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0:00 prelude
01:15 my own expectations or sumting
02:14 agua
03:56 well, we're back
05:08 all the things I wasn't saying: & life lessons
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I'm Mariah Alice, and I live the "solo female van life" with my dog, Finn. We've been on the road full time since June of 2020, and although our road has been met with what feels like a zillion ups and downs, we've finally gotten to the point where living in a van feels like home. Sometimes we're alone in the woods, sometimes we're alone in a desert, sometimes we're chasing snow or thunderstorms, sometimes we're trying to see all 50 states, and sometimes we're making weekly videos here on CZcams talking about our feelings, anxiety, loneliness, seasonal extreme sadness..... yeah. I don't know what I'm doing with my life. And that's okay. I think :)
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Wow. Thatâs wild that you were in such a serious accident and didnât get hurt. Three years ago, my Xterra rolled across three lanes of traffic at 70 mph. Lost my home and vehicle in about four seconds. But same, not a single scratch. I had a similar realization about mortality and that literally every day is a gift. Letâs campfire sooon
Yikes, can xee how that would be a life changer!
Do you know how great that sounds? not the accident, but the simple invite of 'lets campfire soon'. Safe travels to all of you who inspire us to be outside more.
In 1984 I was in a boating accident where the prop hit my right thigh and almost lost my leg. It makes you appreciate life.
I thought I had a spider bite in the beginning of summer - it was some sort of break in my skin, we never figured out what caused it. But bacteria got in there, and I ended up with flesh eating bacteria disease, and was hospitalised most of the summer. Keep it clean and keep an eye on it. Because of what I experienced, Iâd get it checked out, but thatâs me :)
also, it may be necessary for a round of antibiotics..can be very serious
I thought I had a spider bite. Ended up being impetigo. I have also had cellulitis (skin infection) in the last 4 years.
Another great video, Mariah! Iâm glad you found more friends on the road. :) I agree with the others in that you might want to have a doctor take a look at your elbow! It could even be a staph infection, which is extremely painful and would require antibiotics right away. Take care of yourself and have a great week!
Hey girl you most likely need to get your elbow seen that redness looks like cellulitis to this ER nurse. Could be a Brown Recluse ? Everything you said on you video is exactly what the complaints are from people who had those bites. So if it still hurts the same after another24 to 48 hours remains red and the area is warmer than the surrounding tissue go get it seen and if it appears to be looking like an abscess cover it and go to a clinic. I really enjoy your channel by the way.
@@tavanurses My first thought was a brown recluse spider. Nothing to ignore. Please have it checked out. Love you talks/reasoning and Finn is just the best. Looking forward to seeing you around more campfires...enjoying yourself and making new friends.
I'm so glad that you found friends on your journey. They say, there's a reason why you run into someone. There's a purpose people come into your life. â€đ This covid world isolates people. Hugs and prayers to you đ†Crying is healthy. It's good having emotions. Do you have any triple antibiotic cream?Hope this helps.. †Clean the wound with mild soap and water. Apply an antibiotic ointment three times a day to help prevent infection. Apply a cool compress over the bite for 15 minutes each hour. Use a clean cloth dampened with water or filled with ice.
Also if you have any essential oils, a hot compress with lavender or tea tree can help draw out the poison. If it starts making red streaks up or down your arm, go to the doctor!!! Loved your tears đ
I love happy tears, we all need more of those. Lots of love to you and Finn.
There is more to vanlife exploration than putting miles on the van. The mental miles make for a marvelous journey.
Woman you are an INSPIRATION!! â€ïžâ€ïž Keep going, you beautiful soul. I know that every one of us looks forward to seeing your creations every week.
Awe, Mariah, you said you felt heavy revisiting those days in this video. I watched it feeling happy for you. You are young and LIVING your life. (I am almost 3x your age) Thanks for being real. Life is one experiment/adventure after another, isn't it? Love from PNW.
Hi Mariah, I wanted to share with you how much I admire your willingness to share both of your journeys. The internal and external adventure in being human. My wife and I were touched by the self inquiry you did about how a year ago you wouldn't have been open to connecting with the fellow travelers you did at this time in your life. I'm 78 and hearing you say that this group that you met were older 30s / 40s and that you couldn't imagine being open to a connection with them a year ago. Well, you drew us in, and you have our admiration and wishes for many more expanding adventures in your journeys. Be safe...
I'm glad you found friends!
