My First Hospitalization | Drug-Induced Psychosis (Cannabis and DMT)
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- čas přidán 25. 07. 2019
- In this video, I share my experience in a psychiatric hospital with acute psychosis. This includes what I felt throughout the experience and my perspective on what was going on. This was a highly requested video after my first video about my experience, so I decided to share. Hope it is helpful for someone out there.
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Can't believe that guy gave you DMT without your knowledge. People who do that should be charged with 1st degree assault or something.. that is so dangerous. Glad to see you sharing your experience and that you a feeling better. Peace n Love Brother!!
its no wonder that he saw his "friend's" soul as sick and weak. Only a sick person and weak person would do that to somebody
Seriously, that is a twisted horrible thing to do to someone. Sadly it's probably happening way more than we can imagine.
Young people can be terribly stupid
What dmt ?
@@ellagarnica8895 dimethyltrypamine
Yeah man dmt is no fucking joke
I am glad you got through.....I am one of the hospital workers that deal with patients in this state.
It has become part of my purpose I guess you can say.
The first time I did DMT I thought it was weed also. No one told me it was DMT and I blasted into another dimension. It was so spiritual that I thought I died and came back into my body. I saw ancient Egyptian geometric symbols and writings flying around me as I was blasted through the universe through a portal. These giant pharaoh heads with multiple faces appeared with jewelry and snakes slithering around them and they were smiling at me and looking at me. Then I blasted backwards through the universe and into my body back to reality. Then hallucinated for hours afterwards seeing beings and things. I didn't even know what DMT was until like 5 years later. I actually thought I died and came back to life and brought back power from the other side or something like that. Anyways, thanks for sharing.
That sounds like an intense experience! Glad you were able to come back from that.
TF my dude
Holy shit dude you were still tripping for hours after wards? I’m usually only tripping for like 5 more mins once I’m back in my body and I’m so badly trying to hold onto those visuals till it’s like I have one foot in the DMT world and one foot in reality, I wonder if what you thought was weed was actually changa and maybe some sort of harmala? Cuz that stuff isn’t supposed to last that long after smoking it, glad you came back okay, I can’t imagine my younger self doing DMT I probably would have thought I had a sacred mission too, that stuff is not for teens
What a rude paramedic telling you to shut up.. Thanks again for sharing. Stay Blessed Brother!
Maybe if Everybody told him to shut up, he'd stop damaging his mind with psychedelics.
Thank you for sharing this experience man
I've watched your sequence of 3 videos, and want to thank you for making a valuable personal record available in this way. It is all the more valuable for being told without embellishment, justification, blame or pretense. I would guess that getting to that point has taken quite a bit of work, for which I congratulate you, and wish you well.
Thank you that means a lot to me, I appreciate it. Part of sharing is hard, but it is also healing for me and helps others. I am glad you enjoyed what I have shared. Thank you for your support 🙏
Been in isolation myself bro, appreciate you sharing. Really does take some time getting over experiences like this though once the trauma is healed you seem to find a more enlightening path leading to a greater life.
Yep! It never ends, there is always something more to work on. Thanks for sharing!
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Your totally normal. You had an amazing experience for your first time. You are very brave to share your experience. I had a different kind of experience with DMT the other night and I was going to smoke again tonight. But after watching your video it made me realize I should take a little bit of a longer break before jumping back in. But I want you to know there’s nothing wrong with you you just had a super intense experience and I think you handled it quite well. rock on brother, these substances aren’t for everybody and it’s good that you show both sides of them. You are fucking awesome! And I mean that in my friend that is watching with me means that with all of our hearts. Enjoy the ride always 🌀
Thank you. I appreciate that. I am glad that you were able to check in with yourself before going back in; its good to know where you are and taking the time to reset before entering ceremony. Thank you for your kind words. Wishing you both the best! 🙏
Your experience sounds so frightening. You have been through a lot. I’m glad you are able to tell your story to educate and help others. I will be waiting for your next video. Thank you
I have experienced drug induced psychosis for months at a time through the past 2 years. I don’t know how to explain it other than, to me, my subconscious was in hell, yet I was still conscious of our reality. Visual, tactile, and constant audio hallucinations, I can’t even tell people of my experience because it sounds so horrific... and then with my last episodes of psychosis things became much lighter. Like I was experiencing angels, demons, and tricksters...it’s overwhelming and I am currently stuck in a rut...it’s changed me mentally dramatically and I just wish I could move on...
