i failed out of medical school | an unfiltered reflection
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- čas přidán 16. 07. 2024
- Failure in medical school is something that people don’t really ever talk about, even though everyone knows just how hard this process is. In this video, I talk about my own personal experience with failing out of my first year, what I did during my Leave of Absence, and how it has been remediating the year.
VIDEO CHAPTERS
0:00 My story
3:44 Failure in medical school
5:34 Failures dont define you
9:14 Be honest with yourself
10:25 Dealing with judgement
13:54 Advice for transforming yourself academically
16:38 The most important thing
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This video has been being picked up a lot more recently, which I appreciate a lot! But if that means more people are finding it because they're going through a similar situation- I hope you know that you'll get past these hurdles! It's easy to feel powerless in these situations, but they don't define who you are as a person. How you respond to these challenges does. Take the time you need to process the circumstance, give yourself some grace and some time off, and then work on the factors that you can control. The light at the end of the tunnel will mean that much more after going through this.
hey! i'm here because I'm on my last day writing my dissertation for my master's after having to take a leave of absence. I felt really disappointed, and ashamed, I'd never 'given up' on something academically, and I felt so ashamed. Here I am two years later, and I'm about to finish. I really really hope I pass. love x
Hey man, I also failed out of M1 in medical school during Covid (in 2020-21). It’s two years out and I’ve been teaching as a bridge job and am applying to law school to become a public defender. It feels like your life is over at the time, but it goes on.
You seem to have a great head on your shoulders and you will make it through this second time!
Thank you so much for this video! It's practical and reassuring. I'm going through something not exactly the same but I also took a leave of absence to really figure out what I wanted to do with my life.
It's hard to make such big decisions so early in life and be locked in. Wishing you the best in what you're going through!@@AlliK_Worldwide
There is a reason that this "toxic" culture is present and that is because people's lives depend on you being smart enough to save them. My experience and the experience of my colleagues is the current crop of doctors being pumped out in the US are sub par yes men who cannot think on their own.
I failed and repeated my first year of medical school. Now in my second year of Residency. Nobody cares that you failed, nobody even knows unless you tell them. Never cared about it during residency and forgot about it. You move on.
Love to hear it. Congratulations on making it through 🤝
no one asked you about it during interviews?
😊i didn’t know you could go back but you did keep going! It seems to me a lot of medical school is about fortitude! I work with a bunch of doctors and some of them make me wonder.
@@dian277if they do, they'd probably ask it as "what obstacle have you faced that you overcame" and that can be used
@@dian277 Some do, but it's not a bad thing, employers can see you put in the work and had the determination to succeed even after a set back.
It takes a special kind of person to share their failures with others in order to help them. The pressure to be perfect is so real in any career but it’s not reality. You will be a great doctor.
I appreciate the kind words a lot 🙇🏻♂️
I agree thank you I appreciate. I am in nursing professionally looking to go into a doctoral program and I just have so much disappointment and shame and anxiety looking back at some of the science classes i took as an undergrad and i could only smh.
I wouldn't call it "failures". Only people who are so inclined to be trapped in the Rat race see it as a let down. The restrictions in the medical field take lives every day, avoiding the opaque parental pressure and doing your own thing is essential. You only live once, persuading endlessly for a grade will kill you.
Most people are like this, what are you talking about? Lots of old people who feel they've failed at life like sharing their failure to young people to teach them to work harder and motivate them.
I am a person that easily breaks when I fail. I found that it came from the high expectations put on me in my childhood. I never feel good enough so when failure strikes it hits me like a truck. I’m successful today, on paper, but it still doesn’t feel like enough. Definitely a work in progress still.
I appreciate you for sharing that part of your journey. It can be hard devoting so much time into something, yet trying to separate it from your self-worth. I’m wishing you nothing but the best :)
exactly like me lol nothing is good enough and it just makes me stressed
Same here.
Hey Kenny, I repeated my 1st year of medschool as well. I ended up going through and am now in Residency. It was a ROUGH time. I failed towards the end of my 1st year so I wasn't allowed to do remediation test. We were only allowed 1 remediation test. Medschool takes SOOOO much from you. I am glad you are taking care of yourself now.
Congratulations on getting into residency! I appreciate the kind words and it gives me peace knowing others have experienced this as well. I’m glad you were able to move past it and I’m wishing you the best!
Any regrets on going through with medical school instead of choosing another career path?
Congratulations! It takes a special type of person to have that kind of determination. I know because I myself struggle with failure a lot and I'm not sure I would've been able to be that resilient. Proud of you, stranger!
@@ElDragowI’m not gonna I chose a new career path. I am now starting as a nurse in August and will make my was as an anesthesiologist.
It took me 10 yrs to finish medical school. I dropped out to study psychology and dropped in back, unmotivated back in med school till I reached final my year and fell in love with medicine. I’m still not very academic but I like being a doctor. I never regretted any of it. Keep going if you want to be a doctor.
You are awesome!!!!
Same here, I just jumped back to med school. What did you do to re learn information or recall it after years outside med?
Thank you for sharing your inspiring story, I’m glad that everything worked out for you!
