Talking about my Mental Health
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- čas přidán 29. 08. 2024
- September is Suicide Awareness Month. For that reason, I wanted to share my experience and story about my own mental health difficulties and suicide attempt.
*Trigger Warning: In this video I will talk about Suicide, Eating Disorders and Self Harm which some people may find difficult or upsetting to listen to.
I am doing this to hopefully help others. Over the years I always felt like I was the only one going through these struggles and that is so far from the truth. We all have a mental health and we all have to look after it. I have purposely left out details regarding my eating disorder symptoms as well as the physical and permanent affect these illnesses had on my physical health as I feel that may cause further upset to someone battling an eating disorder right now or discourage recovery progress by referring to methods or processes I used to drastically lose weight.
If you are experiencing mental health difficulties please speak to someone. I know how hard that can be and particularly when you are in a dark time. But please please trust and believe me. Things can and will get better. You are strong enough, you are loved, you matter.
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This story is my own experience and again what worked for me may not work for you but trust me, there is a treatment out there that can and will work for you. Please speak to someone and seek professional help as it really is the first step in things starting to get better and trust me they do.
Hope this video may help or provide even a little more education and understanding to others and keep looking after yourselves and each other in these current difficult times.
Justine. x
If you would like to speak to someone or for more help or information you may wish to use one of these resources:
Samaritans: 116 123
(US) 24/7 Crisis Hotline: National Suicide Prevention Lifeline Network
www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org
1-800-273-TALK (8255)
www.pieta.ie
www.bodywhys.ie
#suicideawareness #mentalhealth #eatingdisorders
“You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have.” -Bob Marley
Stay strong Justine....
This guy's walking down a street when he falls in a hole. The walls are so steep, he can't get out. A doctor passes by, and the guy shouts up, "Hey you, can you help me out?" The doctor writes a prescription, throws it down in the hole and moves on. Then a priest comes along, and the guy shouts up "Father, I'm down in this hole, can you help me out?" The priest writes out a prayer, throws it down in the hole and moves on. Then a friend walks by. "Hey Joe, it's me, can you help me out?" And the friend jumps in the hole. Our guy says, "Are you stupid? Now we're both down here." The friend says, "Yeah, but I've been down here before, and I know the way out."--The West Wing Thanks for jumping down into the hole with us.
I remember that story from West Wing. Very on point for this
I love this!
I love this. Thank you ❤️
Sweet jesus, if that "joke" isn't too close to the truth ...
Jesus is the friend that we need. Catholic priests jotting down requests and calling out to the Father does nothing. We need Christ, alone. He is the only way out of the rut.
Oh. . . . I had no idea that someone from across the Atlantic would have been dealing with the exact same things that I did. This is a very heartwarming video for me, because you are still here. That matters a lot, like a lot, a lot. Here's to good things and good feelings in your future.
JUSTINE - you are the one that everyone WANTS to hang out with. "who is she?" "what does she stand for?" "who does SHE consider worthy of company?"
You are the Enigma. I'd tell ya to own it - but you already do.
Much love to you Justine.
You know what's also good for mental health? Finding a healthy community of people that will listen to you when you're serious, laugh when you're joking, and remind you that you bring a great deal of joy and fun into a lot of peoples' lives, even when you're battling depression yourself! Carry on, Ms. Justine!
Btw, I'm still positively heartbroken that the "Only Cans" video got set to private. I like to stay up-to-date on all my Justine facts and trivia! :)
I'm only 8 minutes into this and I want to reach out and give you virtual hug . . . Thank you for having the strength to share this . . .
Same!
Same!
I am so very thankful that you are still here sharing your struggles with the world. You are helping people you don't know in ways that you don't know. Thank you for contributing to the effort to normalize mental health. I hope that you can find validation and satisfaction from the fact that you are making a difference.
I'd like to make a glib remark about your situation because just on the surface you seem like an attractive, intelligent, sexy, funny, wacky women, but that would be a disservice to you. You know why you seem to be those things, is because you are all of those things. But I only see the outside facade, and what you choose to show to the world. The interior thoughts and feelings that only you know, are warped and sabotaged by an unseen illness. Thinking that this Irish media personality and comedian could be suffering, while entertaining so many, just doesn't seem possible. However, you just succinctly explained that it can and is the case. Most people don't want to face the ugly realities in themselves or others. You just bravely laid bare truths that you have lived through. You have struggled, failed, triumphed and you're still fighting the battles that you need to fight. By sharing you will raise awareness among those who have not yet or may never experience mental health issues. You have also reached out to those who are also suffering in silence, and explained they are not alone. You provided a road map and an inspiration to follow, while not sugar coating the difficulties ahead. I'm sure this was hard for you because the human instinct is to protect and hide one's true self. You have succeeded in the past, and will continue to succeed in the future. Important post and message.
