Literally quitting vaping sent me into a major depressive episode for months but now I’m feel so much better and can even feel my breathing so much better - totally worth it in the end
You are so right. I quit smoking a few years ago and felt like something was missing everyday because if i had stress i would smoke and after that i would always think way to much if i had stress it gets better but you need something else in your hands or to do everytime you have stress and i had to chew gum first that replaces nicotine it was so gross but it helped and now it´s already 4 years ago , hope you feel better soon . Love your videos you deserve the best in life. And you look great you don´t need a diet. It think it´s so sad my friend has family in russia and is worrying everyday he lives in belgium like me my heart goes out to all the people in ukraine and innocent people in russia 😢💙
Honestly it hasn’t been that long since the divorce and she was very young, anybody would be adjusting and processing. She’s obviously struggling but she a traumatised queen that’s used to smiling through the pain so she’s giving strength
Honestly early to mid twenties is the hardest thing I’ve ever done. I haven’t been famous or had a career like yours but I switched schools a couple of times lost people and met new people and lost people again. And change is hard. But also - I realized that not having a sense of identity is okay so early on because it means you’re challenging yourself and growing somehow it’s freedom in a way.
Quitting smoking/vaping was the best life decision I ever made. You will get over the body symptoms eventually. Look at the positives that start to happen like better skin, hair, teeth, faster healing etc. Adding up the money I didn't spend on it also was motivating.I used an app so I could just click on it whenever I felt the temptation.
As a long time viewer Blair, I encourage you to sit with the discomfort. Your body is going through physical withdrawals from vaping (I’ve experienced something similar with my weed pen) and I feel like the last year has been a lot of highs and lows. Sitting with ourselves, even when it feels awkward and painful is the key to growth IMO. I got out of a three year relationship - lived together two years - a month ago, and the best thing I’ve done for myself is to just accept the inner feelings of turmoil and conflict. I was raised in a dysfunctional home, so my relationship had a lot of toxicity in it that felt “normal” to me. It wasn’t, and it’s important for people like us to re-learn healthy relationship dynamics. Therapy will be so, so helpful with that. Sending so much love to my favorite walnut! 🥜
This was honestly a great thing to hear, today is my ex-best friend's birthday and we haven't talked for about a year. And I swear losing a best friend is worse than losing any guy so just hearing your kind words on her birthday helped heal my heart a little bit
I'm so sorry you're going through that. Im going through the same type of thing. I had a best friend and her husband randomly became obsessed with me and stalking me and I tried to tell her about it but he had somehow already turned her against me by then and mustve told her lies or anything he could to get her to never speak to me again and block me before I could get the chance to tell her what he was doing to me. Its been 2 and half years since then and it still hurts so much that I've lost her. I still wish I could tell her what happened and get the chance to tell her to truth. I dont know what her husband could've possibly told her to get her to never speak to her best friend of over 10 years again and it kind of hurts even worse that she so easily threw me away like that when she was my best friend and so important to me. It was her birthday a couple weeks ago and I just wish I could tell her happy birthday. Im sorry you lost your friend too. I agree it hurts worse than losing a boyfriend.
I lost my ex & 6 closest friends bc they chose to support and stay friends with a cheating asshole & I don’t want anything to do with any connection. If I’m out, I’m OUT.
I broke up wt my ex and didn't cry as much as I did when I had a falling out with a friend I really care about. I was pretty depressed about it. *hugs* to you guys.
@@thekmonkey101 Sorry you got cheated on, but your “close friends” did NOT get cheated on by him. If they were friends with him prior to your relationship/prior to your relationship going sour, it’s kind of selfish & unfair of you to ask them to just stop being friends with him just to remain friends with you. I get being hurt & what your ex did was wrong, yet they still could have remained friends with you both & kept the friendships separate. As you grow up you’ll start to realize it’s not your friends job to take on all your pain & fall outs, thats really selfish to ask of them.
You say your not feeling at peace but this is the first time I've noticed you seem a little more calm. I know life without chaos is scary cause it forces you to sit with your emotions. It is so hard but it is necessary work. The more you honour those feelings the more you'll learn to love yourself 💕
I love that you don’t sugar coat things and pretend you’re a different person. Sometimes it’s off the wall but so so real. It’s important that we don’t only see the best of people online but also remember they go through real pain and difficulties too. You’re doing great and I hope you continue to heal. Also the chaos thing oh my god so true, sometimes it feels like that’s where we deserve to be and stability seems foreign.
