"Youre not sad! You're normal! Everyone feels that way" little does my mom know how much i want her words to be true. I dont want to be sad anymore. Im 13.. how can my life be so miserable when im so young!? I just wanna be like everyone else. But thats impossible, trust me. I have tried..
I totally understand you my parents always tell me I'm being dramatic or it's normal. I'm the overachiever if the family valedictorian the "perfect" but I am losing motivation. I get it. Life sucks and I'm so sry this is happening to you
I understand you completely. Its normal to feel how you're feeling. I dont know what you're going thru but its gonna get better trust me. I know you're trying your best and I'm proud of you I really am. Dont give up yet tho. its all gonna be ok you js gotta wait. it might take a long time but trust me it will get better. No matter what happens tho just know that you are not alone nd that you are loved so much. You can do it I believe in you kiddo. Js keep smiling nd dont let anything stop you or get in your way. I know you got this in the bag. js keep your head up nd believe in yourself. you might fall sometimes but dont let it get to you. I know you can do it I know u can. Take care ily.
I hate to look at this a know that it’s so true.. Idek if I trust my cousin anymore. We have the strongest bond and Idek if she’s just ignoring me or if she’s rlly just not realizing I’ve been calling and texting over and over..
nobody love you. Nobody finds you pretty. Nobody will wipe your tears. Nobody will help you feel better. Nobody will help you overcome addiction. Nobody will help you get over your pain. Nobody will call you beautiful. Nobody will call you daily to make sure you’re okay. Hello, my name is Nobody.
I said this to my friend and she slapped me….. “ I could complain on how my mother and father body shame me and love my brothers more, but I don’t go around telling people that ‘my mom hits me’ like you do….. Why lie to their face when your parents spoil you?”
200 reasons to stay alive.. 1.your family 2. your friends 3. the feeling you get when you’ve finished something 4. the feeling you get when you get a compliment 5. the feeling you get when you buy new clothes 6. the feeling you get when you try on new clothes 7. the feeling you get when youre room is tidy 8. the feeling you get when youre laughing hesterically. 9. the feeling you get when you make a new friend 10. the feeling you get when you make someone smile 11. you’d have to watch your family and friends grieve. 12. you’ve never been to that place you always wanted to visit. 13. you’ve never been to disney world. 14. you’ve never been skinny dipping. 15. you’ve never swam in a lake. 16. you’ve never met your idol. 17. you haven’t gotten married. 18. you’ve never decorated your own house. 19. you will never save someone’s life. 20. you haven’t learnt to drive. 21. there is music you haven’t listen too. 22. you have so many more people to meet. 23. everyone who thought you’d do well in life, would have been wrong. 24. the people who said you’d end up no where, would have been right. 25. all the fake people would pretend to like u and post u on their stories. 26. you would have been the best mom or dad. 27. you haven’t lived the ‘my funeral will be packed’ type of life. 28. your friends would suffer. 29. your mum would never be able to walk into your room. 30. you haven’t apologised to people you have hurt. 31. someone loves you. 32. you are not alone. 33. i’m here for you. 34. the clothes you’re buried in might be gross. 35. you haven’t truly loved yourself yet. 36. suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems. 37. you haven’t watched your kids open their christmas presents. 38. you haven’t watched your kids grow older. 39. the pain you feel right now, isn’t forever. 40. there are so many foods you haven’t tried. 41. you’ll never get the feeling of walking into a warm building on a cold day. 42. finding your person. 43. really soft pillows. 44. eating pizza with your kids and partner. 45. you will never be able to dance in the rain. 46. you will never kiss anyone in the rain 47. there are so many hobbies you haven’t tried. 48. you’ll never have a sleepover with your best friend again. 49. your friends would blame themselves. 50. your mom's smile. 51. your best friend's laugh. 52. your sibling(if y have one) would lose her/his best friend. 53. your cousins that look up to you. 54. hot chocolate on cold days. 55. ice water on hot days. 56. getting a tan. 57. hearing ‘i love you’. 58. not being able to sleep the night before and exciting day. 59. your birthday. 60. you’ve probably never been to a nightclub. 61. long hot showers. 62. long steamy baths. 63. freshly shaved legs. 64. perfectly smooth hair. 65. watching people trip over small objects. 66. you could have a huge impact on someone’s life. 67. you would regret dying. 68. you can’t change your mind once you're gone. 69. you wake up everyday for a reason. 70. stars. 71. you will always be enough. 72. movies that make you feel warm when they’re over. 73. reading powerful quotes. 74. genuine smiles. 75. the crunch of autumn leaves. 76. christmas. 77. christmas eve. 78. decorating the tree. 79. long meaningful hugs. 80. sunsets. 81. ice cream. 82. you will never get your favourite puppy. 83. you are so brave, it would be a waste to let the fire go. 84. rainbows. 85. travelling to new places. 86. funny stories. 87. funny jokes. 88. inside jokes. 89. coffee. 90. your talents would go to waste. 91. the feeling you get when you’re truly happy. 92. all nighters with friends. 93. cuddling. 94. reconnecting with old friends and family. 95. smiling. 96. capturing perfect moments on camera. 97. swimming on a hot day. 98. feeling cozy in blankets. 99. helping other people with the same thing you got help with. 100! becoming successful. 101. cute babies. 102. cute old people. 103. love stories that make you jealous. 104. telling crazy stories. 105. watching lightning. 106. watching rain. 107. star gazing. 108. recovery. 109. melted chocolate. 110. freshly baked cookies. 111. late night adventures. 112. overcoming fears. 113. sunday mornings. 114. friday mornings. 115. you’ll be dead, forever. 116. you will make a difference to people. 117. picnics with friends. 118. waking up late. 119. waking up late and ending up being on time. 120. to prove them wrong. 121. to prove them you can. 122. to prove you're strong. 123. to love and be loved. 124. the ocean. 125. pets. 126. very loud music. 127. days out. 128. finishing a book. 129. conversations that just flow. 130. learning new things. 131. you are important. 132. you are wanted. 133. mistakes. 134. snow. 135. sun. 136. flowers. 137. flowers that look gorgeous but smell gross. 138. new bed sheets. 139. new home decor. 140. roller coasters. 141. theme parks. 142. smiling at strangers. 143. random acts of kindness. 144. the sound of water. 145. visiting a place from your childhood. 146. to look back on all the things you got yourself through on your own. 147. to feel proud. 148. reassurance. 149. cute nicknames. 150. long stares that make you feel loved. 151. meaningful gifts. 152. blowing out candles. 153. meeting online friends in real life. 154. success. 155. to work the job you always wanted. 156. the live the life you dreamt of. 157. babies smiling. 158. sleep. 159. tea. 160. breaking rules. 161. dreams. 162. the last day of school/work. 163. taking pictures. 164. brownies. 165. bubbles. 166. water slides. 167. holidays. 168. to fall asleep on someone. 169. to feel protected. 170. to grow taller. 171. to grow stronger. 172. to grow old. 173. to make memories you’ll cherish. 174. to laugh at old pictures. 175. to be loved by a pet. 176. the first signs of summer. 177. the first signs of autumn. 178. the first signs of winter. 179. the first signs of spring. 180. to binge watch a series. 181. to live independently. 182. to get somewhere in life all by yourself. 183. to not have broken any promises. 184. to fulfill your promises. 185. to breathe. 186. so you can tell your children stories of when you was there age. 187. so say you’re alive. 188. to know you’re stronger than you think. 189. falling in love. 190. you will never be able to snuck out again or for the first time. 191. you’ve never not smashed your phone. 192. staying up all night. 193. you are a kind soul. 194. you have a warm heart. 195. you care for others. 196. the smell of pancakes. 197. when you walk over frosty grass. 198. you haven't truly apologized to all the people you've hurt 199. i love you. 200! to say you made it. anyone reading this, please know you are not alone and I love every single one of you. things are hard right now i know. you’ll get over it I promise. nothing lasts forever.❤
Whoever you are. You just saved my life..im not kidding. I was about to end it here: 9:47 right there. Until i finished reading this. I love you and will always remember this.
@@Lotus-chu thanks for staying. Thank you. The world needs you. Whether or not you think it does, you are needed. Whether you’re needed now, or in the future, you are needed. ❤❤❤
My parents always say 'you can tell us about your problems'. When I tell them about my problems, they say, 'You're a teenager, everyone feels like you.' I'm sorry when I can't tell them about a problem later but it's apocalypse at home. About 2 years ago, my friend fell from the roof and died... Sometimes I want to say to my parents, 'Look how miserable her family is and how guys want to feel like this.' but if I say, a fist comes from the right and a slap from the left. if you have read thanks.
"I saw them standing right there, kinda thought they might care" pov: me sobbing loudly and having a mental breakdown, me knowing for a fact my parents hear me and aren't doing anything-
I was 6 standing in the recess yard It was snowing The wind was cold My friends cheering My head was up looking at the sky As I asked God to give me more snowflakes Let me run alone in snow again Feeling my body burn because of frostbites Let me feel alive again.
@@somebodywho_see7940 thanks ! yes, it’s based on memories of primary school I had. In France we don’t have much snow anymore, I live in Paris and it haven’t snowed like in my childhood for years. I miss it
I’m proud of you for waking up. I’m proud of you for brushing your hair. I’m proud of you for blinking. I’m proud of you for breathing. I’m proud of you for making your bed. I’m proud of you for eating. I’m proud of you for TRYING to eat. I’m proud of you for drinking water. I’m proud of you for being here. I’m proud of you for being you. I’m proud of you for smiling. I’m proud of you for continuing on even when things are difficult for you. I’m proud of you for standing up. I’m proud of you for blinking. I’m proud of you for getting out of bed after spending the whole day in bed. I’m proud of you for brushing your teeth. I’m proud of you for standing up. I’m proud of you for sitting down. I’m proud of you for defending yourself. I’m proud of you for believing in yourself. I’m proud of you for simply trying. I’m proud of you for being alive. IM PROUD OF YOU.
You know, I used to read these comments that say "oh dont worry i love you, you will get better". You know those types of comments, i used to read them thinking "idc" and "this doesnt even help me or do anything for me" but now i read them in tears because i just really needed to hear that. all I want to do sometimes is sream as loud as I can and just tell somebody my problems and just be able to even put whats wrong with me into even just words but i cant do that
Dear person whoever reads this, Hey, you, yes, I am talking right to you. I hope you will see yourself with the eyes I see you one day, because I can tell you have some awesome music taste :) You’re such a beautiful human being and worth and enough. I hope you know that you do only need yourself to be happy, I know society build up the standard that whenever you’re alone you’re not living a happy live. But in fact that is not true, if you start to realize that you actually deserve all the good things happening to you, you will treat yourself a lot nicer. I hope you let yourself rest, don’t beat yourself up over past mistakes, over regret, and over everything your mind wants to destroy you. I wish I could remove all those demons inside of your head because you deserve to feel happy. If you ever feel lonely then watch the sky, because you know, someone, at the same time is watching the sky too, maybe feeling the same way..I am glad you exist and I hope you won’t ever remove your own spot in this world, maybe you don’t feel like you belong here but, Angel, then build your home here. I don’t want you to leave this world unhappy. I want you to live every little second, I want you to feel alive, I don’t want you to see yourself just existing. You deserve it. Whatever happened, it’s not your fault, the demons in your head recognize that you have a beautiful heart, they want to take it because they have never seen such beautiful heart as yours, so why let them win over you? . You’re not selfish for isolating yourself, but you deserve to talk to someone. If you’re reading this than please never forget to breath and smile. Don’t live up to other standards! It’s your story and not theirs. Life for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one. I love you and send you hugs. You’re so strong, you’re still here, and I am proud of you. YOU ARE NOT USELESS. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE WORTH IT. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE LOVED. READ THAT AGAIN. I AM GLAD YOU EXIST. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE NOT A PROBLEM. YOU ARE HUMAN AND YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE NOT BEING DRAMATIC. You’re not a burden to anyone, don’t be afraid to talk, to use your voice. You’re beautiful inside out. Your body is beautiful the way it is. Please don’t starve yourself. Please eat, I know it’s hard but you deserve food. You deserve to eat and drink. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. READ THAT AGAIN. I WISH I COULD HUGH YOU RIGHT NOW, SO A VIRTUAL HUG WILL DO. It hurts me to see you’re in pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I love u I love u I love u I love u I love u please don’t go. I am sorry that no one is hearing you, I am sorry no one is noticing that you have lost yourself. I wish I could take your pain away, it hurts me to see the pain in your eyes. I love you trough my words and I mean it. I just want you to stay, hold on a little longer okay? Please? For me.?? I hope you have an awesome day/ morning/ evening/ night. If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you. If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits. If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed. And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re stronger than you think, I know you will make it :) Now wipe those tears away and smile for me, you really don’t know much a smile can brighten someone’s day, do you? I hope one day yours will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world. Remember crying is not weakness, let it out as much as you can but don’t let the emotion control you by giving up. It’s okay, you’re here, you’re safe, you can let it out. Did anyone asked you, how you are feeling today? If not, how are you really? I don’t think you’re doing good, but you will feel good at one point. Don’t give yourself up. I am sorry you feel misunderstood. But anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :). Enough with beating up yourself for today, okay?! - The stranger that cares about you more than anything. I hope this is enough for you to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. I hope you can stay. This is your sign to stay and treat yourself with love, you deserve it. And in case no one told you today, again, I am so proud of you. I hope you will remember my words :) Until tomorrow, my friend :) If you want to talk to me more my discord is Bora#0501
I can’t even express how much this helped me even though you are a complete stranger I really needed to hear those words Especially that I'm not dramatic My father sometimes tells me to not be dramatic and that I don't have a reason to cry I relly thank you that you made me feel like my feelings are validated and that I'm not an attation seeker like my dad always says
honestly I dont ever feel like going to school. my best friend just bosses me about, as if she doesnt even care, she thinks everything is about her. I cant even play with other friends anymore and she just uses "if you dont I wont be your friend anymore" as her excuses. i never get any alone time whenever im upset, and she always is lying, she even made me cry by talking about my old friends that hated me and how she was them.
I know how this feels because I’m in the same situation with one of my friends. The best advice that I can give to you is try not responding or being a bit more distant. This can be hard because getting out of a friendship like this is difficult (I don’t know if this applys to you but I’m just saying for me it is). Another thing you can do is just be as vague as possible or not respond at all when she asks you questions or just wants to talk. Some of this advice may seem stupid but if you can try this it might help. I think we can both agree that we need better friends and that I hope one day soon you’ll find someone who clicks with you. I hope everything goes well love :) ♥♥♥♥♥
Hey I know how you feel because I'm in the same situation you could say considering she's already left me but I can still see her. Leave her she doesn't deserve you! Tell her how you feel if you hadn't already. She's probably going to get mad but ignore that. You can cry, let your emotions come out. It's ok to cry. After she'll surely say she doesn't want to be your friend anymore. If not, tell her yourself. It's alright if you don't say much that's completely fine. What I mean abt saying how you feel I mean that don't say anything sensitive especially if they could use that against you. Just say things she can't use on you. After you've done that do what you love. Eat a snack,watch a move,take a walk,even stay up longer if you want! The only thing I'll say about staying up is still get some rest! I hope your doing better! - a stranger from the Internet that loves you❤
Okay, just incase anybody needed to hear this... i love your smile i love your laugh i love your personality i love your hair (or lack thereof) i love you even if you have insecurities i love your accomplishments i love you even if you have failures i love your eyes i love your beauty i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate) i love the way you dance i love you on your happy days i love you even on sad days i love you on the days you feel lonely i love you on the days you feel helpless i love you on the days you feel like no one cares i love you on the days you feel forgotten i love you on the days you feel unmotivated i love you on the days you feel loved i love you on the days you feel sick i love you on the days you feel motivated i love you on the days you feel depressed i love you on the days you feel stressed i love you on the days you feel crazy i love you on the days you feel hopeful i love you on the days you feel cuddly i love you on the days you feel clingy i love you on the days you feel amazing i love you on the days you feel beautiful i love you on the days you feel like a failure i love you on the days you feel angry i love you on the days you feel aggressive i love you on the days you feel horrible i love you on the days you feel safe i love you on the days you feel unsafe i love you on the days you feel vulnerable i love you on the days you feel weird i love you on the days you feel ok i love you when you're healthy i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music) i love your taste in music i love your taste in movies i love your taste in tv shows i love the way you act i love you even if you cry i love you when you're kind i love you even if you you're mean i love you even if you're alone i love you even if you can't feel i love you even if you feel too much i love you even if you can't take life anymore i love you even if you feel like it's too much i love you when you're asleep i love you even if you have nightmares i love you when you have dreams i love how you believe i love you when you believe in yourself i love you even if you don't believe in yourself i love you even if you hate yourself i love you when you love yourself i love the way you think i love you even if you have problems i love your solutions i love how you support i love you even if you're in pain i love you even if you're hurt i love your promises i love your secrets i love your attitude i love you sass i love your creativity i love your voice (or lack thereof) i love you hand gestures i love your stories i love you even if you have wounds i love you even if you have scars i love your face i love your past i love your future i love your present i love your outfits i love your style i love your art i love your honesty i love you even if you lie i love you even if you're tired i love you when you're energetic i love how you look i love how you cook i love you when you're adventurous i love you even if you're scared i love your imperfections i love your perfections i love you even if you worry i love you when you talk (or communicate) i love your opinions i love you even if you have headache i love you even if you have a stomach ache i love you when you help others i love you when you're mature i love you even if you're immature i love you in the hard times i love you in the easy times i love you even if life isn't bright i love you when you're responsible i love you even if you're irresponsible i love you even if you fight i love you in your darkest moments i love you in your brightest moments i love your heart i love you in the day i love you in the night i love you at midnight i love you at 3 am i love you at all times i love you at your best i love even if your worst i love the little things you do i love all of you i love you when you're you i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪.