@@min_x27 i tried everything, learning with different people, I went to cafes so I didn’t get bored studying in one place, I watched videos on youtube for a fast recall. What helped the most was I had hyper marked my book and underlined important info, so I just read that in the end. Try to understand instead of cram when you learn the first time. Recall gets easier later.
The real question is how much in school loans you have 👀
l lost a year in Medschool and I had to repeat a year. My twin proceeded to the next class. As I write to you now,I am writing my final exams and I finish in the next 36 hours! I will be a full fledged Doctor this week and I must say I m glad I didn't give up. I failed in my 2nd year because I was still new to the rigours of Medschool. I must say these past 9 years(+covid year) has been a ride. I've been depressed, joyful, happy and sometimes wanted to give up but I am glad I held on.
This is for someone who is TIRED of Medschool,take a break and re-assess , remind yourself of the why and then RUN the race set before you by you.
It's worth it at the end!
Nice meeting the international community.
Love from Nigeria❤
I appreciate you for sharing your story- I’m glad to hear that you’ve overcame it and made it through! Best of luck on your next chapter, Doctor. 🤝🏼🤝🏼
How many hours did you study per day when you were successful? I’m just trying to gauge what I can before I go.
The most successful people in the world have failed more than they succeeded. Persistence is the key.
The medical systems burns us out and then turns around to place the sole blame on its students, residents etc to not burn out. Your honesty is so refreshing and I’m praying for you🫶🏿
I appreciate the kind words, wishing you the best :)
I didn't fail medical school, but I was suspended when I was studying for my bachelor's degree. I took a year off, worked a part time job, worked on my mental health and physical health. That year i really figured out what I wanted to do and who I am as a person. I went back to college and got straight A's and graduated! Sometimes, you just need a break to gain perspective and that's ok.
Thanks for sharing :) I’m glad that it all worked out for you!
@@HaoTheHeck thank you! And hopefully you will find what makes you happy and content as well! Wishing you loads of luck in this journey!
What do you recommend as the first step to working on mental health?
@@day-viavia2033 I started out with walking/hiking while listening to music. it is good for physical and mental health. it really calmed me down when I experienced a lot of negative emotions at once.
Failing by one point is brutal :(
I passed by a couple points on a couple blocks, and I know that there is no objective difference between you and I. Keep on my brother, thanks for this video. Grades are NOT a reflection of your future quality as a physician :)
I appreciate that! We’re both gonna make it 🤝🏼🤝🏼
Don't sweat it. My buddy got his medical license, practiced for couple years and fell out of love being a doctor. He's now running a small family business. Find your own happiness in life, don't let other dictate what is happiness.
I'm a fresh graduate from a premed course and was actually planning to proceed to medicine. But for the past 3 months of rest and reflections I realized that I'm not actually doing it for myself but was pressured by my family and relatives. Breaking the news to my family about my plan to not proceed to medicine was pretty difficult for me, but I was really surprised how they support my decision saying that they really noticed my struggles during the past year. And now I am really glad that I'm proceeding to something that I have an interest with, realizing that there are more opportunities the world can offer.
That's a scary realization to come to and tell your family. I'm glad that you figured that out for yourself though! Whatever you decided to pursue instead, im wishing you the best 🤝
Im in a similar situation but I haven’t fully committed on changing careers. I dont know how i would build up the courage to tell my parents. I feel ashamed, and I feel like I would be letting them down if I dont get into the graduate program i have been pursuing for the past 2 years. I feel like a failure seeing my cousins getting into their programs and progressing in life. I honestly feel lost and stuck at the same time
I failed a class before. Granted it wasn't medical school or any graduate degree school, it was ORGANIC CHEMISTRY. that's when I contemplated my life choices. Orgchem through me for a loop! 😮
It's been 10ish years since then and that didn't affect me at all!,
I rather one fail 5x before becoming the beat doctor. We are human and we are learning, we can't pass everything all at once!
Keep up the good work 👏🏾 🎉
this is exactly what's happening with me omg i'm doing so well with my health and bio classes but organic chemistry is ruining my chances of pursuing medicine 😭 congrats on getting through it though !
Not gonna lie, organic chemistry for me was ROUGH. Havent used any of those concepts since haha. I appreciate the kind words!
I failed org chem 2 like 3 times haha… i kinda figured i needed a major change
@@ImWorkin oh no 😭 what did you end up doing?
I'm a psychiatrist. I've been out of training (residency and fellowship) for one year. I enjoyed this video, because I can totally relate to your struggles. Trust me, once you start making that attending salary, and you're living in that nice house, driving that nice car, taking your family on nice vacations, the hurdles you faced to get to that point will fade away in your mind. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other. All of it is ABSOLUTELY worth it in the end.
Looking at psychiatry as my #1 and this was super refreshing to hear. Thanks for the inspiration Dr. KissMyBrownAss 🫡🫡🤝🏼
What about the debt. How does that work.
