How Could You Leave Us- NF - Reactionalysis - Music Teacher takes the NF Journey
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- The NF Journey Continues with How Could You Leave Us? - The most requested song! Please comment below your thoughts and opinions on my take of this!
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"Certainly she is not on drugs when she is doing that."
This comment stopped me. Having been raised by two addicts and then later adopted by another addict couple, I can 100% say that addicts will drive under the influence. Most addicts I know get to a point where they believe they cannot leave their home if they are sober, since the world is too difficult to deal with that way.
I agree that addiction is a disease, but not similar to a heart attack. Addiction is a disease that to me should be viewed like a mental illness.
After finally leaving an addict filled home I understood that I was not angry because my loved one was sick with addiction, but that they refused to try to get better. It's difficult to watch your parent make decisions that hurt you or your siblings, and then refuse to change once they realize what they have done. Everyone deserves forgiveness, but death shouldn't be the line that forces you to see your bad decisions clearly.
A second level of anger can come from the fact that your parents still had you, knowing they struggled with addiction. It feels like an injustice to be born in to a life held together by someone unstable.
Ultimately the anger shields us from the pain their decisions cause. I'd rather be angry with my past then feel hopeless because my parents refuse to attempt to get better.
You are sooo right 💕 Thank you soo much for this
Well said.... ;)
I'm screenshotting this comment for reference just in case someone has a question about this song. Very well said and you made a ton of valid points. Also I am very sympathetic even though I myself grew up in a sober household and even though I don't know what it's like to be in one, I can still say i am blessed to have a supportive family since day one disregarding the fact that I have no idea what the other side is like. I am very sorry for what it seems to have been a tough upbringing for you my friend. I wish you all the best to you & anyone who goes through something similar. NF really has impacted millions of lives for the better and brought people together who never thought they would even talk or say something to eachother.
This is so perfectly described. I definitely veiw addiction more of an mental illness also. I also believe mental illness isn’t an excuse to treat people badly. I have a few mental illnesses and I’m Lucky enough to not have the illness of addiction. I grew up in a home with a great mother who was abused by an addict father for 16 years before she finally left. I’m a 32 year old women and instill carry a lot of angry towards my father, I cut him off when I was 20. Because it was all so mentally and emotionally draining. And I won’t let a person like that have a relationship with my children.
Really insightful, thanks for posting!
He has forgiven her. As an adult he realized she was dealing with her own issues. This song was written by that scared kid. In an interview he says he feel guilty about how angry he was at his Mom, but he was honest about how he felt at that time. It's easier for some people to show anger than sorrow and pain.
Also if you hold a grudge from childhood and without and way to console those feelings, you'll hold onto it into adulthood. Likely he still has some of those regrets but like he says hes getting psychological help now and venting in his music is his therapy.
@@w4it Thank God he found a healthy way to express that anger.
This song is the reason I got clean my son played it for me and I could see my kids pain through Nate eyes and and feel it in his pleas and cries. I've been clean for 2 years. I hope he realizes not only is he helping troubled kids but mom's just like his. 😔💔
You're amazing for what you've achieved 💕
@@TheMuserResolute
This is why i disagree that it's a disease the same way as cancer is. People do have a choice to seek help with addiction. (And even with cancer...don't most seek treatment?)
This made me bawl I’m so proud of you
and parents said in TS that his music has no message but goodluck with beiiing clean and best of luck! :).
@@jameslmarsh I’m severely addicted to food.
I’m not sure why, but it’s never felt within my control. I’ve tried so many times, to get help. To cut off the source of the addiction.
Addiction feels like you’re drowning. It feels hopeless and it feels like a disease you can’t get rid of.
I think it’s a disease of the mind.
The problem I have with your comment, is people OFTEN seek help for addiction, as I have for years. But what happens for a lot of them? They backslide. They fall back into it after bits of success.
Cancer does the same thing. Sometimes you think you’ve beaten it, and then it comes back with a vengeance.
I’m currently working with a coach to try and help my food addiction and lose weight before it gets even more out of control. But I’ve been fighting and trying to fix this for years at this point. It is like a disease.
And just like that hes back. Hope you are doing well.
Thank you!! Yes I am. Thank you for sticking around 💕
Interesting thing about trauma is that even when youre "grown up" it leaves that hurt part of you at the same age you were when it happened. You smell cigarette smoke and suddenly you're 9 years old in the back seat of the car again. And so he may be speaking here as an adult, but he's an adult who experiences these memories like he is a child. When you have chronic traumas you can develop cPTSD, and from an outsider's perspective, I think he has it.
