Citizen Soldier - Never Good Enough (Official Lyric Video)

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  • Life can be an uphill battle when you feel you are forever falling short.
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    Lyric video by: Kyle Persell @kylepersell
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  • @CitizenSoldier
    @CitizenSoldier  Před 10 měsíci +30

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    Please SHARE it with someone that needs to hear it.

  • @thefallen9805
    @thefallen9805 Před 4 lety +2806

    "Mediocre at best, maybe better off dead" that one hit hard, damn.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 4 lety +140

      TheGameBoss980 glad you connected with it friend 🖤🤘🏻

    • @joshuabakerchainsaw
      @joshuabakerchainsaw Před 4 lety +26

      @@CitizenSoldier may i use this song for my upcoming open world survival game that i am making

    • @xenotriver
      @xenotriver Před 4 lety +36

      @@joshuabakerchainsaw I think you should rather contact them via email, more official and suiting for this kind of questions

    • @UltimateKarma3
      @UltimateKarma3 Před 4 lety +24

      Yeah, that hit me hard as well

    • @TFitz1
      @TFitz1 Před 4 lety +11

      Yep

  • @isabellestiphout7793
    @isabellestiphout7793 Před 4 lety +2535

    “Why can’t you be proud of me”. This hit so hard I’m crying

  • @thelonelyinfj
    @thelonelyinfj Před 4 lety +575

    "I'd rather die, then to let you down one more time." My favorite quote of this song.

    • @natashaalicia8105
      @natashaalicia8105 Před 2 lety +4

      Oh mine too...nothing more powerful than hatred. It gives you the guts to do what needs to be done.

    • @enriquebatista3
      @enriquebatista3 Před 2 lety

      Mine too

    • @user-do9xu3ti2u
      @user-do9xu3ti2u Před 2 lety +2

      Who ever your talking about is so very lucky to have you in there life I could only wish to have somebody who cared so much

    • @Obi-Wan_Kenobi62
      @Obi-Wan_Kenobi62 Před rokem

      That seems like a poor prioritization list 💀

    • @luciferpetrenkoff5040
      @luciferpetrenkoff5040 Před rokem

      My favorite line as well

  • @NyxNovaStar
    @NyxNovaStar Před 2 lety +320

    That line...."I hate to disappoint you, but its my DNA" and the raw way he roars it...breaks me every time. So many chills and tears.

  • @cryptidcreates9942
    @cryptidcreates9942 Před 4 lety +1278

    Never thought I would find a song so perfect for my mental state rn.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 4 lety +159

      Hope it helps! Hope things get better for you friend 🖤

    • @billydog55
      @billydog55 Před 3 lety +37

      It will get better. After 53 years I finally learned to stop trying to live up to other peoples, spoken or unspoken expectations of me. Expectations cause resentments for me

    • @silentkiller3764
      @silentkiller3764 Před 3 lety +23

      Felt that bro....I'm so tired of living at this point.....everything I do that makes me happy everyone I care for is now hating me breaking me.....more than I can imagine.....

    • @mohamedshabin9176
      @mohamedshabin9176 Před 3 lety +4

      @Caylin W same ;-;

    • @savagewolf23e49
      @savagewolf23e49 Před 3 lety +11

      @@CitizenSoldier you guys are great you mean a lot to a lot of people keep saving us🤘🤘🤘

  • @zamv2643
    @zamv2643 Před 4 lety +1192

    "Am I a failure from birth"
    "Is misery what I deserve "
    "Am I so void of love"
    "AM I NOT GOOD ENOUGH "
    " NEVER GOOD ENOUGH "
    💘💘💘

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 4 lety +62

      ㄥZ AMV glad you like it friend 🖤🤘🏻

    • @zamv2643
      @zamv2643 Před 4 lety +41

      @@CitizenSoldier I don't like it I LOVE it ❤

    • @jadeenthusiastic2496
      @jadeenthusiastic2496 Před 3 lety +5

      Yes you are... give urself more credit... 💖💖💖💖

    • @hermitsunite953
      @hermitsunite953 Před 3 lety +5

      @@zamv2643 funny thing is all i hear is Failure from birth, misery is what I deserve.

    • @kristopherowen1491
      @kristopherowen1491 Před 3 lety +3

      Those are the lyrics that got to me!!! this one runs deep in my veins.

  • @dittycin
    @dittycin Před 2 lety +1094

    Last night my husband told me I need to stop listening to your music. The words make him uncomfortable and he doesn't understand how they can possibly be any good for me. I told him that I need to know that there is at least one person out there who understands my pain. ' I love his voice and he make me feel.'

    • @susanleschinsky1631
      @susanleschinsky1631 Před rokem +33

      I understand really I feel the same

    • @darkenedways433
      @darkenedways433 Před rokem +73

      I'd crank it even louder

    • @twistedreality997
      @twistedreality997 Před rokem +105

      your husband even trying to tell you what you should and shouldn't listen to is a whole red flag

    • @dittycin
      @dittycin Před rokem +113

      @@twistedreality997 It was coming from a place of love because he knows that loud noises and angry voices trigger my PTSD. After I told him that listening to someone who understands my pain helps so much, he did his best to understand. Truthfully, I am so glad he doesn't understand. He just loves me through it all.

