Beth Crowley- I Scare Myself (Based on Shatter Me by Tahereh Mafi) (Official Lyric Video)
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This song describes the character that I am writing about almost perfectly. It actually makes me even more motivated to write it!
One of the characters I’m writing goes with this song too. I’m glad someone else writes!😜
@@madeleinestrandberg5163 Dude if you ever want someone to beta read, let me know! I love reading others work in progress!
Thanks! You too! Just let me know
I have a whole playlist I've been putting together of songs that either suite one of my characters or I would like to make characters based on.
I sort of do that. I have a playlist of songs that I use for writing.
Most the time the song fits the seen. It weird.
I found her by accident gave her music to my granddaughter who suffers from depression and self esteem hope she finds some comfort in her words
I wish your granddaughter the best of luck, keep strong!
Wish your granddaughter peace and strength 🙏
I hope she recovers soon. I used to suffer from depression. But after having supporting people in my life, and years of getting therapy, and a ten-day hospital stay, and some meds (but those were temporary but for some people they’re permanent), I feel a lot better now. I still have some bad days but overall I’m happy. Your granddaughter will eventually be happy soon. Good luck to you guys.
@@faristasairuv5143 thank you
@@faristasairuv5143 hope you feel better soon and good luck to you take care and stay strong
If you're reading these comment, I just want to say, keep fighting and don't give up, we love you and you're perfect just the way you are so get up and fight back and make things right cuz' you're amazing 💓.
another Account thx
Thx I really needed that, I'm feeling so shitty right now
Thx 😢♥
@Michale Bejarano thank you for this wonderful words ❤️
K.
Last night, I had a massive mental illness panic attack. I got aggressive, I pushed, hit, fought, my beloved boyfriend. He stayed, I ran off, he chased me. Even after I made his night a living hell. Screaming at the top of my lung, telling him to get the f*** off me, let me go... but he Didnt. He held onto me for dear life... He stayed and saw my monster unleash.
But yet, he still stayed, love me, when he didnt have to.
I love this man more than anything... I want him, forever..
I LOVE YOU JOSH...
Thank you for staying with me, and loving me. When you didnt have to. ❤
This is deep can we give that man an award? 🥇
😭❤️❤️❤️❤️
@@Epic_Gamer3 that is amazing give her an award too
Waah!!! That's so amazing 😭❤️
Damn.. he probably understands you more then you do then
I've read the Shatter Me series and this song finally makes sense to me, its talking about Juliette and what she goes through
Oh my god I have that book series too it's so good
Oh my god I have the Shatter me book series as well it's amazing yet sad but it's still so great
I screamed when I saw this was based off the Shatter Me series. I love that series and this song really brings out Juliette’s thoughts. I may just reread the series after listening to this! ❤️
Where can i read it online without paying
@@tuanethyssen5348 I'm not too sure :) I have the series in soft covers
1. This is freaking amazing as usual
2. I jumped out of my skin at 3:50 XD
I didn't notice it till now lol!
It scared me to death. Because it was so haunting. Something I imagine I might do....
Same
Omg I didn't notice that Omg it scared me so much
I never noticed it now that freaked me out xD
*immediately adds this to my Beth Crowley playlist*
I scare myself is the most truthful statement anyone could admit
I scare myself when I feel love. I had my innocence stolen as a child. I’ve been betrayed by nearly everyone I love. Feeling love, feeling that strong connection terrifies me. I’m fiercely protective and loyal. But too many times I’ve been used and discarded. It’s broken me but there’s still a part of me that refuses to give up on life no matter how much I want too. Sometimes I hate myself for it. It would be so much easier to rest... to sleep... to not feel this pain.
I scare myself when I see how much damage I have caused. When I selfharm and realise I could have died. When I realise I barely felt the blade. When I realise I’m not in control. I can’t stop cutting myself. I’m addicted.