Justine, it's in the eyes for those of us who have been through similar things. I knew I liked you, not that you need that experience to be liked but hopefully you know what I mean. We and others like us share a bond. ❤ Thank you for the courage to share your story and let the others know they're not alone and that there's not anything "wrong" with them after all. ❤❤❤
Doesn't have to be weight-related either; self-image can be traumatized in infinite ways, but bottom line is exact same. You are worthy. Any voice saying otherwise, internal or external, is just flat wrong. ❤
@@ellenmarch3095 I feel it. ADHD here, except they didn't know what it was in the 60s-70s.
@@fordp69 Me, too!!!
@@fordp69 Same.
There is nothing wrong with them......solid and very wise words
I would like all the hurting folks to hear one thing: My mom killed herself when she was 40; I was 14. I am now an old man. Her loss left such a hole in my life that I have never recovered. I don't know how she felt, but I sure as hell know how it feels to be left alone when a loved one takes their own life. If anyone loves you, if anyone is your friend, or if anyone is just in your life, they will be hurt by the way you left, and they will miss you for the rest of their lives. When you're down, it's hard to think of others, but I wish my mom had thought of those who remain.
I'm sorry for your loss brother. That loss must be horrible. The self-doubt, unanswered questions and anger must have been very tough times. I hope you've found some peace. I hope you've been able to spread some hope.
Hugs and love. You are not alone. No matter the nationality, the race, the belief system, mental health issues do not discriminate. I sit here in Pennsylvania, USA and your words are like echoes of my own voice. Thank you for sharing, your story will help those who feel so desperately alone and misunderstood. You are strong, you are brave, and your soul is beautiful. Much love and respect.
This was incredibly brave of you to make.
I was 15 when I really started struggling with depression and daily thoughts of suicide. I’m 35 now, and it’s been a slog at times, but I’ve gotten a lot of good times trudging through the mire of mental muck. There’s no magic pill, or secret phrase, or mind-blowing "Eureka!" moment where the illness goes away, but there is a safe harbor in your mind to enjoy. You may need help finding it with family/friends/doctors, but if _I_ could get there, everyone else can.
Wow. I relate very closely to this. Same age, and sounds like a similar journey. Just wanted to say thank you for posting this, and I'm glad we're both here.
Same, except I’ve got a little more mileage on the both of ya! 😁
First off i will send you a BIG thank you virtual HUG from Norway. I am also struggeling with mental issues. It takes a big hart and a strong spirit to forgive and to open up like this to people. So to EVERYONE who is having these problems pls talk to someone and remember you are not defined by your diagnosis. I will keep on hoping people find there happiness. And stay safe.
“The flower that blooms in adversity is the most rare and beautiful of all.” - Mulan
As a psych nurse I have heard your story too many times to count. Not saying that to devalue you, but so others, as trite as it sounds, know they are not alone. One of the hardest things to do is watch other "normal " people enjoy their lives while you hide and suffer in your own hell. But more often than not they are hiding their own personal hell as well. I witness such amazing first steps taken through the darkest of acts. It's not easy, or fun, and some days only the tiniest of victories can be won. But that's enough because it means there's something to build on for tomorrow. Thanks for your story Justine and, as always, slainte.
Your opinion of yourself is the most important one. In my opinion, the parts of yourself that you share with us are BEAUTIFUL and they match your physical appearance perfectly.
Thank you so much for your candid, open, frank discussion about a very stigmatized topic. Mental illness/mental health is not something very many are willing to talk about for fear of ridicule or just being made to feel different while trying to fit in. While watching your video, I found myself nodding at some parts and wiping at my eyes in others. I can relate on some level with what you were saying. I have many unresolved issues (mostly from childhood) that remain "unfixed" and have had a dramatic effect on my adult life. I know all too well about the feeling of "I must be the only one"... "nobody else deals with issues quite like mine." I know that's not true, but when you mentally beat yourself down for issues you cannot control, sometimes it gets in, and sometimes, it sticks. I've had my share of therapists and anti depression meds. It's hard.... it's very hard. I haven't had my breakthrough, yet.. but maybe someday...one day at a time.
Thank you again, Justine, for your candor. You truly are a gem....
Young people are mean. Your a sweet heart. I'd give ya the best hug . Your a brave lady for talking bout this publicly
You're gorgeous in every way imaginable!
Also you're the most fun on TRY...not taking a piss on the others.
I have had Chron's for 47 years. Got sick when I had just turned 14. I have spent a year of my life in hospitals. Over 25 surgeries. I have had depression for almost as long. There is a whole lot of other stuff too. But the point is I'm still here. I have been very low a number of times. What gets me through is "there is always tomorrow. Tomorrow can always be better, there is that chance any way. But if I kill myself there are NO tomorrows. There is nothing. I always hold out hope for tomorrow.
Man this is a tough go. I’m struggling to get through this, but only because I can identify so painfully with some of your story. Even now in life I haven’t confronted those demons. Thank you for being vulnerable and for helping others by sharing your struggle.
