There's nothing to be ashamed about crying over a loss. I lost my brother in a car accident and I cry about it all the time. I know what it feels like.
I was almost about to cry when you cried while talking about your memory with your grandma. It’s not embarrassing, you showed your emotions like that is incredible. I don’t know how it feels, because i never stayed a long time with my grandma, and i barely know her much. But, to those who loved theirs, im sorry for your loss. I
Ngl I started crying and now I can’t stop, Ryan is the sweetest most beautiful and amazing person on CZcams.and I’m grateful to see that CZcams still has its sweet hearts.we love you Ryan and rest in peace for your grandma you’re the best
"I don't have an ex" Man is so perfect and genuine he's only had one relationship that has held like super glue you are an inspiration in many ways. I look forward to the day your video brings you to Wisconsin totally hit me up I'll show you the best and worst spots for everything.
It’s not embarrassing, it was needed. It's a good thing to let these emotions come up and out. Thank you for sharing this experience! I want to try one of those sens dep tanks myself some day.
5:44 It's okay Ryan. Everyone cries. No one can stay strong forever. I could have cry when just right when there is no light. Your stonger than me. Good job Ryan.
I cried too cause I was also like that with my grandma when I was a kid. She's now gone, just a month after my other lovely grandma passed away last year. Still hurts..
Yes we’ve really got to stop raising boys or being influenced by someone else that it’s weak or embarrassing to show any emotion besides love and anger. Even guys still rip on other guys who express or talk about caring for their partner etc. It’s a terrible way to live. We’re all human beings and this gender traits shit enforced is man made. “Women are caretakers” yeah because for so long they had no control over their reproductive system they gave birth to a large amount of children. I thought it was beautiful. A memory of the woman who stepped up and raised him. She may have passed away. The psychological toll of not letting certain feelings show, I can’t imagine. I think the results are pretty clear with some men and usually people get hurt or unalived. It’s so sad, it’s gotta stop.
I feel you with the story of your grandmother and you when you were younger, you’re lucky you had her even through your childhood, I lost mine at age 8, then just a few months ago, my second grandmother passed away from a blood clot. Memories of your past always exist not matter what happens to them.
It’s not embarrassing it’s beautiful. and the fact that you kept it in the video shows how brave you are, and now you have motivated me to try this for my self to connect with my memories both good and bad
I'm definitely doing this, on my bucket list. I already have an issue with overthinking so going through this outdated possibly stop it or if not it'll still be an experience. My guess is its expensive tho so InshaAllah I still get the chance
i actually felt rlly bad 4 u when u were crying and i felt like crying too no need to feel ashamed about ur emotions! Great content as always :) Keep it up ❤
When you see Ryan happy and just having a good time, you know it’s gonna be a normal day But once you see Ryan crying…… Oh yeah….. That’s when you should cry too…
The memory with your grandmother is really special-don’t be embarrassed over shed tears. She obviously means a great deal to you. Thank you for choosing to share that moment with us. Edit: It’s really encouraging to see so many other people who have hearts for their families (and for humanity in general). I hope this conversation (minus the bots) has encouraged some of you as well!
I lost my grandma too, I feel u man, it ain’t embarrassing, it’s happy to have someone to have the same feeling as me. Sometimes we will have to move on.
Honestly this sounds so relaxing. No noise, no visual, no gravity. Only issue is I would get bored rather quickly with no way to write down what goes down in my head and likely would sleep through most of it.
I absolutely need some sort of music, being inside my brain just kinda scares me, but I would love this place, I’d probably just daydream the entire time though lmao
Me and my granddaughter were watching this video and we can totally relate to your grandmaa experience. 😅 Sienna is my granddaughter’s name and we love your videos. God bless. ❤️
I love how you trust us to talk to us about your memory about your grandmother. It's obvious that she meant alot to you. You don't have to be embarrassed, we all have that one person who has had a huge impact in our lives.
Ryan, that moment was amazing, not embarrassing. We as men must embrace that we, too, can and should feel without shame. It was great to see you visit such a distant memory through a genuine experience.
There’s no need to be embarrassed. Everyone always has a flood of memories and breakdowns sometimes. When I was younger my mom would take me to my grandparents house for the summers. I use to play with them all the time. Me and my brother would play with toys outside and run around in their grass instead of just watching television. Imagination was just our thing. When we had school my grandma would be waiting for me to get off the bus. The bus didn’t go to our road. I would sneak up to my grandpa. He was usually in his room when I git back from school. When he was sleeping I would draw on the floor and go, “boo!” and pop out of no where. When he was watching TV I would do the same thing but sneak around his wheel chair. One day when I got back he wasn’t there. Turns out that he had to stay in the hospital. My mom wouldn’t come home until late at night when we were all sleeping because she would be in hospital looking out for him. One day we headed towards a church I had never been too. And that’s when I saw him laying down. That was when I understood what “our time” was. It heart-broke me. I didn’t show up to school for 2 weeks. We would always sing songs, dance, wait for the ice cream man outside. He was one of the best singers I have ever heard, he was also really good at guitar. We have a picture of him in our living room. What’s funny is that even though we have that picture of him, I’m the only person in our house that has a unique picture of him in my room. My mom tells me how he visits her in her dreams. The time he visited me a couple of months agoI was overwhelmed with tears to speak, he told me “don’t cry Bonita.” He died when I was six but I still feel him watching over me. Still memories are hard but you should never be embarrassed. It’s a part of life that we all just have to except. Don’t feel bad
Ryan is my inspiration, my parents said if I get 60k subscribers they'd definitely by me a better camera for recording... Please I'm literally begging you Guy's...
