Thank you Eva. I'm fifty five and I am still healing from my childhood . I spent so many years running through life and away from the hurt. Work and go home, work go home to take care of the kids. Haven't had a vacation in twelve years. Kids are older and don't need me as much now and I'm still afraid to stop and be still. Your testimony is inspiring to me I still pray for the strength you had in your twenties. I'm still working on it. Thank you.
dada2295209, Its never too late to heal. sometimes a vacation doesn't have to be far away from home. I use to enjoy just checking into a nice hotel room and spending time with me. 💖💖
WOW!!! I have lived the SAME life....work , home, kids activities, cooking , cleaning , everything done for EVERYONE ELSE needs except ME. No vacation in 20 years (but make sure kids have had summer vacations). This pandemic STOPPED THE WORLD and have allowed me to have an AWAKENING 👀.....I feel panicked because time is running out, so my focus is changing.
I am currently going through this. Single mom in my early 30s but I look and feel soo much older. I have 3 kids and absolutely no family or support, or friends really as most are married and live a different life than me. I am hopeful for the future for when my kids are older and I have the time and freedom to reconnect with myself. But it’s unbearably hard at this current point. And I’ve become bitter, broken, and angry.
@@itsRAINYbytch Be encouraged! Believe me I OVERstand....you are still YOUNG so learn to start taking moments for yourself (a few minutes here , an hour there, a day, then weekend then week to be by YOURSELF) teach your children that your ME TIME is important because if not, they will only see you as someone to do for THEM ALL THE TIME. That’s where I made my mistake.....I’m ALWAYS the work horse for everybody but I’m getting old and realize NOBODY is coming to rescue me and do for me what I have done for everyone else.
@@kynroebri4347 Thank you. I do appreciate your words of encouragement. I am taking note of everything that you just said. I am realizing more and more each day that self care is essential to the quality of life.
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Good afternoon and blessings can i get your e-mail i am from Colón Rep. Of Panamá, i was emotionaly moved with your revelation. Can de sharing e-mail ?
Aww Ms Eva...that story broke my heart...I'm glad that you are the queen that you are today...us men are often broken too you know and sadly enough broken men have a tendency to break women, daughters, sons and anyone who don't understand their worth. Thank heaven for the incredibly strong women that understand they were queens when the heavens created them. Again thanks for sharing and congratulations on the 20k. I rocks witchya.
See that's what people need to realize men are broken too...All the world focuses on is why women hurt...Men, hurt too... You guys want the same things we want...
@BrotherAdrian Thanks for being honest. A lot of men wont even own up to what you said. I too am a particular age, and I've at such peace being single. I no longer care to re mother men. If I ever decide to be in relationship again, that person would have to have done inner work, or be in therapy. Celibacy has been part of.my journey as well, and I just cant see myself going back.
You did reach me. I’m married and still trying to figure some of this stuff out. My husband is a good man, but selfish when it comes to his time. The one thing I crave, is his time. I always tell my friend girls, if you don’t pay attention you will date the same man over and over again. Thanks for your story.
Angela, life is too short. I feel like I wasted my good years in an unhappy marriage just to be married. You have to love you. I'm 48 and still learning. It's scary but worth it.
@@renaissancewoman100 I’m 48 and just settled down with a 54 year old hard worker, hunter, fisherman baseball playing fish fryer for the family. I have some reservations but SO CONFUSED! Am I stuck in my ways with baggage or is he XYZ??? He’s a giver, he likes to cook, but not as affectionate as he let on. HELP! I’m 48 remember. I don’t know what is what in acceptance anymore 🤷♀️
Thank you for sharing your story. I prayed a similar prayer in my 20’s. A few weeks later God blessed me with my husband. I almost missed out b/c he didn’t come in the package I preferred. But, I remembered my prayer and decided to date him. He truly is God sent.
Similar story, and I’ve been married to my husband now for 7 yrs and together 11yrs now. So glad he continued to pursue me, because he definitely wasn’t the package I had expected after praying for all that he is and continues to be.
Thank you so much for making this video. I suffered from fear, panic and anxiety because some friends of mine called me timid and would always shut me down. It affected my speech, my body would shake in front of the class when I'm doing a presentation cause I suffer from inferiority complex. But I've learnt two things from you, and they are, "you teach others how to treat you" and " get the work done, do the work, work on yourself ". This will go a long way to help me. Love from Africa.
Here’s to us finding ourselves!! I think it’s a journey we all have traveled! As a matter of fact, my story is much like yours ( btw, we’re the same age)! I hit a certain age and a light bulb went off in my head, like you deserve love, respect and happiness!! I embrace that philosophy and I dare anybody to tell me any different!! My daughters need to see me in this state so they too will value their worth and my sons need to see this so they can recognize the value of a woman!! The light bulb, unfortunately, as you said didn’t quite go off for my mom, who passed in 2008, so she never saw her worth, but everyday that I live, I choose to deem her worthy!! Because in her brokenness, she showed me that wasn’t the existence I wanted to remain in!! Thank you for being transparent, you definitely have become a catalyst of change for so many!!
Eva, OMG, my heart broke when you said "No man, since you were a child, was NEVER kind to you!!" Wow I'm so sorry. Thank goodness you didn't let any of that deter you from being this BEAUTIFUL, HUMBLE, SMART BLESSING we all know and LOVE today!!!!! I can relate!!!!!
So helpful to hear! I’m going through my second divorce. I married 2 very narcissistic men. Love bombed me and became the men I dreamed of...until they no longer kept me on a pedestal (because nobody is perfect). I’ve been discarded like trash. I’m an accomplished woman, support myself and my 3 beautiful children.. but somehow found myself in the same exact place I was with my first husband. Never have I ever been alone for as long as I’ve been now. I’m 46 years old.. and 9 months of being alone. Working on me. My BIGGEST fear is finding another narcissist... so, I’m focusing on me. I’m going to do the work first and then open my heart when I am ready and not vulnerable. I jumped from relationship into relationship thinking that was normal. My mother also would tell me...you need to find someone. I will when God is ready to present me with a man who is worthy of me. Thank you! 😘💋👏🙌
My mom was the same. I am 32 and finally really began the inner work about 2 years ago. I met the “charming” man who had a troubled childhood as well. Letting him go has been a testimony all on its own. 🙌🏼 thank you for your sharing your truths ❤️💕
There is so much strength and courage in a woman when she is able to share her story that includes the good the bad and the ugly... You are inspiring Eva Monroe!!!
Ms. Eva...I'm 43 and broken. I had to let go of a 7 year relationship. It started out good but the last four years things fell apart. I need to hear this so that maybe someday I too can be a Queen.
Christina, just because the crown shifts off your head, it dosen't mean you lost your title. You are still a Queen. Your new King will come along. Been there. Keep the faith. ❤
YOU ARE A QUEEN already... "A rose by any other name would smell as sweet" Being broken doesnt negate your soul/ Godly given essence. I say this as part of my realisation on journey to healing...1..less negative self talk/ self bashing/ self put downs. 2......understanding that perhaps like happiness....success in these areas cannot be defined in absolutes....no 1 person is 100% happy 100% of the time. As we heal..maybe an acceptance needs to be reached on realising that perhaps 100% healing is not attainable...maybe that is only possible on the day we meet our maker and all the things of the world no longer matter. So i reiterate.... Just because you are on the path to healing and not at the end/ arrival...doesnt mean you are not a Queen JUST AS YOU ARE.😘😘😘
This is a great story. My of us black folk are a very broken people and don't know it. Yes, many black women and men don't know how to treat each other. And many of us are not putting in the work to heal ourselves from the inside out. Mentally and physically. Great video sis.