I understand wanting and missing chaos! My therapist told me the same! But one day I realized I was happy in a stable and calm environment. I think you’ll find a balance between the two soon :)
Honestly, when you said you don’t feel peace in a state of peace and how you feel more like yourself in a state of chaos..that HIT. I’ve literally been feeling that way recently and thought the very same thing to myself so to hear you say that really validated me. Not that it’s a good thing but definitely a good thing to be aware of. Maybe it’s just something to adapt to or to make life chaotic but in a healthier way without the toxic relationships or behaviors. Idk how to word it but I’m wishing you find peace that you’re genuinely happy in. Thanks for being so authentic and open with us ❤️
I highly recommend reading 'How To Do The Work' by Dr. Nicole LePera. She addresses this and explains everything so well. I've had so many aha moments...it's been life-changing. It's normal, you're not alone and you have the power to do something about it 💕
I'm sitting here 30something years old with a partener, kids and mortgage and I'm like " Yes, Blair! Fuck all guys" She's my 20s self before I met my soulmate
@@mmor7380 duh 😂 it's a statement for women who are going through things. Let it be. It's like how I sing "these girls ain't loyal" but I don't believe I'm not a loyal person. It's hyperbole
Ahhhh I relate to this. I have been in an extremely abusive relationship both physically and emotionally. I actually had to leave with my daughter as I was afraid for our safety. Nearly 10 years later I still find that I am not content in any relationship unless they are constantly calling me or checking up on me or texting me or what I call 'protecting me'. BUT deep down I know that it's not healthy yet I still crave a man to be in charge. Im not sure how to break the habit, I don't think I ever will be able to
I’m proud of you for everything you’ve done and how far you’ve come. I know how difficult life can be, let alone getting out of bed some days. You’re doing amazing Blair.
Aw Blair your voice sounded so sad talking about how nick has spoken badly about you 😔😔 which I totally get bc it sucks hearinf someone you loved and tried to treat well say things that are hurtful
I recently ended a 5 year relationship,not anything close to how long y'alls were together but it hurts the most because the person you thought you end up being with forever and was your best friend ends up being just a stranger again. Hope you're taking good care of yourself 🥺💕!
Love you so much Blair I'm proud of how far you've come. Settling in one place is a little scary sometimes but believe me, if you genuinely give it a try you will find so much peace. And a sense of safety. You are the only person who can provide these things for yourself. The key to living alone is to not isolate yourself too often! Have dinners with friends, invite ppl over at times, go OUT when you can. Having a home base helped me to heal in private, it has really changed me in the best ways so I hope this resonates with you too. We're here for you always. ❤ 🙏🏻
Blair, you deserve better. I’m happy you’re taking the time to take a break and enjoy your life. I’m glad you’re seeing a therapist and surrounding yourself with friends and family who love you for you 💖💖💖 your girl talks inspire me in knowing what I want as a woman and not just pleasing a man.
Blair you're a Queen !! So mature and u handled your breakup online so well!! Honestly ur ex was so immature I would've lost my cool but it's amazing that you still kept your cool ! I love how self aware you always are you are such a girlboss we stan!
I love Blair unbothered! You don’t owe us or anyone an explanation! You have take the high road and showed your strength and class through all of this! Your IG’s literally make my day.
I hear you when you mentioned you take comfort in chaos. I felt like my life lacked passion and adventure without it and I’d constantly be switching up jobs, cities/towns and relationships. I thought life was better when everything was a little more dramatic and fast paced. Honestly I had no desire to slow down and reflect at the time because I was scared that how I really felt wouldn’t match with how I was portraying myself to others around me. Still unpacking the trauma and unlearning/learning how to be a more emotionally intelligent adult because I was never shown the tools on how to do that growing up in a chaotic environment. But I know it will help me find that inner peace I lack and I hope you find yours to. Lots of love for you Blair ❤️ Take care of yourself
I'm older... almost 40. My 20's and early 30's were very toxic-I didn't know how to live without chaos bc my childhood was also chaotic. It took me years to get used to living without it. Been single almost 10 years- My life is extremely docile and I couldn't imagine living in that state of chaos anymore. Therapy does wonders- wishing you the best of luck!
girl EVERYTHING you are saying about wanting chaos and struggling to quit vices and being bored in a stable life is exactly how I used to feel constantly…but because I have bpd 😅 I have gone through a lot of therapy and I don’t feel that way anymore most of them time but I can totally relate
I started vaping again after “quitting” for 6 months. I was horribly nauseous for the first month and so sick. My anxiety took over though and I picked it back up. For anyone reading this, don’t be like me and take care of yourself and treat your body right even though I can’t ❤️
i totally relate to the state of chaos being your peace instead of calm and stable. always feels like i'm trapped, but i know it isn't healthy to be in chaos!
