What a PMDD Episode Looks Like
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- čas přidán 16. 09. 2021
- While recording this video I was suffering from a full-on PMDD episode. I wanted to be open and authentic with my experience as it was happening, and share some of the tools I use to cope with my PMDD.
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I feel like people who have PMDD speak another language that you only know when you experience it. I hear you, I understand what you are going through, and I feel less alone in my experience when I feel symptomatic.
Women ... Saying people would presuppose that it affects both sexes while obviously it affects only women during their fertile years
@@salvolondon I believe they said “people” because there are people who do not identify as women who menstruate and struggle with PMDD
Completely agree!!
PMDD is a full time job. I feel like my two good weeks I am preparing and catching up everything I wasn’t able to do. Then anxiety, irritability, depression, full body fatigue, bing eating, hating yourself, and then in bed for two days.
The research I’ve seen is that it’s genetic and the hormone levels from your cycle are normal but our bodies are sensitive to the fluctuation. Before I know about PMDD I swore I was bipolar.
Oh and also really think I need a divorce and to redo my whole life every month. It’s actually exhausting.
Exactly the story of my life to a T... Here I'm another month in the thick of it, in bed feeling guilt because I should be working (I run my own business) and looking for youtube videos once again just to make sure I'm not going mental and that there are other women on the same boat as me.
Thank you for sharing ❤❤
Omg the divorce thing 100% my husband is amazing like 95% perfect and yet pmdd hits and I'm like ah yes time to divorce him, eat 50 lbs of burgers ,buy a flight to Spain take a nap and then jump in front of train
@@jesss4892I couldn’t have explained it better myself 😭
Yes- the other part of the month you are playing catch up. Glad you mentioned that- it messes up the whole month
Have you heard about Dr Joe Dispenza and his approach to changing one's self? His content is amazing. Blessings.
I can't believe there are other ppl out there going through this. I can't describe how relieving it is to not be alone. I'm having a really hard time
I hope you are finding ways to cope with it ❣️
Yes 🥹
Me too I understand
My way of getting through my PMDD is by binge watching TV shows. It helps distract me from all the anxiety and negative self-talk I tend to do during a pmdd episode. But I become totally useless and I feel so bad about it which triggers more anxiety. Ugh.
literally what i’ve been doing the past few days. i’ve never even connected the two because i also struggle with undiagnosed adhd so sometimes my mind just gets stuck like that but wow as i’ve grown up i started to realize huh things get really really bad for about two weeks sometimes and then i finally realized the pattern it followed with my menstrual cycle. it’s just crazy how much it’s screwed my life. how hard it’s made it to get thru school & work and just very normal life things on top of everything else i struggle thru w my mental health. it’s just so hard to only feel ok for a week and a half every month.
literally watched an entire show in one day the other day. i feel so embarrassed and helpless & the anxiety & bad thoughts are on fricn blast ahh i get like mad h*rny & needy & insecure & self loathing & i get so overwhelmed by it all i just sob randomly all day and sleep all day
New here and to this. My boyfriend suggested I have PMDD and it totally makes sense for me.
I also binge watch TV shows and have felt guilty about it for years so I make sure I watch educational or documentary shows to feel less guilty about it. Maybe that might help you too x
I don't even feel like watching tv. Nothing makes me happy, I don't even want music. All I do is pray and eat a lot of carbs.😢
@@Tee-lady same. no tv or movie or music or book or ANYTHING can help me during that time. it's literal hell.
My wife has PMDD, and it took us a very very long time to figure out that’s what it was. In fact, we got divorced, and didn’t speak for 10 years…. And then reconnected Jan of this year… we remarried in June of this year, she and her son, moved across the country to be with me. We’ve been working through it together. Patience, understanding, and faith helps big time.
Thanks for sharing your story. Give me a lot of hope and lightful feelings. Good luck for you. ❤
Man i am glad that you guys found it out as a team. Even after 10 years reconnected. Bless you too, i wish your family the best. PMDD can be quite the challenge
That's wonderful, you were meant to be together ❤
Help me please I miss my ex boyfriend so much
@@Randomdeepthinker I’m sorry to hear that. PMDD is no joke. Open communication, trust, and respect is vital to working through this stuff.
What’s wild is that someone that doesn’t have PMDD will think you were faking it or skip through this thinking it was BS. This is very real and I could not relate more. Thank you for posting.