    • @bananarama3624
      @bananarama3624 Před rokem +48

      ​@@twistedreality997 Or he is somebody that has never been depressed and doesn't understand how someone can feel these emotions. He obviously cares about them because "he doesn't understand how they can possibly be any good for me".
      He's not being condescending or showing a red flag, he's just never been in our situation and he's trying to give genuine, good advice.
      Situations like this is just a muddled cloud of grey, and even if you have the entire context of the situation (unlike a 1 throwaway YT comment in a time when you feel vulnerable) there can still be no clear answer (e.g. go outside, you'll feel better, so you go outside and still feel just as bad. You are going to feel worse if you are inside all day, but going outside won't necessarily make you feel any better. You might feel better, but it didn't work, but hey at least you gave it a shot). See how in an example like this there isn't any clear black or white but instead a muddy grey cloud that you will never get a true answer from?
      .At the end of the day, the best we can do is be empathetic because we know that the husband is trying to help the best he can

  • @hunteristhill7558
    @hunteristhill7558 Před 2 lety +118

    Okay, normally I never write a comment, but gosh...
    This song speaks to me on such a deep, personal and painful level.
    "Why can't you be proud of me?" hit like a truck...
    Thank you, citizen soldier, for this great song 🖤

    • @tiffanymalone5926
      @tiffanymalone5926 Před rokem +3

      I feel u im sorry u feel like that I feel the same

    • @joelf1451
      @joelf1451 Před rokem +1

      same

    • @celestialphoenixqueen9258
      @celestialphoenixqueen9258 Před rokem +1

      i think of that exact thought and situation . no matter what i do most of my aunts and uncles and cousins and older cousins are never proud of me or what i do is never good enough for them to be proud of me and to be proud to be related to me , i've never felt so empty but it's better than hurting everyday while faking being happy

  • @planets9102
    @planets9102 Před 4 lety +928

    The slight blur in the lyrics on screen is a nice touch

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 4 lety +156

      Planet S our drummer Kyle did a great job making this. What did you think of the song? Have you heard our new album RELENTLESS yet?

    • @teresaroberts3113
      @teresaroberts3113 Před 4 lety +26

      @@CitizenSoldier love the track happy weekend 😀

    • @Aniimefaan
      @Aniimefaan Před 4 lety +58

      The drummer is working double duty eh? Props to him lol

    • @kylepersell6533
      @kylepersell6533 Před 4 lety +47

      @@Aniimefaan I wish it was only double 😅

    • @Iztheticgaming
      @Iztheticgaming Před 4 lety +23

      @@CitizenSoldier that drummer is talented !!!

  • @XxHELLBOUND69xX
    @XxHELLBOUND69xX Před 4 lety +1050

    Not gonna lie, I’ve never heard of this band before tonight.. however, they’ve more than earned a place in my playlist with this song alone.. not sure I could relate any harder.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 4 lety +97

      We love to hear that. We are honored we made your playlist. Thanks for taking a chance on us friend 🖤🤘🏻

    • @hannahh8119
      @hannahh8119 Před 3 lety +18

      Me too until today..

    • @aimeegoatley723
      @aimeegoatley723 Před rokem +1

      Same!!

    • @user-ub2bq7nj2p
      @user-ub2bq7nj2p Před rokem

      Same same

    • @user-nw5yv4sz1t
      @user-nw5yv4sz1t Před 7 měsíci

      @@user-ub2bq7nj2psame but not bcuz of this song they didnt just earn a place in my playlist they earned a place in my life

  • @noodletin7090
    @noodletin7090 Před 3 lety +113

    It's only been a day and this band has hit so close to home in all aspects of my bottomless pit I can't stop bawling
    This band deserves more recognition seriously

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 3 lety +14

      You are so kind. Thank you friend 🖤🙏🏻

    • @Not_me3200
      @Not_me3200 Před 3 měsíci +1

      Yes i relate too...i love this band

  • @ThatBroAdam
    @ThatBroAdam Před 4 lety +86

    Such powerful lyrics, they cut deep. I dont quite know why, but this whole album sums up half my life

  • @sonofacharlie6227
    @sonofacharlie6227 Před 4 lety +721

    Citizen Soldier, you'll never dissapoint me.
    I've already heard your whole album but this song resonates to me the most. Your lyrics are more relateable and deep it makes me (and a lot of other people) feel understood and helps to get trough hard times. This whole song hits home for me and to think those things you sing on a daily basis can just fuck up your whole mindset - your Refrain for example. My heart paused for a Moment as the Refrain came up and had to swallow for a moment to be honest.
    I'm just so thankful to know your music because of all the points I've already made. Bless you all, we will all overcome our inner demons and the war we're fighting within us.
    Your music keeps me going.
    Just thank you for the work you're putting in your music.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 4 lety +94

      Son of a Charlie comments like these make all of the hard work worth it. Thank you friend. We are glad you connect with the music and will continue to work hard to earn your continued support 🖤🤘🏻

    • @maviyesil649
      @maviyesil649 Před 4 lety +19

      You're right It helps me through dark days

    • @garnettekken
      @garnettekken Před 4 lety +3

      The refrain and chorus made me cry

    • @thatdumbfurrythatwatcheswa6741
      @thatdumbfurrythatwatcheswa6741 Před 4 lety +2

      I honestly don't connect that much, only a little. I just really love this song

    • @mayflyrose8195
      @mayflyrose8195 Před 4 lety +5

      @@thatdumbfurrythatwatcheswa6741 lucky you

  • @garikpazik1621
    @garikpazik1621 Před 4 lety +361

    Lyrics!)
    Here I am, once again
    Way too close to the edge
    Terrified, open eyes
    I'm seeing red
    I would rather die tonight
    Then let you down one more time
    One more time
    Sick of coming undone
    Letting down everyone
    Mediocre at best
    Maybe better off dead
    Am I a failure from birth
    Is misery what I deserve
    Am I just so void of love
    That I'm never good, never good enough
    Demonize, criticize
    Your words eat me alive
    Just like knives
    Tearing me from the inside
    What you want I'll never be
    Why can't you just be proud of me
    Proud of me
    Sick of coming undone
    Letting down everyone
    Mediocre at best
    Maybe better off dead
    Am I a failure from birth
    Is misery what I deserve
    Am I just so void of love
    That I'm never good, never good enough

