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Soph, if there’s one thing I really appreciate about you (lush editing aside), it’s your resilience and determination to never give up. We’ve all watched you grow through breakups, workouts, mindset things and opportunities on this channel, all of them having set you up for this. Watching your resilience really motivates me in mine, in other things (creatively). I know you’re going to get through this and be on the other side soon enough - congrats on 26+ days already!! That’s huuuge!!!
I couldn't agree more! Are you going through sobriety as well?
thank you so much Ché 🤍
@@Thefitty not sobriety in the typical sense, but possibly from my doubts, fears, and self-limiting beliefs that are stopping me from showing up whole as my most creative self :) If you are, I am sending you so much courage to keep on keeping on. Figh-ting!
@@checreates you have no idea how much I needed to hear this today, I'm having a really hard day. Thank you, and I can relate to what you said on many, many different levels.
What She said !! Love you Soph
Soph, I am infinitely proud of what you are doing! Overcoming addiction is NEVER easy - the withdraws are insidiously painful and overwhelming. Personally, I find it helpful to perceive the addiction as an 'abusive bf', it's soooooooo tempting to return to that familiarity at times, but you have to know and understand that returning will just get you entrenched further and as you've said, you have to do it all over again. Take each hour at a time, don't see it as "I can never smoke again", see it as "Ah, this is a new life I'm paving, I'm curious to see what comes out of it". We are cheering you on,
ugh this!!! thank you.. I appreciate you sm.
Hang in there! I had my last cigarette in December 2018 after smoking nearly a pack a day for 13 years. It took all my willpower (+ Chantix, post-its all over my house, signing up for 3 different government services that provided free on-call therapists to talk me through withdrawals and would text me every few hours, plus having my mother watch me like a hawk). I know how difficult it is--at the time, I could not even imagine myself as a non-smoker, it was such a big part of my identity. But it gets so much easier, one day at a time. Sending love
Congratulations to you!! what an accomplishment. Striving to get where you are one day 🤍
Remember why you started the journey and how in the end all this work will mean freedom from nicotine; girl you know you got this!!! And you’re not alone.
I quit smoking several years ago and it was fucking tough! The eating part is sooo relatable, I would snack constantly to "replace" it. The irritability was rough for me too, I did a lot of breathing exercises to get me out of the bad headspace and the constant jittering. I'm 5 years nicotine free now, and I'm rooting for you! It's a constant battle but it will get easier (which I'm sure you know) but you'll get there and once you do, you'll look back on this journey as a reminder of your resilience.
화이팅!
🥺고마워!
Always here for the honesty ❤ I quit 3 months ago and I was just “ready” and dropped it. I still find myself looking for it with my idle hands, jumping from one project to the next, and trying to find ways to cope when I’m sitting still. It’s funny because coming home and sitting on the couch is the worst, because that’s where I would just decompress from my day and absentmindedly vape while scrolling on social media.
The struggle is real. But I’m really glad I’m not the only one.
Remind yourself how far you’ve come. Proud of you, girlie.
My boyfriend went through the same thing, he’s currently 8 months nicotine free. Being around friends/family can help you stay busy too besides doing chores and working out!! Proud of you and wishing you continued success on this journey
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The note at the end made me cry, experiencing an insane wave of emotions through this too ❤
Sophia - YOU GOT THIS. We have your back. Rooting for you.
appreciate you 🙏🏼
Shoutout to all the girlies getting over their bad habits, standing strong with you Soph!!! Cannot wait to see you at the top of the mountain ❤❤❤❤
1000% thank you!!
Hey Sophia! I’ve been a follower for a long time :) these videos could not have come at a better time for me personally. For the past couple of months every new vape I get I always say “ok this is the last one this is the last one” and it just feels like I have no self control when I get another one. It’s the worst feeling. I just want to live a pure life without always having to worry about this THING. Thank you for posting these videos. I just want you to know that you’re a huge source of inspiration for me especially during this time when you are really putting yourself through something so uncomfortable to grow and be a better person. WOW. Love you❤️
your vlogs are always a pleasant and welcome distraction from work :) we are all so much stronger than we think, and the struggles will have made the end goal all the more worth it. the rain, cold and dreary weather doesn't help either... seasonal depression is real y'all. we're all rooting for you, sophia!
You don't know how much you and your channel have helped me out. I'm grateful that I found your channel and you're an inspiration!
so glad to hear 🧡 thank you for being here!!
