What It's Like To Be Addicted To Alcohol - Tubes
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- čas přidán 19. 02. 2019
- The lovely legend that is Tubes, from Soccer AM, opens up to the Happy Hour guys about his alcoholic past. Tubes has also just launched his own CZcams channel that features loads of huge footballers - you can check it down below!
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Cigarettes and alcohol addiction actually destroyed my life. I could remember several years ago after divorce with my wife which brought me into my disastrous journey on Alcohol and cigarettes. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Got diagnosed with cptsd. Not until a friend recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Much respect to mother nature the great magic shrooms.
Congrats on your recovery. Most persons never realizes psilocybin can be used as a miracle medication to save lives. Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death bud, lets be honest here.
Can you help me with the reliable source . I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Australia. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them.
YES very sure of Dr.benfungi. I have the
same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
Ive done shrooms last month in my house. It taught me how severely traumatized I was from alcohol. I healed from many mental traumas from my past and was able to forgive, let go. Shrooms to me is a remedy not a vice. I even felt more refreshed the
morning after. So no hangovers. No
depression mood for days. No anxiety.I now
have a more calm mind
How can i find him? Is he on Instagram
Thanks for having me guys, absolutely loved it 🙌🏻🙌🏻
Guys - check out Tubesy’s channel right here right now!
Top guy Tubes! Subscribed to your channel! All the best.
@youTubes i guess you probably wont see this, but just wanted to congratulate you on overcoming your addiction. i lost my mum nearly two years ago through alcohol and i have witnessed the atrocity it causes. I appreciate you talking about it and I think it's a topic which needs to be more normalised to talk about so more people are aware of this, so thank you and keep on going strong man
top lad!
CZcamss big help this! Thanks mate
Alcohol is maybe the most damaging of all drugs because of how normalised and widely accepted it is.
Just think if you go out with your mates and say ‘I’m not going to drink today’ they all look at you and either laugh, shake their head or persuade you too. It’s seen as socially unacceptable to not drink.
Definitely in British culture we link everything to having a drink. Meal, have a drink. Football’s on, have a drink. Out for the night, have a drink. Popping out to the shops in town, stop and have a drink. Home from work, have a drink. Its Friday, have a drink. It’s Saturday, have a drink. It’s Sunday, have a drink. Then we justify drinking every day of the week because ‘fuck it, It’s been a long week and it’s wednesday’. It’s so common.
I love a drink, and love the social aspect of it. But it’s a very fine line. It’s very true what people say about if drink was invented now it would be banned. It dehydrates your brain so we can’t process normal thought and do things we wouldn’t usually do. This can be a benefit as it gives confidence, but also false confidence. It turns some men into thinking they’re boxing champions when they’re clearly not, or some people into doing and saying incredibly stupid things which lands them in serious trouble or serious injury. My grandad used to have one pint and he was a horrible person. He wasn’t the nicest of guys to begin with but with any amount of alcohol he was aggressive, sullen, temperamental and horrible to be around. To his credit he avoided drink if he could because it totally twisted his brain.
A drink is great, but if you ever feel it’s getting too much, just stop. If your friends or family can’t understand that then it’s a problem with them, not you.
weeds still better and healthier . just saying
Get laid instead
Ive seen and experienced and still see it mess people up big time. Dont promote that. No man should neeed anything from outside themselves to feell good apart from their own mind and life experiences@@DRCRAZYNOOB
L Hayes some real truths there. It’s like smoking. “Oh hey. Give me £10 every day. And I’ll give you this little white stick, it’ll make your clothes and hair smell really bad, breath will stink, will stain your teeth. Oh. And it could kill you” ..... “yes please! Sign me up!!”....... I just can’t understand how people don’t realize they only have 1 life. Just imagine yourself in 20-30 years and being told by your doctor you have serious liver or lung damage and are going to die... Imagine your regret.
Allah says to drink alcohol is HARAM! This means FORBIDDEN! You have ignored the word of Allah. You must be prepared to explain yourself to him! He is judge
2 years sober checking in.
Congratulations. Smashing it!