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 4 lety +41

      garik pazik thanks for sharing 🖤🤘🏻

    • @nurhanif5682
      @nurhanif5682 Před 4 lety +38

      I hate to disappoint you but it's in my DNA
      Everything you give me I somehow will disgrace
      I never meant to be like this
      A grave mistake you can't forgive
      A filthy stain, oh what a shame
      Can you just wash me away
      Sick of coming undone
      Letting down everyone
      Mediocre at best
      Maybe better off dead
      Am I a failure from birth
      Is misery what I deserve
      Am I just so void of love
      That I'm never good, never good enough

    • @TheBeeHive7878
      @TheBeeHive7878 Před 3 lety +3

      @@nurhanif5682 that was completely wrong =/

    • @FRAMBOISECITROUILLE
      @FRAMBOISECITROUILLE Před 3 lety +1

      t con on les a sur la vidéo les lyrics 😑😑🖕🖕

    • @aly_panda4304
      @aly_panda4304 Před 2 lety +5

      @@TheBeeHive7878 I know I am probably late but your wrong because if you look they only had one word wrong

  • @NeverlandSystemZor
    @NeverlandSystemZor Před 3 lety +27

    "Am I a failure from birth
    Is misery what I deserve" and "What you want I'll never be
    Why can't you just be proud of me" absolute shred my heart. These lyrics... damn y'all know how to express pain like this so damned authentically. Thank you for giving so many of us a voice.

  • @DanTheBuska
    @DanTheBuska Před 3 lety +28

    What I love about music in general is it can mean one thing to someone and something completely different to someone else. Music is a universal language and it speaks words that are hard to say otherwise. It helps us all understand one another. We can share experiences with musc. Especially if it speaks as loud as this

  • @notwhoyouthinkiam1630
    @notwhoyouthinkiam1630 Před 4 lety +193

    "Why can't you be proud of me" I've never related more to lyrics than to this one.
    It feels like everyone is kicking me down for my little flaws and it's too much to handle sometimes. Part of the problem is my anxiety trying to take control of the wheel, and the fact that I'm harder on myself than anyone ever will be. To me, this song represents my constant struggle to come to terms with the person I am and all of my flaws

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 4 lety +21

      NotWho YouThinkIAm sounds like you’ve been through so much. We hope that the music helps in some small way and we are so glad you connect with it. Much love to you friend 🖤🤘🏻

    • @dreamsmasher5213
      @dreamsmasher5213 Před 4 lety +6

      I convinced myself when I was young that I deserve to feel like this, that I deserved the misery. So I feel you. You're not alone. The best thing you can do is stay strong. if not for yourself but for the ones that love you.

    • @RenneAtha
      @RenneAtha Před 4 lety +8

      "I'm harder on myself than anyone ever will be." This. This!! You do not realise how true that statement is. You don't believe your friends and family who tell you they like you. So get input from new people. Go out there and be yourself, try something new, make new friends who don't know anything about your history. And find out what they think of you. [Spoiler alert: They don't secretly hate you. They actually think you're a pretty alright sort.] You'll be amazed. I did this and I couldn't believe they were thinking of the same person. I was like... didn't you just spend a week with me? Are you talking about someone else? Don't believe the voice inside your head that tells you no-one will ever like you, because that's a damn lie. Sorry if I'm expressing myself a little strongly, but it's the worst pain ever and it's all based on untruths. No-one should have to endure it.

  • @melindawatson2191
    @melindawatson2191 Před 4 lety +79

    I never feel like I’m good enough and this song hits me hard. I cry everyone I hear it.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 4 lety +10

      melinda watson you are enough friend. Know that 🖤

  • @pr1nce_silv3r10
    @pr1nce_silv3r10 Před 3 lety +27

    “ I would rather die tonight then let you down one more time.” That hit too close to home for me to accept

  • @Mrcheekymonkeyisback
    @Mrcheekymonkeyisback Před 3 lety +25

    i never feel good enough but the music you put through here helps me. thank you. we're all fighters

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 3 lety +8

      We're all fighting! 🖤

    • @Mrcheekymonkeyisback
      @Mrcheekymonkeyisback Před 3 lety +2

      @@CitizenSoldier Yes we are and I hope you guys never give up when facing your own demons and problems. Your music is gold. thank you for respondingggg

  • @alexlaws5086
    @alexlaws5086 Před 4 lety +73

    Hi, it's me again.
    I'm a little late here, but I just wanted to say that I'm actually glad I'm past the point where I can truly relate to this song. I still love it, but I've managed to win, for now. I have no doubt I'll fall back down at some points here, but for those of you that haven't been able to beat it yet, I urge you to try your damndest. Don't just resign yourself to your fate, because that's how you lose. Fight it, and when you eventually win, it'll be one of the best feelings you'll ever experience. It feels like you against the world, but you've got friends in places you'd never expect. Fight. Don't give up. Live.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 4 lety +12

      Alex Laws such an incredible message. Thanks for sharing your thoughts. We admire your strength. Everyone needs a friend like you 🖤🤘🏻

  • @slavillion2934
    @slavillion2934 Před 4 lety +145

    I
    Need
    More
    This is one of greatest things i heard in a while!

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 4 lety +10

      Yequxor Howler thank you so so much. That means the world. Have you heard our new album RELENTLESS yet?

    • @slavillion2934
      @slavillion2934 Před 4 lety +5

      @@CitizenSoldier not yet but soon!
      I am mega hyped for it!

