Faith Marie - Antidote
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Original song by Faith Marie
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Soundcloud: / antidote
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Lyrics:
(Verse)
Finding refuge in my own lies
How are you I'm doing alright
Small talk is a great disguise
Just let me be just let me be
Empty thoughts start to crowd my mind
Am I only living to survive?
Shake it off but I've lost the drive
Just let me be just let me
Just let me be okay
(Chorus)
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
They don't think I need help
But I'm scaring myself
I just want to be ok (x2)
(2nd Verse)
All the voices in my head come to life
They're getting louder and I'm terrified
How do you run from your own mind?
Is this what I've become?
Take it back what have I done
(Bridge)
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
There is a new kind of poison and starting to spread
But I didn’t think the antidote was in my hands
I can change my plans I can change my plans
I tried to find my reflection on the glass
But all I ever saw were the things I lacked
All the smudges on the mirror make you go insane
All I ever thought I was
Was a mistake
#faithmarie #antidote #uuin
"How do you run from your own mind?"
God I wish I knew...
Try dreaming
You don't. You stop and face it
I hope you are better now. I understand what you are undergoing
You wish to God... But praying to God for understanding is where it starts to change 😪😪😪 man nobody said life was easy... We have been lied to from the start... And its time to do something about how we feel
You don't run from your own mind. You control what you can (spoiler alert: you can't control much) and accept what you can't control. Exercise your thoughts like you'd exercise your muscles and you'll feel healthier-eventually to the point where you won't feel a need to run from your mind.
I didn't ever know that someone could match my mental state in song form this perfectly
Same, toxic thoughts really speaks to me as well, all her songs do x
Yeah
Yes! I couldn’t find the words but you said it exactlyyy!
Grace im in that head state. I wrote this song and so many others. Been a song writer and piano play since AD lol beatles floyd zeplin, my father also composes and preforms, hes not dead hes there writing to me, exposing our amazing ability. I have wrote modonna whitney to elle golding, several christan bands even rap.... my bf is huge too. Drake jay Z. Im X from the wall pinky
Lol I totally agree! :]
The system we live in doesn't support mental health, passions, the expression of individuality, or any form of fulfillment other than material possessions, money, drugs, or sex. The best we can do is strive to follow our passions and dreams, focus on learning how to communicate peacefully, and surround ourselves with an environment and people that support our mental health and happiness, find little ways to feed the soul
American Capitalism is a death cult
@@amalbenmoussa159 %100
We The unwilling, will dutifully carry out our role. And hope to scrape together a bit of happiness for our meagerselves
"They don't think I need help, but I'm scaring myself"
I am glad I finally found music that I can relate to during these times...
I'm inspired by her she is so underated she needs more notice
Also I've written a songs but I wish she could sing it but I dont think she'll notice this comment
My old therapist needs to hear this line. "Everyone has dark thoughts" "You don't seem like the kind of person to attempt" Aaand then I very nearly did.
We all need help.
@@letsgolesbians9617 You ARE okay! I am sure you have been through so much simply because you understand these lyrics... Please know and never forget this- you are completely invaluable. You are loved and irreplaceable even by those you may not notice! Keep your chin up and have faith that you will smile again :)
@@metalxcore5368 Thank you so much! CW: Su!c!de
By the time I was 14 I'd already attempted twice, so these lyrics hit very hard for me. Thank you so very much, you are a kind and amazing person, I wish you all the best.
Thank you all so much for the kind words! I am pleasantly surprised at how many people were able to connect with this song :) For those of you who asked for the lyrics, I put them in the description! Again thank you so much for all the love, you guys are so sweet
this was really such a great song! can't wait to hear more originals from you! c:
This video showed up in an add before another video I was going to watch and I couldn't stop listening. This girls voice is absolutely unreal. I was incredibly surprised to see that this channel doesn't have more subscribers. Well, It has one more now. I hope many more are too follow. :)
+Faith Marie What's the piano for this I would like to learn it
Faith are you subscribed to AmyLee33? She's really sweet
Omg your so pretty and I love your voice more then anyone I've ever heard! I'm so happy I found you and I'm excited for more to come!😍
She controls the volume of her voice perfectly for this style of music.
OddPasta right
"No one know's what goes on up in my head." She took the words from my soul. I am a great pretender at hiding what's really going on in my mind. Love this. But there is hope.
Just keep going
Me too. My teacher, who teaches 10 of us, said "none of you have depression, stop making those jokes!" the day I got diagnosed with MD.. It kind of hurt that my favorite teacher couldn't tell how broke I was..