Thanks for this. My girlfriend suffers from PMDD. The more awareness there is about this disorder, the better, both for the women that suffer and the families that live through it. Love y'all.
You’re a nice guy. God bless you both. 🌺.
I have a theory that the pmdd thoughts are your real deep inner suppressed thoughts that you typically can shut down or just never think about. It makes you feel like your holding a mirror to the worst parts of yourself screaming look at it and you can’t look away.
This is exactly what her therapist said to her according to the PMDD interview she did on her boyfriends channel! And yes I feel the same way. It’s like an inner Dementor
Yes i just wrote that exact same feeling on my journal today!🙂🌸 I wrote my deepest and most dark thought that has killed me for ever. And I feel relieved.
Yup that's what I think too. All those shadows come out at the exact time
@@thestruggling This is exactly what it is like. Thank you so much for saying this. Inner Dementor.
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her description is so accurate. it's horrible to deal with every month and trying to manage relationships around it.
I've always had pretty bad PMS but for a few months now it's been full blown PMDD. Panic attacks for no reason. Palpitations for no reason. I'd be happily and normally typing away at work and all of a sudden I start having palpitations, sudden feelings of dread and the need to cry uncontrollably. After a few days my period comes and BAM, I'm okay, as if nothing happened. I'm 30 years old, I never thought I'd start experiencing "new stuff" when it comes to period related things at my age. Infuriating.
32 and I relate to this way too much. I thought I had this stuff figured out by now.
Me too…. I’m 30 and this started happening to me at the same time.
Palpitations are very common with PMS and PMDD. I get them REALLY bad at the same time each month. Usually about a week or so before my period hits. The cause is your hormones. I used to think it was me being anxious, even though I often feel completely calm when the palpitations suddenly jolt me. It's because I AM calm, but the hormones are triggering your adrenaline to kick in inappropriately. That's why it feels like it's coming out of nowhere. Same thing for panic attacks, anxiety attacks and psychosis. Your hormones are triggering different parts of the brain and causing it to go into fight or flight when there's simply no real threat. It's so frustrating :( Oh and the "new stuff" also started happening to me around my early thirties (now 38). And there will be even more new stuff. It feels never-ending.
My pmdd gets me thinking about my past and today I wrote about it.
I guess I am grateful for the pmdd diagnosis that got me to finally get therapy.
I thank pmdd for the motivation to learn about me and to learn to heal, not just cope.
I am 29 years old. And now is the time for me to learn new ways of self care.
I have pmdd and I am a survivor!☺️🌸
Can u please tell me how did u healed urself ....can we treat it permanently. Through ayurvedic medicine
Love the positive vibes. Keep taking care of yourself. Consistent self love and self care are so important in getting through the hard times with PMDD. Survivor power!
Feels like falling off a cliff. I'm able to control rage, but the depression, need to isolate and physical symptoms overwhelm me. I also look awful when it hits. I lose all attractiveness
You are immensely poised and calm! In a full blown episode I feel I have almost no control, I have rage, I cry about everything, and generally feel dead inside. Looking for holistic ways to manage. Thank you for your share
It's really hard at work some days. It's really not fair some people get to be the same person everyday, I'm a different person depending on the day. And sometimes that person is not capable.
It's really hard when you have to parent small children while going through this. I get all this extra guilt on top of everything, because I am not the mom I should be😢
I get it. Totally get it.❤
I started on medication when my daughter was 4 and son was 2. Came off medication recently only to find that I can’t do without it. Props to all you out there who manage without medication!
You’re not alone! I’m a mom of 3 little ones (ages 31/2, 2 and 5 months). Something that helps is forcing myself to listen to positive music and motivational speakers. I get it, though. I’ll get so snappy some days and I KNOW it’s the PMDD and it’s so difficult to control. You got this and talk to your little ones about it. They probably won’t understand but they will forgive.
Going through this right now, which is why I searched for a video about it. The guilt is so intense.
The mood swings are vicious. I will feel fine and snap like a person with different personalities.
I wish I could go on a hiatus when this hits because I am not mentally stable with this. 😢
🥺 (((Hugs)))💞 for a fellow PMDD'er. I can relate.
I find pmdd doesn't need to be diagnosed if one notices how obvious it is.
