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although I am Russian, but I adore English songs ^^, by the way, my name is Ksusha, and you?

How's ur inner child now? Me : she's still crying

I’m never okay. My “friends” THINK THAT IM WEAK. Weak WEAK WEAK WEAK they all say! Weak does not define me, strong does. Powerful does. I am no longer the weird kid I am the strong kid. Beware for my reign soon to come… :)

I really needed to listen to thos song because my parents sid they wanted me dead because of one B and they want me to have all A 100% nothing else. They dont get mad at my brother who skips and has c,d,f, but they wanted a boy not a girl and yes were twins but still. They never get me anything nore make me food only HIM. Hes the only one they care about. They dont care if im sick they dont care if im dying from a cancer........ At school my boyfriend broke up with me and startdd dating my best friend whoni new for 10 years.the only person who cares for me is ❤my grandma and grandpa and my dogs❤ why am i telling lots of strangers this its not like they even care or under stand what its like.........mabye i should just die. NO i have to hold on two life still im only 16 i cant die now im two young. I have to try❤

can i hate myself if im not ven in middle school yet?

My parents say u can tell them anything but I don't trust them anymore to say anything

Me gustas tu <<<< 3 🤧🦋💗

Yo ablo españhol

1:42 fav part

Ive been going to the gym trying to do better and me and my mom went alone together for the first time and i did 6 different ab work outs and walked on the treadmill on a level 10 incline and finished in 30 minutes since we got there and when i went to the sauna for the rest of the time l i heard was how im a quitter and im never gonna get better if i dont work hard even tho i did workout and did a lot. Probably more than she did. I dont understand why i can never be good enough for her it isnt fair. I work so hard but it will never be good enough.

I don't understand it anymore I put in as much effort in school, sports, and trying to be a genuine person. I have good grades, and excel in the sports currently, especially when playing for school. But the moment I want a break from everything and just play videogames or something I'm told that I never want to do anything with them. I'm genuinely frustrated because I put in all this effort and feel like I'm getting a slap to the face in return. Sorry about venting

Listening to a rage playlist while drinking bc you aren't hurting anymore, but you're still hurt

I didn't want to be anyone else. Still don't.

Hi, I don't know you and I probably never will... But I'm at a point in life that I don't feel strong anymore... I walked myself into a field and I'm just sat on a bench thinking back to as far as a year ago and all I can think is that I needed to cry then... Eveytime I wanted to cry and I didn't it just hilt up and now here I am... Sitting in front of dog walkers who look at me weird... I hardly think it will help. You're not the only one hurting

ik this is cringe asf but my mom and dad really do deserve a better son than me who won't take them forgranted. I couldn't have asked for better parents, but I think there's something wrong with my brain, because I can't help but be toxic. I might be a narcissist, but I truly do hope its something curable instead.

"God, why are you so emo?" I'm not emo. It's depression.

¿Qué voy a hacer?, je suis Perdu ¿Qué hores so , mi corazón? Es mi cancion favorita :)

Full time or song plzz?

Every time I hear that song my ex dedicates it to me and now I would like to be with him but we are both no longer available and he sings it and I listen to him 😕

what the f is therepy gonna do if i cent speak to my mom when im sad

Sad? Yes! But i am seeing this to make a jax Angst video that no one is gonna see because i have never gone to therapy and i like to edit jax crying and dying, for some reason it's only jax and no one els

My sister is the star, she’s 2 years younger than me.. i feel worthless being an older sibling yet being so bad at school. My parents say I’m a heartless lazy, selfish, stupid, inconsiderate person who doesn’t get good grades, who has been through hell yet is expected to act as if it doesn’t hurt or scars me. I’m trying my best but if I keep having my 2 F’s I am getting pulled out of school since I’m not “trying” I did SH in 7th yet I stopped to see what my future is like.. so far my parents and family is saying there’s nothing for me if I keep being this way. I’m scared and so lost. I don’t know how much longer I can keep up this choice of mine I made from 7th grade..