I saw a more recent interview where he said he's worked through a lot of this in therapy and feels differently now than when he recorded it and understands it's more complicated than "just say no." It's interesting that's what we are taught as kids though, to "just say no" to drugs. And that showed his limited understanding as a kid who didn't get what was going on, only felt the pain of his needs not being met.
I think the confusion you feel about his emotions likely represents exactly how he was feeling. Dealing with someone who has an addiction is such a confusing, overwhelming situation. You still have that love for them and want them to be there, yet you're angry at who they've become. When most people listen to this song they're overcome with sadness, but I think you dug deeper into it and felt all of his conflicting emotions.
Im glad you're back. Thank you for this.
Thank you soo much for watching and sticking around 💕
His missing both the mother he never had and the potential mother she could have been if she would have gotten clean. And I think he has some guilt because his anger stopped him from calling her and maybe he thinks if he had called he could have saved her.
He has said that in mansion.. Each of us have that scared angry kid in us that carries that resentment into adulthood. We also learn from our parents how to seal with these issues. So having a mother or father who dealt with anger by escape it takes an extra effort to learn these lessons
Scent is closely linked to memory. As a kid, I rode on a tractor with my dad a lot. He’s been gone for 21 years. To this day, the whiff of diesel exhaust immediately brings me back to that tractor and my dad. Diesel exhaust is a comforting smell to me. It reminds me of him.
Out of nowhere he drops and all the fans will embrace it
Right! I've been waiting for him to react to this, bless
For those who didn't get it: it's a quote from NF song Why. 😅
@@justinfreed867 no its from leave me alone lol
@@HungryFatFrenzy you're right 😵
@@justinfreed867 tsk tsk you gotta relisten to the whole catalog now smh
This is why it’s important to listen through his music in order and also to not get stuck in one album or on one song. There is a growth and progression, not just in his music but also in himself as a person.
His music is personal and incredible. Whether or not that is where he is now, it’s where he was at this moment in his life and that is real and raw!
Isn't it said that there are stages to grief and one of them is anger?
I get that an addiction is a disease, the same way that depression is, that there's something permanently changed in the chemical balance of our brain. But I have a cousin that is an alcoholic and a drug addict and I still get angry whenever he shows up drunk or drugged and asks me for money. I know that I can't force him to a rehab if he doesn't want to and I think this helplessness is what turns into anger as well. I think NF knows this all now and probably knew that also at the time he made this song but the same way the addiction is a disease and it's not that simple, the anger is irrational and you can't stop feeling a certain way just because you know it's not fair. It's not simple either.
I have to be honest, this reaction has gotten me pretty angry. It's 3:15am. I never sleep through the night and woke up and was happy to see you're back as I have checked many times. I don't know if you have a personal connection to addiction but that's how I felt watching your reaction.
I do agree that addiction is a disease and you can't blame someone for being sick. Here's where it changes for me. I am 39 and have suffered with severe mental illness most of my life and I am technically disabled due to it. It got worse 10 years ago when I had a child that passed away. I wanted to die and thought about suicide every single day. I cared about my family though and didn't want to hurt them so I am constantly in therapy, hospitals, and even have had my brain shocked many times to try to get better. It hasn't worked. At this point in my life, I can barely walk, my hair is falling out, and my depression and anxiety are horrible. I think about ending it every single day and have prayed to die in my sleep so many nights. I keep fighting though.
The difference is that no matter what we still make choices. We make choices to fight our disease or let it take over. It is a daily and sometimes hourly fight. I fight to stay here to not hurt my family. I think that is where Nate's anger came from. She didn't fight. She let the disease take over. It may not be "fair" for him to blame her, but it wasn't fair to him to lose his mother. We can't always control our emotions. Now I obviously don't know if she sought help or not but from the song it would appear not. If you compare addiction as a disease to having an illness like cancer or diabetes, people choose to try to get help. That doesn't mean it will work but the effort put in changes things.
I don't know if I'm making sense, but the anger seems to be what he was going through at that time. I know that his opinions on the loss have changed but I thought you were a bit harsh in your criticism of him blaming her. You came off quite angry in my opinion. I don't think it's fair to judge someone else's feelings or emotions. (which is sadly exactly what I'm doing to you right now) And music is his way of coping and putting it all out there. It's his therapy and sometimes just getting it all out helps people heal and move forward.
