I saw this in march '22 and I said to myself: give it time, you know, I'll be better. and now is end of June and I came here again and saw this comment again and I said to myself: yes. I did, and it worked. so thank you, love
how is it summer? it feels like there is nothing going on. i’m fading into the background an sitting in my room doing nothing talking to no one. my thoughts are filling my head and they are the only company i have. things i used to love bring me no joy anymore. i’m losing myself into an endless void of nothingness forever.
Would I be able to speak after a stiff drink? Would it break my panic? Would the sweat stop pouring out? Slow and deliberate with her words She'll walk through my heart Those eyes light a fire in my stomach Fall apart from the inside out
Just 17 hours ago my girlfriend, with whom I had not spoken for almost a week since she did not answer me, told me that she was trying to "reunite with her mother" that is to say commit suicide, she is well admitted to a hospital and with therapy but it is inevitable to feel that she could have noticed that she was wrong and help her in any way, even if it was with a hug and a few words of encouragement as I did a long time ago, this song is the first one that I taught her that I really liked and now I can't stop listening to it, I love you Kharina and I want you to smile again
praying for you and her. i know how that was for you, i have been here before. i lost my best friend to suicide 6 months ago because he wanted to be with his mother who passed from cancer. the last thing he told me was that he loved me. i never cried more for a person that’s for sure. i miss him more and more every single day. the only thing i can reslly say is that things get better for you. it will be a hard while but hopefully it happens.
@@CHIPSPINNING911 hey kid I understand I’m in 8th grade I’m 15 years old listen to me no matter how hard things get please never kill yourself your too young to be having these type of thoughts man your parents raised you and even cared enough to have you man you don’t need anyone to make you happy you just need yourself and your parents or whoever you have that cares bout you trust me things will get better eventually one day
@thebirdofmomogon I mean no harm but I'm suprised, 2nd grade? I was still happy and innocent then, I'm in 8th grade now, I hope your doing better now bud
@@solekeeper yeah 2 grade... I got accually bullied a bit too idk if i said it. It was these boys who always told me names and wanted me to say ,,funny" things I couldn't even understand at that age and they kinda hit me. They should be 6 graders then but they needed to do 3 and 4 class 2 times. I was kind of happy because I couldn't understand it ALL but I wasn't really ok too...my mom had cancer, dad left me (he was abusive) and aunt took care of Me and if she didn't there was this paid babysitter who was an b word because she stole my food and didn't took care of me... because she absolutely didn't care about me but the money ofc. Yeah I wasn't successful if I wasn't getting bullied and I never really had an chance getting an girl since 6 grade (cause I think that 12 is an good age to get and learn about the first relationship) and I never witnessed love from an stranger. Shure I have good live experience too (like getting an amazing male friend once and he still is my friend) but the bad things just outweigh it. Like 1-2 years after I started puberty (10-11) I felt sad somehow. It got worse and worse until I couldn't smile a day. What made all worse is my pet dieing due to pure unlucky in the same month. At that point I got extremely sad, lost hope for everything after an week and my grades dropped to c, d and f. I wasn't that suicidal at that time because I was just an kid... but I was sad and wanted to escape it sometimes. after like 13 months it got slowly better and now I'm like happy enough to live preatty normal but... idk if I just know pessimistic and bad girls or if I'm just an ugly guy. Probably both of them. I just have an emotional wound from that and it made my personality somewhat child like sometimes and somewhat very adult like (for my age 13) sometimes. Well I dont wanna go back to the bad old times so I just gotta stop writing... I also need to go to school soon so cya buddy
I just want to say that I myself am not going through a good time rn and come to this song for comfort. If you’re here rn just know that unlike my situation everything will be ok, you will be ok. You deserve the most. Remember to always treat people with respect no matter how comfortable you are with them or how disrespectful they might be with you just treat them with the most amount of respect. If you’re here then you’re in my situation, you’re grieving or in mental pain but just know that though I might not know you I’m here for you, I will always be here for you.
i wanna stop feeling so lonely, i want someone to just love me for once, i want to hold someones hand or hug someone, i want to feel what a kiss would feel like, i just want to feel happiness
This song brings a bad past but a future of light. Letting go is the key and regret is the locked door. The salty tears fall from your face but after you wipe them away, they don't seem so salty anymore. The dark never lasts as a sun always rises at some point even if you can't see it, the warmth of it on your body holding close yet gently will never fade. Chasing butterflies you'll never catch but create a beautiful flower and the butterflies come to you, if they don't you still have that beautiful flower. Lastly no matter how you look, I'll always say your beautiful without lying about a single word.
Pov: you’re slowly falling in love with a friend you made a work during the summer. You both would just say little things here and there at work, and would often close and laugh with your other coworkers until one day after a few months of working together you finally hang out after work hours and had a lot of fun but it wasn’t just the two of you, you also had your other coworkers with you.. You both talked while the others were preoccupied and ended up getting them to open up to you.. and you didn’t realize it then, but thats when you began to like them a lot… You both start to hang out almost everyday now and you always go out for walks and talk about experiences and joke with each other and sometimes even go get food or dessert. One day you go to the movies with them, and there was so much tension between the both of you because you had teased them and talked about holding hands and so you first lean on their shoulder then work your way to holding their hand.. You end up in each other’s arms and you feel something was wrong you ask them and they tell you.. “. …. …” that 3 word sentence leaves you shocked you let go, you aren’t sure why but you’re sad because you weren’t ready to hear those words.. You just want them to be true.. and genuine.. The movie ends. and then they end up coming home with you and it is still awkward but now there’s tension because you know that they have feelings.. One day after that you decide to set up a day to go hiking with them but it was too muddy to you end up at their house.. You hadn’t expected what to think when you got there cause they had normally gone to your house.. their room was more spacious, comfortable and calm compared to your home.. It was awkward at first because the last time you were with them was the movies, but you played games at their house.. but you barely tried.. Then when you both are in their room, you both are sitting down and end up talking and then you get them to close their eyes and you end up holding each other and they pick you up and pin you.. but you get fluster and nothing happens. but now you’re on their bed and you somehow end up on top of them... And you both talked about whatever and you get them to close their eyes. They knew what you were about to do so they closed their eyes.. and then you hold their face and put your lips on theirs.. Now they don’t want to let go of you and you both are holding each other and kissing each other because you both know the other has feelings.. After that they told you about how they enjoyed the time they spent with you that day and you end up talking more and more and hanging out a few more times together, “dates” if you will. And now after a long time of talking you decided to just make it official so now.. You both are happy and become a couple.. But the only problem is they have to go away for two months in a week… You both become sad.. But they invite you over so you can make memories to remember and take pictures together while you can.. and enjoy the little moment together both good and bad.. But your home life isn’t the greatest though.. so during those days during the week something goes on at home and you get hurt really bad and are in shock.. Cops get called but its not a bloody mess.. They were on the phone with you before it happened but you had to hang up.. So after it was over with.. You tell them about it.. They become worried and tell you to come over for the rest of the day to save you from being around ‘them’.. This day is the final day before they leave for two months, so you try to cheer up and enjoy the day even though you are really sad.. You both promise to message daily and keep in touch and after that was said you both watch a show together and grab some food and cuddle up close and afterwards decide to go for a walk like you both normally would and talk some more and hold hands and you just don’t think about anything else besides that person.. You both end up walking towards an arch and they pull you towards it and you both get under it and they put their hands on your face and begin to kiss you and you both giggle and you tell them how cute that was for doing that.. but deep down it was really romantic and you just wanted the day and that moment to last forever.. You both walk until it gets really late and continue to hold hands and they stop and begin to hold you tightly because it would probably be the last time they could hold you.. and it was, and you both arrived back at their house and had to go home.. Now you are leaving and start to become very sad, you text but you are still sad.. you wished you had longer to spend with them.. They are leaving in two days.. and those two days go by quickly and now they are overseas for two months.. You both are now 7 hours apart in time and are still trying to make it work.. You both yearn for the other until you are reunited and are still keeping in touch and calling. And patiently awaiting for the day when you can see them once again.. Fin.
