i hate my mind

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  • čas přidán 8. 12. 2018
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Komentáře • 258

  • @Daisy-zh6gb
    @Daisy-zh6gb Před 5 lety +86

    I’m so sorry that you are still feeling like this

  • @aimeemitchell9930
    @aimeemitchell9930 Před 5 lety +164

    This video is really worrying and so hard to watch please take care and get help 💕💕💕

  • @bethlittle4276
    @bethlittle4276 Před 5 lety +95

    Oh Marie, you have such a beautiful soul. I’m sorry your brain isn’t playing ball at the moment, I hope it’s better for you soon. Love and hugs x

    • @m0on.avis.
      @m0on.avis. Před 5 lety

      She's been in a physc ward 5 times in section 2 3 4

  • @emilyadeline1046
    @emilyadeline1046 Před 5 lety +105

    Could you make a video about coming home after you were discharged from hospital and what it was like to live at home again/ what your safety plan was for being at home? X

  • @bethanynicole2604
    @bethanynicole2604 Před 5 lety +53

    I hate it when I look in a mirror or catch a glimpse of myself or look at pictures of myself and it doesn't match what I look like in my head. I don't know if that makes sense but yeah

    • @lillys1294
      @lillys1294 Před 4 lety

      Same 😒

    • @amymallon276
      @amymallon276 Před 4 lety

      I understand u i hate it i feel everyone else looks amazing and then me i look like shit i hate it

  • @bobbyuntltled
    @bobbyuntltled Před 5 lety +67

    feeling v wrong too. so thankful for you. be good to yourself angel, thinking of you

  • @janiechr
    @janiechr Před 5 lety +16

    these last couple months have literally felt like so wrong and its so scary.. but you're not alone. "wrong" is the perfect word

  • @daynajadex4993
    @daynajadex4993 Před 5 lety +44

    ♥️keep going Marie, speak with the people you got to speak with and you’ll get threw it. We love you
    Also your exact words you said to me 2 months ago : sending all my love to you angel, keep going, keep talking- don’t ever let the dark side of your brain win, you can do this xxx

  • @kayleighgillett8701
    @kayleighgillett8701 Před 5 lety +1

    someone else who knows what’s its like to just feel “wrong” and that fear of “omg it’s all going really really fucking bad and I’ll be in that horrific place,mentally again” sometimes I’ve felt to shit I laugh myself to tears bc I’m thinking WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME LIKE ??? What fucks me up more is after a few really dark months I woke up morning feeling on top of the world?? Doesn’t make sense girl does it

  • @annabilney8249
    @annabilney8249 Před 5 lety +1

    Your genuinely so inspirational, ive watched almost all of your videos in the last week and ive been going through depression and selfharm and your so relatable and helpful tysm ly ❤️

  • @zoerobinson1967
    @zoerobinson1967 Před 5 lety

    you literally help me so much it’s unreal.. i also feel rlly wrong! & watching your videos is just rlly comforting & helpful & ily

  • @pistachioroyal
    @pistachioroyal Před 5 lety

    I bloody love you Marie! I love and appreciate your honesty. You’re always here for us and I think I can speak for all of your subbies, we’re here for you too 😘💔🤗xx

  • @amie7343
    @amie7343 Před 5 lety +11

    Hope u feel better soon sending sm love, u truly r so inspirational and make me feel like I’m not alone in all this ♡ ♡

  • @deeonikablack
    @deeonikablack Před 5 lety

    You're amazing and strong for showing this side to you. We all go through some serious mental issues but not everyone can talk about it so thank you for sharing how you feel with us. Take some time to heal and get through this ... I'm routing for you

  • @emilyharley9044
    @emilyharley9044 Před 5 lety +15

    So hard seeing you like this Marie, hope you feel better soon and know that we all love and support you! Xx

  • @LivGraceB
    @LivGraceB Před 5 lety +4

    Oh marie😩I feel so so sorry for u it’s so hard to battle with ur mind I can relate to what your saying it’s so strange seeing you brutally show what’s going on with you atm but I’m glad u are, this is incredibly brave of you and it might help , to know that no ones alone because everyone has it bad but you need to think of yourself because realistically u are only yourself ❤️