Like if one feels like punching a wall over and over again, while crying 1-2 weeks before period... that's most likely pmdd. I know I have pmdd because my inner shadow comes out, and it's pretty intense. I'm myself for only 5-10 days before the cycle starts all over.
I have ADHD and just learned yesterday women with ADHD have around a 45% chance of also having pmdd and women with autism have a 90% chance of also having it. I was floored that I did not know this sooner.
Oh wow. I'm impressed with your poise and grace amidst this. I listened to your podcast episode about it and it was a revelation. Thank you for sharing your experience. It is so similar to my own. I'm in the midst of an episode right now and I want to share how it's going. My awareness of the "shadow period" or onset is not as advanced as yours. Suddenly I feel like a different person, or the worst version of me. I work as a cashier and have to talk to people all day (thank God, I am off today and tomorrow) and for the past two shifts it took everything I have in terms of restraint not to be maniacally, fascetiously and sarcastically rude to everyone because of the irritability and rage I felt. Normally I feel a lot of empathy, compassion and understanding for those around me and by contrast I felt little to no empathy for anyone. Just estrangement. I was convinced that all my coworkers were judging me and disliking me. "Fair enough!", I thought. It seemed like everyone was acting warily and coldly in my presence which made me angry, sad and ashamed all at once. By the end of the day I had fallen into a state of this odd combination of meek and cowering defensiveness. I don't know if that makes sense but like you said, every interaction felt threatening. I also felt like I had early onset dementia. I made what felt like 25 errors in one shift and recieved plenty of side-eyes (which both pissed me off and triggered major sadness and disdain for myself). I just wanted to be alone. My boss got upset with me for not following up with a customer about something but I was feeling pulled in multiple directions at once, confused and muddled up about what actions to take- both how and when. It was like I was moving within a slightly different timeline than everyone else. I felt disconnected from theirs and trapped in mine which seemed at odds with everything. I was moving more slowly at times, like there was a lag between my internal commands and external expressions. It felt like a peculiar and disconcerting dream. Today I feel extremely spacey, sad, critical and oddly flat. I've been totally checking out most of the day. I feel like my head is a dandelion puff. I napped in this fevered sort of way mid-day. I've been snapping at my mom for no reason. I told her about PMDD and that I think that's what's happening and she said she had suspected it before (!). Now that I'm aware of the symptoms I am fairly certain. I remember hearing stories of my Grandmother going into periodic rages and spending a week in bed at times and I wonder if PMDD runs in families. I feel discouraged and overwhelmed at the task of figuring out how to deal with this. I can look back and see how it has compromised my academic and professional pursuits and derailed momentum as an artist. (Whine, whine, whine!). Anyway, time to build an arsenal of coping strategies I guess...I just need to get through three or four more days...😳
Thank you so much for taking the time to write this! I feel every single thing you described and you described it all so well.
You are a warrior girl!!! And wow, you are amazing at articulating your experiences!! You should be a writer!!! I hope you're doing okay today. Capitalize on your good days so the guilt isn't so great on the bad days. Lots of love sent to you
Thank you for articulating this.
I think I'm going to send this video to a few close friends and family to show what this is like. I have ADHD and PMDD. I was aware of pmdd for years! But the ADHD was surprising. I was only diagnosed last year for ADHD at age 24. Pmdd seems to have a link with neurodivergence?! Anyway. Nice video! Thank you
i’ve heard that when ur estrogen drops bc ur entering ur period, adhd flares up because estrogen help release dopamine and we already struggle to produce enough of that. so when the estrogen depletes super intensely for pmdd, we have even less dopamine and things spiral from there!
This is a very glamorous version of PMDD. For those who don't have a fancy environment in which to sit beautifully poised for yoga, PMDD will probably look like dishes stacked on the bench, clothes piled on the bed, crying, can hardly string words together because of brain fog, hours or days stretched out on the bed. Or if you're homeless like me with no running water or electricity, you'll be wondering where the next meal is coming from and probably just eating beans out of a can.
Girl I'm so with you, I wish my pmdd looked like this. Mine is a hot mess of anxiety, paranoia, can't bath, can't even get dressed, nevermind doing my hair and make up. Wish I could cope with it as well as she does 😢😔
I'm sorry you are struggling. Stay hopeful honestly life can change. Reach out for help and try not to become discouraged.