Didn't know I need this currently for in to a new relationship and my past is getting in the way and I'm currently sitting in uni sobbing to this because I didn't know I needed this message thank you ❤
thank but i broke someones heart and i liked him, i was just not ready and he told me awful things (this was like 12 min ago) can pls somebody help me? im now so broken, even more than in the past :(
I'd love to talk to someone abt the stuff that's troubling me but I don't 'cause I dont want to be a menace so I just isolate from everyone and go listen to playlists like this one and read the comment section. I just find it weirdly comforting.
Why? Why can’t I have what they have? A friend that I’m not awkward around. A friend I feel comfortable with. I close friend. A *best* friend. Why can’t I have that? Why don’t I deserve that? I did everything I could. I am always nice to everyone! So why? Why oh why don’t I deserve that?
You will find them. As long as you hold onto hope you will find them. You know why? Because somewhere in this world there is someone also lonely, feeling socially awkward wishing they could find a best friend. A real friend for all their pains and laught and guess what, they don’t know you yet but you already are on their mind! Someday you two will met and it will feels like you always were together like you always known each others, keep having hope, they also keep hope to meet you one day!
Vent Trigger warning I got in a fight like I often do, but now they bring my mental health into it. They began to yell at me that maybe I should kms and that I’m selfish to even consider it, they tell me I eat like a pig, they call me many heart shattering words. What probably hurt/shocked me most is that these words came from the mother, my creator. The on that was supposed to build me up, protect me, heal. But she never did anything but hurt me. I have no confidence to tell anyone in the real word. It’s all so tiring. I want it all to be over.
hey dude, you're doing amazing still being here after all that, you're so strong and i'm proud whether i am just a teenage girl behind a screen, it's shocking to read this, but to think that anyone js a little less weaker than you could have ended it all already, it shows your strength, you're doing great bud. Imagine your mother's words as crumbs, which means she is doing no damage, i know it's hard but everyone needs YOU here. Keep pushing, We believe in you
Your mom clearly doesn't deserve you, your amazing and you deserve life and happiness, you deserve a smile forever, don't listen to this crap! Your worth so much, soon things will get better....iam sure it will, you could go outside look in the sky or stay in your room with music take deep breaths eat a bite of your favorite snack and start thinking of momments and things that relax you Make happy momments Your beautiful and amazing okay? 💖
Was literally having a mental breakdown in the corner of my room while covered with bruises and cuts after my amazing and loving mom had a talk with me, I really like this playlist!!!! I probably cried even harder while listening to these songs lol
i'm sorry. Did you mean that your mom gave you the bruises and cuts? Or were you being for real and saying you had a loving mom that talked to you? I'm sorry i was confused lol
no matter how hard i try, how much i give, how much i do for people all i get in return are the most hurtful words to me the little things and the words that means nothin to some people get to me and makes me day the worst makes me wanna curl into a ball and cry trying to hold my tears back while listening to them say it to me jst wow amazes me
It will be ok:) you are not alone we are all here for you and we will always be but you will have to be strong for everyone you love just know that there are people out there that care about you even when it doesn't feel like it Stay strong superstar✨
Your good enough....you were always good enough And they were always wrong, you are always right, you deserve so much better Your hard work is worth so much, they should be grateful to have you Your beautiful okay? DONT LISTEN TO THEM PLEASE! YOU MATTER TOO! AND YOUR THE BEST PERSON!!! IAM SURE!!, 💖💖💖💖
Once I opened to my mom,not that I wanted to is just that when I look sad or something she wanted me to tell her.most of the time I am not that see through,I can literally cry hours in my room and when I go out you wouldn't even notice. Once I had enough of her asking for me to open up to her so I told her that I might have depression, anxiety and even Dissociative identity disorder which at the end come to be true.all that she said is that I want attention and that is just a phase I will grow out of it.After 4 years (I was 15 then) I started seeing therapist I had told her every thing I had to go to mental hospital for almost 2 years until i've had learned how to deal with D. I. D and after my depression and anxiety is gone. Till this day my mom and other members of family except my only brother blame me for not telling them on time.
Iam so sorry....you deserve SO much better... Your family members are horrible... You are better then them, your wonderful!, I really hope treatment helps you more and soon your family freaking realizes how bad they are treating you Please smile more and just remember you MATTER A WHOLE LOT! And iam so so sorry iam 3 months late...
"You can control your depression and anger" AGHHHHHHHH. I'd love to be able to, thanks though for making it worse. I don't know how many people have told me this. And I thought I trusted them.
To whoever is reading this. Your feelings are valid, don’t let others change the way you feel. You are amazing. Yes the person reading this, you will get through these tough times. I wish i could give you a big hug because all of you need it, 🫂 for now here’s an internet hug. I promise it will get better. I’m 18 and man life has taken a toll on me. But i’m still here and standing. i pormise on my life it will get better. You are handsome/beautiful. You are amazing, you are loved (you may not know me but i love you ❤) Keep fighting my loves. Keep your head up, don’t let that crown fall off. Your crown is there for a reason and it’s to show that you can do anything you put your mind to. Take a walk, check up on your friends(if you don’t have any now i’m your friend❤) Take a minute to breath, it’s okay. You are okay, make sure you stay hydrated and you eat as well. Even if it’s anything small, if you already did that. I’m so proud of you. I’m proud of you for waking up today, I’m proud of you for eating/drinking some water. I’m proud of you for being here still. You are all Amazing, and wonderful
Knowing that the world is at shit and people are dying brutal deaths all around me is just saddening to see. I use my dreams to escape from the world. Sleep is for regenerating my body to it’s full self. But when I wake up, I still see reality slapping me right in the face. If only I could change the state of the world and make it more peaceful, and safer.. I would die to do that.
For everyone that needed to hear this... I am so goddamn proud of you. Even if I have no idea who you are you have already made my day and so many others by just being here and I know it can be hard sometimes but just trust me it will all get better no matter how long it takes and regardless of your religion, you were born for a reason, so just remember that we all love you. Make sure you eat, sleep, and smile. I am so damn proud of you. Keep going superstar ✨
Im always the therapy friend, people always vent to me. " blah blah blah " i have to act like i care, i dont. i have to act like im listening, but im not. Nobody ever dares asking me if i could vent to them or if im ok.
i feel this so much omg it started with me venting to my friends but slowly i stopped doing it and eventually i just became the therapy friend. one of my friends said she was proud of how ive gotten better. this was conveniently after i had one of my biggest mental breakdowns. i let another one of my friends lean on me quite heavily. i sort of brought up my own state and they brushed it off just saying "uh". i let them lean on my when i was already low and when i hit my lowest i cant even lean on him as well. ive hit my lowest and this time dont even have anyone to lean on like i did before so theres no way im getting out of it this time- thats enough about how i dealt with something like that Lol. if you need someone to lean on im right here though so-
Anyone who is reading this: Everyone has a different life. Some are lucky some are just not lucky, we get normal friends or best friends! Or.. bad friends. We also have the family stuff to, some people has a amazing family some people don't. Just to let you guys know YOU ARE WORTHY YOU ARE SPECIAL YOU ARE AMAZING YOU ARE THE BEST YOU ARE THE MIRACLE YOU ARE THE MOST SPECIAL PERSON. Don't let anyone make ur motivation go away or make u sad. If they do it remember: THAT'S NOT THE TRUTH I AM SPECIAL I AM STRONG I AM A MIRACLE Again, don't let anyone get in ur way. Don't let anyone CHANGE YOU! You can be anyone u want! Follow ur dreams. From, Cookie.
"Mom." "Yeah?" "Can I have a cig?" "No, why would you ask that?" "You said I can try." "I never said you can start smoking." "Why? You do it. Dad does it. Everyone else does it. Why can't I?" "Becouse I don't want you to kill yourself." "Shoulda said that long ago." "What do you mean?" "Nothing." "It can't be nothing. It's never nothing." "Shut up. You never told me not to run away. You never told me not to jump. You never said anything." "How could you say that? I've done so many for you. I cared for you every time." "You only care about yourself. You only care about what others say about you. Never about me. Never about dad. It's allways you. Allways you who want's to fight. Allways you who wins. It's unfair." "No. That's not true. You're just lazy. Now go back to studying." "Thank's for the motivation. Really fucking helped." "You're welcome." "Damn this shit hole." "Stop swearing." "You don't swear?" "No. I don't." "Seems you don't lie either." "I don't." "Good night...(forever. I'm going to jump this time.)" I didn't. I don't want to feel more pain. More guilt. Edit: Ya'll pretty worried so I'ma answere so you stop. I'm much better. After 9 years I finally feel good. PS(to @T): That flip joke is funny😂
same bro its feels numb but we will get better this feeling will go away it might not seem like it but it will im here if you need anything i might be a stranger who doesn't know anything about you but just know im here.
thank you for this ❤ I'm having a rough time confessing to someone and nobody cares enough to help. my friends only like me for my good qualities. people only speak to me for help with something. they dont wanna talk with me. they wanna talk to their reuseable coupon.
All i want in life is peace and a respectable and understanding friend, i don't need a hug or anything like that, i just need someone to understand how i feel
Thanks for this! I’m having a hard time in life But no-one is noticing except my therapist I got a therapist at 5th grade because of me goggling something online The school found it and contact my mom and my mom delivered the information to my gram/tia The teacher almost told the police because of that I lost my first best friend at four/third grade and came back at 6th grade it feels like we are separated she found other friends but hanged out with me but I didn’t feel so close to her anymore She picked a other friend she just met over me they where so close to each other I felt left out but hid my feelings I had kids make fun of my through 1-4 grade I spent four years with that because I couldn’t express it I had ‘ew’ faces at me for four years they made me cry and it just boiled my blood I wanted to just rip their spine and lung in pieces they were so nasty and selfish they even embarrassed me by saying “ewe I don’t wanna be behind her she is nasty and stinky bro I bet she doesn’t shower” I yelled at the teacher and said I’m being at the back the teacher command me to stay in front but I denied but I knew riping someone apart isn’t the right way so I did nothing because that’s not the right way and I knew they just wanted to be cool So i didn’t bother hurting anyone but no one found out my mum didn’t even notice how much I suffered then the person I love the most died by her health at 4th grade I cried the whole year she even named me even though She wasn’t my mom she was just my trans aunt then her mom died her mom reminded me of her so I cried also but I cover my tears that day I was tired of life and I felt like my mum doesn’t care about me but Ik that’s a false alarm I knew she was my mom and I loved her even tho when she gets mad or sees me with something she body shames, calls me ugly,etc.. but I cried because of that and she doesn’t know that I hate my body/personality/everything about me so she makes comments like that but no matter I still loves her then at 5th grade I felt like my group just used me for food then they stopped talking to me at 6th grade and I found my best friend but she was still hanging out with me and stuff but I feel like everyone is using me and hates me but that continues through.. ..and still no-one knows anything everything I’m telling you who is reading this . . . I’m still holding on
I feel you. My bestfriend also was a backstabber, after 9 years of relationship she left me out with other friend. My classmates talk bad about me, that started 5 years ago, also thougth it was my fault. I'm here for you❤
At some point I got told that imagining your child self talking to your adult self could be therapeutic so I tried while listening to this playlist. Here’s how it goes: Adult walk in Child self: omg! That’s me!! Child self run to Adult -Im so glad to finally see you!! I’ve been talking about it with my friends at school!! Oh do you remember them?? Are we still best friends forever?? Rn im studying fractions and I try to draw a cat but it’s so hard and- Adult: you know you’re a good child right ? Child:…yeah? Adult: no. You have to know, it wasn’t your fault. You’re a good child, right ? Child:… Adult: you perceived the world differently from others Child: that’s because I’m Adult and child: crazy and weird Adult: yeah we heard that a lot right. Child:..please stop Adult: you had a different personality, you could be noisy, curious, talkative and oversharing Child: stop. Adult: you lied a lot too Child: I’m sorry Adult: what are you ? Child:.. Adult: c’mon me…what are you Child: a terrible person Adult: wrong. Try again. What are you Child:…a child. Adult: you are a child. More than that. * adult leans to clean child’s tear* you were a good child. You were noisy and talkative because you wanted to laugh with people and make them feel good with you. You said a couple of lies to make you look more interesting because you were terrified of not receiving love. Because you weren’t able to love yourself. Because you felt that love was conditional. Child: * tears roll down cheeks * Adult: I love you me. You are a good child. Nobody should make you believe otherwise. You were just a kid. Nobody should had ask you to grow old faster. Nobody should had push you to hate yourself Child face is now completely blank. Almost adult like. It had lost all its childish trait. To old for such a young body. Such a young soul. Adult : I wish we were able to see at the time. We didn’t deserved that. Child: I am tired. Adult: I know Child: I’m scared Adult: you’re allowed to be tired and scared. Child: I’m hurt too. Adult: I’m sorry Child: oh.. * its face goes shocked and completely destroyed by pain. * Adult: I am so sorry Child: stop. Adult: I am so so sorry for what I did to us Child: I SAID STOP Adult: we were just kid. I am so sorry Child: WHY DO YOU CARE WHY DO YOU APOLOGIZE IT WAS JUST US. * child fell on its knees sobbing shaking* it was just us. Adult: it was us. That’s why I’m so sorry. It was us. Child: I’m sorry.
@@dmitrix_ thank you so much you have no idea how I needed to hear thoses words! I wish you the best as well, may you and your loved ones can always be able to feel happiness
@mishaiia hey i was looking at the comments and i realized you respond to almost every comment and idk that made me feel super happy like man someone actually genuinely cares. please stay like this💕
My best friend left school last year and we talk on the phone sometimes when she returns home (she went to a boarding school), after she left i still had friends , basically i tried being nice to everyone so the whole class was friendly with me, but there was this one duo of besties who were always together, nut once a new girl transferred to our class, one friend from the duo left the other, i really didn’t think much we were young. Now we’re more of seniors, the left out friend and I became friends, best friends to be exact, and for some reason joined in with the new girl’s duo, so now it was a group of four, but the new girl didn’t like me nor the left out friend, she started treating badly the people she didn’t like , but no one questioned a thing, because who would ever go against her? She’s the prettiest in the whole school, she’s the topper, every guy wants her or her best friend, they’re like rlly popular for their looks and outgoing personality…..and when after having kept bullied the leftover friend and kicked her out of the group basically, no one batted an eye.. and fast forward now a couple weeks ago she told me she never though of me as a friend, the girl I stood up for when none of the fakes did, the girl I thought was my bestie, hated me….always, she and her pretty bsf are always mad at me if I just simply talk to others, i am not allowed to talk to others, nor invited in conversations, always left out, they on,y need me when they are bored or when they need me , they always hit me and laugh about it,they insult me and say it’s a joke,they don’t respect my opinions, im merely their puppet and I fucking hate it here, i wish i coul change schools but my parents don’t want to listen either, i ha e no real friends , no personality, looks, ir grades I’m a loser and deeply inside i feel like i am paying for a sin I will never commit again
I'm sorry that this is happening to you. You don't deserve it. Please keep telling your parents about this or someone you know you could trust. Bullying is not good. It could effect you a lot. Mentally and physically. Make them beg for your forgiveness. I don't know who you are, but I know you're pretty. Don't let others tell you otherwise. I'm proud of you, if you don't get good grades, I'm still proud of you, for being here, for staying strong even tho you're going through something so hard. Please take care of yourself. Eat well, drink enough water, sleep well and do things that makes you happy. Don't let others prevent you from doing things that makes you happy. Take care :)
@@Ed1th.I am so grateful that someone took the time to read my comment, I thank you for being so kind. But I have tried talking with my parents many times , soo many times that I don’t even think it’s gonna help at this point. My mother doesn’t want to understand anything, she calls me a psychopath and other names I possibly couldn’t write, but the past times that I did talk with her she always shared my personal moments with her to everyone as if I have no privacy , for them my mental health is a joke, she share’s everything embarrassing and things I kept a secret with her to everyone , my father scolds me every time I want to give entrance exams for other prestigious and better schools, I don’t have any people close to me to share stuff either, the girls at school make me sick , and I’m not allowed to talk with guys. I have hobbies I want to try out, things I want to do, places I want to go, but it’s all a joke, I am always compared by my parents to other kids, because As long as my room is clean, I don’t wear short clothes, and my grades are good, that’s all that’ll make my parents happy
@@kire1948 You're so welcome. You deserve kindness and happiness. You really do. I wish you do some day. Y'know, that could unfortunately be verbal abuse. It's horrible to not care for what's happening to you in school. She shouldn't have invalid your privacy. Mental health is not a joke. It's a real thing that many people had struggled with, or are struggling with. Mental health is a serious thing. It could happened to kids, teens, adults and elders. This y'know, I'm afraid would be mental abuse. She shouldn't invalidate your privacy and she shouldn't have told others your secrets. Your privacy and secrets are yours. They can't act like it's theirs. It's NOT okay. Any parents shouldn't scold their kid for such things like that. When making decisions like that, it should also be your decision, not only them. Can counselors in your school, perhaps, help you in some way? This is a serious matter. You're still so young and you deserve to be treated kindly. You deserve a perfect time when you're still just so young, not a traumatic experience where it could lead you to having suicidal thoughts. I'm just so sorry, but this could not keep happening any further. Please try to tell your teacher about those girls. Do you mean that those girls prevent you from talking to guys or your parents? Don't let your parents prevent you from doing what you want. You always have your own freedom. They can't just let you stay like this. It's YOUR decision whether if you want to try out new hobbies, things you want to do, places you want to go and others. Don't let your parent's negative words go through you. Don't let them effect you. Tell yourself you deserve happiness and that you're proud of yourself. Tell yourself compliments. Tell yourself that you've done enough and that's enough. I'm so proud of you, for everything. For staying here. That makes you strong. No one is perfect. Everybody makes mistakes sometimes, and that's completely okay. Don't let them control you, okay? Clean room or not, I'm still proud of you. Choice of clothing, then again, should be your decision. Do what you think is best for yourself, not for others. Good grades or bad grades, that's completely fine. I'm still proud of you. Do things that makes you happy too. Care for your own needs and wants. Don't just do things for someone only, do it for yourself too. Make yourself happy. I wish I could make you happy. I wish I could make you feel better at some point, because you, you deserve happiness. I am grateful that you've responded to my comment. I hope I could help at some point. I hope you'll find what you need. Stay safe, take care. Eat well, drink enough water, sleep well and do things you love. Try out some new things. I'm sure it'll be worth it. It's better trying than being scared to do so. Sometimes you might feel relieved to know what happens when you try. Please don't give up. You're so young, you deserve to be so loved and again, you deserve happiness. Again, I'm proud of you. Keep going. My apologies, if this was way too long.