  • @alexdonthavelastname2182
    @alexdonthavelastname2182 Před 10 měsíci +6

    "sick of coming undone, letting down everyone" It always feels like your letting people down, but in reality your probably the person your letting down the most. We always have high expectations that we may never meet, or cant meet in that moment. And we beat ourselves up about it. Life's hard, but knowing that these guys know how were feeling definetly helps motivate me, and make me feel better 🖤

  • @TomBeeInnit
    @TomBeeInnit Před 2 lety +21

    I cry to almost every song because it relates so much to me

  • @marti1954
    @marti1954 Před 4 lety +109

    this song is so good! you are very talented!
    i love it!!
    "i hate disappoint you
    but it's in my DNA!"

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 4 lety +9

      martina; bts love that line! Glad you connected with it. Have you heard the rest of our new album RELENTLESS yet?

    • @marti1954
      @marti1954 Před 4 lety +3

      @@CitizenSoldier yess i did!
      and all the songs are as goog as this song!

    • @twistedreality997
      @twistedreality997 Před 4 lety +2

      honestly one of the bes lines

  • @MrSuper091999
    @MrSuper091999 Před 4 lety +42

    The last time I heard a voice so distinct and powerful was Adam from three days grace. Your music is truly amazing and hits me to the core. Vastly underrated band. Your time will come soon.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 4 lety +9

      Thank you so much. That means everything to us. So glad you found us 🖤🤘🏻

    • @dreamsmasher5213
      @dreamsmasher5213 Před 4 lety +5

      Three days grace suck live however I love em so much. Their songs helped me when i was young get through some tough shit.

    • @badwolfwhovian63
      @badwolfwhovian63 Před 4 lety +4

      Dream Smasher idk where you saw TDG at but when I saw them at Montage Mountain in PA they were badass.

  • @SonicSpeed4807
    @SonicSpeed4807 Před dnem +1

    This song is helping me extremely with problems with my dad. Thank you, Citizen Soldier.

  • @wine1384
    @wine1384 Před 3 lety +17

    I just found this guy tonight, even tho this topic definitely describes my life by 100%, his melodic voice just turned the need to cut my arms from fingertips to shoulders..

  • @HerondalesAngel
    @HerondalesAngel Před 4 lety +343

    Omg I just love you guys I've used a couple of your songs for my videos and your music just makes the video you are my go to band for awesome powerful music just thanx guys for existing xxxxxxx

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 4 lety +61

      Herondales Angel we wouldn’t exist without your kind support. Appreciate you more than you know 🖤

    • @HerondalesAngel
      @HerondalesAngel Před 4 lety +15

      👊😘😘

    • @randyrodriguez709
      @randyrodriguez709 Před 3 lety +7

      @@CitizenSoldier so glad I came across your channel on CZcams tonight. Your music speaks volumes on behalf of those who are stuck silent with mental health illnesses and afraid to speak out about their demons and being stigmatized.

    • @amals4316
      @amals4316 Před 3 lety +2

      Can I just say. I love your name. I loveeeeeeee the Heronadales, Will, Jace, James all of them.

    • @HerondalesAngel
      @HerondalesAngel Před 3 lety +1

      @@amals4316 thanx so much I love them also ❤

  • @mrsuicxde5173
    @mrsuicxde5173 Před 4 lety +39

    This is possibly my new favourite song coming from my favorite band

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 4 lety +5

      jayden juggernaut that is amazing to hear! Thank you so much friend 🖤 this song means a lot to us too.

  • @tysongeorge6089
    @tysongeorge6089 Před 4 lety +9

    These guys deserve more attention, clever lyrics is an understatement.

  • @floofie7280
    @floofie7280 Před 3 lety +330

    Re post and like if:
    -You always hear your name even when if it's not being called.
    -You hate hearing your voice in recordings.
    -You use the word "thingy" when you can't remember what something is called.
    -You pretend you're writing in class so the teacher won't call on you.
    -You say the entire alphabet because you can't remember what letter comes next.
    -You and your best friend can say one word and crack up.
    -You hate it when one of your hoodie strings is longer than the other.
    -You hate it when someone thinks you like someone when you clearly don't.
    -You hate it when your favorite song comes on as you pull in the driveway.
    -You feel like if you turn on the lights, you'll be safe from anything.
    -You push those little buttons on the lids of fast-food drinks.

    • @milacuchacovich6046
      @milacuchacovich6046 Před 3 lety +14

      We are very similar...

    • @ExplosionMare
      @ExplosionMare Před 3 lety +14

      I feel like I relate to all of these

    • @PizzaMadeMeFat
      @PizzaMadeMeFat Před 3 lety +13

      This whole list is just describing me

    • @lord_khufu
      @lord_khufu Před 3 lety +7

      I like that when i was like 11, after quit school I started to careless about these things, gotta love the social distancing too man, people finally could leave me alone

    • @descendantgaming5410
      @descendantgaming5410 Před 3 lety +4

      Why is this the most relatable comment? This is awesome.

  • @Cloud9berries
    @Cloud9berries Před 4 lety +56

    I've been a fan for a while now and I'm impressed. Usually I only like one or two of bands songs but with all your songs I love. I love your new album too, especially kill my memory.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 4 lety +7

      Katie Rose Pritchard so glad to hear this Katie. Thank you for the amazing support 🖤🤘🏻

  • @hectorjarachairez1168
    @hectorjarachairez1168 Před 4 lety +40

    “Why can’t you be proud of me”.... damn that’s a deep line, i felt that
    Great song c’: i was missing to have a new song in my playlist, now there’s another one c:

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 4 lety +2

      Hector Jara Kenway glad you connected with it friend 🖤🤘🏻

  • @kenshirosama1505
    @kenshirosama1505 Před 4 lety +39

    Am I a failure from birth that one hit hard

  • @emilielego2903
    @emilielego2903 Před 3 lety +9

    This is how I really feel about myself. It's not that I don't feel good enough for everyone else, I feel like I'm not good enough for myself. I'm disappointing myself..