  • @neurodivergentdawn
    @neurodivergentdawn Před 5 lety +6

    I have felt completely in a rut this month as well. Im trying to have things to look forward to, and maybe after christmas with the prospect of a new year things will feel refreshed. I just want to say thanks for sharing this because i know i'm not the only one to feel like this. I feel like at this time of year there is an expectation to be happy because christmas is coming up. Keeping staying strong

  • @ErinIsSoPosh
    @ErinIsSoPosh Před 5 lety

    Praying you’re doing better and that if you’re not that it will get better. Legit get the same way sometimes and I know how awful it is. Love you girl!

  • @bridgettem519
    @bridgettem519 Před 5 lety

    I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way. I hope you can work out what you need to! Your videos are so brave and helpful. Just do what you need to do and feel better!

  • @elliewatson2262
    @elliewatson2262 Před 5 lety +1

    My heart hurts for you so much Marie, I wish you the best and that every day you will feel better and better, maybe not now but in the future you will, your strength is phenomenal and you will power through ❤️

  • @adelinaadelina2719
    @adelinaadelina2719 Před 5 lety +3

    You made my day, and you'll get better ik that, you're an amazing and beautiful soul , good things takes time, be patient with yourself and take care

  • @helloitsminti9027
    @helloitsminti9027 Před 5 lety +12

    Here for you! As another person with BPD I know how hard it is living day to day, especially when you’re doing so great and the back of your head you’re just waiting for the crash. Here to talk whenever you want to ❤️

  • @abiholmes6583
    @abiholmes6583 Před 5 lety +2

    All I wanna do is give you a massive hug and tell you everything’s gonna be okay. Your flipping amazing and everyone is super proud of you no matter what. IM so so so so proud of you xxxx

  • @whatisabelwears3074
    @whatisabelwears3074 Před 5 lety

    You’re the biggest inspiration to me gal, know exactly what you mean about putting one thing out on social media and feeling like a completely different person sometimes but the fact you’re so open & authentic about your mental health is the biggest inspiration ever. Sending so much love your way, you’re amazing, stay strong 💞💞💞

  • @TiffanyTLCx95
    @TiffanyTLCx95 Před 5 lety +2

    Oh Marie, I hope things become a little easier for you soon. I can only imagine how difficult these past few months have been for you. I also have been pushing through knowing something wasn’t right again, and I cracked Wednesday and had to get my meds upped. Thinking of us and our mental states at this time 😭 look after yourself xx

  • @mollydallisonhawkins9382

    You are one of the kindest souls, you deserve to do what you need to do 💫thank you for sharing your journey so that we can see that we are not alone

  • @taylorg2765
    @taylorg2765 Před 5 lety

    Marie, you are such a lovely soul and just know that you have people from all over the world who will rally behind you and support you every step of the way! Sending my love from the states ❤🖤

  • @casey-4380
    @casey-4380 Před 5 lety +1

    I’m so sad you still feel this but just remember you are very strong and inspiring and you will get through this xxxxxx

  • @Sparkles9573
    @Sparkles9573 Před 5 lety

    ugh i love u :(( stay strong beautiful and try to be good to yourself because you deserve goodness in life 💗

  • @kyomifujita
    @kyomifujita Před 5 lety +1

    I've been recently diagnosed with BPD and it has been quite hard so far.
    This was heartbreaking, but thank you for being open and vulnerable, because it makes people like me feel less alone, and I think you know how helpful that can be.

  • @katiedalrymple2661
    @katiedalrymple2661 Před 5 lety +1

    god i feel exactly the same 😭 sending you all my love you can do this ❤️

  • @katiebrooks4342
    @katiebrooks4342 Před 5 lety +4

    I’ve been watching your videos for a while now and I was so so happy when everything started to go right for you, and in my head I always wished things would stay on track for you, I’m so so heartbroken for you and I really hope you can come back from this, it gets better I promise, your videos have helped me so much so take your own advice, and I hope things get better soon, stay strong❤️

  • @krillrule99
    @krillrule99 Před 5 lety +1

    this is exactly how i feel, very "wrong." so much resonated. thank you for being yourself, and take care of yourself.