Young lady, I was under weight, skinny until grade 7. I was in a near fatal accident. This was in the 70's before physical therapy was a thing. The doctor told my mother I was to rest. I was parked on a couch for the next 9 months, eat & sit. By the time it was done I was 5 feet tall and 180 pounds about 81 kilo. I was an outsider looking in I was that last guy picked and the butt of many jokes. In college my weight went up more. Then I joined the US military then and only then did I lose weight. 10 years later, I was a civilian again, and the weight has returned. Struggle with weight is so very difficult for men and women. I want to say this. You are NOT now or ever alone on that journey.
It's not an easy road but you're never alone. As for being emotional, there is nothing to be sorry about. You are speaking your truth. I am one of many who can say I am glad you are here now and you are sharing your story. God Bless
Thank you for sharing Justine. Your message is strong, and I will share with as many people as possible. I was married to someone who was diagnosed with BPD. It was tough, a lot of work, unfortunately it did not work out between us, but I'm hoping someday she will be able to seek the help that I know would do her good. Your message is not lost on me, and it WILL help other people through their struggles, and bring awareness to mental health.
BPD is damn near impossible to treat, although there are effective therapies that can help minimize the symptoms of it. It has actually been something that many psychologists refused the treat up until relatively recently.
Pain shared is pain lessened. We is always stronger than I.
We love ya justine, your as deep as a river and as strong as a stone rolling along the bottom. All the bumps and bashes made you the beautiful rock you are. You are an angel, sharing your tale in hopes it can help people. Your scars and bruises tell tales, tales worth sharing. As a male who struggled with bulimia and suicidal tendencies in highschool i know the importance of sharing your experience. Its not easy but god damn you dug deep and beared down.. Nothin but respect strafford
I know this video is a year or more old but please repost this every month or at the very least every year. Your message is too important to be lost to the video archives. Huge hug…stay strong.
I have ptsd, bi-polar depression, autisim and social anxiety so each day it's a struggle to handle the daily stress in the world keep a focus on a what makes you feel better to get by.
I'm a fat nerd, from across the pond. I'll be 40 years old this year, and I've been struggling with suicidal thoughts for 32+ years. For the last year and a half, I've been taking anti-depressants, and therapy. For the 20ish years before that, it was drugs and food. We are not alone. Even when it feels like it. It can be so hard to remember, especially when you are physically alone.
I don't really know you, and for sure you don't know me. But you and I, and millions of other people are in this struggle together. I know you probably won't ever read this comment, but I appreciate you Justine. Thank you for talking about your issues. Thank you for being here. And as a fellow survivor, thank you for failing to commit to the final act. You matter to folks. I am one of them.
Hang in there. You put smiles on faces all over the world. . . or at least here in Texas, I can speak for the world.
I share the same diagnosis and have to work on myself daily. The struggle is real and she has made so many good points that I feel get overlooked. Treatment and medication are not one size fits all. They are tools that we should feel comfortable using in our fight. Someone heading into a battle doesn't just show up with a helmet and no armor or weapon. I can't help but wonder if those that share a similar diagnosis use their humor as a means of defense or camouflage to hide behind. I hope that if someone should be reading and is in a low place know you're not alone. Be strong and keep fighting the good fight.
Thanks for sharing your story I know it's not easy. You have my respect and support.
Thank you Justine, that may be the most genuine and honest expression of love and caring that I have ever witnessed. Your willingness to bare your soul to the world so that others might benefit shows just how wonderful and caring that you truly are. You are truly a special person. The best 30 minutes that I have spent in a long time and you have no idea how many people that you have just helped.
Strength of character will never be measured by the mountains you climb or the accolades you collect. Instead, it's about being tired, run-down, exhausted and at your lowest, but still being able to get up off the floor from another disaster of a day and be willing to face tomorrow. At our core, the best part of the human condition is that we can believe that hope and optimism for a brighter day is worth fighting for, that success is sweeter after failure and that the mountainous, overwhelming ache of loneliness will dissipate like vapor when you realize that someone has just smiled because they saw YOU. You've gone through a world of hurt, and as long as you live, the burdens you carry will be your own, however you choose to deal with them. But from where I sit, half a world away, I see someone amazingly clever, and pretty, and smart, and compassionate with an amazing voice who is fully able to love the best moments in life, despite a punishing childhood. That makes you remarkable and inspiring. You shine like a beacon and I think you're in for a truly amazing life. I'm happier for you knowing that you'll be able to really appreciate it because of who you are and how far you've had to travel to get there. Be good, be kind, be strong, but don't be afraid to hurt a little. Just remember that hurt goes away, and your real friends will always be there for you, even in the darkness,... if you let them. You're a legend, Justine. The world doesn't know it yet, but it will, soon enough.
Having spent most of my life either overweight or obese, it's only been in my 50s now that I am at a normal weight. I can so relate to all of the feelings of self-loathing you described. Not being able to get a date while I was in school, having no self-confidence, and the self-consciousness of wearing "fat people clothes." You've come so far; we both have. You're unique, precious, and rare.