I matched psychiatry and did away w medicine as a career altogether. It was destroying my mental health after working as a tech/ER APCT for 10 years prior. I haven’t looked back. I spent 27 years in school, got 2 MS degrees and sacrificed my fertility. I’ve had 2 miscarriages and would not have been able to do IVF w the residency salary. My director and I cojld not come to a resolution to allow me the time off, and I had to leave. It was one or the other of my biggest dreams in life. But I don’t regret it. It’s been 3 years now. I have 1 good embryo finally. Am doing it alone at 37 w menopause expected at 38 bc of unexpected damage to my eggs during cancer treatment. They had promised (I was 29) that it would not harm them. I should’ve looked at more meta analyses. But $500k I’m debt from school, still searching for my life’s purpose, and trying to raise enough money to pay off my first round of egg retrieval ($21k) so I can do a second and hopefully transfer my miracle. Medicine cost me my entire life’s happiness. It is all I wanted for so long, but I ended up attempting sui*ide 4 times since the beginning of my last semester. My mom almost passed away. My dog did pass away. I didn’t initially match. And I had my first miscarriage at 34. I struggle every single day w what medical school has left me with. And I worked through 15 years of therapy already bc of an abusive alcoholic POS father. And now mandatory therapy for Ivf. I do still love psych, but med school robbed me of a life. At 24, I wanted to start trying for a baby. Everyone told me “You’re so young; you have 20 years left to have one!” “You’re going to be a doctor!” As if that’s all there is to life. “You don’t want/ need kids.” “Now isn’t the time.” “Focus on school.” I’ve never had a bugger regret then listening to these people. All I do want in life is my own little family w my 1 year old dog. He is all that has saved me after my last boy passed. My only dream was for him to see me graduate and he missed it by a month. I finished and graduated for my mom, whom I drove to my school and had handicapped seating for/ my only family member in attendance/ and worried about her the entire ceremony. She had to carry her defibrillator/pacemaker before she had one implanted. She had recently had a quadruple bypass. I still feel like I totally failed her. But I could not continue on that path just for everyone else. Nobody in my extended family talks to me anymore since I quit medicine. I got 118 likes (not saying “likes” are everything) on my med school graduation post, and 25ish on my pregnancy announcement at 12 weeks, which I would lose days later. Just goes to show you what makes other people happy. You have to follow your own heart, if I’ve learned anything in this life
Yes I gave up all the “nice” cars and “nice” vacations and “nice houses.” But it’s also nice to still be alive.
@@MPLetsTalkI’m $500k in. Actually about $600k now. How does that work? You pass it on to your kids bc nobody cares that you sacrificed your life for others. Patients and family alike treat you like sh*t. It’s a thankless job.
Medical school workload is very BRUTAL!!!
I graduated high school in 2020 during the pandemic, so I was really out of practice when I went to college. I went from having no classes during high school, to having 6 classes + 2 labs a day. I was a biology major with a focus in pre-med, because I really wanted to be a PA. Right from the get-go I was struggling. I didn't know how to properly study & I was really bad at setting boundaries, so I was also working like 50 hours a week at a fast food joint. I failed my college algebra class, but I retook it & passed so they wiped the F off of my transcripts (something they only do for freshmen). My sophomore year, I was really confident, but I had a bunch of hard classes like physics, chemistry, and trig, so after a few months of struggling, I made the decision to drop out. I literally didn't tell any of my friends. I remember studying for an exam one day and I knew I was going to fail, so I dropped out. The same day I dropped out, I applied to a local technical college for medical assisting, and I got in, and started the following week (didn't really give myself a break). It was the best decision I ever made. I graduated and passed my NHA medical assisting exam. A year and a half later (now), I've recently been accepted into nursing school, and I will start in April! I truly believe everything happens for a reason, and had I not dropped out of college, I'd probably not found something I'm passionate in :)
You’re going to be great :) thank you for sharing your story! It’s so important to see that not everyone will be on a perfectly “linear” or “traditional” path- and that’s more than fine. Your experience will only make you better and you’re gonna crush it :)
Thanks so much for talking about this Kenny . I’m a 2nd year medical student - I haven’t repeated anything but I constantly feel on the edge especially since I scraped my exam. Med school is such a big commitment- I’m really trying my best to push my way through it and be resilient but coming back I didn’t expect it to take from me the way it has. Thanks for being vulnerable- it has made me realise that others also find this difficult
Rooting for you all the way! Doing well in med school is hard. Doing mediocre in med school is hard. Med school’s just hard 😅 but we’re gonna get through it!
Omg this is so me,trying hard to pass this year, but im rlly too scared, plz tell us what happened then in ur second year, hope everything was okay :)
I failed my 3rd year of dental school due to my depression right after covid and had to repeat everything you said is so valid, especially not caring what anyone thinks and just focusing on yourself it actually ended up benefiting me because I got more exposure in clinic and I really took the time off to prepare myself to do well when i got back, ur right it can be a good experience if u make i just graduated this year too
Congrats on graduating! Definitely agree, with these tough situations perspective is everything. Wouldn't change anything about my experience thus far
I failed my 3rd yr dental school also due to insomnia, depression and I lost my grandpa. It was tough and dark.. no one gets how hard that period of my life. The people and friends I met at that time helped me to move on with my life.
Dental school is tough and dental residency is even crazier, but I'm happy you guys have the right attitude for what's ahead. Work hard but please live life too. 😊
There is no shame. 35 years ago, I failed physiology by 0.4 points. During residency, no one asked me why.
What did I learn from my experience?
I learned to be more compassionate.
You are more than your school performance.