Shes filiming so shes presenting a certain way not far to judge how shes like 100% of the time
@@misst1847I was looking to see if anyone else experienced paranoia! It’s horrible! The anxiety that causes is debilitating. No one understands, I felt like I was going crazy and contemplating going into a mental hospital every month. It’s exhausting.
@@bettyspotyeah she is trying to describe it while just had a episode of anger. It would be hard for anyone to do! Kudos to her for trying her best!
I just listened to your episode on Being Well and it has come at such an important time. I've always known something was off hormonally and that I wasn't experiencing just PMS. No doctor would take it seriously. After listening to you, and spending the last few days researching, I have no doubt I suffer from PMDD. I think of the hundreds of times I've called into work the week before my period and now being a full-time student and not being able to complete and hand in assignments on time. I had no real excuses other than I was randomly depressed for the week before my period. You have given me so much insight into how I can better equip myself going forward. I really look forward to your videos and diving deeper into understanding my PMDD and honouring it instead of shaming myself for everything I was failing at during those days. Thank you! 🙏❤️
I’m have PMDD and ADHD. I am struggling really badly. For 2 weeks out of every month I am a complete wreck so much so I can’t track or try to fix anything. Only thing I can do is try to drag myself through the day and avoid people.
Fellow ADHD female here, it's apparently very common for us to have pmdd. It's helpful to even just know you're not alone, it is a completely hellish experience to go through every month. Apparently the pmdd makes ADHD meds less effective as well, it's so hard to cope with. I believe together we can learn how to not just cope with this but thrive with this condition.
@@bethharvey8272 thank you Beth. You are right about the ADHD medication. I kept asking for a higher dose because I thought it just wasn’t working. Even higher dose doesn’t help. I have about a week of normalcy where I try to get things back together and prepare for the cycle to begin again. Knowing I’m not alone helps a lot.
Same situation here and 10 days out of the month I’m just hopeless. Sometimes the lack of being able to focus or complete anything makes me so depressed. Sometimes I just write a list of what I accomplished at the end of the day even if it’s normal things like; made dinner, snuggled my dog, checked a few emails. I’ve noticed that giving myself credit for doing anything during a time when it sometimes feels like you are coaching yourself to just survive, at least makes me feel a little more appreciative of myself. When I feel my PMDD even responding to a text message feels like too much effort! 😢
Same
Hi Elizabeth, I've been watching your videos for some days. The PMDD episode i'm currently living is being my hardest in months, I just want to thank you for all the good info you are giving the community, please keep up with the videos ♥️
This helped me feel better! I started noticing my pmdd flaring up and have never looked for a video like this before. It helped me remember I’ll be ok
This is quite helpful. Thank you so much for showing us how you’re managing this. Perimenopause is kicking my ass and you’re describing everything I’m feeling about twice a month now. It’s so hard to get out of my head and out of bed in order to take in any good. I’m already finding that I’m having to actively stop myself from doom thinking, extreme self criticism, and so much fear - of EVERYTHING. It’s so frustrating because this isn’t who I used to be. It’s terrible and I’m just trying not to allow myself to think about terrible experiences or things I’ve forgotten to do. Shame and guilt are some of the most harmful feelings for me, and it’s about things that aren’t even real, basically. I’m just imagining things way off from what’s actually happening. Thank you for walking through this and explaining the sensations - because it helps me not feel as alone and out of sync with myself and the world.
Thank you so much for this video and all your videos for that matter. I've struggled with PMDD all my life. I'm 40 now. I've been misdiagnosed by so many doctors throughout my life, but I've always knew I had PMDD but didn't know it had a name. It really impacts my life. I'm a mom and a pursuing musician and it greatly impacts me but I'm now learning to manage it and like you said in this video, live with it. Really learning to accept my diagnosis and not fight it anymore, because that makes it worse. The shame and guilt is real, but now I"m letting that go. This diagnosis is not my fault. Anyway, I appreciate you, thank you! Love to you from a sista!
OMG I ALSO HAVE PMDD JUST FOUND YOU TODAY!!! You are such a blessing for me. Please keep making these videos! They are music to my ears.
You are truly making a difference in the PMDD community 🙏
THANK YOU!!!
This happens to me directly after ovulation until I start my period
Me too. Gets better the days before menstruation when most women have PMS
i havent even watched this full video yet and its already so validating. a week and a half before my period I just completely struggle to function. my depression and anxiety get so severe and I have to drag myself out of bed in the morning to go to class and work. the smallest things set me off. it is exhausting to live like this. it's really frustrating when people brush it off as "just PMS."