Things will get better B!! You are so right though, give yourself a break if you need and do things that make YOU happy!! Wishing you lots of positivity for your life and hope you and everyone else here has a great rest of the week❤🙏
very much relate to the sentiment of romanticizing chaos and feeling incomplete without it. i like that your past two videos have been more personal again
blair your whole state of chaos go go go reminds me of when i was super manic. Was also caused by a break up. Just a thought... also being manic to someone a tad mentally unstable is super fun, you party, you aren't hungry, you just feel more fun... but you seem much more stable now. Even just seeing the stuff your decorating with, its nice to see stuff you like again.
Girl, coming from one person adapting to stability after decades of chaos…it’s *will* be uncomfortable, like sitting in a pickle barrel…its cold and briney when you first get in, but if you can sit with the discomfort…and ask okay why’s this so uncomfortable and how might I accommodate myself through the discomfort…instead of just why am I doing this? Or why can’t I be/do xyz instead? Learning to sit with the discomfort and reduce it down to information, that’s a *powerful* skill set my dear 💗 nourish and feed your power through your healing ❤️🩹 you’re doing the work, be proud of that 🙌🏽💖🌹
the thing about chaos is that is not sustainable, and have you seeking for that constantly will hurt you and the ones you love! but it’s so hard. hope you learn how to work through. ur a queen 💓💓
Working past chaos *may* come in good time. I’m near 2 years sober (in 3 weeks yay!) and am certainly grieving a lot as far as what I’ve given up/ the life I used to live. Learning that putting myself in these times were trauma responses and such. I still rip my vape constantly and can hardly genuinely sit with myself. It’s really really hard shit but it does get better hunni. The process is just painfully honestly slow 🌺
Love our little walnut 💜💖 I’ve been trying to stop vaping (“trying” thinking about it 😅) this is my sign to stop! Thank you for always being so unapologetically you
B💜 you’re such a strong beautiful woman. You’re awesome I swear I love watching your videos and seeing you be such a free spirit. I love how real you are and don’t bullshit things. Thank you for sharing your life with us! 💋❤️
I loved the way you addressed the old relationship. That was top tier respect. Hmm have you thought about trying to see if a doctor or even the therapist can help with the headaches and stuff? I am not sure if you wanted that route, but I hope you are feeling better today.
honestly your just a super full of energy person and you’ve kept yourself occupied the past year so now that you’ve settled everything is probably hitting you right now, just hang in there babes time heals everything you’ve already made it a year❤️
I love everything you said on the whole Ukraine/Russia thing and how you said it's not about you or how you're feeling. Mad props to you. Also been loving your finsta, it's so nice to see someone who seems so perfect be so real.
Blair take acetylcholine to help with your quitting your vape journey!! Nicotine binds to the same receptors that acetylcholine does and basically when you consume nicotine your body ends up producing less acetylcholine in response to maintain equilibrium so when you stop you don’t have as much available and it’s such an important biomolecule for basic homeostasis so it def influences how your body is doing and how you feel! I have a BS in biochemistry but you can research this as well, it’s literally the mechanism of action in the human body! I hope you feel better soon walnut 🖤🖤🖤
My fav walnut is back ❤️ glad to see you’re talking with a therapist and taking care of yourself/your health. proud of how far you’ve come over the last few years girl
My therapist told me the same thing lmaooo but after like 2 years of working on me I’m finally v happy w being stable and I’m in my first ever healthy relationship! Rooting for u bb❤
feeling like yourself but in a state of chaos literally describes how I am rn 😭 don’t worry b we’re getting through it together 💘 edit: yes!!! U don’t have to explain yourself to ppl honestly I’m so sick of doing that like at this point just think whatever you want bc I can explain myself 100 times and someone will still find a way to find a problem 😭
You are such a great girl. You are very upfront and true. Keep believing my you and pass on your thoughts as they are true amd it is how we all learn. Xxxx
The chaos. Can relate. Sometimes you need to operate the way that works for you now. It can change later. Whatever. You’re totally good cause happiness is in the moment, and I know you know how I mean that
@5:49 alright all of this is so relatable (look at the 1 vid on my channel for a few second look at where that taste for chaos ultimately brought me... if anyone ever speaks to you that way please always do yourself the favor of leaving!) some chaos is good and passionate, but it's a learning process finding the balance cause it can't all be like that all the time or even most of it. 80% peace 20% chaos max for me now i think lolol. girl proud of you for your moving on and everything and being so dignified
You're not toxic or chaotic, you are comfortable with who you are, you know what you like and you like your own company 👌 you are always so relatable! I'm a married mommy now lol but you remind me very much of myself. Keep living for you and your future other half is very lucky to have you.