Nothing hurts more than having everything and still feeling really sad…

i love you i love your smile i love your laugh i love your personality i love your hair (or lack thereof) i love your insecurities i love your accomplishments i love your failures i love your eyes i love your beauty i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate) i love the way you dance i love you on your happy days i love you on your sad days i love you on the days you feel lonely i love you on the days you feel helpless i love you on the days you feel like no one cares i love you on the days you feel forgotten i love you on the days you feel unmotivated i love you on the days you feel loved i love you on the days you feel sick i love you on the days you feel motivated i love you on the days you feel depressed i love you on the days you feel stresses i love you on the days you feel crazy i love you on the days you feel hopeful i love you on the days you feel cuddly i love you on the days you feel clingy i love you on the days you feel amazing i love you on the days you feel beautiful i love you on the days you feel like a failure i love you on the days you feel angry i love you on the days you feel aggressive i love you on the days you feel horrible i love you on the days you feel safe i love you on the days you feel unsafe i love you on the days you feel vulnerable i love you on the days you feel weird i love you on the days you feel ok i love you when you're healthy i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music) i love your taste in music i love your taste in movies i love your taste in TV shows i love the way you move i love the way you act i love you when you cry i love you when you're kind i love you when you're mean i love you when you're alone i love you when you can't feel i love you when you feel too much i love you when you can't take life anymore i love you when you feel like it's too much i love you when you're asleep i love you when you have nightmares i love you when you have dreams i love how you believe i love you when you believe in yourself i love you when you don't believe in yourself i love you when you hate yourself i love you when you love yourself i love the way you think i love you problems i love your solutions i love how you support i love you when you're in pain i love you when you're hurt i love your promises i love your secrets i love your attitude i love you sass i love your creativity i love your voice (or lack thereof) i love you hand gestures i love your stories i love your wounds i love your scars i love your face i love your past i love your future i love your present i love your outfits i love your style i love your art i love your honesty i love you when you lie i love you when you're tired i love you when you're energetic i love how you look i love how you cook i love you when you're adventurous i love you when you're scared i love your imperfections i love your perfections i love you when you worry i love you when you talk (or communicate) i love your opinions i love you when you have a headache i love you when you have a stomach ache i love you when you help others i love you when you need help i love you when you're mature i love you when you're immature i love you in the hard times i love you in the easy times i love you when life is meh i love you when you're responsible i love you when you're irresponsible i love you when you fight i love you in your darkest moments i love you in your brightest moments i love your heart i love you in the day i love you in the night i love you at midnight i love you at 3 am i love you at all times i love you at your best i love you at your worst i love the little things you do i love all of you i love you when you're you i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪. From the stranger on the internet please spread the word, my beautiful strangers.

Crazy how people on here can understand us better than our own parents.

❤❤❤

I had depression for months, sometimes real bad adn sometimes quasi-unotisable (like if i were just daydreaming) but I'm in one of the worst time, i might even got schizofrenia from my depression : I feel observed nons-top, I'm jsut creating scenarios in my head to make me feel loved by a imaginary being,yeah my parent don't show me affection/love, they ask me to show them some when they aren't doing well, they never help me when I' m down, they just complain at me, i can't show them who i really am, my whole life isn't mine, it's tehe one of the character i made of me, I can't even show my true self (like <wh oi genuenly am, not that I'm like super strong and all), I wil lbe hated and all. I'm palying the role of the annoying guy i nthe friend group, even tho in reality I'm the quiet kid.$ To say it hoenstly, I'm leaning a new languages m(y third one, whihc i have been gifted for that, in compensation of beign shit at everything else), jusst to live in said contry (japan in my case) to be away from my family that don't care about me, recently my motehr even said taht she will let my brother live longer whit them after his majority, unlike me who will prob leave at age 18 Seriously, worst part of all my big bro said taht to me, and he felt bad for me, I konw he ins't sincere at all, just pity also for me schizo, It's at the point (don't know if it's bad or not) where I just imagine that I acutally have a L O V I N G girlfriend that speaks to me when I'm nto a at school and i aimgine cuddling her during my sleep, I konw this will frick up even more my metnal health but if i don't think about me being loved (even tho i'm not) It will be eve nwors there are two reason why i'm not dead yet : -don't know what's after death -If i survie a few extra yare, i MIGHT be out of this hell seriosuly, i could even try my best and be called useless (i have good grades, expect in the hardest calsses, were they're above average, not really good so my parents calls me an idiot) I can't do it anymore

Im sorry mom. I didn't mean to make you cry. Im really sorry. I swear seeing you cry in front of me is my biggest fear and knowing the reason is bcuz of me is so painful. I'm sorry. You deserve better daughter not me.