No one gives a fuck
o War Cloud o wow what a grade A wanker you are
o War Cloud o stfu
Alchy junkie fuck
“Nothing like a depressant to chase the blues away.” - Lenny form The Simpsons
Classic.
jmmypaddy it’s called a depressant because it depresses ur central nervous system not because it makes you depressed
J b no one asked?
@@Adam-ro8vj So why are you commenting
sam watts no one asked
I drank normally for my teens and uni. The last 18 months I become an alcoholic.
I’ve almost died numerous times this year. I’ve been sober 8 weeks now, trying to stay strong.
I met Tubes at soccer AM and said he was an inspiration to me.
Peter Cruz have look into Ayahuasca( strong psychedelic) and alcoholism, seems to help a lot of people, be worth a look man, good luck to ya by the way, if your still young and can't kick the serious addiction your set up for a good life i reckon
Baclofen supposedly helps with withdrawals, fairly old medicine. They've only started realising it helps with alcohol withdrawals in the last few years
anonymous thanks I’ll look into this
Steven Ryan hi, I actually had a psychedelic episode that made me have psychosis for the best of 10 years which eventually made me drink through depression.
I personally can’t risk another psychological issue, but I’m sure it could work for others
@No Yes i got mine on ebay the ingredients are legal in the uk
Imagine not realising the "Happy" element to "Happy Hour" is satire... lol.
Dudey Rhino acting like you know Jaack and think you know what he meant..... smh
edit: it’s satire
Ben Thatcher he was literally on the fucking podcast the other day...🤦♂️
I don't think it's satire, maybe irony is the right word but up until this point most podcasts have been quite ' happy ' so can you even call it irony or does the name change meaning on a pod to pod basis ?
Ben Thatcher he does know him though??
Some people r dum
I am 4 and a half years sober. When you get to a point where you realise oh shit I'm waking up and finishing the flat beer I left after I passed out lastnight! So happy I got my life back!
Davy Jones Bet your fun at parties
@@wizdumb3777 I imagine he is. There's nothing wrong with not drinking alcohol. I drink beer but I'm capable of going to a pub and staying on soft drinks etc as well
@@wizdumb3777 fuck off dickhead
Cheers for that Davy.shall I get a violin out
@@wizdumb3777 melt.
My dad does from alcohol poisoning when I was 13 in 2014 and addiction to alcohol is never normally shown across CZcams (not much I’ve seen) so it’s actually nice o see someone talk about their problems like this
My dad died of alcohol poisoning when I was 15 so I get how much it sucks
Holly Reeves sorry to hear hope life treats you better now
Iris McShane sorry to hear
Sorry to hear that
Sorry to hear
Quit the booze myself. Best decision I ever made and have never looked back. I listened to the audio book 'Alcohol Lied to Me' along with a hypnotherapy session by the author and it was game over. My heart genuinely goes out to people who are stuck in what seems like a never ending cycle of drink, withdrawal, drink, withdrawal.
I am telling you right here right now, quit it today. It will be the best decision you ever make. It will shock you how much of your life comes back together, and then some. So many people are stuck in the captors' hut, chained to a post. It's like being in a prison cell. It's pure abuse. There is nothing quite like the feeling when you realise you are free from that jail cell. Talk about a new life!
Go for it! Do it!
Never written a comment on CZcams in my life, but as someone with a single parent who’s in a bad way with alcohol this has honestly helped me understand her condition a lot better, keep up the good work jack 👌🏼
Hey! My mum's an alcoholic aswell there's a powerful group called alanon for the relatives/friends who suffer with loved 1s who are addicts. If you ever fancy it hit up! I wish the best for the future.
alcohol addiction is so rarely talked about on youtube, which is really sad. so glad they;ve touched on it.
@LetsTalkSense1 by people of relevance***
I recommend “drinkers like me” by Adrian chiles
My drinking habits have become closely associated with my image among those who know me. It is often a source of humour and I also plan my life around alcohol I've realised. Damn. Things like this put it into perspective.
I can totally relate to this but I also kind of realised I was being laughed at as much as being laughed with.
Absolutely fantastic clip...interviewed him perfectly, let him open up. Tubes, huge respect for opening up and being as honest. Fantastic awareness for this topic, brilliant use of your platform lads!