  • @alexandraaly3310
    @alexandraaly3310 Před 4 lety +94

    ''I would rather die tonight then let you down one more time''
    ''Mediocre at the best''
    ''Never good enough''
    ''Your words eat me alive''
    ''why can't you be proud of me?''
    ''I never asked to be like this''
    💔

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 4 lety +3

      Alexandra aly glad you connected with the lyrics!

  • @corvuscorax6906
    @corvuscorax6906 Před 4 lety +12

    “Maybe better off dead”
    That’s powerful
    Love this song

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 4 lety

      Corvus Corax glad you liked it! Appreciate the support friend 🖤

  • @IceddSnipa23
    @IceddSnipa23 Před 4 měsíci +2

    “i hate to disappoint you… but it’s in my DNA” is a DEEP line for me. love it

  • @Ary_Official1
    @Ary_Official1 Před 3 lety +7

    "everything you give me, I will somehow disgrace" damn this is exactly how I feel about things I've been given

  • @Asaylum117
    @Asaylum117 Před 4 lety +23

    "Never good enough" Three words that can haunt a person for a long time and can mentaly destroy someone. I feel the same with my life, no matter how hard I try in life, it feels like I'm not good enough.
    Your songs are really inspirational and hopefully more people will be able to reconise your greatness. :)

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 4 lety +3

      Asylum117 glad you connect with them. Thanks for your kind words and support 🖤🤘🏻

  • @raventherebel2996
    @raventherebel2996 Před 4 lety +374

    *How I am when it comes to my best friends*
    “I would rather die tonight. Than let u down one more time. Sick of coming undone. Letting down everyone”
    *When it comes to my family*
    “What you want I’ll never be! Why can’t u be proud of me!? Sick of coming undone letting down everyone mediocre at best maybe better off dead am I a failure from birth is misery what I deserve!?”
    *How I am with my friends and family*
    “I hate to disappoint you. Everything you give me. I SOMEHOW WILL DISGRACE!
    I NEVER ASKED TO BE LIKE THIS. A GRAVE MISTAKE. YOU CANT FORGIVE. A FILTHY STAIN. OH WHAT A SHAME. CAN YOU JUST WASH ME AWAY!?”

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 4 lety +34

      Raven the Rebel I think a lot of people feel the same way. Glad you’re connecting with our music and lyrics. Thanks for giving us a chance 🖤🤘🏻

    • @raventherebel2996
      @raventherebel2996 Před 4 lety +12

      Citizen Soldier ur very welcome. Everyone needs a chance. And i tend to replay each of ur songs to the point I can sing them word for word. I memorized Caroline and 15 minutes of fame that I can sing them perfectly without looking at the words

    • @krystianbinek5157
      @krystianbinek5157 Před 4 lety +3

      Same...just same

    • @michaelcunningham9313
      @michaelcunningham9313 Před 4 lety +1

      Same😔😥

  • @kairavenstrike8740
    @kairavenstrike8740 Před 3 lety +4

    Almost everyone I know tells me this all the time. This song hit hard but it’s nice that people like you are giving us a voice with your songs thank you so much Citizen Soldier

  • @kuzaliwabure7
    @kuzaliwabure7 Před 3 lety +4

    ''so sick of coming undone, letting down everyone" dear deer, that hit me like a stone

  • @mewcatss
    @mewcatss Před 4 lety +238

    This song hits me so hard. Every word breaks past all the barriers I use to protect myself and stuffs onions into my soul. Thank you for making this song, thank you from my heart. ( ╯︿╰ ) /
    I've never pressed subscribe with so much conviction before.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 4 lety +32

      We are honored to hear that. Thank you for subscribing. We hope the music continues to help friend. Welcome to the family 🖤🤘🏻

    • @nathan-ps6ou
      @nathan-ps6ou Před 3 lety +2

      I feel for you😭

    • @mattyman051
      @mattyman051 Před 2 lety +1

      Stuffs onions into my soul? Oh wait- noice one there

  • @jaye1232
    @jaye1232 Před 4 lety +14

    This makes me want to headbang and cry at the same time

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 4 lety +2

      TasteTheCringe we feel the same way 😭😂🤘🏻🖤 glad you enjoy the track!

  • @TheBeardedSkullCompany
    @TheBeardedSkullCompany Před 4 lety +7

    How do all your song speak to me on such a personal level? It's how a feel and what goes through my mind all the time. Love this song🔥🔥🔥🔥

  • @lucifermorningstar5258
    @lucifermorningstar5258 Před 3 lety +18

    "I rather die tonight, then let you down one more time". That fucked up me up for a couple hours and so. This song really captures how I feel when it always came to pleasing my parents. They would always say they were proud of me, but they were always proud of me for things I wasn't proud of. They'd only be proud of me for things they wanted me to do. "Why can't you be proud of me". That line just stole the show, and whenever you mentioned "I hate to disappoint you, but it's in my DNA", that is how I feel nowadays. Spent so long letting people down, that I really think letting people down, and disappointing people is seriously in my DNA. I can't believe how many songs you guys have that I relate to, to a fucking T. As a metalhead, I love screaming, but I've also learned to love cleans. When the singer screamed/sing near the end, was like the perfect mixture of the two. It's scary how accurate this song is to me, but once again, even though I always feel alone, it's always good to know that I'm never really alone.
    -Travis

  • @melodychappa
    @melodychappa Před 4 lety +33

    Guys, you deserve more fans and views 😭❤️

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 4 lety +4

      Thanks Melody! Please share our music and that will make it happen 🙏🖤

  • @ellielavender1498
    @ellielavender1498 Před 4 lety +30

    YEEES! A new citizen soldier video, I'm only about two minutes through and I can already relate to this waay to much.how do you guys always hit so close to home???
    Never stop what your doing, you have a real talent for it! ^-^

