Holy shit this was literally me over the summer Jesus Christ I was laying exactly like this at night listening to the same exact song feeling lonely and depressed
Seeing Shinji suffering is like seeing myself suffer, because at one point in time I was almost exactly like him, especially back in 10th grade when I was bullied to the brink of suicide. I simply cannot tolerate watching Eva. I felt forced to relive my trauma upon viewing it. I’m deathly afraid of it. Twice I had a nightmare where I saw myself as Shinji choking Asuka and starting the Third Impact. I’ve been struggling with this newfound depression ever since. Evangelion is nothing but a bright shining lie. There is no instant cure for depression as so many on CZcams and Reddit claimed and praised this series to be. I was obsessed with the series for over a year to try and outwit the Coronavirus pandemic. It only increased the burden, and kept the memory of my friend’s recent suicide alive. Sometimes I hate myself because I fail to appreciate this series which people treat larger than life, because of how much pain it resurfaces. Watching the End of Evangelion was like peering into a broken mirror, and I was viewing the hell I would’ve put myself through had things turned out differently, had I decided to give up living. It still haunts me to this day. Sometimes I hate myself because I fail to appreciate what so many have claimed to idolize, and I beat myself further for failing to worship what they call praiseworthy, I forced myself to watch a show that reminded me of nothing but pain just so I wouldn’t be alone anymore. But it only drove me closer to suicide… Im afraid to lose Shinji.
sad shinji?? thats only the entire anime
I will enjoy my summer to the fullest!
What a good summer
Holy shit this was literally me over the summer Jesus Christ I was laying exactly like this at night listening to the same exact song feeling lonely and depressed
Me too 😔
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@Chris J to us, not only you bro.
Me too...
Seeing Shinji suffering is like seeing myself suffer, because at one point in time I was almost exactly like him, especially back in 10th grade when I was bullied to the brink of suicide. I simply cannot tolerate watching Eva. I felt forced to relive my trauma upon viewing it. I’m deathly afraid of it. Twice I had a nightmare where I saw myself as Shinji choking Asuka and starting the Third Impact. I’ve been struggling with this newfound depression ever since.
Evangelion is nothing but a bright shining lie. There is no instant cure for depression as so many on CZcams and Reddit claimed and praised this series to be. I was obsessed with the series for over a year to try and outwit the Coronavirus pandemic. It only increased the burden, and kept the memory of my friend’s recent suicide alive. Sometimes I hate myself because I fail to appreciate this series which people treat larger than life, because of how much pain it resurfaces.
Watching the End of Evangelion was like peering into a broken mirror, and I was viewing the hell I would’ve put myself through had things turned out differently, had I decided to give up living. It still haunts me to this day.
Sometimes I hate myself because I fail to appreciate what so many have claimed to idolize, and I beat myself further for failing to worship what they call praiseworthy, I forced myself to watch a show that reminded me of nothing but pain just so I wouldn’t be alone anymore.
But it only drove me closer to suicide…
Im afraid to lose Shinji.
Thanks for sharing, stay strong and smiling!
I've seen you post this on multiple videos. I hope you're doing ok man.
same bro, same...
sounds like you had the evangelion experience
@Icon nah you did make sure to watch everything again
Shinji is a mood.
Poor Shinji
I will enjoy my summer vacation And will play a lot
Me entire whole summer vacation :
Relatable.
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I still don’t understand how Hideaki Anno managed to do a documentary about my life.
how the f 360p quality looks like 1080p
Struggle, endure, contend.
Its been years .
Qué de elan te llevas bro qué grande
Sad moments
Song???
I think its Fade Into You by Mazzy Star
ep?
The clips are from episode 2
So sad and dumb