Fantastic video, bro. I'm not pursuing medicine anymore. I switched paths, but I'm so proud of you for being transparent & vulnerable. I'm glad you took care of yourself by assuming that leave of absence. You're gonna be a dope doctor. Keep on keeping on.
I appreciate the love bro 🤝🏼🤝🏼 wishing you the best on your new journey
Respect for talking about your failures! Not a lot of people have the humility to do so✊🏻
Appreciate the kind words 🤝🏼🤝🏼
@@HaoTheHeck as someone who is trying to finish up my fifth year in electrical engineering and who failed multiple classes, switched universities, I know the feeling all too well.
Incredible reflections Kenny. I’m always proud of you for sharing your story and insight with everyone. When you’re near the top of the educational hierarchy as with grad school, failures become that much more magnified. I’m grateful that you were able to handle it with as much grace and maturity as anyone could possibly do and for laying out a rare blueprint for many that may be going through what you experienced.
I needed to hear this. I'm in grad school and I started to feel stupid, but it's not really because of that. It's only me adjusting to the new demands of working, studying and making a home at same time.
Grad school has a way of making capable people feel stupid, you got this! 😊
@@HaoTheHeck Thanks, Kenny! Excited to see how the next chapter will unfold for you. :)
As a medical student, I felt every part of this video. I don’t have consistent habit to study everyday and it’s even harder during exam days with ENDLESS EXAMS
It’s a hard path, but you’re going to be great :)
Thanks for the honesty! I'm not a med student but a grad student and your advice is so important!
Kenny you have really done every medical student a favor by creating this video!! At my school, failure is almost a taboo topic, and it feels so awkward to talk about. I wish more people could share insightful thoughts like these-it’s so important, and potentially even lifesaving, to be reminded that school isn’t everything. Thank you so much for your vulnerability!
Thank you so much for talking about this. I am currently in my final semester of didactic year of PA school. I am feeling so burnt out and emotionally drained. It was refreshing to hear about your personal journey and just coming to the realization that burnout happens. It's okay and our grades don't define the compassionate providers we will be. I am rooting for your success :)
what a coincidence I got this recommeded after I also failed my first year of medicine school. Thank you for this video 🤟
My good friend failed her step 2 exam twice. She is now 15 years into her successful career as an Obgyn and known for her heart and empathy and quality of care. I remember those dark years for her, but she came out of it battered but stronger and is now thriving.
Hi Kenny! Your video was recommended to me - thank you so much for sharing your story! I also repeated my first year of med school after some very narrow failures and while it was devastating at first, it ultimately saved me and my career. Not only am I doing well in all my classes now as a second-year med student, but I'm also more confident, motivated, and happier than I ever could've imagined. Based on the insights you gave in your video, I have no doubt that you'll get through this too. Best of luck with everything! :)
A very thoughtful and insightful video, Kenny. Thanks being so vulnerable and talking about a topic that very much needs to be addressed.
Thanks for the kind words🙇🏻♂️🙇🏻♂️
This video couldn't have came in a better timing. I was in a bad head space the past month due to not passing two cardiology exams. I'm working hard to improve for the new unit and hope that two failed exams by 1% mark doesn't define my success. This video was beautiful and it had me tearing for a little because it brought out so many emotions I've been thinking and hearing it verbalized by you made it real. Wishing you well and best of luck in your school years and beyond!
Current 1st year med student here- yeah med school takes it OUT of you, man! It's so hard to have the level of discipline to push to keep studying after finishing exams or a course. I don't think I have ever studied this hard consistently in my life, even for the mcat lmao. People always say the hardest part about medical school is getting in, and if you are reading this and one of those people, it's a LIE! Med school is a constant GRIND
The “hardest part is getting in” attitude gave me an absolutely rude awakening 😂 medical school is tough, but we find a way to keep going and trudging along. You got this future doc!
Very much needed video in the premed/medical school space! As your fellow classmate and friend who has gone through the same experience of repeating our first year of medical school together, it's been quite a roller coaster of emotions; and coming to terms with myself was only the tip of the iceberg. Not gonna lie, I was definitely very depressed and unmotivated initially at this time of last year (crazy how time has flown by). I felt that I had not only let myself down, but I had let the very people who have been supporting me all this time (whether that was family/friends/teachers/professors/mentors) down as well. But, what I've come to learn and realize is that my life was definitely far from "over". The people that truly cared about you stuck around. The shame and guilt of being afraid/embarrassed of not even telling my closest friends was difficult to overcome, let alone the biggest hurdle was that phone call that I had made to my parents back home in CA, in which I literally broke down crying over Facetime, thinking how I was such a "failure". While I have kept my status as a repeat student somewhat "confidential" especially at the beginning of the year, I've come to realize that people genuinely could care less about my status LOL, but actually, would in turn, ask me for advice/help because I've been through it already. To that point, it is easier said than done to admit something so personal like this (and such a costly failure too lol): To all the viewers who are reading this, just know that: "You are not alone!". Whether you are pursuing medical school, or quite frankly, any big goals in life, turning failures into opportunities of growth and self-reflection is really what's key to success. I'm not gonna even sugar coat the still LONG journey ahead of me as I finish up my repeat year, but it's inspiring to have friends/classmates like you to keep pushing forward and work towards that "light at the end of the tunnel" together! :)
**P.S: also feel like this topic could be a whole podcast episode haha where we could share our own experiences and actually having the deep conversations that no one on the internet is talking about
What happens if you fail out of medical school? What happens to the school loans and debt?
