My Story: Mental Health
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- čas přidán 24. 07. 2024
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I really really hope this video helps some of you guys. I'm sorry if it upsets or offends any of you, that was not my intention, I just wanted to be honest and share my story so you can se IT DOES GET BETTER. My contact details are below, I love hearing from you guys! Love to you all
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your advice videos help me so much! Im actually going through such a rough patch at the moment and even like 2 years ago when you spoke about it on instagram, it helped me, you're amazing maddie xx
+marieroseeee ahhh can't believe that, I've always tried to be open and i'm so glad its helped- stay strong lovely, i'm always here if you need xx
Maddie you're the most underrated CZcamsr. You don't get near enough credit for the help you give people including myself. Best thing I ever did was subscribe to your channel and watched your videos and learned so much powerful advice from such a strong gorgeous girl! Keep doing what you're doing xx
+Megan Floody ahhh thank you SO much! thats so lovely of you xxx
This is such a brave thing to do Maddie! I think having mental health issues can be blown out of proportion massively due to the fact that people can be harsh about other peoples stories and can be pretty negative about it. In no way am I saying that its good having a mental health problem but its a individual problem which a lot of people face! You have told the truth, you've been positive and you've been incredibly repsectful to peoples feelings. This is such an inspiring thing to do and if this helps anyone I am super happy to be part of your little family here on youtube!! I love you so much xxxxx
this and the other video you did help so much, really helps to know others go through things that you think youre alone in. really brave of you to share personal information just to help others and its really appreciated! you seem so happy and healthy its so wonderful xxx
this is the first video of yours that i have ever watched entirely and i found it weirdly comforting to realise that I'm not alone. literally everything from your parents not noticing, to the diagnosis's taking years to actually properly being recognised reflected my life and what i have been through, so thank you for sharing that and i am so happy you're on the path to recovery. you're beautiful and amazing and i wish you all the best xx
Your videos are so helpful for me. I've dealt with/am dealing with some of the things that you mentioned in your video and it's so nice to see someone talk openly about it and show people that they're not alone, which is so important. I was always made to feel alone, so these videos are such a big help to me, and so many others. Hope you're doing well xxx
I had terrible depression and I'm nearly 15 and it happened for about 1 and a half years but seemed like forever it was horrible self harm was a massive problem for me too. Only a couple of months I've been clean. Your so strong maddie:) this video also helped x
This takes so much to guts to say everything you've been through, I'm so glad you have raised so much awareness of mental health I have no doubt you've helped so many people, so thank you ♥️
thank you again maddie, you always do such a great job helping people even if its just you describing what you've gone through. much love xx
+Janie Christensen thank you so much xx
God Bless you! I know you filmed this video a while ago... It's very powerful and I pray you only become happier and happier xo
You're honestly so brave! you've done so well through everything and you should be proud of yourself!!. You're gorgeous Maddie! - I'm so proud of you! Xxx
Maddie you are amazing. These videos are so inspiring and I don't think you realise how much people actually do look up to you, and thats the most amazing part. These videos show people that they are not alone and that they are worth help and that recovery is possible. I LOVE YOU GIRL. Keep doing what you're doing xx
+Carly Gibney thank you so so much beautiful 💗
So amazing to hear your story, so brave of you to do a video like this. Thankyou maddie x
I have so much respect for you sharing your story Maddie. Stay strong!! Xx
+tizzy0987 thank you!xx
You're fantastic, Maddie. So inspirational. Thank you for being brave and opening up to help so many others
+Jennie Hard thank you so much, my pleasure 💗
This is an incredible video Maddie. It's so brave, and inspiring of you to speak so openly about your story, and that's something that I really do admire about you. You have done yourself and all of us so incredibly proud. I love you always beautiful. Keep on fighting
+Jade Millard thank you so much ahhh I have tears in my eyes! I will I will 💗
I've been subscribed for a long time and I just wanted to say I found this really inspiring. You've been through a lot and it makes me proud to see you like this now! Love you Maddie! ❤️
+Freyja Dawson Thank you so much lovely 💗
I had tears in my eyes listening to you, you have such a strong personality! Thanks for sharing your story Maddie, I'm really happy you're getting better xx
+Luana - Thank you so much xx
This is incredible, you are so brave to put yourself out there in order to try and help other people.
