@@Lizzz350 Hey, thank you so much for checking on me. I'm doing much better today. I just saw all the replies and started crying. Really, thank you so much for caring. ❤️🥺😭
Dear person whoever reads this, Hey, you, yes, I am talking right to you. I hope you will see yourself with the eyes I see you one day, because I can tell you have some awesome music taste :) You’re such a beautiful human being and you are enough. I hope you know that you do only need yourself to be happy, I know society builds up the standard that whenever you’re alone you’re not living a happy live. But in fact that is not true, if you start to realize that you actually deserve all the good things happening to you, you will treat yourself a lot nicer. I hope you let yourself rest, don’t beat yourself up over past mistakes, over regret, and over everything your mind wants to destroy you. I wish I could remove all those demons inside of your head because you deserve to feel happy. If you ever feel lonely then watch the sky, because you know, someone, at the same time is watching the sky too, maybe feeling the same way..I am glad you exist and I hope you won’t ever remove your own spot in this world, maybe you don’t feel like you belong here but, Angel, you have your home here. I don’t want you to leave this world unhappy. I want you to live every little second, I want you to feel alive, I don’t want you to see yourself just existing. You deserve it. Whatever happened, it’s not your fault, the demons in your head recognize that you have a beautiful heart, they want to take it because they have never seen such beautiful heart as yours, so why let them win over you? . You’re not selfish for isolating yourself, but you deserve to talk to someone. If you’re reading this then please never forget to breathe and smile. Don’t live up to other standards! It’s your story and not theirs. Live for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one. I love you and send you hugs. You’re so strong, you’re still here, and I am proud of you. YOU ARE NOT USELESS. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE WORTH IT. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE LOVED. READ THAT AGAIN. I AM GLAD YOU EXIST. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE NOT A PROBLEM. YOU ARE HUMAN AND YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE NOT BEING DRAMATIC. You’re not a burden to anyone, don’t be afraid to talk, to use your voice. You’re beautiful inside out. Your body is beautiful the way it is. Please don’t starve yourself. Please eat, I know it’s hard but you deserve food. You deserve to eat and drink. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. READ THAT AGAIN. I WISH I COULD HUG YOU RIGHT NOW, SO A VIRTUAL HUG WILL DO. It hurts me to see you’re in pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I love u I love u I love u I love u I love u please don’t go. I am sorry that no one is hearing you, I am sorry no one is noticing that you have lost yourself. I wish I could take your pain away, it hurts me to see the pain in your eyes. I love you through my words and I mean it. I just want you to stay, hold on a little longer okay? Please? For me.?? I hope you have an awesome day/ morning/ evening/ night. If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you. If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits. If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t be? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed. And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re stronger than you think, I know you will make it :) Now wipe those tears away and smile for me, you really don’t know much a smile can brighten someone’s day, do you? I hope one day yours will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world. Remember crying is not weakness, let it out as much as you can but don’t let the emotion control you by giving up. It’s okay, you’re here, you’re safe, you can let it out. Did anyone asked you, how you are feeling today? If not, how are you really? I don’t think you’re doing good, but you will feel good at one point. Don’t give yourself up. I am sorry you feel misunderstood. But anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :). Enough with beating up yourself for today, okay?! - The stranger that cares about you more than anything. I hope this is enough for you to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. I hope you can stay. This is your sign to stay and treat yourself with love, you deserve it. And in case no one told you today, again, I am so proud of you. I hope you will remember my words- emily :) Until tomorrow, my friend :)
I know that feeling so damn well but you know what? You aren't alone. Everytime you look at the sky you can be sure that one person in this world is watching at it too, feeling the same way like you. You're never alone. There are always people who understand what you have to go through!
@@beomgyusmcnugget1055 sorry if this is not directed at me and im being a burden and you probably wanted to talk to the other person.. but i just want to say a few things.. everything used to be so magical, but i messed everything up because i was confused. its all my fault no matter what other people say. that magical feeling is lost forever. and i dont know why im living if that magical feeling will never come back ever again. sorry once again for the rant.
I grew up with this song. I didn’t understand the lyrics, but 10 years later I am now 17 and the older I get the more I relate to this song. I look back upon my youth and the memories of the last drop of my innocence flash by with the music in my ears and my eyes closed.
this is the song I requested to play at my grandmother’s funeral during summer last year. I spent my entire childhood with her and all of my best childhood memories were with her, going to a park nearby, getting ice cream afterwards, laughing and admiring her while she cooked our dinner and then watching criminal minds with her until ungodly hours. I stumbled on this song again now on accident. the tears are real.
i cry every time i hear this song because it describes my past. There used to be a hangout spot where me and my best friend hung out everyday and only we know about it. I moved cross country and she found new friends. I've known her for 9 years and is brings so much pain. it makes my want to scream my heart out.
Squishy Min Yoongi thank you so much his really helped.. I went to an my old treehouse in a forest where nobody was and I screamed so much.. I feel so much better
oh. im moving in a year and im so scared to leave my friends :( my best friend and i have a little spot too and i dont want there to be a last time that i visit it with her
@@emmah.1627 try to keep in touch with her online!! If she doesn’t want to be best friends with you anymore though, just know that theres a person out there who’s waiting for you to be apart of their life just like your best friend did :)
I know it's kinda late to reply to this comment, but dear, everyone in our life moves forward, or left us alone in this big world, but that's life. Make new friends along your journey, and when you look at, these people will be in your memory, it has sadness but also happiness, we will take these memories with us until we are gone.
I walked across an empty land I knew the pathway like the back of my hand I felt the earth beneath my feet Sat by the river and it made me complete Oh simple thing, where have you gone? I'm getting old and I need something to rely on So tell me when you're gonna let me in I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin I came across a fallen tree I felt the branches of it looking at me Is this the place we used to love? Is this the place that I've been dreaming of? Oh simple thing, where have you gone? I'm getting old and I need something to rely on So tell me when you're gonna let me in I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin And if you have a minute, why don't we go Talk about it somewhere only we know? This could be the end of everything So why don't we go somewhere only we know? Somewhere only we know Oh simple thing, where have you gone? I'm getting old and I need something to rely on So tell me when you're gonna let me in I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin And if you have a minute, why don't we go Talk about it somewhere only we know? This could be the end of everything So why don't we go? So why don't we go? Oh, this could be the end of everything So why don't we go somewhere only we know? Somewhere only we know Somewhere only we know
I've been reading the comments forever, so many people with different stories. I've read broken hearts, trauma survivors, even people who can no longer be with the people they love. This is to all of you, and to all of you who haven't seen this video yet or just have. It's right now that matters, this song has so many different meanings to different people, special feelings, special memories. For me, it reminds me of when I felt safe. I've always felt a lost feeling, like I'm still looking for my home, even if it doesn't exist now. But, I'll find it. There's a home for everyone, even if that place is just a person, or a feeling. There's a tiny spot somewhere for you. For me, for them, for everyone. My point is, is that if you're here, feeling lost, hurt, nostalgic, anything! I just want you to know I hear you, and it's okay, how you feel that is, let it out. But don't let it keep you here. This song is great and all, but don't stay here forever. "I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin.." you can begin now, start living because it could be "the end of everything." And start living because you'll only get this one chance to live in this time, this place, in this body, and in this life. Maybe it's pretty crapy, maybe you hate it. But it's YOUR story! YOURS! and YOU get to choose how it ends! You live your own book, and no one likes a cliffhanger, see it through till the end! Of course, I can't tell anyone what to do, and I'm sorry if this message is stupid
this was played at my dads funeral, so for a while, i refused to listen to it. but one day i heard it on the radio and broke down crying. it still reminds me of him every time those words are sung but i’ve grown to love the memories flowing back instead of dreading them.