We have all had "that man" that was "nice" to us while running around on us. Mine was 13 years older than me full of charisma, sexy, beautiful voice. He wouldn't take me out in public. I finally got counseling to get my emotions together to break away. I literally moved out of the city. Yes, he literally had a tantrum of a fit. He then wanted to get married. I told him no. He begged and begged. One year later, he was married. It confirmed, my "no" was the right decision. We all had that man. I can say, it was a life lesson.
There's Beauty in the Broken🤗 💞🌸💞 🤗 People don't know what people are going through so that's why we need to be kind to others and Treat People How You Want To Be Treated. 💖🙏🏼💖
So true! We just never know the sorrow and heartache of someone next to us. Sometimes you hear stories and you can hardly believe people can survive what they do.
It’s testimonial Tuesday! I’ve been with my husband for 23 years and I can relate to being broken! I’m attending counseling as we speak. It’s gonna keep me from going to jail😩
Love your story!!! This is how we break generational curses... your story is very powerful and I know someone will be lifted up and break free from their bondages... just powerful stuff... thanks so much for sharing... be safe
I applaud you Eva; we all have stories and Lord knows we don’t have the heart to share it with the world. That was very inspiring and helps us all remember it takes time to climb to the top of the peak we want to be on. Great video. 🧡
By far my favorite perfume reviewer! I’m dumb founded by you only having 20,000 subscribers. I’ve probably blind bought 10 fragrances based on your reviews alone. Keep it up xo
eva monroe true I’ve tried to watch other reviewers, I can’t 😩 I love you, your story telling and delivery is truly exquisite. I see you and send you loads of love. Thank you for being so open and sharing a bit of yourself with us. Not enough of us are brave enough to stand in our truth and tell the world our story. You truly are a phenomenal woman🤗
Really I'll have to find that video. My first viewing Mrs . Eva on Thirty showing tonight . Love smelling good. Free up with my mom dresser full of different perfumes my aunt worked at a gift shop in the islands.
You didn’t ramble one bit. You shared an on time word that was poignant and powerful - reaching back & giving to others what you would have appreciated along the way: truth, clarity, wisdom. You deserve every jewel on your crown & I so appreciate your demonstration of femininity and decency. Thank you for blessing me 🌻
Perfect statement when she said “some of us have to reach deeper” I always wondered why I have to work more on myself when others just breeze through. But to whom much is given much is required.
I been there...He was a Narcissists he was sooo charming at the beginning and then 💣...He turned into Doctor Jekyll's and Mr.Hyde....Girl he was a looney bin... I have been celibate going on 1 year and completely no dating.....When l tell you l have peace and self-love...WOMEN it is so worth it to have some time alone with yourself. You see things from a different perspective and your faith walk becomes strong... Thank GOD for his mercy...Women just pray about it, even while your in your ignorance but all the things you feel, PRAY... GOD bless us all...This is for the men, too... Amen🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
Actually, l didn't describe him in full detail and l don't have to..But yes,you're right he wasn't the one for me...I wish people let others share their story without analyzing it and taking it for what you read...Stories have many gaps that can't be filled with a real life experience... Have a great day!💯🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
@@superaniya8895 I didn't get the impression she was describing a narcissist but rather just a brief description of the man himself which included narcissism. I agree with the OG poster...it's important that people tell their story without someone challenging their account...especially, when we don't know the person.
Ms Eva...I ain’t even mad at you. I’m way older than you, and that’s a lot of personal revelation today, and I’m hoping it lifts a certain weight off with sharing it on this platform for any and all that can appreciate it. The cover isn’t always indicative of what’s really inside the book. Often we have to actually open it to see and know its contents. Life is not easy for many and sometimes the hurt experienced is then distributed to others for no reason of their own and we don’t understand why that person is so stinking rude and mean and disrespectful tofor no good reason. BUT, when we are confident within our own right, within our own being and strength we shake that dust off our feet and keep it moving. That sometimes takes years to get there, but as long as we get there, that’s what’s important. Thank you for sharing your life, your hurt, your truth, good and bad on such a public platform. Continue being the best grown a&@ woman you can be. Do you Boo!!! Oh shoot, congrats on 20k Girl, you deserve it!
When one learn’s to love one self first. Then One can be loved by someone else It toke me 40 years to learn this . To thine own self be true. Now I can live life the way God intended me live life one minute at time. Much Love to you for sharing .
hey miss eva, I myself have gone through a very devastating time with a man I would have done anything to marry and so what you spoke about in the video really sat down well with me. i saw alot of myself in that story you shared even though i havent experienced every single thing mentioned. what fascinates me is how you took yourself from what you described and now look at where God has you. thats amazing. I really do love how you shared your story. i first related with you because i love perfume....but now another woman who knows pain??? feels like you just started a sisterhood through your vlogs. awesome work. love it. i hope to interface with you much more.
Thank you for sharing a story of accountability!!!!!! It's so refreshing because when most people tell their story, they blame rather than sharing responsibility in the unfolding of relationship, especially women. We must change that so we can become Queen.
We love you and we appreciate you. Every broken area of your life made room for your blessings. Your best days are still to come. God has something greater in store for you. Be blessed Queen!!🙏🙏
Eva... I needed this. Often times we don’t here about a woman’s infidelities, and as someone who has experience within that, it can feel like you’re an alien lol. But thank you for sharing. I felt every word of it. I’m 31 and I’m not unbroken but I’m working on it.
Just when you think you got a story that brings you to Glory🙌 some one else has an more amazing story,when my son passed away last year WOKE me ALL the way up&I came into MY grown-up truth.thank you QUEEN👑 for bringing us your truth & knowing YOUR Worth!! This bought tears of Joy to me,l love this & it WILL help some one.GOD bless you and your continuous jurney! When you KNOW there's a BLESSING IN BROKENNESS ,turns you into a beautiful QUEEN👑🙏
Blessings to you mighty Strong, I could never imagine having to endure the loss of a child. It is the unimaginable for most of us. May you be blessed with lots of strength and happiness.💖
You are a real person with a real life. Most of us have done something in our life that we are not proud of but you keep living and prayerfully you learn from your mistakes so you don't repeat them. Most people are not brave enough to admit it openly. I applaud you!!! I can tell it was not easy to do, but I know that others will be helped by your truth💚💚💚
Lovely story Eva! I am so happy you feel more healed. You are the queen! This makes us understand more where “i am THE Eva Monroe” comes from. Staying tuned for part 2! Now we need to know how you met your king. Love ya girl.
Blessings queen Eva. You’re not alone. A lot of us been through it all and more. But, there comes a time in our lives when we have to take the handle and be our own thinker. Think how to straighten our crown darling. From I was born I’ve seen my my sick and so, I’ve been through a lot. I’m not blaming my mom now , because from I know her she was always in the house with me trying to make ends meet. A lot of words was thrown at me because of my sick mom. She tried her best but she couldn’t make it. God bless me with a good head peice. And I took care of her and never left her until she pass. Rip mama. So I know what you’re talking about. Although I never had much of a childhood. I took my life back. Love you girl. ❤️ But God turn all that around and I’ve lived a good life.
I came across your video and as I sat listening to you the business that my family built from the ground up was set on fire by fireworks. Everyone is safe and due to the quick response of my neighbors and myself the shop only sustained minimal damage. After fighting a fire with a hose and bucket until the fire department could get here, and crying my eyes out because my husband and son are out of town, 7 hours away, I am for some reason, sitting here finishing watching your video. I don’t know why it is so important for me to listen to your journey but I am glad I did. The Lord puts people in our lives for reasons we don’t understand. Thank you for sharing your story, I look forward to more of your videos.