Regarding the spider bite, an easy remedy for future reference is to mix 1 tablespoon of baking soda with just enough water to create a paste. Spread it on the bite and it will help draw out the poison.
That's awesome you found cool people to hang with! I've always wondered how many people there would be on the road, so it's cool to see your experience and learn how you found people. Speaking from personal experience - I bet that guy had a blast working on your van. It's always super fun to help people out and fix their stuff.
Happy you met friends to share campfires, stories and food. Yeah! Trust that the universe only wants whatever is best for you, there are a lot of Thomasâ out there who are willing to lend a helping hand and someday you will get an opportunity to do the same for someone else. I am not a doctor, but you can clean the wound with mild soap and water. Apply an antibiotic ointment three times a day to help prevent infection. Apply a cool compress over the bite for 15 minutes each hour for pain. Try baking soda mix a paste and put on wound to draw out venom. Keep an eye on Finn too!
WowâŠwhat an awesome, introspective journey you are sharing. As a full time RVâer for the past year, I understand what you are going through. Just know you are never alone and that the community is here for you.
If you are ever in NW Florida and need a safe, peaceful place to stay, my spot at my RV park has room for you and Finn for free.
As someone who also lives in a van I can completely relate to everything you say.
GO GET TREATED FOR THE SPIDER BITE ASAP. They'll give you antibiotics to make sure infection doesn't develop and can assess for level of tissue damage. Better safe than missing a chunk of elbow.
Also you're great and deserve to feel nice things. Happy for you! Ok bye gotta post this asap lol
I'm kind've late watching this. Yeah, antihistamines and antibiotics. Oatmeal soaks. Steroids if it's real bad. My son at 7 yrs was but by a brown recluse spider. He had to lay flat for a week and saw the Pedi every day. I got pretty scared he'd lose his leg and on the sixth day (Fri) vomited. They put him on steroids and by Mon his skin was so good he could go to school. I love watching your videos!
Listening to you is so cathartic for me. Your monologues sound like my inner monologue, and I always wonder if anyone else has thoughts, notices their thoughts, analyzes their thoughts, and then arranges their thoughts into a larger picture/philosophy. Itâs nice to see someone who I admire and enjoy who is like me, and realize that 1) Iâm not a total weirdo and 2) I can be likeable (since you are so very, very likeable). So I guess thank you.
I think it's ok to see you happy crying. I seem to get that feeling of helplessness vibes when you need things fixed and you're out in the desert. But at least you weren't crying about that.
Glad you found new friends and a guy like Thomas who helped you out. Hope your spider bite clears up.
Iâve been watching your videos for the past 6 months and your evolution is beautiful to see as you overcame a challenging time âŁïž
wow, this was an awesome video, idk why but i felt like crying too, i don't really know why but i can somewhat imagine how it feels like. its so true what you said, when we want or need something we cant force it, we just have to develop for it in all the appropriate aspect to achieve it, that resonated with me and i felt that. hey best of the wishes for the future of this channel, i really love and enjoy your videos, it makes my day better and gives me inspiration and hope that i can do better if i keep trying.
Youâre amazing! Iâm starting a van build in the next month or so, hopefully itâll be done by summer. Hope to you in the road âșïž
I love how open you are about your headspace. It makes this old lady want to get a van and do this sooner rather than later. You are super motivating/inspiring. Keep doing you! I appreciate you đ„°
I had a bad spider bite on my calf a few years ago. I work on a film set so I had a medic checking it every day and she wanted me to keep it well bandaged with a lot of neosporin inside the bandage. In an unrelated coincidence I was also getting sicker and sicker and so she made me go to the doctor because she was concerned about MRSA. The sick feeling turned out to be Rocky Mountain Spotted Fever from a tick bite and they cultured the spider bite and it was actually not terribly infected despite the fact the skin was turning black at the puncture. Doc said it was probably all the neosporin and bandage changing that kept that from getting worse. Yeah I learned a lot about bugbites that summer.
I feel you! I Know how it can be and it can really be a struggle. Iâve followed you since you started your Vanlife here on youtube, so I am extra happy for you! Happy tears, Vanlife Friends around campfires, walks and thoughts in nature, a new friend who gave you a helping hand & then your Finn! Wow! Can it be better!đ„° Thank you for just being you Mariah! - I think you are a really nice and authentic person - Thank you for always sharingđ hugs from me in Sweden.
I love that youâre always so honest about your emotions & feelings. I lived in a class C RV for more than 2 years in AZ and can often relate to your spiritual journey. Thanks for keeping it real!