Today felt eternal so did yesterday i think im getting worse not better i thought dealing with this alone would be better then having to explain to anyone but its been like this for like 4 years i felt better one time but its lasted a month i then went back to crying every night sorry im venting to random people who dc probably but if u read this through thank you have a great day if not then i give virtual hug and remember i love you for waking up some people dont so just doing that takes some effort and im proud so very proud of you for that -random person who has a accurate name
It's been hard for you, I know, and it makes me sad that you don't see yourself in the way I see you. Sometimes they are things in life that cause us to lose ourselves, and the way you have is so unimaginably painful. I miss your smile, the way your eyes light up the whole room just by the sound of your laughter. I miss the way you accepted the way you look in the mirror without cursing yourself out about how ugly you look. I miss the way you didn't think of yourself as a failure because everyone makes mistakes, we all have flaws and we all aren't perfect. It's painful to see that no one around you seems to see the pain through your eyes, but, stranger, I do, I see how heavy your heart is and how comforting the sadness for you might be, how afraid your heart is of happiness because it disappears in the end, right? You don't know how much impact you have in this world and it's sad to see that your demons fight against you and want to take over you. Because you do make change, it's something so simple and little that brightens up someone's whole world, it can be a small smile from your lips, the way you look at things you're passionate about, the way you make yourself eat even though it's been hard for you lately, the way you zoom out and go in your own world, you brighten up my world by reading this, it means a lot to me that you're here, existing, but I don't want you to just exist, you deserve to feel alive. You deserve to get up in the morning and feel good about yourself. You deserve to feel something- to feel every damn second alive in this lifetime. It's heartbreaking that you think you're not capable of being loved, because you are, I love you through all my words and I hope you let it happen in your heart. Love is scary, I know, maybe your heart has been broken once and since then you wanted to be rather numb than feel ever again, it hurts me how you punish yourself, does it not deserve love? Because YOU DO deserve love, please forgive yourself, it's not your fault that the demons want to take over your beautiful heart. You're not a bad person for distancing yourself from others, but you deserve someone to talk to, you deserve someone to listen to. I am listening, you can tell me what's wrong. It's everything, isn't it? There's something pulling your heartstrings on the ground and no one seems to understand how misunderstood you feel. It's heartbreaking to know that I am behind the screen and can't give you a hug, that's why I will give you a big warm virtual hug and send you lots of love :). You matter. You are worthy. You are loved. You deserve good things. You deserve someone to listen to. You deserve to eat and drink. You deserve to feel good and alive. You deserve to smile. You deserve a hug. You deserve to be all the things you want to be, because you deserve to have and feel good things happening to you and have a fulfilled life. I know I might not know you personally but I care about you so much. I write this because I want you to stay here with me. I want you to hold on a little longer because you matter so much to me, because I will not let you give up on yourself. I want you to see that you should not give up on yourself because you DESERVE GOOD THINGS. I want you to look back on the time when you were a kid, you didn't give up when you tried to swim for the first time, you didn't give up when you tired to walk for the first time and fell, you never gave up on yourself, you always kept on pushing forwards, so why can't you now? I know it's tiring, you're mentally tired, but don't your younger self deserve good things? look back at your eyes that used to be full of hope, look back on those dreams. Don't let yourself fall, you deserve better. We will both fight, I will fight for you. I won't let those demons get to you. You can hold on to me, I won't let you down :). Whenever you feel lonely, then look at the sky, I always look at it and think about you. Yes, you, because it makes me happy that there's someone looking right back, maybe we can't see each other but I can feel your presence here with me and that's enough for me, because I am glad your heart is beating and you're still fighting. You're so much stronger than you think, you didn't leave your spot on this earth even if you wanted to, you belong here, even though it doesn't feel like it, when you don't feel like belonging then build your own home here, put all your love in it and dreams. Think of you as a star when you feel alone, you shine because your heart is good, no matter what mistake you made, no matter about the past you had, you're one of the stars that shine bright in the universe because you're heart is beautiful, that's why the demons in your mind wants to have it. As one of the stars you see other stars, maybe they have felt the same way as you do at some point in their life, but they lighten up the universe with each other's presence. You're a star for me, maybe you don't see it yourself but I can see it, you're beautiful from inside and out, your body is beautiful the way it is. You make me happy by reading this, you make me feel something by your presence and when you can make me feel that way then you also make other people feel that way about you too. I hope you stay for yourself and don't let your story get written by others but by yourself, it's your story not theirs. As you can see, I say a lot of "I hope" because I have hope for you even if you don't have it for yourself, I see hope in you even though you might want to give up. That's why I hope you won't see the world in darkness and will see it colorful again. I hope I will give you a glimpse of hope and make the world you see a bit colorful for today. My favorite color is yellow, and I hope the next time you see the color yellow you will think about my words. If someone left you then don't blame yourself, don't think you weren't enough, don't lower yourself for someone who couldn't see the awesomeness in you. If you lost someone I am so sorry for your loss, they want you happy. I hope you don't feel guilty or regret because you were there, you spent enough time with them, they want you to be happy. They are in a good and safe place now. If someone broke your heart then I am so sorry that they couldn't see the way you look so beautiful because of the heart you have. Anyone who gets to be with you, doesn't know how fucking lucky he/she/ they is :). If you aren't accepted at home or in general then I am so sorry that you have to deal with someone/ something you shouldn't be ashamed of. I accept you and support you. I accept you as a human being no matter what race, religion, nationality, skin color, or sexuality you have. You're safe here with me :). You're not useless, you're not a burden to anyone. You're not a problem, you're human and your feelings are valid. You're not being dramatic. Please don't starve yourself, you deserve food and to drink, I know it's hard. It hurts to see that you're in so much pain :( you deserve so much man, don't let your emotions control you. Don't let them get the best of you. I am sorry no one is noticing, I wish /hope I could take your pain away for today or even for a moment while you're reading this. If no one told you, I am so proud of you, you're reading this and it's enough for me to be proud of you because you're here and that's all that matters to me. If it's night for you, go to sleep, I know it's hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don't let them fight you. If it's day for you, don't start it with such sad music. I know it's impossible to have a good day with such a mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water everyday in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits. If it's evening for you, you're probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it's okay to feel the way you feel. You don't need to be scared, of course you're overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn't? But it's important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed. And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you're so strong for breathing despite the pain, I know you will make it :) I believe in you. All I want for you is to stay here, I really mean all my words, even if there are a lot of unsaid things I want to tell you and my text is getting longer and longer, I want you here. I hope one day your smile will become a genuine one where you don't need to fake it anymore, because I can't say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You're worth more than every fucking cent in this world. You can let go for today, I got you, you can cry your heart out as much as you want, but don't let it tear you down and let your emotions control you by giving up. Crying is not a weakness. If you still feel alone I dedicate a song as your friend. "Dusk till Dawn-Zayn feat. Sia (I prefer the slow version)" I hope you can think of me and will remind yourself of my words, I will for sure think of you. In case no one told you and you're unsure yourself, you're a good person and I am so happy you're here. I hope this is enough to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. Enough with beating yourself up for today, okay? Life for those who couldn't, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there's no other, hug like it's your last one. Life for those who couldn't, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there's no other, hug like it's your last one. If you read all of it, until tomorrow my friend :) have a good day and great years. now smile for me okay ♡
I know a lot of yall need to here this, im proud of you, you have made it this far dont give up yet one day we will have peace just keep going. I believe in you!
I hope this message helps you better I proud of you I love you I love your smile I love your hair I love your gesture I love to see you love yourself I love your breathing I love your body I love your face I love to see you eat I love to see you drink I love your eyes I love your nose I love your lips I love everything on your face I love you when you being live. I love you when you belive yourself I hate to see you cry I hate to see you hurt yourself I hate to see you torment yourself I hate to see you hate yourself I hate to see you hard breathing I hate to see you say anything bad about you I hate to see you hurt I hate to see you sad I hate to see you say ''I want to died'' You're special, you're not look like everyone, you're pretty. Love yourself and don't cry anymore.
This helps after getting beat by my drunk\abusive dad and my mom hating me.... i stopped doing $H but im thinking if doing it again but idk and on top of that my bf was caught cheating by my sister and i still havent confronted him,ughh being a gay 16yro sucks -_-
HUGE TW!! Im so fcking tired of hearing everyone saying its for my own good or that im just being delusional. I have 5 diagnoses including a deadly one. im forced to take 5+ pills a day and is forced to have needles stuck in my body everyday for the rest of my life, forced to take medication every hour just to "survive" I hate it. I got 3 diagnoses right after each other and was emergently admitted to the hospital, forced to poke blood out of myself every 2nd hour for weeks. They knew, they all knew. I never wanted to live in the first place, no in fact. I have 8+ s0icide attempts. addiction to SH to the point my teacher basically kidnapped from school and forced me to go to a docter without permission from anyone, because she thought my cuts were so deep and huge that I'd have my arm amputated💀I honestly hate it. Its like im being forced to live in hell against my will. its like everyone is against me. like im being tortured. Why can't they just let me find peace. what do i have to do to get out of here. They give me anti-depressive pills but they're what's making me more suicidal. "in 3 months you'll thank me, hopefully by then you will actually have emotions enough to smile on your confirmation " - my mom. No, you want me to be someone i cant be. you want me to be perfect, to never feel emotions other than happiness. to be able to function in society. but im not capable of such thing. the only thing the pills make me feel is emptiness. I feel inhuman. I simply cant see myself as a human being anymore. but no matter what i say or do. im only giving them more reasons to lock me up and drug me more. i dont know myself. i dont know who i am or what i am. im fake. im a creation the phychiatrists and my mom designed to be able to live in this fucked up world. I cant do it.
I honestly have no idea what exactly to say to you, but here's what I'd say from the bottom of my heart. You are such a strong person. You have persevered and struggled through so much even if you didnt want to. It feels like it's a dead end, that you're lost and stuck in a world that hates you and you hate it right back. Nobody understands you and whatever 'treatments' they give you only push you deeper into a pit of despair. All this trauma, grief and suffering is what nobody should have to experience, yet you were the one who went through it. Blood on your hands, arms and pooling around you, it feels hopeless and helpless. I don't understand you perfectly and I probably never will because if I went through half of what you did, I would have no idea how to move on from there. You are incredible, every ounce of your being and every breath you take. Phychiatrists and your own mother built you as their 'little experiment' that they thought could withstand the weight of their actions, but that is just entirely cruel. You are a human, you bleed crimson and you take in oxygen, you fall when you are at your lowest and force yourself to get back up over, and over again. It's enough, you deserve peace and I wish that I could somehow find a way to give that to you, but I don't know how. All I can do is write this message in hopes that you regain even the smallest ignition of hope in your heart that has been torn and shattered into pieces. You are important no matter how bad things get, no matter what others say or how they treat you, you matter. Like a word in a novel full of sentences, you think that you're just that one outcast that the editor forgot to fix, therefore you are a mistake, but that is not true at all. Like that one tiny imperfection, you prove that nobody is perfect, that mistakes can happen and that they aren't always bad as they prove that even that editor isn't 'all that.' No, I don't mean that your life was good, it was nowhere near that, and I wish I could take away all of your pain and suffering, give you a mended heart with happy little bandaids on each little crack, but I can't. There is only one person capable of that, it's you. You can reach your heart and dig through the glass, emerge with a severely injured hand painted in scarlet, but in the palm of it, you'll find that tiny sliver of hope and life. It's hard, it's complicated, there is absolutely no doubt in my mind that you are one of the most exquisite people I have met. Your cuts will heal, time might just make things better, but hope is one of the things that drives all that recovery, and you know who is the only one who can find that hope? It's you. P.S. I apologize deeply if anything I said was insensitive or triggered you in any way. I hope life gets better, don't stop traveling the path no matter how numb your legs feel, no matter how tired, how hungry, or dehydrated. You will make it, you will.
@@saltyfries5803 Wow... Okay I did not expect anyone to actually see my comment. But woah. Thank you alot. All those words, it sounded straight out of a British novel from the 19s.(in a good way) all the words. I can't believe you would write all that down just to respond to my random comment. I'm honestly stunned. I don't think I deserve all that pityness. But thank you. Im trying my best. (Sorry for the lack of effort. I'm really not good at this, but I really appreciate you either way)
Literally the second "i cant handle change" came on, i knew this playlist was perfect for me. And i was right. Its absolutely perfect for the state of mind im in right now. Thank you so much.
@samanthacanadayt I agree. And I know how it feels to be one. So I know exactly how they’re feeling. At least how I feel in a situation like this: I’m saying all these nice things and taking care of everything and everyone yourself but you can’t even worry about yourself. But you will never tell anyone because you don’t want to put pressure on others. But then that just builds more pressure on YOU instead.
It just breaks my heart to see how much people listened that. im so sorry for all of you, guys. It'll be okay. Someday, somewhere, somehow you'll gonna feel found. Everybody have a chance.
“It all gets better!” NOT UNTIL IM 18! UNDERSTAND WHAT WE GO THROUGH, NOT EVERYTHING GETS MAGICALLY BETTER PEOPLE! I’m 13 and shouldn’t feel like this, I should be so mature for my age I wanna run around and hang out with my friends but I can’t do that..
VENTING So after years of hiding that I was depressed. I got the courage to tell my mom about how I felt and I thought it would be the best thing I could have done and make me feel less alone. But now after 1 year nothing has changed every time I talk about how I feel she would talk about something else and I would be disappointed every time hoping this time she would listen and talk to me about it. Now I think what was the point of telling her how I felt if nothing would change. I have no one to talk to and I think It will always be like that and now I can't tell anyone how I feel. I even said to her can I please go to therapy and she said I could and she would help but nothing has happened. I don't feel like it is her fault for being like that when she was raised that way and does not know how to help me and express it. but I feel like she should have at least tried to.
I think a therapist can really help. Maybe search for one close to your home and ask your mom if you can go see him. To show her that you really want to go and so that she don't have to do the research. And if you can't find a therapist, you'll find someone who will listen to you, someone who will listen to your feeling. It won't always be like that, it will get better
you have no idea how incredibly sweet you are. you have a huge heart. just remember that you should have people who listen to YOU!! and if you're willing to listen to others, I will listen to you
In this generation, people romanticize mental illnesses, they also influence the children… The world is complicated, and that’s okay. You can take your time to understand it
It hurts to know that before you used to smile a lot as a comfort zone, but then years later you got hurt so bad that you only smile for others, not for yourself I've been there, It's heavy on the lips, but I can't smile even if I want to. Life is getting started with the pain... I want help
Im very sorry if you can relate to any of these songs, just know that you aren't alone, im proud of you for everything you ever did, hang in there, you're gonna be okay❤
10:55 always will be one of my favourite songs, the 2 birds remind me of the 2 versions of myself. One who wants it all to end in a horrific and painful way and the other who wants it to end peacefully.
Oh how i used to give love to everyone and how i never got it back, I'm healed now from all the fucked shit but there's this massive void in my heart that feels like knifes are being thrown at me, a hard pill to swallow: the pain and trauma never goes away. And what's more disappointing is that, no one ever knew and knows, u hate to talk about my feelings, i never learned to talk about them anyways hahah.
My bsf: *Goes and hangs out with someone else* Me: *Just watches her slowly get more and more distant* New/Old Bsf: "Hey! wanna hang out?" Me: "Sure!" New/Old Bsf: *Ends up ghosting me and leaves me for other people* Me: *Trying not to cry in my room and ends up having depression*
It happens to a lot of peope. It sucks but when you do find that person that you really click with and who understand you, you will forget about all of this and your fake friend.