This song has always given me winter vibes, and it makes me really really sad and miss the past when I was a young teenager when everything was new to me
Let’s be honest, this doesn’t just show up in out recommendations, we search this up, because we grow up and remember this song. We realize how much the lyrics sting, but at the same time, how much we relate to them. But, still... I feel I am too young to relate to this so deeply. I am thirteen, and have already seen and experienced WAY too much... Sexual abuse, depression, struggles with body dysmorphia, anxiety and adhd, among other things. But for some reason This song makes me feel I am not alone.
Damn! The way you connect with the song it is the same others, even me, do. Sadness, depression, abuse, and all those horrible things, are just another things from where sigth the world and you can do a lot of things from this point! Happy fiftheen! :3
Hey guys. Wanted to say hello. I’m doing so much better now. I’m 16, looking for a job and living in a different state away from my abuser. I’m living with my wonderful dad and step mom, and five younger siblings, along with three dogs and a cat, all whom love me. I hope you all are doing okay now too.
This song tells about my past, when only my friends knew, we were always together and happy together, and one day when we grew up, we couldn't get together anymore, like before, and now we have our own paths.
I grew up with trauma my whole life, and this song always comforts me whenever im on my lowest when i was 7, now im 15, and i will never forget how this song helped me through everything ive been through.
This song is just pure nostalgia to me. I know this is so cheesy to say, but when I was a kid I remember this song being in Winnie the poo, which was the last “kids movie” my mom took my sister and I to see. Years later, she told us that she knew that was sort of a “rite of passage” and figured it would be the last movie of our childhood to watch in theaters together. Now, whenever I hear this song, I think of my mom. The greatest woman to ever do it. Anyways, cheers to y’all, wishing you the strength, courage, and love to make it through whatever it is you may be facing in life. Believe in yourself and believe in the power of hope. Take care
Listened to this the last day of high school because someone posted this to my last class watching a timer for the last bell we will ever hear. That class was like a family to me. This made me legitimately cry tears of sadness and that has only happened less then 10 times in my life.
All those imaginary friends, all those conversations with your stuffed animals all those y’all with yourself before you went to bed. There’s was always somewhere you could go, someone you could go to, even if they weren’t real. Nowadays.. you have nowhere besides you bedroom, you bathroom, the shower and your bed. You cry silently, trying not to let your parents or family hear you. It’s upsetting how everything changed. There was somewhere only you know existed, and it was so wonderful there, but it’s gone now..
currently experiencing the type of heartbreak where you and your best friend that you’ve known your whole life are growing apart and it feels like all your attempts to save the relationship fall short. and she’s the one who showed me this song:/ why do I feel so stupid
that’s really sad dude, I feel you. I was in the same situation years ago. My first guy best friend. Our mothers had been friends in high school so we grew up together. I even developed a crush on him, but as you know life goes on fast so you miss out. I haven’t been in contact with him since 2011 but I hope he’s doing alright.
@@rockstarsaintt306 aw thank you for replying, I’m trying to feel better about letting go. I’ll miss what we had and I still wish we could go back to normal but like you said, life goes on.
@@carmelinatown what’s good is that you still have memories, and memories are really important. Meaning that you’ll always have that experience, you’ll look back and sure you’ll be sad but it’ll be worth it because even though all the sad feelings, they’ll still be there in your mind, try your best to think positive. Good luck dude
This is so nostalgic, it reminds me of my childhood. I've never forgotten this song and I still remember it that's why I'm here I need to come back and understand everything so far😕
I can't see myself growing old with someone. All I can see is me giving up when I'm in college I can't see myself with a future. I gave up and nobody cares they notice I'm failing at life but don't seem to wanna even act like they care but who cares I would give up on me too
please dont give up. i dont know why we feel this heaviness and why it feels like the weight of the world is on our shoulders, but i do know there's a God who loves you and me and put us here for a reason. it sounds naive and eventhough it might not feel like it its true. i know the effort it can take just to do the simplest of things and how frustrating it is to see everyone else living with a freedom that seems so far and foreign, but one day things will be better for us all. we'll have our happy endings, no matter how long these bad chapters drag on for, so please stick around to see it. God bless ❤️
This song literally gives me an energy when I am with that particular person. I will never feel that safe, i am so thankful that he is still with me. I hope you found that peace too.
I remember when I was younger, I was in the school choir and we performed this song for a schools competition, we ended up winning first place! That was my favourite time performing with them. I really like this song though :)
i’m spilling my guts out here because ik you’ll never find it. i have feelings for you and i don’t know how to tell you because i’m too afraid of the feeling of rejection. i don’t want to make things awkward between us because i love what we have already... please don’t ever find this
Lyrics I walked across an empty land I knew the pathway like the back of my hand I felt the earth beneath my feet Sat by the river and it made me complete Oh simple thing, where have you gone? I'm getting old and I need something to rely on So tell me when you're gonna let me in I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin I came across a fallen tree I felt the branches of it looking at me Is this the place we used to love? Is this the place that I've been dreaming of? Oh simple thing, where have you gone? I'm getting old and I need something to rely on So tell me when you're gonna let me in I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin And if you have a minute, why don't we go Talk about it somewhere only we know? This could be the end of everything So why don't we go somewhere only we know? Somewhere only we know Oh simple thing, where have you gone? I'm getting old and I need something to rely on So tell me when you're gonna let me in I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin And if you have a minute, why don't we go Talk about it somewhere only we know? This could be the end of everything So why don't we go? So why don't we go? Oh, this could be the end of everything So why don't we go somewhere only we know? Somewhere only we know Somewhere only we know
I always rush into things and ruin them. I went too fast, and now I miss what we had before all of this, how it was so simple. We were just a boy and a girl at the back of a religion classroom, swearing at each other and grinning, because when we were too afraid to compliment each other, insults were the next best thing.