omg one of the last videos of yours that i watched is the announcement that you would get married & were living in bulgaria. now i’m like what 👁👄👁 you sound so sad compared to back then tho☹️ hope you will get better soon 💕
Dude. I also enjoy being in a relationship where they are utterly, romantically, insanely persistent & obsessed w me in a healthy way. I need the drama, the “I love you so much it makes my heart ache when you’re sad or upset” kinda thing. Hee heeee
@@JosefaTejeda he basically made a video and talked about mean stuff she did or said to him instead of keeping it private considering there’s two sides to every story ,him talking crap about her made him look worse than it made her look .
I used to juul a lot pre-pandemic, &I know everyone is different, but quitting cold turkey is what I had to do and just never touch that ish again. I actually think the vaping was causing minor panic attacks and just general addiction behaviors I knew weren’t normal. Vaping in the bathroom at my office? Vaping during commercials of a tv show in between charges? Idk I guess it might sound all very minor in the grand scheme of things but it still had a hold over my life and I hated that. I’m glad to be freed from that horrible feeling
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@@SalT-nw4mw it’s from city furniture :)
@@blairwalnuts thank you!!!
Where is your couch from? it’s so cool!
Literally quitting vaping sent me into a major depressive episode for months but now I’m feel so much better and can even feel my breathing so much better - totally worth it in the end
Omggg maybe that’s why lol
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You are so right. I quit smoking a few years ago and felt like something was missing everyday because if i had stress i would smoke and after that i would always think way to much if i had stress it gets better but you need something else in your hands or to do everytime you have stress and i had to chew gum first that replaces nicotine it was so gross but it helped and now it´s already 4 years ago , hope you feel better soon . Love your videos you deserve the best in life. And you look great you don´t need a diet. It think it´s so sad my friend has family in russia and is worrying everyday he lives in belgium like me my heart goes out to all the people in ukraine and innocent people in russia 😢💙
I was the same way! But I had replaced smoking with gum and working out ... so eventually I balanced out and was able to pull through!
@@blairwalnuts you're in withdrawal. Stay strong, girl!
blair, girlie, wish you all the best, you are a kind soul. it seems as if you've been hurting a lot, hope the therapy helps
I didn't get that vibe at all. She's just living her life. She's just talking to us calmly and expressing herself genuinely.
Honestly it hasn’t been that long since the divorce and she was very young, anybody would be adjusting and processing. She’s obviously struggling but she a traumatised queen that’s used to smiling through the pain so she’s giving strength
Honestly early to mid twenties is the hardest thing I’ve ever done. I haven’t been famous or had a career like yours but I switched schools a couple of times lost people and met new people and lost people again. And change is hard. But also - I realized that not having a sense of identity is okay so early on because it means you’re challenging yourself and growing somehow it’s freedom in a way.
Very true. I’m 37 and you couldn’t pay me to go back to my twenties. It’s just full of lessons and learning the hard way.
The WHOLE twenties are hard. 😂😅
Early 20's are terrible. This is so true
@@michelleandtim354 Yeah true. I loved my twenties, haha
@@michelleandtim354 eh, that doesn't take any certain age. I've seen my grandparents, cousin, uncle, and brother die and I just turned 27.
Quitting smoking/vaping was the best life decision I ever made. You will get over the body symptoms eventually. Look at the positives that start to happen like better skin, hair, teeth, faster healing etc. Adding up the money I didn't spend on it also was motivating.I used an app so I could just click on it whenever I felt the temptation.
As a long time viewer Blair, I encourage you to sit with the discomfort. Your body is going through physical withdrawals from vaping (I’ve experienced something similar with my weed pen) and I feel like the last year has been a lot of highs and lows.