Im so sorry for your loss dude, there is nothing wrong eith being sad about losing a loved one, like im still sad about my dad who died 4 years ago and i almost cried when i heard you getting upset About her not being there for you😭😭😭😭
That memory was soooo wholesome and I can totally relate to that stillness. It’s so awesome that this experience evoked that memory. Not embarrassing at all!
Can we please normalize not being embarrassed about tears? That was such a beautiful memory you shared with us and I love the direction your content is going. Absolutely top tier. Edit: Seems a lot of people are finding humour in the "normalize" term, we get it💀 but the fact that there are also replies with people stating that they're not comfortable crying proves my point lol. We're not obligated to share how we're feeling but trust me, letting go and crying every once in a while can make you feel so much lighter. I think if we try as a collective to be less judgemental of people around us who cry (especially men), you'll find it easier to comfortably grieve or laugh or reminisce with tears. Watch a video of cute puppies, or soldiers coming home, or a sappy movie every now and then if you find it hard to let it out. Try and find time even if it's for 5 minutes to scream into a pillow or bawl your eyes out😂, don't be too hard on yourself, you're loved. It's going to be ok. ❤️
Man that's not embarrassing, it's relatable. I lost my grandmother about 3 months ago and memories are really all I have. Being able to tap into them and experience moments with loved ones who are gone is a gift.
I was watching this with my family and when you started talking about your grandmother, we all fell silent. Just listening to your words. Thinking about our own grandma, and how we would fair if we were to do this ourselves. Great content dude!
Naw man, nothing to be ashamed of. Glad you were able to remember something that was formative in your life. I'm sure if I did this I would be sobbing remembering crazy shit my Mom and I did, or my friends who took their lives. We all have things we need to process. No shame, thank you for sharing this.
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I honestly would love to try something like this. Just absolutely disconnected from the physical world, feeling like I’m literally inside of my own thoughts
@@saegetek1268 I feel like this will have a bigger impact on you. Just letting your body go, not caring about anything, and just going over old memories
That memory of his grandma made me feel such pure and innocent things I haven't felt since my own childhood. Crying is the most normal thing, man! It's what it means to be human!
as a retail worker it would be nice to hear nothing! No complaining, no drama, no beep beep beep, no exptations, just relaxing! I wish I could afford something like this. I've been learning outside of work just to deal with work. Thanks for coming to my ted talk
As someone who has trouble with sensory overload, this looks like heaven (currently sitting in a dark room with noise-canceling headphones on so that I can't hear anything but my own heartbeat). But it also looks like straight up torture because any sort of stagnation causes me anxiety. I'm just now realizing I might have some issues.
Wanna hear nothing, do nothing, think nothing, see nothing, peace for three hours, a dream!...but it's unfamiliar btw, new territory, sooo do yaaa thooo? Hashtag-relatable
you shouldn’t be embarrassed to show us your emotions, you’re human too and we totally understand that you have experiences and memories of your own! thank you for telling us about your grandma and your moment with her
Repent to Jesus Christ ““For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.” Isaiah 55:8-9 NIV Jg
When he talked about his grandma.. I literally started to tears up a bit. Im very scared to loose my grandmother, I love her so much bc she always loved me and helped me...
Right I’m just gonna flat out say this. Ryan you say “don’t judge me” but no we won’t because there is no issue in bringing back memories from the past and being upset about it, society has made it so men shouldn’t cry or show emotions, but you can! We should all be able to show and express our emotions freely without being embarrassed. 🥰
That was really thought provoking Ryan, extremely interesting to see how you reacted to your senses being taken away. I bet it could be a really good memory trigger for people, don’t be embarrassed about which ones come up and how you feel about them, the story about your grandma was really powerful. I would love to try this - but I worry about how I would react to it, I think my anxiety might get too bad unfortunately!
5:50 Not at all embarrassing, bro. This world we've built, with all of its sound/light pollution, has majorly disconnected us from what's actually going on inside of us. We are rarely in-touch with our authentic and internal selves, which is why you feel embarrassment for crying in the first place. This is a beautiful moment and I really hope you have a million more authentic moments like this to connect with the deeper parts of yourself.
That was really thought provoking Ryan, extremely interesting to see how you reacted to your senses being taken away. I bet it could be a really good memory trigger for people, don’t be embarrassed about which ones come up and how you feel about them, the story about your grandma was really powerful. I would love to try this - but I worry about how I would react to it, I think my anxiety might get too bad unfortunately! surely!
Repent to Jesus Christ ““For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.” Isaiah 55:8-9 NIV U
The grandma part hits more than ever for me now, I lost mine recently but I had to stay busy and one day on the bus home from school I just broke down and started to cry a bit, it was dumb
Do not be embarrassed at all about your memory! That was beautiful! Your emotions were so raw! It made me stop and think about my grandparents who practically raised me as well! It’s a lot of feelings !
Hey man, don't feel bad because you cried. Everybody cries. Showing emotion is strength, not weakness. I'm sorry about your grandma. I remember when my uncle died, I thought it was my fault, that if I had just talked to him more often he wouldn't have had that heart attack.