Truee my sister failed A levels and she repeated 2 years, now she’s in med school and she’s got a distinction in 1st year, I agree with your point that turning failures into opportunities of growth is the key to success truly
A lot of medical students need to hear this. It’s okay to have set backs, we end up learning from them. Seeing my friends choosing to overwork themselves for school by neglecting their mental health has been the worst thing. One friend had seizures as a complication to one of the manifestations of depression and the other had to be monitored so he doesn’t take his life. Medical school is a lot of work, it can be fun but it can also be traumatic when your not prioritising your well-being.
To all the students, med school or not, stay safe❤️
Thank you so much for this! I recently went through a very similar experience (failure and burnout in med school) and am on my leave of absence. Grappling with feelings of embarrassment and shame about it and your video made me feel so much more seen. Your vulnerability says a lot about you, you're gonna be a great doctor!
Let’s discuss how awful medical education is in the U.S. It seems like the majority of the professors suck at most schools and you’re basically teaching yourself with outside resources. I graduated in 2022. It can be extremely frustrating and disheartening. Nevertheless keep pushing forward.
when i was going to a university, my first year half of my college algebra class failed, and the professor blamed it on us :/ but every time we went to his office after hours to ask for help, he would tell us he can't help because it's something we should already know.
Felt that!!! School should be a place to learn not listen to professors hours on end talking about stuff they’ve practiced for years and then expect us to do well on the exams. Like half of the professors in college that ive had understand what they teach but they cant teach.
Some of the best medical education in the world?? I’m intrigued so many people agree with you.
@@areeeka8916this is external locus of control
We have some of the best education material wise and most knowledgeable people but the annoying part is that most people with the most education and knowledge and degrees and all that rarely know how to teach. And if they do their classes are all taken lol
I'm so grateful you made this video and that the algorithm blessed me with it! As someone who just finished a repeat year at Med School, this is something I really wish someone had made before I restarted. I definitely agree with what you're saying and just wanna echo the importance of being kind to yourself and accepting your new reality. Med school can be a really toxic environment, so it's so important to guard your peace and be kind to yourself even if you don't always meet the expectations you set for yourself initially. Only God can judge and the people who care about you will accept whatever your best is, so don't worry too much about disappointing others or their expectations. It's a blessing to be alive and in a safe environment each day, so do your best and the rest will come! Also, remember you got in to Med School because YOU ARE good enough and YOU ARE capable of succeeding. Best of luck to anyone that is resitting, about to resit or just trying to figure out their next steps after a failure, I'm rooting for you!
Thanks so much for this transparency. It takes guts to reveal it and it also takes grit to keep going.
I was never in your shoes, but boy, what I gave up to meet those standards... I have a lot to learn from your reflections and your take off.
Keep sharing and thank you for your videos!
I understand that you've made the difficult decision to endure continuous setbacks in medical school, and I want to express my sympathy for the emotions you may be experiencing. It takes a lot of courage to make a big decision like this, and I want to acknowledge your strength and resilience.
I appreciate the kind words brother, we’re moving past it and leveling up because of it 🙏🏼
i have a friend who failed out of medical school. He then went back to law school and graduated. after 25 years he went back to medical school and graduated. He is now the oldest resident at his hospital. He is happy as medicine was what he really wanted to do.
An amazing story and journey
Wow this is a big courage for talking about failure as a Asian . It can be very difficult when you family and your community have so much expectation for you.
It’s hard to tell your parents about academic shortcomings when many immigrant families raised you with the mindset of “just worry about school and we’ll try our best to handle everything else”. I’m lucky to have supportive parents but it was a hard conversation
Thank you for this video.
I’m in the health field as well and had to flunk out this semester due to issues with my institute and I felt absolutely horrible like I had failed at life and everything like I had wasted an entire year and had nothing to show for it. I was so ashamed and disappointed in myself,
But hearing your words really helped and I’m definitely going to cease the remaining three months as I reapply to new institutions and begin building better habits and just refocus myself back on my goal,
Thank you once more Kenny
Good luck on your journey, wishing you the best :)
Thanks so much for posting this. I failed the first neuro exam in PT school, which put me in a failing grade for anatomy that semester. Additionally I was struggling with my mental and physical health. PT school has a similar perfectionist culture and I felt so embarrassed to tell my new cohort that I’d be graduating a year later with them. You ask important questions in this video and I think it’s so true that prioritizing your health and maintaining an internal locus of control should come first.
Hope you were able to turn it around, wishing you the best on your journey (:
Wow you basically just translated/said everything I learned this year. It was such a road. Definitely through failing we can Learn a LOT.
Thank you so much for this video cause sometimes social media, CZcams etc can be very toxic by only portraying the perfect, the unflawed, the unobtainable. Especially when it comes to study, productivity, careers.
So I think you vídeo at least for me is a breath of fresh air
I appreciate the kind words and feedback :)
I resonate with this video so much. I have always been (and still am) a perfectionist, especially when it comes to academics. I've always strived to be the best or at least part of those at the top. Therefore, whenever I fail, it hots me like a stab in the chest because it feels like part of my self-worth is being targeted since I've defined myself around my academics forever.
