Hi! could I ask you a few questions about your life span between 19 and the present time? May I have your instagram or email or something? Would love to know how things have changed through this
@@Dunge0n a child’s ego identity isn’t as strong as an adult’s. Children meditate naturally by being themselves. The older we get the more caught up in this false sense of reality (the dream/ego) we become. A baby lives naturally in being in the same way that animals exist naturally without a concept of themselves. They don’t have a mind created ego. Meditation is for adults to get back to that natural state of being when we were babies… when we get back to that natural state of being, when thoughts take a back seat and quiet down, we naturally feel more joy and peace. We wake up from this bad dream created by our negative thoughts, and experience life in its purity.
The running away is fear based reality. The control everything is the ego, fear may well be the underlying motivation for the control. Thank You for sharing your knowledge with us. I started meditating 2yr ago ignorant but had amazing results. It changed me for the better. I have ADD maybe that was why. I completely stopped drinking and can't tolerate my Awareness messed with at all. I'm so much a better human.
@saharafradi what I do. I just watch everything that comes up...all the thoughts and feelings arising and do not change or control them...and if I find myself trying to control them, I watch that too! It's a case of not judging what comes up as right or wrong...an unfiltered observation . You may be surprised at what a jumbled up train wreck we are!...we have a lot of hatred for ourselves and each other...it scares a lot of people off in the beginning to know such things about ourselves...but eventually the inner tirade calms down and settles...and the unconscious patterns in our psyche has less control over us as we have become more aware of our inner workings.
@@CosmicTheBoYs but my inner voice is very mean and I am scared it manifest. It says things like you are a killer, thief, monster, pedo.., I don’t know where this comes from. Do with the law of EIYPO the people around me react on my thoughts. So how can I handle this shit?
@saharafradi That sounds like a lot like OCD thoughts... I'm no doctor. So please take everything with a pinch of salt .But it might be worth looking into that and seeing if it may apply and talk to someone.... You're not a lone... a lot of people have minds that do that.
Hey I started about a year ago poking consciousness at a bunch of different angles. Meditation, sungazing, harmala alkaloids, etc and I’ve set off something that “high-fidelity imagination” sounds like it would be a good descriptor. Mind talking a little about it?
People are always talking, for real or in their mind, even in their sleep. God is always listening to us. When we can be still, is when we can listen to God.
why do you have to write your beliefs as if they are facts, and why is it so ambiguous, my brain is scanning for technical data points it is infuriating reading text like this
@@PuppetMasterdaath144 How is knowledge going to be infuriating? What is ambiguous? I can point you to what I know - it's up to you to decide about it. I am not a teacher, Jesus said there is only One worthy to be called teacher.... Matthew 23-8 Jesus Says: “But you are not to be called ‘Rabbi,’ for you have One Teacher, and you are all brothers." Matthew 12-50 Jesus Says: "Anyone who does the will of my Father in heaven is my brother and sister and mother!”
Awe. I love when people get riled up about nothing. People point at religious texts as if it means something. We give absolutely everything all the meaning that it has. We do this individually for certain, and collectively. Meaning is added by the mind. The best Jesus texts imo is the book of Thomas. Jesus spoke nonduality all through the bible too. He was an enlightened master but all beings are Buddha, most of us just don’t know it. Meditation will help one to realize we are not the action figure, we are in fact the Buddha. Or the Christ, or Krishna, or Tao, or consciousness whatever one wants to call it, but, can’t use the Buddha to seek the Buddha. Light seeking light is silly innit. I Am the light but so is everyone else. I Am is the Truth as it’s the only never changing, uneffected, can’t be touched or harmed aspect of this dream. What is never changed since birth and is not affected by anything? Awareness right? Mind is full of delusions, awareness is pure, clear and it is always and forever. Never born and will never die. I Am That, I Am, but again, so is everyone else. We all share the same name, it is I Am. After that it’s describing the dream, or rather, dreamt character. We are also the dream characters which can be confusing for some.
@@youarewhatyourelookingfor4496 God is a real being. God is the only Not-Created Infinite Being. All others are finite knowledge, traveling eternally, but not infinite. God is a real being and God is One.