  • @laurenamurray
    @laurenamurray Před 5 lety +3

    i had this from about june - september and i cannot remember ANYTHING from that time period.
    and now i have started this weird mess dissociation thing again which is NOT HELPFUL because it’s gcse s :)))
    hope your feeling better and getting help you need, we are all here x

  • @yourlocaltransboy7051
    @yourlocaltransboy7051 Před 5 lety

    Hey hun. I just want to say I really hope you feel better soon. The winter months can be some of the hardest for mental health and tbh I’m feeling it too. It will get better. We’re all here for you, you’ve got this. Keep going, we love you 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤

  • @abi5158
    @abi5158 Před 5 lety +2

    we all love you soo much keep being strong you've made it this far💗

  • @frankiebaxter2590
    @frankiebaxter2590 Před 5 lety +2

    oh honey i just want to give you a big hug

  • @gcchick91
    @gcchick91 Před 5 lety +2

    Thank you for posting this video, I find it so relatable (I've been seeing a psychiatrist since 2016 and self harming/been depressed since 2006). Take care of you ❤️

  • @brit4444
    @brit4444 Před 5 lety

    be good to yourself. i adore you; you’re such an inspiration to so many people.. i hope that you’re okay. bless you sweet girl.

  • @elinslettemarkhole1016
    @elinslettemarkhole1016 Před 5 lety +6

    Thank you for being real and honest!! I feel you! love you!

  • @simranchahal4261
    @simranchahal4261 Před 5 lety

    Stay strong Marie ❤️❤️
    you’re not alone, I feel all wrong too atm but things will get better we can do this 💖

  • @kurtisgonzalez-gooden
    @kurtisgonzalez-gooden Před 2 lety

    This is such a comfort video for me. I’ve seen it so much. Im so happy you’re legit THRIVING now

  • @charlottehooton6710
    @charlottehooton6710 Před 5 lety +6

    It’s upsetting me to see u like this! We love you x x x I feel wrong at the moment too

  • @evevelvet7820
    @evevelvet7820 Před 5 lety

    I love you, I hope everything gets so much better for you💗

  • @Msalex1933
    @Msalex1933 Před 5 lety

    Glad to see an update from you, kinda figured you were going THROUGH IT after a couple of your tweets haha. Hope you start feeling better!

  • @tamekaraeann
    @tamekaraeann Před 5 lety +4

    We're all here for you girl. I hope you seek help and start to feel better. Please remember that going into hospital isn't weak if it's going to help you feel better and get healthy. Suffering at home isn't worth it for your health.

  • @christinebigsby7483
    @christinebigsby7483 Před 5 lety

    I get erratic like this as well when I’m down spiraling. Lately I’ve been feeling as if everything’s fake sometimes I swear I can’t even feel my legs when I walk. I’ve just started new meds so hopefully as time goes by things improve. I don’t really want to go down the rabbit hole again. I hope for you that you get a hold of your reality as well. Be strong.

  • @alicehodgson2063
    @alicehodgson2063 Před 5 lety +16

    Here for you xx lots of love

  • @emilyadeline1046
    @emilyadeline1046 Před 5 lety +130

    Lol I’m currently in a psychiatric ward so I feel you bro x

  • @rhyannadennison1954
    @rhyannadennison1954 Před 5 lety

    Literally going through this since September too! Medication been changed too antipsychotics and sleeping tablets wahhhhhhh! Love you chicka, take your time and focus on your wellbeing ❤️

  • @viivipaananen8451
    @viivipaananen8451 Před 5 lety

    Oh No💔😔 i hope your okay, but it will get better💖 pls stay strong we are here for u💖

  • @katiemae472
    @katiemae472 Před 5 lety +1

    Get better soon gorgeous, sending you so much love xx

  • @val0824
    @val0824 Před 5 lety

    I'm worried about you because I had been in the same situation as you my worst mental breakdown was on 2016 since then I'm doing better but I'm still struggling with my mental health I remember I found your channel when I was searching for mental health experiences videos and I started watching your videos and love how real you were ,your content is the best for all the young people with mental health issues I'm really proud of you and you will get through this because you're strong and a beautiful person love you I'm not an english speaker but I hope you can read my message💝