As someone who has also struggled with mental health (major depression and social anxiety), body image/self-esteem/weight (what would now probably be called binge eating disorder), and being pretty consistently bullied K-12 despite my size, I appreciate you sharing part of your life story. So, thank you.
I think you’re beautiful in more ways than one!
As a person who also has visited dark places . . . I encourage others who might be struggling with their own demons to talk with a professional. When they say NO, here's an analogy I share with them: When you're in your vehicle, driving down the road, you on occasion might hit a pothole. If the hole is deep enough, it will cause your vehicle to swerve all over the place while you struggle to continue down the road. So what do you do? You take the vehicle to the shop to get the tires checked and possibly get a front end alignment. In life, we all hit potholes. If they are deep enough to cause you to swerve in your personal life, take yourself in to get your tires checked and a front end alignment. The journey down your road of life will be much easier. As a note, I created this analogy to make it easier for me to go to therapy the very first time I sought assistance with my struggles. Justine, Stay Strong. You're An Amazing & Dynamic Person!
You're one of my favorite reactors because to me you're one of the funniest. Sounds strange to be witnessing all that suffering you've had to go through knowing I've had laughed so many times because you were being goofy with Dermot & the others.
Just came across this video and it about broke my heart. My eldest was diagnosed with ADHD, anxiety and borderline personality disorder. It was a battle her whole childhood trying to get her help, and as a young adult she still often battles to get the help she needs. And now I am going through some of the same things again with my 10yr old. So painful when kids that young express not wanting to live anymore. Thankfully she will talk about it, and said she needed help, and begged me to find her help. She is currently in cognitive behavior therapy, and learning skills to help but at so young it's a battle. Thank you for speaking out so if one day my child, or others like her, find this it could just help them. Stay strong.
You're a bright light in the world, Justine. From one multiple attempt survivor to another, you did a good thing here. Your honesty will touch someone and give them hope. Well done.
I am dealing with similar issues. It's OK not to be Ok. Be kind to your self.
Getting the right diagnosis was life changing for me. After 4 psychiatrists and 7 medications it was the proper diagnosis that allowed the CBT to start working. It’s an everyday battle but as weird as I sounds, you have enjoy the battle to win the war. Every day I get up and have this internal monologue of “not today, you’re not getting the best of me this day”.
Thank you for sharing. It takes strong character to put this out for the world to see, especially in these times.
Keep on kickin ass, Justine. Know that we are all better and happier for having, virtually at least, met you.
Peace, love, and positive thoughts from Los Angeles, California.
You bring a lot joy to a lot of people. This world is so much better with you in it. Stay strong.
I'm so glad you're here in this world! I went threw similar issues as a child but I was the small skinny kid everyone picked on. I had speech therapy in 2nd grade. I was bullied because I had speech problems, my parents divorced when I was young and my mom had to raise 2 kids. I didn't have the fancy clothes, shoes like everyone else. I started exercising and lifting heavy things to work out. I was bullied in high school because I took a popular kids spot on the football team. It got so bad I dropped out of school in 11 the grade I couldn't take it anymore. I had anger issues, going into my adult life I wouldn't be treated like I was before. I had trouble holding jobs, even into my late 20s. I decided I needed to get away and make a new start so I moved from Ohio to California. Met a girl and we were together for 10 years and had a daughter with her. Then I started having medical issues, and she kicked me out because I had problems working, I had to leave my then 8 year old daughter and move back to Ohio. It was back in Ohio I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis. I was 42 . Well I'm almost 51 and I haven't seen my daughter in 10 years. I'm disabled, because of Multiple Sclerosis. Depression is a bitch, I respect and appreciate you and thank you for telling your story.
*Hugs from Alex & teh kittehs*
Thank you for having the courage to talk about these serious topics.
As someone that suffers from PTSD, I feel your hurt, and know where you are coming from.
Stay strong, and - when you feel the need, never be afraid to reach out to your friends/family.
My sister is anorexic/bulimic. She was sexually assaulted as a child. Like you, it started as anorexia... then to both. She started smoking. She started pushing me away when I tried to help her. Then the drug abuse started on top of everything. 5'11" and 95 lbs. It was until 2 suicide attempts and 2 rounds of Renfrew later that the healing began. It really took one of her friends dying of suicide that she met in Renfrew to truly hit her. Today, she is doing so great (has 2 beautiful children), even though the struggle will always be there. JUSTINE: You are beautiful no matter what. Remember that! You are not alone... and opening up about this is also truly beautiful. You are very strong!
you’re so strong to put this up ❤️ - I’ve suffered from depression for a long time so I understand some of the struggles
You are not alone. I have a similar experience. Thank you. You are beautiful inside and out. And you are loved and respected worldwide. ❤️
Bless you kiddo for talking about these trials that you have gone through. Just by speaking out with pure honesty, you are helping others realize that they can persevere and grow without living by perceived notions of others. Peace be with you. You are an amazing person. Stay strong and healthy. Cheers from an old nurse.