This song brings me peace while I pray. I may not be going through the best times rn maybe even the hardest. I know God has my back and he wants me to be stronger from this situation he is putting me in. I’ve worked so hard in basketball just to always be looked down on and always be taken as a joke. I’m always left out from everything and people always make fun of me. I just wish this work would pay off because I feel like I’ve put so much time and effort in basketball. I hope everyone here is doing great and I hope you all succeed with your dream. Remember don’t let anyone tell you that you can’t do it. Remember why God created you, you have a job to finish.
same situation my dude, i guess that was a lesson to not give a sh*t about what people are saying , you are doing great man , dont give up on basketball just because of them, keep going my dude ,god bless you
This song reminded me of something that I completely forgot about. It hurts so much remembering what I nearly did, but I think it's important to acknowledge it to be able to let go of it for good.
We'll have it hard and this helps let it go, I hope you're doing better now. Everyone let's go at some point and if you don't you'll never live your life with joy. I hope you let go and feel better now
I think it’s sounds like nothingness, and in return it feels numbing- Not just from pain but from desire. A lot of gloomy sounding music makes you dwell in a particular state of sadness but Duster allows you to feel simplistically despite being depressed etc.
It's called maturing. As a kid you didn't know much and you didn't experience as much bullshit as you do when you grow up. As time passes, you start to experience more things like stress, and it's moments like those where you begin to slowly mature and grow out if your childhood phase
@@hippityhoppitygimmeyourpro8735 that means i matured at 10....because that was when life got boring and basically felt like it was pointless. Although it has been nearly 8 years of self reflection coming to terms and findimg what i loved doing.
I have been a duster fan since September 2021. I found their music thru CZcams, this was the first song I ever listened to by them. I know it’s their most popular song, but it still holds a special place in my heart. Other bands have come and gone, but mitski, the smiths, and duster have always stayed my favorite. Glory to duster💛💚💙
parents: what was that loud thud in your room? me: lying on the ground lifeless with this playing from my tv, my phone in my right hand showing all the people i texted goodbye to and/ or speaking my mind about the people i hate and talking about all my regrets and decisions and a gun in my left hand with my index finger still in the trigger guard, all the meaningful things i’ve collected through the years surrounding my body, and my head pouring blood from the top and bottom of my completely mangled head
The feeling when you’ve been crying for so long there’s a lump in your throat, your eyes are red and puffy, you sound high pitched and wobbly.. your clothes are soaked in tears.. and you feel like shit.
one time I listened to abt 8 hours out of a 10 hour video of Dance Monkey to see if I liked it, I hated that song idk why I kept listening to it over and over again on repeat, but I like this song, this song is nice-
life is hard, i want to end it all. but i still want to enjoy these moments while it lasts, no one will see this but i hope you're doing well, if you're not i hope you enjoyed this song atleast.
This song feels like when life gets too real. Like not when you’re happy like when you can just feel the gravity of the world. Like you can feel your face and the emotions plastered on it. Like you can empathize for strangers who didn’t even say a word do you. Like you can just feel the emotion radiating from your hands when you look at them. You can feel even and feel like you exist but at the same time feel like nothing.
I wish could’ve said goodbye to him. I wonder if he thought about me, how I was or what I was doing. I cut contact and yet I still miss him like a little kid, I always have. I miss him so much
This song is the bittersweet memory of someone that you once knew but don’t remember you remember that they were nice…at times you remember they hurt you remember they were going you couldn’t understand at the moment you wanted to but now matter what you weren’t enough to be there for them you were a one use sponge the water was all soaked up…now no matter what they need another one and they won’t be back for you so stop telling yourself they miss you to the sad truth is…they dont
Honestly I don't really prefer this type of genre, I think it's boring to be frank and I usually listen to fast-paced and loud type of songs. But whenever it's night, I somehow find myself wanting to listen to this song and I do, it sounds desolate yet it just calms me down for some reason.
cant believe that i come onto youtube to express my feelings because my irl friends cant see what i say or type but im honestly just done with feelings, like why do i have to get sad :/ or when every girl i talk to never get passed talking stage, took this one girl on a date and i really tried hard to make it the best first date and the date went well had food went bowling, walked around the mall, went to the beach payed for everything (dont care about the money), bought her flowers even held hands as we watched the sunset go down talked for hours moral of the story is that sometimes even trying ur hardest you still wont get what you want, but god will give me what i need.. i know it.
just listen to this song to vent lol,I just wanna runaway while hearing this on the background!!!! Just found out my dad did, my sister told me why she got pregnant and why she wanted to leave the house , now I understand everything, now I feel so alone I don’t know what to do anymore I just want to be loved for once , im So lost/confused , I just want to feel happy , now I can’t forget all the words I can’t even move I’m so hurt , I’m not ashamed anymore of expressing my feelings I’m actually so tired of everything … my “friends” I can believe I let them treat me that way I can’t believe it , my own brother I just wanna know why he HATES me so much , what have I do wrong I just don’t understand …
well.. if it makes you feel better. [ me and my mom grew up to be best friends, she was a single mom with me and my two sisters. She always was the cool young mom but my mom had drinking problems. the further years, I began doing pills.. I had my problems, she had hers, so we bumped heads a lot. and bump heads aren't snarky comments. Im talking, screaming, breaking things, threats, and so on.. so she kicked me out for my addiction, she said to drove me insane. she received heart surgery so she was in and out of the hospital, mind you.. still drinking. I was at my friends house for a couple days.. he made me become sober, a week passed, I found a job.. but no word from my mom. I was told she was at the hospital. I began doing pills that night again. then they told me she was critical condition.. and not responding. they pronounced her dead. I felt as if my heart was ripped form my chest. as if, it just all went away. .. I felt empty, I questioned everything. ive stayed here for the last two weeks she was on earth, holding these grudges when I could have said goodbye.. to my bestfriend. To the woman who played water nerf guns with me when I was nine To the woman who fed me crispy tacos, my favorite dinner when I was 12 To the woman who told me that one day id become something great. because I was her son.] -Not my story.. I was the friend. he stayed at my house and him and grew up together since the second grade.. She was the coolest mom, and her crispy tacos were the best. She was a proud mom.. and I know the earth will miss her fire. ❤️🔥 may she Rest In Peace. 5/14/22 P
I'm sorry and I understand, the feeling no one loves you, you're alone, I thought that for awhile, but then she came into my life made me feel loved, you just gotta wait for the right person trust me
@@alexareyes2655 You're loved, and there is so much ahead of you. There are ao many people who won't leave, there are so many people who are gonna love you forever, and be with you forever. I don't know if you believe in Anything---but if you do just remember that you always got your Angels, and God, right by your side.