I just found your channel and I love it. I'm 37 and I feel like I still don't know myself. I know I am damaged from so much abuse and family dysfunction. I'm striving every day to learn who I am and love myself. Thank you for being transparent. You are a role model for me and I don't even know you. Keep being great Queen.💫👑🙏🏾
I’m soooo glad I watched this. This blessed me immensely. I can’t put into words how your life somewhat paralleled mine in away. I wrote a book about my life’s journey, but I’ve been afraid of publishing it. The world can be extremely cruel and I’m sensitive about my ISH (to paraphrase Erykah Badu😁). I’m gonna muster up enough strength to do it at some point. I have to I promised God and you can’t let Him down😇. #THANKYOUFORBEINGTRANSPARENT
I loved journaling my life’s experiences changed names of course. When choosing a publishing company do your homework and research, research, research before you make a choice. Ask others who have published and find out all the mistakes they made if any. Your library may have workshops for writers. Utilize what you have in your community. #Prayingforyousis🙏🏾
Queen your story is everyone's story in some way form or fashion I thank God for you sharing and it would be great if you could go in these churches and work with the women ministries so the leadership can deal with their brokenness FIRST before judging other women in the church! THE BIGGEST ISSUES WE HAVE AS A CULTURE WE DONT WANT TO FACE THE TRUTH AND GET TO THE ROOT CAUSE OF THINGS WHY WE DO WHAT WE DO! GOD BLESS YOU
First of all sis, CONGRATULATIONS, I'm one of those new 20K! Second, this video had me tearing up at work because I have been thinking about the work I need to do on my Self (still). This video is timely confirmation and I receive it. Thank you for being open and willing to share your experiences, you are definitely helping more folks than you know.
Eva I scrolled and again found you . I cried listening to you . I learned so much about doing the work . I often asked “ how do you start ? I loved when you said be still , you are right . I do believe that God sent me you and he spoke to me through you . . I love the fact that you are real . Straight no chaser , thank you for sharing . 🙋🏽♀️
Thank you so much for sharing your story, I’m going through “your St. Louis” i moved to Denver with a Prius full of stuff, I discovered my mom was a narcissist, this was the answer i needed to start the healing process. I am putting 110 percent into myself and not dating until 2022. Just doing the work every day. Everyday i wake up and ask myself what i need to do for the day and I do it, this focus has changed so much in my life.
Thank you so much for sharing! I can so relate to you. I grew up in an abusive home. It was a terrifying environment. I often thought my father would kill my brother and I. I left home at 18 years old,. I grew up knowing I had no security, no one to protect me. I had no expectations that a man would be kind, loving and care for me. I had such hurt and anger toward my Mom that she stayed, kept us in this home. I saw it as weakness. The rage I had inside for my father was like poison but I kept it all inside. I had no positive relationship experience, didn’t really even know what a marriage or a relationship should even be. I met my ex and completely lost my mind. I had never been so in love. He was the man I wanted to be with. I can’t say he was the man of my dreams because I’d never had a vision of a dream man in my mind. Red flags were waving in front of me, I ignored them all. I was young, in my love for him, the lack of love I had for myself I dove into the dysfunction of 21 years. He never showed love to me. He treated me like he hated me. I tried to please him 24/7. He wanted a child so I went right along and got pregnant and had our son. He tortured me emotionally during my pregnancy, I was in misery the entire time. I knew in my gut he was unfaithful. He talked to me so terribly, destroyed my self confidence. I felt so vulnerable having my child, being a stay at home Mom made it worse. My son has life threatening food allergies so no one was willing to babysit, even his father, so I was stuck. I felt numb. Year after year I went on. In 2013 I nearly lost my son after a teacher gave him peanut butter in a Special Ed. classroom. Something changed in me. My son survived thank God but I was so traumatized. I couldn’t sleep, I was scared to let my son out of my sight. My ex was no comfort to me emotionally. He actually had very little reaction to anything except his hatred toward me. One morning in Dec. 2014 he had asked me to answer his phone in case it was concerning work, bring him the phone while he showered. His phone rang, I answered and they disconnected. Then texting started, I saw it was a woman. I felt my knees go weak. I sat down looked through his phone and saw emails, text, messages and phone calls that had been going on for two years. I saw on messages regarding his trips he made and they got together. I realized he had even had me shop for her. He had claimed it was for a colleague. I gathered evidence for four days before I confronted him. He denied at first until I pulled out all of my evidence. He didn’t apologize but he did write me a letter. He told me he had tried to love me but he just couldn’t. He knew how much I loved him, how good I was to him and such a wonderful mother. He just couldn’t love me. I started crying and cried for days. I felt so sick. I knew all along he didn’t love me. To hear it from him, to realize in spite of how much I loved him, gave my life to him it was for nothing. I was broken. I lost so much of my youth. I was angry at myself. How did I allow this man to do this to me all these years? How did I love myself so little? I started therapy and it took me two years to find out who I was. I realized my entire life I had never dealt or allowed myself to feel. I had never spoke my truth. I learned as a child to keep my mouth shut,to never tell what was being done to me. I’m still a work in progress but I’ve come so far. I look at who I was before and I forgive her, have compassion.
Thank you for sharing this. I'm 23 and because of you sharing your come up story to queen hood, I've decided to change the whole course of my life. You've inspired my epiphany. Thank you❤
so proud of you, you did that. you done the work and it shows. I am 65 this year and I know asking the hard questions and doing that work is not easy. it's amazing how other black women are so easy to be envious, not even knowing your story. I only wish more of our men would do the 'work' .
You’ve most certainly earned your crown Queen Eva. Your vulnerability today is refreshing. It takes courage to open so much of your soul to people. I applaud you. I hope someone who’s currently broken can see the other side of brokenness and let God heal them. Haven’t we all been there at some point in life? I’m just little older than you are, and I’m still going through the work of healing the open wounds. I wish you continued blessings on your journey . Stay beautiful inside and out.💚
Quarantine Tuesday needs to be a regular thing. Thank you for sharing your story, it's powerful. I too am learning to be still and listen. I realized at the end of 2019 that I hadn't really processed my father's passing in Feb. 2018 which resulted in some impulse spending and other naughty behavior. I thought it was OK because I could afford it and wasn't hurting anyone but not processing emotions is dangerous. Not being able to go impulse shopping has made me have to deal with things. Not fun but I am looking forward to how I will feel after doing this emotional work. Bless you.
You don't know how much I needed to see this. I am going thru the exact same type of situation. Lord, get this man out of my SPIRIT! I didn't know this personal help would come from one of the frag heads, it also. Means more from a fellow black woman to another
Great video 😘 Thankyou for putting this out there. I'm turning 40 in a week and have been self reflecting. I had a very tough upbringing my mother had a mental illness and it affected us immensely. Men were her main priority not her children and it ruined all our lives. I am finally finding my way and mending the pieces of who I am and totally relate to what you were saying. God Bless 🙏😘 xxx
It’s so much beauty in your story 🤍 and I so appreciate you for being transparent. Some of us don’t have women or men to teach us the valuable lessons that you teach us.
Thank You for being so transparent and sharing your story. You are so elegant, well put together, humorous and have a very kind spirit threw it all.💞💞💞
😢 Thank you for sharing! I am 45 and I feel like I have been fighting and getting in my own way for years. I pray that the Lord will continue to use you as a vessel for us ladies.
This video popping up in my feed today was not a coincidence. I totally needed to hear this. Your story is my story. I am in my 40’s and one of my biggest fears is becoming like my mother. I am currently doing the work. It is hard and challenging - but I know it’ll be worth it. Thank you so much for your transparency. Truly inspiring. ❤️
It's a blessing that you released that Soul tie. With the guy that was a user. I'm putting in my work now too. I was discarded like trash by a Narcissistic person. I thought I could love their pain away. But as a empath you feel more deeper compassion for others. Narcissist feel nothing they just mirror your emotions. Thank God for people like Iyanla Vanzant and Bishop RC Blakes and others. That teach me how to put in the work. And remain connected to faith. So I appreciate you sharing your story. You can never judge a book by its cover because you don't know. What the contents are until your turn the pages. 🙏🏽
When you say doing the work It is so important I'm 53 I'm like your mother I started doing the work 7 years ago I'm finally happy in my own skin in love with myself finally For whoever reads this I finnally enjoy waking in the mornings. Thanks ms Eva You were my meditation today
Eva your story is my life. You said something that the one thing you feared was being like your mother, that was my biggest fear in life and as you said thoughts manifest. All my life I've seen my mother being a single mother and i told myself i DON'T EVER want to be in that situation and from the day i got pregnant i ended up in the same situation i always said i never wanted to be in. My son is now 10 and up to this day he does not know a father. I know I'm broken and definitely need healing. I have been through it and is still going through it but i no matter what I'm not giving up.Thank you Queen for these words they have helped.
