social media has made me stupid | I am so tired
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- čas přidán 17. 03. 2024
- I'm tired of feeling the way that I do. I can't keep living this way.
#socialmedia #socialmediadetox #tiktok #mentalhealthawareness #glowup #selfimprovement #skincare #loneliness #givingupsocialmedia #growingup
Social media has made everybody weird
Our brains are overwhelmed with information that we need moments of stupidity so we will avoid burnout
I'm wondering if our brains cannot or struggle to handle too much human contact. I certainly know that back in the hunter gatherer days humans only had contact with about 20 other people in their lifetime. Maybe we are being unrealistic in wanting to connect with everybody
@@keithparker1346 Hmm that's a good point. I am introvert so I know this is true about myself, but I wonder if extroverts ever get overwhelmed with how many people they are in contact with?
@@keithparker1346 Not you giving the eugenists and segregationists ammo.💀
I’m just playing lol, but I see your point-like we’re social creatures but not to extent of LinkedIn-and-Insta-networking socialization. I feel like we just need to find some kind of middle ground.
Like what are the merits of “feigning” that you have a large social group and should you maintaining as you could possibly provide a blessing to any person with in that said social group, vice versa?
@@vanillavania. Just an observation yet I'm labelled as some eugenics supporter
@@keithparker1346 Wow. I literally stated that I was just messing around but I know there are, unfortunately, people out there who would take the comment you made and run with it to support their seedy philosophies. Just a reflection.
I read on one of the david goggings book that u can only overcome a problem if u truthfully accept ur mistake instead of excuses. So u have already taken the first step. Proud of u, just rember that our mood should not be the king of our actions. Work must be done even of we don't feel like it
What’s the name of the book?
@@qui6894i think it’s “you can’t hurt me”
my phone made me stupid too, it made everything easy to access to the point i can't even write a correct sentence since the phone correct everything without even seeing the mistakes, every info is there for you so you don't learn, you just access the info then forget about it, i've lost my passion for photography since the phone has a camera so i don't have to get my camera to go and do photography like a hobby, i can't draw anymore since my head is empty, i can't think about anything, it's like i hate the idea of thinking or i'm afraid of thoughts so i have to use my phone to distract my self so that i don't have to think about anything, it's like i'm an npc, so i'm planning to get a flip phone and start learning basic human tasks again to become a human being
I have heavily considered a flip phone before. I can still see that as a very good alternative. I wish you luck
@@dango.creations thank you
Or... You appreciate that you have practically a magic device in your hand that can do all that stuff. In terms of photography I never was one to have a camera not taken photos and with a basic phone I've taken thousands of shots. Technology can be used for good
@@keithparker1346 you clearly didn't understand what they've wrote.
@@keithparker1346appreciate a phone that was created by child slavery? No thanks
I can relate to this sm, I'm dying knowing that I'm unable to control myself. I'm fed up of wanting to start to draw but not picking up the damn pen.
I DON'T WANT TO WASTE MY TIME THIS WAY!
I wanna be bored but the thought of being by myself scares me; my thoughts scare me.
But ig i have to try even if it takes time.
Me too, with drawing
I'm more & more convinced that in a couple of years barely anyone will be social media because everyone will be overwhelmed by the insane amount of ads/short form content and it's so so difficult to use it in a healthy way. For anyone wondering if they will ever get out of the cycle, it helped me to think of my attention span/self control like a muscle you have to train: if at first it seems hopeless that makes sense, but it'll get so much easier as you 'practise'.
And what do you "practice" and how?
I’m surprised there are still some people that do use it in a healthy way.
@@shreyasi1150Thats is such a valid question lol. I'm not an expert but I'll like this one video I watched whcih for me was REALLY eye opening! czcams.com/video/_GohNBxyMPk/video.htmlsi=ilF1ZHmDsMYVLU3r Though I never actually followed through on the meditation in the morning thing, I think there was something so comforting and helpful knowing that if I'm currently struggling to focus on my studying or whatever it doesn't mean there's something fundamentally wrong with me because every new day I shoulld just be able to wake up and be productive, no, it's not like that. That is your starting point, and you can get better at it, as if it's its own skill. Enough rambling haha, I don't know what I'm talking about, good luck out there :')
I feel this so hard, I’ve deleted every social media app except for CZcams, like I feel so stupid whenever I watch these pointless videos, so fucking stupid and useless. My brain has a much potential, I have so much potential and ability to think and do things, I’m not a stupid person but these apps just make me unable to think. Our brain needs to be used always, that’s how we grow, we need exposure to new things so that we can form connections and memories. Never going back, I can’t control myself. It just makes me sad that I could of spent so much time learning and reading instead of scrolling. Also turning everything to grayscale. Good bye social media you will not be wasting my time anymore, I’m off to better my health and life, I want to learn not be a useless pile of crap. Sorry this is such a long rant but this just kills be everyday.