I'm sorry to hear that you have been struggling. Psychosis is definitely a challenging experience to say the least. Have you stopped using recreational drugs? And do you have someone you can talk to about your experiences?
Omg bro Im experience tactile hallucinations which I could feel needle knife stabbing me in my legs sometime is some painful I it already 6 moths and still haven't went away I got this tactile from smoking alot of meth
Is it still happening? Is this from dmt
I also felt myself being physically stabbed in the back for another few months after smh
Really appreciate your openness, I am still coming to terms with my own experience- Would love to hear about what you did to recover! Loving the content
Thank you I appreciate it. These experiences can be a lot to take in. For me it took a lot of time and reevaluating for myself as well as learning from others. If you look at some of my earlier videos you can see some of the progression how I dealt with things when I was depressed and things. I think I have grown a lot since I began this channel. I'll also be sharing some things I have been learning recently that have been helpful as well. Wishing you the best on your journey 🙏
Wim Hof method can help guys, breath work, cold exposure and nature can help you reset and reground. It might also be triggering, especially the breathing but you got to keep facing it, processing and adjust. EMDR and hypnotherapy can help processing too, going back over the experiences and becoming more comfortable with it all.
@@petecabrina Thank you for sharing. I know some about those but not a whole lot, maybe I'll take a deeper look into it. I appreciate you taking the time to help. Thanks!
Win Hof breathing techniques definitely work. I'm not brave enough for the cold immersion yet lol, but hopefully soon.
I too had a psychosis at 18 which put me in a psychiatric hospital for 3 weeks, indirectly caused by DMT. I understand how terrifying it is and I admire you for being so open about it. I’d love to see how you recovered from it as my own recovery took many months, also I’m curious to know if you ever went back to psychedelics after having a psychotic break. These videos are great well done brother
I've just made a video about my recovery, I will upload it later this week. And I took some very low dose of shrooms and smoked some pot since my first one, but I think smoking contributed to my second break. I had been smoking for a few months and pretty heavily. There were other variables as well. But yeah since the second one I havent touched a thing.
informal inquiry it’s very interesting how similar our experience is. When I first took LSD a path was shown to me implying I might face insanity and I felt as though the drug was telling me to keep everything a secret. I didn’t even tell my family or doctors what was happening in my mind until months after hospitalisation - only then did recovery start. In terms of doing drugs again I don’t want to risk relapse but equally I don’t think I can live my life and die without experiencing the DMT realm properly, as this may be related to what happens after death.
me and my friend here have been watching a few of your videos and we think you should write a screenplay about your entire experience from the moment that guy gave you the DMT with all your experience has everything you saw and everything at the hospital would make an incredible movie. We really do that would be so amazing I would be so psyched to watch something like that. Anyway just an idea but that would be absolutely freaking awesome brother!
Haha that would be kind of cool :P The DMT scene would be interesting to recreate. Glad you guys enjoy the content, maybe someday I'll make it into something, a book, a video, who knows. Thanks for watching.
would watch forsho lol , like a trippy animation film
You help me so much I watch you most days I have been going through my awakening for 5 years I have one year left I was told by a medium, your videos really help 🥰
Thanks for your comment. I'm glad my videos have helped you. It's nice to know they are making a difference. I wish you the best on your journey! ☺️
My goodness, what an experience. Many thanks for explaining this so lucidly, this and the previous two videos have been both invaluable and fascinating. Now, i'd like to make damned sure I avoid the same sort of thing so please tell us more about why you think you had the experience, how you could have avoided it, the lead-up to it and so on.
My pleasure! Good to know there is an interests in hearing more about this, I will probably cover these subjects at some point.
@@justbeinghayden9451 Great, thanks! Can't wait.