You're absolutely fabulous!💕
+Tomini Adegun (Styled in Secret) aw thank you so much!💗
This is amazing Maddie! Videos like this really help people who don't suffer from mental illnesses gain an insight into everything about it all. This hit home with me but after watching this, I feel one hundred times better. You're a true inspiration Maddie. You've given me the courage that I never thought I had. Keep soldiering on! I for one know that I'm immensely proud of you 😘
+Charlie Mercer Thank you so so much, I am SO glad that this helped 💗
These videos help me so much to explain and deal with my own mental issues! I've been following you on Instagram for over a year now and I'm going through a rough patch now and these videos just help me do much! Stay strong and all the best xxx
+wardlexx thank you! I'm so glad to hear this! stay strong lovely, always here xx
So much respect maddie👏🏼 you always have a smile on your face but despite that this really must of took some courage to talk personally about this topic. Thank you maddie! Xx
+Anna chel My pleasure, I'm doing it for all of you. Thank you so much!!!xx
I just found your channel moments ago while I was watching Stevie Miller's channel and listening to her tell her mental health story. I just want to say thank you to you as well for being so open and discussing such a touch subject. I suffer from anxiety, depression and sometimes panic attacks. Its really nice to hear about other peoples experiences and see how they cope. I'm glad you're getting better. Please make more videos.
+misskogan my absolute pleasure :)
This video is so inspiring and it's great to see how far you have come and how determined you are to help others! Amazing video maddie x
+Alice Miller thank you so much x
Cannot explain how much you have helped me in so many ways! Keep going and thank you for being an incredible role model💗💗
+poppy abbott wow, it's my absolute pleasure- I'm so glad I have 💗
I can relate to what you've been through so much. You're such an inspiration and I'm so happy that you've shared your story 💗
+FloBella 💗
Thanks so much for sharing your story. It's amazing how far you have come xx
+Diane Matthews 💗
This video was fantastic babe, I feel so terrible that you struggled so much without support. I know what that's like & no one really understands how hard it is. Your so beautiful & such an inspiration xxx
+shell leitch thank you so much lovely, I hope you're doing okay now xxx
thank you for making this video it helped me so much,your a very strong person and your amazing,ily
+MDE saved (me) 💗
This video is so so inspiring! I'm very happy for you and the amazing person you have become! So brave☺️💗
+TheLifeOfLauren thank you!!💗
Hi Maddie! I've been watching your videos for a while, and followed you on social media throughout this time as well. I've watched you on this crazy journey that you're on and I'm honestly so incredibly proud of how far you've come. Everyday you achieve so much and stay so strong. You're a true inspiration to people out there with mental health problems because you show people that the best is yet to come. To be honest, I just really want to thank you for sharing this story with your viewers, I think it's really helpful for people to understand this and for the stigma to be removed from it. You should be proud of what you've achieved, you're grown so much and gained so much from what you've experienced even though I know how hard it is has been for you.
I love you and your videos, carry on being a true inspiration and role model for all those watching. Xxxx
+Amie Fraser Thank you so so much. I'm so glad that message came across because thats exactly what I want to show! I'm hoping that the stigma is reducing every time I speak out about it. I'm just glad i can help xxxx
Love you Maddie, this helped a lot. Stay Strong xx
It's great you are raising awareness, your story has touched me you are such a lovely person!
+LJ Popsey thank you so much!
With the ease you talk about your mental health history, in my mind is how you change stigma. The stigma is, the conversation is too heavy and hard to talk and listen, so for you to do it with such ease, is how stigma changes. Hats off to you!
