Hello every one! Please feel free to vent or comfort someone, and thank you for 1.93k subs I’m really thankful for all your guys support. I hope you guys feel better - me
Irl people call me fat ugly fatherless and online I seem to be really cool and the center on attention and it makes me smile and laugh but life is hard my parents fight but also they force me to things I don’t know yet and on vr when I don’t get stressed when I don’t know anything I have like maybe a small amount of friends irl but online I got 200+ friends I don’t understand am I not cool in real life or am I really ugly and don’t want to be hangout with my 3 besties forgot about me and I don’t think they would come to my birthday and it’s soon I wanna die but I have my online friends I got cheated on and used this world is cruel very and I get bullied by everyone even the teacher do I have a place in the world or am I not good enough please tell me if I belong here
@@Penelope0Sjobergsilva you deserve better.. everyone belongs in this world, everyone who calls u "fat ugly fatherless" is just like u, they need to be loved, they just have a dark spot in their heart and they let it out on you. please do not believe anything they say, you're worth it, everyone is
Don't worry about it man, life is like a jigsaw puzzle. And the last missing piece is a partner, the right one for you will come along eventually, and I've felt just like you for a while now. I've attempted to commit multiple times but I always turn to my loved ones. All you need to do is find the last missing piece of the puzzle. Love you man.
Real. It's because you don't see genuine happiness anymore in this world. So many people are fake in fear of getting judged by rude people. No one wants to help anymore because they're too tired from helping other people. Teachers are mean to their students because of how much stress is going on out of school in their lives, while kids act like who they grew up around, leading to more and more people's mental healths to lower. That's why you don't see much love in this world anymore. Most of it is lust, nowadays. :(
Oh! Hey kiddo, you found me. Rough day? I’m sorry kid. I can’t imagine how that feels for that one of a kind soul you got there. I know it feels like every day’s the same problem and you can’t help but feel terrible for letting everyone down… but keep that head for me kid. Tomorrow’s gonna get better and promise you, I’ll be there in your heart with you to keep you going to another good day! Push on kiddo, you got a stranger rooting for you!
I'm proud of you for waking up. I'm proud of you for brushing your hair. I'm proud of you for breathing. I'm proud of you for making your bed. I'm proud of you for eating. I'm proud of you for TRYING to eat. I'm proud of you for drinking water, I'm proud of you for being here. I'm proud of you for being you. I'm proud of you for smiling. I'm proud of you for continuing on even when things are difficult for you. I'm proud of you for standing up. I'm proud of you for blinking. I'm proud of you for getting out of bed after spending the whole day in bed. I'm proud of you for brushing your teeth. I'm proud of you for standing up. I'm proud of you for sitting down. I'm proud of you for defending yourself. I'm proud of you for believing in yourself. I'm proud of you for simply trying. I'm proud of you for being alive. IM PROUD OF YOU.
@@user-hu5kv4nu8e even if it may not seem like it matters or very miniscule, a lot of us random people on the Internet love you. Just get some rest tonight and know that many people hundreds of miles away love you.
To those who are isolated in their room and crying to these songs, know that you’re not alone and things WILL get better. It may not seem like that now, but it will in the future. When? I don’t know, but it won’t stay like this forever. There’s always some type of hope, even if you don’t feel it. I love you all. No one can afford to lose you in this world, no matter how horrible it is. You’re far too precious. Sending hugs to anyone who wants/needs one!
Thank you for spreading kind messages, I'm sure you're a kind person who wants to give hope.. I appreciate it, really appreciates it.. I been gone through alot but I'm always guilty that maybe someone who has gone through alot worse than me still can smile and be nice to everyone. I hope god blesses you dearie 💙 take care!
@@EvanAngeli i feel you.. I couldn't say I *understand* because I didn't experience what you're experiencing... but I hope you take care okay? You been so strong.. 🫂
I want to fucking cry.. it’s upsetting that people on the internet can help us better than our parents, friends, or counselors.. what a fucked up situation this is.. I hope I don’t wake up tomorrow..
If you get this, you did wake up and you kept waking up. The sun rise is a beautiful thing, id hate for you to never be able to watch one again. Tomorrow is a new day, and im proud of you for being brave enough to see it.
As a person who feels that way saying that may feel right but then you think how you are still backed up I meant one of my best friends online and they have helped me get through multiple crises but they disappeared and they where very depressed so I’m guessing they ended their life and even thinking about it makes me sad but I will care for you even though I don’t know you and you don’t know me but I will care for you and I know that the world is fucked and I just hope that one morning you wake up and are happy you woke up
Hey stranger, its alright, you are loved, trust me. If ever feel like u arent loved, u are by me, and always will!! Sorry if this sounds strange or uncomf, ill be here to comfort u anytime. and remember that ill be here if u want to be friends, or if u got any problems. I may not be ur therapy, but ill be here to comfort u
I really don't like seeing others unhappy. But when I look at myself, I just don't feel like giving that attention to me. I want someone else to touch my shoylder and hug me deep. Whispering that its okay and I can have the best cry of my life. Because crying is a coping skill for me and I hope others find it just as helpful as I do.
I feel that too. I don't feel anything for myself, but when others are struggling, I need to try to help them in any way I can. While I feel the need to cry too sometimes, I would love nothing more than to help others who are hurting. Anyone who needs to can reply to this and I will give my best encouragement. ❤️
Fr, I don’t give myself any attention, but I do give all 100% of my attention on others, and they don’t even care or acknowledge it, and it’s an exact description of a very kind person, someone that gives no matter what.
Please start giving your guy’s attention to yourself you all have so much potential you can really make a difference in your life it’s not just handed to you. You gotta work hard for it and trust me it will pay off I will gladly give you all a hug it really is going to be okay ig u want to talk about anything come to me I’ll listen and hear you. You guys are heard, respected, and loved I just hope a better future for all you kiddos
I’ve always gotten so excited when people compliment me, or anything positive. Then once, when my best friend said she was proud of me for beating her in our fav video game while she was at my house, i started crying. My parents asked why I was crying. I cry under any type of validation because my parents n e v e r gave me that validation I craved as a child. Here I am, 13, crying that my boyfriend tells me he’s proud of me for staying alive this long. Stay safe out there, love yall. -your fellow depressed child
I feel the same way too! I dont usually get compliments or have someone say that they are proud of me, so the only few times that someone says those, I really really appreciate it and it stays in my mind and I never forget it. It feels great! :D
Then dont be happy, be content. I dont know what you are going through or if youre through it already, but happiness is a journey, one step in front of the other
The comment section is reviving my faith in humanity, a lot of people are being so nice and supportive. I wish I could see more of this in the world sometimes yk?
People say I'm scary, people say I'm a possessed doll, they call me frightening, something out of their nightmares and I just live with that, but I love I just don't get love back. I feel you
Hahahahaha finally someone who understands me finally someone who isn't givin whatever they want when they want they want to fuck up are lives lets fuck up theres
“Pain for us, is like water for a plant. We need it to grow as a person, to get emotion, sensitivity, compassion, gratitude, & love. But too much can kill us.”- Zillion.
water is good for plants, it's healing and nice in all ways, it's good, too much good can kill yes, but it certainly is not pain, pain is bad- and then just worse untill we can't take it any longer and die, pain is the lack of water if anything, pain doesn't make a person grow, people make themselves grow to avoid pain, it's not necessary to be good, at all
@@twistedreality997 Thank you for your reply about how pain is unneeded and so on. But my quote as a message in itself is pain , like water, can hurt when there’s too much. However, in the quote I put doesn’t speak about healing and being comforting to others. Instead it was metaphor for too much pain can kill a person, like too much water kills a plant. But the pain is needed for a person to grow true sensitivity for when others are hurt to give empathy, or sympathy in the correct circumstances. The pain is needed to have gratitude and love for the things you cherish the most, if you don’t value them in the first place, and realise that later. Sure it may be unnecessary to be hurt and so on. But the pain is what makes us human, it’s what makes us humane to others that are hurt. Comforting them when they’re upset, lending a shoulder for them to cry on when they are hurt, and loving them even with their flaws. The entire point of the quote is to show that pain is needed for others to grow and prosper in life, because that’s how the harsh reality of life is. Killing others or themselves when too much pain is inflicted, or being insensitive and accidentally hurting others. But when people are hurt, and use that hurt to grow as a person, like plant getting water and using it for photosynthesis, they can act with the compassion, gratitude, & love for others. This may not resonate for you or others, but it resonates with me and the people that may feel similarly. As for I was hurt many times by my ex best friend, before cutting all contacts with him after. But that pain taught me how to be compassionate, and love my current best friend unlike when I acted insensitive in the past, due to me not experiencing pain, & therefore not having any compassion or gratitude for the people I care about. That pain is what taught me to be sensitive when my best friend is hurt. That pain is what taught me to cherish and love them. That pain is what taught me to be humane to them and others. But I’m currently experiencing too much pain within myself from the pain that my ex-best friend had given me, as that hasn’t been healed or used to grow as a person. Therefore, it’s killing me inside. This is what the point of the quote. Thank you for reading, and you may comment even if your view doesn’t align with mine, but that’s what makes us humans. In life we are always hurt and have our own views, that’s what makes us human
As I slowly dissappear I see light granting inner peace and death to the body as I look of into the last of me I asked why? I answered because you're not weak anymore as I see the last bit if dust disappear the pain comes back as the light given goes dark as I accept that I will alway be in the bad ending as I finsh my last bit of faith I answer goodbye... As I no longer see truth and the family and friend that seemed smiling were not smiling as the void end I realize that the reality is that I am no longer able to enjoy nor smile the end is near.
I have friends...but tbh..I don't really have...because thier fake...and..it really hurts really...but..yk, how they say, life must go on..but I miss how I wasn't the person who was just stands alone while my friends talk..