This may sound cheesy, but you can't give up. You're not alone and you don't deserve the pain you feel. You deserve to be happy. Sometimes, I feel like giving up too. I don't want to die, but I want to at least want to sleep my problems away, put life on pause. But then I'm reminded why I keep going. For those I love, and for those that might love me. It's okay to feel love. Love is part of life. Love can save a life (told you this might be cheesy). The moral of my long, rambling message is, you can't give up, no matter how much you scare yourself. Everyone scares themselves at some point or another, but don't let it destroy you. Overcome your fear. It may be hard, I won't lie, but in the long run, it will be worth it.
If all else fails, call a crisis hotline. I've heard it helps.
And there's always the youtube people who are going through similar things and don't seem to hesitate when writing an uplifting comment.
Stay Strong, don't give up. Listen to the part of you who refuses to give in. That light inside will see you through.
Thank you. It helps to know that there’s other people out there like me. Sometimes it feels crazy when we’re all telling each other to keep going and when we want to give up. I guess there’s some part of me that knows i should keep fighting.
You deserve over 1,000 likes on this. You can't give up , sometimes life is hard , but you can't.
B
Get therapy if you can. You deserve to be safe and healthy and happy and respected and comfortable and at peace. Good luck. You will recover. You’ll get out of that situation. You’ll find your freedom and your happiness. You’ll learn how to tell trustworthy people apart from bad ones. Keep fighting. You’re wonderful. Good luck.
How did i just discover beth crowley in 2019?
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Same
Same lol
I knew of her sense 2016
Same here
Lyrics:
They say I'm crazy
But the whole world has gone mad
They think I'm dangerous
I might agree with that
When everything I touch will break
Loving you is my escape
So come on give me what I crave
I want it
I want it
Do you want it?
I scare myself
With the way that I need you
There's no one else
Tell me that you can feel it too
I'd crawl through hell
If it meant that I could keep you
I scare myself
I come unraveled
When you whisper my name
My head is spinning
You make me feel insane
The moment that our skin collides
There's nothing left for me to hide
I have finally learned to fly
And I want it
I want it
Do you want it?
I scare myself
With the way that I need you
There's no one else
Tell me that you can feel it too
I'd crawl through hell
If it meant that I could keep you
I scare myself
When everything I touch will break
Loving you is my escape
So come on give me what I crave
I want it
I want it
Do you want it?
I scare myself
With the way that I need you
There's no one else
Tell me that you can feel it too
I'd crawl through hell
If it meant that I could keep you
I scare myself
I scare myself
*If it meant I could keep you
The lyrics are in the video….
@@DeadSoul027 and the darkness follows with me, destroying everything I love, so that only she remains, forcing me to want her, with all the hatred in my heart.
@@LukeRiedleri like that ….
How can Darkness fall in love with the Light when one is meant to kill the other
I suffer from PTSD and Clinical depression with suicidal thoughts. This has all the words I can't I can't tell my family. I'm still struggling to fight the overwhelming darkness. But now I don't feel so alone.
As someone who after too many years have been diagnosed with the same and fight the same hell. You're not alone. Don't let go. please
Um… this isn’t ptsd or depression or suicidal thoughts… this is psychotic thoughts 😐
er, what's psychosis?
i found her first from the "mortal instruments: city of bones". warrior is an amazing song 🥺.
Same. Inspired me to finally read that series, and thus Cassandra Clare gained another avid reader.
And it wasn't the last series for Beth to introduce me to. 😂
me too. It as perfect for the books!
I found her from aphmau’s diaries series
it's raylizeen same....... then I started binging and found this! Shatter me is so underrated!!
@@dylankuhlman5082 wait what- WHAT EPISODE
Woah, I wasn't expecting her to move at the end there. XD I thought it was just a still picture, but that ending gave me freaking chills. It worked so amazingly with the song. Beautiful music as always!
I thought the same
Anyone watching December 2019?
Edit: 2020? Lol I have been listening to this since it came out
Yah
Oh yeah 🥳 here
Me!!
Me...
Maisie Moby me
If Shatter me ever becomes a movie, this song better be in it...
Shatter me is one of my favorite series. I love the messages and the ability to break things down for hours on end after reading. It keeps you on your toes. This song is beautiful. Great job!
I got a bit shocked when the girl moved.. just sayin' 😱🎶
Spoiler...