When I went to prison on my first go around, they have a place called, " the box" which is basically the "hole" or solitaire confinement. It's horrible little messed up cell. The brick walls, no window, a big intimidating metal door, a metal framed bed bolted to the ground, a metal toilet with a sink on it. One light on the ceiling that stays on all day, all night. I was sent to the box the first time for a fight, that actually never really happened, with someone that I didn't even know, it's too long of a story but there I was in the cell next to his in the box and the only way to speak to each other was through a heating vent on the ground that ran through both of our cells. We would talk, because other than writing or reading that was the only thing to do. We talked for hours, for days, then weeks, we got pretty close without even ever seeing each other. The box will do something to weird to your mind. The first few days are probably the worst. Time is slow, the light will give you a headache and you'll spend a lot of time just walking back and forth but something happens to a lot of people in there after awhile, time starts passing. You forget all about it and it just kinda speeds up without you noticing it, at this point of being in there, what the hell is time anyways? It doesn't matter. You'll forget what day it is. Then forget the date all together and sometimes when your up really late talking you'll go to bed late, or early depending on how long you talked and then there goes your normal sleeping cycle and if it wasn't for the kind of shit food your getting you wouldn't know if it was day or night and usually at this point you couldn't give less of a fuck. When I said that the box does weird shit to your head I meant that it really twists your shit up because before they we're going to put me back in general population I decided I was just going to refuse. I was going to stay in that little cell for as long as I could or until I paroled and that's what I did. I spent three years in that box. Obviously my neighbor left and over the next few years many came and left and I enjoyed talking to them, getting to know them, getting close to a human with just conversation knowing that I would most likely never see them again, that was a special feeling. I liked the books I read and I got really good at drawing. Increased my drawing skills up to portrait level using covers of books and the occasional magazine. That cell changed me in more ways to count. Some good things and some not. Sorry for rambling it's just that this video reminded me of my little cell in the box.
@@RemoveHandles750 back when I was a teenager and pot was illegal I got into a lot of legal trouble because I smoked, I spent almost my entire teenage years in a home for boys. A boys home which was a lot more like its own neighborhood for delinquent children, at age sixteen they didn't know what to do with me since I had spent so much time there that pretty much all of my family either hadn't cared or washed there hands of me so they put me in a studio apartment in a much larger city than I've ever lived in at the point and I had grown up in the backwoods till then so it was quite the culture shock to me and I was only 16, enrolled in a school but no way to pay for anything so that's when my adult criminal career began. I went to prison the first time at 17 for home invasions and a safe breaking with a whole slew of misdemeanors. I don't ever want to blame that boys home for my actions but I've always found it quite ironic that they spent years working on my "delinquency" of being a pothead that when they finally washed their hands of me they decided to drop me off in a city, with absolutely no resources and something I couldn't even pay for.
It's alright man I cry over my grandma and she's not even dead yet it's just the thought of it that makes me cry it's okay we understand what it's like you don't have to be embarrassed or ashamed of it
I feel u bro:(😢 when u remember The most saddest memory on ur life Its just sad bro i mean its like sad :( i feel u:( and i cry because of your story😢:(
Im jealous. Sesory deprivation sounds perfectly amazing. Alone with your thoughts and the horror your mind can produce. I wish i could be completely secluded for hours.
@@rammycanales3784 Yeah, it was pretty funny and interesting learning all variants of polynomial equations that I never used before, not even in university learning aero-spacial Engineering. I know they teach us things to help us understand the rest, but you need to admit that the 1800's educational system still being the same with more content, and so there's boring science, as there's boring videogames and even boring hobbies, just created to systematically dose the "Things you should know" into our brains to vomit it afterwards in an exam. I love science, man, don't think I'm a Karen or something explaining why the Earth is flat and scientists are unreliable people trying to kill you, just saying that as everything in this universe is imperfect, science CAN be boring. =D
@@MacElMasMancoDeTodos I actually kind of think the same. More often than not, schools are very shitty at teaching the basics, and then kids become hesitant to continue STEM stuff. Yet, you are saying Science by itself is boring in your first comment, which is different from THE WAY SCIENCE IS THAUGHT IN SCHOOL is boring. Although, I argue for me any science concept is automatically not boring, but yeah, I get that for a majority of people this is not the same. I am just picking up to the fact that no science concept is inherently boring.
I had never heard of this before, it looks so scary, I would 100% freak out after 15min, can't imagine doing 3 hours lol. I have to try this one day and conquer some fears. Nice video Ryan, and don't be ashamed that you cryed.
Ryan, my guy it's totally fine to cry and let out your emotions out ! It's not embarrassing that you cried on camera. Just stay positive ! Live in the moment !
5:43 its alright ryan were sorry about your memories giving you emotions. We all been through it before. your not the only one. We love your content, You're not alone..
Crying is not embarrassing Ryan remember that. I've lost my grandma about 2 years ago and every time I think about all those memories I had with her makes me cry like a baby. Remember we're here with you!
whenever i hear stories of people with loved ones that passed away, i always feel sad and feel grateful for the people i still have i'm one of those people as well.
We need more men like you. you got so openly vulnerable, and my heart broke when you asked me not to judge you :( its not embarassing, its human, and its stronger than anything to show these parts of ourselves, let alone to this many other people. i appreciate when men are vulnerable. i appreciate when men arent afraid to cry. i appreciate when men are brave enough to be emotional in a world where its so easy for them to bottle up their shit and not talk about it. its what differentiates boys from men. well done
That grandma part hit me so hard. My grandma was my second mum, even more than my mum was when I was young she did everything for me and I loved her to bits, she died at 55 of cancer and to this day I can't even speak about her or think about her properly without just crying its literally uncontrollable. I know exactly how you feel there man it's not embarrassing it shows how kuch you loved her.
Can we appreciate what Ryan is doing for us? The happiness, sadness, feelings, all of these emotions mixed into one video? This is the best that you have done, I love it so much
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There's nothing to be ashamed about crying over a loss. I lost my brother in a car accident and I cry about it all the time. I know what it feels like.