I so so so agree. Thank you for sharing. I hope you can get off of social media more and more and find yourself. I am trying to do the same
@@ameliaamels3563 thank you so much, you as well. I know this will not be easy but it is something we have to do
Or you can choose the content you watch.
That’s simple. Only watch the stuff you search for.
@@amdiary7 you’re right about that, which is why I only watch CZcams these days, I stopped watching reels and TikTok’s.
@@iclandiccubicle2798I wish youtube would have a remove youtube shorts function because those have been sucking me in too, and now whenever I open the app it's the first thing recommended to me just a bunch of CZcams shorts
This was all incredibly well said 🫶✨️ Thank you so much 💖 I have ADHD & a tip that has been helping me Journal is having a separate piece of paper beside me to just go full Spaz & Scribble ANYTHING on, this way I can get my thoughts flowing without cluttering up my "proper pages" & if a piece can go in the journal then it helps me be more thoughtful when I copy it to the "proper pages". And even the "proper pages" can be a bit messy because I have started to consider books to be like cozy beds for the mind to snuggle inside!
i just wanted to say i’m proud and inspired by your honesty. you’re changing your life for the better and helping others change theirs too! you’re doing amazing.
I feel lucky. I only use social media to search PRECISELY for the things I genuinely love and these things are so niche that only a few people really catch my interest.
If I see something I’m not interested in I don’t even bother clicking on it and I’m very picky so it’s okay for me.
reminder to myself and others: youtube is social media
There’s so many things I wanna do, I say I can’t do them but it’s 100% my fault but I don’t feel like it is :( I just need to smash my devices because I always find myself going back to doomscrolling for days on end. Not sleeping, doing hobbies, eating, even hygienic stuff :(
i deleted tiktok 12 days ago after getting fed up with being on it constantly. like even when i was watching tv shows on my laptop, i’d open tiktok and watch tiktoks while the show was playing?? so i wasn’t even able to fully focus on either of those things and tiktok already messes with focus on its own! rn i’m restricted to my room because of a health condition and i still can’t even do much in here, so being on my phone/computer is really the only thing i can do. i’ve been trying to replace tiktok with youtube videos at least (although i know it’s hard when there’s youtube shorts too). i’m trying to get my brain re-used to longer forms of content and actually watching stuff i *want* to watch vs. pointless, short videos that send you into a mindless scroll. maybe that can be a transition for you too if you’re having a hard time? i’m liking it so far and don’t feel the need to redownload tiktok. i always tried to justify keeping tiktok as having access to creativity and beauty, people’s stories, news, funny videos, finding people like me, etc., but in reality, life would be better without it.
I´m from Spain so my english writting is not very good. But I wated to say that the abuse of social media is a real and serious problem, and I found very important and helpfull speaking of it, like you are doing so sincerely in this video. I wish you the best implementing your new healthy habbits.
bro i'm also so fed up with social media it ruined my life it caused countless of mental problems for me and sometimes the problems that you have are caused by social media and you don't even know it bc it's not related at all but unfortunately it is related to it. rn i'm in such a rut i mean i was better few weeks ago but i just keep falling into this trap and scroll for the whole day it's so addicting that i actually have to force myself to do some things and it's never easy and the more i grow up the more i understand strict parents and i wish mine were a little strict but they don't know the dangers of social media so i don't blame them but my kids will definitely not have a phone until 13 or something and it's gonna be highly restricted. i have so many dreams and aspirations but i wasted my teenage years i'll be 20 this year and i refuse to waste my 20s to some fucking videos bc of the fear of missing out. i'm tired ! life is not supposed to be this way.
Keep in mind that you are still really young and have your whole life to rehabilitate yourself and your mind!! You got this man
hey! i'm currently off social media and what has helped me is praying and reading the Bible. God has helped me so much and I don't even have the desire to go back to social media. God bless you and all the best!