Im over 40 myself. I've done everything you've said here and I'm better for it. I'm not gonna lie and say I've conquered all my fears. I'm working on myself everyday. Thanks for sharing your story and congratulations 20k.
Ms Eva I was just blessed by your story. I'm a young lady of 40 from Gabon and since I've discovered your channel i can say that I'm on a working process ☺ of beeing a Queen. Thanks a lot!
Congrats on 20k...thanks for sharing an emotional story, I really appreciate your time you spend with your viewers, what an eye opener...wear your crown my queen 👸🏽...thank you!!!...very encouraging...
Loved hearing your story. As a strong independent woman, I find it very difficult to show weakness, even to family, I usually breakdown and cry alone during these times,then I pick myself back up and continue. Do you find it hard to share your "breaks" with others?
Good girl what you did for yourself. I'm 🦋 proud of you. Seems I'm still broken as well after 8 years of divorce. Almost 20 years marriage. I'm 60 years old.
Eva. I don't know if anyone else has told you... But I love these sit downs. I'm 41... I love grown woman conversations. I learn a lot from you. You are so graceful. I love your calm. Thank you for sharing this....sharing your heart. May God continue to bless you as you bless us with your knowledge and wisdom. I thank God for you. 💯💞
Congratulations Queen! Humble beginnings and humble ending! God always bless the humble in spirit Stay humble! And, you are so right, I definitely can feel you how people can misconceive one another. We may not look like what we have been through, but we still wear the healed scars! 🙏🏾🌷😘🌹 POWERFUL TESTIMONY! Thanks for being transparent! Stay beautiful and be blessed! #Queen
I relate to you so much I live in St Louis too I am three years older than you and I am just now starting to realize how broken I am starting my healing process I wish I would of found your page earlier let's pray for each other Queen and stay blessed
Thank you for sharing your story! ❤ We all have to get to a point in our lives where we are able to sit and figure out why we are settling for crumbs... We have to separate ourselves from people, places and things that do not serve our highest good! Then, we can began to live an authentic life... the energy changes and so does the people with whom we attract.
I commend you for your transparency & willingness to share your wisdom. I know so many older women who talk about these negative experiences as if it’s ok for young ladies to go through - without guidance. We should be giving them the game so they’re prepared for whatever choices they make. It’s always “do what you makes you happy”, never “take some time to think about what you want & don’t want & make a decision that makes sense for your happiness.”
So many women need this message, like myself at some point we have to show up for ourselves and fear of being mother is real along with the unworthiness imposed on us from childhood trauma and/or neglect, we can't go back but we can start today for a better tomorrow, so refreshing to come across a woman that speaks on the womanly things such as shoes, clothes, perfume but ALSO the topics that need to marinate beyond the surface so we can Know that transformation is possible!!!! A Queen INDEED
I came across your channel for the first time tonight... your testimony is a blessing. I admire you for walking in your truth; your past has no hold over you. The beauty of it all is that growth has no age limit & as we learn we teach. Actually I’m reading ’As a man thinketh’ it’s a short but powerful book...
Amen Sista! Thank you for sharing your story! I am quite a bit older than you and I’ve been through some of the same. But you told nothing but the truth when you said that you have to be still! I started clapping girl!!! I had to learn the same thing and to learn how to love myself and make men treat me the way you want to be treated with respect. I’m in my “still” right now and I’ve been pealing layers away and cleaning my “storage area” if you want to call it that...lol. So i just want to thank you again for sharing and i know that i am not alone in my struggle of living my most peaceful life doing what i want to do, when i want to do, with who i want to do it with. God is still working on me! Applause to you! 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽
Thank you for sharing such a personal story. I’m sure there are more broken people listening to you than you can imagine. You are very courageous to open up to everyone in an attempt to help others. Be assured that at least one person has listened.
Honey, I can so relate to this and if I told my story you all would be so is shock. We do live and learn and we change from 20, 30, 40, 50 and so on and we finally get to that point where we won't take not one little, bitty, tiny ounce of crap from nobody. Well, I feel like that, lol. You are a good speaker and I enjoyed your story 😊❤
Just "found" you in the last 2 days and have been binging in your videos. You are not only a beautiful woman, you have some wisdom and tenacity that is so rare in so many women. I relate to you, I've had "that journey", I know what you speak of. Wish we were neighbors cuz I get you...and I like you. A new subscriber.
"Every sinner has a future, every saint has a past." God did and does his best work with the not so perfect.
Thank you 🙏
Amen!!!
Amen, ALL have sinned!
CELESTE, in the ATL 🌿
Thank you Eva. I'm fifty five and I am still healing from my childhood . I spent so many years running through life and away from the hurt. Work and go home, work go home to take care of the kids. Haven't had a vacation in twelve years. Kids are older and don't need me as much now and I'm still afraid to stop and be still. Your testimony is inspiring to me I still pray for the strength you had in your twenties. I'm still working on it. Thank you.
dada2295209, Its never too late to heal. sometimes a vacation doesn't have to be far away from home. I use to enjoy just checking into a nice hotel room and spending time with me. 💖💖
WOW!!! I have lived the SAME life....work , home, kids activities, cooking , cleaning , everything done for EVERYONE ELSE needs except ME. No vacation in 20 years (but make sure kids have had summer vacations). This pandemic STOPPED THE WORLD and have allowed me to have an AWAKENING 👀.....I feel panicked because time is running out, so my focus is changing.
I am currently going through this. Single mom in my early 30s but I look and feel soo much older. I have 3 kids and absolutely no family or support, or friends really as most are married and live a different life than me. I am hopeful for the future for when my kids are older and I have the time and freedom to reconnect with myself. But it’s unbearably hard at this current point. And I’ve become bitter, broken, and angry.
@@itsRAINYbytch Be encouraged! Believe me I OVERstand....you are still YOUNG so learn to start taking moments for yourself (a few minutes here , an hour there, a day, then weekend then week to be by YOURSELF) teach your children that your ME TIME is important because if not, they will only see you as someone to do for THEM ALL THE TIME. That’s where I made my mistake.....I’m ALWAYS the work horse for everybody but I’m getting old and realize NOBODY is coming to rescue me and do for me what I have done for everyone else.
@@kynroebri4347 Thank you. I do appreciate your words of encouragement. I am taking note of everything that you just said. I am realizing more and more each day that self care is essential to the quality of life.
I’m in my late 20s and I watch you all the time my mom passed away and you have helped me so much ! Keep doing Gods work you are meant to be here !
🙏💛🙏
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Ahhh bless you....Happy for you that you have started doing the work so early in your life.
@@supernova2897 thank you so much
@@firesign4297 thank you
You gave us a whiff of your heart and I'll tell you..what a fragrance!!! This has been your best review yet..
Thank you for sharing your journey, being truthful, and being transparent. I am happy I found your channel.
Good afternoon and blessings can i get your e-mail i am from Colón Rep. Of Panamá, i was emotionaly moved with your revelation.
Can de sharing e-mail ?
Beautifully put
This is such a moving and magical compliment. 💛
Aww Ms Eva...that story broke my heart...I'm glad that you are the queen that you are today...us men are often broken too you know and sadly enough broken men have a tendency to break women, daughters, sons and anyone who don't understand their worth. Thank heaven for the incredibly strong women that understand they were queens when the heavens created them. Again thanks for sharing and congratulations on the 20k. I rocks witchya.