Tubes, you absolute honest legend. Total respect to you my friend.
Respect this interview, it takes huge balls to openly talk about something like this. Hopefully it helps other people in a similar situation
My mum is an alcoholic and it’s nice to hear people talk about it. Sadly i am too young to leave my parents and have to deal with it for a long time to come x
Charlotte Simpson you don’t have to deal with it hun, reach out to childline maybe and talk to them they will give you advice and help you if you do want to leave home xxx if you need to talk to someone here’s my instagram: @aliciaxvickery ,, dm me if you need me babes💗
:( be strong , and talk to people, friends etc if u can :)
Charlotte Simpson ye my mum is too, it’s hard x❤️😢
Alicia Vickery haha thank you but if i’m honest, i would rather not cause drama 💞
Chris C i don’t really talk with friends about it because i would rather they didn’t judge my family💖
That’s really how it happens too, a lot of shy people drink to be loud and confident and then end up relying on it
Tubes you're a legend and well done for speaking up about this. Your mum must be very proud now 👍
I gave up drink many years ago. Sober life is less complicated but it's no bed of roses in the sense that while you get so much less of the lows after it, you also give up a lot of the highs. For me I used to look forward to certain events on the beer, but in sobriety everything is fine but there's no greatest night of your life coming, perhaps a good trade off I guess.
Thats the best comment ever, im trying stay sober but i feel im missing something, i get worried thinking i can never drink again
Charlotte Conway you have my best wishes. My advice would be try to not think too far into the future and not to worry about what you will miss. Let it be something you actively decide to do of your own choice and think about now. If you feel that you would be better off not drinking today then don't, same again tomorrow, and the next day and so on. You have the power.
Don't beat yourself up if you find it difficult or have a drink, you're obviously taking steps to consider how you want to live your life and that should be commended.
Be calm and be happy :-)
very well described!!!
If you dont mind me asking, what were ure triggers for drinking, sorry about the spelling
@@charlotteconway8620 anything sport related or Friday sessions after work. I was more of a binge drinker a couple of times a week rather than a lot every day. I could probably count on one hand the amount of times I didn't get shitfaced when going for a couple of drinks, and I'd have fingers to spare.
I found that the habit of going to the pub was the catalyst. Once I got there the zone was entered.
Tubes mate, I’m 30, have been following soccer am since my teens and we are so similar! Today’s day 40 without alcohol for me! Like you, I couldnt just have one: The moment that made me stop was going home to my folks drinking two bottles of wine and half a bottle of gin and throwing up all over! Reminder I’m 30 years old ffs! That’s when i said no more! I cant just have one either! If anyone is iffy about giving up, please just try it! I’m awake earlier, i get so much done around the house, my mood is better (find myself laughing at the smallest things) you have more empathy to people, and, more money in the bank!! Good luck to anyone trying to give up: you can do it 😌😌
"First you take a drink, then the drink takes a drink, then the drink takes you".
F. Scott Fitzgerald
Bit of a bent quote tbh.
SHOUT THIS FROM THE ROOFTOPS! Alcohol has teared my family apart. It's an evil substance that makes people believe they can't live without it. I'm so glad you've raised the point in the podcast and would love to see more of this guy ❤️
100 percent relate to this got to appreciate the mans candour and honesty
The guest selection is quality
I had no idea! Massive well done on your sobriety my brother. You carry a great message for a lot of young lads out there. Tuuuubesss
I like how when jack and steve congratulated tubes for being 2 years sober, it wasn’t patronising at all which is so rare to see, fair play
Im off the drink nearly 3 years, i was completely addicted and it was destroying me, sending me into such a deep depression that i had to do something about it, gave up and it was the best decision i ever made, fair play to you for getting off it too, it just takes will power
Massive respect for Tubesy!❤️
Such refreshing honesty and insight! Fair play Tubes 👏👏
This was a fascinating talk. Well done on Tubes for speaking out about this 👏🏻
Nice to see you guys talking about the damage alcohol can do. My mum is alcohol dependent and she suffers from mental health issues and so alcohol makes them so much worse. She’s been in and out of psych wards since I was in primary school. I think the first time I had to actually stop her committing suicide I was about 11. I hate alcohol for what it did to my mum, and how it ruined my childhood. I’ve still got my mum thank goodness but unfortunately she’s still dependent on alcohol. Good one guys x
Well done tubes! I'm a tea total now too. I went to a festival last year totally straight and was worried I wouldn't have a good time and i was so surprised that i had a better time than before. I just remember on the Sunday feeling sorry for all the people there I felt amazing buzzing and I was totally straight! people just don't understand it's such a horrible substance and recks life's ... keep up the good work tubes!!