Augh girl me too and I was on fire, but now I’ve gotten so lazy I haven’t even been able to read my word 🙃 I will power through this phase tho, and get back on my grind.
@@zuocatcakesYes!! Go yoy
I think the majority of the youth have 12+ hour screen times and only a handful of us recognize this as a problem and even less than that are making strides to stop it
Exactly.
Legit girl! this is is an add!ction to social media. I went through the exact same thing and unfortunately the only thing that snapped me out of it was a car accident. That made me look at my life more critically and although I've made great strides in bettering myself, there are some days that I slip into old "habits". But not to the degree of what it was.
The situation is never going to change by itself but by recognizing that you want to better yourself is the first step. And always remember you are not alone in taking that first step. Journaling, silencing notifications, and delving into hobbies is the best way to slowly become detached and I wish you all the best of luck on your journeys! ❤
This video is so helpful. I'm going through that also, and I'm about to delete some social media. I will go to nature, read books, write, hang out with friends..I will actually live.
Thank you so much for your honesty. I am the same way, only difference is that I am a mother so my addictive habits dont affect only myself. I am riddled with guilt every night and swear to change. I guess this is my sign.
18 hours of screen time is ridiculous! Do your laundry cook meals clean the house go for walks with your dog journal 📝 those are great ways to pass time also read a book 📖 ❤
Something that has been helping me a lot is being way more specific with the goals. For example, if i want to spend less time on social media i would set a weekly goal in which every day i would only be on a social media app for 50 minutes, and if i am able to complete at least 6 days of that the following week the daily goal would be 45 min.
When setting the goal to nourish my body I would set things like: drink water first thing in the morning at least 5 days that week, eat a fruit at least 4-5 days, and on and on.
You have to be specific (even in the dumbest things) and start little by little, otherwise you'll fail in a grandiose task and would give up. That used to happen to me, i was setting unrealistic goals for my brain. I was writing things like "workout everyday" when i wasn't used to working out, so it was obvious i would fail. Later on, my goals was to workout at least 10 minutes three times a week.
Hope this helps 🙌🏼
1:23 that's one of the saddest parts, KNOWING you have potential but wasting your energy on social media💔. For me it's not as bad as before but sometimes i f up again. Continue giving yourself grace, the beautiful thing about the brain is that it's adaptive so you will get to the point when you don't feel like you need it even tho it's hard initially.
i felt the same way, discovering yourself is a blessing
You can do it.
I relate so hard. i was struggling so much with social media (namely instagram i dont really use any other social media app) and finally deleted it in the beginning of this year, and it has made such a difference for me. I'm able to get more things done and accomplish things that i care about instead of mindlessly scrolling for 5+ hours during the day and taking in information that offers me nothing.
thanks for sharing. def inspired me to take a social media break. i spend so much on social media that i barely get any work done.. I am going to delete the app. challenging myself to not be on it this weekend. then building up from there. social media is absolutley making everyone dumb because of the short dopamine hits. Just like any drug, you are going to have to detox from it and eventually stop
I tried tiktok in 2019 and deleted after a month because it was so addicting to me. My current struggle is CZcams and this video was randomly recommended to me. I’m following along and cheering you on! Edit: consider reading the book Digital Minimalism by Cal Newport. You’re doing great ❤
I've started to try and make youtube a tool. When I watch something, I try to learn something from it and write it down. A really awesome quote I learned that I've started saying to myself throughout the day is, "Will it make the boat go faster?" There is a story behind it and I recommend you looking into it but essentially, when you are faced with a difficult decision, should I scroll the internet for 2 hours or should I make a nice meal and read a book, which one will make the boat (your happiness and mental well-being) go faster? Should I eat this sugary snack even though I've already indulged today, or should I make a more conscious decision? Will it make the boat go faster?
Thank you for your support, I hope this all made sense. I am proud of you for trying to better yourself. We don't hear it enough when we are working in silence 🩷
Thanks for replying. The boat analogy does make sense! It’s cool that you’re switching to educational content at least when you’re consuming content. Maybe audio books could be something to try also. I also want to consume more content related to my profession that I want to grow in instead of mindless content that I’ve gotten attached to. I realized that I haven’t been in a growth mindset in a long time and that’s caused me to have been stagnant in a lot of my goals since Covid pretty much. I also got diagnosed with adhd and have been finding ways to fuel my motivation outside of traditional productivity advice and that’s been great. Anyway nice to see someone else out there working hard at getting unstuck.