Hi. I love your content. Donât quit. I am so glad you made some good friends. I am 55 and disabled so I donât work. I got a van with a bed because I got back pain and I need to lay flat for relief . I have done a few small trips but nothing like you do. Howâs the spider bite? Years ago a girl In college was bit and that thing stuck around for months. If itâs MRSA it would have looked like volcano with in three days. If MRSA go to ER right away. Iâm sure you are OK . I love your van.
Happy cry = best cry. Right above relief crying. I'm really you listened to yourself and went someplace where you knew you could get what you needed to fix the things you needed to. "You can't always get what you want, but sometimes you get what you need." -Rolling stones.
I appreciate the honesty you bring to your videos. So many CZcamsrs only show the perfect highlights, I love that you show the good and the bad while taking us on your adventures.
From one guitar player to another, đ€đœ. Now from an ER nurse to CZcams friend, keep a close eye on the elbow and if it is still giving you discomfort you may want to get a checked out at an urgent care. Iâm hoping by the time you posted this video that it is much better but if not, you might want to get it looked at.
You have a very poetic way of delivering your content, thank you for being you. You have grown leaps and bounds over the past year, you will continue to grow and learn.
Please see a Doctor for the elbow. If that was some that causes flesh eating it gets bad quickly.
Let your soul wrap around all the good feels. A few tears will help you remember this when you're 80, and your thoughts will be just as bright.
Speaking of "looking back at 80". ..we ran into the coolest 80+ year old gal living in van while on family road trip last summer (2021) she was such a great spirit. She chose to just sell everything and wander. We were WAY up in a forest road in SW Montana. Such fun.
Her name was Carol, she was in a Transit Connect or small Dodge. I think it was red (don't remember) but I am SURE she's STILL out there. Probably in SW this winter. Super nice lady. She said "my children worry I will be found dead in my van someday" .... "thats how I WANT to go!" She was having her adventure. "I raised my children, worked a career, now I want to do what I WANT to do" ...she was FUN!
Mariah....you are such a beautiful person. Out of all the Vanlifers I have watched I enjoy yours the most. You are so honest about yourself and life in a van that everytime I watch its like spending time with a good friend. Thank you!
Thank you for sharing your life and newfound wisdom with us. We continue to grow everyday through every little experience we have. Safe travels to you Mariah!
Thank you for sharing your journey. I'm much older but not that different. I finally figured out that I'm an ambivert; mostly introvert that needs people sometimes and can be an extrovert occasionally but then needs to retreat to re-charge. It's OK to be who you are and what you are!
Wow, you are so inspiring. I can't wait to overcome my fears and do the same. As you said - baby steps and the art of patience!
You always have such beautifully done content, thank you so much for what you do, it's really enjoyable to see your journey with van life and even though there are some scary things about it it has made me want to do van life in the future after college! :3
Just ran across your Channel, while watching other Van Lifers I've followed, I have to say, you are such a brave resilient Girl, You are making all these great memories while you are young, traveling to all these amazing places, and by yourself wow, that's amazing, how independent you are , you seem like a Great Great person, as I find ALL Van lifers to be, but you have such great content, and your lil fur baby is adorable thy make the bestest of friends , Just what you are doing , wow I give u lots & lots of credit, Safe travels, and all these great people you meet along the way will prolly end up being forever friends & maybe a relationship in the future, Your sure deserve it!!!
This was the first videos of yours I've ever seen.. I immediately related to everything you said, how sometimes when you want and need things, important things like friendship, or self-confidence, it's not always there right away, and you don't really know until later it's because you weren't quite ready... it takes so much faith and patience to get through those times of limbo. If I was a van-lifer, I would definitely want you at my campfire! I'm hoping it's not too late for me, thank you for being an inspiration for single females! You are a beautiful soul. Subbed today, looking forward to catching up on your videos.
Loved every second of this video; from the beginning to the end. I needed to see this today. Thank you for sharing all of that. No drama, just straight up. Very cool and very brave of you. You completely have my admiration, and I absolutely must subscribe. Again, thank you.
I feel like winter is the best cause vanlifers have to gravitate towards one area and everyone meets, but in summer, people go wherever! Kinda cool
Good video. You are learning and growing as a person. It's OK to be sad, lonely, depressed, happy, content, unsure, scared, brave, etc.....that's OK, that's human and it's wonderful. If your down, be patient and time will make you forget. Your channel is a good example of this. Just be, just experience, except all the wonderful emotions good or bad.