Thank You Brother Adrian for Rockin Wit Me😍 What you said is very true, Hurt People, Hurt People.
See that's what people need to realize men are broken too...All the world focuses on is why women hurt...Men, hurt too... You guys want the same things we want...
@BrotherAdrian Thanks for being honest. A lot of men wont even own up to what you said. I too am a particular age, and I've at such peace being single. I no longer care to re mother men. If I ever decide to be in relationship again, that person would have to have done inner work, or be in therapy. Celibacy has been part of.my journey as well, and I just cant see myself going back.
Thank you
You did reach me. I’m married and still trying to figure some of this stuff out. My husband is a good man, but selfish when it comes to his time. The one thing I crave, is his time. I always tell my friend girls, if you don’t pay attention you will date the same man over and over again. Thanks for your story.
Angela, life is too short. I feel like I wasted my good years in an unhappy marriage just to be married. You have to love you. I'm 48 and still learning. It's scary but worth it.
@@renaissancewoman100 I’m 48 and just settled down with a 54 year old hard worker, hunter, fisherman baseball playing fish fryer for the family. I have some reservations but SO CONFUSED! Am I stuck in my ways with baggage or is he XYZ??? He’s a giver, he likes to cook, but not as affectionate as he let on. HELP! I’m 48 remember. I don’t know what is what in acceptance anymore 🤷♀️
Thank you for sharing your story. I prayed a similar prayer in my 20’s. A few weeks later God blessed me with my husband. I almost missed out b/c he didn’t come in the package I preferred. But, I remembered my prayer and decided to date him. He truly is God sent.
TheYumKitty, Isn't it funny how that works. I ran from the man that I am now married to for 5 years because he didn't fit the description,lol.
Amen I pray for the same
@@evamonroe Oh wow...we have very similar stories. I'm so grateful my husband pursued me.
Similar story, and I’ve been married to my husband now for 7 yrs and together 11yrs now. So glad he continued to pursue me, because he definitely wasn’t the package I had expected after praying for all that he is and continues to be.
Thank you so much for making this video. I suffered from fear, panic and anxiety because some friends of mine called me timid and would always shut me down. It affected my speech, my body would shake in front of the class when I'm doing a presentation cause I suffer from inferiority complex. But I've learnt two things from you, and they are, "you teach others how to treat you" and " get the work done, do the work, work on yourself ". This will go a long way to help me. Love from Africa.
God, it’s like you’re talking about me Wow! I have those same issues
Here’s to us finding ourselves!! I think it’s a journey we all have traveled! As a matter of fact, my story is much like yours ( btw, we’re the same age)! I hit a certain age and a light bulb went off in my head, like you deserve love, respect and happiness!! I embrace that philosophy and I dare anybody to tell me any different!! My daughters need to see me in this state so they too will value their worth and my sons need to see this so they can recognize the value of a woman!! The light bulb, unfortunately, as you said didn’t quite go off for my mom, who passed in 2008, so she never saw her worth, but everyday that I live, I choose to deem her worthy!! Because in her brokenness, she showed me that wasn’t the existence I wanted to remain in!! Thank you for being transparent, you definitely have become a catalyst of change for so many!!
Love what you wrote. This life process takes time and a whole lot of forgiveness.. especially forgiving Ourselves. 🙏🏾❤️
Eva, OMG, my heart broke when you said "No man, since you were a child, was NEVER kind to you!!" Wow I'm so sorry. Thank goodness you didn't let any of that deter you from being this BEAUTIFUL, HUMBLE, SMART BLESSING we all know and LOVE today!!!!! I can relate!!!!!
So helpful to hear! I’m going through my second divorce. I married 2 very narcissistic men. Love bombed me and became the men I dreamed of...until they no longer kept me on a pedestal (because nobody is perfect). I’ve been discarded like trash. I’m an accomplished woman, support myself and my 3 beautiful children.. but somehow found myself in the same exact place I was with my first husband. Never have I ever been alone for as long as I’ve been now. I’m 46 years old.. and 9 months of being alone. Working on me. My BIGGEST fear is finding another narcissist... so, I’m focusing on me. I’m going to do the work first and then open my heart when I am ready and not vulnerable. I jumped from relationship into relationship thinking that was normal. My mother also would tell me...you need to find someone. I will when God is ready to present me with a man who is worthy of me.
Thank you! 😘💋👏🙌
Eva!!!! So glad you did this video. You touched my heart and spoke to my soul girl. I'm still a work in progress and I'm 45.
Khessa Michelle, Thank You for watching. 💖💖
Me too. I'm gonna make a video. It won't be as or professional as Eva's.
My mom was the same. I am 32 and finally really began the inner work about 2 years ago. I met the “charming” man who had a troubled childhood as well. Letting him go has been a testimony all on its own. 🙌🏼 thank you for your sharing your truths ❤️💕
There is so much strength and courage in a woman when she is able to share her story that includes the good the bad and the ugly... You are inspiring Eva Monroe!!!
New subbie....people tend to see the glory, not the story....Congratulations on reaching 20k 👏🏾
Yep right saying
Ms. Eva...I'm 43 and broken. I had to let go of a 7 year relationship. It started out good but the last four years things fell apart. I need to hear this so that maybe someday I too can be a Queen.
Christina queenship is not achieved, it is
Demonstrated, it comes from the undying
Spirit that is within,,. ALL the best for the future,.
One Love,,..
Christina, just because the crown shifts off your head, it dosen't mean you lost your title. You are still a Queen.
Your new King will come along. Been there. Keep the faith. ❤
@@dezydream6472 🤗
❤
YOU ARE A QUEEN already... "A rose by any other name would smell as sweet" Being broken doesnt negate your soul/ Godly given essence.
I say this as part of my realisation on journey to healing...1..less negative self talk/ self bashing/ self put downs. 2......understanding that perhaps like happiness....success in these areas cannot be defined in absolutes....no 1 person is 100% happy 100% of the time. As we heal..maybe an acceptance needs to be reached on realising that perhaps 100% healing is not attainable...maybe that is only possible on the day we meet our maker and all the things of the world no longer matter. So i reiterate....
Just because you are on the path to healing and not at the end/ arrival...doesnt mean you are not a Queen JUST AS YOU ARE.😘😘😘
Even the broken are worthy of a crown. This video, I'm sure, is of a great benefit to someone and it's exactly what they needed.
Yes me 😁
@@AN-gq8zr even you♡
Hope you're well during all this mess.
This is a great story. My of us black folk are a very broken people and don't know it. Yes, many black women and men don't know how to treat each other. And many of us are not putting in the work to heal ourselves from the inside out. Mentally and physically.
Great video sis.
We have all had "that man" that was "nice" to us while running around on us. Mine was 13 years older than me full of charisma, sexy, beautiful voice. He wouldn't take me out in public. I finally got counseling to get my emotions together to break away. I literally moved out of the city. Yes, he literally had a tantrum of a fit. He then wanted to get married. I told him no. He begged and begged. One year later, he was married. It confirmed, my "no" was the right decision. We all had that man. I can say, it was a life lesson.
Lori love ❤️ ur comment..U have my eyes 👀 running 🏃♀️ 💦...Sounds a little like my story.. God bless
There's Beauty in the Broken🤗 💞🌸💞 🤗 People don't know what people are going through so that's why we need to be kind to others and Treat People How You Want To Be Treated. 💖🙏🏼💖
So true! We just never know the sorrow and heartache of someone next to us. Sometimes you hear stories and you can hardly believe people can survive what they do.
Tell me about it
Amen to that
Thank you for being so transparent. Your story will help many women in their journey.