It's hard enough to say these things to people close to you, but to put it out to the public on a platform like CZcams, where, nearly 30,000 people have seen this video (as of when I made this comment)...takes guts...and a big heart! Thank you for sharing and for being an example for the rest of us. Sending you a big HUG!
Fred Rogers said in scary times (ahem pandemic) look for the helpers......I’ve found one! Right here ❤️ Thanks for being such a HUGE helper in what often feels like impossible times.
We're here to listen. If I was 30 yrs. younger, I'd be on a plane to Dublin tomorrow. Love your videos. Whatever you once were you are a swan now. A hairy swan, but a swan for sure! ;)
Hugs. Just...hugs.
Self care is first priority. That feeling of relief getting a diagnoses, I got from mine (C-PTSD and bipolar). Suddenly you realize, we're mentally ill... the world is crazy. Like you found a decoder ring. Such a relief!
I couldn't watch all of this because my heart was breaking for you and how you were treated in school. I will come back and finish it later but in the mean time, thank you for your bravery and so sorry you made to feel so badly.
When you are going through hell, just keep going. Words I try to live by and teach my children. Thank you, Justine.
I like you -- and I've never even met you. You come across as a lovely girl in your videos.
I am a 52 yr old 3 time combat zone naval veteran with clinical depression and PTSD, and know full well the struggle is real. Stay strong, alert, and most important you. Be true to yourself and always reach out and keep going forward. It's easy for me to say but I only know how to say what I feel. Thank you. (:
So brave to share your story. Big hug from across the pond. Keep winning the battle.
Justine, I have gotten to know your humor from the TRY channel. Your video about your experience going to Disney for that channel showed me how much you appreciate life. But your own channel, and this video in particular, is so impactful. You didn't edit this video, and that means a lot to me. I personally haven't struggled with anorexia or bulimia, but I've known close friends who have. Your good soul shines through in your videos and you aren't afraid to open up. I have dealt with depression and self-suicide in my life for over twenty years and if felt so good to hear you know how people think you 'should' feel versus how you 'actually' feel. When I'm at my worst I know no one could know, we still have resources always available. Your comment about 'how could I even mess that up' with suicide hit me so hard. When I am at that worst, I have berated myself for fucking up dying, like I can't even do that. It happened last night, Justine. But I perservered and I am proud. Depression doesn't own me, but it's a part of me, and that is ok. I have love all around me and I'm ready to absorb it. Thank you for being so brave and wonderful and connecting to us and making this video. I hope I get to shake your hand and hug you someday!
First, I love the AC-DC shirt.
I've been fighting depression since my daughter passed away this year. After her funeral I crawled in bottle of whisky and stayed there for a few days over two months. It was whisky all day, everyday. At the time, I wanted to drink myself into the grave. My sons took me to a doctor while I was passed out. It was hell sobering up enough to start taking the "Happy Pills" the doc prescribed. The pills make me feel odd but I'm not drinking anymore.
Stay strong Justine.
Erick Draven I have a “Crow” tattoo, and I named my son after Brandon.
I’m sorry for your loss, and hope you’re feeling as best as you can at the moment.
I lost my mother recently, and while I didn’t drink, I did self medicate for the depression and the chronic back pain I deal with 24/7. I’m still trying to process it, having nightmares when I do finally sleep. (She passed in hospice five hours after I left her to go home, get cleaned up and go back to be with her.)
She passed with no friends/family with her at her bedside and I still feel I failed her, and myself as her eldest son. I keep being told to take it one day at a time, but what do you do when you barely make it an hour, then another....
I am so sorry for your loss. I hope that you continue to find comfort in the support of your sons ❤️
A C I don’t know how that feels, but it sounds like a heavy burden you carry. I am so sorry. You must love your mother so incredibly much, I hope to feel that loved by my son one day 🤍
@@AC-gb7do I know that feeling all ot well. Evev now, sometimes it's minute to minute for me. I keep going because that's what my daughter would want me to do.
Thanks for the kind words.
@@emmathepaperquiller4263 lol Well, the men of my family have never been very comforting to one another but they are there should I need them.
Thanks for your condolence.
As a woman who also struggled with weight when i was young as well as confusing body image issues, I understand what you have gone through and continue to go through. People don't realize that your own image of yourself doesn't change after you lose the weight, etc. You are a brave and amazing woman, Keep doing what you do.