My parents have been divorced for as long as I can remember. My mother wasn't really a figure in my life. She kept leaving, on and off again. She would leave for days, weeks, and even months on end. I never really missed her, as she was never really there in the first place. Whenever my mother was in the house, arguing, and fights would always happen. She would always attack my father, and harm herself in ways to make it seem like my father was abusive and hurting her. She tried to send him to jail more than once. I can remember vividly, I was 5 at the time and my younger sister was 2. We were watching a vocaloid music video, when I all of a sudden, heard cursing, and fighting, YET AGAIN for the 3rd time this week, (This was a Tuesday btw) Eventually I saw my dad leave the house for a while with my mother in the living room, pacing around, back and forth, muttering to herself. I, obviously as a child, didn't understand the situation, and my 2 year old sister DEFINIETLY wouldn't. I tried asking what was happening and why my father was gone and where he was going, because I wanted to go with him. I was brushed off. I remember having a really close and good bond with my father when I was younger. I guess that was because we were more of a family, even with my parents arguing and fighting all the time. After my mother finally packed her stuff and left, that's where everything went downhill. And I mean, *EVERYTHING*. Now, me and my father barely talk as we used to, and when we talk, it results in me crying or him getting upset, shutting me down, and making me upset/cry. I'm always being called an embarrassment, worthless, annoying, disgusting, or any degrading word you can think of, whenever I can't get something right. (I remember talking to my mother once during a visit, and I asked her why she left. She said it was because of my father. He would always berate and talk badly about her, it was like he was bi-polar. He was happy or fine one moment, then all of a sudden, he was upset, yelling, calling you names. I never really understood her because I believed the stories my father would always paint about her, that she was a bad person, and that he never did anything. But that's a lie, I kind of understand why she left. I know now, that none of them were saints.) My grades went down by a lot. (I used to score As on my report card and get 100s every single time without trying.) I felt so weighed down, tired, I had no motivation. How could I have been so happy to do all this when I was younger? My mental health is spiraling out of control. (Incoming trigger warning btw!) I've been self harming, as well as feeling suicidal and worthless, like my life has nothing worth going for me at all, or ever. I developed an ed as a result of constantly being shamed of my weight and looks. I used to eat a moderate to maybe a bit too much food (maybe that's the ed talking, I have no idea anymore), to not eating, or barely eating anything at all. It's caused me headaches, I've felt lightheaded, I've fainted/collapsed, blacked out many times before, as well was too weak at times to even lift a finger. My father constantly asks me why I do it, why I don't eat. And all I say is, "I'm just not hungry." He constantly says that I'm hurting myself and that I need to take care of my body. But how? How can I love and take care of my body that you now made me hate so much? Anyway. Whenever my parents would argue, or anything bad would happen when I was younger, I used food, drawing, music, and socialization as a way to escape from the cruel reality that I would, and could never have a "childhood." How else could I have coped when everyone in the household is like a turtle in their shell? Everyone puts up a mask and doesn't talk to anyone else about how they feel. I've thought about suicide, and have attempted more than once. I was never successful, and would always end up hurting myself more than before. But hey, I guess I deserve it, right? I've attempted to talk to my father more than once about me feeling suicidal, and my feelings overall, and I would always get brushed off. His most recent reply to me feeling suicidal was because I, "Wasn't able to do what I want". I feel like giving up, honestly. I feel like no one cares anymore. But I know that's not true. My younger sister looks up to me, calls me Mother, and always tries to help when she sees me upset/overwhelmed (Yeah, I'm female btw.) My friends always compliment and say how they miss me whenever I'm not in school, and they're just so supportive and nice- And my girlfriend. She's all I could ever ask for. (My dad is homophobic too, LOL) But for some reason, it's not enough. I feel so empty. So while you might be reading this.. Pretty long rant, I'm in a dark room, spilling out a chapter of my life story, while stressing out about school, and crying in my room. If you read all of this though, thank you, I appreciate it. Because, even though you can't really do much to help physically, listening makes a huge difference as well. So thank you.
I know it’s hard right now but I promise you it will slowly get better If your still in school try to talk to the teachers and find small coping methods if your father starts getting (⚠️TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️) Abusive I suggest going to the police I hope things get better my friend
1 year ago I was happy as can be, now this is who I, a broken thing that just wanted to be loved but unfortunately we live in a hate filled world, thank u stranger of the internet I hope your alright
I realised something, its hard to love others when you don't love yourself but, its also hard to love yourself when others don't love you or at least don't show it.
If you can’t love yourself your heart has been emptied, there’s nothing to take or give, just emptiness. One day, there will be someone that will share their heart with you, you will both have one half, like a locket. It may take time to find that person, so let this digital version be a placeholder 🧡
that doesn't mean they dont love you, they want to make you have a bright future but they were being too hard on you, i hope they realize being too strict makes people feel unloved, sad. or maybe you can just do what their telling you to do so they wont be too harsh, strict to you that much lmk if u need something tho
@@mushroomkitty9995 people will always care, but sometimes they're just too scared to express how they feel so they Say nothing :)) they'res Always good people, of course theres bad people too ! But in this World, there Always has to be good and Bad people
I would hate that too kiddo there being a little to strict with you and I hope they realize just how tired you are. I would give u a hug right now just try to enjoy your moments your still so young and beautiful! With lots of potential and better future if u ever need to talk abt anything at all talk to me I’ll listen
Is anyone else that one friend that is tild there that guy anyone can go to, to vent to, and that your kind and supportive, but your never anything more then that. No matter how much love you give you never receive the same love back. You will always and forever be "the caring friend" but never anything more
I would kinda qualify as that type of friend because I only want the best for you and everyone else I will help you in any situation and if you are feeling down I will try and help
To everyone who can't remember the last time they got a hug, And to everyone who needs a shoulder to cry on, It'll all be okay. Just hold on a little longer
But I can't... Me : Everyone tells me that I should try more harder but I don't stop trying ! Staying Alive is already one of them ! People : "Stop it you just want attention"
I always feel like a bother. I constantly want others to like me and to see them smile. But it never works out no matter how much I try, they end up hating me. I get too comfortable with them and I just let them hurt me over and over until they leave me broken and alone. I don't know what I'm doing wrong. I always try to be nice to others. I don't think anybody understands how much it would mean to me if they just came up to me one day and said hello and gave me a hug. I feel like a crumpled-up piece of paper that can never be put back to its original state. I feel its best if I just shut up forever so everyone can forget about me.
I've hugged a lot before, but I've never felt the genuine care from a hug. When i hug someone, it's mostly me putting my love and concern into it, not the other way around. It's like im praying for their safety and wishing the best for them. I've never really felt the "love" from a hug, the genuine concern for my health and safety, the looking out for my well being, the feeling of support, the feeling of their presence.
this comment section has honestly made me realize how often I avoid my problems and sadness and depression by putting on a fake smile, every tiny little feeling over the past couple months just came flooding back in
I'm soo proud of you for working so hard and getting this far! I know you worked hard my love but it's time to take a break. It's okay to not be okay. Remember to stay hydrated and TRY to eat 3 meals a day! You are loved and i'm proud of you for opening up in the internet! I love you and don't give up!
even if you did something to be proud....sometimes just...knowing you did it is enough...........and hey- im sure someday you can tell someone about that thing and they say- "great job" ..and even if you dont belive my comment- at least your back at these songs to relax and cry again..right?.. have a good one
I don't know what you have done, but I'm super proud and you have been working super hard to get to where you are! Even if they are small or big steps in your life it can still be hard to overcome little steps! I just hope you have a nice day and know I'm proud of you, Dearly Danya
this genuinely made me cry. i cry about everything, but istg this playlist really shows the feelings described by the caption. thanks for making this, and to all the wonderful people in the comments, for comforting people in need
this playlist screams me-- its my birthday today and everyone forgot, so this basically makes me smile bc the songs are my exact taste and i dont have to skip at all, thank you.
i love this playlist it gave me something to listen to when i want to cry and life has been hard but reading some of the comments made e a bit happier.
Betrayed by my only trusted friend, feeling distant from everyone, failing every test and exams, disappointment, useless, I can't even focus on studying, skip school for weeks by faking sickness, laying in bed, listening to music, detached from reality, unable to do simple task, losing motivation, finding out every people I feel "closed" too are slowly disappear from by lives, can't even cry or feel anything anymore, I just want to sleep all my problems away
You literally said all the problems I’m having these days. You’re not alone my dear, it’s normal to have these feelings, and it’s okay to have a break. I know you’ve been dealing with so much stress and pain, it hurts really badly. Do not give up, you deserve much better, things would be better. You’re not useless, you’re just tired and stressed out, keep going, you’ll be okay, everything will be okay!
I am old enough to understand that its normal for a teenage kid to joke around and be funny in the classroom and then when im home i just feel bad cuz i make fun of myself so that my frnds can laugh. no one can even imagine how depressed i am. Every night i cry myself to sleep so, that i can have a smile on face the next morning. There were some people who really cared bout me. But, i left them behind it was me who choose to leave them and now i have nothing left but the regret. Usually i don't comment but today just wanted to share it with someone. Wanted someone to just hear me.
I just want to be loved by someone for real. To never fear of being alone again, to have a gf who's into what I like and be there to hang out instead of having to check a schedule for when they're busy. I feel like I'll never get that ever...
Hello stranger! If you're reading this heres a reminder: You aren't a stick, nor a cow. it doesn't matter how your body is shaped. You are perfect just the way you are and i know things are hard right now and i can relate to your pain but don't give up yet! I'm so proud of you how you keep fighting. You probably don't even know me and i'm probably many miled away from you but i just wanna give you a really long and big hug to show you how proud i am. Don't change yourself for anyone, you are perfect the way you are, even if you don't see yourself as a perfect person, i see you as one! You are so strong, look how far you made it tru life. Don't give up now! You've lost a person? I'm sorry to hear that sweetheart, just know they're watching from above. My grandma always used to tell me that even if you lose somone, they'll try their best to guard you until death. You may can't see them but they're always there for you! somone broke your heart? They don't deserve you, you're a wonderfull person and you should take more care of yourself. They don't appreaciate ( idk how to spell sry bout that sweetie
It just feels like everyone in my friend group doesn’t like me and I pretend like these nothing wrong but it’s feels like I’m just different from them and I hate the feeling because I mess up sometimes and I get shit on because of it but when my other friend they get treated differently from me it doesn’t feel right
i know some of you might not hear this enough, but i’m genuinely proud of you for even making it this far and reaching out to someone,even if they are just online.sometimes it feels like people on the internet understand each other more than their own family,friends etc.feel free to vent in replies if you want to.
hello whoever's reading. hope your day's been great. I'm sorry for venting. long distance relationships hurt especially when i am touch starved. everyday, i get to hear my boyfriend feeling sad that he has to leave for school. he knows how alone i feel when he's gone and there's barely anything he can do. everyday, his classmates frustrates him, his school schedule blocks the path between me and him wanting to just be together. im 5 hours ahead of him, that's why it's so hard for us to hang out sometimes. it could be 12 am for him when it's 6 am for me. I've never felt his touch and sometimes i really want to feel the warmth of his hugs on the darkest days of my life. i just want to be fully loved. i want to be with him physically. how much i crave him. it's all so painful. i really hope there's a way we could meet up; no more sorrowful nights without him next to me. thank you for reading, whoever's reading.
I feel this...I was in a long distance relationship myself and it didn't work out. I'm glad you got someone who actually cares and I hope you two eventually meet each other
Warmth is all we want in our darkest moments, the feeling of someone we love holding us. One day you will see him, i cannot promise but i can only hope.
@@ZaskiSF any time, just know I love you so so soooo much!!!! You are enough, you are worthy, you are perfect in every single way no matter what. Keep being you, because I love you just as you are
My entire life has been a really bleak experience. I was in foster care at a young age because my mom stabbed herself, went through a lot of homes, then my dad came and got me. He died a couple of years later when I was 9. I moved back with my mom and stepdad. My mom died when I was fifteen, and was left with my stepdad, and neither of us like each other. I've never had any real friends, never had anyone to lean on. The most I have is an online friend that I've known for a 2 years, but it hurts a lot because I'll never meet her. There came a point where i had a gun in my hand and the only reason I didn't use it was because i was thinking of her. Im going to college this fall and i hope that it will be a turning point. Im not going for the education, but to escape my house with my stepdad and brother. Ive cried nearly every single night for the past 3 years. There has been a constant shadow of sadness in me for years that I don't know will ever fade, and at any point I can put my head down and cry. There are countless other things that weigh me down. I hope my life can get better past this point. Ive learned a lot in my life about dealing with loss and depression and suicide, and despite everything that I've gone through, I wouldn't change anything. My experiences have shaped who I am. I'm not very good socially, but I hope I can one day save a life my empathizing with someone who has been though a life like mine. I want to be something to somebody that i never had. I know that there is always hope. I sometimes think that im not meant to be happy, but there is always the HOPE of life getting better, and that is something to look forward to. Keep carrying on, even if that means crying every night or exhausting yourself by punching a pillow until your frustration are out, or finding a secluded place to scream until you can't scream anymore. Find something to hold onto, and hold on tight to it, because like the ledge of a cliff, it could be the difference between life and death.