You got this! I love how transparent you are! You motivate and inspire me and I know you will get through this! ❤
I just quit smoking too 😩 I know how hard it is. What helped me was just constantly telling myself all the benefits of not smoking and thinking about all the bad side effects from smoking. Don’t give up, you got this! Fighting 💪
I’m living for these vlogs. You got it Sophie! It’s incredible watching you do something so difficult
Sophia, it'll get so much easier! Ceramics really helped me keep my hands busy and off cigarettes. I love that you're working out more -- you're doing great and your body will thank you for years to come
Thank you for being open about this. I have been struggling with the same thing but have not gone more then 2 days without it…
Watching your journey is inspiring others & you’ll have such a testimony after this that you’ll share your story with so many ppl once you’ve conquered this. I used to smoke years ago so I know it can be hard to quite. My addiction was mostly routine based & having a stressful job, but there will always be triggers. I wish you so much strength Soph, you got this! 🤍🤍
you’re doing great and i’m so so so proud of you! i tried quitting a few years ago and a few things that really helped was using straws, gum, lollipops, and doing what i could to sweat all the toxins out like working out, sauna, etc. like i said before, i’m so so proud of you so keep going 🫶🫶 you got this
Thank you so much for continuing to document and share your journey with us. We are rooting for you too!
i'm so proud of you Sophie for pushing through. you can do this!!! i truly believe in you.
you are almost there! stay strong! you can do this! we are rooting for you!
I literally have the same problem. I’m so addicted to vaping now and it sucks. I only used to use during social events or when I’m drinking, but now I use it even when I’m driving or just chilling at home. I can tell it’s been affecting my lungs and my body, I can’t shake the feeling 😔 you’re inspiring me to quit and know that I would not be alone in this journey. ❤
Your vlogs are just my favorite - and the pups are sooo cute together!
You got this Soph. More power to you 💌
whenever i want to give up on something, i remind myself that trying again would mean having to struggle twice. quitting is really hard but i hope you remember that every moment you push through is progress! like one of my favourite people said, "you are not getting nowhere just because you are not where you want to be yet" and i hope you keep going!
sending love and strength :)
I really appreciated this
If it helps to know, the addiction let's go of YOU when you stop fighting to *let go. That's what I've found true for me.* Fighting the feelings was perpetuating it for me. Much love, Sofia! You got this and you're gonna look at back this moment with *triumph and humility 💖*
It's interesting as a non smoker that I went into the video thinking it'd be very hard to relate but it actually made me realize some of my habits could actually be my "vape" by the way that you have described them.
Your ability to be aware of your dependency on the addiction and the impact of the withdrawals on you as well as sharing them is actually so helpful. I think it would be a good reminder then and again for me to check against my own symptoms
Rooting for you! Being 26 days off the vape is already amazing. I was able to quit cold turkey years ago because I was training for my first full marathon (after a full year of doing just half marathons and still smoking) and really it did wonders because I felt myself reaching better running potentials when I quit. I guess I also knew I was gonna quit one day so the intentions were all there too - just waiting for some grand excuse heheheh... i guess you also have to be proud of your discipline and support that discipline, dont ever let it down. thank you for declaring this publicly so we can really see your progress.
If I am gonna look back on what I did when I quit - did i ever snack more or what - i guess I did not because I was so focused on finishing the full marathon with under 3 months of training (usually training should be 6 months per my coach then). So i had no time to join my friends on friday night outs too since I have 3am training on weekends. During the weekdays, I do my short runs and also had to exercise at the gym. It really was busy. Before I knew it, I finished the full marathon and was already out of nicotine for more than 3 straight months I never even missed it. I did notice being so disgusted with the smell of cigarettes after about 6 months out of it. it's like my sense of smell got a reset on its sensitivity.
You're doing a great job and thank you for sharing your journey! Stay strong 🦾
You got this! I had to quit caffeine and nicotine cold turkey last year for health reasons and it was tough but once you get past the withdrawals you will feel so much better.
Keep pushing Sophia. Proud of you and everyone in the comments who is on this journey ❤
Sending you love & positivity! ❤ You Sophia, are a remarkable human & I look forward to the happy days you deserve.
SO proud of you soph
I envy your willpower! It is difficult to kick a habit. I too need to also but there is always an excuse to push it off. Watching you share about yourself is inspiring. Hanging in there with you and you are doing great!
Your kitchen is GORGEOUS
You’re a true inspiration. Don’t give up. You’ve got this Soph💖 stay strong
so proud of you - you got this!