I can kinda relate. one of my past friends said he needed new friends and that I was weird, he wanted to say that to my other past friend and she wasn't even at school that day. I'm friends with neither, I saw them talking to eachother like nothing was said. I'm friends with one of his friends(I don't actually know if they're still friends) and she's weird too, everyone is. He's weirder than me, he's always been. And for some reason he keeps side eyeing me whenever we cross paths as if I did something. Whenever I was with him and my other past friend, I felt more alone than I was without them.
ive been dealing with stress and depression(half) lately, and i dont want to vent but i cannot hold it in anymore, i just hate the people that dont understand you, and i cannot even tell my family what is happening, i just want to vent but its too much and i dont even know where to start. but then theres one thing that cheers me up. my bff, and you guys, and you, the stranger reading this, please just get me relived, i dont know if anyone else is going through their, how i call it, Vent phase, im in it rn, and im hiding from crying infront of my family, or alone, i just want to cry when theres nobody, and i mean nobody that hears me or sees me. please. *Help me.*
My mother, grandmother, sister, friends, friends parents and my stepdad constantly body shame me. "Do you ever eat?" "Do you have an eating disorder or something?" "Hahaha your nose is so fat" "Its just a little joke, no harm done" "Ew since when did you have freckles" and its really annoying and whenever i vent to my best friends and mom they just tell me they have a worse life and my life is perfect and im just overreacting. My mother yells at me saying im just really spoilt and she doesn't understand whatever i talk about, she doesn't even pretend to understand and care and she laughs when my step father body shames me. My dad is one of the only family members i can properly vent to, at least he pretends to understand and care. 3 of my best friends for 5-6 years recently left my school, i cant communicate with any of them. I really missed them and my teachers knew that since all of them have seen us with eachother every second of the school day and one of them made me go to the school councillors for a week. I have a lot of friends but they all ignore me and are too busy to notice me. I got 2 new best friends but we fight almost everyday and one of them wont stop bragging about their expensive pens and rings. And i have found out they are leaving the school next month. After that I will probably be more depressed and ignored way more often. There is a lot of bad thoughts bottled up inside of me lol
Tw : SH ( my demons are coming ) Today was when I snapped, I couldn’t take it anymore. I screamed at my friends and I can’t get their horrified expressions out of my mind. They looked at me like I was a insane. The only reason I snapped was because they kept just ignoring me as if I wasn’t with them. So, I finally yelled “ how can you guys laugh when I’m here suffering in silence because you guys refused to listen! I’m tired of just being your friend that you only use for money or to get me to set you up with someone! I’m just done! “ They tried explaining that wasn’t the case and they didn’t know how I felt, but at the time i didn’t want to listen. Then I went home and decided to SH. I slit my wrists and blood started dripping. I wanted to end it but then I thought of the people that I love and they wouldn’t want this for me? Would they? I thought of my friends and how they probably see me as a monster now. I am a monster. ( my demons are coming )
"You're not depressed!" "Stop being so melodramatic." I really wish I could stop thinking of all the horrible thoughts that cross my mind, but I can't, and I feel so useless because everyone thinks I'm lying. Not even the people closest to me think I need help, even though I've tried to tell them I do need help, and I can't help myself because of the mindset I'm in.
You know when you get that feeling in your chest like your not in your body or like you hollow. Thats how i feel every single day every single moment every minute i wish it would go away it wont i want really want it too trust me my family says it will pass but i know it wont my friends are going through the same thing and they say it never goes away and i kinda believe them
[TW] VENT This playlist reminds me of an old friend, He played with me on minecraft everyday! helped me build and improve.. One day he left.. Never to be seen till this day.. That was almost 2 years ago.. I miss you arro..
The first step of the day is to wake up if you can get past that then you should encourage yourself to continue your day like you did when you decide to wake up
“You don’t even have a reason to be depressed?” “What’s so wrong in your life?” “I don’t care how “harsh” your life is, mine was worse” “Ew cringe” “Stop being fake. We aren’t friends anymore.” “Depression isn’t even that bad, you are so dramatic.” “Why are you always gloomy and sad? Your life is perfect.” 1. comparing trauma and depression isn’t cool. 2. i trusted you. I came out to you. I was comfortable with you, but now I don’t know you. 3. I’m coming out to you, don’t tell me I’m dramatic. Take it serious.
I didnt cry for over a year and a half i just try to stop my self from crying because i felt weak whenever im crying then i just got used to it but every time i want to cry something in my chest gets heavier every time and i just felt something in me or an i just got like this urge to cry and be comforted by and the part or the part of a song i know its from billie the one where there's a part that goes i tried to scream the part before that just hit me like a train i felt like someone is trying to comfort me and i can tell them everything then i just burst out crying,i just wanna say something to my real friends thank u for being there❤️ Even tho there were 6
...I'm know as a perfect and happy girl, and sometime little sensitive. I have a lot of people who loves me, but they never know I'm deppression and I cant even cotrol my emotions
I don't know what to do. I don't feel like ending it but its like that song, numb little bug where you don't want to die but you don't exactly want to live. I just feel sad for no reason, I guess its that summertime sadness. But I have lots of friends I can't open up to and I cry so much. I just can't tell anyone face-to-face because they won't understand. I don't understand. I just want to go somewhere safe, somewhere where I can lay down and think about nothing, somewhere I can be safe.
They all ignore me. And then they ask "Heyy, why are you so quiet? You don't want to talk?? Awh" No I want to talk but no one is f listening. I freaking hate this.
People say “you can move on you’ll have people in your life”. Or “go put on makeup ,go lose some weight”. And other people at school say they are friends with me like everyone at the whole entire school says they can understand but the thing is I know they all may have been through worse but not what in my thoughts and my feelings say I’m just a kid stuck in a teenage body with no one by my side when my whole entire family has been separated from each other and I mean like my whole entire family we all barely see each other even my cousins they barely talk to me and never wonder how am I like nobody wants me they say they do but I think through my head saying “ then why are you doing this to me why do you say I don’t love you when I loved you first I loved all of y’all first even my siblings mostly them cause they were there for me mostly my sister cause my other sibling passed away when I was 5 and it was almost my birthday and I had to deal with all the crying in my little room I toke over from my brother’s bedroom while passing by all the favorite things he loved while I was wearing a matching shirt of what he loved and after that I had to do with more lost family members dieing on me and they said I was too young to understand that they were dead but I already knew cause I saw him in his bed not moving or breathing I was the one who first knocks on his damn door just to see if he was ok right after getting out of the shower and was dressed cause I shared another bedroom with my sister and mostly everyday I was the one who breaks in his room laughing with him and watching and getting reached from him while he was playing games and he was 19 right when he died and they think I can’t sit there and see how he lays there and getting taken by the ambulance from having a seizure an my sister toke cared of me mostly than parents should my sister was always there she was my best friend she was my world she was my life my wise person my leader my everything and we were so close and when brother left our lives life became worse mom and dad fights all the time and they separate rooms and never talk but argue all the time and mom found somebody knew and was already getting more traumatized by hearing banging on the wall and yelling in my moms room while I sat there in the front door crying and crying and later on a few years later my sister moved to her boyfriends and I was the one sitting there all alone in the living room with no one not. Even my dad. He always locked his door and barely talks to me I always knock on his door but I smell the smokes and alcohol as I already knew he wasn’t there in his joyful mind and my moms not attacking how she use to when our family was perfect and I sat there in the damn living crying and no one heard me I reached out for anybody’s hand but no one toke it but my sister did she comes visit and always checks on me before she goes back to her boyfriends and she would even let me spend the night where she was just to keep me safe from all the drama and mostly I cry and cry in my brothers room where he use to be wondering why me while I be at school most of people didn’t want me but two old friends that I lost later on and yet I always watched myself grow while looking in the mirror and tell myself “I look so ugly when I cry when do I even cry” and a few years later it got worst and I went to grandmas and my moms boyfriend came along and beated grandma in front of me than points the knife at me saying “turn around so I can cut your grandmother into pieces and probably will do it to you too” and then point the gun at me while I hid under the bed crying and watching and it was all for a medicine battle to borrow and beated up my uncle and slide my dad against the wall and repeatedly beated up my mom every time and every day and finally I had enough and I told the school and later on I was separated from them and I couldn’t even barely contact them and after few months the woman promised I could see them all again but I never had the chance cuz of what the woman did and the woman even traumatized me everyday saying I’m too skinny and too fat I’m too stupid and so ugly and many more things and did more worse things and when one day I accidentally hit her she slapped my face so hard I had a bruises and fell against the floor crying and crying constantly for days and even at school nobody wanted to talk to me they all used me and bullied me and I wished I had the two friend I had when I needed them but now I’m alone afraid scared traumatized and always saying to myself “I’m never good enough to do anything no matter what I do I try and try but I can’t do this on my own I want my sissy(nickname for sister as child self) “ and I always cried like a child and they say why am I so childish everyday abd after a while I finally came back home but before then my sister passed away and that toke my heart out because the woman who was watching over me never wanted to see her again as now till this day I’m standing on my too feet while my mom and dad are divorced of course and mom making me guilty and sad mostly and other family members not talking to me as often and alone with no friends as I’m homeschooled and moms boyfriend in jail he deserves it but every time I get out of my room something bad always happen as I always think I’m the cause of everything no matter what I do they always say do better your too fat you eat to much food your ugly go put on some makeup or go make friend well I can’t can’t you see why ? I always wanted to just make myself disappear but it’s like I want to die but I really don’t want to it’s just how I feel and it’s so hard when they always say “S.M.I.L.E” and you know how I spell smile out ? S: suffers M:mentallly damaged I: invisible to the world L: lied to E:: Emotionally abused that’s how I spell out smile in my emotions and in my head and I am still alone and always crying still and missing my sister and brother as they were the only thing I had left in life now I’m alone as they were just a dream and not reality don’t anyone knows how I feel and still can never get over it as more people in my family fades away from me and when I finally contacted an old friend finally and when they spent the night she talked to her other friend instead of me and I said let’s hangout and she said maybe later and later on I said do you want to hang out now and she said later but I said I have waited for you for ever just to hangout with you and now your saying maybe Later? And she says trust me I will hang out with you later on a few more shouts and I said why not now and she said cause I’m talking to my friends and I’m not use to you and when she said that she didn’t even know that it finally broke me and I went to the bathroom looking in the mirror crying and crying and I thought to myself “ after all in my life how I cry every second …every minute and hour and days just to be with the most people I loved and missed just to not be able to be laughing and talking like other fitness and family meme bees should be …” and later on she still hasn’t talked to me for days now and I’ve been texting her and she barely texts back and she mostly says she is busy when I see and hear her mostly talking to other friends and mostly now everyday I fairly smile and saying I’m doing fine as I say it to every I go to my room and cry so many times more as I am still faking my smiles and happiness all I had is now Gone as I have no one to love no friends nobody just the shadows and myself ….
I have a wonderful girlfriend, but sometimes i need some stranger's words from those vent playlists i love y'all, I don't know anyone here, but i love y'all. everything will be ok, trust me❤
I wish I could have a life where I can feel at peace, my parents argue 24/7 and might get a divorce, my friends at school not actually care and just ignore me, this guy I know keeps telling me to Kms, to cut myself and to starve myself and my gf broke up with me yesterday. On top of that I have so much homework piled up from school and I’m an embarrassment and disappointment to everyone. I haven’t had a hug in minths and god knows I need one so much right now, I’m only here today thanks to my 7 year old cousin who looks up to me. I only find escape in music but even then, would it ever be enough to save me?
It’s got to the point where I can’t cry. All I feel is emptiness and depression… I want to go back to my old self but I can’t. I wanna let it all out and cry but I can’t. I haven’t been able to for a year… I just want to be happy. Is that too much to ask for…?
You deserve to be happy. Let it out, don't worry. I wish I could be your shoulder to cry on, to let all your thoughts out. Your shoulder to cry on, day and night, even until my clothes are soaked in your tears. You deserve happiness. You don't deserve all those emptiness you feel. I wish I could take those negative feelings away from you. I wish I could make a world where you wouldn't feel like this. Please take care. Eat well, drink enough water, sleep well and do things you love. If you don't have one, try to find one. If you did try to, and failed, that's fine, I'm still proud of you. If you did manage to do something you love, then I'm still proud of you. I really do wish I could be there with you, in your ups and downs. Please take care, and I'm proud of you and for being here. :) -
I don’t understand what is happening in my life, but I know that it hurts me. I don’t understand why this is happening, but I know that this will not lead to good. I don’t understand how help myself, but I know that I will help myself. I am a strong person, I will definitely get out of this swamp.
I’ve been having a tough time lately. I have dissapointed my dad and now he won’t believe me. He told me “your words mean nothing to me now,”. But I deserve it. I have been failing classes. Only because I can never motivate myself to do my work which I find stupid because homework is supposed to be easy. The only thing keeping me smiling right now is my friends and boyfriend. They are always there for me and I’m so grateful for them ❤
I like to hug. I hug people to support them and show love. But no one hugged me when I needed it most. When I cry, everyone stays silent and does nothing. My life sucks. family problems, bullying (both teachers and classmates), loneliness, violence, psychological pressure… I wish someone would hug me with love.
I hate that fact that every time i have a straight face so I don't cry and my mom will tell me to "cut my attitude" but when my brother has a straight face she asks him if he is okay and if someone did something wrong or if something happened idk I love that she cares about him but I wanna feel that same way I wanna feel like she cares
time stamps ❤️
0:00 - 3:19: i can’t handle change
3:20 - 7:19: everything i wanted
7:20 - 10:52: michelle
10:55 - 13:50: two birds
13:55 - 19:11: space song
19:14 - 23:35: twin size mattress
23:35 - 26:47: young
Thanks I was to lazy to make them
@@Mishaiia_11 np!
do you know who the first song is by? i cant find it :(((
@@jadasherman34 It’s by ROAR
Here’s a link: m.czcams.com/video/ZNcNiC7PZDo/video.html
@@jadasherman34 it's by Roar
"Youre not sad! You're normal! Everyone feels that way" little does my mom know how much i want her words to be true. I dont want to be sad anymore. Im 13.. how can my life be so miserable when im so young!? I just wanna be like everyone else. But thats impossible, trust me. I have tried..
I totally understand you my parents always tell me I'm being dramatic or it's normal. I'm the overachiever if the family valedictorian the "perfect" but I am losing motivation. I get it. Life sucks and I'm so sry this is happening to you
It gets better. I used to be you.. I promise one day you'll understand yourself more and accomplish amazing things.
I understand you completely. Its normal to feel how you're feeling. I dont know what you're going thru but its gonna get better trust me. I know you're trying your best and I'm proud of you I really am. Dont give up yet tho. its all gonna be ok you js gotta wait. it might take a long time but trust me it will get better. No matter what happens tho just know that you are not alone nd that you are loved so much. You can do it I believe in you kiddo. Js keep smiling nd dont let anything stop you or get in your way. I know you got this in the bag. js keep your head up nd believe in yourself. you might fall sometimes but dont let it get to you. I know you can do it I know u can. Take care ily.
you ever so casually explaining my life rn
but i hope you feel better soon(:
Its so sad how strangers can be more comforting than our parents and family
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I hate how that is true
I hate to look at this a know that it’s so true.. Idek if I trust my cousin anymore. We have the strongest bond and Idek if she’s just ignoring me or if she’s rlly just not realizing I’ve been calling and texting over and over..
it really is, i wish i was a little girl again when i didnt care about anything or anyone
i love how this is true cuz i don't really spend my time with my family cuz they don't even care.
nobody love you. Nobody finds you pretty. Nobody will wipe your tears. Nobody will help you feel better. Nobody will help you overcome addiction. Nobody will help you get over your pain. Nobody will call you beautiful. Nobody will call you daily to make sure you’re okay.
Hello, my name is Nobody.
awww thx
dude i cried reading the first part and then happy cryed afterwards :) same to you my name is nobody
thank you you love me more then my parents
I feel so much better
Aww Tysm! I rlly needed this
I said this to my friend and she slapped me….. “ I could complain on how my mother and father body shame me and love my brothers more, but I don’t go around telling people that ‘my mom hits me’ like you do….. Why lie to their face when your parents spoil you?”
im sorry
Oh my im so sorry that happened :(
.... im sorry that happened :(
im sorry i want to hug you my mother is mentally abusive and telling me that if i commit suicide its gonna be a better world
@@leo_valdezthefireboy-mi5nsOh no I’m sorry for u, try not to listen to her. I may not know you but the world won’t be the same without u :(
200 reasons to stay alive..
1.your family
2. your friends
3. the feeling you get when you’ve finished something
4. the feeling you get when you get a compliment
5. the feeling you get when you buy new clothes
6. the feeling you get when you try on new clothes
7. the feeling you get when youre room is tidy
8. the feeling you get when youre laughing hesterically.
9. the feeling you get when you make a new friend
10. the feeling you get when you make someone smile
11. you’d have to watch your family and friends grieve.
12. you’ve never been to that place you always wanted to visit.
13. you’ve never been to disney world.
14. you’ve never been skinny dipping.
15. you’ve never swam in a lake.
16. you’ve never met your idol.
17. you haven’t gotten married.
18. you’ve never decorated your own house.
19. you will never save someone’s life.
20. you haven’t learnt to drive.
21. there is music you haven’t listen too.
22. you have so many more people to meet.
23. everyone who thought you’d do well in life, would have been wrong.
24. the people who said you’d end up no where, would have been right.
25. all the fake people would pretend to like u and post u on their stories.
26. you would have been the best mom or dad.
27. you haven’t lived the ‘my funeral will be packed’ type of life.
28. your friends would suffer.
29. your mum would never be able to walk into your room.
30. you haven’t apologised to people you have hurt.
31. someone loves you.