My grandson 18 at the time had a spiritual awakening Very intense for him He could not cope with energy rushes of it He then went on to do weed and amphetamines which then induced psychosis He has been in and out of hospital for last 8 years He has been given the label of scitzophrenia even though he has never heard voices His psychotic episodes have always been drug induced He has now been out of hospital for 6 months he off the weed and is becoming a very wise spiritually minded person He understands psychosis and is now doing meditation ( self taught) and grounding himself He is doing amazingly well and says that all the trauma he has been through is helping him now on his new found path of enlightenment Iam so proud of him given the suffering he has endured Just felt I needed to share this
Thank you for sharing this story 🙂
I was having a spiritual awakening as well but during the middle of it my ex either poisoned or laced me with something and I went into a months long psychosis . It was all spiritual to me at the time but now realizing that some of it was just delusions getting back to normal is hard
thank you for sharing your experience
My pleasure :) Thanks for watching
@@justbeinghayden9451 i
You’ve got a good mom my dude.
Yes I do ☺️
I was thinking the same thing!
I had a similar experience , crystals grounded me and literally helped me spiralling out of control. It’s hard to describe what I experienced and where my mind was then, I fail to believe it was just what others would label as psychosis and more of a mystical experience. Having that outlook on it helps me much more moving forwards than just boxing it up as a “mental breakdown” or “psychosis”
Your videos are really interesting to listen to. Thanks for sharing
It also seems from the comment section , your experience albeit sounds negative, it’s positively affected many many people hearing you share your story... everything happens for a reason huh?!
Glad you were able to find something to get you grounded. It had both positives and negatives for me. I am grateful I had my experiences and some parts were definitely insightful. I just try not to glorify the experience, because while it can teach a lot, it can also pose a lot of challenges for people.
I see mine spiritually too
@@DontMoveWock 4 years later (ish) I still see it the same way. Interested to hear about your experience.
@@1.8Troubles my whole episode was spiritual in general so when I find myself starting to think I had just gone crazy for no reason I feel like that’s the devil trying to hammer me back down into the 3D matrix
I feel you man. Been thru similar.
I would love to know more about your stay in the hospital.
DMT really messed me up. First time and only time I’ve done I broke through. I saw heaps of shapes that were a purple/black and I could sense they were angry at me. I just new I was holding myself back from them so I let myself go and they turned a gold colour and one of these ‘beings’ came out and I new it was a parent and child and they smiled and I could sense my purpose was to help others less fortunate then myself. That happened nearly a year ago and it’s been rough. I lost my sister middle of last year at 21 from suicide and had some other stressful moments. I think I’m still in psychosis right now yet can’t tell anyone
This was a really important experience, I hope you can make a treasure of it. Some of the thing you said during the trip are more sensed of what it appears. The whole story can bring a huge understanding of how the psych works beyond the thin border in between sanity and madness. For example the fact that you thought your mother was the goddes of the earth and your "mentor" was the god of the sky has a precise meaning, your mother was in fact trying to bring you on earth while he was trying to make you crazier with all the shit he feed to you. It can be the start for a long reflection about how human society has ever worked, how the mind of the elder worked, the profound meaning of certain symbols and other anthropological and phylosofical speculations. A lot more we could say about the effects of DMT, his spiritual meaning and the spiritual meaning of the machine elves (little hint, I think you met them, you just don't remember). But I'll go on talking about it just if you are interested. Meanwhile I'm a lot curious to know how the story came to an end. I hope you will make one video about it and I wish you well.
Thank you for sharing. Being in that state is definitely living in a world of metaphors and mythology. Most of the things that I believe had some level of truth to them, but other things may not have been based on any sort of consensus reality. I was very intuitive in this space and less restricted by doubts and insecurities so I was more likely to express what I felt or saw. I definitely sensed things about my parents and my girlfriend at the time that I had not seen so clearly before the experience. There is a spectrum of madness, sometimes there is a flirtation with the boundary between, as you mentioned, and then there is also a point of disconnect from reality. When this happens I think most of the things that show up may be projections of parts and pieces of ourselves painted onto the world like a canvass. This is where things like thinking you are in hell and wanting to get out or wanting to save the world and things like that may show up, although I think that these can also show up in the middle zone as well. And yeah haha I did meet the machine elves in my dream and its possible I may have on DMT as well, but I don't remember. I'm planning on making a couple more videos about my experience, like why I think it happened and the recovery process afterwards. I appreciate your support, thank you for watching!