Sophia, I've watched your journey for so many years and you've come so far. If anyone can do it, it's you. You've got this ❤
When I gave up smoking I had exactly the same problem - that all my favourite things to were associated with smoking (drinking with friends, drinking coffee, my first cup of tea in the morning etc.). I remember one thing that really helped was starting new rituals so for example I found a really nice coffee shop that did not allow smoking and I went there and had the nice coffee and had a date with a friend and ate breakfast and this began a new neurological joy pathway - associating coffee with my friend, and the nice coffee shop and the nice breakfast. Or I would change the route I took to work so I wasn't walking down the street where I always used to walk and smoke, or I even temporarily stopped hanging out with some friends with whom I used to smoke. Maybe you could begin by just taking maybe one or two of your favourite things you like to do and start doing them in a new location or in a completely new way, to trick your brain out of the association with nicotine. For example for the next two weeks you only drink your morning coffee at a new coffee shop you have never been to before with a view of the sea and you have to run there or something, so you get adrenalin and all of that becomes its own new reward.
Love you Sophie!
@Sophia Thank you so much for being honest and vulnerable. It's defintely been a great blessing and still is to watch you and your channel grow. I'm so proud of how far you've come! Keep at it because it will all be worth it. You got this!
I enjoy your videos so much. There are some days when it’s hard and when I watch your videos, I don’t feel alone as much. Love you and fighting❤
The little message at the end was so sweet!😍😍
You got this Sophia! 💗
Hi Sophia! I think you are so brave and congrats on your 26 days. I had a hard time quitting alcohol too. I am sober almost 3 months this year and I never feel better than this! I am rooting for you! You got this
Sophie, 잘하고 있어요!! 포기하기말고 힘내요!
thank you for the message at the end. i’m trying to quit and really needed it ❤
i’ve struggled with something else similar to you for a long time. one thing that always helped me was when i was having the craving / fighting temptation was to out loud say what i am physically doing in a simple sentence to get myself refocused. for example, if i was fighting the urge while folding laundry, i would say out loud “you are folding laundry”. it would help me snap out of the mental temptation i was in & refocus on the task at hand. give it a try. :)
You got this! I am praying for you
I’m so proud of you and I’m rooting for you and everyone in this journey! You got this 💪🏾 ❤💯👍🏾🙌🏾🤗
I quit smoking a year ago after doing it for a little over 10 years then, replaced that bad habit with drinking because I was so stressed out from engineering school. I am now 2 months alcohol-free, thank you for putting this video out there because it has not been easy. I am rooting and sending nothing but good vibes your way!
I’m on week 2 of quitting vaping. I feel you. I just miss it. In my head I keep trying to justify it “is it really that bad?” But it must be if it’s this hard to quit! I feel my anxiety is much higher and definitely feel like my quality of life has decreased as vaping was one of my favourite things I used to look forward to (picking out flavours, seeing the vapour on the exhale, something I loved when I’m drinking, etc). It’s rough. But hopefully it’s only rough until it gets better and I really hope it gets better soon.
All these warm messages from your fans make my heart melt! Hang in there, Sophie
I wish I could live to my fullest extent and being and elevate myself as much as Sophie! There’s just so much beauty in the pain at the same time. And I am obsessed with your house!!!!!
you can do it girl!! ❤💪🏻
Sophia things will get better!
You got this sis! Addiction, whatever it may be, is hard af to overcome, but we know you can do it! Please remember to be kind and gentle with yourself throughout this process. Sending love and strength :)
We're all rooting for you Sophia! Sending you much love and positive energy ✨️ 💕
Her kitchen is friggin’ goals. 😍
26 days is a celebration! You got this. Grace and peace over you as you battle this habit.
ugh so proud of you!
We're rooting for you too Soph on you're journey and everything you feel is ok! Keep going! 🌟 👌🏾
Sophia-
You’re videos truly inspire me everyday. As someone who is struggling with mental health and nicotine addiction. These last couple videos have deeply resonated in my soul. I’ve attempted to quit nicotine after 8 years of heavily relying on a tiny device to control my anxiety, I lasted 5 days and caved. The withdrawals I experienced felt like like whole world was ending, I was moody, nauseous and could barely carry on with my daily routine. But seeing your videos gave me the inspiration I needed to quit and this time REALLY quit 💕
I believe in you girl. Let's do this together!! You got this!!