Sitting with ourselves, even when it feels awkward and painful is the key to growth IMO. I got out of a three year relationship - lived together two years - a month ago, and the best thing I’ve done for myself is to just accept the inner feelings of turmoil and conflict.
I was raised in a dysfunctional home, so my relationship had a lot of toxicity in it that felt “normal” to me. It wasn’t, and it’s important for people like us to re-learn healthy relationship dynamics. Therapy will be so, so helpful with that.
Sending so much love to my favorite walnut! 🥜
i love this
What....nooo never sit with discomfort...sounds bad
This was honestly a great thing to hear, today is my ex-best friend's birthday and we haven't talked for about a year. And I swear losing a best friend is worse than losing any guy so just hearing your kind words on her birthday helped heal my heart a little bit
I'm so sorry you're going through that. Im going through the same type of thing. I had a best friend and her husband randomly became obsessed with me and stalking me and I tried to tell her about it but he had somehow already turned her against me by then and mustve told her lies or anything he could to get her to never speak to me again and block me before I could get the chance to tell her what he was doing to me. Its been 2 and half years since then and it still hurts so much that I've lost her. I still wish I could tell her what happened and get the chance to tell her to truth. I dont know what her husband could've possibly told her to get her to never speak to her best friend of over 10 years again and it kind of hurts even worse that she so easily threw me away like that when she was my best friend and so important to me. It was her birthday a couple weeks ago and I just wish I could tell her happy birthday. Im sorry you lost your friend too. I agree it hurts worse than losing a boyfriend.
Been there. It will get better ❤️
I lost my ex & 6 closest friends bc they chose to support and stay friends with a cheating asshole & I don’t want anything to do with any connection. If I’m out, I’m OUT.
I broke up wt my ex and didn't cry as much as I did when I had a falling out with a friend I really care about. I was pretty depressed about it. *hugs* to you guys.
@@thekmonkey101 Sorry you got cheated on, but your “close friends” did NOT get cheated on by him. If they were friends with him prior to your relationship/prior to your relationship going sour, it’s kind of selfish & unfair of you to ask them to just stop being friends with him just to remain friends with you. I get being hurt & what your ex did was wrong, yet they still could have remained friends with you both & kept the friendships separate. As you grow up you’ll start to realize it’s not your friends job to take on all your pain & fall outs, thats really selfish to ask of them.
You say your not feeling at peace but this is the first time I've noticed you seem a little more calm. I know life without chaos is scary cause it forces you to sit with your emotions. It is so hard but it is necessary work. The more you honour those feelings the more you'll learn to love yourself 💕
You not reciprocating your ex’s behavior is SO MATURE. 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻
what did nik say
You're a delightful little walnut of light in this world. I hope the therapy soothes your heart and soul as you deserve it babe!
I love that you don’t sugar coat things and pretend you’re a different person. Sometimes it’s off the wall but so so real. It’s important that we don’t only see the best of people online but also remember they go through real pain and difficulties too. You’re doing great and I hope you continue to heal. Also the chaos thing oh my god so true, sometimes it feels like that’s where we deserve to be and stability seems foreign.
I understand wanting and missing chaos! My therapist told me the same! But one day I realized I was happy in a stable and calm environment. I think you’ll find a balance between the two soon :)
Honestly, when you said you don’t feel peace in a state of peace and how you feel more like yourself in a state of chaos..that HIT. I’ve literally been feeling that way recently and thought the very same thing to myself so to hear you say that really validated me. Not that it’s a good thing but definitely a good thing to be aware of. Maybe it’s just something to adapt to or to make life chaotic but in a healthier way without the toxic relationships or behaviors. Idk how to word it but I’m wishing you find peace that you’re genuinely happy in. Thanks for being so authentic and open with us ❤️
I highly recommend reading 'How To Do The Work' by Dr. Nicole LePera. She addresses this and explains everything so well. I've had so many aha moments...it's been life-changing. It's normal, you're not alone and you have the power to do something about it 💕
I was like this, but then I had a kid and as a single parent life is SO chaotic, but also fulfilling and healthy
I'm sitting here 30something years old with a partener, kids and mortgage and I'm like " Yes, Blair! Fuck all guys"
She's my 20s self before I met my soulmate
Not all, not everyone is an asshole
@@mmor7380 duh 😂 it's a statement for women who are going through things. Let it be. It's like how I sing "these girls ain't loyal" but I don't believe I'm not a loyal person. It's hyperbole
Ahhhh I relate to this. I have been in an extremely abusive relationship both physically and emotionally. I actually had to leave with my daughter as I was afraid for our safety. Nearly 10 years later I still find that I am not content in any relationship unless they are constantly calling me or checking up on me or texting me or what I call 'protecting me'. BUT deep down I know that it's not healthy yet I still crave a man to be in charge. Im not sure how to break the habit, I don't think I ever will be able to
Sammmeeee 😥
I’m proud of you for everything you’ve done and how far you’ve come. I know how difficult life can be, let alone getting out of bed some days. You’re doing amazing Blair.