@@Tom-and-Jerry-again Sure. Ok. But that’s your opinion. Here in reality, one cannot deny I Am. Are you here? I Am What’s your name? I Am This is as much a fact as the god you’re referring to because we are God. The omnipresent, omniscient “being” is us. I and the father are 1. Who are you? I Who am I? I I….and the father are 1. Who’s “be-ing” here? What were you before your parents were born? What are you if you drop all the adjectives like your name, gender, color etc? You are the ever present Aware Being are you not? Look under a rock, who’s there? I Am. At the top of a mountain YOU are there too. Who are you? I Am. No matter where I go, I Am there because I Am everything and I Am everywhere. Who Am I is the most important question one can take into meditation in this life. What am I, where am I and when am I is good too. There’s nothing more important than discovering who we really are. Enlightenment is the greatest gift one can give to this world for you can never again harm another because you will know all beings as oneself. Love you ❤ It’s ok if you don’t understand yet, all are guaranteed to awaken at some point. I pray blessings be upon you in your journey. 🙂
We are always meditating not just when we sit quiet for a few minutes! When you’re at the store, the mall, at work, the gas station… always! We are never not meditating! So the thing is to be aware throughout the day about what we are ‘meditating’ on! ❤️❤️👍🏾
This information should be everywhere. I respect this person and his knowledge. He is what true influencers should be. This information needs to be known by every human being on earth. Thank you Mr. Parrish for all you do.
I recently discovered your channel and wanted to share a quick thought on the idea that happiness is a function of circumstances. While we may not control every aspect of our circumstances, we do have the power to remove ourselves from dangerous, unhealthy, and destructive environments. Speaking as an older man with a lifetime of experiences and meditation, this perspective has served me well. For example, if someone finds themselves in an environment that negatively impacts their well-being, it's crucial to remove themselves from these unhealthy surroundings.
Agreed but there is no doer. “Deeds are done and actions are taken, but there is no individual doer thereof” said Buddha. I can find no doer. I’ve looked for years. Things just happen. Everything is just happening of itself. We can choose what we will do, but we cannot choose what we will choose. Researchers were actually able to accurately predict, 100% of the time, what people were going to choose 6 to 8 before they made their choices. There are myriad factors involved in how choices appear to be made, but I’m of the school of thought of scores of hindu, Christian mystics, Buddhists and others who say absolutely everything is predetermined and researchers proved it. It’s amazing really. Total surrender to what is, to whatever is appearing to happen. This is imo complete surrender to God, although there’s not actually anyone here to surrender. What an amazing show it all is. Horrific and heartbreaking and breathtakingly beautiful and gorgeous too.
Whatever you feed will grow. Think of your good and bad behavior like a neuron because that's exactly where the impulse comes from. Whatever neural connections you create the impusle for them in the future grows.
Love Paul Hedderman. You showed up on my CZcams today. I’m digging you too. 14:10 Enlightenment happens by accident, but you can make yourself accident prone with meditation 🧘♀️
Yes. First thing in the morning when waking very first occurs before ego kicks in, pay attention to that. Or when falling asleep at night, focus on awareness as the body falls asleep. Last year I was practicing the evening exercise and for a week I was in what’s called Turiya in Hindu traditions. I, awareness, stayed “on” as awareness while the body/mind slept. It was quite extraordinary. DMT produced a very similar experience a couple times where there was a complete detachment of identification with the body / mind. I saw them there sitting on my cushion but I was not that. It was a total detachment. All that I was was just the bright, crystal clear awareness of it all. It’s was a worthwhile practice. Profound in experiencing it but only profound to the mind.
a dialectic of/for anti-thinking ... ambient habitat based thoughts can get "chaotic" ... watch your thoughts ... beware cognitive traps of reaction vs original vs novelty (mindless?) ...
I have often tried to meditate and failed. Yesterday, i did Cameron Day's 'Cosmic Flush' and things happened, i don't understand. Now, my 'brain chatter' has reduced by a huge amount. At one point, my eyes were rolled back and i have never felt so focused. I think i am going to persist. Funny, though, nothing happened, before.
I think this comes naturally to me so i always thought i wasnt doing it right. I think people who were abused learned how to escape mentally or they went crazy and became another abuser.
Abraham, In a sense we are all actually dying, it is just a matter of time. So anyone I work with who hears the message and takes the action of letting go of the identification with the body and the personality realizes that death only happens in the dream we call being awake. I recommend my book: "Dying To Live" on Amazon. Thank you for your question.