Babe are you still smoking? I’m trying to quit nicotine vape as well as it got me landed in the ER. It’s so difficult leaning off it when you crave it every minute. I actually felt the withdrawal too. I realized I had a hard time admitting that I’m nicotine addict, but first step is taking responsibility in the fact that u wanna quit.
Praying for you!!
Thank you for channeling such positive energy to the audience.
Thank you for being so honest with us on your journey! I know you’ve got this shit 💪🏽
I'm so proud of you. Keep going! You will get there!
!!!Sophia, you are so cool for doing this
Thankyou for being a motivation
May God bless you
Soph, thank you for sharing your journey with us and not just showing the good. Thank you for being so brave and for showing us your strength in doing something so hard! It breaks my heart to see you go through so much the past years but I have faith in you! We got you ❤
Hi Sophia! I know you can do it, the fact that you're on day 26+ says alot already. I too am struggling, though with me it's with food. Due to my high lab results it really opened my eyes to be more careful and mindful with what I eat and how much I eat. Even when going out i need to remind myself of my lab results and that alone is helping me to control myself. It's not easy, easier said than done. I feel you girl with the struggles! We can conquer this! 💕
You can do it Sophie!!! I believe in you! You can do anything you put your mind to!
I'm rooting SO hard for you Sophia! You can do this and you deserve a peaceful mind when all of this is behind you ❤️
Hi Soph!, when i quit nicotine, the one thing that help me so much was sunflower seeds with shell. Somehow, trying to remove the seed from the husk (in my mouth) helped me with my anxiety a lot. Also, I know it may sound silly and it's a bit difficult to explain, but at times when you feel like smoking (such as drinking coffee) a trick that helped me a lot was trying to get my mind out of that place. I realized that if I focused on my urge to smoke it would drive me crazy and I couldn't think of anything else. So I started to replace that thought with something else that made me happy or was completely random to the situation. Like, for example, thinking about whether it will rain or not. (The important thing is to get your brain out of that state of needing to smoke by distracting it). I hope that helps. You got this! stay strong 🤍
We are all praying for you gurl!! You got this we love you🥰
You got this! Rooting for you!
I love you sophia ❤ stay strong
You got this girlie!!
Thank you for your honest sharing! Keep going!! Proud of you!!
So PROUD of you Sophia 🌞👏 You're an inspiration to us all who are trying to break bad habits. Thanks for sharing your journey 😘
Forever an inspiration for many of us Ms. Chang, more than you know! Keep up, I believe in you 💪✨
Way to go Sophia!! Quitting even something like sugar is hard, smoking is even worse. Keep up the fight!
You got this! I quit smoking awhile back and I remember the withdrawals being awful and just crying in my car. Someone once told me to practice breath work every time I crave smoking. The drags of a cigarette/vape are similar to the deep breaths you take while meditating. Hope that helps!
proud of you, Sophia. Keep it up and know youre more powerful than the withdrawals. You got this!
You seem to be going through a tough time during the past several months, I’m always here hoping the best for you and wishing you well! I like your attitude that it will be worth it to be freed of those withdrawal pains once you’ve passed that period of time. You’re super strong for pushing through this, good luck always! 🧡
By the way, I have seen how addictive vaping is with my friend, doing it every 30 seconds, it seems intense, how amazing when you become free from that
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You can do this, Sophia!
You already surpassed the hardest parts of this journey! You got this!
You’re so strong and you’ll come out stronger. I believe in you ❤
Sophia I’m so proud of u! My partner quit vaping after 10+ years of nonstop vape and I watched how hard it was with the withdrawals. There may be moments of relapse in the future which can be difficult. You got this!
Hold on, Soph!! I can only imagine how hard it is, but we all know how difficult it could be to make such a change, we do get exausted sometimes. We do trust in you, whatever you feel throught this life journey. It's okay to feel so much stuff, life is also about feeling. Thank you for sharing all of this with us, 'cause you are helping us to look for our history with more details as well ❤❤
FIGHTING soso !!!!!
Soph you got this girl!!! Have you tried cold plunging?! I think it would help since the cold showers help a lot!
Hang in there Soph! You can do this!
You got this queen you are a STAR, keep UR HEAD UP!!!
I quit smoking many years ago thru behavior modification so it was gradual , one day I gave in and took it poof it was so nasty now I can’t stand the small of smoke especially when I go to Vegas ! Congrats on your 26 days
So so proud ❤
Love you so much Soph🤍 Rooting for you