Aw Blair your voice sounded so sad talking about how nick has spoken badly about you 😔😔 which I totally get bc it sucks hearinf someone you loved and tried to treat well say things that are hurtful
I recently ended a 5 year relationship,not anything close to how long y'alls were together but it hurts the most because the person you thought you end up being with forever and was your best friend ends up being just a stranger again. Hope you're taking good care of yourself 🥺💕!
I just ended my 5 year relationship too:(, sending love
@@juliacissell 💕💕 sending love back
Love you so much Blair I'm proud of how far you've come. Settling in one place is a little scary sometimes but believe me, if you genuinely give it a try you will find so much peace. And a sense of safety. You are the only person who can provide these things for yourself. The key to living alone is to not isolate yourself too often! Have dinners with friends, invite ppl over at times, go OUT when you can. Having a home base helped me to heal in private, it has really changed me in the best ways so I hope this resonates with you too. We're here for you always. ❤ 🙏🏻
Blair, you deserve better. I’m happy you’re taking the time to take a break and enjoy your life. I’m glad you’re seeing a therapist and surrounding yourself with friends and family who love you for you 💖💖💖 your girl talks inspire me in knowing what I want as a woman and not just pleasing a man.
Blair you're a Queen !! So mature and u handled your breakup online so well!! Honestly ur ex was so immature I would've lost my cool but it's amazing that you still kept your cool ! I love how self aware you always are you are such a girlboss we stan!
what did he say in the video?
She’s one of the least mature people on CZcams are you actually insane?! You must only be 13 🥺
I love Blair unbothered! You don’t owe us or anyone an explanation! You have take the high road and showed your strength and class through all of this! Your IG’s literally make my day.
I really hope things get better for you Blair💖 feeling comfortable in a state of chaos is definitely very relatable and I hope in time you can heal!
B you handled this situation with such grace and class. You're a genuinely kind person and I know you're doing ok
I hear you when you mentioned you take comfort in chaos. I felt like my life lacked passion and adventure without it and I’d constantly be switching up jobs, cities/towns and relationships. I thought life was better when everything was a little more dramatic and fast paced. Honestly I had no desire to slow down and reflect at the time because I was scared that how I really felt wouldn’t match with how I was portraying myself to others around me. Still unpacking the trauma and unlearning/learning how to be a more emotionally intelligent adult because I was never shown the tools on how to do that growing up in a chaotic environment. But I know it will help me find that inner peace I lack and I hope you find yours to. Lots of love for you Blair ❤️ Take care of yourself
I'm older... almost 40. My 20's and early 30's were very toxic-I didn't know how to live without chaos bc my childhood was also chaotic. It took me years to get used to living without it. Been single almost 10 years- My life is extremely docile and I couldn't imagine living in that state of chaos anymore. Therapy does wonders- wishing you the best of luck!
Why did I think that wig was a ferret
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@@blairwalnuts :) go for it
I feel you, I quit vaping three weeks ago. The headaches sucked. Keep going walnut! You can do it.
girl EVERYTHING you are saying about wanting chaos and struggling to quit vices and being bored in a stable life is exactly how I used to feel constantly…but because I have bpd 😅 I have gone through a lot of therapy and I don’t feel that way anymore most of them time but I can totally relate
I started vaping again after “quitting” for 6 months. I was horribly nauseous for the first month and so sick. My anxiety took over though and I picked it back up. For anyone reading this, don’t be like me and take care of yourself and treat your body right even though I can’t ❤️
Enjoying the finsta blair! Thanks for sharing your life with us
I've watched your vids for years and i just wanted to say i'm so proud of you miss blair, sending you so much love xxx
I hope everything gets better, you deserve the world and more, you are amazing
i totally relate to the state of chaos being your peace instead of calm and stable. always feels like i'm trapped, but i know it isn't healthy to be in chaos!