Thanks for saying that so I don’t crap myself 🤧
"a bit?" I freaked out so much
@@audreygunawan5648 saaaammme
Thanks now i will wait for that girl move entire time
This was perfectly timed with my life...
I just got over being rejected and realizing I never had a chance / accepting that I can love that person as a friend.
Another amazing song.
OMG same in a way people lately had been so mean to me
The guy who I like doesn't even like me. He likes playing with my heart
@@myrongray3920 then he doesn't deserve you, it's actually as simple as that.
@@SweetSerenadeXyWem aww your so sweet I wish I could meet you in person and tell you about it. Thank you for that my CZcams friend 😞😊
@@myrongray3920 you're welcome. If people pretty much treat you as trash (in a way) than that shows they're trash themselves. There are way better people than that, you just have to be patient ;).
The fact that Juliette actually told Aaron "I scare myself" for loving him... Damn! This song perfectly picture their love story!
Roses are dead
Violets are dying
Outside, I'm smiling
Inside, I'm crying
And I'm dying...
You deserve to be happy. You deserve to survive this and come out on the other side. Good luck.
@@faristasairuv5143 Maybe I don't deserve. Thank you, but I have no hope anymore.
@@fallenblackrose9481 You do deserve it. You deserve all of it and more. The people who made you beleive otherwise are wrong and shallow. You will be happy one day. I was out of hope one too but I’m happy now. Is it possible for you to get therapy?
@@faristasairuv5143 Yes, but I have no motivation to change
anything. But it's not important. I'm glad, that you found your way to happiness. :)
@@fallenblackrose9481 You’re really nice. Your important to even if you don’t know it. You are important and wonderful and your a human being with human rights.
Everything I touch will break and I felt that like a soul punch. 🦝
"When everything thing i touch will break" that hit hard
I dropped my phone when I got the notification earlier. Guess you scared me too...
i do that all the time
It made me so happy that the girl moved like I felt like she ought to in order to complete the ambience, right at the end.
They say I'm crazy but the whole world has gone MAD
This is perfect!! I love that series, who else is excited for Defy Me? 😃
first time discovering this... how?! her voice is so beautiful!
Holy crap... when she turned and looked up, I about jumped out of my skin.... so into the lyrics and the pain in them...
Your music is so amazing and it's gotten me through some seriously dark times in the past few years. thank you so much
Pp
Her music has gotten me trough depression
This song describes an OC I have perfectly. She was a young child with abusive parents but another person helped her out. She became so obsessed with this person that she mistook it as love and killed any woman that even looked his direction. Her mental state just slowly caught up to her, and she had almost 2 personalities, the crazy one, and the broken one.
"When everything I touch will break" Namjoon 💀
XDD
😂😂
Lmaoo
Lol😂
Lmao
I dont know who this is, i just came across this song on yt's recommendation, but this song is freaking amazing and relate to me so bad
Juliette Ferrars from the Shatter Me series. If you like reading you should try it it’s pretty good and Juliette is really relatable lol
I know I'm late as I fell in love with that song the day it was released, which means a long time ago, but I just came back to it after quite a long time and I must say I still love it so so much. That's how you know a song is great. When love lasts.
Anyway, the lyrics are so deep and honest, but I admire most is the work done to create this catchy mysterious and dark atmosphere, with the orchestration, the video, your (mesmerizing ) voice and even the moments of suspended silence.
This is in my opinion, your masterpiece.
Plus, it's a real gold mine for writers and fangirls/boys... That propulse us directly in the universe or the mind of a fascinating tortured character...
Love you Beth, go on! You're amazing, unique! The best of them all! Your music is a word of love to books and music!! 📚🎶😉
*Hugs to everyone having to go through shit everyday and being stuck in quarantine!* :')
~
I almost screamed when it said “based on Shatter Me” it’s just so AMAZING.
EDIT: THANKS SO MUCH FOR THE LIKES!
EDIT x2: I just got back into the books after, like, forever aCK
OMG I READ THE FIRST 3 BOOKS IN ONE DAY
@@galaxy_fox1539 LITERALLY SAME THOUGH.
I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THAT BOOK SERIES
Still my fav book ;;
Christena Gingerich Me too!!!