I'm currently in my first semester of nursing school and although it isn't as strenuous as med school, I definitely am feeling like I'm slowly cracking under pressure with all the fast paced learning we're doing. But I'm trying to stick through it and keep my eye on the goal. I thank you for this video and keeping it real, you are amazing and strong and deserve all success!❤
I like this video. I’m not a medical student, I study math and the competitive nature is just as evident as it is in the medical field. I recently have been feeling very self conscious of my math skills and just watching this video helped shifted my mindset on what it means to fail. It reminded me that failing and asking for help will only ever give more knowledge than always simply passing. Thank you, Kenny 😊
Thank you for making this video, I am a physical therapy student going through a really hard semester and feel at risk for failing a couple of classes. Many of the reasons I am not being successful are the same reasons you listed for yourself. It has given me a lot to reflect on and to actively work on in the present moment as there is still work I can do to make sure I pass.
Medical school is a different level of difficulty for everyone. Depends on what your focus is at the time of life you’re in.
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i’m not a med student, im a nursing student (aspiring anesthesiologist) graduating in two months. but i will say, i love this video. and i think this applies across the board, whether you’re a med student or in healthcare in general. thank you for the awareness and courage to speak your truth. too many people like to paint things as picture perfect, but it’s not.
I really appreciate the honesty and realness in this video. Never have I seen a video like this on CZcams and I have to say it made me change my perspective on my situation. I related heavily with the 1% fail and then 2 other courses I failed. I’m in a nursing program and it is hard. But it being hard doesn’t give me the excuse for my failure. This truly helped me and I really want to change/update my habits and study tactics. Thank you.
It felt very easy, almost like a cop-out, to blame my professors for not rounding me up or for not helping me out because of a single point. Deep down though, I knew it was my fault and I didn’t want to put myself in that situation again. I’m glad you were able to get something from my experience and I’m wishing you the best on your own journey! :)
Thank you for your transparency! Failed step2 CK a few months ago and have been down in the dumps about it😢 Trying to pick my life up and move forward!
I’m sorry you’re going through that. It’s one more hoop to go through, but you’re gonna bounce back and kill it!
Kenny, really appreciate the raw honest self reflection in your failure. There’s no doubt that you will grow positively through this experience. I can fully relate to your experience and am now a fully qualified doctor. All the best!
Glad it worked out for you :) thank you for the kind words!
I just want to say that I am really proud of you. It is d@mn hard to swallow back that ‘failure’ feeling and go back and repeat. I know it is depressing to see the classmates you started med school with move on ahead of you. But you decided what was important to you, and you put your head down and went after it. This will make you a better human and a better doctor. No one can be functioning at 100 percent all the time and we will all fail at something. Being humble, keeping your focus, and knowing you are in the right place at the right time is what will get you through. I am a veterinarian and I know exactly what you went through. I hope other students that have been in a similar situation see your video and really listen to it. Don’t ever let anyone tell you what you are and are not capable of. Never let anyone talk you out of your dream. Make sure you are being honest with your itself though, because if whatever you failed at isn’t what you really want to do then that might have had something to do with your failure. Be honest with yourself and then when you decide what are going after- do whatever it takes to get there. Wishing you all the best in your future. Always remember to ask for help when you need it. I would be proud to call you a colleague (if you went to vet school,of course) and your repeating a year of med school would not change that one bit. Ever. Cheers.
I appreciate the kind and insightful words. It's definitely a difficult journey but ill keep working hard 🙏🏼
@@HaoTheHeck You will be fine. And you will succeed. I don’t even know you and I have faith in you. So have faith in yourself. Hugs!
Thank you for sharing your story! You have no idea how much it means to me, especially today - rough test at school
Rooting for you! :)
The same thing happened to me in my first year. I then picked myself up and actually have been getting amazing grades since then. But eventually i decided to stop with medical school because i realized that being a doctor for the rest of my life wasn't the most appealing to me. So i deicded to suit which was the hardest decision i've ever made since i've come so far and pushed through hardship. But i had to listen to myself and really realize what i wated from life.
That must have been a hard decision to make, but i'm wishing you the best on your new journey!
what are you doing now?
Hi, I'm also someone who is rethinking medschool and any related healthcare career... where did you go from there?
Love this! Non traditional premed here and the tug of school with the rest of life is a real issue that’s been grinding me down this whole journey. Like you, I’ve chosen to get my own life in order and create better habits and coping mechanisms.. My studying has improved tremendously for it but it’s definitely going to be a lifelong struggle for me.
Thanks again for this. It’s a message that’s keeping me grounded ❤
Rooting for you, you got it 🤝🏼
Thank you for this video. I was in this exact position a few years ago and I’m a resident now. Good on you for sharing. The only other thing I’d add is that shit happens in life. Medical education tries to pretend that life stuff just doesn’t apply to real students/residents/doctors. But they do. Sometimes, you’re just genuinely exhausted or have a lot on your plate, and that could manifest as a failure in academics. Great video. Good luck.