Your videos on PMDD are some of the most helpful and healing resources I've found on PMDD. Thank you
thank you for sharing your path with pmdd and for being candid. it helps those of us who have been dismissed and teased for what our bodies are living through.
I feel like a lot of people talk about the extreme depression and suicidal ideation of PMDD but not a lot of people talk about the horrific rage, and the fear of that rage and how it might come out and cause damage to your life. Thank you for talking about it
Thank you for being vulnerable and so courageous, and the biggest gratitude from the bottom of my heart for making me feel so much less alone
I cried many times watching this, thank you so much for talking about it, putting all of that chaos into words ❤️☀️
Thank you so much for this. It was like looking into a mirror. I am so grateful for your openness and vulnerability 💖
Thank you for sharing. I just listened to your episode on Being Well and it’s to the tee what I experience. Helping me so much as I go through an episode. So much soul love for you sister ❤️ keep shining
This was the most amazing video I’ve seen on PMDD in my years of researching. I love your method of attuning to your body and not focusing on the thoughts. I’m going to try this method. Thank you so much 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻.
This was incredibly calming and soothing. Thank you. Your energy is a soothing anchor when feeling anxious and overwhelmed /chaotic. Look forward to listening to, learning from, and being grounded by more episodes. Please continue making these
I'm home from work today from this. I can usually manage pretty well with tools/structures - the "do what is best for you" part is SO accurate. Thank you for sharing - It helps a lot to know that other people are able to get through this and maintain a functional existence. You look like you are doing well despite being able to articulate the symptoms of what you are experiencing and it is really encouraging. Thank you!
I am 57 years old and had severe pmdd since my teenage years. When I got menopause I breezed through it and finally felt completely sane all the time and have for the last seven years. It is utter bliss after years after all the years of the complete madness of pmdd.
“It’s not my fault” I completely broken down after you said that. I feel like a bad person trying to go through these emotions, saying hurtful things to the people I love, feeling selfish or self consumed. I feel like it’s my fault. Thank you for sharing
you're amazing! so appreciated. I have pmdd too and this has been helpful for tool info and also to remember I'm not alone. very validating.
Interesting to describe it coming in like a midst. That’s a great metaphor. I was just diagnosed with adhd, PMDD and cptsd. Putting it all together now. Grateful for you sharing your experience.
i dont know if its just me, but everytime theres a loud soud, specially if its a motorbike, i get so angry, and overwhelmed i cry, even sometimes the PMDD is so strong, that my own voice its too much and the soud makes me cry.
You are amazing. Thank you for spreading your experiences and knowledge about that and with that helping all the people suffering from PMDD. We are in this together.
Thank you for sharing your experience. This is exactly how I want to learn to cope with my PMDD. Wishing you all the best.❤
Dear Elizabeth, I also want to thank you for making this video. It is so well explained and SO SO HELPFUL. I am going through an episode, actually the last 3 days have been so bad, that I knew I needed to learn more about coping with it and this video is really insightfull. Since I'm still in it, my inner critic and the part of me that is insecure is telling me I probably won't be able to implement these techniques or be aware of them at the right time or have the capacity and focus to actually remember them when I need to because of the momentum of chaos that have been my PMDD experience the past several years. However, I now know this is untrue and there are ways of going through it and even holding on to your mental focus and not slipping into all the tabs opening in my mind and the shame and helplessness around it. Not to meantion the depression and negative self talk. So, it will probably take a lot of effort but I am very grateful and feel so relieved and reassured from you and your video. I know I am capable and these is still that part of me inside that can do this. Thank you and bless you! This is what helping and changing the world for the better is all about! Lots of love💕✨
You so much for this video! You are letting your PMDD teach you and heal you! That’s what I need to do. I am going to be 48 this year and I just found out last year about PMDD. I have been suffering for so long with it without anyone around me knowing what it was! If they did I wasn’t hearing about it.
Little sisters, Learn this now. I hope you do because, it gets worse during perimenopause. If you know how to cope then you will be OK.
Whaaa, I'm stunned. I'm really struggling with pmdd at the moment. And have taken some time off these last days to cope with it and just sit around at house and relax, but with a small feeling of guilt. Until i watched this video and the one with your boyfriend. There is nothing to feel guilty about when you're spending time with your body..