i can’t deal with this song yet i listen to it like it’s the only thing that is keeping me alive. my heart aches for something that never existed, a person that i will never meet again because that person never existed. i will never meet this person again because it’s been almost 10 years, i miss you so much but i always wonder if you thought of me too. i wonder and lie awake at night wondering if we were to ever meet again, in a café or on a random sidewalk if you will give me the same soft smile from our childhood again. if you will recognize me and spoke my name again with the softest intent. i’ve been so tired, i want a shoulder to rely on. i want someone to hold my hand, so i don’t have to hold my own. i want someone’s breath next to mine, i want a living body next to me. i don’t want to feel the cold air, the cold stares and the cold wall to my right. i want to hear someone’s soft snores as they slumber in peace next to me. so i know i am not alone, so i know that there is someone next to me, so i know that i’m not the only person alone, so i don’t lose myself to delusional thoughts, so i can cup your cheek in my hand and breathe happily, to feel like my goal is not my family’s.. but to co-exist with you and enjoy the days as much as we can. i can’t bear to look at our photos, i can’t bear to reflect on the past. i’ve convinced myself that you would be confused and displeased with me, i know you would be. it’s stupid, it’s insane and physically disgusting that someone would think of you like this. i’ve been so disgusted by myself for having these thoughts. it’s not funny anymore, i keep imagining that we grew up together as if those 10 years apart never existed. maybe i’m too wishful and i’m hoping that we did in another lifetime if the choices didn’t have to happen. i wonder if we would still hold hands, i wonder if we would still laugh at the same jokes. i wonder if i said “i love you” to you instead of a different person, would things be different? if i had said that “i will marry you at 25” to you instead of him, would we be different? i’m not sure if we will ever meet at 25. i hope you will live to 25 happily, but i don’t think i can continue to endure. everything i know has fallen out of place, i’m trying my best to hold it in together until i can find a suitable time to collapse… but i’m sure you don’t remember me, maybe you faintly remember the me of the past.. like me. i’m romanticizing us, i know i hurt you in the past, i know that i haven’t dared to stay in contact. there’s a ache in my heart, something keeps welling and leaking out of it. your face haunts my daydreams, my memories. i can’t bear to look at our photos, because i know my thoughts are wrong. you don’t deserve this tourment that my imagination has brewed from the depths of my godforsaken brain. it’s wrong of me to use you as a person of my ideals, the ideal companion for this lamenting heart. but in another life, i hope i can give you one gentle kiss, one gentle hug, a gentle smile before we depart on our own path. i want us to depart on good terms. unfortunately, i don’t think fate is with us in this life. i’m tired, i held too much hope that it crumbled into dust above my head. pathetically and taunting me, the hopes i held for others, and for myself. this time, this life. i will never be able to achieve my wishes, i will never become the person i had dreamt from the day i was conceived. i have become a lackluster, a painfully un-filial child and i have reflected the terrible hands who raised me into myself and reflected that back into the family. it’s tiring, i want to give up. if i left this life, will i be able to live guiltless in the next one? will i find one where i become the best, where i achieve everything? where i don’t have to clench and scrunch my eyes at night remembering and overthinking everything i had done? where i don’t have to grieve the actions i couldn’t take in the moment. to say i love you doesn’t seem right. it hurts. it’s not the “i love you” in those cheesy romance movies where the protagonist looks into the sunset with their companion in their arms. it’s not the “i love you” where the said companion dies in their arms. it’s the “i would have loved you if i knew you”, the one where it’s too late to begin anew. it’s not right of me to assert this on you. can i even say this in my position? i can’t say i am in love with someone else if that someone else is someone who and will never exist. perhaps because of this, i can’t declare to someone that i love them. i haven’t been able to say that i love someone. i wish i could experience it. i don’t care how the heart break comes and goes, i know it will hurt more or less no matter what. i want to experience the journey, i want to experience another body living and breathing next to me. again, it’s not right of me to wish that you of 10 years ago would be that person by my side. it’s too wishful. i’ve lied to the doctors and friends, i told them that i never had a plan, that was wrong. i always dreamt of a plan in the far future, where no one can remember my name or face. but doing that hurts, but i have messed up the plans by making my presence known. people know me, people can see me. it’s not good for my plan, and i know it’s not good for me. the child me would have wanted my name all over the board, to make my parents and family proud. so i wouldn’t have to be the one compared. i’ve fallen far far away from stardom, no longer am i ambitious. i have too ambitious thoughts but this body and mind can no longer make them true. i need to focus on making sure my family doesn’t suffer from this disease, but i am seeing the effects take place and it disheartens me. i stayed alive because i could not bare to affect them yet i still caused harm. i played as an adult for too long, and now the child who hid for 17 years has come out to play. i can’t bear it any more. no longer am i independent in my standards, this is not who i wanted. my indulgence is too strong for the tide to crash and shatter, it shouldnt exist. i cannot abstain like a rightfully holy person, perhaps this is the human in me, and the human in me that i hate with disgust. the me that was never supposed to stay this long since 2 years ago. the me who ruined my own plans with my own hands, my own disgusting hands, my hands who experienced too much and too less. if i tried hard to remember everything before crossing the barrier, will i remember this life before the next? or will i carry on with a clean slate, to be pure and purified from this corrupt perspective. will i undeniably tarnish that slate? will my own hand be the cause for a stained slate? i hope if that is the case, someone will help me find a righteous path. someone, anyone, anything i hope. if i am stuck to float along the current of life aimlessly and hopelessly, i hope something will come along to snuff out my flame, to snuff out my life in a blink of an eye. i have grown tired, i know there is more to see and discover but i can’t continue. i’m beyond my breaking point, i’m being eroded from the inside. it’s a matter of time before the cracks grow into gaps that lead to my emotionless and inevitable collapse. the way i fall will not be glorious or relieving as i wish it could, i know too well, i pretend to know too well, it’s only a comforting and falsely confident lie. if the day i depart, what will happen to those who determined me valuable enough to be a friend? i hope by then, my name hold no values or memories. allow me to vanish from this face of the earth with everyone’s remorse. but no matter what i do, the clock keeps ticking, the rivers flow, the winds howl and the earth keeps rotation. no matter what i do, the people still breathe and go on with their day, someone experienced joy while another experienced grief. i hope when the day comes, my family experienced no grief and lives in peace and satisfaction. it’s too late for me to start anew, i don’t have enough time and energy for it. at the time of this sentence, the ache in my heart has left for the night, but i know it will return again like a specter. i hope if i ever have to return and read this.. confession 10 years in the future.. that something has changed to prevent our doomsday and final moment. but i hope that never happens, and that in 10 years this confession is forgotten by your pathetic and irredeemable human mind. in 10 years, let’s never meet again. consider me your darkest hour or whatever delusional title you can think of, i hope you’re not cornered in a dead end. you wanted to avoid dead ends when you were me, you experienced one for over a year. forget the me, learn from my experiences, grow to be the person that is close enough to our original ideal, i know that even 10 years ahead is not enough to reach our goal. if you grow old, you’re unfathomable. if your reason for crossing to the other side is not caused by hands, i genuinely do not consider us the same. you would be a different individual at that point, we are a small path that split and grew in numbers equal to a tree’s branches. unfortunate for the tree, many of those branches will never get to grow out and reach for the light. do not bother contacting me, this is simply a confession. nothing more, nothing less. do not assume what i spoke was false or true. my name is not real, and all i know was that this confession began when my heart aches within this body of mine. all i hear is silence dominating this environment of mine. there is no one to remind me that i’m alive.