It’s testimonial Tuesday! I’ve been with my husband for 23 years and I can relate to being broken! I’m attending counseling as we speak. It’s gonna keep me from going to jail😩
Dang, this feels/sounds like me!
Don't you go to jail just take care of yourself
@@sunshallrise I agree. Take care.of yourself even if it means walking away from the relationship.
Praying for you! Know that you are not alone, or the only one struggling! God is with you!!!🙏🏽
Stephanie, I understand, it’s been 17 years for me. I’m working on my relationship with God and working on me. I’m loving this self love experience.
Love your story!!! This is how we break generational curses... your story is very powerful and I know someone will be lifted up and break free from their bondages... just powerful stuff... thanks so much for sharing... be safe
I applaud you Eva; we all have stories and Lord knows we don’t have the heart to share it with the world. That was very inspiring and helps us all remember it takes time to climb to the top of the peak we want to be on. Great video. 🧡
By far my favorite perfume reviewer! I’m dumb founded by you only having 20,000 subscribers. I’ve probably blind bought 10 fragrances based on your reviews alone. Keep it up xo
Thank You David😊 I appreciate that.💖💖
eva monroe true I’ve tried to watch other reviewers, I can’t 😩 I love you, your story telling and delivery is truly exquisite. I see you and send you loads of love. Thank you for being so open and sharing a bit of yourself with us. Not enough of us are brave enough to stand in our truth and tell the world our story.
You truly are a phenomenal woman🤗
Really I'll have to find that video. My first viewing Mrs . Eva on Thirty showing tonight . Love smelling good. Free up with my mom dresser full of different perfumes my aunt worked at a gift shop in the islands.
You didn’t ramble one bit. You shared an on time word that was poignant and powerful - reaching back & giving to others what you would have appreciated along the way: truth, clarity, wisdom. You deserve every jewel on your crown & I so appreciate your demonstration of femininity and decency. Thank you for blessing me 🌻
Perfect statement when she said “some of us have to reach deeper” I always wondered why I have to work more on myself when others just breeze through. But to whom much is given much is required.
I been there...He was a Narcissists he was sooo charming at the beginning and then 💣...He turned into Doctor Jekyll's and Mr.Hyde....Girl he was a looney bin... I have been celibate going on 1 year and completely no dating.....When l tell you l have peace and self-love...WOMEN it is so worth it to have some time alone with yourself. You see things from a different perspective and your faith walk becomes strong... Thank GOD for his mercy...Women just pray about it, even while your in your ignorance but all the things you feel, PRAY... GOD bless us all...This is for the men, too... Amen🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
That does not define a narcissist, he was not a narcissist she just wasn't the one for him
Actually, l didn't describe him in full detail and l don't have to..But yes,you're right he wasn't the one for me...I wish people let others share their story without analyzing it and taking it for what you read...Stories have many gaps that can't be filled with a real life experience... Have a great day!💯🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
@@superaniya8895 I didn't get the impression she was describing a narcissist but rather just a brief description of the man himself which included narcissism. I agree with the OG poster...it's important that people tell their story without someone challenging their account...especially, when we don't know the person.
@@believensee8621 You took the words out my mouth, thank you for the clarification...She may not have understood...Have a great day🤗
Ms Eva...I ain’t even mad at you. I’m way older than you, and that’s a lot of personal revelation today, and I’m hoping it lifts a certain weight off with sharing it on this platform for any and all that can appreciate it.
The cover isn’t always indicative of what’s really inside the book. Often we have to actually open it to see and know its contents.
Life is not easy for many and sometimes the hurt experienced is then distributed to others for no reason of their own and we don’t understand why that person is so stinking rude and mean and disrespectful tofor no good reason. BUT, when we are confident within our own right, within our own being and strength we shake that dust off our feet and keep it moving. That sometimes takes years to get there, but as long as we get there, that’s what’s important.
Thank you for sharing your life, your hurt, your truth, good and bad on such a public platform. Continue being the best grown a&@ woman you can be. Do you Boo!!!
Oh shoot, congrats on 20k Girl, you deserve it!
Great testimony right?!?!
@@spicerack73 Yes!🙌
You said that 💯
When one learn’s to love one self first. Then One can be loved by someone else It toke me 40 years to learn this . To thine own self be true. Now I can live life the way God intended me live life one minute at time. Much Love to you for sharing .
"You teach people how to treat you". YES! AMEN! Your story is my story. Now I wear my crown. Many blessings💕
Charlease Bryant Amen!
I loved this! Im 25 and grateful I am already “doing the work”. Thank you for sharing this part of you with us 🥰
I’m 23 and needed to hear this. Thank you for sharing your story Ms.Eva ❤️❤️❤️
hey miss eva, I myself have gone through a very devastating time with a man I would have done anything to marry and so what you spoke about in the video really sat down well with me. i saw alot of myself in that story you shared even though i havent experienced every single thing mentioned. what fascinates me is how you took yourself from what you described and now look at where God has you. thats amazing. I really do love how you shared your story. i first related with you because i love perfume....but now another woman who knows pain??? feels like you just started a sisterhood through your vlogs. awesome work. love it. i hope to interface with you much more.
I'm sitting on my couch crocheting, listening...
Thank you for sharing a story of accountability!!!!!! It's so refreshing because when most people tell their story, they blame rather than sharing responsibility in the unfolding of relationship, especially women. We must change that so we can become Queen.
We love you and we appreciate you. Every broken area of your life made room for your blessings. Your best days are still to come. God has something greater in store for you. Be blessed Queen!!🙏🙏
Amen and Amen
Congratulations BossLady! I can relate...and myself being a domestic violence survivor, I've finally realized there are good people in this world.
Eva... I needed this. Often times we don’t here about a woman’s infidelities, and as someone who has experience within that, it can feel like you’re an alien lol. But thank you for sharing. I felt every word of it. I’m 31 and I’m not unbroken but I’m working on it.
Just when you think you got a story that brings you to Glory🙌 some one else has an more amazing story,when my son passed away last year WOKE me ALL the way up&I came into MY grown-up truth.thank you QUEEN👑 for bringing us your truth & knowing YOUR Worth!! This bought tears of Joy to me,l love this & it WILL help some one.GOD bless you and your continuous jurney! When you KNOW there's a BLESSING IN BROKENNESS ,turns you into a beautiful QUEEN👑🙏
Blessings to you mighty Strong, I could never imagine having to endure the loss of a child. It is the unimaginable for most of us. May you be blessed with lots of strength and happiness.💖
@@evamonroe 🙏 thank you .l recieve it from you QUEEN 👑 Blessings 💞
You are a real person with a real life. Most of us have done something in our life that we are not proud of but you keep living and prayerfully you learn from your mistakes so you don't repeat them. Most people are not brave enough to admit it openly. I applaud you!!! I can tell it was not easy to do, but I know that others will be helped by your truth💚💚💚
Lovely story Eva! I am so happy you feel more healed. You are the queen! This makes us understand more where “i am THE Eva Monroe” comes from. Staying tuned for part 2! Now we need to know how you met your king. Love ya girl.
Thank You Johanna, Yes I will definitely have to share that story. 💖
Blessings queen Eva. You’re not alone. A lot of us been through it all and more. But, there comes a time in our lives when we have to take the handle and be our own thinker. Think how to straighten our crown darling. From I was born I’ve seen my my sick and so, I’ve been through a lot. I’m not blaming my mom now , because from I know her she was always in the house with me trying to make ends meet. A lot of words was thrown at me because of my sick mom. She tried her best but she couldn’t make it. God bless me with a good head peice. And I took care of her and never left her until she pass. Rip mama. So I know what you’re talking about. Although I never had much of a childhood. I took my life back. Love you girl. ❤️
But God turn all that around and I’ve lived a good life.