Hey, I just want to say how deeply and emotively wonderful this post is. While not everyone might read it, I think that for the people who need this, your words could actually be life-changing. I'm really glad you're here, the world is sweeter with you in it. I hope college turns out well, really! Thank you so much for the message and for being here, being you
I never thought i would get in this situation... but right now my biggest wish is to be able to look at the mirror at the end of the day and tell myself "you have done a good job today! You are amazing" truly meaning it...
POV writer Asra Frost at your service! You laughed as you shook your head, facing the ground. Your hands clenched at your sides so much they’re shaking at the pressure applied. Yet you smiled. Smiled and kept going, picking your head up to play your world of pretend. But this world of pretend is getting harder. Harder to keep, harder to hold onto, harder to fool those that can see. Yet as you smiled and carried on through the rain, not bothering to get under cover, you looked up and let lose the pain. You yelled at the sky as thunder clapped over your voice. The streets were empty today, the weather calling for silence other than it’s own war. But now, your done, letting the mask fall as you make your way home. The puddles of water calming you slightly as you walk through them. Oh how you wish you could fall through them and go somewhere else. How you wish that even if that happened, someone would care enough to look for you. And yet here you are. In the rain at 2am. And not one call. Not one text. Not anyone looking. “Hard to be worried when no one wants to see anything wrong.” You sighed and walked inside. Shaking the rain off on your porch before heading in. Your jacket and shoes abandoned at the front door. You made your way to the kitchen and begun heating up your leftover spaghetti. “Hm.. he used to like this.” You spoke to yourself before you once again let out a breath of air, grabbing a soda and sitting it on the counter before you headed upstairs to change your wet close before drowning yourself in movies. Todays like any other day. Alone to the world, isolated and fed up with the world. But, todays just one of many. Maybe….maybe it’ll get better. Just…hopefully so.
i'm gonna write the bad ending to this so here you go. Since this is the bad ending, this obviously is not gonna end and be all pretty and happy and harmless. So heed warning. TW:Violence and alcohol. i also write so, hope you enjoy this. You believe nobody cares about you. Maybe someone does? But either way... It won't make the slightest difference. You peer out the window from your house, the rain is slow tonight, almost non-existent, it's faint taps reminding you of its presence. You ponder your thoughts. What reason do I have to keep going? This endless cycle of smiling, acting. Like you thought about earlier, people certainly aren't fooled anymore. What do you have to lose? Nobody cares. You ponder once again, then wander to your fridge. You take some scotch, and pour yourself a cup. You take sips as you walk closer to your closet. You think again. Then you remember. You take a seat as the movie you selected continues playing. You continue to drink, and fill another cup. Then another. And Another. Finally, you feel dizzy, and slump back into your chair. It's 2:58 AM Now. You blink, and almost as if time skipped, it's 3:05 AM. You feel lightheaded, and still a little woozy. You get up from your chair, the anger and hatred, hopelessness, following you with each step. Your fists clenched. *Nothing Matters Now.* The weight of your steps shakes the floor a little, as you finally reach your closet and with your might open the doors. You can't see too well, it's blurry, You need a light. As you walk over to get your phone that you left on the couch. You trip, and fall. You lift yourself up, after droning on the floor for a few minutes, that is. The screen flickers on, and you turn on the flashlight. You re-approach the closet, your vision blurred, it's almost like a glitch from a video game, when you look, the frames overlap. You reach the closet, see your cases. And Box. You scrounge through your clothes, you haven't cared enough to wash them.. .It's been what? A week since you last washed them. Who cares. Christ.. This is messy, how could You let this happen? It doesn't matter, you remind yourself of that fact. You grab what you need, but it falls over, and makes a loud thud. These minor incidences are only increasing your rage. You suppress it once again. You then grab your box, and put it down. You hear the rattling of the brass and metal inside, the textures colliding to make the sound. You open it, and are greeted with your supply. Neat, you see a old magazine, but you don't have time to read a magazine like that, you need to focus on the more important magazine. The blaring audio of the movie is like static, you block it out, that must be the reason. Your hands flap around, then you grab the magazine you want. You begin to load. Round, Round... Round... Then it's filled. You put it aside. And inspect one of your beauties. It glares in the faint light of the tv screen in the distance. You take it out, and set it down. You reach for more... Grabbing all them.. You then load again, and again, and again. Finally, you're done. It's 3:24 AM Now. You grab another one of your.. Possessions. Magazine In. You cock it, the bolt clacks, signifying a round is chambered. Then you load the others, then you take out their magazines, and replace the lost bullet. This is the end. The end for you. You can't be helped. Your fury is going to be released soon. You throw all your things to the ground, safety on of course. Right next to your beloved chair. This movie is boring. When? When will I do it?? Tomorrow... Tomorrow. That'll be it. You then realize you forgot your shotgun. You grab your slugs, and load it up. Now you're ready. You drink, some more scotch. Then you scream. Scream for a brief moment, and slump back into your chair. You clasp your hands together, and look downward, taking in a deep breath. You drink some more, and more, and more. You fade out. You wake up at 6 am. Your head hurts like hell, but your head is going to go through a lot worse pain today. You look around your room. It's still dark out. You fill up a glass of water, and down it, then a few more. You use the restroom. You reach for your guns, and begin to bag them. All this ignorance. Hatred. Fury. THe world will feel the pain that you have today. All those that have ignored you, stepped aside. It is time for vengeance. They will feel your hatred. You open your door, you breathe in, and out, your breath is visible in the dawn cold. You put one of your bags in the passengers seat, by the drivers. The others, they stay next to your leg. You check once again, it's all loaded. Ready. You drive. You arrive. People walk in, thinking it's going to be another unassuming day, learning boring things. But oh boy, you're going to make this day one they will surely never forget. You open your car door, sling the bag next to you in the passengers seat over your shoulder, and carry in the rest, another being rung around your torso. You don't wanna be seen... But nobody ever even paid attention to you in the first place. You go to the bathroom. Nobody else is in here. The noise of the zippers moving can be heard through the restroom. It's the only noise. You feel the cold metal. You switch it to fire. *It's time.*
@@fatfag2290 this is amazing, but the ending wasnt finished when I did mine, I just left it on neutral for those that wanted to write their own endings and get ideas. I'm happy that you write as well! It's good to keep writing things you like. I use these Povs for ideas a lot do the time, and I was wondering if I can use mine ans yours as a backstory for one of my characters.
uh oh, i didn't expect to find you back here so soon. Things are getting bad again, aren't they? It's okay it won't always be like this. Things might not get better today or tomorrow but one day you'll feel okay, I promise. Keep your head up, won't you? You're not losing as long as you're trying. And don't stop trying I believe in you
If your in your room crying to these songs,it’s ok let it all out I’m proud of you for being you sometimes we need to cry,and that’s ok ,don’t worry, do something that makes you happy,be have a nice relaxing bath okay :) *hug*
i used to be so emotional but lately I feel numb inside. I dont feel happy, angry, or sad. I only feel numb and tired. Idk if this is a good feeling because im not sad, but also not angry. Everyday feels like a loop that plays over and over.
why is it that you can pour your heart into someone, do everything right. give them a love that they even admit no one has given to them before, and then they just fall out of love.
When homeschooled kids younger than you are getting gf's and bf's and your parents and grandparents are high-school sweethearts that don't seem to understand your pain for someone too
Wow. I've never thought of it that way before. But you're right, we need to stop setting such incredibly high standards for ourselves and everything we have to achieve. We are human beings with feelings, a soul and a mind. We shouldn't ignore the fact that we actually need to take care of ourselves in order to perform well.
My mom told me that she's getting me a therapist today, she said that there's something wrong with me, it might be the fact that I've been in a fire, I've been in an abusive family, I've almost been killed by a classmate, I've dealt with depression and anxiety since I was 6 and I'm deeply in love with someone who hates me all before I've even turned 14.
I know it's tough, but you can't give up! You are your very own person. A person worthy of love, care, kindness, happiness. You deserve the things that can make you happy... You deserve to feel the warmth of the sun on your body. You deserve to enjoy the little things in life... You deserve all the love and care from the people that you care about, especially me. so please don't ever give up. (Love y'all so much have a great day!!!)
Time stamps: 0:00 - 4:40 no surprises - Radiohead 4:41 - 9:00 7 weeks and 3 days - Yungagitta 9:00 - 10:43 Jealous - Eyedress I forgot the last 2 songs names
I was always the 2nd choice. My best friend told me to let her go but I can't, I am afraid of letting her go because all I want is her to be happy in life, because she deserved it and I want to be there for her, even if she will never love me back and will always see me as a friend. I will always listen to her problems, Ideas, things that happen in her life and even if she need someone if she feels lonely. It's okay if I will never be happy as long as she will be.
I had a volleyball game two weeks ago, when I was done I just felt like trash I wish I could've disappeared but then my friend Grace hugged me that moment was special for me because she never hugs people I will remember this forever. Sometimes we just need a hug.
To everyone who is doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve. To everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down, and get some rest, no matter the time. To everyone who is creating, you got this. Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done! If you're reading, relax, Focus, and imagine the beautiful scenes in your head. And if you're playing games like me, Focus on your game and don't give up :D -Not mine, but pass it around guys
The thing is, I have two boyfriends (polyamorous, I would NEVER cheat.) and they love me so much but I still feel not enough..my boyfriend always talks about pretty women he sees and never about if I’m pretty, my other one treats me the EXACT same as when we were friends. I just wanna feel fully loved.
Talk to them about it, you're so lucky that you were able to get into a relationship! But I completely understand your feelings, be open about things, if you're not how can they know the way you're feeling? If they respond negatively? Well then they're probably not for you! You sound like an awesome person and I hope your relationship works out!!
yall i recommend the vocaloid collab song called blessing it sounds like a warm hug one of the lyrics is "even if you cant love, even if you arent loved, even then, i want you to live." and it makes me tear up every time
Appreciating what I have now isn’t that bad, it’s just tiring. Apparently one “are you ok?” can make you cry. Healing is a long time process but it’s worth it. (Sometimes) I hate being burned out, I always feel so tired, lonely and lazy. I miss the people who comfort me through screen. I love making someone happy, but why can’t I be happy? The impact for someone who’s being compared is heavy, it’s more than carrying a bag full of books. It’s like you’re carrying a mountain on your back that you cannot put down because the whole world might shake. I’m tired.
Thats a striking image... I'm sorry for your burdens. If you can, go to God and pray about it. Ask him for his help to bear that burden for you. “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” Matthew 11:28-30 ❤
Whenever I see a happy family eating ice cream together, going to the amusement park and just laughing with each other.. I tend to feel a sadness deep inside.. I find it hard not to stare and wish I could be that little kid who’s holding dads hand and being so carefree and happy.. I crave the love I was never showed while growing up.. I just want to be loved…❤..
Yeah seriously I spent my childhood up until now being 16 living with my addiction mother or my manipulative, mentally, and emotionally abusive father or both of them together. Seeing happy family’s honesty makes me depressed.
