It would mean I can stop fighting. I can stop battling every day. I could explore the world like it's a safe, open-world RPG instead of a dungeon-crawling challenge.
I am not diagnosed with any illnesses but I relate to the topics you talk about and I just wanted to let you know that I find your videos are so comforting and positive. Every time you say ".. and that's okay..", I feel a weight lifting off my shoulders. Thank you for being you, you are amazing ❤️
As soon as I saw you sitting cosy and ‘undone’ in a hoodie and fresh faced, I felt relaxed and accepted by you…. This video is such an antidote to how I’ve been feeling since NYE.
Love the idea of being the hero fighting back against the results of my illness and ptsd. that even when I don't make it to the top of the mountain today. I can still make more progress to get there tomorrow and it is ok to do so without feeling bad that. I am not able to do it as fast as anyone else. But, I am living MY life not their life so it can be any way I can do it without harming myself and making my next day awful because i tried to live someone else's life.
I'm sometimes hesitant to watch your videos, just because I've been so burned by productivity content (which I know you don't do in the same way as 95% of other YTbers) that I instantly feel like I'm not good enough, just by seeing content related to productivity and goal setting. But almost always I'm very relieved when actually seeing the videos, because you are so kind and caring in your messaging for all us Spoonies ♥ Thank you for sharing your own reflections on the answer in this video and I am so sorry you had this painful experience recently and now have to deal with the grief of your realization afterwards. I'm in a skimiliar process of grieving something where I was treated badly for a long time over, so I can understand how exhausting and painful it can be. I hope you can take care of yourself through this!
Every word you said reflected what I have been going through. I want so badly to go back to pursuing my degree and making my own income in full force like I used to. It’s been so hard for me to sit back and allow myself to put my own wellness first. Having that compassion for myself and starting to speak my truth about my experience even though I’ve had so many invalidating experiences feels so painful but so necessary. I was told by ableism that I shouldn’t victimize myself and that my experience is just a story in my mind that I am in charge of. Really though none of this is my fault and I am doing so amazing. What has really helped when my own internal ableism feels like it is winning I remind myself how proud little me would be seeing us push through for ourselves. Even when that little girl feels so distant from me I always end up finding her somehow whether it be within myself or from an external action. I love her and showing her that she does not have to hide because of who she is feels like I’m getting my spark back.
I feel beauty and power listening to your authentic words. Thank you. A big dark cloud in my head just cleared up and made space for a little sunshine. ❤
How hard everything is, is the villan. :/ I hear you. Colonialism (ableism) is actually the villan. I don't hate myself (mostly? I think? Obviously there's always layers). I just really freaking hate how hard everything is. Oh gawd I am so sorry about your phenomenally awful new year weekend. :( And that this person you respected said such a cruel and hurtful thing. Wtaf is wrong with ppl??
Thank you so much for sharing your feelings so deeply. It is very touching. There is another side to seeing you that vulnerable. I have been on the fence for quite a while whether to take your course or not. My sense was that it is not possible for me to ever become as dynamic and disciplined as you are. Yes, I’m like that at times but already the next morning, the tables might have turned ( for example this morning). Now, I see that we are in the same boat which lowers the bar to your course considerably.
That means so much to hear, thank you! Looking forward to seeing you on my calendar to discuss joining the course. 😊 You can schedule a time using this link: app.acuityscheduling.com/schedule.php?owner=16161520&appointmentType=28873885
Thank you for showing up “messy”. I didn’t even notice until you pointed it out. Maybe because I do see the God/good IN you. Thank you for these videos.
I cannot tell you how much I relate to you on being so badly blamed and hated for my disabilities during my childhood. I was also told I was the bad guy. I was also called the villain. I understand it so much. It messed me up so badly. I'm genuinely sorry that we have to go through such cruelty because of cruel people.
As someone who just lived this all of 2022, IT IS SO WORTH IT to be your own hero, and all the things you talk about there are SPOT ON. This mindset shift creates quantum change but it takes a bit of work to internalize it. So worth it.