With alcohol itself being a depressant, it must be pure misery to be addicted to it
depresent doesnt mean it makes u sad. It relaxes and slows the body/mind
CozyHi it’s a double edged sword really. While it’s a depressant you don’t notice it while you’re having a drink. when you start to feel down you drink and when you’re drinking you’re down but you don’t realise you’re down. It’s fucked I was more addicted to cocaine but I would drink heavily while on coke. I would drink 7 bottles of wine a week plus at least a crate of 24 every 3 or 4 days. I managed to drink so much because of the coke. You don’t realise how bad it has a hold of you until you quit and you get the shakes.
@@Zenek143 addictions a bitch. Been there & came out the other side. Hope you have too & you're doing well mate 🖒
So just do cocaine instead
Banana Boi fuck of banana boi you clearly have little to no understanding of addiction. So do us all a favour and piss off.
Fair play tubes! Tonnes of respect for people like you who share their stories in the media, creating awareness and getting rid of the stigma. Im at the point where Im ready to make that phone call myself, as your story is identical to the way I am. Respect!
great listen lads, hope you can upload this whole podcast onto youtube.
I met tubes last april in portugal. I was on a stag do and he was such a nice decent guys its unreal!! Fair play to him@@
Really interesting to hear this. Tubes is such a lovely guy that we all love hope he is doing well
Cheers for the honesty, makes me and I'm guessing loads of others feel better about coping with the same problem
Such a good interview. It is by far one of the biggest ‘kept quiet’ issues in the UK due to its social status and it’s not always alcohol itself, it’s the issues that follow it - breakups, family rows, etc.
I was never what is considered a ‘huge drinker’ IE spirits, 10+ beers per day etc but when I found myself having 3-4 cans a day at some points I did get concerned for my well-being so I keep it very under wraps now. I also find it very difficult to be productive when I’m drinking, which I hate.
As I was told by a wise crack a good few years back - you can’t find any answers at the bottom of a glass.
this was really interesting to listen to, absolutely love these podcasts
Nice one!
Chelsea Boy with a terrific sense of humour!!!!! Tubes/Peter? Love you bruv, best a luck in the future,B Lucky!!!!!
Good honest interview. Well done Tubes. Winning the battle.
Never ever knew he went through this. What a top guy he is. And we’ll done to him for turning it around.
Respect to tubes for sorting himself and for talking about it too.
I had exactly the same problem as tubes. I drank constantly between 15 and 22 and it messed my life up. Between 23 and 28 I only drank occasionally but it was a massive binge. So at 28 I quit completely. I can completely relate to Tubes. Well done tubes for quitting. You’ve done brilliant.
Well done to you too
I’m going through that stage of I need it to feel myself. I know how it feels. Proud of you!
smashing it tubes, well done. my son is on the same journey, so far so good, but it was hard at the start. nothing but respect for people who are fighting off addictions
Fair play to George Groves for doing this . . . he was probably pissed when he was fighting Carl Froch
Mark Morrissey he kept that quiet! He should tell some people
Used to sit near him at Stamford Bridge, top man
So inspiring to see people wgi have come through the worst of it and come out well on the other side. We're all so much better for it and we have so many lessons for everybody around us. Good on him!!
Well done tubes, pleased for you and refreshing honesty.
What a likeable, honest guy Tubes is. Used to make me die laughing on Soccer AM too.