I love how people from Internet, the STRANGER are knowing us better than the people we know... I don't know why I can't be open to my friend and family... I always talk to my online friend about my problem, and they're like knowing me... They're telling me to do better, and the day will be better tomorrow... But my parents will always say "that was your fault. I can't believe you're so stupid, why can't you be like your friend?" "Always phone. Is playing phone can make you better?" "Stop playing phone. You will just be more dumb." ... At school I have some friend, but they always leave me behind if I have a problem... But my online friend was like "don't worry, stay strong ainee, Ik you're having a bad day, but believe me, tomorrow will be better! ^^ don't worry, my lovely friend!-" -FYI: I copied that one of my online friend send to me- I just... I just hope my parents and friend will be better... :)
To who ever is reading this you are enough don’t try so hard to make them proud if they can’t appreciate your hard work then that there problem you’ve always been enough
It shouldn't be something you long for. I'd hug you if I was with you 😭 *Hugs* ❤️ love u, stay strong and never let others bring you down with them, you deserve more. 👑
@@Aizen_33 aww, thank you so much! I wish you all the best in your life too. 🌟 You and me, we're best friends now. We just, we get it. We are the cool beans! 💕
I know this is over a year old but, thank you for making this, I find myself coming back over and over, so thank you truly and have an amazing day/night
I FELT LOVED. REALLY, REALLY LOVED FOR FIVE MINUTES. I HAVE NEVER FELT THAT BEFORE. AND NOW IM REALISING HOW FCKING EMPTY I AM ALL THE TIME WITHOUT IT. THIS ISN'T ME. THIS ISN'T ME. WHERE THE HELL AM I? HOW DID I GET HERE? HOW DO I GET OUT? IM DONE, IM DONE I WANT TO LEAVE NOW. THIS ISN'T MY LIFE, IT ISN'T MY STORY AND NOTHING MAKES ANY SENSE.
i wish i could have this version of No Surprises on a infinite loop. Anyway, what i came here for, I just feel left out by most people. I've got about 2 to 3 people who care about me besides family, and thats pretty much it. Nearly every day is a struggle to do something productive, even if its just in a game getting progress. i just wanna have the friends i had back a few years ago, where i had fun with them. Every day of school is annoying and boring, feels like time wasted. Sometimes, It feels like my life is just a miserable pile of junk thrown to the sidewalk. Suicidal thoughts a few times a month. And then i met these two people, and i think they're the reason im being able to sit here on this video and write this comment. i've loved every second i have spent with them, and each day i get excited being able to talk with them.
I love my life.. But still i keep going back to these playlists crying myself into sleep. Hope you are all doing fine out there. Strangers on the Internet.
You know there's something wrong when you make everything about this fantasy world you created where you'd dream to be.. I just want to feel something other than anxiety and numbness is that too much to ask?
It’s not too much to ask. You deserve no anxiety and numbness, your fantasy worlds are your oasis, never lose them, they are a place where you can go, just close your eyes and let your mind wander to your lands. If no one is there for you to turn to, remember there are countless people in this CZcams chat willing to comfort you, and even join you in your beautiful oasis. You are loved. I love you.
Yesterday I got my first real hug after a year or so. It was short, and unexpected, but the girl was happy. We hugged and I closed my eyes realizing that this was my first hug after a long time. Idk if I'm into this girl, but she's great. She's great...
It hits 12am and all the negative thoughts hit so hard, thoughts like how I’ll never be a decent human being, it won’t be long before my friends all hate me, etc.. I can’t even take my mind off of it anymore. I was sitting here on a call with my friend, crying, and trying to be quiet about it while we do a try not to laugh (it was mostly us being silent watching TikToks) so I wouldn’t alert them. I feel like such a piece of garbage for not even remotely being able to contain that.
I hate my mom and my grandma. They try to put me into a mold I cannot fit and, make choices for me when I'm perfectly capable of making my own choices. The amount of times they lectured me because I liked something they didn't is tiring. I'm so tired of them. I'm so tired with trying to live up to their expectations. All I want is their validation, acceptance, and love and yet, no matter how hard I try, I get their feelings of disappointment and shame in return.
my mom and grandma are the exact same way!- my grandma is a hateful person sometimes who gets at everyone and thing and no matter what me or my mom do- she always finds something to nag about- and my mom is just a bit controlling- you should do this- or that- thats not correct- you cant do that- and any time i wanna talk to her about stuff like that- or stand up for myself- oop- now shes the victim crying- i under stand how you feel and theres gonna come a point where you jsut gotta...go do your own thing......even to there chagrin.....and once you do maybe they will reconsider things...........who knows? anyway- sorry about the rant just ive never heard anyone complain this close to home- have a good day-
sometimes i wonder when i will be able to hear and read the things i say to the people i loved romantically. the "you can talk to me about it!", the "i'm here for you always < 3". i look at the other people who receives this treatment and i feel genuinely happy for them but i can't help but wonder if i'll ever be treated like that. i'm afraid that when i find someone that will treat me like that, i'll start to push away because i'm not familiar with it. i'm afraid that when someone treats me well, i'll be the guy that can't treat the people that i love romantically, right anymore.
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Hello every one! Please feel free to vent or comfort someone, and thank you for 1.93k subs I’m really thankful for all your guys support. I hope you guys feel better - me
I would vent to someone but the person I vent to said I vent to much and said to stop..
Thank you❤😢
Love the cover photo
@@graybain776 facts 💯
@@angelabowles1414Same but even worse it’s my fake friend
"how's your day?"
"it's "fine"
the french equivalent of "it's fine" to that question is "it's going" which makes me not guilty of lying as it is going but it's not good
I'm going to kill myself if I see a furry... 2:53
Why must this be so relatable T~T
@@philippey4918 yes. My dad says that you can tell people to "Have a day" not necessarily a good one. but have one.
Story of my life. God bless you
the fact online people know us better than our parents or irl friends.
ik! People in the real world are just...cruel and...mean
Irl people call me fat ugly fatherless and online I seem to be really cool and the center on attention and it makes me smile and laugh but life is hard my parents fight but also they force me to things I don’t know yet and on vr when I don’t get stressed when I don’t know anything I have like maybe a small amount of friends irl but online I got 200+ friends I don’t understand am I not cool in real life or am I really ugly and don’t want to be hangout with my 3 besties forgot about me and I don’t think they would come to my birthday and it’s soon I wanna die but I have my online friends I got cheated on and used this world is cruel very and I get bullied by everyone even the teacher do I have a place in the world or am I not good enough please tell me if I belong here
@@Penelope0Sjobergsilva you deserve better.. everyone belongs in this world, everyone who calls u "fat ugly fatherless" is just like u, they need to be loved, they just have a dark spot in their heart and they let it out on you. please do not believe anything they say, you're worth it, everyone is
Im surrounded by people who love and care for me, but at the same time, I've never felt more alone
I know how you feel
Don't worry about it man, life is like a jigsaw puzzle. And the last missing piece is a partner, the right one for you will come along eventually, and I've felt just like you for a while now. I've attempted to commit multiple times but I always turn to my loved ones. All you need to do is find the last missing piece of the puzzle. Love you man.
you're not alone, at least in the sense that there are others out there who can understand you
The worst thing ever because it’s like my life is awesome and here I am weeping for no reason
Real. It's because you don't see genuine happiness anymore in this world. So many people are fake in fear of getting judged by rude people. No one wants to help anymore because they're too tired from helping other people. Teachers are mean to their students because of how much stress is going on out of school in their lives, while kids act like who they grew up around, leading to more and more people's mental healths to lower. That's why you don't see much love in this world anymore. Most of it is lust, nowadays. :(
funny and heartwarming, how strangers in the internet cares for us better than people we was hoping to get care from that we all need so much.
I agree
I agree. My mom called me a crybaby for crying after I got blamed wrongly by my sister and my mom got mad at me for not cleaning my table
@@vaterplays oof, damn-.. that's unfair. no one deserves to be treated like that tbh. are you okay now bud?
you can laugh, nothing stops you :)
@@KeyUploads k?
Oh! Hey kiddo, you found me.
Rough day? I’m sorry kid. I can’t imagine how that feels for that one of a kind soul you got there. I know it feels like every day’s the same problem and you can’t help but feel terrible for letting everyone down… but keep that head for me kid. Tomorrow’s gonna get better and promise you, I’ll be there in your heart with you to keep you going to another good day! Push on kiddo, you got a stranger rooting for you!
I can’t wait to see that day you truly smile! 😊
daddy issues going crazy rn (totally not crying)
I cried as soon as I read the hey kiddo my dad died around 2 years ago and it sucks so bad for me
Its not getting better tho but its ok man! Thx for some motivational speech i really really need it
your profile pictureis so comforting
I'm proud of you for waking up.
I'm proud of you for brushing your hair.
I'm proud of you for breathing.
I'm proud of you for making your bed.
I'm proud of you for eating.
I'm proud of you for TRYING to eat.
I'm proud of you for drinking water,
I'm proud of you for being here.
I'm proud of you for being you.
I'm proud of you for smiling.
I'm proud of you for continuing on even when things are difficult for you.
I'm proud of you for standing up.
I'm proud of you for blinking.
I'm proud of you for getting out of bed after spending the whole day in bed.
I'm proud of you for brushing your teeth.
I'm proud of you for standing up.
I'm proud of you for sitting down.
I'm proud of you for defending yourself.
I'm proud of you for believing in yourself.
I'm proud of you for simply trying.
I'm proud of you for being alive.
IM PROUD OF YOU.
I’m proud of you for everything
thanks Mom...
tanks, i really needed dis
I'm proud of you for writing this.
Thank you I needed this
Pov: you just wait for someone to help you, but you know that they will never come to help you...
Honestly I used too and still feel that way a lot of times
THIS>>>>
Real.
😔👍
I doubt that would ever happen.
Being loved used to be normal,
Now its a miracle 💗
I know....
real
im starting to give up i dont think ill ever be loved
@@user-hu5kv4nu8e same
@@user-hu5kv4nu8e even if it may not seem like it matters or very miniscule, a lot of us random people on the Internet love you. Just get some rest tonight and know that many people hundreds of miles away love you.
i love how it’s random strangers from the internet understand me and how my parents don’t
Ye...
I just had a fight with them
that sucks man i hope you can find your people soon
Ya I know what you mean
@@mary-rb4yd so0ry for that i send my prears
To those who are isolated in their room and crying to these songs, know that you’re not alone and things WILL get better. It may not seem like that now, but it will in the future. When? I don’t know, but it won’t stay like this forever. There’s always some type of hope, even if you don’t feel it.
I love you all. No one can afford to lose you in this world, no matter how horrible it is. You’re far too precious. Sending hugs to anyone who wants/needs one!
Thank you for spreading kind messages, I'm sure you're a kind person who wants to give hope.. I appreciate it, really appreciates it..
I been gone through alot but I'm always guilty that maybe someone who has gone through alot worse than me still can smile and be nice to everyone.
I hope god blesses you dearie 💙 take care!
@@flower7250 awe tysm! May God bless you as well! :)
Ive only gotten worse. even after going to therapy.
@@EvanAngeli i feel you.. I couldn't say I *understand* because I didn't experience what you're experiencing... but I hope you take care okay? You been so strong.. 🫂
Thanks but I'm not aloud to Isolate my self in my room hell I spend one hour in there and my mom complains
Guys I found her, I love her.
🎉
I'm soo happy for you!
I hope you both last forever!!
Why you using periods? But I don't care, I hope you and her have a happy life together🎉
I want to fucking cry.. it’s upsetting that people on the internet can help us better than our parents, friends, or counselors.. what a fucked up situation this is.. I hope I don’t wake up tomorrow..