Hi! I have a question. Since I had my awakening, I realized I can't talk to people like I used to. My social interactions come with conscious effort. Whatever I say comes with awareness. It's a struggle. What can you make of that? Do you know how I can fix this? Because people see me differently now - they act with a different attitude now, including my family members.
@@AkilAmmon-iw2vu The problem is that I do that but it doesn't work. I notice that I'm numbed out and perhaps I don't even feel fully aware of the pain to protect me from it through my numbness. Dr Scott Eliers told about 4 forms of this. And there are the common physical, emotional, etc, but there's a 4th one which is like in another dimension like an anti particle or something that's stealthed yet you can see it's effects. And I notice that it's like you can't even see it because there's nothing to see only the effect of it. When I do start to feel emotional pain it is slowly revealed but then it dissapears again it's like hit and run tactics almost. It's weird. Cause I had great self control before and focus but now it's like something acting in 4D and fucking with my 3D reality and attention, emotions, etc. It's like I'm hijacked or something. Weird...
@@AkilAmmon-iw2vu The problem is that I do that but it doesn't work. I notice that I'm numbed out and perhaps I don't even feel fully aware of the pain to protect me from it through my numbness. Dr Scott Eliers told about 4 forms of this. And there are the common physical, emotional, etc, but there's a 4th one which is like in another dimension like an anti particle or something that's stealthed yet you can see it's effects. And I notice that it's like you can't even see it because there's nothing to see only the effect of it. When I do start to feel emotional pain it is slowly revealed but then it dissapears again it's like hit and run tactics almost. It's weird. Cause I had great self control before and focus but now it's like something acting in 4D and it's jamming my 3D reality and attention, emotions, etc. It's like I'm hijacked or something. Weird...
@@AkilAmmon-iw2vu The problem is that I do that but it doesn't work. I notice that I'm numbed out and perhaps I don't even feel fully aware of the pain to protect me from it through my numbness. Dr Scott Eliers told about 4 forms of this. And there are the common physical, emotional, etc, but there's a 4th one which is like in another dimension like an anti particle or something that's stealthed yet you can see it's effects. And I notice that it's like you can't even see it because there's nothing to see only the effect of it. When I do start to feel emotional pain it is slowly revealed but then it dissapears again it's like hit and run tactics almost. It's weird. Cause I had great self control before and focus but now it's like something acting in 4D and it's jamming my 3D reality and attention, emotions, etc. It's like I'm hijacked or something. Weird...
@@AkilAmmon-iw2vuThe problem is that I do that but it doesn't work. I notice that I'm numbed out and perhaps I don't even feel fully aware of the pain to protect me from it through my numbness. Dr Scott Eliers told about 4 forms of this. And there are the common physical, emotional, etc, but there's a 4th one which is like in another dimension like an anti particle or something that's stealthed yet you can see it's effects. And I notice that it's like you can't even see it because there's nothing to see only the effect of it. When I do start to feel emotional pain it is slowly revealed but then it dissapears again it's like hit and run tactics almost. It's weird. Cause I had great self control before and focus but now it's like something acting in 4D and it's jamming my 3D reality and attention, emotions, etc. It's like I'm hijacked or something. Weird...
I'm 44 and started meditating, keeping a journal and reading regularly when I was 19. Best decision ever.
Hi! could I ask you a few questions about your life span between 19 and the present time? May I have your instagram or email or something? Would love to know how things have changed through this
@@pieroee1424 @davegcomedy21
“If you don’t meditate you won’t wake up from this bad dream” ❤
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So true, that's powerful. Love and peace to you ❤️.
That's too cruel, how many kids can't meditate and then die in agony?
@@Dunge0n a child’s ego identity isn’t as strong as an adult’s. Children meditate naturally by being themselves. The older we get the more caught up in this false sense of reality (the dream/ego) we become.
A baby lives naturally in being in the same way that animals exist naturally without a concept of themselves. They don’t have a mind created ego.
Meditation is for adults to get back to that natural state of being when we were babies… when we get back to that natural state of being, when thoughts take a back seat and quiet down, we naturally feel more joy and peace. We wake up from this bad dream created by our negative thoughts, and experience life in its purity.
@@Simsim3e Now you're discounting refards, and the criminally insane. I can do this all day.
The running away is fear based reality. The control everything is the ego, fear may well be the underlying motivation for the control. Thank You for sharing your knowledge with us. I started meditating 2yr ago ignorant but had amazing results. It changed me for the better. I have ADD maybe that was why. I completely stopped drinking and can't tolerate my Awareness messed with at all.