This really touched me. Her song I Am Not Nothing because I just had to end a four year friendship with someone I loved. But she was bad for me and lately I have been dreaming of her and I miss her. I feel like I'm nothing without her, and i'm trying so hard to move on. I just need to hear her tell me she misses me. Thank you Beth your song always help me say the things I can't.
Ashley, it’s okay to not be okay. I agree on the loving of the song I Am Not Nothing and this song. But, sometimes it’s hard to move on. And it’s okay to be stuck. Cry into my arms if you have to, scream, punch your damn pillow. Just, don’t take it out on yourself. If you can’t or don’t want to do it for yourself, do it for me. I’m already dead inside.
Exactly SAME, almost word for word....
I miss the person I hold so dear to me he is so far away in distance but lives in my soul I love himxx
@@dopedino431 why do you feel dead inside
Amy Huff,
Why would I not? The list is shorter.
You have to pass from emotional abuse and domestic violence to understand these song,i know ,i m a victim myself and with her songs she espress the pain we go throw,i love you Beth Crowley,and keep up with your songs,thankyou
This music isn’t my usual style at all, but every song paints such amazing stories that I lose myself in them. Not just the lyrics, but the music too.
Who is listening in 2 0 2 0 !!!! Beth Crowley has a beautiful voice ❤️
Her lyrics gives me strength and courage
I Love you 🌹♥️
This so beautiful cuz it's so real! No one share's this deep feeling or show it cuz we want to a different mask but in reality! We all feel that, if not we're not human! 🥀❤️
Thank you so much for creating your beautiful, amazing music! It has helped me so much through my depression and my dad's accident, your music helps me live and has convinced me not to kill myself when I really wanted to. Thank you so much Beth Crowley
I LOVE THIS BOOK SERIES
"You" is the depression
"What I crave" is my own death
Stay strong ❤
You're not alone. This was my thought too.
i hope you are doing ok!
I love this song. Brings so many emotions back. Nice to see a fellow Hendersonville person 🤣 didn't think this town had true talent
how can you not be popular i realy love your songs it is realy helpful for me
I know this was published a while ago but just discovered this a few days ago and I just want to say that 1 this is amazing, and 2 this gave me real Maven Calore vibes
No One is your Worst Enemy and or Best Savoir then Yourself, you either allow your Demons to swallow you or you soar and fly with the Angles. Some people Win and some Lose.
Cathy Kirkpatrick Thats the quote in ourselves
Every single word collides into each other
This song is for us... The children who were brought up to love others but never receiving it back. To us... Who were expected to treat people good even when they are abusing us. If we can't love every second, show sympathy every second for that person we become evil.
I felt so validated everytime they showed me an ounce of love... even if it was so little. I was living off crumbs. I continued loving those who arent good for me because I've been conditioned to be like this. I expect the bare minimum because if I expected more I was told I was selfish. Never once they tell me I am deserving of good. They told me to be ashamed.
The lyrics and the vocals are amazing. But I have to say, the instrumental part is just breathtaking.
The theme song to my recent relationship. Even now, I want that person, knowing that it is toxic. All the best ones are.
I listened to this song then read the book she based it off. Now whenever I hear this song I shriek with all kinds of emotions. It makes me... Aaahhhhh!!!!!
Having depression and anxiety is like being scared and tired at the same time . It's the fear of failure. But no urge to be productive. It's wanting to have friends but hate soclizing it's wanting to be alone but not wanting to be alone. It's feeling everything at once then feeling paralyzing numb 💔🤕
I have the same thing. you're not alone my friend, we can get through it. YOU can get through it. sorry it took me so long to get here.
How am I just now discovering this musical goddess?
Because this song doesn't use abbreviations, it has to be one of the best-constructed songs I've ever heard. Lyrically, that is ❤👍
I love this book series, and this song doesn't do it justice. But I still love it! Thank you Beth for giving us a piece of Juliette's heart. It helps me breathe and function because I'm just as broken.
When loving someone seems impossible both parties have to agree and understand the lyrics of the song ♥️♥️♥️
My loneliness is making my madness grow more and more with each passing day and there's no way of relieving my pain...