You have a beautiful soul dear one
Thank you🙏
Again, many similarities. Thank you
Super similar to the experience i had in 2014 and something similar in late 2017, got diagnosed bipolar i, have changed my lifestyle, and am in many ways doing better than ever, even before the events. Would love to talk to you if possible through email or whatever, if thats outside the boundaries no worries and thank you for sharing this.
Sorry you had to go through that, but glad you are doing well now! You can direct message me on Instagram! The link is all of my video descriptions and on my cover art.
Learn breathing techniques and meditation. When you get into these places find grounding in your breathing. Its kind of hard to make that happen when your loosing your mind. But if you have a decent practice then it will kick on second nature anytime your getting to out there. Glad you made it though and shared your experience.
Thank you for sharing 🙏
Your experience is so much similar to mine, just the stories differ slightly. I’m shocked at the similarity, I thought I was alone.
You are definitely not alone. Thank you for sharing 😊
@@justbeinghayden9451 Thanks man, Your videos allowed me to articulate my experience better. Im taking notes so that when I go to therapy I can explain things better
@@AceHatake Wow! That's so awesome. I'm glad to hear that. Thank you for sharing that with me. I'm glad my videos have been helpful for you. 👍
i love that quote by Joseph Campbell. you should checkout the movie "Soul" by pixar and disney. pay attention to the mystic called moonlight. back to that quote, listen to Swimming by Mac Miller. and FACES too. keep saving the world!
Yeah its a great movie! Thank you for sharing :)
How could anyone give a thumbs down to this????
I'm glad you enjoy it!
Were you given a diagnosis by the psychiatric doctors? I have heard that pot and psychedelics have the power to "reveal" underlying psychosis such as bi polar or schitzophrenia. The way you describe your episode is similar to descriptions I've heard surrounding breaks caused by either disorder. (ie delusions of grandeur, unorganized thought)
Yes I was given a diagnosis of Bipolar 1 with a tendency towards psychosis.
I did DMT last night, had some mild OEVs, smoked some hybrid like an hour later like an idiot because I just wanted to feel good that day and thinking it would have fully been out of my system in that period of time. Then I had this weird greenish tint over everything I looked at and a buzzing sound. It was like the world was the same but somehow foreign. Sleep brought me back up 85% to normal. Never had the kinds of paranoia or delusions like in this video, but now I still feel some sort of mild depersonalization. Hoping it will fade with time. Anyone have a similar story?
I usually return to normal within 20-30 mins after coming back into my body, and weed and dabs feel completely normal, but dude if you do DMT your not going to be the same person afterwards, especially if your an atheist (not saying you are), I don’t do DMT a lot but not a day goes by where I don’t think about one of the experiences, it’s not something to only have fun with it’s an extremely profound experience for most people, some people are non responders which is really weird to me, are you feeling better now?
Can u talk about recover,medication and addiction to pot?
Hello I've been watching your videos since 2 days cause of my boyfriend's experience of psychedelics using and he was taking to hospital by police and he's stayed in there for a month and took different antipsicotic pills 3 times a day and now in a clinic to rehab since 3 weeks and taking every day one Paliperidona antipsicotic but both places he was in like a prison and he didn't do anything bad but his family put him in there by police so he's disappointed by the family cause they didn't even support him afterwards it's sad that they think he's crazy
That is a sad story I'm sorry to hear that. It is hard when parents are not supportive. Did he have a psychosis or was he just tripping when they brought him onto the hospital?
@@justbeinghayden9451Hello,first of all thanks for your answer very fast it's very kind of you. He was into psychosis and travelling country to country by escsping from everyone even from me cause he didn't trust noone and he was not realising that what he was going through and ended up by police caught up in a hotel room after a week journey.
That is intense. There is a lot of stigma around psychosis and so a lot of people who go through it are disowned by family and friends. It is really sad, but people who go through these experiences need a lot of support even though it is scary for everyone.