@@adelynnjack5392 Don´t be. The problem is not others. You shouldn´t focus in the negative side of her if she is your favorite. Try opening more to her, people with different perspectives may coexist.
An online therapist from the gaming community, graduated from Oxford, said that depression and other mental health problems are really something new, it´s easy to comprehend the misjudgment from anyone.
For me, it’s not always that I’m hiding what’s going on in my head. It’s that I can’t properly explain what’s going on in my head to anyone in a way that they fully understand. I can’t explain my OCD.
i love her that voice speaks out of the soul she is even crying
Your so right
wandy cherokee bonifacio you’re*
I'm speechless. You deserve to be more popular around the music industry. You sing so passionately and powerfully please let us hear more of you beautiful voice. You amazing.❤️
Your*
+Moo Moo I ❤ your name
and I agree w/ u
unfortunately artists like this rarely reach mainstream success
well when they do, their music gets ruined anyway.
If you wish, take no notice of this comment. If you would like, please help it reach a higher point to increase the chance of it being seen by Faith. I'm just like any other person, but I have a few things I would like to say, just on the off chance that Faith Marie might see this. I would like to thank you. I can't express my emotions about this enough. Your music has helped me through the darkest part of my life over this past year. No medication or therapy was able to achieve as much as your songs. I'm no longer suicidal, and have been clean from cutting for almost two months. I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Alana Dunn belladonna1771 music has some crazy power. I’m so glad for you that you’ve started to heal, keep fighting and stay strong. ❤️
Music can do that. Glad that you're getting better 🙂
🖤
Glad your better depression I deal with it everyday music seems to help me faith marie has a beautiful voice
I hope she sees this and i know this comment was almost a year ago, but im so proud how far you've come. 💙 I hope you're still becoming stronger! 💋
7 years later and it still has the same impact
I wish, music like this used to be my cathartic release but nothing hits the same anymore.
Dead Inside.
"is this what I've become, take it back what have I done"
That hit hard
I heard "Little Girl" as an ad, and now I'm obsessed with your music/voice.. I love it so much
Ive been enjoying it for the last hour or so :)
same
me as well. I write alot of stuff like this but I suck at singing so it never gets sung :(
Thank you fiercefoxy, I forgot about this song, its good for those sad times, :) thank you
I got a notification lol
Just discovered this girl. So thankful I did.
Helping me through a rough time.
All her songs speak word for word what I feel.
An example of someone who comments before the video.
+Biovox13
she said "this girl" what are u talking about
there both stupid, i see nothing wrong with what she typed.
+Awoo
exactly im so confused wtf are they on about
woah you cant assume their gender, it is 2017 afterall
"How do you run from your own mind?"💔
I dream and distract myself
@@sarahguhl3071 Either daydream or fall asleep.
ARMYS everywhere :)
Avoiding
*Friends:* You're too depressed and bring the mood down.
*Parents:* Why can't you be more like your brother?
*School:* You'll never get anywhere in life.
*Music:* Sweetie are you okay? Just listen to me and you'll be fine
That's so true.
Everyone brings you down without trying to bring you back up so you have to find refuge in music and comfort in yourself
Lmao you're school must be fuckin wack
I honestly relate so much to the friends part of this comment, i thought it was just me
True
@@MC-ns8gb You must be the coolest kid on middle school. What are you doing listening to loser music? Poser. Get a life.
I felt like my soul was singing this song..only some will understand this ♡
Becca Butterfly I know how you feel ♡
I know..
It's been a while, but when I first heard this, something in me resounded, I felt I was filled with excitement, but also a scratching feeling. I was surprised how powerful this was.
your comment just gave me cancer
cancer shouldn't be a joke.
This was one of my bad nights....
I'm crying as I listen to this....
This is one of the best songs and I'm connecting to it so quickly...
You are truly beautiful, I'm glad I was able to listen to this song.
You'll be okay, maybe not today, or tomorrow, or next week; but someday you'll look back at yourself, not with pity, no, with understanding, with love, with KINDNESS. One day you'll see your worth, you'll learn how to love your flaws, you'll learn that your quirks are beautiful. One day you'll see yourself the same way everyone else does; you just have to hope for that day, you need to breathe, and never stop, fight without hesitance and love without fear. I know things are hard right now, and that's okay, that's valid, but you need to breathe, you need to live, if not for yourself, for the people you'll meet, for the person you'll fall in love with, for your best friends, for your siblings, for your children, and nieces and nephews. You may not see that your life is important, and you may feel that no one does, but there are people who do, and people who will.
Someone loves and it would break their heart if you died.