my whole life i’ve ran away from everything. i’ve ran from girls I liked myself, i’ve ran from schools, ive ran from my own friends, i’ve ran from chances to tell her how i feel, ive ran from chances to hangout with my closest and best friends, ive ran from grades, ive ran from my own poor handwriting and english. I get good grades in almost every period but i somehow get a c in math when i try my hardest i swear i try to understand what im looking at and i try my hardest to answer the questions but i always get a 60 or a 65 on any test i take and i feel like i don’t deserve living just because of a letter grade and it fucking sucks. i hate having good grades and being the “smart friend” because i feel to prideful and i feel to mature for myself and i feel i’m missing out on my own childhood because i’m hanging out with more adults in my life then i am kids my own age and i hate it. I like this one girl and i have her snapchat and everything but i don’t know how to tell her because i just met here at the end of the school year and we just started talking and i realized we had a lot in common and i started to like her even more but i can’t visit her because i got fucking covid on the last day of school and i hate it. I feel like i don’t fit in with the rest of my friends because my friends are troublemakers, and so called “hooligans”, but i am a good kid and i don’t like being a good kid i want to be a troublemaker because at least troublemakers have some type of freedom to do what they want and not care if they get into trouble but i have to constantly worry if a teacher is around the coroner and i hate it. Thanks for reading btw this took long time to write and a lot of emotion expressing. ❤️💙
Yk I really love you I always used to be afraid and scared and felt alone but then I became stupid and started running away although yes the freedom was amazing it just made me feel worse once I was back in the house I called my "home" and yk that girl you should Really ask her it's a scary job, yes it is but if she says yes or no you are still very brave I hope you feel better because I can do nothing but mssg u although I would hug you I hope everything turns out better for you I love you Very much
dang this makes me realize what one of my best friends is going threw smart 90's in every class all of my friends which are his friends are trouble makers and hooligans but he always has a smile and a joyful tone to his speech but I wonder if hes ok.
Hey look if anyone is going through a rough time, look it might not be much coming from a stranger on the internet but im here to tell you im here for you and to let you know im proud of you and hope the best for you and to never give up becuse i want you to know that there is someone that cares for you stay strong and keep going ❤
i just wish i could be a better friend. i'm jealous when you vent to others and not to me. that's my fault, and i know, please give me other time. i know you're patient, but please, i'm so scared of losing you. give me time and we'll be twin souls, like you and the other friend of yours.
Is it spring already?! Man how time flies huh? Anyways, I'm just glad your all here with me, we may not know eachother, in fact every one of you are strangers, but I feel like I've known you all my life. Thank you for being here with me everyone, even though you have your own struggles and problems, you still read this comment, you don't know me, I don't know you. You did it because you were interested And that makes you human It'll be okay I promise...
I’ve always been pushed to be happy. I don’t cry , i cry and laugh for some reason. I could never cry when I was young my parents always made me look happy but I wasn’t, I was broken of how fake my life was and now I just sit in my room and think how much of a disappointment I am. I can’t take it anymore , i don’t know how much longer I can do it.
i got 2 ways of feeling numb one bad and the other is good, bad: while being bored and uncomfortable and mentaly and physically tired, good: listening to duster
I can’t wait to become a statistic. All my life I have either been forgotten or ignored, no one even wants to try with me anymore. I was picked on for being different, tried to suppress it, stopped talking entirely. I have tried everything to fit in, crying myself to sleep on what feels like a daily basis, thinking what could I have done differently, but I was broken to begin with. I can’t tell anyone (cause who’d want to listen!), I can’t even talk to my boss without over stressing beforehand because I don’t want to be a burden. I have 6 more months in me. I’m sorry
We're here for you man. Life isn't easy. I've been backstabbed, rejected, beaten up. Yet there is still light at the end of the tunnel. Stay strong homie
I thought you were my person. Why did you stop responding? How come you never text first? When did you become so distant? Did I do something wrong? Why don't you care? How come you never talk about me like you do the others? Has it always been like this? Did I imagine that we had something special? Why are you doing this to me? What did I do to deserve this? I hate you so much for making me feel this way. I hate you for being all there for me and leaving just as quickly. I wish I never gave you this place in my life, in my heart. I hate you so so much. I just wish you would want to talk to me. Tell me about your day. I love you. Tell me whats wrong. What changed?
I’m not sure what I need to journal or tell myself to get better. Sometimes I feel incapacitated by the flow of time. Sometimes I get so caught up in analyzations that all there is are analyzations, and so I become devoid of the moments and the truest feelings, of both time and and myself. Without any outward connections, I spiral back into myself unexpressed. The conundrum is I can’t be myself unless I feel very comfortable to do so. I used to be myself with Alex and Ryan. I’d be loving, goofy, sarcastic, passionate and thoughtful and I would share all these qualities and be met with laughter, acknowledgment, appreciation- even when I would be met with minimal silence I would be content 😢and when I would be met with playful animosity by Ryan we’d joke and riff with rapport and when I would be met with questions by Alex I’d share all the embarrassing and vulnerable feelings I usually kept vaulted, and by doing so I make honest and deep-seated connections with him and relate and come to understand some of his feelings too. I am going to rediscover more and better relationships like these, authentic relationships where I can express my truest and changing form of self, and in which I cannot come to genuinely understand and trust my friends. I love these relationships and so I’m going to create them and make more harmonious dynamics in my life. ❤️
hey there. yes, you. i may not know what you’re going through, or what you’ve been through, but i do know this. it’s going to get better. you’re going to get through this. someone once said, “when you hit rock bottom, there’s nowhere else to go but up,” right? so keep your chin up, you’re doing great. i believe in you.
i don’t even know what to do with my life anymore. nothing good had happened in so long i feel like i’m at my lowest point rn. i lost my best friend and everyone of my friends dropped me. my grandparents are sick and my pets aren’t even doing the best. my grades are horrible and my parents are fighting, as for my siblings, i haven’t even talked to them in forever. i don’t know what to do, like where does it get any better than this. i just want to rest. i cant even do this anymore, life sucks.
ive felt like that before happens to many people you are not the only one stay strong you can find happines just hold on dont bring yourself down life will get better
Every next chord my head cuts to another sad moment in my life, like a sad home movie. But if anyone is reading this, no matter what, always try to be grateful for what you have because it could always be worse
Y’all its fucking hard… I feel it, you feel it, we all feel it at some point. Please keep going, please continue living, find any reason you can to make it to see the sun shine down on you.
Its funny just 5 months ago i was looking at the trees thinking where'd I'd be in 5 months not knowing I'd be in the greatesy relationship I've ever been in. Whilst having the worst mental health I've ever had
feeling unwanted by everyone i want, will i ever break the cycle life hasn’t been unfulfilling the last couple years and i don’t think i could ever fill this void
I came to realization that my best friend might be gone. The last time he texted me, he was filledwith anger. He has never been that mad before. He has never not respond to me for a long period. He alway apologizes for taking 10+ minutes for him to reply. This isn't like him and im very worried. I miss my BFF, my little boy, my rain, my first love. This was the first song that came into mind when I started to cry and wanted to listen to a song. Hopefully my best friend Is okay and safe. Idk if he's gone because of how I made him feel or he's just not okay. I hope I didn't hurt him emotionally, I didn't say anything rude but idk. I hope he's emotionally and physically okay and safe. His homeboy said he's most likely alright but that's bc they always don't don't for a very long time and alwas reconnect but he never done that to me. I'm scared. I won't be that mad if he finally reply with "I'm rlly sorry...", I'm just glad that he's okay and safe.