If you get this, you did wake up and you kept waking up. The sun rise is a beautiful thing, id hate for you to never be able to watch one again. Tomorrow is a new day, and im proud of you for being brave enough to see it.
As a person who feels that way saying that may feel right but then you think how you are still backed up I meant one of my best friends online and they have helped me get through multiple crises but they disappeared and they where very depressed so I’m guessing they ended their life and even thinking about it makes me sad but I will care for you even though I don’t know you and you don’t know me but I will care for you and I know that the world is fucked and I just hope that one morning you wake up and are happy you woke up
i want you to wake up tomorrow.
i want you to wake up tomorrow too!
@@slejkson9980 :> good job young soljur
I just wanna rest, i just wanna feel loved, i just wanna feel happy once again.
*William Afton*
Same
Hey stranger, its alright, you are loved, trust me. If ever feel like u arent loved, u are by me, and always will!! Sorry if this sounds strange or uncomf, ill be here to comfort u anytime. and remember that ill be here if u want to be friends, or if u got any problems. I may not be ur therapy, but ill be here to comfort u
Same
what is love
i wanna cry in someones arms and i want them to tell me ill be okay and just support me. but dreams dont always come true...kill me please.
Take me with you.
I just want to cry free but my body won't let me lol
I wanna hug you, warm and tight. A friendly hug. I want to hug like this all people who want one.
I’m no touchy person, but you can be an exception I’ll give you a hug bro. It’s going to be ok man
Just wanted to let you know you aren’t alone on this feeling. I’ve been feeling the exact same way for a while. Things get better, I promise.
I really don't like seeing others unhappy. But when I look at myself, I just don't feel like giving that attention to me.
I want someone else to touch my shoylder and hug me deep. Whispering that its okay and I can have the best cry of my life. Because crying is a coping skill for me and I hope others find it just as helpful as I do.
I feel that too. I don't feel anything for myself, but when others are struggling, I need to try to help them in any way I can. While I feel the need to cry too sometimes, I would love nothing more than to help others who are hurting. Anyone who needs to can reply to this and I will give my best encouragement. ❤️
Fr, I don’t give myself any attention, but I do give all 100% of my attention on others, and they don’t even care or acknowledge it, and it’s an exact description of a very kind person, someone that gives no matter what.
Please start giving your guy’s attention to yourself you all have so much potential you can really make a difference in your life it’s not just handed to you. You gotta work hard for it and trust me it will pay off I will gladly give you all a hug it really is going to be okay ig u want to talk about anything come to me I’ll listen and hear you. You guys are heard, respected, and loved I just hope a better future for all you kiddos
I’ve always gotten so excited when people compliment me, or anything positive. Then once, when my best friend said she was proud of me for beating her in our fav video game while she was at my house, i started crying. My parents asked why I was crying. I cry under any type of validation because my parents n e v e r gave me that validation I craved as a child. Here I am, 13, crying that my boyfriend tells me he’s proud of me for staying alive this long. Stay safe out there, love yall. -your fellow depressed child
keep loving, ya doing a good job! 👍👍
Im sure that you're amazing in every way
You're amazing in every way!
Don't forget that, because I'm here for you❤❤❤❤❤❤
I believe in you, always strive for the best
be thankful for what you have, but try to get more.
I feel the same way too!
I dont usually get compliments or have someone say that they are proud of me, so the only few times that someone says those, I really really appreciate it and it stays in my mind and I never forget it. It feels great! :D
i just want someone to hug me, no talking just a long hug.
I wish I could give you one
🫂
🤓🤓🤓🤓
@G Fox how is he a nerd
*hug him/her
Hope it will help ya, it's a pity that is not real, but at least it's still something for you
*Pet him/her softly
Timestamps + venting place! ✨
♥️ = Timestamp
💙 = By whoever made the song!
💚 = Song name
♥️ 0:00 - 4:40
💙 Radiohead
💚 No surprises.
♥️ 4:40 - 8:59
💙 Yungagitta
💚 7 weeks and 3 days
♥️ 8:59 - 10:42
💙 Eyedress
💚 Jealous
♥️ 10:43 - 13:06
💙Teen Suicide
💚 Haunt me (x3)
♥️ 13:06 - 16:22
💙 Mr Kitty.
💚 After Dark
What a interesting way to put the timestamps very nice👍👍👍
@@Marbled_hands ty
Thanks! ♡
Thank you
TY
it's hard to be happy when you've been mentally beaten to the point that emotion is a foreign concept
Then dont be happy, be content. I dont know what you are going through or if youre through it already, but happiness is a journey, one step in front of the other
The comment section is reviving my faith in humanity, a lot of people are being so nice and supportive. I wish I could see more of this in the world sometimes yk?
YT comment section is polar opposite of Instagram comment section
@@null0357 lol
my faith in humanity will never be restored but it helps
@@null0357dont talk about insta
@@null0357 that’s an understatement, YT comment sections are the polar opposite of everywhere else, including in the real world.
sometimes, its just easier to be feared than loved…
So when you find someone who loves you- they'll love you for you- have a day- doesn't have to be amazing...just one you made it threw
People say I'm scary, people say I'm a possessed doll, they call me frightening, something out of their nightmares and I just live with that, but I love I just don't get love back. I feel you
Hahahahaha finally someone who understands me finally someone who isn't givin whatever they want when they want they want to fuck up are lives lets fuck up theres
Yea..
Indeed thats all we got now
“Pain for us, is like water for a plant. We need it to grow as a person, to get emotion, sensitivity, compassion, gratitude, & love. But too much can kill us.”- Zillion.
water is good for plants, it's healing and nice in all ways, it's good, too much good can kill yes, but it certainly is not pain, pain is bad- and then just worse untill we can't take it any longer and die, pain is the lack of water if anything, pain doesn't make a person grow, people make themselves grow to avoid pain, it's not necessary to be good, at all
His love was as sweet as any human could muster up if it wasn’t fake
@@twistedreality997 Thank you for your reply about how pain is unneeded and so on.
But my quote as a message in itself is pain , like water, can hurt when there’s too much. However, in the quote I put doesn’t speak about healing and being comforting to others. Instead it was metaphor for too much pain can kill a person, like too much water kills a plant.
But the pain is needed for a person to grow true sensitivity for when others are hurt to give empathy, or sympathy in the correct circumstances.
The pain is needed to have gratitude and love for the things you cherish the most, if you don’t value them in the first place, and realise that later.
Sure it may be unnecessary to be hurt and so on. But the pain is what makes us human, it’s what makes us humane to others that are hurt.
Comforting them when they’re upset, lending a shoulder for them to cry on when they are hurt, and loving them even with their flaws.
The entire point of the quote is to show that pain is needed for others to grow and prosper in life, because that’s how the harsh reality of life is. Killing others or themselves when too much pain is inflicted, or being insensitive and accidentally hurting others. But when people are hurt, and use that hurt to grow as a person, like plant getting water and using it for photosynthesis, they can act with the compassion, gratitude, & love for others.
This may not resonate for you or others, but it resonates with me and the people that may feel similarly. As for I was hurt many times by my ex best friend, before cutting all contacts with him after.
But that pain taught me how to be compassionate, and love my current best friend unlike when I acted insensitive in the past, due to me not experiencing pain, & therefore not having any compassion or gratitude for the people I care about.
That pain is what taught me to be sensitive when my best friend is hurt.
That pain is what taught me to cherish and love them.
That pain is what taught me to be humane to them and others.
But I’m currently experiencing too much pain within myself from the pain that my ex-best friend had given me, as that hasn’t been healed or used to grow as a person. Therefore, it’s killing me inside.
This is what the point of the quote. Thank you for reading, and you may comment even if your view doesn’t align with mine, but that’s what makes us humans. In life we are always hurt and have our own views, that’s what makes us human
He was a fart, and she was blown away 😔😔
As I slowly dissappear I see light granting inner peace and death to the body as I look of into the last of me I asked why? I answered because you're not weak anymore as I see the last bit if dust disappear the pain comes back as the light given goes dark as I accept that I will alway be in the bad ending as I finsh my last bit of faith I answer goodbye... As I no longer see truth and the family and friend that seemed smiling were not smiling as the void end I realize that the reality is that I am no longer able to enjoy nor smile the end is near.
The kid has no friends in school….👇
Ty guys for likes❤️
Depends on how you defined having no friends because most likely out of a 50-50 percent chance you have friends😅
I have a lot of friends :) uhm....
I have friends...but tbh..I don't really have...because thier fake...and..it really hurts really...but..yk, how they say, life must go on..but I miss how I wasn't the person who was just stands alone while my friends talk..
I have friends... They just hate me... A lot
False friends, not have friends or feeling alone, different situations that are still just as bad and valid.
People on the internet care more then the people around me (:
just reminder to who reads this if anyone even does
Thank you. I'm in tears. These are the words I've been longing to hear.
@@miyachinen5135 aw im so sorry ab that ml 🙁 i cant promise stuff will get better, but i hope just the littlest bit you will
@@DeletedUseraa1612db thank you sm 💓
@@miyachinen5135 ofc!!
Thx :')
My parents have been divorced for as long as I can remember. My mother wasn't really a figure in my life. She kept leaving, on and off again. She would leave for days, weeks, and even months on end. I never really missed her, as she was never really there in the first place. Whenever my mother was in the house, arguing, and fights would always happen. She would always attack my father, and harm herself in ways to make it seem like my father was abusive and hurting her. She tried to send him to jail more than once.
I can remember vividly, I was 5 at the time and my younger sister was 2. We were watching a vocaloid music video, when I all of a sudden, heard cursing, and fighting, YET AGAIN for the 3rd time this week, (This was a Tuesday btw) Eventually I saw my dad leave the house for a while with my mother in the living room, pacing around, back and forth, muttering to herself. I, obviously as a child, didn't understand the situation, and my 2 year old sister DEFINIETLY wouldn't. I tried asking what was happening and why my father was gone and where he was going, because I wanted to go with him. I was brushed off.
I remember having a really close and good bond with my father when I was younger. I guess that was because we were more of a family, even with my parents arguing and fighting all the time. After my mother finally packed her stuff and left, that's where everything went downhill. And I mean, *EVERYTHING*. Now, me and my father barely talk as we used to, and when we talk, it results in me crying or him getting upset, shutting me down, and making me upset/cry. I'm always being called an embarrassment, worthless, annoying, disgusting, or any degrading word you can think of, whenever I can't get something right. (I remember talking to my mother once during a visit, and I asked her why she left. She said it was because of my father. He would always berate and talk badly about her, it was like he was bi-polar. He was happy or fine one moment, then all of a sudden, he was upset, yelling, calling you names. I never really understood her because I believed the stories my father would always paint about her, that she was a bad person, and that he never did anything. But that's a lie, I kind of understand why she left. I know now, that none of them were saints.)
My grades went down by a lot. (I used to score As on my report card and get 100s every single time without trying.)
I felt so weighed down, tired, I had no motivation. How could I have been so happy to do all this when I was younger?
