Fearful Symmetry | Fantasy High: Sophomore Year | Ep. 18
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- čas přidán 17. 12. 2023
- The Bad Kids face their deepest fears as they venture deeper into the Forest of the NIghtmare King.
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Season 1: lmao the viceprincipal is a dragon
Season 2: 😐
Im eagerly awaiting Season 3 irrevocably damaging my psyche
I was just thinking that
Brennan said "what are your fears?" Followed by "Cool story, this is what they actually are."
He was right to do it, though. I think everyone in the moment will say "that my friends get hurt!!!!!" which is, you know... fine. But it isn't as interesting or personal as the hang-ups he went with.
Frfr the fig part was so good
It also makes sense that they would be thinking of the things that are scared of in that moment-the immediate threat-while the crafter of this story had been keeping a careful log of what would fill them with a soul deep dread.
Nothing is more scary than sleeping on the job!
@@victoriajenkins1424yes! Like, “so your character truly believes this is their greatest fear…but actually, this is so much worse.”
I love that whenever someone is missing, Brennan chooses to psychologically torture his players
It's great, really emphasises "if we aren't together, we aren't safe"
I love Adaine's line: "I guess I keep on fighting because fighting is scarier than giving up." It's kind of reminiscent of "Dying is easy, young man. Living is harder."
did not expect to find hamilton references here but I'M HERE FOR IT
One of my greatest joys in life is Brennan playing either Baron or Telemaine and just saying words and names.
we need an audio book series where he just reads words in funny accents lol
I'd add Bolo of Aeor from EXU Calamity to the list as well
Chej.
The bad kids went to literal hell, and a spooky forest was infinitely worse
1:00:14
I FEEL LIKE WE GLOSSED OVER THE “No one wants to hear the bass play solo” AND IM NOT STANDING FOR IT
YES WAS LOOKING FOR THIS
THATS WHAT IM SAYING LIKE????? PHYSICALLY AHD TO PAUSE THE VIDEO AND JUST STARE AT MY CEILING FOR A SECOND LMAO LIKE SHITTT
As a bass player this is actually a terrifying thought
@@rabies2800 dw i think bass sounds so cool :3
“No one wants to hear the bass play solo”
Me: *paid for half of my college tuition playing bass by myself*
WAS I JUST PRANKED FOR FOUR YEARS
Adaine you still got those anxiety meds right o.o;;
46:25 "The years will go by, and everyone will find someone that matters more to them than you."
this hits right in the aroace anxiety
Yeah I felt this with my entire soul
evil inclusivity. what a punch to the gut
This genuinely made me start sobbing
@@potato4551exhibit 564.a of why Brennan is my favorite DM to watch
I think this was the most emotional i have gotten over fantasy high thus far, that WRECKED me. This bonding in the comment section is nice though, we are not so alone. I'm really glad that riz is a character and he's now my fav aroace rep
"we are scared and we're coming for kristen, wE ARE SCARED AND WE'RE COMING FOR KRISTEN!"
everyone here experiencing their most genuine, saddest most profoundly distressing fears meanwhile fabian sits in his moment of irrelevance only for brennan to pull out the most un-fucking-hinged manifestations of fabian's other fears bc fabian was just chilling sends me
There's so many beautiful things here, but I want to draw attention to how Brennan finally got his revenge for Sexy Rat and Hilda Hilda and I love it
Man that PSA at the beginning about the pandemic made it hit hard just how long ago that was. Feels like it shouldn’t have been more than a year ago, it’s been nearly four years…
Right? Such lightheartedness and naivety. Probably had hope we as a species could handle a pandemic and take care of one another.
Such innocent times….
I don’t think I realized this season had Covid overlap.
@@robertnope1993last 2 episodes were via Zoom
Lou breaking Ally's chair hurts so bad because they never got to make a fool of themselves in the next episode because this was the last episode in person
All of the 2020s are 2020
kristen: dies for getting a freakin NAT 20
A DM that knows that a NAT 20 can get a player character killed is a good DM
Sometimes you can be really successful at making a really bad decision
“Riz bravely takes a nap.” Love it.