God takes people out of your life for a reason. And he never closes a door without opening another one. He probably knew those people Better then you and wanted to have your back.
In the end it was just an illusion that I create my head, but he never told me the truth, he just pretended and made me feel insufficient, I don't forgive you but I can't leave you..
I ask my friend “how do you know she likes me?” He says its inherently obvious, so of coarse I get him to tell her I like her and she says no, like bro she fucking cuddled me and complemented me and almost kissed me, I thought those would be healthy signs for a new relationship but no of coarse not, nothing ever good happens for me cause that’s just how my life is, just fucking sadness, fake smiles and rejection, I never got a girlfriend before and the two times I try of coarse the answer is fucking no, cause of course no one is gonna love me like I love them that’s just how this fucking world is for me, just aimlessly chasing my dreams thinking one day I’ll catch them. Fuck, well hey thanks for reading this abomination of text.
It’s been a couple nights, I haven’t been able to get much sleep. I’ve been thinking about this one specific person and she comes to me in my dreams. I’ve wanted her for so long and I know I will never have her. I have so many memories with her, she makes me so happy and now things just aren’t the same as they used to be. She comes to me in my dreams, the dreams are of me and her being happy. As anyone can imagine I don’t want to sleep. I can’t go on like this. I hope whoever reads this never has to go through missing someone as much as I do, I hope you all have your special person/significant other/lover and hold them very tight, remember that feeling and lock it in. I never wish for anyone to go through that pain.
im missing my grandma and my German Shepard she died this july not only that but my best friend shes everything to me shes a sister to me she practically raised me and told me right from wrong and has been there for me but a few days ago she told me she wanted space to herself its not that shes going through problems she just wants time to herself because the care and love i give her is out of the norm for her since she hasnt had anyone do so much for her she doesnt think its weird. I feel like im going to lose her as my best friend and it has me depressed and anxious for months now i feel threatened that she will have a better bond to someone else and leave me behind ive never been comfortable or safe around anyone else besides her i can tell her anything i treasure and protect our relationship/friendship with her so much i get jealous when she talks with other people i dont want to feel like that i dont want to be possessive. she texted me saying she will always still want to be my friend and she thinks of me as a brother but wants to make some adjustments to make a healthy friendship i understand her but i dont think she understands why i always check up on her and care for her thats the only thing im afraid of telling her. i already decided a date to end it i have 50 more days to try and spend as much time with her i wrote 2 goodbye letters already. i just want to get better
Interesting cerebral nonsense from one of the most intricate dreams I've had in a LONG time: (I played this while I slept, and am giving the poster credit for this. The band made me feel something so surreal I had to write about it) Context: I'm apparently an artist in the future, and I used a future technology to observe, and create a perfect scale model of our home, (looked more like the house from courage the cowardly dog) overgrown with tall grass from years of either apocalyptic nonsense, or just general disuse/mishandling. After finishing the piece, I'm stricken by visions I can't quite recall now, but I'm hit by a pang of guilt, and nostalgia. I suddenly know what I want to name the piece. I sit down, and complete the model by, almost as if signing it, write: "Late, but I made it home," in small print on a corner of the roof.
it’s getting bad again
real.
oh so everyones going through it
@@ZandalfBunt real.
Real
Real
just give it time.
Needed this.
It’s been 17 years
I saw this in march '22 and I said to myself: give it time, you know, I'll be better.
and now is end of June and I came here again and saw this comment again and I said to myself: yes. I did, and it worked.
so thank you, love
i needed this thank you man :,))
been waiting for it for over 12 years by now, still hoping things will get better eventually, hopefully I can hang on until then
how is it summer? it feels like there is nothing going on. i’m fading into the background an sitting in my room doing nothing talking to no one. my thoughts are filling my head and they are the only company i have. things i used to love bring me no joy anymore. i’m losing myself into an endless void of nothingness forever.
Feel that fr
go outside
go outside
cuz mama im a cridminal
Hey if you need anyone to talk/vent to i'm here for you. if you need my discord then just ask (:
Would I be able to speak after a stiff drink?
Would it break my panic?
Would the sweat stop pouring out?
Slow and deliberate with her words
She'll walk through my heart
Those eyes light a fire in my stomach
Fall apart from the inside out
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I don't know what to say but if your having a hard time I hope this one thing reaches you. ♡
Just 17 hours ago my girlfriend, with whom I had not spoken for almost a week since she did not answer me, told me that she was trying to "reunite with her mother" that is to say commit suicide, she is well admitted to a hospital and with therapy but it is inevitable to feel that she could have noticed that she was wrong and help her in any way, even if it was with a hug and a few words of encouragement as I did a long time ago, this song is the first one that I taught her that I really liked and now I can't stop listening to it, I love you Kharina and I want you to smile again
praying for you and her. i know how that was for you, i have been here before. i lost my best friend to suicide 6 months ago because he wanted to be with his mother who passed from cancer. the last thing he told me was that he loved me. i never cried more for a person that’s for sure. i miss him more and more every single day. the only thing i can reslly say is that things get better for you. it will be a hard while but hopefully it happens.
praying for you both. you’re so strong, keep pushing.
Hope you guys are getting better keep going king
how is she now?
i hope your okay and i hope she is okay aswell! im praying for you both
This song feels like being hollow, remembering what warmth felt like, and recognizing that the memory is slipping your grasp
I wanna end it sometimes. I have mentall problems since I'm in 2nd grade. Got bullied since then and i have adhd so...
@@CHIPSPINNING911 hey kid I understand I’m in 8th grade I’m 15 years old listen to me no matter how hard things get please never kill yourself your too young to be having these type of thoughts man your parents raised you and even cared enough to have you man you don’t need anyone to make you happy you just need yourself and your parents or whoever you have that cares bout you trust me things will get better eventually one day
@thebirdofmomogon I mean no harm but I'm suprised, 2nd grade? I was still happy and innocent then, I'm in 8th grade now, I hope your doing better now bud
@@solekeeper yeah 2 grade... I got accually bullied a bit too idk if i said it. It was these boys who always told me names and wanted me to say ,,funny" things I couldn't even understand at that age and they kinda hit me. They should be 6 graders then but they needed to do 3 and 4 class 2 times. I was kind of happy because I couldn't understand it ALL but I wasn't really ok too...my mom had cancer, dad left me (he was abusive) and aunt took care of Me and if she didn't there was this paid babysitter who was an b word because she stole my food and didn't took care of me... because she absolutely didn't care about me but the money ofc. Yeah I wasn't successful if I wasn't getting bullied and I never really had an chance getting an girl since 6 grade (cause I think that 12 is an good age to get and learn about the first relationship) and I never witnessed love from an stranger. Shure I have good live experience too (like getting an amazing male friend once and he still is my friend) but the bad things just outweigh it. Like 1-2 years after I started puberty (10-11) I felt sad somehow. It got worse and worse until I couldn't smile a day. What made all worse is my pet dieing due to pure unlucky in the same month. At that point I got extremely sad, lost hope for everything after an week and my grades dropped to c, d and f. I wasn't that suicidal at that time because I was just an kid... but I was sad and wanted to escape it sometimes. after like 13 months it got slowly better and now I'm like happy enough to live preatty normal but... idk if I just know pessimistic and bad girls or if I'm just an ugly guy. Probably both of them. I just have an emotional wound from that and it made my personality somewhat child like sometimes and somewhat very adult like (for my age 13) sometimes. Well I dont wanna go back to the bad old times so I just gotta stop writing... I also need to go to school soon so cya buddy
@@CHIPSPINNING911 I hope you get better I really do
I never realized how much I needed this
Mood
It's like a warm hug after a snowstorm or a cup of tea after a stressful day, it soothes the soul in a way most songs simply don't accomplish
When life treats you well but you're still sad.