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Lost my grandmother last year. It hurts.😔
@@spongederp160 me too 😔it hurts
@@Kubz0n I'm sorry for your loss
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I was almost about to cry when you cried while talking about your memory with your grandma. It’s not embarrassing, you showed your emotions like that is incredible. I don’t know how it feels, because i never stayed a long time with my grandma, and i barely know her much. But, to those who loved theirs, im sorry for your loss. I
i balled my eyes out before he elaborated more.-0.
bro its the exact same thing that happened to me but with my brother...
Dude why am I actually crying 🤧😢😢
I WAS ALREADY GONNA CRY WHEN I SAW HIM CRYING BUT I DIDN'T CRY & YOUR COMMENT MADE ME CRY
My grandma isn't dead
loved how brave and genuine you are, there’s nothing to be embarrassed about 🍃
this feels like a literal documentary, insane work ryan!
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@@Shredder55_Official just not a bot lol
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Respect for showing that crying is actually okay. Even as a man.
He's still a boy
It’s about the mentality, Jonathan. An adult is 18 years old. A man is someone who can act like a mature guy.
@@craftingtablegaming6311 if we're going by mentality then he is definitely still a boy
@@Jonathan-qf2ow why?
@@calgoulden8223 did you grow up without a father? Do i really have to point out how this guy is pretty childish?
Ngl I started crying and now I can’t stop, Ryan is the sweetest most beautiful and amazing person on CZcams.and I’m grateful to see that CZcams still has its sweet hearts.we love you Ryan and rest in peace for your grandma you’re the best
"I don't have an ex" Man is so perfect and genuine he's only had one relationship that has held like super glue you are an inspiration in many ways. I look forward to the day your video brings you to Wisconsin totally hit me up I'll show you the best and worst spots for everything.
I love how ryan managed to made us feel like we're watching a documentary but in youtube style !
Lmao I agree
If I was in a special tub thingy like that I would want no gravity and hot steamy water.
Feel like paradise
It's not embarrassing to cry it's amazing
None of us even said the word cry
dude I almost teared up when you were talking about your grandmother. that’s such a warm memory, you don’t have to feel embarrassed of it.
Almost? Your a stronger person than me lol
@@moodisa I felt nothing
*I* teared up when he started crying
@@victoriajohnson279 what, why tho
@@victoriajohnson279 What do you mean by that?
It’s not embarrassing, it was needed. It's a good thing to let these emotions come up and out.
Thank you for sharing this experience! I want to try one of those sens dep tanks myself some day.
5:44 It's okay Ryan. Everyone cries. No one can stay strong forever. I could have cry when just right when there is no light. Your stonger than me. Good job Ryan.
That wasn't embarrassing that was amazing
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It was a wholesome moment of rememberence
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When he cried over his grandma, I cried too. No weakness or embarrassment there. Strength. Strength and love.
I did too, at 5:43, as soon as his face fell, I cried for him, I'm not sure why it hit me so hard, I felt so deeply for him
A strong person can cry because they're being strong too long
I thought he cried because he got water in his eyes. But yeah, that honestly makes sense and it was sweet to watch.
I cried too cause I was also like that with my grandma when I was a kid. She's now gone, just a month after my other lovely grandma passed away last year. Still hurts..
Yes we’ve really got to stop raising boys or being influenced by someone else that it’s weak or embarrassing to show any emotion besides love and anger. Even guys still rip on other guys who express or talk about caring for their partner etc. It’s a terrible way to live. We’re all human beings and this gender traits shit enforced is man made. “Women are caretakers” yeah because for so long they had no control over their reproductive system they gave birth to a large amount of children. I thought it was beautiful. A memory of the woman who stepped up and raised him. She may have passed away. The psychological toll of not letting certain feelings show, I can’t imagine. I think the results are pretty clear with some men and usually people get hurt or unalived. It’s so sad, it’s gotta stop.
I feel you with the story of your grandmother and you when you were younger, you’re lucky you had her even through your childhood, I lost mine at age 8, then just a few months ago, my second grandmother passed away from a blood clot. Memories of your past always exist not matter what happens to them.
Ryan, you did a great job on that visual. I loved it
“Don’t judge me for this” Ryan I used to do the same thing, it’s hard thinking about someone you love completely gone. We’re here for you!
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It’s not embarrassing it’s beautiful. and the fact that you kept it in the video shows how brave you are, and now you have motivated me to try this for my self to connect with my memories both good and bad
I'm definitely doing this, on my bucket list. I already have an issue with overthinking so going through this outdated possibly stop it or if not it'll still be an experience. My guess is its expensive tho so InshaAllah I still get the chance
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Lol not really that Brave, he wasn't kicking in doors in Iraq.
i actually felt rlly bad 4 u when u were crying and i felt like crying too
no need to feel ashamed about ur emotions!
Great content as always :)
Keep it up ❤
When you see Ryan happy and just having a good time, you know it’s gonna be a normal day
But once you see Ryan crying……
Oh yeah…..
That’s when you should cry too…
The memory with your grandmother is really special-don’t be embarrassed over shed tears. She obviously means a great deal to you. Thank you for choosing to share that moment with us.
Edit: It’s really encouraging to see so many other people who have hearts for their families (and for humanity in general). I hope this conversation (minus the bots) has encouraged some of you as well!
I feel his pain though...
It’s so sad
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Ryan can literally make floating in a pool entertaining lol. He has some of the best storytelling on the platform.
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@thegoodyeast even if your a bot, i agree.
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I lost my grandma too, I feel u man, it ain’t embarrassing, it’s happy to have someone to have the same feeling as me. Sometimes we will have to move on.