That transition from the sphinx to "I'M GONNA SHIT IN THAT MOUTH" God Brennan is fantastic
Nothing says 'teenage barbarian' like "So you want to smash this wall with your axe, the entire building now needs a saving throw"
"It's Gorgug, keep going" I LIKE YOUR WORDS MAGIC MAN, IN THE SENSE THAT THEY MAKE ME CRY
i posted something like this on the original video when i watched this a year ago, but here it is again: as an aroace person, riz's fears about his friends finding people they care about more than him and then subsequently choosing to leave him behind really hit home. aromantic and asexual representation is so limited in media, and having these feelings be voiced by brennan and brian was so validating.
I think the fact that I felt a added fear that I really don’t see at all that I experienced was also like
The fear that you won’t fall for anyone
I see a lot of people talk about this from an aroace perspective (for good reason, I consider Riz as and read his fears through an aroace perspective) and I just wanna add that even as someone who isn't aroace he is one of the most relatable characters ever for me. His fears can definitely also translate to someone like me who has extremely low confidence, who isn't conventionally attractive and who's romantically stunted. I definitely grapple with the fear of always being second best for my friends and the devaluing of our platonic relationships, as well as being "lesser" in some way. I guess it's kind of obvious cause I think the fear of being left behind is pretty universal but it's just cool how much he can mean to so many people.
Half my sympathy for Riz is on the aroace side, but the other is that I'm also someone who didn't manage to find their first friend group until high school. And when you're that late, you really don't have much confidence in your basic social competence, to the point where flirting seems completely out of reach. I kind of had to build my confidence to the point where 'Do I want a partner?' didn't seem like a stupid question to even be asking
I totally read that as arom-antic and had to reread it because I didn't know what smell had to do with it lol
as an aro ace currently watching this exact scene i think i’m going to cry it’s so accurately portrays that fear of being alone because all your friends will have their romantic priorities ahead of you always
This episode is INCREDIBLE, literally so good. It's genuinely scary, but the fact that some of their fears manifested as "letting someone shit in your mouth" and "taking a nap" is just funny and amazing. Can't believe it's just two more episodes, I cannot wait for the ending and also Junior year is coming, I am so excited!
Don't forget the sexy rat lol
ultimate irrational teenage vibes 😭
spoilers: the mouth shititng is real
With context, it might be the best episode of all Dimension 20.
the part with figs and aydas fears mirroring each other and reaffirming their love for each other fucking destroyed me
Siobhan and Lou's reactions of disgust when Brennan makes Barron's voice were so genuine
I didn't expect the sexy rats return, but OMG.
That's the thing about any good DM, they don't let anything go to waste.
So did Brennan have to pay for everyone's therapy or did Dropout cover it?
^this is why we subscribe to dropout, $60 a year for their mental health benes!!
This WAS the therapy
“The years will go by and everyone you love will find someone that means more to them than you.”
Jesus christ
Never did I ever thought that a fucking dnd campaign about a fantasy high school would give me this level of anxiety and self doubt 🙃 but here we are and I blame absolutely Brennan Lee mulligans exceptional performance
"Charisma can make a good first impression but not a lasting one" oh boy this is gonna be a long episode
2:10:18 This section is one of the most underrated of the entire D20. Both Brennan's imagery and Siobhan's empathy and emotional maturity birthed one of the most beautiful scene of fiction I've ever seen.
The image of an old sad Adaine all in black all alone... And Siobhan's decision to still want to understand and help what was only an illusion.
PS : Fck I'm crying again...
Thats the one the hit me hardest as well
Siobhan is generally such an empathetic and smart player. I enjoy her so much in these shows.
The message here is so brutal: you’re the only one of the bad kids whose parents didn’t love you. I grew up in a similar environment and I was full sobbing in this scene.
2:05:10 it has been very difficult to convince people to watch 50+ hours of DnD just to have the context to feel all the feelings of Ayda's dreams
“It’s scarier to keep fighting than it is to give up”, because of the anxiety from the idea that no matter how hard you fight it’ll still end horribly for you and all your efforts would be in vain and you’d be worse off by your own hands. That part was so deep. Because giving up is taking control of the situation, knowing how it’ll end. But to fight and throw your efforts before the whims of fate, not knowing what could come. Man that hit. This whole episode is wild
"What is expectation without love, that's what you've given me." Wheeew that line smacks.