You made it to one of the best places to be in winter time, no heater necessary. Happy trails and live long and prosper.
Desert tarantulas are pretty common in the desert SW, mostly in Texas and New Mexico. They do bite and it is a tad painful when it happens, much like a bee or wasp sting, but is not life threatening. Their poison is pretty lame on the scale of spider bites. In fact, these "brown back" tarantulas usually won't bite unless pressured.
Happy to see you expanding your social circle. Vanlife can be so isolating, and it's just good to get out there! Keep on, doing good stuff Mariah...
Love spending time with you and I'm way older than 35! Love the videos and the insights you have, and you're right about everything happens for a reason. You do an awesome job. Thanks for bringing me. And a shout-out to Thomas for his care and his goodness in taking care of your concerns.
Bonjour Mariah from The French part of Canada, QuĂ©bec. Maybe youâll read this, probably you wonât. Have seen all your videos.
A few thoughts on anxiety. As a solo female, you do have to be concious of all that go wrong : what if they donât like me, what if i donât like them, what if a crazy person knocks on the door, etc.
All those things are possible, but unlikely. Be prepared, but also entertain the thought that they may like you, and you them. That knock might be from someone super cool that is offering help or wanting to invite you to a camp fire. Good things are also possible.
I like that you keep it real. Fin is a great dog.
Ă la semaine prochaine.
Iâve been watching you for a long time. You have come a long way!! Itâs so heart warming to see you smiling and happy and so comfortable on the road â€ïžâ€ïžâ€ïž
You know that quote by Khalil Gibran? âThe deeper sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain.â
Iâve always thought it explains the happy crying that starts as we get older and learn more about what really has value to us.
Youâre so cute âșïž. Youâre also so talented with editing your videos and just being real and vulnerable on camera. You donât know how much good you do for people who canât live that life but can live vicariously through youđ
Hai, in case of a spiderbite you can cool the area, preferably with a wet cloth or washcloth with a few ice cubes in it. After the area has cooled slightly, apply an anti-inflammatory. If you suffer from pain, take a paracetamol. Keep an eye on the bite for 24 hours and consult your doctor if the symptoms worsen. Hopefully it is just sore for a day. Keep on going, you are living your life.
Mariah stop it, you did it!!! Wild van life friends appeared đ„șâ„ïž I'm so so so happy for you! Please stay careful tho but I know you do. And flowing along with you and Maddie is so fun, hope you meet each other in the warmer weather and film together.. That be so cool. I really felt that cry at the end and I'm so happy for you â„ïžâ„ïžâ„ïž
I just started shooting photographs on film. Those landscape shots in your videos make me want to get out west. Thank you for always being yourself and letting the viewers see your journey. Much luv from New York City.
Everything happens for a reason! Even the random little things, itâs all apart of a bigger plan you gotta set for yourself. i love these videos, thank you for including us in your life :)
Beautiful area there in Arizona! Finn seems very quite for a dog. Let him speak on camera once in awhile.
What you said about CZcams not working out until you were ready and not making friends until you were ready really stuck with me, thank you Mariah! Sometimes I get in my head about not being good enough at making friends or building my CZcams channel, but these things take time and patience and it will work out when I least expect it, when Iâm ready to take on those new adventures!
Iâm glad to see you so happy, Iâve been watching from those difficult periods last year and have been rooting for you. I admire how open you are with your emotions and your willingness to share. You bring honesty and humanity to this platform! â€ïž
Love to see how you and Christian are connecting and meeting up with each other. Love to share your adventures. Thank you
Oh how sweet that Thomas took the time to help you.What an đđ earth đ angel. Your friends looked nice too.
Wow Thomas is an angel, and I cried for you lol. Loved this video and I am so happy for you! Glad you had a great week cultivating friendships.
Hi!. I'm from Argentina a few days ago I'm looking for someone's channel that tells what it's like to live day by day in a van. Finding your channel was great.
Your van is very beautiful... I think the hardest part of living alone is dealing with anxiety and loneliness. But it is beautiful to be able to go through different places
Donât EVER apologize for sharing your emotions! Itâs part of who You are! I really enjoyed your video. Keep on keeping on! đđđ
I would get some pain cream like neosporin. I am glad you had that amazing time with new and old friends. It helps build us up and gives us a reason to live life. Hugs and please take care of your elbow. Lots of love from a mama bear in Colorado.
Neosporin is an antibiotic, not a "pain cream."