I just missed you at the cafe, I was a minute too late. I have thought of you too. I was on the same side walk you were i just went the wrong way. Those 10 years were the longest 10 years of my life. I’m 25 now. And I still love you. One day I’ll be there, and I’ll find you somewhere only we know.
Whenever i listen to this slowed music, it gives me feels like He still next to me. This is the last music he played before 29 January 2018 he passed away. I always imagine he is next to me when im listening to this memorable song ^^
I listened to this before going to prom. Throughout the 3 hours, it kept playing as I realized that this was it, I was never going to set foot in that school again. All those people would be gone. I only went to see her. Her ex kept going in and out of the little place she was in, and I thought that I couldn't approach her. Each second, this song played. And I could only think about her. When it was time to go, I held back the tears, took my courage, and went and talked to her a bit. Eventually she broke down. I wanted to cry with her, but I held back my tears. Eventually, when she was leaving, I thought she was gone forever, but she ended coming back, and then leaving again, so I decided this was it, I ran up to her when she was far enough from the others and confessed, and I got my heart broken. "That's cute! Okay, bye!" in her usual cheery tone. I thought if I went and confessed, I would finally feel free, but no. There have been far worse days, yet this was the one I was going to cry about. Love was the only thing that kept me going, so now that I had my heart broken, I didn't know what to do. So I slowly walked back to my friend that was waiting for me, and I'm not gonna lie I didn't have the energy to speak or do anything other than walking. If you're reading this, which I doubt you are but I might as well, dude. not cool. i said I'll miss you, not even a "I'll miss you too", nah you just had to be like that. well now that I vented my feelings, I can finally truly move on from you. I guess I had my character development event because of you. meh, this story's boring, im over it now lmao
*this song really hits when you try and remember your past memories, or someone you miss truly.. clearly for me. i miss my grandma we have SUCH A good bond together!! i was on call with her.. we just started crying over the littlest things we remember with each other xx. i wish i lived where all my family is. may allah make it easy on them x ❤❤ 🥹🥹🥹*
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here bro😢
Here's i am
this song hurts me the most
in the best way possible
unknøwn tempation ikr :(
I feel u
@@shayleejeanne same :/
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i’m getting tired and i need somewhere to begin :(
Hey luv its been 5 months since you commented this how we're these passed months I know I'm a stranger but I just want to check up on you :)
Jesus is with you always. ꨄ
hey it’s been 7 months just wanted to do a quick check up :D how are you?
@@Lizzz350 Hey, thank you so much for checking on me. I'm doing much better today. I just saw all the replies and started crying. Really, thank you so much for caring. ❤️🥺😭
@@noad.2793 hii, i'm doing much better these days. Thank you for asking, it really brought me to tears when i saw your comment. ❤️🥺🥺😭
when I listen to this, all I can feel is my hidden emotions. Those that I try so hard to hide.
Ouch
RainSara sadly the truth
It brought out emotions I didn’t realise I had any more
What's on your mind this is a safe place.
@@themoosevillage5543 too much to say in 500 characters
Dear person whoever reads this,
Hey, you, yes, I am talking right to you. I hope you will see yourself with the eyes I see you one day, because I can tell you have some awesome music taste :) You’re such a beautiful human being and you are enough. I hope you know that you do only need yourself to be happy, I know society builds up the standard that whenever you’re alone you’re not living a happy live. But in fact that is not true, if you start to realize that you actually deserve all the good things happening to you, you will treat yourself a lot nicer. I hope you let yourself rest, don’t beat yourself up over past mistakes, over regret, and over everything your mind wants to destroy you. I wish I could remove all those demons inside of your head because you deserve to feel happy. If you ever feel lonely then watch the sky, because you know, someone, at the same time is watching the sky too, maybe feeling the same way..I am glad you exist and I hope you won’t ever remove your own spot in this world, maybe you don’t feel like you belong here but, Angel, you have your home here. I don’t want you to leave this world unhappy. I want you to live every little second, I want you to feel alive, I don’t want you to see yourself just existing. You deserve it. Whatever happened, it’s not your fault, the demons in your head recognize that you have a beautiful heart, they want to take it because they have never seen such beautiful heart as yours, so why let them win over you? . You’re not selfish for isolating yourself, but you deserve to talk to someone. If you’re reading this then please never forget to breathe and smile.
Don’t live up to other standards! It’s your story and not theirs.
Live for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one.
I love you and send you hugs.
You’re so strong, you’re still here, and I am proud of you.
YOU ARE NOT USELESS. READ THAT AGAIN.
YOU ARE WORTH IT. READ THAT AGAIN.
YOU ARE LOVED. READ THAT AGAIN.
I AM GLAD YOU EXIST. READ THAT AGAIN.
YOU ARE NOT A PROBLEM. YOU ARE HUMAN AND YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID. READ THAT AGAIN.
YOU ARE NOT BEING DRAMATIC.
You’re not a burden to anyone, don’t be afraid to talk, to use your voice.
You’re beautiful inside out. Your body is beautiful the way it is.
Please don’t starve yourself. Please eat, I know it’s hard but you deserve food. You deserve to eat and drink.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. READ THAT AGAIN.
I WISH I COULD HUG YOU RIGHT NOW, SO A VIRTUAL HUG WILL DO.
It hurts me to see you’re in pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you.
I love u I love u I love u I love u I love u please don’t go.
I am sorry that no one is hearing you, I am sorry no one is noticing that you have lost yourself. I wish I could take your pain away, it hurts me to see the pain in your eyes. I love you through my words and I mean it. I just want you to stay, hold on a little longer okay? Please? For me.??
I hope you have an awesome day/ morning/ evening/ night.
If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you.
If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits.
If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t be? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed.