Such a sharp delivery as well, straight kidney shot to the mommy issues
2:25:55 timestamp
Dude seriously the bit where Addine is talking to her self about her having a trait that’s easy to abandon absolutely broke me
30:52 If your friends wouldn't take some drugs and intentionally have a bad trip to save you from a nightmare forest, are they really your friends?
Brennan is so damn good at knowing the voice of every NPC if I ever miss who is speaking I just immediately recognize who it is based off the voice! ALL FROM ONE MAN
58:53 Cracking up that everyone else's response to "what's your character's greatest fear" is like "oh gosh I don't know...this thing I think?" and for Fig, Emily just straight up gives a whole list XD
I just love Lou's reactions to most of the scary stuff, and how you can see him squirming almost constantly during all of it.
Everyone else: existential dread
Fabian: doesn’t want a raggedy pirate to 💩 in his mouth
Hahaha I do think it’s deeper that that and that Chungledown Bim is a manifestation of where he lost the most and let people down and was a result of his own ego and hubris. It’s a fear of returning to the person he was now he has come out the other side
I almost wish Fabian’s fear was that this new version of him would crumble again like his old self did
Yes but I think chuckle down bib represents falling back into his old ways by running from him
@@jacobcorturillo6537exactly this Chungledown Bim I s a manifestation of where he felt most lost, without hope and all of his own hubris. That’s the fear, falling back to the old Fabian
It sort of is! I think that because he had his character arc, he got the vital task of making things a bit lighter.
Because holy shit needed
Brennan said a teaspoon of the dusk moss was enough for a whole day, they did a multi pound brick of it
fantasy high is more important that my English essay right?
Edit: detention :/
Yes
For sure
I learned more words from this show than from my English lessons
Brennan would disagree, Fantasy High will still be here once your essay is done (or once you've done a little more, at least :p )
One hundred percent it is
and yet another episode where Brennan makes sure he is the topic of conversation between me an my therapist, thanks for the emotional scars
Seriously, did this man get a minor in psychology?! Makes me ugly cry so frequently.
Fabians worst fears are all the gags the gang did just to make his role play that much more difficult
for the curse of the tree I feel like gilear truly could have been the chosen one, the one to guide them all
Wait you’re actually so right
1:28:48 - 1:47:55 - 1:56:37 i return back to these moments Often because they're SO fucking funny. throwing back the players shenanigans and running gags back at them at full force. it's so good.
Truly the one moment that leaves me in absolute tears whenever I revisit it, thanks for highlighting it
Siobhan is wonderful, I hope she didn't have to emote something from her own life but I did remember what it felt like when she wondered who was responsable for feeling so unworthy of being loved by her own family, still crying, good stuff.
(spoiler for about 1:48:00ish)
the second that Brennan said "an old woman" I fucking knew it was Hilda Hilda and I have never been so excited to experience a nightmare
The mirroring fears/hopes of Ayda and Fig had me crying big ol tears.
And then Adine's scene with her older self, taking the time to talk to and encourage someone she wasn't even sure was real, got me again.
Romænce pärtner has me dead
My god, Lou’s performance of Fabian just gets better all the time. I absolutely lost it when he just fled in terror from Chungledown Bim!! And then resigning himself to the rat and Bim 😂😂😂😂
oh god, when Emily starts to cry at about 2:06:40, I FEEL my heart breaking... I also am so touched by Murph going between listening to Brennen and looking to Emily, like he's checking up on her 😭😭 this whole episode, man.
this is parasocial
@@antiphon000It’s not parasocial to be upset by someone else crying?
Murph was like "Dude, Brennan, stop making my wife cry."
@@furygeist This is, what, like the second time now?
Also when she sniffles and Siobhan's head snaps toward her to make sure she's okay 😢 These people really love each other and it shows in all the small ways ❤
1:01:40 Remember when this was fun? Remember when people were flying down ropes? 😂😂😂
The ol Applebee Elevator. 😂
Ah yes, Brennan psychologically torturing his players. Ya love to see it!