I appreciate your vulnerability. It is so hard to do. I have to fight to be compassionate towards myself daily. Years ago, I had a few therapy sessions to process childhood trauma that was affecting me in my business. It did indeed help, and helped me, through my faith, forgive that person and I continue to have the best and most loving relationship with that individual. They are a different person now too, and have a deep faith. I treat others better than I treat myself sometimes and I'm working on that.
Thank you for showing up this real. It really helps realizing we are not alone and we are not that different. It makes me feel more compassion for myself and all of us who are in a similar situation. I really related and felt seen. Sending you a big, big hug!❤❤❤
less than 5 minutes in and it already feels like a tough topic. this is the secound time im watching it, but to do the journal prompt this time, it feels very raw and uncomfortable, but i think that it might be good for me. at least im hoping it wil, but thank you for sharing your answer for the prompt. thank you for these videos.
I hear you! And I'm 😭now! Ableism is the villain. NOT ME. Thank you so much for this, I really needed to hear it today! Seriously, this video couldn't have come at a better time. My word for this year is HEALING, so this video hit me doubly hard (in a good way, don't worry!). I'd already decided that this year, I'm going to focus on healing my body, mind, and spirit. This includes exactly what you said in this video! I'm off to watch part 2 now. Thank you again from the bottom of my 💖!
Thank you for this video, I appreciate it even though it'll be difficult to undo the years of wrong think, especially thanks to my childhood and family experiences. I've struggled with inattentive ADHD, OCD and chronic fatigue and pain since childhood and the physical side of it has recently been getting worse, which in turn makes me feel frustrated and disappointed at my body and myself. I have to keep reminding myself it's not my fault or my choice, and that I'm trying my best already. I think I need to write some of the videos messages on post it notes and have them sit in my field of vision as a reminder.
SJ Tucker Not The Villain is the best song for those moments I need to focus on this idea 💖 On the 2nd half of the video, I'm finding that I have to make time to grieve the unfairness and injustice of everyday life in a world not designed for me to exist in and accept the fact that it's going to bring the old stuff up every time. I'm working on getting back to the place of balance and currently in an unsafe environment I have to wait to change (well I've chosen to because it's best for my health long term) and tbh just this weekend realized I need to stop planning things for the weekend bc it's going to be 2-4days of constant cruelty. Basically, the cruel people are always going to be around and I'm going to have to deal with them so in order to be my best self I've gotta make time for the fallout and breakdowns and get it out of me before it makes me sicker. My empath coach's favorite refrain is "emotions feel the same going out as going in" so just like making time to wash the physical dirt off after dealing with a disgusting mess, take time to wash off the emotional dirt after dealing with a disgusting person 💜🥄💜
I felt everything about your story because my family and I went through similar very painful realizations about ourselves and each other. I am lucky to have a family that when it knows better does better, but this came about because I defended my boundaries and protected my worth. It was so scary and so worth it. BIG HUGS you are not alone. Thank you for sharing because I was feeling alone and now I don't
I am sorry you had this painful experience. And I am very grateful for you to speak so honestly and open about it, because I can relate so much. I don’t think your words were coming out ableist, but spoken from an honest point of reflecting on the internalized ableism instead of hiding it. And from my experience, I feel like grieving that I don’t deserve being treated badly can also lead to realizing that you have a new way of taking control: in the future when you realize you are treated with cruelty, you can take control over how you react to this and to the people treating you that way. And you have control over not letting the habit of seeing yourself as the Problem control you - as you did with creating this video! Thank you for your work and your honesty,you are helping lots of people who go through similar stuff! And I want to tell you: you are really beautiful with it without makeup, messy or not!
Thank you. Not just for the scripted part meant to help us with all this, but especially for the unscripted part where you explain how you work through it when you struggle. I think visibility for things like that, not just the process of what it means to do the work & what the steps are, but actually seeing it done, knowing what it looks like to be in the thick of it, how you know when progress has been made, & how to deal with setbacks... That's really important & really helpful. It's also the hardest & most vulnerable part to showcase. So thank you! I know that wasn't easy but I hope you understand how helpful & impactful it is & how much it's appreciated. 🖤🧠🥄🖤
I hear you ableism is the villain When you said "I will not be spoken to that way", I felt your Rising towers of assertion from your throat. I am an author so I write this way p.s. Like you Cassie, I am also taking brave baby steps to come out of a 7 year abusive relationship with my husband's parents. What I learnt is that I can let go of them and carry on in my own natural progression. I was at the precipice of ending my life, but then God saved me. I need you to hear this too that Jesus is with the broken hearted and soul raped. Okay. All my best wishes are for you.