Can’t wait for the full version to come out, what a class guest to have
Out now on iTunes :)
Good man tubes, glad to hear your doing well, my buddy just went sober as he couldn't stop drinking once he started, he is looking well and does more productive things with his family, the kids have got their old dad back
This echoes my own life from the age of 14 to 22 in such a way it's terrifying. Alcohol is by far the most destructive drug. Top lad Tubes for not letting it overcome him
Top man, never easy to admit to yourself that you have a problem.
Keep up the good videos Happy Hour Podcast.
Happy to say that I haven’t touched alcohol for 18 months. I don’t plan on drinking ever again
Good this. Great to see a TV figure open up on a platform like this
So much respect for Tubes. Honest, real bloke. No one should be afraid to talk about this. Being sober is really not easy, but it’s life. Being reliant on booze is not living.
Thanks mate, appreciate that
For me it’s the emotional triggers. And having depression and anxiety, the emotions are always scattered and sometimes impossible to grasp. The depressing thoughts are then introduced, and so the music comes on to drown it out. But then the music triggers more depression because of its relatability.
What follows is not so much a voice, but a drive, a need. It’s the addiction knocking at the front door of the mind with its chains in hand. The walks to the bottle shop are the shameful ones, feeling dragged by those chains, always getting that same old look from the cashier who knows me by name and when asked if I want a brown bag I sullenly joke “yeah I’ll take a shame bag please”. I then finish a bottle or two before I get back to my house, a 5 minute walk.
Other times, when I end up at the tavern (earphones jacked up to max noise) are the worst, because the addiction convinces me that I’m not lonely anymore, and that I don’t have to feel the shame of drinking by myself, but the truth is that’s the loneliest time of all.
- some guy, somewhere, probably.
Really compelling interview.
Well done Tubes 👏👏
Planning your life around drinking......that’s when you woke up. It becomes part of your routine and you look forward to it like a holiday or a trip out. I know so many people who knock off work early on a Friday and they are then they drink until Sunday lunchtime. Then they sober up for Monday.....repeat ad nauseum.
This is one of my favourites. It is really interesting coming from someone who has experienced it
Seeing this a few years ago played a big part in me getting sober. I'm 2.5 years now. Tubes is a legend.
Congrats big man
Fancy coming for a beer to celebrate?
@@samconstantinou2335 Both hilarious and original
Congratulations man, that's a great achievement
@@shaneconaty9339 You don't get a medal for running back to the marathon starting line
Congrats mate
I drank heavily and out of control for 11 years. 4 years sober now. Not easy but can be done and great feeling of achievement
Big respect for Tubes for being so honest, I am sure he is leaving parts of what happened out but I like the guy more for havings the balls to confront and tell people.
Big up Tubes, glad you’re ok.
Not big on the new intro.. Too long! Quality guest though!
Never knew tubes was an alcoholic but looking back now it makes total sense
Thank you for sharing tubes that’s incredibly honest and well done on staying teetotal for 2 years like you say it can’t of been easy. Big respect ✊
Twenty plus years of anti-depressants, anti-anxiety meds and drinking (binge drinking and hiding the massive amounts of gin in my tonics) no clue how to break the cycle until last year when a six months of living with suicidal tendencies brought it all to an end. The crisis team took control of my life and steered me onto a different course. I had my last drinking session in October and whilst I’ve not managed 100% clean, I’ve never drank more than one pint in a week. I’m blessed with friends who don’t need me to drink to socialise and I’ve not had a G&T (or indeed any alcohol) at home since October.
I lost my marriage, my family, my home and I’m struggling to work my way through the darkest times but I’ve been lucky, I’m alive. Fair play to Tubes, he’s making it work, all power to his elbow. Long may it remain so.
Keep going pal. It won't be easy but you'll get there with friends and family supporting you.
One day at a time bonny lad
Massive respect to you, keep it up brother
Keep it up man!
Pathetic hahahhaa
13 years sober. In 2002/3 I spent 40 grand pretty much on alcohol. Ended up with delirium tremens , which are not just shakes. You get heart seizures. You get all sorts of hallucinations , including tactile ones. I stopped cold turkey , couldn't sleep for four days. My tactile hallucination was 'the government' planting the Internet into my ear. I saw myself on the other side of the street. I listened to an entire album in my head. Be careful folks. Life is so much better without booze if it's not for you.