@@bee6440 Thank you. That gives me many more reasons to live ❤
@@bee6440 From what you wrote, you truly are a beautiful person.
I hope you are doing ok x
@Bee thank you for reminding me that life is worth living
Me: *Thinks* "I just wanna be ok..."
Music: "I JUST WANT TO BE OK!!!"
Me: HOLY SH- 0-0
THIS GURL A MIND READER OR SOMETHING...
That is just the absolute truth.
Oh gawd how blind are you there is no problem. Alan watts
I thought I was getting better but a full year later, I'm back here again. I wish recovery was easy but it's not. don't stop trying but don't expect immediate results. keep fighting everyone, I love you ❤️
I'm also struggling with recovering
Fuck I'm here again too.
we love you too, keep on keeping on :D
When I'm breaking down, I play her songs and plug out the world and let my thoughts settle, she has such a great voice and beautiful lyrics. She sings all the words I've been longing to say 🤧💕
Heart idear I'll try
I feel the same, whenever I'm done with my family or my school I will just turn on her songs and put my earphones in and block them all out. We all feel that we need that certain time of day to ourself to be who what we want for a little.
I do the same thing...
its been a year from first listening to this. i havent heard her songs in months, I tried to stop listening in attempt to leave the negativity behind. Here i am after my 5th breakdown this week wondering how to fix it all. Im glad this exists to show that though im still hurting, ive grown and become better and hopefully i can come back next year with a new found happiness.
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I didn't notice the tears flowing down my face until my wife asked me if I was okay. This song is going to be a huge part of my life for a long time and I thank you for helping me find words to help explain the unexplainable. There are so few songs in this world that have touched me in a way that yours has - ever. Thank you Faith Marie. Thank you.
What a fake comment.
@@markusmccourtus1 Why so mean?
@@l-annfvrsa How's that mean? This comment is clearly fake... No one crys without noticing. You can explain something unexplainable it makes no sense. @daemolitia has simply tried to write a comment that will earn thumbs up. And I'm calling them out on the bullshit, becasue I'm not an idiot.
Actually, I didn't notice because I wasn't watching the video. I had my eyes closed listening to the words and was so engrossed in the words that I did not notice them. I have always found it difficult to describe the feelings I have and this song has been invaluable to me because I can play it for someone and they instantly understand what I had been unable to describe in words.
My comment was purely intended to be that of gratitude to the artist and to let her know that it had an effect on me. I think we know who is actually trolling for thumbs up and points. Maybe ask questions before identifying as someone who can read minds and "know" the intentions of others.
Calling me out. Lol. Let me guess, you too suffer with depression and I am doing the community a huge disservice by expressing my feelings towards a song without all the clarity you need to feel safe and protected. I'm no poser so step outside your ridiculous preconception of what a comment should look like and troll another commenter. I'm not saying you're stupid, but, you know, it's kind of obvious that you're at least ignorant of how others can feel and express themselves.
@@Tubolitia I stand by my comment. And clearly I have not done it for likes, people dislike honesty. They prefer sentimental lies such as yours.
"there's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread"
*-2015:* that's such a beautiful metaphor
*-2020:* ah yes, the virus really does suck doesn't it
I wouldn't have associated it with an actual virus. Whatever's going on inside the minds of maga-hat wearers, though... yeah, that seems toxic.
I mean to make a joke at the expense of all those who have died and have lost loved ones is horrible
@@Amygdallama I'm.. I'm not sure what you mean by this?
@@CubsYT sorry, I thought you were making a joke
The key difference is that people go crazy about a non-leathal virus, but no one cares about depression
When I first grew suicidal to a scary degree(like, I've often thought about dying and stuff, but it was never really suicidal) that's the first time I was scared of myself. It's a really horrifying feeling. Because the only thing I had, myself, I was also scared of. And I still am. Every day, I never go outside, out of fear of what I would do. Or what I would buy. (Rope to hang myself, painkillers, sleeping pills...) Much to the dismay of my mother. She doesn't understand. How I could be depressed. She also doesn't know (yet) that I'm suicidal. And until the day I die, she will probably never know. Anyways, I don't trust myself. So if I can't even do that, how am I supposed to trust others? How will I ever get better? HOW??!