A Spoonie is someone with a chronic illness, disability, mental illness, and/or neurodivergence that makes it so they have less physical/cognitive/emotional energy than an able-bodied, mentally healthy, and neurotypical person. If you want more information, you can check out the original blog post on Spoon Theory by Christine Miserandino here: butyoudontlooksick.com/articles/written-by-christine/the-spoon-theory/
What would it mean if you weren't the villain?
Relieving. ALSO, are you still using NOTIONS as a planner/bujo or have you found a better one?
I could finally rest
It would mean I can stop fighting. I can stop battling every day. I could explore the world like it's a safe, open-world RPG instead of a dungeon-crawling challenge.
I am not diagnosed with any illnesses but I relate to the topics you talk about and I just wanted to let you know that I find your videos are so comforting and positive. Every time you say ".. and that's okay..", I feel a weight lifting off my shoulders. Thank you for being you, you are amazing ❤️
As soon as I saw you sitting cosy and ‘undone’ in a hoodie and fresh faced, I felt relaxed and accepted by you…. This video is such an antidote to how I’ve been feeling since NYE.
Love the idea of being the hero fighting back against the results of my illness and ptsd. that even when I don't make it to the top of the mountain today. I can still make more progress to get there tomorrow and it is ok to do so without feeling bad that. I am not able to do it as fast as anyone else. But, I am living MY life not their life so it can be any way I can do it without harming myself and making my next day awful because i tried to live someone else's life.
I feel safer and seen when you are more relaxed like this. Thank you for taking this step forward x
I'm sometimes hesitant to watch your videos, just because I've been so burned by productivity content (which I know you don't do in the same way as 95% of other YTbers) that I instantly feel like I'm not good enough, just by seeing content related to productivity and goal setting. But almost always I'm very relieved when actually seeing the videos, because you are so kind and caring in your messaging for all us Spoonies ♥
Thank you for sharing your own reflections on the answer in this video and I am so sorry you had this painful experience recently and now have to deal with the grief of your realization afterwards. I'm in a skimiliar process of grieving something where I was treated badly for a long time over, so I can understand how exhausting and painful it can be. I hope you can take care of yourself through this!
That means so much to hear, thank you. And big hugs! 💖💖💖
Every word you said reflected what I have been going through. I want so badly to go back to pursuing my degree and making my own income in full force like I used to. It’s been so hard for me to sit back and allow myself to put my own wellness first. Having that compassion for myself and starting to speak my truth about my experience even though I’ve had so many invalidating experiences feels so painful but so necessary. I was told by ableism that I shouldn’t victimize myself and that my experience is just a story in my mind that I am in charge of. Really though none of this is my fault and I am doing so amazing.
What has really helped when my own internal ableism feels like it is winning I remind myself how proud little me would be seeing us push through for ourselves. Even when that little girl feels so distant from me I always end up finding her somehow whether it be within myself or from an external action. I love her and showing her that she does not have to hide because of who she is feels like I’m getting my spark back.
So proud of you! 🤩💖
This is amazing. I have EDS and Autism and have been looking for content like this for so long. Thank you!
abelism is the villian
I feel beauty and power listening to your authentic words. Thank you. A big dark cloud in my head just cleared up and made space for a little sunshine. ❤
Big hugs 💖
How hard everything is, is the villan. :/
I hear you.
Colonialism (ableism) is actually the villan.
I don't hate myself (mostly? I think? Obviously there's always layers). I just really freaking hate how hard everything is.
Oh gawd I am so sorry about your phenomenally awful new year weekend. :( And that this person you respected said such a cruel and hurtful thing. Wtaf is wrong with ppl??