Im a man so i cant cry but when im alone i can cry without people knowing and if they see me happy they dont know that im dying inside and no one to talk to when im sad its ok if no one thinks im good not good enough idk i think i need help or something i have friends but i always think they dont like me bc im fat and ugly im trying to be good enough for my perents but idk how im so useless

just need to put this somewhere (potential tw?)>> i always feel guilty for feeling upset about something good happening to my siblings because i know I'll be compared to them. And then i become burnt out, sabotage myself, and get mentally worse, but feel too guilty if i want to explain it to someone. Its never even big things now, and i feel like ill never truly get better unless im dead. Idk if its dumb or even if other people relate to this.

I need somewere to vent, but I want to be listened to.

I wish someone showed that they loved me.

I forgot how to cry at this point

Me Gusta tu ❤❤❤❤❤❤🎉🎉

I wonder how many people are listening to this while reading the comments. Having no one to talk to. Just crying alone.

My friend mylie is fake bc I played with my friend but she got mad and I like alcoholic friends(:

I can’t even talk to them without getting yelled at or scolded. if i get upset about my brothers getting attention, i’m selfish. if i cry, i’m a baby. if i make a decent point, i’m talking back

Qué horas son, mi corazón? Te lo dije bien clarito Permanece a la escucha Permanece a la escucha Doce de la noche en La Habana, Cuba Once de la noche en San Salvador, El Salvador Once de la noche en Managua, Nicaragua Me gustan los aviones, me gustas tú Me gusta viajar, me gustas tú Me gusta la mañana, me gustas tú Me gusta el viento, me gustas tú Me gusta soñar, me gustas tú Me gusta la mar, me gustas tú ¿Qué voy a hacer?, je ne sais pas ¿Qué voy a hacer?, je ne sais plus ¿Qué voy a hacer?, je suis perdu ¿Qué horas son, mi corazón? Me gusta la moto, me gustas tú Me gusta correr, me gustas tú Me gusta la lluvia, me gustas tú Me gusta volver, me gustas tú Me gusta marihuana, me gustas tú Me gusta Colombiana, me gustas tú Me gusta la montaña, me gustas tú Me gusta la noche (me gustas tú) ¿Qué voy a hacer?, je ne sais pas ¿Qué voy a hacer?, je ne sais plus ¿Qué voy a hacer?, je suis perdu ¿Qué horas son, mi corazón? Doce, un minuto Me gusta la cena, me gustas tú Me gusta la vecina, me gustas tú (Radio Reloj) Me gusta su cocina, me gustas tú (una de la mañana) Me gusta camelar, me gustas tú Me gusta la guitarra, me gustas tú Me gusta el reggae, me gustas tú ¿Qué voy a hacer?, je ne sais pas ¿Qué voy a hacer?, je ne sais plus ¿Qué voy a hacer?, je suis perdu ¿Qué horas son, mi corazón? Me gusta la canela, me gustas tú Me gusta el fuego, me gustas tú Me gusta menear, me gustas tú Me gusta La Coruña, me gustas tú Me gusta Malasaña, me gustas tú Me gusta la castaña, me gustas tú Me gusta Guatemala, me gustas tú ¿Qué voy a hacer?, je ne sais pas ¿Qué voy a hacer?, je ne sais plus ¿Qué voy a hacer?, je suis perdu ¿Qué horas son, mi corazón? ¿Qué voy a hacer?, je ne sais pas ¿Qué voy a hacer?, je ne sais plus ¿Qué voy a hacer?, je suis perdu ¿Qué horas son, mi corazón? ¿Qué voy a hacer?, je ne sais pas ¿Qué voy a hacer?, je ne sais plus ¿Qué voy a hacer?, je suis perdu ¿Qué horas son, mi corazón? ¿Qué horas son, mi corazón? ¿Qué horas son, mi corazón? ¿Qué horas son, mi corazón? ¿Qué horas son, mi corazón? ¿Qué horas son, mi corazón? Cuatro de la mañana A la bin, a la ban, a la bin-bon-bam A la bin, a la ban, a la bin-bon-bam Obladí obladá obladí-da-da A la bin, a la ban, a la bin-bon-bam Radio reloj Cinco de la mañana No todo lo que es oro brilla Remedio chino e infalible