I came across your video and as I sat listening to you the business that my family built from the ground up was set on fire by fireworks. Everyone is safe and due to the quick response of my neighbors and myself the shop only sustained minimal damage. After fighting a fire with a hose and bucket until the fire department could get here, and crying my eyes out because my husband and son are out of town, 7 hours away, I am for some reason, sitting here finishing watching your video. I don’t know why it is so important for me to listen to your journey but I am glad I did. The Lord puts people in our lives for reasons we don’t understand. Thank you for sharing your story, I look forward to more of your videos.
That was beautiful and encouraging for women and men. You're truly a strong woman
I just found your channel and I love it. I'm 37 and I feel like I still don't know myself. I know I am damaged from so much abuse and family dysfunction. I'm striving every day to learn who I am and love myself. Thank you for being transparent. You are a role model for me and I don't even know you. Keep being great Queen.💫👑🙏🏾
I’m soooo glad I watched this. This blessed me immensely. I can’t put into words how your life somewhat paralleled mine in away. I wrote a book about my life’s journey, but I’ve been afraid of publishing it. The world can be extremely cruel and I’m sensitive about my ISH (to paraphrase Erykah Badu😁). I’m gonna muster up enough strength to do it at some point. I have to I promised God and you can’t let Him down😇. #THANKYOUFORBEINGTRANSPARENT
Do it sis go for it and even if you fail you still try it go 4 it go after your dream
How did u write a book...? It seems like an impossible task
Publish that book Queen God said thou shall not be afraid praying for you
Publish it sis, I'll buy it!
I loved journaling my life’s experiences changed names of course. When choosing a publishing company do your homework and research, research, research before you make a choice. Ask others who have published and find out all the mistakes they made if any. Your library may have workshops for writers. Utilize what you have in your community. #Prayingforyousis🙏🏾
Queen your story is everyone's story in some way form or fashion I thank God for you sharing and it would be great if you could go in these churches and work with the women ministries so the leadership can deal with their brokenness FIRST before judging other women in the church! THE BIGGEST ISSUES WE HAVE AS A CULTURE WE DONT WANT TO FACE THE TRUTH AND GET TO THE ROOT CAUSE OF THINGS WHY WE DO WHAT WE DO! GOD BLESS YOU
First of all sis, CONGRATULATIONS, I'm one of those new 20K! Second, this video had me tearing up at work because I have been thinking about the work I need to do on my Self (still). This video is timely confirmation and I receive it. Thank you for being open and willing to share your experiences, you are definitely helping more folks than you know.
Eva I scrolled and again found you . I cried listening to you . I learned so much about doing the work . I often asked “ how do you start ? I loved when you said be still , you are right . I do believe that God sent me you and he spoke to me through you . . I love the fact that you are real . Straight no chaser , thank you for sharing . 🙋🏽♀️
Thank you so much for sharing your story, I’m going through “your St. Louis” i moved to Denver with a Prius full of stuff, I discovered my mom was a narcissist, this was the answer i needed to start the healing process. I am putting 110 percent into myself and not dating until 2022. Just doing the work every day. Everyday i wake up and ask myself what i need to do for the day and I do it, this focus has changed so much in my life.
This video is my confirmation that I've gotten my breakthrough 🤎 thank you for touching this soul of mine🥰
Sidenote: your voice sounds just like Angela Robinson (Veronica) of The Haves and The Have Nots.
Congratulations “the Eva Monroe”. I love that. 😍😍😍
Thank you so much for sharing! I can so relate to you. I grew up in an abusive home. It was a terrifying environment. I often thought my father would kill my brother and I. I left home at 18 years old,.
I grew up knowing I had no security, no one to protect me. I had no expectations that a man would be kind, loving and care for me. I had such hurt and anger toward my Mom that she stayed, kept us in this home. I saw it as weakness. The rage I had inside for my father was like poison but I kept it all inside. I had no positive relationship experience, didn’t really even know what a marriage or a relationship should even be. I met my ex and completely lost my mind. I had never been so in love. He was the man I wanted to be with. I can’t say he was the man of my dreams because I’d never had a vision of a dream man in my mind. Red flags were waving in front of me, I ignored them all. I was young, in my love for him, the lack of love I had for myself I dove into the dysfunction of 21 years. He never showed love to me. He treated me like he hated me. I tried to please him 24/7. He wanted a child so I went right along and got pregnant and had our son. He tortured me emotionally during my pregnancy, I was in misery the entire time. I knew in my gut he was unfaithful. He talked to me so terribly, destroyed my self confidence. I felt so vulnerable having my child, being a stay at home Mom made it worse. My son has life threatening food allergies so no one was willing to babysit, even his father, so I was stuck. I felt numb. Year after year I went on. In 2013 I nearly lost my son after a teacher gave him peanut butter in a Special Ed. classroom. Something changed in me. My son survived thank God but I was so traumatized. I couldn’t sleep, I was scared to let my son out of my sight. My ex was no comfort to me emotionally. He actually had very little reaction to anything except his hatred toward me. One morning in Dec. 2014 he had asked me to answer his phone in case it was concerning work, bring him the phone while he showered. His phone rang, I answered and they disconnected. Then texting started, I saw it was a woman. I felt my knees go weak. I sat down looked through his phone and saw emails, text, messages and phone calls that had been going on for two years. I saw on messages regarding his trips he made and they got together. I realized he had even had me shop for her. He had claimed it was for a colleague. I gathered evidence for four days before I confronted him. He denied at first until I pulled out all of my evidence. He didn’t apologize but he did write me a letter. He told me he had tried to love me but he just couldn’t. He knew how much I loved him, how good I was to him and such a wonderful mother. He just couldn’t love me. I started crying and cried for days. I felt so sick. I knew all along he didn’t love me. To hear it from him, to realize in spite of how much I loved him, gave my life to him it was for nothing. I was broken. I lost so much of my youth. I was angry at myself. How did I allow this man to do this to me all these years? How did I love myself so little? I started therapy and it took me two years to find out who I was. I realized my entire life I had never dealt or allowed myself to feel. I had never spoke my truth. I learned as a child to keep my mouth shut,to never tell what was being done to me. I’m still a work in progress but I’ve come so far. I look at who I was before and I forgive her, have compassion.
I think your story is a pretty common one for a lot of women some never get out. Thank you for sharing it really was so selfless and thoughtful.
Thank you for sharing your story! I found your page about 2 months ago - you’ve been a breath of fresh air!
Thank you for sharing this. I'm 23 and because of you sharing your come up story to queen hood, I've decided to change the whole course of my life. You've inspired my epiphany. Thank you❤
so proud of you, you did that. you done the work and it shows. I am 65 this year and I know asking the hard questions and doing that work is not easy. it's amazing how other black women are so easy to be envious, not even knowing your story. I only wish more of our men would do the 'work' .
You’ve most certainly earned your crown Queen Eva. Your vulnerability today is refreshing. It takes courage to open so much of your soul to people. I applaud you. I hope someone who’s currently broken can see the other side of brokenness and let God heal them. Haven’t we all been there at some point in life? I’m just little older than you are, and I’m still going through the work of healing the open wounds. I wish you continued blessings on your journey . Stay beautiful inside and out.💚
Quarantine Tuesday needs to be a regular thing. Thank you for sharing your story, it's powerful. I too am learning to be still and listen. I realized at the end of 2019 that I hadn't really processed my father's passing in Feb. 2018 which resulted in some impulse spending and other naughty behavior. I thought it was OK because I could afford it and wasn't hurting anyone but not processing emotions is dangerous. Not being able to go impulse shopping has made me have to deal with things. Not fun but I am looking forward to how I will feel after doing this emotional work. Bless you.