The first part of recovery is acknowledging that you have a problem. Not 'you' in patucular - anyone. Most people dont even recognise that they have an addiction.
You may be experiencing freeze response too. I get caught in freeze responses where I can't stop scrolling. Moving helps me get out of it, even though it's the last thing I want to do.
This is really needed for me right now. Glad the algorithm helped me with it.
I’m feeling the same, we can develop self control and get out of this cicle, I don’t know anymore how to process my feelings alone, I’m on social media all the fckng time… I’m tired of numbing myself! I’m DONE
My top 3 is stan twt, yt, tumblr, i dont use any other social media. I sometimes disable yt on my phone if I get sucked in into shorts for hours, like you said. I only have one old laptop other than my phone (I just don't need technology like that on the daily), and I think using different device for entertainment other than my very convenient, always with me phone, would help a lot with mindless scrolling. Cause then going on laptop (or any other device) would feel more like a task rather than mindless opening of apps. I did try grey scale, app timers, it's no use. Making it harder to access is best I think. Out of sight out of mind kind of thing. I'm just a bit scared to log out, you know? I'm still getting ready for that transition and that itself also tells me how much I actually need it. Take care x
Social media isnt toxic...people are. Its about time we acknowledged that its highlighting the dark side of human nature and that can be a good thing.
Remember for every nasty comment in social media there's at least 90 neutral comments and a couple of postive comments. We are attracted to the dark side
First of all, you have absolutely adorable cat 🐈
Second of all, I see a lot of myself in you I don't know how old you are but when I was about 15/16 I've also noticed how addicted to social media I am and decided to change that. Tbh, I am still struggling with getting rid of this awful habit but it's hard. I've tried setting rules for myself, for example: use Instagram no longer than 1 hour, put away your phone when going to bed, no phone in the morning etc. I also tracked my progress and it was fun for a few weeks but after that I just completely lost any motivation to continue. I also tried deleting apps and yeah what can I say, I am still using Instagram and Facebook on the internet browser. And I love CZcams so much I don't want to delete it. Sometimes when I start watching it I can go on for couple of hours and then forget what I have just watched. I just don't know what else I can do because anything that I've tried worked for a short period of time. I feel like I have not enough self-control. Idk, maybe now when I have more free time as I graduated high school I will be able to focus more on this problem and lower my usage of social media somehow.
I relate to this so much.. I'm trying to be wiser in using it, and I hope everyone who is dealing with the same problem could get better too ❤
I relate so strongly. Although I have spent a lot of time learning and I feel that I sit on a pile of knowledge that I can apply to change my life but I’m never consistent with it. I know I’ve got so much potential yet I have a hard time believing in myself especially falling into this pattern.
I quit using tiktok for a year, and I suggest to people to do that. It's hard at first, but I never come back using tiktok.
You're right that we suppose use social media or our devices just as a tool. Until now, I'm still on the process to use my devices as a tool, it is hard but I want to be better.
Thank you for being honest and sharing. I don't want to spend all the time watching the video so I'm going before I'm stuck. For anyone reading this, you don't have to read any more comments. Don't worry, I know you know what is better for you to do. Go do that.
this is so real deleting insta and deleting tiktok feels so good I go on insta less but feels great
I have the exact same thoughts. I think of this daily. I create content so it's so challenging to balance it all. But really, social media is killing my brain.
Bravo for putting yourself out there and being genuine
This popped up right when I needed to take a break. Thank you so much! Your storytelling is very engaging
I’ve been feeling this exact same way. Short form content also killed my attention span worse than it already was. I have trouble remembering things cause my brain is so used to only paying attention to something for 10 seconds then refreshing to pay attention to something completely different. I feel so stupid now. I’ve been trying to remedy this by reading more and watching movies to lengthen my attention span as well as doing hobbies like knitting. I try to watch CZcams if i want to watch videos because they’re longer and i usually gravitate towards educational videos about subjects I’m interested in like historical fashion and chemistry. I also make sure that if I decide to use TikTok that i must spend some time in the STEM column so I’m learning something. I’ve been intentionally doing things to exercise my brain like sudoku puzzles and i think that’s been helpful as well. I can say my attention span and memory is getting better and better as time goes on. Thank you for posting this I’m glad I’m not alone ❤
OMG I IDENTIFY SOOOOO MUCH with your channel. I'm going through the exact same challenges you describe in this and in other videos. We'll be fine! Love from Brazil!!