I miss the good old days where I was happy all the time
Same
Yeah😊
Why can't we stay kids forever?
Same :(
Real
I just want to say that I myself am not going through a good time rn and come to this song for comfort. If you’re here rn just know that unlike my situation everything will be ok, you will be ok. You deserve the most. Remember to always treat people with respect no matter how comfortable you are with them or how disrespectful they might be with you just treat them with the most amount of respect. If you’re here then you’re in my situation, you’re grieving or in mental pain but just know that though I might not know you I’m here for you, I will always be here for you.
My comfort song aswell
that’s a note to yourself
@@ifernii in a way yeah
Ily bro
thanks bro
"Sometimes, carrying on -- just carrying on -- is the superhuman achievement." Albert Camus.
so real
“listening to depressing music is really damaging your mental health”
mental heath? who tf needs that?
It’s fixed mine honestly
This song makes me feel good 🥹👍
Whats the point if it comes back
Well to me, that's the point. I like psychological torture, only to myself though because I don't deserve to be happy.
i wanna stop feeling so lonely, i want someone to just love me for once, i want to hold someones hand or hug someone, i want to feel what a kiss would feel like, i just want to feel happiness
god i wish i could hug him more time, i wish he was still here.
It's the same with my dog he recently just passed away. I miss him so much 😭
I wish he hadn't need to leave so early
Im so sorry
This song brings a bad past but a future of light. Letting go is the key and regret is the locked door. The salty tears fall from your face but after you wipe them away, they don't seem so salty anymore. The dark never lasts as a sun always rises at some point even if you can't see it, the warmth of it on your body holding close yet gently will never fade. Chasing butterflies you'll never catch but create a beautiful flower and the butterflies come to you, if they don't you still have that beautiful flower. Lastly no matter how you look, I'll always say your beautiful without lying about a single word.
Doesn’t Matter How Long It May Take, You Will Bounce Back.
Thank you 🙏🏻💗
crying violently listening to this, thank you for making a hour long version
real
I agree and also, I hope you're doing okay!
@@DucksAreCute
I'm definitely not doing okay😀
@@jia1638 I'm sorry to hear!! I hope things get better for you
Me to im to sad its roblox a gyelfrend
This song made me cry in class.
just need a hug man.
ily
Ouch
🫂
*hugs*
fr i feel u
Pov: you’re slowly falling in love with a friend you made a work during the summer.
You both would just say little things here and there at work, and would often close and laugh with your other coworkers until one day after a few months of working together you finally hang out after work hours and had a lot of fun but it wasn’t just the two of you, you also had your other coworkers with you..
You both talked while the others were preoccupied and ended up getting them to open up to you.. and you didn’t realize it then, but thats when you began to like them a lot…
You both start to hang out almost everyday now and you always go out for walks and talk about experiences and joke with each other and sometimes even go get food or dessert.
One day you go to the movies with them, and there was so much tension between the both of you because you had teased them and talked about holding hands and so you first lean on their shoulder then work your way to holding their hand..
You end up in each other’s arms and you feel something was wrong you ask them and they tell you.. “. …. …” that 3 word sentence leaves you shocked you let go, you aren’t sure why but you’re sad because you weren’t ready to hear those words..
You just want them to be true.. and genuine.. The movie ends. and then they end up coming home with you and it is still awkward but now there’s tension because you know that they have feelings..
One day after that you decide to set up a day to go hiking with them but it was too muddy to you end up at their house..
You hadn’t expected what to think when you got there cause they had normally gone to your house.. their room was more spacious, comfortable and calm compared to your home..
It was awkward at first because the last time you were with them was the movies, but you played games at their house.. but you barely tried..
Then when you both are in their room, you both are sitting down and end up talking and then you get them to close their eyes and you end up holding each other and they pick you up and pin you.. but you get fluster and nothing happens. but now you’re on their bed and you somehow end up on top of them...
And you both talked about whatever and you get them to close their eyes. They knew what you were about to do so they closed their eyes.. and then you hold their face and put your lips on theirs..
Now they don’t want to let go of you and you both are holding each other and kissing each other because you both know the other has feelings..
After that they told you about how they enjoyed the time they spent with you that day and you end up talking more and more and hanging out a few more times together, “dates” if you will.
And now after a long time of talking you decided to just make it official so now..
You both are happy and become a couple..
But the only problem is they have to go away for two months in a week…
You both become sad.. But they invite you over so you can make memories to remember and take pictures together while you can.. and enjoy the little moment together both good and bad..
But your home life isn’t the greatest though.. so during those days during the week something goes on at home and you get hurt really bad and are in shock.. Cops get called but its not a bloody mess..
They were on the phone with you before it happened but you had to hang up.. So after it was over with.. You tell them about it.. They become worried and tell you to come over for the rest of the day to save you from being around ‘them’..
This day is the final day before they leave for two months, so you try to cheer up and enjoy the day even though you are really sad.. You both promise to message daily and keep in touch and after that was said you both watch a show together and grab some food and cuddle up close and afterwards decide to go for a walk like you both normally would and talk some more and hold hands and you just don’t think about anything else besides that person..
You both end up walking towards an arch and they pull you towards it and you both get under it and they put their hands on your face and begin to kiss you and you both giggle and you tell them how cute that was for doing that.. but deep down it was really romantic and you just wanted the day and that moment to last forever..
You both walk until it gets really late and continue to hold hands and they stop and begin to hold you tightly because it would probably be the last time they could hold you.. and it was, and you both arrived back at their house and had to go home..
Now you are leaving and start to become very sad, you text but you are still sad.. you wished you had longer to spend with them.. They are leaving in two days.. and those two days go by quickly and now they are overseas for two months..
You both are now 7 hours apart in time and are still trying to make it work..
You both yearn for the other until you are reunited and are still keeping in touch and calling.
And patiently awaiting for the day when you can see them once again..
Fin.
Lol
@@urielh3207 ??
@@urielh3207 bruh
Damn bro lovely story gl hope you have a secsessful relationship
This story made me happy
this song makes me feel like turning my light low and just bumping to it in my room alone. Such peace.
I’m not even halfway into my life and I already feel so connected with all these thoughts of memories being let go
This song brings me peace while I pray. I may not be going through the best times rn maybe even the hardest. I know God has my back and he wants me to be stronger from this situation he is putting me in. I’ve worked so hard in basketball just to always be looked down on and always be taken as a joke. I’m always left out from everything and people always make fun of me. I just wish this work would pay off because I feel like I’ve put so much time and effort in basketball. I hope everyone here is doing great and I hope you all succeed with your dream. Remember don’t let anyone tell you that you can’t do it. Remember why God created you, you have a job to finish.
same situation my dude, i guess that was a lesson to not give a sh*t about what people are saying , you are doing great man , dont give up on basketball just because of them, keep going my dude ,god bless you
@@wesqou6174 I appreciate that so much bro God bless.