Thank you for this video. Thank you actually for being so raw in this video, because i recognize some of the behaviors and its weirdly comforting to see this mirrored in another person and now that it is.... Kind of normal.
Ok bye:) long message. Looking forward to your videos 🍒💐🦝
Appreciate you sharing. My wife is experiencing PMDD and watching this was a much better avenue for understanding than bombarding her with questions.
Interesting video, when I was having my worst pmdd episodes I practically lived on the pmdd subreddit. It was so soothing to feel so understood and to bounce different symptoms and sensations off other people who truly got it. It feels like a lifetime ago in some ways because the fog has never been as dense since, however during extra stressful cycles I experience certain symptoms again in waves of differing severity. I have been thinking about pursuing targeted therapy to work through some of the stored trauma I carry in my body following the onset of my severe pmdd. Because I can still feel it inside and it's so heavy.
Seriously. This is basically word for word exactly what I go through every month. I've also had PMDD my entire life and I'm on a similar self-care journey. Gotta manage it or it will rock your world.
I appreciate this so much ❤️ thank you! 🤗💕
I watched your episode on your boyfriends podcast and subscribed to it. Such a great guy 😍, your blessed! But, was so inammerd by your description, personal stories and the way you deal with this condition. It really gave me a completely different aspect of how I can navigate the difficult times so Thank you 🙏😊
omg finally someone else!!! thank you!
Thank you for this video! PMDD makes me feel crazy, but it’s good to know I’m not alone. 💕
Thanks a lot for sharing your personal experience, it helps a lot, I am 35 years old and I have the same thing, I wish you a big recovering!
Thank you..I'm in tears just hearing you because I find so many similarities. I'm new to this diagnosis and I'm trying to see what to do so I'm not feeling this way 10 days out of each month
Thankyou so so much for this! ❤❤❤
PMDD is the most debilitating and lonely struggle that I have gone through so far in my 25 years of life. I have ADHD as well so it’s just very very difficult in general. I have two good weeks and then two weeks of utter misery: my system just completely shuts down and my body genuinely cannot deal with life anymore. The days leading up to my period and even at the onset of my period, I stop washing my face, brushing my teeth, taking a shower. I just keep SLEEPING. Even when I’m awake I just keep thinking about sleeping. Excessive sleep is most likely my body’s way of coping with PMDD episodes. It’s a very scary thing. I truly feel I can never be a fully functioning and participating individual in society with this illness.
I wish someone with AD(h)D would show their raw experience of being in a PMDD episode, because I'm sorry, but this video does not truly show anything other than that she's still able to function physically by getting out of bed, showering, do her hair & makeup and not be a blubbering crying mess. By not showing the rawness of being in the throws of a PMDD episode, and just talking about it, in no way gives credibility to those who actually suffer through this disorder.
thank you for sharing. i watched this to get some understanding of what a friend may be experiencing.
Thank you so much for sharing and your willingness to be vulnerable with this. I have been struggling with PMDD so terribly lately and watching your videos has been soothing and helpful. Do you ever feel exhausted from mentally having to constantly ground yourself when you're coming into an episode?
That chest tightness and word search. I see you, sister.
Your eyes move like mine. It's like you're in a different world. Thank you for sharing this. I always feel so stupid and dramatic, like I'm just over reacting, but this is really what it is like.
I'm so glad I found this channel.
thank you for this video I spent the last two days in bed depressed completely hopeless
i hate the foggy stage 😞😞😞😞
Thank you for sharing this. I've always felt something extremely wrong than that just of a simple "PMS" thing.. my anger would be on another level and my depression just heightens so much that it leads to... *TW* S ideology. It is frustrating to deal with because I just can't understand these emotions and have a hard time talking to others normally and grounding myself. All of this makes so much sense thank you.
I'm in my PMDD phase today and my body is very uncomfortable, I feel like I've gained 3-4 kgs In a week and I have this weird feeling of not being happy in my body like if I could I would've get out of my physical body... I have this rage, shame and disgust about everything and I don't wanna talk about it either and I hate my good features and I wanna cry all the time and I wanna scream but also I wanna be invisible.... It is not like that every month but when it's the most intensive, it feels like that.... Of course the bloathing and other physical symptoms included.
I can so relate to this. I'm feeling exactly like this today and I have to stay late at work for meetings and I feel so uncomfortable.