I technically haven't been there since day 1 BUT, I started binge watching your day 1 adventures on up just a few days ago and I am happy to see you having fun here with other van lifers.
Best way to start the week off is with a new video by Mariah! It's nice returning to familiar places. Then you can see how much you've grown since being there last.
OKAY! Iâm commenting again because I am watching the end now! I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!! You deserve things to go well. Mariah life is happening and you are growing.
God is good.
I think you're crushing it, you'll have your ups and downs, but hang in there. Keep exploring and doing what makes you happy. Be Well, Be Happy & Live your life as you are, Carefree and exploring where most only dream of going.
Sometimes life has such beautiful symmetry. Thanks for sharing this moment of yours. Hope your elbow is okay.
I cried watching you cry. Love your videos. Still catching up because once I find someone i like i watch them from the beginning. Thanks for sharing your journey.
never say you're sorry for what you post, Mariah Alice; what you offer is priceless. i always enjoy your vids! eve
Hi I love your vlogs especially the places where you stop to spend the night are splendid postcard limit wow I like it and the rivers in relaxation mode are magnificent, concerning your spider bite, the best thing is to go and consult and then you will advise because for my part I would like your vlogs to continue, it transports us especially during this pandemic and again a thousand thanks for sharing the trip with us đđfrom France bonjour de France
This has to be one of your best videos. You are so happy and I am so glad you found a group of friends. Stay happy!
I just wanted to say you are a lot more confident than you think. Look at you girl you are traveling alone that takes a level of trust in yourself. You are doing great!
I just resently started watching you . This video gave me tears of joy for you as well. I have been there no water or heat... Glad you got in a nice circle with this folks
This was one of the most meaningful videos of yours for me. I've been watching your videos a lot recently when I got back into the groove of wanting to live such a life, like van life, even though its not achievable for me right now. I love the lessons in this video, they really match my life right now and I know that me watching this video happened for a reason and I am so grateful. Though it might have been a special experience for you in one way, it is special for so many others too. Thanks for posting this Mariah
Hey lady, your honesty about your day to day things is what brought me here. You sharing your emotions ( crying ) are part of what brings us ( your audience) closer to you and makes us care about you and your well being. Now go do something about that elbow, we out here donât want anything to happen to you that will prevent you from your next video !
You don't ever have to apologize for crying. Happy for you!
I stayed in Sedona last week. I stopped and filled all my water jugs from one of the natural springs. I'm holding up in southwest Nevada now. It's pretty nice
Uhm .. I didnât know what it made me feel at first.. then it hit me I was watching you express your break though moments. .. what a beautiful thing to share with us . . Nothing wrong with a good cry . Those are the moments that Connectâs us as humans .proud of you dude.
Spider đ· bites do hurt a lot, mine took about 3 weeks for the pain to be less. It took a good month to not bother as much. If you have charcoal make a paste and apply it to make the poison less irritating. I had a patch for like 6 months. If you have allergic reaction or feel your body is reacting to it then see a doctor
Keep on Keeping On!
Your always where your supposed to be in Lifeâ€ïž
Great video!
Its a very special moment when you can spend time with friends. You are young and still able to easily move around. Take life by the cahones and enjoy it! Soak it up.:) That was so cool that scotts dad helped you with those broken things on your van. About your spider bite. That is an awful place to get bit when it is over the joint. If it is throbbing Id definitely get seen by doc for it. You do not want to get infection from it involving your joint. If you start seeing red streaks in it and it feels hot to touch you def need to go to doc. Spider bites are awful. especially if it is a brown recluse bite. Good luck with it. Keep up the good work with learning the guitar.
I love to see how your narrative is changing. I''ve seen every single video you made and I remember your struggle. It made me think how I've seen my hopes come true and now, that I am at my lowest, I may see them again.
This is soo wholesome and the butterfly affect you explained at the end made me smile and love life.
I love that you found a group of likeminded friends to share in this journey.
Btw I am 49 years old and love watching your videos , age is not as important as the sharing of dreams and lifestyle
You will truly remember these days many years down the road with fondness (or nostalgia, at least). Anyway, I wish you all the best in your adventures.
Ouch! That looks like a brown recluse bite. Soap, water, Neosporin with pain relief, and icing it might help. Maybe some spider traps for your van. Glad you got your water situation sorted. I love all the beautiful sunsets btw. Take care!!