I've been passively suicidal for a while, and when I was feeling like I might actually want to kill myself, it was really scary. I don't know you and I don't know what your situation is like, but I want you to know that if you need/want someone to talk to, I'm here. Please don't kill yourself. I understand that it feels like the only option sometimes, but remember that there are people who care about you. If you can't think of anyone who does, think of me, a random stranger on the internet who's dealt with some of the same awful feelings that you have. I care about you, and I'm happy to chat if you want :)
The first step is to get help. Dont go to a clinical doctor but an actual psychiatrist and be aware that not every psychiatrist or psychologist is going to be your cup of tea. It's a VERY daunting taste but take it from someone who has tried to commit suicide twice, the frustration and anxiety is worth it. Second step, find a support system. Even if it ine single person, as it is for me, find someone who you know will love you no matter what. That is also very difficult. I was married to my husband for 2&1/2 years before I began to believe I could truly trust him with everything, even my mental illness which I kept to myself for so long. 3rd step, remember it is an on going process, you aren't going to randomly be better one day and recognize that healing and "better" is different for everyone, dont try to measure your progress and growth with anyone else.
only you can make you happy its about perspective. dont let the background noise of your mind get to you 🤗🤗peace internet bro or sister
You are loved. You are worthy of love. People care about you. More then you know. Until you can live for yourself, live for them. You can be happy. You deserve happiness. You deserve a good life.
I feel the same way. You are not alone. ❤️
What an amazing voice, damn ...
What an amazing everything... The voice, the lyrics, the melody....
incredible, well worth the wait!
ikr :)
+SeaPeeKay Awww Thank you! And thank you for waiting!! :)
oh hey I watch ur videos lol
Not quite who I expected to see here
omg hi
I used this song as my lyrical solo for dance this year, I just was able to connect so much to this song, as someone who struggles with reaching out to others for help, especially when I hit a rough patch and my mind goes dark and whenever I look in the mirror all I'm able to see are my flaws and things I hate about myself. This song and the dance I had was my way of expressing what I was bottling up inside❤❤
I'm here for you
I had never heard this artist before today, and my wife and I were already planning on naming our first child Faith Marie if we have a daughter. If our daughter turns out to be this talented (which I have no doubt she will) then her name will already live up to the hype. Beautifully done, Faith.
Did u name her faith marie?
My first and middle are this.
It's a beautiful name! I am also Faith Marie
How old is he/she now?!
Finding refuge in my own lies
"How are you"
"I'm doing alright"
Small talk is a great disguise
Just let me be just let me be
Empty thoughts start to crowd my mind
Am I only living, living to survive?
Shake it off but I've lost the drive
Just let me be just let me be
Let me be, okay
[Chorus]
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
They don't think I need help
But I'm scaring myself
I just want to be ok
I just want to be ok
[Verse 2]
All the voices in my head are coming to life
They're getting louder and I'm terrified
How do you run from your own mind?
Is this what I've become?
Take it back what have I done
[Chorus]
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
They don't think I need help
But I'm scaring myself
I just want to be ok
I just want to be ok
[Bridge]
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
There is a new kind of poison and starting to spread
But I didn’t think the antidote was in my hands
I can change my plans I can change my plans
I tried to find my reflection on the glass
But all I ever saw were the things I lacked
All the smudges on the mirror made me go insane
All I ever thought I was
Was a mistake
[Outro]
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
Up inside my head
Up inside my head
music like this keeps me alive...
Me too...
same-
I found this song while I was in a really bad place mentally, and I've never related or been moved so much by a song before. I instantly cried and continued to do that the following 5 times I heard it. Im much better now, and for me today, is the song just a great song, I find really lovely to sing but the way it made me feel two years ago, I will absolutely never forget, and thank u faith so much for that
People always try to suppress their emotions.
I do it too, commonly.
People try to hide from facts and try to hide their face.
I just turned light theme on because I got sick of looking at it.
I'm not gonna tell you that you need to stop, that you need to stay confident, and just get rid of these negative emotions.
I'm not here to condescendingly tell you, "It's okay sweetie" and walk away not caring.
I'm here to tell you that by hiding your emotions and hiding what your shameful of, be it physical or mental, your delaying the inevitable.
But like, it's not like you're suddenly gonna become super confident, love yourself like you love your crush, and become just ok suddenly, that doesn't happen.
All I'm saying is, it's important to exept your emotions, not hide them, instead of saying.
"I wish I never broke down over the smallest things." Think
"I know I'm gonna break down over something with no meaning, and it's gonna suck, so what can I do to keep calm."
Don't try to escape your problems, just sit their and let whatever demons plan an attack on you.
Because then, the demons will never notice that you've heard everything.
[Verse 1]
Finding refuge in my own lies
"How are you"
"I'm doing alright"
Small talk is a great disguise
Just let me be just let me be
Empty thoughts start to crowd my mind
Am I only living, living to survive?