I found you through Warrior, fell in absolute love from Battle Cry and Monster, and now this one has me on the edge of my seat. I wish you had so many more fans, but if you did there wouldn't be anyone left for me to introduce to the goddess singer that is you! Keep up the amazing work!
I can relate to this so much becouse I'm being bullied and people talk behind my back. I love your music so much!!!❤❤❤
just remember how amazing and special you are, remember the people that love you the most and that you're unique
My parents came upstairs halfway through and I have never clicked off youtube as quickly as I did then
I LOVE IT. This is incredible! Did you make a small change in the wat you sing the first 'I scare myself'? I love the dark and dramatic vibes I get from this song. Also love how you kept if focused on the piano instead of tons of other instruments, that really works for this particular song. That instrumental bit tho, I said it for the live version but I'll say it again, I love it. That dramatic string instrument really added to it.
I still haven't read the Shatter Me series but I could see this working for Aelin and Rowan as well from the Throne of Glass series
Thanks love! 😊😊
Throne Of Glass is awesome!
But not as good as this song! The singing feels heartfelt - unlike most songs.
"Shatter Me" is actually a really good name for a book/series!
Thanks for making yet another brilliant song, and keep making them! Ur AMAZING XX
Throne of Glass is soooo aaaammmaaazziinngggggg!!!
I loved the last book!!
I was about to comment that this reminded of -Aelin- Celaena and Rowan as well (spoilers, just in case)
@@mochievious1552 YAAAAASSS!!! I loved KoA even though it ripped my heart out, chewed it up, then spit it back out. 😭😭😭
@@extremeartistsforever6720 😭 let us cry together in agony
Sometimes we don't all escape the smoke some of us get surrounded by it and there is No Escape but the fire...
You Always Play with Such Raw Real Emotion. and passion.
This really hits me to the soul, but not the heart, because it's already broken down and doesn't excist anymore.
This actually fits Peril from Wings of Fire really well! I get the vibe of how she desperately wants Clay to be with her. Also, the line "Everything I touch will break" describes her firescales.
Similar with Juliette I actually never made the comparison before. Juillette can kill someone with her touch that's what this song is about
I’m scared of myself...I don’t know what I’m capable of doing...I’m so scared...It all started last summer...I’m getting ‘better’...I’m scared it might all come back...It’s starting to feel like last summer...I can’t understand myself...I actually have a ‘happy life’...Good friends...Good grades...Good family...We don’t have a problem in money...So now...Why am I being like this...?Is it because of what happened in the past...?It’s hunting me...Sleeping used to be an escape...But now...I’m dreaming of people...Reacting to my scars...Some backing away...scared of me...Some telling people all about it...I’m so scared of my own mind...I can’t even sleep properly...Everynight I’ll sleep 1-3 am...I do want to sleep...It’s just that...My mind is so awake...On the other hand...My body is tired...Wanting to rest so bad...But the darkness feels so comfortable...I’m so alive at night...yet so lifeless during days...as if the darkness is the only thing in this world that comforts me...I always daydream...I make this character who is perfect...Or whatever I want it to be...When you are daydreaming...You forget things...You get in this whole new world...where you make your own faith...I’m afraid to face reality...So I make my daily living...A daydream...you might not understand me...But this is my life...I’m starting to think...I don’t have depression, anxiety, insomnia, and etc...maybe...it’s just who I am...
I think have this to,
You make characters and play in your head cause it's the only way to pass the time.
And you think your going crazy but it's so addictive as it's the only way you can have friends and people loving you and everything works out their so u carry on in life on ato pilot and live in a fantasy land in your head
Reminds me of the Shatter me book series and of the character I'm writing about 🥺
Am.i the only one that can see and litterally hear jade west from victorious in this
Nick Adams me too
OMG YESSS
The girl even looks like Jade
“There’s no one else”
*cough* until book two..
Oh dang I was surprised to find out this song was for a book series that i own on my shelves! Should i read it?
From what book is this?
@@georgiamegaludi5876 Shatter Me series
Who else listened to this on replay? Just me?
Okay...