And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re stronger than you think, I know you will make it :)
Now wipe those tears away and smile for me, you really don’t know much a smile can brighten someone’s day, do you? I hope one day yours will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world.
Remember crying is not weakness, let it out as much as you can but don’t let the emotion control you by giving up. It’s okay, you’re here, you’re safe, you can let it out.
Did anyone asked you, how you are feeling today? If not, how are you really? I don’t think you’re doing good, but you will feel good at one point. Don’t give yourself up.
I am sorry you feel misunderstood.
But anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :).
Enough with beating up yourself for today, okay?!
- The stranger that cares about you more than anything.
I hope this is enough for you to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. I hope you can stay.
This is your sign to stay and treat yourself with love, you deserve it.
And in case no one told you today, again, I am so proud of you.
I hope you will remember my words- emily :)
Until tomorrow, my friend :)
Thank u for this :')
thank you
I LOVE you
🖤thank u so much
Just what I needed right now
Thank you Emily
in a world full of so many people, i have never felt more alone
Hold on until tomorrow. One day, life will be magic again.
But…but…I’m here
I know that feeling so damn well but you know what? You aren't alone. Everytime you look at the sky you can be sure that one person in this world is watching at it too, feeling the same way like you. You're never alone. There are always people who understand what you have to go through!
Because you don't like yourself. Make the effort to change your life.
@@beomgyusmcnugget1055 sorry if this is not directed at me and im being a burden and you probably wanted to talk to the other person.. but i just want to say a few things.. everything used to be so magical, but i messed everything up because i was confused. its all my fault no matter what other people say. that magical feeling is lost forever. and i dont know why im living if that magical feeling will never come back ever again. sorry once again for the rant.
I grew up with this song. I didn’t understand the lyrics, but 10 years later I am now 17 and the older I get the more I relate to this song. I look back upon my youth and the memories of the last drop of my innocence flash by with the music in my ears and my eyes closed.
wow
@@samanthaa557 yuh
yup me too, i hope u know u matter and ur loved.
Same :( it’s crazy how fast childhood goes by
I remember listening to this in class when i was 7. I’ve always liked the song, but now when I am 13, I finally understand the lyrics.
Why does this song hit me so hard
Just right in nostalgia
yea...
just enough to make you happy, but not too much that you’re overwhelmed with sadness
@@larrystylinsonsbridesmaid7866 your username made me geek. this is an OG larry song :(
hello bro😞
this is the song I requested to play at my grandmother’s funeral during summer last year. I spent my entire childhood with her and all of my best childhood memories were with her, going to a park nearby, getting ice cream afterwards, laughing and admiring her while she cooked our dinner and then watching criminal minds with her until ungodly hours. I stumbled on this song again now on accident. the tears are real.
im sorry for ur loss :(
Im so sorry for your loss i lost my grandma early 2019 I feel for you ❤️
you have me in tears reading this
im sorry for your loss
I’m sorry for your loss
Makes me want to sob my heart out every time
this makes my heart explode
This is the bookworms' official anthem, fight me
Bye the accuracy 🤾♂️🕳
not me reading while listening to this -
THE ACCURACY- MY HEART HURTSSSS BYEEE 🕳🛴
yes and no…i love books but i also never start or finish them
Damn right it is.
2:57 This part is so beautiful
Ty
True
i cry every time i hear this song because it describes my past. There used to be a hangout spot where me and my best friend hung out everyday and only we know about it. I moved cross country and she found new friends. I've known her for 9 years and is brings so much pain. it makes my want to scream my heart out.
Squishy Min Yoongi thank you so much his really helped.. I went to an my old treehouse in a forest where nobody was and I screamed so much.. I feel so much better
i’m so sorry love
oh. im moving in a year and im so scared to leave my friends :( my best friend and i have a little spot too and i dont want there to be a last time that i visit it with her
@@emmah.1627 try to keep in touch with her online!! If she doesn’t want to be best friends with you anymore though, just know that theres a person out there who’s waiting for you to be apart of their life just like your best friend did :)
I know it's kinda late to reply to this comment, but dear, everyone in our life moves forward, or left us alone in this big world, but that's life. Make new friends along your journey, and when you look at, these people will be in your memory, it has sadness but also happiness, we will take these memories with us until we are gone.
sometimes i wish i could cry with everyone else who’s listening to this while feeling lonely
we could all feel lonely together yk
Me too lol.
same here
ok but the breathing in makes me uncomfortable because its so deep i-
Yeah
Thank you for making me stop crying
I dont know how to feel
Same :(
Same. Also ur pfp is cool
yum same bc yes😩
"im getting older and i need something to rely on" MY HEART JUST BROKE MAN🙁.. 1:02
I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?
Oh simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
And if you have a minute, why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know
Oh simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
And if you have a minute, why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go? So why don't we go?
Oh, this could be the end of everything
So why don't we go somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know
Somewhere only we know
Thanks for taking the time to comment this♡
they just copy and pasted@@biancawanabanawannabe
RIP Akira Toriyama , the GOAT and creator of DragonBall
I remember my grandma...she died 4 years ago, and she was like the mother i never have. I miss you...
sorry for your lost i know its years later i dont feel to remind it to you
This song just brings back so much memories, it always makes me happy
happy? it makes me want to scream and cry aha
Yess I agree w youuu I played this every morning until I graduated 💕
I've been reading the comments forever, so many people with different stories. I've read broken hearts, trauma survivors, even people who can no longer be with the people they love.
This is to all of you, and to all of you who haven't seen this video yet or just have.
It's right now that matters, this song has so many different meanings to different people, special feelings, special memories. For me, it reminds me of when I felt safe. I've always felt a lost feeling, like I'm still looking for my home, even if it doesn't exist now. But, I'll find it. There's a home for everyone, even if that place is just a person, or a feeling. There's a tiny spot somewhere for you. For me, for them, for everyone.
My point is, is that if you're here, feeling lost, hurt, nostalgic, anything! I just want you to know I hear you, and it's okay, how you feel that is, let it out. But don't let it keep you here. This song is great and all, but don't stay here forever. "I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin.." you can begin now, start living because it could be "the end of everything." And start living because you'll only get this one chance to live in this time, this place, in this body, and in this life. Maybe it's pretty crapy, maybe you hate it. But it's YOUR story! YOURS! and YOU get to choose how it ends! You live your own book, and no one likes a cliffhanger, see it through till the end! Of course, I can't tell anyone what to do, and I'm sorry if this message is stupid
Wow this is really nice! Thanks
This comment is better than some shitty ones with thousands of likes. The society needs this cment to blow up!
I'm leaving this comment here so after a month or a year when someone likes it, I get reminded of this song ❤
Nice man❤
i just want to have one day where i’m not stressed and filled with anxiety
The song’s really painful. But it was a lot painful looking at the background from studio ghibli. You don’t have to break me this way.