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 4 lety +2

      •Nìghtshade Edìts• that’s the goal every time. To connect to amazing people like you. Glad you felt it friend. Much love 🖤

    • @ellielavender1498
      @ellielavender1498 Před 4 lety +2

      @@CitizenSoldier well you definitely hit it! Thankyou😊

  • @wbs1O1
    @wbs1O1 Před 3 lety +74

    Citizen Soldier you are definitely not mediocre. Just finished listening to e every song and you have more talent than any of the garbage at CZcams top trending. You will definitely be big one day.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 3 lety +16

      Thank you so much friend 🖤🙏🏻

    • @Embersofthedark
      @Embersofthedark Před 9 měsíci

      This is a true fact and has ( somewhat) come true

    • @user-nw5yv4sz1t
      @user-nw5yv4sz1t Před 7 měsíci

      @@CitizenSoldierthere is no band better then you you are better then imagine dragons and bts

  • @inglorioustool9890
    @inglorioustool9890 Před 2 lety +2

    I used to feel like a letdown, someone who isn't good enough for anyone... I started working at a hospital in June as a Unit Assistant in Emerg, I started feeling rewarded and happy with who I've become over the last 4-5 months especially with all the amazing peeps I've met who've grown to care about me as much as I care about them
    Starting this job saved my life and I listen to this song as a reminder that I overcame myself and this state of mind
    Thank you Citizen Soldier

  • @The-Heavenly-Badger
    @The-Heavenly-Badger Před 4 lety +22

    This is my new favorite song

  • @jodynelis9952
    @jodynelis9952 Před 4 lety +5

    "I am just so void of love that I'm never good enough"
    Such a relatable song

  • @countrygirl82494
    @countrygirl82494 Před rokem +1

    So many people have made me feel like I'm never good enough. I want people to be proud of me at how far I've come instead of putting me down constantly

  • @elizabethtrentham8129
    @elizabethtrentham8129 Před 2 lety +6

    I felt this bc my aunt yells at me all the time and says things like "you cant do anything right" so I ran to my room and this was on my recommendation page so I clicked it and gave it a listen and I am in love with this song thank you for making this masterpiece

  • @thebaka3536
    @thebaka3536 Před 4 lety +4

    I dont think Citizen Soldier is capable of making a bad song. This is my favorite so far. Such an amazing band.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 4 lety +1

      Multitalented Prankster thank you so much. Your support is everything 🖤🤘🏻

  • @monikakelly1057
    @monikakelly1057 Před 3 lety +5

    28 years old... and I still feel this exact same way. Will it ever actually get better ?!

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 3 lety +3

      We're in it together, we can continue the fight and live for the things worth living for.

    • @monikakelly1057
      @monikakelly1057 Před 3 lety

      @@CitizenSoldier ♥️♥️♥️

  • @ymir7594
    @ymir7594 Před 4 lety +5

    I was here since day one and it makes me almost tear up seeing you guys have come this far. Great job as always. Never stop teling our stories through your songs!

  • @laurah200
    @laurah200 Před 2 lety

    Like the screaming at the beginning of the song makes it so powerful. This is in my top 3 out of your songs. It’s unbelievable how strong the message is and how much Impact it will have on so many lives. Please never change.

  • @trishmunoz7745
    @trishmunoz7745 Před 4 lety +6

    I still think this one is my favorite. Completely raw completely honest. And so descriptive of so many of our Lives. Thank you I am so grateful that I found your band. This might sound strange but I believe your anointed by God to reach the generation that needs to hear this. Hugs love always.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 4 lety +3

      That is so kind and means so much to me. Thank you, truly

  • @Watcher-in-the-Dark
    @Watcher-in-the-Dark Před 3 lety +6

    A band that feels like it represents my very heart and mind. Amazing song, one I can truly relate too.

  • @rachelmitchell2977
    @rachelmitchell2977 Před 3 lety +1

    I've never heard a song that understood me so well. I'm barely holding myself together. Citizen Soldier, keep making music. Keep impacting people. You make a difference.

  • @katialecompte9109
    @katialecompte9109 Před 3 lety +3

    The lyrics.. it helps to listen and related to that. It helps realize we’re not alone 💜

  • @PastaSick
    @PastaSick Před 4 lety +3

    Honestly I feel like this all the time. I never thought a song would be able to capture this so perfectly.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 4 lety +1

      It definitely came from the heart. It hits close to home for me for sure 🙏🏻

  • @mayflyrose8195
    @mayflyrose8195 Před 4 lety +5

    This one too hits really close to home. I wish it wouldn't but it's entirety reminds me of my mother.
    No matter what I do, I feel like it's never right. I'm never good enough.
    The lines "maybe better off dead" and "why can't you be proud of me" resonates in a very specific way when you combine it with the bridge "I never asked to be like this, a grave mistake you can't forgive. A filthy stain, oh what a shame. Can you just wash me away?".
    It resonates with me because I was born to a young mother, she was around my current age (20) when she had me, so in the back of my mind the question " was I conceived knowingly or was I a surprise?" lingers. Plus, right from the start I wasn't what she thought I was going to be.
    I was born with a kind of heart condition that doctors in our area at the time could not seem to diagnose and they would always tell my parents I wouldn't live longer than a year. So they worked their butts off to find someone able to help us and they did. I was told that story countless times, from a very early age.
    And when years went by, bringing their cargo of new experiences (most of which were bad ones but I hold on to the good ones now), I often found myself wondering if my family wouldn't have been better off if I had actually died. I actually still do because I can't seem to get rid of the guilt knowing all the time and money they must have used to keep me..
    Anyways that's a longer story and this comment is long enough as it is.
    Once again thank you Citizen Soldier for creating and producing such great pieces and sharing them with us.. 🌹
    To anyone reading : take care and keep shining, you might end up brighten someone's day up 🌹