Shake it off but I've lost the drive
Just let me be just let me be
Let me be, okay
[Chorus]
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
They don't think I need help
But I'm scaring myself
I just want to be ok
I just want to be ok
[Verse 2]
All the voices in my head are coming to life
They're getting louder and I'm terrified
How do you run from your own mind?
Is this what I've become?
Take it back what have I done
[Chorus]
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
They don't think I need help
But I'm scaring myself
I just want to be ok
I just want to be ok
[Bridge]
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
There is a new kind of poison and starting to spread
But I didn’t think the antidote was in my hands
I can change my plans I can change my plans
I tried to find my reflection on the glass
But all I ever saw were the things I lacked
All the smudges on the mirror made me go insane
All I ever thought I was
Was a mistake
[Outro]
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
Up inside my head
Up inside my head
Jazmin Ornelas yas queen or something lol
T^T)b
got soooooo many chills when the piano hit at 1:00
Damn I felt it too 😮😮
That's so true.
Everyone brings you down without trying to bring you back up so you have to find refuge in music and comfort in yourself
Yes, comfort in my lies and fake smiles has worked rather well for a while
Who else finds comfort in music because friends and family can't understand your pain and internal suffering? ✋
*Yeah. Me too.* 💖
💯
Me too dude...
Why I am just finding this now??? OMG
ikr?! same tho
I found this from spotify
I'm wondering the same damn thing, this girl needs to be on the radio already
i found this from a friend she knew i have depression
..... Speechless. What a beautiful song and a magical voice.. I really can feel this song ❤️
Y'all are not alone fight on brothers and sisters. Embrace your perspective it's important to voice it you are you and you are not the only one who is in the fight. Rock on mates ( :
Thank you
@@dragoninthemoon7719
Why is this artist not that famous?? She makes great music that pierces deep through the heart!!!
I felt everything! Every phrase, melody!
Thanks for this music. For your empathy.
Hey ...This is such a wonderful song. The melody touches me very much. Please continue this way and go on your way. I wish you much success in the music. You are a very strong Person. I like You
I agree I am inspired by this song
As a person with BPD, I can't tell you how much I appreciate and relate to this song. It is beautiful and you are beautiful. Thank you for sharing your amazing talent.
You and me both girl!
me too
Omg I literally just said this to my boyfriend and then I look down at the comment section and you had already said it.
LolcakesTV same.... I have nobody to talk to.... 😢
Totally agreeable
I used to feel like this sometimes. If you feel this way, just remember, things can get better, but it’s important that you believe they can, in the bottom of your heart. It’s okay to be scared, it’s okay to cry, but think to yourself, is this how you want your life to continue? My advice is to find someone close to you who will understand, and tell them about it. If your too scared to tell your family, then don’t. Talk to the person you can trust, and maybe they can tell someone for you. Just remember, the ones who mind, don’t matter, the ones who matter, don’t mind.
Yes ( :
My mood:
"Just let me be...let me be....let me be okay"
This is single handedly the best song I've ever heard. You are my inspiration. The lyrics are as deep as the ocean, your talent as wide as the sea. It's insane. It makes me physically in pain that you aren't famous and the crappy "talented" pop and rap singers we have today in our society are looked up to. They haven't felt pain. True pain is what makes good artists, and that means you have gone through a lot. This song is stuck inside my head, I never stop thinking about it because it's what true music is like, and I wish we had more of that here in this sinful world. Thank you so much for writing this.
pain can be one way to express. u could also make happy music without the pain =D but i know what u mean
SJK so what genre is this song considered
Carlotta TheFriendlyPerson a bit late but yeah some pop songs have a deep meaning tho...
I honestly think that this song is better than most artists out there right now.
for sure!
Thank you again for your music. Years later, and it still helps.
This is my go to song every time I feel sadness is eating me up inside again and when my self hatred is overwhelming. I am always self sabotaging. Oh how many times I go back here in every year. This song has everything that I feel inside. Crazy how it speaks to my soul too. I feel like this song is my antidote.
i don't know how many times I've listened to the song but every time i listen to it, it brings out tears of my eyes
lialiar I have tears in my soul not eyes when listening. That's because I made a promise not to cry.
I love your music. I showed little girl to my patients at a psychiatric hospital (veterans) and they all were moved by your words. thank you
This sound is so wonderful. The person who is reading this comment, I wish you great success, health, love and happiness!
The moment between 2:47 and 2:55 captures the feeling of distance and self-doubt pretty well. As a classical instrumentalist of fifteen+ years, I practice making sounds convey more than just melodies, and the way she plays these two dissonant chords is a perfect example of playing to the meaning of the song.