I love this song and I have a happy life. That song hit me so very emotionally.
Wow wow wow wow🖤🖤
This would be even more amazing as a metal song
If you are reading this, and feeling like you can't get out of addiction or you don't have anymore reason to get out,
I've been there. I lost almost everything because of addiction. I tried suicide.
I just want to say "Please try. Please don't give up."
"If it's hard to do it alone, ask for help from people who mean the most to you."
"You can do it."
I go to detox/treatment for Fent on Monday… please pray I stay alive this weekend
This song is literally so real to me on a whole new level
The way the video itself ended was GENIUS combined with the subject matter and composition oh my GODS
I've become addicted to your music and the sound of your voice
This resonates with my BPD so much. Goosebumps and butterflies. You're incredible. ❤
My God, I've been trying to remember this song for so, so long. I finally found it!
I got here through the vortex, started with Florence + the machine and somehow ended up here. Glad I did though, hauntingly beautiful and incredibly agonizing, truly amazing music moves the soul and this does just that.
Another great song by Beth! By the way, am I the only one noticed that end of the song the girl(Beth) gets up and looks at us? I'm scared a little bit.
Spoiler...
"I would do anything for you."
The voice echoed across the rooftop. Ciel didn't even have to turn around to know who the voice belonged to.
"Sebastian. Why are you here?"
The hurt was visible in the demon's voice when he spoke again. "Why am I here? I'm supposed to keep you safe, that's why I'm here. Our contract-"
"Stuff the contract. You kept me safe, but not safe enough."
"What do you mean, not safe enough?"
"You forced me to face my past, my own demons. I've gone through so much Hell with you. It was demons that started all this, and now they're going to be the reason I end it."
The accusation was met with moments of silence. Then, an arm wrapped around Ciel's waist. "No, they're not."
Ciel looked back. "Are you disobeying me?"
"You never gave me an order to disobey, my lord. However, dying early is a breach of contract."
"I said, stuff the bloody contract! Is that all you care about? Am I just another soul to you? Sebastian, I scare myself! Okay?!"
"What do you mean?"
"What do I mean? I mean, all these thoughts I have are scaring me! When it is going to be my turn to be assassinated? What if you're not there to save me? One of these days, they're going to kill me and you're not going to be there!"
Silence. Then, a snuffle. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I haven't protected you enough. I had no idea.."
"Oh, you had a bloody idea. You just never chose to do anything about it. And now this is your punishment." Ciel had managed to unwrap one of Sebastian's arms, now he scooted closer to the edge. His feet left the ledge, and all he could hear was the wind rushing past his body and Sebastian screaming his name.
Then, a flutter of wings.
@Maddie Mae :)
So I'm just surprised you don't want to talk to me about it but that's ok.
@@kylespurling4898I'm sorry, i only just saw your comment!
Not much of a dystopian person, but my coworker was raving on how good Shatter Me is and that I need to give it a chance. I'm gonna start book 1 this week. I hope I'll like it. Wish me luck!
I think that we find this song exactactly when we need it in our life. Thank you Beth 👌
Shatter Me
i scare myself when fall in love
and then I would be heart broken again😌
My desire to ice skate to this song or even run through the woods its overwhelming such an amazing song
i'm speechless. this song, the lyrics, are absolutely gorgeous. her voice is literally perfect. ahh.
I Love This Song!
I Though It Was A Picture Until The Girl Moves (OMG! That Scare Me)
Beth, YOU ARE AMAZING. Its a wonder you aren't even more popular. I can't stop listening to your songs. Thank you for making these amazing songs! I use these for character theme songs, so hopefully people will come here to enjoy your music ^-^
It really brings me feels of Juliette Ferrars in Shatter Me book series. At least how she is in the first two tomes. A beautiful song indeed, with meanings that can visibly speak to many.
Beth deserves more views❤️ she sings my soul anthem in her songs❤️❤️❤️
This song is so beautiful ❤
Τhats a replay button 0:00
Thank me later guys
If you feel like all hope is lost...
It's not, you are so much stronger then you think
Out of all the times I've listened to this song this is the first time I've started crying while listening to it