32. you are not alone.
33. i’m here for you.
34. the clothes you’re buried in might be gross.
35. you haven’t truly loved yourself yet.
36. suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems.
37. you haven’t watched your kids open their christmas presents.
38. you haven’t watched your kids grow older.
39. the pain you feel right now, isn’t forever.
40. there are so many foods you haven’t tried.
41. you’ll never get the feeling of walking into a warm building on a cold day.
42. finding your person.
43. really soft pillows.
44. eating pizza with your kids and partner.
45. you will never be able to dance in the rain.
46. you will never kiss anyone in the rain
47. there are so many hobbies you haven’t tried.
48. you’ll never have a sleepover with your best friend again.
49. your friends would blame themselves.
50. your mom's smile.
51. your best friend's laugh.
52. your sibling(if y have one) would lose her/his best friend.
53. your cousins that look up to you.
54. hot chocolate on cold days.
55. ice water on hot days.
56. getting a tan.
57. hearing ‘i love you’.
58. not being able to sleep the night before and exciting day.
59. your birthday.
60. you’ve probably never been to a nightclub.
61. long hot showers.
62. long steamy baths.
63. freshly shaved legs.
64. perfectly smooth hair.
65. watching people trip over small objects.
66. you could have a huge impact on someone’s life.
67. you would regret dying.
68. you can’t change your mind once you're gone.
69. you wake up everyday for a reason.
70. stars.
71. you will always be enough.
72. movies that make you feel warm when they’re over.
73. reading powerful quotes.
74. genuine smiles.
75. the crunch of autumn leaves.
76. christmas.
77. christmas eve.
78. decorating the tree.
79. long meaningful hugs.
80. sunsets.
81. ice cream.
82. you will never get your favourite puppy.
83. you are so brave, it would be a waste to let the fire go.
84. rainbows.
85. travelling to new places.
86. funny stories.
87. funny jokes.
88. inside jokes.
89. coffee.
90. your talents would go to waste.
91. the feeling you get when you’re truly happy.
92. all nighters with friends.
93. cuddling.
94. reconnecting with old friends and family.
95. smiling.
96. capturing perfect moments on camera.
97. swimming on a hot day.
98. feeling cozy in blankets.
99. helping other people with the same thing you got help with.
100! becoming successful.
101. cute babies.
102. cute old people.
103. love stories that make you jealous.
104. telling crazy stories.
105. watching lightning.
106. watching rain.
107. star gazing.
108. recovery.
109. melted chocolate.
110. freshly baked cookies.
111. late night adventures.
112. overcoming fears.
113. sunday mornings.
114. friday mornings.
115. you’ll be dead, forever.
116. you will make a difference to people.
117. picnics with friends.
118. waking up late.
119. waking up late and ending up being on time.
120. to prove them wrong.
121. to prove them you can.
122. to prove you're strong.
123. to love and be loved.
124. the ocean.
125. pets.
126. very loud music.
127. days out.
128. finishing a book.
129. conversations that just flow.
130. learning new things.
131. you are important.
132. you are wanted.
133. mistakes.
134. snow.
135. sun.
136. flowers.
137. flowers that look gorgeous but smell gross.
138. new bed sheets.
139. new home decor.
140. roller coasters.
141. theme parks.
142. smiling at strangers.
143. random acts of kindness.
144. the sound of water.
145. visiting a place from your childhood.
146. to look back on all the things you got yourself through on your own.
147. to feel proud.
148. reassurance.
149. cute nicknames.
150. long stares that make you feel loved.
151. meaningful gifts.
152. blowing out candles.
153. meeting online friends in real life.
154. success.
155. to work the job you always wanted.
156. the live the life you dreamt of.
157. babies smiling.
158. sleep.
159. tea.
160. breaking rules.
161. dreams.
162. the last day of school/work.
163. taking pictures.
164. brownies.
165. bubbles.
166. water slides.
167. holidays.
168. to fall asleep on someone.
169. to feel protected.
170. to grow taller.
171. to grow stronger.
172. to grow old.
173. to make memories you’ll cherish.
174. to laugh at old pictures.
175. to be loved by a pet.
176. the first signs of summer.
177. the first signs of autumn.
178. the first signs of winter.
179. the first signs of spring.
180. to binge watch a series.
181. to live independently.
182. to get somewhere in life all by yourself.
183. to not have broken any promises.
184. to fulfill your promises.
185. to breathe.
186. so you can tell your children stories of when you was there age.
187. so say you’re alive.
188. to know you’re stronger than you think.
189. falling in love.
190. you will never be able to snuck out again or for the first time.
191. you’ve never not smashed your phone.
192. staying up all night.
193. you are a kind soul.
194. you have a warm heart.
195. you care for others.
196. the smell of pancakes.
197. when you walk over frosty grass.
198. you haven't truly apologized to all the people you've hurt
199. i love you.
200! to say you made it.
anyone reading this, please know you are not alone and I love every single one of you. things are hard right now i know. you’ll get over it I promise. nothing lasts forever.❤
Whoever you are. You just saved my life..im not kidding. I was about to end it here: 9:47 right there. Until i finished reading this. I love you and will always remember this.
@@Lotus-chu thanks for staying. Thank you. The world needs you. Whether or not you think it does, you are needed. Whether you’re needed now, or in the future, you are needed. ❤❤❤
@@Lotus-chu im so, so proud of you
@@Lotus-chu I’m so happy you stayed! I hope you have a great life and keep on living, I really hope it will get better for you ❤
lthank you i was abt to end my lifeline untill i saw this
you saved my life too i love whoever you are behind this camera❤🥹
My parents always say 'you can tell us about your problems'. When I tell them about my problems, they say, 'You're a teenager, everyone feels like you.' I'm sorry when I can't tell them about a problem later but it's apocalypse at home. About 2 years ago, my friend fell from the roof and died... Sometimes I want to say to my parents, 'Look how miserable her family is and how guys want to feel like this.' but if I say, a fist comes from the right and a slap from the left. if you have read thanks.
I just want you to know that I want you to liv. I know how tuff it is but you will make it through. Stay strong.
same, stay strong girl, we can do this
"I saw them standing right there, kinda thought they might care" pov: me sobbing loudly and having a mental breakdown, me knowing for a fact my parents hear me and aren't doing anything-
I was 6 standing in the recess yard
It was snowing
The wind was cold
My friends cheering
My head was up looking at the sky
As I asked God to give me more snowflakes
Let me run alone in snow again
Feeling my body burn because of frostbites
Let me feel alive again.
That's pretty. Did you wrote it ?
@@somebodywho_see7940 thanks ! yes, it’s based on memories of primary school I had. In France we don’t have much snow anymore, I live in Paris and it haven’t snowed like in my childhood for years. I miss it
@@lilith6972ah I see! Though it sounds like it was really beautiful
I’m proud of you for waking up.
I’m proud of you for brushing your hair.
I’m proud of you for blinking.
I’m proud of you for breathing.
I’m proud of you for making your bed.
I’m proud of you for eating.
I’m proud of you for TRYING to eat.
I’m proud of you for drinking water.
I’m proud of you for being here.
I’m proud of you for being you.
I’m proud of you for smiling.
I’m proud of you for continuing on even when things are difficult for you.
I’m proud of you for standing up.
I’m proud of you for blinking.
I’m proud of you for getting out of bed after spending the whole day in bed.
I’m proud of you for brushing your teeth.
I’m proud of you for standing up.
I’m proud of you for sitting down.
I’m proud of you for defending yourself.
I’m proud of you for believing in yourself.
I’m proud of you for simply trying.
I’m proud of you for being alive.
IM PROUD OF YOU.
This made me tear up... Thank you, I'm proud of you too (for all these things)
i didnt brush my hair
thank you so much im trying not to do self harm its been 3 weeks
Ty
@@leo_valdezthefireboy-mi5ns CG 👏👏, I'M PROUD OF YOU
I love how every1 are saying they're issues,
anxiety, problems and those people who tries to cheer them up, even tho they are only strangers
i am committing to every comment and try to make them happy even if it takes all night
it's wierd that strangers on the internet comfort me more than my friends and family
@@miamaroon5755 fr.
Don't be upset about you losing a friend.
Be happy you got time with them while they lasted
That was too depressing, i've had a friend whos been with me since 1st grade were in 8th now, she talks shit behind my back and shes a dumbass
I wish i could say this without crying for like 6996696969 hours straight 😭😭😭😭
@@itsbetteratnight nice
@@itsbetteratnight crying is good. let it all out!
thanks friend☺
The fact that strangers can make you feel more wanted than your family or friends.
You know, I used to read these comments that say "oh dont worry i love you, you will get better". You know those types of comments, i used to read them thinking "idc" and "this doesnt even help me or do anything for me" but now i read them in tears because i just really needed to hear that. all I want to do sometimes is sream as loud as I can and just tell somebody my problems and just be able to even put whats wrong with me into even just words but i cant do that
Dear person whoever reads this,
Hey, you, yes, I am talking right to you. I hope you will see yourself with the eyes I see you one day, because I can tell you have some awesome music taste :) You’re such a beautiful human being and worth and enough. I hope you know that you do only need yourself to be happy, I know society build up the standard that whenever you’re alone you’re not living a happy live. But in fact that is not true, if you start to realize that you actually deserve all the good things happening to you, you will treat yourself a lot nicer. I hope you let yourself rest, don’t beat yourself up over past mistakes, over regret, and over everything your mind wants to destroy you. I wish I could remove all those demons inside of your head because you deserve to feel happy. If you ever feel lonely then watch the sky, because you know, someone, at the same time is watching the sky too, maybe feeling the same way..I am glad you exist and I hope you won’t ever remove your own spot in this world, maybe you don’t feel like you belong here but, Angel, then build your home here. I don’t want you to leave this world unhappy. I want you to live every little second, I want you to feel alive, I don’t want you to see yourself just existing. You deserve it. Whatever happened, it’s not your fault, the demons in your head recognize that you have a beautiful heart, they want to take it because they have never seen such beautiful heart as yours, so why let them win over you? . You’re not selfish for isolating yourself, but you deserve to talk to someone. If you’re reading this than please never forget to breath and smile.
Don’t live up to other standards! It’s your story and not theirs.
Life for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one.
I love you and send you hugs.
You’re so strong, you’re still here, and I am proud of you.
YOU ARE NOT USELESS. READ THAT AGAIN.
YOU ARE WORTH IT. READ THAT AGAIN.
YOU ARE LOVED. READ THAT AGAIN.
I AM GLAD YOU EXIST. READ THAT AGAIN.
YOU ARE NOT A PROBLEM. YOU ARE HUMAN AND YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID. READ THAT AGAIN.
YOU ARE NOT BEING DRAMATIC.
You’re not a burden to anyone, don’t be afraid to talk, to use your voice.
You’re beautiful inside out. Your body is beautiful the way it is.
Please don’t starve yourself. Please eat, I know it’s hard but you deserve food. You deserve to eat and drink.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. READ THAT AGAIN.
I WISH I COULD HUGH YOU RIGHT NOW, SO A VIRTUAL HUG WILL DO.
It hurts me to see you’re in pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you.
I love u I love u I love u I love u I love u please don’t go.
I am sorry that no one is hearing you, I am sorry no one is noticing that you have lost yourself. I wish I could take your pain away, it hurts me to see the pain in your eyes. I love you trough my words and I mean it. I just want you to stay, hold on a little longer okay? Please? For me.??
I hope you have an awesome day/ morning/ evening/ night.
If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you.
If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits.
If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed.
And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re stronger than you think, I know you will make it :)
Now wipe those tears away and smile for me, you really don’t know much a smile can brighten someone’s day, do you? I hope one day yours will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world.
Remember crying is not weakness, let it out as much as you can but don’t let the emotion control you by giving up. It’s okay, you’re here, you’re safe, you can let it out.
Did anyone asked you, how you are feeling today? If not, how are you really? I don’t think you’re doing good, but you will feel good at one point. Don’t give yourself up.
I am sorry you feel misunderstood.
But anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :).
Enough with beating up yourself for today, okay?!
- The stranger that cares about you more than anything.
I hope this is enough for you to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. I hope you can stay.
This is your sign to stay and treat yourself with love, you deserve it.
And in case no one told you today, again, I am so proud of you.
I hope you will remember my words :)
Until tomorrow, my friend :)
If you want to talk to me more my discord is Bora#0501
i love this so much - thank you kind stranger :)
@@Mishaiia_11 I can still help you if you want on music stuff as well
I can’t even express how much this helped me
even though you are a complete stranger I really needed to hear those words
Especially that I'm not dramatic
My father sometimes tells me to not be dramatic and that I don't have a reason to cry
I relly thank you that you made me feel like my feelings are validated and that I'm not an attation seeker like my dad always says
@@linny0660 I’m glad I helped a good person - Your strange friendly internet stranger
I needed this, thanks, it's nice that at least one stranger cares
honestly I dont ever feel like going to school. my best friend just bosses me about, as if she doesnt even care, she thinks everything is about her. I cant even play with other friends anymore and she just uses "if you dont I wont be your friend anymore" as her excuses. i never get any alone time whenever im upset, and she always is lying, she even made me cry by talking about my old friends that hated me and how she was them.
Next time she says "then I won't be your friend anymore" then say "fine". Because she doesn't seem like a very good friend.
I know how this feels because I’m in the same situation with one of my friends. The best advice that I can give to you is try not responding or being a bit more distant. This can be hard because getting out of a friendship like this is difficult (I don’t know if this applys to you but I’m just saying for me it is). Another thing you can do is just be as vague as possible or not respond at all when she asks you questions or just wants to talk. Some of this advice may seem stupid but if you can try this it might help. I think we can both agree that we need better friends and that I hope one day soon you’ll find someone who clicks with you. I hope everything goes well love :) ♥♥♥♥♥
For @-Saturn_Spits_Bars- 💕
I’m struggling with the same problems, i can only tell you to leave her be at this point bc she dosent sound like a best friend
Hey I know how you feel because I'm in the same situation you could say considering she's already left me but I can still see her. Leave her she doesn't deserve you! Tell her how you feel if you hadn't already. She's probably going to get mad but ignore that. You can cry, let your emotions come out. It's ok to cry. After she'll surely say she doesn't want to be your friend anymore. If not, tell her yourself. It's alright if you don't say much that's completely fine. What I mean abt saying how you feel I mean that don't say anything sensitive especially if they could use that against you. Just say things she can't use on you. After you've done that do what you love. Eat a snack,watch a move,take a walk,even stay up longer if you want! The only thing I'll say about staying up is still get some rest! I hope your doing better!
- a stranger from the Internet that loves you❤
Okay, just incase anybody needed to hear this...
i love your smile
i love your laugh
i love your personality
i love your hair (or lack thereof)
i love you even if you have insecurities
i love your accomplishments
i love you even if you have failures
i love your eyes
i love your beauty
i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate)
i love the way you dance
i love you on your happy days
i love you even on sad days
i love you on the days you feel lonely
i love you on the days you feel helpless
i love you on the days you feel like no one cares
i love you on the days you feel forgotten
i love you on the days you feel unmotivated
i love you on the days you feel loved
i love you on the days you feel sick
i love you on the days you feel motivated
i love you on the days you feel depressed
i love you on the days you feel stressed
i love you on the days you feel crazy
i love you on the days you feel hopeful
i love you on the days you feel cuddly
i love you on the days you feel clingy
i love you on the days you feel amazing
i love you on the days you feel beautiful
i love you on the days you feel like a failure
i love you on the days you feel angry
i love you on the days you feel aggressive
i love you on the days you feel horrible
i love you on the days you feel safe
i love you on the days you feel unsafe
i love you on the days you feel vulnerable
i love you on the days you feel weird
i love you on the days you feel ok
i love you when you're healthy
i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music)
i love your taste in music
i love your taste in movies
i love your taste in tv shows
i love the way you act
i love you even if you cry
i love you when you're kind
i love you even if you you're mean
i love you even if you're alone
i love you even if you can't feel
i love you even if you feel too much
i love you even if you can't take life anymore
i love you even if you feel like it's too much
i love you when you're asleep
i love you even if you have nightmares
i love you when you have dreams
i love how you believe
i love you when you believe in yourself
i love you even if you don't believe in yourself
i love you even if you hate yourself
i love you when you love yourself
i love the way you think
i love you even if you have problems
i love your solutions
i love how you support
i love you even if you're in pain
i love you even if you're hurt
i love your promises
i love your secrets
i love your attitude
i love you sass
i love your creativity
i love your voice (or lack thereof)
i love you hand gestures
i love your stories
i love you even if you have wounds
i love you even if you have scars
i love your face
i love your past
i love your future
i love your present
i love your outfits
i love your style
i love your art
i love your honesty
i love you even if you lie
i love you even if you're tired
i love you when you're energetic
i love how you look
i love how you cook
i love you when you're adventurous
i love you even if you're scared
i love your imperfections
i love your perfections
i love you even if you worry
i love you when you talk (or communicate)
i love your opinions
i love you even if you have headache
i love you even if you have a stomach ache
i love you when you help others
i love you when you're mature
i love you even if you're immature
i love you in the hard times
i love you in the easy times
i love you even if life isn't bright
i love you when you're responsible
i love you even if you're irresponsible
i love you even if you fight
i love you in your darkest moments
i love you in your brightest moments
i love your heart
i love you in the day
i love you in the night
i love you at midnight
i love you at 3 am
i love you at all times
i love you at your best
i love even if your worst
i love the little things you do
i love all of you
i love you when you're you
i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪.