Grateful to see more residents and attendings out there that understand this. I appreciate the kind words and am glad that you’ve made it to the next step! Best of luck on your journey 🤝🏼🤝🏼
Great video man! It’s kinda like shoot for the moon because even if you miss you’ll land amongst the stars. I guess the big takeaway I got from this also is that discipline = freedom!!
Thank you for having the courage to share this Kenny. A lot of men need to see this, not only those who are aspiring to be a doctor but guys who are pursuing other fields too.
We need safe spaces as men to have conversations about failure and mental health.
100% agree. I appreciate the kind words 🤝
This is beautiful. Kevin Jubbal from med school insiders could never
Thank you for making this video. I’m not a med student, just an undergrad in computer science. I really struggled in my courses due to having no motivation, a poor math background, and new health issues. I had to go part-time and drop my cs classes while everyone I knew kept going. I was so angry with myself for failing to fight through my problems. Your advice is applicable to more than just med school. I’m taking this semester to find doctors and set up a schedule for myself.
Man oh man I get you this semester has really hit me hard, I seem to start off strong in the semester then I slowly wither away as it feels like it becomes to much, I've never felt like talking to a therapist or counselor but I feel like I might have to
Thank you for talking about this openly.
I was academically dismissed after failing a semester in dental school and have been looking for wisdom and encouragement on how to deal with this traumatic event. Your videos are amazing and I'm in awe of your perseverance. Your story gives me hope and I'm really grateful that you were willing to vulnerable on here. It takes a special individual to share his experiences with the intent of empowering others.
Hello Kenny, thank you for your honesty. I went through a similar situation in undergrad and am making sure I don't repeat the same mistakes while I am pursuing my master's. This video was incredibly validating. Your perseverance is admirable.
You’re gonna do great :)
fellow m2, and just finished up the hardest semester to date. you definitely have a great mindset and will bounce back stronger than ever boss
We're both gonna make it, appreciate the kind words 🤝🤝
Amazing Video! Even as a High School Student I could still take in some of the information such as being honest with yourself and focusing towards self improvement. Although bombing tests in High School is definitely not as heart wrenching as failing exams in Medical School, there are still many good points you brought up that could be applied to Life in general, and as you said, more than just school.
I'm 26 and I'm doing an expanded function dental Assistant program... it's very hard and I was so depressed and overwhelmed with how much homework there is... it got to the point where I wasn't eating on weekends.... I'm still here and I'm going to keep fighting, bur ineeded this video. I'm tired of these fitness influences, media influences or even school influences trying to set the standards for everyone... we are all different and our stories is what makes us beautiful. I appreciate your transparency and to go against to norm. Thank you Kenny
Social media is just a small glimpse that someone decides to show, nothing more or less! Rooting for you, you got this :)
Nah that failures don’t define you section is what I needed to hear, thank you 🙏🏻
You got this! 🤝
I really liked this video! It was insightful, open, and really beneficial! This is one of the best videos I've seen about medical school experiences! I think that I learned a lot from your reflections because they are applicable in other contexts.
I appreciate the feedback and kind words! Thank you :)
so much admiration for you for speaking up about this. takes a lot of courage! good luck with the rest of school!!! :)
I appreciate that :) best of luck to you too!
Thank you for being honest ❤
I’m not in medical school nor will I ever be (I currently have a BA in English and an MA in Higher Education) but I found this video to be helpful even for me. I’m currently living in my hometown again after 2 years of graduate school and teaching abroad and all the people in my masters class have seemingly found really good jobs at universities already. Some people had jobs lined up even before graduation. I haven’t been so lucky. I’ve applied to some jobs at universities in my state and I’ve been rejected for everything. So I decided to get my substitute teaching permit to become a substitute teacher in the meantime just so I don’t stay unemployed and leave a gap in my resume. Now I’m currently dealing with my shame and depression of not being as successful already as my peers from graduate school, but this video made me feel like everything is going to be ok. It reminded me that everything happens at its own pace, and if I don’t have my dream job yet at almost 24 years old, then it’s ok. It’s just going to take longer for me compared to others. In the meantime I’ll try to be more positive. Thank you Kenny!!
You’re going to be great, best of luck :)
Thank you Kenny for your bravery to discuss this very personal topic! ; )
Keep going young man, I have personally known 3 young people who have had to repeat either first year or second year, they truly did suffer having to repeat however they eventually put their experience of failure behind them and now they are highly respected qualified Doctors. Also remember you have been afforded a great privilege to study and gain knowledge, something many people in this world will never experience.
Thank you for your honesty. It’s so helpful
after I watched this video I definitely feel less alone thank you so much for making it. I passed the first semester by one point and then failed the second semester of my first year so im on a LOA right now and have a lot of self-doubt but im trying to push through so I can be healthy enough to go back you addressed so many fears I have in your video so thank you so much I wish you nothing but success God bless
You got this! It's a tough adjustment to make, but you'll look back and realize how many fears/doubts were created by your own mind. Wishing you the best :)
Im approaching the last block of first semester and I already know Im very likely going to have to repeat the year. Really tough position to be in and I definitely feel isolated in the experience, so thank you for this. Its nice to hear from someone who made it to the other side. Best of luck!