Amen man 🙏🏽
so proud of you brandon. keep it up. i wish you the best as well. i love everyone who reads this, and i wish EVERYONE of you the best. :)
@@gen7467 Thank you
Reminds me of how beautiful his smile was and how hard it is for me to move on from his death..
Fake
@@athoms_08 how can my emotions and my dead friend be fake?
@@user-mj9gz7nz3i using it for clout bc your fake-O, bring it on mate
@@athoms_08 i literally dont care about fame or clout and im not even faking it i was venting in a comment.
@@athoms_08 the fuck is wrong with you???
This song reminded me of something that I completely forgot about. It hurts so much remembering what I nearly did, but I think it's important to acknowledge it to be able to let go of it for good.
We'll have it hard and this helps let it go, I hope you're doing better now. Everyone let's go at some point and if you don't you'll never live your life with joy. I hope you let go and feel better now
Did you try killing yourself lol
@@Luisruiz-bm5ie yes but luckily it didn't work so I can still annoy people B)
This song sounds like getting better after hitting rock bottom idk how to explain it
for real
Sounds like getting worse bro
@@Westbrick69 true
I think it’s sounds like nothingness, and in return it feels numbing- Not just from pain but from desire.
A lot of gloomy sounding music makes you dwell in a particular state of sadness but Duster allows you to feel simplistically despite being depressed etc.
for me it sounds like hitting rock bottom and accepting it, just endlessly sad and numb
I miss when I was happy, life for me was the best and now I dont even think I have a purpose
I get you..
When not even the moon loved them. Yet they still believed they could somehow, feel loved. Be loved, and finally be able to breathe.
Is this a quote from something?? If not that is the best sentence I've ever heard omg.
i love duster
This means so much to me u wouldn’t even imagine. Hearts to all the people that come back to this song and hear it ❤
One of my pillows still smelt like her so I burned it today. No negative energy in this house.
these manic episodes aren’t going away
love all of yall, truly. keep your head up bro, i will always have your back
i hit rock bottom like 5 times today bro
Rock bottom means you can only go up. Take your time to heal, "if you can make it through the night there's a brighter day." - Tupac
5? Rookie 😂😂😂
I hit rock bottom 8 times everyday😔
Need 10 hours of this
just do a playlistz of this song and thats it (btw I wanna kms so someone help me)
@@balinthorvath9175 real
why does the joy from my childhood disappear and make life feel bland and boring? i feel like i no longer have a purpose
i feel you
@@zroworld same
I dont even remember alot of my childhood just the good times with my friends and family
It's called maturing. As a kid you didn't know much and you didn't experience as much bullshit as you do when you grow up. As time passes, you start to experience more things like stress, and it's moments like those where you begin to slowly mature and grow out if your childhood phase
@@hippityhoppitygimmeyourpro8735 that means i matured at 10....because that was when life got boring and basically felt like it was pointless. Although it has been nearly 8 years of self reflection coming to terms and findimg what i loved doing.
me dormí con este video, me causa tristeza y me relaja a la vez
I have been a duster fan since September 2021. I found their music thru CZcams, this was the first song I ever listened to by them. I know it’s their most popular song, but it still holds a special place in my heart. Other bands have come and gone, but mitski, the smiths, and duster have always stayed my favorite. Glory to duster💛💚💙
Everything is going downhill rn including my mental health, this song is like the plaster I never knew I needed
same
Do you need someone to talk to
i needed it.
fr same
this sounds like a memory
parents: what was that loud thud in your room?
me: lying on the ground lifeless with this playing from my tv, my phone in my right hand showing all the people i texted goodbye to and/ or speaking my mind about the people i hate and talking about all my regrets and decisions and a gun in my left hand with my index finger still in the trigger guard, all the meaningful things i’ve collected through the years surrounding my body, and my head pouring blood from the top and bottom of my completely mangled head
@@temp-x8518 W idea
Well, Depends what gun your using. For example: Ronnie Mcnutt used a hunting rifle
The feeling when you’ve been crying for so long there’s a lump in your throat, your eyes are red and puffy, you sound high pitched and wobbly.. your clothes are soaked in tears.. and you feel like shit.
i accidently listened to the full hour
one time I listened to abt 8 hours out of a 10 hour video of Dance Monkey to see if I liked it, I hated that song idk why I kept listening to it over and over again on repeat, but I like this song, this song is nice-
I love this song fr but it makes me so sad
life is hard, i want to end it all. but i still want to enjoy these moments while it lasts, no one will see this but i hope you're doing well, if you're not i hope you enjoyed this song atleast.
hey, dont end it all trust me no matter how deep you are there is always a way up. everything is going to be alright
@@jayondatrack2793 :) ty i wont dw
This song feels like the sadness someone brings you and then one the brings you joy in life one that loves you for who you are
This song feels like when life gets too real. Like not when you’re happy like when you can just feel the gravity of the world. Like you can feel your face and the emotions plastered on it. Like you can empathize for strangers who didn’t even say a word do you. Like you can just feel the emotion radiating from your hands when you look at them. You can feel even and feel like you exist but at the same time feel like nothing.
please man i love them two so much
I wish could’ve said goodbye to him. I wonder if he thought about me, how I was or what I was doing. I cut contact and yet I still miss him like a little kid, I always have. I miss him so much
me
yk its getting bad again when you start listening to one hour loops🫤
the only reason why im listening to this on loop is cause im scrolling through the comments, but yeah, it is getting bad again huh :(
This song is the bittersweet memory of someone that you once knew but don’t remember you remember that they were nice…at times you remember they hurt you remember they were going you couldn’t understand at the moment you wanted to but now matter what you weren’t enough to be there for them you were a one use sponge the water was all soaked up…now no matter what they need another one and they won’t be back for you so stop telling yourself they miss you to the sad truth is…they dont
Honestly I don't really prefer this type of genre, I think it's boring to be frank and I usually listen to fast-paced and loud type of songs. But whenever it's night, I somehow find myself wanting to listen to this song and I do, it sounds desolate yet it just calms me down for some reason.
What ever you say man our music taste is different
im fuxking crying
This exactly what depression sounds like
depression isnt real
@@michaelelnajjar2314 LMAO BRO WHAT-
@@liz.likes.milk. im not lying
@@michaelelnajjar2314 ur hella goofy for that bruh 💀💀💀-
@@michaelelnajjar2314 delusional
cant believe that i come onto youtube to express my feelings because my irl friends cant see what i say or type but im honestly just done with feelings, like why do i have to get sad :/ or when every girl i talk to never get passed talking stage, took this one girl on a date and i really tried hard to make it the best first date and the date went well had food went bowling, walked around the mall, went to the beach payed for everything (dont care about the money), bought her flowers even held hands as we watched the sunset go down talked for hours moral of the story is that sometimes even trying ur hardest you still wont get what you want, but god will give me what i need.. i know it.
was look for this thanks for making it
ofc
just listen to this song to vent lol,I just wanna runaway while hearing this on the background!!!! Just found out my dad did, my sister told me why she got pregnant and why she wanted to leave the house , now I understand everything, now I feel so alone I don’t know what to do anymore I just want to be loved for once , im
So lost/confused , I just want to feel happy , now I can’t forget all the words I can’t even move I’m so hurt , I’m not ashamed anymore of expressing my feelings I’m actually so tired of everything … my “friends” I can believe I let them treat me that way I can’t believe it , my own brother I just wanna know why he HATES me so much , what have I do wrong I just don’t understand …
well.. if it makes you feel better. [ me and my mom grew up to be best friends, she was a single mom with me and my two sisters. She always was the cool young mom
but my mom had drinking problems.
the further years, I began doing pills.. I had my problems, she had hers, so we bumped heads a lot.
and bump heads aren't snarky comments. Im talking, screaming, breaking things, threats, and so on..
so she kicked me out for my addiction, she said to drove me insane.
she received heart surgery so she was in and out of the hospital, mind you.. still drinking.