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Honestly this sounds so relaxing. No noise, no visual, no gravity. Only issue is I would get bored rather quickly with no way to write down what goes down in my head and likely would sleep through most of it.
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I'd lose my mind. I'm already schizophrenic. I feel this would worsen it.
this is exactly what my thought process was
I absolutely need some sort of music, being inside my brain just kinda scares me, but I would love this place, I’d probably just daydream the entire time though lmao
you're not gonna know where you are at all.
The beautiful story of your grandma touches me. No need to be embarrassed for the tears. It shows the human side.
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Me and my granddaughter were watching this video and we can totally relate to your grandmaa experience. 😅
Sienna is my granddaughter’s name and we love your videos. God bless. ❤️
That wasn’t embarrassing at all. That was absolutely beautiful Ryan.
I love how you trust us to talk to us about your memory about your grandmother. It's obvious that she meant alot to you. You don't have to be embarrassed, we all have that one person who has had a huge impact in our lives.
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@☺ χσχσ кєαg ☺ Im so sorry for your loss
Losing a family member might take forever to get off your mind i wish you the best of luck for your future.
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Ryan, that moment was amazing, not embarrassing. We as men must embrace that we, too, can and should feel without shame. It was great to see you visit such a distant memory through a genuine experience.
Yes. That was beautiful.
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I support him!
so relatable too but actually I can totally understand randomly remembering something so long ago but fondly
There’s no need to be embarrassed. Everyone always has a flood of memories and breakdowns sometimes.
When I was younger my mom would take me to my grandparents house for the summers. I use to play with them all the time. Me and my brother would play with toys outside and run around in their grass instead of just watching television. Imagination was just our thing. When we had school my grandma would be waiting for me to get off the bus. The bus didn’t go to our road. I would sneak up to my grandpa. He was usually in his room when I git back from school. When he was sleeping I would draw on the floor and go, “boo!” and pop out of no where. When he was watching TV I would do the same thing but sneak around his wheel chair. One day when I got back he wasn’t there. Turns out that he had to stay in the hospital. My mom wouldn’t come home until late at night when we were all sleeping because she would be in hospital looking out for him. One day we headed towards a church I had never been too. And that’s when I saw him laying down. That was when I understood what “our time” was. It heart-broke me. I didn’t show up to school for 2 weeks. We would always sing songs, dance, wait for the ice cream man outside. He was one of the best singers I have ever heard, he was also really good at guitar. We have a picture of him in our living room. What’s funny is that even though we have that picture of him, I’m the only person in our house that has a unique picture of him in my room. My mom tells me how he visits her in her dreams. The time he visited me a couple of months agoI was overwhelmed with tears to speak, he told me “don’t cry Bonita.” He died when I was six but I still feel him watching over me. Still memories are hard but you should never be embarrassed. It’s a part of life that we all just have to except. Don’t feel bad
I almost cried when you told me about how your grandma raised you and how you miss her I could really feel your pain and love for her
I really want to try this now... Looks oddly relaxing
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5:43 NOT embarrassing. This is a beautiful moment of sentiment and vulnerability. Thank you for keeping this in the video.
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@@artsyair5400 he cried
@@bluntforcetrauma8240 oh ty i was so confused 💗
Wow crazy how your mind can do that to you. that is amazing and so brave for you to share that with everyone
Im so sorry for your loss dude, there is nothing wrong eith being sad about losing a loved one, like im still sad about my dad who died 4 years ago and i almost cried when i heard you getting upset About her not being there for you😭😭😭😭
I'm still sad about my mom, and that was 6 years ago.. It's easier to deal with now, yes.. but the grief will never go away. I'm sorry for your loss.
That memory was soooo wholesome and I can totally relate to that stillness. It’s so awesome that this experience evoked that memory. Not embarrassing at all!
Nobody should make fun of you for having emotional nostalgia sometimes it's unavoidable
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unavoidable for everyone except me
@@XD_yt4453 so quirky
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@@XD_yt4453 I know for a fact you've felt vulnerable at one point in your life.
Can we please normalize not being embarrassed about tears? That was such a beautiful memory you shared with us and I love the direction your content is going. Absolutely top tier.
Edit: Seems a lot of people are finding humour in the "normalize" term, we get it💀 but the fact that there are also replies with people stating that they're not comfortable crying proves my point lol. We're not obligated to share how we're feeling but trust me, letting go and crying every once in a while can make you feel so much lighter. I think if we try as a collective to be less judgemental of people around us who cry (especially men), you'll find it easier to comfortably grieve or laugh or reminisce with tears. Watch a video of cute puppies, or soldiers coming home, or a sappy movie every now and then if you find it hard to let it out. Try and find time even if it's for 5 minutes to scream into a pillow or bawl your eyes out😂, don't be too hard on yourself, you're loved. It's going to be ok. ❤️
exactly👍🏻
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YES SERIOUSLY MEN ARE ALLOWED TO CRY TOO
I get embarrassed about crying bc every time I cry it’s ugly crying
@@godly_red W Ryan L you L life L existence
Ryan don’t feel embarrassed I’m impressed bc I can’t even tell my secrets bc I’m always embarrassed and nervous u just conquered my biggest fear ❤❤❤❤
there is nothing wrong with crying because of moment you miss or cant experience anymore ryan. we love you and you did a great job ❤
No need to feel embarrassed about your emotions Ryan. We all have people we miss 👊
yup 👍
Same but my moms mom and my sister
In my case my younger sis
@@VeerainsaiChadaI’m sorry to hear that
@@micah407I’m sorry to hear that
Man that's not embarrassing, it's relatable. I lost my grandmother about 3 months ago and memories are really all I have. Being able to tap into them and experience moments with loved ones who are gone is a gift.