I hope you will think about what I said about choosing to fight and maybe understand where he was coming from at that time in his life. He's moved forward and grown since then which ultimately is a wonderful thing. I really feel like you may have some type of personal connection in some way to this to bring out your anger. I hope you heal from that as anger just eats away at us. I'm proud of Nate for laying all his anger out there but then moving forward.
I hope whatever was keeping you away is better now and I look forward to more reaction videos.
Thank you so much for your comment and for sharing your story. I did feel that my take on this may have been met with some opposition, but I’m totally respectful of that. I really appreciate you watching and taking the time to share your story and the viewpoints you have put forward. It has certainly given me a lot to think about. 💕💕
I'm glad you put into words the emotions I was feeling.
Having an addiction that I struggle with daily and watching my mother, who introduced me to the drug life, refuse to seek help for her own problems hurts. I'm not mad she is an addict. I'm mad that she refuses to get any help after all we have been through. The anger holds back the fear that her addiction will have to end in her death.
@@Trintron46 I'm sorry you're going through that. Sending prayers.
@MTR
Ok I didn't watch all of your analysis but 2 sentences
It's fun getting high
If you really cared for us then why you acting.
The first is extremely selfish.
The second what her selfishness is doing to her children.
ALWAYS a choice in life, only once when there's no choice, and that's when you're dying.
She CHOSE to go her 'let's get away from reality' from the beginning, she chose her way because it was fun with no responsibilities, and don't say to me its a disease and they cant help it, that's their main get out and excuse, NOOOOOO
And your best sentence, if we don't blame people for dying of a heart attack or cancer why blame addiction, because something you haven't grasped ITS SELF INFLICTED, his mother died of an overdose, SELF INFLICTED, you demean those who have, by what you've said, disgraceful.
I could easily have chosen the extremely selfish route, but I haven't with the life I've had, a lot worse than she's had, don't talk to me about depression I've been there and suicidal.
THERES NO EXCUSE, pure SELFISHNESS and SELF ABSORBENCY, and who cares about anybody else. nothing else,
He's had therapy and now can understand why, and he's forgiven her, do you know why in all your knowledge, because it's his only way forward to live the rest of his life without PAIN which you can't seem to understand either.
Lastly your analysis of his crying now he is, now he isn't, in other words he's putting it on, the same as you denied about your not crying earlier.
You have no idea the damage these so called parents do to their children, you live in cloud cuckoo land 🥵
I already have another comment already, but, nf has said in a couple of interviews that he has changed his views on this song in particular. When he wrote it believe he had a lot of anger at his situation whereas now he has changed on his views. This is all my personal beliefs based on what I've seen of him in songs and interviews so it could be wrong
Thanks so much for clarifying this!!!
Huh... funny. I've never seen that interview but I just made a (long ass) post trying to help him understand the song by sharing my opinion/perspective and the part that is "funny" is that him being angry at the *situation* rather than his mother is exactly what I was trying to explain in great detail lol.
This was a cautionary presentation to those
still able to say no to early and potential addictions....
Preventative medicine if you will...
and NF is also being brutally honest with the
true perception of his evolution of emotional
conclusions over the coarse of his mental healing...
Such a powerful song... I've been waiting for someone to recognize the simplicity of the song. Musically, it's actually a horribly repetitive song. It has the same four chords and the same beat repeating over and over again. But this is EXACTLY what the video and the lyrics emphasize. He mentions it in his lyrics: "Welcome to the bottom of hell. If pain is a prison, let me out of my cell." In other songs he talks about how much time he spends with his regrets (Mansion, Remember This, among others). He's trapped in his mind (Mansion, Intro II, Outcast, Outro, Intro III, The Search). Likewise, in the video you see these same memories cycling over and over. It's as if he's trying to show both the intensity of the emotion and how his memories are constantly haunting him.
I'm a therapist by trade, and I would say that this was incredibly therapeutic for him. Not to get too psychodynamic here, but his inner child never dealt with the pain of all those times his mother abandoned him. It's interesting to see his reflection on this song now. He'll admit that he's come to a better understanding of where his mom's struggle was coming from. He's shared that he would write a different song, one with more understanding of his mother's struggle. I think this would be equally therapeutic. Personally, I would hope that he does. One is addressing the pain he's carried over the years, the other showing understanding and empathy for his mother who was lost in addiction.