My mental health is spiraling out of control. (Incoming trigger warning btw!) I've been self harming, as well as feeling suicidal and worthless, like my life has nothing worth going for me at all, or ever. I developed an ed as a result of constantly being shamed of my weight and looks. I used to eat a moderate to maybe a bit too much food (maybe that's the ed talking, I have no idea anymore), to not eating, or barely eating anything at all. It's caused me headaches, I've felt lightheaded, I've fainted/collapsed, blacked out many times before, as well was too weak at times to even lift a finger. My father constantly asks me why I do it, why I don't eat. And all I say is, "I'm just not hungry." He constantly says that I'm hurting myself and that I need to take care of my body. But how? How can I love and take care of my body that you now made me hate so much? Anyway. Whenever my parents would argue, or anything bad would happen when I was younger, I used food, drawing, music, and socialization as a way to escape from the cruel reality that I would, and could never have a "childhood." How else could I have coped when everyone in the household is like a turtle in their shell? Everyone puts up a mask and doesn't talk to anyone else about how they feel.
I've thought about suicide, and have attempted more than once. I was never successful, and would always end up hurting myself more than before. But hey, I guess I deserve it, right?
I've attempted to talk to my father more than once about me feeling suicidal, and my feelings overall, and I would always get brushed off. His most recent reply to me feeling suicidal was because I, "Wasn't able to do what I want".
I feel like giving up, honestly. I feel like no one cares anymore.
But I know that's not true. My younger sister looks up to me, calls me Mother, and always tries to help when she sees me upset/overwhelmed (Yeah, I'm female btw.)
My friends always compliment and say how they miss me whenever I'm not in school, and they're just so supportive and nice-
And my girlfriend. She's all I could ever ask for. (My dad is homophobic too, LOL)
But for some reason, it's not enough. I feel so empty. So while you might be reading this.. Pretty long rant, I'm in a dark room, spilling out a chapter of my life story, while stressing out about school, and crying in my room.
If you read all of this though, thank you, I appreciate it. Because, even though you can't really do much to help physically, listening makes a huge difference as well. So thank you.
ily sm, good luck friend
I know it’s hard right now but I promise you it will slowly get better If your still in school try to talk to the teachers and find small coping methods if your father starts getting (⚠️TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️)
Abusive I suggest going to the police I hope things get better my friend
I'm sorry you had to go through all that, I really hope you get better soon
I hope things get better for you
you're so strong for getting through all this and im so proud of you (´▽｀) ♡♡♡ i know you can do it my friend i believe in you!! you're amazing ❤❤
funny how my own parents hate me and an app loves me more than them
Yea...
1 year ago I was happy as can be, now this is who I, a broken thing that just wanted to be loved but unfortunately we live in a hate filled world, thank u stranger of the internet I hope your alright
Likewise my friend, likewise! 😊❤
Loving someone is so hard when you can't even love or except your self.
I realised something, its hard to love others when you don't love yourself but, its also hard to love yourself when others don't love you or at least don't show it.
If you can’t love yourself your heart has been emptied, there’s nothing to take or give, just emptiness. One day, there will be someone that will share their heart with you, you will both have one half, like a locket. It may take time to find that person, so let this digital version be a placeholder 🧡
like my mom and dad forced me to study when, I am tired
im so sorry about that, school sucks. i hope they
realize they are pushing you to hard.
i hope you do better ❤
@@Midmidas no joke but I'm actually crying because I've never ever see someone care about someone else before
that doesn't mean they dont love you,
they want to make you have a bright future but they were being too hard on you, i hope they realize being too strict makes people feel unloved, sad. or maybe you can just do what their telling you to do so they wont be too harsh, strict to you that much
lmk if u need something tho
@@mushroomkitty9995 people will always care, but sometimes they're just too scared to express how they feel so they Say nothing :)) they'res Always good people, of course theres bad people too ! But in this World, there Always has to be good and Bad people
I would hate that too kiddo there being a little to strict with you and I hope they realize just how tired you are. I would give u a hug right now just try to enjoy your moments your still so young and beautiful! With lots of potential and better future if u ever need to talk abt anything at all talk to me I’ll listen
Is anyone else that one friend that is tild there that guy anyone can go to, to vent to, and that your kind and supportive, but your never anything more then that. No matter how much love you give you never receive the same love back. You will always and forever be "the caring friend" but never anything more
I would kinda qualify as that type of friend because I only want the best for you and everyone else I will help you in any situation and if you are feeling down I will try and help
That’s exactly me
why does the internet understand me better than my family and friends?
Algorithm
But we all love u here, so don't LeAve uSs
Lol but fr random person online,..... Hopefully your doing genuinely well 😊😁
When i'm away from my family٫ I'm happier than ever.
i hope one day you can stay away from them forever one day, and live the happier life you deserve. ❤
same
same TnT
To everyone who can't remember the last time they got a hug,
And to everyone who needs a shoulder to cry on,
It'll all be okay. Just hold on a little longer
But I can't...
Me : Everyone tells me that I should try more harder but I don't stop trying ! Staying Alive is already one of them !
People : "Stop it you just want attention"
@@LumoonV One day it'll all be worth it
I’m trying…but it’s getting harder
I'll try... I'll try... like I've always done
I eat bricks.
I always feel like a bother. I constantly want others to like me and to see them smile. But it never works out no matter how much I try, they end up hating me. I get too comfortable with them and I just let them hurt me over and over until they leave me broken and alone. I don't know what I'm doing wrong. I always try to be nice to others. I don't think anybody understands how much it would mean to me if they just came up to me one day and said hello and gave me a hug. I feel like a crumpled-up piece of paper that can never be put back to its original state. I feel its best if I just shut up forever so everyone can forget about me.
this made me to to a place that I didn't want to see ever again..
Um... I'm five months late... But... Are you okay? 😭❤️❤️❤️
hey, daily reminder that you deserve to be loved and happy, even if all you do is existing. love you :)
Thank you ❤
Thanks kind stranger, i needed that. 😊
I'm never loved
That's what we give but don't get it back, always goes in one unique way..
Lets be honest the worst felling is crying but no tears come out 🙃
I've hugged a lot before, but I've never felt the genuine care from a hug. When i hug someone, it's mostly me putting my love and concern into it, not the other way around. It's like im praying for their safety and wishing the best for them. I've never really felt the "love" from a hug, the genuine concern for my health and safety, the looking out for my well being, the feeling of support, the feeling of their presence.
Same. I wish I could feel that but I can't
this comment section has honestly made me realize how often I avoid my problems and sadness and depression by putting on a fake smile, every tiny little feeling over the past couple months just came flooding back in
same man
yep, me too
Fr, but I ALWAYS have a fake smile unless I’m alone.
HELP I DONT REMEMBER WRITING THIS
I'm soo proud of you for working so hard and getting this far! I know you worked hard my love but it's time to take a break. It's okay to not be okay. Remember to stay hydrated and TRY to eat 3 meals a day! You are loved and i'm proud of you for opening up in the internet! I love you and don't give up!
even if you did something to be proud....sometimes just...knowing you did it is enough...........and hey- im sure someday you can tell someone about that thing and they say- "great job"
..and even if you dont belive my comment- at least your back at these songs to relax and cry again..right?.. have a good one
Hey, just know that this stranger loves you and is proud of whatever you've accomplished!
Yeah
I don't know what you have done, but I'm super proud and you have been working super hard to get to where you are! Even if they are small or big steps in your life it can still be hard to overcome little steps! I just hope you have a nice day and know I'm proud of you,
Dearly
Danya
this genuinely made me cry. i cry about everything, but istg this playlist really shows the feelings described by the caption. thanks for making this, and to all the wonderful people in the comments, for comforting people in need
Fr, but I’ve become dole to the sadness then randomly… BOOM, it bursts out for just a little.
@@DubiousDan yeah. but letting it out also is important. bottling up emotions isnt a thing thats healthy. :)
y'know yt cares when it's showing ur favorite video in the recommended videos while ur listening to a vent playlist :,)
Even the algorithm is merciful sometimes.
this playlist screams me-- its my birthday today and everyone forgot, so this basically makes me smile bc the songs are my exact taste and i dont have to skip at all, thank you.
Happy late birthday! 💕
I can't remember the last time i got a "happy birthday" 🤭
Happy late birthday ❤
This was a month old, but happy late birthday!!!🎉🎉🎉
❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳
YOUR AMAZING!!!
I maybe a month late, but happy late bday!
im very late but happy birthday. i hope you're doing okay
genuinely, if everyone in these comments were people I knew, I'd die happily. everyone is so sweet ♡
That's because we're not afraid of being judged here, so we dare to show our true colors :) 🌟
can i be your friend :D
can we be your friend
@@Its_a_bakugou_lover
I’d be happy to end up being your friend i kinda need more friends after losing most of them :)
I almost felt something listening to this playlist.
It's been too long.
I think I forgot how to feel.
Well... I hope you know, that your loved by someone ❤ I don't know you, but everyone deserves to be loved ❤ I'm proud of you for living :)
i love this playlist it gave me something to listen to when i want to cry and life has been hard but reading some of the comments made e a bit happier.
Betrayed by my only trusted friend, feeling distant from everyone, failing every test and exams, disappointment, useless, I can't even focus on studying, skip school for weeks by faking sickness, laying in bed, listening to music, detached from reality, unable to do simple task, losing motivation, finding out every people I feel "closed" too are slowly disappear from by lives, can't even cry or feel anything anymore, I just want to sleep all my problems away
I feel like that right now, i was just hurt really bad by getting told by the person i love, that we should just remain friends.
You literally said all the problems I’m having these days. You’re not alone my dear, it’s normal to have these feelings, and it’s okay to have a break.
I know you’ve been dealing with so much stress and pain, it hurts really badly. Do not give up, you deserve much better, things would be better. You’re not useless, you’re just tired and stressed out, keep going, you’ll be okay, everything will be okay!
I had my heart broken today, and this playlist at least let me get a few minutes of escape from reality, thank you for uploading.
What’s the name? Him/her? Do u still feel sad cause I do after around the same time.
I am old enough to understand that its normal for a teenage kid to joke around and be funny in the classroom and then when im home i just feel bad cuz i make fun of myself so that my frnds can laugh. no one can even imagine how depressed i am. Every night i cry myself to sleep so, that i can have a smile on face the next morning. There were some people who really cared bout me. But, i left them behind it was me who choose to leave them and now i have nothing left but the regret. Usually i don't comment but today just wanted to share it with someone. Wanted someone to just hear me.
"We all had bad days... But we learn. And we stick together."
I just want to be loved by someone for real. To never fear of being alone again, to have a gf who's into what I like and be there to hang out instead of having to check a schedule for when they're busy. I feel like I'll never get that ever...
Jesus is always there... you never have to be alone again when you're with him ❤ and he loves you, for real.
@@the.seagull.35 not everyone wants jesus
Same bro
You dont need a gf to be happy, believe it or not. Thats what i thought, turns out; you only need a proper friend. Keep pushing brother.
Hello stranger! If you're reading this heres a reminder:
You aren't a stick, nor a cow. it doesn't matter how your body is shaped. You are perfect just the way you are and i know things are hard right now and i can relate to your pain but don't give up yet! I'm so proud of you how you keep fighting. You probably don't even know me and i'm probably many miled away from you but i just wanna give you a really long and big hug to show you how proud i am. Don't change yourself for anyone, you are perfect the way you are, even if you don't see yourself as a perfect person, i see you as one! You are so strong, look how far you made it tru life. Don't give up now!
You've lost a person?
I'm sorry to hear that sweetheart, just know they're watching from above. My grandma always used to tell me that even if you lose somone, they'll try their best to guard you until death. You may can't see them but they're always there for you!
somone broke your heart?
They don't deserve you, you're a wonderfull person and you should take more care of yourself. They don't appreaciate ( idk how to spell sry bout that sweetie
Thanks
thank you..