Thanks for sharing your story mate and I’m glad you have been sober for a long time now. I hope you are doing well ❤️
Such a taboo topic and great to hear someone speak about it. I am sober 15months now and never felt better.
Taboo is a good description. In Ireland the bravado drink culture is still massive. I think it's fairly similar in UK. You don't see a cocaine addicts stag party snorting lines off the bar. But when people in a pub see a stag party lin ok lining up shots everyone cheers them on. I'm not anti-drinking at all but people should be encouraged to enjoy themselves with alcohol at their own pace without peer pressure to 'get locked'.
Good on you man
Fair play to tubes for his honesty!!
I liked the old design
I agree
Nearly a year sober for me. 1 is too many, 1000 aint enough.
Same here, the big test is when the bars reopen
@@raybans8712 i had coffees and lemonade last year so im feeling confident👌🏻
1:50 what a brilliant question mate great podcast
Love Tubes, wishing him well
"once I have one I can't stop". yes tubesy lad on the perks
Great guest. Well played 👍
Tubes is a great bloke
Fair play mate, very brave of you to come on and talk about it and if that changes the life of one person then you'll have made a huge difference.
I can hear it! Thank you!
Massive respect to Tubes for opening up. I myself have suffered from alcoholism in the past. On 3 occasions I have ended up hospitalised due to alcohol poisoning and overdosing. It’s usually something tragic in your lifetime that can push you over the edge. I battled with drink problems for almost 6 years. Very near killed me. I respect anyone who has the courage to open up about the demons of their past with alcohol. It can be a horrible thing to fight a battle with.
How are you doing now, i hope you are ok
What is that intro
Really good to have a real description of addiction instead of the common portrayal of alcoholism.
Respect Tubes
Tubes. Such a lovely man.
Don’t like the new intro I liked it short and snappy
Just like my pe- oh wait..
Just an intro ain’t it.
It’s 9 seconds...
Love your avi
Fucking hell OJ Simpson, shut up about the intro you killed your wife mate
Been through a lot Tubes tbf, fair play 👏🏼
Yeah and he don't half go on about it 😴
Good effort Tubos, Not easy to break the addiction and remain dry, Stay strong my man.
Totally relate to every word. NObody knows what it's like until you make the decision to stop. Well done Tubes - (14 years on)
I seen tubes in reading festival about 12 years ago, I was like I know him from somewhere, I didnt realise it was him till he was too far into the crowd lol
That's a shite story lad actually
Get a life its the best one I got
The minute you start planning your life around booze is a big sign and it's when the slippery slope starts.
Tubes is the guy everybody can relate with! Top fella glad he’s on the straight n narrow doing well 🎉❤
So relatable. Such a strong effort
i feel like its easier to get off an addiction as a kid because u have so much to do to take ur mind off it
Jesus... You really don't know peoples story do you? He was just this funny, chubby character on soccer AM who used to rap and get the mickey taken out of him. Good old Tubes, he's got good banter etc. meanwhile he's in a dark place, drinking his life away, making himself very ill and destroying his life. Passing out like that in the day at a train station and then having a heart attack after everything started looking up. Wow, so glad he's doing well now though and wish him all the best in staying sober. Good luck bro
Thank you mate 🙌🏻
Speaking from my experience I operate far more efficiently with alcohol out of my life. All the dramas all the negative stuff, losing things, fights, arrested, losing jobs etc all came drunk. I only ever hung my head in shame when booze was involved. My problem is that it does help calm my anxiety down after a hard week it’s easy and does help. Recently not had a drink for nearly 9 weeks and shat out of doing a course for work just couldn’t bring myself to do it. I let my boss know and said I needed little bit time to get ready for it. He understood, ok I was scared to do the training but was open and honest and the next day when I seen him there was no scared feeling of alcohol having been anywhere involved which was a nice change. Got to deal with stuff without using a problem to solve a problem. Alcohol is a good thing but it is a constant it doesn’t change it will maximise your mood so you need to be happy first, and have your life in order. All the best to Tubes he’s put a line in the sand and went up against a big fear.
Thanx Tubes for talking about this subject ❤