Couldn't click that notification fast enough, good to see you posting again
It's good to be back!
Nice to see ya back. This song kills me it is exactly my mother’s life. Luckily we had a stepmother save us boys.
NF really had both relationships with his mother. If I recall, she wasn't always addicted, and at some point she was trying to be a parent. However, since NF was so young, his built up resentement clashes with the happiness she brought him as a kid. I think he meant for the track to show that his mother's addiction has messed him up so bad all the memories sort of blend in, leaving a mix of feelings that are quite confusing.
Well, as we know from the song Nate, she was already failing as a mother when he was 6. It's not enough to "try to be a good parent" at that point. Their relationship was broken from the start, and the only thing that could fix it was her quitting drugs. Also, as a daughter of an addict, I can say that you get used to having a sober parent and a parent "under the influence", and you never know which one you are going to meet. It definitely feeds the anger, because "If you could be that person yesterday, why can't you be like that today?" And Nate definitely misses the person she was when she was sober and the person she could become.
That is crazy he never cussed in any of his songs he is talented artist
I LOVE THESE! Can't wait for the next album reactions
I've been waiting for this! ❤ cant wait to get home and watch it!
So glad your back! And with NF! tough song to come back to.
good to hear a more in depth breakdown of the lyrics. I feel that he is trying to portray that, at least by what we have been given in his songs, he wished that she had taken steps to help herself, like rehab or even reaching out to somebody but didn't . I feel that he has all this pent up anger she would have at least made an attempt to. Yes, addictions are very real and isn't something you can just quit and not have a hard time doing it, but at the same time if having a relationship with your children would give you a reason to fight, instead of putting up a front.
So glad you’re back!!! Love love your insights
This was his raw expression of working thru these emotions. Love how all us NF hardcore fans are defending our boy. He moves people and fair to his mother and addiction or not lots of people can relate.
I’m so happy your back!!
Me too!
So happy you're back! Another great NF video
Thank you 😊
So glad you are back. I've missed your reactions. I hope everything is going well for you.
I always learn new things on songs that I heard a million times when I watch your videos! Love the content!
Thank you ☺️
So glad you are ok and glad you are back. I missed your reactions and insight, your truly are a genius
Literally woke up and saw you posted a video. Normally would go back to sleep but I love your reactions and breakdowns. I have been waiting and glad to see you back.
Thank you sooo much!
Welcome Back! We missed you and love your Reactionlysis.
Thank you!!
Like button hit. Comment commented. Then play button hit. Glad to see you're back!
I relate too much to this song and it meant a lot to see you react to it. Thank you.
When I wake up I always check my phone first and this is NOT something I expected to see, I've never gotten out of bed this fast! Welcome back MTR!
Thank you sooo much 💕 It's good to be back
Great analysis!
Good to see you back!
Good to be back 😊
He's back and it's with one of the hardest hitting songs out there. Great analysis as always Mike. Glad you're back too.
Thank you soo much 💜💜
Not expected this but highly appreciate it! Good to have you back!
Thank you!! So good to be back 😊
Glad your uploading again man! Love your vids!
Thanks 😊
It's finally here! So excited to watch this one.
good to see your content again!
Thanks! Glad to be back 😊
Good to see you back here again, and finally you’re at this point. One of the songs that has touched me the most, because it’s a very personal song for me.
A great video once again! Love watching your videos. Hope you are doing well!
Thank you sooo much! It's good to be back. Thank you for sticking around 😊
IVE WAITED SO LONGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!
WELCOME BACK!! We missed you!!
I’ve been waiting for this one for a while, THANK YOU, hope you are doing well!
Thank you! I am 😊
Love how you planned out the intro of this video. I would say “talented” but you obviously put in the work.
1:For a person to move on with life after a situation like this, they need to grieve. We aren't always emotionally mature, especially when we are grieving. ( You can only forgive once you have truly grieved.)
2:We know that Nf uses his music as a therapist. Being completely honest and talking about what we feel helps us understand why we feel that way.
3:This is a milestone in his career. He can now look back at this moment and realize his growth.
4: Thank you for this break down.
5. Thank you soo much for your comment and taking the time to watch 💕
Finally! I've been waiting for your return. Can't wait for your next video. I really love your reactions and I cant wait for the next one. Keep up the amazing work.
