlist like this one. I rarely finish listening to the whole playlist (from other channels) in one sitting, but with this playlist, I can't stop listening to it. I love every single song from this playlist. They all feel so relaxing and comfortable. These songs somehow make me feel that i don't have to pay so much attention on the things that stress me out. Instead, I focus on the present moment and realize I'm just a tiny part of this universe and that feels relieved. Again, thank you so much for creating such a beautiful playlist.
Thank you so much for the kind words!! I will always try my best to make sure each playlist is of high quality!
This has helped me find the calm in the chaotic. Thank you so much 🙏🏽
I’m really glad you did, thank you so much!
The day has already been lived well, haha. thanks for the playlist, you did a great job, I know this even after the first song💌
Thank you so much for the kind words as always! I hope you had a wonderful day :)
We all deserve true love❤
Sound of Love ❤
I was doing my History homework with this playlist. It was really calm and comfortable, thank you very much for this!
Thank you!!
Thank god for this Chanel! ❤️❤️ , I love this type of music
Thank you so much!!
after all the pain i've experienced, the heartbreak and tears praying that God lead me to the man He has for me, i have finally found the one. the wait was worth it.
Another magnificent playlist like usual 🫶🏼🫶🏼
Thank you my love
Mă bucură faptul că ai reușit să simți cât de mult contează dragostea mea și să-ți dorești să fii mereu lângă mine ca EU să-ți spun ce simt pentru tine și încet încet să te scoată din melancolia plutitoare.
@dancatalinobretin919 așa sunt sufletele noastre ❤️❤️💔
Love this! Thank you❤
Thank you so much!
I found true love once and I was firced to give her up 😢
Now, all I want is to destroy everything
Love this.
This has become my go-to to listen to while reading, I’ll have to check out more of your mixes
Thank you so much!!
Your pullign me to the flower!
Beautiful songs, they are so calm and melancholic. I do believe in true love though, the one you have for yourself, also for other people, just because it ended doesn't mean it wasn’t true.