Alexa Lopez - How Could I (Stage 2: Guilt)

I always want
What I don't have that's why this didn't last
When I had you
I prayed for this thing to be untrue
Stuck on repeat
The rain, the wind, clouds moving
Away from me
That's where I push all the good things
How could I ever hurt you like this When all I ever wanted was you
And how could I ever forgive you for forgiving me
What I made you go through
How could I ever explain myself
For thinking of someone else in my bed
And how could I ever forgive myself
For destroying what I always wanted
You're still the first one I run to when I'm alone
And I always am
At least in my head, I sing this song
To make sure
You understand this is not your fault
It's always me
The issue itself, instability, insecurity
I'm used to it so much I seek it
How could I ever hurt you like this When all I ever wanted was you
And how could I ever forgive you for forgiving me
What I made you go through
How could I ever explain myself
For thinking of someone else in my bed
And how could I ever forgive myself
For destroying what I always wanted
I always thought you looked better without me anyway
Always thought you looked better cause I take up too much space
I always thought you looked better without me anyway
Always thought you looked better with someone who's okay
(Guilt, my soul seeks mercy, maybe you're my destiny, please)
How could I ever hurt you like this
How could I ever forgive you
How could I ever explain myself
How could I ever forgive myself for destroying what I always
What I always wanted
Mhm
What I always wanted
Mhm
Lyrics & Music: Alexa Lopez alexalopezmusic...
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Mixing & Mastering: Matteo Orenda matteo.orenda?i...

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