I'm sorry for your loss
Me too😭😭😭
May all our grandma's rest in peace 🕊️☮️💗🥺
@@kaylamullins2410 amen 🙏❤️
I lost my dad I don’t know my mom my grandpa died I live with my grandma
Ryan is one of my favorite CZcamsrs keep it up you make amazing content
2:16 GREAT JOB RYAN U DID BEST ANIMATION I EVER SAW
I was watching this with my family and when you started talking about your grandmother, we all fell silent. Just listening to your words. Thinking about our own grandma, and how we would fair if we were to do this ourselves. Great content dude!
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@@xevss_ Hey thanks man!
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Watching him progressively get sadder and try to fight it then just breaking down was so sad to watch
You’re very soft alexis garcia
@@yanetlerebours6695your name is ironic
@@Taha_A why
@@himaririku5289 his name says superhero yet he is basically being the opposite.
@@Wrinkledwaterbottle 🤓
That grandma part... I'm actually crying it's not embarrassing I feel you
“Why so many ducks.” My immediate thought was is this Lucifer’s house from hazbin hotel yep that’s all goooood bye
Naw man, nothing to be ashamed of. Glad you were able to remember something that was formative in your life. I'm sure if I did this I would be sobbing remembering crazy shit my Mom and I did, or my friends who took their lives. We all have things we need to process. No shame, thank you for sharing this.
"Crazy shit my mom and i did, My friends who took their lives" 😟
Because I'm not famous like other singers that's why no one see my music videos. Pls see once and then decide ❤️..,,,,,
@@callistoarmy5576 actually shut up
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Oh I hope you're okay Bro, keep strong, but it'd okay to cry. Love You bro 🙏
Dude, don't be embarrased. That was perfectly normal and incredibly heartwarming. If i'll be honest i'm tearing up myself, heheh.
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name looks xbox generated too W xd
Oml your pfp and username gives me nostalgia of when I used to play on my Xbox 360 when I was little.
@@JaiDoesVideos same
omg i feel so honored to be ur 1000th like lol
it is not shame cry for memory of loved one!!!!!!
Dude I'm sorry about your grandma I felt that before❤
I honestly would love to try something like this. Just absolutely disconnected from the physical world, feeling like I’m literally inside of my own thoughts
You can acually do this, its called meditation ;)
@@saegetek1268 I feel like this will have a bigger impact on you. Just letting your body go, not caring about anything, and just going over old memories
Same
But I think I would be scared being alone
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That memory of his grandma made me feel such pure and innocent things I haven't felt since my own childhood. Crying is the most normal thing, man! It's what it means to be human!
@Check my about page link Bruh I get you’re a bot but pick any other comment except for one talking about a dead grandmother piece of f**k
@Check my about page link I can’t read
@@Redman9000 same, that’s why I can’t write
@@Beluga-df8kr and i cant type
@@kitsu._. how does this app work
as a retail worker it would be nice to hear nothing! No complaining, no drama, no beep beep beep, no exptations, just relaxing! I wish I could afford something like this. I've been learning outside of work just to deal with work. Thanks for coming to my ted talk
We can cry dude ❤ Loss is something that does that.
As someone who has trouble with sensory overload, this looks like heaven (currently sitting in a dark room with noise-canceling headphones on so that I can't hear anything but my own heartbeat). But it also looks like straight up torture because any sort of stagnation causes me anxiety.
I'm just now realizing I might have some issues.
i feel the same way
Same
hey bestie it is just slightly possible you have adhd or autism lmfao
Wanna hear nothing, do nothing, think nothing, see nothing, peace for three hours, a dream!...but it's unfamiliar btw, new territory, sooo do yaaa thooo? Hashtag-relatable
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you shouldn’t be embarrassed to show us your emotions, you’re human too and we totally understand that you have experiences and memories of your own! thank you for telling us about your grandma and your moment with her
What if I’m not human 🤨
@@croutons9590 What if bird
@@xcmmm what if im the monsteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeer
@@wans2883 what if we dinosaurrrRrrRrrRtTTrTrRrrR
@@croutons9590 What if me MONKE 🦧
That made my eyes tear up when you were talking about your grandma😢 I'm sad now😢😢😢
Don’t be embarrassed about reliving moments of your past Ryan you have every right to cry
This is quality content. Even if he is trying to joke around or anything, he is making us laugh even when he is scared. This man deserves an award.
Give this man a FAT cookie.
@SimilarSouls he would deserve it for sure!
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When he talked about his grandma.. I literally started to tears up a bit.
Im very scared to loose my grandmother, I love her so much bc she always loved me and helped me...
Same bro same
mine died last year
I didn't expect to cry from this video
like, at all
life goes on though God bless you guys
@@escapetherace1943 im very very sorry for you then :/ all my love 🕊️
i wish i had mine:(
same, and my grandma is pretty close to dying of age
I lost my grandpa and Cried 😢 sooo it’s. Not embarrassing and I cried to when you talked about your grandma hope she is in peace
Don’t feel embarrassed for showing ur emotions🖤
Right I’m just gonna flat out say this. Ryan you say “don’t judge me” but no we won’t because there is no issue in bringing back memories from the past and being upset about it, society has made it so men shouldn’t cry or show emotions, but you can! We should all be able to show and express our emotions freely without being embarrassed. 🥰
thats soo true
That is true
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That’s true I feel like I can’t express myself just because of my gender
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That was really thought provoking Ryan, extremely interesting to see how you reacted to your senses being taken away. I bet it could be a really good memory trigger for people, don’t be embarrassed about which ones come up and how you feel about them, the story about your grandma was really powerful. I would love to try this - but I worry about how I would react to it, I think my anxiety might get too bad unfortunately!