Justine, as a person who stutters I've dealt with depression my entire life. You're such a class act and you're loved more than you even realize. You're a ray of light to many in the dark. I'm happy you can talk about this. I was picked on relentlessly in school too. Keep being you! ❤
I hear you Ralph I'm 55 years old and still have have a bit of a stammer especially when I'm excited. I remember being called dumb and being frustrated by knowing the answer in class and being to afraid to raise my hand. It took a long time but I got through it
this is the most honest, raw, and real look inside someone who has immense courage and strength
Justine, there was a very bad time in my life when I came close to swallowing my duty weapon. I was able to get past it. it took years before I told anyone to include my future wife about this. We draw strength from the sharing and taking its power over us away. You don't me from Jack and probably never will, but if you need to...we are here.
I went through something similar as a child. Fortunately, I was good at sports, and threw myself into that. But in reality it took decades, I'm old, to repair the damage to my confidence. I was lucky. I appreciate your saying you don't hold a grudge, but wouldn't it be wonderful for kids to hear your story.
Always remember that there are thousands of people who have gotten to know you a little through your videos, and love you. And not just for being funny, it's easy to see that you're more than that. Thanks for being so honest, you're an amazing and beautiful person. 💕
Justine, that was so courageous of you! Parts of this was like looking into a mirror for me. You will have helped a lot of people with this video. I have had the dark times and I found good friends to help me through it. Some of the 'Professional' help I found quite lacking, eventually finding a good friend who had knowledge of what to say and do to gently guide me back to some kind of normality. Yes, lockdown was shite! Just when I wanted to go out and about after 5 months lockdown came and put me back some. But new job and a better outlook plus being more open with my problems with others has helped no end. If I ever do get to Dublin (a promise I made to a Dubliner many years ago) I owe you a hug and maybe a pint or two of that 'Black stuff'! ATB
As someone who has also contemplated suicide because of feeling different and isolated from the rest of the world, I appreciate you sharing your personal history with mental illness. It's not an easy thing to live with, but if more good people like yourself share stories, then we can make it through the tough times. I hope all is well with you, Justine.
You are a very beautiful and amazing woman with a very caring heart keep being the wonderful person you are would love to meet you one day
I am a dad of a teenage daughter that has depression. I can tell you its very hard for me not being able to help her the way I know or typically "fix" things. She is seeing a therapist and I do believe it is helping her. But, just last night I was saying good night to her and she seemed...not her self. I asked her if anything was wrong and she said that she was depressed. I asked her what had made her depressed and she had told me she did not know. I hugged her and kissed her forehead and told her that I loved her. That made her feel better and she went to bed. So, if you ever need a hug Justine I will be happy to give you a hug all the way from the states here in Washington.
"Don't go changing to try and please me...I took the good times, I'll take the bad times
I'll take you just the way you are" ~ Billy Joel
I mean this to be a compliment not some sort of pervy comment. You are my fave Try Personality, you are funny and very attractive. There is always that/those guys who ruin women for the rest of us. You knocked my socks off when you rocked that black bikini in the Disney World Pool video. The fact that you can forgive those fucks and not hold a grudge, is beyond me. You're perfect the way you are, don't let anyone tell you otherwise. KEEP TELLING YOURSELF that you're perfect the way you are.
Keep up the good work...and keep making those funny vids.
Thumbs up homegirl, we got you. America loves ya, we love ya!
Mental health is something I care deeply about. I deal with depression, in my youth it was severe, 3 suicide attempts. I respect your bravery on sharing your story. I think you are an awesome lady. Stay strong, your fans are behind you.
All through school I was bullied and beaten by other kids for having darker colored skin. Even some teachers would yell at me and push me around, constantly make me sit in the corner and not being allowed to talk or look at anyone else. It made me hate being who I am. I tried twice to kill myself. I still struggle with those feelings today, especially when someone gets angry at me for no reason while just shopping or getting gas or whatever. I find it very hard to get out of bed a lot of the time.
You make me laugh a lot on TRY. One of my favorites.
I hope that very soon mental illness can be talked about like a broken bone or the flu instead of terrible disease, that seems like people think if it's talked about it's contagious or something. It doesn't make anyone less of a person if they struggle with it and it doesn't make anyone "crazy" either. In a lot ways I think people who struggle with depression, eating disorders, self harm, and suicide and continue to fight for life is more impressive than being able to bench press 100 pounds. Fighting against they're own mind and self to still be here and that takes SO much more strength of mind and energy. Strength to fight for one more day, month, and year. Thank you for sharing this.
Like you said, I had a paradoxical reaction to most antidepressants I tried :(
Justine, always remember: there is only 1 you, and no one else. You, as be being you, makes you special. Nobody can take that away from you. And please don't give in to all those negative messages you receive. You're beautiful the way you are: pure, honest and natural. That a feature so many people are missing nowadays.
That takes some stones so mad props to you...now go have a Guinness with Durian fruit!!!
I’m glad you took the brave, first step to put mental health first. It’s easy to talk yourself out of it, or feel shame, and I’m glad you’re now being seen.
As a therapist, I wanted to add: Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) is usually temporary and situational for a lot of people, and once the stressor or event that was profoundly impactful goes away, so follows BPD.
I wish you well on your journey!