Life fucking sucks, why should I even try when it all ends eith death? I've seen so much fucking abuse, I've been abused, my mom have been abused, I can't fucking handle it, I cry every night, I've been mentally abused so much, I've been duicidal almost all my fucking life, and I'll commit it sooner or later, idk if this is the last comment ever, but seriously, "positivity" of life doesn't exist anymore

Why am I like that?.

Do you ever just reach the point where you're so hurt and tired and you want to do nothing but curl up into a ball and cry but you just can't? It's like you're so hurt that you've completely run out of tears to cry even tho you haven't let anything out in so long. I want to just let it all out but I've bottled it up for so long that I don't know how to let it out without hurting other people that care about me

When parents don’t understand Overstimulation and sensory overloads 👌

Love this song😭😭

I love you..💔

Sometimes I like to stick my head out of the window, letting the wind wipe my tears away because there is no one else in this world that would ever do it for me.

My dad just got in a fight with me. Said he wanted to go on a walk with me, but I had ran around all day. Told him no, he was pissed. He pushed me and guilt tripped me, but I stood my ground.He comes home, and tells me that he doesn't want to do my hair for tomorrow (Mind you I can't do my hair very well). I don't yell at him, I don't argue. I simply nod and go upstairs. For the past hour, I tried to learn how to do my hair, did my best. Hopefully this is fine for tomorrow. He comes upstairs, doesn't say a single thing. I start chatting with my mom (she's in anpther country rn cuz of my grandma got injured. My dad is in a fight with her too.), he calls me, I decline because I couldn't talk with him. He calls again, I decline. I hear his loud stomping to my room, he comes in, glares at me and my phone and leaves, slamming the door shut. After finsihing my call, I go to him and he asks if I' sleeping with him tonight (since my mom isn't here, I sleep with him). I tell him no. He starts a whole guilt tripping lecture. I nod, and leave. He calls me again. I enter his room again. Another lecture on how I'm like my mom, and how he gave up his like for me and I don't care. I nod. In my room right now, I'l be walking to school and back, packing my food, making my good, doig my hair. Everything he's suppose to help with as a mature parent. This is my father. I can not argue with him. If you have a similar problem like me, I'm so sorry. Listen to music, cry if you'd like. Go to sleep. Do not end your life, do not cut. You can leave one day, make that day come quickly. You can do this, I feel like someone is staddijg my back, but I'll push through it. They say as a teenager you like your friends, yes. Yes I do, not because they gove me drugs and do sexual things, but because my parents act more immature and I act like their babysitter. I'll be free, someday.

My last comment because im gonna commit later just bc i can>.< I have cried all my tears, all that is left is anger. People dont cry because they are weak, its because they have been strong for to long. When a child is punished for they're honesty they begin to lie. You save everyone, but who saves you. Poor little boy/girl still waiting for her happy ending. Do you ever sit back and realize your not anybodys favourite person, your just kinda there and then you get the sudden urge to distance urself and chill alone.

still lately i begin to shit for NO REASON AT ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL FOR NO REASON AT ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL FOR NO REASON AT ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL FOR NO REASON AT AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

I tend to imagine all my emotions turning into hell fire. It's gotten pretty bad, to the point of having trouble breathing from it for a few seconds. Fun

My parents always helps me out of everything so…..sometimes I just want to know how it is wean my parents would hate me…but at the same time I don’t want to know how it would feel wean they hate…😢