@@justbeinghayden9451 Yes he's been in a mental hospital for a month and since a month in a rehab place and just waiting calmly to be out and continue the new life and new him without drugs never more. But actually he was extremely atheist before and instantly started believe in God after his psycosis within enlightenment.He was saying me that he felt the love of light in all his atoms and cells.He said that was the God.Well after he started being paranoiac and escaped and didn't trust no one. But later in hospital he realised that was a paranoia but still believes other is not and it's real he says.He had 2 kind of paranoias. One is recovered but one is he believes it's real.I think it's also a delusion but could be real too I must find out cause it's actually about a drug mafia that's why he escaped from them he says.Well I really must find out about it to see if it's true or false
@@justbeinghayden9451 you have to stay grounded, you have to learn to be human again on 3D world. You are a spiritual being , nobody can take that away and you don’t need drugs to find this out . Learn to be human. On earth . Bring yourself together as one piece instead of fractions . It’s ok . Nobody can take away you are a spiritual being. You just are you are part of God and belong to him period . You are here in this dimension at this time to experience life . Life as a human being . Plant yourself and get into daily rituals to help ground yourself it’s ok 🤗
Same thing happened to me micro dosing lsd , cannabis and dMt . I thought I was an actor in a movie for months .
Sorry to hear that. Happens to the best of us. Hope you are doing better now.
@@justbeinghayden9451 ya four years later I am back to normal. I started prolonged fasting and totally fixed my brain . My brain was fried for at least a year .
Try looking into Carl jungs ideas of the collective unconscious/archetypes
Yeah I've studied his work a little bit. He has some interesting things to say about psychology.
informal inquiry you were using heavily archetypal terms which is very interesting. The mother archetype, the hero’s journey.. are you familiar with Jordan Peterson?
Not the indigenous flute😂
these are demons who are able to put thoughts so realistic into your head, so vivid, that one easily can make the mistake of assuming it came from your own thoughts if you're not spiritually grounded in the Word of God
Thank you for sharing. I am curious to know how you know this to be true.
Agree
When I was hospitalized for trying to kill myself not in a state like yours the head er psychiatrist interviewed me. She took notes then gave me a piece of paper to sign consent to go to the mental hospital. I turned it over and saw that she wrote sexual. Then there was this machine in the top corner the room that emitted this frequency that manipulated my sexual energy. Of course I knew if I talked about it people would just say I'm crazy.
I think it was to keep people tired and docile
I think the reason why you were naming all these well known spiritual teachers is because you were experiencing the feeling of being whole because we are apart of the universe- we are that image of God and so we are one; because we interpret the creators image. I believe of this of course.
Ditto
Do you take any psychedelics or cannabis now???
No, I do not take any cannabis or psychedelics now. There are too risky for me and I am finding enjoyment, pleasure, and growth without them right now. 🙂
@D 1 I just stopped. Got rid of my weed and didn't buy anymore. Decided it wasn't good for me anymore.
@D 1 consistently only like 4 months and I would smoke a bowl every other day.
@D 1 a bowl is something you smoke out of. It's what hold the cannabis. Like the cup thing in a pipe or a bong.
@@justbeinghayden9451I don't see D1 comments
I had a talking toad and a mans voice that would speak to me, and there was a moment where it looked like I was going to be dragged off to hell
Sounds a bit scary. Thanks for sharing, sorry you had to go through that.
@@justbeinghayden9451 nah, it was epic
@@ghostlylover99123dragged off to hell is not epic, it's terrifying
Wait, I thought Chipotle actually was poisoned.
😋lol
Yes, Hayden... you got hooked on powerful streams of energy, which are endowed with a consciousness of their own. Exactly as you say, the "Saving the World" stream of energy is a real phenomenon, an ongoing phenomenon which definitely contributes to the preservation of the infinity of the Universe. It's just...these streams of energy are very powerful and we, the humans, as a species, are still in an embryonic stage of our evolution, so few people understand your experiences. Nevertheless, observe that you already have gathered around you a circle of intelligent men and women, and your experiences are much valued by them. Keep posting, without exhausting your self, of course. Best wishes and regards!