I had to ask..... didn't you do a video about the extensive dental work you've had done? Just wondering and Thank you for reaching out :) Greetings from Nashville, Tennessee USA
After almost over a decade of denying myself the truth that I'm struggling with who I am to myself and the world around me, I have come to realise what a jackass I had been about it all. I let my fears and the momentary pain or disgust I felt for myself allow my mind to develop my self-image or in other words, the image of who I ought to be as per the standards I wanted to keep myself up with. There are times when I feel that I am way far down the road now and that me wishing for things to return to normalcy is futile but something in me tells me that I'm more than what I am allowing myself to be, and so I keep striving to push on. Despite having dealt with one setback after another in the past 4 months, I have managed to turn all those setbacks into positive stepping stones and in all honesty my life is moving ahead better than ever before. The thing you said about how you felt like a burden, well that is something that I feel too and sadly enough, that is not leaving me anytime soon. Even with all the progress and positivity I'm trying to surround myself with, that one feeling of being a burden doesn't leave easily. I feel like I'm a burden even when I'm being positive and upbeat about my life. That's why I enjoy watching TRY Channel videos. I find it refreshing watching you guys laugh and lose yourselves in the moments, in your videos, well TRY Channel videos. The difficulty I face is that it has been so long since I have been truthful with myself that it's all a blur to me and I'm never actively trying to confront my problems. I don't know if anything I said is making sense but thank you for sharing your story Justine.
thx, hug..
You’re a very brave and intelligent young lady. I also OD’d on 1/8/98 because I lost everything I had to my name through my business partner. I have PTSD from having 40 operations since 1988 and multiple traumatic issues in my life and I live with chronic depression and anxiety each and every day and suicidal thoughts are always floating around my mind however now I have a grandson and he pretty much keeps me alive.✌️😎
you need a hug justine *big hug* :)
Love you girl. I was bullied when I was 11 by a girl that was my best friend. That same summer I was also molested. I didn't suffer from anorexia but I stayed in a state of depression. I was suicidal. Luckily the next year I changed schools and my best friend. We're still friends 30 + years later. I'm so glad you're still in this world. Please know that you are a great person and I enjoy all your videos.
I lost count of how many times I've tried to kill myself. Last time was 4 years ago and I woke up naked in a glass prison with people observing me. I have severe social anxiety too. I gave up on anti-depressants a long time ago. I don't know how they handle attempted suicide in Ireland but in America you're treated like a criminal. I'm getting on pretty well right now though. Honestly the pandemic has made me feel better in some ways because I'm not expected to be overly social and that's more comfortable for me.
I have mad respect for you my dear for talking about these topics. It will help others. I'm a bigger fan and love you even more than before. I understand it's a constant fight. I have clinical depression. It's a constant fight. Keep up the good fight. You're worth it! Slainte!
If only those boys could see now the beautiful woman you have blossomed into 😁
I am with you Justine. I was diagnosed with Major Depression in January of 2017. I got better, then worse. I also tried to end my life twice. But here we are. Doing well enough to keep moving forward. I think one of the most important things you said was you want to stay on top of this. Thank you so much for sharing. I have been on the edge of falling back in the hole. This truly inspired me to just walk away from that hole.
Brain chemistry and mental illness can be horrible monsters that others can't see. You feel like you're completely alone. I'm glad that you've come to the realization that's nothing's 'wrong' with you. You are patently human and your experiences are universally felt. As you say; you are not alone. You are also incredibly brave to be so candid about your experiences. Thank you.
For what it's worth, I see a smart, charming, funny, caring person. Your humor and appearances on the TRY Channel have given me and thousands and thousands of other people joy. You are valued and loved by many. Always remember that.
I'm proud of you Justine. It takes more strength to reach out, to talk about these things, than you realize. I lost my closest friend March of 2019 to suicide. I almost lost another one several weeks ago. My god daughter is almost 8. She was 6 when we lost her mom. She will never be who she could have been, because of the trauma. Please, folks, you are NOT alone. No matter how you feel in the bad moments, there are people out there who want to help you. The world is better with YOU in it. I wish I could "mom hug" you all. I don't need to know you to tell you, you are loved. You. Are. Loved. I am GLAD you are still here. Take care of yourselves, and each other.
I was also sexually abused when I was young (unfortunately, around 80% of people also have been). Drug/alcohol addiction, depression, feeling like there isn't any control over your life, anxiety, panic, and extreme difficulties with normal relationships. It continues on until you confront what actually made the trauma. Only then can you heal, but those patterns of behavior still keep returning, and knowing that you don't need to run (with your mind) from those bad memories is a lifesaver. I feel for you deeply, because we have a shared experience, and hopefully knowing that there are others that seem great on the outside, yet are tormented on the inside, will let you understand that you aren't alone. Try to remember that those people that abused you, were themselves abused, and they can't break the cycle of abuse because that perceived weakness would make them feel vulnerable again (and susceptible to more abuse).