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 4 lety +1

      What a story. Thanks for sharing it. You are exactly what we want to be about, a support group for people to strengthen and love eachother through their darkest days. You are amazing for what you have been through and sharing light with others. Never doubt that. Any ideas for what we should write about in 2020? We want our music to represent your journey and would love your ideas :)

    • @mayflyrose8195
      @mayflyrose8195 Před 4 lety

      @@CitizenSoldier That is why I love you guys so much. You've brought together, thanks to your talent and selflessness, people from very different backgrounds and created a safe place for us to enjoy great music and vent. We will never be able to thank you enough. I truly believe though that it should be normal for people to share experiences and/or advices. I never would want anyone to make the mistakes I made (that's why I shared another story under "Kill my memory") and that's why I speak up and i find hard to see why that makes me "amazing", because it shouldn't. Some friends and I actually went to a journal and testified of what we had lived and witnessed during our time in one of our schools, because we had heard that the same kind of problems were still going on there.
      You don't have to change anything, your music represents my journey among a lot of others, and I can't sit here and pretend to know what everyone would like to hear about.
      But I believe that, in the same tone of Buried Alive where it was about people being misunderstood/unheard/mental health problems, a song about being used/taken advantage of could be very cathartic to a lot of people.
      Because when I first heard "Buried Alive" it automatically drove me (and I assume unfortunately many others) back into my early teenage years (full of bullying, people being manipulative, and sexual assaults to name a few) and it also made me remember how dealing with the consequences of these experiences made me the person I am today.
      Not necesseraly stronger, but wiser.
      That's also what made me realize how ephemeral things are (and made me call myself Mayfly, which is a pseudo I use everywhere, especially when I publish writings on the internet).
      Thank you guys again, a lot. You rock !
      Lots of love ♥

  • @KJCancerz
    @KJCancerz Před 4 měsíci +1

    It's so comforting knowing someone understands your pain.

  • @codeakira4999
    @codeakira4999 Před 3 lety +2

    How is every song you guys write both amazing and relatable? It's so full of emotion that I want to cry everytime because of how much it seems like you've gone through everything in your lyrics. There's so much emotion in your voice. The instrumentals also compliment it so well and make it feel even more like you've poured everything into every song. Hopefully one day everyone will know who you guys are because I feel like your music could save a lot of lives..

  • @blasstoisess
    @blasstoisess Před 4 lety +5

    another great song with which I feel connected, I love the music of this band and I hope that it receives the fame it deserves in the future

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 4 lety

      ss blastoise ftw we appreciate that support friend. Much love to you 🖤🤘🏻

  • @V_the_he
    @V_the_he Před 3 lety +5

    " what you want I'll never be, why can't you be proud of me"
    Cuts deep,way too deep
    I found this song through a playlist,and live citizen soldier never let's me down,never

  • @gamermaycry664
    @gamermaycry664 Před 2 lety +2

    A band that always knows how to get what I'm feeling almost everyday down right in a song always makes me smile that there are bands out there making music for lost souls like me..🖤🖤

  • @chloemiller3525
    @chloemiller3525 Před 2 lety +4

    I’ve listened to this song too many times when I’m down. It’s a really good song and it hits me really hard.
    “Sick of coming undone~ Letting down everyone~”
    This lyric hits home really hard.

  • @sethsabres
    @sethsabres Před rokem +3

    I'm speechless. I only found you guys today and I'm already a huge fan, but as I write this the tears are streaming down my face. This song puts into words the thoughts that run through my head on an hourly basis and it's just. so. perfect. I finally. FINALLY feel heard. Thank you Citizen Soldier, you have given me just a bit of hope that I can pull through this.

  • @thatoneguynoonenotices3200

    Music that you can feel connected to or has serious meaning in general is the purest form of music and your music hits the nail on the head bands like you and skarlett riot deserve so much more attention

  • @WOLFY380L
    @WOLFY380L Před rokem +2

    "everything you give me I somehow will disgrace" it hitted me with tears

  • @lexusbutler9549
    @lexusbutler9549 Před 2 lety +1

    I fought so hard to get out of this dark place I’ve been in for six years and now I’m falling back down. You guys’ music is keeping me from going mental thank you for everything you have done

  • @chocolatecookieboi8611
    @chocolatecookieboi8611 Před 4 lety +4

    Oh my gosh I feel this song on a personal level. I feel like I’m never good enough

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 4 lety

      I have felt that too. We need to be there for eachother

  • @thecolorfulmilkshake8926
    @thecolorfulmilkshake8926 Před 3 lety +4

    Someone commented on another video about how Citizen Soldier has no bad songs...
    This is my fourth song in a row and I here to tell you they are absolutely right. I will be exploring more to prove this statement correct.

  • @iammatt3174
    @iammatt3174 Před 3 lety +2

    So far this band provided only songs that hit too hard to home from what I heard so far, something I can finally cry to, so thank you.

  • @candacescreativecorner9955

    Im proud of anyone that has talent to be artistic and be able to express their emotions into words like in poems or in music or anything that makes them happy. Everyone deserves to be happy in doing what they love. If it makes them happy and makes others happy then thats a great accomplishment.

  • @user-ng3bg7qw2d
    @user-ng3bg7qw2d Před 3 lety +3

    I only discovered this amazing band a few days ago and I come undone at every song! Bless you for putting music to the thoughts in my mind. But more importantly, thank you for letting countless others know they have worth even though they may feel these things. Forever a fan now. Thank you! ❣

  • @daxsprit6520
    @daxsprit6520 Před 4 lety +154

    "I never asked to be like this"
    "A grave mistake you can't forgive"
    "A filthy stain oh what a shame"
    "Can you just wash me away?"
    This whole song hits hella close to home but especially this part hit me so damn hard.