This is so helpfull. Thank you for this.
Your description is exactly what I am going through right now, 1st of my day Periode seems the peak of this pmdd thing. I am a nerve wrack right now cant do anything physically and mentally, also can not really relax.
I know it will be better tomorrow.
I thought I might have something like bipolar disorder cause the transformation of my persona can be so extrem sometime. Never had a clue that it could have something to do with my cicle.
Thank you for your video!
I actually think one of the best things to do for yourself when PMDD symptoms hit is to just sit and talk it out as they are happening, just like you're doing in this video. It can really help you channel your focus into REFLECTING on all of the symptoms rather than having to just sit with them alone, which can be incredibly overwhelming and stressful. This is why I try to tell my boyfriend when my symptoms are happening. Whatever the sensations are, and there can be a lot of scary, confusing ones, if I can just sit with him and he lets me talk it through (sometimes he can't always, like if he's working) it helps so much. Especially when psychosis hits. That is one of the most traumatizing ones for me. I also can recognize when the rage and irritability are there, and I'll calmly let him know. It takes time and practice to just remove yourself from the symptoms and kind of watch them from a distance. But once you're able to do that, and if you can have the right outside support, it makes a world of difference. Thank you for sharing your experience
Thank you so much for this video
I get a tingling, nervous pain in my lower back & I know it's starting all over again. And that hand thing you were doing I will actually do that in my sleep & wake up in the middle of it. This disorder is a lot to manage. Thank you so much for sharing. ✨
Is this what embodiment practice is? Wow I have never come across a more helpful video as a woman than to see this kind of practice in action and spoken about. Bless you!
Thank you for trying to show and explain what pmdd is. It is horrible at times.
Thank you so much for sharing your experience and advice. The last few years have been such a struggle with my PMDD. I only have one week of freedom from PMDD. Two weeks of PMDD and one week of my period 😞😞!! My one week of freedom is me trying to take advantage of it and catching back up on life.
Thank you so so so much.❤❤❤❤❤
Ouch. This is definitely what I have been avoiding acknowledging, respecting.
I’m so glad you’re talking about this and you are very brave to do so. 💕💕Currently going through this:(
My only concern is how can you practice this when you’re busy or at work??
And is this sustainable long term?
I feel u girl thanks for this
This is so me. Any tips when you’re at work?! The worst kind of distraction, especially when I’m in the meetings.
Thanks for sharing. I've been living the last 10 years with PMDD without realising it. I was self medicating with Canabis, but I was still dropping in depressive episodes periodically without realising what was triggering it. I wish this didn't exist...
This really helped me..
My PMDD is so bad this month and I was barley holding it together today and it’s been hell.. you feel like you’re going crazy and spending is so f*cked up with you
You are so beautiful❤Thank you so much for sharing. I've been struggling with this for at least a few months now, possibly even years without realizing it. I really enjoy how you're showing us some really helpful grounding techniques. For me, my mind is all ready like a tornado, because I'm autistic (possibly ADHD as well) and have a VERY hard time not ruminating on the same crappy thoughts over and over again, so this PMDD is like a tornado on steroids inside my mind (a hurricane I guess) and it's gotten so bad recently that I couldn't stop thinking about unaliving myself. It's been really terrifying lately. I have a two for one deal now, because the same hormones that caused PMDD, (⬆estrogen and ⬇progesterone) I strongly feel caused me to have fibrocystic breasts. (there's no real connection usually, this is just my experience) I found two painful cysts inside my left breast, (noncancerous🙏) during what I now know was a PMDD episode. I'm still upset about it, because my breasts were the only part of my body that consistently made me feel really wonderful about myself, and now the lumps make me feel sick to my stomach every time I just want to enjoy myself and hurt whenever touched, and it 's been hard not feeling horrible about myself because of how I've been feeling in my body. I will be getting them aspirated on Wednesday, so hoping that will help me feel better about my body at least. It now makes sense why I still felt horribly depressed even after I found out I didn't have cancer. It's been reeking havoc on my life and passion to create art. (I am an oil painter) I'm going to do some gardening outside to see how I feel. My heart goes out to anyone going through this. this is NOT EASY! and don't let anyone tell you otherwise and invalidate how you feel in any way ❤🫂
Omg this truly helped me and i truly dont feel alone anymore with how i feel 😢 thank you so much for this video!