Thank you! and thank you sooo much for being patient and sticking around 😊
I had the opportunity to attend his second Therapy Session Tour back in 2017 when he did perform this song during the concert. He stated just prior to performing the song that he still loved his mom and he misses her. He was in High School when she passed away, a matter of months before graduating. Also, the Crying is real. Tommee Profitt, NF's primary producer, as well as everyone else in the studio was asked by NF to leave and keep the microphone recording. It took him a number of days to record this song. Again, this song is on an album named Therapy Session. He is simply letting out that emotion. His views of the song have changed, having stated that if he could rewrite it that he probably would. He also stated that at the time of writing this song that this was still something that he needed to work through as a person.
Seen this coming from a mile away, and yep at that point in time it made sense "how could you leave us" would be recommended to our favourite musical teacher.
I don’t even know where to start but your point of view of the addiction and how it holds people captive, literally just flipped a switch in my head that helped me heal my inner child. I can’t thank you enough for this perspective. It’s hard to hear because it’s easier for me to stay mad, but just like in “Wake Up”, staying made doesn’t help me progress forward. Sometimes I get lost in the lyrics which helps me in the moment, but it’s hard for me to get out of it. Thank you.
You’re welcome. I know I presented quite a controversial perspective with this. I’m glad it has helped. If there’s something else this song can teach us, it’s that life is too short. Too short to be mad or regretful. Too short for being hung up on what could have been. Take care 💕
@@TheMuserResolute If everyone had the same opinions and perspectives, life would be pretty boring I bet 😌
Absolutely!
I relate really heavily to this song. My dad was verbally abusive to my mom so she shrunk into herself and stopped being a present mother. I blamed her for a really long time and this song came out right around the time we stopped speaking. You can tell by the way he cries that he hates how angry he is and that he knows he shouldn't be but can't help it because it felt like she chose to leave. Luckily my mother is out of that relationship and we are very close now, but I totally understand his anger and hurt. He has said in interviews that he doesn't feel that anger anymore and has been in therapy to accept that her addiction was not a choice. But sometimes it takes a long time to get to that point of acceptance when you have such deep feelings of hurt. This song still brings me back every time to the hurt I felt about my mom, and she was alive and still able to be in my life if I chose. I can't even imagine the hurt he felt, and the guilt he has probably had to process over the anger he has expressed towards her
Great to have you back!
Thank you! It's good to be back 😊
So excited when I got this alert!!!! WOOOOOOOOO
Missed you, teach. Glad to have you back
Awww missed you all too!! Thank you so much for your kind words 💕
So good to have you back! Been checking almost every day for new content :D I hope you're well!!
Thank you!! 😊
Long have we waited for this moment
Thought you stopped!1 Glad to see this!
I'll always be here. Thanks so much for sticking around and being patient!
Great to see you back. We were waiting ...
Keep on!
Thank you so much 😀
At the end of this song when he recorded it in the studio. He asked everyone to leave. That's what we hear about at the end of this song when he starts to rant about how his mom won't be there for her kids. Those are Raw authentic emotions. I'm glad you dissected this song in the way you did. Keep up the great work! I've been to 2 nf concerts. Should have been 3 but it got canceled due to covid
Hi! Really happy that u are back! Love your reaction! For the perspective of him now or him kid, he said like 2 years later that, he don't regret writing this song because it's really emotional and what he was feeling at the time, but he said that now he realize that he's been hard on her and he now understand that she didn't had control.
It's been a hard week and waking up and seeing this video notification was the best thing that's happened all week, it made me so happy! So glad you're back and doing okay.
I think a big part of this song is how NF is confused about why he is sad and why he misses his mom so much when she wasn't ever there before and he never had the relationship even before she died, so why did it hurt so much when she was gone for good? But I think it's also what you said about him missing the mom he wishes he could have had. Maybe while she was alive he always had a hope that she would get better and she would come clean, and so when she died he lost all that hope too. I think it's definitely meant to be an angry song, and it's the first time he really put all his emotions about his mom into a song and so you get all of the anger and the sadness and the confusion mixed up together which makes sense if you think about how he's finally getting out 5 years of these emotions. He did say in an interview that his perspective has changed since this song and when he listens to it back he knows that's not how he feels anymore.