Thank you! And big hugs 💖💖💖
@@CassieWinter Thx! :)
Thank you so much for sharing your feelings so deeply. It is very touching.
There is another side to seeing you that vulnerable. I have been on the fence for quite a while whether to take your course or not. My sense was that it is not possible for me to ever become as dynamic and disciplined as you are. Yes, I’m like that at times but already the next morning, the tables might have turned ( for example this morning).
Now, I see that we are in the same boat which lowers the bar to your course considerably.
That means so much to hear, thank you! Looking forward to seeing you on my calendar to discuss joining the course. 😊 You can schedule a time using this link: app.acuityscheduling.com/schedule.php?owner=16161520&appointmentType=28873885
I hear you!!! You are amazing, Cassie! Wishing self care and love for you to keep doing your meaningful work! It represents so much for us!
Thank you for showing up “messy”. I didn’t even notice until you pointed it out. Maybe because I do see the God/good IN you. Thank you for these videos.
I hear you and I feel seen. Thank you. Both halves of this video were helpful and moving. I want to grow in this way, to see myself as the hero.
I cannot tell you how much I relate to you on being so badly blamed and hated for my disabilities during my childhood. I was also told I was the bad guy. I was also called the villain. I understand it so much. It messed me up so badly. I'm genuinely sorry that we have to go through such cruelty because of cruel people.
Big hugs 💖
As someone who just lived this all of 2022, IT IS SO WORTH IT to be your own hero, and all the things you talk about there are SPOT ON. This mindset shift creates quantum change but it takes a bit of work to internalize it. So worth it.
I hear you and ablesim truly is the villain couldn't agree more on that
Not a hair out of place and ypur gorgeous skin is GOALS
Aww schucks thank you! 💖
And it's a combinations of Ehlers Danlos skin and Krave Beauty skincare 🤣
I appreciate your vulnerability. It is so hard to do. I have to fight to be compassionate towards myself daily. Years ago, I had a few therapy sessions to process childhood trauma that was affecting me in my business. It did indeed help, and helped me, through my faith, forgive that person and I continue to have the best and most loving relationship with that individual. They are a different person now too, and have a deep faith. I treat others better than I treat myself sometimes and I'm working on that.
This is so important. Thank you for sharing 🙏🏼
Thank you for showing up this real. It really helps realizing we are not alone and we are not that different. It makes me feel more compassion for myself and all of us who are in a similar situation. I really related and felt seen. Sending you a big, big hug!❤❤❤
Hugs back! 💖
less than 5 minutes in and it already feels like a tough topic. this is the secound time im watching it, but to do the journal prompt this time, it feels very raw and uncomfortable, but i think that it might be good for me. at least im hoping it wil, but thank you for sharing your answer for the prompt. thank you for these videos.
I hear you and I’m breaking down crying
Big hugs 💖
I hear you! And I'm 😭now!
Ableism is the villain. NOT ME. Thank you so much for this, I really needed to hear it today!
Seriously, this video couldn't have come at a better time. My word for this year is HEALING, so this video hit me doubly hard (in a good way, don't worry!). I'd already decided that this year, I'm going to focus on healing my body, mind, and spirit. This includes exactly what you said in this video! I'm off to watch part 2 now. Thank you again from the bottom of my 💖!
Big hugs! ❤️❤️❤️
I hear you
Keep getting the most out of your life you rock!!!
Thank you for this video, I appreciate it even though it'll be difficult to undo the years of wrong think, especially thanks to my childhood and family experiences. I've struggled with inattentive ADHD, OCD and chronic fatigue and pain since childhood and the physical side of it has recently been getting worse, which in turn makes me feel frustrated and disappointed at my body and myself. I have to keep reminding myself it's not my fault or my choice, and that I'm trying my best already. I think I need to write some of the videos messages on post it notes and have them sit in my field of vision as a reminder.