Things will get better B!! You are so right though, give yourself a break if you need and do things that make YOU happy!! Wishing you lots of positivity for your life and hope you and everyone else here has a great rest of the week❤🙏
I love this, this video feels like how CZcams used to be, not a lot of editing or filter and really just being vulnerable. Love you sm🤍
very much relate to the sentiment of romanticizing chaos and feeling incomplete without it. i like that your past two videos have been more personal again
blair your whole state of chaos go go go reminds me of when i was super manic. Was also caused by a break up. Just a thought... also being manic to someone a tad mentally unstable is super fun, you party, you aren't hungry, you just feel more fun... but you seem much more stable now. Even just seeing the stuff your decorating with, its nice to see stuff you like again.
I really respect you , you are so real and honest , and I feel like you are a really special person 🖤
Girl, coming from one person adapting to stability after decades of chaos…it’s *will* be uncomfortable, like sitting in a pickle barrel…its cold and briney when you first get in, but if you can sit with the discomfort…and ask okay why’s this so uncomfortable and how might I accommodate myself through the discomfort…instead of just why am I doing this? Or why can’t I be/do xyz instead? Learning to sit with the discomfort and reduce it down to information, that’s a *powerful* skill set my dear 💗 nourish and feed your power through your healing ❤️🩹 you’re doing the work, be proud of that 🙌🏽💖🌹
You're such an inspiration Blair. Thanks for sharing your life with us so candidly. ❤
the thing about chaos is that is not sustainable, and have you seeking for that constantly will hurt you and the ones you love! but it’s so hard. hope you learn how to work through. ur a queen 💓💓
So much love for you. You are beautiful, honest and true to yourself, it's so refreshing to see someone just being themself. Take care lovely ❤️
I found the way you talked about the Russian/Ukraine situation not being about you and the other stuff afterwards very well thought! xx
“I don’t feel at peace in a state of peace” - you’ve just summed up my entire mental health.
Working past chaos *may* come in good time. I’m near 2 years sober (in 3 weeks yay!) and am certainly grieving a lot as far as what I’ve given up/ the life I used to live. Learning that putting myself in these times were trauma responses and such. I still rip my vape constantly and can hardly genuinely sit with myself. It’s really really hard shit but it does get better hunni. The process is just painfully honestly slow 🌺
HAHA 7:47 happens seconds after… hysterical
Love our little walnut 💜💖 I’ve been trying to stop vaping (“trying” thinking about it 😅) this is my sign to stop! Thank you for always being so unapologetically you
I’m in it with you babes *rips vape* let’s try this week 😫👍🏾
Genuinely never been so early, love u Blair! Hope ur doing amazing💛
B💜 you’re such a strong beautiful woman. You’re awesome I swear I love watching your videos and seeing you be such a free spirit. I love how real you are and don’t bullshit things. Thank you for sharing your life with us! 💋❤️
I loved the way you addressed the old relationship. That was top tier respect. Hmm have you thought about trying to see if a doctor or even the therapist can help with the headaches and stuff? I am not sure if you wanted that route, but I hope you are feeling better today.
YASS love a walnut that can see how her option on a war isn’t about her, it’s about the poor souls who are living through this war. Slava Ukraine!!
wishing u the best blair!! ily
honestly your just a super full of energy person and you’ve kept yourself occupied the past year so now that you’ve settled everything is probably hitting you right now, just hang in there babes time heals everything you’ve already made it a year❤️
Sending you love and positive energy walnuts ❤️
Wish you all the best babe! Your one of my fav. CZcamsrs!
❤❤❤ things will get better, seeing you emotional made me😢
I love everything you said on the whole Ukraine/Russia thing and how you said it's not about you or how you're feeling. Mad props to you. Also been loving your finsta, it's so nice to see someone who seems so perfect be so real.
Blair take acetylcholine to help with your quitting your vape journey!! Nicotine binds to the same receptors that acetylcholine does and basically when you consume nicotine your body ends up producing less acetylcholine in response to maintain equilibrium so when you stop you don’t have as much available and it’s such an important biomolecule for basic homeostasis so it def influences how your body is doing and how you feel! I have a BS in biochemistry but you can research this as well, it’s literally the mechanism of action in the human body! I hope you feel better soon walnut 🖤🖤🖤
Lmaooo I commented on a tiktok about her promoting smoking to stay skinny and she blocked me
Wish you the best Blair. Glad that you're doing well!!
B, we think you are amazing and thank you for choosing to share your journey
Ilysm Blair ♡ thnk you for this !!!