Seeing the different perspectives from children or family members that suffer from addiction is really interesting. My mother was an addict my whole life and recently passed away. I never really felt any anger towards her and I always tried to make sure she knew that I wasn’t angry and always tried to prevent her from feeling more guilty than she always did. Whereas my sister was the complete opposite. She was always angry and always put the blame of her own addiction onto our mother
Glad your back man
Thank you 😊 Good to be back!
so touching for an excellent video
Happy to see you back. Hope you're doing well!
NF's song "Nate" from The Search explains a little more about his relationship with his mother.
I think someone else mentioned it but I watched an interview with NF where he said now that he's older, he looks at the situation with his mother differently.
Thanks for your reaction!
Missed you, glad to see you're doing well.
Thank u. Missed you all too!
I’m glad you’re back! Hope everything is okay and I’m excited to see what you post in the future too :)
Thank you sooo much! It’s great to be back 😊
“Without silence, you can’t have sound”
This was brilliant
This song is an old song. He mentioned in a recent interview that his prospective of his mother's death has changed, because he didn't know what she was going through.
I’m not crying....
You’re crying!
Hey, you're back, I'm so glad, I'll start watching now xD
It’s good to be back 😊 thanks for sticking around
Love you man
Love you too! Thanks for sticking around
So glad you are back, I was starting to think we wouldnt get video til the school year ended.
Edit: the deafening silence of your spacebar caught me so off guard.
I knew this was a sombre one so I thought it appropriate to keep the spacebar at bay 😊
It’s the one I’ve been waiting for...and I’ve been worried so this is a nice surprise
Ooooh I made it into the intro!!!!!!!! ❤️
Yesssss!!
as a man i cried like a baby hearing this song the first time. Really hit way to close to home.
great to see you back, looking forward to the upcomming reactions;)
Thank you!!
Heyy, Mike is back! Welcome back my guy
Thanks!!!! Good to be back 😊
A death of a loved one is like having a piece of your heart ripped out of you, it is violent , painful, messy, devastating and a nightmare that you keep thinking you’ll eventually wake up from. You walk around numb wondering why life hasn’t stopped, why people seem to be going about their lives as if everything is normal while yours has stopped leaving you broken. No matter the cause of death, when someone you love dies, you will never be the same, that place in your heart now ripped apart can never be whole, the sad emptiness and devastating scares will always be there. You will never be the same. Now add the stages of grief which everyone eventually goes through and yes, you have to go through them all, anger will hit you, anger at yourself, your loved one, other people, even God! You have to go through these stages to heal. Getting angry is healthy as long as you don’t stay there. Moving through the stages…moving forward is key. Nate was very brave to release this song. He could have kept it to himself, not letting us hear him in a very desperate, agonizingly vulnerable place. That would have been understandable, yet his value of Real Music and being true to himself won out.
It’s important not to judge people in their pain, everyone is different and the timeline it takes to process the pain of death and how people choose to process it is ver personal. Watching/hearing someone in their process can be very uncomfortable, especially if you can’t relate to it. I think Nathan did this amazing brave thing to release this song and to show us this side of him. Seeing all the comments where it’s helping people who relate as an addict and a person abused by someone who was addicted is incredible. Emotional, mental and physical neglect is abuse. It doesn’t matter if the abuser can help it or not. Abuse is abuse. He loved his mother despite the abuse and add death on top of that, leaves a lot to unpack and process. NF working through this in his music has undoubtedly helped others. I am proud of him.
Your back
I am!!
Wow, that was worth the 78 day wait, not that I was counting... I really do enjoy these reactionalysis(es?). I hope you are doing well during all this. Australia seems to have gotten the virus under control, but where I live in Illinois we get as many cases as Australia has had total in two days (yikes!)
Yes we have been very lucky here! So sorry to hear that things arent too good where you are. Thank you soo much for watching and for sticking around during the time I was away
My parents used to smoke but they got over it easy. People with that type of experience don’t realize how hard real addictions can be. It’s good that you said that So people know. 👍
Usually people quit when Doctor gives them ultimatum, quit smoking or die from some smoking related disease in next 5 years.
Scrolling through recommended, and found this, haven't started watching yet, but already know it'll be good :)
Hope you enjoy!