I've been following you on social media for such a long time now and its amazing to see how far you've come - i remember the old floral accounts and charity shop loving days☺️ So proud of you! 💗Your advice videos really do help, i think it makes such a difference to hear it from someone who knows exactly what its like and has (sadly) been through the same, than from someone who just has to assume what its like. It took me a long while to open up to someone about what i was going through but i feel like i've really shut myself away again and i can see myself going back down the same road. Seems much harder for me to pull myself up a second time round. I don't trust people enough to tell them anymore (turns out some people were just nosey the first time). I've isolated myself so much that its hard to find someone to tell. Could you maybe do an an updated anxiety video? (if you've learnt anymore tips/things that help since your last one) - anxiety is literally my biggest issue right now and is totally spiralling out of control, like i don't have a job because of it and that in turn has made my depression/SH issue so much worse. Honestly though, this was such a helpful video, thank you for doing it! 💗
Wow. You're such an inspiration maddie! This video would have helped a lot of people out there. I am so happy you're in a much better place now. You're such a beautiful, kind soul inside and out 💙 keep doing what you're doing chick xo.
+Dani Corrigan wow, thank you so much 💗💗
Hi Maddie, I really admire you for posting this. I was an inpatient for 10 months in 2013/14 (I was suffering with psychosis among other things that wouldn't go away when my psychotic symptoms did, if that makes sense!) and I totally relate to not feeling connected to anything/one. I was horrible to my family away and completely pushed them away, looking back now, it breaks my heart that I cared so little about myself and my happiness and them. Like you said, there is this whole world of units and so many aspects of mental illness/hospitals that people just don't know about until it affects them or someone they know. Lots of love and I'm so happy to hear how far you've come- you should be proud of yourself xx
+Molly Stanley thank you so much, i'm so glad you were able to relate (but not glad you've been suffering too) We can't be held accountable for things that our illnesses influenced us to do, luckily families are very understanding and forgiving! stay strong lovely xx
Mental health is such a serious issue, thank you for sharing your story, it's inspirational. I try to see my scars, whether they're visible or not, as where I used to be and where I am now and how far I've come xx
+Charlotte Reid aw thank you lovely! Thats so good- they are part of your journey and you should be proud of how far you've come xx
Your such an inspiration, I'm so happy I found this channel❤️
Can I just say that you have the most beautiful eye color! Thank you for sharing your experience, it is so brave of you to do it. I suffer from Anxiety and OCD and it is always good to hear others stories, and know that I am not alone in this struggle with my mind. xx
but will she bank her looks yet or hold out for something more?
You are amazing!! You're are such an inspiration, stay strong
i love you so much maddie and i enjoyed watching this so much, you really do help X
As soon as you mentioned Lola helping you I burst out crying cos I've just got a puppy to help me and he really does make me so much happier
+theyoungbandits they're the best 💗
A really interesting thing you said was like you're now moulding yourself into who you want to be. I definitely feel that. I no longer look at the mistakes and negative things from the past. More and more I look at the future and what's possible for me. It really sucks and is all too common that people like yourself have bad experiences with doctors and therapists when they seek help. I never trusted doctors or therapists and when things like that happen it only makes it so much worse. Your story is really eye opening especially for people who don't understand self harm like myself. You're helping so many people. Thanks for your support with my mental health project as well. You are an amazing human being!
aw thank you so much!
thats always nice to thank people wd, imagine im on alot of pills, sounds kinda normal, instead of on caffeine sounds like im taking the p***, everyones f***** as lone as big chemicals companies making a killing selling these pills to everyone.... adam and eve didn't need pills, one day you'll know these people use tricks to sell their profitable pills, if you tell the truth, it's you against the most profitable business in the world.... pills... for sneaky tricks... ( it might make sense... when you're like really old and finally work it all out) just keep it to yourself, i get stinked often, laundry bills... i get out of it, these dumb dumb want money for drugging me up, well i feel angry, a reason to make things right, gets me out of bed. Anyone trying to make money out of me. Makes me very angry.
I have so much respect for you speaking so openly. Keep going x
Scars show you were strong enough to overcome everything life has thrown at you! Your so strong maddie!!!!!