It just feels like everyone in my friend group doesn’t like me and I pretend like these nothing wrong but it’s feels like I’m just different from them and I hate the feeling because I mess up sometimes and I get shit on because of it but when my other friend they get treated differently from me it doesn’t feel right
i know some of you might not hear this enough, but i’m genuinely proud of you for even making it this far and reaching out to someone,even if they are just online.sometimes it feels like people on the internet understand each other more than their own family,friends etc.feel free to vent in replies if you want to.
hello whoever's reading. hope your day's been great. I'm sorry for venting.
long distance relationships hurt especially when i am touch starved. everyday, i get to hear my boyfriend feeling sad that he has to leave for school. he knows how alone i feel when he's gone and there's barely anything he can do. everyday, his classmates frustrates him, his school schedule blocks the path between me and him wanting to just be together. im 5 hours ahead of him, that's why it's so hard for us to hang out sometimes. it could be 12 am for him when it's 6 am for me. I've never felt his touch and sometimes i really want to feel the warmth of his hugs on the darkest days of my life. i just want to be fully loved. i want to be with him physically. how much i crave him. it's all so painful. i really hope there's a way we could meet up; no more sorrowful nights without him next to me.
thank you for reading, whoever's reading.
I feel this...I was in a long distance relationship myself and it didn't work out. I'm glad you got someone who actually cares and I hope you two eventually meet each other
Warmth is all we want in our darkest moments, the feeling of someone we love holding us. One day you will see him, i cannot promise but i can only hope.
Stay strong . Sometimes it's hard but you guys can do it !
To whoever reads this,
i love you
thank you
@@stamps19 no problem! I’m doing okay thanks, but I hope you’re doing good! Love youu!
Cant believe I'm crying thank you
Thank you very much for all this...
@@ZaskiSF any time, just know I love you so so soooo much!!!! You are enough, you are worthy, you are perfect in every single way no matter what. Keep being you, because I love you just as you are
My entire life has been a really bleak experience. I was in foster care at a young age because my mom stabbed herself, went through a lot of homes, then my dad came and got me. He died a couple of years later when I was 9. I moved back with my mom and stepdad. My mom died when I was fifteen, and was left with my stepdad, and neither of us like each other. I've never had any real friends, never had anyone to lean on. The most I have is an online friend that I've known for a 2 years, but it hurts a lot because I'll never meet her. There came a point where i had a gun in my hand and the only reason I didn't use it was because i was thinking of her. Im going to college this fall and i hope that it will be a turning point. Im not going for the education, but to escape my house with my stepdad and brother. Ive cried nearly every single night for the past 3 years. There has been a constant shadow of sadness in me for years that I don't know will ever fade, and at any point I can put my head down and cry. There are countless other things that weigh me down. I hope my life can get better past this point. Ive learned a lot in my life about dealing with loss and depression and suicide, and despite everything that I've gone through, I wouldn't change anything. My experiences have shaped who I am. I'm not very good socially, but I hope I can one day save a life my empathizing with someone who has been though a life like mine. I want to be something to somebody that i never had. I know that there is always hope. I sometimes think that im not meant to be happy, but there is always the HOPE of life getting better, and that is something to look forward to. Keep carrying on, even if that means crying every night or exhausting yourself by punching a pillow until your frustration are out, or finding a secluded place to scream until you can't scream anymore. Find something to hold onto, and hold on tight to it, because like the ledge of a cliff, it could be the difference between life and death.
Hey, I just want to say how deeply and emotively wonderful this post is. While not everyone might read it, I think that for the people who need this, your words could actually be life-changing.
I'm really glad you're here, the world is sweeter with you in it. I hope college turns out well, really! Thank you so much for the message and for being here, being you
I never thought i would get in this situation... but right now my biggest wish is to be able to look at the mirror at the end of the day and tell myself "you have done a good job today! You are amazing" truly meaning it...
POV writer Asra Frost at your service!
You laughed as you shook your head, facing the ground. Your hands clenched at your sides so much they’re shaking at the pressure applied. Yet you smiled. Smiled and kept going, picking your head up to play your world of pretend. But this world of pretend is getting harder. Harder to keep, harder to hold onto, harder to fool those that can see. Yet as you smiled and carried on through the rain, not bothering to get under cover, you looked up and let lose the pain. You yelled at the sky as thunder clapped over your voice. The streets were empty today, the weather calling for silence other than it’s own war. But now, your done, letting the mask fall as you make your way home. The puddles of water calming you slightly as you walk through them. Oh how you wish you could fall through them and go somewhere else. How you wish that even if that happened, someone would care enough to look for you. And yet here you are. In the rain at 2am. And not one call. Not one text. Not anyone looking. “Hard to be worried when no one wants to see anything wrong.” You sighed and walked inside. Shaking the rain off on your porch before heading in. Your jacket and shoes abandoned at the front door. You made your way to the kitchen and begun heating up your leftover spaghetti. “Hm.. he used to like this.” You spoke to yourself before you once again let out a breath of air, grabbing a soda and sitting it on the counter before you headed upstairs to change your wet close before drowning yourself in movies. Todays like any other day. Alone to the world, isolated and fed up with the world. But, todays just one of many. Maybe….maybe it’ll get better. Just…hopefully so.
i'm gonna write the bad ending to this so here you go. Since this is the bad ending, this obviously is not gonna end and be all pretty and happy and harmless. So heed warning. TW:Violence and alcohol. i also write so, hope you enjoy this.
You believe nobody cares about you. Maybe someone does? But either way... It won't make the slightest difference. You peer out the window from your house, the rain is slow tonight, almost non-existent, it's faint taps reminding you of its presence. You ponder your thoughts. What reason do I have to keep going? This endless cycle of smiling, acting. Like you thought about earlier, people certainly aren't fooled anymore. What do you have to lose? Nobody cares. You ponder once again, then wander to your fridge. You take some scotch, and pour yourself a cup. You take sips as you walk closer to your closet. You think again. Then you remember. You take a seat as the movie you selected continues playing. You continue to drink, and fill another cup. Then another. And Another. Finally, you feel dizzy, and slump back into your chair. It's 2:58 AM Now. You blink, and almost as if time skipped, it's 3:05 AM. You feel lightheaded, and still a little woozy. You get up from your chair, the anger and hatred, hopelessness, following you with each step. Your fists clenched. *Nothing Matters Now.* The weight of your steps shakes the floor a little, as you finally reach your closet and with your might open the doors. You can't see too well, it's blurry, You need a light. As you walk over to get your phone that you left on the couch. You trip, and fall. You lift yourself up, after droning on the floor for a few minutes, that is. The screen flickers on, and you turn on the flashlight. You re-approach the closet, your vision blurred, it's almost like a glitch from a video game, when you look, the frames overlap. You reach the closet, see your cases. And Box. You scrounge through your clothes, you haven't cared enough to wash them.. .It's been what? A week since you last washed them. Who cares. Christ.. This is messy, how could You let this happen? It doesn't matter, you remind yourself of that fact. You grab what you need, but it falls over, and makes a loud thud. These minor incidences are only increasing your rage. You suppress it once again. You then grab your box, and put it down. You hear the rattling of the brass and metal inside, the textures colliding to make the sound. You open it, and are greeted with your supply. Neat, you see a old magazine, but you don't have time to read a magazine like that, you need to focus on the more important magazine. The blaring audio of the movie is like static, you block it out, that must be the reason. Your hands flap around, then you grab the magazine you want. You begin to load. Round, Round... Round... Then it's filled. You put it aside. And inspect one of your beauties. It glares in the faint light of the tv screen in the distance. You take it out, and set it down. You reach for more... Grabbing all them.. You then load again, and again, and again. Finally, you're done. It's 3:24 AM Now. You grab another one of your.. Possessions. Magazine In. You cock it, the bolt clacks, signifying a round is chambered. Then you load the others, then you take out their magazines, and replace the lost bullet. This is the end. The end for you. You can't be helped. Your fury is going to be released soon. You throw all your things to the ground, safety on of course. Right next to your beloved chair. This movie is boring. When? When will I do it?? Tomorrow... Tomorrow. That'll be it. You then realize you forgot your shotgun. You grab your slugs, and load it up. Now you're ready. You drink, some more scotch. Then you scream. Scream for a brief moment, and slump back into your chair. You clasp your hands together, and look downward, taking in a deep breath. You drink some more, and more, and more. You fade out. You wake up at 6 am. Your head hurts like hell, but your head is going to go through a lot worse pain today. You look around your room. It's still dark out. You fill up a glass of water, and down it, then a few more. You use the restroom. You reach for your guns, and begin to bag them. All this ignorance. Hatred. Fury. THe world will feel the pain that you have today. All those that have ignored you, stepped aside. It is time for vengeance. They will feel your hatred. You open your door, you breathe in, and out, your breath is visible in the dawn cold. You put one of your bags in the passengers seat, by the drivers. The others, they stay next to your leg. You check once again, it's all loaded. Ready. You drive. You arrive. People walk in, thinking it's going to be another unassuming day, learning boring things. But oh boy, you're going to make this day one they will surely never forget. You open your car door, sling the bag next to you in the passengers seat over your shoulder, and carry in the rest, another being rung around your torso. You don't wanna be seen... But nobody ever even paid attention to you in the first place. You go to the bathroom. Nobody else is in here. The noise of the zippers moving can be heard through the restroom. It's the only noise. You feel the cold metal. You switch it to fire.
*It's time.*
@@fatfag2290 this is amazing, but the ending wasnt finished when I did mine, I just left it on neutral for those that wanted to write their own endings and get ideas. I'm happy that you write as well! It's good to keep writing things you like. I use these Povs for ideas a lot do the time, and I was wondering if I can use mine ans yours as a backstory for one of my characters.
@@asrafrost89 I had to leave it on the implied cliffhanger. You can guess what happens. Thanks for the compliment.
@@asrafrost89 I also tried to keep it vague right up until the end.
@@fatfag2290 well you did good I loved the cliffhanger without too much detail
uh oh, i didn't expect to find you back here so soon. Things are getting bad again, aren't they? It's okay it won't always be like this. Things might not get better today or tomorrow but one day you'll feel okay, I promise. Keep your head up, won't you? You're not losing as long as you're trying. And don't stop trying I believe in you
I needed to hear this so much thank you kind stranger I’m crying rn
Have no tears to cry so I just stare into the wall for hours till I fall asleep
To all of you in the comments, You are strong and be glad you made it this far!
You are too
the "!" made it look like it said fart and i had to take a double look.
I don’t know if I can take it anymore
I just need to receive affection, love and a hug
If your in your room crying to these songs,it’s ok let it all out I’m proud of you for being you sometimes we need to cry,and that’s ok ,don’t worry, do something that makes you happy,be have a nice relaxing bath okay :) *hug*
I eat bricks.
Thank you im crying 😢 much love
Thank you for the hug. ❤
I am crying now. I just need a hug and affection..
i used to be so emotional but lately I feel numb inside. I dont feel happy, angry, or sad. I only feel numb and tired. Idk if this is a good feeling because im not sad, but also not angry. Everyday feels like a loop that plays over and over.
why is it that you can pour your heart into someone, do everything right. give them a love that they even admit no one has given to them before, and then they just fall out of love.
Um... Are you okay? ❤
When homeschooled kids younger than you are getting gf's and bf's and your parents and grandparents are high-school sweethearts that don't seem to understand your pain for someone too
If you're ever feeling useless remember that getting up and out of bed is enough. Even waking up is enough.