Thank you for your support I genuinely appreciate it 😊🙏
I assume you won't provide any evidence for that stream of energy? I mean it's easy to come up with baseless theories if you think divergently, but when we're working towards a consensus of truth, you gotta share your sources. If you learned it from experience, you can share which other subjective experiences build upon that evidence. From how I see it, it's just a very simple consequence of several emotional needs of people, where if we're desperate for a purpose, we take one that is logically self-evident during a period when we're susceptible towards a heightened trust. If our logic isn't strong enough so as to disprove something due to being unlikely, we default towards accepting it and we discover several traps of a positive feedback loop that are always waiting in the background for us to become gullible. It's like when a CZcams video plays an advertisement of "you can make plenty of money", not having enough doubt can push a weak person into risking their money on a mere belief. It's just that during psychosis, forming of a belief happens during a process that's unavailable to our consciousness when we're "healthy". And that's the thing we need to research more; how our consciousness works, what inputs of feelings and emotions contribute towards perceiving a different set of reality perspectives, how much of it can be trained or controlled by willpower, which lessons can be learned or which ones are completely out of our control (there's probably far less free will than we believe, as there are certain states that are uncontrollable and merely have to be experienced/waited through). As you see, this perspective goes a completely different way than a belief in energies that travel through us and somehow, magically cause our beliefs to also be affected. Psychiatrists won't perform this research, so if you claim to have advanced knowledge, please contribute towards creation of opportunities for us to learn more. Throwing a random, popular theory of random streams of energy helps no one if you don't elaborate further. And when it comes to healing, we need to train practitioners in various countries if we want to actually help people. There are too many false healers who take money for placebo.
So r u normal with out medication now ?
I take 0.5mg of risperidone. But yeah I have no symptoms of psychosis and am doing great!
So u gotta take that 0.5mg for rest of ur life ? Doesn't it make u gained weight I'm on 1 mg n gained so much weight going on it a month said I gotta b on it at least 6 months then they gonna slowly take me off so do u eat alot on 0.5mg ???
I got schoprania from thc was laced but not touching drugs nomore so hopefully I don't ever have to take meds after 6 months do u think I'll still hear voices
@@ellagarnica8895 I don't necessarily need to take the rest of my life, but I find it still helpful to stay on it for now. If I decide to go off I'll do it with the doctor. I did not gain weight from the medication, but .5 mg is a low dose, so I might have at higher doses. I can't tell you if you won't have symptoms going off of medications it's almost impossible to know. Just work with your doctor and always take small steps when it comes to medication. I hope that the symptoms go away for you.
Y is it hard to come off medication ? Do u hear voices coming off it slowely
Playing around with the mind is very foolish. One's mind should be treated with more respect. Drugs can be very dangerous. Why take a chance on damaging your mind?
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Your choice of reading material probably attracted spirits that attached themselves to you...
1. Infestation. This is “haunted house” type stuff: footsteps, voices, apparitions, furniture or other objects moving without human agency, odors with no discernible source. Rather than directly affecting people, infestations affect only property, objects, or even animals.
2. Oppression. Activity steps up with physical attacks, sleep disturbances including regular nightmares, frequent and severe illnesses, major depression or anxiety, severe financial or employment problems, and relationship troubles. While these things happen in the normal course of life, all of them happening at once or in rapid succession could be a sign of demonic presence.
3. Obsession. As the name implies, at this stage the afflicted person has a hard time functioning, being constantly preoccupied with thoughts of the demonic activity commandeering his or her life, and frequently with thoughts of suicide as well. Sleep becomes nearly impossible.
All three of these stages can be addressed by a competent deliverance minister. However, the last stage is reserved for official exorcists...
4. Possession. Contrary to popular belief, possession is not demons entering a person’s body and taking over his or her soul. A person’s free will is never removed, only severely compromised. In possession, a person is so physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually broken down by going through the other three stages that demonic spirits are able to seize occasional control over that person’s actions.
Telltale signs of possession include superhuman strength, speaking in a language the victim doesn’t know, inordinate aversion to holy objects, knowledge of events or facts the victim could not possibly know, and according to Diocese of San Jose exorcist Gary Thomas (whose story was made famous in the book and movie “The Rite”), changes in facial features.
I haven´t had psychotic breakdown myself yet for some reason your description of the situations you experienced made complete sense to me. Thanks for sharing and I hope you are doing well brother.
Thank you I appreciate it!