Didn't know I need this currently for in to a new relationship and my past is getting in the way and I'm currently sitting in uni sobbing to this because I didn't know I needed this message thank you ❤
thank but i broke someones heart and i liked him, i was just not ready and he told me awful things (this was like 12 min ago) can pls somebody help me? im now so broken, even more than in the past :(
i wish my parents could tell me this.
I'd love to talk to someone abt the stuff that's troubling me but I don't 'cause I dont want to be a menace so I just isolate from everyone and go listen to playlists like this one and read the comment section. I just find it weirdly comforting.
Why? Why can’t I have what they have? A friend that I’m not awkward around. A friend I feel comfortable with. I close friend. A *best* friend. Why can’t I have that? Why don’t I deserve that? I did everything I could. I am always nice to everyone! So why? Why oh why don’t I deserve that?
You do deserve that, ur perfect the way you are
i shall be your online friend i have a friend a good one but i cant see much so i will be your friend
You will find them. As long as you hold onto hope you will find them. You know why? Because somewhere in this world there is someone also lonely, feeling socially awkward wishing they could find a best friend. A real friend for all their pains and laught and guess what, they don’t know you yet but you already are on their mind! Someday you two will met and it will feels like you always were together like you always known each others, keep having hope, they also keep hope to meet you one day!
Vent
Trigger warning
I got in a fight like I often do, but now they bring my mental health into it. They began to yell at me that maybe I should kms and that I’m selfish to even consider it, they tell me I eat like a pig, they call me many heart shattering words.
What probably hurt/shocked me most is that these words came from the mother, my creator. The on that was supposed to build me up, protect me, heal. But she never did anything but hurt me. I have no confidence to tell anyone in the real word.
It’s all so tiring. I want it all to be over.
hey dude, you're doing amazing still being here after all that, you're so strong and i'm proud whether i am just a teenage girl behind a screen, it's shocking to read this, but to think that anyone js a little less weaker than you could have ended it all already, it shows your strength, you're doing great bud. Imagine your mother's words as crumbs, which means she is doing no damage, i know it's hard but everyone needs YOU here. Keep pushing, We believe in you
you did come out of her, so you should tell her "it takes one to make one"
They can say any shit they want but your life is so precious u can live with being happy and youthful with 1 real freind!
Your mom clearly doesn't deserve you, your amazing and you deserve life and happiness, you deserve a smile forever, don't listen to this crap! Your worth so much, soon things will get better....iam sure it will, you could go outside look in the sky or stay in your room with music take deep breaths eat a bite of your favorite snack and start thinking of momments and things that relax you
Make happy momments
Your beautiful and amazing okay? 💖
Was literally having a mental breakdown in the corner of my room while covered with bruises and cuts after my amazing and loving mom had a talk with me, I really like this playlist!!!! I probably cried even harder while listening to these songs lol
i'm sorry. Did you mean that your mom gave you the bruises and cuts? Or were you being for real and saying you had a loving mom that talked to you? I'm sorry i was confused lol
@@Mishaiia_11 I was saying she gave me the bruises and cuts lmao
I really hope it gets better for you.
Well I get tested it hurts , it makes me sad cuz I can't see my family ever again . I want to escape. I WANT TO BE SAVED😢😢😢😢
These audios help when your trying to tell someone how you feel and they change the subject to something so strange
I’m barely 13, yet I’m listening to these playlists at night, trying to fall asleep. What the hell, world? I’ve barely even lived yet…
no matter how hard i try, how much i give, how much i do for people all i get in return are the most hurtful words to me the little things and the words that means nothin to some people get to me and makes me day the worst makes me wanna curl into a ball and cry trying to hold my tears back while listening to them say it to me jst wow amazes me
It will be ok:) you are not alone we are all here for you and we will always be but you will have to be strong for everyone you love just know that there are people out there that care about you even when it doesn't feel like it
Stay strong superstar✨
Your good enough....you were always good enough
And they were always wrong, you are always right, you deserve so much better
Your hard work is worth so much, they should be grateful to have you
Your beautiful okay? DONT LISTEN TO THEM PLEASE! YOU MATTER TOO! AND YOUR THE BEST PERSON!!! IAM SURE!!, 💖💖💖💖
Once I opened to my mom,not that I wanted to is just that when I look sad or something she wanted me to tell her.most of the time I am not that see through,I can literally cry hours in my room and when I go out you wouldn't even notice. Once I had enough of her asking for me to open up to her so I told her that I might have depression, anxiety and even Dissociative identity disorder which at the end come to be true.all that she said is that I want attention and that is just a phase I will grow out of it.After 4 years (I was 15 then) I started seeing therapist I had told her every thing I had to go to mental hospital for almost 2 years until i've had learned how to deal with D. I. D and after my depression and anxiety is gone. Till this day my mom and other members of family except my only brother blame me for not telling them on time.
Iam so sorry....you deserve SO much better...
Your family members are horrible...
You are better then them, your wonderful!, I really hope treatment helps you more and soon your family freaking realizes how bad they are treating you
Please smile more and just remember you MATTER A WHOLE LOT!
And iam so so sorry iam 3 months late...
"You can control your depression and anger" AGHHHHHHHH. I'd love to be able to, thanks though for making it worse. I don't know how many people have told me this. And I thought I trusted them.
This playlist would’ve helped me so much during my anxiety attack 😢
To whoever is reading this.
Your feelings are valid, don’t let others change the way you feel. You are amazing. Yes the person reading this, you will get through these tough times. I wish i could give you a big hug because all of you need it, 🫂 for now here’s an internet hug. I promise it will get better. I’m 18 and man life has taken a toll on me. But i’m still here and standing. i pormise on my life it will get better. You are handsome/beautiful. You are amazing, you are loved (you may not know me but i love you ❤) Keep fighting my loves. Keep your head up, don’t let that crown fall off. Your crown is there for a reason and it’s to show that you can do anything you put your mind to. Take a walk, check up on your friends(if you don’t have any now i’m your friend❤) Take a minute to breath, it’s okay. You are okay, make sure you stay hydrated and you eat as well. Even if it’s anything small, if you already did that. I’m so proud of you. I’m proud of you for waking up today, I’m proud of you for eating/drinking some water. I’m proud of you for being here still. You are all Amazing, and wonderful
Knowing that the world is at shit and people are dying brutal deaths all around me is just saddening to see. I use my dreams to escape from the world. Sleep is for regenerating my body to it’s full self. But when I wake up, I still see reality slapping me right in the face. If only I could change the state of the world and make it more peaceful, and safer.. I would die to do that.
For everyone that needed to hear this...
I am so goddamn proud of you. Even if I have no idea who you are you have already made my day and so many others by just being here and I know it can be hard sometimes but just trust me it will all get better no matter how long it takes and regardless of your religion, you were born for a reason, so just remember that we all love you. Make sure you eat, sleep, and smile.
I am so damn proud of you. Keep going superstar ✨
Aw thank you:DD I'm proud of you as well friend! Keep yourself safe and i love you:))
Im always the therapy friend, people always vent to me. " blah blah blah " i have to act like i care, i dont. i have to act like im listening, but im not. Nobody ever dares asking me if i could vent to them or if im ok.
hey, you can vent here if you want
i feel this so much omg
it started with me venting to my friends but slowly i stopped doing it and eventually i just became the therapy friend. one of my friends said she was proud of how ive gotten better. this was conveniently after i had one of my biggest mental breakdowns. i let another one of my friends lean on me quite heavily. i sort of brought up my own state and they brushed it off just saying "uh". i let them lean on my when i was already low and when i hit my lowest i cant even lean on him as well. ive hit my lowest and this time dont even have anyone to lean on like i did before so theres no way im getting out of it this time-
thats enough about how i dealt with something like that Lol.
if you need someone to lean on im right here though so-
Anyone who is reading this:
Everyone has a different life. Some are lucky some are just not lucky, we get normal friends or best friends! Or.. bad friends. We also have the family stuff to, some people has a amazing family some people don't. Just to let you guys know
YOU ARE WORTHY
YOU ARE SPECIAL
YOU ARE AMAZING
YOU ARE THE BEST
YOU ARE THE MIRACLE
YOU ARE THE MOST SPECIAL PERSON.
Don't let anyone make ur motivation go away or make u sad. If they do it remember:
THAT'S NOT THE TRUTH
I AM SPECIAL
I AM STRONG
I AM A MIRACLE
Again, don't let anyone get in ur way. Don't let anyone CHANGE YOU!
You can be anyone u want! Follow ur dreams.
From, Cookie.
Thank you so much
Thank you Cookie
It's alright
man i read this shit and started crying a bit thanks man, really needed this rn :)
@@its_stanboo9215 you're welcome
Thank u.
"Mom."
"Yeah?"
"Can I have a cig?"
"No, why would you ask that?"
"You said I can try."
"I never said you can start smoking."
"Why? You do it. Dad does it. Everyone else does it. Why can't I?"
"Becouse I don't want you to kill yourself."
"Shoulda said that long ago."
"What do you mean?"
"Nothing."
"It can't be nothing. It's never nothing."
"Shut up. You never told me not to run away. You never told me not to jump. You never said anything."
"How could you say that? I've done so many for you. I cared for you every time."
"You only care about yourself. You only care about what others say about you. Never about me. Never about dad. It's allways you. Allways you who want's to fight. Allways you who wins. It's unfair."
"No. That's not true. You're just lazy. Now go back to studying."
"Thank's for the motivation. Really fucking helped."
"You're welcome."
"Damn this shit hole."
"Stop swearing."
"You don't swear?"
"No. I don't."
"Seems you don't lie either."
"I don't."
"Good night...(forever. I'm going to jump this time.)"
I didn't. I don't want to feel more pain. More guilt.
Edit: Ya'll pretty worried so I'ma answere so you stop. I'm much better. After 9 years I finally feel good.
PS(to @T): That flip joke is funny😂
is u there? if so, im here for u. if not, ima call the cops. if u dont answer in the next hour im calling the police
@@Emmi_em i wish i wasnt. but thanks
Hey, if you're not okay, just know this is a safe place to vent. I hope whatever you're going through gets better.
same bro its feels numb but we will get better this feeling will go away it might not seem like it but it will im here if you need anything i might be a stranger who doesn't know anything about you but just know im here.
how selfish ~
thank you for this ❤ I'm having a rough time confessing to someone and nobody cares enough to help. my friends only like me for my good qualities. people only speak to me for help with something. they dont wanna talk with me. they wanna talk to their reuseable coupon.
dang, that's happened to me too. I left that toxic friend group and I'm doing a bit better. I hope you find the right people who actually care.
i hope one day you got someone that willing to be a shoulder for you to cry on
All i want in life is peace and a respectable and understanding friend, i don't need a hug or anything like that, i just need someone to understand how i feel
Confess here then ,get it out ...
ya know what fuck those friends come with me to france i can speak french so
Thanks for this!
I’m having a hard time in life
But no-one is noticing except my therapist
I got a therapist at 5th grade because of me goggling something online
The school found it and contact my mom and my mom delivered the information to my gram/tia
The teacher almost told the police because of that
I lost my first best friend at four/third grade and came back at 6th grade it feels like we are separated she found other friends but hanged out with me but I didn’t feel so close to her anymore
She picked a other friend she just met over me they where so close to each other I felt left out but hid my feelings
I had kids make fun of my through 1-4 grade I spent four years with that because I couldn’t express it I had ‘ew’ faces at me for four years they made me cry and it just boiled my blood I wanted to just rip their spine and lung in pieces they were so nasty and selfish they even embarrassed me by saying “ewe I don’t wanna be behind her she is nasty and stinky bro I bet she doesn’t shower” I yelled at the teacher and said I’m being at the back the teacher command me to stay in front but I denied but I knew riping someone apart isn’t the right way so I did nothing because that’s not the right way and I knew they just wanted to be cool So i didn’t bother hurting anyone
but no one found out my mum didn’t even notice how much I suffered then the person I love the most died by her health at 4th grade I cried the whole year she even named me even though She wasn’t my mom she was just my trans aunt then her mom died her mom reminded me of her so I cried also but I cover my tears that day I was tired of life and I felt like my mum doesn’t care about me but Ik that’s a false alarm I knew she was my mom and I loved her even tho when she gets mad or sees me with something she body shames, calls me ugly,etc.. but I cried because of that and she doesn’t know that I hate my body/personality/everything about me so she makes comments like that but no matter I still loves her then at 5th grade I felt like my group just used me for food then they stopped talking to me at 6th grade and I found my best friend but she was still hanging out with me and stuff but I feel like everyone is using me and hates me but that continues through..
..and still no-one knows anything everything I’m telling you who is reading this . . . I’m still holding on
I feel you. My bestfriend also was a backstabber, after 9 years of relationship she left me out with other friend. My classmates talk bad about me, that started 5 years ago, also thougth it was my fault.
I'm here for you❤
playlist: don't cry.
I'm :crying.
as someone who hates feeling vulnerable, the "don't cry" hit me straight in the heart
At some point I got told that imagining your child self talking to your adult self could be therapeutic so I tried while listening to this playlist. Here’s how it goes:
Adult walk in
Child self: omg! That’s me!!
Child self run to Adult
-Im so glad to finally see you!! I’ve been talking about it with my friends at school!! Oh do you remember them?? Are we still best friends forever?? Rn im studying fractions and I try to draw a cat but it’s so hard and-
Adult: you know you’re a good child right ?
Child:…yeah?
Adult: no. You have to know, it wasn’t your fault. You’re a good child, right ?
Child:…
Adult: you perceived the world differently from others
Child: that’s because I’m
Adult and child: crazy and weird
Adult: yeah we heard that a lot right.
Child:..please stop
Adult: you had a different personality, you could be noisy, curious, talkative and oversharing
Child: stop.
Adult: you lied a lot too
Child: I’m sorry
Adult: what are you ?
Child:..
Adult: c’mon me…what are you
Child: a terrible person
Adult: wrong. Try again. What are you
Child:…a child.
Adult: you are a child. More than that. * adult leans to clean child’s tear* you were a good child. You were noisy and talkative because you wanted to laugh with people and make them feel good with you. You said a couple of lies to make you look more interesting because you were terrified of not receiving love. Because you weren’t able to love yourself. Because you felt that love was conditional.
Child: * tears roll down cheeks *
Adult: I love you me. You are a good child. Nobody should make you believe otherwise. You were just a kid. Nobody should had ask you to grow old faster. Nobody should had push you to hate yourself
Child face is now completely blank. Almost adult like. It had lost all its childish trait. To old for such a young body. Such a young soul.
Adult : I wish we were able to see at the time. We didn’t deserved that.
Child: I am tired.
Adult: I know
Child: I’m scared
Adult: you’re allowed to be tired and scared.
Child: I’m hurt too.
Adult: I’m sorry
Child: oh.. * its face goes shocked and completely destroyed by pain. *
Adult: I am so sorry
Child: stop.
Adult: I am so so sorry for what I did to us
Child: I SAID STOP
Adult: we were just kid. I am so sorry
Child: WHY DO YOU CARE WHY DO YOU APOLOGIZE IT WAS JUST US. * child fell on its knees sobbing shaking* it was just us.
Adult: it was us. That’s why I’m so sorry. It was us.
Child: I’m sorry.
you're a really strong person for realizing it isn't your fault! i really hope things get better for you! have a wonderful day lovely human /gen
@@dmitrix_ thank you so much you have no idea how I needed to hear thoses words! I wish you the best as well, may you and your loved ones can always be able to feel happiness
@mishaiia
hey i was looking at the comments and i realized you respond to almost every comment and idk that made me feel super happy like man someone actually genuinely cares. please stay like this💕
can do
My best friend left school last year and we talk on the phone sometimes when she returns home (she went to a boarding school), after she left i still had friends , basically i tried being nice to everyone so the whole class was friendly with me, but there was this one duo of besties who were always together, nut once a new girl transferred to our class, one friend from the duo left the other, i really didn’t think much we were young.
Now we’re more of seniors, the left out friend and I became friends, best friends to be exact, and for some reason joined in with the new girl’s duo, so now it was a group of four, but the new girl didn’t like me nor the left out friend, she started treating badly the people she didn’t like , but no one questioned a thing, because who would ever go against her? She’s the prettiest in the whole school, she’s the topper, every guy wants her or her best friend, they’re like rlly popular for their looks and outgoing personality…..and when after having kept bullied the leftover friend and kicked her out of the group basically, no one batted an eye.. and fast forward now a couple weeks ago she told me she never though of me as a friend, the girl I stood up for when none of the fakes did, the girl I thought was my bestie, hated me….always, she and her pretty bsf are always mad at me if I just simply talk to others, i am not allowed to talk to others, nor invited in conversations, always left out, they on,y need me when they are bored or when they need me , they always hit me and laugh about it,they insult me and say it’s a joke,they don’t respect my opinions, im merely their puppet and I fucking hate it here, i wish i coul change schools but my parents don’t want to listen either, i ha e no real friends , no personality, looks, ir grades I’m a loser and deeply inside i feel like i am paying for a sin I will never commit again
I'm sorry that this is happening to you. You don't deserve it. Please keep telling your parents about this or someone you know you could trust. Bullying is not good. It could effect you a lot. Mentally and physically. Make them beg for your forgiveness. I don't know who you are, but I know you're pretty. Don't let others tell you otherwise. I'm proud of you, if you don't get good grades, I'm still proud of you, for being here, for staying strong even tho you're going through something so hard. Please take care of yourself. Eat well, drink enough water, sleep well and do things that makes you happy. Don't let others prevent you from doing things that makes you happy. Take care :)
@@Ed1th.I am so grateful that someone took the time to read my comment, I thank you for being so kind.