@@TheMuserResolute man you're quick, enjoying it right now, as always. Appreciate the reply heaps :)
Always!!! Take care 🙂
I feel like he's just expressing his emotions. you can be an adult and understand these thing but at the end of the day you're human and u just cnt help feeling the way u feel. He talks in his other songs tht this is his therapy nd he needs to fully be true to himself nd express how he feels so he can move forward
I love that you're back! I agree with what you say about him blaming her. He has talked about that in an interview once, he changed his view. Back then her death was more recent, so he still was hurt more. (She died when he was 18 and therapy Session was released when he was 25). A couple of years later he said that he changed his view and has less anger towards her and understands what she went through. Love the video as usual! Hope you're back for a while
All the crying and the soliloquy was taped when he was alone in the studio he turned out all the lights and just thought about her. She lost custody because her addiction didn't allow her to see that his boyfriend beat Nate really badly.
I finally watched this video. I'm a HUGE NF fan--have been since the Moments album, but I purposely avoid this song. As a recovering alcoholic/addict (14 years clean and sober) I always tend to feel incredibly defensive and maybe a little bit resentful at not only the emotions that fuel this song, but at the public response to it as well. Addiction is an insidious demon. I got really lucky and am somehow still alive. But I've lost track of how many of my friends in recovery did not make it. That does not mean that they didn't fight.
You are the first person that I have heard who has said publicly that they disagree with some of the lines in this song, and I cannot even begin to express how much I appreciated seeing that.
Thanks so much for watching. This was an interesting one for me to do. The hype surrounding this from fans no doubt built up the expectations. As you can tell, my
Views on this struck a nerve with some, and I do understand that. It’s a very very touchy and sensitive subject. Hope you’re doing well
Welcome back
Good to be back 🙂
My eyes popped when I saw this vid in my recommendations. Mike, I've missed you!! I kinda feel bad THIS is the song you come back to. It's heavy.
As he has grown older, his perspective has matured, too; I hope that helps. It is very complex.
Great breakdown.
Thank you soo much!!! Also, thank you for sticking around :)
Welcome back! Been waiting to hear from you again and glad to see that you're back. To help address some of your confusion as to the song, you're trying to apply logical thought to reasoning/thoughts derived from (almost) pure emotion. The song is structured in a way that shows him trying to get through the 5 stages of grief although he only manages to get through pain, depression, and anger. Also, his approach is mostly that of the perspective of a child trying to understand why his mother wasn't there (and being a mother) but rather was lost in the pills, not to mention trying to understand *why* his mother even got addicted in the first place (or rather, why she ever took them to begin with/allowed them to get her addicted). I don't think the anger is towards his mother over her addiction but rather at the addiction's hold on her, how it had power/sway over her.
I don't think the anger is aimed at his mother but rather what the addiction (and life) had robbed him of (which was his mother) and since his mother was the "centerpiece" of his angst (or rather her lack of presence), that is where the anger just happens to be directed. It was/is something that he's still struggling with. When he says "I wish you were here", he's referring to his mother being there in his life as a mother. No matter how angry he gets, she's still his mother so he still loves her and wanted her to be a part of his life and it's the mother he never really had (due to the addiction) that he wanted. It's anger at the loss of "what could have been" rather than anger at what happened. Hard to explain it really... As for his line "why do I feel like i lost something I never had", what he's referring to is actually that lost potential relationship. When she died, that actually killed any and all hope and potential of an actual relationship that *could have been* between them. He's not referring to the loss of a mother that was addicted but rather the mother that "could have been" had she not been addicted. In other words, the anger in the song isn't so much directed at his mother but rather at the *loss* of the mother/son relationship that *could* have been had it not been for the addiction that kept them from ever having/building that relationship.
The title itself can be a clue this because by saying "How could you leave us" followed by the actual content of the song, he's actually asking how could you leave before we could ever have/build that relationship? How could you leave before we could set things right? How could you leave before we could finally have a genuine chance at a relationship rather than essentially being strangers due to the addiction? So... In other words, he's lamenting at the loss of the potential mother he never had and is lashing out in anger at the situation/events themselves rather than at his mother (though it sounds that way). At the end, if you're paying attention and putting it all together, you'll realize that what he's talking about is what could have been but will never happen now since she died from the pills. Not to mention that the anger towards the addiction because it not only took his mother away when he needed her most (growing up) but then they turned around and killed her which prevents any kind of reconciliation and recovery of any potential relationship between them. The anger is actually directed at the addiction, the pills, and the parts of her that those things had a hold over rather than at the "mother" part of his mother. The evidence for this is the anger in the verses and yet the sorrowful crying in the chorus. There were two sides of his mother and he's talking to both of them... The verses (anger) were directed at the addict part of his mother while the chorus (and the end) were directed at the "mother" part of his mother (the part that was smiling, happy, loving, and that was there for her children when she was in control rather than when the addiction was in control).