SJ Tucker Not The Villain is the best song for those moments I need to focus on this idea 💖
On the 2nd half of the video, I'm finding that I have to make time to grieve the unfairness and injustice of everyday life in a world not designed for me to exist in and accept the fact that it's going to bring the old stuff up every time. I'm working on getting back to the place of balance and currently in an unsafe environment I have to wait to change (well I've chosen to because it's best for my health long term) and tbh just this weekend realized I need to stop planning things for the weekend bc it's going to be 2-4days of constant cruelty. Basically, the cruel people are always going to be around and I'm going to have to deal with them so in order to be my best self I've gotta make time for the fallout and breakdowns and get it out of me before it makes me sicker. My empath coach's favorite refrain is "emotions feel the same going out as going in" so just like making time to wash the physical dirt off after dealing with a disgusting mess, take time to wash off the emotional dirt after dealing with a disgusting person 💜🥄💜
I felt everything about your story because my family and I went through similar very painful realizations about ourselves and each other. I am lucky to have a family that when it knows better does better, but this came about because I defended my boundaries and protected my worth. It was so scary and so worth it. BIG HUGS you are not alone. Thank you for sharing because I was feeling alone and now I don't
You are appreciated
I am sorry you had this painful experience. And I am very grateful for you to speak so honestly and open about it, because I can relate so much.
I don’t think your words were coming out ableist, but spoken from an honest point of reflecting on the internalized ableism instead of hiding it.
And from my experience, I feel like grieving that I don’t deserve being treated badly can also lead to realizing that you have a new way of taking control: in the future when you realize you are treated with cruelty, you can take control over how you react to this and to the people treating you that way. And you have control over not letting the habit of seeing yourself as the Problem control you - as you did with creating this video!
Thank you for your work and your honesty,you are helping lots of people who go through similar stuff!
And I want to tell you: you are really beautiful with it without makeup, messy or not!
Thank you. Not just for the scripted part meant to help us with all this, but especially for the unscripted part where you explain how you work through it when you struggle. I think visibility for things like that, not just the process of what it means to do the work & what the steps are, but actually seeing it done, knowing what it looks like to be in the thick of it, how you know when progress has been made, & how to deal with setbacks... That's really important & really helpful. It's also the hardest & most vulnerable part to showcase. So thank you! I know that wasn't easy but I hope you understand how helpful & impactful it is & how much it's appreciated. 🖤🧠🥄🖤
Thank you 💖 That means so much to hear 💖
💯✨️
This part.
I love you. I hope you release more videos.
Big hugs x Ableism is indeed the villain!
Health care system, ableism, shitty government handling of this pandemic, and ME/cfs are together the juggernaut villain of my story.
I hear you
ableism is the villain
When you said "I will not be spoken to that way", I felt your Rising towers of assertion from your throat. I am an author so I write this way p.s. Like you Cassie, I am also taking brave baby steps to come out of a 7 year abusive relationship with my husband's parents. What I learnt is that I can let go of them and carry on in my own natural progression. I was at the precipice of ending my life, but then God saved me. I need you to hear this too that Jesus is with the broken hearted and soul raped. Okay. All my best wishes are for you.
Ableism is the villain!
OOF! Got me right in the internalized-ablism
🤣 Big hugs! 💖
I love your videos! ❤
I hear you 😭
Your videos are so meaningful, comforting an inspiring.Thank you🙏
Just ❤❤❤
My thoughts on a daily basis thus far.
Finally breaking out of it... 😭😭😭
I hear you, Thank you for this video.
My favourite video of yours ❤
Dude, I don't even understand why I can't just do the thing. I'm internalizing ableism 😭
yep I'm the viilian...
I hear you
Ableism is the villain.
i hear you
ableism is the villain
14:47 that whole talk meant the world to me and idk how to word that better i’m sorry lol
15:44 the real you is amazing
Abel ism is the villain
What is a spoony?
A Spoonie is someone with a chronic illness, disability, mental illness, and/or neurodivergence that makes it so they have less physical/cognitive/emotional energy than an able-bodied, mentally healthy, and neurotypical person. If you want more information, you can check out the original blog post on Spoon Theory by Christine Miserandino here: butyoudontlooksick.com/articles/written-by-christine/the-spoon-theory/
@@CassieWinter thank you ☺️
Ablism is the villain
I hear you