Such a helpful video Maddie! I relate to it so much and I think a lot of other people will too! xx
+Holly White 💗💗💗
love u mads thank u for this and thank u for talking to me on Instagram as well. glad to see ppl are getting better 😍💕✨
+lesleyaxox 💗💗
hmu at anytime bbz 1 day I may see you in the street 😍😍😍
Thank you!! You literally help me become someone who I never thought I could become I believe in my self a lot more now and it's really hard because I don't have a mum so it's very difficult for me to explain my self harm and suicide attempts stories to my gradmum or aunt and that really affects my school grades because I'm so focused on negative things instead of positive things so thank you so much and I love your stories I feel like if I was to ever see you we would have so much to talk about because your literally amazing and we can open up to each other and that's a nice feeling to developer so thank you and I love you so much bbg
Aw wow you are so strong Maddie!♡ Btw that lipstick is gorgeous😍Xxx
+Emma Lewis thank you lovely xxx
This is going to sound so weird to say, but this was an amazing video for me to watch. Its sometimes just good to know that you aren't alone and that other people have felt and feel how you do. A lot of times people who feel like this feel like they are alone and that no one understands how they feel. Its nice to know that you arent alone and a complete freak. Thank you for making this video xx
+It's Me Hollie you're most definitely not alone, I'm so glad you found it helpful x
love you Maddie stay strong❤️
+Cate Lloyd 💗
Your so wonderful Maddie. Brilliant video - good for you I no it must have taken everything for you to do if! ❤️
+Alice Romer thank you my gorgeous 💗
Thank you for sharing this. I cried so much for you but after all of that I felt better about my situation xx
I love you so much Maddie!! I self harm and I'm trying to stop as I had to have a blood test and the nurse saw and it made me want to stop also I told my mum and she told me to stop attention seeking which I'm not and she doesn't understand it
it is brave of you to talk openly about this. I'm glad you're not afraid to
Ok firstly I love your videos, you're an amazing person for doing this for people and it makes me happier to see that you're doing better even though I don't know you :) secondly, literally on Friday I had to go to the doctors for a follow up appointment as instructed by CAMHS, and they told me that I should think about counselling but I don't want to go to a counsellor, so they gave me a leaflet for italk... I obviously don't want to go with italk now after remembering why I recognised the name, but so many people say I should get counselling... I don't know what to do! xx
oh my god, i can't tell you how happy i am that you are getting better now! someone as lovely as you doesn't deserve to go through any of the terrible things you had to experience (not that anyone does haha), but i really hope things just look up from here :) you are honestly so brave putting your story out on the internet like this, but i know it's gonna help a lot of people!
+cherylcolerox100 thank you so much x
oh my goodness, thank YOU so much for replying! made my week :') x
Love you millions Maddie & so proud of you xxxxxxxx
It's great like person like yourself is raising awareness! I'm trying to do the same and break the silence that is surround with mental health
Stay happy maddie☺️💗
Love you my superstar, you're amazing and I'm so glad to hear that you are doing so well. Miss you xxxxx
+Amelia Hope love you 💗
Your so me I've gone through the exact same situation so refreshing to hear how open you are xxx
such an inspirational video Maddie! You're amazing 💖 I've been dealing with anxiety for quite a while now, and atm I'm so so anxious about getting a job. I really do want a job for experience and also I need the money, but I'm just so anxious as I have an interview for one. But then if I don't have a job I'm equally as anxious because I know I need one. I really don't know what to tell myself to make me go for it 🤐😣 xxx
It's so important to get help, I looked after my mum who had depression for four years and towards the end of her having depression, I got it, but I didn't tell anyone I just self harmed, and people say it doesn't help, but it does. It's not a solution but it helped for a bit, then I met my boyfriend and he was like, why though, you have everything to look forward to, and that jump started something in my brain and i've not self harmed in 3 years. It's really important to share, but sometimes this isn't always to your parents. :)
you really do help a lot off people with these videos! 😘😊💚 thank you! x
+Eliana sa 💗
+themaddiebruce thank you for replying!! you made my day x 😍🙈😘
I suffer from depression & my biggest trigger is definitely relationships, my fiancé has just broken it off with me which I had feared coming for a while, I honestly didn't know how to take it & remember watching a video of yours where you mentioned a relationship & then searched & found this video, I do feel like it has helped me, so thank you very much for posting something so personal!