I'm not sure if I explained myself well but I hope this helps clarify/clear up some of the confusion and allows you to better piece the whole thing together in a way that makes more sense to you (especially the parts that *seem* contradictory but actually aren't).
Thank you sooo much!! This was great to read and definitely opened it up for me more. I appreciate you taking the time to watch and comment 😊
@@TheMuserResolute Aww... Had to fix a format issue and lost the heart you put on it D= ... oh well lmao.
No problem, I'm glad it helped you better understand where he was coming from (I honestly connect to this deeply because my father was an addict, extremely abusive, and neglectful). Just wish I was better at expressing my thoughts in a cleaner and more concise manner though as it does drag on a bit x_x. However, I am happy that it helped you understand where he was coming from, what he meant by certain lines, etc. I have a hard time with this song because on the one hand, it's an extremely good, emotional song but on the other... It can bring up painful memories if I'm not careful. Looking forward to your continuation of "The Journey"... Honestly can't wait until you hit Perception album's songs, particularly Outro, Intro III, Outcast, Green Lights, and (the best song of them, imo) Remember This. Then finally to The Search... He only gets better and better and better (in all areas).
Thank you for this video. I understand what you mean about the disease. Anger always covers pain. It is a defense we use. Think about any time you have been angry and you will see. He was writing as the son of a drug addict that died. He is all ages as he writes it. At least that is how I hear it. The music part of your analysis was great. You make me love the art work of music even more.
Awww thank you so much for your kind comment and for watching 💕💕
This Song is the Most beautiful Piece of Art ever been made...
And Welcome back !
It’s good to be back! Thanks so much for sticking around 😊
You have NO idea how excited I was when I saw you uploaded a reaction video! I told ya Billie brought me to your channel but I didn’t care who or what song your first reaction back would be that I would watch all the way through...and that’s just what I did. I’m going to keep this light-hearted but THANK YOU for returning.
Ps. Your response to the neighbors car backing out was one example of what I have missed about you - love ya and look forward to more reactions!! 💚
Awww thank u so much. I really appreciate your support!! You’re amazing 💕💕 #garagelife
Yay!
We missed you!!!!
Missed you too!
I think there’s sometimes a misunderstanding about anger towards an addict. People think it’s not fair to hate someone with that disease. But, at least for me personally, there are SO MANY feelings to deal with when you begin to try to work through your issues with the situation. I usually hate this analogy, but it’s like peeling an onion, and anger is one of the easier emotions to peel away first because it’s directed at someone else. Even as an adult, you have to peel that anger away before you can start to work on the more introspective emotions like pain and fear. Those are so much harder to handle.
The thing I love about NF is that he’s not afraid to bring us with him as he works through all of the things in his life. He is letting us experience his anger and pain, which might be considered as childish, but as he works through things over the years, his perspective and feelings change. He’s more recently said that he remembers his mom differently now, from a place of grace and forgiveness. His journey is a beautiful, inspiring one, and it’s made even more beautiful by how honest he’s been willing to be since the beginning.
LOVE your reactions! I always enjoy seeing my favorite music through the eyes of someone who can appreciate all of the elements of the music and break it down so well. Thank you!
I'm pretty sure the majority of us requested your reaction to the song because we just wanted to know if you were gonna cry like a big old baby like we did!!!! 😭😭😭😂😂😂
Great video!
In mansion he said one of his biggest regrets is that he didn’t call his mom when he was about to lose her and in the end of this song he said things that were out of control and the fact that he mentioned that he wished would of called her is just amazing how NF really does put his life out into songs and means it
addicted to the spacebar sound, all you have to do is smash it but you never did. Welcome back
😂 Thanks!! Thought i'd be a little more sensitive with this song
I love watching your videos
Awww thank you 😊
@@TheMuserResolute of course!! Please keep making these videos!
I finally finished my cross country move and am happy to be able to get back onto your NF journey!
Thanks 😊 hope the move was good! I haven’t posted for a while as I myself have moved so hoping to get some new NF content out soon 🙂