So cool to see the view of the circled vans where you and friends met and enjoyed campfires together. Maybe a bit like Circling the wagons in the old west:)
I am so excite3d for you. I can only believe that the road could get lonely, although little Finn has to be a great travel buddy. When I saw those vans in a circle I was so excited for you, and for a week or so! Great stuff. This is a fantastic journey that we are getting to follow you around on have a great day
Always nice to spend time with wonderful people
I know it's late, but for future knowledge, if you get a spider bite, or even a stinging nettle kind of deal, those old time drawing salves actually do work. We have a ton of poisonous plants and biting insects/spiders here and those help bring swelling down and lower infection chances.
SO cool that he helped get you all fixed up!
Mariah, you are my spirit animal ! I am 60 and feel like I'm looking back on my 22 year old self. Thank you for the honesty, adventures, incredible/breathtaking scenery and allowing all of your followers to see life through your eyes ( and Finn's). Keep traveling and enjoying all the wonders of life and meeting new friend's . Looking forward to more. Be safe and happy trails !! :)
Lovely to see someone talking about the tears.....I sometimes feel like many people I am surrounded by are bundles of unresolved grief, which makes us pretty dysfunctional little pressure cookers.....as life unfolds, the reasons and the seasons for tears change, but grief needing to be felt remains a near constant....winter, for me, is an extra special opportunity for grieving time, so I give myself a lot of space for it, especially in winter....this winter after some grieving, I realized that once you have cried enough tears, all that is left is love.....another way of talking about it is to say that life is 49 percent suffering and 51 percent the heroic triumph over suffering......also....as you explore your grieving practice, you see that it is part of a profound and desperately needed exhalation.....allow the exhalation to prolong itself.....toxins long embedded are shaken loose and fall away like a washcloth wrung out.....the near-endless exhalation of the unprocessed past and the challenges of the present.....after a session one is as though stoned, and tomorrow there will be a lightness in the solar plexus and in the muscles all over the body.....keep on crying, sweetie....and keep on dreaming and videoing when you feel like it...........
Your happy and you will be fine,enjoy life and all its special little moments.
Iâm so happy for you. đ€ TY for all your tips. Iâm considering so many things you mentioned prior to converting. I think youâre successful, b/c we are watching you grow in areas we understand: Self-acceptance, trust, confidence, community, etc. Stay genuine & living from the heart as you do đ
There's something about your videos that makes me tear up every time. Not because they are sad but you are able to capture what I hope to some day feel. Freedom, community, a sense of adventure and uncertainty and just figuring it out because you know that travel and adventure is far better than just sitting at a desk all day. You make all of the trials of vanlife seem manageable and part of the journey. â€
sounds like a spider bite but in AZ don't know what spider it would have been so to be on safe side I'd goin into Sedona and get it looked at medically but to be sure & if you need medicine to heal it. take care - you'll be ok - I'm glad you met Thomas and he's a good guy.....Be safe and get you elbow looked. â€đ€
On the spider bite, the soreness may mean you need to have the area drained. You can always give warm salt soaks a try to draw out any of the toxins that may be left in there. Honestly, if you start feeling bad please see a doctor. I had a bite on my arm and had to have it drained 3 times before it could begin healing. Pop into a clinic somewhere and let a doctor take a look. So very glad you were touched by kindness and compassion of your new friends. We need more of that in our world these days. I'm sure you will pay it forward. Blessings and safe travels.
Hi Mariah. I recommend you go see a Dr. about your elbow. On video it looks like it may be infected. Infection over a joint, like the elbow, can become serious. Best thing is to see a Dr.
I really enjoy your content. You are a great story teller. I am glad you finally had the kind of van life experience you had hoped for!!
I've gone thru stages where I ve def felt alone, and my choices made it worse. That being said, I've spend time in Mexico, Canada, Spain, Italy, and France.. I quit my job and had some of the best years of my life. Traveling and not working is special time of your story...but looking back its more like a long summer then permeant life. im back now, living 'normally', and reflecting on my adventures. Those crazy people I made camp with...or awkwardly met at a gas station or trail head, are some of my best times. Push on for more experiences, you'll rarely regret it.
You are like a magnet with your sharing of your vulnerabilities, your drive and your injections of witticisms weekly. I have grown to need my Monday fix of you
Ah the frustration and beauty of cosmic timing!
Thank you for your great videos. Love seeing the different places, the reality of van life with all it's pros and cons, and your lovely personality shining through. Not forgetting the gorgeous Finn! Your editing skills have really grown too. Greetings from Scotland â€ïž