But I have tried talking with my parents many times , soo many times that I don’t even think it’s gonna help at this point.
My mother doesn’t want to understand anything, she calls me a psychopath and other names I possibly couldn’t write, but the past times that I did talk with her she always shared my personal moments with her to everyone as if I have no privacy , for them my mental health is a joke, she share’s everything embarrassing and things I kept a secret with her to everyone , my father scolds me every time I want to give entrance exams for other prestigious and better schools, I don’t have any people close to me to share stuff either, the girls at school make me sick , and I’m not allowed to talk with guys. I have hobbies I want to try out, things I want to do, places I want to go, but it’s all a joke, I am always compared by my parents to other kids, because As long as my room is clean, I don’t wear short clothes, and my grades are good, that’s all that’ll make my parents happy
@@kire1948 You're so welcome. You deserve kindness and happiness. You really do. I wish you do some day.
Y'know, that could unfortunately be verbal abuse. It's horrible to not care for what's happening to you in school. She shouldn't have invalid your privacy. Mental health is not a joke. It's a real thing that many people had struggled with, or are struggling with. Mental health is a serious thing. It could happened to kids, teens, adults and elders. This y'know, I'm afraid would be mental abuse. She shouldn't invalidate your privacy and she shouldn't have told others your secrets. Your privacy and secrets are yours. They can't act like it's theirs. It's NOT okay. Any parents shouldn't scold their kid for such things like that. When making decisions like that, it should also be your decision, not only them. Can counselors in your school, perhaps, help you in some way? This is a serious matter. You're still so young and you deserve to be treated kindly. You deserve a perfect time when you're still just so young, not a traumatic experience where it could lead you to having suicidal thoughts. I'm just so sorry, but this could not keep happening any further. Please try to tell your teacher about those girls. Do you mean that those girls prevent you from talking to guys or your parents? Don't let your parents prevent you from doing what you want. You always have your own freedom. They can't just let you stay like this. It's YOUR decision whether if you want to try out new hobbies, things you want to do, places you want to go and others. Don't let your parent's negative words go through you. Don't let them effect you. Tell yourself you deserve happiness and that you're proud of yourself. Tell yourself compliments. Tell yourself that you've done enough and that's enough. I'm so proud of you, for everything. For staying here. That makes you strong. No one is perfect. Everybody makes mistakes sometimes, and that's completely okay. Don't let them control you, okay?
Clean room or not, I'm still proud of you. Choice of clothing, then again, should be your decision. Do what you think is best for yourself, not for others. Good grades or bad grades, that's completely fine. I'm still proud of you. Do things that makes you happy too. Care for your own needs and wants. Don't just do things for someone only, do it for yourself too. Make yourself happy. I wish I could make you happy. I wish I could make you feel better at some point, because you, you deserve happiness. I am grateful that you've responded to my comment. I hope I could help at some point. I hope you'll find what you need. Stay safe, take care. Eat well, drink enough water, sleep well and do things you love. Try out some new things. I'm sure it'll be worth it. It's better trying than being scared to do so. Sometimes you might feel relieved to know what happens when you try. Please don't give up. You're so young, you deserve to be so loved and again, you deserve happiness. Again, I'm proud of you. Keep going. My apologies, if this was way too long.
The worst feeling is when your not sad enough to mentally unstable but too sad to be fine
Naa bro I’m going through so much this playlist is helping me 😭😋
Today felt eternal so did yesterday i think im getting worse not better i thought dealing with this alone would be better then having to explain to anyone but its been like this for like 4 years i felt better one time but its lasted a month i then went back to crying every night sorry im venting to random people who dc probably but if u read this through thank you have a great day if not then i give virtual hug and remember i love you for waking up some people dont so just doing that takes some effort and im proud so very proud of you for that
-random person who has a accurate name
It's been hard for you, I know, and it makes me sad that you don't see yourself in the way I see you. Sometimes they are things in life that cause us to lose ourselves, and the way you have is so unimaginably painful. I miss your smile, the way your eyes light up the whole room just by the sound of your laughter. I miss the way you accepted the way you look in the mirror without cursing yourself out about how ugly you look. I miss the way you didn't think of yourself as a failure because everyone makes mistakes, we all have flaws and we all aren't perfect. It's painful to see that no one around you seems to see the pain through your eyes, but, stranger, I do, I see how heavy your heart is and how comforting the sadness for you might be, how afraid your heart is of happiness because it disappears in the end, right? You don't know how much impact you have in this world and it's sad to see that your demons fight against you and want to take over you. Because you do make change, it's something so simple and little that brightens up someone's whole world, it can be a small smile from your lips, the way you look at things you're passionate about, the way you make yourself eat even though it's been hard for you lately, the way you zoom out and go in your own world, you brighten up my world by reading this, it means a lot to me that you're here, existing, but I don't want you to just exist, you deserve to feel alive. You deserve to get up in the morning and feel good about yourself. You deserve to feel something- to feel every damn second alive in this lifetime. It's heartbreaking that you think you're not capable of being loved, because you are, I love you through all my words and I hope you let it happen in your heart. Love is scary, I know, maybe your heart has been broken once and since then you wanted to be rather numb than feel ever again, it hurts me how you punish yourself, does it not deserve love? Because YOU DO deserve love, please forgive yourself, it's not your fault that the demons want to take over your beautiful heart. You're not a bad person for distancing yourself from others, but you deserve someone to talk to, you deserve someone to listen to. I am listening, you can tell me what's wrong. It's everything, isn't it? There's something pulling your heartstrings on the ground and no one seems to understand how misunderstood you feel. It's heartbreaking to know that I am behind the screen and can't give you a hug, that's why I will give you a big warm virtual hug and send you lots of love :). You matter. You are worthy. You are loved. You deserve good things. You deserve someone to listen to. You deserve to eat and drink. You deserve to feel good and alive. You deserve to smile. You deserve a hug. You deserve to be all the things you want to be, because you deserve to have and feel good things happening to you and have a fulfilled life. I know I might not know you personally but I care about you so much. I write this because I want you to stay here with me. I want you to hold on a little longer because you matter so much to me, because I will not let you give up on yourself. I want you to see that you should not give up on yourself because you DESERVE GOOD THINGS. I want you to look back on the time when you were a kid, you didn't give up when you tried to swim for the first time, you didn't give up when you tired to walk for the first time and fell, you never gave up on yourself, you always kept on pushing forwards, so why can't you now? I know it's tiring, you're mentally tired, but don't your younger self deserve good things? look back at your eyes that used to be full of hope, look back on those dreams. Don't let yourself fall, you deserve better. We will both fight, I will fight for you. I won't let those demons get to you. You can hold on to me, I won't let you down :). Whenever you feel lonely, then look at the sky, I always look at it and think about you. Yes, you, because it makes me happy that there's someone looking right back, maybe we can't see each other but I can feel your presence here with me and that's enough for me, because I am glad your heart is beating and you're still fighting. You're so much stronger than you think, you didn't leave your spot on this earth even if you wanted to, you belong here, even though it doesn't feel like it, when you don't feel like belonging then build your own home here, put all your love in it and dreams. Think of you as a star when you feel alone, you shine because your heart is good, no matter what mistake you made, no matter about the past you had, you're one of the stars that shine bright in the universe because you're heart is beautiful, that's why the demons in your mind wants to have it. As one of the stars you see other stars, maybe they have felt the same way as you do at some point in their life, but they lighten up the universe with each other's presence. You're a star for me, maybe you don't see it yourself but I can see it, you're beautiful from inside and out, your body is beautiful the way it is. You make me happy by reading this, you make me feel something by your presence and when you can make me feel that way then you also make other people feel that way about you too. I hope you stay for yourself and don't let your story get written by others but by yourself, it's your story not theirs. As you can see, I say a lot of "I hope" because I have hope for you even if you don't have it for yourself, I see hope in you even though you might want to give up. That's why I hope you won't see the world in darkness and will see it colorful again. I hope I will give you a glimpse of hope and make the world you see a bit colorful for today. My favorite color is yellow, and I hope the next time you see the color yellow you will think about my words. If someone left you then don't blame yourself, don't think you weren't enough, don't lower yourself for someone who couldn't see the awesomeness in you. If you lost someone I am so sorry for your loss, they want you happy. I hope you don't feel guilty or regret because you were there, you spent enough time with them, they want you to be happy. They are in a good and safe place now. If someone broke your heart then I am so sorry that they couldn't see the way you look so beautiful because of the heart you have. Anyone who gets to be with you, doesn't know how fucking lucky he/she/ they is :). If you aren't accepted at home or in general then I am so sorry that you have to deal with someone/ something you shouldn't be ashamed of. I accept you and support you. I accept you as a human being no matter what race, religion, nationality, skin color, or sexuality you have. You're safe here with me :). You're not useless, you're not a burden to anyone. You're not a problem, you're human and your feelings are valid. You're not being dramatic. Please don't starve yourself, you deserve food and to drink, I know it's hard. It hurts to see that you're in so much pain :( you deserve so much man, don't let your emotions control you. Don't let them get the best of you. I am sorry no one is noticing, I wish /hope I could take your pain away for today or even for a moment while you're reading this. If no one told you, I am so proud of you, you're reading this and it's enough for me to be proud of you because you're here and that's all that matters to me. If it's night for you, go to sleep, I know it's hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don't let them fight you. If it's day for you, don't start it with such sad music. I know it's impossible to have a good day with such a mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water everyday in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits. If it's evening for you, you're probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it's okay to feel the way you feel. You don't need to be scared, of course you're overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn't? But it's important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed.
And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you're so strong for breathing despite the pain, I know you will make it :) I believe in you. All I want for you is to stay here, I really mean all my words, even if there are a lot of unsaid things I want to tell you and my text is getting longer and longer, I want you here. I hope one day your smile will become a genuine one where you don't need to fake it anymore, because I can't say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You're worth more than every fucking cent in this world.
You can let go for today, I got you, you can cry your heart out as much as you want, but don't let it tear you down and let your emotions control you by giving up. Crying is not a weakness. If you still feel alone I dedicate a song as your friend.
"Dusk till Dawn-Zayn feat. Sia (I prefer the slow version)" I hope you can think of me and will remind yourself of my words, I will for sure think of you.
In case no one told you and you're unsure yourself, you're a good person and I am so happy you're here.
I hope this is enough to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. Enough with beating yourself up for today, okay?
Life for those who couldn't, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there's no other, hug like it's your last one.
Life for those who couldn't, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there's no other, hug like it's your last one.
If you read all of it, until tomorrow my friend :)
have a good day and great years. now smile for me okay ♡
Here’s what I think , nobody cares about us so we should just care for each other
I know a lot of yall need to here this, im proud of you, you have made it this far dont give up yet one day we will have peace just keep going. I believe in you!
I hope this message helps you better
I proud of you
I love you
I love your smile
I love your hair
I love your gesture
I love to see you love yourself
I love your breathing
I love your body
I love your face
I love to see you eat
I love to see you drink
I love your eyes
I love your nose
I love your lips
I love everything on your face
I love you when you being live.
I love you when you belive yourself
I hate to see you cry
I hate to see you hurt yourself
I hate to see you torment yourself
I hate to see you hate yourself
I hate to see you hard breathing
I hate to see you say anything bad about you
I hate to see you hurt
I hate to see you sad
I hate to see you say ''I want to died''
You're special, you're not look like everyone, you're pretty. Love yourself and don't cry anymore.
This helps after getting beat by my drunk\abusive dad and my mom hating me.... i stopped doing $H but im thinking if doing it again but idk and on top of that my bf was caught cheating by my sister and i still havent confronted him,ughh being a gay 16yro sucks -_-
HUGE TW!! Im so fcking tired of hearing everyone saying its for my own good or that im just being delusional. I have 5 diagnoses including a deadly one. im forced to take 5+ pills a day and is forced to have needles stuck in my body everyday for the rest of my life, forced to take medication every hour just to "survive" I hate it. I got 3 diagnoses right after each other and was emergently admitted to the hospital, forced to poke blood out of myself every 2nd hour for weeks. They knew, they all knew. I never wanted to live in the first place, no in fact. I have 8+ s0icide attempts. addiction to SH to the point my teacher basically kidnapped from school and forced me to go to a docter without permission from anyone, because she thought my cuts were so deep and huge that I'd have my arm amputated💀I honestly hate it. Its like im being forced to live in hell against my will. its like everyone is against me. like im being tortured. Why can't they just let me find peace. what do i have to do to get out of here. They give me anti-depressive pills but they're what's making me more suicidal. "in 3 months you'll thank me, hopefully by then you will actually have emotions enough to smile on your confirmation " - my mom. No, you want me to be someone i cant be. you want me to be perfect, to never feel emotions other than happiness. to be able to function in society. but im not capable of such thing. the only thing the pills make me feel is emptiness. I feel inhuman. I simply cant see myself as a human being anymore. but no matter what i say or do. im only giving them more reasons to lock me up and drug me more. i dont know myself. i dont know who i am or what i am. im fake. im a creation the phychiatrists and my mom designed to be able to live in this fucked up world. I cant do it.
I honestly have no idea what exactly to say to you, but here's what I'd say from the bottom of my heart.
You are such a strong person.
You have persevered and struggled through so much even if you didnt want to. It feels like it's a dead end, that you're lost and stuck in a world that hates you and you hate it right back. Nobody understands you and whatever 'treatments' they give you only push you deeper into a pit of despair.
All this trauma, grief and suffering is what nobody should have to experience, yet you were the one who went through it.
Blood on your hands, arms and pooling around you, it feels hopeless and helpless. I don't understand you perfectly and I probably never will because if I went through half of what you did, I would have no idea how to move on from there.
You are incredible, every ounce of your being and every breath you take. Phychiatrists and your own mother built you as their 'little experiment' that they thought could withstand the weight of their actions, but that is just entirely cruel. You are a human, you bleed crimson and you take in oxygen, you fall when you are at your lowest and force yourself to get back up over, and over again. It's enough, you deserve peace and I wish that I could somehow find a way to give that to you, but I don't know how.
All I can do is write this message in hopes that you regain even the smallest ignition of hope in your heart that has been torn and shattered into pieces.
You are important no matter how bad things get, no matter what others say or how they treat you, you matter. Like a word in a novel full of sentences, you think that you're just that one outcast that the editor forgot to fix, therefore you are a mistake, but that is not true at all. Like that one tiny imperfection, you prove that nobody is perfect, that mistakes can happen and that they aren't always bad as they prove that even that editor isn't 'all that.'
No, I don't mean that your life was good, it was nowhere near that, and I wish I could take away all of your pain and suffering, give you a mended heart with happy little bandaids on each little crack, but I can't. There is only one person capable of that, it's you.
You can reach your heart and dig through the glass, emerge with a severely injured hand painted in scarlet, but in the palm of it, you'll find that tiny sliver of hope and life.
It's hard, it's complicated, there is absolutely no doubt in my mind that you are one of the most exquisite people I have met. Your cuts will heal, time might just make things better, but hope is one of the things that drives all that recovery, and you know who is the only one who can find that hope?
It's you.
P.S. I apologize deeply if anything I said was insensitive or triggered you in any way. I hope life gets better, don't stop traveling the path no matter how numb your legs feel, no matter how tired, how hungry, or dehydrated. You will make it, you will.
@@saltyfries5803 Wow... Okay I did not expect anyone to actually see my comment. But woah. Thank you alot. All those words, it sounded straight out of a British novel from the 19s.(in a good way) all the words. I can't believe you would write all that down just to respond to my random comment. I'm honestly stunned. I don't think I deserve all that pityness. But thank you. Im trying my best. (Sorry for the lack of effort. I'm really not good at this, but I really appreciate you either way)
Man… and I thought I had it bad…
Underrated playlist fr
Literally the second "i cant handle change" came on, i knew this playlist was perfect for me. And i was right. Its absolutely perfect for the state of mind im in right now. Thank you so much.
Im 13... and I can"t believe I feel more comforted by these people I don"t know more than by my family and close friends...
Great job with the playlist! I had really enjoyed it! Good work!!
For everyone who needs to hear this and for everyone who doesn't. (You can vent in replies
i feel like your being too much of a therapist friend rn and not getting any/enough love or appreciation. here take a hug
@samanthacanadayt I agree. And I know how it feels to be one. So I know exactly how they’re feeling. At least how I feel in a situation like this: I’m saying all these nice things and taking care of everything and everyone yourself but you can’t even worry about yourself. But you will never tell anyone because you don’t want to put pressure on others. But then that just builds more pressure on YOU instead.
@@user-ul8ol9ej1oim sorry you know how it feels to be one.
It just breaks my heart to see how much people listened that. im so sorry for all of you, guys.
It'll be okay. Someday, somewhere, somehow you'll gonna feel found. Everybody have a chance.
thank you for this it really helped me calm down a bit and just breathe(:
you're welcome
your skin isnt paper dont cut it
ur neck isnt a coat dont hang it
ur heart isnt glass dont let it get broke
ur perfect
❣
its too late... :(
You're Wayy to late for that
“It all gets better!” NOT UNTIL IM 18! UNDERSTAND WHAT WE GO THROUGH, NOT EVERYTHING GETS MAGICALLY BETTER PEOPLE! I’m 13 and shouldn’t feel like this, I should be so mature for my age I wanna run around and hang out with my friends but I can’t do that..