I'm so much a better human.
I agree...just observe.. don't try and control your own narrative.
But how? I try but can’t. 😢
@saharafradi what I do. I just watch everything that comes up...all the thoughts and feelings arising and do not change or control them...and if I find myself trying to control them, I watch that too! It's a case of not judging what comes up as right or wrong...an unfiltered observation . You may be surprised at what a jumbled up train wreck we are!...we have a lot of hatred for ourselves and each other...it scares a lot of people off in the beginning to know such things about ourselves...but eventually the inner tirade calms down and settles...and the unconscious patterns in our psyche has less control over us as we have become more aware of our inner workings.
@@CosmicTheBoYs but my inner voice is very mean and I am scared it manifest. It says things like you are a killer, thief, monster, pedo.., I don’t know where this comes from. Do with the law of EIYPO the people around me react on my thoughts. So how can I handle this shit?
@saharafradi That sounds like a lot like OCD thoughts... I'm no doctor. So please take everything with a pinch of salt .But it might be worth looking into that and seeing if it may apply and talk to someone.... You're not a lone... a lot of people have minds that do that.
Watched a handful of your videos, this one is by far the most understanding. Thank you
As a person that suffir from high-fidelity imagination. This man paints murals gestureing with his hands and speaking in-depth on some information.
Hey I started about a year ago poking consciousness at a bunch of different angles. Meditation, sungazing, harmala alkaloids, etc and I’ve set off something that “high-fidelity imagination” sounds like it would be a good descriptor. Mind talking a little about it?
People are always talking, for real or in their mind, even in their sleep. God is always listening to us. When we can be still, is when we can listen to God.
why do you have to write your beliefs as if they are facts, and why is it so ambiguous, my brain is scanning for technical data points it is infuriating reading text like this
@@PuppetMasterdaath144 How is knowledge going to be infuriating? What is ambiguous? I can point you to what I know - it's up to you to decide about it. I am not a teacher, Jesus said there is only One worthy to be called teacher....
Matthew 23-8
Jesus Says: “But you are not to be called ‘Rabbi,’ for you have One Teacher, and you are all brothers."
Matthew 12-50
Jesus Says: "Anyone who does the will of my Father in heaven is my brother and sister and mother!”
Awe. I love when people get riled up about nothing.
People point at religious texts as if it means something.
We give absolutely everything all the meaning that it has.
We do this individually for certain, and collectively.
Meaning is added by the mind.
The best Jesus texts imo is the book of Thomas.
Jesus spoke nonduality all through the bible too.
He was an enlightened master but all beings are Buddha, most of us just don’t know it.
Meditation will help one to realize we are not the action figure, we are in fact the Buddha. Or the Christ, or Krishna, or Tao, or consciousness whatever one wants to call it, but, can’t use the Buddha to seek the Buddha.
Light seeking light is silly innit.
I Am the light but so is everyone else.
I Am is the Truth as it’s the only never changing, uneffected, can’t be touched or harmed aspect of this dream.
What is never changed since birth and is not affected by anything?
Awareness right? Mind is full of delusions, awareness is pure, clear and it is always and forever. Never born and will never die.
I Am That, I Am, but again, so is everyone else.
We all share the same name, it is I Am.
After that it’s describing the dream, or rather, dreamt character.
We are also the dream characters which can be confusing for some.
@@youarewhatyourelookingfor4496 God is a real being. God is the only Not-Created Infinite Being. All others are finite knowledge, traveling eternally, but not infinite. God is a real being and God is One.
@@Tom-and-Jerry-again
Sure. Ok. But that’s your opinion.
Here in reality, one cannot deny I Am.
Are you here?
I Am
What’s your name?
I Am
This is as much a fact as the god you’re referring to because we are God.
The omnipresent, omniscient “being” is us.
I and the father are 1.
Who are you?
I
Who am I?
I
I….and the father are 1.
Who’s “be-ing” here?
What were you before your parents were born?
What are you if you drop all the adjectives like your name, gender, color etc?
You are the ever present Aware Being are you not?
Look under a rock, who’s there?
I Am.
At the top of a mountain YOU are there too.
Who are you?
I Am.
No matter where I go, I Am there because I Am everything and I Am everywhere.
Who Am I is the most important question one can take into meditation in this life.
What am I, where am I and when am I is good too.