This video is so helpful. 😣 it's just so good for me right now. I feel just like you all the time. Thank you so much. My family don't understand either 😭😭. It just feels like we're the same person. Thanks maddie so much for making the video.. 😘
+Zara Star I'm so glad it helped!
I am an avid #MentalHealthAwareness advocate and performer, and I love this so much. I travel the country trying to bring that awareness on stages, in classrooms, hospitals, and on my CZcams channel, so I get excited when I see other advocates. 💙❤
1 year clean in February:)
Love u maddie. U are an inspiration ♥️👑
+Faye Grimes thank you 💗
You're great Maddie 💗
+Lily Harper as are you gorgeous 💗
Thank you for sharing! I went through a similar experience. My teenage years were pure pain and despair. I was losing my identity slowly but surely (due to anxiety disorder, severe depression, ED), but also because I receive bad treatments at psych ward and it went further down from there. I just wish no one has to go through what I went through in the future :O I am now rebuilding my identity :)
I can relate so much i started around the same age one of my close friends told a teacher who told my mum. I got worst through my exams i ended up having panic attcks in every exam especially as i had a car crash in the middle of them to and i havent got my gcse results yet and i know i cant change them but im stressing out about them and still selfharm i always put myself down and always feel that im not good enough im too scared to ask for help i know i shouldnt be but i am. Watching this video has made me feel alot better so thank you soooo much xx
I watch your videos from France and I love you, you're very strong congrats you're a very good personn 👌💜
Yoo. I kind of just found out about you because of Marieroseeee, and you’re such a sweetheart :)) ! Your videos are inspiring and helpful, and I appreciate you ♥️. July 26th will mark me being 4 months clean ☺️. And because of you and others sharing your mental health stories, so many people feel less alone in their journeys/struggles. I love you a lot
Love You So Much Mad😊💜
+Rachael Butler 💗
I have anxiety and just started my channel, trying to get my channle knowen so i can share my story. I strongly relate to your story thank you for making this video not many people are able to speak out.
Great Maddie ♥♥
I have been struggling with my demons
God be with us
+Shorouk Gamal 💗
+themaddiebruce I cant believe you replied thank you so much ♥♥♥♥♥♥
Thank you so much for sharing this. I suffer from depression and anxiety and used to self harm, too. I also had some eating issues. Unfortunately in America, Mental health isn't taken all that seriously and our system is very broken. I have my own horror story when I was at rock bottom. Anyway, thank you for sharing. It means a lot to know that I'm not alone.
Thank you themaddiebruce, you are very brave xxx
You are amazing!!! 😃 did you meet jodie through CZcams or through mental health?? Such a inspirational girl
+Thelightside 〈3 thank you! through youtube x
love you 🎀
Well done maddie, you're beautiful and very strong xx
+clara mccarthy thank you lovely xx
I suffer from bipolar disorder and panic disorder with agoraphobia. I have also been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder too, which I honestly don't really know what to think about it tbh... When I was 16 I asked my mom for a dog for Christmas to help with my depression and loneliness and at first she was like NO absolutely not. Well she went behind my back and started looking up puppies online and came across a female chinese shar pei. She fell in LOVE with her. At that point she knew that she had to get her for me. So a week or so after Christmas passed she was telling me she wanted me to go on a trip with her and my grandma and I didn't trust it at all because the last time they asked me to go on a "trip" they fooled me into going to the mental hospital when I was very ill and psychotic. So since I didn't trust going with them my mom had to break the news to me instead of it being a surprise and told me we were going to go on a trip to get a puppy. Omg I cannot even tell you. I will never forget the moment I saw my sweet babygirl Azyia (pronounced Asia, what I named her)... She was the last pup and she went and hid underneath the kitchen table and I told her "It's okay baby, no reason to be scared." She had seen all of her other brothers and sisters taken away so I think she knew what was up. I then picked her up and she clung to me and it was just like an instant bond. Since that day she has not left my side. She is my best friend. She has helped tremendously with my depression. Of course there is no real cure, but it is SO comforting just to have her by my side. She is now 8 years old and since shar pei's typically do not have as long of a life span as other dogs it scares me... I can't imagine losing her and I just want her to live as long as possible! She is my side kick and so laid back, easy going, with attitude, stubborn, and a lot like me in many ways lol I adore her!