Thank you, Justine. Just disovered Try yesterday, enjoyed 5 hours of fun videos last night, and fell asleep to your trip to my country. Worked today, told a few friends about how much fun I had watching Try videos, and came home for more videos. I stumbled upon this after watching your 3 videos about your trip to the US. Didn't know you were going to touch my soul like you just did for the last 30 minutes. I'm 47 and you had the ability to hit me and wake me up in a new way. So, again, thank you. Sending my best vibes your way...
Big hugs from New Zealand, Justine - the comments all show how important it is to talk about these things, and we appreciate and love you all the more. More of us have been through similar issues than people realise, so as y'all go through your day, just be kind. You never know what someone is going through behind the smiles. Talking about mental health is hard, but vital!
Been there. Not the same problems, but the same bullying. Hated myself forever and sat with my dad's gun to my head. One day, I decided I'm going to be someone I like, to hell with everyone else. That day it started to hurt a little less. It took a while, some therapy, and some growing pains, but I'm over the hump. Best to you for sharing, and please remember you're never alone.
I’m 72, Male and living in Las Vegas NV. I watched your video and I hope you reach out to the group of individuals on the Try channel for help. Living in Las Vegas, while in high school, there were at least a half dozen females in our class that were going through what you have been dealing with. In 1966 anorexia was often miss diagnosed. Our class (about 800) got together to help those affected know that we were there to help and support them. God Bless and seek help, please, please.
Justine, sweet sweet girl!! We never knew what was going on behind the beautiful smile!! Thank you for you truth and your AMAZING courage! You are one of my favorite tryers and I love watching you, not only for your incredible wit and hilarious-ness- but for your individuality and how genuine you are. Thank you again for sharing and for being willing to share in the hopes of helping others. You are not alone!! And please know you are so very valued as well!! From a thicc and fabulous woman outside of Atlanta, Ga USA- I AM GLAD YOU ARE STILL HERE!! Keep fighting and stay strong! Sending love, hugs and prayers!!!
Thank you for sharing your experience and story. I almost gave up in March -- I felt like my life was falling apart. The thing that kept me from going through with things was holding on to my 14-year-old cat, for whom I was the only caretaker. I've been doing a lot better since then -- rekindled a good relationship, ended an unhealthy relationship, and have been working on finding my confidence.
The best thing that ever happened to me was realizing I didn't have to care what others think of me. So liberating. You think I'm fat? FU, I don't care. You don't like my humor? FU, I don't care! Now I just spend time with people that accept me for who I am, and life isn't such a struggle anymore...
TLDR; Learn to don't give a f@*k about what others think of you.
Kudos to you for speaking out about such a personal topic Justine. Know you're not alone!
God damn I love this girl! When I was 22 I couldn’t wait to be 25! I was so miserable, couldn’t talk to my family. Didn’t know
Now what to do. Didn’t know why, just was. After 30 yrs sober, I found a doctor who put me on Prozac. My life has changed. I’m now 64, and very relieved. Obviously can’t expound on the whole time, BUT Love you girl!
Just want to hug you Justine! You did a wonderful thing to open up to us to try help others sharing your experience! I had this feeling too... to be different and a failure and not to belong where I was at the time. I felt fat and clumpsy. I also did a suicide attempt. But changing schools gave me a new start. I started swimming. I managed to get a more fit body. Still alone but slimmer. I managed to get on top of my life. Still I feel apart. Not belonging to "normal" society. Still I do stupid things trying to cope. But it helps to be able to support others. Give your life a meaning. Improve life of others. That helps. Makes you feel better about yourself. Better but not perfect. At all ;-)
Justine: you help people smile and that is bloody wonderful. I will give you a hug! And with me there are 1000's of others that love you. Even if you feel depressed. :-P
Dear Justine: You are beautiful. Inside and out. You matter to people. You do.
I am myself somewhere in the autism-spectrum. Only realized this very recently. And yes that is a relief to know. I am socially unavailable and distancing myself and a bit sociopath and at times egocentric. But that's OK. I am me :-p I am not every ones' flavour. I am not perfect and that's OK :-) I am 57 and had about 40 terrible years. Now I survive fine. You (reader) can think I am a freak. Thank you you're welcome :-P
I think you are so strong to be able to share this story and encourage others to seek help. We love you dear.
Brilliant video and very much appreciated. I've lived with depression and anxiety for over 35 years now, there is no quick fix, there isn't, but every single person has good points, you are no exception. I'm so thrilled that you can and are sharing your feelings, experiences and thoughts. It's hard, it really is, but are most definitely not alone, never will be. This video is refreshing. Thank you so much.
Justine - you are one of the most likable people I've ever seen. Anybody who doesn't like you, there must be something wrong with them. You're just a sweetheart, non-threatening, obviously wishing well to those around you. There are evil people in this world who deserve to die immediately. You are NOT one of them. Please don't ever even think of harming yourself any more.