There’s nothing more important than discovering who we really are.
Enlightenment is the greatest gift one can give to this world for you can never again harm another because you will know all beings as oneself.
Love you ❤
It’s ok if you don’t understand yet, all are guaranteed to awaken at some point.
I pray blessings be upon you in your journey. 🙂
We are always meditating not just when we sit quiet for a few minutes! When you’re at the store, the mall, at work, the gas station… always! We are never not meditating! So the thing is to be aware throughout the day about what we are ‘meditating’ on! ❤️❤️👍🏾
WOW, Amazing talk 🤙
This information should be everywhere. I respect this person and his knowledge. He is what true influencers should be.
This information needs to be known by every human being on earth.
Thank you Mr. Parrish for all you do.
I recently discovered your channel and wanted to share a quick thought on the idea that happiness is a function of circumstances.
While we may not control every aspect of our circumstances, we do have the power to remove ourselves from dangerous, unhealthy, and destructive environments. Speaking as an older man with a lifetime of experiences and meditation, this perspective has served me well.
For example, if someone finds themselves in an environment that negatively impacts their well-being, it's crucial to remove themselves from these unhealthy surroundings.
Agreed but there is no doer.
“Deeds are done and actions are taken, but there is no individual doer thereof” said Buddha.
I can find no doer. I’ve looked for years.
Things just happen. Everything is just happening of itself.
We can choose what we will do, but we cannot choose what we will choose.
Researchers were actually able to accurately predict, 100% of the time, what people were going to choose 6 to 8 before they made their choices.
There are myriad factors involved in how choices appear to be made, but I’m of the school of thought of scores of hindu, Christian mystics, Buddhists and others who say absolutely everything is predetermined and researchers proved it. It’s amazing really.
Total surrender to what is, to whatever is appearing to happen. This is imo complete surrender to God, although there’s not actually anyone here to surrender.
What an amazing show it all is.
Horrific and heartbreaking and breathtakingly beautiful and gorgeous too.
Confusing pleasure for happiness has enabled the full catastrophe of human life.
You just gained a new subscriber. Love your videos ❤️ . Keep spreading the truth.
Thank you, David. Thank you.
Thank you, so well broken down. This is video is priceless.
Really love your content ❤very will explained
I was not even thinking of this video the whole entire time he is speaking. My mind went somewhere else. ! 😂 haha.
Story of my life its so troubling
Ill get it eventually and you will too
Absolutely fantastic video and just heloed me get out if a rut i was in that could have lead to a very dark place.
My eternal gratitude man🖤
Wow, this is my first time finding you, and I'm wondering where you've been my whole life?? I needed this mind-blowing talk!
Subscribed! Went from the hellscape of watching news to self improvement. You fit right in the model I would like to embrace. 😊
Whatever you feed will grow. Think of your good and bad behavior like a neuron because that's exactly where the impulse comes from. Whatever neural connections you create the impusle for them in the future grows.
❤
Keep Going!
Once I took meditation seriously, it then took me seriously, if that makes sense.
Powerful dude you are
Love Paul Hedderman. You showed up on my CZcams today. I’m digging you too.
14:10
Enlightenment happens by accident, but you can make yourself accident prone with meditation 🧘♀️
Thank you David for another banger!
Let body fall asleep keep mind awake supposedly something happens
Yes. First thing in the morning when waking very first occurs before ego kicks in, pay attention to that. Or when falling asleep at night, focus on awareness as the body falls asleep.
Last year I was practicing the evening exercise and for a week I was in what’s called Turiya in Hindu traditions.
I, awareness, stayed “on” as awareness while the body/mind slept.
It was quite extraordinary. DMT produced a very similar experience a couple times where there was a complete detachment of identification with the body / mind.
I saw them there sitting on my cushion but I was not that.
It was a total detachment.
All that I was was just the bright, crystal clear awareness of it all.
It’s was a worthwhile practice.
Profound in experiencing it but only profound to the mind.
a dialectic of/for anti-thinking ... ambient habitat based thoughts can get "chaotic" ... watch your thoughts ... beware cognitive traps of reaction vs original vs novelty (mindless?) ...
I have often tried to meditate and failed. Yesterday, i did Cameron Day's 'Cosmic Flush' and things happened, i don't understand. Now, my 'brain chatter' has reduced by a huge amount. At one point, my eyes were rolled back and i have never felt so focused. I think i am going to persist. Funny, though, nothing happened, before.