  • @jayB733
    @jayB733 Před 3 lety

    This is actually one of my all time favorite heavy rock songs. It's both sad and angry which I love and the sound of the chorus alone gives me chills. Love your guys work!

  • @bakugoismyspiritanimal5856

    Thank You.... I now have chills running up and down my spin and tears running down my face....

  • @meizawesomez8714
    @meizawesomez8714 Před 4 lety +8

    I write stories, your guy's music is awesome inspiration

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 4 lety +1

      Meizawesomez so glad to hear that. Have you heard our new album RELENTLESS yet?

    • @meizawesomez8714
      @meizawesomez8714 Před 4 lety

      @@CitizenSoldier no, at least not all of it yet. But slowly I am.

  • @justinrepass2087
    @justinrepass2087 Před 3 lety +7

    My new favorite band. They speak the words I've been searching for my whole life. Keep doing what you guys do cause it's working. Every song of theirs I feel in my soul. My life is hell I've had chronic PTSD since 3 years old spent half my life not even knowing. I'm always a second choice. I'm always hated or misjudged, my parents don't even help me through anymore I'm alone and IM NOT OKAY.. I'm never good enough. All anyone ever sees is a devil inside. If my scars could speak they would hear my pain. I'm battling daily and losing. I just want to be okay. I've been a mess for a decade my physical health is spiraling downward doctors have been trying to figure out what's wrong with me half of them said they've never encountered this before those words just make me feel even more alone. Nobody will talk to me I just need people to care cause I feel like I'm the only one going through this and it's such a lonely road I've been walking down. Please someone reach out. 😭😭😭

  • @epicclub3868
    @epicclub3868 Před 2 lety +6

    I wish everyone who clicked on this video the most love, peace and abundance. You’re so much closer than you realize. Godspeed ⚡

  • @joedeghetto5768
    @joedeghetto5768 Před 6 měsíci +1

    This song hits so close to home, I thought I was the only one who felt this way. This song is my therepy

  • @CosmogyralCollective
    @CosmogyralCollective Před 3 lety +6

    "I'd rather die tonight, than let you down one more time." Exactly what I've been trying to convey to people, I honestly am trying my best. Don't think they see though... 😔

  • @erni2367
    @erni2367 Před 4 lety +34

    Cool song is beatiful is my 2nd favorite song ❤

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 4 lety +3

      Amuzdog 23 thank you! What is your first? Have you heard our new album RELENTLESS yet?

    • @erni2367
      @erni2367 Před 4 lety +5

      @@CitizenSoldier my first is let in bern and of cours i heard your new album

  • @BTSARMY-gl2ow
    @BTSARMY-gl2ow Před 3 lety

    @Citizen soilder I've been listening to you for like a year and a half or something and I fell in love with your music when I first heard it so glad I found you guys I can always relate to the songs I listen to by you, thanks for that

  • @KhaoticKay.
    @KhaoticKay. Před 4 lety +1

    I LOVE THIS BAND!!! no words....no words at all 😭😭😭😭😭

  • @camillehernandez7362
    @camillehernandez7362 Před 3 lety +5

    This song hits hard ! Everyone is good enough dont let people put you down. Walk away from negativity it's not worth the heart ache .I was put down. All my life and believed it Not no more Thanks love the lyrics will be listening to other songs have a great day

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 3 lety

      I’ve been there friend. Thanks for sharing the kind words 🖤🙏🏻

  • @victorian5019
    @victorian5019 Před 4 lety +18

    This is how my friends have made me feel about myself.

  • @karinakoks4947
    @karinakoks4947 Před 4 lety

    This song hits home so close it hurts. But it's so comforting to know I'm not alone feeling this. Listen on repeat ❤️

  • @johnfarmer9993
    @johnfarmer9993 Před rokem +1

    Hit damn this song hits to close to home I’ve felt this way most of my adult life since I came back from the litter box in ‘05

  • @kris780f5
    @kris780f5 Před 4 lety +9

    This song hit a lot of points in me. All the things in the chorus is something ive all thought about a lot of times. And always something ive held myself against. Cause of the feeling of not being good enough to live up to others expectations or never reaching the goals ive wanted to hit. Both family and love is not easy for me because of this

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Před 4 lety +1

      So glad you felt it. So hard to feel this way. You're not alone.

    • @candacescreativecorner9955
      @candacescreativecorner9955 Před rokem

      This is exactly how i feel alot of times. I try and try my best to make a better life for myself, my kids, some of my family, trying to have a better relationship with someone who wants me, and will love me uncondtionally, without judgement. Im a very openminded woman, creative, like to be different and try new things. Ive had bad telationships throughout my life. Have been a sidepiece to men which doesnt feel good at all. Not anymore though. I put my foot down about that. I also wont be the other woman in a relationship. When im with someone i tend to stay faithful and committed. Im not perfect though, ive cheated in the past on boyfriends but that was when i was younger. Thats not who i am now. Ive been depressed and sad lately. Just not happy in my current situation. Im not going to get into that, ive gotten to the point that ive started to almost feel numb, like my life doesnt matter, or my feelings.

  • @LunaticMoon2022
    @LunaticMoon2022 Před 3 lety +5

    Man I found this band a week ago. Love every song. You guys should be viral!

  • @willisknightsworth4057

    I hate how well I relate to these lyrics. I've never felt good enough for the praise I receive, and I'm always far harder on myself than anyone else ever has been. I can't accept the praise because I can't accept that I'll ever be good enough. These lyrics hit so dang deep and hard. Thank you so much for your work and your music, it helps to beat back the demons.