BPD is always the hardest mental illness to diagnose, they can't technically diagnosed you with it until you're over 18 (not sure why) but anyway I'd been struggling with depression anxiety and 'relationships with people' since I was about 17 and they wouldn't look further into it except give me therapy and medication. I'm turning 21 next month and they've only just told me too that I have BPD. I'm annoyed that I've only just been told because I could have been getting help for that for so long in the sense of having that instead of other treatment that hasn't really been helping. I wish they could diagnose people at a younger age because it's not fair to have to go through this for so long and not actually get the right sort of help to sort of 'make things better'. But I suppose that's just how mental health is portrayed. I'm starting DBT in a couple months after many many assessments. Hopefully it'll be the start of a new path and for things to get better and for you too! x
I know exactly what you mean, I'm 14 and I've been self harming since I was 12 and I've been diagnosed with depression and panic disorder but I'm also apparently showing extremely strong symptoms of bpd but my local mental health providers don't want to diagnose me with it (obviously) because of my age, they've even said I very well could have it and be diagnosed with it when I'm 18 but because I'm so young they aren't doing anything with it
They wont diagnose you before youre an adult because they dont want to misdiagnose you since there are other factors that could influence you. They want to be sure.
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this is so admirable maddie! this has helped me see its not only me going through this. my scars are part of me now and its hard. ive never told anyone apart from my bestfriends who noticed them on my leg in PE then shes been by my side ever since. i get sucicidal thoughts and ive tried to kill myself once but i stopped myself. i just want to say thank you for being so amazing i love you💖xxx
+Lucy Allen (LucyAllenMusic) thank you so much, you're definitely not alone. Ah thats amazing that that your best friend has been so supportive! i'm glad you stopped yourself- stay strong 💗
+themaddiebruce thank you. you too stay strong💖 love you❤❤❤
I have just gotten into/started adult nursing at Southampton Uni, and I love the uni but I don't enjoy the course. I'm not happy on the course and like you, my anxiety has spiralled out of control just by being at uni. I want to quit but I feel like my mum doesn't understand and will feel ashamed of me. Please help :(
I also have been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder around 5 years ago, and my symptoms were almost the same as yours. You are really strong that you made this video and talked about this disease and your struggles with it. Can I have a question? How do your environment as family and friends handle this whole situation? What do you tell them to understand you better? p.s. I love you
+FireElffrost Sorry to hear this. I basically just warn them not to take everything I say so literally because I can say things very impulsively and to just give me time to calm down. I think over time my friends and family have learnt to know when to give me space and when to pester me to try and get me to get out and do stuff instead of hiding away. Its all about trial and error and if you tell them what to do in certain situations they will learn xxx
So inspiring 💕
You are So gorgeous! Really envy your self asteem, love you!
I bet you've watched a lot of homes under the hammer in your time!! Haha thank you for this video! Love you Mads xxx
+Camilla Brooks hahahah yes I must have seen pretty much every episode! my pleasure, glad you liked it xx
love the video you are Awsome stay strong xoxo
So much respect cxx
+LittleMissFlossie 💗
incredible video x
+Hellybom22 thank you x
Great video,very well spoken😜
+Denise Considine thank you x
I've actually had a really good experience with iTalk, although my appointments are face to face!
+Bethany Kershaw Ah thats good to hear!
😭😭😭😭😭 this video is describing me. 😭😭😭😭😫😰😰😰 doing my GCSE xx your so pretty and inspire me.
+Zara Star 💗
how long did you stay on therapy because mine keep calling it quits before I feel ready to stop? Starting group therapy soon and I'm worrying about my anxiety.
+Tea koala I've been to many therapists/psychologists/psychiatrists and still am now :) I actually found group therapy really helpful, I hope it goes well!
thanks for the reply it's nice to know i'm not alone :)
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