Yes I’ve been off instagram and TikTok for a week now and have started to fix my attention span and now doing thing I didn’t have time to do when I was doom scrolling like cleaning my room ,studying and learning a new language
yk seeing your channel you have my upmost respect for you, you feel like you waste the power of you, when you can be doing something far more productive and beneficial for ourselves. its my biggest cope aswell. it leaves in a loop and u dont wanna do anything
i think overrall you recording this and getting the feelings and thoughts out its prolly one of the best things you could've done holding yourself accountable is something that not alot seems to be able to do. props to you
This means more to be than you could imagine. Thank you for listening, I appreciate you.
seconded everything you said in this video 😔😔anyway, i can't help but notice that your both your cats are soo cute!
I'm with you on this! 💯
This has been my problem for as long as I can remember, especially growing up with parents who let me on the internet at an extremely young age. I think what makes it difficult is that these habits have been with me for as long as I have been alive, like it’s really all I know so breaking those habits is restarting all over. I just keep thinking of all the accomplishments and good experiences I could have if I didn’t have this problem. It got to a point where this year I finally had enough and just like you I deleted all my social medias and put it on my iPad, which I only ever pick up on the weekend. It’s horrible and a lot of work and I still find myself scrolling all day sometimes, but I can say with 100% certainty that it’s worth it. I had so many amazing experiences this year and I’m so glad I was fully there and present for it all. Anyways, just wanted to share my journey with all this and I wanna wish you luck because I know you can do it!!!
Have been feeling the same way !!
♥️ you can do It girl.
I think genZ collectively will start using the internet less soon. Maybe. Or maybe it’s hopeful thinking… But I think young genZ will collectively feel like they’ve had enough of scrolling and they want to go out and live life instead.
New subscriber here , i totally agree with ive been feeling like this for a while too
You are on the right track honey! Get completely off the internet, open up your Bible, pray and ask for Gods guidance, and everything will come together and make sense.
I completely agree with Sonia!
For I know the plans and thoughts that I have for you,’ says the Lord, ‘plans for peace and well-being and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.
~Jeremiah 29:11 (AMP)
Jesus said to him, “I am the [only] Way [to God] and the [real] Truth and the [real] Life; no one comes to the Father but through Me.
~John 14:6 (AMP)
You can do anything with that little orange cat behind you. ❤❤
Social media made me fail at my studies , yeah I am really hate social media but lam addicted on it 😢
This made me feel so seen.
thank you for making this :)
A lot of what you’re describing are the symptoms of the issues that Jaron Lanier discusses in his book “ten arguments to delete your social media right now”.
If you haven’t read it, I highly recommend it. It’s an eye opener! It’s not a large book by any means; a very quick and informative read. I think it would help you understand what you’re feeling on a whole other level! 👍
And good luck on your journey. Nice video!
Honestly I also think Covid had a huge part in this. Because we had soo much extra free time, social media became the main part of our day and I think it was then that myself and a lot of people fell into the trap of scrolling for so long without even realising how much time was being wasted. All those bad habits have stuck around and gotten worse overtime.
hey thanks for your video, already deleted instagram in march and tiktok maybe 6-9 months ago. gonna delete youtube as well on my phone & only use it on my ipad. i spend too much time on this app as well & i think deleting it will help me find more time for other things especially uni & my hobbies
The best approach to change is little by little. Not to just jump into it all in, or nothing. It’s like going to the gym. You start by doing what you can at a rate that is tolerable. Eventually, you start doing a little more than you’re already used to because you’re too comfortable with the easier stuff. Then you start doing progressive overload a month, or two later. Next thing you know, you’re a powerlifter two to three years in and you’re able to see how far you’ve come. Do what you can when you can in the moment it’s given to you. Don’t look to far ahead of your goals that you only focus on the future. The best way to take the steps to completing those goals are mostly in the now. Take your time, don’t rush the process.
nice video girl, cheers from Brazil
I feel the same way
Facts
same
I’m starting to see smart phones the same way I see cigarettes…
I would say start deleting apps week by week like : Facebook - CZcams- tiktoc and so on. Only keep the apps you need for your daily life like : paying bills - you can buy things here & there off Amazon. But don't post any pics of where you were at , going . My thing is buying a book or writing a journal. You don't need to go online to let the world about your journal.