34:08 the terror on brennan's face when adine decides to leave her anxiety meds
Ah, what a fantastic development, a revolutionary and brave form of group therapy. A DM that knows the players and when and how they lie, but more than that, knows when they’re lying to themselves and is capable of telling their story by guiding them still.
...I read this as an Identify Spell XD
Fabian's fears were both terrifying and hilarious in a twisted way. I love how quick Brennan is at improvising these things.
This episode was fucking terrifying, but I can not ever explain or express the feelings I felt during the chungledown bim and sexy rat bit. I was like, panic laughing while regular cackling, so on edge from everything but also it’s so ridiculously funny to imagine, and Lou’s reactions were pure gold. I have tears in my eyes.
"i hope she finds something that i didnt know was there" wOW that hit right thru the chest jesus
I literally have planned my doctoral thesis with what was done here in regards to addressing trauma and role play intervention ❤
All the best man
Watched this season over this last summer, and holy shit everyone is so insanely good at playing their characters. And BRENNNAN is fking insane at his world building and story writing. Cannot wait for season 3, hoot growl!
"What is expectation without love? That's what you've given me!"
I live for Murph and Lou's discomfort when Baron show up 😂😂😂😂
I always find myself wondering how much of each character is self insert. I haven't wondered this as hard in the past as I do watching this video.
It's so fucking funny how Fabian's fears are just . . . Lou's fears. Anyways.
You think Lou fears getting shat in his mouth and sexy rats on a regular basis?
@@donovanfaust3227you mean you don't???
If CZcams had awards for acting and/or storytelling, this episode would win.
“The years will go by, and everyone will find someone who matters to them more than you.” THANKS, Brennan. that didn’t hurt at all
I am watching this at almost 5 AM. This is the most unsettled I’ve been in my entire life I am chilled to the bone and I should not have watched this before trying to sleep
1:49:39 it's kinda sad knowing that Ally won't get to sit on the chair 😢
^ Thanks I hate it
The line "I don't know why I was so easily discarded" sliced through me. I started sobbing and couldn't stop myself.
Untill Adaine said to "Do you not see how good I am?"
It shifted my reality for the positive.
The person that wallows in their misery and refuses for decades to evolve out of it pulled me in too. All my love and dedication couldn't save them, it just made me go deeper into that selfpity mud trying to get them out. It breaks my heart letting them go. It makes me so sad and so desperate to try over and over again.
But enough is enough. All my dedication, love, understanding and care aren't ever going to be enough. I can't pull them out if they do not want to be pulled out. And I refuse to live by wallowing in the mud, when I can fly to the highest highs and dive to the deepest depths. Just because that mud is familiar, doesn't mean it's actually comforting. I am letting go. Forever.
waaah Gorgug and Fabian hugging 😭😭😭
highlight
2:52 oh no its green again
9:53 phantasmal force yes!
15:12 bardy boys origins!!!
17:23 bababooeybababooey
20:42 ah yes. this is another use of the identify spell
21:33 as long as you investigate and have a song in your heart youre a bardy boy
22:44 no ri- no, the ball
25:52 I DONT wANT THESE
30:09 it will certainly expedite things!
30:50 i think for kristen we have to take the drugs
31:31 baby, you actually have a rly important role to play: keep being you!
33:04 i dart off into the forest
35:05 we are scared and we're coming for kristen!
40:07 (so many dice rattling)
40:54 thats what i used to do to catch the bus
42:18 return of the romænce pärtner
43:00 just....excellent baron accent moment
44:20 aroace fear: start
48:03 baron saying "f'threthreal"
49:45 i admit there might be something wrong with me
50:00 let's go down the line whats everyone afraid of?
50:37 ITS OK TO FUCKIN SNACK
50:48 what gorgug is afraid of
54:38 what adaine is afraid of
58:58 what fig is afraid of
1:00:11 no one wants to hear the bass play solo :(
1:01:44 "people were flying around on ropes" that was literally the worst day of fabian's life lol and its the first thing that lou thinks of for like. fun things theyve done this season.
1:03:16 what fabian is afraid of
1:09:57 babian?