I would be unable to breathe if i did that ): Seems cool though but not being able to hear, see and experience gravity would choke me
The fact that I was hallucinating strings in there too is creepy
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When you cried it made me think about my aunt who suddenly got dizzy and died by a drug overdose(medication). I cried along with you.
5:50 Not at all embarrassing, bro. This world we've built, with all of its sound/light pollution, has majorly disconnected us from what's actually going on inside of us. We are rarely in-touch with our authentic and internal selves, which is why you feel embarrassment for crying in the first place. This is a beautiful moment and I really hope you have a million more authentic moments like this to connect with the deeper parts of yourself.
I loved this take on that moment! Thanks for sharing
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That was really thought provoking Ryan, extremely interesting to see how you reacted to your senses being taken away. I bet it could be a really good memory trigger for people, don’t be embarrassed about which ones come up and how you feel about them, the story about your grandma was really powerful. I would love to try this - but I worry about how I would react to it, I think my anxiety might get too bad unfortunately! surely!
why did you repost a comment???
@@bootymuncher7649 CZcams sometimes glitches where it says it hasn't posted a comment but it actually has
Damn stolen
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@@seekhimwithallyourheartand3358 Stop it. Get some help.
The grandma part hits more than ever for me now, I lost mine recently but I had to stay busy and one day on the bus home from school I just broke down and started to cry a bit, it was dumb
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Do not be embarrassed at all about your memory! That was beautiful! Your emotions were so raw! It made me stop and think about my grandparents who practically raised me as well! It’s a lot of feelings !
@26 Mic Get some help
He has no grandparents yet
when i was born only grandpa was alive and hes in another country
@@majdhasproblems2308 no he had a grandma but not a grandpa
@@Nite.Z. gud to know
It’s so sad that the world has recognized crying as “embarrassing”! Ryan, never feel embarrassed about feeling that way! 💗
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😔 Yes it’s so sad.
Right
I mean crying its always embarrassing for me cause my friends might think im a crybaby
Hey man, don't feel bad because you cried. Everybody cries. Showing emotion is strength, not weakness. I'm sorry about your grandma. I remember when my uncle died, I thought it was my fault, that if I had just talked to him more often he wouldn't have had that heart attack.
That looks really interesting. I really want to give this a shot somehow as this can probably clear my thoughts up.
When I went to prison on my first go around, they have a place called, " the box" which is basically the "hole" or solitaire confinement. It's horrible little messed up cell. The brick walls, no window, a big intimidating metal door, a metal framed bed bolted to the ground, a metal toilet with a sink on it. One light on the ceiling that stays on all day, all night. I was sent to the box the first time for a fight, that actually never really happened, with someone that I didn't even know, it's too long of a story but there I was in the cell next to his in the box and the only way to speak to each other was through a heating vent on the ground that ran through both of our cells. We would talk, because other than writing or reading that was the only thing to do. We talked for hours, for days, then weeks, we got pretty close without even ever seeing each other.
The box will do something to weird to your mind. The first few days are probably the worst. Time is slow, the light will give you a headache and you'll spend a lot of time just walking back and forth but something happens to a lot of people in there after awhile, time starts passing. You forget all about it and it just kinda speeds up without you noticing it, at this point of being in there, what the hell is time anyways? It doesn't matter. You'll forget what day it is. Then forget the date all together and sometimes when your up really late talking you'll go to bed late, or early depending on how long you talked and then there goes your normal sleeping cycle and if it wasn't for the kind of shit food your getting you wouldn't know if it was day or night and usually at this point you couldn't give less of a fuck. When I said that the box does weird shit to your head I meant that it really twists your shit up because before they we're going to put me back in general population I decided I was just going to refuse. I was going to stay in that little cell for as long as I could or until I paroled and that's what I did. I spent three years in that box. Obviously my neighbor left and over the next few years many came and left and I enjoyed talking to them, getting to know them, getting close to a human with just conversation knowing that I would most likely never see them again, that was a special feeling. I liked the books I read and I got really good at drawing. Increased my drawing skills up to portrait level using covers of books and the occasional magazine.
That cell changed me in more ways to count. Some good things and some not. Sorry for rambling it's just that this video reminded me of my little cell in the box.
Woah man... Glad to see you got through all that.
Very interesting story 🙏
What’d you go for? To jail I mean
@@RemoveHandles750 back when I was a teenager and pot was illegal I got into a lot of legal trouble because I smoked, I spent almost my entire teenage years in a home for boys. A boys home which was a lot more like its own neighborhood for delinquent children, at age sixteen they didn't know what to do with me since I had spent so much time there that pretty much all of my family either hadn't cared or washed there hands of me so they put me in a studio apartment in a much larger city than I've ever lived in at the point and I had grown up in the backwoods till then so it was quite the culture shock to me and I was only 16, enrolled in a school but no way to pay for anything so that's when my adult criminal career began. I went to prison the first time at 17 for home invasions and a safe breaking with a whole slew of misdemeanors. I don't ever want to blame that boys home for my actions but I've always found it quite ironic that they spent years working on my "delinquency" of being a pothead that when they finally washed their hands of me they decided to drop me off in a city, with absolutely no resources and something I couldn't even pay for.