Wow. I've never thought of it that way before. But you're right, we need to stop setting such incredibly high standards for ourselves and everything we have to achieve. We are human beings with feelings, a soul and a mind. We shouldn't ignore the fact that we actually need to take care of ourselves in order to perform well.
Sometimes I just don’t even want to do that, but my dad forces me
I wish I didn't wake up
Not to my parents...
My mom told me that she's getting me a therapist today, she said that there's something wrong with me, it might be the fact that I've been in a fire, I've been in an abusive family, I've almost been killed by a classmate, I've dealt with depression and anxiety since I was 6 and I'm deeply in love with someone who hates me all before I've even turned 14.
i usually feel sad or down, but this playlist always help me calm down, all i want to say is, thanks!..
feeling depressed about college, the playlist calms me down a lot. Thank you so much !
I know it's tough, but you can't give up! You are your very own person. A person worthy of love, care, kindness, happiness. You deserve the things that can make you happy... You deserve to feel the warmth of the sun on your body. You deserve to enjoy the little things in life... You deserve all the love and care from the people that you care about, especially me. so please don't ever give up. (Love y'all so much have a great day!!!)
Time stamps:
0:00 - 4:40 no surprises - Radiohead
4:41 - 9:00 7 weeks and 3 days - Yungagitta
9:00 - 10:43 Jealous - Eyedress
I forgot the last 2 songs names
Ty
13:06 - 16:22 Mr.kitty - after dark
I forgot the name of the song before that one :")
4th song is haunt me(3x) I think
@@Aneeveeontheinternet oh yes. From 'teen suicide' ,right?
i eat bricks.
I was always the 2nd choice. My best friend told me to let her go but I can't, I am afraid of letting her go because all I want is her to be happy in life, because she deserved it and I want to be there for her, even if she will never love me back and will always see me as a friend. I will always listen to her problems, Ideas, things that happen in her life and even if she need someone if she feels lonely. It's okay if I will never be happy as long as she will be.
I had a volleyball game two weeks ago, when I was done I just felt like trash I wish I could've disappeared but then my friend Grace hugged me that moment was special for me because she never hugs people I will remember this forever. Sometimes we just need a hug.
To everyone who is doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus
To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve.
To everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down, and get some rest, no matter the time.
To everyone who is creating, you got this.
Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done!
If you're reading, relax, Focus, and imagine the beautiful scenes in your head.
And if you're playing games like me, Focus on your game and don't give up :D
-Not mine, but pass it around guys
@@ChloeMoon_ no problem! goodluck with the art homework!
Thank you, i'm gonna try to study for my exams that are next week and you gave me the perfect motivation I needed.♡♡
not even this comment is unique i saw this already in another video
Thank you, I think I needed this
im really sorry but my problem is i cant sleep im trying to while listening to the playlist but thanks
The thing is, I have two boyfriends (polyamorous, I would NEVER cheat.) and they love me so much but I still feel not enough..my boyfriend always talks about pretty women he sees and never about if I’m pretty, my other one treats me the EXACT same as when we were friends. I just wanna feel fully loved.
Talk to them about it, you're so lucky that you were able to get into a relationship! But I completely understand your feelings, be open about things, if you're not how can they know the way you're feeling? If they respond negatively? Well then they're probably not for you! You sound like an awesome person and I hope your relationship works out!!
yall i recommend the vocaloid collab song called blessing it sounds like a warm hug
one of the lyrics is "even if you cant love, even if you arent loved, even then, i want you to live." and it makes me tear up every time
Funny to know.. that sometimes nobody cares about you at all.. even in your darkest time.. someone in the world will still not care.. i would know..
Appreciating what I have now isn’t that bad, it’s just tiring.
Apparently one “are you ok?” can make you cry.
Healing is a long time process but it’s worth it. (Sometimes)
I hate being burned out, I always feel so tired, lonely and lazy.
I miss the people who comfort me through screen.
I love making someone happy, but why can’t I be happy?
The impact for someone who’s being compared is heavy, it’s more than carrying a bag full of books. It’s like you’re carrying a mountain on your back that you cannot put down because the whole world might shake.
I’m tired.
Thats a striking image... I'm sorry for your burdens. If you can, go to God and pray about it. Ask him for his help to bear that burden for you.
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
Matthew 11:28-30 ❤
POV: when you see a happy family anywhere and remember how you're treated at home
Whenever I see a happy family eating ice cream together, going to the amusement park and just laughing with each other.. I tend to feel a sadness deep inside.. I find it hard not to stare and wish I could be that little kid who’s holding dads hand and being so carefree and happy..
I crave the love I was never showed while growing up.. I just want to be loved…❤..
Yeah seriously I spent my childhood up until now being 16 living with my addiction mother or my manipulative, mentally, and emotionally abusive father or both of them together. Seeing happy family’s honesty makes me depressed.
@@elijahgarrett7860 I'm sorry to hear that lovely. I wish you the best in life, the very best.
@@euinswoo thanks that means a lot
Cheers to those that's struggling, your not alone my good friend. We are all here to support you.
I love how people from Internet, the STRANGER are knowing us better than the people we know... I don't know why I can't be open to my friend and family... I always talk to my online friend about my problem, and they're like knowing me... They're telling me to do better, and the day will be better tomorrow... But my parents will always say "that was your fault. I can't believe you're so stupid, why can't you be like your friend?" "Always phone. Is playing phone can make you better?" "Stop playing phone. You will just be more dumb." ... At school I have some friend, but they always leave me behind if I have a problem... But my online friend was like "don't worry, stay strong ainee, Ik you're having a bad day, but believe me, tomorrow will be better! ^^ don't worry, my lovely friend!-" -FYI: I copied that one of my online friend send to me- I just... I just hope my parents and friend will be better... :)
To who ever is reading this you are enough don’t try so hard to make them proud if they can’t appreciate your hard work then that there problem you’ve always been enough
Thanks
I like your attitude, you're cool
I just want someone to hold me when I cry that shouldn't be to much to ask for , right?..
It shouldn't be something you long for. I'd hug you if I was with you 😭 *Hugs* ❤️ love u, stay strong and never let others bring you down with them, you deserve more. 👑
@@sophielily1 please . Dont make me cry 😭✋
@@Aizen_33 I promise you, I will never! 😭♥️
@@sophielily1 this was srs a very comforting conversation hope you have an amazing life whoever you are and ty 😭♡
@@Aizen_33 aww, thank you so much! I wish you all the best in your life too. 🌟 You and me, we're best friends now. We just, we get it. We are the cool beans! 💕
I know this is over a year old but, thank you for making this, I find myself coming back over and over, so thank you truly and have an amazing day/night
I love how comment sections can be so comforting. When I have rough days I read comments like these.
I FELT LOVED. REALLY, REALLY LOVED FOR FIVE MINUTES. I HAVE NEVER FELT THAT BEFORE. AND NOW IM REALISING HOW FCKING EMPTY I AM ALL THE TIME WITHOUT IT. THIS ISN'T ME. THIS ISN'T ME. WHERE THE HELL AM I? HOW DID I GET HERE? HOW DO I GET OUT? IM DONE, IM DONE I WANT TO LEAVE NOW. THIS ISN'T MY LIFE, IT ISN'T MY STORY AND NOTHING MAKES ANY SENSE.
Hey its been a few days, I hope things are feeling better rn
@@the.seagull.35 yeah, im doing alright now :) thank you for checking in dude
real
i wish i could have this version of No Surprises on a infinite loop.
Anyway, what i came here for,
I just feel left out by most people. I've got about 2 to 3 people who care about me besides family, and thats pretty much it.
Nearly every day is a struggle to do something productive, even if its just in a game getting progress. i just wanna have the friends i had back a few years ago, where i had fun with them.
Every day of school is annoying and boring, feels like time wasted.
Sometimes, It feels like my life is just a miserable pile of junk thrown to the sidewalk. Suicidal thoughts a few times a month.
And then i met these two people, and i think they're the reason im being able to sit here on this video and write this comment.
i've loved every second i have spent with them, and each day i get excited being able to talk with them.
I'm glad you found those two people to talk to... that's cool.
I'm glad you found those two people, I haven't found my saviors yet but I know they'll be there. Sooner or later.
"yeah im fine dont worry about it"
I love my life..
But still i keep going back to these playlists crying myself into sleep.
Hope you are all doing fine out there.
Strangers on the Internet.
You shall motivate you're self,we all believe in you,we are all proud of you
🫂
I have tried.. but everytime i do i just climb up this ladder and eventually fall down..
🫂
You know there's something wrong when you make everything about this fantasy world you created where you'd dream to be..
I just want to feel something other than anxiety and numbness is that too much to ask?
It’s not too much to ask. You deserve no anxiety and numbness, your fantasy worlds are your oasis, never lose them, they are a place where you can go, just close your eyes and let your mind wander to your lands. If no one is there for you to turn to, remember there are countless people in this CZcams chat willing to comfort you, and even join you in your beautiful oasis. You are loved. I love you.
yes
Glad to know I’m not the only one. :’)
Yesterday I got my first real hug after a year or so. It was short, and unexpected, but the girl was happy. We hugged and I closed my eyes realizing that this was my first hug after a long time.
Idk if I'm into this girl, but she's great.
She's great...
For many of us, the road is a difficult one, but the path is always there for us to follow, no matter how many times we may fall. -Joshua Graham
It hits 12am and all the negative thoughts hit so hard, thoughts like how I’ll never be a decent human being, it won’t be long before my friends all hate me, etc.. I can’t even take my mind off of it anymore. I was sitting here on a call with my friend, crying, and trying to be quiet about it while we do a try not to laugh (it was mostly us being silent watching TikToks) so I wouldn’t alert them. I feel like such a piece of garbage for not even remotely being able to contain that.
I hate my mom and my grandma. They try to put me into a mold I cannot fit and, make choices for me when I'm perfectly capable of making my own choices. The amount of times they lectured me because I liked something they didn't is tiring. I'm so tired of them. I'm so tired with trying to live up to their expectations. All I want is their validation, acceptance, and love and yet, no matter how hard I try, I get their feelings of disappointment and shame in return.
my mom and grandma are the exact same way!- my grandma is a hateful person sometimes who gets at everyone and thing and no matter what me or my mom do- she always finds something to nag about- and my mom is just a bit controlling- you should do this- or that- thats not correct- you cant do that- and any time i wanna talk to her about stuff like that- or stand up for myself- oop- now shes the victim crying- i under stand how you feel and theres gonna come a point where you jsut gotta...go do your own thing......even to there chagrin.....and once you do maybe they will reconsider things...........who knows? anyway- sorry about the rant just ive never heard anyone complain this close to home- have a good day-
sometimes i wonder when i will be able to hear and read the things i say to the people i loved romantically. the "you can talk to me about it!", the "i'm here for you always < 3". i look at the other people who receives this treatment and i feel genuinely happy for them but i can't help but wonder if i'll ever be treated like that. i'm afraid that when i find someone that will treat me like that, i'll start to push away because i'm not familiar with it. i'm afraid that when someone treats me well, i'll be the guy that can't treat the people that i love romantically, right anymore.
hey bud, im hoping your ok. just wanna let you know im here for you an cheering you the whole way.
For everyone who needs to hear this and for everyone who doesn't. (You can vent in replies
ty, fellow therian