VENTING
So after years of hiding that I was depressed. I got the courage to tell my mom about how I felt and I thought it would be the best thing I could have done and make me feel less alone. But now after 1 year nothing has changed every time I talk about how I feel she would talk about something else and I would be disappointed every time hoping this time she would listen and talk to me about it. Now I think what was the point of telling her how I felt if nothing would change. I have no one to talk to and I think It will always be like that and now I can't tell anyone how I feel. I even said to her can I please go to therapy and she said I could and she would help but nothing has happened. I don't feel like it is her fault for being like that when she was raised that way and does not know how to help me and express it. but I feel like she should have at least tried to.
I think a therapist can really help. Maybe search for one close to your home and ask your mom if you can go see him. To show her that you really want to go and so that she don't have to do the research. And if you can't find a therapist, you'll find someone who will listen to you, someone who will listen to your feeling. It won't always be like that, it will get better
If anyone ever wants to talk, i'll listen
you have no idea how incredibly sweet you are. you have a huge heart. just remember that you should have people who listen to YOU!! and if you're willing to listen to others, I will listen to you
@@scrappylunatic that's so nice haha
you have a beautiful heart as well 🤗🤗
i cant wait to end it :)
In this generation, people romanticize mental illnesses, they also influence the children…
The world is complicated, and that’s okay. You can take your time to understand it
It hurts to know that before you used to smile a lot as a comfort zone, but then years later you got hurt so bad that you only smile for others, not for yourself
I've been there, It's heavy on the lips, but I can't smile even if I want to. Life is getting started with the pain... I want help
Im very sorry if you can relate to any of these songs, just know that you aren't alone, im proud of you for everything you ever did, hang in there, you're gonna be okay❤
10:55 always will be one of my favourite songs, the 2 birds remind me of the 2 versions of myself. One who wants it all to end in a horrific and painful way and the other who wants it to end peacefully.
Oh how i used to give love to everyone and how i never got it back, I'm healed now from all the fucked shit but there's this massive void in my heart that feels like knifes are being thrown at me, a hard pill to swallow: the pain and trauma never goes away. And what's more disappointing is that, no one ever knew and knows, u hate to talk about my feelings, i never learned to talk about them anyways hahah.
My bsf: *Goes and hangs out with someone else*
Me: *Just watches her slowly get more and more distant*
New/Old Bsf: "Hey! wanna hang out?"
Me: "Sure!"
New/Old Bsf: *Ends up ghosting me and leaves me for other people*
Me: *Trying not to cry in my room and ends up having depression*
Hey, are you okay? If not, then I hope you get better :)
It happens to a lot of peope. It sucks but when you do find that person that you really click with and who understand you, you will forget about all of this and your fake friend.
@@emanon69 Yeah
I can kinda relate. one of my past friends said he needed new friends and that I was weird, he wanted to say that to my other past friend and she wasn't even at school that day. I'm friends with neither, I saw them talking to eachother like nothing was said. I'm friends with one of his friends(I don't actually know if they're still friends) and she's weird too, everyone is. He's weirder than me, he's always been. And for some reason he keeps side eyeing me whenever we cross paths as if I did something. Whenever I was with him and my other past friend, I felt more alone than I was without them.
Skill issue
ive been dealing with stress and depression(half) lately, and i dont want to vent but i cannot hold it in anymore, i just hate the people that dont understand you, and i cannot even tell my family what is happening, i just want to vent but its too much and i dont even know where to start. but then theres one thing that cheers me up. my bff, and you guys, and you, the stranger reading this, please just get me relived, i dont know if anyone else is going through their, how i call it, Vent phase, im in it rn, and im hiding from crying infront of my family, or alone, i just want to cry when theres nobody, and i mean nobody that hears me or sees me. please. *Help me.*
relatable to me right now, suffering with anxiety and depression for 4 years now and no one has noticed and those who did just laughed
My mother, grandmother, sister, friends, friends parents and my stepdad constantly body shame me. "Do you ever eat?" "Do you have an eating disorder or something?" "Hahaha your nose is so fat" "Its just a little joke, no harm done" "Ew since when did you have freckles" and its really annoying and whenever i vent to my best friends and mom they just tell me they have a worse life and my life is perfect and im just overreacting. My mother yells at me saying im just really spoilt and she doesn't understand whatever i talk about, she doesn't even pretend to understand and care and she laughs when my step father body shames me. My dad is one of the only family members i can properly vent to, at least he pretends to understand and care.
3 of my best friends for 5-6 years recently left my school, i cant communicate with any of them. I really missed them and my teachers knew that since all of them have seen us with eachother every second of the school day and one of them made me go to the school councillors for a week. I have a lot of friends but they all ignore me and are too busy to notice me. I got 2 new best friends but we fight almost everyday and one of them wont stop bragging about their expensive pens and rings. And i have found out they are leaving the school next month. After that I will probably be more depressed and ignored way more often.
There is a lot of bad thoughts bottled up inside of me lol
My friend introduced me to Tori and by god all of her angsty lines fit so well for me
Tw : SH ( my demons are coming )
Today was when I snapped, I couldn’t take it anymore. I screamed at my friends and I can’t get their horrified expressions out of my mind. They looked at me like I was a insane. The only reason I snapped was because they kept just ignoring me as if I wasn’t with them. So, I finally yelled “ how can you guys laugh when I’m here suffering in silence because you guys refused to listen! I’m tired of just being your friend that you only use for money or to get me to set you up with someone! I’m just done! “ They tried explaining that wasn’t the case and they didn’t know how I felt, but at the time i didn’t want to listen. Then I went home and decided to SH. I slit my wrists and blood started dripping. I wanted to end it but then I thought of the people that I love and they wouldn’t want this for me? Would they? I thought of my friends and how they probably see me as a monster now. I am a monster. ( my demons are coming )
"oh your being dramatic, Your FINE nothing is wrong with you, your just sad." Im sad everyday. This is just the only time you have noticed
"You're not depressed!" "Stop being so melodramatic." I really wish I could stop thinking of all the horrible thoughts that cross my mind, but I can't, and I feel so useless because everyone thinks I'm lying. Not even the people closest to me think I need help, even though I've tried to tell them I do need help, and I can't help myself because of the mindset I'm in.
This hit HARD
If enyone is sad you’re not alone remember that it can always get better. Vent if you want or need
You know when you get that feeling in your chest like your not in your body or like you hollow. Thats how i feel every single day every single moment every minute i wish it would go away it wont i want really want it too trust me my family says it will pass but i know it wont my friends are going through the same thing and they say it never goes away and i kinda believe them
I remember my depressed era i would listen to this holding my tears in so my eyes wouldn’t be puffy in the morning
[TW] VENT
This playlist reminds me of an old friend, He played with me on minecraft everyday! helped me build and improve.. One day he left.. Never to be seen till this day.. That was almost 2 years ago.. I miss you arro..
The first step of the day is to wake up if you can get past that then you should encourage yourself to continue your day like you did when you decide to wake up
Yeahhhh, I love this Playlist cuz sometimes u just think everyone hates u, or ur being left outttt, yeah, life just sucks.
How do we stay good people when there's constant bad happenings everywhere ?
“You don’t even have a reason to be depressed?”
“What’s so wrong in your life?”
“I don’t care how “harsh” your life is, mine was worse”
“Ew cringe”
“Stop being fake. We aren’t friends anymore.”
“Depression isn’t even that bad, you are so dramatic.”
“Why are you always gloomy and sad? Your life is perfect.”
1. comparing trauma and depression isn’t cool.
2. i trusted you. I came out to you. I was comfortable with you, but now I don’t know you.
3. I’m coming out to you, don’t tell me I’m dramatic. Take it serious.
I didnt cry for over a year and a half i just try to stop my self from crying because i felt weak whenever im crying then i just got used to it but every time i want to cry something in my chest gets heavier every time and i just felt something in me or an i just got like this urge to cry and be comforted by and the part or the part of a song i know its from billie the one where there's a part that goes i tried to scream the part before that just hit me like a train i felt like someone is trying to comfort me and i can tell them everything then i just burst out crying,i just wanna say something to my real friends thank u for being there❤️
Even tho there were 6
I get it I feel the same I have fights with my friends and they called me toxic 😢 I'm proud of you is what I'm trying to say I feel the same
...I'm know as a perfect and happy girl, and sometime little sensitive. I have a lot of people who loves me, but they never know I'm deppression and I cant even cotrol my emotions
Heyy!
You are so perfect!
💗🤍
I don't know what to do. I don't feel like ending it but its like that song, numb little bug where you don't want to die but you don't exactly want to live. I just feel sad for no reason, I guess its that summertime sadness. But I have lots of friends I can't open up to and I cry so much. I just can't tell anyone face-to-face because they won't understand. I don't understand. I just want to go somewhere safe, somewhere where I can lay down and think about nothing, somewhere I can be safe.
When you cut yourself everyday, hate everything, attempted twice and want to again but everyone tells you your fine
"Your only {insert age} you have nothing to be stressed about!"
They all ignore me. And then they ask "Heyy, why are you so quiet? You don't want to talk?? Awh" No I want to talk but no one is f listening.
I freaking hate this.
People say “you can move on you’ll have people in your life”. Or “go put on makeup ,go lose some weight”. And other people at school say they are friends with me like everyone at the whole entire school says they can understand but the thing is I know they all may have been through worse but not what in my thoughts and my feelings say I’m just a kid stuck in a teenage body with no one by my side when my whole entire family has been separated from each other and I mean like my whole entire family we all barely see each other even my cousins they barely talk to me and never wonder how am I like nobody wants me they say they do but I think through my head saying “ then why are you doing this to me why do you say I don’t love you when I loved you first I loved all of y’all first even my siblings mostly them cause they were there for me mostly my sister cause my other sibling passed away when I was 5 and it was almost my birthday and I had to deal with all the crying in my little room I toke over from my brother’s bedroom while passing by all the favorite things he loved while I was wearing a matching shirt of what he loved and after that I had to do with more lost family members dieing on me and they said I was too young to understand that they were dead but I already knew cause I saw him in his bed not moving or breathing I was the one who first knocks on his damn door just to see if he was ok right after getting out of the shower and was dressed cause I shared another bedroom with my sister and mostly everyday I was the one who breaks in his room laughing with him and watching and getting reached from him while he was playing games and he was 19 right when he died and they think I can’t sit there and see how he lays there and getting taken by the ambulance from having a seizure an my sister toke cared of me mostly than parents should my sister was always there she was my best friend she was my world she was my life my wise person my leader my everything and we were so close and when brother left our lives life became worse mom and dad fights all the time and they separate rooms and never talk but argue all the time and mom found somebody knew and was already getting more traumatized by hearing banging on the wall and yelling in my moms room while I sat there in the front door crying and crying and later on a few years later my sister moved to her boyfriends and I was the one sitting there all alone in the living room with no one not. Even my dad. He always locked his door and barely talks to me I always knock on his door but I smell the smokes and alcohol as I already knew he wasn’t there in his joyful mind and my moms not attacking how she use to when our family was perfect and I sat there in the damn living crying and no one heard me I reached out for anybody’s hand but no one toke it but my sister did she comes visit and always checks on me before she goes back to her boyfriends and she would even let me spend the night where she was just to keep me safe from all the drama and mostly I cry and cry in my brothers room where he use to be wondering why me while I be at school most of people didn’t want me but two old friends that I lost later on and yet I always watched myself grow while looking in the mirror and tell myself “I look so ugly when I cry when do I even cry” and a few years later it got worst and I went to grandmas and my moms boyfriend came along and beated grandma in front of me than points the knife at me saying “turn around so I can cut your grandmother into pieces and probably will do it to you too” and then point the gun at me while I hid under the bed crying and watching and it was all for a medicine battle to borrow and beated up my uncle and slide my dad against the wall and repeatedly beated up my mom every time and every day and finally I had enough and I told the school and later on I was separated from them and I couldn’t even barely contact them and after few months the woman promised I could see them all again but I never had the chance cuz of what the woman did and the woman even traumatized me everyday saying I’m too skinny and too fat I’m too stupid and so ugly and many more things and did more worse things and when one day I accidentally hit her she slapped my face so hard I had a bruises and fell against the floor crying and crying constantly for days and even at school nobody wanted to talk to me they all used me and bullied me and I wished I had the two friend I had when I needed them but now I’m alone afraid scared traumatized and always saying to myself “I’m never good enough to do anything no matter what I do I try and try but I can’t do this on my own I want my sissy(nickname for sister as child self) “ and I always cried like a child and they say why am I so childish everyday abd after a while I finally came back home but before then my sister passed away and that toke my heart out because the woman who was watching over me never wanted to see her again as now till this day I’m standing on my too feet while my mom and dad are divorced of course and mom making me guilty and sad mostly and other family members not talking to me as often and alone with no friends as I’m homeschooled and moms boyfriend in jail he deserves it but every time I get out of my room something bad always happen as I always think I’m the cause of everything no matter what I do they always say do better your too fat you eat to much food your ugly go put on some makeup or go make friend well I can’t can’t you see why ? I always wanted to just make myself disappear but it’s like I want to die but I really don’t want to it’s just how I feel and it’s so hard when they always say “S.M.I.L.E” and you know how I spell smile out ?
S: suffers
M:mentallly damaged
I: invisible to the world
L: lied to
E:: Emotionally abused
that’s how I spell out smile in my emotions and in my head and I am still alone and always crying still and missing my sister and brother as they were the only thing I had left in life now I’m alone as they were just a dream and not reality don’t anyone knows how I feel and still can never get over it as more people in my family fades away from me and when I finally contacted an old friend finally and when they spent the night she talked to her other friend instead of me and I said let’s hangout and she said maybe later and later on I said do you want to hang out now and she said later but I said I have waited for you for ever just to hangout with you and now your saying maybe Later? And she says trust me I will hang out with you later on a few more shouts and I said why not now and she said cause I’m talking to my friends and I’m not use to you and when she said that she didn’t even know that it finally broke me and I went to the bathroom looking in the mirror crying and crying and I thought to myself “ after all in my life how I cry every second …every minute and hour and days just to be with the most people I loved and missed just to not be able to be laughing and talking like other fitness and family meme bees should be …” and later on she still hasn’t talked to me for days now and I’ve been texting her and she barely texts back and she mostly says she is busy when I see and hear her mostly talking to other friends and mostly now everyday I fairly smile and saying I’m doing fine as I say it to every I go to my room and cry so many times more as I am still faking my smiles and happiness all I had is now Gone as I have no one to love no friends nobody just the shadows and myself ….
I have a wonderful girlfriend, but sometimes i need some stranger's words from those vent playlists
i love y'all, I don't know anyone here, but i love y'all. everything will be ok, trust me❤
I know we’re just strangers but we ALL love you❤
Istg it's scary how similar our tastes are...
Lol
I wish I could have a life where I can feel at peace, my parents argue 24/7 and might get a divorce, my friends at school not actually care and just ignore me, this guy I know keeps telling me to Kms, to cut myself and to starve myself and my gf broke up with me yesterday. On top of that I have so much homework piled up from school and I’m an embarrassment and disappointment to everyone. I haven’t had a hug in minths and god knows I need one so much right now, I’m only here today thanks to my 7 year old cousin who looks up to me. I only find escape in music but even then, would it ever be enough to save me?
It’s got to the point where I can’t cry. All I feel is emptiness and depression… I want to go back to my old self but I can’t. I wanna let it all out and cry but I can’t. I haven’t been able to for a year… I just want to be happy. Is that too much to ask for…?
You deserve to be happy. Let it out, don't worry. I wish I could be your shoulder to cry on, to let all your thoughts out. Your shoulder to cry on, day and night, even until my clothes are soaked in your tears. You deserve happiness. You don't deserve all those emptiness you feel. I wish I could take those negative feelings away from you. I wish I could make a world where you wouldn't feel like this. Please take care. Eat well, drink enough water, sleep well and do things you love. If you don't have one, try to find one. If you did try to, and failed, that's fine, I'm still proud of you. If you did manage to do something you love, then I'm still proud of you. I really do wish I could be there with you, in your ups and downs. Please take care, and I'm proud of you and for being here. :) -
I don’t understand what is happening in my life, but I know that it hurts me. I don’t understand why this is happening, but I know that this will not lead to good. I don’t understand how help myself, but I know that I will help myself. I am a strong person, I will definitely get out of this swamp.
I'm so proud of you for trying and for being here, although it's hard :)
I’m on risk of getting kicked out of a nerd school and I honestly can’t handle being kicked out bc I’ll get made fun of
I’ve been having a tough time lately. I have dissapointed my dad and now he won’t believe me. He told me “your words mean nothing to me now,”. But I deserve it. I have been failing classes. Only because I can never motivate myself to do my work which I find stupid because homework is supposed to be easy. The only thing keeping me smiling right now is my friends and boyfriend. They are always there for me and I’m so grateful for them ❤
I like to hug. I hug people to support them and show love. But no one hugged me when I needed it most. When I cry, everyone stays silent and does nothing. My life sucks. family problems, bullying (both teachers and classmates), loneliness, violence, psychological pressure… I wish someone would hug me with love.
I hate that fact that every time i have a straight face so I don't cry and my mom will tell me to "cut my attitude" but when my brother has a straight face she asks him if he is okay and if someone did something wrong or if something happened idk I love that she cares about him but I wanna feel that same way I wanna feel like she cares