My fav walnut is back ❤️ glad to see you’re talking with a therapist and taking care of yourself/your health. proud of how far you’ve come over the last few years girl
My therapist told me the same thing lmaooo but after like 2 years of working on me I’m finally v happy w being stable and I’m in my first ever healthy relationship! Rooting for u bb❤
I feel you girl...an ex of mine is engaged now and reminisces with me occasionally about our time together...that's a big NOPE!!
Girl, hope you get better, that therapy helps. You don't give off the same vibe. Hope you find balance in your chaos.
The vibe of this vid is so good more of this babe
Omg!!! I can’t believe you’re back together!!!!!
Omg Ms. Walnut I can't believe you're back together with him!! I'll support you either way!! 😉
Shes not wtf
thank you for opening up🥺💗
Girrrrrlll OMG I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU'RE BACK TOGETHER WITH HIM......
LIKE HOW
feeling like yourself but in a state of chaos literally describes how I am rn 😭 don’t worry b we’re getting through it together 💘
edit: yes!!! U don’t have to explain yourself to ppl honestly I’m so sick of doing that like at this point just think whatever you want bc I can explain myself 100 times and someone will still find a way to find a problem 😭
Oh man :(. So sorry but glad you’re living your best life!!!
You are such a great girl. You are very upfront and true. Keep believing my you and pass on your thoughts as they are true amd it is how we all learn. Xxxx
I would love to see a video about your favorite makeup products!
Rooting for you! You look beautiful 😍
The chaos. Can relate. Sometimes you need to operate the way that works for you now. It can change later. Whatever. You’re totally good cause happiness is in the moment, and I know you know how I mean that
omg i can’t believe you’re back together with him !!!
@5:49 alright all of this is so relatable (look at the 1 vid on my channel for a few second look at where that taste for chaos ultimately brought me... if anyone ever speaks to you that way please always do yourself the favor of leaving!) some chaos is good and passionate, but it's a learning process finding the balance cause it can't all be like that all the time or even most of it. 80% peace 20% chaos max for me now i think lolol. girl proud of you for your moving on and everything and being so dignified
I love you!!! Blair! I relate to you sooo much
You're not toxic or chaotic, you are comfortable with who you are, you know what you like and you like your own company 👌 you are always so relatable! I'm a married mommy now lol but you remind me very much of myself. Keep living for you and your future other half is very lucky to have you.
omg one of the last videos of yours that i watched is the announcement that you would get married & were living in bulgaria. now i’m like what 👁👄👁 you sound so sad compared to back then tho☹️ hope you will get better soon 💕
omg I can't believe you're back together with him!!!!!!
i can’t believe u got back together!!!
WHAAAAT?! I can’t believe you’re back together with him!!! 🔥💃🏻
Love the couch!!! You’re a badass bb:) much love 💕
Omg I can't believe you're back with him!
yess pls make a video about how to stop ordering bc I am literally waiting for my doordash order rn
girl your vibe is so comedic in this video like the pauses are killing me
Missed you so much B!
Dude. I also enjoy being in a relationship where they are utterly, romantically, insanely persistent & obsessed w me in a healthy way. I need the drama, the “I love you so much it makes my heart ache when you’re sad or upset” kinda thing. Hee heeee
waiting for the tour babes xx
Good to see you though Blair x I hope you're just being good to yourself.
You and ex just grew apart so it's healthy to not be set on revenge etc...being bitter makes you age!And we love our youthful walnut xxx
what did he say about her
@@JosefaTejeda he basically made a video and talked about mean stuff she did or said to him instead of keeping it private considering there’s two sides to every story ,him talking crap about her made him look worse than it made her look .
I love how she clarified that she needs *breathing* humans around her-
Yeah breathing one’s
Oh my god!! I can't believe you're back together with him!!!
We love you so much 🥀 have fun with life
I used to juul a lot pre-pandemic, &I know everyone is different, but quitting cold turkey is what I had to do and just never touch that ish again. I actually think the vaping was causing minor panic attacks and just general addiction behaviors I knew weren’t normal. Vaping in the bathroom at my office? Vaping during commercials of a tv show in between charges? Idk I guess it might sound all very minor in the grand scheme of things but it still had a hold over my life and I hated that. I’m glad to be freed from that horrible feeling
Omg! I can’t believe you’re back together with him!
Can we see your paintings?!? The one you showed briefly was incredible!
Omg Blair!! I can't believe that you guys are back together!!!