What movie is it from ? It’s telling me something but I can’t put my finger on it…
@@lucfurr9914 when marnie was there
@@dopylamingo2506 thanks ! :D
When marnie was there is such a beautiful movie
Yea it is
should i watch it
@@4rby YES.
@@biscuitlasagne5391 IM GONNA WATCH IT LATER BESTIE
my fav movie
As i was drinking milk, Suddenly i felt tears flowing down my eyes. As i felt even more lonely.
Romans 8:18
"The pain you've been feeling cannot compare to the joy that's coming"(sorry if i sent this verse wrong)
amen
thank thank u tytytytytyttytysmmmm
Amen.
Amen.
Amen
this was played at my dads funeral, so for a while, i refused to listen to it. but one day i heard it on the radio and broke down crying. it still reminds me of him every time those words are sung but i’ve grown to love the memories flowing back instead of dreading them.
I hope your feeling better my friend even if you made this a year ago ❤
2:15
Don’t mind me just my favorite part
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yes
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3:24
we might not see each other now but maybe someday we can end up in the same story together...
This song has always given me winter vibes, and it makes me really really sad and miss the past when I was a young teenager when everything was new to me
U should listen to snowed under, it's by the same band but a lot less well known
In a world full of so many people, I have never felt more alone....
This hit deep
Let’s be honest, this doesn’t just show up in out recommendations, we search this up, because we grow up and remember this song. We realize how much the lyrics sting, but at the same time, how much we relate to them.
But, still...
I feel I am too young to relate to this so deeply.
I am thirteen, and have already seen and experienced WAY too much...
Sexual abuse, depression, struggles with body dysmorphia, anxiety and adhd, among other things.
But for some reason
This song makes me feel I am not alone.
You're not alone love❤ thank you for taking the time to write this, it made me smile.
I hope it gets better.
Damn! The way you connect with the song it is the same others, even me, do. Sadness, depression, abuse, and all those horrible things, are just another things from where sigth the world and you can do a lot of things from this point! Happy fiftheen! :3
Were same age now 15😢
Hey guys. Wanted to say hello. I’m doing so much better now. I’m 16, looking for a job and living in a different state away from my abuser. I’m living with my wonderful dad and step mom, and five younger siblings, along with three dogs and a cat, all whom love me. I hope you all are doing okay now too.
This song tells about my past, when only my friends knew, we were always together and happy together, and one day when we grew up, we couldn't get together anymore, like before, and now we have our own paths.
Mantap
if ur listening to this who betrayed\ hurt,or left u? do u have trust issues cause same 🥺😞
bruh stop with that emoji mg
friends, mom, dad, brother, literally everyone who's walked into my life
the world.
@@maryedgar3778 I feel u😒
My mom 😭😞
It's the kind of music that makes me feel nostalgic, even for a time I never lived in!
1:03 💔
I grew up with trauma my whole life, and this song always comforts me whenever im on my lowest when i was 7, now im 15, and i will never forget how this song helped me through everything ive been through.
Keep going your gonna do great things-amm
this song is different from the rest. don’t ask me why. it just has a special place in my soul.
Brings me old memories that i didnt want to end
I just miss my old school. And my old friends. I wish I could go back time :(
this gives me so many childhood vibes. just the good days.
This song is just pure nostalgia to me. I know this is so cheesy to say, but when I was a kid I remember this song being in Winnie the poo, which was the last “kids movie” my mom took my sister and I to see. Years later, she told us that she knew that was sort of a “rite of passage” and figured it would be the last movie of our childhood to watch in theaters together. Now, whenever I hear this song, I think of my mom. The greatest woman to ever do it.
Anyways, cheers to y’all, wishing you the strength, courage, and love to make it through whatever it is you may be facing in life. Believe in yourself and believe in the power of hope. Take care
i fr dont know what to do my family and friends don't under stand me
God bless & I hope ur okay❤
Jesus loves you❤
Listened to this the last day of high school because someone posted this to my last class watching a timer for the last bell we will ever hear. That class was like a family to me. This made me legitimately cry tears of sadness and that has only happened less then 10 times in my life.
I fell too hard for him and now I'm losing myself. I hope she makes him happy at least.
I could make you happy if you want
@@Redrider-xn9nw aw how sweet
This song reminds me of a relationship I had that didn't end the way I hoped it would. It makes me cry but the song is so nice that it's worth it.
All those imaginary friends, all those conversations with your stuffed animals all those y’all with yourself before you went to bed. There’s was always somewhere you could go, someone you could go to, even if they weren’t real. Nowadays.. you have nowhere besides you bedroom, you bathroom, the shower and your bed. You cry silently, trying not to let your parents or family hear you. It’s upsetting how everything changed. There was somewhere only you know existed, and it was so wonderful there, but it’s gone now..
Pain
So painful 😭
currently experiencing the type of heartbreak where you and your best friend that you’ve known your whole life are growing apart and it feels like all your attempts to save the relationship fall short. and she’s the one who showed me this song:/ why do I feel so stupid
that’s really sad dude, I feel you. I was in the same situation years ago. My first guy best friend. Our mothers had been friends in high school so we grew up together. I even developed a crush on him, but as you know life goes on fast so you miss out. I haven’t been in contact with him since 2011 but I hope he’s doing alright.
@@rockstarsaintt306 aw thank you for replying, I’m trying to feel better about letting go. I’ll miss what we had and I still wish we could go back to normal but like you said, life goes on.
@@carmelinatown what’s good is that you still have memories, and memories are really important. Meaning that you’ll always have that experience, you’ll look back and sure you’ll be sad but it’ll be worth it because even though all the sad feelings, they’ll still be there in your mind, try your best to think positive. Good luck dude
this song fits sooo much with when marnie was there, adding them was a power move
SUCH AN AMAZING MOVIE
This is so nostalgic, it reminds me of my childhood. I've never forgotten this song and I still remember it that's why I'm here I need to come back and understand everything so far😕
I can't see myself growing old with someone. All I can see is me giving up when I'm in college I can't see myself with a future. I gave up and nobody cares they notice I'm failing at life but don't seem to wanna even act like they care but who cares I would give up on me too
please dont give up. i dont know why we feel this heaviness and why it feels like the weight of the world is on our shoulders, but i do know there's a God who loves you and me and put us here for a reason. it sounds naive and eventhough it might not feel like it its true. i know the effort it can take just to do the simplest of things and how frustrating it is to see everyone else living with a freedom that seems so far and foreign, but one day things will be better for us all. we'll have our happy endings, no matter how long these bad chapters drag on for, so please stick around to see it. God bless ❤️
@@scatteredperceptions890 thank you
eren...💔
This song literally gives me an energy when I am with that particular person. I will never feel that safe, i am so thankful that he is still with me. I hope you found that peace too.
i keep coming back to this song..