Never heard my thoughts expressed so beautifully and so clearly. Beautiful! Thank you
i dont know how to explain this but this literally explains everything happening in my life right now.
Louis Tommo this is late but I hope it gets better
I should be terrified, but its hard when you agree with the voices. PLEASEE i just want to be ok....
Time is your greatest enemy at the moment but if you wait it out you will survive
You'll be okay, maybe not today, or tomorrow, or next week; but someday you'll look back at yourself, not with pity, no, with understanding, with love, with KINDNESS. One day you'll see your worth, you'll learn how to love your flaws, you'll learn that your quirks are beautiful. One day you'll see yourself the same way everyone else does; you just have to hope for that day, you need to breathe, and never stop, fight without hesitance and love without fear. I know things are hard right now, and that's okay, that's valid, but you need to breathe, you need to live, if not for yourself, for the people you'll meet, for the person you'll fall in love with, for your best friends, for your siblings, for your children, and nieces and nephews. You may not see that your life is important, and you may feel that no one does, but there are people who do, and people who will.
Someone loves and it would break their heart if you died.
Its hard to be okay when everyone in life tries so hard to bring you down. They say once you hit rock bottom, the only way left to go is up, right? Well little did they know, if you tear someone up, they will start digging farther down.
this is amazing!!
You two should collaborate on something! You both are sooo talented!
OMG! It's you! Hahahaha
Emma Campbell yes voice angel O:-) hand beautiful (((🔥))) woaah 🌴 🎧 🔥✞♥
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I was driving myself insane and had so much hurt, anger, pain and resentment. I made a choice and its a conscious choice and battle every day to except myself, love myself with all my flaws...to love my individuality. To do what makes me truly happy no matter how silly or unimportant it seems to other people. To be myself even if it means to rediscover myself and the things i used to love. To become who i know i should be and reject and get rid of the negative, even if its people. To fight the demons of my own mind is a battle, but one i know i will win because i am unique in my own way. Sex, drugs, booze, and all that goes with this hurt never healed me, it made it worse. No matter how tired i am, i will myself to always keep fighting for the real me until i win. Thank you for this song, its a reminder of the small battles i’ve already won. ♥️♥️♥️
There is a saying "in the battle against evil stalemate is victory" if you can stay strong through the dark times you win
This is so my life but people think it good idea to take possession out of me no more
you know i allways tought that there is no people like u bc all the boys i've met,it didn't end up well they were mean to me and they have never been in pain like we did listening to this song thank you
Been here 5 years ago, and guess what dude.. You've made it! This song reaches those souls that need this kind of remedy. We'll this song reminded me that don't be intoxicated by your own thoughts..
You can literally see the sad/brokeness in her eyes
So reminded me of twenty one pilots. Your lyrics are very well thought out.
notch747 like tøp and halsey combined 😍
notch747 I was thinking the same thing
notch747 I was thinking the same
I'm sorry but why aren't you famous already?
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+Jessica Noemi I know she should have at least 1 million subs by now for the incredible talent she has!
Cause over the course of 3 years she only uploaded 3 videos u got to have more saturation
God? Is that you? You haven't answered my prayers in years...
God i sure hope so i know iv been a crappy soul but i changed my ways and i know we ant spoke in so long thank you for everything please help me get throw this fucked up time in my life you know if i could i wouldnt do it all over agine please let me get pass this untouched im in pain and i know if i have to go throw the things i did as a youngen from abuse i know ill lose it and wont be able to take i know im asking to much but please help me with that and the ones i care about help them to please bc i thank me as a son has done all i can to help and dont want to cause anymore pain on this earth then i already have please hear me with tears in my eyes scared to death and feeling all alone as i sure i should could be worst i just want to sleep one night knowing im safe i ant slept in something like 3 or 4 days sober well herb cig and coffee but nothing real bad in the father the son and the holy spirit please help us all down here i know im not the only one that needs favor and mercy in my life Amen
My favorite part of this song is that it's written so...raw and honest and understandable, that those kids that can't speak the truth to their parents because they are comfortable in their lies can give them this song to listen to and it can speak for them in a way that they are more likely to understand.
Edit: I wish it had existed when I was a kid. It would have saved me three years of trying to explain what needed to be felt not heard.
Back when I first heard this song I just think it's a good song. But then I start getting panic disorder and insomnia this past few weeks. Just recently I experienced the worse panic attack that last longer than my usual panic attack. I've never feel so terrified. This song express how I feel going through this. I can't tell my parents cause they won't understand, I have no actual friends to talk with and therapy is expensive since I'm not a student anymore. Recently I befriend someone on instagram who are willing to lend their ears and be there for me everytime I have a panic attack and I'm just grateful that they're always there to listen and talk to me despite our time zone difference. I'm still far from recovering and might never be but I'll recover. Someday.