  • @meganelizabeth7500
    @meganelizabeth7500 Před 5 lety +4

    sending lots of love, happiness, and positivity💛

  • @debsmasters6124
    @debsmasters6124 Před 5 lety +1

    stay strong gorgeous, your doing amazing! xxxxx

  • @liamodonovan3437
    @liamodonovan3437 Před 5 lety +2

    So sorry your feeling so bad sweetheart I hope you feel better soon you are such a strong person I love you your a beautiful woman inside and out iam proud of you

  • @jinnielovesthemnamtitties5033

    ‘I’m a fokin’ mess’ relatable. love you xx

  • @sonicoak
    @sonicoak Před 5 lety

    you beautiful soul you

  • @jadesmart3802
    @jadesmart3802 Před 5 lety +3

    i'm so sorry your feeling like this, please take some time for yourself, thinking of you xx

  • @daisyhall3740
    @daisyhall3740 Před 5 lety

    Honestly feel the exact same way, but we will get through this together. We all care about you and love you so much❤️

  • @Daisy-zh6gb
    @Daisy-zh6gb Před 5 lety +20

    We’ll all still be here for you ❤️

  • @RoseK444
    @RoseK444 Před 5 lety

    sorry to hear you’re feeling like this :( love you!!!

  • @justinesymonds4970
    @justinesymonds4970 Před 5 lety

    Feeling the same.. just been diagnosed with BPD and Panic disorder..on new meds.. I'm very agitated and feel almost detached from everything around me..anxiety is still so bad.. 😭 I feel you girl..I hope things get better for you asap love watching your videos ❤

  • @Hollyalice01
    @Hollyalice01 Před 5 lety +4

    Sending so much love take your time 💞💞

  • @effiemacdonald4859
    @effiemacdonald4859 Před 4 lety

    I know this video is kinda old but honestly idk how you do it, you spread so much positivity even when your struggling and it’s amazing. I’m such a mess at the moment, thank you for being open so I feel less alone x

  • @ainedolley5438
    @ainedolley5438 Před 5 lety +4

    I love you so much babes and I'm always here 💛💛

  • @Battlepantiies
    @Battlepantiies Před 5 lety +6

    The way you explained at the end sounds like depersonalisation, and Ive struggled with it a lot recently, especially the way you're saying you don't know what's going on and you just don't feel right seems familiar, wish you the best ♥️

  • @jessrambles1
    @jessrambles1 Před 5 lety +4

    you've been saying you've been struggling sleeping for ages and I know that not being able to sleep only tends to make things worse so I really hope you're able to get some good sleep soon Marie! much love x

  • @0Flow0
    @0Flow0 Před 5 lety +2

    You're brave for posting this. We're here for you! 💕

  • @Lclairego
    @Lclairego Před 5 lety

    Stay strong Marie we all love you so much 💕

  • @livwhitehead1773
    @livwhitehead1773 Před 5 lety +1

    I love you. I wish I could speak to you like regularly cuz ur so calming for me.

  • @hancycling8711
    @hancycling8711 Před 5 lety +1

    I get you sooo much and you can get through this I love you ❤️💕😘

  • @timothyulekleiv8164
    @timothyulekleiv8164 Před 5 lety +1

    Hope you feel better soon. Take your time. No stress hun

  • @Jessicajasminm
    @Jessicajasminm Před 5 lety

    Every word you said I relate to %200 I can feel so fucking depressed and can still joke and I just want to thankyou for being vulnerable, I can’t remember the last year to be honest and I’m sitting here like wtf happened >.< you’re beautiful inside and out

  • @sachalavis4675
    @sachalavis4675 Před 5 lety

    Love you so much Marie your such a strong amazing person 💘💗💞💖💕💓

  • @user-zv4on3zp3t
    @user-zv4on3zp3t Před 5 lety +3

    It’s ok not to be ok. No one is perfect. To me, it sounds like you are medication is not right. It shouldn’t keep you awake days on end that is not good for you mentally or physically. Maybe you need to process your emotions and concerns for your future, instead of trying to shove everything down for fear you may be losing it and the consequences that may follow. You are still very young and have your whole life ahead of you. It isn’t ruined by your current struggles. You can get through this.