I finally found the girl who makes me feel happy. I'm always happy with her. She's my angel.
I remember when I was younger, I was in the school choir and we performed this song for a schools competition, we ended up winning first place! That was my favourite time performing with them.
I really like this song though :)
0:00 so u dont have to rewind 🖤 ps: i love u🖤
thanks
i’m spilling my guts out here because ik you’ll never find it.
i have feelings for you and i don’t know how to tell you because i’m too afraid of the feeling of rejection. i don’t want to make things awkward between us because i love what we have already... please don’t ever find this
The brave ones are the ones who succes the most.
hope you Acc confessed and are doing good
The gif in the background is from the anime “When Marnie was there” Yw
SUCH AN AMAZING FILM
I love this as well as the original
Lyrics
I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?
Oh simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
And if you have a minute, why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know
Oh simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
And if you have a minute, why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go? So why don't we go?
Oh, this could be the end of everything
So why don't we go somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know
Somewhere only we know
This songs Goes through our childhood to our current life ❤
i came from a giyuu and sabito edit and my heart aches for them :(
Are they from a anime?
@@kylivz yes! it’s kimetsu no yaiba/demon slayer :)
@@noyauwu5806 omg i love demon slayer if you find the link can u send it :)
Could you leave the link? I really want to see
Breathing seems harder but listening to this song lightens up the burden I carry everyday
Maybe we like the slowed version because life is moving too fast now
Ahah can't be more true 🙃
Yeah you commented this 2yrs ago.Time flies😢
I knew this song even a couple of years ago, but after Attack on Titan ended, I had a different connection with this song.
What the heck. What has attack on titan to do with this song.
@iknowwatdadogdoin5454 idk for me it adds to the emptiness feeling and also the lyrics kind of match up with the ending
@@iknowwatdadogdoin5454I don't even know myself. For some reason people keep attributing this specific song to it
WHEN MARNIE WAS THERE OMG I LOVE THAT MOVIE
HELL YEAH
“Sometimes I wish I knew we were in the good old days before we actually left them.”
I'm crying
2:21 it's like begging for you comfort character to stay with you after shifting or dreaming of them
I grew up without saying my problems and thoughts to my parents because they are the one who pulling me down, so so thank you very much emily
Hearing this song during a departure from a friend. Worst pain I've ever felt, especially when listening to a song
Im watching this because the legend that wrote dragon ball died so lets do the last KAMEHAMEHA for our sensei Akira Toriyama
KAAAAAA 😭😭😭
this song always reminds me of narnia
this reminds me of disney movies like cars and toy story happy times :))))))
this song hits different 3 years later.
Been listening to this every night.
This makes me feel something I could never describe.
a dor nunca se afasta ela da um tempo. 😔
This song and pastlives make me sob so much truly I’ve never felt like I can relate to something so much
This song hits hard💫
I wish I could listen to this song for the first time again🥺❤
I always rush into things and ruin them. I went too fast, and now I miss what we had before all of this, how it was so simple. We were just a boy and a girl at the back of a religion classroom, swearing at each other and grinning, because when we were too afraid to compliment each other, insults were the next best thing.
i can’t deal with this song yet i listen to it like it’s the only thing that is keeping me alive. my heart aches for something that never existed, a person that i will never meet again because that person never existed. i will never meet this person again because it’s been almost 10 years, i miss you so much but i always wonder if you thought of me too. i wonder and lie awake at night wondering if we were to ever meet again, in a café or on a random sidewalk if you will give me the same soft smile from our childhood again. if you will recognize me and spoke my name again with the softest intent. i’ve been so tired, i want a shoulder to rely on. i want someone to hold my hand, so i don’t have to hold my own. i want someone’s breath next to mine, i want a living body next to me. i don’t want to feel the cold air, the cold stares and the cold wall to my right. i want to hear someone’s soft snores as they slumber in peace next to me. so i know i am not alone, so i know that there is someone next to me, so i know that i’m not the only person alone, so i don’t lose myself to delusional thoughts, so i can cup your cheek in my hand and breathe happily, to feel like my goal is not my family’s.. but to co-exist with you and enjoy the days as much as we can. i can’t bear to look at our photos, i can’t bear to reflect on the past. i’ve convinced myself that you would be confused and displeased with me, i know you would be. it’s stupid, it’s insane and physically disgusting that someone would think of you like this. i’ve been so disgusted by myself for having these thoughts. it’s not funny anymore, i keep imagining that we grew up together as if those 10 years apart never existed. maybe i’m too wishful and i’m hoping that we did in another lifetime if the choices didn’t have to happen. i wonder if we would still hold hands, i wonder if we would still laugh at the same jokes. i wonder if i said “i love you” to you instead of a different person, would things be different? if i had said that “i will marry you at 25” to you instead of him, would we be different? i’m not sure if we will ever meet at 25. i hope you will live to 25 happily, but i don’t think i can continue to endure. everything i know has fallen out of place, i’m trying my best to hold it in together until i can find a suitable time to collapse… but i’m sure you don’t remember me, maybe you faintly remember the me of the past.. like me. i’m romanticizing us, i know i hurt you in the past, i know that i haven’t dared to stay in contact. there’s a ache in my heart, something keeps welling and leaking out of it. your face haunts my daydreams, my memories. i can’t bear to look at our photos, because i know my thoughts are wrong. you don’t deserve this tourment that my imagination has brewed from the depths of my godforsaken brain. it’s wrong of me to use you as a person of my ideals, the ideal companion for this lamenting heart. but in another life, i hope i can give you one gentle kiss, one gentle hug, a gentle smile before we depart on our own path. i want us to depart on good terms. unfortunately, i don’t think fate is with us in this life. i’m tired, i held too much hope that it crumbled into dust above my head. pathetically and taunting me, the hopes i held for others, and for myself. this time, this life. i will never be able to achieve my wishes, i will never become the person i had dreamt from the day i was conceived. i have become a lackluster, a painfully un-filial child and i have reflected the terrible hands who raised me into myself and reflected that back into the family. it’s tiring, i want to give up. if i left this life, will i be able to live guiltless in the next one? will i find one where i become the best, where i achieve everything? where i don’t have to clench and scrunch my eyes at night remembering and overthinking everything i had done? where i don’t have to grieve the actions i couldn’t take in the moment. to say i love you doesn’t seem right. it hurts. it’s not the “i love you” in those cheesy romance movies where the protagonist looks into the sunset with their companion in their arms. it’s not the “i love you” where the said companion dies in their arms. it’s the “i would have loved you if i knew you”, the one where it’s too late to begin anew. it’s not right of me to assert this on you. can i even say this in my position? i can’t say i am in love with someone else if that someone else