1:11:07 if its placid, how is there a fountain in it? placid = flat and undisturbed
1:19:24 its gorgug keep going - ICONIC
1:20:51 weird dnd tangent: i wonder if the reason the sphinx is a man here instead of a woman (as is generally the case in greek myth) is bc in dnd 5e an androsphinx (male sphinx) is many challenge ratings higher than a gynosphinx (female sphinx), so brennan associates them with higher degrees of danger, or if its nothing (much more probable). just a fun lil fact that has been rattling around my mind for years that i have to tell people about like that's bonkers right? thats full fantasy sexism.
1:23:19 gorgug rolling so so so close to the DC (he has a minus one, so both of those 19s were fucking nat 20s) and only failing bc of the disadvantage the sphinx is imposing is the dice telling a story and i love it
1:25:15 a true thing about gorgug's life
1:28:00 he said that the DC was lowered to 15 by hearing the true thing, and he rolls a 16 and an 11 here. so, in every roll so far, the higher roll passed the DC but the disadvantage made him take the lower one. im foaming at the mouth at the story the dice tell.
1:28:48 chungledown bim 0.0
1:30:40 sexy rat 0.0
1:31:55 adaine is braver than any US marine
1:36:20 "it's scarier to keep fighting than it is to give up" jesus siobhan killin me out here
1:37:01 "dressed like a carnival barker is biz glitterdew" the scariest fucking thing i can think of
1:41:47 little shrimp!!!
1:42:47 is.....my greatest fear sleeping on the job??? god im so lame
1:45:19 don't worry you've been at a non-sexual adult sleepover*
1:48:00 THE PRESTIGE (hilda hilda)
1:48:55 & 1:49:30 lou's chair breaks & he switches with ally's empty chair
1:50:52 i hope she finds something that i didnt know was there (figayda :):):) )
1:55:58 im a dumbass. eat me, you stupid bug
1:56:52 fabian, making the ultimate sacrifice.
1:59:00 this is the beautiful intimate moment of accepting and facing fear and overcoming it for fabian and i love it and it doesnt get enough credit bc the whole fuck and shit and fuck moment is both hilarious and mechanically the thing that sends the pulse of hope
2:00:35 YES THE HUG
2:03:05 you know what that is? growth
2:04:05 ok at least baby's safe
2:04:50 even if youre the glamorous version of me you still have a fucking crush on ayda!
2:05:30 what ayda is afraid of
2:06:37 the you that appears in her life is not the illusion. it is the real you. (im fucking sobbing)
2:07:28 the fact that i have not found such a quality in myself doesn't mean figueroth could not find something in me worthwhile (figayda!!!!!!!!)
2:08:38 i sit down and write the song "she likes me for me"
2:13:14 i do not know why i was so easy to discard (OOF)
2:26:32 cw: angwyn is fucking horrifying
2:27:34 is this what happens every night for people who sleep with blankets??!?!!!!
*if you haven't seen neverafter just ignore this one
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20:00 another gorgug noscope
36:01 shiny finger bone origins
1:06:25 which bone did he take???????? i dont remember this being mentioned again but the finger bone very much is??!??!
1:13:59 kristen's wack dream (rip forgotten goddess)
Thank you and you're amazing 😭 I can't wait to see you in FHJY
Thank you. D20 needs to pin this comment.
why did gorgug and fabian rerolling Int and Wis affect me so much?? like full frying rn dude
This has got to be my favorite episode. That was intense. Brennan was having a field day
I’m 30 minutes in and the decisions they’re making are so bad but make sm sense right now. Incredible. Incredible.
Not rewatching this as it publicly gets uploaded, but popping in to say this is a D20 GOAT Episode. Can't wait for Junior Year
2:07:52
Emily actually crying at Brennan's storytelling for Ayda is just... *chef's kiss*
1:57:07 LOU WILSON, THE MAN THAT YOU ARE!!!! NO ONE IS DOING IT LIKE LOU!!!
Siobhan part at the end was incredible, and then you remember its all improv. whole episode was amazing.
I love that Riz is ace (most likely aroace). It feels so good to have rep like that, even if the character doesn't have the words for it.
In my opinion, this is one of best episodes in D20!!