  • @dulciejohnson9880
    @dulciejohnson9880 Před 5 lety +3

    This time of year is so shit. I feel uuuu and love you xx

  • @studentmidwifechelsea2096

    I Can completely relate... I hope you fell better soon xx it's not fair x

  • @merihirvonen527
    @merihirvonen527 Před 5 lety

    can relate so much, sending you lots of love x

  • @protest4332
    @protest4332 Před 3 lety

    and you are not stupid, you are self observative, your life is about you and it's a big life. lot's of things are happening and you are the in the center of everything. You are very beautiful and your videos are amazing. Thank you for sharing, i just know that it is good to keep some things in mind. Dominant positions you will harmoniously hold if you will allow people to win, if you will allow them to cover your space, but i think you already learned this lesson in the hard way.

  • @proteetiahmed
    @proteetiahmed Před 5 lety

    This is the first video I'm seeing of yours so I don't know about the rest of your journey but I can relate scarily too much and no I don't remember November and just... *sending squishy hugs if wanted *

  • @bellapaton7512
    @bellapaton7512 Před 3 lety

    little bit too relatable tbh loveu marie you are crazy strong

  • @ameliewyllie9159
    @ameliewyllie9159 Před 5 lety +2

    Hope you feel better soon, truly all my love 💜🌹

  • @lailashakira4253
    @lailashakira4253 Před 5 lety

    Love you Marie and we are always here for you bb take care of yourself xoxo

  • @heartbreakerink8696
    @heartbreakerink8696 Před 5 lety

    Hope you get out of it soon, you’ve already come so far, I’m sorry you’re still feeling like this but you’ve got through it before and I’m sure you will again

  • @oliviarose9142
    @oliviarose9142 Před 5 lety +16

    Just a reminder that I love you 💗

  • @ceryschild5810
    @ceryschild5810 Před 5 lety

    So much love goes to you Marie, it takes guts to upload like this, and to be so honest with not only us but yourself. We’re all very proud and hoping you nothing but the best and that you’re back on track soon. But it’s ok to have a wobble every now and then. Thinking about you x

  • @AvaHeeren713
    @AvaHeeren713 Před 5 lety

    love you beautiful girly xx
    stay strong

  • @oliviahegarty1959
    @oliviahegarty1959 Před 5 lety +1

    sending all ma love girly💓

  • @sashathorpe
    @sashathorpe Před 5 lety

    we

  • @frankienixon8413
    @frankienixon8413 Před 10 měsíci

    I watched this video 1 year before diagnosed with borderline personality disorder just as lost 18 / 19 year old not knowing what was wrong with me at the time I was told it was anxiety and depression. A year later I was diagnosed with borderline personality and I’m now 24 I have recently been diagnosed with autism too. Looking back reminds me of feeling very similar at the time.

  • @YourWorstN1ghtmare
    @YourWorstN1ghtmare Před 4 lety

    girl!? I love u so much, u helped me soooo muchhhhh damn, thank u sooo much!!

  • @teyahmellor9994
    @teyahmellor9994 Před 5 lety +15

    i love you so so much angel :(

  • @karinaguevara9871
    @karinaguevara9871 Před 5 lety

    I feel ya, beauty. Right there with you.

  • @chloecavanagh1736
    @chloecavanagh1736 Před 5 lety +1

    hope u feel better soon ily x

  • @alyshal3313
    @alyshal3313 Před 5 lety

    Oh boo I feel ya! I’m a bloody mess lately too 💕

  • @CarruthersTV
    @CarruthersTV Před 5 lety +37

    Aww Marie, you seem like your brain is going a million mph😣
    It’s super hard but grounding techniques are really helpful, see what the psychiatrist says on friday, sending love❤️

  • @Daisy-zh6gb
    @Daisy-zh6gb Před 5 lety +25

    i hope your feeling better soon

  • @Daisy-zh6gb
    @Daisy-zh6gb Před 5 lety +4

    Keep strong beautiful xxx

  • @ShyWillow696
    @ShyWillow696 Před 3 lety

    No video has ever felt so relatable than this one feels right now.