I was at my friends house for a couple days.. he made me become sober, a week passed, I found a job.. but no word from my mom.
I was told she was at the hospital.
I began doing pills that night again.
then they told me she was critical condition.. and not responding.
they pronounced her dead.
I felt as if my heart was ripped form my chest.
as if, it just all went away.
.. I felt empty, I questioned everything.
ive stayed here for the last two weeks she was on earth, holding these grudges when I could have said goodbye.. to my bestfriend.
To the woman who played water nerf guns with me when I was nine
To the woman who fed me crispy tacos, my favorite dinner when I was 12
To the woman who told me that one day id become something great. because I was her son.]
-Not my story..
I was the friend. he stayed at my house and him and grew up together since the second grade.. She was the coolest mom, and her crispy tacos were the best. She was a proud mom.. and I know the earth will miss her fire. ❤️🔥 may she Rest In Peace. 5/14/22 P
i love you im so sorry
I'm sorry and I understand, the feeling no one loves you, you're alone, I thought that for awhile, but then she came into my life made me feel loved, you just gotta wait for the right person trust me
@@justavrkid1651 they all leave 😂
@@alexareyes2655 You're loved, and there is so much ahead of you. There are ao many people who won't leave, there are so many people who are gonna love you forever, and be with you forever. I don't know if you believe in Anything---but if you do just remember that you always got your Angels, and God, right by your side.
my whole life i’ve ran away from everything. i’ve ran from girls I liked myself, i’ve ran from schools, ive ran from my own friends, i’ve ran from chances to tell her how i feel, ive ran from chances to hangout with my closest and best friends, ive ran from grades, ive ran from my own poor handwriting and english. I get good grades in almost every period but i somehow get a c in math when i try my hardest i swear i try to understand what im looking at and i try my hardest to answer the questions but i always get a 60 or a 65 on any test i take and i feel like i don’t deserve living just because of a letter grade and it fucking sucks. i hate having good grades and being the “smart friend” because i feel to prideful and i feel to mature for myself and i feel i’m missing out on my own childhood because i’m hanging out with more adults in my life then i am kids my own age and i hate it. I like this one girl and i have her snapchat and everything but i don’t know how to tell her because i just met here at the end of the school year and we just started talking and i realized we had a lot in common and i started to like her even more but i can’t visit her because i got fucking covid on the last day of school and i hate it. I feel like i don’t fit in with the rest of my friends because my friends are troublemakers, and so called “hooligans”, but i am a good kid and i don’t like being a good kid i want to be a troublemaker because at least troublemakers have some type of freedom to do what they want and not care if they get into trouble but i have to constantly worry if a teacher is around the coroner and i hate it. Thanks for reading btw this took long time to write and a lot of emotion expressing. ❤️💙
Yk I really love you I always used to be afraid and scared and felt alone but then I became stupid and started running away although yes the freedom was amazing it just made me feel worse once I was back in the house I called my "home" and yk that girl you should
Really ask her it's a scary job, yes it is but if she says yes or no you are still very brave I hope you feel better because I can do nothing but mssg u although I would hug you I hope everything turns out better for you I love you
Very much
dang this makes me realize what one of my best friends is going threw smart 90's in every class all of my friends which are his friends are trouble makers and hooligans but he always has a smile and a joyful tone to his speech but I wonder if hes ok.
reject modernity, return to Duster.
love this! (I have not felt any emotion the past 10 months)
Hey look if anyone is going through a rough time, look it might not be much coming from a stranger on the internet but im here to tell you im here for you and to let you know im proud of you and hope the best for you and to never give up becuse i want you to know that there is someone that cares for you stay strong and keep going ❤
i just wish i could be a better friend. i'm jealous when you vent to others and not to me. that's my fault, and i know, please give me other time. i know you're patient, but please, i'm so scared of losing you. give me time and we'll be twin souls, like you and the other friend of yours.
i'm so sorry for being so paranoid
Is it spring already?!
Man how time flies huh?
Anyways, I'm just glad your all here with me, we may not know eachother, in fact every one of you are strangers, but I feel like I've known you all my life.
Thank you for being here with me everyone, even though you have your own struggles and problems, you still read this comment, you don't know me, I don't know you. You did it because you were interested
And that makes you human
It'll be okay
I promise...
I’ve always been pushed to be happy. I don’t cry , i cry and laugh for some reason. I could never cry when I was young my parents always made me look happy but I wasn’t, I was broken of how fake my life was and now I just sit in my room and think how much of a disappointment I am. I can’t take it anymore , i don’t know how much longer I can do it.
i got 2 ways of feeling numb one bad and the other is good, bad: while being bored and uncomfortable and mentaly and physically tired, good: listening to duster
Summer starts soon. I have a feeling this one will be the one.
I can’t wait to become a statistic. All my life I have either been forgotten or ignored, no one even wants to try with me anymore. I was picked on for being different, tried to suppress it, stopped talking entirely. I have tried everything to fit in, crying myself to sleep on what feels like a daily basis, thinking what could I have done differently, but I was broken to begin with. I can’t tell anyone (cause who’d want to listen!), I can’t even talk to my boss without over stressing beforehand because I don’t want to be a burden. I have 6 more months in me. I’m sorry
God told me to tell you that he loves you
are u still here? i feel the same
Non of my friends care...
My classmates will do anything to make me cry...
My family doesnt love me..
The world would be better without me.
We're here for you man. Life isn't easy. I've been backstabbed, rejected, beaten up. Yet there is still light at the end of the tunnel. Stay strong homie
I thought you were my person. Why did you stop responding? How come you never text first? When did you become so distant? Did I do something wrong? Why don't you care? How come you never talk about me like you do the others? Has it always been like this? Did I imagine that we had something special? Why are you doing this to me? What did I do to deserve this? I hate you so much for making me feel this way. I hate you for being all there for me and leaving just as quickly. I wish I never gave you this place in my life, in my heart. I hate you so so much. I just wish you would want to talk to me. Tell me about your day. I love you. Tell me whats wrong. What changed?
I’m losing everything slowly. everyone is decaying slowly. my life is slipping away from my grasp slowly.