The music when they use identity is amazing. The best addition to the immersion. Idk if Brennan controls it or they edit it but it's the best move ever.
in freshman year they edited it in, but in sophomore year it’s live!
I had to walk away from this episode several times. It's just so heavy.
I am waiting for the return of Chungle-Down Bim
When Baldurs Gate 3 came out I had to play an obligatory run through as dark urge Chungle-Down Bim
I genuinely hoped that Fabian would say that his worst nightmare was chungle down bim
There are more videos with Chungle-Down Bim on Dropout
And one on CZcams but don’t look it up until after you’ve finished this series
@@krish_4872that's sounds so insane ahhh sick
I think what I love most about the portrayal of Riz's fear of being alone is when he's still not put words to his feelings.
The terror of being alone was something I felt before I realised I am aro-ace. I saw everyone around me dating in school and uni; and I knew that my parents only saw their friends a few times a year due to work and family. That fear that I'd be forgotten and alone made me desperate to find a partner, blocking out all the confusion about what I'd do in a relationship and the way that I wouldn't feel comfortable being physically intimate.
Once I finally came to terms with being aro-ace, the pressure gradually disappeared without me noticing. I stopped disliking my body and personality so much because I wasn't blaming them for being unsuccessful romantically. I started to just enjoy the time I have with people now, rather overthinking the potential futures.
I'm so hyped for this
HOOT GROWL!
HOOT GROWL!
Hoot growl!
Hoot growl!
HOOT GROWL!
i started sobbing as soon as i saw emily tearing up
“Why was I so easy to discard” ouch…
49:55 in, "let's go down the line, what's everyone afraid of"
"The years will go by, and *everyone* will find someone that matters more to them than *you*."
Genuinely my number 1 fear in college, while figuring out my asexuality.
I'm in my 30's now and it still rears its ugly head more often than I'd prefer
And the answer of course, in the same episode 2:12:07
This was a bad episode to listen to while putting on makeup …absolutely worth it
I’m fine, this is great. I’m not emotionally conflicted and I’m not broken because while still in the first hour. THIS IS FINE. /s
Welcome to the AHS portion of DnD Fantasy High. Please keep your screams to a minimum and remember to throw away your used tissues when exiting the ride. Thank you, and have a terrible time! 🥲
Its so wild that the idea to get high as a kite in a cursed forest and induce a bad trip was not only suggested, but this likely being the best course of action is why TTRPGs are so great
Also, Brennan mostly uses his powers for good, but this episode really shows that he could really, REALLY be using them for Great Evil
PFFFF.... wow
This thing.. holy shit Brennan.
I have no clue what level of things for this show you guys have written and made a story for beforehand, but this one feels like you took off to a whole new level yourself. This was INSANE! And to repeat others. The mix of horrors and just gag replays to erlier story xD incredible. I laughed, I cried, I had goosebumps and chills and loved all of this. Holy shit man. Just holy shit!
That was the least intrepid these heroes have sounded.
They were all feeling pretty trepid.^^
"I have to let someone shit in my mouth, and you just have to take a nap?" Is such a wildly hilarious line.
such delightfully terrifying storytelling in this one, i had goosebumps through most of it! great job to everyone!
So, so much of this is so good- but the bit that had me absolutely dying was Adaine with her elder self. Absolutely wept. Adore the fact that Brennan had them improve their scores based on their character growth! Loved that mechanical bit! Just so, so good, the whole thing. Also… It’s Gorgug, keep going, had me tearing up so hard!
This episode just reminded me that, without a doubt, Baron is my favorite NPC I’ve encountered in ANY Actual Play show I’ve ever watched. So hilariously creepy.
1:25:27 that was the one thing right?
the pause there indicates a full stop. One full thing about Gorgug's life was said yep don't hurt the best wizard of the world
1:43:40 (5 minutes before but I'm lazy) LMAO THAT'S HIS GREATEST FEAR?? I thought it was a bit until brennan went straight to Fig IVHSUCHSIFHE god I love this show
I just love the moments when Lou is so flabbergasted and panicked he starts like 10 sentences in 6 seconds
This is so scary in a way I can’t describe and I love it