is someone who and will never exist. perhaps because of this, i can’t declare to someone that i love them. i haven’t been able to say that i love someone. i wish i could experience it. i don’t care how the heart break comes and goes, i know it will hurt more or less no matter what. i want to experience the journey, i want to experience another body living and breathing next to me. again, it’s not right of me to wish that you of 10 years ago would be that person by my side. it’s too wishful. i’ve lied to the doctors and friends, i told them that i never had a plan, that was wrong. i always dreamt of a plan in the far future, where no one can remember my name or face. but doing that hurts, but i have messed up the plans by making my presence known. people know me, people can see me. it’s not good for my plan, and i know it’s not good for me. the child me would have wanted my name all over the board, to make my parents and family proud. so i wouldn’t have to be the one compared. i’ve fallen far far away from stardom, no longer am i ambitious. i have too ambitious thoughts but this body and mind can no longer make them true. i need to focus on making sure my family doesn’t suffer from this disease, but i am seeing the effects take place and it disheartens me. i stayed alive because i could not bare to affect them yet i still caused harm. i played as an adult for too long, and now the child who hid for 17 years has come out to play. i can’t bear it any more. no longer am i independent in my standards, this is not who i wanted. my indulgence is too strong for the tide to crash and shatter, it shouldnt exist. i cannot abstain like a rightfully holy person, perhaps this is the human in me, and the human in me that i hate with disgust. the me that was never supposed to stay this long since 2 years ago. the me who ruined my own plans with my own hands, my own disgusting hands, my hands who experienced too much and too less. if i tried hard to remember everything before crossing the barrier, will i remember this life before the next? or will i carry on with a clean slate, to be pure and purified from this corrupt perspective. will i undeniably tarnish that slate? will my own hand be the cause for a stained slate? i hope if that is the case, someone will help me find a righteous path. someone, anyone, anything i hope. if i am stuck to float along the current of life aimlessly and hopelessly, i hope something will come along to snuff out my flame, to snuff out my life in a blink of an eye. i have grown tired, i know there is more to see and discover but i can’t continue. i’m beyond my breaking point, i’m being eroded from the inside. it’s a matter of time before the cracks grow into gaps that lead to my emotionless and inevitable collapse. the way i fall will not be glorious or relieving as i wish it could, i know too well, i pretend to know too well, it’s only a comforting and falsely confident lie. if the day i depart, what will happen to those who determined me valuable enough to be a friend? i hope by then, my name hold no values or memories. allow me to vanish from this face of the earth with everyone’s remorse. but no matter what i do, the clock keeps ticking, the rivers flow, the winds howl and the earth keeps rotation. no matter what i do, the people still breathe and go on with their day, someone experienced joy while another experienced grief. i hope when the day comes, my family experienced no grief and lives in peace and satisfaction. it’s too late for me to start anew, i don’t have enough time and energy for it. at the time of this sentence, the ache in my heart has left for the night, but i know it will return again like a specter. i hope if i ever have to return and read this.. confession 10 years in the future.. that something has changed to prevent our doomsday and final moment. but i hope that never happens, and that in 10 years this confession is forgotten by your pathetic and irredeemable human mind. in 10 years, let’s never meet again. consider me your darkest hour or whatever delusional title you can think of, i hope you’re not cornered in a dead end. you wanted to avoid dead ends when you were me, you experienced one for over a year. forget the me, learn from my experiences, grow to be the person that is close enough to our original ideal, i know that even 10 years ahead is not enough to reach our goal. if you grow old, you’re unfathomable. if your reason for crossing to the other side is not caused by hands, i genuinely do not consider us the same. you would be a different individual at that point, we are a small path that split and grew in numbers equal to a tree’s branches. unfortunate for the tree, many of those branches will never get to grow out and reach for the light.
do not bother contacting me, this is simply a confession. nothing more, nothing less. do not assume what i spoke was false or true. my name is not real, and all i know was that this confession began when my heart aches within this body of mine. all i hear is silence dominating this environment of mine. there is no one to remind me that i’m alive.
I just missed you at the cafe, I was a minute too late. I have thought of you too. I was on the same side walk you were i just went the wrong way. Those 10 years were the longest 10 years of my life. I’m 25 now. And I still love you. One day I’ll be there, and I’ll find you somewhere only we know.
Whenever i listen to this slowed music, it gives me feels like He still next to me. This is the last music he played before 29 January 2018 he passed away. I always imagine he is next to me when im listening to this memorable song ^^
I listened to this before going to prom. Throughout the 3 hours, it kept playing as I realized that this was it, I was never going to set foot in that school again. All those people would be gone. I only went to see her. Her ex kept going in and out of the little place she was in, and I thought that I couldn't approach her. Each second, this song played. And I could only think about her. When it was time to go, I held back the tears, took my courage, and went and talked to her a bit. Eventually she broke down. I wanted to cry with her, but I held back my tears. Eventually, when she was leaving, I thought she was gone forever, but she ended coming back, and then leaving again, so I decided this was it, I ran up to her when she was far enough from the others and confessed, and I got my heart broken. "That's cute! Okay, bye!" in her usual cheery tone. I thought if I went and confessed, I would finally feel free, but no. There have been far worse days, yet this was the one I was going to cry about. Love was the only thing that kept me going, so now that I had my heart broken, I didn't know what to do. So I slowly walked back to my friend that was waiting for me, and I'm not gonna lie I didn't have the energy to speak or do anything other than walking. If you're reading this, which I doubt you are but I might as well, dude. not cool. i said I'll miss you, not even a "I'll miss you too", nah you just had to be like that. well now that I vented my feelings, I can finally truly move on from you. I guess I had my character development event because of you.
meh, this story's boring, im over it now lmao
The background is from the anime when Marlie was there
This song never fails to bring tears - so nostalgic. Thank you for this version, im crying thinking about the loml
I miss old days 🥺
* takes a punch of nostalgia to the gut *
i remember literally crying to this song when i was 5 when the preview of winnie the pooh came on 🥲
*this song really hits when you try and remember your past memories, or someone you miss truly.. clearly for me. i miss my grandma we have SUCH A good bond together!! i was on call with her.. we just started crying over the littlest things we remember with each other xx. i wish i lived where all my family is. may allah make it easy on them x ❤❤ 🥹🥹🥹*
here after the aot chapter 138 manga leaks . .
Eiji’s letter to Ash
don’t make me cry again
@@layla9294 sorry😞👉👈
"this could be the end of everything" damn..
accept it, now the world is passing faster and we are also getting old faster, what I want is for us all to enjoy every second we have