I hope you are okay. I wish your friend best of luck, and yes, I'm also willing to lend you a listening ear. I won't judge or hate, I'll just listen if you are willing to open up. And if not, that's also okay. I just hope you heal soon.
Faith, this is ONE kick in the pants of a great song. The lyrics are painfully real and immediately personal to many (even though they're clearly yours). Your piano licks are stunning and deeply enhance how you're feeling inside your head. And to finally hear your sweet and one-of-a-kind voice is a pleasure.
You may not realize that I only just 30 or so minutes ago tripped over your Facebook page, which thankfully led me here, to this piece of musical magic... Antidote. I've given it five listens already, and intend to listen some more, but not 'til I've gone through the rest of your repertoire.
While you're performing tonight in Salt Lake City, I'm back here in Santa Clarita, staring out at the ever-increasingly gray sky where it's been pouring since shortly after Midnight, and I've been watching many exotic birds just outside my upstairs window. There is a lovely pair of mourning doves who is feasting on the red berries on the hill right here, and I wish you could see them, since they're nearly as beautiful as you, Faith.
Your budding career is going nowhere else but upward, dear girl, and I wish I'd known all along just where you were in this dramatic climb.
Continue having great fun, and always sing from your heart, your mind, and your very being-ness. That is what it is all about.
Love,
Susie
You are so kind. Thank you for encouraging her and being such a wonderful friend.
The thing I love about you, Faith, is that look at all those people in the coments letting all their thoughts out... Your songs really make ppl think about who they are and what they think.
I love how the chorus has a faster rhythm and build up tenstion then it slows down when she says scaring myself it makes me melt😭❤️ EARGASM
I relate to this too much
I want to be ok
I want to tell people
I want to be happy
I want to stop the scars
My head is slowly killing me
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I want to be myself again
I want an antidote
Time is the best cure and the strongest poison
You'll be okay, maybe not today, or tomorrow, or next week; but someday you'll look back at yourself, not with pity, no, with understanding, with love, with KINDNESS. One day you'll see your worth, you'll learn how to love your flaws, you'll learn that your quirks are beautiful. One day you'll see yourself the same way everyone else does; you just have to hope for that day, you need to breathe, and never stop, fight without hesitance and love without fear. I know things are hard right now, and that's okay, that's valid, but you need to breathe, you need to live, if not for yourself, for the people you'll meet, for the person you'll fall in love with, for your best friends, for your siblings, for your children, and nieces and nephews. You may not see that your life is important, and you may feel that no one does, but there are people who do, and people who will.
Someone loves and it would break their heart if you died.
Antidote
Finding refuge in my own lies
How are you I'm doing alright
Small talk is a great disguise
Just let me be x2
Empty thoughts start to crowd my mind
Am I only living to survive?
Shake it off but I've lost the drive
Just let me be x2
Let me be okay
No one know what goes on up inside my head
There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread
No one know what goes on up inside my head
They don't think I need help
But I'm scaring myself
I just want to be okay x2
All the voices in my head are coming to life
They're getting louder and I'm terrified
How do you run from your own mind?
Is this what I've become?
Take it back what I've done
No one know what goes on up inside my head
There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread
No one know what goes on up inside my head
They don't think I need help
But I'm scaring myself
I just want to be ok x2
No one know what goes on up inside my head
There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread
But I didn't know the antidote was in my hands
I can change my plans I can change my plans
I tried to find my reflection on the glass
But all I ever see is the things I lacked
All the smudges on the mirror make me go insane
All I ever though I was..
..was a mistake.
No one know what goes on up inside my head
There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread
No one know what goes on up inside my head
Up inside my head x2
Thank you!
I really love the diminished chord in the middle of the song!
Dustin Troyer same! It makes the song even more perfect
“All the voices in my head are coming to life. They're getting louder and I'm terrified”.
It hits different
I just found this song and I'm crying so hard because I can relate so much
Heard this when it came out and was obsessed for a pretty long time , am back now and am so freaking proud u have grown so much since last time and u deserve all of it
I actually very much connect to this. I have a mental disorder and my parents don't understand it and this explains it so much.
Faith, you are incredibly beautiful. You have a rare gift. With that gift comes a big responsibility. Its never easy knowing when and how to use A gift like yours. But certainly worth every effort no matter how painful or how difficult, it all seems so miniscule when you realize the prize at the end.