Nothing ever happens unless you think about it.
Be in control of your mind or your mind controls you 💪🏽🌊🫶🏽😘⚓✊🏽💯💯🔱🪽
@@marioculcasi Good luck.
I think this comes naturally to me so i always thought i wasnt doing it right. I think people who were abused learned how to escape mentally or they went crazy and became another abuser.
Society is roundabout finished. Meditate your way out of the body and don't come back
Do you have any videos to do with dealing with someone actually dying. And to get them to realize that we never really die?
Abraham, In a sense we are all actually dying, it is just a matter of time. So anyone I work with who hears the message and takes the action of letting go of the identification with the body and the personality realizes that death only happens in the dream we call being awake. I recommend my book: "Dying To Live" on Amazon. Thank you for your question.
Hi! I have a question. Since I had my awakening, I realized I can't talk to people like I used to. My social interactions come with conscious effort. Whatever I say comes with awareness. It's a struggle. What can you make of that? Do you know how I can fix this? Because people see me differently now - they act with a different attitude now, including my family members.
where do these talks take place?
Recollection
How one is able to contend with this when in relation to depression as well as when having anxiety attacks and feeling like I'm going crazy sometimes?
Question it. Who is having the anxiety attack, who is depressed?
@@AkilAmmon-iw2vu The problem is that I do that but it doesn't work. I notice that I'm numbed out and perhaps I don't even feel fully aware of the pain to protect me from it through my numbness.
Dr Scott Eliers told about 4 forms of this. And there are the common physical, emotional, etc, but there's a 4th one which is like in another dimension like an anti particle or something that's stealthed yet you can see it's effects. And I notice that it's like you can't even see it because there's nothing to see only the effect of it. When I do start to feel emotional pain it is slowly revealed but then it dissapears again it's like hit and run tactics almost. It's weird. Cause I had great self control before and focus but now it's like something acting in 4D and fucking with my 3D reality and attention, emotions, etc. It's like I'm hijacked or something. Weird...
@@AkilAmmon-iw2vu The problem is that I do that but it doesn't work. I notice that I'm numbed out and perhaps I don't even feel fully aware of the pain to protect me from it through my numbness.
Dr Scott Eliers told about 4 forms of this. And there are the common physical, emotional, etc, but there's a 4th one which is like in another dimension like an anti particle or something that's stealthed yet you can see it's effects. And I notice that it's like you can't even see it because there's nothing to see only the effect of it. When I do start to feel emotional pain it is slowly revealed but then it dissapears again it's like hit and run tactics almost. It's weird. Cause I had great self control before and focus but now it's like something acting in 4D and it's jamming my 3D reality and attention, emotions, etc. It's like I'm hijacked or something. Weird...
@@AkilAmmon-iw2vu The problem is that I do that but it doesn't work. I notice that I'm numbed out and perhaps I don't even feel fully aware of the pain to protect me from it through my numbness.
Dr Scott Eliers told about 4 forms of this. And there are the common physical, emotional, etc, but there's a 4th one which is like in another dimension like an anti particle or something that's stealthed yet you can see it's effects. And I notice that it's like you can't even see it because there's nothing to see only the effect of it. When I do start to feel emotional pain it is slowly revealed but then it dissapears again it's like hit and run tactics almost. It's weird. Cause I had great self control before and focus but now it's like something acting in 4D and it's jamming my 3D reality and attention, emotions, etc. It's like I'm hijacked or something. Weird...
@@AkilAmmon-iw2vuThe problem is that I do that but it doesn't work. I notice that I'm numbed out and perhaps I don't even feel fully aware of the pain to protect me from it through my numbness.
Dr Scott Eliers told about 4 forms of this. And there are the common physical, emotional, etc, but there's a 4th one which is like in another dimension like an anti particle or something that's stealthed yet you can see it's effects. And I notice that it's like you can't even see it because there's nothing to see only the effect of it. When I do start to feel emotional pain it is slowly revealed but then it dissapears again it's like hit and run tactics almost. It's weird. Cause I had great self control before and focus but now it's like something acting in 4D and it's jamming my 3D reality and attention, emotions, etc. It's like I'm hijacked or something. Weird...
Can u explain theurgy
why should I listen to you though?
How not to listen to
A bunch of talk about absolutely nothing
That is the point.. or no point.. no reason.. or every reason