I think we are all hoping you make some more of these videos!
It is a living nightmare. Luckily for me I had responded well to birth control pills. I wish i could go off it but they work so well for me. I wish everyone could have that response.
What kind do you take?
I used to think it helped me but now it doesnt. Is it bec i dont take it at the same time?
Hi can you please share your experience about when did u started and do you have to take them for the whole month.
Thx for this xx
I think I just figured out what is wrong with me.
I have been trying to figure out what is wrong with me for years.
Physical exhaustion, mental fog, body pain, headaches, and I turn into an absolute mental case. I am aware of what's happening while it's happening, my anger, paranoia, anxiety, the thoughts that I don't want to be alive, snapping on people over everything, I call it raging, or a storm in my head, or the barreling freight train because I get so full of this negative rage anger anxiety paranoid sensitive energy that I have no control over my mood swings and what I say or how I act towards other people.
There is no stopping it until it runs out of steam, then I'm just exhausted and devastated at all the damage I caused so easily in such a short amount of time.
I just started realizing that my physical and mental symptoms are coinciding with my period every month. It's taken me years to realize this. Thinking I have thyroid disease and am mentally ill. What you are describing and the symptoms fit me to the T every single symptom.
I'm going to get help with this.
I could have written this myself.
Same
I just had my estrogen and progesterone tested yesterday. Will get results in a week but feel like im fully in it. I have a hard time dealing being with myself by myself but have a hard time being around others. I cannt control my thoughts and feelings. Not being able to control your emotion and feelings over just miniscule interactions and feeling like everyone hates me cause of this issue. I get told i just want to live the easy life when in reality i have to deal with extreme anxiety and feeling completely burntout physically, mentally and emotionally cannot handle being who i am and then SI happens because your like please just stop the suffering.
Everybody def presents differently but funny how we experience the best to the worst at times. Planning ahead and being able to re attune yourself to different environments seems so crucial.
I just got a yes from my 10th obgyn to actually get a hysterectomy with removal of my fallopian tubes and overies. I've been going to doctors for over 10 years trying to get help with PMDD. I also have PCOS.
PMDD has robbed me of jobs, relationships, and living a normal life. Even meditation and fitness doesn't work. This surgery is a very major, life altering surgery that is now the end all, say all of ever having my own children. But to be honest, the mental health issues I have I would never want to pass on genetically. I would love to foster or adopt if given the chance.
It's so incredibly sad to look back at all the years of medical gaslighting I went through. Mostly by female doctors. I've even walked out of doctors offices mid visit because those who didn't even know me told me I didn't have PMDD. I truly hope that one day I can find a way to be a voice for PMDD suffers and help women get the help they so desperately need.
How did this turn out? I’m scheduled October 26 for a full hysterectomy. Did you have everything removed?
Not sure if this has been covered already, but taking Omega 3 fish oil has been life changing for me (specifically one with a higher EPA to DHA ratio. I have found that I no longer have the suicidal ideation and mind chatter when taking this
Taking magnesium has helped me but sometimes the symptoms persist so I will try this too thank you!!!
@@yourgardengem Magnesium is also great. I find it helps me feel less stressed whereas the fish oil makes me less sad/depressed
Had the worst episode since before antidepressants. Not sure why but it’s still going 4 days into the cycle. I’m so tired :(
I appreciate this video because I’ve been crying for the last 3/4 hrs and been in a zombie like state and not wanting to talk. And the thoughts in my head have just been so terrible that they made me feel bad. I even said and thought like who is this? This can’t be me this is so terrible yet I don’t wanna be bothered ughh idk it’s just a lot rn 😩🤦🏽♀️😔
And I just recently found out about this and I feel it’s been going on with me for a while now so I still haven’t quite found a way to cope fr (sighs) 😔🤦🏽♀️
Had a thought. I know it might lengthen the video a bit more, but I think people would benefit from seeing you take your pauses (3:04), rather than just editing to the next time you speak. I think it might help for people to actually see what it looks like (and how long it takes) for you to take your breaths, and eventually collect yourself. :)
I know exactly what your talking about really hard to explain you must be experiencing what your explaining to understand!
I would recommend taking vitex agnus castus and primrose evening oil, both have helped me a lot!!
I also have PMDD, something that I have been doing recently that has helped A LOT is a daily tai chi practice