There was a woman I knew who used to tell young, talented and gifted people such as yourself: if you want to be somebody, if you want to go somewhere; you better wake up and pay attention!
There's a thousand different paths for every one that you take. Make sure that you are choosing the ones that are right for you. Listen to the voice of reason. Its never wrong. You are invaluable and absolutely precious to this universe in this moment right now and you are unconditionally loved.
Yours truly,
Agape.
There is just so much truth, tragedy, hope and genius in this song. What an amazing piece!
Oh my goodness I just started watching a cover of drown and left my phone to choose the next songs and I was already amazed by your cover of drown and then this came on 😍😍 I went to check what band's song this is - to find out that it's an original song!!!! It is SO perfect 😭😍❤️ I honestly love this song so much and it's so relatable ❤️
SAAAAAAAAME OMYGOD
lol same
Same here...
This is amazing. Thank you for these real emotions.
+TheRickymh Thank you! So glad you like it :)
This is one of the most beautiful songs I’ve ever heard in my life. Thank you for this. This is so much what it means to be human.
Every time I find myself here again, I wonder, have I already said that this is one of those “bone soothing tunes”? So talented!
I'm so annoyed I didn't hear this song sooner
This IS my life, it's just I haven't found the antidote yet....
I'm not very wise but I'll go ahead and say some things that can help you...
We share this world...why fight with people?
You're not a jacket...don't hang yourself.
Don't bite...
What that means is...
Don't fall for it, no matter what somebody calls you or does to you...don't bite it...
Their just jealous
Be yourself and..
If you agree with them they won't be interested in doing anymore.
They want your reaction...
its not that easy
sorry
Lunar Playz NightCore shut the fuck up dumb bitch
Don't
Very wise words… have you ever considered poetry?
mßpfōrlïfë stop talking to the mirror that isnt ur name
Ugh this song is so beautiful. It expresses the way so many of us feel. Life is so fucking harsh. I’ve spent so much of my life trying to help others, and I think I’ve forgotten how to help myself. I’ve literally teared up almost every day for almost half a year now. It’s been a slow descent for many years now, and everything is finally falling apart hard. Songs like this just might help to get through it all.
2019?anyone ok only me😧❤❤
As if
Me
I'm new but hey
I'm scaring myself. It's OK though.
Been one of my favourite song for a long time. :>
You don't understand how deeply this song effects me. It's like you see life through my eyes
Amazingly beautiful, thank you!!!
I have never related so much to a song before. I hope I find my antidote soon.
7 years later and still has the same impact. Beautiful and relatable lyrics.
wow when did you crawl inside my mind... thank you for letting me know im not alone. i seriously feel lonely and im surrounded by people who love and care about me. this song hits me in the feels.
Faith i love this song and not just that this is an amazing song you wrote but your expression the way you would just stare off into space just made it that much more real you were so into the song it just added to the feel of the video you are an amazing beautiful and talented young woman
All these years later and I keep going back to this song when I'm having a meltdown. Faith Marie has summed everything up so perfectly in this song.
Music such as this has kept me alive for so long. Faith Marie your music is amazing, thanks for helping me feel again. These days I'm so empty and numb that I can't cry anymore. Thank you so so so so much.
I'm so happy I found this song; I can relate so much. But, I'm sad the radio doesn't play amazing vocals and songs like this ;-;
i missclicked on this video, without any doubt the best fail in my entire life
Too all you who feel this! We're more than we realize! And there's a lot more like us than we realize
I first listened to this song 2 years ago, and I still connect to it so much. Every lyric strikes a note in my soul, and I cannot say enough how beautiful and true this song is. Thank you, Faith, for creating such a piece, and putting your beautiful heart and soul into it.
This is so beautiful!!!! I'm getting chills listening to such beauty! You SERIOUSLY need to be famous, you're WAY too talented to not be recognized.
this song is great the piano is on spot your voice is great and you've accurately portrayed so many suffering peoples feelings that we can never voice
No one should have to feel like this.
To all the girls who feel this way, you are beautiful in your own unique ways, like stars in the night sky, faint but powerful.
None of us really have everything put together, and as long as you can just do the best you can, thats all any of us can ask of you.
You are enough, youre worthy, and you most certainly are NOT a mistake, babygirl...
Everything will be okay, and one day you will break through this darkness like a blazing pheonix. You can do this, i promise.
Youre loved, even if its just by me. Im only a stranger on the internet sending out energy but i hope that you can feel in your heart the sheer magical beauty of your existence. You are one in a million, and you deserve to feel like it.
Josh Reyes What about boys? Like boys go through this too.
The expressions as she's singing. So real and raw. Beautiful.