You don't know how much I needed to see this. I am going thru the exact same type of situation. Lord, get this man out of my SPIRIT! I didn't know this personal help would come from one of the frag heads, it also. Means more from a fellow black woman to another
Great video 😘 Thankyou for putting this out there. I'm turning 40 in a week and have been self reflecting. I had a very tough upbringing my mother had a mental illness and it affected us immensely. Men were her main priority not her children and it ruined all our lives. I am finally finding my way and mending the pieces of who I am and totally relate to what you were saying. God Bless 🙏😘 xxx
It’s so much beauty in your story 🤍 and I so appreciate you for being transparent. Some of us don’t have women or men to teach us the valuable lessons that you teach us.
I love the way you speak, the way you present, your style... You’ve got a beautiful soothing voice. YOU ARE AMAZING!
And it is therapeutic. And you are helping a LOT of women.
Bless your beautiful heart!! The Lord blesses those who make an effort!!
Thank You for being so transparent and sharing your story. You are so elegant, well put together, humorous and have a very kind spirit threw it all.💞💞💞
😢 Thank you for sharing! I am 45 and I feel like I have been fighting and getting in my own way for years. I pray that the Lord will continue to use you as a vessel for us ladies.
This video popping up in my feed today was not a coincidence. I totally needed to hear this. Your story is my story. I am in my 40’s and one of my biggest fears is becoming like my mother. I am currently doing the work. It is hard and challenging - but I know it’ll be worth it. Thank you so much for your transparency. Truly inspiring. ❤️
Amen! 54 here on my 4th marriage still trying to figure it out. Thank you for sharing your story. I felt the realness and truthfulness in your words.
It's a blessing that you released that Soul tie. With the guy that was a user. I'm putting in my work now too. I was discarded like trash by a Narcissistic person. I thought I could love their pain away.
But as a empath you feel more deeper compassion for others. Narcissist feel nothing they just mirror your emotions. Thank God for people like Iyanla Vanzant and Bishop RC Blakes and others. That teach me how to put in the work. And remain connected to faith. So I appreciate you sharing your story. You can never judge a book by its cover because you don't know. What the contents are until your turn the pages. 🙏🏽
When you say doing the work
It is so important I'm 53 I'm like your mother I started doing the work 7 years ago
I'm finally happy in my own skin in love with myself finally
For whoever reads this I finnally enjoy waking in the mornings. Thanks ms Eva
You were my meditation today
Wow I feel like you were talking to me. You truly have a God-given gift to reach people- thank you for sharing your wisdom
What a testimony. You've found your greatness
I m very sorry you had childhood trauma. It s hard to get past it. You did. You reinvented yourself
Thank you! The Potter will put us back together if we let him. To God be the glory. Your story was a blessing!
Eva your story is my life. You said something that the one thing you feared was being like your mother, that was my biggest fear in life and as you said thoughts manifest. All my life I've seen my mother being a single mother and i told myself i DON'T EVER want to be in that situation and from the day i got pregnant i ended up in the same situation i always said i never wanted to be in. My son is now 10 and up to this day he does not know a father. I know I'm broken and definitely need healing. I have been through it and is still going through it but i no matter what I'm not giving up.Thank you Queen for these words they have helped.
Im over 40 myself. I've done everything you've said here and I'm better for it. I'm not gonna lie and say I've conquered all my fears. I'm working on myself everyday. Thanks for sharing your story and congratulations 20k.
This was beautiful...thank you for sharing! I’m a therapist and it sounds like you’ve done major work. Be Blessed
Think you queen I needed this stay blessed!
Ms Eva I was just blessed by your story. I'm a young lady of 40 from Gabon and since I've discovered your channel i can say that I'm on a working process ☺ of beeing a Queen. Thanks a lot!
Congrats on 20k...thanks for sharing an emotional story, I really appreciate your time you spend with your viewers, what an eye opener...wear your crown my queen 👸🏽...thank you!!!...very encouraging...
Hey Eva!!! Quarantine Tuesday...the new reality.
Loved hearing your story. As a strong independent woman, I find it very difficult to show weakness, even to family, I usually breakdown and cry alone during these times,then I pick myself back up and continue. Do you find it hard to share your "breaks" with others?
Wow it’s wonderful that you are sharing this with us you’ve definitely earned your crown 👑 thanks so much for sharing 💙
Good girl what you did for yourself. I'm 🦋 proud of you. Seems I'm still broken as well after 8 years of divorce. Almost 20 years marriage. I'm 60 years old.
Eva. I don't know if anyone else has told you... But I love these sit downs. I'm 41... I love grown woman conversations. I learn a lot from you. You are so graceful. I love your calm. Thank you for sharing this....sharing your heart. May God continue to bless you as you bless us with your knowledge and wisdom. I thank God for you. 💯💞
Congratulations Queen! Humble beginnings and humble ending! God always bless the humble in spirit Stay humble! And, you are so right, I definitely can feel you how people can misconceive one another. We may not look like what we have been through, but we still wear the healed scars! 🙏🏾🌷😘🌹 POWERFUL TESTIMONY! Thanks for being transparent! Stay beautiful and be blessed! #Queen
I relate to you so much I live in St Louis too I am three years older than you and I am just now starting to realize how broken I am starting my healing process I wish I would of found your page earlier let's pray for each other Queen and stay blessed
Thank you for sharing your story! ❤
We all have to get to a point in our lives where we are able to sit and figure out why we are settling for crumbs... We have to separate ourselves from people, places and things that do not serve our highest good! Then, we can began to live an authentic life... the energy changes and so does the people with whom we attract.
Thank you 🙏 for your truth... I’m 60 and still hurting from my youth ... but today I will start taking care of me... please pray for me
He wasn’t 💩 & the truth set you free.. praise God for the change in you 🙌🏽 stay Blessed 💚💜💯
I commend you for your transparency & willingness to share your wisdom. I know so many older women who talk about these negative experiences as if it’s ok for young ladies to go through - without guidance. We should be giving them the game so they’re prepared for whatever choices they make. It’s always “do what you makes you happy”, never “take some time to think about what you want & don’t want & make a decision that makes sense for your happiness.”
So many women need this message, like myself at some point we have to show up for ourselves and fear of being mother is real along with the unworthiness imposed on us from childhood trauma and/or neglect, we can't go back but we can start today for a better tomorrow, so refreshing to come across a woman that speaks on the womanly things such as shoes, clothes, perfume but ALSO the topics that need to marinate beyond the surface so we can Know that transformation is possible!!!! A Queen INDEED
I came across your channel for the first time tonight... your testimony is a blessing. I admire you for walking in your truth; your past has no hold over you. The beauty of it all is that growth has no age limit & as we learn we teach. Actually I’m reading ’As a man thinketh’ it’s a short but powerful book...
Amen Sista! Thank you for sharing your story! I am quite a bit older than you and I’ve been through some of the same. But you told nothing but the truth when you said that you have to be still! I started clapping girl!!! I had to learn the same thing and to learn how to love myself and make men treat me the way you want to be treated with respect. I’m in my “still” right now and I’ve been pealing layers away and cleaning my “storage area” if you want to call it that...lol. So i just want to thank you again for sharing and i know that i am not alone in my struggle of living my most peaceful life doing what i want to do, when i want to do, with who i want to do it with. God is still working on me! Applause to you! 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽
Not rambling. I totally relate. You are one helluva shining example for young women…heck, even this old woman…so glad I found your channel today❤️
Thank you for sharing such a personal story. I’m sure there are more broken people listening to you than you can imagine. You are very courageous to open up to everyone in an attempt to help others. Be assured that at least one person has listened.
Honey, I can so relate to this and if I told my story you all would be so is shock. We do live and learn and we change from 20, 30, 40, 50 and so on and we finally get to that point where we won't take not one little, bitty, tiny ounce of crap from nobody. Well, I feel like that, lol. You are a good speaker and I enjoyed your story 😊❤
Just "found" you in the last 2 days and have been binging in your videos. You are not only a beautiful woman, you have some wisdom and tenacity that is so rare in so many women. I relate to you, I've had "that journey", I know what you speak of. Wish we were neighbors cuz I get you...and I like you. A new subscriber.