You're gonna come back and be great. Rooting for you (:
I wish you the best. Cant wait to come back here and celebrate you when you graduate🎉
I appreciate the kind words and gesture :) wishing you the best too 🫶🏻
this is my first vidceo I've watched from you and i instantly subscribed after this video. I appreciate your transparency and love that you talked about your experience(s). I look forward to watching more of your content. This gave me a lot of insight as I am an aspiring Doctor in the future! Thank you Kenny!
You're gonna be great :) I appreciate the kind words and support!
Thanks so much for sharing. I think this will help a lot of people. I wish a video like this had been around when I took leave of my first year due to post partum depression. I was too ashamed to restart the year and ended up walking away from medicine. Now I get to wonder on a daily basis what my life as physician could have been. 😔
I hope that whatever journey you decided to take instead brings you fulfillment :) What if's can be haunting, but you did what you had to do to take care of yourself. Wishing you nothing but the best now 🫶🏻
Thank you for sharing your story. That was really brave of you. I got a lot out of this video. Thanks!
I appreciate the kind words :)
I appreciate your honesty. In nursing school, I failed two rotations and almost failed out of the program (despite being an honor roll student). I was just 19 years old, working part-time, and had no support system or friends. I went on to do great things as an RN, including working in the ED, ICUs, flight nursing, trauma unit, and now as an associate professor of nursing (with my PhD). Crazy. I'll have 40 years under my belt as an RN this summer. Hang in there.
i didn't go to medical school but went for occupational therapy and failed my first semester. i failed by 2 points :( i only failed one class so i was in academic probation, meaning i had to wait another year to retake the course--- which i passed! graduated on time after that. it's been 4 years since i failed and i am a certified/liscenced OT. watching your video made me remisnce the struggles and tuberlance i was going through when i failed. i agree that taking a step back is so important. i really had to think and reassessed what i can do better in school while also taking care of my mental health. wishing you the best on your medical school journey
very perceptive and helpful!-in other words,don't stop kenny.
Appreciate the kind words! I wont 🫡
hey man, nice video, and i agree with most of your points. i really hope you can make it this time, we can all get through this man!
We’re all gonna make it! I appreciate that 🤝🏼🤝🏼
i needed this, thanks man
I have my neuro exam tomorrow and God I feel so madly burnt out but this just motivated me to not give up, thank you.
Your honesty got me in as a subscriber!
Thank you so much for this!!! i just found out I failed my block 1 exam and we jumped right into our 2nd block and i am so stressed about taking the remediation exam & the 2nd block exam. I am soooo stressed and I couldn't find anything to help me. I really appreciate you making this video so much. Anytime i feel terrible, i will come back to this video. thank you sooooo much
We’re all in different circumstances, but this sounds very similar to what I’ve experienced. Learn from your mistakes, put one foot in front of the other, and focus on the next thing. You’re going to make a great comeback!
I appreciate the kind words and you for sharing your story :)
Thank you for being so real. I see you and respect you.
I appreciate you and the kind words 🤝🤝
I think in the US, there are only 15,000-25,000 spots for new medschool students total each year. Something like that. It’s funny because there is currently a doctor shortage and yet, only so many spots. It’s brutal.
Thank you for reminding us medical students to act on our failures and for giving us hope.
Thanks for the comment, I appreciate it :)
"It may not be the ideal experience, but its your experience, and you have to own that." That hit hard af man. Currently studying for the MCAT after having to take a few year hiatus to afford to reattend classes. I question all the time whether im too old and im not even in my later 20s yet.
There are plenty of medical students who matriculate in their 30’s and 40’s. You got this ☝🏼
Hey, thanks for being strong and sharing this. I’m struggling with my undergrad rn. I got off active duty went into a VERY busy reserve unit as an important leader and it overtook my time for school over the years. I feel so behind, but I know I’m not behind for me. Thank you for sharing this, I feel so alone during this process, but this vid helped me feel a little less alone.
Firstly, thank you for your service! I’ve heard that it can be very isolating when you come back from serving to pursue your education. It’ll be stressful, but you are capable and will be great :)
@@HaoTheHeck thank you for the kind words and you're welcome! It is a huge transition most don't talk about. I appreciate the recognition of it for sure.
Thanks for sharing. Med school just wasn't for me - I struggled and ended up withdrawing. It was incredibly hard because of how much work I put into getting into med school and doing absolutely everything I could. I had mental health issues that were not taken care of and it just got worse - the support staff couldn't figure out what was "wrong" with me & mandated that I get psychiatric treatment. I was put on several meds that actually made my issue worse. I was correctly diagnosed but it was during the week I decided to withdraw. I applied to pharm school the next year, sat for the PCAT and had no issues because I was getting the correct treatment. It made such a huge difference in my life....the years of struggling and thinking I was "dumb." I got into some top pharm schools but decided it would be too similar to med school and that's not how my brain worked. I finished a PhD and it was so much more enjoyable.
I’m glad you eventually found the path for you :) wishing you the best
Being this transparent is very courageous and this video will be extremely valuable for future medical students for years to come🙏🏽
I appreciate your support, this is a video I wish I could’ve heard a year ago!
Medical school prepares you for a helping profession that requires an ongoing search for knowledge. Many other professions offer the same...psychology....detective work......engineering.....social work....medical technology.....research........it's not over. Carry on. Sorry, you stumbled but you didn't quit.
Thanks for sharing your story 💗