@@mistercowboy202 well, hope you’re doing better now, be safe out there man
It's alright man I cry over my grandma and she's not even dead yet it's just the thought of it that makes me cry it's okay we understand what it's like you don't have to be embarrassed or ashamed of it
I know. Sometimes I think of my grandad dying, and I break down. I dread the day… 😢
Think the same and i cant even get sad in the slightest even for someone i like so much
Same 😢
I think about it more than I like to admit, and I always get so worried about it, and Ryan’s memory made me tear up
Its a scary thought
I feel u bro:(😢 when u remember The most saddest memory on ur life Its just sad bro i mean its like sad :( i feel u:( and i cry because of your story😢:(
Im jealous. Sesory deprivation sounds perfectly amazing. Alone with your thoughts and the horror your mind can produce. I wish i could be completely secluded for hours.
This. This is science. Not boring science, but practical science. *And he's testing it out with himself*
That's worth to see
IM NOT HERE FOE SC
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There is no boring science.
There is also no unpractical science.
@@rammycanales3784 Yeah, it was pretty funny and interesting learning all variants of polynomial equations that I never used before, not even in university learning aero-spacial Engineering. I know they teach us things to help us understand the rest, but you need to admit that the 1800's educational system still being the same with more content, and so there's boring science, as there's boring videogames and even boring hobbies, just created to systematically dose the "Things you should know" into our brains to vomit it afterwards in an exam. I love science, man, don't think I'm a Karen or something explaining why the Earth is flat and scientists are unreliable people trying to kill you, just saying that as everything in this universe is imperfect, science CAN be boring. =D
@@MacElMasMancoDeTodos I actually kind of think the same. More often than not, schools are very shitty at teaching the basics, and then kids become hesitant to continue STEM stuff. Yet, you are saying Science by itself is boring in your first comment, which is different from THE WAY SCIENCE IS THAUGHT IN SCHOOL is boring. Although, I argue for me any science concept is automatically not boring, but yeah, I get that for a majority of people this is not the same.
I am just picking up to the fact that no science concept is inherently boring.
I had never heard of this before, it looks so scary, I would 100% freak out after 15min, can't imagine doing 3 hours lol. I have to try this one day and conquer some fears.
Nice video Ryan, and don't be ashamed that you cryed.
Not to be that person but cried
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@26 Mic bro hrs not u
Yeah I would love to do that it would be so scary though.
No but that actually made me tear up :,)
I love your edit of salt good job
no where near embarrassing, i lost my grandma 5 years ago and still cry about it, we r all here with you
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i lost my mom a month ago, still miss her
You’re very soft Charlene Choy
Rest In Peace.
@@rabidanimal233 I’m so sorry
Ryan, my guy it's totally fine to cry and let out your emotions out !
It's not embarrassing that you cried on camera.
Just stay positive ! Live in the moment !
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5:43 its alright ryan were sorry about your memories giving you emotions. We all been through it before. your not the only one. We love your content, You're not alone..
It’s ok bro we all get sad at times and it’s fine you don’t need to feel embarrassed
Crying is not embarrassing Ryan remember that. I've lost my grandma about 2 years ago and every time I think about all those memories I had with her makes me cry like a baby. Remember we're here with you!
No, it's embarrassing. It's weak, pathetic, and it would get you killed in the wild.
@@manthe3711 is he on the wild?
@@luzmieadalin3684 Not with that attitude.
@@manthe3711 with what attitude?
whenever i hear stories of people with loved ones that passed away, i always feel sad and feel grateful for the people i still have
i'm one of those people as well.
You know, this is one of the only challenges I would actually be willing to lose. It feels more like a reward rather than a punishment
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@@volshebnik6995 Even if it was , literally no one cares or asked so please do something better with your life
This guy is amazing. (I’m talking about Ryan love him) I’m subbed
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Omg that presentation was so good!!
this is my favorite ryan trahan video idk why
this man is up next. every video is soo good
next video is gonna be spending hours in space or some shit
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Glarses is gonna make a sensory deprivation keyboard
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We need more men like you. you got so openly vulnerable, and my heart broke when you asked me not to judge you :( its not embarassing, its human, and its stronger than anything to show these parts of ourselves, let alone to this many other people. i appreciate when men are vulnerable. i appreciate when men arent afraid to cry. i appreciate when men are brave enough to be emotional in a world where its so easy for them to bottle up their shit and not talk about it. its what differentiates boys from men. well done
We have to many people like that now, telling everyone every feeling every minute of every day.
@@breakingames7772 is that a bad thing?
@@breakingames7772 also i think you're overexagerating
@@breakingames7772 cry about it
Stop trying to turn men into women
i love how ryan does these crazy things like for example this video to give us entertainment ............... i love your videos ryan
That was TOTALLY NOT embarassing. It's great that U shared that memory with your viewers :)
That grandma part hit me so hard.
My grandma was my second mum, even more than my mum was when I was young she did everything for me and I loved her to bits, she died at 55 of cancer and to this day I can't even speak about her or think about her properly without just crying its literally uncontrollable. I know exactly how you feel there man it's not embarrassing it shows how kuch you loved her.
Mum
@@Shriekiscool.what's wrong with someone saying 'mum'?
@@NoobeGuy nothing, he probably pointed it out because british people say mum
Hold this L bozo I'm smoking yo dusty ahh grandma in my pack 🚬🚬🚬
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Can we appreciate what Ryan is doing for us? The happiness, sadness, feelings, all of these emotions mixed into one video? This is the best that you have done, I love it so much
one word: money
@@Jonathan-yr3so 😶
amazing job on visual effects
GOOD JOB ON THE VISUAL THINGY AT 2:04 RYANN!!