I’m not sure what I need to journal or tell myself to get better. Sometimes I feel incapacitated by the flow of time. Sometimes I get so caught up in analyzations that all there is are analyzations, and so I become devoid of the moments and the truest feelings, of both time and and myself. Without any outward connections, I spiral back into myself unexpressed. The conundrum is I can’t be myself unless I feel very comfortable to do so. I used to be myself with Alex and Ryan. I’d be loving, goofy, sarcastic, passionate and thoughtful and I would share all these qualities and be met with laughter, acknowledgment, appreciation- even when I would be met with minimal silence I would be content 😢and when I would be met with playful animosity by Ryan we’d joke and riff with rapport and when I would be met with questions by Alex I’d share all the embarrassing and vulnerable feelings I usually kept vaulted, and by doing so I make honest and deep-seated connections with him and relate and come to understand some of his feelings too. I am going to rediscover more and better relationships like these, authentic relationships where I can express my truest and changing form of self, and in which I cannot come to genuinely understand and trust my friends. I love these relationships and so I’m going to create them and make more harmonious dynamics in my life. ❤️
Dentist: open up
Me: well it all started back in ___…
hey there. yes, you. i may not know what you’re going through, or what you’ve been through, but i do know this. it’s going to get better. you’re going to get through this. someone once said, “when you hit rock bottom, there’s nowhere else to go but up,” right? so keep your chin up, you’re doing great. i believe in you.
Thank you it means a lot to me after getting cheated on
It's hard.. I'm trying my best to get through it. I'm trying..
You're trying your best and that's what matters, you got this. 🙏🏻💗
this reminds me of all my mistakes getting cleared. all of my problems running away from my mind, thank you .
i don’t even know what to do with my life anymore. nothing good had happened in so long i feel like i’m at my lowest point rn. i lost my best friend and everyone of my friends dropped me. my grandparents are sick and my pets aren’t even doing the best. my grades are horrible and my parents are fighting, as for my siblings, i haven’t even talked to them in forever. i don’t know what to do, like where does it get any better than this. i just want to rest. i cant even do this anymore, life sucks.
ive felt like that before happens to many people you are not the only one stay strong you can find happines just hold on dont bring yourself down life will get better
duster is life (life is duster)
Every next chord my head cuts to another sad moment in my life, like a sad home movie. But if anyone is reading this, no matter what, always try to be grateful for what you have because it could always be worse
Y’all its fucking hard… I feel it, you feel it, we all feel it at some point. Please keep going, please continue living, find any reason you can to make it to see the sun shine down on you.
you only live once? thank god i dont wanna repeat this process again XD
Its funny just 5 months ago i was looking at the trees thinking where'd I'd be in 5 months not knowing I'd be in the greatesy relationship I've ever been in. Whilst having the worst mental health I've ever had
imagine its summer,night time and the love of ur life is there
i miss 2018-2019 vibes. Where we usually wouldnt mind how we look, where we used to play fun and shit, and more man.
i wish I was happy. I wish that all my worries would go away and resolve themselves.
feeling unwanted by everyone i want, will i ever break the cycle
life hasn’t been unfulfilling the last couple years and i don’t think i could ever fill this void
I came to realization that my best friend might be gone. The last time he texted me, he was filledwith anger. He has never been that mad before. He has never not respond to me for a long period. He alway apologizes for taking 10+ minutes for him to reply. This isn't like him and im very worried. I miss my BFF, my little boy, my rain, my first love. This was the first song that came into mind when I started to cry and wanted to listen to a song. Hopefully my best friend Is okay and safe. Idk if he's gone because of how I made him feel or he's just not okay. I hope I didn't hurt him emotionally, I didn't say anything rude but idk. I hope he's emotionally and physically okay and safe. His homeboy said he's most likely alright but that's bc they always don't don't for a very long time and alwas reconnect but he never done that to me. I'm scared. I won't be that mad if he finally reply with "I'm rlly sorry...", I'm just glad that he's okay and safe.
You need to give him time, sometimes people need to be alone
@@aleh2459 oh it wasn't even about that lmaooo
@@geniib2455 what?
I feel numb, I can’t cry, it’s like I can’t even express emotion. It’s getting worse day by day. I don’t feel like myself.
it will be ok one day, I promise take care of you
Why do I always come back to this dark place.
Why everyone leaves me?
God takes people out of your life for a reason. And he never closes a door without opening another one. He probably knew those people Better then you and wanted to have your back.
My last bagel burnt and now I’m here, listening to this song.😔
this comment is a large part of why i am crying
I fell empty... I don't know what to do tbh.
In the end it was just an illusion that I create my head, but he never told me the truth, he just pretended and made me feel insufficient, I don't forgive you but I can't leave you..
I ask my friend “how do you know she likes me?” He says its inherently obvious, so of coarse I get him to tell her I like her and she says no, like bro she fucking cuddled me and complemented me and almost kissed me, I thought those would be healthy signs for a new relationship but no of coarse not, nothing ever good happens for me cause that’s just how my life is, just fucking sadness, fake smiles and rejection, I never got a girlfriend before and the two times I try of coarse the answer is fucking no, cause of course no one is gonna love me like I love them that’s just how this fucking world is for me, just aimlessly chasing my dreams thinking one day I’ll catch them.
Fuck, well hey thanks for reading this abomination of text.
Hang in there.
It gets better, it will I promise.
I know this feeling so bad. You're not alone
You make me think about myself so much
ayyy thanks
It’s been a couple nights, I haven’t been able to get much sleep. I’ve been thinking about this one specific person and she comes to me in my dreams. I’ve wanted her for so long and I know I will never have her. I have so many memories with her, she makes me so happy and now things just aren’t the same as they used to be. She comes to me in my dreams, the dreams are of me and her being happy. As anyone can imagine I don’t want to sleep. I can’t go on like this. I hope whoever reads this never has to go through missing someone as much as I do, I hope you all have your special person/significant other/lover and hold them very tight, remember that feeling and lock it in. I never wish for anyone to go through that pain.
im missing my grandma and my German Shepard she died this july not only that but my best friend shes everything to me shes a sister to me she practically raised me and told me right from wrong and has been there for me but a few days ago she told me she wanted space to herself its not that shes going through problems she just wants time to herself because the care and love i give her is out of the norm for her since she hasnt had anyone do so much for her she doesnt think its weird. I feel like im going to lose her as my best friend and it has me depressed and anxious for months now i feel threatened that she will have a better bond to someone else and leave me behind ive never been comfortable or safe around anyone else besides her i can tell her anything i treasure and protect our relationship/friendship with her so much i get jealous when she talks with other people i dont want to feel like that i dont want to be possessive. she texted me saying she will always still want to be my friend and she thinks of me as a brother but wants to make some adjustments to make a healthy friendship i understand her but i dont think she understands why i always check up on her and care for her thats the only thing im afraid of telling her. i already decided a date to end it i have 50 more days to try and spend as much time with her i wrote 2 goodbye letters already. i just want to get better
Interesting cerebral nonsense from one of the most intricate dreams I've had in a LONG time:
(I played this while I slept, and am giving the poster credit for this. The band made me feel something so surreal I had to write about it)
Context: I'm apparently an artist in the future, and I used a future technology to observe, and create a perfect scale model of our home, (looked more like the house from courage the cowardly dog) overgrown with tall grass from years of either apocalyptic nonsense, or just general disuse/mishandling. After finishing the piece, I'm stricken by visions I can't quite recall now, but I'm hit by a pang of guilt, and nostalgia. I suddenly know what I want to name the piece. I sit down, and complete the model by, almost as if signing it, write: "Late, but I made it home," in small print on a corner of the roof.
Thank you