Find something that you're good at . You say you're good at writing that' s one thing. How about learning and playing an instrument, being a writer , not sure where you live but you can buy yourself a telescope and study the stars , microscope . That's just a few of many.
i have this proplem to when anyone have any advice pls help me 😢😢
Can i ask which camera do you use?
I use my phone actually! It's a samsung galaxy s24 ultra 🩷
@@dango.creationsthank you❤I love your video & totally relate I spend too much time watching TikTok & I've making time for hobbies that don't me stare at the screen
Go outside for walks daily and throw your devices away for a while
It sucks but its not your fault
dont you go to college ?
I thought at first that you are that "femboy" Audrey. :D I thought that he has really developed that pretty boy look.You look nice anyway ;)
This is a weird comment bro
can i have your ipad, i could use it for school work and you wouldn't have to procrastinate. just saying
She needs it
Your tattoo billboard shows it all about you honey. Take care, your deed is done forever.
What exactly does that even mean? My tattoos show it's all about me? If you're going to leave a comment, even if it's critical, at least make it make sense.
Universal truth can hurt.
@@user-ur6ed5bv7x are.. are you mentally well?
I'm sorry if you are not. Truly I am.
At any moment are you going to take accountability for your own actions? Take control of YOUR LIFE!
With the goals; You need to set specific measurable goals with a timeframe.
"spend less time on social media" is vague.
Spend 0 minutes per day/Spend a maximum of 1 hour per week are more specific timely goals.
I would add that make goals at the start brain dead and easy to achieve. The aim is not really about the goal itself but getting you into a goal setting and achieving mode. Once that's established for a few weeks...make goals a little challenging...don't go OTT though as wild unachievable goals will probably depress you. Praise yourself for setting trying and achieving goals. Don't beat yourself up if you fail. You can always try again.
On goal setting do not be concerned what other people think of your goal. They don't know what your circumstances are and how much that's a challenge for you. For example, I'm not keen on heights so I said I'd ride the cable car that goes across the Thames in London. That probably seems pathetic for some people but it was a little daunting for me. I did it. I wasn't comfortable but I did it. I certainly would not go bungee jumping or parachuting as that's a step too far for me
Delete the apps and erase the saved password.
If you must check, check them on a web browser on a computer. Never have the social apps on your phone.
That's fine and dandy but social apps are pre installed and worse you cannot uninstall them most of the time. To have a social app free phone you need a non smart phone
@@keithparker1346 Depends on your phone. I have tried apple and Android and you can definitely uninstall/disable the social apps. I was able to do it.
@@keithparker1346 you can delete them on android, you just need to follow a tutorial or two. I used 'universal android debloater'. as for iphone, i've seen people turming theirs into a dumb phone but i have no personal experience with that.
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It´s so crazy how many of us are feeling so related to this video, we really are trapped into this fantasy of "short happiness" that the scroll give us , its exhausting fr , a 24 hrs day turns into a 4 hours of productivity , and the rest its me trapped in social media , avoiding responsabilities , procastination at its peak , not working out , etc.
Trying to get myself back cause i feel i´ve washed off everything i was (dont know if im explaining myself right) assuming how far behind i am in my college application work its a living nightmare , all because i let myself sink in this social media thingy , i regret it so bad
tk the lord for me to start realise this before its too late or id be turning into those guys from wall-e hahah
hopefully i wont give up into this journey im just starting of this social media detox.
I did the same exact thing beginning of May. I was so tired, my brain was literally fried, my screen time was insane and I knew what I was doing was harming my brain but I couldn’t stop scrolling….immediately I got off tik tok after like six hours I just deleted it…I didn’t even want to convince myself about keeping it cause of my drafts, or I’ve saved so many useful tips…i just pressed delete app.
And I’ve never seen such a drastic change in mental health, social life…I feel so free
And I love that people are starting to realize how harmful it is and I love how you were able to admit to yourself that it was bad for you without trying to excuse yourself.
I love your video🫶🏾